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Chapter Twenty Five

Meelah

I wasn’t in my room for five minutes before both of my parents came in. My father was ranting like he always does all the while stripping my bedroom of anything I would consider fun. He took my computer, my iPad, and my phone. He even went as far as to take all of my chargers. He was just doing the most at this point.

“You done now Tone?” My mother asked him while she leaned against my bedroom door with her arms folded over her chest.

“Almost, I just want to know why she thought talking to that nigga was alright.” He answered her while staring at me. “Meelah, I’m trying to understand this shit. I want to know everything right now.”

“Everything like what?”

“Like how you even got into contact with him after that shit happened.”

“I ran into him at a Chipotle one day. I was sitting down eating waiting for you to come pick me up when he sat down across from me. I didn’t even want to talk to him because I knew what happened to Sanaii but he sat there begging me to believe that he had nothing to do with it. Like the boy was almost crying daddy.” I told him and he just shook his head.

“And you believed him?”

“I don’t know, something in me was telling me he was lying but something else was telling me to hear him out. He still had my phone number from before all the drama went down and he started calling me. I ignored him for a minute but I eventually gave in and he was just…He’s a sweet boy. He would talk to me for hours and he was so nice so I thought there was no way he could have anything to do with it.”

“Toi told me that Malik was getting all of Sanaii’s social media accounts every time she made a new one. Were you around that boy at all?” My mother asked me.

“No, I never saw Malik. Sean never even talked about Malik; we would just hang out together. He must’ve been going through my phone and getting it.”

“How does he get into your phone?”

“I don’t know I never gave him my password or nothing he must’ve watched me do it before and memorized it.” I sat up with my back against my headboard. “I really fucked up huh?”

“You did,” My mother told me. “You chose that boy over your best friend. You know what happened to her and you made it seem like it wasn’t a big deal when it is just that.”

“I know her being raped was a big deal ma, I never said it wasn’t but I didn’t do anything that led to him popping up on her. She thinks I was hanging out with them like what went down didn’t matter. I never saw Malik after the night we went to the party. I didn’t know Sean was going through my phone, I didn’t even know he was still talking to Malik until I called him earlier asking him how Malik knew where she was.”

“And? What did he say?” My dad asked me. I had to turn my head away from him just so I wouldn’t see the angry look on his face. My father has a lot of patience, he rarely gets angry but when he does it’s like an explosion.

“He said that he saw my text messages and that’s how he knew where to tell Malik to go.” The more I answered their questions the dumber I felt. He was really using me and I never even caught on to it.

“Meelah that boy was using you, and now you may have lost your friend because of it.”

“I realize that now ma and I’m sorry. I would apologize but she’s not going to want to hear me out.”

“Just give her some time.”

“Ma, come on you know just like I do Sanaii is stubborn and she doesn’t give too many chances out if any at all. The girl can hold a grudge like no other; remember you said she was like Auntie Toi because of that.”

“She is just like Toi and that’s how I know you have to give her time. She’s angry and hurt right now and she will be for a good minute which I understand. You would be hurt and mad too if the shoe was on the other foot.”

“So what do I do? If I just ignore her until she’s ready to talk she’s going to think I don’t care.”

“First you’re going to tell me where to find this little nigga. I don’t give a damn about your loving him or anything like that. He’s gotta go so he’s going to go.” My dad said to me. “Secondly you need to tell Sanaii you’re sorry. She probably blocked yo ass by now so I don’t care if you have to write a five page apology let you’re going to let her know that you fucked up and you’re sorry. She’ll talk to you if and when she’s ready to but at least take that step alright.”

“Yes daddy,”

“Alright now write down the address and give it to your mother I gotta go do some shit real quick.” He shook his head at me then walked out.

“He hates me huh?” I asked my mother. My father was big on loyalty, he says the worst thing you can do to somebody is betray them and right now he was looking at me like I wasn’t even his daughter. I could tell if I wasn’t his child my head would’ve been blown the fuck off for something so dumb.

