#WHEW felt good to get that all out LMAO

[coredrill]

fans of the SPIRAL POWER SHOW when their movie theater chair starts spinning:

and more moviegoing/dub thoughts below the cut!!

okay. i'm gonna be as organized as possible about this but i am probably gonna be all over the place and add to it later LMAO. BUT.

4dx thoughts first: jesus fuck lmao. i've never actually been to a 4d movie before and i feel like this experience is NOT representative of what a normal movie would be like but they really shook us around huh!!! i think those seats only stopped moving when kamina died, and i say "i think" bc there may have been more times when they stopped but my ass was unawares because i still felt like i was moving anyways LMAO.

they played an interview with imaishi, koyama, and wakabayashi (most likely filmed at anyc) before the showing (they did it before my dub showing too, even tho i just saw that one in a regular theater) and these mfs are so funny i swear lmao. they were like "we wanted to use the effects to their fullest so we added in movement during the emotional scenes too!" and then wakabayashi was like "i fell out of my seat while watching!" and then imaishi was like "my keys fell out of my pocket and i almost left them in the theater because they were between the seats" and then they laughed and THEN wakabayashi was like "oh wait they're watching gurren-hen right? nvm they'll be fine" but like. that shit felt like a ROLLERCOASTER so WTF IS LAGANN-HEN GONNA BE!!!!!!!!!! it made me so curious so now i also plan to see the sub of that one in 4dx LMAO. me when i literally die because the insane ppl at trigger decided to mimic a galaxy being thrown at a giant mecha and wanted me to feel it.

also. they sprayed us with water during the scene where gurren lagann's spiral energy feeds back and simon/lagann throw up. and like. i mean i can't say i ever WANTED to get vomited on by my fav anime boy, but it sure did happen!

okay. friend-who-hasn't-seen-ttgl-before-thoughts next: i was REALLY surprised how much it hooked him considering that i've always viewed the movies as subpar compared to the show but it REALLY sold him on it!!! and i'm so happy cause idk if he ever would've made it through those first 7 episodes of the show without knowing what was to come lmao. unfortunately he can't make it next week so we'll have to watch lagann-hen later on, as well as the show proper, but i'm SO curious to see what he thinks. especially bc the only complaint he rly had (aside from being violently shaken LMAO) was that simon, kamina, and yoko were really the only characters he could keep track of. like even nia didn't show up early enough for him to really track what was going on with her i think!!

when it comes to lagann-hen i am SO curious what he'll think of rossiu. cause rossiu's my other favorite anime boy but DAMN they really give him like two seconds of screen time total in this movie LMFAO. and THEY DON'T EVEN ESTABLISH THAT HE IS FOREHEAD BOY?????? like they play that scene where kamina's like "i wanna give simon and gimmy and darry and forehead boy a good future" and my friend was like "WHO?" lmao. i guess you're just supposed to see the size of his forehead and come to your own conclusions FDLKSJFHSLKJ. and i did tell my friend that rossiu is Important in lagann-hen but i'm so curious as to whether that whole plot point will actually. like. make sense? and if he can track why rossiu is all of a sudden In Charge and Like That? idk but i can't WAIT to see it. similarly though i do wonder what he'll think of kittan's sacrifice cause kittan got a nothingburger this movie too LMAO.

when it comes to the show i am AGAIN curious what he'll think of rossiu, like what he'll think going from a smaller role for him in the film to a larger role in the show. cause obviously i am -_- at the downsizing but rossiu adds SOOOOOOOOO much to the show on the whole that i wonder if having a different first impression will frame him as a character differently??? IDK!!!! and ALSO i am curious what my friend will think WHEN EXTRA BITCHES START DYING AT THE END LMAO. like it's one thing to do from all of dai-gurren dying to them all living, but from them all living to DYING?????? i'm SO CURIOUS. i feel like watching these movies with him has me appreciating them more in the same way that watching eva with friends made me appreciate eva more too. except i like ttgl a whole heck of a lot more to begin with, even the movies, so i think this might just kill me entirely LMAO.

NOW. ONTO THE DUB.

prefacing this section with Holy Fuck I Am So Glad This Exists I've Cried Over It And Could Cry More. the fact that i've wanted this so bad and it HAPPENED. do the impossible i suppose but i can still HARDLY BELIEVE IT'S REAL. and listening to every single second of it was just a complete and total joy and i wouldn't trade it for anything <3

and now that the sappy stuff is outta the way SAM RIEGEL THE VIRAL THAT YOU ARE!!!!!! he did the ABSOLUTE BEST IMO, he still captured the same voice he did in the show dub AND he managed to like, have a coherent new take on some of the scenes? like during his first or second confrontation with kamina he had this more bored tone that worked SO WELL for me because. yeah!!!! viral thinks humans are inferior at that point, so he WOULDN'T be giving this battle 100%!!!! excellent choices all around and whenever they release this on home video i am gonna listen to this performance for like a week straight.

other generally great stand-outs were LORDGENOME ofc and also dayakka was pretty great too!! they didn't have a whole lot of changes but they worked well in the OG so they ofc worked well here too!! oh and kittan and his sisters too!!! they didn't get as much to do but kittan's still got it and if i heard correctly they even got the same VAs for his sisters too? like stephanie sheh kinon doesn't surprise me bc she's still so active in the industry but kiyal especially sounded rly similar in her like. three lines LMAO.

i WAS actually rly curious abt if they would recast leeron into literally anyone other than "steve blum doing a ~gay voice~" and uh. they didn't lmao. but tbh i think it worked for me anyways; the movies cut out so much of the blatant homophobic jokes which is one super nice thing about them, and also they were SO diligent with getting the rest of the cast back that it makes sense he'd come back too? like i didn't expect DAYAKKA to return but it sure sounded like the same guy to me, let alone the bachika sisters and gimmy and darry, so i get why they kept blum too and it was fine in most parts imo

i really liked bridget hoffman nia too!! she didn't sound the same as hynden walch ofc but i think she gave a great performance and i think it'll be really beneficial to have this sort of continuity of voice going between pre- and post-skip nia.

my adai kiddos...........well jyb didn't have a whole lot of lines as rossiu so i don't have much to say other than i think he did fine with what he had LMAO, i'm SOOOOOO excited to hear him in lagann-hen though!!! especially towards the end, where rossiu's belief gives simon et al the strength they need to finish the battle and win, and also the "so many others like us out there" line....... i MAY burst into tears hearing that in a theater LMAO. also it threw me off when they pronounced darry's name as "dairy" SKLDJFH

YURI LOWENTHAL............oh honey you do not sound like a fourteen year old boy anymore LMAO. it really sounded like he was putting in the EFFORT to make his voice as high as preskip simon's is haha. but his performance was still fucking amazing, especially in the hot-blooded parts where it needed to be, and tbh it was kinda sweet that he sounds different now? like, it's a charming reminder that even if it took a while, enough people loved this story hard enough that the dub got made FIFTEEN YEARS LATER, and simply typing that is making me tear up LMAO so yeah i obviously didn't mind. can't fucking wait to hear him as adult simon tho, that may awaken something in me yet again >:)

aaaaaaaand yoko and kamina lmao. obviosuly these are the hardest to judge because they also, alongside simon, have the most lines? so there is more material to compare LMAO. and both of them certainly gave very different performances that i'm not quite sure how to feel about yet. like the acting itself was still amazing, but it was different and not like sam riegel's in a way that was so obviously elevated that i'm having a bit more trouble parsing my thoughts lmao. like my knee-jerk reaction is "different, so not the thing i love, so worse" but that's not true!!! that's not true at all, and i think i may just need to hear it a few more times for the new inflections and what not to gel with me lmao. though i will say, like literally everyone else, that i think michelle ruff was directed differently as yoko - you could tell there was more effort to make her voice more nasally, or to use her head voice in general, or to sound more cutesy/girly. and i PERSONALLY don't think that's the right choice for yoko, as she's got so much more going on with her gender than just being a cute girl, but this is not the place for that discussion LMAO. so they certainly weren't bad by any means, i think they might just need a few more watches to grow on me the same way the show performances have. or just to have more fleshed-out opinions! anyways, 4k uhd english dubbed bluray WHEN aniplex.

overall the differences were SUPER interesting to hear tho!!! like i'm not well-versed enough in dubbing as a product of the late 00's versus now, but i imagine it's partially changed as an art form and that led to some of the performance differences. in general it was really funny when they slightly changed the dialogue and the lip flaps and pauses wound up in different places!!

the imaishi koyama wakabayashi interview mentioned the same thing that they said at anyc, that they were hoping to make a show that could last ten years. and now 15 years later it's STILL loved enough to get a whole ass new dub and theatrical release. and i just. i'm gonna make myself cry again LMAO, i love this story so much and it's been such a great experience <3

[sparklingsjy]

enhypen's reaction to you getting them jealous with other members

note: requested by anon!

contains: fluff and suggestive for some of hyung line! niki kisses you !!?!?;"$

heeseung:

you and hee have been dating for quite some time but he wasn't used to pda in front of his members yet

on the other hand, you and sunoo are close friends and hee's always been jealous of you two

once you guys are at a little party with friends, sunoo and you decide to get him jealous :>

you and heeseung were speaking with his old lab partner but she rarely paid any attention to you and got touchy with him

obviously this irritated you but it also helped you push forward with your plan on getting heeseung jealous !

you make eye contact with sunoo and lightly brush your ear (which is the signal to come over and get the show started LMAO)

"y/n! you seem so bored here, let's dance!"

"hmm alright!"

you two both run off while heeseung is watching in a confused state

sunoo tells the dj to switch to his the weeknd playlist to make this <spicy> between you two

hee switches places with the girl so that he has a better view of you and sunoo but whew that may of been a mistake

you and sunoo were all up on each other which was a sight heeseung was clearly not found of since when you looked at him, he was staring daggers at sunoo

to piss him off even more, you just smirked and brought sunoo closer

that definitely pushed it when he dragged you out and into the car

"heeseung . . you can't just take me out of a party when i'm having fun!"

"is grinding on sunoo fun to you?"

"i was not grinding??"

"you think i'm oblivious?"

"sometimes"

"you're done for when we get home"

"what is that supposed to mean . . ."

"means you gotta behave for me y/n"

heeseung looked at you with darkened eyes which meant you were in for a night of edging :')

jay:

enha members decided to have a movie marathon since it was their first free night without having to practice

you and jay were dating but lately he's been distant with you so you weren't sure if you wanted to join them

"i don't know sunghoon . . . he's been acting weird lately"

"let's teach him a lesson then"

"what do you mean by that?"

"you'll see"

once it got darker, everyone got set up for the movie marathon in the living room

"should we watch something scary?"

"noo you know how easily scared sunoo is!"

"i'm not easily scared!"

"you were in tears every time pennywise showed up"

"that's different . . ."

you woke up a bit late so once you got to the living room, all the seats were taken

"y/n! there's no room on the couch for you uhh"

everyone started glancing at jay but once they noticed he didn't even acknowledge your presence, that's when sunghoon decided to speak up

"that's alright, she can sit on my lap"

which is exactly what you did and this clearly caught jay by surprise

yeah he's been distant with you but it wasn't because of anything bad . . he just felt like he was too clingy with you and didn't want you uncomfortable if he pushed your limits

a good hour passed and most of the members were already asleep, sunghoon included

on the other hand, jay was not able to keep his eyes off of you two

you sitting on his lap was already pissing him off but the fact that you were brushing your fingers through hoonie’s hair made him even more upset

so, he walked over, picked you up, and took you to his room, ignoring jake’s comment on being gentle with you

"jay?"

"did you forget you're with?"

"considering you barely paid any attention to me . . yeah i did, and?"

"seems like i have to remind you then princess . . . you just have to keep quiet"

butterflies. that's all you were able to feel besides the dampness between your legs

"we don't want to wake up your hoonie now do we?"

honestly praying for your legs because angry sex with jay is on a whole other level

jake:

you and jake were inseparable

everyone knew by now you two were a couple but that didn't stop people from getting touchy with either of you

you, enha, and some other idols were having a little hangout session when you noticed seeun getting a little too "friendly" with jake

your bestie jungwon clearly took a notice to your attitude change and followed your eyes to the pair

"isn't it obvious he's yours?"

"should be by now but my main concern is him letting her get touchy"

"y/n . . . want to make him jealous?"

"how?"

that's when jungwon got up, looked for a bottle of some sort, and stood in the middle of the room

"alright everyone! who wants to do spin the bottle?"

cheers emerged and you noticed jake sit next to heeseung while seeun followed closely behind

jake made eye contact with you and smiled but you didn't return it as seeun whispered something in his ear

she then got up and moved opposite of jake while he was scratching his neck awkwardly

jungwon was sat across from you and the game began

a few rounds later, jungwon spinned the bottle and luckily it landed on you!

"ooh y/n and jungwon are going to kiss~"

jake was watching you two get closer and closer until he had enough

"jungwon! you can't kiss her . . i won't let you"

"why not? it's not like you two are dating or anything~"

"but we are. she's mine and can only kiss me!"

jake confirming your relationship made everyone cheer while seeun had a shocked expression

jake pulled you to sit in front of him and wrapped his arms around you

"you know i only love you y/n . . . right?"

"of course jake! i just wanted to get you jealous since seeun was so touchy with you"

"i'm sorry love, i'll make sure to set boundaries next time"

he kissed your head and you guys watched chaos unfold every time the bottle got spun <3

sunghoon:

you guys were at a mall with hyung line and considering how handsome sunghoon is . . . you were kinda used to girls drooling over him

because of this, you and hoon are always making the other person jealous

sooo it wasn't a surprise when you winked at him while heeseung had his arm around your waist

why was he doing this anyways? well . . . a girl approached sunghoon for his number and he smirked at you when he took her phone to put it in

that's when you told gullible heeseung to put his arm around around and whew hoon did not like this at all

yeah you guys get each other jealous but it never went far as to being physical with other people

"y/n . . . why did you ask me to do this?"

