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dabi fic possibly today
#goodnight#🙆🏼♀️🙆🏼♀️🙆🏼♀️🙆🏼♀️🙆🏼♀️🙆🏼♀️🙆🏼♀️🙆🏼♀️#I love how it’s at really inconvenient times that I start loving tumblr and wanting to be on it#I’ve had to stop myself from posting a billion things#all my idea come out RIGHT NOW#and I forget them when I wake up#anyway#tomorrows plan… see my cousin and maybe my aunt and get din din with the#andddddddddddddd clean the kitchen and put away the laundry I dumped out on my floor#anddddddddddddddddddddd … make chicken wings?#I’ll have to check the exp date#anyway love u all don’t let me forget#caitie blabs
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a little Postlet. . because i Miss them
#deltarune#queen#rouxls kaard#lancer#art#doodles#comic#rouxls is a leetol different. for fun :) idk i drew him like that and i didn't hate it#Twelve Percent More On Model Than Usual#i have lil bits of dialogue scrawled down everywhere and i found that second one i thought it was funny#i have so many drawings and doodles and entire posts that ive started. that i just don't finish for so me reason#no energy. why do i have the energy to start them and go 'omg this is gonna be IT ill TOTALLY FINISH THIS'#and then i don't lol. why don't i just finish something instead of starting something else#its da adhd babey!!!!#anyway thats why this post is small#normally i sit and over-analyze things before i post them. are all the layers on. did i forget anything. does anything is badly drawn. etc#i'm not doing that. i am scheduling this for atime when i am asleep and it will be posted by the time i wake up#and whatever is in the art is what is posted. it is what it is.
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me: finally im able to cope with how much i hate totk and can fuel that energy into other things :)
nintendy: the shiekah tech just dissappeared and no one knows why or cares enough to investigate it lol. lmao. its gone bc the calamity is gone or something even tho it literally isnt bc ganondorf is right there haha lol, stop asking, why do you care. just forget it existed and look at that sexy goatman and glue instead!! glue! isnt that wild?? also its totally a direct, 100% same universe and exact same characters, despite them act totally out of character, sequel to botw-
#ganondoodles talks#ganondoodles rants#zelda#totk#im just fucking!!!! at my limit!!!!#what the fuck do you mean#the calamity is the equivalent of ganondorfs farts trying to wake himself up and you say lololo is gone so the techs gone#then why do some parts still exist huh???????#fuyking clowns#all the threads leading organically into another game WOOOP NOPE CUT THEM ALL WE DIDNT MEAN TO GIVE IT MEANING LOL#what is ancient energy and whys there a big concetration under these regions including hyrule castle? oh my god is it bc gan is there an-#NOPE forget we ever said that haha lol lmao even#can you really blame me for feeling like im being laughed at#like totk is mocking me bc i care about botw and thought theyd take up the interesting things they set up in it to expand upon???#and no instead they backpedal like oh no we accidentally made it seem interesting quick get the iron out we need to FLATTEN this bitch#and they keep making it WORSE by insisting that its totally 1000% a direct sequel#just fucking say its some alternative bullshit again#i am begging them to let soemone else direct the next game#bc when the guy makes accidentally good lore he needs to immedaitely flatten all the good stuff when it comes to a sequel apparently
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Lights Out dream team - scribbled Silly Style. low quality, even
#theyre hanging out <3#with the horrors AND each other <3#its taken some deliberation but these are the first four & the ones who spend the longest time in the dark together#frank wakes first. then poppy. then howdy#the rest im still kinda Thinkin on who wakes when#im thinkinggggg eddie-julie-barnaby? or eddie-barnaby-julie... i have several Factors to consider#scribble salad#wh lights out au#but anyhow frank poppy wally howdy quartet lets gooooo#i like making characters that arent typically associated with each other Interact#like its usually frank + eddie or julie / poppy + sally / wally + barns / howdy + barns#so its fun to think about these four only having each other#their Main Besties are all still in dreamland#OH FUCK YEAH PLUS HOME LMFAO#i keep forgetting about home im sorry. lock me up boys#well its not like home can join them on their adventures (horror journeys)#and its kinda. not on good terms with wally. which means its not on good terms with the others.#but anyway at this point in the au wally is very happy to have more friends#so is frank! finally New Conversations!#im thinking that his and wallys relationship was starting to strain a little by the time poppy wakes up#so its good for them to have Other People#big friends! cozy friends!#they are Extra Big bc the illusion of their reality is shattered! they are their base selves!#no more mind reality twisty to ~keep them in frame w/ the smaller puppets~ for the show#so poppy/howdy/barnaby are all nearly 8 ft as canon prescribes#and all of the others are 3-4 ft (also as canon prescribes)#an Adjustment for sure <3
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this keeps me up at night btw.
