#and i dont think im gonna manage to do it tonight tbh cause im like the walkin dead right no2lw

[quiveringdeer]

when you've been around ppl all day but need to grab something from the store so you sit in your car in the store parking lot trying to mentally gear yourself up to brave even more humans 😔

[meltwonu]

| 🍒 CH-CH-CHERRY BOMB! 🍒 |     [CHAPTER 12]

pairing; dom!seungcheol x camgirl!reader

this chapter’s notes; camshow, sex toys, overstimulation, tiniest mentions of daddy!kink, a lil bit of a filler chapter!, this is the most btsvt chapter that it’ll ever get so i’m sorry if you dont like that!! 😭😭, a bit of a lighthearted chapter too tbh to ease everyone back into cherry bomb! 💕 I know its been like two fuckin weeks since the last update which is honestly insane to me! I almost couldnt remember where we even left off lmao kdjfhds 😩💕💕 Thank you for being so patient with me and waiting it out while we had two weeks of Monster Mash! Starting Monday, I’m gonna be going back to my normal posting schedule! 💕 have a great rest of the weekend, yall! 🍒 

chapters; 1 - 2 - 3 - 4 - 5 - 6 - 7 - 8 - 9 - 10 - 11 - 12 - ?

“Wait, seriously? You want to work here? But--but I thought you were from out of town?”

Jun’s eyes light up with excitement; fingertips crushing the resume you passed to him moments prior. “Um, well, there was a change of plans… and I’d really like to work somewhere where I have a friend! If you guys are still hiring, that is...” You reply back meekly.

It’d taken you all morning to write up a resume, blushing a little when you realize most of your income had been from camming. It’d also made you pause for a moment when you realized that it meant Jun would also know your real name too; as well as everyone who came through the diner and all of your coworkers.

“Yeah, of course! I, um, just give me a second to pass this to my manager, okay? I’ll be sure to put in a good word!” Jun shoots you a wink before he turns to leave.

You take the opportunity to sit down at a nearby booth, fishing for your phone to text Seungcheol.

‘I think I might be getting the job!!’

cheollie ✨: oh? Not that I doubted you, but is it confirmed already?

‘Mm… Jun is trying to put in a word for me! But I’m confident!’

cheollie ✨: thats my baby ;)

You hear someone call your name hesitantly, only to find Jun standing a few feet away looking at you sheepishly. “Um, sorry, your name’s on the resume so I figured…”

“Oh! Yeah, it’s fine!” You awkwardly giggle. “I figured writing ‘Cherry’ as my name wouldn’t be too smart when you need to cross-reference my ID if I get the job.” Jun laughs as he takes the seat across from you in the booth, papers in hand.

“Well, I convinced my manager to let me interview you. Told him that if we’d be workin’ together that I’d want to scope you out for myself! He bought it, can you believe it!?” Grinning, he sets your crumpled resume down next to a small stack of papers. “I don’t doubt you’d pull your weight around here but I do have to ask… Why here of all places? I thought your, uh, other job was enough? Or I guess I assumed...” You bite your lip, flip-flopping on whether or not you wanted to let him know exactly what happened that led to your sudden decision.

“Um… There were just some big life changes I had to make on the fly and I’ll be living around here now! I’m trying out some new things… I also figured if I worked with you, then you’d know my schedule the best too! And you seem like a really nice and cool guy.”

Jun nods, smiling back at you.

“You got that right!”

“You’re seriously going to start working there?” Jeongguk raises a brow, cables in hand as he sets up the extra PC in his streaming room. “And the guy working there knows you? That doesn’t bother you?”

Seungcheol laughs under his breath, “Yeah and he knows me now too. And knows I’d kick his ass if he tried anything.” You pout from your place in the expensive gaming chair; eyes focused on Jeongguk who shimmies under the desk to start plugging in the cables.

“Well, yeah he does know me, but he’s also one of my regulars and knows the schedules I’ll need, so I think we can trust him!” They both nod and Seungcheol is quick to cross the small room until he’s right behind you.

“He seems like a nice guy though, I don’t think we have to worry.”

Jeongguk slides out from underneath the desk, dusting off his pants as he stands. “And if he does end up being a weirdo, there’s always a place for you at the roller rink!”

Seungcheol rolls his eyes, hands gripping onto the backrest of the chair.

“No.”

“Hey guys, welcome back to Golden Closet Gaming! I’m JK, your regular host! Today, we have a suuuper special guest! Why don’t you introduce yourself, pretty lady~”

You take a deep breath as you lean in close to the mic; somewhat nervous and a little out of your usual element. “Hi everyone~ I’m Cherry! Some of you may know me from, um, the other side of the streaming-sphere but I’m joining my friend today in hopes of boosting our channels together and having a ‘lil bit of fun!!”

Seungcheol sits at the side as he watches the two of you; a small smile painted on his lips at the way the two of you seem to fall into your characters easily despite the somewhat different platforms and influx of different viewers.

The sound of donations and comments pour in a lot quicker than Jeongguk, himself, is used to; eyes wide and eyebrows raised as he pauses to watch them flood the screen.

sleepy_wonu has donated $100

xcaliburDK has donated $100

sleepy_wonu: never thought i’d be donating here but here we are

xcaliburDK: i was always a silent watcher but u kno i had to donate for my favorite girl!

seokGENIE: i feel like i’m entitled to something for taking your shift so i wont be donating, sorry pretty girl

j__min: can’t believe this kid got a collab with you before i did :(

j__min has donated $200

dtsug__a: i dont normally watch streams either but im curious

Jeongguk laughs, still in disbelief as the donations continue to pour in from a combination of your viewers and his. He always made a decent amount from his viewers but he couldn’t deny the pull you had from your viewers as well. “Wow, um okay, my donations are adding up a lot quicker than they usually do. That’s… Hey, whaddya say to streaming with me regularly?” He jokes. 

A shy laugh bubbles up your throat; ears and cheeks burning hot at the idea. You had never collabed with any other streamer before and despite your initial hesitance and unsureness, you too, were shocked to find how well the two of you were doing without your usual content.

“Erm, I’m not very good at gaming though… I don’t think your viewers would like it very much...”

seokGENIE: thats ok jk sucks at gaming too, it wouldnt be too different

j__min: lmao fkjdhf

dtsug__a: does he get roasted often on this channel? If so i’ll be tuning in more often

dtsug__a has donated $100

dtsug__a: for your troubles, pretty gal

“On second thought, let’s let this be a special occasion, huh? Maybe collabs for the holiday, Cherry?” Jeongguk grumbles and Seungcheol has to bite his lip to keep in his laughs from his side of the small room. You start to feel more and more comfortable at the lighthearted atmosphere; tucking a stray hair behind your ear before you lean in towards the mic again.

“Ah! Speaking of, don’t forget to tune into my camshow tomorrow~! JK and I will be gaming on there as well but… with some added fun to match my channel~! 21 and over only~” You blink at the computer screen, still a little unused to the idea that you weren’t technically being filmed. Although, it was a nice change for once; not needing to be all done up for a show and simply just talking to your viewers and reading comments.

sleepy_wonu: is dom daddy gonna be on the show too?

“Dom daddy? Oh you mean Se---”

“Yes! Kind of!” You cut off, laughing nervously. Nobody knew Seungcheol’s name except for Jun and you were trying to keep as much of him private as possible, until he was ready. “In a sense, he’ll be there! You guys will just have to tune in to find out!”

Jeongguk laughs into his own mic, scooting in closer to his desk as he loads up the game.

“I think that’s enough chatting for now, huh? Let’s get started! Tonight we’ll be playing Phasmophobia! We’ll be playing something more lighthearted on Cherry’s channel, as she requested. So tonight we’ll be playing something I picked out. You ready, baby?”

Seungcheol narrows his eyes, quietly taking a sip of his water.

“Ready when you are!”

“I gotta say, sweetheart, for someone who doesn’t play video games too often, you’re not too bad.” Seungcheol comments, nodding his head in amazement as the three of you exit Jeongguk’s PC room. He’d had a hard time keeping in his laughs as he watched from the side and he had to admit, you were even cuter when you were outside of your usual element.

“I have to agree with hyung, but maybe it was also the adrenaline and screaming that kept you goin’.”

The two males share a laugh as you pout and plop down onto Jeongguk’s living room sofa. “Hey, how were the numbers for tonight, by the way?” You ask quietly.

“Honestly? I think we made almost triple of what my channel usually sees. I know I don’t really make a ton off of my streams since I don’t really do anything, like, crazy but shit… Even I’m shocked at how much we made.”

Seungcheol’s lip ease into a smirk; Jeongguk really had no idea how much the two of you had made off of a couple videos alone.

“We still have one more stream to do and then we can just pool up the money and split it down the middle!”  

Jeongguk nods, stretching as he sits himself down onto the other end of the sofa. “I’ll bring my spare PC stuff so we can set up a little early tomorrow, if that’s cool with you two? Maybe have some food before we get started too ‘cause god knows I’m gonna be starving.” You look to Seungcheol who nods and checks his phone for the time.

“Yeah, we need to set up the cameras and lighting a little differently too so we’ll probably start earlier. Just text me before you drive over so we know when to expect you.”

You yawn next to Jeongguk; adrenaline having worn off as the tiredness finally sets in. “It’s so weird, usually I’m only just starting my stream right around this time but I’m so exhausted now...” Seungcheol’s eyes from cute crescents as he smiles down at you, stepping closer as he goes in to smooth down your hair.

“You really were screaming a lot, to be fair. How about we head home and you can sleep in the car?”

“Okay~”

Seungcheol lets you sleep in on Saturday morning, watching as your chest rises and falls with soft breaths.

He takes a moment to think over the last few weeks of his life and he can’t help the disbelieving expression that crosses his features when he realizes just how much had changed over the course of just weeks.

When the two of you had met, he wasn’t expecting much. He expected the two of you to hang out for a few days before you went home and forgot he even existed outside of your camshows and the comments section. But now that so much had happened between the two of you, Seungcheol felt a deeper connection to you and felt the need to protect you even moreso than ever.

He sees you shift slightly, sleepy eyes blinking open as you peer up at him. “Good morning, sweetheart.”

“Mm… g’morning ‘cheol…”

You grimace sleepily at how hoarse your voice sounds, “Ew, I sound so… gross.”

Seungcheol moves to get out of bed, leaning in to kiss your forehead before he shuffles towards the bathroom. “I’m going to wash up but you can stay in bed if you like. I’ll make you some tea for your throat, okay? We have a long day ahead of us and I don’t think you wanna sound like that later tonight.”