"cause sunghoon gave his number to a girl!"

"but aren't you two dating?"

"that's what i thought . . . "

heeseung understood where you were coming from so he went along with your little plan

once you all returned to the dorms, sunghoon pulled you aside

"what?"

"you think i didn't notice heeseung being all touchy with you?"

"i hoped you would've saw"

"yeah? why? is it because i gave my number away~"

"you're funny hoon . . . it's because heeseung looked so cute today, he deserved to get some affection~"

"yeah?"

"yeah!"

"you're gonna regret saying that princess"

"oh really?"

testing hoon's limits never ended well

i mean . . . in a way it did

you guys finished doing your <thing> and he cradled you into his arms

"you know, i actually gave her your number"

"eh? but you smirked at me!"

"yeah cause i like seeing you jealous~"

"sunghoon!"

"you get so cute! i do not like you being touchy with my friends though :("

"i'm sorry love"

"i'll forgive you this time~"

sunoo:

you and sunoo were such a lovely couple that even the enha members envied you two

"y/n and sunoo are so cute together~ it's not fair"

"when will i find a relationship like theirs?"

you two were so sweet and cautious with each other because you both really care about each other's feelings

however, niki had a big influence on you sometimes :<

"y/n! let's make sunoo jealous~"

"niki . . . noo"

"why not! it'll be funny to see his reaction since he's always so happy!"

"it's mean to do!"

"yeah? well i did see him and kazuha be so cozy this morning . . ."

"what? he wouldn't . . ."

"but he did!"

"niki . . ."

"come on y/n! don't you want revenge~"

and that is how you found yourself sticking to niki for the day

sunoo obviously took this to notice and got upset since he got no attention from you

he isn't the type to get jealous since he knows you care a lot about his feelings but seeing you and niki feed each other gave him a little pang on his heart :(

once night time fell, you went to niki's room and played some video games together

"i'm gonna take a break . . . you keep beating me and i don't even know how!"

"it's cause i'm better~"

"whatever . . ."

you went to get a cup of juice when you ran into sunoo

"y/n . . ."

you noticed his voice was crac noking up and looked up to see teary eyed sunoo :(

"sunoo? why are you crying!"

"you're being mean today . . ."

"what? niki said you were being cozy with kazuha . . ."

"she was giving me advice on how to plan our anniversary y/n . . ."

all you could do was open your mouth in shock

"i'm sorry sunoo :(" and boom you were both crying

"it's okay y/n . . . i know you meant no harm but it hurts seeing you with niki like that"

you guys ended up crying into each other's arms while the members walked out of their rooms in question

"what the hell happened?"

"and why are you guys crying at this time? it's 2 am!"

both you and sunoo started giggling and he wiped your tears away

"you guys get back to sleep! i'll deal with you in the morning niki . . ."

"I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING!"

"sure . . ."

everyone went back to their rooms while you and sunoo had a cuddle session in his room <3

jungwon:

you and wonnie have been together for six months now

and it has been THE BEST six months of your life <3

however  . . . you do get jealous when you see him speaking to this girl on campus

you thought it would stop but it seemed like they got closer as the days passed by

jay was very observant so he also noticed and nudged you gently

“i see you eyeing them like they’re your prey”

“i don’t like how close they’re getting . . .”

“understandable. i would feel the same way.”

you put your head on jay’s shoulder and sighed

“want to get him a bit jealous?”

“i’m petty but not that petty . . . yes i do!”

jay held your hand and you both walked over to them

“hey guys! y/n and i are going to the movie theatre later, want to join?”

jungwon noticed you two holding hands and looked up with a confused expression

“oh that would be great! right wonnie?”

wonnie? she’s calling him WONNIE?

jay noticed your eyebrows furrow and started getting nervous for them both

“uh yeah sure we can join”

“great! we can all meet at my place!”

you wrapped your arm around jay’s arm and smiled

“yup! see you two later!”

once you and jay got far enough you were fuming

“did you hear what she called him? wonnie? are you kidding me?”

“yeah no other person calls him that besides us and you . . .”

“we are def going to get him back tonight”

“hell yeah y/n!”

hours passed and you were already at jay’s waiting for them to arrive

once you heard a knock on the door, you opened it and saw jungwon with the girl standing next to each other

despite jungwon being your boyfriend, she had her arm wrapped around his and smiled

“hi y/n!”

jay walked up behind you and wrapped his arms around your waist while resting his head on your shoulder

“hey . . .”

you and jungwon were staring at each other awkwardly and he removed her arm from his

“hi love”

jungwon gives you a quick peck and jay removes himself off you

"hi . . ."

"ohh is she your girlfriend?"

"yes she is! i've been meaning to introduce you to her"

"i'm minji! jungwon 's cousin~"

COUSIN?!?!

you and jay both smiled nervously at her

"oh uh hi!"

jungwon smiled at you and sent you a wink

"let's head out!"

jay grabbed his keys and walked with you behind jungwon and minji

"i did not know they were related"

"me neither . . ."

you guys went to watch a comedy movie and once it was done, you guys had dinner and left for home.

jungwon dropped off jay and minji while you two were sitting in awkward silence

"so . . . you and jay?"

"i'm honestly so sorry . . . i didn't know you guys were cousins!"

"it's okay dear. were you two trying to get me jealous?"

"yeah . . ."

"well it worked a little bit. just don't do it again since you're mine, okay?"

"of course wonnie~"

you guys went to his place and watched another movie while talking about each other's day <3 #jungwonisinnocent!

niki:

you and niki are childhood friends who like each other

will you confess to him? most likely not

will he confess to you? definitely not

that all changes when you decide to make him jealous . . . using his own best friend >:)

"jake! you know how niki likes me but won't ask me out?"

"y/n~ yess why?"

"AHA! i knew he liked me!"

"eh?? did i just give him away?"

"yes you did jakey >:)"

"don't tell him i said anything!"

"i won't . . . unless you help me make him jealous!"

"jealous? i'm listening >:)"

"okay so during practice let's be all flirty with each other to see his reaction :D"

"ooh okok!"

"see you then!"

2 hours passed and jake texted you saying to go to the practice room

you made your way down and saw them all practicing pass the mic

niki looked at you and rolled his eyes while smiling right after

butterflies butterflies BUTTERFLIES!

jake noticed you started blushing and once they took a break, he made his way over to you first

"hii y/n~" he said while pinching your cheeks

you were confused at first since you forgot about the plan until you glanced at niki seeing him furrow his eyebrows

"hii jakey~"

jake lied down on top of you so that his head was on your lap

you started patting his head and heeseung walked over to you both

"ohh jake and y/n look so cute together don't they niki?"

heeseung winked at you and giggled once niki came over

"she can do better"

jake sat up and put his arm around you

"nah i think she's fine with me"

"not with the way she was eyeing me down during the practice"

the members started oohing and jake stood up in front of niki

"at least i'm confident enough to confess"

that's when you stood up and giggled

"yeah?"

"yeah!"

niki pulled you in, cupped your face, and kissed your lips

"you don't have the guts to do that though" he said smirking at jake

everyone was shocked but started laughing

"YOOO WE WERE JUST JOKING I DIDN'T THINK YOU WOULD KISS HER"

"oh . . . well at least you can back off of her now"

jake laughed and niki pulled you to him for a hug

"did you have to get me jealous y/n?"

"just wanted to see your reaction~"

he laughed and kissed your forehead

"before anyone else tries to do the same thing, will you be my girlfriend?"

"hmm i'll have to think about it!"

niki started pouting which made you laugh

"of course niki! now get back to practicing~"

"just for you dork~"

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ending note: thank you for reading !

[maaarshieee]

⎯⎯ ୨ Pet names (HCs) ୧ ⎯⎯

ੈ♡˳ Il Dottore x Gn!Reader *ೃ༄

ੈ♡˳ Masterlist *ೃ༄

author's note ˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚

this is a just a random thought while i was brain rotting to a mutual... yes. more soft dottore (with a hint of feral)... also the warnings are back! whew! this feels MUCH better! its so biazzare to have a fic of him w/o them! anyways, have a good day/night! also one of the scenes has a connection to a request im working on LMAO,, so tired,, had to finish this b4 i fell asleep UDJKS

˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ cw: canon typical violence, blood, mentions of experimentation, injuries, implied murder, BASIC DOTTORE WARNINGS, reader is equally crazy as dottore, longer than i anticipated, hurt/comfort at one part (breakdown??), kinda suggestive at one part??? idfk, don't take this lightly-the first bullet's scenario's part is different from the fics ive written before; k1dnapping (NOT THE READER)... just skip the first bullet's scenario if you're uncomfy

For some odd reason, you've kept a small list of Dottore's pet names for you. It was part of your silly antics that never ceased even if you've gotten together with a man known for his violent tendencies when irritated by someone. Of course, you were the unspoken exception, but keeping a list of such things? Well, you wouldn't be so sure if Dottore would be very fond of the thought since he'd always retaliate and pretend as if nothing had happened whenever you pointed out his acts of love for you. It was for fun! It was personal; something that will never see the light of day, and your lover's eyes.

Each pet name had a comment. Whether it was how you felt when he first used it or a rating, it was all scribbled down on the old piece of paper. You've begun listing ever since you got into a romantic relationship during your Akademiya days. Hence, the paper was wrinkled and quite frail, but you kept it in a rather acceptable condition. It doesn't have much, but the memory each held was something unforgettable; something to be forever cherished by you, it showed sides of Dottore that only you get to see and have the grace to experience. It was extremely meaningful to you, especially when the man you've got wrapped around your fingers is Il Dottore, the second harbinger of the Fatui.

It's not like you'll eventually forget these memories you've reverized as precious, it was simply a reminder. Like a photo album! They were too good to be kept inside your head, so you put them on display for your eyes only.

Love/Lovely - Woah! He actually called me that! Too bad the situation wasn't romantic at all. But it was nice for him to address me by that... given that we've been dating for over a year now. A 10/10 pet name ♡

'I want to kill him.'

Those words rang inside Zandik's head, your voice endlessly echoing at the back of his mind whilst he attempted to focus writing on a scroll regarding his latest research. Yet his hands trembled the harder he forced his hand to still until the pen he was writing with eventually broke in his grasp, crushed in his fist as ink exploded all over his gloved hand and scripture. Though he had made a mess, it was the least of his concerns. Someone had the nerve to upset you for so long. He knew you weren't very outspoken, so when you hated someone, you shove that contempt down your throat and swallow it down when it surfaces back up.

But Zandik was different. He can and will deal with people that have enough courage to waste his precious time with their worthless blabbering or get in his way. Dealing with your problems is similar to how he would deal with his. For you are his lover, the only person, across the sea of people, through the stars and the land of Teyvat, he could truly give a damn about. Your enemies are his enemies too. Seeing you gnash your teeth in frustration, your forehead creasing unpleasantly from furrowing your brows, and your eyes brimming with glistening tears that threatened to fall; something inside of him twisted it. It was as if his insides, his heart, were being stretched and squeezed all at the same time. If he felt that way, a wretched feeling that made bile rise up his throat, just by seeing you express your distress to him, he could barely imagine how you felt. Yeah, he couldn't imagine. So he took matters into his own hands.

"Does the sight please you, love?" Zandik purred into your ear, his hands resting upon your shoulders as he situated himself behind you, his chest against your back. You shuddered at his warm breath fanning over your cold skin, goosebumps forming on your forearms as you both marveled and dreaded what he had beheld for you.

It was your professor, the one that had been harassing you for over the months you've started taking his classes. The one you hated so much that you wished death upon him. And now he was in front of you, blindfolded, strapped on an operating table, trying to squirm free and making muffled, pleading noises against the gag he bit on. Just by Zandik's tone of voice, you could tell that he had a dark smirk gracing his lips as his scarred hands slowly slid down from your shoulders to your elbows. You couldn't stop the twitch of your lips as your heartbeat quickened. "How rash of you, the Akademiya will look for him and the fault will be pinned on you." Your eyes narrowed at him as the two of you took synchronized steps toward your professor's trembling body.

"You dare deny the exhilaration pumping through your veins at this moment all because of the mere thought of suspicion?" Zandik's lips attached themselves to the reddening skin of your neck, his sharp teeth grazing lightly. "I'm rather endeared at your thoughtfulness, but I could care less if the Akademiya were to expel me. Plus, this is for science! Don't you just love exploring more of human anatomy?" His words were coated with a thick layer of honey, sweetly rolling off his tongue while his hands slid down further until they reached your hands. Something metallic was slipped into your hand and wrapped your fingers around it tenderly, and you let out an airy laugh when you realized it was your scalpel.

Finally, you let a grin break through your blank face, and the grip of your hand on the scalpel tightened when Zandik joyously pressed another kiss on your cheek, sharing your excitement. "What am I going to do with you?" You teased, pressing your back more against his warm chest as his arms slowly snaked around your waist. "I feel so adored."

"Good," Zandik grinned and nodded at that, evidently pleased with himself. With one last fond look at your equally crazed expression, eyeing the strapped professor as if it was prey that you were about to devour. Zandik felt the hairs on his nape stand and his cheeks buzz. "Now, shall we get started with our new experiment, lovely?"

Dear/Dearest - Actually really sweet. It caught me off guard, especially because he first called me dear/dearest when it was one of his rare moments of vulnerability. Another 10/10 pet name ♡

Papers were strewn all across the floor. Shattered glass, many miscellaneous substances, broken mirrors, droplets of blood, chips of wood from destroyed shelves, tables, and a familiar mask now broken, joined the huge mess that is his personal office. It had always been a mess inside his office, but it was organized. It held a system that only Dottore knew how to maneuver around, it was his own personal space after all. But what you are witnessing at the moment was utter chaos. His white coat, forgotten on the floor, was slowly dissolving from one of the many vials he had thrown onto the ground.

