#admiral benitez

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[its-deputy-caleb]

Day Ten –“Sneaking Glances”

character: Yelena Morales | 991 words |

summary: caught in a argument between la moral, libertad and the legends, you can’t help but be drawn to yelena the whole time and neither of you can keep your eyes from each other

note: i wrote this in five mins cause i’m so behind lmao and even tho i love yelena and wanted to do her justice since she’s one of my faves i just don’t like how this turned out :( i might come back and change this later but i still wanted to meet the dead line of getting it posted today

Holy fuck this meeting was boring.

For almost three hours straight members of La Moral, Libertad and the Legends had been at each other's throats, arguing over this and that. At first it was who got first dibs on medicine but it quickly boiled over into an ugly battle over territory.

La Moral wanted the Legends to stay tucked away in Patriotas Peak, licking their wounds so they could do the ‘real fighting’ and the Legends wanted La Moral to step back so they could reclaim the spotlight of El Este’s strongest guerrilla groups. At some point during the meeting, Dani tried to step in, to be the voice of reason but that got her nowhere once people questioned Libertad’s motives in all of this.

Eventually it reached a stage where the arguing was pointless. Hostages from all the groups had been taken and captured under Admiral Benitez– there was no time to waste squabbling amongst each other but anyone who had voiced any reason had been shut down.

Whilst Jonrón was on her third round of bickering with The Legends, your eyes drifted over to Yelena who was seated beside you. She looked tired and defeated– this was getting you nowhere and you could tell underneath her stoicism that all the heated tension between the groups was wearing her down.

She had stopped interjecting a while ago, instead choosing to listen as she pinched the bridge of her nose and rested her arms on the large table set up in the middle of El Agujero base in Concepción. It probably didn’t help that she spent her days hunched over files in a damp basement all the time and if it wasn’t for the curfew and heavy FND presence in the town, you’d take her out more.

Just wait until we take out Benitez and that fucker Mckay– then we’ll be free to be together.

Your eyes meet her exhausted ones, and she softens at the reassuring look you give her. All the groaning and swearing is drowned out around you as the two of you share glances at each other. It’s only when the yelling picks up again or a new argument rises does your attention flicker back to the task at hand.

And so it goes on like that. For however many hours of pointless bickering, your eyes always find each other and the sneaking glances are thrown your way. Eventually, your hands gravitate towards Yelena’s own, finding her fingers spread over her thigh as you loop your fingers together and squeeze reassuringly from underneath the protection of the table.

“For fucks sake! Can we stop arguing and go save our people, our friends– our family?!” Your voice is full of confidence, and possibly a hint of annoyance from repeating the same idea for so long. But even through it all your hand never leaves Yelena’s.

“Castillo wants to divide us all. True Yarans. Fake Yarans. It’s all one Yara.” Dani gives the two of you a nod of approval and something like consensus shifts in the room. The petty insults cease from all sides and Gilberto makes some calls to gather the men, finally realising that everyone is getting along enough to go out and save your people.

“Hah! You stole that right outta Clara’s book Bebé Tigre!” El Tigre’s infectious laughter seems to have everyone relaxing. Dani breathes a sigh of relief and you can’t help but notice the way Jonrón’s eyes light up as she idolises the Legends once more.

“I think we’ve wasted enough time standing around here. Dani, will you come with us to help save our people? We’ll lend you the medicine as gratitude.” Yelena’s voice is steady and calm as she leads the group. Her natural leadership is one of the things you love and admire about her, the way she speaks from the heart but still fighting for those she loves. 

Her hand snakes from your fingers up to your wrist, rubbing slow circles with her thumb as she tries to subtly pull you closer to her. Physical affection always grounded her in stressful situations.

Dani nods without a moment's hesitation, reloading her handgun and adjusting the strange looking rocket booster on her shoulders. Hey, there’s no judging anyone’s fashion statements in times of crisis.

“Bebé Tigre, you best not think of sidelining me! I may be old but this guerrilla legend has some kick left in him,” El Tigre jumps up with Dani, flexing his arms as he grabs some spare ammo from the centre of the table before turning towards where you and Yelena are sitting. “And for the love of God– would you two just kiss already? You’ve been staring at each other for the past four hours.”

Both you and Yelena squeak at that, unused to any outright attention unless it’s coming from Gilberto or Jonrón on the rare occasion at one of La Morals parties. She blushes profusely, going to restack some of the maps by her computer in an awkward attempt to keep her hands busy.

You’re not so fortunate as El Tigre throws an arm around your shoulders for some of his infamous Legend wisdom. “Oh to be young and in love again– there’s nothing quite like a romance between revolutions.”

Just as he is about to lead you up the steps towards the entrance, you glance over his arm to find Yelena already gazing back at you. She gives a big wave and wishes good luck on returning safely but her flustered shyness appears once you blow her a kiss and return her wave.  You can’t help the way your stomach warms at the sight of her dramatically catching the kiss and holding it close to her chest from the corner of your eye. 

El Tigre certainly isn’t going to let you forget how cute you two are together through the whole drive down to the docks.

[annoyingmagazinetyrant]

Baylen Levine Merch Store: A Shopper's Paradise

The world of content creation has seen a meteoric rise in recent years, and Baylen Levine is one of the standout stars. With his engaging YouTube videos and captivating online presence, he has managed to amass a dedicated following. Beyond his content, Baylen has ventured into the world of merchandise, offering fans a tangible way to connect with him and showcase their loyalty. In this blog post, we'll explore the Baylen Levine Merch Store, delving into the products, their significance, and the overall shopping experience for fans.

Chapter 1: The Baylen Levine Phenomenon

Before we dive into the details of Baylen's merchandise store, it's crucial to understand the journey that led him to his current status as a content creation sensation. Baylen Levine, born on September 11, 1998, in Los Angeles, California, initially gained recognition on Vine. His short, humorous videos quickly gained popularity, but it was his transition to YouTube that truly propelled him to stardom. His unique blend of humor, relatable content, and unwavering authenticity resonated with viewers, leading to a significant and passionate fanbase.

Chapter 2: The Alluring Merchandise Lineup

The Baylen Levine Merch Store boasts a diverse and captivating lineup of products. These items cater to various tastes and preferences, ensuring there's something for every fan to cherish. Let's explore some of the standout products that adorn the virtual shelves:

Signature Hoodies: Baylen's signature hoodies are a fan favorite, featuring his unmistakable logo. These cozy and stylish garments allow fans to proudly represent their favorite content creator while staying comfortable during colder seasons.

Trendy T-Shirts: The merchandise store offers an array of Baylen Levine Benitez Tee t-shirts, each bearing unique designs that reflect Baylen's humor and personality. These versatile tees give fans a chance to showcase their admiration for Baylen in their everyday outfits.

Stickers and Posters: For those looking to add a touch of Baylen's charm to their surroundings, the store offers stickers and posters adorned with his signature catchphrases and artwork.

Phone Cases: Baylen's distinctive phone cases, often featuring his logo and vibrant designs, allow fans to protect their devices while flaunting their support for their beloved content creator.

Accessories: The store extends its offerings into the world of accessories, including keychains, pins, and socks, enabling fans to incorporate Baylen's brand into their daily lives.