Nodding sleepily, you lay back down as you yawn and let the sleep take over once again.

“Are you really sure ‘bout this?” Jeongguk takes a bite of his pizza as he watches Seungcheol pull the desk closer to the bed.

“What do you mean?” You ask; readjusting the light that was closest to the younger male. “Like, I dunno, I’ve never been on a cam show like this so… I mean do I have to do anything different?” You laugh lightly as you go in to pat Jeongguk on the shoulder.

“No, just be you. And we went over it already earlier, the only thing that’s different is going to be me! No weird tricks or anything, I promise.”

Seungcheol places another monitor on the tabletop, grunting as he goes. “Yeah, and in all honesty, I would hate to have to watch you get off, ‘Guk.”

“Oh shut up, hyung. You say that like I don’t know what you’re packin’ under those sweats. I think it’d only be fair! Just two bros getting to know each other.” Seungcheol pretends to gag just as you double over in laughter. “No, absolutely not, ‘Guk. And also, nobody told you to watch those videos!”

Jeongguk pauses, lips pressing into a firm line. “You right, you right…”

You leave to get changed just as Jeongguk starts to help Seungcheol set up the last few bits of equipment. He leans in close to the older male, eyes glancing around the space to make sure you were completely out of earshot. “Hey, hyung, honest question.”

“Sure.”

“Are you really okay with all this?” Confusion crosses Seungcheol’s features as he raises an eyebrow at the younger male. “What’s ‘this’ exactly, ‘Guk?”

“Y’know, her living here and you camming all of a sudden, among everything else really… And the question if you’re in love with her which, by the way, we still all know that you are.”

A blush coats Seungcheol’s skin, fingertips almost losing grip of the camera he was about to mount to the desktop. “Listen, yes, okay, I do… like her a lot. But she’s going through a lot right now too and I don’t want to freak her out either. There’s a lot of life changes we’re going through so I’m just going to ...wait.”

“You’re a good man, hyung.”

“Hi everyone!”

You wave to the camera, winking and blowing a kiss to the camera propped up between the two monitors on the table. “I know, this setup is a little wild and not my normal but this is part two of my collaboration with Golden Closet Gaming! Do you want to introduce yourself to those who missed our other stream?” You turn to Jeongguk who nods; this time a little nervous as he stares directly into the camera.

He’d said he was okay with being filmed since he wasn’t actually part of any sexual acts, but he still found himself a little camerashy now that the two of you were live.

Seungcheol sat directly behind the monitors and cameras; his phone open to your cam show to watch from a different angle.

“Ah, hello! I’m JK of Golden Closet Gaming! I’m a friend of Cherry’s and no we won’t be fuckin’.” Jeongguk ends with an innocent smile that has you holding back your laughter.

therealchan99: i dont think dom.cheol would like that very much anyway

universe_WZ has donated $100

universe_WZ: unless he’s into watching

dom.cheol: no

alphagyu97: oh shit hes back

angelhan: huh, so hes not there?

“Oh, he is! He’s behind the camera~” You gesture beyond the camera to where Seungcheol sits and he leans over to quickly wave upside down in front of the camera to prove his existence.

j__min: ah, of course~ we know your daddy would never let you play with anyone else~

j__min: he likes you too much ;)

emerald.tae: oh? also hi new watcher!!!

emerald.tae: ur videos were great!!

emerald.tae has donated $200

therealchan99: im gonna need to start fighting ppl for ur attention i swear

gentleman_josh95: implying u had it

chwenon: yooooooo lmao

“You guuuuys, be nice! Just for that, I’m gonna be sending you a special private pic, okay ‘therealchan99’? You guys pick on him too much!” You pout.

therealchan99: hahaahhAHhhahaHAAHAA FUCKIN LOSERS SUCK ON THAT

tangerine_kwan: bruh

chwenon: damn guess we should can it

You respond to a few more comments as Jeongguk sits by and watches the way you interact with your viewers. He also takes note that you had a donation minimum before you started actually doing anything on your channel and that you’d already hit it pretty quickly.

“Okay! I think we should start now, huh? Oh, I should explain what’s going on!” You giggle cutely, settling into your space on the bed. “So JK and I will be playing this stilt man game! We have to get our character to the finish line without falling or the level restarts! JK has to get to level 30 and I have to get to level 20 and whoever reaches their goal first, wins!”

“I have a higher level to reach ‘cause our skillsets are different and we all know I’d smoke her if we both had to reach the same level.” Jeongguk grins.

seokGENIE: sure

seokGENIE has donated $69

sleepy_wonu has donated $100

hoshi_tiger_xx has donated $100

“And the reason why ‘dom.cheol’ is behind the camera is because...” You pause, eyes twinkling with playfulness as you stare directly into the lens. “In order to get me to do my best, he’ll be controlling a special toy I’m wearing~ Hehe, if my character falls, he’ll raise the vibration setting each time as punishment and leave it on until I cum…”

“Which we are assuming will be a lot. Unfortunately, no medic on standby.” Jeongguk jokes. Seungcheol rolls his eyes as he laughs from behind the camera.

“We have a safeword, don’t we, sweetheart?” You nod in response, “Mmhmm!”

“Let’s get it!”

It takes all of four stages before your character falls for the first time.

Seungcheol turns the vibrating panties on and you immediately jolt as you try to keep your character upright on screen. “Oh, f-fuck!”

kitty_junjun: uh ohhhh it begins

artist8hao: i don’t think she’s gonna last.. babygirl is so sensitive, she’ll probably cum soon

xcaliburDK: i’m giving it until level 6 before she cums

emerald.tae: oh are we placing bets

“Noooo~ Don’t place bets on me, I’m weak!” You whine; already squirming as the vibrations attack your clit. Seungcheol grins from in front of you as Jeongguk laughs from your side, already on level 7 on his own screen.

You had to admit, it was a little weird for someone else to be in the room with you while Seungcheol basically used a toy on you, but the younger male seemed to not care about it at all. Although, he had already seen most of you and Seungcheol at this point.

Your fingertips are shaky on the keyboard and computer mouse; already fearing the way Seungcheol’s eyes almost become darker the longer you struggle.

“What’s wrong, sweetheart? Is the game too hard?”

“A-ah, n--no, it’s not that b-bad…” Squirming, you grind down a little harder onto the bed just as your character falls on screen and Seungcheol raises the setting to the second highest in the blink of an eye. “Ngh, fuh---fuck!”

“Uh oh~ Should I slow down to let you catch up?” Jeongguk teases.

“N-no, I can beat y-you!”

The donations and comments pour in as you struggle to keep your calm and get your character to the finish line; letting out a sigh of relief as you finally enter the fifth level. You let out a choked sob as you already feel your panties starting to stick to you like a second skin from how wet you were getting and Seungcheol can’t help but chuckle.

“You know, you’re technically allowed to cum whenever you want. It’ll just… slow you down, is all.” Grinning, he watches as you look beyond the camera towards him as you pout.

“But I--I wanna win!” You cry; palms clammy as you try to rush through the fifth stage, only for your character to fall almost immediately. “Nooo~”

Seungcheol clicks the vibrator to its highest setting and your body goes rigid as the vibrations wreck your body. You start to grind against the toy as you chase your orgasm and forget about the game almost completely. In a perfect world, Seungcheol would have his cock snug between your walls, but instead you clench around emptiness as you crave his cock.

artist8hao: ah shes already cumming lol

seokGENIE: on level 5? Fuck

universe_WZ: her cute lil cunt cant take it, poor babygirl

seokGENIE has donated $50

emerald.tae has donated $75

alphagyu97: cum baby, u kno u wanna

alphagyu97 has donated $75

A small choked whine is all you can manage before you do cum; eyes clamped shut and fingers wrapped tight around the computer mouse as the waves of pleasure crash down onto your body. Donations and comments flood the side of the screen from a combination of your viewers and Jeongguk’s as they watch your face contort in pleasure.

“Ah, sweetheart, you’re really falling behind~ JK is going through the stages so quickly while you’re sitting there cumming~” Seungcheol teases. He licks his lips, simultaneously wishing you were sitting on his cock while you played your game.

That’d have to be for another time, he thinks.

It takes a second for Seungcheol to turn the toy off and your body immediately slumps forward as you catch your breath. “Ngh, d-damn it…” You grimace when you re-adjust yourself and find your panties soaking wet.

“I’m already on level 17, babe. You gotta catch up!”

You can only groan in response, flexing your clammy fingers before you try to focus on your own screen again.

kitty_junjun: oho looks like our princess is focused now

tangerine_kwan: u got this baby

j__min: show ‘em who’s boss, babygirl

You tune out the sounds of the comments and donations as you manage to get yourself to level eight without falling, but level nine proves to be just a little too hard as your character falls and Seungcheol turns the vibrator back on to its lowest setting again.

“Be careful, baby. Wouldn’t want to fall behind again would you?”

Seungcheol feels his cock throbbing in his sweats as he watches you bite your lip. And for the first time all night, he wishes that Jeongguk would just win and go home so that he could have his own private time with you.

“I’m on level 22 already. D’you think she can even catch up?” Jeongguk teases. He spares you a side glance, taking in your form slumped closer to the table as you try to fight the vibrations.

Your body was already extremely sensitive from your first orgasm and you quickly losing your confidence as you struggled to keep your character upright. If you came even just one more time, there was no way that you’d be able to beat Jeongguk with how quickly he was going through the stages.

therealchan99: she’s cumming just as quickly as JK is getting thru the stages hfdsf

gentleman_josh95: shes so cute when she cums tho

angelhan has donated $50

angelhan: thats the real prize angel

“T-thank you…” You whimper out, fingertips twitching against the keyboard and mouse as you focus your attention to the game to the best of your ability. 

You manage to get to level ten with no more issues just as Jeongguk gets to level 25 and you let out an exasperated sigh as your character falls over again. “Uh oh~ I think I’m gonna win!” Jeongguk cheers; giddiness washing over him as he works to get to the end. 

“Nooo~ That’s n-not, ah, fair!” Whining, you grip the mouse tighter as Seungcheol raises the setting on the toy again, watching as you rub your thighs together at the feeling. 

hoshi_tiger_xx: sadly nothings fair in the gaming world babe

hoshi_tiger_xx has donated $50

dtsug__a has donated $50

dtsug__a: cute for thinkin so tho 

“I don’t th--think I can, hah, c-catch up...” You moan. Your character on screen falls over one more time and all you hear is Seungcheol’s small ‘tsk’ under his breath as he sets the vibrator to the highest setting and leaves it there. 