His hands continuously dripped a copious amount of blood, his hair now a big mess from the tugging and pulling, and his shoulders rose and fell. You could hear his breathing; it was frantic, short, and shaky. It was as if he was trying to catch his breath after running a marathon. But Dottore can't get tired anymore, he was way past that point, yet here he was, panting like a crazed dog deprived of water.

And while he wreaked havoc inside his personal office, screaming profanities to no one in particular, hurting himself by punching a mirror and breaking multiple objects, you stood at his doorway. With a medicine kit prepared in your arms, you watched motionlessly as Dottore continued to vent out whatever he was feeling by destroying anything in his sight. Every time his blood splattered close to your feet as he shouted until his throat began to hurt, you would harden your expression, the grip you had on the door frame forming cracks, almost breaking it. As much you wanted to help Dottore, to calm him down, to kiss away those foul, dark thoughts haunting his mind, you couldn't. You tried once, and he almost broke you as well.

So you waited. You waited and waited until he was tired. Until he's exhausted himself. At the first signs of his knees buckling, you immediately rushed inside his room to catch him, not letting him fall to the ground and further injure himself. Laying his head onto your lap as comfortably as you possibly could, you began examining and cleaning his bloodied hands, taking out the shards of glass that sank in his flesh. His hazy, bright red eyes, staring up at the ceiling, slowly cleared when his gaze fell onto your focused face. Too preoccupied to notice his eyes on you, you dabbed alcohol onto his wounds and applied bandages to the wounds he accumulated. It was only when you took a glance at Dottore's face that you noticed his burning stare, but it didn't phase you one bit.

Bringing his hands close to your face, you pressed each band-aid in a soft kiss, all filled with love as it trailed all the way down to his wrists, lingering at the spot where you could feel his pulse. The Doctor was still human after all, and while you have no idea what goes through his head or the sorts of demons he fights against, he wasn't alone. You were there to give him comfort after each battle he's fought, to bring him a sense of victory no matter how battered he was afterward, to kiss away every last bit of his anger, frustration, and madness that made him who he was today, reduced to a man you had known as Zandik. And Dottore knows this, deep inside his heart that was once dead, now beating solely for you.

It was quiet. Below a whisper. Hoarse. A rasp of his voice that he had abused from all his screaming and shouting. It was something you weren't meant to hear. But you did. Loud and clear.

"Thank you, dearest."

Darling - Cute! I absolutely love this one. Also because of the memory of when he first used it on me (he was jealous... of himself). 10/10 again ♡ !

Dottore always has you for himself. It only makes sense, after all, he's the original. He hogs all your attention as you are his trusted assistant, the second opinion on all his research, and his lover, so the majority of his segments are extremely deprived of you. It wasn't a major issue, they are aware that they are just segments, but since Dottore's segments were just him in a sense, he couldn't simply erase their affection toward you. And it just happened that you were very giving with your love, whether it was Dottore himself or any of his segments.

There are times when you would seek out a segment whenever they aren't busy, and they would be absolutely elated. They'd let you hold them to your heart's content, pressing kisses on their faces and then consulting with them about your research or helping them to the task Dottore has assigned them. You do try to give each segment a fraction of your love that you mostly pour onto Dottore but your actions will always hold consequences. And those consequences are the segments getting a bit too distracted to focus on their work and becoming too greedy.

So imagine the overwhelming irritation Dottore felt when he saw a small group of his segments surrounding your rather amused form, suppressing a small smirk forming on your lips as you watched them bicker and argue all for your attention. Oh, you were soaking this up. Dottore once acted like this, back when you were both younger, so it was so refreshing and entertaining to see multiple versions of him act in such ways. But your enjoyment was shortlived when Dottore suddenly grabbed you by the waist and snatched you away from the greedy segments, a scowl prominent on his face.

Panicked, you were about to calm him down just in case he makes a move to rip apart the segments gathered around you but you were caught off guard when Dottore smashed his lips against yours instead, kissing you oh-so passionately. It was a type of kiss that made your knees weak, his hands gripping your waist as he forcibly tugged you close to him, bodies pressed against each other. You couldn't hold back the small whimper that escaped you when Dottore bit down on your bottom lip as his hands slid inside your shirt and pressed his fingers hard on your hips. Dottore eyed the segments that watched with envious eyes, but stayed put, not able to do anything against it. Snaking your arms around his neck, you gasped for air once he pulled away, whining about your aching lips and the blood that dribbled down your chin but he paid no mind to it, merely smirking to himself, pleased with his work.

Cupping your reddening cheeks, he finally spoke; "No one else but I could kiss you like that. Only I could touch you like this, nor love you as much as I do, darling." While he hadn't outright said it, the message was clear to the segments present as they all held disappointed expressions. You, on the other hand, realized that you've probably played a bit too long away from him, so he had to find you around his big laboratory to get you back all for himself. With an amused huff, you shook your head at the death glares that he was giving the poor love-deprived segments and grabbed his chin, turning his head back towards you.

"You're not finished with me, aren't you?" You raised a challenging brow, "Go on, continue."

Dottore's smirk grew. "Of course, darling."

Pet - Where the hell did this come from? Kinda cute but I wouldn't appreciate it if he were to call me that in front of other Harbingers (especially Pantalone... It was already embarrassing enough the first time). A solid 7/10 pet name ♡

You were his assistant for a reason. He's had plenty before, but they'd only end up dead or running for their lives. You were the only one who could handle Dottore; the Fatui's secret weapon whenever he started acting up, they needed you to get him to settle down, reminding him that if you were to piss off the Fatui, you're gonna lose all the funding they have for your research. But it didn't mean you had full control of him, you're his lover after all. While he wasn't an outright tease or a romantic, there are times when he was. And sometimes, they'd take you by surprise.

As his little assistant, you always make great work of his demands. You deliver amazing results and only rarely anger Dottore. Additionally, you've made a habit of suggesting and correcting him in some cases, and if it were someone else to do so, they would've been dead on the spot. But no, Dottore actually listens and considers your opinions. He would never turn deaf to your words if it was you. Just like this moment. Pantalone had visited the Doctor to confide about finances he provides to Dottore's 'silly little projects' (you had to hold back a snort at that) and in the middle of their negotiations, you piped up in their conversation, offering your side of view, seeing that they were both slowly getting heated.

The rest of the conversation flowed more smoothly after you joined in. Pantalone has fully calmed down and was thanking you for making him a cup of tea. As you poured a cup for Dottore, Pantalone suddenly said; "It's always more pleasant visiting here when they're around, no? You should be more like your lover, Doctor."

Dottore, who ignored his Pantalone now that he mentioned you, merely smirked and laced his fingers together. "Of course, such a good pet, aren't they?"

A rush of multiple emotions washed over your body in an instant. Bewilderment, embarrassment, and then rage. Your face was completely red as you refused to turn your head to look at the guest that was still inside his office. Gripping the kettle in your hands so hard it almost breaks, you ignore the Regrator who was now chuckling at your amusing reaction. "Well, this pet will throw this steaming hot kettle on his face if he dares to call me that again in front of another person." You say through gritted teeth, trying to maintain the bright smile on your face.

"Well, then this pet should know—" Before he could utter another word, the sound of glass shattering reverberated through his office whilst Pantalone walked out with a big smile on his face.

Love of my life - Can this be considered a pet name? Oh well, I'm adding it anyways. It was very... soft of Dottore, so I'm storing this memory in my head forever. Literally a 100/10 pet name ♡

Due to the enhancements that both of you have made to each other, the two of you no longer required sleep. Much to Dottore's dismay, you still sleep 8 hours on most nights, stating that it still helps you stay refreshed and sane after not sleeping for too long. So it was very rare for Dottore to lay on the bed with you in your shared (more like yours) private chambers. You were used to it, for the most part. Sometimes, Dottore would escort you to your private chambers, chatting before you pass out once your head landed on your pillow, or carry you there if you'd fallen asleep somewhere else.

Tonight was different.

Shed from his multiple layers of clothing and slipping into his rarely used robes, you incredulously stare at him strip right in front of you. You honestly don't remember the last time you saw so much of his skin that you were suddenly hit by the massive urge to lunge at him and let your cold hands roam all over his body, but you held back when Dottore gave you a pointed glare, knowing exactly what was going through his mind. "Be patient," He grumbles, finally slipping into his silk robes and finally walking to his side of the bed. Tucking himself right beside you, you immediately latched onto his body, burying your face onto his chest and pressing your body against his as close as possible, it was as if you were trying to merge yourself into him with how tight you were hugging him.

But he supposed he couldn't blame you. After all, he doesn't even remember when was the last time the two of you cuddled in each other's arms on a bed. The memory he could only recall was back when you both still went to the Akademiya, which was so many years ago. Plus, it has truly been a while since he felt himself so loosen up, practically melting in your loving embrace. He felt extremely light as if he was laying on clouds instead. He knew what he was exactly feeling; safe, relaxed, happy, and content. Content with you, only ever with you. Because you make him whole, feel emotions he never would've thought he'd ever feel, do things that didn't have relevance over his ambitions, and many more.

You've always reacted so surprised whenever he does something that was a little bit out of his usual character. So when he caressed your head, pulling you impossibly closer, enough that he could smell the faint remnants of your perfume, he felt you jolt from the suddenness, then eased back against him, he thought that perhaps he hasn't done enough as your lover. That the reason why you act so surprised and genuinely don't expect such acts was that he was lacking. You loved him with all your heart, he could see it, feel it. Everyone can. From the way, you'd always make an effort to clean up his messy lab, from your impeccable patience towards him, the amount of dedication you put into your work with him, and the affection you shower on him on a daily basis. Compared to you, it was as if you were simply dating a statue. Zandik did a better job of loving you.

But Zandik was dead, and there was only Dottore. You still loved him, nevertheless. Still chose him over the myriad of better options in Teyvat. The familiar fuzziness took over his whole body, where at first he felt disgusted at, now he welcomed it wholeheartedly. It was pleasant, he will never admit aloud. So when you asked why he chose to sleep with you tonight (and possibly more nights in the future), his response truly came from the deepest depths of his heart, with only the purest form of genuine love and devotion he could only offer to you.

"I just want to be with the love of my life."

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emma's big 6

birthday: november 25th

sun:

sagittarius sun: sagittarius suns are optimistic, bright and cheerful; they’re the best friends you could ever have. these people are in constant motion and they always seek both mental and physical stimulation in their connections. they’re curious, funny and vigorous. these individuals tend to be good at sports, and it’s very common to see them doing some spontaneous philosophical ramblings. they are adventurers and travellers; they love to travel no matter if it’s somewhere far away or close. sagittarius can start doing things and never finish them, and can also be quite cocky for being know-it-alls.

sun in 8th house: 8th house suns are usually interested in self analysis, they often seek out the darkest parts of their psyches, they have a deep desire to find the deeply buried wounds in the subconscious and heal them. this often leads them into the world of mystics and the occult. because there is a natural tendency to understand and be interested in topics that seem taboo to the public, these individuals keep a lot of who they are to themselves and have a hard time sharing themselves with the public. 

moon:

cancer moon: cancer moons are seriously the sweetest. ever. but. they can also be very crazy. they’re intensely affected by what sign the moon is in right now. this is a very good sign to have the moon in because it’s in its rulership. the thing they do best is feeling emotions, and they’re very driven by them as well. they understand that people can be emotional at times and they just understand people in general. they know that sometimes all a person needs is just a little comfort and kindness, so out of the kindness of their heart, they provide it. their emotions are very strong, and their emotional or family world may make them cry a lot. they may look calm on they outside, but they’re actually falling apart on the inside. their emotions are really jumpy, they have a lot of mood swings and think they’re feeling a certain way when in reality they’re not. they jump to conclusions easily. their mother may have been very emotional even if she was nurturing or just crazy, she had heavy emotions and the individual felt them as if they were experiencing it first hand, or they just got really good at reading their moms emotions and moods so that they could understand her and protect themselves. they may find that over time they’re learning the importance of taking care of their emotions and healing. they need to learn to just go with their emotions instead of being overwhelmed by them, and this will not be easy. but this will help their intuition develop and their emotions will actually become very powerful and instead of fearing them, they can start to work with them to get what they want. they can manifest anything to be honest. they process their emotions by taking their feelings of empathy and kindness and then turn it onto the people they care most about. they will literally smother you with affection.

moon in 4th house: a good, secure, loving family is of utmost importance to you. if your domestic life is bad, your health responds worse than most people (and it usually effects every other area of your life). my mom has this, and she has a terrible time letting her children go out into the world, as much as she claims she doesn’t (she’s also a cancer moon which. whew). she is also resentful of any independence, or anything she considers ungratefulness for her love and protection. there’s an excessive worry about our well-being, and it’s quite suffocating and emotionally manipulative to live with that.

rising/1st house:

aries rising: their ability to (at least appear) unfazed, unbothered by any chaos going on around them. very resilient. so good at putting up with people lmao.

mercury:

sagittarius mercury: a refreshing wit and a depth that can convey understanding outside of yourself. you may also be able to learn many languages with ease. the way you speak in general is notable to foreigners and attention grabbing. your sense of humor and the jokes you tell may also hit off better with people from a different cultural background.

