#also this may sound questionable to some but I don’t really care about my art being “the best” anymore

[self-spaghettification]

ok so i accidentally deleted the draft but a while back an anon asked me basically saying they had read Gone (are the Days) and wanted other good fanfic recs. and this was my response LMAO

hmm !! this may surprise you but i actually don’t consume that much fanfic. partially because i’m picky, partially bc i tend to consume content slowly or bounce around a lot, etc

i will say a general tip is to sort by bookmarks or kudos to get the good stuff and filter by specific tags as well! like i just read mage pride which is the top bookmarked item in the viravos tag and it was definitely worth the hype!!

if you enjoyed gone are the days,

you’d probably like the Professor Next Door by detectiphoenix (also a professor au but high school teachers!) besides that, here are some viravos fanfic i’ve enjoyed, off the top of my head:

(for context i’m not hyper into smut personally or try to find variety/creativity and i’m biased towards certain things lol but)

VIRAVOS FICS I LOVED <3

Mage Pride by luminiex - This is the top bookmarked fic in the viravos tag, and for good reason! While it is written after S2 and has more sympathetic Aaravos than in canon, it is still very well done in my opinion. I also love whatever it takes by them, it’s great if you don’t like smut too! Aaravos and Viren living together in this plane together lives rent free in my head 😭 I also love their fic where Aaravos gets to meet Viren’s family :)

Recidivism by indefensibleselfindulgence/ @iamalivenow - the viren characterization is everything, it takes place in s2 prison era, and it’s very humorous!

The Sound of His Voice by portmanteau_press - very very cool setup/worldbuilding concept i think

Constellation of the Heart by @yurayuramiharin - This fic is one of my absolute favorites and has inspired some of the art I’ve done as well! As someone who loves vintage & goth subculture & IS a baby bat in college I feel like I resonate with it really well! I love the taking of the worldbuilding of the dragon prince recontextualized in a college setting and the way Aaravos was actually an inspiration for Bowie & caused Viren to question his sexuality!! It’s so deliciously perfect but sadly unfinished, but I would say it’s still definitely worth the read! It doesn’t really end on a cliffhanger either, just one of the best burns ever 😁

Touch of a Star by @detectiphoenix - really unique take on what it’s like to touch Aaravos, I adore it sm and think about it everyday too. Fluffy S5 extrapolation/continuation

To Serve or Slaughter by beastlybrooke - viravos recontextualized as vampires like castlevania my other recent fixation? sign me up. it’s interesting how viren’s prejudice towards elves is recast as a prejudice towards vampires, and aaravos’s fight towards the elves and view towards humans i love it everything

honorary mention ficlets:

the stars they lie by rikku - this is short but i really like the way they incorporate virrow and mindgames, as well as enby aaravos :)

Checkmate by @thrandilf is also short and sweet but i adore it, i think about the alternate versions of the s5 trailer sm and even tried writing my own a few times but they never went that far but yeah i love it and they have other fics that are great too

respect his decision by @vestaldestroyer because aaravos didn’t have to revive viren s4 but he did and ughgghhghh while i don’t think he cares that much cause he might have just been using the revival as a way in with claudia and continuation of all that, there’s always that off chance and he doesn’t even realize how attached he is and love is just that huge when you’re that old and powerful, large enough to move mountains and yeah </3

i’d put my own can you stay by @self-spaghettification but that’d seem a bit unfair lol

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there’s probably others i’ve yet to read or that are cool but i don’t remember or that have some good parts but are kind of iffy imo but those are the only ones i can think of off the top of my head i’m sorry </3

but i’ve also have been compiling a list of fic ratings on a google doc and uhh its not really sharable in any way, but a while ago I also had a website concept where people could share fic ratings like goodreads but for ao3 with some other site inspo in the mix that i spent a few hours sketching out the concept of but idk if i should share but yeah :)

[sootcrow]

I’m gonna ask a bunch of narumistu shippers this but how do you think Iris would react seeing that happen? Also how would your dream Narumitsu wedding play out, and would pearl be invited? I just have so many questions! I also love your art!❤️❤️❤️

congrats on being my first anon haha! I’m honored to be up here with the other narumitsu artists considering I like just got here lmao

I don’t usually talk about these kinds of things of my own accord but I DO think about this literally all the time and I love thinking about character dynamics n stuff so I will take this as permission to talk about some of my thoughts lmao

Iris

If you’re talking about how Iris would react to narumitsu in general, I’ve got a lot of thoughts on the matter

All things considered and as sad as this sounds, I think iris is pretty familiar with this kind of feeling and would handle it well outwardly. Considering the time they spent together in college, I think she would be pretty familiar with Phoenix's feelings about miles and his plans about going into law on top of art, so it's probably not exactly completely unexpected to her

Iris may have had a lot of time to get over him, but also with all that time with zero contact with him until bridge to turnabout, she's never had to address her feelings until she's metaphorically and literally staring the issue right in the face.

Phoenix, on the other hand, is forced to confront this event and any lingering emotions and issues he had afterwards right away. That event was a MAJOR turning point for his whole life. He got accused of murder, he ate glass (cough), his girlfriend apparently hates him ???, he met Mia, and overall everything has been turned upside down for him. He can't just ignore it or forget about it or pretend nothing happened like Iris could, and by now, his feelings have dulled. They definitely both still have lingering feelings about each other, but both of them end up dealing with them in completely different ways

Iris is definitely going to be feeling a LOT of pain over both seeing him again and seeing him with someone else, regardless of how prepared for it she tells herself she is. It's human to hurt when you see someone you cared about move on from you to someone else. There's a lot of guilt and blame that she carries from the incident, ESPECIALLY when she has to confront her emotions and him face to face.

But Iris is not a petty person or a grudge holder, unlike Dahlia, and she cares a lot about Phoenix. She's also not an idiot. As much it makes her heart ache, she knows her chance has passed and that Phoenix has moved on, even if Iris is still working on that herself. She will heal with time. Despite everything, I think she is an incredibly strong person.

Though it's going to hurt (a lot), I think that regardless, she'd be really happy for them.

Wedding

In terms of a wedding I don't actually think about that all too much yet dfjkfhfs I haven't gotten anywhere past the pw trilogy so I don't actually know all too much about anything post-trials and tribulations yet. (despite that I do have a whole narumitsu progression timeline. aside from the pining that they both think is one sided, there is a whole lot of nothing until AFTER the 7 year gap. they don't actually get together until after that. god they are so infuriatingly slowburn i hate them)

Anyways as hilarious as I think "pearl is homophobic" is, she's still a kid. We can't completely fault a kid who doesn't know better and never really had the chance to learn. I think it'd take a lot of work on Maya's part to be able to give her a proper explanation (if nick tried to explain anything he'd just end up getting pearl-slapped and things would go nowhere probably, its all up to maya here), but I figure pearl eventually comes around with some help and is like SUPER involved in everything. Her passion for romance n stuff just gets switched to nick and edgeworth instead of maya and nick

Once I'm more familiar with all of the other characters and the events of post-pw trilogy I'll definitely have a lot more ideas

[randybutternubber]

Heyyyyyyy do you have any funny head canons on the children :-9 if they squabble and stuff in your opinion. Give me the sillies !!!!! (I do too but I wanna hear urs)

YOU HAVE OPENED THE GATES OF HELL PREPARE FOR MY BORDERLINE SEVEN PAGE ESSAY ON THESE RANDOM FUCKING CHILDREN

I decided to do the ones that get less attention in general, especially since I have the most thoughts on them

HCs under cut because I may have gone overboard with the length

Ghost kid

Best friends with a batmin ball that had a very poorly drawn face on it from the age of six to eight.

Sebbo (spoon girl) buried the batmin ball using a spoon as a shovel after it got neutered by the barber (he thought it was a bug and shat his pants)

Not a native of the nowhere and was taken to the nowhere on Halloween, hence the ghost costume

Lost their arm pretty quickly after being taken to the Nowhere. he’s quite a friendly child and is very compassionate towards animals, but unfortunately, this has its downsides as not all animals in the Nowhere want help.

Friends with Sebbo

Has been squatting in houses since day 1 of living in the Nowhere and has no plans to stop

Would go CRAZY for squishmallows

Doesn’t have well formed empathy/sympathy for humans but is super compassionate towards animals

Zero concept of gender and doesn’t care what you call them, he just want to pet your dog

Nonverbal but has very expressive body language

Spoon girl

Her name is sebbo (based off of game files)

She sneezes like a middle aged divorced golf dad and due to her nose bleed these sneezes are NOT victimless

LEGENDARY rage tantrums

Literally only wants to watch gen 1 my little pony, Formula One, or a very specific documentary about some random Swedish sheep wool factory

Swedish

If you compare her to pippy longstockings you will end up needing to go to urgent care for a rabies shot

Calls ghost kid Ande (sounds like Andeh) which means spirit in Swedish. (His file name is actually spöke for anyone wondering, which also means ghost/spirit in Swedish. The only reason I’m not giving him the Sebbo naming treatment is that spöke absolutely does not sound like it’s spelled (sounds like Spurkeh) and Ande actually sounds like a name. I’m a quarter swedish and have a very Swedish family on my white side so I got the most incomprehensible Swedish lessons in the car ever, so please don’t roast me in the reblogs if I got this wrong, I remember like five words and this is one of them, same thing with Korean😭

Living embodiment of “ANDE WE’RE 10 NOW, WE SAY CRAP, NOT POOP”

Broke one of her legs at some point in the Nowhere and ended up in the hospital (HC based off of concept art where she was in a wheelchair and using crutches)

Has severe trauma revolving around doctors and medical stuff

Has never seen another ginger in her entire life but will fight to be the alpha

Warrior cats kid

Expert at digging and climbing out of holes, THE CHILDREN YEARN FOR THE MINES!!!