It doesn’t take long before the vibrations prove to be too much for you and you let go of the keyboard and computer mouse as your hands ball up into fists on top of the table. 

The pleasure washes over you in sharp pin pricks; small whines and whimpers falling from your lips as your eyes completely clamp shut. 

Jeongguk lets out a surprised noise at the way the donations and comments almost make the screen lag and for the first time, his character on screen falls over at his split second loss of focus. 

“Ah, fuh--fuck!” You start to squirm once the pleasure starts to bleed into overstimulation and Seungcheol is quick to respond, “You’re gonna cum one more time as punishment for giving up, sweetheart.” 

alphagyu97: ooo she's in troubleeee

gentleman_josh95: ahhh daddy still has to punish you after all 

seokGENIE: damn is this what this channels abt? this is hot 

artist8hao: babygirl always misbehaves

chwenon: she seems to like it too much 😏

dtsug__a: hooooo shit, thats hot 

“It’s n-not my f-fault, hah, JK is j-just good at g-gaming...” You mumble. 

Jeongguk manages to get to level 30 within the time you sit and grind against the toy; small noises of excitement falling from his lips as he cheers for himself!

“Aww, poor baby. Maybe you’ll focus a bit better next time, hmm?” 

You nod frantically as a small tear slips down your cheek and your lips part in a breathy moan. “God, I--I’m c--cumming!” 

Your body locks up, ears ringing as you cum one more time. Seungcheol wishes he could work you through it; hands massaging your skin as you take your pleasure or thrusting his cock into you as he chased his high with you. 

Instead he watches from across you as your body twitches as your face contorts in unadulterated bliss, licking his lips the entire time with images of what could’ve been dancing behind his eyelids. 

Jeongguk watches as the donations far surpass what the two of you made on his channel; brows disappearing into his poofy head of hair. “Wow, uh, y’all seem to really like it when she gets punished, huh?” He mutters under his breath. 

“Don’t you?” Seungcheol teases. 

“Truuuuue.” 

A garbled moan has both of their attention on you as you try to shy away from the toy still vibrating against your overly sensitive clit. “Ah, ‘m too sen--sensitive now...” You cry. 

Seungcheol turns the toy off completely as your chest heaves in deep breaths; pouting at the fact he wasn’t able to enter the camera frame to take care of you. 

Jeongguk grimaces slightly at the way your body sways in tiredness next to him, unsure of what to do next now that he’d won. 

“Haha, um, medic?” 

[zephyr-94]

barista!jaemin

inspired by the one and only, puff live!

a/n: this is my first ever fic omg pls spare me with my low writing skills cause ive literally never done this fjskdjdhjdks okay i just love na jaemin periodt. (after writing: ITS VERY JUMPY AND LENGTHY I DIDNT PLAN TO MAKE IT LIKE THIS DJSKJSJSS)

so like your aunt owns a cafe which is in the middle of the city

and you live a lil outside just cause you know, school n shit

you visit her so often cause its a small cafe and it calms you down whenyou need a short break from everything

its weird thats its in the middle of the city but its still calming right?

well okay so like you know those small streets down the neighbourhoods?

the ones you dont really go unless you are rlly feeling adventurous n shit, your aunt’s cafe is in one of those streets

okay longass context down

and at school, you are in a photography club,,, or technically you just learn photography from your teacher after school but its not a whole club extravaganza

just cause your school kinda demands an extra curricular after the first year

but it feels really suffocating to be forced to do smth as a group/with people you arent as familiar with,,,,

so you “signed up” for the smallest club: [photography theory]

it was about time you start doing your hobby-ish thing at school and the tutor was cool with you being practically the only student in the club lmao so everything was going well but

youve never rlly done anything big yourself and your school friends havent pushed you to do smth either

so you were kind of looking to at least take part in one out-of-class project initiated by students maybe

and theres this big school newspaper club/writers’ club,,,, and you find out that they are like !! photographers & stories wanted !!

and you ?? at first but apparently its a project where like students get to submit their fav pic & write a mini article about “your place of comfort”

cause the topic of the month is mental health/dealing with stress and the newspaper club wants a students’ view on it, instead of just “meditation” as a topic

then you just have that cafe in your mind like,,, how you would love to shoot the street light shining into the cafe from afar and how calm that place makes you feel,,,

basically you just love your auntie’s cafe lmao

so then you go on about maybe joining it,,, but then you be indecisive cause youve never actually taken a photo professionally you just have a prolonging passion for it,,,

and your teacher is like “y/n idk why you are contemplating no ones gonna judge you just try smth new, go take the chance if you are feeling like it”

we love a supportive johnny, oh yes your english teacher is your photography “club” tutor,,, self proclaimed club

actually there have been many opportunities in the past with taking photos for projects like this one but you just stayed away cause it didnt “motivate” you to take photos for it

so johnny’s words kinda pushed your back n you felt like this was the right thing :))

so then you visit your auntie on the weekends asking maybe if you can take pics & ask her a couple questions about this place

and shes like ofc!! wanna see how you capture this place :))

so then you do this whole process and you submit the article & photos,,,,,

which ends up getting a whole page???

and you are like wh a t

newspaper club: oh you submitted many such pretty pictures & your comment felt very genuine

and you :)) but damn a whole page,,,, you is a lil anxious djskdjdh now the entire schools now going to know you

johnny the hype man teacher: see i told you it was going to turn out nice

and then kaboom, your article lowkey blows up lmao

your auntie is calling you up like “y/n!! so many customers came today!! and a lot of them are wearing the same uniform as you, they must be the students from your school!!”

and shes so happy so you are happy af

but then you remember like,,,, shes never had a part timer,,,,,

and she continues to manage the place by herself after it gets popular among the students,,,,

?? auntie,,, you never take a break ??

shes like maybe ill think about hiring someone?? and you are like, that would be good for you :)) i will be less worried about your health!!

whoop guess who got hired

and after youve had that^ conv, you had constant classes n group projects n shit so you literally had no time,,,

two weeks later, kinda highkey stressed

you decide to go make a quick visit to auntie before going to the library to study

and you peek,,, to see not your auntie,,,,

but a boy?? 

just standing behind the counter,,, no auntie to be seen but a beautiful boy???

before the opening hours,,,, he?? must be the part timer,,,

and once he notices you by the door,

he just smiles at you,,, so brightly,,,,

wow youve never seen such a pretty face,,,

you actually like forget to open the door you are just staring from outside the cafe,,,,

and he just waves,,, and you snap back to reality like oh shit did i just stare at someone for a solid minute

welp that was embarrassing djkdjdfj

he opens the door for you and goes “hey you must be y/n :))”

“the only person who comes before 9am, thats you isnt it?”

and you just ?¿ confusion??¿

“auntie told me about it :)) hi, nice to meet you, im jaemin!!”

you are still confused but you just shake hands next to the counter,,,

and as you take a seat

jaemin just makes a smol run to the other side and hes like

“you came just in time, i want you to try my latte!!”

jaemin serves a cup of latte with a leaf art

this boy just served a latte first thing after shaking hands i-

you take a sip from the cup

and you are like,,, so auntie hired an experienced boy,,,,

“its really good,,,” it has the same comforting taste you always love

and jaemin just has the biggest smile :)))) you know his smile where the ends just curl in, yes that one

him beaming like that just makes you giggly inside,,,,

you ask him “so uh um im guessing you are the part timer??”

“yes!! i didnt introduce myself properly did i! i started working here two weeks ago :))

ive been coming here for quite a while now so im happy i got the chance!!”

and you ?¿ “ive never seen you here??” you are the most frequent customer youve gotta have seen him before fjsksj

hes like “oh um i always came at 9pm on a friday, after everyone leaves and the whole neighbourhood gets quiet”

you just :o

and come to think of it, you’ve never visited here on a friday night,, cause you know, friday evening is your im not doing anything tonight kinda me time lmao

inside you are kinda happy that someone who knows this place got hired like its a special place to you so

tbh you were kinda anxious even though you trust your aunt,,,,,

and jaemin hurriedly goes “oh and also auntie is taking a break today, shes out to the market so im gonna take over until she returns in the afternoon”

djskdj auntie why didnt she tell you lmao

“im sorry if you needed anything specific from her,,, you should stay for a while until she comes back maybe?”

and you are like,,, “oh that would be great,,, but unfortunately i have to go to the library,,,,”

jaemin: ): he pout

“im so glad you came today tho!! i wanted to see you :) auntie has told so many thing about you”

“wait,, what has she told you,, omg”

apparently shes told jaemin

a) reason why this cafe recently became a popular hideout cafe for students because you wrote a school article bout it

b) that you do photography

c) and that this cafe is your break time so you never study here and auntie loves listening to you talk about school n what not

and then you are like !!

“wait so then you dont go to our school ,,,um are you also a student?”

and you panic a little cause i mean you just met him but you literally know nothing and you mightve assumed things fjsksj

and jaemin tells you “ah yes i go to a hospitality school downtown” “ohh”

and from there he just starts talking about his school and what he studies

he asks you about school but jaemin is extra excited about his hospitality course hes all !! :))!!

and you are so hooked on jaemin talking about his school you forget an hour passes by,,,,

[time to open the cafe]

then the customers start coming in

and you are like “oh sorry ive just bothered you during the preparation time,,,,, it was nice meeting you!! gotta go now :))”

and you rush out cause all you planned to do was give your auntie a little visit

also you dont want to bother jaemin cause its hes gonna handle the place alone for a couple hours

you wave a smol see you soon and

jaemin just does a little chuckle,, and hes like waving so widely fjsksj does he know other people can see him

and thats how your first day with jaemin went

later that day you return home thinking like,,, did you just get so excited to converse with someone who you juSt met,,,

na jaemin’s power

and jaemin on the other hand, is thinking about how beautiful you looked today

just that short while but it made him so happy

hes thinking about you all week uwu

so next week you visit again, expecting to see your auntie

and maybe also that gleaming boy

peeking through before the opening hours

the moment jaemin realises you hes like “y/n!!” what a shining boy

and aunties like “oh y/n right you met him last week when i was out right”

that morning you just talk to auntie about what shes been missing on after you went on a busy week

mind that jaemin is literally just listening to you & auntie talk

and he enjoys it cause you talk so comfortably in front of her :))

you decide to stay the whole day to give yourself a break

which meant you moved to your usual spot by the window

and auntie serving you (free) vanilla latte

you take out your camera and just start adjusting the lenses, trying to find the right frame

customers come and go so you dont get to talk to jaemin a lot that day

but its not like you came here for him,,,, right?¿??¿??

while you were thinking all that

jaemin was asking about you all day like

“so y/n’s favourite is vanilla?”