mercury in 9th house: natives with mercury in the 9th house have very brilliant ideas! they are always on the search for knowledge, and love traveling. they might’ve even been traveling since they were younger. when they can’t travel, they will read books/articles & such to learn about different cultures, languages, religions, and philosophies. they tell stories in very entertaining and interesting ways, it gets everyone’s attention just like that. if they have an opinion, you will hear it. these individuals will want to have evidence and facts before arguing or taking a stance, so it is a great placement to have. they can also be very blunt at times, to the point where others consider it “bold.” they can also be very witty, and flirty if they really want to be. Impatience is a big keyword for these people as they dread waiting for things + people. i’ve noticed these natives can be very consistent with what they do, or say. surprisingly, they can be very wise although funny at the same time. they’ve been through a lot of experiences that provide them with knowledge and advice + wisdom to give to others. these people like learning different languages, especially in songs and can easily memorize + learn different words and phrases. they’re very spiritually in tune, and receive messages from the universe easily. they make good teachers and astrologers. this placement can make a person laugh often. they are highly adaptable to different ideas, religions, and point of views. their minds can get stuck in the clouds a lot, just because there is so much to contemplate and think about in this world that interests them. 

venus:

libra venus: thinking of your future the first days together, “i don’t wanna argue with you.”, making decisions together, lowkey co-dependent, “you’re like a dream.”, caring how others see your relationship, “let’s keep things fair”, “i wore this for you.”, monthly anniversaries.

venus in 7th house: likes to relate, feel the need to be in a commitment (marriage). they like to dedicate themselves to relationships. they can attract someone beautiful and recognizable. express love and romance. loves to make deals. they seek balance in life. wants to please their partner. it may indicate an improvement in material life after marriage. the big question of life involves partnerships, if the relationship (marriage, society) is disturbed it is affected. it has many partners and mediators. they like peace and love. seeks to make the other happy. attracts pleasure and fun.

mars:

scorpio mars: this is where the devil comes to play. with a scorpio mars person. from romantic connections, to friends, to their professional life, things for a scorpio mars are just about looking at everything through a deep/occult lens. doesn't necessarily actually devilish or dark or whatever, but just that it merely goes beyond what's simple. and what's fun is that they play it cool. but i'll tell you now - be careful not to get trapped into the wicked ways of a scorpio mars, they're good at what they do. that is - their intuitive aura towards you if they see you in a romantic way, their sex, their calm yet powerful energy, and being quite possessive. these may all seem enticing to one who likes an attractive vibe like theirs. but... it can be toxic. and that's all I'll say. besides the romantic side of things, the way these people move is the most interesting way of all the zodiac signs. they seem like they're not trying to be seen, and that could be what they aim for, but something about them and the way they move tends to make people want to get drawn in to them. it doesn't have to be in a romantic/sexual way. but even just working, or physically training, or in family/friendly territory; their energy is subtle one, but touches people. it just happens. don't ask how cause i don't know either.

mars in 8th house: you both crave and fear intimacy. on one hand, you might be hypersexual and very assertive about your wants and needs; on the other hand, you fear letting anyone close to you for fear of them ending up betraying you. paranoias about being cheated on by your partner; you might hold on too much and too tight to people, needing to learn to let go of that need to control the ones you love. fear of opening up and being vulnerable, yet you wouldn’t stand others acting like that towards you. sexually magnetic. you seek intense manifestation and answers to your many questions about the dark side of life, unresolved traumas, the workings of the universe, etc. transformation occurs when you conquer your paranoias and fear of losing control, and it’s through that manifestation that your energy runs at its highest. moving on might prove to be very difficult when you’ve learned to identify with that part of your life as a part of your character. this placement focuses a lot on acting out your self-expression, which was something you didn’t get to do when you were younger.

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emma' s masterlist

crd:

sun sun 2.

moon moon 2.

rising

mercury mercury 2.

venus venus 2.

mars mars 2.

[starofhisheart]

MAJOR SPOILERS FOR OFMD S2 EP6-7 under the cut

Ok, that was A LOT. I have so many feelings but no coherence so i'm gonna do this bullet point form but def not in order, just in order of me remembering wtf happened lol

-IZZY AND WEE JOHN IN DRAG!!!!! Wee John looked STUNNING with that Divine-esque appearance and Izzy had that transmasc drag king kind of thing going on (iykyk) that made me love him even more

-Izzy singing LA VI EN ROSE took me tf out!!! i'm glad he got to finish it after the *ahem* distractions bc Con's voice is so beautiful I could listen to it forever. We better get it in the album!!! Also someone posted the lyrics translated and i cannot get over the lyrics:

"It's him for me,/And me for him, for life/He told me, he swore to me, for life"

-But not only was he singing the second half had fucking gentlebeard doing the dirty in the next room asdfghjkl which.....was hot, ngl. The passion was electrifying. I'm sorta glad we didnt rlly see it with everything that happened after bc it all kinda left a bad taste in my mouth.

Also Stede Bonnet canonically gets turned on by violence confirmed

Or trauma. Whatever.

-What else happened in ep 6 cause all i can think of is drag and singing and sex-

-oh yeah there was that shortlived sexually-charged torturer who i distinctly recall him being in another scene in the promo so unless that got the cut perhaps he's not dead...?

-Lupete missing all the action cause they were doing the nasty all night lmao so real

-Jim best wingman (gender neutral)

-Stede...Stedey boy, can I call u that? Now i'm gonna say this nicely, but WHAT THE FUCK DUDE? Stede in his white guy w undue confidence era fr. Zheng Yi Sao was so right for what she did truly

-But in all seriousness i feel like this whole thing in ep 7 was such a parallel to s1 but also a very necessary bit of conflict in their journey together that was bound to happen. THey want different things and neither is wrong or right for that. Stede did react poorly tho but like he just had sex w the love of his life, his first man, and Ed the very next day is like "aight i'm out". I'd be pissed too. After killing someone which we know is a big trigger for him historically.

But Ed also had a valid reaction. He's wanted to retire for a while and stede knows this but it hasn't seemed to have sunk in quite yet. He fears that Stede only sees Blackbeard and...its fair of him to have that impression tbh. These are two messy, traumatized dudes who have never had a real relationship and there's gonna be bumps. I hope we get s3 so we can better explore that like Djenks wants.

-Ok back to the fun stuff:

-Izzy barging in on GB and the docking joke. love his cringefail ass.

-IZZY IS HAPPY FOR ED EVEN IF ITS NOT WITH HIM

#growth

-the edizzy apology which was so typical of them. i expected it but bc i'd been building it up in my head all week w twitter pals it felt a bit anticlimactic but thats not the shows fault. it was very much in character and if they're satisfied so am i. i always have fic for more

-stizzy commiserating over losing ed pls thats all i've ever wanted!!!!!

izzy: "when i told him i loved him he-"

stede, like he's heard this story before: "shot u yes"

and the look they gave each other after!!!!! stizzy nation how we feelin?!

-izzy being like "stede no" when he was on his macho bullshit w zheng yi sao (also motivated by trauma bc he just lost ed, he cant lose MORE family!!!). i just like how protective iz seems of stede now.

-izzy''s "you're good for him" CRYING THROWING UP ETCETERA

-ed catching 1 fish and deciding thats his life now. adhd realness fr

-the swede whew is it hot in here or is that just jackie's effect on her husbands?

-jackie and ed actin like old friends. swede highkey shading ed adfghjkl

-anyway im sure there's more but i need to rewatch. there r things i wont go into bc its possible spoilers for the finale (tho its mostly just speculation some is based on bts not everyone may have seen). i am looking forward to and terrified for the show to end next week thats all i'll say

[japhan2024]

Oops, I wrote part three. What happens when Ian wakes up after a good night of celebration with his best friend in the world, reunited once more? Here's the link to the previous part.

The sun was already high in the sky when Ian slowly opened his eyes. The taste of tobacco still strong in his mouth, combined with a massive hangover, was not the best. He didn't believe he would be able to get up at all. His whole body felt warm and heavy. He squeezed his eyes shut and opened them again. Something tickled his neck. Turning his head even a little bit, made the world spin around him, so he took it bit by bit. And slowly, a dark, curly mess came into view. And what Ian had mistaken for LA traffic, was actually his best friend's gentle honk-shoos, which he let out while laying sprawled all over Ian. Ian squeezed his eyes again. He moaned, he felt so queasy. Anthony was dreaming, and answered Ian's moan with a "hmmmmm". Ian couldn't see his friend's face but heard that he was smiling. Ian couldn't help but also smile. Anthony was so cute. With the hand that wasn't being slept on, he ruffled Anthony's curls. They were hard from all the gel and spray probably put on by Anthony. Ian sighed. He was kind of glad they weren't also nice and soft like the rest of Anthony's sleeping being. Or his mind would have surely gone to places he never let it go with his best friend.

As he awakened just a little further, a jolt of adrenaline rushed through him because he realized what this moment meant. They were doing this. They were back, classic Smosh, just like old times. But they owned Smosh now. Ian was terrified. Elated and terrified at the same time. It was an almost too good to be true kind of situation.

All kinds of scenarios shot through Ian's mind, giving him even more of a headache. What if he disappointed Anthony? What if Smosh did burn down to the ground? What if Anthony would start to resent him again? He knew he wouldn't leave again.. but did he truly know? He would never have thought that Anthony would leave all those years ago. He remembered it like it was yesterday. Anthony begging him to run away together, leave Smosh, and build a new brand together. He'd been so jaded, suspicious, and bitter that he hadn't even picked up on the hope that had shone through Anthony's pleading. Hope that they could begin again, just the two of them, Ian and Anthony. Begin again in more ways than one. But his appeals had been in vain. It wouldn't have worked. Ian was certain of it. In the end, it all had to happen exactly as it did. But that didn't mean it didn't hurt. It had hurt. Ian realized he was holding Anthony a bit too tightly, as a lump formed in his throat, and tears swelled up. And as he held on tight, he couldn't help but feel Anthony's strong arm muscles. He let go and breathed a couple of slow and steady breaths. "Keep it together, Ian", he said to himself.

"Ian.. Ian hmmmmh"

"wut?"

Anthony was waking up. Ian couldn't help but laugh at the fact that Anthony just said his name in his sleep.

"Oh.. my head.. FUCKING hurts dude"

"I guess we're getting too old to party this hard huh"

"Absolutely. It was fun, though."

Anthony was talking but not moving, probably because he felt as hungover as Ian.

"Did you sleep well?" Ian asked while laughing.

"Why are you laughing?"

"Because you called my name in your sleep."

"Wha.. I did?"

"Yeah, you were like 'oh Ian, Iannn!'"

Ian felt his friend's head turn really hot, but he didn't move.

"I probably dreamed you were really annoying and called for you to shut up."

Ian still laughed.

"Like how annoying you are now. It was a prophetic dream!" Anthony was laughing too now.

"Ugh, laughing is worsening my headache," Ian said, and it was true.

"I should probably get off of you.." Anthony began.

"No, don't move," Ian replied just a little fast.

"I mean, moving will only make things worse."

"True," Anthony replied.

They were both quiet for a bit. Anthony's head continued to radiate heat.

"Last night was the best night I've had in a long, long ass time," Anthony said.

While squinting at the far too bright cloudless sky, Ian replied, "Yeah, me too."

"Ian?"

"What?"

"The cigars, the champaign, God the whiskey.. that was nice, but the best thing about last night and even right now is.. this. This thing that we have. You know it."

More adrenaline. Ian's mind was spinning. What did this mean?

"Yeah, it's us," he replied casually. "We've been through it, Anthony. We've seen some shit! And we've come out on top in so many ways. How many people can say that?"

Anthony took Ian's free hand in his and held it. It was the most wonderful feeling that Ian had ever felt. He wished that Anthony would never let go.

[arigatonamuse]

continuing with my A3! re-read, this week it was time for

Act 3 - Bad Boy Portrait (pt1)

this re-read really solidified their arc as my fave, i apologise in advance for how long this is gonna be

warnings: i will vaguely discuss violence this time around, as well as call Banri names (i show my love for him that way)

Chapter 1

aight here we go two words in and i’m already overwhelmed with feelings

i am normal about Banri Settsu i swear

can’t bring myself to press play because i am having so many feelings already

deep breaths deep breaths

this is totally not stirring any emotion inside me wdym

i don’t think i’d paid that much attention to his voice back when i first read this but whew he sounds so… dead inside when he’s narrating all this? like there’s no emotion to it but there’s some sort of… heaviness in it? that we don’t normally hear in Banri now that i know the context behind the portraits, i am trying to pay attention to (and understand) the tone because Banri’s acting this monologue out, the voice and every word are intentional so he’s most likely portraying how he felt about all this with his voice and i’m feeling things (don’t take this at face value, i’m not good at understanding tone)

ah these lines [comment redacted bc i still have got some self respect tyvm]

oh this bitch is so depressed

the way that a mention of Juza Hyodo is what changed Banri’s life but also what immediately made me perk up and smile

the way Banri makes a point to say that he’s not “buddy-buddy” with… basically anyone pre-Mankai is really telling about his own loneliness but also about his not wanting to change that loneliness

he really sounds so dead inside, more so when he’s acting out his lines of dialogue, i can’t 

“a quick hunt” is such an interesting choice of words it reveals so much about his expectations of this fight (it was gonna be quick and ofc easy) and about how he was so sure he was gonna be the winner, but also about how he’s the one seeking this whole thing out in a completely one-sided way and how this “hunt” continued into Mankai and still seeped into Banri and Juza’s early relationship

ah yes, the exchange that started my own obsession with this fucker i’d say more about this but i’d just be quoting myself here so uhhhh yeah

okay i did NOT point this out in my essay but now i’m thinking about it and his explicit use of the word alone (i’m pretty sure i heard a hitori there) is making me feel like that’s important something something the fact that he’s alone with the incapacity of understanding himself and how that means it’s harder for him to process… himself? Maybe? i don’t wanna get ahead of myself but i’m kinda connecting this to my “‘til this moment i never knew myself” pseudo essay on the impact of Juza’s portrait in Banri, he NEEDS the company and coaxing of Izumi and to see Juza’s portrait, to see his foil as he is, until Banri can finally start to figure himself out or maybe i’m just reading too much into a single word but hey, who am i if not the person who reads too much into anything and everything Banri?

the smug ass smile i just gave with Banri’s loss 

not me getting all smiley and giggly at just hearing Juza

I SHOULD NOT BE ACTING THIS SMUG AT A COUPLE LINES BUT JUST READING ABOUT HIS DEFEAT AND THOUGHTS ABOUT IT MAKES ME FEEL SO EXCITED BECAUSE THIS BITCH HAS NO IDEA OF WHAT’S ABOUT TO COME

yeah well what’d you expect dude? for him to keep fighting you despite not being able to move? or what else were you hoping for? the fight’s done lmao

there’s a first time for everything also no one can’t tell me that the taste of defeat is not important to Banri, not just because it led him to Mankai and blablabla we all know the rest, but because it showed to him that there was more to life, more to experience and more to live in general

yeah his obsession with beating Juza kinda proves my point… the two weeks it took him to heal he finally had something to look forward to, fucked up as it was

the way Juza’s dismissal of Banri wanting a rematch is so important and so telling for them both

god, Juza could see right through him from the start, he saw the empty, no ambitions Banri and called it as it was right away i can only imagine how much that stung Banri back then

something something, the same thing that made Banri actually feel something for once getting absolutely no reaction from Juza

they’re so narrative foils i swear

eheheheh it’s coming

Banri your obsession may be getting out of hand

thank you, Matsukawa, for forcing him in, he needed that push 

Chapter 2

oh i’d forgotten Taichi was the first one to arrive to the audition considering that he’s the only one who we don’t know how he got there (yet) should’ve been suspicious the first time around huh?

