#This is my favourite eruri art from now on

[smallblip]

i hate you . why must you make me cry AGAIN from 4-5 AM in the morning. is this our yearly ritual. i cannot stop singing praises of how great you write . it sounds like prose, like honey dipped in butter, it reminds me of lana but better . your every reiteration / reincarnation of that 132 scene (+ the sexy sad eruri) is more painful than the last . PLEASE STOP (don't ever stop). you write so TERRIBLY PAINFUL and visceral you wound me for days !!!! i will literally not be thinking of anything else except the newfound hurt you've given me!!! i thought we've explored every inch of angst these past 3 years but NO. everytime you make me discover something new to be sad about. was RIP paradise and i see rivers not enough???? why was it so deliciously angsty and ephemeral. you have forever changed my life and because of you i cannot read books anymore 😭😭 may your days always be blessed, smallblip

Levi wants to reach over and tuck the loose strands of hair behind her ear. Later. He tells himself. Next time. 

LEVI LISTEN TO ME THERE'S NO NEXT TIME. DO IT NOW

And yet, his heart flutters at the unfamiliar feeling of being someone’s favourite. Like the taste of something that agrees with your system so wholly they form a pact- you will always, always, always come first. 

you've deliciously encapsulated what's so magical about their dynamic, oh my god

After all, an Ackermgan always, always seeks out what’s his. And with Hanji, he knows he’ll never search again. 

WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS. liquid tears rolled down my cheeks that I've been trying to stop, i hate you so much, i am utterly wretched and irreperable

I'm sorry for the long comment, but you are a gift to this world. You must know how much I cherish your writing, thank you so much I'm going to cry myself to sleep now

OMG EXCUSE ME ANYAREIN! I LOVE YOUR ART WTF! 😭💖 you are a gift to this world!

And please please please don’t apologise for your comment! It made my *year* seriously I’m on my knees at the Lana comment because!!!! I’m so so happy you enjoyed hehe☹️💖 you quoting my fic back to me made me die😭 I am also happy you enjoyed sad sexy eruri! Sad and sexy is what I aim for… always…

I don’t know what I did to deserve this comment but I’m dying! I cannot get through reading this without screaming. Also I’m sorry the reply took so long! I had this in my inbox and I wanted the reply to be perfect coz this was the sweetest thing and I don’t think I could ever do it justice! 😭

[lostcauses-noregrets]

Hey Lost!! I'm not sure if anyone has asked you this yet but what are your favourite works of yours? I personally love HMS Maria so much. If you also know any other historical eruri fics just as good, please recommend me!!

Hey Anon, I'm glad you enjoyed HMS Maria. I had a lot of fun writing it, but it got a bit out of hand and ended up being a lot longer than I originally intended.

It's really hard to choose my favourite fic because I love so many of them for very different reasons. I adore HMS Maria because it combines my two fandom obsessions; Eruri and Age of Sail. I even re-used parts of my old Hornblower fics in it, and there are a few details in the story that are lifted directly from historical records. Cardamom I love because it reminds me of my long-gone friend birbwin who write the first 100 words and because parts of it are based on my own experience of working as an archaeologist in Jordan in the early 1990s. Sealskin is special to me because it's inspired by the islands where I grew up, and it's as much a love letter to those islands as it is to Eruri. There are so many canonverse fics that have a special place in my heart because they were written as the manga was ongoing and many were an immediate visceral response to each chapter release. Then there are all the fics I wrote for, and in some cases about (!), very dear friends, fics that have been painstakingly translated into other languages, fics that have inspired and been inspired by beautiful art. And last but not least there's The Permanence of the Young Men, which was the culmination of all my thoughts and feelings about the series when the manga finally came to an end. It's also my attempt to draw Levi's story to its obvious and long awaited conclusion. Writing Eruri fics has brought me so much joy (and pain) over the last seven years, I'm eternally grateful for this ship and all the friends I've met through it.

As for other historical Eruri fics, I have a little rec list here: Historical AUs. This is quite an old list now, and it's just a small sample of the 228 Eruri fics on AO3 tagged Alternative Universe Historial which you can explore here: Eruri Historical AUs.

[troublemoi]

Dear Eruri Fandom, 

As I am typing right now, I am still drunk from New Year's Eve but I still wanted to wish you all a Happy New Year.  It's been a hectic year, full of challenges, uncertainties and painful moments. I have been in the Eruri fandom for a few years and now, more than ever it helps me find comfort and joy in these times. I have been rereading a lot of my favourite fics during this year and some fantastic new ones. Thanks to all the authors contributing to the fandom with their amazing pieces and to all other artists helping Eruri come to life through their art.

Also, thanks to my readers. I am grateful for all the support and comments I got from my writing. You don't know how much joy it brings me to know that so many people care about my stories.

I couldn't write a lot lately but be sure that this year I am still going to contribute to this fandom. I have a lot of ideas that I can't wait to bring to life.

Thank you. I wish you all the best for this new year.

TroubleMoi 

(Hitomi) 

[skrivarmelodi]

Now AOT is over...

So, I read the final chapter of Attack On Titan and there are a lot of thoughts and feelings. But overall I'm pleased with the whole story and the ending. I trusted Isayama and he didn't disappoint me.

There are certain things I'd like to go into detail about Levi, Ymir, Mikasa, Eren etc and certain moments during the story.