Rusty

Has a cleft lip

This isn’t a HC but something that not a lot of people realize; he has a lisp

Only reason I’m not drawing him as ginger because of his name is because I also designed Noone as ginger and he lost in a 1v1 to a rabid cabbage patch kid. He’s been through enough

He’s around 14

Very lithe

Despite being a trapeze and tightrope performer, he is TERRIFIED of heights, making his experience at the circus even worse

The dummy has been malding over Rusty for a ridiculously long period of timeand bro had no fucking idea and nobody even knows the reason why 💀

Also a warrior cats kid but kept in on the downlow. Yes he did name himself Rusty after firestar but if you tell anyone he will cry

Noone

A nice kid but will deadass ask some of the most insensitive questions and has NO idea. Also verbally cooked a middle aged man and spent like a whole episode sassing him so she can definitely be mean if she wants to

Also has really severe medical trauma along with trauma from being paraded around on TV because she was the first person to be cured of whatever the shit water sickness is

Her real name was Ruth, but once she started forgetting her parents (they basically ditched her anyways 😭) she started just using Noone as her real name

Master of inappropriately prolonged periods of intense eye contact

Really dislikes/is afraid of dolls/dummies because of what happened to Rusty/in JuJubee’s toyshop

Very untrusting of people post Nowhere abduction because of how Otto treated her and because of the ferryman. Plus basically every kid she met in TSON was met with a terrible fate (Goo kid is probably alive but she doesn’t know that)

Autism (all these children got some sort of neurodivergence though, I mean just look at them)

WORST BACKSEAT DRIVER EVER (ASKED TO LEAVE THE ROWBOAT)

Has a few scars on her face from her right before she had a seizure when getting clockwork oranged. She tried to take the mri suction thingies off her head but she ended up scratching up her face in her panic

[ryuichirou]

Replies

Some replies! A couple about daily posting, some about twst boys.

Anonymous asked:

I hope you don’t feel rushed to post every alternate day. It’s your blog, and if you ever want to take breaks, please take as much time as you want! Always prioritise yourself first! Anyway, that aside, thank you for bestowing upon this fandom such incredible work!

Thank you so much, Anon! This is very sweet, I am very happy to hear that!

Don’t worry about it: we love this blog too much to let ourselves get burnt out by it, so whenever we’ll need it, we’ll take breaks or skip days. Fortunately, you guys are very understanding of our circumstances, so it’s all good <3

Anonymous asked:

I did see the tail post (though I had to check twt before realizing it was a tail... I didn't see the caption.) You just tend to upload multiple times every day (now that I think about it, how do you work with all the art? I want a job with that much free time! ...Sleep is important despite what Idia would say) so I was worried. Glad to know your ok!

-(Overly(?)-)Anxious Anon

P.S. Sorry if I asked to many personal questions: boundaries are not my strong suit. Feel free to ignore them, and please tell me if I make you uncomfortable. I really like your work, and I would hate to make you feel uncomfortable by asking something too personal.

It's okay, Anon; I understand! It must be weird when someone who posts multiple times per day suddenly doesn't post anything, but it really isn't anything to be worried about. It also still feels a little bit weird to skip even a day after that twitter thing that happened in May on my fucking birthday. It was a month-long forced break, and it still haunts us lol Your questions and concerns are perfectly fine and not out of any boundaries.

I draw a lot and pretty much all the time: I start the day by drawing for work (commissions and such, up to six hours), then I take a break to write replies (one hour, or sometimes more, on weekends it can go up to two), then I prepare something for us to post (2-3 hours) + draw for fun for the rest of the day. I also have long sketching sessions whenever I can, and it usually results with a bunch of simple sketches. And we always end up having some stuff to post. Well, usually it’s too much stuff lol Fortunately, I don’t have to ever think about what to post because Katsu does pretty much 100% of our posting. Because of that, I can focus on what I love to do most – you guessed it, drawing. I can’t stress enough how much it helps me out woah.

We usually post replies at around tea time in our time zone (well, Katsu’s), and we post my art ~three hours before going to bed, so to us, this posting feels like once a day. Things for ko-fi and my private twitter are posted in the morning, but if ko-fi posts are twice per day, then one of them is in the evening for us... It’s a lot to keep in mind lol But sometimes we have a couple of things to post, ofc, so these go an hour before our usual posting time so that we won’t replace it with something fewer people are going to like. This is why I said that it helps me out a lot...

I am pretty sure that I am an obsessive weirdo when it comes to drawing, but to be honest, I’ve always been this way. Don’t worry though, I take good care of myself and after a certain point stop drawing for the day; plus, I never draw when I’m tired, and I would never force myself when my back or hand hurt (that doesn’t really happen btw).

And I know that we probably won’t be able to post twst every day for the rest of our lives (for starters, we won’t be into twst forever, as sad as it is…), but for now we can and we’re having fun with it, so I’m very happy about it! Thank you for enjoying our stuff; I say it all the time, but I mean it.

It’s going to sound cheesy, but for now I feel very happy and lucky to be able to draw so much and post so often. With the help of people around me (especially Katsu), with your support, it’s been really great. I want to keep doing it while it lasts and while I can.

Anonymous asked:

Yes, I’d like his number. But considering how old he is maybe smoke signals are more up his valley

(this is about Lilia)

Apparently he likes written letters, Anon, so maybe it will work just as nicely lol

Anonymous asked:

Great. I now low-key ship desperate/thirsty ghost and rook

Well, let’s be honest. Rook would.

[teawiththegods]

💕✨Happy Aphrodite April!✨💕

So what exactly is ✨Aphrodite April✨? It’s a month long celebration of all things Aphrodite!

Why April?? In Rome, the month of April was sacred to Venus (meaning Roman Polytheists and Venus worshipers can get in on the celebrations as well!). I also really like the way “Aphrodite April” sounds. Has a ring to it! 😆

Now what’s so special about Aphrodite April?? In my opinion, the best part is how inclusive it is. Yes, the main aspect of Aphrodite April is of course Aphrodite. However, you don’t need to be a worshiper or directly honor her to celebrate this month. As I said above, Aphrodite April celebrates ALL things Aphrodite. This includes all her realms such as love, sexuality, healing, emotions, joy, friendship, companionship, art & poetry, inspiration, laughter, gender, self-love, self-care, etc. So you’re welcome to use Aphrodite April as an opportunity to explore and focus in on her realms, using the energies of the month to your advantage. Or for those interested in exploring or deepening their relationship with Aphrodite, this month is perfect for that as well!

Staying true to one of Aphrodite’s most popular and significant epithets, Pandemos, Aphrodite April is for all! 🥰

What can you expect from me and this blog during the month??? My content is going to focus heavily on Aphrodite and I will be welcoming all questions about her and the realms she rules over. Of course, other gods will still be making appearances (no way The Twins are gonna step aside for an entire month 🤣) and you don’t have to wait until May to ask me a non-Aphrodite related question. Just expect a lot of Aphrodite on your dash if you follow me 😁👍🏻

If you’re excited and ready to join in on the celebration here are some helpful links to get you started!

30 Days of Aphrodite (Beginners/General Edition)

30 Days of Aphrodite (The Experienced Worshiper Edition)

Important Dates for Aphrodite April

Ways to Celebrate Aphrodite April

Hope you all have a lovely Aphrodite filled month, my sweet starlings!

[seekers-who-are-lovers]

Easter egg # 1: Checking Kazuki’s fake IDs

Now we are on the verge of the penultimate episode, I have noticed a few things brought by my countless rewatching, Kazuki’s fake identification cards have caught my eye. I just don’t want this series to end.

During the first episode, Kazuki, in order to gain entry to Varint Hotel, used a fake ID. Nothing incriminating there as he utilized his own name.

During episode 3, it was evident that Kazuki perused a fake name. Suzuki Saburou.

Who is Suzuki Saburou?

The blond-haired, blue-eyed boy-next-door Suzuki is the main character of the embedded narrative “Let’s Fall in Love” of the manga “Monthly Girls' Nozaki-kun” (the anime is voiced by Miyano Mamoru). The story is about a high school student, Umetarou Nozaki, pen name Yumeno Sakiko (voiced by Yuichi Nakamura), who also happens to be a shōjo manga artist writing a love story about Suzuki. The fans think that she is a female. A girl, Chiyo Sakura, however, has a secret crush on him at school and becomes his inker/assistant/illustrator/critic.

Don’t pay attention to Suzuki though, but to his creator, Nozaki.

Nozaki respects and cares for Sakura, despite not noticing her romantic feelings directed towards him. He also admires her artistic skills, as in the past, he had noticed and was impressed by Sakura's art posters around the school.