OMIMI’S HERE 

yes and it’s one of my fave nicknames in all of Mankai (<- likes repetition)

i’d forgotten how lost he acted with Kazu at first but tbh? same, Omi, i feel you

something something the wanwan duo hitting it off through their personas while not knowing the other’s putting up a front

Taichi’s reaction to Yuki roasting him is SO funny i’d forgotten how he’d immediately gone into simp mode 

it can still happen, Taichi! don’t close yourself to the possibilities lol

I AM IN SO MUCH PAIN ABOUT OMI’S EXPLANATION he sounds so unsure with the “i guess” you can tell this man still has a lot of shit to process and i’m gonna cry just at thinking about it

Izumi, Omi’s not gonna traumadump about his dead best friend during his audition

JUZA MY BELOVED HE’S HERE NOW AND I CAN’T STOP SMILING

heheh Muku recognising his cousin :3

aaaaaaah the start of Juza pushing Muku away (for what he considers to be the best) and i’m emo already ough his words sting so hard ;-; i’m so sorry Mukkun

KAZU NOTICING AND GOING TO COMFORT MUKU RIGHT AWAY

THE WAY BANRI LITERALLY HAD TO BE PUSHED IN SDKBVHDFBV boy needs a push in more than one way for him to get into this tho

Banri really had a one track mind with fighting Juza lol, all his bitching to Matsukawa stopped the second he saw him and he went right to confront him instead lol

i’m so sorry Izumi… you’re not gonna go back to not being Fight Club for a while now

that’s a way to put it, Omimi

yes, Sumi, you’re right, Juza has the prettiest triangle eyes <3

i was gonna comment on Juza and Banri fighting but if i start doing that, we’re gonna be here for like a month so i’ll only mention it when i consider it Important

Chapter 3

Misumi’s too cute

okay i said i was gonna talk about it but the fact that Juza could’ve easily just pushed Banri away but he didn’t because that’s how hard he’s avoiding fights with him, he won’t “throw the first punch” even though this asshole’s been harassing him for a while now, he could beat him just as easily as he did in the past but he doesn’t want to be that person anymore so he won’t even try and aaaaaaaaaaah

kdjsbvhsdvbd that’s a way to put it

SAKYO IS HERE

Also i love how Izumi has come to care so much about Sakyo’s love for the theatre, so much that she wouldn’t start the audition without him ;w;

god i love akigumi so much they’re MY punks

hm do you think Taichi was maybe rethinking what he had to do just by seeing who his potential troupemates were? bc i think he has reasons to be scared for real here instead of just acting inoffensive

OMI MY BELOVED he sure knows what he’s talking about, isn’t he?

hell yeah Izumi, expose Sakyo for how caring he is

awwww is the tsun feeling a bit too seen?

Omi’s tone is so neutral in the audition, one must wonder how much time and effort he’s invested in keeping his tone (and all of him) under control after… y’know so it makes sense he doesn’t really know how to use his tone to act yet, his whole act for the past couple years has been suppression 

heheh i love how easily Izumi sees through Taichi, even if she can’t put her finger to it yet

something something while Omi’s struggle comes from not putting himself out there, Taichi is now starting to try to hide the actor part of himself and struggling with keeping it hidden

Chapter 4

oh Banri really just wants to be a nuisance here, huh? he had no reason for saying he’d go first for the audition other than not letting Juza go? i’m once again reminded of the anime, where we see Banri volunteering as the leader as soon as he sees Juza hesitate to volunteer himself

i hate him so much i hate him i hate him i hate him why is he like this (i would’ve acted out the dialogue with the same intonation, pauses and additions like laughter)

why, thank you, Izumi

huh this line right here… i’m now thinking about Fallen Blood and how Banri’s acting is explored and approached there

oh Juza… my beloved daikon Juza… i’m so emo hearing his acting here, he’s come so far and worked so hard and aaaaaaaaah ;w;

Banri fuck off

and there’s the passion and determination that make Juza the heart of akigumi

Juza’s so fucking lovely, he’s so earnest in his plea tbh that alone makes him one of the best candidates to be part of the troupe

THAT’S WHAT I’M SAYING! THANK YOU IZUMI!

Sakyo saying exactly what was on my mind

i’m so sorry, Izumi

Sakyo sounds SO SOFT during his audition reading thingie ;w; i’m now thinking about how this is how he’d probs talk to his real mum and aaaaaah

Yuki, need i remind you that one of your troupemates literally broke into and squatted at your dorm AND has stolen government property?

i think one of the reasons that i am not as annoyed with Banri as i was with Tenma is that Juza can and does dish back and he can hold his own while, say, Muku just crumbles

thank you, da- i mean Sakyo

Chapter 5

i’m sorry, i know that he’s an annoying little shit at this point but i can’t help but laugh at how utterly obsessed Banri is with Juza at this point

huh i just realised we never really got a followup or a call to the parents for Banri, Juza or Taichi’s stay at the dorms it kinda makes sense with Banri given… y’know, how his family is, but now i feel robbed of hearing and reading a call with Mama Hyodo

yeah i’m not even gonna stop myself at this point, Sakyo’s such a dad, and he cares for the theatre so much and wants to help so bad he’s too cute

Omi eldest daughter syndrome?

good on you, Omi, you shouldn’t spend all your life looking after others (and yes this means at Mankai too)

Sakyo writing history right here

i’m sorry i keep smiling to myself at all the Juza-Banri bickering bc reading these makes me so nostalgic ;w;

Omimi so respectful (but also this makes me double down on him having eldest daughter syndrome)

heheh Sakyo is too cute

AAAAAAAAAAAAANIIIIIIIIIIIIKIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

Sakoda my beloved

i love him so much he’s so puppy

ngl i know Omi and Taichi rooming together was a “by default thing” but with how much that arrangement’s done for the two of them it kinda feels like it was meant to be

Chapter 6

heheh the start of Omi being the cook at Mankai Omi my dear, just last chapter you were talking about how he didn’t want his family to need his looking after them all the time and now you’re adding to your responsibilities in this new place

huh i’d forgotten that Juza was the one to initiate their conversation at room 104

honestly Juza’s approach to this makes it noticeable how much he respects theatre as an art, even before he ever stepped foot on the stage as an actor himself he’s annoyed at Banri following him around, yeah, but that much he can manage and ignore but joining the troupe with no interest? that’s where he finally confronts Banri

Banri’s reasoning is so funny ngl like my dude if you don’t give a shit at theatre what satisfaction are you gonna get from winning at it? is your ego really that delicate that a random win at something you don’t care about will heal having been defeated in a fight? come on

also the way Banri deflected the questions and made them about insulting Juza? this boy is a mess who’s scared of being vulnerable in any way and, once again, it shows that not even he knows what he’s thinking

oh the localisation team sure knew what they were doing here

i love Juza so much everything he says and does makes me smile like a fool bestest boy

Omi’s smile-sweat expression hurts me when he sees Banri and Juza fighting and i don’t think i understand why, not entirely at least

the way Omi just walks in and restrains Juza like it’s no big deal I’m curious about this because yeah, he was with the Wolves and all but they disbanded years ago so can he do this while being rusty? or did he somehow keep himself fighting / training?

also i find it super interesting that he restrains Juza out of the two did he somehow know that Juza was the strongest out of the two / the one who could cause more damage? or maybe he’s seen their interactions enough to know that Banri just does shit to rile Juza up so if he restrains Juza then Banri won’t be that interested in fighting at the moment? idk but i think about it often

also the fact that… yeah Banri did not have any interest in fighting Juza while restrained He did try to fight Omi for restraining Juza but not Juza himself, which is honestly so interesting to me he wants to beat Juza, yeah, but he wants it to be a real victory because that’s what his bruised ego needs (and also, maybe subconsciously, the emotions/excitement he’s been craving) which brings me back to the point of him beating Juza at theatre not being that meaningful, not yet anyway, what he craves is something that he will not get if things remain as they are

Taichi trying to drag Banri away is so cute and funny

THE ATTITUDES AFTER THE FIGHT ARE SO DIFFERENT I WANNA SCREAM

Juza is so ashamed for doing what he did while Banri craves more fight

this is SUCH a gesture of trust and now i’m having so many Juza thoughts

the way Juza can trust Omi when they’ve known each other for so little shows how ready Juza is to commit to his troupe, and also how he tends to see the good in people despite having been ostracised and hurt… basically through all of his life also him ASKING for help shows how humble he is and how he knows where he isn’t doing that well and wants to work towards improving in those areas, he’s not afraid of showing said vulnerability to someone he met a couple hours ago and who literally just restrained his wrists and aaaaaaah something something Omi proving that he could’ve hurt Juza yet Juza trusting him with this but also trusting him not to hurt him and aaaaaaaah

and here we see Omi starting to see Nachi in Juza ;w;

oughhhh the fact that Izumi assumes that Sakyo knows more about her father than herself hurts so bad

Chapter 7

oh okay we’re here already… cool just let me get some tissues real quick

i’m too scared to press play i know this is gonna hurt like a bitch

deep breaths (is 8 words into the portrait)

his opening words are brilliant and i don’t think i appreciated it enough on the first read this is a self portrait, he’s showing who he is to the audience, but he starts what’s meant to be a self introduction by saying he wishes he wasn’t himself, and that already says so much about who he IS, about his self-loathing and about the work he’s put into the portrait itself and into himself as an actor yeah, he wishes he was someone else, but he’s now starting to accept himself as he is, enough to admit these things out loud

something something we are taught to hate ourselves for our differences

the world has been so unkind to Juza and THAT’S why he wishes he was someone else, not because he didn’t like who he was (at the start at least), but because others didn’t and that led him to the fighting that now make him resent himself

i need Juza to read Frankenstein so bad i know it’d resonate with him in his soul

also i’m gonna fight his teachers like wtf what problem did they have

Juza’s story is so heartbreaking he was literally just a kid trying to exist and people had a problem with it? and began picking fights with him? and while i’d like to say that that’s an odd thing to do… is that not what every single school bully does? picks up when someone is different and then makes their life hell for it and i think its closeness to reality is one of the things that makes it so heartbreaking Juza’s just a bullied kid who fought back and got a(n even worse) reputation from it

Juza seeing theatre as salvation from… being himself will always hurt, bc what he needed to do was accept himself (and THAT’S what he learns when putting himself out on stage but y’know, not yet)

honestly i hate Juza’s teachers

i’m so glad he didn’t give up on theatre after what happened in middle school tho

oh i had NOT taken in this line in completely the first time around, but it sure does support my point Muku didn’t become someone else, he just grew more confident in himself as a person and as an actor, he’s enjoying himself with friends who know and accept him as he is and that’s why he’s “completely at ease with himself” maybe Juza knows in some degree that that’s what he wants too, bc i don’t see why he’d use those words otherwise

okay yeah at this point he DOES know that he doesn’t want to be someone else, not really

and then, after this, we go back to the self loathing sobs

I love that we see the pieces for his character development there, but they haven’t yet clicked together, there’s still work to do and it’s something that takes him a lot of time, and i love how real that feels

he says he wants to come out of his shell but he also says he wants to be someone else, anyone else and i think that’s such a complex and interesting struggle

i’m so emo about Juza Hyodo

also i have more thoughts but i don’t wanna be redundant so i’m just gonna link y’all to a lil something i’d already written about Juza’s portrait (in the anime):

screaming Juza really works so hard

Muku trying to approach Juza again ;w; and Juza not knowing how to react to that ;w;

i’m not ready for what comes next

I AM IN SO MUCH PAIN

even when i know this scene by heart it hurts me so much and both of them having it as fuel for their own self loathing makes it so much worse

sobbing sobbing so much

JUZA LOVES HIS FAMILY SO MUCH AND HE JUST WANTS THE BEST FOR THEM BUT HE DOESN’T CONSIDER HIS PRESENCE IN THEIR LIVES TO BE PART OF “THE BEST” AND I’M SO EMO

Juza my beloved, you’re ALREADY someone people should be proud of, and i’m so sorry that you can’t see it yet

Chapter 8

Banri trying to pick a fight over him and Juza choosing where to sit is so funny to me

Omi and Taichi taking separating Banri and Juza as their personal task is also so funny

huh Taichi could’ve just… not helped… he could’ve pretended to be scared or something and not helped, which would make things worse overall for the troupe which… was his goal yet he helped and now that has a whole other meaning for me

heheheh i love this part so much

Sakoda is so proud of both Sakyo’s idea and his work, it’s too cute

hmm

evhbhbcksd Matsukawa why are you like this

eheheheheh Syu-san hi~

Sakyo cares so much about this troupe, really, he has thought so much about… well everything

huh so Yukio disappeared either when Izumi was in middle school or in her first year of high school?

