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moonstonediaz · 2 years

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I am once again stopping in to say hi 🥲 hoping to end this half-hiatus soon. I had to put my cat down yesterday and I’ve just been a rollercoaster of emotions

#i had her for 15 years—HALF of my LIFE #so that was yesterday and today was spent cleaning the house (she was sick #and messy)#so that was weird #anyway I’m coping. my other cat is so confused and I think that’s the hardest part. not being able to tell him what happened to her #but I think he knows on some level #Ugh I’m crying again #ok anyway. I’m around! hoping to be Back back really soon <3 #t talks

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rowanoftheunknown · 14 days

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“I hope I’ll find all the pieces of my mind that fell out of my head over all those years, and that I’ll be able to put myself together again. I hope the echoes of pain will fade, and memories of sorrow will die, and that you’ll visit me here some day…”

“And I hope you have a happy ending of your own.”

#NICHE BALDURS GATE CHARACTER FANS COME GET YALL JUICE #I may be the only one getting juice but hey. yknow #obligatory if hope has one fan it is me if hope has no fans it means I am dead etc etc #hope bg3 #house of hope #baldurs gate 3 #bg3 #I love her sm you don’t understand #she’s so silly (clinically insane) and she’s brave and beautiful and UGH. hope. my beloved.#hope my fucking beloved #anyways this took fucking forever #I’m not super happy with it but i AM done with it. so. yeah #I was gonna do a bg and stuff but like. I’m sleepy #so you just get the window #also I feel like the light coming through looks a bit shit but again. it’s done for now.#I’ve never tried to draw stained glass and when I tell you it was not fucking easy lol #oh it’s just like drawing regularly but with LESS DETAIL I thought like a smooth brained foool #INCORRECT #there was maths involved #anyyyyywho. all for now. enjoy. please enjoy. if this gets no notes I may cry. a little.

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librideluna · 1 year

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You know, trying to fall asleep with peaches by jack black stuck in your head is hard

But

Waking up with it still stuck in your head is so much worse

#also whoever said listen to it again #so it will leave my head #I hate you #it’s been on repeat for the past 15 minutes #I’m crying #Peaches peaches PEACHES #please take this song away from me #why is it so good though #ugh #princess peach this one is for you

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felrend · 1 year

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#don’t touch me #I’m crying again #god of war ragnarok spoilers #gowr spoilers #god of war ragnarok #god of war spoilers #gow spoilers #god of war #kratos #freya #this whole sequence was beautiful #the small smile after #UGH #I can’t #screen shots

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fraberry-stroobcake · 2 months

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is it gay to be so overwhelmed with emotions by thinking about someone you care about so much you almost want to pick up writing again

#- but also it’s night time and you can’t fall asleep even though you need to get up early #and you’re just stuck imagining the lines you want written down #so your only options are to do it now while they’re still there #or not and then forget all of them in the morning and cry #hi i’m the gay one help i haven’t been in this state in a while #i’m just in that state again somehow i guess #probably because i never got a chance to tell this person how something so small for them meant a world to me in that moment #i hope i’ll be able to tell you all that myself in a more direction way but i love you so much you mean the world to me #okay i don’t actually want to scare you off by saying that but knowing what my mind is imagining for this you’d think that yourself anyway #i should probably stop taking now it’s way too late and i’m being tooooo emotionally vulnerable rn #hi guys sleepy night time frab here i’m the (other) emotion + vulnerable one #don’t you love to see it #i wonder if anyone is still down here reading these tags #hi if you are! send aaaa hmmm send a little ‘£; e’ if you read to this point #also why r u still reading? weirdoooo /jk love you #but really don’t be down here too long i’m sorta bleeding all my feelings out right now #because i’m so bad at expressing myself directly and as soon as i want to #ugh i’ll leave now i’m lonely and talking to myself too much again #night night everpony #frabrant #wonder if i’ll write more again… ok i’m LEVAING now gah

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acesammy · 6 months

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man how do you tell someone you literally do not have the emotional bandwidth to deal with their breakdown

