#agh ... I just have so much to think about ...
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…It's nice. You're so noisy. […] Actually, it'd be better if we died together. That way, neither of us would have to suffer the pain of losing the other, right? Shut up.
KISEKI: DEAR TO ME Ep. 13
#kiseki: dear to me#kisekiedit#kdtm#kiseki dear to me#ai di x chen yi#chen yi x ai di#nat chen#chen bowen#louis chiang#chiang tien#jiang dian#userspring#uservid#userspicy#userrain#userjjessi#pdribs#*cajedit#*gif#AI DI'S FACE IN THE LAST GIFFFFFF IIIIIIIIII. LOOOOVE. HIIIMMMMM.#this might be the most romantic thing ive ever seen full stop#if you dont want to die with me so neither of us have to live without each other then why would i want you.#(but also ai di would have been okay with that. again. hes like. hes taking what he can get.#he thinks chen yi isnt as All In as he is....and this is the scene he realizes chen yi is just as insane about him and he is SOOOOO. happy!#i also love the face chen yi makes as he's getting in the car while ai di is calling at him to promise. he ROLLS HIS EYES.#he looks at ai di like. SURE jan. SURE ill let you die before me. SUUUURE i wont go insane if you die.#i just love how now theyre completely on the same page with each other. they know how much each loves the other#and both of them are so so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AGH.#'youre so noisy.' 'shut up.' chen yi just wants to kiss (hes laughing & fond & in love & not as good with words & its really. really cute.)#and the way he leans back and clears his throat like he cant believe what he just said but he would never take it back...baby...
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one of the most annoying aspects of bruce wayne as a character is how much of a Main Fucking Character he is. and i know like, in the metatextual sense, yeah he's the main character so often things revolve around him, but it's not just that; within the story, even if things happen to other people, it's always about bruce. barbara gets shot? thats about bruce! jason dies? thats about bruce? literally FUCKING ANYTHING that happens bruce views as Something To Do With Him, which is SO FUCKING OBNOXIOUS and it makes me want to fucking scream. how can one man be so insanely narcisstic that he genuinely sees almost every single problem in the life of anyone tangentially related to him as something to do with him. when can i fucking strange him.
#I HATE HIM SO MUCH#i was thinking abt this at work the other day and its like#BRUCE. NOT EVERYTHING IS ABOUT YOU BRUCE. SOMETIMES THINGS ARE ABOUT OTHER PEOPE#im still on my bruce wayne hate game and i dont think im gonna be off it for a lonnnnnnng time#i would say sorry. but im not.#also hope this makes sense i am having a very difficult time figuring out words rn#not even high im just exhausted#work is killing me</3 agh#anti Bruce Wayne#Bat Clan#DC Comics#bruce i need u to look outside of urself for all of 3 seconds and realize that other people have issues too. and they have nothing to do w#at the fuck all#OK. ILL STOP NOW#but seriously fuck that guy i want to kill him
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This is working soooo well btw
#i think the key to making it work is using it for very clear amounts of time#if it were for a whole month or an indeterminate length i would put too much or keep adding#up to two weeks with a trip at the end? Ideal#things i love about it:#can see all the writing tasks at once and can cross them off as i make progress instead of just having ''write'' on every day's list#can see which days are particularly full and can reallocate tasks depending#can put good things on there too to blackmail myself into doing them#and they're just there for an 8-day span rather than trying to decide which of the good things i should do on a given day#with the pressure that if i don't do it today i might never remember to#if i so desire i can put on a list of daily tasks and then when i finish something i can cross it off TWICE#and if a given day doesn't accomplish a certain thing it's fine because i know i can get to it later#btw i am rambling about this because i'm trying to avoid working on my conclusion. agh
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i dont think any of you understand how much i adore the voice. i hope she does something unforgivable and i hope i understand fully why she did it. i hope shes treated with kindness by someone. i hope she gets to be a person. i hope the erins dont mess this up for us. i hope she gets one billion aus where shes happy.
#postofmine#I HOPE SHE GETS A DISTINCT NAME SO I CAN TAG HER#agh.#warrior cats#changing skies#the elders quest#look i dont think she should get a name unless its to make a point about distinct personhood (she doesnt have much)#but just for tagging convenience. erins please.#the voice#voicepaw#):
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when you feel the embarrassment of constantly gushing about a single character and flooding that character's tags with your posts you must ignore that embarrassment. it is the enemy of autistic joy.