Chapter 3: The Emotional Connection

Baylen Levine's merchandise is not merely about the products themselves; it's about the emotional connection he has fostered with his audience. His authenticity shines through in his videos, and this authenticity extends to his merchandise. Fans feel a personal connection to him, and purchasing his products is a way to support him and feel closer to the content creator they admire.

Baylen goes the extra mile by involving his fans in the design and selection process. He often seeks their input on social media platforms, allowing his audience to feel like active participants in the creative journey. This level of engagement deepens the emotional bond between the creator and his fans.

Chapter 4: Impact on the Fan Community

The Baylen Levine Merch Store has left an indelible mark on his fan community. It has become a symbol of belonging, a way for fans to identify one another and connect over their shared love for his content. Social media platforms are brimming with photos of fans proudly sporting their Baylen gear, and meet-up events often see fans coming together while showcasing their favorite merchandise.

Moreover, the revenue generated from merchandise sales has enabled Baylen to reinvest in his content creation. This means higher-quality videos, more creative projects, and a broader reach for his engaging content. Thus, the merchandise serves as a mutually beneficial vehicle, supporting both the creator and the fans.

Chapter 5: The Shopping Experience

Part of what makes the Baylen Levine Merch Store so enticing is the seamless and user-friendly shopping experience it offers. The website is well-organized, with clear categories that make it easy for fans to find their desired products. The checkout process is straightforward, and customer support is responsive, ensuring that fans have a hassle-free shopping experience.

Additionally, the store frequently introduces new items and limited-edition releases, keeping fans excited and engaged. This dynamic approach to merchandise keeps the community eager to see what Baylen has in store next.

Conclusion: More Than Just Merchandise

In the ever-evolving realm of online content creation, Baylen Levine has not only entertained but also connected with his audience on a profound level. His merchandise store isn't just about products; it's a gateway to express love for his content, a means to support his creative endeavors, and a symbol of the strong bond between creator and fans. As Baylen's career continues to soar, his merchandise store will undoubtedly remain an essential component of his journey, bridging the gap between creator and audience in the most stylish and heartfelt manner possible.

[luna-31]

ORGULLOSO DE TI

hoy les hablare de una chica muy especial, se apellidaba Benitez, no era muy formal. le gustaba lo vintage y lo anormal se jugaba la vida por vivir en paz..

ella tenia un secreto dentro del disfraz queria ser amada, quitarse el antifaz jugar a los buenos y malos, y algo encontrar sentir la dicha en lo eterno, no solo recibir sino tbn saber amar

que coraza tan dura, que inamobible amor, que mentiras tan limpias, que verdades tan dentro del cajon..

yo la vii... la supe oir, ella es la magia q se encuentra en alta mar

ya lo vi, la admire y entre neblina ausente la supe ver

y hoy, es mas fuerte hoy es un numero inconsiente, hoy es la paz q todos quieren es una mujer sonriente

si supieran lo q yo vi, si supieran lo q la vi vivir, si entendieran q entre risas existe un mar de sueños abrazaran mas ese corazon..

y hoy, te veo en mi mente, tan transparente. colgando de amor con un querubin, espero poder encontrarte y al verte entender porq quiero amarte hasta el fin..

orgulloso de ti, luchando junto a ti...

[jacobmybeloved]

Ch. 86 of [[UWBL]] is up on Ao3/Wattpad!

[Ao3] // [Wattpad]

[paganminiskirt]

There’s something to be said about the Legends of ‘67 telling the younger revolutionaries “noooo don’t hang up the fascist commandant’s corpse in public that’s going too far :(” as if they didn’t make the last dictator’s thirteen year old son sit and listen as they tortured him

[olwrathie]

Far Cry General Questions

Here is a list of generic questions that can be applied to any/all of the Far Cry titles! I am currently working on lists for each specific game, so keep an eye out for those (:

Go ahead and use this list for a fun, personal question and answer with yourself, or use it as a prompt list for asks to answer on your blog! Feel free to add questions.

If anyone would like to ask me any questions from this list. Feel free!

What Far Cry titles have you played

What Far Cry title is your favorite?

What is your least favorite Far Cry title?

In your opinion, what game has the best soundtrack?

Who is your favorite Far Cry villain?

What was the first Far Cry game you played?

How did you stumble across the Far Cry franchise?

If you had to pick, what Far Cry game would you like to be stuck in and why?

Pick a game. What is your favorite cutscene?

Pick a game. What is your favorite mission?

Pick a game. Do you ship any of the characters?

How do you tackle outposts? Do you go in guns blazing, or try your luck with stealth?

What is your opinion on the bell/radio towers from 3 and 4? Do you miss them, or are you glad they are gone?

If you could pick one Far Cry title to play again for the first time, which would it be and why?

Rank the Far Cry main antagonists from best to worst (Vaas, Pagan, Joseph, The Twins, Antón)

Rank the side antagonists/anti-heroes from best to worst (Hoyt, Buck, Citra, Paul, Yuma, John, Jacob, Faith, Ethan, Napoleon El Pequeño, Admiral Benitez, Maria Marquessa, Sean McKay, El Doctor)

What do you play the games on, Console or PC?

Have you ever modded any of the games? If so, what one, and what was your favorite mod?

If you could only play one Far Cry title for the rest of your life (DLCs included) what game would it be and why?

Do you have any unpopular opinions on any of the games?

What boss fight is your favorite?

What game have you played the most?

What is your opinion on Hurk Drubman Jr? What game version of him is your favorite?

***As stated, feel free to use these prompts on your own blog. However, I do ask that reblog this post, and not copy and claim it as your own. Please and Thank You (:

[blind-band-geek]

If there exists Splatoon and Far cry fans please listen to my insane ramblings

Octolings - Dani, Juan, Talía, Philly, Lucky Mama, El Tigre, Jonrón, José, Lita, Alejo, Carlos, Camila

Inklings - Clara, Paolo, Bicho, Antón, Diego, Alej, Yelena, Lorenzo, María, Dr Reyes, Admiral Benitez, McKay.

Thank you

[nuflashprose]

It was a Who's Who of the East Village scene—the legends of Post Pop Art gathered at the Pyramid Club in New York on September 4, 1986. Among the guests were Keith Haring, Kenny Scharf, Marcus Leatherdale, Ann Magnuson, Karen Finley, John Sex, Wendy Wild, Steve Rubell, Andy Warhol and, of course, Madonna. They were gathered to celebrate and support one of their own, the artist, Martin Burgoyne.

Though a central figure in the scene that would become the hallmark of the era, and a contemporary of many of the leading names in art and music of his generation, Burgoyne is little known outside the Madonna fandom. Shortly after arriving in New York to attend the Pratt Institute, Burgoyne met Madonna and the two moved in together after Madonna was robbed by neighborhood kids who stole her music equipment and Burgoyne (who lived in an adjoining apartment) was robbed two days later. Burgoyne was instrumental in the early stages of Madonna's career: According to Edo Bertoglio, whose film, New York Beat, resurfaced years later as the indie hit Downtown81, starring Jean-Michal Basquiat and Debbie Harry, "Martin Burgoyne... always advised [Madonna] on where to go, how to dress, with whom to go out, what were the right places." Burgoyne did the art work for the cover of the single, "Burning Up," which later appeared on Madonna's first album. The first album was originally called, Lucky Star, and Burgoyne designed the original art work (it was abandoned in favor of the famous black and white photo that graced the cover). Later, Burgoyne designed album covers for DJ Jellybean Benitez, the Jamaica Girls and General Public. He worked as Madonna's road manager for a brief tour promoting her first singles and was a dancer for Madonna's first live performance of her single "Everybody," at Haoui Montaug's No Entiendes, a cabaret show Montaug hosted at Danceteria.

