bunabi · 2 years ago
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The speed at which people have been suckered into hating minority groups and doomsaying a ‘perversion of tradition’ in general is scary
Mfs just giving up their desire to coexist with other human beings
That part is really bleak
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seriouslysam8 · 2 years ago
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So I started reading your fics about a month ago. I didn’t start them because I’m a hinny shipper or anything, like most people here are, but because your storylines and plots are so elaborate and well-written that it doesn’t feel like fanfiction. It feels like a continuation of the books almost. I have a question though. Why do you focus on Harry? I know everyone says he’s underrated, and maybe he is, but he’s literally the main character. We read about him for 7 books being all grumpy and moody and totally oblivious. I say this in the nicest way possible, but why do you like him so much? Why don’t you write stories from the people you want to know more about? Like from Draco’s or George’s or even Luna’s pov. Aren’t you sick and bored of harry after reading him for 7 books? I always found his character to be kinda mean and dramatic and, to be honest, dumb. Im sorry but he just never seemed very intelligent or talented to me, tbh. I love the series as a whole, I mean the Harry Potter series was by childhood, but I just grew tired of the main character. Thats just how I feel. And I know most the of fandom likes to focus on characters like Draco and the marauders or even regulus because they’re more interested in them than harry. So why do you like him so him? I’m just curious because I feel like most people I talk to couldn’t care less about harry, and if they like the main people, they’re usually more interested in ron or hermione or neville. I guess this is also for anyone reading this ask, because everyone here seems to love him. I think it’s funny because I always pictured him skinny and ugly looking, not appealing at all lmao. And everyone here seems to think he’s a super attractive dude? Now yes, I know the books say he’s tall and hint at him having good looks later in the series, but still I never got the distinct impression that he was much of a looker. Everyone here also seems to find him adorable, which confuses me because I always thought he was just dumb and grumpy lmao. And same with his magic. I always thought he was a lot less powerful than everyone expected him to be and just got lucky because Hermione and Dumbledore did everything for him, but you think he’s super powerful? Now this is no hate to your series. I think it’s extremely well written and you are very talented and I plan to keep reading. I just want to know what you actually like about Harry’s character that makes you want to write a series from his POV. Same with hinny, we barely see them in the books. Their relationship seemed short lived in my mind and I was surprised to see them actually get married in the epilogue. I’m very interested in your take on them and I like how you write them, I just want to know why, if that makes any sense at all.
First off, I want to say I am so happy that you’re here for the elaborate and complex plots. I spend a lot of time thinking of unique plots. Anyway… onto your actual ask. Although, I’m not sure how well I will be able to convey my love for Harry or for Hinny because I’ve never had to justify my love for them before! 
Gosh, this is a loaded question because I simply love Harry and Hinny is my all-time favorite ship in the entire series. It just saddens me when I read about how people hate Harry or Hinny, because I think they’re just the best thing in the entire book series. (With Sirius and Ron being very close seconds.)
Harry is very flawed, and I relate to him on a lot of different levels. I love that he’s so sassy, so moody, so anti-social. I mean, the kid is so fucking awkward that I love it. He’s just so wholesome! I mean, the person he will miss most in life is his best friend?!?! How fucking adorable? He doesn’t take shit from people. He was shit on his entire childhood by his abusive family and he is just quick to the draw with his sassy ass comments. And I always wanted more about him as an adult. Who did he become? Did he continue on with his anti-social, moody, and awkward personality? Did he get reprimanded at work for his sass? Did he reel in that sass and learn how to actual function in society a bit better? The epilogue wasn’t enough for me and CC can just be burned.
So I write the series a lot from Harry’s POV because I just loved his awkward little cabbage self in the books and I love shaping him into a big little cabbage as an adult. I write him as an extremely flawed man who is learning to live with all of his baggage. Who doesn’t love a hot mess with a lot of emotional baggage attached to them? It makes for a very interesting main character where you love him but you also want to shake him and scream at him at the same time. You also want to root for him to overcome everything he’s been through. I think there was a big jump in his emotional intelligence from Brontide to Legerdemain. So, I love showing his growth as well. 
Hinny? FUCK! She’s like the first person he sees on the platform in PS. He saves her life in CS. They have a kinship to each other knowing just how wicked and twisted Voldemort actually is from their shared trauma. They’ve both had Voldemort rattling around in their heads and manipulating them and using them. They are the only two who can understand each other. Ginny isn’t afraid to knock Harry down a peg in OOTP. She likes him so much but accepts that he doesn’t see her as anything but his best mate’s little sister and she moves on like a mature little tomato. She’s just his friend because she knows how much he needs friends and how socially inept he is to find friends besides Ron and Hermione. She doesn’t fight him when he breaks up with her for her safety, doesn’t cry or lash out. She knows what he has to do and knows he loves her. They just understand each other so perfectly, they have the same sense of humor, and they have some of the same fucking baggage. 
I just like Harry and I like Ginny and I love Hinny. That’s why I write them. Draco isn’t interesting to me. I don’t share a lot of the Marauder fandom headcanons so everyone would probably hate me over there. Regulus is of no interest to me. Neville is boring as all fuck. Hermione is the worst character in the entire series. Ron… now, Ron I love. Ron I could write a series on but Romoine would have to fuck off. STILL… even in a Ron series, you’d have the Harry and Ron bromance as a central feature. I love the Weasley sibling dynamic so you’d get a lot of Ginny. 