So if anyone cares here we go. (warning, this got long and contains spoilers for chapter 139 and obviouisly the whole story!)

First, Ymir Fritz, Eren, and Mikasa.

The more we got to know Ymir, the more we knew about her circumstances and how it all started, the more I asked myself, why she doesn’t simply stop all of the misery, if she can and, obviously, has the power to do so (chapter 122).

I thought, perhaps, because she loves King Fritz so much, after all, she sacrificed herself in order to protect him (which I didn’t like at all, because he was a shitty person). But then I wasn't sure if Isayama would use 'love' in such a way. He did and it's nothing new but it's something we can all understand. Love is good, but it can also be something bad, something toxic, and Ymir was most likely a slave of her own feelings because she didn't know better. Her life was miserable until she got the power to become a Titan and gave birth to the daughters of the king. But as you can see, at the beginning of chapter 122 she watches a couple getting married and that was what she wanted too. To be loved. This was the love she knew and the love she protected and believed that was true love (most likely) because she didn't know a different kind of love.

When Eren told her, that she can decide and asked her to give him the power he needs, it didn’t sit well with me. I guess because I never connected Eren to have any romantic feelings (though I guessed so much when it comes to Mikasa and he simply wanted to be cool or something). But AOT in itself doesn’t display love in the way we usually see, that became very clear to me with each new chapter. And love is not the first thing that comes to my mind when I think about AOT.

Now about Eren.

Oh boy, look at that. When Eren slowly became the villain I liked the idea but at the same time I was questioning it. It simply made no sense to me why he would want to kill everyone and yet care so deeply about his friends. Also, Isayama is not that sort of person to let his characters act out of character. Whatever the characters I agreed with it because that was how Isayama created them. That's why, when it came out that Eren was able to see the past, present, and future, I thought he probably saw a way to stop all of this and protect his friends. Isayama played us good, when Eren was rude towards Mikasa and Armin and then the rumbling came, but I constantly thought 'No, there must be more to it'. And yeah, Eren saw a possible future because everything was unclear to him and he grabbed that chance and took it.

Remember in the first season, when Eren, Levi, and Levi's squad were fighting against the female titan and that Eren has to decide what he should do and what not? That he has to accept the consequences? Yeah, Eren did that and he knew it was bad but it was the way he believed in and saw, even if it meant to kill 80% of humanity (what the...) and sacrifice his own life. I don't see Eren as a hero nor as a villain. But he definitely acted on his own free will and accepted the consequences.

Now about Mikasa.

Well, I'll be honest, I was never a fan of Mikasa. I didn't like how she was solely focused on Eren and didn't seem to have her own goals that were not connected to Eren. I simply didn't like that and Eren wasn't my favourite either, but I love their development. The moment I started to feel sorry for her was when Eren said he hated her. You see, I get it, I understand why Mikasa is the way she is and I'm simply no fan of this 'I do everything for you, fuck everyone else' especially not in a world like AOT, I also understand the Ackermann Bond (I ship Eruri after all). So I was really pissed at Eren to stomp on her feelings like that because, no matter how much I like or dislike a person, you don't treat them the way Eren did (also toward Armin). From that moment on, I enjoyed her development and when she cut off Eren's head I was sad and happy for her.

So, in many ways, Mikasa is like Ymir, or rather, Ymir is like Mikasa, but on a whole different level. Mikasa, who devoted herself to Eren, just like Ymir did to King Fritz, saw that what he was doing was wrong and she decided to stop him. She loves him still, of course, but she was able to do what Ymir couldn't and she did it for the greater good. Because there is more than Eren, there are more people who deserve to live. I did like that and also that her action was the eye-opener for Ymir. It doesn't change the way Mikasa feels about Eren, and that's okay, but she was willing to kill the person she loves more than anything because it was the right thing to do. Ymir simply couldn't do what Mikasa did because she didn't know better.

About Levi, Erwin's death, Armin saving humanity, Berthold wasn't supposed to die, and just some thoughts about AOT in general.

Now, I do ship Levi and Erwin together and I was sure Levi would die and meet Erwin in the afterlife and then Isayama would out them (haha). But I'm just happy that Levi survived and is now the adopted uncle of Gabi and Falco. He's my favorite character and a lot of things would have ended badly without him. For me, he and Erwin and their squad represented not only a strong force and saviours but also how you probably have to be in order to survive/handle a world like AOT.

So I was shocked, at first, when Levi saw Erwin and the others because I thought he would die, but when the tear ran down his cheek, I could feel how everything fell of his shoulders. Levi never cried, never had time to mourn his comrades because he understood the world they were living in and that he needed to keep on moving. I never considered him as someone cold because he clearly wasn't. But he also never cried and seeing that... finally. And I'm sure he cried some more after everything. I thought he would cry (he was close to though and perhaps did when he was alone) when Erwin died because that fucking broke him.

Their relationship fascinated me even before I started to ship them but it broke my fucking heart when Erwin died too.

And here we come to the part about Armin and Bertholg.

I was so pissed that Armin survived and even more when things just became worse. I thought, in AOT, you can't solve everything through talking. It worked during certain critical moments, yes, but it simply isn't the main key for everything when it comes to the world of AOT.