Like many artists who went on to become famous, Madonna and Burgoyne worked and played at Danceteria in the early 80's, where among the crowd of then-unknowns was another Who's Who of the era: Madonna worked the coat check, the Beastie Boys were waiters, Keith Haring painted Danceteria's interior and worked as a bus boy as did David Wojnarowicz; while LL Cool J and Debi Mazar worked the elevators and Sade tended bar. By that time, circa 1982, Danceteria eclipsed its predecessors as the hub of the art/club scene of the day, and Madonna and Burgoyne were regular fixtures. "They were like fraternal twins," wrote Jordan Levin in the Miami Herald "Cherubic urban imps with identical curly blond hair and precisely ragged, tight black clothing." Though Madonna's irrepressible energy and unrelenting ambition were off-putting to most, Burgoyne, by all accounts, was universally liked and admired. "He was... much beloved and lusted after," wrote Levin, "an incandescent boy even in the darkest after-hours club."

When Madonna was practicing her pirouettes at Martha Graham, modeling nude at the New School and playing at Max's Kansas City, CBGB's and dives in New Jersey—striking her best Pat Benatar pose while doing her Chrissie Hynde imitation—the punks and art students of the East Village were gathering at Club 57 and the Mudd Club. Sibling clubs with a fair amount of sibling rivalry, each was a Warholian mix of art, theatre, film and music. The clubs held the first showings by soon-to-be-renowned figures like Kenny Scharf (whose first show was at Club 57 in September '79), Keith Haring (his Erotic Art Show premiered in August 1980), and Jean-Michel Basquiat (whose No Wave band, Gray, played at the Mudd Club) amid live music by punk and New Wave bands, screenings of No Wave films by Amos Poe (among others) and a constant rotation of New Wave cabaret acts like John Sex (whose Acts of Live Art premiered in April 1980) Wendy Wild, Karen Finley and Ann Magnuson who was also the manager of Club 57.

Born of the vestiges of the punk scene at CBGB's, Mudd Club was the anti-Studio 54, albeit with its own door policy and just enough star power (Bowie, Warhol, William Burroughs and Allen Ginsberg frequented the club; Bowie filmed the video for his song "Fashion," there) to give it a celebrity sheen while maintaining its street cred. Mudd Club was the darker twin to the decadent free-for-all and campy shenanigans of Club 57, which, in addition to art and cabaret shows, hosted Ladies Mud Wrestling and a Monster Movie Night. Still, enough competition existed to inspire Steve Mass, owner of the Mudd Club, to lure Ann Magnuson to come to work for him in 1981 and where Magnuson went, others followed. Haring became curator of Mudd Club's fourth floor art gallery, though by that time (after the New York/New Wave show at PS 1 that year, often regarded as the Armory Show of the 80's) Basquiat, among others, was commanding thousands of dollars and selling to wealthy collectors despite considerable debate over whether the work was worthy or mere novelty. At the same time, the music in the clubs was also changing. Many of the East Village artists were graffiti artists themselves or were in with the graffiti artists like Fab Five Freddy and Futura 2000 who in turn were familiar with both the punk/New Wave bands of downtown and the rappers and break dancers of the emerging Hip Hop scene in the South Bronx. That the seemingly disparate groups—artists, musicians, rappers—of seemingly disparate styles would eventually converge was all but inevitable.

Anita Sarko began her stint as DJ at the Mudd Club shortly after arriving in New York in 1979, spinning an eclectic mix of oldies, rarities, punk and New Wave, playing anything that got people moving. Sarko eventually left Mudd Club for Danceteria in 1983 and there she co-hosted No Entiendes with Haoui Montaug, famed door man of Hurrah, the Mudd Club and Danceteria. Like Club 57 and the Mudd Club, Danceteria was a Factory-like mix of art, film and music and was also one of the first clubs to have a video lounge on its third floor, modeled after the video monitors that were installed at the Ritz (arguably the first club, in 1980, to have videos) and Hurrah, the club now credited as the birthplace of the video VJ. It is due in part to the performances that were filmed at the club and then played in Danceteria's video lounge (and earlier at Hurrah) that many of those early performances by Madonna, New Order and the Beastie Boys as well as Wojnarowicz's band, 3 Teens Kill 4, are available on YouTube and social media today, not to mention an installation at MOMA.

In videos and photos of Burgoyne and Madonna taken at the time the two are nearly identical due in no small part to Burgoyne's androgyny and gender-shifting fluidity. The two appear like an inversion of early photos of Robert Mapplethorpe and Patti Smith: Both blond, seraphic and playful where Patti and Robert were shabby, dark and brooding; New Wave chic where Patti and Robert were gothic proto-punk. In one set of pictures Burgoyne and Madonna are dressed identically in ripped denim and white T's, arms covered in black rubber bracelets, a mop of gold hair spilling out of the caps they are both wearing. In another, they both don pink punk wigs (Madonna wore hers on an early appearance on British television). In another set—taken during the filming of Desperately Seeking Susan—Madonna sits on Burgoyne's lap, both dressed in identical jeans, leather boots and leather jackets. What is most striking in the photos, however, is Burgoyne's blatant femininity: Like Madonna, he dons armfuls of rubber bracelets, large hoop earrings and wears nail polish, black eyeliner and lip gloss, his lips pursed—like Madonna's—kissing at the camera. Though he was fond of the leather attire common to the clone and S & M scenes of the gay community at that time, he also cultivated an androgynous look more common among the British New Romantics (who in turn were inspired by the glam rockers of the previous decade), a gender-fluid look that even at the time set him apart from the other downtown denizens of New York’s Lower East Side of the early 80’s. Though certainly, even at that time, artists like Mapplethorpe, Peter Hujar, and Wojnarowicz and performance artists like Jobriath, Klaus Nomi and Stephen Varble incorporated homo-aesthetics in their work, for Burgoyne it was more than a performance or a pose or even mere fashion; it seems—even in the most casual or private of photos—to have been his way of being in the world. Madonna’s own homo-aesthetic—and her influence on the artists who subsequently followed her—owe a debt to Burgoyne’s early influence on the fledgling diva who, clearly—given the mirroring of Burgoyne evident in the photos—took much of her own homo-aesthetic directly from Burgoyne (among others). According to Christopher Ciccone, in his admittedly trashy biography of his famous sister, it was Burgoyne who introduced Madonna to the seedier side of gay life, an edgy underworld that would become a prominent feature of her later, post-Sean Penn work. “He openly [played] on the dark side and [liked] it,” wrote Ciccone. “Perhaps due to her friendship with Marty, S&M [became] one of the leitmotifs of Madonna’s career.” Further, observed Ciccone:

“Marty [introduced] Madonna to photographer Edo Bertoglio and his girlfriend, French jewelry designer Maripol, who designed those seminal colored rubber bracelets that everyone else in the Village is now wearing as well. However mainstream and oft-imitated her concepts would later become, Maripol’s influence on Madonna’s image can’t be understated, as she is responsible for creating her punk-plus-lace look.”