So, I don’t know if that answers your question or not, but I love Harry and his cabbageness. I love Ginny and her fierceness. I love Hinny and their perfectness together. They are the chef’s kiss to me. I hope you enjoyed my rambling rant!
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idinink · 5 years ago
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HI THIS POST WILL CONTAIN TALK ABOUT FOOD AND FOOD PLANNING, specifically my experience with the keto thing (i deliberately don’t call it a “diet” because that word is soooo loaded) so scroll on if you don’t wanna read, i will tag it as “keto” if you wanna blacklist. THERE WILL BE NO TALK OF WEIGHT LOSS, THIS BLOG IS ANTI-DIET CULTURE, ANTI FATPHOBIA, ANTI WEIGHT-LOSS-AS-GOAL.
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So it’s been just over 6 months, and I wanted to make a list for A) personal record-keeping reasons, B) a huge “thank you” to @swolerbear as he is the main reason I tried it, and C) in case anyone else is interested.
Disclaimer: I have not been even CLOSE to staying 100% low-carb. I’ve had carby periods, sometimes lasting up to 3 days, at least once a month. I knew when I started that I wouldn’t be strict with myself and I have no regrets and will likely continue being not-very-strict at all. However, I’ve stayed about 99% off desserts, which has been surprisingly easy as I’ve always had a major sweet tooth? I dunno why it’s been so easy and I’m not questioning it for now.
The expected/hoped-for good:
Migraines reduced from 1-3 per week to 1-3 per month
Noticeably stabilized mood 
Increased energy*
The random/unexpected good:
Incredible improvement in singing voice. The past few years I truly thought I was losing my voice, but it’s totally back and I cannot express my joy and relief. Music and singing is a HUGE part of my identity and self-worth. I assume it has something to do with decreased mucus and inflammation.
Vastly improved body temperature regulation. I’ve always been cursed with hyperhydrosis (excessive sweating) and horribly icy cold hands and feet. Often at the same time. Yes, my feet would be simultaneously painfully cold and dripping sweat. Absolutely horrible and has ruined many a night’s sleep. What a relief! To sleep with warm dry bare feet under the skimming weight of a soft, clean pair of sheets -- such bliss! 
Decreased tooth sensitivity. I have the good luck of very strong and healthy teeth, but the past couple years I’ve felt twinges when drinking/eating very cold foods, which was a totally new and demoralizing experience. Now am almost back to previous levels of imperviousness! Though the memory lingers so I’ll probably never crunch away obliviously at ice cubes again...
Regular periods? What? I have never ever EVER in my LIFE had regular periods. Anything from 30 to 90 freaking days was fair game. Now I’m every 33 days, Boom. Again I say, WHAT. They are also shorter: 1 day of bad cramping then 5 days of bleeding with slowly tapering cramping (as opposed to 3-4 days cramping then 7-8 days bleeding pre-keto). I put this in the “good” because surely it must be healthier to have regular cycles, right? It will also appear in the “bad” tho, ha.
The expected bad:
keto flu at first, tho it was very mild. A tiny bit of weakness the first week,  then about 3 days of low level gut-ache. Increasing fat and electrolytes cleared it up. Zero issues since.
Increased sensitivity to carbs. They now will usually make my palms itch and I can expect some sort of mood meltdown, specifically a sudden attack of helpless despair and feelings of worthlessness. (This is going in the “bad” because it’s annoying, but obviously I was feeling these bad things before, they were just my “normal” so less noticeable.)
EXPENSIVE! Ugh. And frequently inconvenient.
Sometimes guilt-inducing. Especially bacon. I initially said “no pork” as pigs are dog-like and it’s much harder to find affordable humanely raised pork than beef/lamb/poultry/eggs/dairy. But....it’s such a valuable fat source that I’ve given in. For now. I love animals and have no “meat-drive” but all the research I did convinced me that current science A) unequivocally indicates humans are animals evolved to eat meat, and B) the agricultural complex is destroying the environment (and of course necessitates killing masses of wild animals). The evil and torturous factory farming of livestock must end. We must bring back the grasslands, populated by all its attendant wildlife PLUS herds of (humanely treated) grazing ruminants, to restore soil and ecosystem. I’m truly sorry, animals. And I thank you sincerely. But I am one of you and I deserve to eat.
The random bad:
Crazy back acne???? Idek if it’s even related but honestly it’s been CRAZY. it’s not like I’ve been working out and getting sweaty. I honestly have no fucking clue what that’s about. No uptick in facial acne...a downturn, if anything. ??????
....Regular periods. I now have periods more frequently (every 33 days as opposed to roughly every 45). The cramping doesn’t last as long, but is more intense. I did some cursory research into that, and several sources say saturated fats can increase menstrual pain, BUT it was usually attributed to inflammation from the fats, when I know I have far less inflammation in general than before. So idk.
That’s it, really? honestly feel like my body took to it like a duck to water.