#Like. Hey stop sending me emotionally manipulative texts I keep having panic attacks when I see them <3 #stop calling me 5 times in a row when it’s almost midnight and I have work tomorrow #like I /do/ care about you but I fuxking /cant/ with this #don’t text me shit like ‘I’m jealous that you can engage in your interests bc I don’t think I’ll ever be able to again’#bro I am GRASPING at the small amounts of comfort drawing and spn are giving me rn what do you want me to DO #I know I shouldn’t ghost #but that’s what I’ve been doing and I just.#fuck me dude I’m trying to put my focus towards finding jobs to apply to. Towards actually making my hours at my #Current job #bc I have family memebers dying and I need to visit them and the family that is around #Ugh I’m just. Maybe this would’ve gone differently if I wasn’t on the fucking brink already #but I am and I can’t and I cannot be the person you’re obsessed with #Anyways I’m on my lunch break crying in a park and I just want to stop existing #lea speaks #can’t wait to go back and work until 7 bc that’s the only way I can think to make my hours to visit my brother next week #Vent

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delicateimage · 6 months

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Hey girlies update time… I’ve been sent to a clinic for my weight and it’s been really stressful and my life is kinda falling apart lol there’s defiantly good aspects to it but ughhh I’m like :( bc my diets had to change so much and I feel so unproductive now and I’m really scared about gaining weight but they’d said I’d like die or whatever if I didn’t which um. I genuinely feel so disgusting heavy and sick and disgusting and DISGUSTIGN eww and my disordered eating brain is coming back in full force after silently controlling me for like nearly years at this point and it’s all so much. the hardest thing about this is that I don’t want to gain weight at all and particularly I don’t really even care to live anymore. I’m scared everyday I’ll fall deeper and deeper back into disordered eating I’ll get lonelier and lonelier I’ll get fatter and fatter I’ll lose everything I’ve ever built for myself… ugh this is a mess but ong.

#it’s hard because I don’t want to sound like I’m bragging like HEYYYY I GOT HOSPITALOZED FOR BEING A SKINNY QUEEN YASS but omg I can’t #this is so sickening I feel so fat and disgusting there were two days where I could feel like I could eat the calorie count they gave me but #now I feel like a FAT FUCKING BEKUGA WHALE I feel like I gained 40 pounds in a day I feel so hulking and disgusting I’m eating so much ew #the self harming intentions came back because I lost my only form of control over my autonomy. I feel like there’s no other way for people #to hear me other than harming myself and depriving myself #I feel like such a waste #it’s like tomorrow I want to go back restrict restrict restrict restrict eat 5 calories exercise for an hour #but I just can’t.#I don’t have anyone to talk to because no one understands.#I feel so lost #the one thing I enjoyed about the diet change is the snack kinda… it gives me motivation to keep going.#everything is so stressful though and I don’t know how to encapsulate everything AT ALL ugh #I’m so tired and I just want to fall over and die already but… idk #I want to restrict really badly. I want to purge and fast again. I want to become anorexic. I was at to scream out and cry and say that I’m #hurting and I’m weak and I can’t take it anymore #ugh #omg I haven’t made a huge tumblr rant in months omg I haven’t USED tumblr really in months omg #my ED loves tumblr like girl hey

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michi-chelle · 17 days

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i finished slow damage!

#slow damage #i wasn’t crying what no not at allllllll #ugh what a beautiful most perfect ending i’m so so happy for towa <3 <3 <3 #yo what a great game #i honestly did not expect to like this game so much lmaooo but it’s been a rollercoaster of a ride #especially since it took me over a month to play it but it really took a chokehold over my mind the whole time and i loved it #i can’t believe i read an eroge for the plot lmaooo yo this story was so good wtf #so beautiful and dark and captivating #even if some ‘twists’ were a bit predictable the way they were presented made it all the more interesting #and i was so attached to all the characters even the side characters #i cried a bit during the last exploration segment when we said goodbye to all the characters #and the art and visuals and the music ugh i love this game so much!#never quite got a hold on the interrogation mechanic but eh like i said before i appreciate the concept of it #ugh again i wish i can wipe my memory so i can play this game for the first time again </3 #i hope i can get all the fanart outta my system before the hyperfixation fades away lol #anyway! i’m sad now goodnight #michi yaps

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stars-and-birds · 1 year

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special ability: procrastination

#i should be working on this stupid fucking essay #shut up esme #i’m probably gonna end up trying not to cry in class again tmmrw #ugh #the grade isn’t even that bad i just #dhajnanananana

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tang3r1n · 5 months

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i feel like vomiting.