Chapter 9

KAMEBUNS

ksdbvhbdf Sakyo’s reaction is hilarious

kdbevhfdbvfd Kamekichi you drama queen

JUZA BELOVED i’m smiling so wide he’s so cute

Banri you have absolutely no right to say this

ngl i’m kinda curious about how exactly those taste but also i know myself and i know i wouldn’t be able to stand the sweetness

Juza’s so unbothered by everything going on around him and just enjoying his kamebuns, it’s cute

Juza you don’t have to lie about you liking sweets ;-; 

oh Omi’s such a little shit for this i love it

huh Banri could see through Juza here interesting

SAKYO YOU’RE 30 YOU STILL HAVE SO MUCH OF YOUR LIFE AHEAD OF YOU 

OH FUCK JUZA’S HESITATION IN THE ANIME IS ALSO HERE? JUST NOT AS EXPLICIT?

Banri’s such a nuisance

AND IZUMI CONSIDERED JUZA TOO SHE SAID HE WAS THE RIGHT CHOICE EVEN AFTER BANRI STEPPED UP 

huh even when Izumi looks at him to give him the chance, he doesn’t take it i’d forgotten about this, this makes Banri becoming leader a bit less infuriating (i am not actually infuriated)

also ngl while he is the heart of akigumi, Juza’s self doubt would have been a problem for his leading, at this point of the story he’s not ready to lead a team, so despite everything… Banri WAS the better choice, huh?

see, i wanna bitch about Banri’s behaviour because it IS annoying and he’s a brat but anything i write ends up sounding / feeling insinceres so just know i’m annoyed at him

i love how Sakyo sensed Izumi’s hesitation and explained his reasoning to her heh

oh Izumi you have no idea just how much

Chapter 10

sobbing about Juza turning down the offers from Taichi and Tenma just because he doesn’t want those two to have their reputations affected by his own

i’d say something about Banri skipping but honestly i can’t fault him for it, being in classes where you already understand everything is boring and unnecessary as hell, might as well spend that time in better things (i had a rant here about the school system but that’s a rant for another day)

i’m sigh-laughing and shaking my head with a smile on my face at Banri’s explanations

OH THE TARUCHI NEO REVEAL WAS HERE?

it’s been done before and it’ll be done again, Izumi, it’s really not that big of a deal

sorry Izumi, but i’m with Banri in this one

still, i AM looking forward for the verbal beating Sakyo’s about to give him

hell yeah you tell him Sakyo

i have talked about this somewhere (maybe in my Banri Essay? But i’m not sure) but it’s so telling how Banri doesn’t say anything back to Sakyo because he KNOWS he’s right, he can’t say anything because there’s nothing he can say in his defence and it’s only after Sakyo leaves that he bitches about it but still doesn’t contradict him or anything 

honestly if i was Banri i’d just walk out the door and then go somewhere else to chill lmao (totally not talking from experience or anything wdym)

you hit the nail, Izumi

Chapter 11

sighing at Banri

heheh i love that Izumi gives Juza some special treatment, it’s what he deserves <3 she sees his passion and determination and she will recognise that as it should be

periodic reminder that Tsuzuru writes RPF

GAMER BOYS! i love that they include Citron in this scene, he deserves to be recognised as part of the gamer group ;w;

Omi taking care of the food for the first time holy shit

also something something Sakyo saying he will eat whatever because he doesn’t wanna be a burden, neither financially nor in terms of doing things for him

aww Sakyo so mean! you just said you’d eat whatever! why not curry!

Omi and Juza being the first ones to be on alert and worry about Tsuzuru older siblings behaviour

now that i’m saying it… isn’t all of (act 1) autumn troupe older brothers except for Banri?

“just passed out” guys come on, this is not normal 

as a Spanish golder century lit nerd, i will forever be upset about the localisation taking away the word “picaresque” from the title

huh i’d forgotten that Itaru offered to carry Tsuzuru to his room first he’s got to have some strength for that

why is Citron so cute ;w;

A3!EN Iconic line right here

TSUZURU’S POWERS DRIVE ME CRAZY SERIOUSLY

what was that again, Banri? something’s a “tall order” for you? huh

heheheh handcuffs incoming 

sdkbvhdfbv i love how cryptic they are about the handcuffs in the dialogue

Chapter 12

this is the second chapter in this ep names after a song (that i know) and now i’m curious

i love this CG so much i’ve been just staring at it for a couple minutes now

i’m obsessed with this chapter you guys don’t understand i know the dialogue by heart

Sumi and Kazu just commenting on the handcuff situation is so funny

Kazu so helpful <3 do you think he offered to help (at least in part) because he's scared of conflict and he saw one incoming and decided to try to avoid that?

Sumi baby… that’s not how that works he’s so cute and he’s just following Kazu’s example but it’s so funny

CHASE SCENE

i can’t stop smiling i love this chapter

Juza just jumping into action to help at any moment is so important to me

heheh they’re working together now~

i actually hadn’t paid attention to the details in this part but for once, Banri’s leading and communicating his plans, and Juza follows along because he knows they both have the same goal in mind and he is actually trusting Banri to take them there and idk that’s actually so cool to me? it’s not just that they bonded over beating that rando up, they were already working together since before they did

heheh i’m so excited for what’s coming

Banri’s so smug his smile is contagious

Banri’s so happy he finally gets to fight

honestly knowing how he is (was) with fights, this must be the most excitement he’s been feeling in a while and the fact that he has someone to share that moment with may make it better for him, given how lonely he usually is so what i’m saying is that now he has two instances in which Banri’s feeling something that’s possibly new and exciting, and both are tied to Juza fucking Hyodo

okay so they didn’t quite kill that guy, cool, i’d forgotten about that

also i think this is the first time that Juza gets praised and thanked for… this part of himself, and maybe the first time where he sees it being good for those around him right away and i’m emo now

“ONE OF MY OWN” i am feeling so very normal about this line, i’m not crying about Juza being an extremely group oriented and protective guy, i’m not crying about Juza finally having a place for himself and him protecting it however he can

and then he gets so shy and flustered at Izumi acknowledging his words i love him

i love how in sync Banri and Juza are when it comes to playfully lying about what they did to the dude it’s so funny

Sakyo so protective and caring too

[grimweathers]

just finished fargo and whewwwwwwwww. it was so good. i thought the balance between being fun/entertaining and being stressful/upsetting was really well done. (big cw for domestic violence for anyone who has not watched and is thinking about it) i haven’t watched a season of anything so quickly in years.

some unorganized thoughts that touch on some spoilers for the latter half of the show including the finale under the read more.

less about the show itself but it’s kinda funny that like 90% of the gif edits for fargo s5 are all of gator who is… not at all the main character or even the main antagonist lmao (but also i realize where i am (tumblr) so. unsurprising and comes with the territory lol)

witt :( was really hoping he’d make it out okay :( it would’ve been too neat and simple but would’ve been nice if him and indira both quit being cops and became besties or partners 😭

i’m really curious if the other seasons (or the movie) had a character like munch in them as well… i watched the movie and the first season forever ago so i don’t remember. but i did find him and his lore a little jarring genre wise every time it came up. like, i know we saw the flashback scene of him in like the 1500s but… was it a metaphor? was he a literally immortal character roaming around? i don’t know, the randomly supernatural element in the middle of the rest of the show felt a little confusing. REGARDLESS- that final final scene was great. the way roy tillman uses christianity to justify his violence throughout the season, and then the season ending with the final scene with dorothy and munch… eating the bread to absolve the “sin” he’s carried with him forever… very interesting!

also while the puppet show was devastating (and a great/effective way to somewhat distance and soften the blow of dot’s past) “it was all a dream” is kinda my least favorite trope of all time so. mixed feelings on that :/ i mean it was still very effective! dot wanting to confront linda and really SHOW her what happened after she was gone, and to be vindicated… whew :(

basically kicked my feet with glee every time lorraine came on in the latter half of the show and was like GET HIS ASSSSSSSSS so the final scene between her and roy. chefs kiss

also. dorothy + lyon = wizard of oz reference? is that a reach? probably lol

[gothsuguru]

KAIRO MY BELOVED im breaking in again w cookies and flowers 🍪🍪💐💐 for u!! 

i was gonna thank u for ur rb in the replies but my comment got too long 😭😭 U ALWAYS SAY THE SWEETEST THINGS I JUST WANT TO THANK U PROPERY…. 💔💔 but also!! while im here!!! tysm for ur tags on the gojo fics 🥺🥺 i dont want this to get too long phshdjs it will but i appreciate literally every single one of ur words & i always agree w ur stsg takes u just Get them…  im especially happy that u enjoyed the poly fic hehe u & satoru are suguru’s babies so true!! he loves u soo much <33 told me to give u a kiss on the forehead from him <333

anyway THANK YOU SO MUCH <33 for ur tags on the sugu fic everytime i see u in my notifs i giggle and kick my feet genuinely. IM SO GLAD THE SUMMER VIBE HIT …. i listened to uncomfortable while reading ur tags what a banger AND IM SOOO HAPPY U LIKED DRUNK!SUGU he’s so special to me…. ”papabear turned babybear” NO EXACTLY u always get it…. AND WAHHH U NOTICED THE 3S????? ur so observant and thoughtful im so touched 😭😭😭 it always feels like you’re a scientist and my fics are lil fish that you’re dissecting under a microscope lmao IT MAKES ME SO HAPPY <3333 i cant tell u how overjoyed i am that the ending hit too!!! seriously!!! i was a lil worried that i made it too sappy so that felt so reassuring 🥺🥺

in conclusion TYSM FOR BLESSING ME W UR THOUGHTS mwah mwah MWAH i hope u have a lovely day kairo!! pls invite me to the wedding when u marry sugu <333 ill bring u gifts!!

ARI PLEASEEEEEEE WHY ARE YOU THE MOST SWEETEST PRECIOUS ADORABLE PERSON ON THE PLANET I’M IN TEARS 🥹🩷 the way you always connect w people & be so kind to them… sniffles just know I Would Die For You <3 & THE GOJO FICS & POLY!SATOSUGU FIC LITERALLLLLLLLY REWIRED MY BRAIN CHEMISTRY……… literally felt like i was IN the stories it was insane in the best way possible 😭 A SMOOCH FROM SUGU YOU SAY??? a kiss from a bad bitch like him is literally all i want in life thank you legend

AHHHHHHH LISTENNNNNNN THE DRUNK!SUGU FIC WAS SO FUCKING SWEET LIKENDNDDNND literally had ME giggling twirling my hair kicking my feet etc……… & YOU LISTENED TO THE SONG??? 🥹 uncomfortable is one of my favs and it always gave me evening summer vibes so when i listened to it while reading your fic… oh it just hit SO good <3 seeing sugu’s soft sensitive side was so precious 2 me i feel like i don’t often see that in fics and WHEW you did it so well <333

AND THE THREES I’M SO FOND OF THE THREES!!!!! omfg not me in my kenjaku shoko dissection era……… methinks kenjaku & shoko would love to dissect your brain (massive compliment) bc the way you think of & write your stories…… oh just DELICIOUS. & YES THE ENDING WAS PERFECTTTTTTTT!!!!!! literally the perfect amt of sap it actually felt really cozy :’)

ALSO THANK YOU SOSOSOSOSOSOSOSO MUCH FOR YOUR TAGS ON THAT LIL TEASER SNIPPET IT LITERALLY MADE ME SO :’) as i was writing it i was like damn this shit is choppy as hell smh BUT I’M SO GLAD YOU LIKED THE SERPENT FANGS & REMORSE DISCERNING WHERE TO RESIDE HEHEHEHE <3 your tags made me feel so much better so thank you again :’)

THANK YOU FOR BLESSING US W YOUR FICS LIKE OMFG??? JUST BANGERS EVERYTIME HOW DO YOU DO IT??? i get so excited whenever you come out w a new story it’s like christmas morning fr <3 AND OFMFMDMD TRUST that you’re invited to mine & sugu’s wedding <333 you can bring shoko as your plus one <3 I HOPE YOU HAVE THE BEST DAY EVER I HOPE IT’S AS WONDERFUL AS YOU ARE :’) MWAH MWAH MWAH <3

[thenightdayblogger]

🍎 👻 🧥 for the fall writer asks!

thank you em! also you were so fast i saw this in my inbox a minute after reblogging LMAO. Ask game here

🍎 Apple: Do you have a favorite friend/platonic dynamic? Any friendships gone sour?

Ooh plenty, but I think one of my favorites is Cordelia and Elise, which has grown out of Elise's progression of character—although I always wanted them to make amends, she was much more of a static rival character and their reconciliation/friendship after years of being in constant competition and with mutual dislike just felt a little bit too easy. She's a much more interesting character now, I think, for her strong sense of justice, and the event that split them apart in the first place, both of them had (hopefully) very sympathetic reasons for doing what they did, and reacting as they did—as well as reasons they can look back on and regret responding to the other so angrily.

👻 Ghost: Do you have a character or a scene that continues to haunt you? Something or someone you wish you had done differently or just can’t stop thinking about?

WHEW, a lot. Difficulties of doing mostly third-person limited and having a fondness for subplots being very subtextual/limited in information until the main character gets whammed w them, I never get to go into depth the way I'm tempted to. Hyacinth, Duke Ardennes, Carys and Hatzirah, literally Rhen's entire backstory—they could all be their own books. And an addenum to that, in apparently a consistent character archtype to me—Constance and Elinori, two mothers who are dead but who haunt the narrative in very different ways, and sort of the distangling of this benevolent, ideal legacy left behind to the much more complicated woman beneath.