**For me, “increased energy” means the ability to keep my home reasonably clean, grocery shop regularly, cook regularly, perform basic adult tasks with less dread, and not be quite as exhausted by work. I still struggle immensely with fatigue and am coming to accept that perhaps I always will. I had high hopes of socializing and exercising more (i.e. a non-zero amount) but so far that hasn’t happened. I have been able to write and paint a tiny bit more.
FINALLY, respectful questions are welcome, BUT:
im not interested in debating human carnivory or the environmental impact of livestock vs agriculture. 
weight change was not my goal but I MAY consider PRIVATELY discussing that aspect on an individual basis, if anyone is curious.
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sharnirosebeauty · 7 years ago
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SKINCARE ROUTINE
Hey Guys! Eeeeek! My First Blog post.. All About My Skin Care Routine!
Not that my skin is ‘Amazing’ or that im a fully qualified dermatologist BUT i did learn Alot about how to look after our skin and keep it healthy, clean and how to avoid wrinkles!  A-little bit of my Skin History I have had OILY/COMBINATION skin my whole life up until around a year or so ago where i noticed my skin had become alot more dry and dehydrated! I started drinking heaps of water and i saw results and improvement within 2 days! Honestly it sounds like such a small step but water is a HUGE contribution to your skin health! I now continue to drink a ton of water but my skin is still a little dry in certain areas and i would say its morning NORMAL/COMBINATION skin now! Although my skin does still get oily in my t-zone i flood my face with rich moisturisers to keep my skin feeling incredibly soft and also to look dewy/ to get that ‘heathy glow’ I’m Exactly like most 16-25 year olds who get regular breakouts/blackheads - This has so much to do with our Hormones! I’ve been on the pill since the age of 14-15 (A Long Time!!) so this could effect my skin without me even knowing!!  I always get Period Pimples! always the week before or just a couple of days before im due i will get ATLEAST 1-2 Pimples (That drive me bonkers!!!) This is Totally Normal!! they’re something you cannot fight or stop, You're best of to leave them alone and they will be gone in only a few days! There are pimple creams/gels you can buy (Mario Badescu drying lotion - Mario Badescu anti-acne serum etc..) That can take away the redness & decrease the pimple size within a few days - BUT leaving them alone is the best way (as hard as it is sometimes) I used to so obsessive over my pimples and would hate them because they were gross or ugly but trust me when i say NO ONE CARES about some little dots on your face! its normal & its natural!?
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My GO-TO Skin Care products and How/Why i use them!
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Mario Badescu - ANCE FACIAL CLEANSER Lush Cosmetics - ANGELS ON BARE SKIN FRESH FACIAL CLEANSER T.N. Dickinsons - WITCH HAZEL CLEANS & TONES Nivea - REFRESHINGLY SOFT MOISTURISING CREAM Bobbi Brown - VITAMIN ENRICHED FACE BASE Glam Glow - GLOW STARTER MEGA ILLUMINATING MOISTURISER (NUDE)
FIRSTLY, MAKEUP REMOVAL 
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This is a huge, huge, huge part of how well your skin will look & feel! Makeup Wipes = BAD! not only for your skin but also for the environment! I’ve Just recently started using BISOUS Cloths, They're Incredible! My skin has never been bad or horrible but i do get regular break oust & common black heads - I would say these cloths have reduced both breakouts and blackheads significantly! Genuinely every-time i clean my face with these i am blown away that how quick and effortlessly it removes the most natural makeup or the most darkest black smokey eye (EVEN waterproof mascara! gone?!) They’re super dooper soft! Easy to use - JUST add water and your ready to go?? Then you just throw them into the provided wash bag (or any lingerie bag) & throw them in the washing machine! So Easy & Super Affordable at only $29.95 for 3! (Afterpay also Accepted!) “Skin issues will affect everyone at some point of their life. The theory goes that the cleansing process promotes healthy skin but some of us react to the active ingredient in most cleansers and makeup removers. In order to strip the skin of makeup and grime most cleansers and disposable makeup wipes’ active ingredients include solubilizes, emulsifiers, alcohol and even preservatives like methylisothiazolinone. For those with sensitive skin or skin conditions these chemicals can affect the skin’s natural acid mantle and cause irritation, dryness and further exacerbate skin conditions. Our product is made from a specially knitted nanofiber which, when wet,creates a hydro-mechanical process that breaks the surface tension of the oils that bond makeup and dirt to the skin.” - Bisous ( https://bisous.store/ )
NEXT STEP - CLEANSERS! 
