Every time I look at this CG and read the adjoining part of the story it feels like being hit by a bus. It gave us many things, none of which I am sane about.
1. Wataru only eats proper meals when he's by himself or with Eichi. This is so?? Sad and sweet?? He thinks eating makes him an imperfect actor so he doesnt do it in front of other people, EXCEPT Eichi, because he trusts him deeply and is trying to show him more of his true self since giving up his mask to him
2. THEY TAKE PICTURES TOGETHER ON THEIR DATES. Wataru's phone is probably FULL of pictures like this of him and Eichi, looking SO happy that they're just in each other's company that he doesn't really show anyone else.... god.
3. LOOK AT HIS PROUD FACE. IN BOTH THE PICTURE AND AT THE TIME. LOOK AT HOW HAPPY HE IS ABOUT THAT PICTURE. AND HOW PROUD HE IS OF GOING ON A DATE WITH EICHI. He loves him so much its actually ridiculous. I absolutely adore how Wataru completely subverted his initial intention of getting to know Eichi just to be his replacement for Tsumugi, and to be the bluebird that stayed by his side, but he unintentionally fell in love with him and abandoned the script 😭😭😭😭😭😭
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Aaaahhhh it's only like a half of a chapter but there's so much... Wataru saying of course he never has forgot about the mask and how it's "him" and he entrusted his wishes to Eichi. Eichi saying that Wataru always plays roles Eichi wishes but this time he wants Wataru to make all decisions as himself so he gives the mask back as a charm for the event.
And then he says "of course, after 4piece I ask you to return it". I think this was my favourite bit. He expects and wants Wataru by his side. Well, of course he does, we know that but I absolutely love it every time he says it aloud. The bird returning home...
Also, Wataru answering Eichi with "thank you, if I feel like I want to act freely and feel your support, I'll wear the mask". Asdkasgdagh wataei equivalent of keeping a picture of loved one in pocket when in trenches...
Oh and this was cute:
Eichi says he's not worried about Wataru at all and then Wataru says: "Please be a little bit worried, Eichi! Otherwise it's sad!"
C'mon Eichi, don't make Wataru pull Sanctuary stunts again to get to see your emotions!
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why wandering clown is wataru singing to eichi
or, wataru's second solo from the fine trip album lyric analysis as seen through a wataei lens (honestly though this song is so incredibly specific to his and Eichi's story 😭)
Thank you to lucidstars on youtube, whose translation I based this off. Let's begin!
Verse 1:
A wandering clown crosses the sea of stars
while taking light steps, as if kicking beads
'Sea of stars' makes me think of outer space, how Wataru views himself as an alien or monster, something otherworldly.
A few other things come to mind: stars are very Eichi symbolism, like in his first solo Shining Star; and Jingle Bells, when the Angel flies through the sky with Eichi. The beads are immediately reminiscent of Eichi's solo Crystal Pleasure. (There's actually an insane number of parallels between the two solos as we'll see.)
The applause is for you, my whole soul that goes into a whirlpool of emotion
And to be able to lock eyes with you in the garden of joy would be such a wonderful thing (showtime)
This is a stretch but walk with me. The first line is daydream. "A resounding applause (kassai ga hibiki wataru)" is the first line. The applause was for Eichi alone, while Wataru was enmeshed by all his conflicting feelings at the time.
In Wataru's words to Eichi in Blackbird, which directly follows daydream: "It’s as though something I cannot quite comprehend is stirring inside me", "as though he were a child who had just tripped for the very first time in his life."
I tried looking up garden of joy (歓喜の園 kanki no sono) to see if it was a reference but couldn't find anything. But I did think of the garden of Eden and the idea of exfine being holy angels, divination...idk.
Chorus:
Let’s sew countless sparkles into this dream
Sing as the wings of love flap
Tonight at the end of the world, the clown you invited
Will deliver a surprising song you’ve never heard before
This part screams Blackbird, where Eichi and Wataru write the next part of their story. In fact this is pretty much blatantly repeated by Eichi in Crystal Pleasure: "I want to connect all the sparkling moments" and "let me give you happy dreams". (I really have to do a separate analysis for Crystal).
Wings of love --> can be Wataru's bird imagery, callback to Jingle Bells' Angel, or the continued bird imagery in Blackbird
"At the end of the world"- In Neo Sanctuary, fine sings "And that is the Neo Sanctuary, the blooming new world I offer this victory to". In the same sense, they were at the end of the old world, about to embark on a new one, with the clown that Eichi invited... to fine :) [Oh this is ALSO mentioned in Crystal Pleasure's second chorus: "I’ll invite you into the brilliance, towards the tomorrow that you wish for"] This is one of the most blatant Wataei parts of the two solos.
Verse 2:
Tied together with mischief, the melody of the constellations echo
so close to each other every time you resonate your wish
I want to speak to those eyes of yours, on this stage coloured by enthusiasm
The star imagery continues... Suspiciously in alignment with Crystal Pleasure. I will note that the same word for wish 望む is used here as in Crystal's second chorus. Both Wandering and Crystal sing about eyes countless times, I'll let you play with that yourselves.
But maybe I’m the only one who wants that
When the curtain rises, the boundaries fade away
I can almost feel your breath, you beautiful person
This part. Ough. Again, walk with me, this is like a reverse, or parallel of daydream. "Maybe I'm the only one who wants that"--when Wataru, unlike the other Eccentrics, was always fascinated by Eichi and even went to join fine, to the befuddlement of the rest.
In daydream, Wataru catches Eichi as the curtain falls, telling him that the audience is still watching, and commenting that it's unsightly (jury's out on whether he was talking about Eichi or himself, but anyway). Meanwhile, Eichi thinks Wataru "beautiful". They are so close that Eichi coughs up blood on Wataru's face.
These last lines of the second verse aren't daydream, but they're the present. Instead of a falling curtain, it's a rising curtain. And they're close as ever, so close he can feel his breath. And in this implied performance, they're standing on the same stage. In Wataru's words in Diner Live: "I wanted to stand on the same stage as you, Tenshouin Eichi [...] Unlike the confrontation of the past, a “what-if” that shows a past where we are standing shoulder-to-shoulder, or maybe even in the present. That’s the kind of dream I wanted to see."
Yeah. I'm. I'm normal
The second chorus ends with two different lines:
Tonight at the end of the world, the clown you're dancing with
Will deliver an incredible dream just as you wish for
At this point
they're just not hiding anything are they.
Now that I'm done destroying myself here, I have to do Crystal Pleasure god i have to do crystal pleasure. I hope u enjoyed this post! Thank you for listening to me bend my back over for them. Feel free to add on if you noticed anything else.
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