“does y/n prefer a latte over cappuccino?”

“i want to serve y/n something,,,, what would be the best??”

auntie: how many times did he mention y/n today omg

and as auntie answers

jaemin is thinking like

i wanna see y/n smile

and the entire day your auntie is like !!he :)))))

lmao same auntie same

so when the peak hours finish she goes

“i can take care of everything now, go talk to y/n”

and jaemin just smiles brighter than ever

so when he comes around, you startle

but it puts a smile on your face

because hes brought your favourite cake and just a smiling jaemin in front of you uwu

you both get to know more about each other like

how theres this two boys named chenle & jisung in the preparatory course whom he adores to death

or like

theres this jeno boy whose jokes suck jeno i love you

with a bonus of

you talking about how johnny’s english class is nothing but a comedian’s lesson

so that day went great

and now that you are comfortable

you visit the cafe to talk with jaemin more

even when you have a chill no stress week

it just makes you feel lighter by coming to the cafe now

and your auntie is hella happy that you two are getting along so well

it continues for weeks

just you and jaemin talking from time to time when the peak hours are over or before the cafe opens

you became best pals basically

he encouraged you to join more school projects cause hes sure your photography is worth the chance

you giving him daily support when he feels like he isnt doing the best for his course

sometimes when your aunt had to leave for a couple hours near closing time

you two just stayed there talking for a couple hours giving comfort to each other

late night lattes and cakes

also one time you got so excited from the bestest grades you got you might have hugged him without thinking oops

and one day, jaemin’s friend renjun is there when you come after school

and hes like “hi uh dont mind me im just here a bit because jaemin has to go somewhere after this and i dont want him to be late”

so you just,,, chill as jaemin kinda rushes

and when he goes to the storage room, you just see renjun getting along with the auntie lmao

auntie: “so i got offered this contract with the new type of beans? and idk if i should take it because that would mean i have to go out of the city,,,,”

renjun: “for how long?”

auntie: “two weeks maybe”

renjun: “oh thats fine, dont worry about it. jaemin can take over that. next two weeks right? his mandatory work experience ends this week”

so thats how renjun signed jaemin up to work alone for auntie without his consent

and aunties like “y/n!! it would be so much for just jaemin, you should help him :) your break starts next week right?”

so you also got signed up to this thing

fast forward to first day of break

aka the first time you “work” there

you are nervous and jaemin can feel it

“dont worry y/n, ill do all the talking and coffee, you just have to serve & clean!!”

so you try to calm down a bit

not to mention that you are also nervous cause its only jaemin and you in the room

but then he sees you fumbling with tying the apron and

jaemin says “here, give it, ill do it for you” while smiling a little

and from the back he wraps the apron around your waist,,,

and hes so close to you,,, your heart is fluttering

okay heart stop beating so fast pls thank you

and little do you know,,, jaemin is flushing a bit behind your back,,,

you are both the cutest mess

and you break the silence with a smol

“thanks :))”

trying to contain yourself from screaming

adapting to the serving side & keeping youself busy

you dont realise jaemin is literally admiring you the entire time as you get used to the job,,,,

here and then you forget how close you might be standing next to jaemin,,,

you kinda also realise how rEALLY attractive he looks serving everyone with a huge smile 24/7

and the way some customers are obviously attracted to him,,,,

but what you dont know is he is literally taking this chance to highkey flirt with you lmao

waves (sometimes winks) across the room

causally hovers over you when you cant find/reach smth

beaming the biggest smile every minute he gets to himself

and at first you panicked like ?!????

cause was this jaemin boy holding back for a whole month

is this his nature yes

but it makes you so happy to see him smiling all the time beside you

so jaemin yes its working

you gotta admit tho his flirty-ish behaviour grew on you this entire week djskjssj

a week of giggly smiles uwu

but the week after was unexpectedly the busiest of the busiest

you two forgot national holidays collided with the weekends and for some, it was a week off,,,,,,

so the week rushes by so quickly compared to the last one

it kind saved you tho cause your heart cant take more of that flirty behaviour

and finally,

the peak days are over,,,

and you realise its been a while since the cafe was just you,,,, and well jaemin but just no customers

the silence with faint sounds of cups cluttering,,,, you missed it

so then you go sit on the high chair

just admiring jaemin organise the shelves

he starts to prepare a new cup of coffee then realises you smiling at him “were you in awe at how effortless i look right now??”

you chuckle at his remark,,,

(needless to say that your are chuckling to hide how your heart is melting at his smirky smile)

so you twirl a bit shyly,, and avert the gaze to the familiar wood of the counter

asking him “do you remember the day we first saw each other, me sitting here and you serving the latte?”

“ofc, its the day i met an angel”

oh so confidently na jaemin really just said that

you quickly look up at him like !!!?!???!

and thats how he earned a first kiss (or rather a peck) from you

leaning over the counter and pecking you, a whole blushy mess

then comes a clink by the door

you juMp,,,,,,,

oof the customer may or may not have seen you two

you both rush around flushed like a tomato lmao

spending the rest of the day like nothing happened oops

and after the day ends, you two close the cafe

as you starting walking you are caught off guard when

jaemin just takes your hand,,,

“look y/n!! the stars are so pretty!!”

and starts swinging your arm like a tall child,,,

your heart is skippingnsjsjsjs

then at the corner, jaemin turns around and goes

“this is actually the place i first saw you”

and you ??¿?¿¿

“i saw you taking the photo of this night light shining into the cafe”

still hand in hand, jaemin steps a little closer

and takes his free hand to cup your face, kissing you,,,,

you smile into him as he kisses so softly, thinking

maybe the day i took that photo was a friday night

and melting into the kiss, you really think you are dreaming,,,,,

under the lights you once wished capturing a sparkling moment with the cafe in the back

its now you and jaemin in the frame,,,,

the boy who had you forgetting to breathe a month ago

whos now serving your favourite latte with a bonus of pecks on the cheek,,,,, (maybe on the lips if theres no one watching)

anyways

jaemin brings light to your life and you have never been this happy until you met him uwu

and it goes both ways, jaemin cant live without you now,,,, you are the best thing thats ever happened to him

(thank the heavens & your auntie)

oh and also johnny for pushing you to submit that article lmao plus huang renjun for that involuntary sign up

[nightwingswing]

Roy Harper Hc!

Hello my lil’ wings!

Hope you’re all very well! 

I got good news! Soon I’ll be able to update my current stories! I can’t wait!

This Hc are dedicated to my friend  @matsukawaissei !

Hope they cheer you up and hope eveything goes well , hon!

I’ll write that fic tomorrow tho! ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

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Enjoy!

-Roy Harper is a mess tbh -But- He’s your mess. - You and him meet in a club a few years back. - Around that time you were just a student in University

- Christmas came, and as always your class decided to have a dinner together.

-After eating in a pretty decent place ( this year was organized by the responsible one)  you all decided to go dance/ drink a bit

- You ended in a pretty nice club. Not many people were inside, a few in some love seats and a few dancing under the lights.

-your friends were quick to grab the biggest love seats and put them together,making one big for all of you.

- In a few minutes you all were having nice conversations while drinking your favorite drinks. 

-Alas, all night long something keep getting your attention away from the conversation.

- A pretty man, maybe 3 years older than you?

- He had long-ish red hair under a pretty old cap. He was muscular, well toned with wide shoulders.

-You guessed his muscle was as big as your head

-...

-Okay OKAY He was hot

-” wawawa (y/n)!!! whatcha looking at??” your friend smirked, her hair tickling your cheek as she looked in the same direction as you. She saw him and her evil smirk told you what she was gonna do.

- (f/n) no.

- Oh, but (f/n) yes.

-Before your obtrusive friend was able to embarras you you got up and walked towards him.

-You turned to her for moral suport and found her smirking and giving you the thumbs up dance.

- ...Your friend is pretty creative 

-You walked to him, slowly to cooly invite him to a drink but when you where si close yous shyness  got all like “BAM! BABBY IM BAC!” 

- Which means that you 

- Walked to him very sure and in the last  moment went al

- “nnnNOpE!”

- “(y/n) oH MY GOD!” your friend dramatically said.

- See, she knows you very well and knew you would do that. So she placed herself behind you and when you tried to walk away you clashed and you crashed into the pretty redhead lap.

- Oh yes 

- Your friend keep apologizing for you because you were startruck.

- So pretty

-So blue

- His eyes had you mesmerized 

- Like...like two pretty sapphires

-” Well thank you” he scratched his head, almost shyly. “ Nobody told me that”

- Oh shoot

-You said it out loud

- “No we’re just mind reading you actually.” said your unhelpfully helpful friend

-“ Stop smirking (f/n)! You look like a Cheshire cat”

-” Oh, I’d date Cheshire in a heartbeat, actually.”

-” She’s not that bad.” said the man

- Meanwhile you were a cute tomato

- Well, look at the positive side: You future husband and your bestfriend get along pretty nicely!

- “Ohh well look at the time! gotta go, take care of my friend ta-ta~” she smirked as she walked away

- “Please excuse her.” you said, blushing

-” No worried, beautiful. I know a friend just like that” he smiled. “acts just like that with..a grumpy bat”

- If by a friend you mean yourself  and by grumpy bat you mean Jason, you’re  not wrong Roy. 

- You both chuckle for a bit, he smiles sweetly 

- “Name’s Harper, Roy Harper”

- “ Im (y/n)” You smile, blushing slighty.

- You two hit it off nicely.

- He was a genius.

- He told you about this bots he was creating and if he had you hooked before now he had you all aboard .

- You can say your night was talking with Roy 

- Feat your bestfriend looking at you with a big proud teasing smirk and the promise of fangirling at home,Obviously

- At the end of the night, you two had echanged numbers, instagrams, twitters, life..

- After a loooong good bye ( long because none of you wanted to let go) it was his friend the black haired one who grabbed him by the hood and draged him away.

- what did he call him? jared? jonah? no no it had something with birds...Peakdick? no no...ooh! Jaybird!

- As it’s obvious, your friend did a batman on you.

- Meaning she interrogated you about the most minimum detail.

