#and also i think i’m not as motivated to write bc i haven’t rlly had requests

[asexualzoro]

it's december 9th, meaning today is my 23rd birthday (which is my favorite number!), which means it's time for...

Lew Writes Wrapped 2023!!!

im including anything that happened after my last bday, so we have some works from december as well. this one's a bit of a weird one for the total word count, you'll see why

it's all treebark from my sideblog / alt ao3. i cannot change. i will not change. for these im just gonna specify the relationship that's the main focus bc thats easier than fandom bc all but like one are third life

dandelion wishing

(Dec, 2.4k, treebark, oneshot) (link)

op movie 6 au for dogwarts in which Martyn is the baron and Ren doesn't know he's dead

id actually plotted out a whole third life au for this movie like months prior and really wanted to write it, so i took it for treebark week and focused it just on these two. it's my fave movie of all time and i obvs had to give it to my fave completely dead team <3

i will admit tho. it did make me back search martyns twitter to see if hes ever posted abt watching this movie. bc i know he likes One Piece and i realized this would bring me into the danger zone (he hasnt ever posted abt it if hes seen it)

A Romance Route for the Doomed Villain?!?

(Dec, 5k, treebark, oneshot) (link)

treebark dating sim isekai parody that spiraled out of my control made in a day-long possession

im still baffled by this one. why was the response to this one so insane?? there was smth in the water the day i posted this bro. a 1:2 kudos to hits ratio for the entire first day is literally fucking unbelievable. 70 comments?? what hold did this fic have on you people. i got fic written about this one?? my friends goncharov'd me in front of my face

really fucking fun to write and the insane response was smth im always gonna remember. i appreciate you guys so much

treesekai also turns a year old in a few days!

Until the Angels Realize You're Not One of Them

(Feb, 7.2k, emerald duo, oneshot) (link)

a traitor phil au which was mostly just me talking about all the reasons i love technoblade

this one... wasnt actually written this year for the most part? i didnt want to not acknowledge it, since it's on my ao3 in this year, but i wont be able to count it toward the total

still. traitor phil au my beloved. hearing him say on his stream he and techno wanted to do a betrayal arc made me feel insane bc i already had this written at the time

missing or obstructed

(2022-present, 12.9k, Grian & Ren, ongoing) (link)

post 3L fic about Ren and Grian seeking out closure with a lot of funny little sleep metaphors

same deal as the last fic, i, uh dont think i actually wrote anything new for missing or obstructed this year either? just uploaded chapters i wrote last year,,, i didnt wanna now acknowledge it, but i wont count this in my total later

i miss her. one day ill actually sit down and write more missing or obstructed. in my doc im JUST at introducing Martyn and i havent written it yet

to reach my mangled debut

(Sept, 4.2k, treebark week, ongoing) (link)

it wouldnt be me if i didnt have an execution somewhere in here. another op au!

THIS. I LOVE HER. when rev and i were plotting out the whole storyline for smop renchanting i was begging please give me this scene i need it and i had so much fun writing it. i rlly need to finish soon but i haven’t had time but please. please check out smop. she’s top of my priority list to update

Three-Dog Night

(Sept, 6.7k, treebark week, oneshot) (link)

BIG DOG. beauty and the beast au!

god im so fond of this au. there’s some rlly good scenes written for this and unposted bc i just need to link them together. honestly i think if i took a month and focused it on this fic alone i could fucking finish it but i don’t have the time ;-;

that said i’m so enamored w this au genuinely. o dunno what else to say i just think. puppy

Cover Me In Roses

(Sept, 3.3k, treebark week, oneshot) (link)

lamplight roleswap! put Martyn in a flower pot

i don’t feel as motivated to work on this one when i have lamplight unfinished so it’s lower on my priorities but know i have like an entire arc of this written and unposted. we just have a few paths for this one and i have to decide which one to use

it’s so wild to me lamplight has like. aus. like this isn’t even the only one? a roleswap. that’s insane? it’s wild that you all like lamplight enough i can even get away with this

First Sign of a House Fire

(Sept, 2k, treebark week, oneshot) (link)

i love superhero stories for two reasons: plots about secrets and adapting the characters to give them powers. this had smth fun for both of them

yellow rose isn’t super high on my list of priorities to update (i think the oneshot is interesting on its own) but one day,,,, it’s part of the many aus cherri and i have but it’s the longest for sure. the doc for just this au is like 100k words long on its own. at the time i draft this cherri and i are actively writing smth else for it in another tab. theres like 4 offshoots and im obsessed w all of them. we had to make ocs about this one. i’m excited to eventually add more to this series

actually that’s one of the scenes i’m most excited for and most dreading adding. we made a backstory oc and im SO attached to him and im excited to post a thing out there w him but. ough. whatever cringe is dead i’ll get there eventually and brute force my way into attaching you to our funky little robot guy

also love that this fic forced me to be decided on a docv characterization that i have to stick to. he may be a canon guy to martyn’s vtuber lore but he’s my oc now too

Blindsided

(Sept, 2k, treebark week, ongoing) (link)

pirate au and royal au based on a big secret and also stuffing a guy in a box and it's all stupid dramatic literally what else do you want or need in life

this is my wife. my favorite. my most beloved. blindsided gives me new illnesses and diseases. i have just one scene to write before i can update it and then i can continue unleashing her. god i love this fic the drama of it is SO fun.

the funny thing abt blindsided is i know all the plot chronologically but now how to Present it which is part of why i haven’t continued too much. eventually i will but until then know that one of the scenes im sitting on which has been fully written is one i think about constantly. hopefully when i post it cherri’ll let free the comic she did for it

i actually have the ending of this fic written i just need to get there lmfao. second on my priority list after smop i think

Cradle of the Leviathan

(Sept, 1.5k, treebark week, oneshot) (link)

i just love mer aus man. whats the point of it all if you cant have mer aus. just get a big ol fish

i have the ending of this au written as well and literally so little of the lead up. but this is pretty low on my priorities. i think this one stands just fine on its own. mer aus are nice like that

we actually have a few mer aus but for now i’ll be focusing on this one. i do have a few sweet post story things written for this one. maybe one day i’ll write enough to post em lmao

Lamplight AU

(2022-present, 47k, treebark, ongoing) (link)

renchanting dnd/fantasy au, martyn's a paladin and ren's a lamp

so i started this au last year. my wrapped last year said my total was 20k, so that means this year's total is.... 27k!

and… it was just lamplight’s birthday and i did all my appreciation for the fic and its readers then, but god. i love this fic so much and i love you all who have read it and been so kind about it. the amount of popularity it has makes it a bit nerve wracking to work on, but i still really want to see it finished. i hope to see the bulk of it done by this time next year!

Six Sentence Sunday

six sentence sunday is a challenge where i try to post six sentences i wrote that week every sunday, to keep me writing every week of the year! i do it over on my writing blog, @driflew

i did not keep up on my six sentences,,, i had a lot of sunday fencing tournaments. i did for ~33 weeks this year! thats a pretty good amount! i’ll have to be more on top of it next year tho

unpublished work

the last few years i havent included unpublished work, but with the extreme bulk of it, i wanted to note it down. cherri @/cherrifire and i have been writing a lot back and forth at each other in discord dms this year, and i wanted to include those in my count! bc holy fucking shit is there a lot of them

i didn’t include collab pieces, just pieces i wrote alone. i also only included the renchanting aus i share w cherri and scarian aus i share w flowey, nothing else—no unfinished lamplight or other independent pieces or oneshots, no original fiction for class, nothing. i also missed a few u haven’t moved to docs yet. so i’m lowballing by a few. thousands. of words

the total for those is...... 135k words! there is,,, something wrong with me

total and end notes

our total this year is...

187512 words!

that might be my highest word count yet! because i caught treebark disease. wild.

something really fun about this year to me is i really loved everything i wrote.

if you want to get me a gift or support me on my birthday… maybe try reading my work and reblogging it or leaving a comment! you can find my writing at driflew or skelew on ao3, follow my writing blog at @driflew, or even consider tipping my kofi!

thank you for sticking with me and supporting me this year! i really appreciate it! hopefully i can break 100k next year too!