So, I never understood why Armin had to survive and not Erwin and it became more and more confusing for me as the story continued because Armin, clearly, is not Erwin and he doesn't have what Erwin has. I don't know if things would have been better with Erwin being in charge, but he would have definitely done something while Armin didn't know what to do. Sure, he is younger than Erwin, doesn't have the experience as Erwin does and in his core he is very different, and that's totally fine. Armin is fine the way he is, but during the story. I constantly found myself thinking: 'With Erwin and his mind, we wouldn't be in such a situation'. I once read somewhere that Levi and Erwin are too smart to be fooled by, for example, Yelena. I can't help but agree.

And today, when I read the final chapter and Eren said 'Berthold wasn't supposed to die on that day' and also, that he couldn't see the past and future as separated paths but everything at once I thought, that this is Isayama giving us his version but there are also many many other ways this story could go. Which is, for me, such a sweet and grateful message. We are free to choose our path (fanfiction/fanart etc) and to create a different story, but this AOT version is his version and how he imagined it, or rather, how Eren saw one possible happy end.

I'm still certain with Erwin around things would have been different, better even, but I understand Eren too. I guess, he didn't only choose Armin because he knew things would have a happy ending for his friends. He also choose Armin because of personal feelings. I wonder what would have happened if Berthold survived, was there also a happy end but without Armin? And perhaps without the rumbling? I think it's nice that Isayama did this and that he, basically, points at a different way but it's up to us.

Now, the rumbling is over and so is the power of the titans and in such a world, someone like Armin is the right person to be in. Now it's all about talking, having a proper conversation, creating relationships through words. Don't get me wrong, I'm sure Erwin would have been able to do that as well, but Armin is much more diplomatic than Erwin because he doesn't want to fight or kill, it's really the last option for him. Erwin on the other hand wouldn't hesitate, and someone like him was important for the world before the rumbling was over.

Now some general thoughts about AOT now that it's over.

Okay, so, I watched tons of Anime when I was a teenager and the best thing for me was Death Note. But after Death Note I found nothing that really interested me and a lot of weird stuff. I don't know, it simply wasn't for me. However, I continued reading my yaoi Mangas and even studied Japanese for a year. Then, I did hear about Attack on Titan but I was so used to shitty Anime that I thought it would be shitty too (the next best thing I found was Yuri on Ice). However, a friend of mine gave me the first season and I thought, well, why not. I was so wrong and through AOT I found my way back to Anime.

It's not just the story, not just the art-style I like, it's Isayama and his brain I enjoy so much. I'm a very logical person and I like it when stories and things make sense and are connected from the beginning till the end and when it never feels forced but natural, true, loyal to the characters and the world they created. I don't know how he does it but I'm so grateful for AOT and that he decided to share this amazing story with us (even though it was fucking painful and my poor Levi). It's really been a while for me to find a story that caught me like Death Note did many years ago.

So, ありがとう、Isayama-San!

But I'd love to know more about the Ackermans and Levi and perhaps we'll get a book like Answers etc later. That would be great.

[sithiere]

5 things

@sensitive-eruri tagged me - aw, thanks!! <3

5 things you'll find in my bag: -A notebook and/or a sketchbook -My little plush bear (to be on photos instead of me) -Pens/Pencil -My purse -Probably my lego batman (I'm a responsible adult, important pillar of our society)

5 things you'll find in my room: -Stuffed animals. Lot's of them. -(Half-finished) drawings and all the supplies -My figurines - Now mostly Levi and my dragons and some lego characters -Random shit. Like, feathers, pineal, yewellery, cinema tikets. I never throw away anything. -Clothes. Every. Where.

5 of my favourite things: -People I love - family and friends. -Art. Every kind. -Chilling and sleeping. -Feeling powerful. Not over somebody, just in myself. Directly connected to this is my long black coat, flowing after me and powerful music. (is this cheating, the 3 things?) -Meeting amazing people. Someone who yells after me bc I dropped my purse again or someone who reaches out with kindness because why not, on the street or here. (corny, right?)

5 things I'm currently into: -Feeling good in my skin. It sounds stupid, but I feel better than I've had in the last 2 years and it's amazing. -Creating. Anything. Growing during it. -Social media. From which I should take back, a lot. -Working on my issues with relationships. -Trying to work on what I want to do next.

5 things on my to-do list: -Find a new job I can do beside school and not kill myself with. -Finish my schoolwork. -Finish some of the art projects I've been doing. -Write back to a friend I've been neglecting. -Read something other than fanfics. I think either Shakespeare or Gaiman.

I have no idea who's been tagged, but talking about relationships and reaching out, so @anikofromearth , @thefangirlingdead , @baras-and-bishies , @absolute-eruri-trash , @attacking-those-pesky-kyojins (That's five. Yay.) - please do it if you feel up to it! I would love to read your answers :)

[erurilicious]

Tag game

I’ve been tagged by @ladymacbethsspot​ and @thebritishteapot​, thank you, ladies!

what’s your favourite song(s) to sing/hum? Whatever song I’m currently obsessed with. I’m listening to quite a few songs on repeat lately, but I didn’t catch myself humming along yet.

what are your favourite flower/tree/plant (all 3 or whatever you have an answer to) Lilac (too bad it only blooms for a week or so) Magnolia (same thing as above) Wisteria

favourite colour(s)? Purple, but I grew really fond of mint/turquoise shades lately.

what do you always doodle (if you ever do) Eruris or cute girls, there is no in between.