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My 2 Must-Have Cleansers are the Mario Badescu Acne Facial Cleanser & The Lush Cosmetics Angels on Bareskin.. MARIO BADESCU ACNE FACIAL CLEANSER  Not by any means do i have ACNE or anything remotely close BUT This product is a dream come true, as it is made for OILY/COMBINATION skin it removes all access dirt and oil from my t-zone without drying my skin out to a oblivion!  I use this Twice a day! In the morning to prep my skin for the day and to remove all the yuck from sleeping sweat/oil (summer is hot here in Australia!!!) then at night to remove any residue of stubborn Makeup/Oil from my pores!  This product is designed to PREVENT & FIGHT off ACNE also to SOOTHE & CALM inflamed skin “Prevent and heal existing acne with Mario Badescu's exfoliating and deep cleansing wash formulated with acne-fighting salicylic acid. Contains aloe vera and chamomile, two natural ingredients that calm and soothe acne inflamed skin.“ - Mecca Cosmetica  This Product is super cheap at only $22 at your local Mecca! https://www.mecca.com.au/mario-badescu/acne-facial-cleanser/I-005006.html LUSH COSMETICS ANGELS ON BARE SKIN Although i am not at all a fan of the way you need to use this product (”mix your solid cleanser with water to form a paste”) I am a MASSIVE fan of this product, not only does it smell amazing it will clear up your skin in just a few days!  I mostly only use this product at night because its quite soothing & restorative. Looking at the ingredients everything is Natural & Healthy for your skin (NO SYNTHETICS!) “Inspired by a mediaeval recipe and topped off with lavender flowers, this contains kaolin to absorb grease and dirt, leaving skin clean and nourished. Lavender oil and rose absolute calm the skin. As you mix your solid cleanser with water to form a paste, the ground almonds create almond milk which helps to tone and brighten the skin. This can be used all over your body as well as your face. “ - LUSH COSMETICS https://au.lush.com/products/cleansers/angels-bare-skin At $17.50 This product is not cheap (it also only lasts 2 months!!!) but it is definitely worth the investment as it will clear & sooth your skin in only a matter of days!  WE CANNOT FORGET TO CLEAN & TONE
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Toning is a vital part of the cleansing process! Using an astringent just like Witch Hazel will help tighten the skin, even your PH levels (Not if high volume of alcohol is present), will remove grime & access oil/residue, it will shrink the appearance of poors & as the name suggests it evens out your skin TONE! BUT Toning/using ASTRINGENT on your skin to often is very bad for your skin - especially because some skin types (DRY) DO NOT need to tone as Astringent strips your skin of its natural oils!  i personally tone my skin maybe 1-2 times a week if that! i use it a lot more when i have breakouts as it removes any bacteria and oil from those areas!  i found this little guide of what WITCH HAZEL does for all skin types on their website! http://www.dickinsonsusa.com/witch-hazel-uses/ Normal Skin Removes everyday dirt, oil and impurities Oily Skin Controls oil, eliminates shine and balances skin Dry Skin Nourishes flaky & dull skin without removing essential moisture Enlarged Pores Unclogs, refines and tightens pores Sensitive Skin Cleans, calms & conditions without overdrying Combination Skin Even out the areas that are oily here, or dry there WITCH HAZEL is SUPER CHEAP at only $5-$7 at any Supermarket or Pharmacy! LAST BUT CERTAINLY NOT LEAST MOISTURISING/ EYE CREAM!
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THE MOST IMPORTANT PART OF YOUR SKIN CARE ROUTINE MOISTURISING! this step is absolutely critical to your skin being the best it possibly can be!  BOBBI BROWN VITAMIN ENRICHED FACE BASE Now im sure you would have seen this product as it is ALL over social media - this was actually the number 1 reason i did NOT want to buy it, i had heard so much good about it and NO BAD at all besides the price - so i did some digging, read blogs & watched videos about this product and you bet! i found no negatives besides that it is not great for dry skin (having normal/combo i was happy to try it)! This product is actually a primer! but i use it as both!  I went into my Local Mecca Maxima and got a sample of this and of the GLAM GLOW glow starter (will chat about that next) i instantly fell inlove with this product, my skin has NEVER felt so smooth and hydrated EVER!  Although it is not cheap at $85 it IS INCREDIBLE  “This oil-free, face formula, enriched with Shea Butter, instantly hydrates, softens, and cushions skin. Carrot Extract and Vitamin A Complex help reduce the look of fine lines and wrinkles. Vitamins C and E help protect against environmental damage. Grapefruit and Geranium fragrances leave a light, uplifting scent on skin. “ - MECCA COSMETICA https://www.mecca.com.au/bobbi-brown/vitamin-enriched-face-base/I-012557.html i use this product at-least twice a day! (sometimes up to 5 times a day! i cannot get enough of it! its just amazing! 
GLAMGLOW GLOW STARTER (NUDE GLOW) I don’t even know where to begin with this product it is just the whole package, Its glowy, it provides hydration, it blurs your skin (yep!!) & it smells incredible! AGAIN this isnt a cheap product and i HAD to sample this before investing the $$ but there is NOTHING like this product on the market. Available in 3 shades (Pearl, Nude & Sun) it provides the slightest amount of color to the skin but not as a tint, more as a light reflectant!  i use this product either mixed with the BOBBI BROWN product or simply straight after, at-least twice a day!! It is perfect for the no makeup days as it has the magic of a foundations glow & the luminosity of a blinding highlight!  This product is also PERFECT for a PRIMER or mixed with a foundation for Natural coverage to your skin!  “For a next-level glow that's out of this world, it's all in the skin prep. Harness your full luminosity potential with this nutrient-loaded, light-reflective moisturising cream that replenishes moisture, blurs imperfections and imparts a beautiful glow with a hint of tint.“ - MECCA https://www.mecca.com.au/glamglow/glowstarter-mega-illuminating-moisturizer/V-027181.html#q=nude%2Bglow&start=1 This product is $75 From your local Mecca store! 