Nozaki considers Sakura to be a good friend whom he is willing to confide in, sometimes going out of his way to ensure that she is not upset. He often acts like a worrying mother towards her, showing excessive concern whenever he thinks she is in trouble. He likes cooking for her, and safely assumes that Sakura really likes food as that in his imagination, she's always eating some sort of snack.

Later chapters in the manga imply that Nozaki may have romantic feelings for Sakura, but they are subconscious feelings that he is not yet aware of. Though Nozaki may be dense, in Chapter 86, Sakura says that her ideal type is someone she has all to herself, which made Nozaki’s heart skip a beat. He began to question his feelings for her in Chapter 96; however, when he asked Kashima what she thought his feelings were, she responded with "motherly instincts".

Hmmm… That sounds like Kazuki.

I haven’t read nor seen it, but the premise looks promising. One for the list.

Or it could be the bastardized version of the game designer Suzuki Saburo.

[dontmindme2600]

Hi again......If you don't mind, can I ask, what are your top 10 (or top 7) favorite media (can be books/ manga/ anime/movies/tv series)? Why do you love them? Sorry if you've answered this question before......Thanks....

OH MY GOD I’D LIKE TO APOLOGIZE BECAUSE MY BAD BECAUSE I LEFT THIS SITTING IN MY DRAFTS AND TOTALLY FORGOT TO ANSWER THIS!! Anyways, top 7, in no particular order:

Hunter x Hunter: I’m not as into this as I was in middle school but it’s never left my mind. Definitely my favorite shonen, Togashi’s originality with the series is really refreshing. (I also love Yu Yu Hakusho by him!!) As weird as it gets the characters and story are always a blast to follow. The villains also go hard. I finished the 2011 anime and I have up to volume 13 of the manga! I’d love to catch up fully since it’s being updated again, but haven’t gotten around to it yet. It’s something that I’ve always been inspired by even if I don’t want to make something that’s gonna be EXACTLY like it anymore lol.

Cowboy Bebop: I tried to limit myself to one (1) Shinichiro Watanabe anime for this list, but his other stuff fucks as well. I love Spike. (bet you never would’ve guessed!!) It’s hard to put into words in a way that doesn’t sound incredibly dumb. But. Every character introduced has their own unique worldview, backstory, flaws, etc. It sounds so fucking stupid because yeah, that’s what a character is supposed to have?? But this anime does that REALLY well?? I think what I’m trying to say is that the show does a great job of presenting different lifestyles and perspectives without worrying about making the audience uncomfortable. The anime is all about human connections and how they impact the characters and I LOVE that. It was also pretty moving to me, lots of great emotional moments. The episode where they find Faye’s old cassette recording and the one with Gren’s death will always stay with me. (Also the Andy one, but only because I think it’s funny as hell.) Watanabe is my favorite anime director ever and if you love Bebop I recommend checking out some of his other stuff as well! (Also props to an anime director that isn’t afraid of diversity in his character designs)

Witch Hat Atelier: I’m not nearly as caught up with this as I would like to be but!!! I love the writing, worldbuilding, and characters. I wish more manga were like this. Not like, aesthetically, but like quality wise. Everything is done really well and the art and paneling is GORGEOUS omfg. Also Kamome Shirahama is a very cool and progressive person and it’s just nice to read a manga by someone like her. I’m hyped as hell for the anime and can’t wait to see WHA reach a larger audience!! (Even with all the bad stuff it may bring, lmao)

Invader Zim: This one is probably the most different from the rest of the list lol. I’ll rewatch a few episodes of this every once in a while. It’s one of the only shows I watch that actually makes me laugh out loud. I also don’t think I’ve really seen anything else like it??? Sure there’s stuff that’s it’s pretty similar to but you cant really say, “wow, this is exactly like ____!” which is super cool. There’s not a major character in the show that I can say I hate or even just am neutral on, I love them all. I’m not usually a fan of stuff the gross-out humor it does, especially in the first season, but just about everything else about it just lives in my brain rent free. I think it’s a really unique and funny show and I just vibe with it stylistically as well. Seriously, I love the art style and just overall,,, edgy vibe. I absolutely do not care that it’s a kid’s show and I unironically think it’s super cool lmao. I know should probably check out some of Jhonen’s other stuff but I haven’t done that yet…

The Ace Attorney Trilogy: This one is more so just Shu Takumi in general. It’s a hard choice because I love Apollo Justice as well, and I also considered Ghost Trick (also by Takumi) but Agh!! The trilogy is the most iconic to me so I’m going with that. I just love seeing and interacting with all the unique characters the series has to offer. I’ve always liked how Takumi isn’t afraid to stray away from the generic skinny anime designs for his characters, it makes his characters feel very unique and memorable. He seems to be against having most of his characters be one dimensional, giving them their own struggles and aspirations, regardless of if they’re a “silly” character or not. I love it! It makes them more memorable and enjoyable than many other visual novel characters to me. (Please remember that I also love Ghost Trick holy fuck it’s so good)

Yakuza 0: I’m going to be 100% for real and admit that I discovered this series because of a bunch of stupid clips I saw of it on YouTube. It wasn’t the dame da ne memes, this was before that. But like, clips of all the silly stuff you can do in game like dance, receive a chicken as a gift for winning at bowling, assign said chicken a position at your real estate business, etc. So I bought it on a whim looking for a laugh. And. Holy FUCK. I did not expect the actual real serious story of this game to hit me as hard as it did. Just a good, moving story. I was THOROUGHLY emotionally invested in both Majima and Kiryu’s storylines by like, chapter 2 for both of them. I think it made me cry?? The fact that you can experience both that and the stupid shit, on top of the fun combat, makes it an S tier game for me. I plan to continue with the rest of the series (so far I’ve gotten through Kiwami 1 and 2 and loved them) but 0 has so far been my absolute favorite.

Pokemon: It’s not a perfect series but I always find myself getting back into it for a while every year. I’ve been a fan since I was just old enough to read, what can else can I say? I don’t have a super deep reason for this it’s just something that’s always been comfortable and fun!! The worldbuilding, story, music, and characters, really shine through in some of my favorite games in the series. And regardless of story, the gameplay is always fun.

It’s hard for me to determine my favorite anything but for this I tried to go by:

-How often I ended up going back to these

-How much each work made an emotional impact on me (not just the deep stuff, can also include things like making me laugh)

-How much each of these inspired me (like as in inspired my art or made me think “I want to make something like that!!!”) I think I’ve thought to that at least once for everything in here! It’s actually kind of scary because they’re all so different-

I’m probably missing something here but this should give you an idea!! If I spend any longer on this I’m just gonna keep changing it lolllll

[turbulentscrawl]

Greetings!! Is it possible for me to request a match-up?? I'm a polyromantic demiromantic who uses They/Them pronouns. I also align with INTP & 4w6 (I think?? I only just found out so apologies if this turns out to not be an actual enneagram.) For love languages, I prefer giving and receiving quality time. Being in a relationship is having someone who loves and cares for you by your side. To have my partner by my side, even if it's parallel play will always bring me some sort of comfort. Interests include any form of art, mostly drawing and music & bugs. I find it easier to communicate with someone who shares these same interests as me, (or just someone similar in any regard. The closer to me, the better.) but I don't mind if they like something different from me. Just listen, even if for a moment and we'll most likely be on good terms. Naturally, I'm very quiet, hardly opening up to others, though I may have random splurges of wanting to talk. This is more common the more I trust someone but even someone I just met may be able to see me ramble on about something. Other flaws besides from struggling to open up are my anger issues. I feel my emotions can be too disconnected from myself. They speak louder than my actions at times, which may result in expressive outbursts of anger than I feel I can't control. Along with that, I tend to see the world in a black and white manner. It's always this or that, A or B, Option 1 or Option 2. Rarely do I feel like this can be broken and even if there is a secret third option, it's most likely just a slightly altered Option 2. Though, being limited to A or B doesn't exist when I draw. Art is about creative expression. The sky is the limit. Actually, there is no limit. I crave perfection. While I like what I make, I feel like it can be better. I want my works to be perfect. Even when that "perfection" is obtained, I never feel like it's at is best. Perfection is what I strive for but will forever feel like it's out of my reach. Take as much time as you need to find the one for me and have a nice day!!

I ship you with: Melly Plinius!

-So INTPs and Type 4s both tend to be “straight shooters.” If these are true to you, I believe this means you’re someone who's not likely to beat around the bush, and who tries communicating to the best of your ability despite being a bit disconnected from your emotions. Melly is fairly adaptable, but she’s really sick of having to assimilate to people she doesn’t find agreeable. If she settles into romance, she wants someone she can be herself with, and honesty is the first box that needs to be ticked. Sounds like you hit that one!

-Additionally, she’s good with the whole “agree to disagree” thing. It doesn’t bother her if you have a black-and-white way of seeing things. She’s not very opinionated about things that don’t concern her work, so you can feel whatever way you want about things and she doesn’t really care. Feel free to ramble away about stuff, too. Her indifference makes her capable of seeing both sides of things, too, so she’s capable of offering support if you ever feel torn or self-conscious about a decision you’ve made.

-The one thing I feel like she’d have to adjust to with you is those anger issues. But if Melly is anything it’s patient. She can live with an occasional outburst or meltdown so long as they’re not violent and you make an effort to improve yourself in that regard in the long-term.