 Neither, then, can Burgoyne’s influence be underestimated. However, like many anonymous gay men who dressed, shaped and helped form a Diva who would go on to, in Madonna’s own words, “rule the world,” Burgoyne has gone virtually unheard of and—like his own work—remained all but obscured.  

There are photos of Burgoyne clubbing with Keith Haring and a later photo of Burgoyne riding in the limo with Warhol on the way to Madonna's wedding to Sean Penn (Warhol was Burgoyne's plus-one at the wedding according to Warhol's diary); in all the photos of Burgoyne from that time it is clear that these legends adored him; both Haring and Warhol wrote in their diaries of their devastation at Burgoyne’s death. However, Burgoyne remains elusive in most of the candid pictures taken at Danceteria or the Mudd Club or such celebrity gatherings; he is there but immersed in the crowd or just off to the side. In one photo, for example, Burgoyne peeks out from the edge of the picture, eyes locked with Madonna as she commands the center of a dancefloor. In the video of Madonna's performance at Live Aid, Burgoyne is there just off stage while Madonna sings a medley of her hits. Sean Penn and Keith Haring are just off stage to her left; Burgoyne is opposite, crouched on the floor nearby to Madonna's right, watching from the wings.

Like Warhol and the Warhol superstars, this generation of young artists, writers and performers coveted celebrity and were eager for the riches and success that were the zeitgeist of the greed-is-good 80's. After Basquiat's first showing at Nosei in '81, and Haring's first showing at Tony Shafrazi in '82, the art world took notice. The Whitney Biennial in '83 legitimized the East Village art scene and with legitimization came money and the beginnings of the gentrification that has left New York homogenized and unrecognizable; unlivable for anyone but the wealthy even to this day. When Haring was attacked at his '85 showing at Shafrazi by purist horrified by the gentrification in the Village brought on by the influx of money and notoriety, the East Village Eye declared that the scene was officially over before it started: "We, who were the first to take credit for the birth of East Village art," wrote Carlo McCormick, "now want to take credit for killing it."  Then, in February 1987, Michael Musto of the Village Voice issued the final blow when he wrote about what he called, “The Death of Downtown,” following Warhol's passing. Martin Burgoyne died three months earlier of complications from AIDS surrounded by his parents and friends, including Haoui Montaug and Madonna, who held his hand while he died. In 2015, 2017, and again in 2018 to commemorate World AIDS Day, Madonna tweeted photos of herself and Burgoyne from the old days. "If we only knew then," she wrote "all the things that would happen."

According to Keith Haring's journal, he saw Burgoyne on the Fourth of July 1986 and Martin told him that he recently tested negative for the HIV virus. "But when I saw him," wrote Haring, "I saw death." Jordan Levin saw Burgoyne around that time outside the Pyramid Club, complaining of exhaustion and recurring bouts of the flu. “When I got sick," Burgoyne later told Michael Schnayerson from Vanity Fair, "they thought I had measles, so I stayed in for a month.” By August, according to Warhol in his diary, Burgoyne was sick and preparing to return to Florida where his parents lived: "[W]hat they thought was the measles wasn't," Warhol wrote, “And I said that the people we knew who had "it" had had the best care money can buy, and they were the first to go, so I didn't know what to say.”  

By late August, when Warhol saw Burgoyne backstage after Madonna's play,Goose and TomTom, Burgoyne's face was covered with sores. He asked Warhol to draw a picture of him for a party to raise money for his medical costs to be held at the Pyramid Club in September. Warhol drew the picture and Keith Haring designed the invitations for the benefit, held on September fourth.

A feature about the party and the group of artists gathered there appeared in the New York Times. Hosted by Burgoyne's friends and caregivers Deb Parker and Jody Kurilla, guests and performers included Madonna, Haring, Warhol, John Sex and Wendy Wild, Haoui Montaug, and Walter Durcatz (DJ at Danceteria and the Pyramid Club who left Danceteria when someone fell down an elevator shaft). Marcus Leatherdale did a slide show. Karen Finley—the poet and performance artist who was later one of the notorious NEA Four—also performed. According to the New York Times, Burgoyne was told three weeks prior that he had ARC (AIDS related complex) and was too weak to dance, but joined in, "kissing and hugging his friends." ''We have all been friends for years and years," Haring told the New York Times, "since the days at Club 57.'' Six thousand dollars was raised that night to help pay Burgoyne's living expenses. Steve Rubell noted, "We know many AIDS patients who have been deserted, treated like lepers by their own families.'' AIDS had, by 1986, become an all-too-common occurrence for most in the once thriving East Village scene. Most at the party knew several friends who had already died. ''It's like a war is going on,'' said designer, Katy K. Reports leaked in The New York Post and the National Enquirer that Madonna's former roommate was dying of AIDS and that her support of her friend had caused strife in the notoriously volatile marriage of the Poison Penns. Sean Penn is often portrayed by Madonna's biographers as homophobic and paranoid about AIDS, but not so, according to Jordan Levin: "Martin was frantic," when the stories came out according to Levin, "[H]e'd been publicly branded a plague outcast who horrified his best friend's husband.”  "`Sean isn't angry at me,'” Burgoyne assured Levin, “'I saw them last week and he hugged me. How can they do this?'" It was Sean Penn, in fact, according to Madonna biographer, J. Randy Taraborrelli, who traveled to Mexico at Madonna’s behest to obtained experimental drugs they hoped would prolong Burgoyne's life. By October, however, he was too sick with "cancer," Warhol wrote in his diary, to attend Kenny Scharf's Halloween party with Warhol. On November tenth, Madonna appeared in an auction at Barney's in which denim jackets designed by various artists and modeled by various celebrities were sold to raise money for St. Vincent's AIDS ward. The model, Iman, wore a jacket designed by Keith Haring; Madonna wore a jacket designed by Martin Burgoyne who was, himself, receiving treatment at St. Vincent’s. "I had a dream last night," Burgoyne told Vanity Fair two weeks before his death, "that I went to the art-supply store and there were so many things I wanted. But I couldn’t have any of them. All I want to do is work, work, work," he said, "And I can’t, can’t, can’t."Before 1980, there were fifteen AIDS-related deaths in NYC; by 1981 there were seventy-four AIDS related deaths when The New York Times reported on page twenty that year about a "rare cancer" afflicting gay men. In 1982, there were two hundred and seventy-six AIDS deaths and eight hundred and sixty-four AIDS deaths the following year. "Health Chief Calls AIDS Battle 'No. 1 Priority'," read a headline in the New York Times on May 24, 1983—the first time AIDS made the front page of the paper. By 1984 there were one thousand nine hundred and sixty AIDS deaths in New York City and by 1985 the number of deaths doubled. President Ronald Reagan, in a response to questions at the National Institute of Health that year, mentioned AIDS publicly for the first time, stating that he did not think children with AIDS should be allowed to attend school until it was certain the virus could not be passed by casual contact. He did not mention the epidemic publicly again until 1987. By 1986 there were six thousand four hundred and fifty-eight AIDS deaths in New York City alone. Martin Burgoyne died on November 30th, 1986. He was twenty-three years old.            