For XMAS they have a deal of 3 Minis (every shade) for only $36 perfect stocking stuffer or even just a gift from you - to you! https://www.mecca.com.au/glamglow/let-it-glow-glowstarter-mini-set/I-029208.html#q=nude%2Bglow&start=1 NIVEA REFRESHING SOFT MOISTURISER  i use this product as an eye cream! as its so rich its perfect for smothing the undereyes & filling in any fine lines before a makeup application! this is the number 1 product i use on ALL clients whether they have dry or oily skin!  Such an AFFORDABLE product at $5-$7!!  Thanks For Reading Guys! Please let me know if you liked this post and if there is anything in particular you want to see more of!  - Sharni xx
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celestialallstars · 5 years ago
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Episode #9: “Beggars can't be choosers and I'm already on my knees” - Jack
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Ok well never mind Drew just got booted which NOBODY TOLD ME ABOUT??? Like if Matt had gone it'd have been one thing because I would've heard at least the name of the person who actually went, people might've been honest for once. But noooooooo let's create this Drew concoction and once again leave Jack out of a vote! I mean, would I have voted Drew out? I don't know, probably not. But still it's the principle. Was I kept safe? Yes, but another ally and former Cyrena left. My numbers keep dwindling and I am scraping the bottom of the barrel here.
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So this round I want Mitch gone. I don't trust him too much, as I know he isn't as close to Bryce as I am. Which scares me cause Bryce is my ally right now. I know me and Mitch are in this 8 person alliance, but that shit means NOTHING to me. As I never said i wanted to be in it. So Ya FUCK THAT. Time for me to push mitch this round.
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Drew is out but I decided to be honest about it with Michael. Ill talk with Chloe today and try and do some chatting with Jack too but beside that I usve hope for a few tribals wooo! Or maybe its time to die, we'll see ha
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I’m already over this game and it’s final fucking 12. I shouldn’t have played I should’ve just hosted this is all my worst orgs on fucking steroids because everyone’s too busy fetishizing this anti-Cyrena agenda. I don’t care if it’s not a thing, there’s no reason to target Matt and I and leave us out of votes when we have 0 agency and are literally 2 votes up for grabs. But nobody gives a flying fuck about logical gameplay and like fine, be a moron, and have fun getting blindsided at 9th when all the easy votes are gone and you were too busy standing around with your dick in your hand to put yourself in a better position. Fuck this season and fuck this cast
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Today's to do list:
Call Jared Yell at Jared Tell Jared he's not beating his Wakea placement Hang up Win immunity Cry myself to sleep
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"yikes, you’ve been shot!" is a common theme for me this season
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Watching the immunity was pretty telling I'd say, as random as it was. Having it said, it's been down to Loris, Zach, and Bryce for hours now. THE smart thing is to give Bryce immunity and up his threat level, but alas we gotta get a  show out of it lol.
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So uh.... forget everything I said about Jared I guess because he wants to work with me? Lmao. Idk man like, can I really trust anyone besides Michael and Matt at this point? Not really, but Jared is the ONLY other person to legitimately give me a lifeline here (I don't count Mitch/Chris or any of the BS Zach/Bryce are giving me) so I have to take it, find some footing, figure out if I can actually get through this early merge here. I'm keeping my head down unlike my past games and I'm letting the game come to me. Beggars can't be choosers and I'm already on my knees
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I FOUND AN IDOL!! I cant say I thought this would happen but I am so happy that it did! I just hope I can do right by this immunity idol! I got help out of Stephen so I am just so thankful for that!!
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So I have this feeling things are not going to go the way I wish so. Rhys is gathering troops to get Mitch out and he's already gone to Bryce who told me and Zach, and Jared. How does he have numbers? BECAUSE HE HAS FLIPPED. We might as well should've had Kori in the chats because both have said the same thing as far as contributions go
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Now I am in a pickle, not knowing if Jared/Bryce/Zach all want to flip after they wnet on a call together. Its a little concerning not gonna lie. What makes this worse is that like we are putting ourselves in a position where we HAVE to do play certain way. I dont want to be 6-5 I want to have cushion and Rhys is doing exactly what I figured he would be doing just early. I need to figure out exactly how willing the others are for this before its too late
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So last tribal was a little bit of a rough one and the day after wasn’t too great either I just felt drained the entire day but I didn’t sign up for all stars to lose after being blindsided I came to win and I need to do whatever I can to get that fighting spirit back. I’m not out of this yet and hopefully the relationships I’ve built plus the killshot results mean that we can get a nice little blindside going.
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What’s the German word for when people ask you if you’ve heard anything about the vote knowing full well you haven’t been privy to any information all merge?
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Bryce telling me Mitch’s name??? 8.5 hours before tribal??? You really do love to see it. Michael told me Jared told him Mitch as well, so I’ll probably hear from Jared soon. This is beautiful stuff I could give less of a fuck about Mitch going. Everything’s coming up Millhouse!
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These bitches are conspiring against me.
So, Rhys has been feeling antsy and decided he wants to flip on our 8. Tbh it's probably a smart move for him since he's the least incorporated of the 8 and would likely get 8th if my understanding of the situation is anything to go by. Soooo I can't exactly blame him, but, that's not all.