[goldenhypen]

hey y’all ,,, so i wanted to make an update post to get this off my chest and i wanna be completely transparent with you guys ,, BTW don’t get scared or anything sjsjsjs it’s nothing huge or serious but i do wanna let you guys know this in case there’s smth to prepare for in the future ig ,, sjsjsjs

so it’s been pretty obvious that i haven’t written in a wHILE SJJSJ ,, ik for some it may not seem very long, as it hasn’t even been a month since i’ve released new work, but for me, as a writer who tried to get at least one work out a week, this doesn’t feel v good sjsjsjsjs and throughout this season of not posting any new content, i’ve noticed i’ve lost a lot of followers, at times, losing more than gaining, which ik i shouldn’t let matter v much, but inevitably, unfortunately it does play a part in the way i feel about my blog. and during this time, i’ve gone through lots of thoughts about my writing and my future with writing ,, and i’m just going to be completely transparent with you guys and honest, but basically this included/includes losing confidence in my writing, and even questioning whether i want to keep writing or not. there’s some personal reasons behind this which i’d rather not disclose, at least not for now, but who knows ,, maybe this is just a phase of writer’s block and burn out.

also, it’s almost jake’s birthday and being the jake simp i am, i’m going to post a piece on his birthday, but the fact that his day is coming up also actually made me question whether i wanna post smth for him or not,, sjsjsj but i have come to the decision that i will be posting a work on his birthday, and if i’m being honest, jake is my muse for a lot of my ideas sjsjsj (woah what a surprise 😱) yet despite this, it’s still been difficult to produce this piece bc of the current state my mind is still in about my writing. i might even end up scrapping what i have rn and write smth much shorter, but we’ll see how i end up doing shsjsj

but yeah, some thoughts i have to maybe fix whatever you wanna call this ,,, writer’s block, whatever,, if i do want to write more, is to maybe open requests again so i have a motivator to push me to get work out and so that i’m not just running on my own ideas, which can be challenging sometimes. and a thought i had on this, which is still very up in the air for whether i wanna actually implement this is that i think it would be kinda fun to open requests on a regular basis, such as like every weekend for just a few hours,, smth like that,,, another possibility if i don’t end up opening requests, i was thinking of possibly just continuing taking a break from writing like i am rn and just come out with new works occasionally, whenever i get inspiration for new fics.

in all of this being said, i do want to also announce that i will be putting my series the bachelorette on hold as of now. sorry to make you all wait. your anticipation makes me rlly excited for the series, but i can’t bring myself to write it rn, i’m sorry :(

so to summarize, this is NOT a quitting writing announcement post sjsjsjsn i’m not going anywhere, as of now, but in terms of me writing, i do feel uncertain of what i want to do for the future bc of several reasons, but right now, i feel like i need a little bit more of a break <//3 but i will get a jake fic up on his birthday in a few days.

i hope this all makes sense, and i appreciate all of you who read up til the end of this post and for understanding. if you have any questions or words of encouragement or anything like that, i’m still here and am not planning to go anywhere for a while :) i love you guys, thanks for reading <3

[dragondraken]

so like what if i wrote for genshin fire force and demon slayer . what then.

[pluviophile-imagines]

LOWI CONGRATS ON THE FOLLOWER MILESTONE!! 🥺💞💞💞 u deserve it and so much more!! for the kiss prompt could i get 18 with shinsou ?? 🥺👉👈

TYSM SOFFFF so uh. I’ve been fuckin stupid dkfnskfb my dumbass rlly wrote Shinsou correctly on my master post like a week ago and then still managed to write for Shigaraki instead when it came to the actual piece 😳 so thanks to my handyman brainrot you get two—that’s right, two!—characters for the price of one ur welcome ♥️ I cheated a lil bit so shinsou;s not sitting in the reader’s lap it’s just his head but i think its cute 🥺 also Shiggy’s is like twice as long as ive been trying to write them oops i rlly like the jealous reader premise 👉👈 it’s under the read more bc of that and bc of kiiiinda spoilers? if yall arent caught up to the manga you won’t get it but if u are it’s canonical. Whew that was a lot! Enjoy!

Kisses where one person is sitting in the other’s lap

Shinsou

To say that your relationship with Shinsou is new would be an understatement. You’ve been friends for years—ever since the third year of high school when you’d been assigned to him as his support—but you’ve never been particularly close until recently when you’d once again found yourself working on his hero costume and support items.

He’d only asked you out yesterday after nearly two months of tension-filled glances and fleeting touches. Now, the two of you are watching a movie at your mutual friend Kirishima’s apartment, sitting quite awkwardly on a loveseat and pretending like you don’t want to get closer to each other. You haven’t told your friends yet about your new relationship status, but that’s not entirely what’s holding you two back. If anything, it’s run-of-the-mill first date awkwardness (if watching a movie with six of your closest friends around can be considered a date), too afraid to initiate anything.

The movie’s dull; the two of you have pulled out your phones to snark at each other through text, a strategy you’d begun weeks ago after being hushed one too many times by Kaminari because you were talking too loudly. The bright screens probably aren’t all that much better, but you two are in the back anyway; nobody can see it unless they turn away from the TV.

You risk a glance up and end up locking eyes with Shinsou. Your face heats up, heartbeat quickening, as he gives you a charming smile. You watch him glance around the room, unsure at first why he’s doing it until he turns his attention back to you and slowly, silently, moves over across the loveseat into your personal space.

Your legs are touching now, faces so close your nose is nearly brushing his. One of his hands has come to brace against the armrest you’re leaning on, allowing him to stay leaning in.

“Hey,” he says, little more than a whisper and clearly hushed so the others don’t hear.

“Hey yourself,” you respond, earning yourself a low snort.

Instead of vocally responding, he pushes himself back up to a sitting position and then moves his hands to maneuver your legs until you’re no longer curled up against the couch’s backing but sitting like a normal person.

Then he lays down, head resting on your thighs, and turns to face the movie.

You’re grinning uncontrollably. All possible self-conscious thoughts of the others seeing you are dashed from your mind; you like the weight of him in your lap too much.

You spend much of the rest of the movie like that, easily over half an hour. A few minutes in he reaches down to find your hand and bring it to his hair, encouraging you to stroke it. It’s even softer than you’ve imagined in the past, fluffy and thick and genuinely nice to run your hands though. There’s a surge of contentment that rushes through you, and maybe a little bit of pride at the knowledge that you can do this pretty much any time you want now.

By the end of the film, you’re pretty sure Shinsou’s fallen asleep. He gives you the scare of your life, however, when he grabs your arm as you’re trying to pull away. His eyes open, purple irises trained on you.

What happens next you blame on grogginess, him still not quite being awake. He blames it on you; whenever you mention it, he says he saw you and had become consumed with an overwhelming desire to just lean up and kiss you. Whatever the reason, it’s nice for you.

His hand comes up to the back of your neck, tugging you down just as much as he lifts up. It begins soft, kind of sweet, just lips as the two of you melt into each other—but it doesn’t stay that way for long. Within moments the two of you morph the kiss from a quick peck after a movie to a very passionate makeout, and frankly you’d be more concerned if they hadn’t interrupted the two of you.

You pull away when you hear Kaminari’s wolf whistle, left sitting on the loveseat with a burning face and your boyfriend in your lap, still half asleep.

Shigaraki

You’re not jealous.

No, you’ve been dating Tomura for months. You can’t be jealous when he’s, well, yours, and has been for quite some time. You’re his first relationship, his first everything, and it’s frankly foolish of you to feel this insecure just because some floozy is simpering at him from across the enormous room where you and the rest of the League are scattered about. It’s not like she really wants him, or even knows him; he’s just the hew big-shot leader and she’s decided being his lover sounds good. Too bad that role’s already taken.

Still, there’s a sinking feeling in your chest—an ache in your heart, a burning lump in your throat—that says now that Tomura is Grand Commander he’ll drop you for someone better.

You don’t realize you’re glaring daggers at the woman until she catches your eye. She has no business looking that smug; the only reason she’s allowed in the room is to give Tomura reports. You’re the one lounging next to him as she approaches; he has your legs over his lap, his thumb absent-mindedly rubbing circles on your thigh.