“No he doesn’t hate you. He’s disappointed in you, shit I am too. Meelah this was dumb, really dumb. Not only were you being disloyal to Sanaii, you put yourself in danger. Who’s to say he wasn’t going to do to you what that boy did to Naii? Then what? You were obviously sneaking your ass out my house to go see this nigga. Nobody knew where you were he could do anything to you and we wouldn’t even know.”

“I know and I’m sorry,” I wiped the tears that fell down my face. I hated crying, my mother knows I hate crying and she’s sitting here making me feel like shit. I mean I get it, I don’t need to be consoled right now but fuck I don’t wanna cry.

“I want you to learn from this alright. You can’t be so naïve. I wish I could tell you that Sanaii is going to let this go and y’all will be friends again but I can’t because I don’t know. You really hurt her tonight. Think about all of this and really get your mind right.”

“Okay,”

“Alright give me the address.” I got up and wrote the address of where I knew Sean was staying down on a sticky note then gave it to my mother. “Go to bed, get some sleep.” She kissed my forehead then walked out my room closing my door behind her.

I sat laid down across my bed and let out a deep sigh. I knew after tonight a lot of things were about to change. I know for a fact my dad was going to kill Sean. That was a given, there was no way he was about to live after that shit and that was weighing on me for more than a couple of reasons.

Sanaii wasn’t talking to me any time soon. I know that girl like the back of my hand and I know that Sanaii is extremely stubborn. She will not listen to anything I have to say, which I really don’t even blame her for after what I did and what I said to her. At the time that I was spending time with Sean I never really thought about it, I believed everything he said to me. I believed his ass when he cried about not knowing.

I didn’t think he was using me, I should’ve caught on to that but I didn’t and now I’m stuck with no best friend. My father is mad at me, my mother isn’t feelin’ me too much right now either. I’m pretty sure Uncle Que and Aunt Toi probably hate me too. I was just a complete dumb ass and I knew it. Losing my best friend couldn’t have come at a worse time. It was way more to the situation with Sean than anybody knew. The worst part about it is if I open my mouth and say anything my parents would really hate me, and if I don’t open my mouth I’m fucked up for a lifetime. Life was just all fucked up at this point.

Khalil

“You alright?” I asked Meelah after sitting down at the empty lunch table with her. She was in here sitting by herself and I know it was by choice because Meelah has her own friends outside of Sanaii so I wanted to check on her.

“No, but I will be I guess. You spoke to Naii?”

“Not really.” I shook my head. “You know you fucked up right?”

‘Yes Khalil I know that. I don’t need you reminding me about it.”

“I’m just saying, you were acting like her getting raped isn’t a big deal. You know you were defending that nigga?”

“Khalil, you ever felt like you were in love?”

“Nah not really.”

“So you don’t care about the girl you gave your virginity to?”

“I don’t even remember her name. Wait hold up, you fucked that nigga?” I had to look at her like she was dumb for that one.

“I was stupid, I know this now. It’s just a lot man.”

“Come on, talk to big daddy Khalil.”

“Big daddy? Eww,” She laughed while she her head at me before she went on to tell me about how she started talking to Sean and how everything went down. “I want Sanaii to know that I’m sorry but I doubt if she listens.”

“Text her,”

“She blocked me, not really shocking. I emailed her though, hopefully she actually reads it.”

“I’m sure she will you just gotta give her time to calm down.”

“Everybody keeps saying that.”

“You know that nigga is gone right?”

‘Yup.” She looked down at her hands. “I should hate him for using my ass and setting her up like he did but I can’t.” She started tearing up but covered her face. “I wasn’t shit to him, I meant nothing and I thought i did.”

“You’ll find another boyfriend Meelah.”

“I’m not thinking about a boyfriend right now. Trust me a boyfriend is the least of my concerns. Boys have done enough for me.” She moved her hands from her face then wiped her tears.

“What does that mean?”

“He’s gone, that’s fine I’ll get over it I guess but I wish it wasn’t after he gave me some shit I can’t get rid of.”

“You burnin’ or some shit?”

“No nigga, the fuck?”

“I’m just asking. Well what do you have that you can’t get r-“I looked at her face then down at the baggy clothes that she was wearing and my mouth dropped. “Meelah, tell me your ass ain’t pregnant.”