Bryce is ALSO wanting to flip. It seems so early for a well-connected member of the alliance to want to do something like that, so I imagine it's because he wants to play the middle between this group and the 4 outside of it. Rhys and Bryce may have leaked the alliance already, and, if they did that, then they also probably leaked how everyone was pretending Matt was the target at the last vote.
This group seems to be planning to vote Mitch out tonight, which isssssss bad. Very bad. Especially bad for me since he is one of my closest allies.
Chris found an idol, though, and I'm really hoping we can save it for late-game. There's still a chance this vote can turn around though. That's what I'm hoping for.
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IM BEING DUMB IDK WHAT TO DO UGH I WANT MITCH OUT HTIS ISNT SMART THIS ISNT LIKE ITS NOT I KNOW THAT BUT IM DOING IT ANYWAY THIS IS A MISTAKE I KNOW IT IS JFAKDHK BUT IDK HOW TO PLAY THIS GAME BC I THINK PPL SAY IM A THREAT AND I CAN ONLY PLAY UTR SNAKE NOT THIS WHOLE KUMBAYAH THING PPL GOT GOING ON
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hi. so . after I almost win immunity after it was given to bryce when hes  already won immunity in another social challenge, now bryce  wants to vote mitch because ‘he Doesn’t like him’. I don’t know who the votes going to be and I rlly like Mitch so like I’m gonna pray and try to make sure it’s not him :( Fuck bryce
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Okay... so. This round has been quite a lot, and I am going to try to explain it piece by piece because I have probably played more game in this round than I have the rest of the game combined.
Rhys told me that he wants to flip, and then Bryce told me that Zach also wants to flip (along with himself) against Mitch. I did not want to deal so I went to sleep.
I called Zach the same night and tried to gauge how much trust he has in me by admitting that Rhys wants to flip, and seeing how he would react towards me. He played very coy which is very... Zach.
Bryce told me that he went to Chris about flipping and that Chris shut it down, so I quickly went and leaked to Chris and showed my disinterest in flipping. I made a plan to call Zach and Bryce and try to convince them that this was the wrong move. (Keep in mind this was all the same night, after the immunity results.) I thought I made up some ground and pointed them in the direction of targeting Michael, but I would soon realize that they were just placating me. The call ended with Zach saying that he wanted to get Stephen's thoughts in the morning.
Come the morning, I hatch this crackhead plan to get Mitch the merge idol. According to Stephen from the night before, we were only 11 steps away from the end of the bridge. At 9 AM Bryce quickly searches and says "IT APPEARS WHATEVER WAS ONCE HERE IS GONE AHHH" (I was using my 3 person alliance to get myself or Bryce the idol, not knowing that I would regret doing that.) Being that Bryce said the exact line as if something were missing, I thought there were a couple possible scenarios: 1. He straight up lied. 2. Stephen actually got to the end of the bridge the night before. 3. The night before after everyone had guessed, Bryce took the numbers to a 3rd party (Zach) so they could get the idol.
So that plan was dead. I then considered, "what if I give Mitch my idol?" I quickly realized I would probably regret that in a few rounds.
I spent the rest of today formulating a plan to position myself in everyone's good graces no matter what the outcome of the vote is. I told Rhys I would help him recruit the minority to vote Mitch. I messaged all of them about the vote, and then I came clean with Chloe on call saying that "even though the vote is Mitch, we should be aware that it aligns with Bryce and Zach's agenda and they threw your name." I then communicated to Chris, Loris, and Stephen what Rhys said and my distaste for flipping.
You may wonder where the sudden distrust for Bryce came from. Well, Chris told me that Loris said "Bryce had this planned before immunity (voting for Mitch)." I'm thinking Bryce probably just used me to get to Zach but still wants us to be the F3. My interests don't seem to be aligning with theirs.
With that being said I will likely be voting for Mitch tonight. RIP to the brodie, you deserved better. I will try my best to put off using my challenge advantage and my idol for as long as possible, and I will be trying to play both sides between the Zach/Bryce duo and Chris.
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So I’m finally in danger of going (love that). I’m praying someone doesn’t have an idol because I feel like the rehidden one has been found. It’s between me and matt but if I stay which I think is likely, I have to do a better job communicating. I think that’s what got me in this position in the first place. If this is my last confessional I really hope jared Stephen or Chris wins. They are all playing solid games and I will be cheering them on from the sideline
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jared thinks hes so funny calling zach but not me like. all i demand from allies is complete loyalty and that they talk to no one else. is that asking too much???
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Mitch is voted out 6-5-1. He becomes the 1st member of our jury!
Watch his exit interview below:
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mirandaboyd52-blog · 6 years ago
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Exactly what is actually Healthy And also Sustainable Long.
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journaljockey-blog · 6 years ago
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Anti-Social Media
In the late 1990's I had my first experience with social media via Yahoo! chatrooms. It didn't take long for me to find that particularly boring. My second experience came through Myspace in late 2006. By that point in my life, I had shut myself off from practically everyone I knew in real life. After suffering through the death of someone I was very close to, I had no desire to associate with anyone else. At least not in real life.