#mipha#botw#loz breath of the wild#TWICE??? SHE DID IT TWICE??????? AND WE'RE JUST GONNA MOVE PAST THAT????????? literally NO one else has been said to be able to do this#and like. hm. is it. is it... love??#like you know how zelda and her powers are implied to work the same. they focus on protecting the one(s) they love & their powers activate#(i know people theorise that mipha was going to tell zelda her power works when she thinks about link but i've always thought she was going#to say that it works when she thinks about saving the person under her care. because it doesnt really make sense to me that her healing#would work for other people if she was only focused on saving link you know? so i've always thought it was just 'saving the people i love')#and zelda is technically able to do this with link after he wakes up and he's the only person her powers woke for#so does this work maybe like an inverse or an extension of how their powers usually work? like instead of it just being their love for the#other person it's the other person/people's love or reciprocated love for them. zelda & link are implied to have really only had each other#but mipha. mipha had a family and a whole kingdom. she was connected to nearly all of them when she passed and both these events#are said to have taken place shortly after she fell. in the dlc she asks link to pass on a message to sidon for her implying that she#can no longer speak to him as she once could. perhaps that's just her power waning over time but if you think about it in the context#of how the domain is slowly losing people who knew her and those who remain only remember her for what she did for them rather than who#she truly was then could she have stopped being able to connect with them because there was no one left who loved her as they once did.#loved her for who she was.#was she in vah ruta reaching out for her father and brother and realising slowly that they were forgetting her#... 'do not cry. just remember' huh.#freya talks loz#so consumed by mipha thoughts i forgot my own tag
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⚠️GETTING AUTISTIC ALERT⚠️
one of my absolute favorite things abt mo4 is understanding just how terrible a lot of the main cast is.. i've changed fukurou and morikaze to be more normal in my mind for my own comfort (as someone still recovering from trauma), but am still heavily critical of their characters as i am with every other main numa!! i love discussing the intricacies of the mo4 cast without defending any of their actions, and i really dislike when people mischaracterize them and refuse to accept canon for what it is.. no guys bachikin was not a girlboss girlqueen she was a war criminal & an awful person & part of her character is the fact that she is trying to fix what she did!! holding her accountable is part of the story im afraid, you cant fake-feminism your way out of this one💔 when you remove the bad parts of a character meant to be a bad person u are left with a very bland & uninteresting character. learn to love a character despite the shit that makes them a bad person while still holding them accountable it. i love talking about the mo4 characters who wants to let me ramble about the mo4 characters to them
#ekurambles#its 4 am and i just woke up and immediately felt the autism within me flare up i NEED to talk about the mo4 casts horrible actions in detai#i love discussing how horrible some characters really are!!! i love enjoying them regardless!!! please#theres not a single numa from the main cast that i actually hate (except canonical fukurou and morikaze)#(but that is genuinely just for my own comfort & i like the discomfort when i talk about them in detail!!!)#(i think its a good thing when a character can make you feel inherently disgusted.. sign of good writing)#ok i need 2 get my ass to bed now bro OOPS!#who wants to let me yap in their ear for the next 5 years when i wake up#or who wants to tell me what the fuck otsukin and koritora even did in the main story again ive replayed the game multiple times now btw#i forget literally every time even though they were like there specifically to progress the story#fym otsukin was chilling with zakuro and kashikin..?that was just the two of them on a beautiful yuri date#wtf did i just say
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☆ Momina: Her Scent ☆
Fun fact: Momina smells like apples. If you ask her parents, it's because when she was a child, that was 90% of her diet.
The thing is, even into adulthood, she still smells faintly of apples. She still loves apples but isn't as obsessed anymore.
#khr ocs#momo#momina luqman#character spotlight: momina luqman#I like thinking ppl are more likely to associate peaches or strawberries with her#and rarely does one go: its apples!#I like thinking its Takeshi/Mimi/Nello and Ken who associate her with apples#Ken for obvious reasons...he starts craving them when she's around and its annoying#Haru claims Momina is a peach girl#Hayato says its strawberries#Momina does love strawberries tho so I cant even blame him but apples are special to them#anyway hate that I am up legit annoyed bc my instructors fucked us over 😭#so now I gotta wake up early to work on this gp even tho there is NO WAY we are finishing on time#its the way Momina had me forget my anger for a moment 😔
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hey if we are friends on discord and ive been bad at responding &/or ur waiting on a response. abd u see this. lmk if its cool to send voice messages
#morgan.pdf#responding w words has been Easier than text . for some reason#and speech to text is garbage and then i have to edit after and im . Oughhhhhh.#ive had like negative spoons for messages which is . goofy imo. my attention span is in hell#i keep opening messages and reading them when i wake up and being like#oh ill respond when my brain isnt foggy. and then my brain stays foggy. and i forget ive ever read the message
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miss pauling WOULD NOT SMELL FINE.