[abcnewspr]

ABC NEWS ANNOUNCES PRIMETIME INVESTIGATION ON WHY AMERICA WAS UNPREPARED FOR COVID-19 AND PATH TO RESTORING NORMALCY

“American Catastrophe: How Did We Get Here?” – The One-Hour Special Edition of “20/20” – Airs Tuesday, July 28 at 9:00 p.m. on ABC

ABC News announced today a primetime investigation into why the United States was unprepared for COVID-19, how government and administration officials failed and missed the warning signs, and what the country needs to do next to reopen and return to normalcy after the pandemic has wreaked havoc on American families, communities and the economy. The “20/20” special report, three months in the making, examines what officials did and did not do in those early days and weeks when the nation first started to understand there was a new virus sweeping through China. The one-hour television event also delves into how President George W. Bush directed his team to ready the nation for a possible pandemic in 2005, but why the country was nevertheless overwhelmed when the current pandemic hit. “American Catastrophe: How Did We Get Here?” airs Tuesday, July 28 (9:00 – 10:00 p.m. ET) on the ABC Television Network.

The hour reports on a group of current and former government officials and top doctors, known as The Wolverines, who – through an email chain called “Red Dawn” – warned the administration of the crisis to come only to watch as the emergency grew beyond the government’s control. Interviews include Dr. James Lawler, a former top biosecurity official at the National Security Council; Dr. Dan Hanfling, an expert in urban rescue and emergency medicine who worked on the 9/11 and anthrax attacks; Dr. David Marcozzi, a former top medical preparedness official at the National Security Council; Dr. Jeff Duchin, the Seattle and King County Public Health Officer; Dr. Charity Dean, former Assistant Director of the California Department of Public Health; and ABC News Contributor Tom Bossert, former United States Homeland Security Advisor who headed up a pandemic response team the White House disbanded shortly before the outbreak.

The report features interviews with the people leading the federal response to the pandemic, including Dr. Anthony Fauci, America’s leading expert on infectious diseases who has been at odds with the administration on how to handle the outbreak; Dr. Robert Redfield, Director of the CDC who is predicting a coronavirus surge in the fall and winter and is recommending national mask wearing; Admiral Brett Giroir, Assistant Secretary of Health who is the head of the nation’s COVID-19 testing program and recently said closing indoor bars will stem the tide; Dr. Stephen Hahn, the commissioner of the FDA who recently approved pooled testing to combat the virus; and Peter Gaynor, Administrator of FEMA who oversees the national disaster response including the supply chain of PPE and ventilators. The report also includes interviews with the world’s foremost experts on COVID-19.

The special includes investigative reporting from ABC News’ powerhouse team including Chief White House Correspondent Jonathan Karl; “ABC News Live Prime” Anchor Linsey Davis; “World News Tonight with David Muir” Weekend Anchor and Chief National Affairs Correspondent Tom Llamas; Chief Business Correspondent Rebecca Jarvis; Chief Justice Correspondent Pierre Thomas; Senior White House Correspondent Cecilia Vega; Transportation Correspondent Gio Benitez; and Chief Investigative Reporter Josh Margolin.

“American Catastrophe: How Did We Get Here?” is produced by the ABC News Investigative Unit and ABC Longform Unit. Jeanmarie Condon and Chris Vlasto serve as Senior Executive Producers, Melia Patria and Cindy Galli as Executive Producers, and Josh Margolin as Senior Editorial Producer.

-- ABC --

[soyinercia]

resumen de mi 2018

más que un resumen, es un ensayo.

el ensayo que no hubo, en nombre de todas las improvisaciones que tuve que mandarme este año. pero que gracias a ellas, tuve oportunidades increíbles, conocí personas de oro, me rompí en mil pedazos y me gradué en la academia de reparaciones y mimos al corazón. suena ridículo, pero es así.

y si tuviera yo que otorgar premios, despídanse de los Óscar. porque, señoras y señores, las personas que conocí este año merecen más que una estatuilla de oro con forma de muñeco.

¿saben qué? al demonio.

voy a agradecerles a todos con un pedacito de mi corazón. gracias por estar, por enseñarme tantas cosas, por cada lágrima y cada abrazo.

y si hablamos de abrazos lindos, miguel, los tuyos se llevan el primer lugar (y todos los demás). fuiste, sos y serás una persona que me marcó muchísimo desde el día en que nos conocimos, hasta hoy. te aprecio demasiado. gracias, te quiero infinitamente.

nico gallardo, tu mención ha de ser una de las más importantes, ya que compartí el 90% de mi 2018 con vos. aunque estemos enojados, vamos a salir adelante, porque somos mejores amigos, y los mejores amigos siempre superan todos los problemas. pero más allá de eso, es porque somos los mejores.

lule, como regalo de navidad te voy a dar una botella para que contemos todas las lágrimas que derramo por año, ya que sabés absolutamente todo lo que pasa por mi cabeza. nadie lo entiende mejor que vos. te amo.

loana, como una caminata, empezamos con el pie izquierdo, seguimos con el derecho, y volvimos al izquierdo varias veces. sos una buena amiga, valoro mucho las cosas que hiciste por mí. siempre te voy a querer.

crew cebarrio, con ustedes pasé mis mejores noches de joda, siempre van a estar en mi corazón, pero no en mis recuerdos, saben por qué.

damian, te adoro infinitamente, nadie me bancó tanto como vos, nuestra amistad es tannn linda, espero que no se termine jamás.

matias lopez, sos una persona muy buenita y servicial. no creas que nadie valora eso, al menos, yo sí lo hago. te quiero. gracias por las juntadas increíbles y por el aguante.

joaquin augusto; yo que pensaba que nuestra amistad había quedado en la infancia, volviste a mi vida. te híper admiro como persona, tenés una manera de pensar increíble, y sos un amigo de oro, de verdad. gracias por tanto. espero tenerte en mi 2019 y muchos años más.

fabricio gawlik, sólo vos y yo sabemos todo lo que nos pasó este año, sólo vos y yo sabemos cómo nos salvamos la vida el uno al otro en varias ocasiones. sólo vos y yo nos supimos herir y perdonar. pero al menos no fuimos los únicos en odiar a la tercera del grupo, y en alegrarnos de que se haya ido.

ivan gomez kum, tenemos tanto para reírnos, espero que este 2019 podamos juntarnos más seguido. (S)nadie nunca tiene que saber nada de lo que te dije. te quiero mucho, posta. por más que a veces sientas que todos te rechazan por cómo sos, acá estoy yo para darte la oportunidad de ser vos mismo sin juzgarte.

cristian asano, estos últimos mesesitos, semanitas, estuvimos muy unidos, y me di cuenta de que me estaba perdiendo de una gran persona por mirar a otra. espero, de todo corazón, nunca perder tu amistad, es una de las más valiosas que tengo.

rodrigo benitez, no llevamos mucho tiempo siendo amigos, aún así te aprecio muchísimo. sos una persona muy buena, no dejes que nadie te cambie jamás. y si una personita no te sabe valorar, se lo pierde. dejá de sentirte mal por las mismas cosas/personas este 2019. te quiero.

sofia garcia, mi mejor amiga de la infancia, nunca dejemos que la vida nos separe. estaremos algo distanciadas pero te sigo amando con todo mi corazón. siempre va a ser así. espero que este 2019 nos una como nunca para no volvernos a separar. nadie me conoce como vos, le pegás a todo con los ojos cerrados cuando se trata de mí. te quiero demasiado amiga.