And when she bends down to drop the report on his lap (as if your damn legs aren’t there, you want to scoff) she draws the eyes of every League member except the one she wants, because you’re the one who has Tomura’s attention.

He’s wearing Father, but you’ve long passed being afraid when he looks at you from between those lifeless digits and you can see the expression beneath; those lips tugging down slightly in a pout, brow furrowed, eyes far softer than they have any damn business being while hiding behind the severed hand of his old man. He’s concerned, and a little confused.

Tomura plucks the report from your legs and sets it aside, reaching to pull you fully into his lap. To your surprise he takes Father off, too; he buries his face into your neck to prevent the outsider from seeing, lips just brushing your ear so that you can hear him.

“What’s wrong?”

“Hm?”

“You’ve been pouting ever since the secretary came in, brat.”

Like hell you’re saying anything in front of her. You remain stubbornly silent.

He doesn’t like that, you can tell, but while the secretary’s interest is lost on him he knows you well enough to tell that you’re uncomfortable with her. Presumably that’s why he doesn’t press the issue and kisses you instead.

You don’t expect it. Tomura’s not exactly one to shy away from PDA (you’re sitting in his lap in front of the whole League, for fuck’s sake), but intimacy is something he’s never wanted to take beyond closed doors. When he’s in a sour mood you’ll kiss him sometimes, even in public (he’s invigorated by your affection in many way, but never anything you’d call heated.

This kiss, though, is. It’s anything but chaste, perhaps even downright lewd. He’s all but initiating a makeout with you while Miss Secretary is standing right there. Maybe his affection-motivated ways are rubbing off on you, but it helps more than it probably ought to.

You’re dazed by the time he pulls away. The sound of the door slamming closed snaps you from your trance. The secretary, ploy foiled simply by your annoyed expression, had left. It doesn’t matter. None of this was ever really about her in the first place.

“There,” Tomura says, audibly quite pleased with himself. “She’s gone. Now tell me what’s wrong.”

You sigh, leaning in to tuck your own head into his shoulder. Your voice is muffled when you speak, quiet so that only he can hear.

“It’s dumb.”

“It’s bothering you,” he says simply. There’s an underlying statement there: tell me so I can destroy it for you. In many ways, Tomura is a predictable man.

You know he’s not going to drop it, so you accept your fate. “She was making a pass at you.”

He tenses beneath you, holding you closer. You risk lifting your head from where it’s buried to see the way his nose is scrunched up. “She wasn’t.”

“Yeah, she was.”

There’s a pause, like he’s processing everything you’re saying. Then, seemingly finally registering what exactly is bothering you, his hands move to grip your hips and maneuver you to straddle him, sitting fully on his lap facing him. “Fine. Why’re you pissed about it, then?”

You lean in again, arms coming to wrap around his neck as you bury your face into his chest and try to ignore the tears that are coming. You’d never be able to live it down if any of the others saw you crying over the fucking secretary.

But you know more than anyone thanks to many late nights assuring your boyfriend he’s the only one for you that Tomura can empathize with this insecurity. It’s a little strange how the script has flipped.

“She’s a high ranking MLA member, she probably has some crazy strong quirk. I’m quirkless. I dunno. I guess I’m scared you’ll drop me for someone like her. Like I said, it’s dumb.”

He doesn’t speak for a moment. You sit there, listening to his heartbeat and matching your breathing to his. Then he speaks.

“Your emotions aren’t dumb. It’s okay that you’re feeling this way. Thank you for telling me.” He’s parroting you, you realize; this is what you tell him every time he comes to you for comfort when he’s gotten in a mood. You feel a little fuzzy, warmth flooding your chest. “But I think we both know they’re irrational.”

“Tomura… I—”

“I’m not interested in some lame-ass NPC,” he interrupts, no hesitation and entirely sincere. He doesn’t even need to think about it. “You’re my player two, my endgame. The only thing in this world worth protecting. You really think that secretary can hold a candle to you? I didn’t even notice her. Why would I when you’re here?”

You can’t help it, you surge upward and kiss him, just as passionately as he had you mere moments before. His right hand traces up your spine to find the back of your neck and pull you closer, sending a thrill through your body as your own arms tighten around him.

“Oi! Horndogs! Get a damn room, don’t make us see that!”

You break away at Dabi’s words, panting slightly, and if the sincerity of Tomura’s little rant hadn’t convinced you that his words were true, the look of utter adoration he’s regarding you with would have.

[icyharrington]

please make another fanfic i’m horny

omg idk when this ask was sent to me but like damn. this just made me think of how the other night i went through my masterlist and read a bunch of my old fics from like 2-3 yrs ago. which freaks me out to begin with seeing how fast time goes 😭 but yea i was just reading old stuff bc i was feeling nostalgic and depressed and also was curious to see how bad it was. i refused to read some of my older stuff for YEARS bc i remember a lot of them as being straight gutter trash, but i never deleted them bc they had a lot of notes 🤣

one of the fics i read was discipline which i always wrote off as being really bad but tbh it was pretty hot lmao and i thought it wasn't terrible. but while i was reading i also felt super shocked bc of how fucking vulgar my writing was, esp since i haven't written like actual smut in a really long time and i haven't really read it either. but i was legit like 0_0 jfc I POSTED THIS SHIT ON THE INTERNET?! MY FRIENDS KNOW ABOUT THIS BLOG AND I POSTED THIS SHIT?! and then i was like dying of cringe imagining my mom reading my stuff (which tbh is something she would do lmfao)

but at the same time i felt rlly proud and remembered how happy i was when this blog was first getting noticed. it genuinely made me feel so happy and excited and seen and i was sooo inspired and creative which is like the opposite of how i feel now just bc of mental health and life and covid and shit lol. also there hasn't been much material or inspiration for content recently and i don't even talk to anyone part of this fandom anymore so idk what people even wanna read.

omggg and then i got more depressed cuz i also went thru one of my old fic rec lists and realized that like 90% of them no longer existed cuz they deactivated. and it was just bumming me tf out cuz like i spoke to a lot of those ppl on a pretty regular basis and formed friendships w some of them and now i dont even know where tf they are 😭 but damn i wish i had that motivation back like i used to have. the nasty filthy freaky ass smut i used to write made me feel a lot more confident in general and it made me happy having a community of ppl just hyping each other up for being horny 🤣

anyways wtf was the point of that essay LMAOO sorry im a lil stoned and got in my feelings for a sec teehee 🙈

so to answer your question/statement/request,,,,,, hopefully someday in the near future i will regain the inspiration to write like i used to have in 2018-some of 2019. ahhh idk man

in the meantime i guess u can reread some of my old shit.. theres literally so many i GUARANTEE you haven't read them all

[dickpuncher420]

fic writer review

tagged by @chitsangenthusiast thank u kath <33

1. how many works do you have on ao3?

23! which is. so crazy to me?? no way i’ve written that many stories lmao

2. what’s your total ao3 word count?

144,536 (also like half of that is from this past year alone LMAO??)

3. how many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

only 3: atla, daughter of smoke and bone, and leviathan. and since 2015 ive only written for atla lol

4. what are your top 5 fics by kudos?

fumbling towards ecstasy

love language

sunday morning

the kind of love (i’ve been dreaming of)

before the storm

5. do you respond to comments, why or why not?

i try to!! i’ve def been slacking recently, and i generally only respond to comments on a new fic for a certain amt of time after it’s been posted. but i like to do it bc i LOVE when fic authors respond to my comments, so i just want to return the favour to other ppl who might feel the same way! :)

6. what’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

LMAO i was about to say none and then i remembered as we fade in the dark, which i wrote years and years ago so i just forgot it existed hfhsjs

7. do you write crossovers? if so, what’s the craziest one you’ve written?

nah, not a fan of em

8. have you ever received hate on a fic?

omg YES i got THE funniest comment on victory lap where this person was just SO MAD that sokka was a dick to zuko abt figure skating, calling him toxic and shit akwhdjwhs like i swear they just completely missed the entire point of the fic it was so funny

9. do you write smut? if so, what kind?