#me disagreeing at everything about miss pauling that people paints her as something good sweet or cool#WHEN SHES NOT COOL OR AWESOME OR SMELLS GOOD AT ALL SHAKES YOU AROUND LIKE A BOTTLE#she smells LIKE HUMAN SWEAT and old clothes from a humid closet she barely cleans. like a grandma.#well grandmas do smell nice. BUT THATS NOT THE FACT#ok well she does smell fine and bearable maybe he hair smells like bed sheets no changed at all#because she wakes up so early she doesn’t have time to clean her room or make her bed#she just instantly runs not even eating breakfast and dying of hunger until either scout or soldier gives her a cookie#or a half eaten pork beans in soldiers courtesy#and gets home late EXHAUSTED and throws herself in the bed to later wake up in 5 minutes#me wanting to expose her every single damn time i am evil like that to my ult#oh yeah her hair doesn’t smell that good at all. full of lice. and greasy. girl wash YOUR HAIR that’s what demo always says to her#prob demo often times calls her out or secretly spy will come and said damn my mask doesn’t even smell that bad than that hair of yours#but is either of those two. wait what i was talking about#her teeth are so yellow because she forgets to clean them#crusty eyes too. can’t put makeup stupidass just only puts her fav purple lipstick to hide her crusty lips#takes a deep breath… fuck. woman failure
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so what that i slept in for the exam. my voice teacher just called to talk about yesterdays concert and said some truly insane shit that made me cry again (but like. in a good way lol) so who even gives a shit lol
#she can singlehandedly fix me#she said so many insanely beautiful things. about ME. i am still reeling from it.#also she said we 'clearly have the exact same vision when it comes to this aria' and im sooooo normal about it uwu#yes queen ill be your little bitch ill sing it exactly as you want it (except i WILL use chest voice sorry thats not optional)#anyway i hate this because see this is what my brain does now. i got so many insane compliments that now all i can think about is#“when will i lose it”. now im gonna live in fear that one day ill wake up and ill forget how to act.#that i will suddenly just lose all my idk stage presence and all my musicality. because i just cant have nice things#and i cant have things to actually be. if not exactly proud of. then at least happy about. im not allowed.#the moment i let myself believe it and truly appreciate and value myself and consider myself objectively good at something - ill lose it all#or rather - it shall be taken away from me to teach me a lesson. see for a person who doesnt believe in god#i sure do live in a constant conviction that he's just waiting for the opportune moment to lure me into a fake sense of safety and happiness#just to snatch it away at the peak of it if only to prove to me that i dont get to have nice things and i shouldnt dare to even want them#gotta love being normal
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*really late at night/early morning*
Brain: Hey, I know you’re exhausted, but for the first time in forever I’m gonna make you feel inspired to write a story, I’m also gonna give you a really good outline of how the story goes and how it ends, which you usually have trouble with
Me: But-
Brain: Oh I know, you’re not gonna be able to do it tonight, you’re also gonna lose that motivation to do it when you wake up, this is just to fuck with you rn while you try to sleep :3c
#im. im fucking obsessed with every part of this plot bunny#please please PLEASE let me keep motivation to work on it when I wake up#I already wrote down the outline so I don’t forget it#*please*#ugh only problem with writing stuff I intend to post on ao3 is that I’ve also put in my other side account on one of my stories#and I hardly use that side account because one of my exes started stalking it after we broke up#he wasn’t even following me while we were dating!!#he waited till after I broke up with him to follow me!!#and then after I blocked him he still kept interacting with my blog!!!#tumblr make a better fucking blocking system.#yeah so I’m worried about him potentially knowing my ao3 account#and I really hope he doesn’t follow this account#@ eric if you’re *still* looking at my stuff just know that you’re a mega creep and I hate you.#seriously dude.#haven’t deleted that side account or my ao3 cause I’m still attached to them#but yeah it sucks posting to either of them knowing that there’s a CREEP who WONT RESPECT MY BOUNDARIES looking at them#god I hate him#no fandom
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Sometimes it’s so silly being a multi shipper for every combo of the Bell’s Hells Witches because I go from
‘Aw, Imogen’s canon art has Laudna’s thread bracelet’
To
‘But what about Fearne’s ribbon that’s also part of the bracelet :(’
In a span of 10 seconds
#It’s funny that Laura/Imogen forgets that Fearne was the one to actually make the bracelet to help remind Imogen that the two of them#will be there when she wakes up from her nightmares and since Laudna also seems to have one that means Fearne has one too#BUT the fact that Imogen keeps mentioning looking at the bracelet and thinking of Laudna and the fact it’s in the art is 👀#I know what you are Imogen!#critical role#laudna#imogen temult#fearne calloway