“Khalil, just mind your business alright.”

“You pregnant by that nigga?”

“Just shut up, and keep your mouth closed.” She got up grabbing her stuff then rushed off. I sat there feeling like somebody just let a ton of bricks fall over my head. That’s why she was defending that nigga so hard, he went and get her ass pregnant.

I got up and walked out of the cafeteria just as Sanaii was coming in with Legend and Bryan. I walked over to her and grabbed her arm. “We gotta talk come with me.”

“Alright what the fuck are you pulling me for Khalil?” She snatched her arm away from me then crossed them over her chest. “What? If it’s about me talking to Meelah it’s not happening.”

“She’s pregnant.”

“Who’s pregnant?”

“Meelah, that’s why she was defending that nigga so hard.”

“Damn, well that’s what she gets for being a dummy.”

“Naii really?”

“Yes really? Am I supposed to feel bad for her? She got herself in that situation, if she wasn’t fuckin’ with the enemy she wouldn’t be where she is.”

“Sanaii I need for you to use the grown up side of your brain for a minute. The girl is 15 and pregnant, you know who her parents are. You know she’s scared as fuck and you don’t care?”

“No, she didn’t care about my rape.”

“Oh word? You think she doesn’t care?”

“Obviously if she could be cool with that nigga.”

“Sanaii, you sound stupid. She does care but she got caught up. How are you going to say she doesn’t care when I remember her laying up with your ass for a week straight when your parents finally found out.”

“What’s your point?”

“My point is she fucked up but you know she wasn’t trying to hurt you. I’m not saying you can’t be mad at her. You definitely should but I don’t think you should just drop her like she’s nothing.Meelah isn’t you she’s naïve as fuck, she believed that nigga when he went crying to her swearing he had nothing to do with it.” I could tell by her silence that she understood what I was saying.

“How do you even know this?”

“She told me, she said she emailed you. Read it and maybe you’ll understand where she’s coming from. I’m not saying you have to forgive her, I’m not saying y’all gotta be friends again but damn just at least try and understand aight.”

“Who told you she was pregnant?”

“She did, no her parents don’t know and you can’t say shit.”

“Khalil you’re annoying,” Sanaii huffed. “I want to stay mad at the bitch and you’re trying to make me feel bad for her.”

“I don’t want you to feel bad for her, I’m just saying read the damn email. It’s not going to kill you, but Uncle Tone might kill her if he finds out.”

“Oh yeah he’s going to bury that ass for sure. Look Khalil, I’m not promising you a damn thing but I’ll think about it.”

“That’s all I care about. Come on,” We over to the table where Bryan and Legend were at and sat with them.

I was trying to concentrate on the conversation they were having but I couldn’t help but think about Meelah. The fact that she was pregnant was shocking to me, plus she’s pregnant at the same time as Diamond so they were about to have two grand babies at one time. All I know is I don’t want to be there when they find out because that shit is going to be like a volcano erupting.

Once school was out I went straight home instead of hanging out with Bryan and Legend. I had too much shit on my brain to even function right.

When I got in the house I smelled something cooking so I walked in the kitchen to see my mother behind the stove. “What are you doing?”

“Cooking, the hell does it look like I’m doing? How was school?”

“It was alright.”

“Meelah and Sanaii alright?”

“Sanaii is pissed but she’s good. Meelah isn’t really doing too well.”

“This whole situation is fucked up.”

“I know, it’s way more messed up than you know.”

“What does that mean?”

“Nothing, what are you cooking?”

“Mhm, I’m cooking food. Now get out of my face. Go do some homework.”

“I did it in last period, I always do that. You know that by now.” I leaned down since she was short as fuck and kissed her on the cheek. “You need to grow some more.”

“Just because you and those other niggas you call a father and brother are some giants doesn’t mean anything. I’ll still tear your ass up.”

“You can’t even reach my face mama.”

“You want me to slap the shit out of you to prove you wrong?”

“Nah I’m good, chill.” I laughed backing away from her. “I do have a question though.”