#currently feeling it about vivienne right now and its just. agh. -15 health everytime i think about it#im having fun! but i talk soo much about her lol#i am going to dial back my vivienne posting a fair bit tho. i have plenty of asks and drafts about her cooking so#they will be more posts about her! but the demons are winning
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#I’m gonna miss you when i die#Writing#poetry#2024#november 2024#November 7 2024#i fantasize about reading this to the people i wrote this about and if i have the chance i think I genuinely will do that#if they ask who the “he” is i’ll say its meant to be anyone#which is partly true#i was thinking of a specific person when i wrote it but it i feel the same about them all#I just needed a vessel to express that to make it sound more personal and specific#platonic love#queer platonic#alterous#platonic#<- tagging for visibility. agh i hate doing that but i have to…#art is unfinished in a vacuum. or whatever….#I really do fucking love this poem so god damn much btw
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I found an incredibly in-depth template for L. Corp OCs on Toyhouse, and it's going to change everything about how I display info for my nuggets--it has the general stuff like their personalities and appearance, as well as a section for fun facts, but it also has tabs for relationships and E.G.O gear, including Gifts, and it's making me so excited ... I'm like a kid in a candy store. Now I just have to fill this out for all 44 of my nuggets ... why did I allow myself to have this many?
#it's going to be very slow going‚ but once I finish‚ I'll make all their profiles public and add a link to my Toyhouse in my carrd!#shout out to Sandbox for giving me a Toyhouse code and getting me thinking about my OCs‚ again--it's a real one /gen#there's also some Limbus templates that I'll experiment with for Sherry ... and I can add Watson and the other relevant OCs later#agh ... I just have so much to think about ...#scattered pages
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i think im actually the only person i know that hates studio ghibli movies rip
#the ironic thing is the artist himself like the guy who makes them i have soooo much respect for like i do think hes a visionary.#unfortunately everything is lost on me because i find the art style so ugly (TO ME!!!!)#anyway i know im entitled to my opinion but i ALSO know im wrong about it lol im sorry i just 😭 agh
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kinda funny in retrospect how my mom kept forcing me to go on trips as a kid because she wanted me to have fun with the family but i would just isolate myself and withdraw the whole time because i was being forced to do something i didnt want to and that made me feel really bad. and she'd get mad that i wasnt enjoying myself like i was squandering this opportunity that i explicitly did not want. this is your brain on adultism.
#blog.write(post)#thinking about youth lib and how so much awful shit just came from my parents having undue control over me#what fucking drives me is that i sound insane even suggesting that kids shouldnt have to obey their parents every command#when i get coworkers complaining abt problems with their kids n shit#agh
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hey guys so I just started reading Flatland by Edwin A. Abbott and OMG AHSBNSBSBSNSNBSHZHSHDBFHGGHFHGRJ2KSHSBSNSK AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I LOVE THINKING ABOUT THE RELATIVITY BETWEEN DIMENSIONS!!!!!!
#probably the nerdiest thing i will ever read in my entire life but I AM SO HAPPY#Its the unabridged and corrected 1992 republication btw. if you wanna get specific#the only book in which i have actually decided to read the introductory notes and i do NOT regret it because the editor's one IMMEDIATELY#brought up the “oh but surely the second dimension has thickness how else would flatlanders see anything” AND GAVE A REALLY GOOD ANSWER.#which i cannot tell you here. bc it is several paragraphs long and idk how i would shorten it. i would hit tag limit. if thats a thing.#anyways. I'm only a little bit into the first part which basically explains how Flatland works as a society so i haven't even gotten to the#sphere yet but OH MAN I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO EXCITED ABOUT A ROUND OBJECT IN MY LIFE#IM LOSING IT OVER THIS BOOK AAAA :D#me: im so glad i dont have a math class during my senior year! now i dont have to learn anything math-related!#also me: but what if i started studying a complex and almost entirely theoretical part of geometry#bc YEAH i didn't just buy this book bc of gravity falls. I BOUGHT IT BC IVE BEEN RESEARCHING THE 4TH DIMENSION WOOOOOOO!!!!!