-Quality time is her preferred love language as well. In the past, she was the support for her husband’s work, but now she’d like to have someone along as hers. You’re always welcome to join her on excursions, or in the lab (as long as you’re being safe and quiet down when she’s doing something delicate.) She likes to sit outside with you on sunny days, under the shade of a big tree, and work on organizing her notes.

-You like bugs? I mean, this is a match made in heaven, right? She’s always happy to talk about insects, or answer any questions. It’s both her special interest and her life’s work! Art isn’t something she’s particularly interested in, but she always matches you on the support and interest you give her work. The pieces you’re most proud of will be displayed around the house, if you’ll allow it.

Runner Up: Joker

[dailycaligura]

do you have some headcanons for caligura’s and domek’s dynamic? it’s a very interesting pairing!!

Hey hello, ok first of all, sorry if that sounds bitchy or whatever, but they not a pairing, they’re friends!!😭😭

Sorry if you mean it in like overall them being duo, just wanted to clarify things. I always write about them like brotp, where all that come from…I once posted on main in bunch of sketches one joke that may view them in that way but that was joke lol. Okay whatever, that’s the internet, if someone wants to see them that way there nothing I can do, that my fault solely anyways, I decided to post art with them after all, eh.

And now to the question - YES I do!! And quite a lot, but I don’t want to turn this answer to an essay, so just gonna write the basis.

First of all, where the fuck do I even get the idea? And no it’s not just because they both my favorite characters and I decided to think about their dynamic, it’s more connected to canon. So basically I just saw that Marina’s monologue about how much of a dick Domek was and I just immediately thought about how much that sounds like Caligura, like daaamn. Here’s the dialogue itself:

If Caligura wouldn’t be like that it will be absolutely fucking disappointing and awful, Miro do him justice I beg you.

So yeah it pretty much started my idea of them being besties, they work just as two absolute despicable human being getting along because of how cruel and amoral they are, but of course I have more rooted in headcanons thing where they have muuuch more parallels. Btw I have no idea how to do that read more thing so yeah, that shit will be long sorry. So here’s my ton shit of headcanons hope you enjoy it or at least don’t die from cringe ((:

At the time I get the idea of they’re dynamic I already had full Caligura backstory in head, so when I was doing the Domek’s one I just parallel some things and add the priest part, so they’re childhood are pretty much similar, even though it was in absolute different decorations. They both from absolute unloving families, they’re fathers only saw them as someone to do the purpose of his own/family doing, they only care to make them much needed image, no more no less. But they’re mothers was awful by different reasons, Caligura’s one was really young when she had him, only 18 or 19, and before that she was always just sitting home lying in bed because of some chronic disease, she never had normal socialization, friends and of course boyfriends, so relationships with Caligura’s father was obviously not really pleasing to her. Also she was absolutely annoyed by that his fixation of making that little brat some sort of perfection that he was always seeking, so just like a spoiled child she was ruining his doings as much as she can, it ended up in Caligura becoming hysterical crybaby with awfully shattered psychic, but then things happened, they became practically homeless and after dad killed mom and he killed dad he ended up in orphanage yeah. Domek at other hand have pretty mature mom, but she really hated the fact that she been married into that God forsaken family of fucked up fanatics, she had none ties with his father and obviously he was most of the time in church anyways, so from all that unfair and depressing situation she started drinking and became pretty much alcoholic. So basically most of the time she just been drinking and hating on homeschooled son, she despised him just by the fact he’s from that family, but when the alcoholic evaporated she starts to feel lonely and starts to hate on son that he’s not love her enough, that’s all lasted until his twenty’s, then he finally changes the generation officially by killing dad and mom, even though to kill her was pretty heartbreaking because somehow he still loved her lol. Pretty much as Caligura, he preferred to remember his mom as someone who actually cared about him and not as she really was(she hugged him when she felt lonely and didn’t have his dad by hand, guess that at least something).

So yeah basically they both have really fucked up mommy issues, that already pretty uniting haha. Well about they’re later life there not that much to write, thank God, they both was pretty much not choosing what to do, Domek had the dynasty thing and Caligura never goes even to school and didn’t have any home after turning 18 and going out of orphanage, the only choice to him, at least he saw it as only one, was going into criminal world, of corse they both have a way to run away from seemingly the only available path, but they just decided that “Nah, I can handle this”(spoiler they not, at least not entirely). So basically years after years they became who they are in Termina timeline, fucked up aggressive bastards that’s being hated or frightened by others, no more no less. And now I’m finally ending with backstory’s and going to the dynamic itself, fucking finally, but that info dump was important to understanding I’m telling ya!!

First of all, no matter who I write I always remember one thing - no matter how much of a bastard that character he still is a human being with emotions, frights and weaknesses, except the characters that, well, not humans by the definition haha. And in these guys case this is pretty much main thing, the seem absolutely unapproachable, cold and distant, deprived of any positive emotions and even kinds feels like psychopaths, it looks like they just isn’t able to inner self reflect, minutes of weakness and just being down, but, unfortunately to them, they’re not. Most of the time they being alone so they have a plenty of time to be that pathetic bastards that they are without any eyes to see it, but they also have that shit that turned out a feature to them that called having problem to express they emotions, it really helpful in they’re work! Every Caligura emotion is coloured with rage in some degree, even if it’s positive one or just pure sadness, he expresses everything with aggression, noise and all that shit, while Domek, thanks to always bothering him mother, usually ignores everything and being completely lost in his own thoughts, but if there anything worth to emote about he will also colour it with aggression. Btw it also worth mention that of cites they still can be just calm, it’s just about them usually having only range between calm state and absolute fucking rage. Now about self reflection, they are are pretty much able to do it, but it only adds to the problem, Domek prefers to see himself as the main victim of everything and ignores anyone other problems, so he just drowned in the ocean of self pity and depression, while Caligura prefers to just not think by spending time with alcohol, drugs, noisy surroundings and some whores of course, enything in order to not stay alone with his own thoughts, but even he need some break from all of these, at least for the health sake God damn it, and these times it became really sad. In short just how always that everyone and everything hatred and despise coming from deep rooted self hatred, what else here to do if you understand how pathetic and awful you are, but there no way to change it, or even if there it’s just too dangerous to take and they have things to lose at the point. But of course they’re self hatred not based on them understanding how bad they are by common human morales, of course not, they have image of themselves in their heads and they really struggle to meet that image, mostly because of not being completely unemotional, they still have things that they can’t do because of that and they reaaally hate it. So yeah they have a lot in common, and thanks to that they are able to connect with each other, they have enough experience of perception what other people are without having too much of talking with the person in question, so they can feel that they understanding each other without that much of a talking itself, which they really hate. They prefer to ignore most of they’re feelings that is not suits they’re image of themselves, and also they really arrogant fuckers so yeah all that talking about feelings really not they’re style.

Ugh damn I’m again mostly write just the parallels of them and not really their dynamic, sorry I’m really easy to go other direction when writing such things (‘:, anyways now REALLY to their fucking dynamic. In short I’d describe it with the minus on munis gives plus, they both inhumane bastards that with the help of each other able to find that little pieces of humanity they have. They don’t care about others, don’t empathize them in any ways, just see everyone as tools to reach they’re goal and don’t give a single fuck about price of human life, they’re awfully egocentric, sees they own opinions as only the right one, they goals much worthy above others and etc etc…but they making exceptions for each other in that. They have a lot things they’re thoughts are matches on, and just as much where they disagree witch each other, but instead of aggressively proves they own point they’re able to listen to each other and maybe even accept the other thought, of course the chance of them changing they own mind is critically low, but just the fact they can tolerate each other opinions is really a lot.

But they will never openly show that they actually value each other, they both have some authority and power after all, and also have a lot of trust issues, emotions issues and all that shit, so just accept and express how they feel about each other feels to them like something absolutely inappropriate, it’s just can’t happen. Of course in the context of festival they can be more okay with that since they not really someone in power anymore lol, but if thinking about them in the context of how things usually goes they’d have some more professional like tone, usually having discussions about everything for hours, drinking some wine and maybe playing chess, rarely going to the personal things and even if they are then they or drunk as fuck or hints that the other might help with the issue. I mean mafia here have ties with church and since Prehevil looks like separate and independent diocese from Vatican there might be a chance that they would want someone from mafia to have some talking done with the Prehevillian church, they might be pretty closed community but still they doing religion work wrong so yeah(btw is anyone ever think how politically funny that the child of active head of Prehevil church, that is independent community pursing they own way of priesthood, having an invitation from the fucking Ministry of Darkness itself to continue occult studies in the Vatican? It’s like Catholics will send their child to Protestant or Orthodox Sunday school, what the fuck dude? Maybe I don’t understand the things correctly but that kinda looks like that lol). At this example Caligura might talk to the church heads of Vatican to recommend some things in the favor of Domek, while Domek can lend some of his priests to help Caligura in the business with magic shit, so yeah their friendship is pretty useful to each other on the professional level, but the fact they also genuinely goes along on the personal level makes their relationships even better and stronger.