FUCK yeah i do baby. idk if i would say i specifically write a certain kind of smut but i am very fond of writing established relationship sex where they’re just very comfortable w each other and already know each other really well. which is funny bc my most popular fic is a first time sex fic but oh well ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

10. have you ever had a fic stolen?

as far as im aware no

11. have you ever had a fic translated?

nope! i did have fumbling towards ecstasy podficced tho if that’s anything?

12. have you ever co-written a fic before?

yes, once, and tbh i don’t think i’d ever do it again djhsjshs it’s just not rlly my jam

13. what’s your all-time fave ship?

i rlly don’t think it’s that hard to guess LMAO

14. what’s a fic you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

ughh i hesitate to say lover come back bc i am still dead set on finishing it one day but i just haven’t made any real progress on it in so long and just arrfgghhdh it haunts me. i have so much of it written already and i don’t want it all to just go to waste :(

15. what are your writing strengths?

i’d say…dialogue and having my writing feel very physically grounded in the moment. personally, i don’t like to spend a lot of time in that sort of abstract, reflective headspace—i prefer to focus on specific, concrete moments and interactions. i try to bring attention to the sensory side of things to make it feel more tangible

16. what are your writing weaknesses?

both over- and under-editing lol. sometimes i’ll rework a line or passage too much when it was much better off the way i’d originally written it. and sometimes i’m so intent on just getting things done and posting that i don’t spend much time editing at all

17. what are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages on a fic?

personally i would never do it myself, and i’m not a huuge fan of it in other fics either. there is one rlly old makorra fic that i love tho that does it and i think it works incredibly well in the specific context that it’s in

18. what was the first fandom you ever wrote for?

leviathan! those books were my first introduction into any kind of fandom stuff, they still hold a special place in my heart

19. what is your favorite fic ever written?

my favourite fic that I’VE ever written is probably victory lap, closely followed by love language. i’m still incredibly proud of both of them, but victory lap wins out in that it was such a huge, daunting project that i never expected to actually complete—and then i smashed out 26k words of the most self-indulgent au i’ve ever written in a little over two weeks and i was like. holy fucking shit. i can’t believe i did that JFHSJSH

also i’m very happy with the way i managed to execute all the stuff about sokka’s feelings and motivations and the struggles of being an athlete. it was just such a fun and fulfilling way to combine two of my biggest interests ^_^

now if we’re talking abt my favourite fic that someone else has written….shit. pls don’t ask me that, i can’t choose >_< i have a favourites tag in my bookmarks for a reason

tagging: @dameferre @goldrushzukka @ofherlionheart @foyal @lesbianvampireboyfriend @quenchyest @zukkababey @badgerfrogzukka

[acespec-ed]

hi!! I was wondering if u could help me? I’m alloaro and I just discovered the term aromid… and it makes me question myself. I’m very unsure if I’m on the asexual spectrum or if I just experience sex repulsion sometimes? I’ve looked at so many acespec labels and cannot find one that actually fits me. literally I’ve seen them all. I haven’t really felt comfortable calling myself ace and I do enjoy saying I’m alloaro but I wonder if I’m actually on the ace spectrum as well… how do I differentiate between sex repulsion and asexuality? For one, I’m hypersexual and feel the need/pressure to be sexual or I’m not good enough… and I do want sex I think? I fantasize about it and I enjoy smut and some art .. but when I visually see nakedness or irl sex… it makes me feel very uncomfortable and I don’t enjoy that. I enjoy the thoughts and fiction and when people are only partially clothed…. but I just have this feeling of repulsion and fear of actually doing it irl (what if I hate it and it makes me uncomfortable?) and when I think about it I do imagine myself and this other person but it’s also hard to actually see us and not just faceless non existing people… and idk how much of me wanting sex is just pressure from hypersexuality or me genuinely having sexual attraction … idk if I really have much of a libido or want for sex?? would I be able to call myself alloaro AND aromid.. as in I’m alloaro but possibly SOMEWHERE on the ace spectrum?.. or maybe I’m just sex repulsed and fully not ace at all? I feel like my situation here makes me unable to call myself alloaro but I AM alloaro and I love being alloaro… I don’t wanna stop saying I am but it also feels like there’s more to it?

same anon from before! I read a post of yours about the umm “allos see ‘cake’ and immediately know they want to eat it” and it confuses me … idk what I experience? I see fictional characters and I can go “they look sexy I am attracted to them maybe if want to have sex with them?” I see people and ??? idk sometimes I get unwanted thoughts of having sex with friends when I don’t actually want to or find attractive…I can see people and think they’re sexy/attractive .. but idk if I’d think “yeah I’d have sex with them” I mean it depends bc I think someone can imagine having sex with someone and enjoy it and want it but would they actually wanna seriously have sex with that stranger without having any connection with them…? Sex is scary so I’d need to know and trust them maybe… be scared to show my body..but I don’t think I’d be comfortable calling myself demi? Idk I don’t get this .. do I look at someone and immediately think whether I’d want to have sex with them or not? I really don’t know … also.. so…. Libido is just wanting sex in general and sexual attraction is wanting specific people?… how do I differentiate all of this it’s so confusing! I guess MAYBE I do look at peopl and go “wow they’re pretty/sexy id want sex” BUT I DONT KNOW LIKE IDK HOW TO EXPLAIN IT… am I not allo WHATS going on here .. can you explain what it would be like to be sex repulsed AND allo instead of ace? and the difference between that and being ace and sex repulsed? thank u

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I’m so sorry I’m saying so much I just have no one to talk to :C … but um… someone told me “if you’re sex repulsed .. you’re still allo unless you feel like u don’t relate to being allo anymore” and I’m honestly so confused because…. do my weird feelings towards sex influence my sexuality? do I still feel connected to being allo? personally I feel like these feelings are ones allo people don’t typically have ..plus I’ve always felt bad for not being sexual enough or feeling the same sexual feelings as people/ (also why do I have sex repulsion I don’t think I rlly had much sexual trauma going on.. some little incidents but still??) and if I told allo people these feelings… they would not relate and would think I’m weird for it ..but an ace person might relate and would understand … I feel like it does influence how I see my sexuality/attraction and complicates things…however.. I feel like I can’t call myself acespec bc often I want sex (even with a specific person.. although they look different when I imagine them and also don’t exactly have a Look/face/body in my head..same with me) often and I’m hypersexual so I like over sexualizing myself …plus I like saying I’m alloaro and don’t want to let go of it… nor do I want to ID with a specific ace spec label.. I’d like to just say I’m ace (just like how I call myself aromantic even when I’m specifically gray romantic) why can’t I just be ace and not ace at the same time or in between I don’t know 😭…. what do allos experience how is their life like with sexual attraction and how is someone’s life like without sexual attraction … I don’t get it at alllllll

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I saw you sent three asks and decided to combine them all in this post to make answering this easier. Just reading these asks are making my head spin, so I can only imagine how confused you must feel. And it's fine that you're sending so many asks- I know what it's like to have no one to talk to about things.

I'll start this off by saying you can call yourself whatever you feel most comfortable calling yourself. And if it's alloaro, then of course you can keep calling yourself alloaro. You do sound like you could fit somewhere on the ace spectrum, but I couldn't tell you where.

A lot of what I'm about to say you might already know, since it sounds like you've been doing your own bit of research, but here I go.

Whether or not you desire sex on its own doesn't determine if you're asexual. If you've never felt any urges to have sex with anyone specific, then you haven't experienced sexual attraction. So it's helpful to remove your interest in sex itself, along with libido, when questioning. Focus it all on if you've wanted sex with anyone in particular. If the answer is no, or very rarely, it's likely you could be on the asexual spectrum. You mentioned you've experienced it towards someone specific, so it sounds to me like you'd be in the gray area, if on it at all.

I will say, it is totally normal to be nervous, and even scared, of having sex at first. A lot of allos are able to get over this fear- possibly because of sexual attraction. I first felt sexual attraction towards my boyfriend, and though I was repulsed, I wanted to do sexual things with him so bad I was able to get over the fear and disgust through slow exposure. So I think sexual attraction on its own is a huge motivator to "get over" sex repulsion and go for it.