how do you take your coffee/tea? If you don’t like those what’s your fav warm drink? Yikes, no coffee, please! Tea without anything added. I love hot chocolate, chai latte and instant caramel cappuccino too.

favourite candle scent? I prefer unscented candles.

sunrise or sunset? I’m never awake before sunrise, so sunset it is. Also IF the sun is shining in winter, I can watch the sunset from my window.

what perfume do you wear if any? I’ve never been a big fan of perfumes. If I put on any during my teen years I liked The Armani Code, Elle (this one smelled like sunscreen to me and always reminded me of summer) and City Glam from Armani.

what’s your go to dance move when you’re alone? The wannabe seductive hip wave to the left and right or circling them like an 8.

favourite quote? Ninety percent of the art of living consists of getting along with people you cannot stand. - Samuel Goldwyn

“What a man”, “I promised him” and "All right… It looks like you have something that I lack. Until I know what that 'something' is, I'll go with you" are nice ones too though ;)

favourite self care thing(s) or routine(s)? A nice hot bath on the weekend.

fuzzy socks or house slippers? House slippers and normal socks.

what colour are your eyes? Some moss or olive green with a ring of brown around the pupil.

what’s your favourite eye colour on others? A pure, bright green (not so muddy like mine lol)

favourite season? why? Summer, I just can’t stand the cold and dark.

cheek, neck or nose kisses? Neck kisses when I’m in the mood.

what does your happy place look like? My bed X”D With lots of pillows and all my plushies :B

favourite breed of dog? Corgis!!! Also Huskies and I’m fond of Dachshunde too :3

do you ever want to be married? If so what colours would you pick for your wedding theme? I don’t want to marry. If the right one asked however I’d prefer no party at all. My family and maybe a friend or two could come to the registry office though.

silk or lace? Lace if I have to choose.

favourite weather? Sunny, 25°C and a soft breeze every now and then.

I’m pretty sure everyone got tagged at this point, but I tag @erwinsalive @acrknowyou and @sugardaddyerwinsmith

[ladymacbethsspot]

Questions for AO3 writers:

I was tagged by @erurink and @kaguneko , thank you both (this is long but I’ll do my best to not make it unreadable).

I’m going to tag @zedsdead1001 @ackbang and @erurifluff .

1. How did you come up with your username and what does it mean?

It’s a literary allusion from Shakespeare’s Macbeth . Because I’m a dork. Lady Macbeth has a famous line, “Out, damn’d spot! Out, I say”. When she says this she’s basically being way too insightful for her own good.

2. Which fanfic of yours has the most feedback? (bookmarks/subscriptions/hits/kudos)

A Place Up North has the most hits/bookmarks/kudos at 601 / 7 / 47 - unsurprising as this is very traditional porn. But the highest hits/kudos ratio is Everyone’s Wingman. The most subs is my ficlet/drabble thing, with 5 (but it’s my only “multichap” work).

3. What is your AO3 profile icon, and why did you choose it?

It’s the same as my Tumblr icon. It’s a little bit from a Takashi Murakami painting that I just really love. His art style is wild and shocking.

4. Do you have any regular/favourite commenters?

I don’t think so? If I do I’m so sorry that I haven’t figured it out yet.

5. Is there a fanfic that you keep going back to read again and again?

Audacity by Shoi (amazing)

Perfect Fit by Zeds_Dead (porn haha)

6. How many stories are you subscribed to? How many do you have bookmarked?

None. I’m subbed to 5 authors though and I read pretty much anything they write.

7. Which AU do you find yourself writing the most?

Modern AU, non-reincarnation. I love canonverse for drabbles and ficlets though, the emotions are really raw.

8. How many people are subscribed and bookmarked to you in total? (you can view this on the stats page)

4 user subs, 6 other subs, 23 bookmarks - it’s not that exciting really.

9. Is there something you’d like to write about but are afraid of people judging you for it? (Feeling brave? If so, share it!)

HAHAHAHA, no. Everything I write is embarrassing, I have no shame. I’ve got a tentacle thing in the works. So, yeah, fight me.

10. Is there anything you would like to be better at? Writing certain scenes or genres, replying to comments, updating better, etc.

Everything? Is that an answer? Other than that I’d love to write something that is a real multichap instead of long oneshots.

11. Do you write rarepairs or popular ships more often?

So far I only write Eruri, so popular ships. I’ve been thinking about Akira/Ryuji from p5 though...maybe.

12. How many stories have you posted on AO3 to this day (finished and unfinished)?

7

13. How many stories do you have saved in/with your writing program?

Things I’m actively working on: 3. Things I have like a paragraph and and outline for: 2. Things I have a vague idea for...many- 15?

14. Do you write down story ideas, or just keep them in your head?

Yes. I like to let ideas stew in my head for a while but I tend to write down key parts as I figure them out. Other than that, I’m very intense about outlining once I have an idea set.

15. Have you ever co-authored a story?

No, I think it would be difficult but a fun challenge.

16. How did you discover AO3?

I got back into reading fanfiction when I started shipping Eruri, and AO3 is the place. I think I may have discovered it while trying to understand wth omegaverse is (kids these days). In sum: I’m old and gross and I don’t care.

17. Do you consider yourself to be a popular or famous author in your fandom(s) on AO3?

Again, HAHAHAHA, no. I just started writing maybe 1.5 months ago. I’m really very new at it all. But I’m having fun, both with writing and exploring the fandom, so I’m quite pleased with it either way.

