#and a personal reponse

[thebibliosphere]

I've talked about this before, but emotional dysregulation is such a mother fucker aspect of ADHD.

Like, sure, not being able to regulate my attention sucks, but it's genuinely fucking nothing compared to the absolute rollercoaster of emotions I just went on because someone said something in a shitty tone, and now I'm having to actively walk myself through DBT methods lest my idiot shit for brains 'shiny-can't-sit-still-disorder' drop the match on that particular bridge because the rejection sensitive dysphoria feels like my chest is burning and not being able to act on the hurt feels like I'm suffocating under the weight of emotions pushing down on me and lashing out in anger is quicker than taking the time to self soothe.

And the annoying fucking thing is I know it's me.

I've done enough therapy to know my emotional response to their shittiness is overblown and dysregulated. I know I'm taking it to heart more than they could ever imagine.

And I've got to fucking sit with that and process it because if I don't, I'll be the inconsiderate cunt in this interaction and hhnnggg--wailing, gnashing, biting my thumb at you in the marketplace, etc, etc.

[mallowstep]

y'know normally in a personal situation like the one i'm in i'd update icyhwm but that's not gonna work here huh

[pauls1967moustache]

I want to know your top 5 Paul looks and why 🧐

i feel like all of my answers are pretty obvious for anyone who's followed me for long enough, but here you go:

5. mad day out pink suit

why? a) i want to fuck him. b) he looks good in pink, and i like the gold waiscoat underneath.

4. her, always

why? well, you see, i want to fuck him. the contrast of the fluffy fur and his skinny little legs just does something to my brain chemistry. ridiculously babygirl. atrociously babygirl. people should've been calling him more slurs.

3. milf glasses

why? i need to fuck him. i dunno what it is about these glasses man, but i need his dick in my mouth soooooooooo badly.

2. florida twink, duh

why? he's begging to be fucked (why are those bottom buttons never done up???). and i? want to fuck him, also.

1. our world outfit(s) and all components thereof

why? this is the best he's ever looked in his life. TO ME. both outfits he wore for this event are 😚👌. and every time he wore any part of this since is also 😚👌. like. the slimfit snatched waist bend me over omega style blazer:

his cocaine mania middle of the night doodled shirt, so beautiful it drove john to madness in india, or something:

i gotta fuck him!!!!!!!!!

[coldasyou]

it's been like a year since the tour started, siri how do I get over fear of missing out on the eras tour despite that fact that I literally went to a show 😭

[sheila--e]

treating a woman who's both clearly mentally unwell and whose behavior has undoubtedly worsened DUE to the internet cataloguing quite literally EVERYTHING she does as a show, and reacting to her fucking ARREST on your stupid youtube channel with your shitty rantsona making a ridiculous youtuber reaction face in the thumbnail has got to send you somewhere to hell. Go put a bullet between your eyes.

[mehoymalloy]

You might not be well known, but I have read your fics multiple times and know them like the back of my hand. An inch wide, a mile deep!

Thank you, I genuinely appreciate that so much! I'm so lucky to have a little community of otohan enjoyers in particular~

[riddlerosehearts]

i actually love roleplaying as a bard who lacks confidence in baldur's gate 3 because you have to come up with an explanation for why they're a dialogue god with a busted charisma stat who gets class-specific options like this:

and part of my explanation is that my tav is normally so earnest and genuinely caring that it makes people like him and trust what he says. the other part of it is that he's really good at faking confidence and when he said this he was internally going "oh my god what am i even doing. nobody would be stupid enough to fall for such an absurd act. what if i get lae'zel killed--oh. wait. they did believe me! nice!"

[rorsry]

so scared of prsk ranked matches entering a competitive scene

[havocmadden]

really rude of disney to drop their limited edition sally slater doll a week before i get paid. what if i wanted my limited edition constance to have a friend, huh???? what if i didn't want her to be on that shelf by herself, hmmm?????