fabricio marconi, creo que no necesitás que te diga lo que pienso. sabés que te agradezco a mil todo, te adoro, sos uno de mis mejores amigos a pesar de que no hablemos 24/7. gracias por todo.

matteo zalazar, te quiero muchísimo. siempre llegás en el momento justo. me sabés animar cuando estoy triste, y eso es algo admirable, la verdad. espero seguir así, ser amigos mucho tiempo más. gracias.

nuria, volviste a mi vida después de tanto tiempo separadas. te amo mucho. realmente aprecio que sigas siendo mi amiga. el tiempo que estuvimos sin hablar me hizo reflexionar banda, y, me di cuenta de que no son amigas perfectas lo que necesito en mi vida, sino amigas sinceras. amigas como vos. te amo.

benjamin bruscker, gracias, gracias, gracias. no sé cómo expresarte todo lo que siento. te adoro, me enseñaste lo que es ser un buen amigo, lo que es ser una persona de verdad, y la simpleza de algunas cosas. espero no perderte nunca, y que volvamos a escribir y ver los simuladores. aunque hasta ahora me conformo con ver películas los días de lluvia uwu.

estefania, posta se me salen todas las palabras como mariposas. me emociona mucho saber que es hora de escribir tu parte del texto. jamás pensé que llegaríamos a ser amigas, te valoro demasiado, sos muy transparente. te amo, y amo que nos juntemos.

maxi, siempre hablamos en broma de esto, pero, en serio, te quiero muchísimo. sos de las pocas amistades que el tiempo no desgastó. ya ni sé cuánto llevamos siendo [B]amigos, pero sigamos así. juguemos minecraft.

y a todas esas personas que no mencioné pero saben que les debo agradecer, sepan disculpar, son muchas las buenas vibras que recibí este año.

y a todas las malas personas que quisieron verme mal, a todos los que me desearon la muerte en la cara, a los que me menospreciaron y a los que me ridiculizaron en redes sociales, les deseo lo mejor y que aprendan de sus errores como yo he de aprender de los míos.

a los amigos y amigas con los que ya no me veo, los quiero. siempre van a tener un lugar en mi corazón.

les deseo a todos un buen 2019.

[kenzasharingblog]

My Personal Moments and Memories

Autobiography

Kaenza Josue is my name.I am a girl who was born in Gubat,Sorsogon on the 21st day of May year 2001.I am a daughter of Anthony Capili and Rizalisa Josue . My Parents was not married that’s way I carry my mothers surname. Few weeks after I was born,my parents decide to go back in Manila that’s why I grew up and start studying in LB Santos Elementary School From kinder to grade IV. I had to transfer school when my paremt broke up.yes I was a part of a broken Family but it doesn’t mean I will give up on my dreams of having better future. I finished Junior High School at Imus National High School year 2016.unfortunatley I stopped studying for almost 3years because of financial problem so I admit I’ve been astray for a while. I am like others who felt anxious of many things.i got pregnant at the age of 18 and gave birth to a beautiful child whom I named Miracle Keyceelaine .Iam sow thankful that I have a mother that undertstand and still guides me inspite of what I have done.she keeps on giving me advices and motivation.her strong spirit of will pushes me to face every struggle.she always tells me that God won’t give us anything that we can’t handle.I really do admires her strength. I am eager to achieve my goals.and my family is my inspiration.that’s all for now.probably enough here about me .

Biography

Her name is Rizalisa B. Josue the eldest child of my grandparents.she was born on the 20th of May 1976 in the midst of the super typhoon “DIDANG”. And the reason why they used to call her by that name of the typhoon. My grandparents saw my mother’s unique strenght at the very moment she was born. She grew up smart and somewhat independent person. My mother took her primary education at Francisco Benitez Elementary School. Then continued her highschool at Pamantasan ng Makati. She does well with her academics,until a certain situation happened. My grandparents seperated,reason that made my mom somewhat annoyed. her life begun to be astrayed. She decide to leave their house not thingking what life. She will face. She got pregnant at the age of 18 with my eldest sibling but unfortunately she and my kuya’s father didn’t last.She raised kuya alone. She worked as a Kasambahay,just to provide my brother’s needs during those times. She’s been into a lot of struggles but she keeps on believing that God won’t give her anything she can’t burden! Til She meet my Father. Again she fell love and took the risk of entrusting her heart again. Then I was brought to this world by her,next to me is a brother and lastly my younger sister.though she’s been into many struggles before,still managed to,be a caring and loving mother.and I love her so much

Memoir

Our family is one of the Broken-Families here in our country.my mother and father seperated more than ten years now.I was only ten year old when my mother have to leave us for she got fed up.She wants to bring us but my father resists.But I never felt alone even my parents seperated ways for I’ve got four sibling,two brothers and two sister.Though we often have misunderstandings we still love each other.And we all know that it’s natural for siblings to often got some fights.But at the end of the day we make sure to reconeile.And though. our parents are seperated it’s not been an obstacle for us not to be happy. And now we have our second father,Our tito chris.He’s been very nice to us even from the start.He’s been very supportive in everything.My mom and him is together for ten years already.all of us siblings gets along with him ver well. Our Family is quiet noisy but it’s because we always wants to be hapy.We can say that we are so blessed despite of everything we’ve been through.Specially during the First year of the pandemic.It made us much stronger together.we help each other in all aspect, As of now I also have my own family.I have a beautiful two year old daughter named Mira keyceelaine and a very kind and supportive partner.A though I now have a child my family wants me to finish my studies that’s why im pursing my self to reach my goals for a much better future.

Facial Recognation

The person whom I always wanted to see and stare at is my beautiful daughter her named is Miracle Keyceelaine.She is two years old now.She is growing up a sweet.adorable and smart kid.though she cannot speak well yet but she merely understand almost everything we say.But like other child sometimes she’s naughty too.Many people says she has a strong appeal.Her beauty is different because the longer they stare at her the prettier she gets. Mira has chinky eyes that seems speaking her thougths.Her nose is snub,she has a high-blending eyebrows,her lips are full her hair is quite thin but still I love fixing it putting different kinds of hair clips.she’s being love by all of us cause eversince she came out in my tummy into this world she bring us so much joy and blessing.Even though how tired we are just one hug from her everythings seems to be more than okay.I thankful that I was choosen to be her mother even im younger for being a mother.I love here more than I love my self and im doing my best for her best future.she’s an Angel for us.

Self-Obtituary

I am Kaenza Josue I grew up in a broken family.My parents separated when I was 10 years old and unfortunately my life isn’t that easy eversince my mother left.I have to take care of my two younger siblings.I did not even experience playing like other child at my age usually do I admit,its been many years that I kept on asking myself why do I have to experience all those miseries and hardship in life. at that time I tried to commit suicide, Yes I tried to commit suicide at that time maybe because of depression, But the end of the day I thought of the people around me like my sibling who are always by my side. After I completed Junior high school,I’ve been astrayed.I go along with my different friends maybe I don’t have permanent friends that time because I troma after mary grace left me.all I think that time is how I can free myself from the life I grew up til I got pregnant.Yes I’ve been a mother at the age of 18th but I’ll never be ashame to tell the world that having my daughter was the greatest gift I’ve ever received from God aside from my own life.Because of her I pursue on reaching my goals to have a much better future. Though I faced a lot of struggle in life,I must say that Iam truly blessed.God gave me enough strength for me to overcome every challenges I had encountered.I learned that GOD will never give us anything that we cannot bare so we must believe in his plans for us Honesty,I don’t want to regret anything from my life.and if ever I’ll be given the chance to live again,I will still choos to repeat everything.especially the moment that I gave birth to my adorable daughter. life and death are not easy for those who experience depression everyone experiences it. and yes I am fighting for my family and children. right now I am praying for the complete relief of this illness and because of the support provided by my family they help me lift myself up from my depression.