- She approved

- Meanwhile, Roy had with Kory talked on and on about how beautiful smart you were... 

-Kory, ever the shipper found your friend in instagram and now the two of them are the managers of your ship.

- CAAAAN YOU FEEEEL THE LOOOVE TONIGHT!!!!!

- That was the song that sounded on your first date. On your first dance

-Meaning, its your song

- Yes, the lion king is the song thats gonna play at your wedding.

- That’s what you get when you have Jason picking the music, Roy.

- You’re lucky it wasnt Batman, he would have picked the intro song and grabbed you bridal style and did a simba with you.

- I must say, Oliver and Dinah adore you.

- Dinah most of the two, she likes your style

- You ain’t taking any of roy’s s+ht

- Also, you two look wonderful with fishnets.

- Fishnets for da win

- Oliver is another story completely tho

- Oliver is like that embarrasing dad that makes way to many puns and brings out your baby pictures?

- That but worse.

- “ Look at this video, its Roy’s first ever training!”

-” did you just hit your forehead with your own kid’s toy arrow?” you said, bitting back a chuckle.

- “ QUEEN WHAT THE HEC- DONT SHOW HER THAT! STOP EMBARRASING ME!”

- That ain’t happening Roy.

- Not while im the narrator.

- *evil laugh*

- ejem, as i was saying

-  Your next 20000 dates were pretty sweet and romatic

- He call you all types of cutesy names like babe, honey, beautiful, angel, my queen, Firecracker...

- Obviously you get pretty embarrased when he call you the last one in public.

- “  Firecracker?? why  Firecracker??” asked an inocent Kory once

- “ Because she’s pure fire and i’d love if she made me go crack!”

-”....” 

- “Roy that one was pretty bad, and I’ve lived with Dick”

-” wait wait! i got more!  Firecracker because so sexy that makes me explode in blushes! and...not only blushes!”

-”ROY!” You shyly hide behind kory.

- “Actually, i think Kory is pure fire.” your bestfriend smirked at her.

- woah...i ship it.

- You call him cute nicknames too, like dork, speedy, darling, love...

- And all the hero and villain comunity knows you two as Bow and Arrow.

- You know who’s who *wink wonk*

- Thought you argued like all couples do

- Cause both of you are stubborn af

-Oh it’s a sweet memory that day you were arguing pretty heavy when suddenly Roy smashed you against the lockers in the watchtower and kissed you hard.

- You smashedd him against the mirror and pulled his leg around your waist

- He growled and picked you up sitting you on the marble

- And well, thats how you tainted the innocence of the watchtower.

- Maybe i can make that idea the imagine of tomorrow...

- ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) Is that a yes I hear?  ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

[pigstepmp3-moved]

do you have any soft buddie headcanons??

ok but like. almost Immediately after their first kiss, buck calls maddie while SCREAMING abt it

“MADDIE OH MY GOD GUESS WHAT” “stop yelling. but what?” “EDDIE KISSED ME. HE KISSED ME!!!! AND I KISSED HIM BACK!!!!!” “its about time. is that all?” *buck screaming incoherently in the distance*

they are Big on holding hands tbh. like, they dont do much pda at work, but they are Always holding hands. at any given moment, if they have the chance, theyre holding hands

when theyre Not at work tho, theyre totally cool w doing more pda. not a Whole lot just bc eddies not super comfy w it, but they def kiss a lot more in public than they do at work (tho thats not to say they Dont kiss at work, cause they Do. theyre just very sneaky about it)

before they move in together (bc they Do move in together eventually), after their dates, when buck gets home, he just has the goofiest and dreamiest smile for the rest of the day. maddie finds it incredibly endearing and sweet

bucks always super embarrassed to admit that hes having a mood drop-y, insecure kind of day, but bc eddies so observant and just Knows when hes having those bad days, he jus sorta. wraps buck up into a tight hug and tells him how much he loves him. and if buck ends up crying into his shoulder, then nobody needs to know

bucks heart like EXPLODES in his chest whenever eddie calls him cute pet names. bucks top favs are “honey” and like. All of the ones in spanish. but he loves All of them

and speaking of pet names. buck Usually just calls eddie “babe”, but sometimes he’ll call him “baby”, and it makes eddie melt

the first time buck spend the night at eddies, he talked a Big game to everyone. like, whenever sb asked him about his plans for the evening, he’d say smth like “im gettin dicked! down! tonight!” but really him and eddie just watched shitty made-for-tv movies and cuddled and talked about anything and everything before falling asleep on the couch

someone the next day: so. how was your night last night?buck: GREAT. i totally got FUCKED. thats an ACTUAL thing that happenededdie: youre the worst liar ever

when buck first came out to eddie as trans, he had been very….. nervous. the logical part of his brain Knows that its not gonna change the way eddie sees him and he Knows that eddie isnt gonna think hes like a freak or w/e but…… he cant help but be worried, yknow? but when he finally manages to get the words out, eddie just smiles at him, takes his hands into his own, and tells him “i really appreciate you telling me about this. youre really brave, you know that, right?”

bucks not crying, his eyelashes are just sweating

buck is the GREATEST step dad ok. he thinks christophers the coolest kid in the WORLD and he practically BEGS eddie to let him take chris out so just the two of them can hang out. buck always sends eddie plenty of selfies of him and chris while theyre out and eddie smiles like a total goober when he sees all the pics

sometimes, the three of them will go out together on little family outings and whenever buck hears sb say smth like “aw, look at that kid with his two dads!”, his heart goes doki doki SO hard

i dont have any like bg for this next one but its just a conversation that has ABSOLUTELY happened after buck came out to eddie

“nice gender, did your mom pick it out for you?” “wow. you really uh. you really got me there. i dont know how i’ll go on after being burned this badly”

[survivormetaverse]

Episode 12 - "i'm baaaaaacckkkkk 😈" ~Jodi

An iconic moment happened today and I accidentally voted my closest ally out of the game. So Brayden got sent home and he is going to hate me when he finds out what happened. I did kind of get him out on accident I did not mean for Brayden to go I wanted Jay gone but I was blindsided by Colin and Josh and Elle AND AMY!!??]£[_[3 Omg. Im really upset that hes gone i miss him so much and I dont know how Im gonna go on without his brain. I dont trust Jay but Jared and Jay were both messaging me about how they already forgive me and stuff so thats a little crazy. I think it could be fake or they are just desperate for numbers. But I am with Josh and Amy and Colin and Elle now. I want to be with their numbers. I talked to all of them individually and they said they all were sorry for lying to me and causing me to get my friend out. I know its just a game but I just feel awful and so guilty right now. This has probably been the worst day of my life. He probably will never play another org with me again and hes the only reason i play orgs its boring without him. We are best friends increal life and I hope he can forgive me. I havent said anything to him because thats breaking the rules. But when he finds out im literally so scared of what he'll say to me. I pray he will forgive me I am literally so dumb af.

i'm baaaaaacckkkkk..................... 😈

This is literally worst case right now with jodi winning the play back like throughout the day she has won back her allies including anastasia since she swapped coins with her. Elle, colin, and josh all gave me all their coins to grab immunity before the other side to protect me but also it makes me a bigger target lol plus I gave elle some swapped to get the second thing the leftover because I THOUGHT it could give us an extra vote since that was ony menu but I was tired and drunk and it was a LOT of words and it was just the hunts which I knew didn't have any and I feel terrible bc 150 tokens and my actual alliance is going to be so mad when they realize THAT I HAVE THE LAST ONES and fucked up in suggesting it at all. First they were going for info. So now I think Jodi got all the other sides tokens and they are pooling for something idek. It's literally worst case like we were set to be up 5-2 or at least 4-3 and now it looks like it's 4-4 again hahaha neat. And it looks like colin is chatting with jodi again and they are making deals lol like tbh if she gets to the end I am voting for her to win I've said it many rounds. Turns out anastasia and brayden not only know each other irl they are besties so she mad mad. And Josh looks to be making deals and thinking about flipping so I am on borrowed time but tbh I never expected to make merge. I am glad I have immunity bc I physically couldn't do the challenge anywU here lol and I fucked that up too hahahaha. Good times all around. Like I want to tell them about my steal a vote to have official numbers but now they'd just be mad hahaha literally colin and I had every advantage except jared's idol now. Ahhhh idk what to do but it remains hilarious. I'm expecting Raffy to give my info in these in the market and that is no bueno ahahahaha. I am tempted to just give colin everything bc it's funny. Also jodi talked to me until 1am just trying to guilt me into being back with her I said I have to sleep goodnight like 5 times minimum. Her social game is so good that's why I think she has them all back with her and possibly josh. The problem is that I was keeping her close bc she had the info from others and from my game. I really never had a number one lol bc I was just vibing and I guess now colin is bc I flipped with him lol and I think it's hilarious he grew his army from 0 to 5 almost.

~

I have a suspicion colin and anastasia have actually been closely aligned this whole time and she knew everything all along. Colin sure loves giving out info haha. And apparently deals are happening all over, none of which I have made 😂

Jodi's backkkkk, wild wild wilddddd. The challenge went poorly, darn thats like 20 minutes wasted. We bought the refresh and there was nothing there 💔 that's 150 tokens wasted 😅. But! We got Amy immunity✨ and then Colin won the challenge so tbh everything's still going great lol. Wonder how we're gonna vote this round :/ we'll see how this goes! I've stopped worrying whether I'm going completely, it either happens or it doesn't 💖 xoxo, gossip girl (this is misleading I HAVE NOT SEEN THE SHOW i just know way too much about it because i have friends that did lol)

So after I voted my showmance Brayden out of the game I was left with an interesting situation. I had cried to Josh Colin and Amy that I was alone now and that my whole alliance hated me. With Jodi back in, I dont think they believe me. I literally flipped sides so I could be in their alliance because I didnt trust Jay and Jared and Jodi. But they literally lied to me about the vote and said it was nothing personal to me but they didnt tell me the plan because they wanted to see if I was lying. Which sucks for me because I then voted Brayden out :( Now that they know that im truthful they said they would work with me now. But all of them have been pretty inactive today. I talked to Amy the most and a little Colin and a little Josh. But I wasnt in their alliance. So I asked Amy if I could be added into an alliance chat since I was apperently in their alliance now. And she said sure. And they added me to a vote block. That is not an alliance group chat btw. So I was like wow thanks. But inside I was like screw this. So before this all happened, Jodi, Jay and Jared put me in a true alliance group chat. This morning I was ready to work with Colin and Josh but not anymore. Not after they put me in a vote block chat clearly saying to me that I am just a number to be used. They don't even need my vote either because Amy has an idol and Amy and Colin are safe. So I'm obviously voting with Jay, Jared, and Jodi. And I know they probably have a final three without me. They could call it something really cool like the three J's. But I called Jay and explained everything to him. (Also Jay forgave me for literally trying to get him out. He umderstands that its a game and all of my motives about not trusting him anymore.) He said he would be a hypocrite if he didnt forgive me because he told people my name in the chaos vote. So I actually think we are cool. And I told Jay that I am his number one. Which is true. He told me a lot of things about how Amy is actually really smart and stuff (I thought that girl was just a goat that I could take to the end with me) But her and colin are tight and both immune. This is bad. Basically we will go to rocks unless Elle flips to our side. Jay is giving his pitch to Elle tommarow. And maybe I will apologize to her correctly tomarow too. ALSO SPELLING THE WORD TOMARROW IS THE HARDEST THING IN MY LIFE. Also I took 62 minutes to complete a puzzle today so thats kind of emberassing. Anyways bye everyone this was so much fun to type omg.