18. Do you have a nickname or fandom name for your readers?

Is this a thing?

19. Was there an author who inspired or encouraged you to write?

Ahem, (kaguneko), ahem. Their style is so unique- it’s nothing like my own, but it’s a joy to read and got me thinking that I could probably write things too since they didn’t need to be this huge many-chapter commitment to be fun. Honestly though, the Eruri fandom has a lot of amazing writers and I have a particular soft spot for writers with a sense of humor (Asexual_ravioli and RatFlavored for instance), so they all inspire me constantly.

20. What writing advice would you give to a beginning author?

Doooooo it. Do the thing. 

21. Do you plot out your stories, or do you just figure it out as you go?

I outline a lot, even with porn. Especially with porn. I’m kind of obsessive about getting the visual in my head conveyed faithfully. Figuring things out as I go along is fine for shorter stuff though, anything under 2k words I tend to do that way.

22. Have you ever gotten a bad comment on a story? If so, what did you do?

Not yet. Honestly, I can’t imagine why anyone would care enough to leave a bad comment on my works. It would be admitting that you read them (haha).

23. Is there a certain type of scene that you have a hard time writing? (action, smut, etc..)

I’m most comfortable with silly banter and porn, so things like action I haven’t even attempted yet.

24. What story(s) are you working on now?

Tentacle stuff. Also, something more ambitious that I don’t want to talk about.

25. Do you plan your next project(s) before you finish your current ongoing story(s)?

Yes. Doesn’t everyone? There are a lot of fun ideas, how could I possibly stick to just one?

26. Do you have a daily writing goal set for yourself?

No, but I probably should. I’m a real life adult so I write when I can.

27. Do you think you’ve improved as a writer since you first started?

Again, I just started writing so it’s hard to make an assessment. However, I do feel like it’s easier to get into the swing of it than when I first started and I’m getting a little quicker and less indecisive.

28. What is your favorite story that you’ve written?

I don’t know, I like all the drabbles/ficlets best, honestly. I like the ficlet entitled Meet Ugly: 1 Star Review which is buried in my multichapter ficlet/drabble thing.

29. What is your least favorite story that you’ve written?

I don’t dwell on these things, so just pick whatever porn of mine you hated most- that’s my least favorite.

30. Where do you see yourself (as a writer) in 5 years?

I honestly have no idea if I’ll still be writing in 5 years, but it would be fun and I’d hope to have grown in that amount of time as a writer. If I’m still writing I hope future-me has written something longer than 40k words (with chapters)!

31. What is the easiest thing about writing?

Getting ideas for more porn.

32. What is the hardest thing about writing?

Accepting that said porn is no longer hot once you’ve stared at it for hours.

33. Why do you write?

I haven’t really had a creative outlet for about ten years, so I write for myself. It’s a fun stress reliever and it gets me thinking in a very different way than my work does. I’ve also got lots of wild ideas for the frick frack, so that’s probably my ulterior motive.

[kittyboo8015]

Tag Game

Hi! I was tagged by @tsukinoyoukai to answer these 11 questions (Thanks so much for tagging me!❤️❤️❤️) I have been tagged in several of these and I hope to get around to them soon but work eats slot if my time now XD so please bear with me 😓 I figured I could answer some fun Eruri questions since it’s my favorite topic lol

1. Does Levi brings tea to Erwin each night? or sometimes he forgets? I think he does it often especially after a mission but the tea is for Levi and Erwin will drink liquor. 2. Levi’s favourite Erwin’s body’s part? Tiddies! (And that monster cock XD )

3. Erwin’s favourite Levi’s body’s part? I want to say his nose because I absolutely adore art if Erwin kissing Levi’s nose. I die every time because I love that cheesy stuff. (Also dat ass or maybe that’s me XD)

4. Eruri’s relationship is Romantic or wild? I think both depending on the situation. Erwin being more on the romantic side, Levi being more wild..I think.

5. Who knew about Erwin’s and Levi relationship? I mean in the SC, Maria, Rose, Sina Walls… who really knew about them? (What? I think Shadis knew) Mike for sure, Hange and Moblit. I think Nile as well. 
.
 6. Favourite genre of fanfiction? I’ve been reading more canon lately but I still am a sucker for domestic au and I may have a thing for cop au (Officer Erwin just hnnngh ) and Vampires (Especially Vampire!win @kaguneko Cough cough…j/k )

7. Your personality, how would you describe it? or if you feel uncomfortable with that question: Chatting face to face or via computer? or both? I’m not quite sure how to describe me lol Everybody seems to think I am cute for some reason 🤣 I have a filthy mind though ahahaha you have no idea..unless you’ve talked to me before XD I prefer computers or texting because I hate the sound of my voice (I seriously think I sound like Applejack from MLP XD)

8. Cold or Hot weather? Cold. My hair is a fuzzball in heat and I get sunburns 😡

9. Favourite eruri fanfiction!? (sorry, I am always looking for something to read). I read so many and I can’t just choose one or fit them all here lol

10. Finally, in Eruri’s relationship, who is your top and bottom? or are they dynamic? (for me they are dynamic, Erwin is the gentle top and bottom, Levi is more aggressive).