[troubleangel1994]

me after i tell my boss that i'm planning to take 2 weeks vacations on christmas and he goes on to tell me that it's fine but i need to make sure that all work is done:

[azmenka]

@greyjoytm says ❝ i imagine that no matter what you tell me or tell yourself, you’ll ultimately die fighting these bastards. ❞ ( x )

" YOU IMAGINE MY DEATH ? YOU ? MY OWN SWEET SISTER ? " oh - the drama of it all . entirely exaggerated and not to be taken serious in the slightest , yet the spontaneous clutch of his chest , right above the allegedly broken heart , has a touch of comedy to it . habit carried over from the days of their childhood , when an ever protective brother shielded the little ones from life's harsh truths by coating it in light - hearted lies and fun . these days , with adulthood holding them both tight in a cruel grasp , Maron is no longer sure whether the charade is for Asha's sake still , or merely serves his own refusal to look at reality . he can afford it now . here . when it's just the two of them with no other eyes or ears around ; solitude that allows him to discard the perfectly crafted facade of the prince that knows everything . that is capable of everything . that allows him to merely be an older brother . and to ignore the very real concern etched into his sister's remark .

" plunge the knife into my heart yourself , why don't you ? " benign challenge in his eyes , while a cocky smile pulls at his lips .

he stops before her on his way to the nearest decanter , and idly taps the tip of her nose with the hilt of a dagger produced from his belt . Maron has no doubt she wouldn't let him hear the end of it ; dragging the concern back to the surface with a relentlessness she could have only inherited from their father , and mentally steadies himself against the anticipated onslaught of doubts and fears . when had Asha grown up from the gullible little girl into his biggest critic ? loving and supportive , yes , but by god : exhausting . sometime in the past ten years you've missed , whispers a cruel little voice in the back of his head , and Maron is quick to shush it .

" they're crannogmen . " funny , how much dismissal can carry in a voice . he might as well have said the word fairy and wouldn't have sounded any different . " do you know why they use poisoned arrows in battle ? " he waits a moment , brows arched , bravely withstanding the glare Asha offers him from eyes just as bright blue as his own. " so nobody notices they're stuck to their knees in mud . " and Maron pushes past her with a light cackle on his lips and every good intention to suppress the gooseflesh caused by the mere thought of Moat Cailin slowly drowning in the foggy waters of the marshes up North , ready to swallow him and his men in an everlasting , bleak darkness . . . what a lovely future his father has laid out for him.

[scudevils]

besties…how do i take this???

[aroyalpaininthecass]

Damn. Looking back, it took 10 whole days for that bodyguard to hone in on me.

I find a FB memories post about how I made an ass of myself trying to drink my Chinese colleagues under the table, and lost. I thought it might impress them if I could, or something. My tolerance was way higher than it is now.

I remembered, though, that the bodyguard carried my stuff and walked me back. Is that when it started?

[varezhka]

miss qt cinderella needs thicker skin unfort we were not born in the post feminism times so letting shit like fake porn get to you is just kinda stupid also i just dislike people who let their therapists make them believe that vulnerability in front of masses is ok nowadays its not sowwy

[thatone-highlighter]

One of my new favourite activities is making my communication as effective as possible

[lustylita]

"Got a secret-"

Alalstor: "You intrigue me, little doe."

Y/n: visibly tensing up with a mix of surprise and fear, "What is there to be intrigued about? I'm really not that interesting, Al..."

Alastor: "Oh?" His smile widens, like he anticiped this response from them. "Uninteresting demons don't have to say that dear~"

Y/n: Quickly bristles at Alastors reponse. 'Shit, does he know??' frantically looking for an out they failed to realise that Alastor had advanced towards them. bending at his waist, Alastor invaded their personal space.

Alastor: "What are you trying so hard to hide?" His grin now reaching his ears, Alastor takes great delight in seeing the pure pannic on Y/n's face. "You do know I will find out either way, so why don't you be a good deer and enlighten me."