Myspace allowed me to meet people without having to really put myself out there. It was a liberating feeling. And I met some good people along the way. I even ended up dating someone on my friends list. By 2009, I had opened myself up more and had even included real life friends on my page. And that's when everyone started making the transition to Facebook. After investigating it for myself, I wasn't impressed at all. It was too uniform for me. Myspace allowed me much more control over my page, what with making my own backgrounds and music players and such. But as technology changes, so do the platforms of social media and by the end of 2009, I had moved to Facebook as well. I didn't really have much choice, as nearly all of my friends had left Myspace. I couldn't see myself as the last standing member.
Over the next few years, I became more comfortable with Facebook and started to use the platform as others did. It was a great way to stay in touch, especially with people that you didn't see very often. It offered a sneak peek into our daily lives and allowed us to share our thoughts and feelings with everyone. Almost like an online journal/scrapbook of sorts. Not that Myspace hadn't offered the very same thing...
These days, Facebook is the largest and most popular social media platform of all. Instagram is the next closest thing and again, is really no different than Facebook. Why do we need multiple apps that all do the same thing? I will never understand that. So Facebook has become the standard. Nearly everyone has a page. Some have more than one. There are Facebook groups, a Facebook marketplace, Facebook Live, and all the top celebrities have their own "official" pages. What's not to love?
Likes and shares have become validation of our importance. How many friends you have on your list says something about who you are. Then you have the trolls and the fake accounts and the endless advertisements and let's not forget algorithms...one minute you're typing "flights from Detroit to London" into Google and the next, Facebook has filled your newsfeed with airline ads. Then you see people airing all of their dirty laundry, fighting through comments on posts, the keyboard warriors and armchair political analysts. Getting friend requests from people who are complete strangers. The occasional hacker who hijacks your page and posts porn for all of your judgemental family and friends to see. And if you happen to be someone who runs a Facebook group, that's a whole other level of insanity to deal with. This is definitely not what I signed up for.
Recently, I deactivated my Facebook account. It's not the first time I've done it, but it is the first time I've done it with conviction. I have generally kept my personal business off of Facebook. There have been some exceptions, but generally, I am a fairly private person. After creating a group that has become fairly popular and then eventually extending that group into a podcast, my life became much more on display than I had ever imagined. Suddenly, I have all these people (some whom I have never met and others whom I haven't seen in over 20 years) dipping into my personal affairs. It's almost as if Facebook has become a tabloid, only now people can interact with the characters in the stories. Suddenly, everyone is an expert on you and your life. I was beginning to understand why some people are so anti-social. Who needs the drama? Not me.
Now, all I have is Tumblr. And maybe no one will ever even see this blog of mine. But Im content with that. I am so burned out on social media. By and large, I am not a big fan of most people. And Facebook has only added to that for me. Taking a step back has shown me that social media, although widely popular and used in most aspects of life for one reason or another, is actually not all that important. As a society, we have become slaves to our devices. It's an escape from our tormented daily lives. But when the escape becomes the torment, it's time to hit the pause button. Maybe at some point I will decide to give it all another try. For now though, it's time to log out.
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greyred · 8 years ago
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Heartbroken, Hospitalized, Homeless
There have been too much of stuff going on with my life in past months that I seriously have lacked the energy to write about. One is sure - It keeps me troubling of not writing. Because mainly... well, have been overthinking of HOW I should write, but as Jesus said - “Done is better than perfect”. Then now we ride - I just came back from..ehh.. a ride of a busy busy day as i’ve ridden past months, also i have awful Insomnia which have killing my head past 20+ days. Not cool, not cool man! I LITERALLY can’t sleep! Yet doing all, and ALL my appointments that I have. Being a hussle-hussle A-student on the game and then crying in my pillow when noone sees it in the end of the day. 
I feel like I have no ONE to talk with, No one on earth! So I come here... here to my small tiny blog to just talk. Just talk about the matters that I can’t say out loud to no one. Wasn’t it the purpose of this in the first anyway ?
It all started when I lost my sweet apartment where I was living with Jesus. when we divorced, I stayed there for few years but that shiet got too expensive and i had to move, so I moved to my brother’s place. Was for a month estimated but lingered as my real estate company fcuked promises up. Then my parents moved back and the great PTSD came back again...
Now I have the skeddale back a bit because of the story of heartbroken...
Fell In love with my old mate whom i know for at least 10+ years.. He is livinng in my Homeland, we talked every fucking day for a long time and fell in love, he visited me here, i visited him. He knew ALL my mental challenges and  so forth, yet he made me feel it was okay, that He truly loved me, he wants to be with me, live with me, heck.. even have a kid with me. And I was naive...
Last time I went to Homeland to his place he treated me a bit differently.. and I broke, ended up in hospital and after that he tells me - I don’t walk to talk with you until no certain time, also can’t handle it. I mean... what the hell, I was fucking hospitalized, I was in a really bad situation. If ANYONE could have understood it, it would have been a person who have known me for so long time, with such an information that I gave. (Sometimes i doubt people who tells me, i know how to deal with You). Either way I truly hate that after all of this I lost one of my best friends. But I  never go back. i have this personality. Don’t mess with my delicate head! Once I’m done - I’m done.
The hospital itself was great experience though. Spent a week in there, got to know many interesting people. It’s nothing like people think - Oh my gosh - crazy house! NO! there are people from every field of life, doctors, lawyers, artists, health-takers, engineers, teachers, architects, art-students. Anybody needs to take a time off. And the atmosphere is pleasing, we ALL get the same thing - the mutual respect to each other, we all lack of understanding, closeness, treatment, what not. We were like a family in there. Best family I ever had ! 