Reflection Essay

My Painful memories about my 1st bestfriend One of the most painful memory I’ve had happened on the year 2016.I had a friend that year,Her name is Mary Grace Ocampo.We get along very well for almost a year.we are happy being together,we always agrees in everything,though my aunt doesn’t want me to go out and see Mary Grace,I still insist and disobeyed my aunt.Because for almost Ten years of my life that I stayed in my Grandmother’s house I was not able to experience playing outside and making friends.that’s why when I met grace I’ve been very happy,she’s my frist friend. Unfortunately,things changed when she got a boyfriend.Because of her boyfriend she learned doing vices,and of then,she doesn’t go home.Days passes that she don’t even text or call me.in short,we lost communication.After a few months her cousin message me and asking a favor for me to go Mary Grace boyfriend’s house and check on her.When I reached Pao’s House I couldn’t stop myself from crying.The friend I used to know was very cheerful an full of enery but that day.that I saw her again she was very thin and staring into nothing.A didn’t even hear a single word from her.And after I told to her parents that day what happened to my friend she was tetched by them.And took her home The Lesson I Learned is that we should not expect people to stay beside us forever.from that day on I totally lost communication with her.

My Reaction to My classmate Personal Narrative

Do You Know Your Worth? By Gian Carlo B. Caratihan In a little town at Manila, there lived a young man by the name of Gian. Gian was a hard working guy and put all his heart and soul into his work at the Cake Store. Where he had been an employee for the last 2 years. But, his hard work and dedication was never appreciated by his Boss.No matter how hard he tried, he was always made to feel that he wasn't giving his best finally learn my worth and was at a place where everyone else did, too. And for the piece of rock, I kept it with him always as a reminder of the old man who had taught me a great lesson: The right place values your value in the right way my reaction is What you’ve been through is really sad and at same time it’s inspiring.But we all must admit.that it’s how life goes.Mostly to those people working and trying to earn for their Family.There’s really applicable. Actually,I felt angry to your boss.He shouldn’t be acting as if he owns you.But always bare in mind that GOD always makes a way for others to see our worth as a person.nor for us to see and learn what we really are as his creation. Honestly speaking.I admires your courage.Not all people knows how to handle such challenges.Just keep on holding your faith in God and do what you think is good

TRAVELOGUE

Bicol is the adventure capital of the Philippines, and is well known for its active volcanoes, tranquil whale sharks, secret beaches different kind of beautiful places and spicy foods. Bicol is one of the most beautiful sights here in our country where it is visited by different countries. I was born in the province of Bicol. But I did not grow up in that province. I went back to the Gubat Sursogon when I was ten years old with my family for the vacation only. Year 2022 me and my family decided to take a vacation again in the province of bicol where we going at my uncle's house.Unfortunately i was not included because of the tight security of the province due to the pandemic.Where my mother and sibling has been with my grandparents. for now I hope I can return to my place of origin. I hope in the next few years.Me and my family will be able to vacation again in the province of Bicol. I also want to visit the tourist attractions in Bicol and go around it all, the next time I return to my hometown I will set up a youtube channel to put there the happy memories while I am in my hometown for That's how I have good memories when I get older. for now I will finish my studies first so that when I finish I will fulfill the things I wanted to go to when I was young.

You will face many Defeats in life,but never let yourself be Defeated.

A positive mindset bring positive things

when things go wrong don't go with them

Success is not fail;failure is not fatal:it is the courage to continue that counts,"

You don't have to change yourself for others. Because the people who believe in you are more important.You will not be Stable if you are not tested by time and destiny. Because all those who succeed go through the test given to them and those like me who have broken families, don't think that you are always alone because you don't just notice the people who value you around you..

[footybromanceastrology]

Gerlonso, Part 5: There Will Be Pain

Part 1    Part 2    Part 3    Part 4

This final part is very, very long. And it will not be happy.

But you already knew that. You knew it back when you read the first words of Part 1. This is Gerlonso. There was never going to be a happy ending.

Gerrard may have his T-square(s), but Xabi Alonso’s horoscope suggests the possibility of its own conundrum. There’s an inherent incompatibility in the chart’s two dominant energies: the powerful, unpredictable, revolutionary energy of the Sun-Uranus conjunction in Sagittarius and the combined energy of buttoned down Venus in Capricorn and attention-avoidant Mars in Virgo, both linked with Moon/Mercury in secretive, suspicious Scorpio. 

However, Alonso appears to be balancing these two impulses rather well. He adeptly uses his considerable financial resources to create an image that harmoniously blends the energies of Capricorn, Virgo, and Scorpio via his focus on a traditional aesthetic, his professed loathing of anything flashy, and his cautious, almost Libra-like interview answers.

He effectively uses that image as a shield to deflect most of the nasty criticism that restless players often come in for. (Let’s be honest, it’s almost unfair how successfully he’s managed all those moves.) He also is able to incorporate gentler manifestations of the Sun-Uranian energy into his image such as a reputation for intelligence, a pronounced eclecticism, and a love of technology.

It was easy to spot the needs present in Gerrard’s horoscope, but Alonso’s horoscope initially makes one ask, What does this man actually need from other human beings? 

Well, like any Sun-Uranus (in Sagittarius no less), he’s got a need for constant mental and intellectual stimulation. For me, one of the strongest signs of his strong admiration for Gerrard is the fact that he often looks at Gerrard as though Stevie has sparked his curiosity or has amused him. If you’re into someone who leads with Sagittarius, Gemini, or Uranian energy, you want that person to look at your like Xabi looks at Stevie:

Originally posted by wrotefootballficiregretnothing

Originally posted by duckflyfly

You also want that person to want to talk to you:

originally posted by 30052511

Ah, but this is still skimming the surface. We want to look at needs. Deep ones. And it turns out there is a genuine locus of darkness tucked away in the horoscope of The Man With the Golden Image. And to understand it is to understand the true depth of The Tragedy of Gerlonso.

We’ve spent a lot of time on Gerrard’s Saturn, the beleaguered tension point in his T-square. We’ve talked about how Xabi’s Venus in Capricorn is a lighthouse in the fog to that poor Saturn. However, we’ve ignored Xabi’s Saturn. Of course, one can never truly ignore the Time Lord. Alonso’s sits in Libra and makes a near-perfect square to Venus in Capricorn. The Venus that is asked to do so much work for Xabi when it comes to The Image. It’s tough to place such a burden on a planet so badly afflicted by Saturn, and I’m genuinely impressed that he’s able to use the energy so deftly. Hard Venus-Saturn aspects are wretched things. The simple truth is that most people with these aspects have terrible self-esteem, particularly when it comes to their appearance and image.

