#WAIT WAIT WTF DID I MISS

[kirstielol]

I'm making a tote bag as my first big sewing project, and today I made the straps and they turned out so good 😭

[yioh]

why are like 95% of genshin mlm ships so boring and cliche😭

[bangcakes]

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[themyscirah]

Wait omg..... Jessica Cruz probably did rifle... my specialized sports knowledge coming in CLUTCH

Okay so I barely practiced and made it to regionals like once so im NOT the expert here but uh headcanoning that Jess did air rifle when she was a teen. Like idk if it would be as part of a team like with a high school (what I'm familiar with) vs like an individual thing vs like a travel/competitive team (it depends on the sitch in her area growing up) but she definitely went to some national matches (probably including JOs/JO quals like i think she was GOOD). I think she probably would have quit competitively following a bad shot at nationals (relatable) along with anxiety about competition (ALSO relatable) but still kept up with shooting casually for fun and relaxation and to hang out with friends etc.

She definitely would have shot smallbore competitively too but I never did that bc I was lazy so idk to much abt it competitively

[loaksbitch]

[starsandthorn]

i'm cheating [don't have arlecchino yet and am looking at her lines abt the harbingers through hoyowiki] and thank god the harbinger "i hate my coworkers" trend continues + yaay sandrone and columbina crumbs + her line about signora has me in shambles

[marimbles]

finally got every shrine and every lightroot in totk!!!! keels over and dies

[scoots-canoe]

watching db subbed and then being out of touch with fellow english speaking community regarding names of people/things is a struggle

[sualne]

been looking for jobs for three years and in the past two months ish I’ve gotten for the first time my first job interview and for a different job my first job essay.

(I did have an actual job as a comic colorist for like six months but nobody around me considered it a Real Job so I feel like I just never have a job even though I very much did.)

and each time, during the interview where I know realise I was kind of being explained the whole time why I wouldn’t get the job and at the end of the essay(which might not be the right word, like a day we’re your try out the job to see if you can do it) one of the reasons given why I wouldn’t be taken it was ‘we need people who can smile’.

(there were actual argument like being ‘too introverted’ and ‘not dynamic enough’. That last one is funny because i had another ‘almost pass out for no reasons’ moment right for break time (genuinely perfect timing) during the essay and while I was cold sweating and going blind on the bathroom floor I realised, if anyone ever know I have health issues I will never get a job. So being told I wasn’t dynamic enough a fourty something minutes later was straight up comedic).

Back to the smiling, my entire life since I was a literal baby I’ve been told I wasn’t expressing the Right Way. ‘If you feel a specific way you Have to emote this specific way, act this specific way and not do anything else otherwise you’re not actually feeling what you say you’re feeling, it means you’re actually lying, faking it or don’t know what you’re actually feeling because your not showing it the Right Way’ and obviously I’ve dismissed this my entire life because I was sure it was obvious and everyone knew that everyone exist differently and people don’t act the same. I kind of assume everyone that ever bothered me about it was some flavor of 1 having a day and decided to being weird about it to me or anyone else that was also not existing the correct way. 2 just kind of an asshole and therefor they’re opinion didn’t matter. 3 just kind of strange about thing and so be it, ´not my problem tho’ I thought.

But seeing how it’s an actual argument people have use twice now to refuse me a job I’m kind of being thinking, it might actually, for real, be a thing people actually are worried about, actually. Which is wild, but also make sense because people have very much for my whole life, to me and to a ton of strangers, made comments on folks not existing the proper way. Like how in horror someone being slightly off, slightly wrong, a little bit not how it usual should be is the trope of all time. And I love this trope, someone who’s voice is in differed from how they mouth work, someone who seems to not walk directly on the floor but just slightly above it. It’s fun and interesting.

Anyway, real life stuff, being told I’m not smiling enough is wild, like yeah I don’t smile much at all that’s a fact, and both job were about interacting with people and every time you go to a restaurant you’ll ear someone saying out of nowhere mean thing about people who work there. Insane things like ‘I don’t like the way they’re standing’ and over analysing someone expression and body languages when they’re literally just doing their job.

This post is kind of a mess but I had a point which was, I don’t understand people and why are so many mean for no reasons but I wanted it to sound less like a kid complaining and be more verbose about it.

And (this isn’t over yet) I did force myself to smile, like I very much did, I tried my best to be as pleasant and polite as possible. And being told again, this isn’t enough, just suck. Like I have to mask and hide and deal with so much I kind of expected that of all thing I was allowed to keep my face. Like people have bothered me about it my entire life and I’ve dismissed it my entire life because it just did not make sense and I couldn’t make it make sense(still can’t). But I’m genuinely at lost at what to do about it, if apparently I also have to change my face to get a job, that I need to exist the correct way in order to have the damn job in order to exist at all is all so, Not Good.

[nickmybeloved]

Btw, went to see Waterparks last Sunday

Big thanks to Heartstopper for making me discover this amazing band ❤️

[munamania]

WAIT ABBY YOU CONFESSED TO HER??!!!

LOL not super officially? but i did confront her and this involved the words 'so i like you' or maybe i was vague and kept it in the past tense but either way i did indeed try to make her confront what was going on and she was still weird afterward lmfao. here's a little summary if u want the hashtag deetz

[tylenolnighttime]

Hi

[kittlyns]

I turned on reduced scares and I'm getting chased and caught MORE

[greyias]

Me, watching early campaign 1 of CR: I have no idea what everyone is talking about with sound issues in this campaign everything is fine

Campaign 1, episode 100 and they get a “new” “better” audio setup: I’m sorry did you fire your old audio guy? My god I cannot wait for this mystical good audio in future campaigns

[starsandthorn]

yes yes arlecchino backstory sad lore interesting animation cool as hell but MOST IMPORTANTLY. signora and scara fatui coat LOOKS.

[retrace-104]

I NEED BEAUTIFUL WOMEN TO COMFORT ME I FUCKED UP NALDTHAL IN MY AGLAIA (ALLIROUL BTW. WHAT LUCK. WHAT LUCK I WAS SO OVERJOYED) CUZ I HAVENT BEEN THERE IN 2 MONTHS AND I WAS RDM INSTEAD OF MY MAIN (BLM) AND I FUCKED UP MY OPENER ON ACCIDENT. PLEASE COMFORT ME IM STILL EMBARRASSED BECAUSE WE DID A READYCHECK AJD I PULLED TWO SECONDS EARLY