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seventh-district · 10 months

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screaming shaking crying trembling wailing sobbing throwing up punching the wall in anguish and agony and angst etc etc etc

#Seven.txt #Seven’s Public Diary #cw vent post #kinda?? i guess??#cw dentist #anyways yeah. i have to go to the dentist soon and i wanna throw up just thinking abt it #someone just fucking hit me with a tranq gun and get it over with already oh my god i don’t wanna do thisssssss #but don’t actually do that cause i would deadass revoke someone’s breathing privileges if they ever sedated me without my consent #that’s part of what i’m so afraid of. i don’t know what i’m gonna do if they say i have to be put under general anesthesia for this.#i will literally cry and run out of the building #so here’s hoping that they can just numb it and keep me awake #i need to stay awake for this man it’s the only way i can handle it. i don’t wanna be vulnerable like that.#hhhhhhh last time i was in a dentist chair i was shaking uncontrollably and it’s so embarrassing when my body does that shit #i’m so afraid it’s gonna be like that again cause my fear has gotten so much worse as i’ve put off going #but my father will be there with me so maybe my need to appear strong in front of him will override my body’s need to shake in fear lmao #so i’ve got someone to take me and i’ve thankfully got the money saved to afford it so realistically i shouldn’t be upset #but i am so so afraid and no amount of logic is gonna help me out here. i already know that #i just have to go do it like i have to force myself to do all the other things i’m afraid of #ugh. i can’t tell if i’m nauseous cause of the pain radiating from my jaw bone to my brow bone or if it’s anxiety #or if it’s cause i couldn’t eat last night. or all three. probably all three #i’ve never had any cavities or serious issues with my teeth before in my life so this is so so so new and scary and i hate it #but i want the pain to stop so i gotta get this fixed. and never eat anything with sugar or acid or anything ever again #and brush my teeth one million times a day so this doesn’t happen again #sighs and collapses on the floor. i guess i couldn’t run from the consequences of my mentally ill actions forever #also no for once i didn’t actually punch anything. that was just a figure of speech. and i’m in enough pain as it is rn lmao

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redhotarsenic · 1 year

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I just saw a really neat and cute and heartfelt looking picture of little knives and him being protective of vash and I look in the tags and. Plantcest.

#I feel too weird to reblog it now #I want to because the art made me feel feelings but. now I feel too weird to reblog it #thing is too #I go through knives’ tag to find art I like #and what do I constantly find? yup.#and most of the time it’s the most innocent looking shit #like if that tag wasn’t there you wouldn’t know!#so what the hell do I do here!#plus like. if I choose to reblog any of that innocent looking art KNOWING that those tags are there I’m gonna obsess over it for hours #<- in a negative way #like. ‘what if everyone thinks you’re a freak huh huh?’#ugh it’s like with devil may cry and dante and vergil again #sigh.

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theresa-of-liechtenstein · 6 months

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when i knocked on my conductor’s office door this afternoon she yelled ‘COME IN’ but it was locked so i imagine her reaction upon opening the door was probably something like ‘who left this upset and trembling chihuahua on my doorstep? oh, it’s just em.’