But that about them knowing each other for the pretty short time span, on year or two after they’re met they’d go in that state of when they together they became dumb as fuck, Caligura would say some stupid shit to find out, usually about some magic or ritual practices, and Domek without any hesitation and time to think be like yeah let’s find out. Caligura since the first day of their meeting was teasing him and being sarcastic, making fun of him and just genuinely annoying him, Domek just ignoring it or trying to answer taunt with the taunt, but it’s obviously not as good as Caligura’s one, but on that longer time of span he’d master the art of mockery of that fucker and sometimes they’re conversation just turns into taunts exchange, which rarely ends well because at this point they’re able to hurt each others feelings for real lol.

So yeah they’re create pretty much strong and trustful alliance even in short time of knowing each other, and with years after years it becomes only stronger, which is really bad to everyone surrounding them, with having actual friend and some on his side any part of that duo will became even more awful and cruel to others in order to reach they’re goals. But of course they’re friendship is not perfect, there nothing in they’re life that can be that lol, they would be scared of just the fact the can value someone, that they care and might think in the favor of other and not only themselves, I mean heck imagine being absolutely alone and hated for all your life and now bam there’s someone who may like you, what the hell is to do about that!! They’re too old to just risk established things of their behavior in the favor of some chance to have normal human relationships, so yeah they might good work from the start and even trust each other, but it’s more because of seeing similar to they’re behavior in other, which means they can understand what they want from each other, but the actual appreciation would come only if they saw the signs of that from the other, so yeaah things are complex, but I think just a few dialogues about politics, religion, philosophy or whatever and that would be easier to them.

Ok I’ll fucking stop there because it’s already fucking a lot and I barely have time before my classes will start lol. So yeah no doodle for the past day ugh, try to do two today. Also I don’t reread the text before posting because, again, I barely have any free time left, hope there not that much of stupid ass grammatical mistakes, but still sorry in advance.

Thanks for question btw yeah, love writing some long ass posts, even though it’s not that easy since English is not my native language haha.

[tryan-a-bex]

Halloween; or, Violence, seen from far away, is entertaining

Inspired by a comment by Moreta (ao3), @entropy-mephit, who also did the art! My version and hers are included below. Hers is the fancy one! (Read on ao3.)

Hob watched over Dream’s shoulder as he scrolled through Pinterest posts of Halloween costumes.

“Hob, I do not want to do this. Why may I not just go as myself?” he grumbled.

“No! Love! The point of a Halloween party is to get dressed up and admire each other’s costumes! Don’t worry, the faculty has a huge range of investment is costuming. Some will go all out, especially the arts profs, but plenty of us are going to keep it simpler. What do you think of that pirate costume?”

“What if I go like this?” Dream suggested, suddenly two feet taller and dripping shadows everywhere. Hob cupped his pale, amorphous cheek tenderly in his hand.

“You know I love your Nightmare form, but I think it would be a little over the top for the party.” Hob blinked and Dream was back in his accustomed form, pointing at another picture.

“This one has cat ears, and a tail.” Hob’s lap was abruptly full of a large, black Maine Coon cat.

“Silly duck! Even the non-physicists would have questions about your change in mass!”

“I want to support you in your work social functions, but this is ridiculous!” Hob sighed.

“Anya is coming over soon for babysitting, so why don’t we put it away for now? We can revisit it later, and maybe we’ll think of something in the meantime.”

“Yes, I will go and return when my duties are complete. Maybe I will find something in a dream that will work.” Dream sounded doubtful, but he still gave Hob a tender goodbye kiss before disappearing to his realm.

Hob sighed and went downstairs to greet Yor and Anya. The New Inn has been rented out for a birthday party, so he was going to babysit Anya upstairs at his place for the first time.

“Yor! Anya! Come on upstairs!” he greeted them when they arrived.

“Anya gets to see Hob’s flat!” Anya exclaimed with wonder in her voice.

“I’m sure it won’t be that exciting!” he chuckled, opening the door. Yor entered first, and he saw how thoroughly she inspected the room, while looking as though she was just glancing around. It must have passed muster, because she turned to Anya and gave her a hug.

“Have fun with Hob, Anya!” she said, leaving her with a smile and a little nod at Hob. Hob nodded back, smiling as he squatted to Anya’s level.

“Would you like to play Spy again today?” he asked. Spy was Anya’s favourite make-believe game.

“Today, Anya is an explorer! Anya wants to explore Hob’s flat!”

“Uhhh…” Hob had tidied up, of course, and child-proofed the most dangerous things (the cleaning fluids were on a high shelf in the closet instead of on the floor beside the toilet, for example), but he was sure a determined child like Anya could find something to get into. He’d have to watch her like a hawk!

“TV. Anya has a tv,” Anya began, walking around the living room. She passed the couch to stare at the bookshelves against the wall.

“Hob has a lot of books,” she declared.

“Um, yeah,” he agreed. “Some of them are quite old. Would you like to look at a book?” he hoped she would be amenable to letting him guide the choice of book. Some of his first editions weren’t really in condition for casual handling.

“What is that?” Anya pointed at the top shelf, way in the corner. Ah. Hob had gotten out his old plague doctor mask from storage, back in 2020. He hadn’t been able to help as much this time as in the past, due to licensing requirements for health care providers, but he had covered a few in-person lectures for his immunocompromised colleagues before admin got on board with the quarantine, and he’d handed out masks in the Tube before they they were required.

“Take this, it’ll save your life, mate.” It was a surreal time.

Hob handed the mask down to Anya, remembering the first time he had put it on. He’d survived the plague the first time, when most of his family died. He’d survived it again in the early 1500’s, while he was building his fortune. It had been easier that time, because the plague was always kinder to the rich than the poor. It was in 1665, while he was recovering from grief and from being drowned, that he donned the mask. If he wasn’t going to die, Hob had realized, there were so many lives he could save. Basic battlefield first aid got him started—give thirsty people water to drink. Put a blanket on them if they were chilled. Give them a damp rag if they were feverish. Clean their bodies as much as possible. So many people still died, but maybe not quite as many. Hob was grateful for each one who had recovered.

“Hob did not die for a long time,” Anya came out with, looking quizzically at him with the mask in her hands. Oh, shit. He hadn’t meant to give away that secret; he’d forgotten she was a telepath in the rush of memories. He looked her steadily in the eyes.

“Your papa has a secret, and your mama has a secret.” Anya had told him so the first time she met Dream. She hadn’t told him what the secret was, but Hob could guess, based on how extremely competent and dangerous her parents were.

“You have a secret,” she nodded in agreement, a serious look on her little face, “and I have a secret too,” Hob finished.

“Dream has a secret too,” Anya pointed out. “Franky and Uncle Yuri also.” Hob just nodded. He so did not want to open that can of worms!

“Time to explore again!” Anya suddenly announced, putting the plague mask down on the coffee table. She headed down the hall, Hob darting after her with, he had to admit, some trepidation in his heart. He hadn’t really planned on her seeing the bedroom. He’d better check it first, before she poked her nose in.

Hob stuck his nose in the bedroom, seeing with relief that it was fairly tidy and didn’t have any child-unfriendly things lying around. He turned to try to head her off anyway, only to see that it was already too late. Instead of aiming for the bedroom, she had opened the hall closet where he’d stuffed his dangerous items, and there she was, holding the hilt of his great sword, which was taller than she was. Hob winced and gently took it from her.

“How about we go explore in the park?” He suggested, determinedly turning his thoughts away from all the people he’d killed with that sword, and the times he’d nearly been killed himself, as he stowed it away again.

“Yes! Anya wants to explore the park!” She grabbed his hand enthusiastically, barely slowing down to put her shoes on as they headed outside.

Hob made sure she stopped to check for traffic before crossing the road, then sauntered after her as she dashed through the park, weaving around the few people who were also out enjoying it. She came to a halt as she spotted a raven in the grass, and crouched low to approach it, a crafty expression on her face. Ah, playing Spy again, Hob thought. The raven hopped toward the tree, then suddenly took off to caw at her from its branches.

“Anya is an explorer!” Anya proclaimed to the red-haired man sitting against the base of the tree.

“I’m a bit of an explorer too,” he confessed, patting his little bundle, which was tied to a stick like an old time hobo. Hob felt strangely at ease with him, even though he couldn’t have said why he felt familiar. Perhaps they’d met before.

“You have a secret too,” Anya disclosed. The man raised his eyebrows, glancing at Hob.

“Ah, Anya, most people do have secrets, you know. It’s generally not polite to ask about them, unless you really need to know, or if someone is not safe. In that case you should really tell a grown up…” Hob trailed off as he realized the other two were ignoring him. The stranger was being submitted to Anya’s piercing gaze, the one where it seemed she could read your soul. She didn’t break the gaze first, he did.

“You should probably ask my brother if you want to know my secrets, Hob. We have met, you know. It was very long ago. In fact, it was your memories today which drew me here.”

“You’re not the one he calls the Prodigal, are you?” Hob wondered, making connections in his head. Dream had a lot of siblings, and they were all remarkable. The man smiled brilliantly.

“I am! You can call me Joe.”

“It’s nice to meet….” Hob started, but Anya was interrupting, grabbing Joe’s hand.

“Anya wants a story! Tell me about exploring!” she demanded. Joe nodded.

“Well, there was this one day I was wandering with my dog, Barnabas,” he began.

“Anya knows Barnabas! He came here before!” Anya interrupted.