Of course, you should never do anything you are not comfortable doing. And never force yourself into doing any sexual activities. A lot of aces have ended up with trauma over that sort of thing. The reason I went for it was because I naturally became comfortable with things escalating as time went on. Kinda like exposure therapy, I guess.

I'm not sure if you already saw it, but I did write this post on an experience I had where I was sex-repulsed by someone I was sexually attracted to. So it is possible to be sex-repulsed and sexually attracted to a person, but I understand how hard it can be to tell for sure.

I can't tell you what it's like to be allo. But other than the few times I've experienced sexual attraction, I lived my life with a libido directed towards no one, fluctuating between being sex-indifferent and repulsed, and occasionally getting a crush I had no sexual attraction towards. 

As for what it’s like being sex-repulsed and ace: I can’t imagine having sex with anyone. I just can’t. Every time I get a crush, I try to imagine sex with them, and my brain just shuts that off. It wants nothing to do with those thoughts. Sex-repulsed with sexual attraction: It’s only happened twice and the first time (with my bf) I had no idea wtf was going on and it was 10 years ago so I can’t remember enough to tell you aside from what I’ve already said. The other time though, I wasn’t 100% sure if it was sexual attraction at first- but my body became aroused at the sight of him, and the arousal went away when he left. But when I thought of sex with him, I was grossed out. But I kept forcing myself to think of sex with him, and grew more comfortable with the idea. And the more I thought about it, the more I figured, “hey, maybe I am sexually attracted to him.” 

Every person is different though.

I can totally understand your confusion because some of your experiences sound like you’re allo and some sound like you could be acespec. I honestly don’t know what else to say or what answers to give. I will say this though: I strongly doubt any allo has had to question their allosexuality as much as you are.

But circling back to what I first said: you can label yourself as whatever you feel most comfortable with. It’s okay if you don’t fit the exact definitions of an identity 100%. Every person is different, even those sharing the same label. And if you decide your experiences are just too complicated for a label, you don’t need one either. 

Sorry if this was all over the place, but I hope it was somewhat helpful!

[daisychvins]

｡･ﾟﾟ･ — introduction.

introducing ... violet’s demise ! aka grayson aka her big brother she’s been wiring money to stay away in europe <33333

name: grayson swag money jeon  age: 22 turning 23 (don’t ask me about his sign that’s for liza to figure out someday <3) gender: cis male; he/him hometown: baltimore, maryland sexuality: bisexual & biromantic

listen i was feeling rlly committed to completing his stats but i’m already over it so don’t ask dont tell xx anYWAYS let’s get on to the juicy stuff hehe

i tend to ramble a lot so this intro is gonna be probably a mixture of paragraphs and bullet points and everything in between but let’s start simple. also i rlly wanna emphasize a massive DRUGS TW bc his character largely revolves around his interest in and addiction to drugs

blackmails

grayson is claiming that he's been in a rehab program for the last year and is now completely sober and reformed when he really was just using the money to party and travel throughout europe.

without his parents paying to support him now, he's had to start dealing to make ends meet and keep up appearances. it’s mostly coke, but he dabbles in harder substances depending on what his connections can get him. 

grayson dabbles with calligraphy and was notorious for forging excuse notes and parent signatures all throughout high school and even now sells forgeries for a quick buck. the most notable of these was xavi’s letter of recommendation that helped him get into yale. 

background

grayson is violet’s older brother!!1 yes, that’s right, THE big brother who’s been out of the country getting LIT (and by lit i mean he’s been traveling europe on a series of solo trips w his parents’ money and doin lots of recreational drugs)

i haven’t fully fleshed out the dynamic he has w his parents but just know it’s ,, bad ASDHFJNK basically the jeons treated their children like accessories and expected them to be their little trophies and grayson just was not having that as a kid!!! so he acted out a lot and obviously got himself into a pretty bad scene (thank u goosie) and is basically the bane of his parents existence at this point <3 yet they still try to appease him to keep him under control but that’s for the family task to work out hehehehe

despite hating his parents, he adores both of his siblings. before the drug use started, he was always a big nurturer and would have done anything for either of them......now he wouldn’t be caught dead praising violet but he loves her in secret from afar HSJDFKG

yeah basically he met goose when he was around 15 i think????? and got introduced to drugs around 16 or 17 i wanna say and by the time he graduated high school he was just....a much different person than the soft big brother he used to be. his parents sent him off to europe pretty much as soon as he turned 18 under the guise of going to school internationally, but grayson obviously knew the truth and understood that he was being sent away so he wouldn’t be his parents problem anymore. 

he basically spent the last four years galavanting europe and just....trying to enjoy it???? but it’s hard to enjoy an extended vacation when u have no family or friends on ur side anymore </3 he basically used the money to stay in hostels and worked odd jobs here and there to stay afloat and keep supplied w the...special goods....but yeah lots of drugs, alcohol, sex, and recklessness but he DID learn a couple languages??? or at least enough to get through some pretty basic conversations in most european countries so <3 guess it’s all okay then!!!! 

anyways idk what else to put here that u won’t just find out in the family task so uhhhhhh idk lmk if u need anything else i guess

present/personality

so now grayson is just vibing at yale obviously ummm he actually got super into writing after high school, especially poetry. he used to carry journals full of just random prose about his addiction and his deepest thoughts, as well as probably some lighter stuff about his love escapades or maybe goose idk...basically he used poetry as an outlet and it allowed him to really ground himself and find his place in the world even if it didnt include who he thought it would SO with that being said, grayson got into yale due to a poetry competition he was a part of. he saw some big fancy competition being advertised and on a whim decided to submit some poem about his struggles with addiction and losing his family (a v raw piece that he didn’t expect to ever see the light of day) and he actually ended up winning! it caught yale’s attention and they invited him to apply and, knowing how much it would probably disturb his little sister, grayson very smugly applied and was pretty stoked to see he got in 

because that poem gained such publicity, it was assumed that he was a survivor of addiction and was writing from a sober perspective. he didn’t want to correct anyone, so he just went with it and has basically crafted this story about his massive success and has become an advocate for addiction treatment and rehabilitation. of course, none of the companies that sponsor him or the events that host him as a motivational speaker know that he’s snorting lines in the bathroom beforehand or dealing to half the elites, but that’s between grayson, god, and the blackmailer !

basically grayson showed back up because of violet’s blackmail being exposed. he was off in europe, unable to defend himself, and with a massive vendetta against his family so he decided what better way to reenter society than by publicly outing himself as a martyr <3333 his plan is basically to bash the family name to fulfill whatever angsty coming of age arc he has in store for him to make up for the pain of being sent away .... really angsty yeah </3 rip grayson 

anyways yeah he’s a total fake. he’s been using his status as a martyr to his advantage a lot, the best example being his recruitment into the elites. he guilted them into accepting him by discussing the PR benefits of recruiting a member that struggles with addiction and how supporting addiction treatment and second chances would be such a good look for them. like he basically threatened to publicly expose them for denying him due to his troubled past and accuse them of being exclusionary so they said boop ! ur in. now the elites are proud advocates for second chances <3333

i would describe grayson as fearless, overconfident, infamous due to his condition being exposed recently, a little gloomy, he’s kind of just got this chip on his shoulder and feels like he has something to prove....he’s gotta be better than his parents, gotta stick it to them and to violet and to everyone who doubts him. he’s a grumpy guy with a massive vendetta and a need for some kind of justice. he just doesn’t know what that is yet. despite all of the bad, however, he’s genuinely a pretty good guy. he’s really goofy and a genuine person, pretty friendly with literally everyone until they give him a reason not to be. basically, unless you are a member of the jeon family he probably likes you or is at least cordial to you (unless we plot differently ofc but u know). he’s just a big lovable dummy with some sweet drug connects and a knack for poetry. he also knows calligraphy but that’s beside the point . 