🧥 Coat: Where do you feel most comfortable writing or brainstorming?

At home so nobody can see the weird faces i make or hear when i say dialogue out loud so i can see if its got a good rhythm to it LMAO

thanks for the ask em!

[chaos0pikachu]

Get canceled BL challenge: You're most controversial opinion about KinnPorsche and about Cutie Pie. Lots of big feelings in those fandoms. Good places to get canceled, me thinks 😎

LMAO truly are trying to get me cancelled anon

For Cutie Pie, I didn't realize there were Big Feelings but I genuinely don't think it's a bad show. Saw it get a lot of criticism while airing but like, visually it looks better than most 2019/2020 BL which made it at least enjoyable to watch visually. Sure the story is all over the place and convoluted at times but so was TharnType and it was visually much more appealing to look at than Until We Meet Again or 1000 Stars and everyone loves those shows.

Idk what the popular opinions in fandom are but like, I know ppl are super paternalistic over NuNew and I think that's flat out fucking weird. I'm majorly against para-social relationships in general, but like, ppl were going hard "mama bearing" NuNew and that's so damn strange to me. Like sure I want CooHeart to be safe b/c they're an out queer actor in an unfriendly industry/society but I don't look at them and go "aw my baby, my child, he shouldn't ever do intimate scenes that's not appropriate" like he's adult wtf??? NuNew might be young (I think he's like 22/23?) but he's still an adult in his profession and also a fucking stranger???? He doesn't need other strangers - like wtf is Carol from Kentucky gonna do? - "protecting" him I'm sure he has friends and industry people who can help him and guide him.

So I guess that might be an unpopular opinion

For Kinnporsche, whew oh boy I'ma come out with it and note this has NOTHING to do with the recent shit do not message me about that I don't wanna be involved:

Build didn't give me anything in the intimate scenes with Vegas and Bible out-acted him every step of the way. Like, their sex scene? I was unimpressed b/c Build was just not giving, he had no facial expression really, and once I noticed that I couldn't not notice it. It was especially jarring during the last Vegas/Pete kiss in the after credits scene b/c Build didn't kiss Bible back he just dead fished. I like VegasPete as a ship, and Pete as a character so I could overlook this but yeah that's how I felt and I know this is def an unpopular opinion

Second, and I know this is unpopular in general for BL but I dislike acting ships and would LOVE to see some switch ups. I think Apo and Bible would do some major magic on screen - both just in general but also playing a couple - along with like, Bible and Jeff too. I think keeping all the actors locked in "pairings" ie: Mile/Apo, Bible/Build, Jeff/Barcode is boring creatively (I feel the same about other acting pairings too not just the ones at BOC for the record, like I think Zee and Max would kill a series together too). I know this is unpopular b/c I've seen stan twitter in regards to the BOC pairs and it's annoying lol I'm super excited for the MileApo historical drama like any classy bitch but I think it'd be dope if they also worked with other actors

I was gonna comment on BOC but know what I'ma step back lmao

[sungbeam]

xnonie present! (i realized i forgot to sign the anon ask but then i realized that u 1000000% know it's me b/c i'm just talking about marvel with a splash of kpop LOLKDSN)

WHEN I FOUND OUT ABOUT ICEMAN I WAS LIKE O_o b/c i never expected him to be so op!! hansol's powers are so cool like he can just DO THAT. for fun?!?! speaking of powers, i'm a biiiit curious! if you could have any marvel power what would it be? :D i think sersi's powers are soooo cool b/c matter manipulation? real op!! so i think that's the one for me, but as far as tech goes i'd go with falcon wings just b/c it's been a dream of mine to fly (even though i'm terrified of heights HAHAH)

MATT IS JUST- he's so fun & cocky & confident in himself. honestly if i was him, a walk of shame would NOT even be a walk of shame b/c i'd NEVER be ashamed of myself if i was THE matt murdock. he & druig are so AUGHHH it hurts. btw, have you seen the ms. marvel show? b/c i need someone to acknowledge the amazingness that is red dagger! he's so loveableeeee

i also like the darker mcu storylines just b/c i feel like w/ everything going on, some angst ought to happen!! the mcu definitely nails the happier, humorous stories but i'm currently LOVING the serious storylines. multiverse of madness felt more like a horror movie i was actually JUMPING in my seat, almost screamed at some parts, & almost had a heart attack ASLFKJF it was definitely an experience, but i'm not sure i'm ready to rewatch it b/c i'll have to prep myself before the watch LOL

u have a favorite movie/show in the franchise?? it's honestly hard, but i love the guardians of the galaxy movies, shang chi is a masterpiece, wandavision's a classic, and ms. marvel was something my family & i liked a lot!!

(p.s. sorry if these are on the longer side, lmao)

XNONIE !!! lol yeah i can def tell when it's u which is a good thing hehe and don't worry if these r on the longer side; i love long asks :') esp when i get to geek out w u >< but i will include a read more tab now for practicality sake :')

OMG THAT QUESTION 😩😩🤌🏻 so many cool options !!!!!! sersi's power is quite op tbh and so r falcon's wings !! i am particularly partial to wanda's chaos magic tho 😅😅 she's so cool and badass, no matter how scary she was in multiverse skcnskdn it was kind of hot but— LMAO ANYWAYS i obviously think all the mutants r super cool as well, and as for the technical things, i really think the ant man suit w the pym particles r suuuuper interesting and cool (dude, paul rudd is such a g like give him the oscar he deserves !!) i also have a love for rocket raccoon so i think his knowledge and skills/usage of projectiles is sick :') and anything w swords is also cool to me @_@

I DID WATCH MISS MARVEL JSJDBSJ AHHH RED DAGGER !! HE WAS SO CUTE >< AND YEAH HE WAS SO COOL AND LOVEABLE AS WELL SCREW THE OTHER GUY BYE 😭😭😭

DID U WATCH MOON KNIGHT?!CUZ THAT SHOW WAS AWESOME AS WELL like all the lore and oscar isaac's dual personality acting ?? the whole concept had me going brrrr like i was so excited for moon knight and i was def not disappointed !!

ur so right, multiverse WAS HORROR but i think it was so well done. it's not ur typical marvel movie, but it was *mind boggling* like chefs kiss i just ,,, whew. it keeps getting better :') AND SECRET WARS IS ALSO CONFIRMED !!!! MAKES ME BITE MY KNUCKLES AND SQUEAL EKFNEKD my family and i r so excited :')

LE GASP I COULD NEVER PICK A FAVORITE wait that's a lie i do have a favorite skcndkd it's capt america civil war 😌✨ i think it was such a good movie tbh like i literally have watched that thing so many times and i never get tired!! i could go on a tangent abt it anytime, any day :') i too loved wandavision and shangchi, like those were both so well done !! i liked the loki series except for the finale tbh 🤕 black panther will forever be a classic cuz i LOVE everett ross and shuri and okoye and CHADWICK 🥲🥲🥲 rest in peace to a literal icon and king wakanda forever </3

below i've included a little treat hehe ^_^

[petrichor-han]

yes, i've been getting a lot rest and catching up on some dramas i missed out on dhjaskhdjak me going through my watchlist first before i get to my books i bought during the summer hdsjakdhjaks yeah revamping is no joke. me rewriting a handful of fics too UGH i wanna kms lmao

YAAAAAY OMG I AM SO HAPPY YOUR GPA HAS RISEN! And a rich handsome situationship is back? GIRL, YOU GET THAT SUGAR ZADDY LOLOL you are so beautiful and humorous, he better spoil you!!! heheheh i have been exhausted from work and all, but i am feeling better! i am trying to look for a job in the graphic design field since the stupid application FINALLY got processed. WHEW! my anxiety finally came down and i am just lazing around looking for jobs and trying to catch up on hanging out with my friends too. i ditched everyone for so long because school was in the way UGH

omfg ignore how this is literally a MONTH late i am so sorry bae 😭🫶

what dramas have you been watching!! i started rewatching boys over flowers with my mom LMAO it’s so bad that it’s good 😩 and what books!! i’m always looking for new book recs so if you have some good ones 👀

MY GPA WILL DEFINITELY GO DOWN AFTER PHYSICS AND MY EBIO LAB 🔥🔥🔥🔥 but that’s why i worked so hard to raise it the semester before HAHA i knew this would happen 😭 AND YESSS just went on a date this past weekend with him and i watched him drop over $100 on me in one day i felt like a sugar baby 💀 you’re too sweet AHHH

so so glad that the application got processed!! how’s the job searching going now? everywhere you apply should be BEGGING for you to work for them, it’d be their fault and their loss if they wanna miss out on someone so lovely!! and i will personally fight them 👊💥

dude TELL ME ABOUT IT i feel like i never see my friends any more because of school 😭😭 so glad you’re out of it now!! and i hope you’re having a lot of fun with your friends and relaxing and patting yourself on the back for being such a smart and talented individual 🫶

[kithtaehyung]

Oh my. GGOOOSSSHHHHHH!!! I can't handle this. I've already read it 3 times. Can I take the rest of the week off to just read it over and over again?

I just. Wow. I want to both slap sweet Yoongi in the head then pull him close and just hold him so tight. He deserves the world. And reader is so ready to give him the world!

Jungkook. Jungkook. Jungkook. As someone who is currently being personally victimized by this man in real life, I fully understand the emotions around him and their past. But reader has a good head on her shoulders. She's strong. And she's not letting Yoongi get away with hiding himself under the expectations of his own mind. What a queen our dear reader is.

The brother reveal!? I just. You got me you sneaky little sneak!

But overall, what a well written chapter. I cried a few times. Not all sad tears. But just tears. The risk does not seem to outweigh the reward right now and I think that's beautiful. When Yoongi cried, I cried.

The aftercare? The hand holding? May we all find a partner as wonderful as 3tan Yoongi. When he lowers his walls, he shines bright with all of the love he has to give. Both to reader and to us.

My life was already divided into before Hit Record and after Hit Record. But here we go again. Before 3tan9 and after 3tan9. It shall be the new measurement of time.

Thank you, thank you, thank you for your time. Your words of angst and comfort and love with these two. My personal love life is a desert and these chapters give me hope for a future that someone could love me like 3tan Yoongi loves our dear reader. You're a magician with text and I hope you know how much your work is valued.

Please enjoy your time of rest! You've given us a masterpiece in the meantime to love and read over and over again.

- 🐈‍⬛

CAT🥺🥺🥺 oh my god you already read it three times?? Holy shit that’s so many times I love you so much.. You better work and get that money, though LMAO thank you so much, love. I am honored!

This Yoongi really does deserve the world. And you are right, reader is ready to be there for him and it’s so wonderful to see the dynamic shift here. Jungkook is certainly coming into the main storyline with a big question mark, so we shall see what happens with him, too. You are correct about reader, though🥹 Good head on her shoulders.

AHAHA the bro reveal yesssss!! Mwahaha I was so ready to see how y’all were gonna take that😂

The tears this chapter made me shed.. I just.. Yeah. They truly went through the storm and came out on the other side and what a sight that is to see. I am so proud of them both honestly and they deserve that night to themselves. And you brought up a brilliant point about Yoongi: how he’s completely and wholly himself when he let all of his walls down. As soon as he was sure of reader’s stance,, the safety he felt,, my god. I wanted to cry with them both and I did.

Before 3tan9 and after 3tan9🥺❤️‍🩹 People have said it’s like a season finale, and sometimes season finales do that to me, too. It’s a specific feeling for sure🥹

I can’t even describe how your comments make me feel. Thank you for acknowledging the work and effort bc wHEW this chapter in particular took all of me, and dal segno was being written at the same time. So. You can imagine all the emotional hoops I was running through to create these two together at the same time🥲🥲🥲 I’m glad you can read this one over and over again :’))) that’s what it’s there for. Thank you again and I love you!!

[early2000smovieimagines]

Meeting and Dating Adam Stanheight

(Not my gif)(Requested by anonymous)

(I saw the “rockstar” deleted scene like halfway through writing the dating portion of this and after writing the meeting portion and whew boy did I almost change this entire post because of it lmao)

- No relationship with Adam is devoid of conflict. He is; at his very core, an angry and cynical person and that in itself makes it difficult to date him. 

- A part of you wishes that you could break away from him forever but no matter how many times you swear that you’re never gonna speak to him again; no matter how many fights you get into or how difficult you find trying to get along with him is, you still can’t manage to shake him for good. Bad times are bad but good times are great and that’s what keeps you coming back for more.

- This is the man that you’ve “chosen” to love; for better or for worse, and now you can do nothing but lay in the bed that you’ve made. At least you know he’ll always be laying there beside you....

- You and Adam met in college. You had a class together and the two of you exchanged numbers as per the professors recommendation.

- Initially, this line of communication was merely meant for questions about class, but you soon found yourselves using it to speak more casually: wishing each other good luck on tests, telling the other person to feel better when they were out sick, gossiping about the teacher or the class and just making general conversation about whatever you had in common. 

- When you first met him, you’d assumed he was one of those angst ridden art majors who read Bukowski and emotionally traumatized their girlfriends but the more you spoke to him, the more it became obvious that that wasn’t the case. He was actually down to earth and, if anything, down on his luck: depressed and angry, not because he had any underlying issues but because he was living in a trashy apartment and dealing with the sort of people who would make just about anybody lose hope in humanity. 

- You and Adam were never quite “friends” but you did enjoy conversating with him and you felt like you knew him enough to consider him an acquaintance; which would ultimately lead to you agreeing to go out with him. 

- He asked you out for coffee a little ways into your freshman year of college and the two of you grabbed said hot drinks after class one day when it was particularly cold. You shared your first kiss not long after....