I think they switch often. I have a thing for Bottomwin but I like both! I definitely think Erwin is more slow and gentle and Levi a little more aggressive but I think tipsy Erwin might surprise Levi lol

I really need time to think of some questions because I have to get ready for work but I promise I will try to get to the other questions I’ve been tagged in and contribute my own soon! Thank you! ❤️

[ketsalistli]

Here we go!

tagged by @universallylightcherryblossom Thank you -3- 

Tag 9 People: @flower-girrl​ @statuscrows​ @mireille2806sstuff​ @bodaciousace​ @mortalvirus​ and anyone who want to do this tag me back if you want i’d love to see your answers 

Last song I listened to: “ Sweet Dreams are Made of Seven Nation Army “ 

Last book you read/listened to: La herida de la esfinge by Terenci Moix

Favourite color: blue and pastel pink 

Top three shows: hxh, natsume yuujinchou, voltron (the third one changes depending on my mood lol)

Top three characters: DON’T MAKE ME CHOSE !!! but natsume and gon for sure both on the first place killua and lance 

Top three ships: HISOGON but also eruri, illukillu and klance

2) BOLD the statements that are true for you! (italic for partially true)

APPEARANCE: I am 5'7" / 170cm or taller I wear glasses I have at least one tattoo I have at least one piercing I have blonde hair I have brown eyes I have short hair  My abs are at least somewhat defined I have or have had braces

PERSONALITY: I love meeting new people People tell me that I’m funny Helping others with their problems is a big priority for me I enjoy physical challenges I enjoy mental challenges I’m playfully rude with people I know well I started saying something ironically and now I can’t stop saying it There is something I would change about my personality

ABILITY: I can sing well I can play an instrument I can do over 30 pushups without stopping I’m a fast runner I can draw well sort of I have a good memory I’m good at doing math in my head I can hold my breath underwater for over a minute I have beaten at least 2 people in arm wrestling I know how to cook at least 3 meals from scratch I know how to throw a proper punch

HOBBIES: I enjoy playing sports I’m on a sports team at my school or somewhere else I’m in an orchestra or choir at my school or somewhere else I have learned a new song in the past week I work out at least once a week I’ve gone for runs at least once a week in the warmer months I have drawn something in the past month I enjoy writing FANDOMS ARE MY #1 PASSION I do or have done martial arts

EXPERIENCES: I have had my first kiss I have had alcohol (boi) I have scored the winning goal in a sports game I have watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting I have been at an overnight event I have been in a taxi I have been in the hospital or ER in the past year I have beaten a video game in one day I have visited another country I have been to one of my favorite band’s concerts

RELATIONSHIPS: hoo boi here we go >_> I’m in a relationship I have a crush on a celebrity I have a crush on someone I know I have been in at least 3 relationships I have never been in a relationship I have asked someone out or admitted my feelings to them I get crushes easily (depends…) I have had a crush on someone for over a year I have been in a relationship for at least a year I have had feelings for a friend

MY LIFE: I have at least one person I consider a “best friend” I live close to my school My parents are still together I have at least one sibling I live in the United States There is snow right now where I live I have hung out with a friend in the past month I have a smartphone I have at least 15 CD’s I share my room with someone

RANDOM SHIT: I have breakdanced I know a person named Jamie  I have had a teacher with a last name that’s hard to pronounce I have dyed my hair I’m listening to one song on repeat right now I have punched someone in the past week I know someone who has gone to jail I have broken a bone I have eaten a waffle today I know what I want to do with my life I speak at least 2 languages I have made a new friend in the past year I have been given flowers before (does one single flowers counts? lol)

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gosh i just read some eruri fics staring from the oldest ones in 2013. its so weird because this was a time before isabel and furlan, before acwnr, seeing people write and wonder how levi might have been recruited. only seeing "erwin smith/levi" with no last name. and dont even get me started about the fics that are all 'they killed all the titans, the end :)' it was so SIMPLE.

it makes me so nostalgic because this series has been around for almost ten years now. idk man something about how much these things have changed gets to me TvT

Reading those old fics now is quite an experience now. It always amazes me when I come across fics from 2013 that absolutely nail Erwin and Levi’s characters, despite how little had been revealed about them at that point. I came to the fandom in late 2015 and by that stage we already knew Levi's backstory from ACWNR and chapter 69, we knew his name was Levi Ackerman, not Rivai Heichou or any other weird and wonderful variation, we knew that Kenny was his uncle, and we knew that he was so devoted to Erwin that he threatened to break his legs to prevent him from leading the expedition to Shiganshina. By that stage we were also starting to see the cracks in Erwin's facade, but we didn't really know how deep those cracks ran, and though we had glimpses of his ulterior motive, we had no idea of the toll Erwin's dream had taken on him, and the depths of despair he was sinking to, though we also knew that if he trusted one person above all others, that person was Levi. We also didn’t know that Levi would swear a vow to Erwin and remain true to him and to that vow for years after his death. Seeing how Erwin and Levi’s stories evolved month by month from chapter 76 onwards was a wild ride and not one I would have missed for the world.

Following any fandom for a long time can be a really strange experience. Although fandoms can be incredibly resilient and endure for years, decades even, after the source material has ended, participation in fandom is often quite transient. Fans tend to come and go year on year, so if you do happen to stick around in a single fandom for any great length of time, it can be quite a weird experience. You get to see new influxes of fans, each with their own interpretation of the characters, which can change dramatically over time as particular tropes and themes fall in and out of fashion.