idk if this is enough to describe him but yeah if u have any questions just let me know hehe

this is probably gonna make things hard but considering violet was just exposed i think that he’s pretty new to yale ???? like probably just transferred in/started this spring semester rather than being here for the entire year/a prolonged amount of time so most of our plots will likely have to be newer/center on him first showing up OR we can establish their connections from pre-europe which is also fine w me....idk i didnt rlly think this timeline through so let’s just plot and see what happens aghbfjnd anyways i included some connection ideas to help us all just in case

wanted connections

i’d say he’s the honorary dealer of the elites aghbdfjn so literally anyone who needs a plug could be a potential connection. we can obviously tweak this and customize it to each character <3

maybe someone who met grayson in europe. they could have travelled together for an extended period of time or even just a brief encounter. he was over there for four years, so the possibilities are endless. 

building off the last one, this same connection could work with a romantic interest. maybe they were romantically involved for a time in europe and fell out of touch or maybe grayson/your muse just left in the middle of the night and they never saw each other again until now and maybe there’s some unresolved feelings/one-sided longing or need for closure. it could also be that they just hooked up whenever this person was in the area and that was that, no strings attached. 

maybe someone who genuinely believes that grayson is actually sober and really admires his strength and idk maybe they’re struggling w their own issues and seek advice from him or maybe they just make it harder for him to actually do his thing bc they’re constantly around and it’s not like they can catch him strung out and acting up 

someone in the literature department or with a background in english or writing. someone he could read poetry to, or share his favorite lines with. someone who’s taken the same professors and can tell him who to watch out for or what to expect. idk i just want him to have someone to share his passions with. maybe a little crush is forming? maybe they’re just friends who share a love of fiction? idk i’m open to literally anything 

he’s sort of a motivational speaker now bc he advocates for rehabilitation resources and stuff so like maybe ur muse saw him give a presentation or participate in some kind of seminar and they called bullshit on him after the show bc they were like,,, bro i literally saw u partying w max and avery last weekend what the fuck are u on about and now they could potentially hold that blackmail over his head hehe......

exes plots are always fun we love angst in this house 

fuck it let’s bring another family member BHJFNGKM no but grayson rlly is a nurturing guy and like....definitely develops unhealthy attachments to cope w his loss of family so he’d love all the sibling-like bonds he can get to kinda numb the pain of “””””losing””””” violet 

if none of these interest you i’m literally so down for anything pls just let me know and i’m happy to brainstorm always <333333 

thank u for reading this....smooch . 

[koutawoo]

how do you not get overwhelmed by so many requests? i used to love to write, but i feel like there's so much anxiety behind it now.. i've been told to do what i want, but i really miss writing🥺👉👈

any advice on how to start kickin' it again?

i wrote way too much omg

MA’AM, the last time i opened my requests were late july, and i added like 40-50 requests to my list, and 8 months later, i still have 35 requests left on that list and a bunch of accumulating request asks in my inbox even though i’m not accepting any requests

at first, i was overwhelmed bc i was a people-pleaser type of person (esp on tumblr) and just thinking about the requests and how i haven’t done any made me rlly anxious to the point that i didn’t want to open my inbox at all bc i was scared that someone was gonna tell me to hurry tf up!

and i was still semi-active late 2020 but completely killed my presence up till now LOL so i haven’t done anything. during that time, i just made things that i liked and posted them so i was happy even though i had a requests list looming behind me, and honestly, requests take a lot of time, even if it’s something u don’t have to think about (in my case, i just need to find pretty pics and cut them, right) bc it’s likely to be something that doesn’t make u genuinely happy to make and that’s just mentally exhausting in itself

when u think about it, ur doing this without monetary profit etc—it’s just a hobby. while it may upset people who made requests, it’s still, just a hobby. put ur health and ur irl activities first and foremost. i was—and am—swamped by my academics and i certainly was not going to risk failing my courses just bc i felt obligated to spend hours on requests that won’t benefit me in the long run in terms of career and whatnot.

i don’t know man, tldr; put urself first before others.

i popped on a couple of times to say that i wasn’t accepting requests and i also have it listed in my navigation/request rules, but i still received requests, and this may be considered rude but i’ve learned to ignore the requests. but tbh, it’s also rude to not check if someone’s accepting requests or not LOL but it can’t be helped. i’ll take some recent requests from my inbox only if it’s something i’m interested in doing :3

and i get what u mean!! taking requests definitely killed my drive—diminishing returns on my happiness. internal motivation > external motivation!!

also, i don’t feel as guilty bc a lot of ppl told me to take my time, even if it took me three months LOL (it’s been more than three months, um)

as for advice, just don’t burn urself out? only do a few, and then take a break. don’t force urself to do anything. i’m only posting a couple atm bc i’m on spring break, but i’ll probs be dead again or try a few through the quarter. do requests that u think will make u happy as u write! or ones that u actually have inspiration for ;w; but honestly, just relax. getting off tumblr or anything related to content creating/requests made me feel more free orz do things at ur own pace

i have the shittiest advice but i just want u to prioritize ur mental health first :’^) even if u miss writing, if it brings u bad jujus and/or u can’t get anything started, pls don’t stress over it! 

[mibuchis]

character ask: mido, riko, mibu!! ❤️

here you go! it’s going under the cut since it’s rlly long lol

Midorima

Why I like them

I actually don’t know, I really didn’t like him at first but his character grew on me but I’m not rlly sure it did - I think I started liking him around the shuutoku/rakuzan match, but I can’t remember lol

Why I don’t

He was really arrogant at the start of the series, so maybe that? But he had grown a lot by the end 💗

Favorite episode (scene if movie)

THE ONE WHERE HIM AND TAKAO DO THEIR SPECIAL PASS 😭😭😭 I LITERALLY SOB EVERYTIME I SEE THAT SCENE OH MY GOD IT MAKES ME SO HAPPY

Favorite season/movie

season 3!

Favorite outfit

this isn’t one from the show, but there’s this little tiny figure of him and he’s wearing navy pyjamas with little stars on them 🥺🥺 and he’s holding a teddy bear 🥺🥺 and he’s so cute 💗💗💗

OTP

Midotaka, for sure - they’ve always been so fun for me to write.

Brotp

A weird one that’s purely self indulgent, but him and Furihata. I’m writing a fic and there’s this one scene I have planned with those two and it has been living rent free in my head since I came up with it lol - again, it’s weird but idc

Head Canon

Neurodivergent Midorima. That’s it, that’s the headcanon.

Unpopular opinion

He’s more than just ‘weird’ and ‘quirky’. Like he’s a character with depth so he should be treated as such.

A wish

I’ve seen art of him with circle glasses, so I now suddenly need him to have circle glasses, he’d look so cute!

An oh-god-please-dont-ever-happen

He was so happy by the end of the series, so I’d hate for him to go back to the state he was in back in middle school :(

5 words to best describe them

best character in the show ❤️

My nickname for them

Carrot boy (original, I know/j)

Riko

Why I like them

Bc she’s a strong woman who takes shit from no one :)

Why I don’t

I don’t really take much issue with anything about her lol, I haven’t watched much knb for a while so I haven’t picked up on any flaws lmao

Favorite episode (scene if movie)

Literally every time she helps to motivate Seirin,,, like she’s so good at it 💕

Favorite season/movie

Season 2, probably. Idk why tho lol

Favorite outfit

the one with the bear on it from the training camp episode - it’s totally something I would wear!

OTP

I don’t really ship her with anyone but if I had to choose then I’d say Momoi

Brotp

Either Kiyoshi or Izuki, I can’t choose

Head Canon

After leaving Seirin she does training to become a professional coach and goes back to work with Seirin 🥺

Unpopular opinion

a lot of people don’t think she’s as pretty as the other girls in the series which is a LIE bc she’s gorgeous 💗💕

A wish

For Hyuuga to stop having a crush on her - she deserves better :)

An oh-god-please-dont-ever-happen

No one is ever allowed to make fun of her to small boobs again. All boobs are pretty 💕

5 words to best describe them

such an empowering,strong queen 💗

My nickname for them

my wife 😌💍 (jkjk)

Mibuchi

Why I like them

He just seems like he can be rlly sweet 💗💗 like he can be quite a nice person

Why I don’t

He’s so arrogant and it gets on my nerves sometimes 🙄 like when I rewatch it I always forget how much of a dickhead he is to the other teams lmfao

Favorite episode (scene if movie)

I liked the scenes in the Rakuzan/Seirin match when he was against Koganei. Idk why they just kinda stand out to me.