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#bonus under the cut getting that snout facing right at the camera#camerupt#early 2000s animation cow‚ apparently. that's what someone just said about the bonus image. i honestly never understood this thing's name#i always thought it was pretty obviously a cow. but then its name implies camel. camel erupt. camerupt. is there a specific kind of#camel that just looks like a cow?? or. what. or am i just misremembering what camels look like#either way‚ i still think this pokémon is pretty cool‚ but i don't really use it ever in my own playthroughs. i don't think i *ever* have#not even in pokémon colosseum where i'm pretty sure you can get a shadow numel at some point. bc i already had a fire-type#not sure which one it was but it was definitely one of them. maybe cyndaquil? because of the dudes with the johto starters#that you fight near the beginning in pppp uuuhhh the PHENAC city i couldn't remember the name. for a second there.#i wasn't aware as a kid that their outfits corresponded to the type of the starter they had and also that you could only fight one of them#i think as a kid i was under the impression that there was only the one. for some reason i remember fighting the green one#oh wait they have the second-evos yeah. cuz he had bayleef. and the red one would've had quilava. not cyndaquil#ugh my memory is not very good evidently. i'm writing these tags after work. normally i do them right when i wake up but this time i just#do not have an excuse for not being able to remember shit. this is just on me. maybe it's amplified by the fact that i have yet to eat today#which i have a very bad habit of doing. forgetting to eat all day and not eating until like 5 and then that being my only meal for the day#i'm trynna get better about it but it is Not easy for some reason. for something that should be decidedly very simple#but my brain doesn't often let me eat until i've completed all of my silly little Tasks. so. idk. this will however post the day after i've#arrived back home from my trip which is nice. the first time future me will be sleeping in her own bed again. good luck again future me#you might need it
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I think I'm going insane. Lately my dreams have been so mundane, it wouldn't be weird if I wasn't just a person that has nightmares 80% of the time, so I now my dreams are so hard to distinguish from reality.
I wouldn't be able tell what was real from what not if it wasn't because last night I went to my doctor's appointment and I was handed new glasses by Harvey just to go back home and find out Laois was cooking something in my backyard.
#to be fair. in my dream i was back at my old house. so the horrors where there still#also i've been dreaming about my dog. but sometimes it's not him. it's other dog trying to replace him. but it's not him. i miss him dearly#but it's... weird. i never actually dream with characters either. something strange is going on#I've been telling my brother i wake up and i have to remember who i am#for the totally normal dreams. it's like my soul is divided and it's living somewhere else for the night#who is the person i am when i dream. because it's not me. it's a whole different live. whole different people around me. I'm going insane#there's such a strange feeling about it. it's familiar? it's comfortable?#which only makes it even more weird. why is a life so different to mine feel so comfortable...#to the point i wake up and i don't remember who i am for at least ten minutes#but then i forget what i had dreamt about. and then i go around my day randomly reminding things. then that's when i realize those memories#were actual dreams#i should write a fanfic about this lmao#it was a nice dream though. i remember vividly i was sitting in one of those chairs thingies that hang in the air?#and i was swinging happily. i think Laios was talking about where he got whatever the fuck he was cooking. i couldn't understand him really.#he wasn't speaking in spanish but it wasn't english either. i think it was a made up gibberish... I'm still baffled by how comfortable i was#i think there were friends around too. maybe a hangout was going on? everything was nice. it reminds me of the times#i would go eat at a friend's house. but things felt a lot nicer. it was like if time had stopped and nothing wrong could ever happen.#and even then. i was still there. which i think that's why i started to feel dizzy in my little swing. i ended up waking up from that.#i still get dizzy remembering it.#welp. I hope i don't lose myself tonight...#I don't actually know what's worse. the nightmares are common. they are familiar. there's comfort in knowing what to expect.#but “good” dreams like that... i end up thinking about them too much. the residual feeling is weirder#and i have to deal with the whole different layer that is.. there's was a fucking anime guy there. kill me. kill me. get him OUT of my brain#I'm not lying when I say I can physically feel Laios rearranging my brain in ways i will not share publicly#kill me.