#one thing i will say i dont like. introductory note suggests the the 4th dimension might be time. this is ok tho bc its followed up with#also saying that time is not a spatial dimension and exist across the 0 1st 2nd and 3rd dimensions which. that epuld mean we live in 4d#already. so. i was worried for a second but THANK YOU THANK YOU OH MY GOD PEOPLE TRYING TO SAY “OH THE 4TH DIMENSION IS TIME” I HATE THAT SO#MUCH AAAAGGHHHH AT LEAST RECOGNIZE ITS NOT SPATIAL!!! TIME IS NOT A SPATIAL DIMENSION!!!!!!! IF IT WAS THEN 4D TRAVEL AND TIME TRAVEL WPULD#BE FHE SAME THING AND DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY MUCH COOLER POSSIBILITIES WPULD BE THROWN AWAY IF THAT WAS THAT CASE!!!!! AND. AND. IF THE 4TH#DIMENSION IS TIME. THEN WHATS THE 5TH?? 6TH?? YPU CANT KEEP GOINF ON FOREVER LIKE THAT. YPURE JUST MAKEING MORE 3D WORLSS WITH STUFF IN#ADDITION TO TIME. INTERESTING BUT THAY IS NOT ABOHT HIGHRER DIEMSBSJSNSBAKAJSHDHDHHDHDHDJ#sorry for the rant. jsut. agh i want a spatial 4th dimension. i dont think tesseracts exist through time that would just be an aged cube#anyways yeahhh i love the 4th dimension. new hyperfixation or new special interest? ill have to wait and see. anyways i have done it i have#an oc whos 4 dimensional now and she is the coolest ever i love her#but yeah this book is sosososo good i am literally gonna bring it to school to read instead of draw bc i would lose it if i didn't#10/10 would recommend to anyone who wants to Think
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i do Not know a single fing about five or arifive for dat matter ― yes dis is a free gush pass hehe (●'◡'●)
twirls hair. hi aisha 😁 (tyyyy 🥺 🥺 🥺 🥺)
^this is my awesomesauce husband mr five hargreeves who i love and adore forever and ever with every atom of my being 🫶 my guy of all time 🫶 i will kill in his honor 🫶
my older mutuals will remember the days when all i could yap about was his stupid face HDDJFSFH so now i will do that again :)
warning this got so long im sorry HDSHSGH
so to start with, five is from a show called the umbrella academy! which is about five and his 6 siblings, who are ex-superheroes. and the show is more or less supposed to be about how their lives have changed after they grew up and tried to live separate, normal lives. until they find out that the apocalypse is in a few days, and they need to band together one last time to stop it from happening
there are four seasons but. due to reasons bad writing we are ignoring the fourth one 😭 we are rewriting like. everything
now the arifive stuff:
(before the show's plot! because most of their story happens there :) by the time the first episode runs, these two are already married)
five's plot revolves a lot around time travel. when he was 13, he ran away from home to travel to the future, which is how he finds out about the apocalypse. but due to time travel math, he winds up being stuck in a desolate wasteland for 45 years 🥹
but in that depressing future, he finds ari :) ari, prior to the apocalypse, was supposed to be a random civilian and a very big fan of the umbrella academy from when they were superheroes. when a giant explosion cooked the earth and everyone in it, he miraculously survives with powers he never knew he had (the ability to self regenerate injuries at a superhuman rate). which leaves him and five as the only humans left on earth
their funny thing is that ari, due to his fanboyism, has always had a giant crush on five HDDHGSGH 😭 he's very. nd coded, you could say. he's always been stuck in his own world and felt alienated from everyone else. so his hyperfixation was more or less his way of coping with his circumstances. he found a sense of comfort there (the way i do irl with selfshipping) but then now he is meeting his hero fr and finding out that he's actually not what he's been expecting. so there's him coming to terms with that and coming to care for him as a flawed person rather than whoever he cooked up in his imagination. ari cares about him, and he always will. there was just a matter of changing his perspective
and then there's five, who does not understand at all why this random guy he just met is trying to help him so much?????? he's always been the best in his family, and now he's so helpless and uncertain of what to do. he's So unused to having to rely on someone else because he never had anyone to do that for him in the academy. Well Now He Does!!!! ari is willingly holding him up and trying his best to keep him alive because he knows five is trying to find the right coordinates to time travel back home to his original timeline. JUST because he cares. and five doesn't quite Get It but. he certainly feels something about it
i love these two because they just support and strengthen each other unconditionally. it's very heartwarming. to me 🥹
the catalyst for their attachment to each other is when they realize at some point that they might not be able to be together forever. because at some point, five plans to go back to his timeline, where ari doesn't belong. five, being a time traveler, is cautious, and doesn't want to disrupt the timeline somehow by bringing ari with him. and ari just agrees, because he doesn't want to trouble five
but then the thought ate at him more. five couldn't make himself leave ari. he realized he couldn't imagine continuing the rest of his life without him. if something happens to the timeline, five will find a way to fix it himself. but he could and would not leave ari alone here. so :) yeah