Favorite season/movie

He was only in season 3, so season 3

Favorite outfit

The one where he’s wearing the yellow top and the pink apron, purely bc my best friend and I want to cosplay Mibuchi and Akashi from that picture lol. I also like his pink scarf, but that’s an item of clothing, not an outfit

OTP

(Ayyyy it’s rarepair time 😗✌️) but him and Mayuzumi. I was bored one night just over a year ago and was drawing some random knb characters and drew them together and was like,,, “WAIT, they would be cute together 👀.” Honestly I think they’re vv contrasting characters, but I think that would make their dynamic more interesting

Brotp

uhhh him with Hayama and Nebuya - they all seem like good friends 💗💗

Head Canon

Despite it being said that he’s popular among his classmates, I do believe he still is quite reserved. Like yeah he gets on well with his classmates but he isn’t as close to some of them than he is with others.

Unpopular opinion

this shouldn’t be unpopular but he’s more than just gay - if you think that feel free to unfollow me ❤️

A wish

He’s one of those characters I just want to be happy. I desperately want him to be happy 💕💕 (says me who writes angsty vent fics of him lol 💀)

An oh-god-please-dont-ever-happen

Don’t ever let Hyuuga Junpei near him again ❤️

5 words to best describe them

love of my fucking life 💗

My nickname for them

don’t have one :/

[vivalamusicaltheater]

So I was tagged by @aitanact to do this a while ago but I am bad at doing things in a timely manner so. Yeah. (Thanks for tagging me btw!)

THE LAST
1. Drink: water
 2. Phone call: my mom
 3. Text message: also my mom (I think this says a lot about my social life, or rather lack of)
 4. Song you listened to: I’m listening to Two Player Game rn, probably to nobody’s surprise
 5. Time you cried: I teared up like 20 minutes ago does that count
 6. Dated someone twice: no
 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: no
 8. Lost someone special: do my dogs count if so yes
 9. Been cheated on: no
 10. Been depressed: no
 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: no 3 favorite colors:
 12. Yellow (Idk about rn but this used to be my strong fav so…)
 13. Lilac/lavender (but actually like all purples
 14. Teal/aquamarine

IN THE LAST YEAR YOU HAVE:
15. Fallen out of love: no
 16. Laughed until you cried: several times
 17. Found out someone was talking about you: yes
 18. Met someone who changed you: no
 19. Found out who your friends are: yes
 20. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: no

GENERAL:
 21. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: I don’t have Facebook so…
 22. Do you have any pets: not currently
 23. Do you want to change your name: no I like my name
 24. What did you do for your last birthday: oh my god so my birthday was on Super Bowl Sunday so my dad wanted to throw a super bowl party and I was like sure ok we can do my party another day (I didn’t rlly care) so I spent the night watching the super bowl and being slightly unnerved about this guy who got really drunk so that was interesting but hey the patriots won and that made my dad happy so not too bad overall
 25. What time did you wake up: I was woken up at like 5:30 bc we had to fly back home
 26. What were you doing at midnight last night: scrolling through tumblr
 27. Name something you can’t wait for: for me to figure things out and gain motivation to do things I guess
 28. When was the last time you saw your mom: I see her right now we’re still in the car
 29. What are you listening to right now: MICHAEL IN THE BATHROOM, MICHAEL IN THE BATHROOM AT A PARTY
 30. Have you ever talked to someone named tom: uhhh idk I don’t think so?
 31. Something that is getting on your nerves: nothing rn my sisters are thankfully leaving me alone for once
 32. Most visited website: gmail or YouTube (it would be Tumblr but I’m never off mobile so idk if that counts)
 33. Hair color: dark brown
34. Short or long hair: long
 35. Do you have a crush on someone: I’m not completely sure…
 36. What do you like about yourself: uhh I guess I like that I try to be kind to people? Making other people happy is such a nice feeling
 37. Any piercings: no 
 38. Blood type: idk I’m too lazy to ask
 39. Nickname: no nicknames 🔪🔪🔪
 40. Relationship status: single
 41. Zodiac: aquarius
 42. Pronouns: she/her
 43. Favorite tv show: uhh I don’t watch much tv but Steven Universe and Star vs the Forces of Evil I guess?
 44. Tattoos: no
 45. Right or left handed: right
 46. Surgery: no
 47. Sport: does mario kart 8 count
 48. Vacation: I just got back (and I’m not even completely home yet) from Cape Cod, Massachusetts
 49. Pair of trainers: that’s sneakers right? I had to check by lifting up my foot haha but apparently they’re adidas

MORE GENERAL:
 50. Eating: I just ate Hershey’s kisses
 51. Drinking: nothing rn
 52. I’m about to: idk either go back to tumblr or draw something probably. I’m not sure yet. 
 53. Waiting for: many things including inspiration and the new season of miraculous ladybug
 54. Want: lots of books, a nice art style, motivation so I can get even better grades this year and actually do something with my life, Trump to not be president anymore, no discrimination
 55. Get married: maybe
 56. Career: uhh I think I want to write fiction ya books but idk how that’s gonna pan out so…we’ll see. 
 57. Hugs or kisses: hugs
 58. Lips or eyes: eyes
 59. Short or taller: this means for other people right? If so I don’t care
 60. Older or younger: also don’t care but assuming we’re talking about relationships not too much of either
 61. Nice Arms or nice stomach: again don’t care
 62. Hookup or relationship: relationship
 63. Troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant probably I get really nervous about being in trouble

HAVE YOU EVER:
 64. Kissed a stranger: no
 65. Drank hard liquor: no. I’m 15 I haven’t drank any kind of alcohol
 67. Lost glasses/contact lenses: don’t have either
 68. Turned someone down: for a date to a dance at camp yeah it was awkward I basically avoided the guy instead of giving a real answer
 69. Sex on the first date: no. Again, I’m 15 and haven’t had either sex or a first date. 70. Had your heart broken: no
 71. Been arrested: no
 72. Cried when someone died: I cried when my dogs died
 73. Fallen for a friend: maybe? Probably? Again it’s complicated

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
 74. Yourself: ehhhhhhh
 75. Miracles: no not really
 76. Love at first sight: not really I think you have to know them to love them. You can think someone’s pretty at first sight but I don’t think love at first sight is a thing
 77. Santa claus: no. Kinda wish I did but no.
 78. Kiss on the first date: sure if people want to kiss on the first date go for it
 79. Angels: no

OTHER:
 80. Eye color: brown
 81. Favorite movie(s): well I LOVE tangled. I love pretty much all Disney but. Tangled. I also love the Harry Potter movies.

Anyways I tag @anneonomus @we-found-wonderland1989 @hoiimkawaii if they want to and anyone who follows me and wants to do this. Seriously even if we don’t talk I’d like to know about the people who follow me! Feel free to mention me and say I tagged you I’ll check it out!

[bananacookies1]

i'm just going to apologize in advance. i am so deeply sorry for my word vomit i'm about to do. okay so here i go. i just came here to recommend a fic that i've been reading and feeling all these emotions about and then i scroll through what i have missed. i never really get on tumblr all that much and i think karma (would you even call it that?) just whupped me in the butt bc of that. i learn that there will be SEVEN children in cherry. i learn that there is going to be a vminkook hp fic | p.1