Yes, I am asking you to believe that this man looks in the mirror and is unsure about what he sees:

I know this seems insane, but self-doubt is the classic signature of hard Venus-Saturn aspects. Astrologers have noted a tendency for some of these natives to put a lot of calculated effort into looking appealing and sensual, which is certainly one interpretation of Xabi Alonso’s aesthetic. The natives who behave in this way do so in the hope of getting validation from others because they cannot give it to themselves. When Venus is afflicted by Saturn, the native struggles to give themselves appropriate and healthy admiration, leaving them almost totally dependent on others.

Sometimes you just have to tip your hat to the universe. In her infinite wisdom, she brought Xabi Alonso, a man whose horoscope suggests that he has a terribly negative view of himself in certain respects (and thus craves validation from others), into the orbit of Steven Gerrard, a man whose horoscope suggests a need to find someone beautiful, harmonious, and peaceful upon whom he can heap adoration.

We know that first meeting made quite the impression on Gerrard:

originally posted by daisy-cutting (I linked to simplyirenic’s post b/c I don’t have access to the OP’s tumblr)

So what did ‘go wrong’ here? I think it boils down to the effects of Uranus. Back in Part 1, I speculated that Xabi Alonso probably has moments where the “permanently unsettled” quality of his Sun-Uranus aspect makes him want to tear his own hair out. There are moments where he probably really, truly hates that part of himself. 

I want to build on that speculation with even more speculation: despite the fact that Gerrard is the one who makes all the heartbreaking declarations of affection, the horoscopes suggest that the Tragic Separation of Gerlonso is actually more painful for Xabi Alonso. 

I know, how dare I say this when Stevie’s out here telling us all that Xabi leaving has broken his heart and that he’s missed him every day and all that? 

For me, it comes down to issues of self-blame. Like I said in Part 4, I don’t think Gerrard blames anyone except the Liverpool PTB/Benitez for the forced break-up of the Gerlonso partnership. He certainly isn’t mad at his precious Xabi. Plus, since Gerrard is the Old Man Saturn to Xabi’s Venus, even though the loss of their partnership was heartbreaking to him, I think there was a part of him that sort of knew it was inevitable.

Alonso, on the other hand, has the Uranus tension, tons of brooding Scorpio energy, and that horrid Venus-Saturn square. Natives with hard Venus-Saturn are looking for any excuse to tear themselves down or to convince themselves that the world agrees that they are unworthy of admiration. 

Watching someone who is so, so dear to you go on about how sad they were when you left them (and your evil inner voice definitely plays up the YOU LEFT part) is a perfect pretext for reminding yourself of how worthless and faithless you are, no matter what others say. 

It’s not like you go down this path every day--in fact, you may not even go down this path that often at all, but once you start, it gets ugly. You beat yourself up again for that stupid “burn it all to the ground” tendency in yourself that always has its way whether you like it or not. And then, if you’re really in the mood, you can beat yourself up for your stupid inability to be as direct as he is. 

All you can manage is a dumb, embarrassing, fumbling handshake in a TV studio:

originally posted by keepitclasie

Or shyly grabbing his shirt:

originally posted by youllneverwalkalone-stevie

(FTR, there is perhaps no better visual representation of Gerrard and Alonso’s Venus/Saturn synastry than this picture.)

Or that thing you do where you affectionately touch his belly:

[Moment of Levity: Both of them have Mars in Virgo. We generally find it very pleasurable to touch or be touched on the body part ruled by our Mars sign. Virgo rules the abdomen.]

You can’t make honest declarations like he does. You have to talk about him in a way that is all in keeping with Your Precious Image:

originally posted by moon-for-start

originally posted by daisy-cutting; I saw them at liverpoolstolemyheart

Is this good enough for a man, who, for reasons you’ll never understand, is fool enough to adore you? To FORGIVE you for leaving?!

originally posted by moon-for-start

Who was right there with you when you flew to the heights for the first time? 

photo from youllneverwalkalone-stevie

And who has never begrudged you for flying beyond, many times over now, even though he couldn’t follow you because of that damned loyalty (and how could you understand that, you monster)?

Are those affectionate words you use, terms of deepest and most worshipful respect and gratitude--Captain, Skipper--really enough for a person like this?  

Sometimes you slip a little, and the overpowering depth of your gratitude and affection threatens to spill out. But you hold it in because you’re a Scorpio Mercury for reasons you sometimes don’t understand:

from steven-gerrard

originally posted by daisy-cutting; I saw them at liverpoolstolemyheart

Ah, you like that word for him--hero. And so, in the moments when it really fucking matters and you really have it get it right, that’s the word you use. And when you use it, you’re not using it in the well-worn modern sense. You mean it like the poets of old meant it, back when the world was new, back when calling someone your hero was enough to scorch both your souls.

originally posted by booperesque

And then you just hope. 

[worldticketsandhospitality]

FIFA World Cup: Salomon Rondon turns down chance to play for Venezuela this month

Salomon Rondon has opted against joining the Venezuela Football World Cup side this week to essence on getting shriller for Everton. The 32-year old was due to play for his country against Ecuador and Peru but is resolute to use the time instead to step up his fitness so he is in primary condition to play for Rafa Benitez and his club.

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Rondon joined Everton from Dalian in China on August deadline day and missed pre-season training. While he had maintained a good level of fitness, the absence of those arduous summer sessions has left him short of his preferred levels on his return to the Premier League.

Benitez threw in Venezuela Football World Cup striker Rondon prior than he would have liked and, while he has slogged admirably, some of his performances have come under criticism as tiredness kicked in.

Confirming his verdict, Rondon said: “It’s difficult to put such strong feelings into words. For me, my Venezuela Football World Cup team isn’t about a moment or an opportunity, it’s my place, my flag, my heart,”

It aches every time I’m not able to join up with the Venezuela Football World Cup team and it’s very tough for me to watch from afar. But I have to be frank with myself and the shirt I love and value so greatly I don’t currently feel that I’m at the level I’d like to be at to allow me to perform to 100 percent and defend my country’s insignia as it merits.

My last-minute move to England, not having had a pre-season and the run of games I played la-di-da me, and have put me in this position. I want to get my fitness up to 100 percent to allow me to perform to my best, which is what you’ve always seen from me. To know more about FIFA World Cup Tickets click here.

Soon be able to pull on the Vinotinto shirt that I love so dearly and that I have no doubt my teammates will go all out to protect in the two matches ahead of us. Although I’m watching from afar, my heart is there, with the Venezuela Football World Cup squad.

Rondon has contained in seven of Everton’s eight games this season, making the starting line-up on five instances. Arriving on transfer target day, he had also come off the back of an injury that prevented him from featuring at the Venezuela Football World Cup side.

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Benitez views Everton youngster as a leader, he’s played just 61 mins this term

Benitez views Everton youngster as a leader, he’s played just 61 mins this term

Photo by Tony McArdle/Everton FC via Getty Images According to Corriere Dello Sport, Rafa Benitez sees Ben Godfrey as a leader at Everton, despite the defender’s youthfulness. What’s the story? Well, Godfrey may only be 23, and may only have had one full campaign as an Everton player, but Benitez clearly admires him. Corriere Dello Sport believe the Spaniard considers him as an ‘added director’…