The Eruri fandom has seen a huge influx of new fans over the last 18 months or so, which is amazing! There’s been an explosion of new art, fics, zines, and challenges. It’s been fabulous seeing this huge upswell of appreciation for characters that I’ve loved for so long, and it’s great that the fandom is big enough for everyone to be able to do their own thing.

It’s been interesting to see the tropes that have become popular over the last year or so. It’s no secret that I’m not a huge fan of Marley Erwin, as to my mind it’s a trope that often harks back to the ruthless manipulative Erwin fics that were current before Erwin’s true character was revealed. However I can also understand why writers are interested in exploring these aspects of Erwin’s character.

There’s also been a marked increase in the number of trans Eruri fics and artworks, many of which are being created by trans and nonbinary authors and artists. This is one trend that I love; it’s great that authors and artists are able to explore the whole spectrum of gender identity through these complex and nuanced characters. (Although I should also add that there have always been incredible trans fics in the Eruri fandom. One of my all time favourite fics is Irascible, which was written way back to 2014.)

I think it’s inevitable that creators will want to explore different aspects of characterisation depending on when they come to a piece of media and how they consume it. Binge watching or reading an entire series, and getting a character’s entire story in one complete arc, is a very different experience from following a series real time and seeing characters and plot being revealed layer by layer over the course of years. Of course it goes without saying that there is never a right and a wrong way to write a character, older fics are no better or worse than newer fics, and vice versa. The whole point of fan works is that they are transformative, we’re all free to explore and represent these characters however we choose. So perhaps the thing I love most about the Eruri fandom is that we’ve had so many incredibly talented writers and artists over the last 9 years that there really is something for everything.

Thanks for the ask Anon, and apologies for rambling!

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What are some of your favorite things about the Snk fandom? Eruri fandom specifically? also loved your post about how within the Snk world Erwin and Levi aren’t really considered attractive

Oh wow! Where to start??! There’s so, so much I love about this fandom, but perhaps a good place to start might be by admitting that my experience of the SnK fandom as a whole is actually quite limited.  I’ve spent most of the last six years holed up in my little Eruri corner of the fandom, where I can hang out with close friends and like-minded fans.  That’s not to say that I’m not invested in the series as a whole, I absolutely am, I wouldn’t still be here if I wasn’t, but I’ve curated my own little fandom niche very carefully.  I’ve really only been active on tumblr, twitter and a few small discords, I give Reddit and Youtube a wide berth, and have only occasionally dipped my toe into the wider fandom waters.  I should add that I have huge respect for fans who do have the energy and equanimity to navigate these often choppy waters (looking at you @momtaku​ – respect), I haven’t got that kind of patience.  

As a result, my experience of SnK fandom has been almost entirely Eruri and the Veterans, but what an experience it’s been.  I’ve been involved in fandom for twelve years now and I can quite honestly say that I’ve never come across such a diverse, creative, funny and generous fandom community.  I’ve met fans of all ages from all over the world, some of whom have become my closest friends in real life over the last six years.  My life has been made immeasurably richer through their friendship, and I’m immensely grateful for their presence in my life.  Some of those friends have moved on from the fandom long since, and though there are some that I still miss everyday, I know that it’s just the nature of fandom friendships, and that’s fine, I will always treasure the time we spent together.  

I also love the incredible creativity of this amazing fandom, the fic and the art is second to none, and the generosity of creators is unparalleled.  I’m particularly indebted all the readers who have commented on and encouraged my writing (I may never get round to replying to AO3 comments, but I treasure every one), the artists who have illustrated my fics (honestly, it’s the highest honour), the translators who have translated my stories to bring them to Russian and Chinese readers, the artists and writers who have been happy to collaborate with me, the readers who have reblogged and commented on my meta, and the friends who have allowed me to turn their shenanigans into stupid crack fic XD

I love the real sense of community that exists in the Eruri fandom, and it’s such a diverse community too.  Sure there have been fallings out and differences of opinion over the years but that’s inevitable, we’re not a homogenous group.  However I do think that because the average age of the fandom skews a little older than the norm, the community has managed to rise above a lot of the drama and bullshit that seems to be sadly endemic in fandom spaces these days.  And when push comes to shove, people really pull together, as they did during the painful days of the Serum Bowl, when we were all raw with grief, and emotions were running high on all sides of the fandom.  I’ve also been hugely inspired by the courage and dedication of individuals within the Eruri community in shutting down bullying behaviour, supporting fans from other communities when they are being harassed, rallying round friends who are struggling, and raising awareness of and funding for important social justice causes.  

I’ve been inspired by so many people in the Eruri and Veterans fandom community, I’m not going to try and list everyone here, suffice to say you all have my enduring gratitude, love and thanks.  

And thank you too for this ask Anon, it’s been lovely to have an excuse to reflect on all my favourite things about this amazing fandom ♡

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Favourite art piece from your otp eruri 🤗🤗🤗

I’m so sorry, I’ve had your ask in my inbox for aaaaages now because there are so many amazing artists in this fandom that I’m honestly struggling to pick just one piece of art. 

If you were to force me to choose though, I think I would have to go for the beautiful art @seitsen-sarvi did for my 50th birthday.  For me, it really encapsulates Erwin and Levi’s depth of feeling for each other, and it also represents the warmth and generosity of this amazing fandom.  