p.2 | a flippin vminkook and it's gonna be a hp au! i'm just. i. i'm just a little lost soul floatin about and suddenly it's like i'm getting pushed about by a ceiling fan. i see all these replies you're giving to people that have all these "not spoiling" answers but are giving me these answers that i've needed! and i also learn that you're reading swamp magic aka one of my all time fav fics i've had the pleasure of reading and that you're enjoying it! i also recommend their other works! they'rep.3 | amazing!! i love basically all the things they write and i've read some of their bookmarks (god, i hope i don't sound too creepy) and they are also really good fics! but the thing i came here to do in the first place is recommend the fic i've been reading and idk if you'll like it bc you like the ship jikook and vminkook and this fic is just taekook or vkook. but it kinda reminded me of cherry bc it started out with their childhood and went up all the way to them in college but it was sop.4 (im sorry) | good and i just had to recommend it to someone bc i liked it so much and no one i know like kpop or reads fics. i'm sorry for all this word vomit but i really just had to get it out of my system and i'm sorry for wasting your time!! good luck with anything and everything! idk what to say so i'm just gonna stop! :)OMG EAIT I JSUT REALIZED I DIDNT EVEN TELL YOU THE NAME OF RHE FIC! okay ummmm. i'm sorry..! it's called You're So Special by miniimin~*~Nonnie I love word vomit (haha that sounds so weird) but seriously you could send me a thousand messages and I'd still feel grateful!If I'm off Tumblr for a day so much stuff happens and it's hard to keep up! But Jikook is going to have seven little munchkins and my Vminkook is going very well! I haven't introduced Jimin yet and it's a little heavy on the Taekook at the moment but it's going along nicely~ I'm aiming for 15k words and today I hit 5k!It's funny because I'm forcing myself not to read the rest of Swamp Magic until I finish my Vminkook. Swamp Magic gave me all of my inspiration that I needed to write a polygamous relationship, and it keeps me motivated to write my Vminkook because honestly Swamp Magic is the best. I know that doesn't sound too convincing but it's one of those stories that kept me up late at night, longing for something, and only goooood stories make me get all sentimental. Lowkey I'm a hoe for Taekook and I've read a few stories about them (they have the best stories oml) but I looked up the one you suggested and IT STARTS OFF KINDA LIKE CHERRY and I was shook for a moment, but it looks so good and I'll definitely give it a read! I love fluff and growing up au's ❤️(also there's this porn star au that looks rlly good, it's super popular so perhaps you've read it? I saw it while looking for this story lol)But please don't feel like you're wasting my time because??? I love stuff like this. I love it when you reach out, and honestly I'd love to talk to everyone off anon someday, so I always treasure these messages.Really you're so cute, thank you for your messages! Feel free to word vomit whenever~! ❤️💕💕

[apassionthatisdead]

qs + a(to the g to the u to the std)s

♡ ♡ tagged by  @pyojhoon & @mintchocfringe  ~ thank friendlings ♡ ♡

1. ultimate bias(es)? min yoongi ♡ ( taeyeon is my ultimate girl bias but min yoongi 5ever above everyone else )

2. who are your top 3 groups?  bts, dreamcatcher, snsd  (ioi should be there too but... you know... life is cruel, rip)

3. what are your 3 favourite songs?  the last by agust d, mr. brightside by the killers and youth of america by birdbrain

4. what do you like to do in your free time?  listen to music, play the piano, slepleplep, tell my dog i love him, play video games, watch youtube

5. are there any places you would like to visit that you haven’t already visited?  SWEDEN. top of my list. it’s v important that i go. also want to see japan and s. korea ofc. 

6. do you have a dream job?  [sweats] a dream? weird concept. unrealistic. sounds fake. lol but nah not exactly.. i mean, i would love to do something music related but i don’t feel like i’m talented enough so it’s just not feasible, and i used to want to write but i can never stay motivated long enough so  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 

7. if you could meet ANY korean CELEBRITY (includes actors, models, k-music artists, etc.), who would it be?  min yoongi. 100%. no question. i wanna talk about a certain mixtape released last year

8. what do you love most about your bias group(s)?  well, not to be obvious but.. their music. ? the music is always top priority for me and i really like their styles and lyrics especially ♡

9. who are your ultimate bias wreckers?  park jimin oh lord.  for girls it’s gugudan’s nayoung, sowon, sejeong, chungha, soyou, dami, yeonjung, somi sajdosiar i love girls too much hlep

10. what do you wish for the most to happen? yoonmin subunit

11. when did you get into kpop and how?  oh boy, lemme tell u: so i was rlly sad back in 2014- i’m always like 40% sad but i was at least 87% sad back then ok i was emo af- and i used to always see kpop on my dash but i was like “that looks too happy for my tastes” but then one night i was really fkn sad bc 1. boys (lol wtf) and all my friends were about to leave for college but i was taking a year out so i was feeling lonely and i was watching pewdiepie to try cheer myself up but he wasn’t making me laugh and it concerned me bc pewdiepie didn’t make me laugh??? unrealistic. sounds so fake. so anyway, i was like “??? i must fix this” so i tried to think of the happiest thing i could and kpop came to my mind and i was like “well, if this doesn’t make me smile i will have to accept my fate of being sad forever” and i ended up watching sistar’s ‘i swear’ mv and it made me feel v light and happy and kpop healed my soul and it all escalated from there ♡

12. what made you decide to have a tumblr blog?  idk a few of my friends had tumblrs and they seemed to like it so i joined too.. there isn’t really a story here

13. favorite colour?  grey / sea-green

14. favorite animal?  red pandas

15. what are your interests?  music, animals, video games, ships, geography (miss me with that human geog. shit- no thx. but rocks? neat. volcanoes? super cool. hurricanes!? unbelievable. clouds!?! WOW.) 

16. would you prefer movies or music? music. 100%

17. what would you like to achieve (or experience) before the age of 60? i would like to have traveled to those places i mentioned above and i hope i have found something i both enjoy and am good at and... i hope i have a cat called trico  i’ll tag... @kellsierr @my6gfriends @frstlv @mycreativewritings  ♡

[realtalk-princeton]

i'm a freshman with honestly no idea what i want to do in life and i think it's rlly impacting my performance. in hs if i didn't like a class i had to try so i could get good grades to get into college. here i didn't know what classes to take and ended up not liking any of the ones i took (advisor SUCKED) and have no motivation to do well in any of them bc idk what i'm working towards. but ofc not doing well makes me feel more detached/lost/bored/depressed, and idk how to fix this going forward

Response from Nick Carraway:

Aw, I’m sorry you’re feeling this way. If you need something to motivate you temporarily, just think about how grades will impact your future (getting jobs, getting into med/law/grad school). Just like you said in your post, you had to try to get good grades in high school, so why not do the same here. Obviously this doesn’t get to the root of the problem, but I’ll get to that.

Have you talked with Career Services here? I had a mock interview there once (I don’t really need career advice because I’ve been pretty set on med school for awhile, but the advisor I met with seemed really really great!). I’d recommend setting up an appointment ASAP with them; they have more experience with helping students plan out their future than anyone. When you talk about your advisor, is this your advisor here at Princeton or your advisor back in high school? It seems like high school; so another place where you could potentially find advice would be with your academic advisor (or residential college dean or director of student life). All these people would be happy to meet with you and talk about what you’re interested in so that you can hopefully find some sort of direction as you navigate your Princeton career. You have to actually set up these appointments, though. They won’t come to you. 

I guess I would try to choose classes that interest you. Are you set on a major? I would guess no based on the submit. What majors tangentially interest you? If you had to write a research paper in a class, what kind of topics do you find yourself interested in learning more about? Are there classes that go in depth on similar things? I find Princeton to be a ton more enjoyable when I’m taking classes I’m interested in. Obviously this will take some exploration, but use your first year (especially this spring) to explore very different types of classes and different departments if you’ve yet to find classes that you really enjoy.

There is also a Strategic Visioning Workshop that happens in Frist (run by Career Services) a couple times a year. I went to one my freshman year, and maybe it would be something good for you. You basically introspect and try to figure out what you want to do with your life.

I’ll be honest with you though that many college seniors don’t really know what they want to dow with their lives still. I have some friends that don’t have jobs and aren’t having much success at the moment with the job search (though it seems that it’s not their number one priority). If I ask them what kind of job really excites them, they don’t have an answer. I guess I just add this because you’re not alone in feeling lost. I have no idea what type of medicine that I want to practice (I say pediatrics now, but I haven’t been exposed to the vast majority of specialties), and thankfully I have 3 more years to figure that out in med school. Obviously a different situation, but we all have a little bit of uncertainty in our life, and you just need to try to not let it impact your performance like it seems to be doing. Maybe approach this next year as a chance to find that direction that you very much are yearning for. If you don’t put effort into your courses and meet with professors/advisors/mentors, you’re not going to have much success.

Sorry if this answer isn’t very helpful. Good luck OP! Other contributors feel free to add their thoughts on.