they are inseparable after that jfdgjhddh
idk i love their dynamic and how their story can tell you so much about it. it's so healing and sweet. ari used to always be left alone, so five tries to prevent that from ever happening again. five always having to rely on himself, and now he has ari who will go to the ends of the earth to help him
they were both so lonely, until they were finally able to meet and it's just so satisfying
#extra in the tags which is more personal hehe#i love five a lot (everyone can tell HDDHFSH) like. he's somehow changed my life in a lot of different ways. it's astounding. really#i made a lot of friends because of him. ive been able to heal a lot mentally and emotionally because of him. just having him by my side#makes me a lot less lonely. he's very special to me#he's. i think the first person that has succeeded in making me feel cared for and appreciated. i used to be in a place where that was#really really hard. and it's still hard. to be fair 🥹 but ill accept the baby steps. im glad he's with me...#i bought wedding rings for this guy chat im down horrendous okay hddgjjdsgjgsfh LORD I FEEL A BIT EMBARRASSED NOW JFSHJDH#I YAPPED SO MUCH OMG IM LOOKING AT THE LENGTH NOW. WHAT DID THIS GUY DO TO MEHFDJHDSG I EVEN GOT ALL SAPPY ON A RANDOM FRIDAY NIGHT 😭 AGH#um. thank you 🫶 for the excuse to gush about my husband hwdhdshgsh :) i lob he#ari.asks#ache tag#mine#tbd tag#if i could never give you peace.♡#aisha.tag
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Everyone wish me good luck I have a big Very Important interview today

#i talk#job talk#It's way less stressful than it otherwise might be because its an interview for an internal job at the company I already work for#So like. Theoretically I've probably sorta already met the people who will be interviewing me (maybe) even if I don't know them well#But on the other hand if I frick it up it'll be even more embarrassing because it will reflect poorly on me AND my team#I think it'll be fine though *KNOCKS ON WOOD* Professional me is pretty good at winging it#I have SEVERELY burnt out my social interaction and charm reserves after the last few days though so that's Not Great.#But we'll see how it goes#anyways GOODNIGHT why the frick am I still awake#(Answer: Stress)#I love my team so much (minus one guy) and I ADORE my boss#and I like what I do but. I just don't get paid enough#Like I am DANGEROUSLY in the red and I have a full time job. That should not be a thing. It's frickin crazy#If I get this job it will *KNOCKS ON WOOD AGAIN* instantly improve my whole situation so much because of the pay raise#I did talk with my boss about a pay raise for my current position because APPARENTLY I'm also overdue for a discussion about that#And I'm just like *drags hands down face*#''Why have we not had that discussion yet now I gotta wait til my annual review''#and my financial situation aint got that kind of time#Ya boi's been having an extraordinarily stressful time lately. Thoughts & prayers – please & thank you#Time to make some tacos as a very very very very very late meal and then crash for a few hours before waking up early for work#and the interview#o(-( agh
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I know you, a little to the left (Patreon)
#Doodles#Damned#Osmosis Jones#Ozzy#Drix#Leah Estrogen#I mean ''Anna Westbrook'' totally 100%#More of my favourites! Another! Is characters who Should Know that Do Not :)#And it's all over the Institute and it's so angstily perfect ah <3 ''I know you but you're not the One I know'' ow <3#Makes any kind of close relationship extra painful imo :) I'm still tossing around a DAX/ZEX idea in that vein too#Although I also really like that they're each other's ah <3 Both is good! I like both!!#But here we've got Ozzy from Osmosis Jones and Drix from Ozzy & Drix ♪ They're absolutely a couple lbh#They're the only two of a kind who have such a shared history! Oz's flirting gets toned way down in the show too#Not gonna stop me from shipping him with everyone - my favourites are the bicycles this is known lol#But the concept of this Oz being from before he and Drix got together while this Drix is dating his Ozzy ahh#Still in love with him! Smitten silly! How would Oz react! It's fun to think about :)#And then the opposite side of things from Oz's perspective dealing with a Leah who is Almost what he remembers but not quite!#Gods I love the visitor concept it is so rich for pain and longing and self-doubt and just agh!! What an excellent game element!!!#The genuine concern and frustration that comes with being so convinced of something on both sides!! Yes yes yes#I've very much been building Anna and Chris' relationship up in the background radiation of ideas hwah#Dangerously inspirational how could you do this to me <3
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SUPER DARK TIMES (2017) DIR. KEVIN PHILLIPS
also, honorable mention to the original script for this scene:
#super dark times#zach taylor#allison bannister#sam edits#they make me feel insaaaaaaaane. its so much. i just. AGH. because i mean obviously it's for the sake of Plot#but just the start of her 'I like Zach and am GONNA date him' agenda seeming to directly coincide with The Daryl Incident is so... tragic#the Zach from a few days earlier—the Zach in the basement giggling about how he likes her—was never the Zach that got to be#the center of her attention this way. but tbh the FUNNIEST explanation for this timing to me is the idea that him shouting 'PENIS'#outside her house while fucking around with Josh was the thing that pushed her to be like 'ok fuck it i want him and im gonna get him'#bc she DID call to invite him to her party that same night. it's unclear if she called before or after but. it def could have been after#also also also: the fact that this scene is the last time they see each other before the. stuff at Meghan's house. they talk on the phone#briefly after (in which she calls him an asshole under her breath because he's calling to ask for what she thinks is another girl's number)#which... much to think about there. especially with the script's original 'she gives up on him' line. agughghghh#(though in the script version they actually do see each other one more time. or. well. she sees him but he doesn't notice her)
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Love your rr au, the designs are some of the best I've seen <3 And I also think Damian should be tall as heck as an adult, how tall is Jon in your au? (Maybe he takes after his mom's height more?)
Story wise, how did Damian get along with his sibling at first? I always imagine him being kind of an ass to Duke at first, then no one believes Duke years later when he tells them, because dami became such a nice big bro.
Hope you write an update soon!!
i’ve been picturing jon as also pretty tall, but definitely shorter than damian. maybe around 5’11”-6’?
and timeline-wise duke was taken in as a ward/foster child not long before damian showed up [like, a few months, with them being 9yrs old and 11yrs old respectively], and they had a kinda weird relationship? like damian didn’t view duke as bruce’s son because duke was “just a ward” and duke’s parents were technically still alive, if unable to care for him, so damian didn’t see duke as like.. competition for bruce’s attention or anything, but he wasn’t super brotherly to him either. to damian duke was just kind of a kid that he had to live with and there wasn’t much acknowledgement outside of that for a while
dukes reaction to damian, i’m not too sure? i have a reading list for duke comics saved that i need to go through because i wanna learn more about him before i write too much with him [plus he just seems cool and i wanna know more in general]. i think generally he just wouldn’t really know what to make of damian, and maybe make a few attempts to reach out and bond with him, but his success is questionable for a while until they connect over both being artists [in different mediums, but still] and end up being pretty close once damian is better adjusted to life outside the loa
so, dami wasn’t exactly an ass but he wasn’t really nice either? he made more of an effort eventually, and he was around 15-16 by the time he got another younger sibling [cass] so he’d had a lot of practice by then
#.asks#rrau#i have SO many comics i need to read for many characters . agh#i havent rlly read any with steph in them either#and the only reason i felt confident enough to write about her first was because that fic wasn’t super indepth#even the more dialogue-heavy chapter was more of an overvuew#*overview#and i know just enough about her personality that i figured i could work with it#i’ll look for a reading list for her too soon#i weirdly just dont have as much energy when it comes to reading comics as youd think#considering theyre mostly pictures#but i will do my best 💪
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im o tired that ijust put my headphones on over my earbuds but my gay ass still cant sleep. what the he'll.... fuckedup world
#. sighs so loudluy#i keep thinking about red vox i might have to listen to them to get to sleep#but. agh its just that i always listen to red vox to get to sleep. and when im awake. and when im trying to sleep. and#and its jsut like... i love them so much but i feel bad about them being the only shit i listen to atp#cause im all like ''i love a bunch of different types of music'' & then my lastfm is just like. 99% this one goddamn band#the autistic fixation just really hits sometimes okay. sometimes it hits insanestyle. for like a full ass year.with no sign of stopping#& perhaps i feel bad about it for no reason. but i dunno. you know how it is.#im also a bit worried ill get tired of them. like i probably wont ive listened to almost all their songs 100+ times each in just like a yea#and im still not tired of any of them. but idk. it might happen somehow. and then i would be sad :(#awoo
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