Lol I woke up to a text from jodi asking if anyone was taking about votes yet and I said no because I went to sleep early bc I almost passed out from heat yesterday and had just woke up and she responded "ummmm lol...." 🤣🤣🤣 Sorry I sleep. She's in Colin's dms saying how I was legit her number one and now we can't even talk about votes. Like yeah girl we worked our asses off to get you out of the game sorry I'm not happy you are back. Also I'm still at disney world so I don't have the time for a million conversations. I know I'm going to be the Russell Hanz of the f3 /if/ I make it. So what's jury management lol like she was already pissed I voted her out and I plan to do it again. Anyway it looks like it's hilariously about to be a unanimous jay vote tonight but I am thinking we throw one vote somewhere else in case of an idol. But if jodi did get anastasia back we can't do that. Anyway lol I'm immune so whatever. Elle and Colin discussed like if it's on elle (which apparently jared proposed an alliance of 5 which included myself lol!) Then we could go to rocks and have only josh as a possibility and statistically he won't go if he is willing to go to rocks that it. All this to say I'm f7 and I want to keep my extra vote to f6 if possible so I can use the idol for fun at f5.

https://youtu.be/snpKevncc44

My quest has come to an end. I joined this game to be someone who could be there for Jodi. Jodi and I played survivor subrosa together and we both had rough experiences due to a player in the game who harassed jodi and tried to convince everyone I was misogynistic. As much as I love Survivor, I didn’t play this game to win. I played this game because Jodi told me she was playing it and I wanted to be her body guard. I wanted to be someone who could be there for her both as a number but also as an enforcer, anybody who ever dared to do anything to Jodi would’ve had to have dealt with me. Tonight, Amy and Colin have immunity, and either amy or josh or elle have an idol, so there’s no point in making any noise tonight and wasting Jared’s idol. None of those 4 trust me, and I doubt any of them like me. It is what it is, it’s best for Jodi, Jared, and Anastasia’s game to move forward without me, and it’s smart for Jared to keep his idol. Tonight, I will be voted out, and I am 100% at peace with it. 

Since Elle, Josh, Amy and Colin pooled their tokens for immunity and advantage refresh, it means all the advantages and disadvantages are on our side. Plan is to send Elle a disadvantage and let Colin know because honestly it’s not hard to find out anyways. Jay doesn’t mind getting booted at some point cuz he wants to stand for me on the jury, but I don’t want to boot him right now. Obviously they won’t boot Elle, so I’m going to see if Jared will propose Anastasia. The thing right now is me/Jay/Anastasia/Jared also know next round is invisible. So I want Jay or Anastasia to send Colin and Amy disadvantages because if they’re paranoid seeing me Jared/Jay/Anastasia have advantages and they have disadvantages, they might be paranoid enough to play all their idols. I also wanted to keep Jay for this round as it’d be unanimous and something everyone can settle on. Jared wanted to do me/Jared/Josh/Amy/Colin as an alliance but has concerns about the 3 of them being in top 5 in the majority snd also Colin having his ideal f3. I told him my plan has the best shot at flushing all idols and hopefully we can either get Josh to flip or at least have Amy/Colin vulnerable at 5/6. Last thing is Jared is worried he’d be blindsided this round. I told him my plan and I said even if he wanted to flush his idol this round, next round should be ok if we all vote out Jay and the rest of them flush idols. Good to be back in the game! I genuinely believe Colin wants me as a shield at least for this round, and if I can make it through, I have a game to play. 

Not everyone saying they only bought an advantage lol what about those other 70 tokens 👀👀👀 Like it must be jay unless someone is lying haha i am hoping people are just busy bc these answers I'm getting from Josh and Colin are concerning 😂 It looks like only elle and got disadvantages ☠️ I am really hoping not to be a target next round even though I know I will be haha. Next round is only 7 and I'd love to take out jodi and jared before they turn on me ☠️ especially since colin creeped on jodi's insta and it is possible they know each other from sports irl. And she was so concerned about all these pregame connections 😂 and here it was likely to deflect. Anyway I just swapped my position of having jodi do all the social work with having colin do all the social work knowing full well I'm not gonna get those end votes. I'm just trying to pull up my placement average now 😂. I hope everyone sees me as having no social game to take me to the end lol bc realistically I don't bc I don't care to put in that time this game. As I write from the pirates of the caribbean line 😂 So anyway if I'm not being lied to which I might be it looks like unanimous jay tonight but also I think the other group was talking split on jay like a 3-3-2 and I'm like wait the 2 wouldn't help. Elle are you okay with that? So I think they must have figured out I have stuff ☠️ I wonder what people REALLY bought haha okay bye

Jodi is back, not just Jodi Jodi, but player Jodi. Player Jodi thinks a LOT. When I was out, the entire time I was hoping somebody caught on that Amy flipped because they knew to put a stray vote on Colin to protect him from chaos idol, but they left Josh exposed. Why? Because Colin knew Amy was going to throw a vote on Josh. Also, Colin tied with me for closest ally and that set off an alarm too. Onto the next. So Colin won immunity, Amy bought immunity, but this could possibly be good because it means they are playing knowing they are not at risk themselves. Anastasia is voting with them this round, but she's actually working with us. She told us that the actual plan on that side is: "Jay, Jared, Jodi vote elle and Elle, Amy, Colin vote Jay and Josh and Anastasia vote Jodi" Anastasia will vote me here to continue "working" with them for the next vote. Essentially, they thought that Jay had the merge idol this whole time and Colin was weary about it, and that's why he got nervous about sending out Jay last round. That told me Colin did not have the merge idol. Josh came to me too about Jay having the merge idol. But the way they're splitting the votes this round shows me now that somebody has stepped forward to mention they have it (likely Elle) because if Jay idoled, Elle goes in this split vote plan. Therefore, somebody must've been like "ok let's just be safe and split the votes, I have the other idol". That's good and bad because now Colin has no merge idol paranoia, and they're also able to use it together. It also did confirm to me they've talked about it. Here's where things get tricky. Player Jodi is so tempted to run with it and do a 4-3-1 Josh-Jay-Jodi but it's so risky and could possibly destroy the long term social game, especially if they idol for Josh and Jay goes anyway (we are not idoling for him here). So instead, I'm going to use Jay's vote out to the best of my advantage. Hopefully flush an idol if possible, maybe a steal-a-vote, something. Knowing about next round being invisible is good info for us. Having this info is so key and usually I would think that immunity for a round is bigger than this but being able to plan ahead for a GAME-CHANGING twist is crucial here. My move here is to play the game through psychological distress. I have no advantages! Since they're out of tokens from buying immunity, me/Anastasia/Jared/Jay bought advantages for ourselves and also sent out disadvantages to Colin/Amy/Elle. Seeing that not only we have advantages but also them having disadvantages, they probably still feel like things will be ok because they'll just split votes or whatever and one of them needs to win immunity. But given this is an invisible round, I think Amy is honestly paranoid enough to just play her idol, hopefully Elle does too, and then between me and Jared, we'll idol for one of us. I also plan on bluffing an advantage coming back from Jury, and say something along the lines of having to survive one round before the advantage got activated. I'm going for the win, everyone, I know that if I get to the end with anybody, I have a solid shot at winning. I just need to get there and to do that, I must play an adaptable game – more than ever. PS I am holding onto Jared's idol right now. Power (temporary) feels amazing. Dw I'm giving it back....😈

this has been the most chill round in a while. which is really weird consider JODI IS BACK AND WE BLINDSIDED BRAYDEN LAST ROUND this round is turning out to be what I WANTED last round to be. everyone is talking with everyone, people are trying to disband the sides and all intermingle. it's really interesting how no one else was on board with this until after they lost majority. seems like people don't like playing from the bottom. weird huh now these bitches know how I felt >:( anyway. jodi is back. it's weird. she knows that amy flipped now and everyone is playing very carefully my ideal boot this round was either jay or josh, in that order. so when my gay ass WON IMMUNITY I immediately put out jay's name. we already have the numbers, but I also like said my piece to jodi and jared, this is yalls chance to prove to me that you're really with me and sides don't exist. the ball is in their court do i trust them? no. am I worried? no. i have immunity, the scariest thing rn is that I think Jay is voting Elle, and if Jared and Jodi are with him then that's scary, bc Jared has an idol. The ONLY people I would play my idol for is Amy and Elle, and Elle being in trouble means I might have to play my idol on her if Jay idols himself. We have enough to split, so I'm not worried, I just hope all goes according to plan. sorry my confessional is lame. its the weekend now so i have time uwu. I'll write more the next few days

So this whole token twist thing has really annoyed me. Because of me wanting to show my loyalty to my alliance, i gave away all my coins to Amy so that she could but immunity. And against my wishes, Elle wasted her coins on the “advantage” which turned out to be a dud. I wanted to get coins together to buy game info or better yet, trade coins with other people. But i was left with nothing, while all the people on the other side used their coins to buy advantages in the next immunity challenge making it even harder for me to secure my safety. Maybe this new 2 Gays and a Jared alliance might actually pan out but im tired of getting the short end of the stick with everything.

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Edgic:

Power Rankings:

Anastasia: She is in the middle of the two sides. They both need her for the rest of this game before a side is terminated. She is the most powerful because she is in the middle.