“What?”

“Can I get another tattoo?”

“You have five already and your little ass is only 16.”

“I’m trying to catch up to you and pops.” My mother was tatted the fuck up. One of her arms was completely covered, she had some on her legs plus she had this big ass chest piece. My pops was covered in them too. Mecca had a few, he was working on a sleeve and so far I had five but I wanted more. Thankfully for me my parents didn’t make a big deal about tattoos and shit, they really had no room to be like that anyway.

“Bring me some good grades and you can get another one.”

“Say no more. Where’s pops?”

“I don’t know, i don’t care either.” She shrugged.

“Y’all good?”

“I don’t know Khalil, i wanna say yeah but I rarely see that nigga.”

“He’s probably just working aight.” I know my mother and father were going through something because they rarely talked since we’ve moved back up here. Hell, he’s rarely home and when he is they argue. I know this because we hear it plus my mother isn’t the type of person to beat around the bush or hide shit. She’ll tell me what’s up with them in a heartbeat. I don’t know what my dad had going but whatever is done in the dark will eventually come to the light so I’m worried about it.

I kissed my mother’s cheek then left the kitchen. I was about to go to my room but went down to Mecca’s instead.

“Didn’t I tell you to announce yourself when you come down here?” He looked up from phone and at me. “What you want?”

“Damn I can’t say what’s up anymore?”

“Not unless you want something and you know not to ask me for money, so what’s up?”

“Aight, look I know something about somebody but I don’t know what to do with the information. I’m not trying to be a snitch.”

“Well then shut the fuck up and don’t snitch. Mind your business.”

“See I could do that but I know this person. Hell, we know this person.”

“Who and what the fuck are you talking about Khalil?” He looked at me confused.

“Aight, long story short you remember what happened to Sanaii right? Basically, the nigga that told her to go upstairs did some crying and whining to Meelah. Had her thinking he was innocent, he went through her phone and told that other nigga Malik where to find Sanaii. Sanaii found out, they fought. They’re not speaking now, I’m pretty sure the nigga is dead since Meelah had to tell her father where the nigga was.”

“Oh yeah he’s dead for sure. What secret are you talking about though?”

“She’s pregnant by that nigga.”

“Who’s pregnant by who?”

“Meelah is pregnant by that nigga.”

His mouth dropped in shock. “Are you serious? Damn, they’re going to kill her ass. You have to say something.”

“Why the fuck would I do that?”

“You think it’s healthy for her to pregnant and not going to the doctors or whatever? You know she can’t go alone, she’s only 15.”

“I know that but you want me to just tell on her?”

“I don’t know but it’s better that they know.”

“Alright I’ll tell if you tell Uncle Legend you took his daughter’s virginity.” I smirked and he shook his head.

“Why are we trying to make this shit about me and Jurnee?”

“I’m not, I’m just saying. You wouldn’t want anybody to tell that shit would you?”

“Alright, I hear what you saying but this shit is different. You don’t have to say anything but they’re going to find out anyway. Aight look, this is what you do. You shut the fuck up and don’t say anything until you think it’s going too far or unless you really have to.”

“That could work, thanks man. I can’t believe Meelah is going to have a baby though.”

“I know, if she lives I’ll be shocked as hell.”

“The fuck does that even mean?”

“It means if her parents don’t kill her ass when they find out, she’s blessed and highly favored because I already know they’re going to flip. Myles told me Mickey cried when she found out about him and Diamond, the fuck you think she’s going to do when she hears her 15 year old is pregnant by a nigga her husband offed?”

“Yeah that’s going to be crazy.” The fact that Meelah was pregnant was something that I still couldn’t wrap my head around. Not only is she pregnant, but the nigga she’s pregnant by was killed by her father, who is damn near psychotic over his daughter.

Don’t get me wrong Uncle Legend is protective over his daughters too but he’s not as tough as Tone. He doesn’t want Meelah dealing with any boys. All that dating and shit was not going to happen for her as far as he was concerned. He would barely let her out of the house if she wasn’t with Sanaii so hearing about her having a baby is going to make that man lose his damn mind.

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