#conductor reading my thank you email before i told her what happened: oh she’s adorable!#conductor looking at me after the spring concert party: oh she’s traumatized!#like. at what point should i just accept that i probably have PTSD from what happened at my last group.#it’s been four years and it still affects my personal and professional relationships #to such a point where i’m just [gestures with disgust at self]#ugh i suck. but i will not hear a single bad word against my conductor. i owe her so much #it’s just. last year i didn’t feel anything bc i was too busy learning how to coexist in an orchestra again #and also i had a layer of stands to hide behind #i had very little one on one interaction with her #now it’s like i talk to her all the time #i’m sitting right in front of her. looking her right in the face #i’m feeding off her energy trying to translate her gestures into music #and all the fear comes screaming back even though i Know. objectively. i am safe #there’s so much disconnect bc i feel frustrated bc i think my fear is preventing me from being the best i can be #there are so many places in the rep this year where the seconds are very prominently featured #and every rehearsal she says we can come out more #so everyone is just following the lead of this scared little creature who still has #part of their mind stuck at sixteen crying in a corner at the vienna konzerthaus #we can come out more. dolce. dolcissimo. I KNOW. GIRL I KNOW. I KNOW I CAN READ THE FUCKING PART #ITS JJST ME THATS THE PROBLEM #but other than that she seems. so happy with me. she’s always telling me to keep up the good work #like sure it’s good work but it doesn’t feel like my Best work #and i want to give her my Best work because #fuck it she helped give me back my smile #just like how my violin teacher helped give me back my smile #so of COURSE i want to give them my Best! it’s the least i can do!#anyways. what a fucking day #em jumped up busker #music is about love #<- for journaling

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niceboyeds · 1 year

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i’ve said it before and i will always say it: long distance friendships fucking suck.

#all my friends live so far away #and i miss them all so much #and all the time #and ugh #brb i’m gonna go cry again #lys’ nonsense #long distance friendship

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milo-is-rambling · 10 months

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I am so high I love you dabs I love you big bong rips I love you huge heavy bong I love you only having 20 dollars to my name and no plans but getting high and ignoring it I love you oh no I’m thinking about it

#I want to take an ice cold shower and scream and smoke a whole pack of cigarettes and lock myself in a closet for 72 hours in the dark with #no distractions to figure out what I actually want to do with the rest of my life and to face every bad thought I have and struggle to #ignore even years later like ugh I just need to be at the bottom of the ocean floating sinking alive dead in between for like a month and #then pull me back up and either I’ll be normal or I’ll be so fucked up they just put me back in there #like either way I am vibing at the bottom of the ocean (I have been desperately imaging a sensory deprivation tank all day)#(put me in a fucking sensory deprivation tank until something in my fucking brain rewires and I get worse or better than I am now this #inbetween stage is fucking killing me like what do you mean I’m not a horrible person but also what do you mean I struggle every day but I’m #normal but I have things about me other people don’t and alienate me to the point of near total isolation but also this is just how humans #are and I need to take meds and actively struggle to fit into a perfect little box of what a person should be like god damn I am so tired of #getting better and worse and better and worse and better and worse and better and worse and I’m miserable and I’m happy and I’m sobbing and #I know a month from now I’ll be depressed again or I’ll be the best I’ve ever been and it’s so fucking horrible to be in the middle stage #where I actually have to step up and admit shit is wrong and face it like why can’t I just lay in bed forever until I become the bed and not #like get a job and have a future. ugh. depression is so fucked esp bc most things in my life are normal I guess or like easier than my #friends like we all have seperate challenges but I’m the only one still living off their parents (ha. parent. forgot for a second.) and the #only thing wrong with my life is the mental health issues but I won’t step up and deal with it bc I feel like I’ve been depressed for so #long I like fucked up the foundational shit and like I know it’s fine but also I feel so behind and I feel like I’ll be behind and unhappy #forever even when im happy I know the next depressive episode is right around the corner and I give up again. ugh. I hate knowing that’s #what’s wrong with me but still not having the energy to step up and fix it. im so pathetic I want to cry. my brain is me but my brain is #destroying my life. anyways. im high and now im sad and have dry mouth. I think im gonna drink ice water and change into shorts+lay in bed)

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noirandchocolate · 1 year

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Every Time I Do a Divine Beast This Playthrough

Champion: Watch out Link! That blight is a fiend made by Ganon and it’s a bad nasty bad guy! It killed me 100 years ago because it was too strong. Please don’t die!

Link: Okay dear friend I will try. *downs a Mighty Kids Meal and merks the thing in 30 seconds flat*

#kidk says stuff #legend of zelda #breath of the wild #it’s so anticlimactic that it makes me kinda feel bad #until I remember I’m gonna have to do the battles again with shit armor and no fi for champion’s ballad purposes #and then I cry bc a) my friends were so woefully unprepared in comparison to what the game lets me do #and b) I don’t wanna fight thunderblight without rubber armor UGH

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