Jodi: Has regained a lot of her footing in this game. Is being used as a shield by the people who voted her out. The decision to vote out Jay is questionable, but she still has a lot of power thanks to the knowledge Anastasia and Jared feed her.

Colin: The head of the opposing side. Seems to not know what is really going on with Anastasia. But his allies are willing to take him to the end which is good. Needs to avoid falling into a Jodi pitfall.

Amy: Her rat behavior has been exposed, but her allies are still willing to defend her. Second in command on the Colin side. She is being handed these immunities.

Jared: Jodi’s new #1. Will probably make it to the end of this game. However, he isn’t calling the shots and is in danger of being targeted as an “easy” vote or being called a goat at the end. Needs to start taking fate in his own hands.

Elle: Lost a lot of footing because of not telling Anastasia the truth. This move caused Anastasia to go back to Jodi’s side which will hurt in the coming round. Is the next target for the Jodi side.

Jay: Died on the sword for Jodi. I am confused why they didn’t just stack 4 votes somewhere else, but it is whatever. Has basically given up.

Josh: Left out of a lot of discussions. Is on the outside of his alliances and from the opposing side. Is the most in danger of getting targeted or being a casualty of an idol.

[cow3survivor]

Ep. 2: “I’m Trying To Lay Low” - Jake

JENNET

plan worked fabulously purrrrrrrrr

(a little later)

maybe its me being paranoid but why are jake,jones, and lindsay always the last three to leave calls............ when i have a f2 with all of em....

JESSICA

Song of the day is ELVIS by AOA. My favourite workout bop. Silver got voted out! So sad, I wanted to play with him. But also, kinda cool! This is the only game I have played where I truly didn't know anyone (except my very first ORG). What an experience. I know last confessional I said Sam and Shane were both kinda on the fence for me in terms of if I wanted to maybe work with them or not. An update: I think I want to work with both! Both of them, unprompted, told me they wanted to work with me if we lost immunity, and I have actually been getting along well with both of them I feel now that our conversations are moving past the sort of awkward beginning stages. I still like Sammy even though I probably should talk to him more oops... and Daisy/Lovelis/Ethan are also still in my good books. I kind of keep forgetting Pete and Cloud are on this tribe but when I remember, I am happy they are here. That being said, I think Cloud or Madison will be the first to go if we lose. Cloud is very inactive. Madison is too but she was at least on the call tonight. It might come down to how immunity goes. I want to participate because it will bond us as a team. That way even if we lose, I was a part of the team effort and won't stand out as someone who people don't know or want to work with. Also while I personally want Cloud or Madison out as I know them the least, I am not going to push it. I'll let somebody else throw out a name and as long as that name isn't Jessica then I will consider it. I sort of chilled today with the social game and only messaged people as they messaged me. The vibe of this team is very relaxed from what I can tell and I didn't want to overdo it with conversations and come across as too much. Tomorrow, my goal is to talk to every single person for at least 1 (one) whole real conversation. I might have to start using my good ol' tactic of sending people random youtube links and saying "what do you think of this" to get something going.... Honestly nothing starts a conversation like David Hasselhoff and his cinematic masterpieces that we call music videos. I hope the other tribe is full of problems so that when we eventually swap, I have a very easy time in this game.

LINDSAY

no recording tonight because i have a headache:( anyways i'm apparently not in as good of a position in the tribe as I was hoping. got left out of a six person group chat bc I was associated w Silver and people were nervous abt this vote w me. Jake luckily looped me in but I'm kind of bummed out people didn't trust me enough to let me in on this. I know it's probably just cuz Silver and I had been getting along alright the past two days but that means I'm in kind of a yucky position in the tribe that is starting to gear me up to a S6 type deal from survivor umich and I'm not fuckin' vibin. I'm gonna try to reach out (Nash appears to be ignoring me currently tho so lol) and try to fix that. I still want to work tight w Jones and Jake but I don't want them to be my only options. I need some more connections than that. ALSO WHEN SILVER DID THE THING MY HEART STOPPED LOL SO THAT MIGHT BE WHY IM BEING IGNORED also "you kept laughing at silver's jokes" was a comment someone leveled at me today and i couldn't find a good way to level and say i laugh at everything because that's how my brain is trained to react to everything. monkey brain cannot comprehend emotions so i laugh everything off. anyways i guess this is my clue i've got to step up. i mean, it's fine if i'm under the radar some because it's not merge yet so like it's fine, but i'm... worried. if nothing else we're even tho bc the galaghers got revealed as well as the six person alliance so we're all even here. bottom line is, i'm winning this fucking scavenger hunt this shit aint happening next week

JAKE

https://youtu.be/amXasrOidh0

y'all I'm still shaking from tonight tbh....

PENNINO

https://youtu.be/_26B1wn1pDw

JONES

https://youtu.be/7FngYQfYMB0

PETE

Nobody will want to vote me out if I have kittens and share pictures of them muahahahahahahahahahaha

JESSICA

Oh no, we lost! I hope that Shane and Daisy want to be a final 3 because that is what I am envisioning in my hopes, dreams, and mood board.

SHANE

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1mNEOfPVwOp-ltGoNTdEq59su-9Vl_Adm/view?usp=drivesdk

ETHAN

AHH TRIBAL IS SCARY MORE TO COME SOON BUT EVERYONE IS SO QUIET AND I DON'T LIKE IT BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE I AM THE TARGET BUT IF I AM I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY IT IS JUST WEIRDLY QUIET AND MY PARANOIA IS EATING ME ALIVEEE

DAISY

https://youtu.be/tBDHsLvF8W8

NICOLE

WE ARE IMMUNE!!! I’m so excited to have flipped the vote on Silver AND got us immunity but, I’m gonna have to be more careful if I’m gonna go far in this game. I know I can be strategic, I can be a comp threat but I really have to work on making myself a little dimmer in the social department. If we swap or merge obviously down the line, I feel like I’m gonna have a LOT of different potential paths to the end but, it won’t matter if they all realize that. So I really really have to be careful here. I am playing this game with a level head so far and really trying to make my rounds daily to talk to people. I am close with Jake, close with Jones and close with Nash. I am working on forming better bonds with Jabari, Lindsay and Jennet right now and honestly to me, Pennino is a non factor as well as Mikey but I am obviously going to try to maintain being on their good side. So that’s all I got for this round it’s been pretty tame except for Jennet immediately leaking our alliance by accident. At this point I really don’t think it matters.

MADISON

Okay so our tribe is not superhuman and we finally lost a challenge so we will be attending tribal tonight. Nobody is really saying much in terms of what will happen which is extremely worrisome, however, I did hear Sam on call very subtly throw Cloud out there and I'm kinda hoping that Jessica and Shane heard that too and will kind of run with it. Daisy wants both of us to be safe and I feel the same way so I'm hoping that's what will happen. In other news!!! I have officially begun the idol hunt one round too late but perhaps that works out better because if something is found, I'll know it. So because of the way things were worded during the hunt, the idol has either been found already or whoever wrote this system wanted to through a red herring in there to trick us. I'm going with the latter because I feel like Jarod would do that. That's all from this neck of the woods for now, hopefully will be writing another one of these bad bois next round :*

SAM

https://youtu.be/liGOEuFKiFo

JENNET

I WILL die for jones btw...

(a little later)

Survived the immunity challenge... at what cost

(after falling asleep on the beach)

The way we accidentally won that comp is literally a joke.... period i guess?

PETE

so we lost cus we’re the beauty tribe not the brains tribe fuck math dude anyways, it’s been hella fuckin quiet like not a lot of people are on and aren’t really talking. Up until about, 4 hours before tribal Sam comes to me and says the vote is gonna be Cloud and i’m like what who why. All he said is “that’s what he’s heard” honestly i think it’s just his own idea but whatever. I don’t know Cloud at all so it’s fine with me. Sam, myself, Jessica, and Shane apparently are all agreed to vote Cloud and with Ethan’s vote that’ll be 5.

CLOUD

i have nithing to say other than i might just be the stupidest person on the planet. absolutley nothing is happening in my head ever. if i stay its pure luck HSKSHSNSKBSKS

NASH

smiles at immunity... this is cute it feels good to not be in danger for once! i’m honestly still worried my tribe might want to cut me at next tribal but at least tonight can be chill! i hope kiki is first brookeisa boot xoxo

SAMMY

honestly there is no tea, daisy found an idol and gambles her vote but she lost her vote early so no worries w that! I love her so much and i hope she doesn’t snake me...but daisy if ur reading this, in this moment i love dont snake me mwah!! I love Jess and I love Cloud but everyone’s telling me Cloud is the vote but I’m so sad because I had such a good time with them and they are one of the few funny ones in the game!! Anyways not much is happening we lost the challenge cause we are just bad at math...blinks...I don’t think I’m in any danger and this vote should be unanimous. I was also told someone said I was one of the few active people so that’s a check in my book!

JAKE

https://youtu.be/HmtSAjyQoJI

I'm trying to lay low so if I'm not very present on Discord the next day or so that's why hehe

PETE

so ethan is down for voting Cloud, sammy too. Cool great awesome hot. i’m just sitting here vibing and suddenly Sammy tells me that my (and Madison’s) name came up for a second. He said it went away and it’s Cloud for the vote but like jskdhd why do i aaalways get targeted bitch i’m literally just sitting here whYY can’t i relax for once?! Frfr every survivor game it’s always this person or me. I’m always the other option and i just don’t get why lmao

LOVELIS

This tribes been kinda dead until like an hour ago plss, a new alliance of 5 has been organised and somehow me and Shane managed to make it seem like it was Jessica’s idea? Don’t really know how that happened in all honesty but a vibe. Then Daisy also leaked that she’s in another alliance who’s actively idol hunting so that was a lovely bit of beef that I love to see - my guess is she’s in a duo chat with Jess and they’ve tried to get this group formed with people who they think are unconnected, unbeknownst to them that me and Shane have a final two deal and I kinda have one with Sammy as well that happened on day one but it’s not really developed as of yet, he’s not really tried to talk game with me as of yet, but all in due time I suppose there’s plenty of time for more shenanigans 😂

MIKEY

HONESTLY Chile. Not much tea going around since this round we won. Im very proud of Nicole as she literally carried us and I pray she'll do it again dhbhsfg. Ive started getting really close with Jones and she's so fun to talk to, im hoping me her and nash can form a little trio and work together but who knows. Jennet STILL hasn't replied back after like a week so idk what's up w them LMAO

JABARI

So our tribe loved it when we blindsided silver, it puts me in a much better position than before. Now I have to talk more to people and take time to realize what's gonna happen. As of right now I have 2 alliances. The big majority one and the one where its just me and Jake and Jennet.

