#also i am back from hiatus

[s0upjuice]

felt like drawing some very cool guys

(in order) these ocs belong to: @aimer-arts, @teeterarting, @teshamerkel, and @azurityarts

[dorkydiaz]

i made a short post here referring to my own experiences and wanted to expand on it, you can reblog both of these posts btw. I am only writing this all down because the way some of you have spoken about chris and his decision very much bothers me. trust when i tell you i do not want to completely lay out my trauma on the internet for all of you to read, but if it makes one of you understand why this works, why it is important, then it will have been worth it to me.

When I was 12 my father was diagnosed with frontal temporal dementia. the adults in my family and his doctors decided that it was best for him to be moved to a a full time care facility. The next year, and after hearing, seeing, and understanding my father's condition and where it would go, I, at thirteen years old, made the decision to say goodbye to him, that I did not want to hear about what levels of deterioration he had reached. I wanted to remember him as he was when he remembered me, and all the adventures and fun things we did together.

I made that decision. I made it because it was easier than watching him deteriorate, forget who his sister, his brother, my brother, my mother, and me. And I knew that at twelve and thirteen. It was never a decision I ever thought I would have to make, it wasn't a decision I should've had to make.

Now, the important part, over the next few years my decision was questioned and ignored by the adults in my life and even my brother, some of the questioning I can understand now that I am older, but it should have never reached the level it did. My aunt and uncle would openly discuss his condition over dinner when he came to visit, and I would run away to the restaurant bathroom and cry my eyes out until my mom came to get me. I was forced into visiting him in his care home, which ended with it causing far more harm than good. Only then was my decision somewhat respected, it took me being retraumatized for it to be taken seriously.

Despite all of that, I do not regret that decision.

I can't know how I would be different if none of that happened. But at this point in my live, eleven years and some therapy later, I am fairly certain I would be less traumatized, carry less resentment and anger, if maybe my mom had spoken up at those dinners and made arrangements to get updates without me next to her trying to enjoy my pizza. Had I not had to see my own father forget my name and then have some sort of mini medical emergency. Had my brother heard me in a way only a sibling could.

So, yes, Christopher at thirteen made a indefinite and truly most likely temporary decision to remove himself from an environment where he doesn't fully trust his sole and primary caregiver. He knows his dad loves him, Eddie made that so clear. And it could really be 5 minutes, 5 days, 5 weeks, and so on and so forth until Christopher is ready to come home. And him knowing that Eddie respected his decision and loves him no matter what is what is going to make that time shorter. If he had walked out with his father begging him to stay, to forgive him before he was ready, the chances of him coming back would in my opinion would be far slimmer than the circumstances under which he did leave.

with that i leave you this, "yeah people go away. and it's sad. and it hurts. but you know, not everyone goes away forever. sometimes they come back. and as much as we miss them, that's how happy we are to see them again."

[simplydnp]

for that one anon who asked for help for references, when i started watching dnp in 2020 i learnt a ton of lore from crack vids, cause they reflect whatever video was posted around that time+ phannie reactions, and its an easy way to understand jokes as well in the comments. also also, dan's top memes videos and i would recommend danisnotonfirevyou1 live show edits if you don't have the time to watch all the liveshows of dan ever, or just want to get reference.

great suggestions! the top memes videos especially are excellent records of phannie in-jokes.

thank you anon!

[seventh-district]

so uh. that 2.2 Special Program, huh

[sonknuxadow]

i kind of want to read stc because ive never read it before but i also never finished the sonic x comics but i also kind of want to re read at least part of archie because certain sections of it are just a huge blur to me because of the fact that i read the entire series including spinoffs and side comics over the course of like . 2 months tops. so many choices so many sonic comics to read .

[bart-phobe]

I will always love and appreciate "old" art.

Art took time to be made and I don't care if you find it in 2017, 2020, or 2065. Art was made to be enjoyed and loved regardless of when someone found it.

[bri-does-art]

a little birdy told me you have some kind of an AU for the Funtime animatronics also?

... who is this.

There are, like, only 5 people who know about this. So which one of youse is it? >:'D (I am not mad. I am very glad to have the opportunity to tease it out. <3)

I am working on an AU featuring the Funtimes, little birdy is right! It's a very different flavour than Call of the Abyss, more of a fantastical drama than a science-fiction horror mystery. It is a tale of duty and responsibility, secrets and closets, choices and consequences, healing and growth, a farmer's child and a puzzling fae, and above all, it is a tale about two lonely souls whose fates are more closely intertwined than either realize.

It is also a tale full of fae shenanigans, fun and indulgence. It's not a serious epic like Call of the Abyss, and hopefully not as huge and ambitious either. 😂 So, dropping the serious act, it's a Fae AU in which some poor unsuspecting farmer gets caught up in the Funtimes' court's bullshit and learns to navigate a new social circle that seems hellbent on keeping their newest member close. I will make a new blog just for it, as there will be more, err, kid-unfriendly elements featuring in this one - I want to be able to properly curate my audience for this AU without alienating people who follow me here and like my non-explicit stories. So, until that's done, I'm leaving y'all with this little sneak peek. :)

[ringneckedpheasant]

i’ve been reading a book that’s an edited down version of decades worth of journals that some lady inherited from her gay uncle when he died in the late 80s (early 90s?) & in the foreword she talked about how he kept ridiculously meticulous records of like 60 years of his life that she had to sift through and I am just. having fun thinking about inflicting that on one of my sister’s kids when I eventually kick the bucket

[josecariohca]

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[kg2hub]

kindergala? more like: lou singlehandedly revives the kindergarten tumblr rp community part 2 electric boogaloo /lh /silly

[doodlingwren]

Hiatus

I am going on hiatus for a bit more. I really really hoped the stuff that have been going on lately were already "sorted out" but, uhm... they aren't. I need to take a bit more time offline once again, and try to work things out.

Thank you for your patience ❤

Wren

[kabbalicgay]

Kinda wish "leftists" would invest more time into actual feminist theory instead of the tired, old "wanting women to have equal rights doesn't mean women have to stop doing traditional woman-ly things" type of rhetoric that's popping up incessantly. Like maybe you should be examining why those "traditional woman-ly things" are associated with women and what the implications of that association are, and furthermore, why, perhaps, the idea of women choosing to participate in misogynist behaviour and patriarchy is something we should interrogate and critique lmao.

I'm editing this to add on: ra/d.fe.minism has never, at any point, given a good analysis of material conditions and does, in fact, completely reinforce gendered stereotypes, misogynist violence, anti-Blackness, colonial gender roles and binaries, and overall is a poor lense through which to examine the world. You mfs are goofy.

[lilithsaga]

Important Announcement

I will see you in a couple weeks, my beloved friends.

[gemharvest]

Seeing someone I follow post abt OC image counts and them showing clear favorites and now I wanna make a poast bc this is so funny to me always.

[you-made-me-love-the-rain]

in honor of the most dogshit catb song takes i saw today and catb back-ish from hiatus please enjoy this catb song bracket

[cloudd-nyne]

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