“Did he? That’s nice! So, Barnabas and I…” Hob settled in for a good story, hoping it would last until Yor returned.

Later that day, having said goodbye to Joe, Anya and Yor, Hob trudged up to his flat and flopped on the couch. His eyes fell on the plague mask, still sitting on the coffee table, and he was stuck by inspiration. Just then, Dream appeared.

“Hello, Hob,” he smiled as Hob moved to give him room on the couch.

“I met your brother today!” Hob revealed, “and I think I know what to do for your Halloween costume!”

Two weeks later, Hob and Dream were standing outside the faculty Halloween party. Hob had recreated his plague doctor outfit, and Dream was wearing his helm and robe, toned-down a bit on Hob’s advice. Dream was having second thoughts.

“Don’t worry, Duck, it will be fine,” Hob reassured him, taking him by the hand and drawing him gently into the party room. Five minutes later, they were at the refreshments table when an elaborate Big Ben Hob didn’t know came up to them.

“Excellent plague doctor mask!” she enthused. “It looks so authentic!”

“Thank you!” Hob answered, loving how willing people were to see what they expected to see.

“And you!” she turned excitedly to Dream, “I love your mask! Where did you get it?”

“I created it from the skull and spine of my enemy, who I crushed with my own hands,” Dream intoned in his most ominous voice.

“Brilliant! Great backstory! I love how you commit to the bit!” she gushed.

“Hob?” Dream whined.

“Don’t worry, love, you’re doing excellently,” Hob consoled him as they walked further into the party, once again holding hands.

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[fatuismooches]

Hello smooches, its been a while. I hope that you are doing well (also pls don't push urself too hard) 🙏 sorry for disappearing (again) and not answering ur question since i'm taking the past few weeks to recuperate from my illness, and now i feel a lot better! The doctors said that i can finally go back home around mid-April to early May after 6 more examinations (i really want to go back home, i'm dead bored staying in this glass room 💀 bcs i can't do anything besides watching doctors and nurses going back and forth, reading fics, watch yt videos and play games on my phone)

Okay, now back to ur question about "have i watch the theory about Capitano being the Bloodstained Knight" and the answer is yes, i watched and read a LOT of that theory around the internet. Its really fascinating! Also, there are some theories that Capitano is Imunlaukr from Sal Vindagnyr (iirc its from Dragonspine?) One of the founding clans of Mondstadt. And then there's "Menogias (the Geo Yaksa) = Capitano" Theory too. There are a lot of theories about him still going around to this day 😂 and i just consume all of it

Also //leaks\\

have u seen some Capitano crumbs on Mika's character story going around lately? When he saw Capitano, even with that helmet of his, it is described that Capitano have "eerily dark blue eyes that 'glows' with an uncanny aura". His EYES literally "GLOWS" 😶 at this point, is he even a human now?? 😭 mans got that "glow in the dark" eyes. That is REALLY cool but also very scary.

Just imagine u were walking in Snezhnaya's forest at night trying to find some wood for ur kitchen fuel and then u accidentally came across this man, looking straight into ur soul with his glowing dark blue eyes 💀💀

I think i'll have a massive brainrot over this newfound info about him omg u give me a small 🤏 crumb about him, i'll go feral and unable to sleep at night and will thinking about him non-stop for WEEKS 😭 (i think i understand why my siblings wanted me to stop playing Genshin until i fully recover lol 😅)

Anyways, i really hope u have a very nice day and don't forget to take care of yourself smooches 🛐💞 i can't wait to see more of ur works and random rambles with other anons and users!

-🥝

HI MY LOVE!!

I’m so glad to see you in my messages again💕🙏 And don’t even worry about it, I’m very happy you’re doing better and don’t push yourself either☺️☺️

Hehe I should have known you watched it, you are literally the Capitano connoisseur 😅!! I never heard of those over two theories until now, I read a bit up on them and I would have never thought of that… I still like the Bloodstained Knight one the best. It sounds the most possible to me…

*Mika Character story leaks below (it’s just one detail abt Capitano tho😭)

I actually didn’t know until you told me😭😭 I’m surprised no one is really talking about it BECAUSE IT’S LITERALLY AMAZING???!! CAPITANO CRUMB HELLOOO? I’m so glad we know his eye color now, it’s only a little piece of info but I still devoured it🙏 I genuinely cannot wait for an official art/cutscene with the glowing eyes, he’ll look so majestic! And tbh, I’m not sure, I think he may be human but with an extended lifespan? Either way he’s so…😍😍 But yes you’re so right I’d be panicking so hard if I just saw him staring at me like that.

But ahem… imagine those eerie eyes become soft when he looks at you 🥺 I can’t help but think about his normally narrowed analyzing eyes that usually scares everyone become gentle with you. At first he didn’t even know he did that until you pointed it out 💞 He gets embarrassed about the things he does unconsciously around you 💞I also have this random hc that when he gets shy he clears his throat embarrassedly 

I’ll definitely be brainrotting with you over this 🥝 anon omg he’s so cute🥺. But WAIT MAKE SURE TO GET YOUR SLEEP OKAY YOU NEED THAT!!😭💗💗ILYYYY I HOPE YOU HAVE A NICE DAY TOOOOO <33

[jeannereames]

Hey Dr Reames! I’ve been reading Anthony Everitt’s biography of Alexander and he seems obsessed with boosting the importance of Bagoas. Some time ago I read your post about Bagoas and the role he likely had historically, and I wondered why, in your opinion, do so many biographers feel compelled to discuss him with such certainty if the sources we have are contradictory?

First, I’m going to admit that I’ve not read this biography, nor do I intend to (not any time soon). My reason is simple: Everitt is not an Alexander/Macedonia specialist. He’s not even a trained historian, but seems to specialize in performance and the vision arts with a penchant for writing pop history. He read in English literature at Cambridge, so seems to have no formal historical training. There are SO many books chapters/articles/books written by my colleagues, published each year, I can’t even keep up with that tide of published scholarship, never mind pop history from non-specialists.

That may—probably does—sound haughty, but it’s just pragmatic. I want to write my OWN stuff (academic and fiction both), as well as read things I need to read…not to mention do my job (which includes a lot of class prep, grading, and service). Ergo, I must be very circumspect in what I do read.

Given your question, I strongly suspect I wouldn’t care much for his book. Given the full title of the book, I’m even more certain I wouldn’t. Every time “mysterious death” pops up related to Alexander, I can be about 98% sure it’s going to be sensationalist and used to sell books. As someone who’s written about Alexander’s death myself, as well as Hephaistion’s demise, and who’s actually read in bereavement studies and done bereavement counselling, I lack patience for the sort of crackpot stuff I find too often about ATG’s last 9-10 months. That’s part of why I wrote “The Mourning of Alexander.”

Having said that, I could be wrong and he does a fine treatment of ATG’s death. I’ve simply been burned too often to expect it. Looking at the titles of his other history/biographies, however, he seems to lean to the sensationalist. He knows how to sell books.

As for Bagoas, to be honest, when you see him overemphasized in a biography, you’re looking at the enormous influence of Renault. I’ve written about that before, as the asker indicated. Macedonian and Alexander specialists don’t give him a lot of space because he’s a minor figure, if he existed at all and isn’t pure Roman fiction. (Personally, I wouldn’t be surprised if he did exist, but he most certainly didn’t have any sort of outsized impact on ATG.)

As noted, I think the tendency to give it to him really does owe to Renault. It may also owe to a need to find some new “angle” on Alexander that will sell books for him. 😉 Why write (or publish) Yet Another biography on Alexander unless there’s something new-ish to say?

Too bad the newish thing doesn’t involve all the cool stuff coming out of the ground at Archontiko, Sindos, or Vergina in Macedonia that’s making us rethink what we knew about Archaic and early Classical Macedonia….

[thursdaygxrls]

how do you preplan homework I need the tips

this is actually such a sweet question and i am so happy to answer it, i love school and homework…it’s love-hate

my college is a weird modern liberal arts college that doesn’t do school in a normal way?? i only have 3 classes a semester, and instead of big final tests, we write 15-20 page essays and do creative projects. my homework for one class was to talk to trees, it’s fucking wild.

however, i still have “normal” homework and went through 4 years of high school. so, here’s my things:

Materials: before my classes start, i figure out whether i need to buy the materials, and if i do, how to get them cheap. if you can tell from a syllabus that a class doesn’t adhere strongly to the textbook(s) assigned, i would skip it. if it turns out you need it later on, there’s websites like thriftbooks and abebooks, both of which i loveee for purchasing all my books. full disclosure, i don’t know much about them as companies, but they have some cheap ass books. then, i recommend getting separate materials for each class: one notebook for each class, a seperate folder/binder (whether it be physical or electronic). it just keeps it organized much better. extra points for color coding.

Scheduling: i always, always, ALWAYS make a physical list of my schedule as well as my homework. i have found that writing it down sticks it to my memory much better. when it comes to the schedule, i usually write mine down in a notebook then transfer it to a cute outlay in my journal or another piece of paper.