Another example of fandom generosity, but one I’ve chosen for…ahem…quite different reasons is the outrageous rugby art that @the-memoirs-of-a commissioned for me from @varrix. I am still not over this and quite possibly never will be. 

I want to choose a piece by Maino Merry, but there are so many of her pieces that I adore, that I’m really struggling to pick one. I think it has to be this one though, because it’s so breathtakingly intimate. 

These two beautiful watercolours from @zedsdead1001 also mean a lot to me. They sat on the bookshelves beside my desk and there’s something terribly poignant about the way the colours have gradually faded in the light.  Levi is just a shadow of his former self now, but Erwin’s hair is still golden.

@prosotankutu has moved on from the fandom now, but I will always treasure this cover art that she drew for Cardamom.  She really captured the atmosphere of that long drive through the Hauran to Umm el-JImal.  Her Levi is just perfect.

Last, but by no means least….this isn’t exactly fan art of Eruri, but I have to include the original and iconic Delulu, by the equally original and iconic @zorthania 🐐

I’ve got some more of my favourite art tagged on my blog too, if you want to go exploring. Oh, and this is one of my favourite pieces of official art.  I’d better stop now :}

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How much longer do you think the Eruri Fandom will last? Everything feels like it's winding down now.

I don’t think you can ever really put an expiry date on fandoms Anon.  Fandoms have remarkable powers regeneration; many of them never really die, though it’s inevitable that they will have their peaks and troughs. Many people predicted the demise of the Eruri fandom when Erwin died in chapter 84, and although some fans did leave around that time here we still are.  Other fans called it quits at the time of the tumblr purge, but since then a really active fandom has sprung up on twitter.

From my own perspective, the fandom still feels like it’s alive and kicking (and yes I realise the irony here).  Certainly it’s changed, but that’s not necessarily a bad thing. Although some of my favourite writers and artists left after Midnight Sun, other creators have joined the fandom since then who I love just as much, if not more.  And if anything, I’ve noticed a bit of an uptick of new fans coming on board and older fans rediscovering the series in the last couple of months.  I’ve followed three new (to me) artists this week alone!  (Waves at @parsips, @geitonas, @lordirrelevant.)

With the manga drawing to a close it’s perhaps not surprising that you feel like things are winding down, however the fact that the fandom is still active four years after Erwin’s death shows that we don’t necessarily need new canon content, all we need is the creativity, generosity and dedication of fans.   As long as there is one person left to rediscover the canon content, read the amazing fanfic on AO3, stumble across the beautiful art that’s been created, and fall in love with Erwin and Levi’s powerful relationship all over again, the Eruri fandom will continue.  

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Hi, I'm fairly new to the fandom. Do you know of any fics that explore the fact Erwin thinks he's straight until he realizes he's fallen in love with Levi? Thanks

Hello Anon, welcome to the fandom, boy have you got a treat in store! Honestly the quality of the art and writing in the Eruri fandom is unsurpassed. 

Now that I think of it, there aren’t that many fics that deal with Erwin discovering his sexuality.  He’s usually aware and accepting of his sexual preferences, even if he hasn’t acted on them before meeting Levi. There are one or two that kind of fit the bill though.

Green Broke by @hedera-helixwriteseruri.  A beautifully written Western AU that has Erwin struggling with his newly awakened feelings for Levi while dealing with small town homophobia and prejudice. 

Who Dares Wins by @hedera-helixwriteseruri (WIP) Having passed the selection and training of the SAS Erwin is assigned to a squadron in Eldia, a region whose autonomy was hard-won from the Marley monarchy in a devastating civil war, and which now stands to be torn apart again by a terrorist organisation called the Titans.

Lucid Dreams by @francisthegreat A seriously gorgeous Reincarnation AU. Erwin is married but finds himself plagued by dreams of a man he’s never met. 

There are also several fics where Erwin is aware he is gay but is in denial one way or another.

Irascible by bigasstress and revai-lution A Southern Gothic 1990s AU. This is one of my all time favourite fics ever.  Erwin is so deeply in the closet he is to all intents and purposes an upstanding pillar of the community who is happily married with two beautiful daughters.  When Levi appears he exposes Erwin’s life for the lie that it is and the consequences are devastating.  One of the things I love about this fic is that it doesn’t shy away from dealing with homophobia and the inevitable consequences of lying and infidelity.

Final Tour by @ackbang  A beautifully written and heartbreaking Modern AU. It’s been twenty years in the army, and Levi is finally home–retired, bored, directionless. The world has moved on without him, including his friend Erwin. He struggles to learn to adjust, to deal with his nightmares, to flourish in a world he’s never understood, only to find that Erwin is dealing with the same thing.

Aversion by Cherry I haven’t actually read this one, but I’ve enjoyed some of Cherry’s other fics.  To the outside world Erwin Smith is a happily married and successful surgeon. No one knows about his weekly visits to a motel room where he meets Levi Ackerman for sex. When Erwin’s colleague, Daruis Zackley, offers him a ‘cure’ for his attraction to men, Erwin decides that it’s the right thing to do.

And here’s one more if you want to ring the changes…

Frustration by @tsukareta-levi A confused and frustrated Levi takes his anger out on Erwin.  I loved this one.  It’s short and very hot.  Just like Levi :}