After that beautiful experience I had to go back to home. Still heartbroken and my periods late for 2 weeks which made me feel like that is going to be worst. But little that I know - it was just the first signs of the MAIN stress which have lead me to this point...
I lived few months with my parents while thinking everything is alright, yet it wasn’t, things was evolving.. getting worse, i didn’t even notice it. I was still looking for apartment and for a proper doctor. Failed in this game so awfully. Until I found an amazing counselor who taught me that my most weakness is to be selfless and I HAVE to learn how to be more selfish. For me this is the hardest, because I blame myself for everything. He had experience with soldiers who had PTSD and could teach me ways to handle my PTSD mind the best that i’ve heard. But I lost him as my counselor because it was only a temporary acute thing. (Even though I STILL don’t have a proper doctor!)
Anyway... I pulled myself together and found new workers for me. Social workers whom (thanks to my counselor) I actually have a RIGHT to have. And they have been wonderful. They have showed me opportunities that I never knew. I appreciate them highly! Thanks to them I am writing here words and not in the hell-hole where i had to re-live my PTSD once again but in a small dorm-room (ahh.. now the homeless talk) where I at least - I can be in my beloved anti-social mode where im my most efficient and can just hide away from the cruel world (family most heh) and concentrate on what is most important. My health.
My health.. That is the crucial thing right now. How to start. Well I have never had the most horrid insomnia in my life as I have right now. 20+ days without REM-sleep (best was 30min to 4hours somewhere in between), it is eating me inside, killing me in every way possible and giving me physical diseases where i feel truly like I WILL die soon. (I suppose that is the reason that after months i feel i have to get these sentences done before i might actually die). The lack of sleep is the most awful, I cant sleep, i cant eat, my body is letting me down, the depression is taking its new levels like never before, yet i keep on hussling and putting my pokerface on. so at least, So at least - i would have some outfit to go out and have company for food. Yes - This is how poor rat I am, a miserable poor rat! I give my company for food and fun! During the mornings and days I do ALL the appointments and responsibilities, paperwork (which i’ve grown to be really good at!), and when the night comes, i need to load that affection down with finidng opportunities to fuel myself up in other ways. Hate me! Please hate me for that! I would be so much more happier, would give me more fuel to finally KILL myself!. That is all i need. To just SLEEP!
But I’m like weeds, that doesn’t die.
What ever I do, I just can’t die.
I hate it.
I wonder, perhaps... perhaps, this never ending insomnia will kill me perhaps in the end, wouldn’t it be lovely! 
There was a day, just after i had hussled for 2 weeks straight really intensely to improve my life (what for? i dunno, just for my wonderful workers that i do not want to disappoint). And last week was even more harsher, until the most hardest day where i was running on energy levels i don’t know or seen before. I had few drinks, went to dancing, needed to load off, actually was just around the corner, but i hadn’t slept for few days straight whatsoever (i mean 0-sleep) and when i was just walking to home (temporary home) my brains suddenly blacked out in the street. I don’t remeber anything afterwards, but i was told i was on the street sleeping. Firstly i thought - sleeepig, So Nice, next thought , on the street? not nice..? After that i’ve been super afraid to go outside because my brain does NOT work properly at all. it can shut down any time, any where. one side of me is happy (maybe i will finally die) , other side of me is bit sad (ugh.. don’t want to cause any trouble to other people in case i survive). What a stupid stupid teenage life, isn’t it!
Yet don’t wonder. all i have, all i live in, is the worst case of PTSD that my parents have raised me into. and don’t get me wrong, i ain’t blaming anyone. its just my life.
Today i went to pharmacy and finally got my medicines (been waiting for them cos been too poor to buy the elementary, and by that i literally mean the most necessary and food even, but fuck it. i managed, i always manage. Anygay.. got my medicines which was packed literally in a BIG bag, like a usual bag you get from groceries. I was like.. wtf.. i really need all that shiet?!?? Oh well.) Been in doctors and given half of my blood and all the tests that one can possibly do. Now waiting in few days for my results. Going to be interesting because literally everything hurt! Also im so sick of my whining. That’s why im writing in here with vacant language right now. Just needed to get it all out. honestly as it is. Leaving fake mask. Sincerely, without 9 kilos of makeup & hairspray.
And then there is one thing that still keeps me going...
His blue eyes, his blue eyes give me the most motivation. I can’t disappoint him! I just can’t! He is the most most precious thing in my life. even though I don’t even have him anymore or ever will. He is more than Love, Family or Soulmate, he is THE. The matter or universe.
I also have a new friend who have grown to be very close to me which I appreciate highly, but my awful fear of anyone is making me suspicious of anyone in my life. I truly don’t trust no one anymore. How could i? Everyone just keeps on playing with me and hurting me. If a friend who was 10+ years in my life, then more.., could not handle me, then, who could ever ? And why even? What’s the point? I think people should get far away of me as possible! So I could die in peace. Alone, as i wish. I will never be bored. There will always be humans to excite, hurt and  disappoint me. :)
And I shall just march on, and on and on...
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