- You were over at his place doing some school work and just sort of being in each others presence and he spent the entire time just thinking about how much he liked you and how nice it felt to be around you. In the midst of shuffling through papers, writing things down, and drinking cold coffee, he just sort of leaned over and kissed you; not that you’re complaining. 

- And just like that, it was time to play the game. 

- Adam doesn’t see pda as being any different from normal affection so he’s likely to treat you the same way he would in private while you’re out in public; minus a couple ass smacks and tongue touches. He respects your boundaries more than anything so it’s really just up to you to decide if you want to makeout on the subway or if you’d rather just touch thighs. 

- Handholding. 

- Top of the head and forehead kisses. He gives you a lot of them but they’re usually done at random; oftentimes in the middle of smoking a cigarette or while laying in bed. Occasionally you’ll receive an onslaught of them for no real reason at all; not that you’re complaining of course. 

- Somewhat slow, passionate kisses. 

- Affectionate name calling and nicknames that confuse everyone who isn’t you. He’ll usually refer to you by your given name, but when he’s looking to call you something different, you’re either being called a bitch or something oddly specific that refers to an event that only the two of you were there to witness. 

- The world is cold and hard: titties are warm and soft.... Adam talks a big game for someone who literally chooses to have his feet hang off the bed/side of the couch just so he can lay his head on your chest/stomach while the two of you cuddle. 

- I have a feeling that him falling asleep in his red room is a pretty common occurrence so don’t be surprised if you have to go into it and jostle him awake; guiding him to bed while he stumbles around half asleep. 

- I hate everyone but you. That's it, that’s your entire relationship. Even the things he’d usually find annoying in other people are endearing when it comes to you. So, if you ever feel like a burden, just know he considers you to be one of the best things that have ever happened to him. 

- He can never just take a “nice” photo of you: it always has to be something stupid. You in the kitchen with horrible bedhead, halfway through brushing your teeth and trying to close the door on him, you while you’re asleep (don’t ask), a shot from the window of his apartment while you’re walking out to your car. God help you if you think you’re getting a cute photoshoot: you’re lucky if you have even one photo in his collection that you’d willingly show another human being.

- He probably asked to take your picture the first time the two of you met and since it was in college; where everybody has a handful of different class projects, you didn’t really think twice about it and shyly agreed. The amount of times he’s stared at that picture is borderline unhealthy but it’s also kind of cute; if only you knew he still had it....

- Leaving each other little notes that range from joking insults to sweet affirmations.

- Bringing food whenever you go over to his apartment. You know that he goes hungry instead of just asking if you can cover him between pay checks so you don’t mention it and just bring it over when you know that his fridge is empty.

- Adam has the stereotypical décor that single men who live alone have …which is no décor. It’s the reason why he loves your apartment so much: it can be just as cheap and shitty as his own apartment but the difference is, you’ve put in the effort to make it drastically more comfortable; like buying a bunch of pillows and hanging up different fairy lights.

- You once surprised him by putting up fairy lights in his bedroom and though he laughed at it when he first saw it, he definitely; secretly, got a little choked up.

- Cheap dates. I’m sorry but your boyfriend is broke and there is no changing that. 

- What he lacks in funds, he makes up for in heart. He may not be able to get you a good birthday gift or an expensive date but he does everything he can to make things special for the two of you.

- Chilling in his apartment. He spends so much of his days wandering around different towns and cities and because of that, sometimes he really just prefers to stay in.

- Standing outside with him while he smokes.

- Going to free entry museums.

- Eating lunch or grabbing some coffee while you walk around your city/town.

- Most of the time, he drinks his coffee fully black and it’s the reason why you don’t allow yourself to completely trust him. That is Ted Bundy behavior and you’re not falling for it.

- Going to slightly seedy nightclubs/dive bars because his one friend is performing with his band and he wants to be there for his bro.

- Exchanging cassettes and cds. The two of you aren’t allowed to break up, not because you love each other too much but because it’ll be too much of a fucking hassle to sort through all of your purchases and decide who gets to keep what.

- Bickering about dumb shit.

- Talking about and listening to all his work stories. There’s a lot of fascinating drama that comes with being a private investigator and you’re on the receiving end of all that gossip.

- Speaking of stories: he loves hearing you talk about your life. All of your childhood stories and those weird little details about your family and friends interest him more than you can imagine.

- I feel like he has a bunch of random scars that go hand in hand with strange stories: like how his friend stabbed him with a rusty nail or how he burnt himself with chemicals/almost sliced his finger off while trying to renovate his apartment.  

- If we’re under the impression that he escaped his saw trap then just know that you’re going to be dealing with a lot of clinginess and attachment issues. He won’t be comfortable being left alone so he’s either with you constantly or being passed around a circle of you and your loved ones so that he can feel safe.

- The two of you have a lot of routines: like what you do when the power goes out or how the two of you get home from work. He likes the way his actions wrap around yours, how intertwined your schedules and behavior have become; it makes him feel less lonely throughout the day. 

- It doesn’t matter how long you’ve been together, Adam still gets embarrassed if you catch him watching porn or even just walk in during like a lengthy sex scene in a movie. The speed at which he slams his laptop shut and says a high pitched and nervous “what?” makes you feel like you’re his mother and not the girl that's been sucking and fucking him for the past year and a half. 

- He’s like... kind of a fucking idiot?? You’re definitely gonna have to step in and tell him to stop from time to time: like when he’s pissing off a person that’s supposed to kill him or willingly trying to smoke a poisoned cigarette. 

- Laughing at his stupid little quips.

- Your day is filled with sarcastic comments so I hope you can dish them out as much as he does.

- Adam is admittedly kind of an asshole but that doesn’t mean he doesn’t have any redeeming qualities as well. Underneath his hardened exterior is a soft and gooey inside: one that wants to love and be loved back and lucky for you, you’re the one he’s chosen to give all that love to.

- This is borderline irrelevant but Adam seems like the type of guy who would accidentally have a kid in college: he gives off the vibes of someone who gets up at three am to soothe their baby. And on that same note: I think he’d surprise you with just how much he wants kids. He might seem like the type of guy who wouldn’t even believe in marriage but ask him and he’ll tell you all about his three daughters and a dog plan.

- I feel like Adam doesn’t really have any close friends or family so his life very quickly begins to revolve around your own. You’re his number one person the minute the two of you start dating so get used to being a priority.

- The concept of Adam deceiving you is genuinely laughable, not because he wouldn’t try but because he’d be so exceedingly shit at it that you’d immediately know he wasn’t telling the truth. He’s a terrible liar and it’s part of the reason why you can trust him so much. 

- Adam’s spent a long time trailing after cheating spouses, you can’t tell me that he isn’t at least a little disillusioned with love and/ or paranoid. I definitely think he still believes in it but he’s probably worried that he’s going to give his all to someone and get fucked over because of it. Like the wise Amigo the Devil once said : I've always been scared of loving someone just a little bit more than I'm loved.

- He isn’t a terribly jealous person but he has his moments; usually when his work gets particularly depressing. He doesn’t feel threatened by every single man in your life but if you’re really close to someone and something from his job hits a little too close to home, he’ll get a bit passive aggressive with you. 

- He’s a normal amount of protective. He gets worried when there’s reason to be worried but doesn’t always sweat every little thing; which is good cause he isn’t threatening even when he tries. 

- Oh no! The wet rat who self admittedly has an anger problem isn’t the most perfect boyfriend in the world? Who would have thought? No, but seriously, if you came here thinking I’d tell you that arguments never break out between the two of you then I’m sorry but that’s on you.  

- You mostly bicker about stuff that doesn’t really matter but it isn’t improbable for him to get particularly emotional and say something sarcastic/hurtful. He’ll say it, his heart will drop and he’ll rub a hand down his face before walking towards you to try and apologize. 

- Apologies tend to change depending on the situation. Sometimes it’s a mouthful of “sorry”’s and a hug, other times it’s an abrupt and passionate kiss. He isn’t great at expressing his remorse verbally but he does his best and you always know that he really does regret his actions. 

- I feel like he told you that he loved you for the first time when you bought him a pack of cigarettes; like one of those exaggerated “I love you’s” that more or less mean thank you, and it took him a minute to realize what he’d said and that he’d never actually said that to you before. Nevertheless, he doesn’t tell you that he loves you very often but he always picks strange times to do so when he actually does. 

- Even though his whole career pretty much revolves around how badly marriages can pan out, he still believes in them and wants one of his own. He trusts that you’re different and that the two of you will be happy together and he’s looking forward to spending the rest of his life with you. 

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JACK HARLOW X FEM!READER: FUN TIMES IN LOUISVILLE - PART 1

Author's Notes: Whew we this is the moment y'all have been waiting for I finally had the motivation to finish up my first ever Jack Harlow fanfic post. This took a really long time because I started writing and then I just lost my whole entire motivation. But I had got it back and this is finally done I am happy with how this turned out. I will try to do more Jack content from now on and not be dry with him anymore lmao.

This will become two parts because it is so long. 😭

Also, not me having to do a little research on Louisville for me to get inspiration for this please 😂😭. ANYWAYS, hope you guys like it and let me know what you think!

@harlowscutie: This entire Series is for you. I hope you enjoy this fanfic! <3 :3

Description: You and Jack have both been super busy with work. You and Jack decided to take a week off to go back to his home town Louisville, Kentucky. Jack not only wanted to see his family but also he wanted to spend time with you.

Warning: slight cussing. little smut. Pure fluff and fun! :)

You and Jack have been super busy for the past few months. Jack has been working late at the studio non stop. You on the other hand are n owner of a popular bakery and you have been working at the bakery non stop taking orders and getting cakes catered for big events.

It was morning as you groaned as you rubbed your eyes awake and felt the sun hit your face. You were rubbing your eyes as you yawn and got up out of the bed. You noticed two suitcases sitting in front of the door and you notice Jack scrambling through the closet and quickly packing clothes in the suitcase.

"Jack.... wh- what are you doing?" You asked as you were looking at him confused

"I need a damn break, so I decided to take some weeks off and go back home to Louisville. I think you should call off too mamas." he said as he was trying to close a overpacked suitcase.

"Why do I need to call off?" You asked as you slowly walked over to Jack and helped him close the suitcase.

"Because you are coming with me." He said as he smiled cheekily as he tried to zip up the suitcase

"a- are you sure? I haven't really gotten to meet your parents and I don't think your parents will like me." You said as you looked at him getting nervous at the thought of meeting Jack's parents.

Jack looked at you in reassurance as he hugs you kissing your forehead "Yes, i'm sure mamas. My family would be absolutely crazy not to love you." You then sighed in relief and nodded as you cuddled up to him. You then went and got ready for you flight. A stop to Tennessee and a layover later you guys landed in Jack's hometown and you both were super exhausted. You ended up staying with Jack's family and you loved his family. They were super nice and really down to earth and chill.

"So, Y/N what do you do for a living?" Jack's mom asked as you were all sitting down at the table eating dinner

"Oh I own a bakery and I do cakes and cookies. Speaking of which-" you ran away from the table quickly and you went through your backpack and pulled out a small box of your famous Chocolate Chip cookies and you went back with the box in the hands and everyone looked at the box in awe and you opened it smirking "Dig in!" Jack's family looked in awe as they grabbed a cookie and ate one. "DAMN Y/N these are really good!" Jack's brother Clay said as he took another bite.

"Thanks Clay!" You smiled as you sat back down and finished your food.

After dinner you went to take a much needed shower and you were in you pjs and you put your hair up in a messy bun. You ended up sleeping in Jack's old room and sighed as your head hits the pillow. Jack came in and sighed and laid next you.

"Damn what a day." He said as he turned and looked over at you smiling stroking you face.

"mmm yea." you said as you started to kiss his neck and started to give him hickies. "Shit-" he groaned as he turned you up on top of him and he looked at you with pleading eyes.

"Ride me." He said wimpering as you slowly began to grind on him giggling teasing him. He began to moan as you kept going feeling him get hard just then you heard a knock at the door and you quickly stopped and looked at the door like a deer in headlights.

"Jack are you ok?" Jack's mom asked as you quickly got on the other side of the bed.

"Yea ma im fine!" Jack said as he looked you nervous and then at the door as you chuckled lightly as you slowly began again he quickly squeezed his eyes shut and covered his mouth as he tried not to moaned loud.

"Ok honey, goodnight." Jacks mom said as she left. Jack sighed in relief holding on to your waist and looked at you growling.

"You fucking little tease." You giggled and smirked as you got off of him and began to take off your large comfy t shirt leaving you topless and in really short shorts. Jack's mouth went wide as he looks in full blown lust as he began to litter your chest in hickies and you moaned lightly.

"Got imma fuck you so fucking good" Jack then flipped you over on your back and you giggled as you lifted the blanket over the two of you and giggles and moans began to fill the room.

THE NEXT DAY:

The next day you slowly woke up in bliss and heaven. You couldn't get last night out of your head.

"G'morning Jack." You said as you turned to see Jack not in bed. You looked confused and turned towards the nightstand as you notice a note on the night stand. You grabbed the note and opened it as it says:

"Get dressed and meet me outside in 1 hour. I have an amazing day planned for us."

Love you bunny,

Jackman

you quickly got up and dressed in your best outfit and you ran down stairs and you saw Jack standing there in his nice outfit holding roses and having a nice drop top Cadillac parked behind him. You look in pure shock as he chuckled and smiled.

"Jack what is this?" You asked as you looked at him confused but yet intrigued.

"I planned us a picnic at the park, a burbon tasting at one of my favorite spots and to top it all off going to take my lovely girl out to the zoo." Jack said as he hand you the flowers smirking he also had another plan up his sleeve but he wanted to wait to surprise you.

"Oh wow- Jack no one has ever done this for me before." You said gushing as you smelled the flowers and looked at him. You knew this whole entire trip was going to be fun and also get to learn more about Jack as well.

This was only just the beginning.

TO BE CONTINUED . . .