To-Do Lists: another thing you should write out physically. also, i do want to say here that i know using physical notebooks isn’t for everybody, and i totally respect that. for me, it commits it to my brain. i slack a bit sometimes, but i try every day to write down an organized to-do list of homework. i assign a different pen to every class (usually pink, purple, and blue, but you choose as you like) and write down every single thing i need to get done for them, big or small. i tend to write these on a daily basis, but making a mass one with benchmark goals isn’t a bad idea, just don’t overwhelm yourself with the list of work. writing out this to-do list gives me an idea of how i’ll divide my time to get the work done. here’s a special secret of mine: i’ve recently discovered that if i don’t get all the work done, it’s okay. i usually start with the most important tasks (closest deadlines, heaviest projects, assignments that need turned in) and move onto the more minimal ones (readings, note taking). sometimes, you can’t get everything done, and it’s okay!!

Timing: set aside time for everything, meaning both homework and breaks. my friends and i divided this system last semester that really worked for us: on saturday, we wake up around 9:30-10, plenty of sleep-in time, and go get brunch from our dining hall. around 11:30-12, we go to the library and spend 5-6 hours studying, revising, etc. we have each other to keep us accountable as well as help with things like editing essays. then, we get dinner and call it a night. if you don’t study well with others, make it an independent thing. it’s important to give yourself the time you need to get your work done as well as having some down time. don’t overexert yourself, trust me, i’ve been there. in high school, and the amount of stress i put on myself literally weakened my immune system. you have to care about yourself more than the homework.

Notes: taking notes in class can be a big help in doing your homework. i know that sounds like a dumb thing to say, but im so serious. it can be easy to slack off with notes, especially if you’re in an lecture. try your best not to, it’s worth it!! you don’t have to write everything down, that’s not what notes are about. for me, if a professor is lecturing and also has a powerpoint, i write down what the professor is saying instead of what is on the powerpoint. i know that may seem like another obvious thing, but when professors are lecturing, they usually include better info than just the bullet points. your notes are basically miska-mouska tools: a special tool to use later. (also, side info, they don’t have to be pretty whatsoever, they just have to be legible. when i take notes, i take them in random colored pens and doodle everywhere. they’re not super preppy or anything, but they got the info, and that’s all that matters. doodle away).

i really hope that helped. if it didn’t, or you need more specifics, please don’t be afraid to ask me. i’m trained for this sort of stuff from how much i’ve experimented what works for me. please stay in school guys, i swear it’s fun. okay, bye bye 😁

[amazon-me-bitches]

Ranting again but it felt good to get it out..

I can’t decide if I genuinely don’t know how to talk to people anymore and its a me/my hyperfixation problem or if people are just disinteresting to me. I try talking to my coworkers but its all drama. their lives legit sound like a drama movie and I don’t really believe half of what they are saying and the other half I don’t care about? why can’t I just find someone who wants to talk about art or writing or fandoms and gush about random stuff. like why do I gotta always be the one asking people what tv shows and youtube channels they like. I don’t want to fucking hear about your ex co-worker who slept with your man tried to fight you in a parking lot or whatever. SHITS BORING! I AM SORRY! I am just fucking trying to endure this conversation and subtly steer it back around till I can ask if you have ever watched Bee and Puppycat...BUT YOU ARE MAKING IT DIFFICULT! I know this makes me sounds like a self obsessed asshole and conversation hog but it doesn’t have to be about MY likes and interests,  JUst once I wish someone would tell me about a creative knitting project they been working on, show me a wood working project they are hella proud of, swap some work out routine secrets with me. tell me your passions, talk to me about every dog breed you know or obscure facts about cool plants, I will talk about the motherfucking Magic School Bus but just fuck I can’t deal with all other stuff...I’m already at work so I’m already miserable, I sure as shit don’t want to hear about your neighbors dog who is dying and you are scared she will start using drugs again..also I CAN NOT STAND people who cut you off mid sentence to go “yeah” then not add anything or “mhm” like I may not be interested in whatever the fuck you had to say but I still let you talk about it and engaged by letting you finish and even asking questions so you felt heard. if you do this when talking to people...DONT. its rude and annoying af. Also if you don’t have anything to talk about that isn’t gossip or life drama kindly go talk to someone else. PSA this does not include anyone on here, I love everyone on here. and you problems DO matter to me, I just mean people who are incapable of talking about anything else ever....okay I think this is really just more about my coworkers. they are okay but some need to also grow the fuck up, you are all way to old to have this kinda messyness in your lives. get some fucking hobbies man.

[animezinglife]

I was tagged by @indynerdgirl. :)

Nickname: I actually have quite a few related to my name (but won’t share them here as they indicate too much about both my first and last name).

Sign: Taurus

Height: 5′ 4"

Last thing I googled: “Sauron actor Rings of Power.” The one good thing to come from this show is the fact the guy looks like one of my original characters, so I wanted the name for a Pinterest character board.

Song stuck in my head: Honestly, none currently. I’ve had CoffeeHouse on for the brief periods I have listened to music today. Soft acoustic indie.

Number of followers: A little over 3,800 on this blog. Between this and a couple more streamlined fandom-specific blogs, around 45k.

Amount of sleep: Never enough.

Lucky number: Don’t really have one, but 2?

Dream job: Wandering bestselling author, hobbyist photographer, and guest lecturer. 

Wearing: ...[very] oversized men’s sweatpants I’ve had entirely too long and an also oversized pajama t-shirt from a local restaurant/bar. I like to keep my evening wear sophisticated.

Movies/books that summarize you: That’s really tough. Music would be easier. Instead of giving specific examples, I’d say books that quietly tell a story, may not obviously always have a lot happening, and where the protagonist is a careful observer. Books where the protagonist has some connection to nature, loves books and art, and is perfectly content to just sit outside under a tree on a summer day. Books that ponder questions of life and time, while highly valuing love (family, friends, romance, etc.).

Favorite song currently? I don’t have any one favorite.

Aesthetic: Quiet, cozy, natural light, and lots of natural and earthy green elements. Soft breeze, natural sounds like the wind, birds chirping, or water from the lake washing against the shore. Not having to always be “doing” something or filling the room or your surroundings with noise. If it’s any indication, the room I’m currently sitting in is lit only by lamplight, I’m on my white sofa with clean lines and no real detail, and right beside my head is a painting of green, sage, and beige leaves. Everything’s a little understated; muted.

Favorite author: J.R.R. Tolkien and Emily Henry (obviously, for dramatically different reasons and types of reading).

Random fun fact: I have the completely useless skill of being able to write quickly with both hands at the same time. Now, a lot of people can do that by using a mirror technique, except I can actually write in two different fonts and, if I desire, flip one or the other upside down with the same or different fonts (for example, one cursive and one print). It’s one of those “party tricks” that has no real value but really messes with people’s heads, especially if they’ve never tried it themselves. I can draw that way as well, though only the same mirrored image in both hands. 

I’m drawing all kinds of blanks tonight, but I appreciate the tag!

No pressure tags (and tagging the first few who show up in my activity feed): @the-gotheltic-rowan, @rebelnurse, @kieyoukie, @10-96dispatcher, @onodakun, @wristwatch-tan-line, @stride-armin

[lovingperfectionsblog]

The Run-Aways: Part 1

Pierre Gasly x Reader.

Requested: Yes

Hey I love your writing, I think it's amazing! I was just wondering if you'd be able to write a Pierre X reader based on the song Pierre by Ryn Weaver? I always see video edits with the song but I think like a 'summer love' fic would be good 💜

Summary: A meeting between two strangers.

Warnings: Language, mention of him being a serial killer, also, don’t ever do this – be smart.

Word count: 2337

Authors note: good god this is such a fun song and I a so excited to have gotten this request. Again, as usual, I’ outing my own spin on this and it is evidently getting more than one part which I am super excited about and I really hope it is going to go well and I guess I just really like writing Pierre, despite this one not being too awkward, I am feeling ridiculously romantic right now, so I guess you’re all going to have to suffer through that 😊 I hope you enjoy and I can’t wait to hear what you think.

The Run-Aways: Part 2

The Run-Aways: Part 3

The Run-Aways: Part 4 (Finale)

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“Sorry, but are you, uh, are you crying?” Pierre cautiously approached as you frantically began wiping away any tears still left on your cheeks, “Is everything okay?”

“Yes, no I promise, sorry, I’m all good” you laugh at how ridiculous you must look right now, sitting in an art museum staring at a painting.

“Is there someone I can get for you?” Pierre didn’t know how to handle this situation but for some reason he couldn’t just leave you sitting here, crying, at a painting?

“No, no, I’m here alone, but really, thank you, you’re very sweet, I really am okay” you prepared yourself to come face to face with this caring and handsome stranger you had taken the time to make sure your pathetic self was okay, but once you turned to look at him, found you couldn’t see his face? God, baseball caps really were good at hiding faces. Fuck.

How were you going to tell how embarrassed you should be that some handsome local caught you crying in their museum?

“Well, in that case, would you like someone to sit with you while you, cry?” he nodded down at the empty seat next to you, intrigued by the mysterious woman in an old empty art museum.

“By all means” you shuffled slightly to make sure there was adequate room for him and as he sat a comfortable silence settled between the two of you, neither of you feeling the need to interrupt the overwhelming feeling lingering in the room given off by the massive painting in front of you.

“So, some questions for a stranger” Pierre was the first to break the silence.

“I may or may not lie” you didn’t take your eyes off the image, preparing yourself for whatever may be asked.