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hey so um in case you couldn’t tell. i have lost motivation for this blog. i’m fairly active on my other blogs, @fenneky-fox (fennekin eebydeeby) and @warrior-wandering (xerneas branded, most active currently) but something about this one just. isn’t doing it for me at the moment. i may pick vivi back up once schools out cause i do still like her. idk
but. right now i’m actually getting around to playing the scarlet/violet dlc and i’m thinking about making a blueberry blog. and i’m not sure if i wanna make a new character for that or if i wanna use like.. an au version of vivi? cause if i workshop her a bit i think she’d be fun at blueberry, and i kinda want to make a grass specialist
i would probably make a new blog either way, since i would like to come back to this one at some point, but like. is making an au blog of my own character a strange thing to do? is there any interest for that?
i do have an idea for a new character if i make one, it’s just not fleshed out at all and i’m indecisive
tldr: don’t like this blog right now, probably gonna come back later. might make bb academy blog, au version of vivi?
#//also i’m making this at 2am and i am fully aware that it is too long-winded. but. it is 2am and my natural state is talking too much#<- so much so that i had to change my wording to not go over character limit#anyway ummmm if you have any other like. recommendations or ideas feel free to tell me#i may not see them right away though because it is 2am and also i kinda forget this blog exists#i may even delete this when i wake up. who knows!#not me!!
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tired girl hours i’m just ranting bcos i don’t have enough time to cry
#tw rant#studying med is no joke. ik it was gonna be a commitment n that it wasnt gonna be easy n i thought i was prepared but im not#its my passion. i love what im studying and ive dedicated myself to this path but i just. its so hard n i just want to cry. everyday feels#so tiring. morning to night classes. when i get home i have to read 4 chapters MINIMUM n the books are so thick + exams almost everyday#i feel worse knowing there’s this 1 girl in my friend group that cant decide whether she likes me or not. one moment shes complimenting me#n asking where i get my outfits or my nails done or my earrings or whatever then praising me that i probably study the least out of everyone#yet still reach high student rankings but its not that im lazy im just so exhausted n its hard to have motivation... lowkey envy how my#friends study minimum 4 hours a day. we’re all tired n sleep deprived. even taking 30mins to eat makes me feel guilty. cant even watch 1 ep#of an anime bcos ill be thinking about the amount of work to do. and i have sm plans. i wanna be more active and have a healthier lifestyle#but i cant find it in me to wake up every 5am to go to the gym when i just wanna get as much sleep when im lucky to finish my studies today#i also dont see my bestest friends everyday anymore. some of us move to diff unis or some in diff majors. i just miss them so bad it hurts#and i miss the girl i used to be when i still had time and energy to indulge in my hobbies. i miss playing genshin and writing fics#just when i got back to writing and enjoyed it LOVED IT i had to go back to uni. i feel terribly lonely even when im always with people#im afraid ill completely lose grasp of the little things that make me happy bcos the weight of my responsibilities are heavier#im afraid ill be too focused on success again like i was when i was 17 and forget that its okay to relax too but idk#and i wanna meet more people make more friends have new experiences. i wanna feel alive again. and theres sm i wanna talk to or get to know#but im so afraid of people hurting me or disappointing me or people getting to know me only for the friendships to fail or we’ll dislike eac#h other. i wanna date and fall in love again and experience the romance my peers have. i wanna have someone to call my own person but the fe#ar of having someone only to lose them someday scares the hell outta me. im not ready for another heartbreak so i isolate myself and watch#people from afar. uni gives me sm freedom to do everything else and form my own identity but i dont wanna be Perceived. I wanna be heard and#seen n connect with people. but w my curreny state idt i can handle being vulnerable with others. it feels so lonely that the things i want#are out of my rrach but idt i can manage my time to meet new people and make new memories. i console myself by shopping a lot and going to#spas to relax yet i still find it hard to sleep. im afraid im wasting my time. im not as brave as i used to be. im not as efficient as i was#i get older and more tired and while i never questioned if studying med was the path i want i do question what will happen next#“is this all im ever going to be?” im good at what i do but day by day i lose sight of tje girl who knew how to laugh n smile. ik what makes#me happy but i rarely smile genuinely anymore. im so tired and want to sleep for a long time but i dont wanna fail. i dont wanna be NOT good#but it makes me cry when i know i can do many great things but i dont feel loved. people compliment me but dont approach me bcos they say im#intimidating or that im too quiet in class. i wish i could tell them i wanna join their parties too or i wanna meet their friends n hangout#but what if it doesnt work out? what if i wasted my time getting to know someone id eventually regret? what if im the disappointing one?#the days are getting shorter but it always feels like a long day. im ashamed to admit i want someone to hold me yet refuse to have anyone
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