Pierre mulled over the questions in his head and decided to go with the obvious first’

“Why exactly are you crying?” he tried to sound as gentle as possibly, but it was an awkward question and no one could really escape that, especially coming from a  complete stranger.

“Well, that happens to be a bit of a two-part question that one” you took in a breath, trying to figure out a way of saying it all without sounding completely pathetic, “promise not to laugh?”

Pierre made a cross over his heart, indicating for you to continue your story of woe.

“Well, the first part is, I just, fuck, it’s a really beautiful painting!” you clapped your hand over your mouth, both of you shocked at how loud you had been, especially in a museum, “sorry, you giggled out.

Pierre couldn’t help but laugh too, he wished it was because it was an actual funny moment, but truthfully, it was just really nice to engage with someone who was this passionate about something other than cars. No one who liked cars was this cute when they were passionate. It was a welcomed break.

“So, you’re crying because a painting is beautiful?” Pierre needed clarification. Never had he felt the need to cry because something was beautiful. Maybe nothing was ever that beautiful to him.

Maybe you were just a weirdo.

“Oh, don’t judge me. How can you not feel something looking at this?” you gestured to the work of art in front of you.

“I didn’t say I don’t feel anything, I just haven’t really experienced anything that I consider beautiful make me cry,” Honestly, art was a secret love of Pierre’s and he was slightly offended at being accused of not feeling anything when he was surrounded by some of the greatest historical works in existence, but he couldn’t blame you, he was an F1 driver, why on earth would he be interested in art?

“Ooh well I clearly touched a nerve there” so this stranger was clearly an art lover like yourself then, “Forgive me, I work in art, so it’s just, it’s a passion you know, and I just, I’m really moved by it all and sometimes I forget not everyone needs to cry when they feel things” you chuckled when you realised you were rambling.

“You work in art?” Pierre was concocting a plan.

“Art dealer ad historian” you offered up the information willingly, always proud to tell people what you do, forever thankful you got to do what you were passionate about for a living.

“So I’m sitting with an expert then?” this plan was starting to fall into place more and more.

“Not an expert, but adequate enough” you blushed at the thought of him thinking you were an expert in your field.

“Well, in that case, would you be willing to join me for a tour of the museum and teach me anything and everything you can?” fuck, even Pierre thought that was smooth, mentally patting himself on the back.

“Of course,” the blush only deepened; you dropped your head in the hopes he wouldn’t see.

Silence fell again as you tried to reel your brain in from running away with thoughts of how this could be the greatest meet-cute in all of history.

“You said this was a two parter though” Pierre suddenly remembered, prompting for the second part of your tale.

“Ah, I was hoping you’d forget that” you felt stupid for even mentioning that you were crying for two reasons, “if you can believe it, it’s even more embarrassing than the first reason”.

“Is it wrong for me to be excited?” Pierre felt lighter when you smiled at the joke.

“It might make you a bit of a sadist” you bumped into his shoulder slightly, a light laugh escaping both of you, “So I was crying because well, I’ve ever done anything like this before and I guess I’m just really proud of myself” a feeling of achievement blooming in your chest, thinking of all you had done to get here.

Pierre glanced between you, the painting, and the empty room, “Done what before? Go to an art museum? Aren’t you an art historian?”

What the fuck was this girl on about? Pierre swung around wildly trying to figure out what was different in the room that could give him any clues.

You howled out a laugh, hand resting innocently on his thigh to get his attention back to you, completely ignoring the fact that you were in a museum now.

“I am so sorry” you got out between laughs “I gave you absolutely zero context there to what I was talking about” you continued laughing, eventually catching your breath.

“Me being here alone, I’ve never really travelled and stuff alone, which is a bit of a longer story, but it’s the just of it and then one day I kind of just ran away and now I’m sitting in an art museum feeling a bit too proud of myself for being, I don’t know, brave?” a grin spread across your face, you attempting to keep the tears at bay once again.

“You ran away?” Pierre now staring directly at you again, intrigued as to what the larger story may be but not wanting to push you for it.

“I did” you whispered out, not regretting what you had done for a second.

“Me too” Although Pierre wasn’t experiencing the same emotions you were feeling by the looks of it, for him, it was almost a secret shame that he had to do this in order to get away, to feel like himself, but even that was tinged with the guilt.

“You’re here alone too?” for the first time you had fully seen the strangers face as he had taken off his baseball cap momentarily, forgetting that he was technically meant to be hiding.

God, he was beautiful.

“I am, for once” he chuckled, stopping when you looked confused, but not elaborating further.

“You around people too often?” The question was innocent enough, but Pierre couldn’t tell if you were joking or not.

“Well, yeah, my job kind of means I’m never really alone” he hesitantly put the information forward, surprised you hadn’t reacted as people normally had, suddenly wondering if you even knew who he was at all.

“Oh that’s awful, I’m so sorry” the sympathy in your voice was sincere, “what do you do?”

Holy shit, you had no idea who he was.

“I work with cars” it wasn’t a complete lie, but for just a second Pierre didn’t want to be an F1 driver, he just wanted to be some guy who worked with cars.

“Huh” fuck, Pierre prayed you suddenly hadn’t figured it out, “didn’t take a car guy to be interested in art” you really had absolutely no idea who he was.

Pierre just let out a gentle laugh at that, once again allowing the silence to fill the room.

In his mind though, it was a completely different story. He was running through ideas of potentially spending this very short holiday with you, where he could be just, Pierre.

“Listen, forgive me if this is a bit forward, but do you maybe want to grab dinner with me after this, considering we’re both here alone?” Pierre knew he was taking a risk, but fuck it, what’s the worst that could happen?

“Please, I’m starving.” Pierre had never seen anyone look so thankful in his entire life, “just, I need to grab my suitcase from security” you began standing up, getting yourself ready to go.

“Suitcase? Haven’t you checked in anywhere yet?” Pierre began following you towards the entrance.

“Oh, I uhm, I don’t have anywhere to stay yet” you avoided eye contact with the man acutely aware of how dumb you sounded.

“Holy shit, you really did just run away” Pierre had at least planned his vacation, suddenly feeling stupid even thinking he was in the same situation to you, you had literally run away.

“Yup” you flashed him a cheesy smile.

_____

“So, how long are you staying then if you have no where to stay?” You had both finally settled down in a small hidden away restaurant on the coast, Pierre insisting on going somewhere small and secluded.  

“Oh, I leave in a week, I think” you tried to remember when you had booked your return ticket.

“Oh my god, you don’t even know when your flight back is?” You were the bravest person Pierre had ever met, he literally could never relinquish this much control over anything and here you were just, well, winging it.

“I feel like you judge me a lot” you united your eyes at Pierre, making him laugh, knowing you weren’t being serious.

“No, just, fuck, you may be one of the bravest people I’ve ever met, I could never just rock up somewhere new not even knowing where I was going to stay” well, at least brave in a different way, a lot of people he knew were ridiculously brave, but more so in a masochistic way, much like himself.

“There’s a first time for everything” you shrugged, the validation of what you had done feeling good, for once, you had gotten positive validation for something that you knew was deep down in you, not only being praised for being the predictable timid little girl.

“There seems like there may be a story here” Pierre attempted to probe, curious what had lead the woman in front of him to do what she had done.

“and you may find out in due time” you truly didn’t want to get into it right now, wanting to be the brave girl for just slightly longer, not wanting to be forced to slip into your old persona so quickly, not wanting to be the timid girl here, not now, not with him.

You were thankful when the waiter approached to take your orders and even more thankful this man hadn’t pressed you for more, instead understanding somehow.

And so you both sat for dinner, you, the brave run-away artist and Pierre, the nobody who worked with cars, both sinking deeper into the roles you had created for yourselves, enjoying the good food and simple conversation that didn’t actually touch on either of your true lives once well into the night, but all good things must come to an end.

“Stay with me” Pierre offered up as you sat after you had paid the bill, finishing off the bottle of wine before you left, I have a chalet on the beach, big enough for two, nothing weird, just two run-aways” it was a long shot but fuck, you had nowhere else to go.

“What if you’re some like, weirdo serial killer?” you knew he wasn’t, but you shouldn’t just blindly trust this man so easily, it made you nervous that you did.

“I have absolutely no idea how to prove that I’m not, but I promise” It was all Pierre could offer up, “If you hate it, I’ll help you find somewhere new tomorrow first thing, pinkie promise, we all know that’s law” he held his pinkie out as a way to prove to you that he would stick to his word.

You mulled it over for a moment before wrapping your pinkie around his, shocked that you were about to do something this risky, every part of you screaming at you not to do it, but then there was the quiet small voice, in your heart “what if it is the greatest adventure of your life?”, you couldn’t not listen to her.

Pierre stood up and grabbed your suitcase leading you to his car to take you to your new holiday home for the week, the ever gentleman opening the door for you before placing your suitcase in the back and getting behind the wheel himself.

“Oh, before I forget, I’m y/n by the way” it had suddenly dawned on you that neither of you had ever introduced yourselves, remining strangers until this moment.

“Oh shit, sorry, enchante Y/n, you have a beautiful name” you blushed yet raised your eyebrows expectantly.

“Pierre” and with a timid smile, your great adventure began.