JENNET

exactly.... 

https://open.spotify.com/album/0pWu9s2gPdVgqHpMR2LDEx?si=uOqh6Ar9RiqNLUfaBZEkvw

TRIBAL COUNCIL

[clumsyclifford]

oh that sounds great how's samson the cutie doing? and i'm literally so happy for you that you don't have to take math finale i mean holy fuck that's amazing!! also good for you that you had tea. tea is literally the only thing keeping me sane (with slight help from iced coffee) how you survived three months without tea is beyond me.

thank you it's very appreciated & i love you very much as well 💖

had some free time today & used it to listen to a couple more songs of your taking out playlist (again really just my fav lines but maybe they overlap again 🙈)

kids in the dark firstly i fucking love this song and the line that takes me out is "what a shame beautiful scars on critical veins" though i love the whole "standing on the edge" part too

heaven the entire chorus kills me honestly specifically "heaven doesn't want me" but also "make a wish that you'll get a chance to say goodbye before the shots ring out in the dead of night"

life changes what a fucking song. is it normal to cry to this btw? "ain't it funny how life changes you wake up ain't nothing the same and life changes" has nearly always managed to get me to tear up (or well just the entire chorus)

if you're gonna lie tricky one bc amazing lyrics all in all and i think for you the taking out part might be the chorus bc you seem to have a thing for lies. "by loving you, i'm losing me every night" is my fav though

need me well fuck. okay. i love this song so much. entire first verse slaps. "i got peace and i got pain either way it's all the same" or "tell me that you need me will you love me ’til you leave me" i can see as taking out lines, specifically the second one for me bc it has sth so desperate to it i think? idk i just really love this song

speaking of songs i love dear winter ..one line? okay i gotta talk about this song for a sec bc like. why are they allowed to do that. why can they just hurt me like that. i don't even know if i want kids and then comes ajr is like here feel lots of yearning for your non-existent child and also your non-existent partner apropos this needs to go on my yearning playlist. anyway this whole fucking song literally murders me every single time. most of all "i gotta find a girl that doesn't mind that i'm inside my head a lot" bc. yeah. "i hope you talk to girls or boys or anyone you like i just hope you don't stay in every night 'cause i wish i was out tonight" and every variation of the chorus bc great fucking songwriting. i could go on about specific lines but i'd end up just copying the entire song so let's go with the lines i said.

love you very much and wish you a good night though i think it's like midday for you, fiancee

god i KNOWWW to all of that tbh. ive had so much tea since being home i am THRIVING i think i had three cups of tea today i am living my best life

oh okay sick!! let’s go

kids in the dark: yeah it’s “beautiful scars on critical veins” kitd isnt even one of my favorite atl songs but that is one of my FAVORITE lyrics. like of all time i just love it so much

heaven: HEAVEN DOESNT WANT ME ANYMORE!!!!!!! god have i mentioned i love nine. i do

life changes: im not sure it’s NORMAL to cry but i support you for doing it <3 the line is actually “you make your plans and you hear god laughing” because i just really like the energy of that. i think there’s a second one though which is “notebook full of bad songs i was writing” (i mean honestly the entire first verse) because I Sure Can Relate

if you’re gonna lie: HLKSJFG a THING for LIES PLEASE let me live. as a matter of fact the line is “you said you’re out with friends, but you’re with her tonight / i checked your location, good fuckin’ try” because <3 fletcher swearing <3 and i just love the delivery......the honesty.....the bluntness. it’s sexy

need me: YEAH!!! will you love me ‘til you leave me?? FUCKS ME UP. however there’s a bonus one because it’s not exactly about the lyrics so much as how the lyrics interact w the instruments, which is in the first verse where they say “kick drum” and there’s a kick drum at that moment. i fuckin love when music does that kind of thing

dear winter: GODDD I KNOW i fucking LOVE dear winter it makes me feel so much. i love it. and the line is “it really doesn’t seem like there’s anyone for me” i dont know........it’s so defeated man. it’s !!!!!! anyway. the line about finding a girl who doesn’t mind that i’m inside my head a lot also fucks me up

i hope you’re doing well <3

[spaced-queen]

I honestly dont think its my responsibility to go to work when im sick just because they wont hire or schedule a third person to work the closing shift. Tbh the only time 2 ppl close is on my shift and it takes 2.5 hours because I clean literally the entire restaraunt piece by piece while the other guy does the dishes and manager bullshit tht seemingly also takes 2.5 hours. Im sick of it. I have to walk home at 3:45 AM and come back the next afternoon to hear ppl be like "oh we leave an hour after we close" yea because theres 3 of you!! And whenever im sick they try to guilt trip me because "remember youre the only other closer tonight" IM NOT SPENDING BUS FARE TO BE SICK AT WORK TO SPEND BUS FARE TO LEAVE WHEN YOU FINALLY BELIEVE IM SICK CAUSE I THREW UP IN THE BATHROOM. I HAVE A BATHROOM AT HOME TO THROW UP IN. And its like....they know my vibe, this is gonna keep happening, weather im sick, or drunk, or lost, the only thing I can do is call nd let them know. And if they wanna ask me who theyre supposed to call, you know you can always CALL ON TYRONE! Cause I dont know any other employees cause there are none.

[internetdetectives]

11/11/19 - Chat with Erika

Erika_XP💚: "Oh my lord I am so sleepy”

Slinky Stinks△: "Dudes”

Slinky Stinks△: "I can't stay up untyl 11/11”

Slinky Stinks△: "I'm too sleepy”

Xenquility: "Dude

Xenquility: "sleep now and wake up later”

Xenquility: "If you're gonna sleep do it early”

Xenquility: "Cause it's only 4:30 est

Erika_XP💚: "I was supposed to sleep a while ago but I cant actually bring myself to sleep I am so excited and worried”

Xenquility: "Probably a good while till jid starts”

Slinky Stinks△: "B r u h”

Slinky Stinks△: "I gotta go 2 school”

Xenquility: "o”

Slinky Stinks△: "I can just stay up and drink redbull tho”

Slinky Stinks△: "That was my summer plans for two weeks”

The Sun: "All who get cancer from my radiance weren't born to bear the gifts I give unto them. :ArmLeft: :dawn: :ArmRight:”

Erika_XP💚: "Those things are rubbish”

Erika_XP💚: "poison really”

Slinky Stinks△: "I'm so brave, I sunbath WITHOUT CREAM”

Slinky Stinks△: "brUH”

The Sun: "Wtf is an erika”

Slinky Stinks△: "THAT COMEBACK WAS”

Slinky Stinks△: "LMAO XEN UR DED”

Slinky Stinks△: "SHE KILLED U”

Xenquility: "She uh”

Xenquility: "said”

Erika_XP💚: "Im sorry are you ok”

Xenquility: "ur mum”

Xenquility: "If that's a comeback I'm jumping off a roof”

Xenquility: "Why am I doing this anyways”

Xenquility: "What's life anymore”

Slinky Stinks△: "Shut up xen ur ded”

Slinky Stinks△: "She got chu”

Erika_XP💚: "I did not know my own strength on that one I feared I shattered you”

Erika_XP💚: "OH GOD THIS IMAGE DISTURBS ME FOR SOME REASON”

Slinky Stinks△: "Well then prepare for the day your skeleton gets freedom”

Slinky Stinks△: "It is uncomfortable inside a meat vessel”

Erika_XP💚: "I have delt with scarier”

Erika_XP💚: "I once watched the regiminis video but at 11:11 at night alone outside on my laptop”

Xenquility: "ok you do not exist”

Xenquility: "you are not real”

(...)

Erika_XP💚: "I think I passed out for a moment but I think  may have just woken up in time to make sure Tyler is ok”

Erika_XP💚: "@IIIII Tyler I am sure you are busy and can't see this but GOOD LUCK I have been saying prayers for you this whole day”

ADULT_LINK△: "just a uh”

ADULT_LINK△: "suggestion”

IIIII: "Jesus h christ fuck off”

ADULT_LINK△: "people tend to get annoyed when ya ping em needlessly”

Erika_XP💚: "I just wanted to make sure you were ok I am sorry”

Eevee Reborn: "Erika has severe stokholm syndrome”

Erika_XP💚: "Would you kindly sod off”

DensO Burton: "Oh god”

Ross the Claus 🎄: ":0”

Eevee Reborn: "Erika: exists”

Eevee Reborn: "Tyler: rabid foaming mad demon”

Xenquility: "It's like watching a disaster in slow motion”

DensO Burton: "Ok erika how do u imagine tyler's d”

DensO Burton: "Sorry”

Erika_XP💚: "I beg your pardon?”

DensO Burton: "Just a joke”

Erika_XP💚: "Sorry I am really socially awkward ^^;”

DensO Burton: "Don't worry it wss a BAD joke”

/Mr. Circle\: "i'm ashamed of the voice i read erika's messages in after "sod off"”

DensO Burton: "Lol”

/Mr. Circle\: "soteetos”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 10:56 PM: “ᴛʜᴀᴛ sᴇᴇᴍᴇᴅ ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴀ ʀᴜᴅᴇ ᴡᴀʏ ᴛᴏ ᴅᴏ ᴛʜᴀᴛ.”

otherLiam 10:57 PM: "I’m surprised you joined us in here. Not worried about our chats being monitored?” 

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 10:58 PM: "sᴇᴇᴍs ᴘᴏɪɴᴛʟᴇss ɴᴏᴡ.”

Densgivin 10:58 PM: "Hey”

Ross the Claus 🎄 10:58 PM: "hey ghost”

Xenquility 10:58 PM: "Nice role….”

otherLiam 10:59 PM: "Anything interesting going on?”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 11:00 PM: "ɪᴛ ʜᴀs ʙᴇᴇɴ ᴀ ᴡʜɪʟᴇ, ɪ ᴀssᴜᴍᴇᴅ ɪᴛ ᴡᴀs ᴛɪᴍᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴅʀᴏᴘ ɪɴ.”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 11:00 PM: "ɪs ᴛʜᴇ ʀᴏʟᴇ ᴄᴏʟᴏʀ ɪᴍᴘʀᴏᴘᴇʀ, xᴇɴ?”

Xenquility 11:00 PM: "Just the name”

Xenquility 11:00 PM: "Mainly the /”

Xenquility 11:00 PM: "and the \”

Xenquility 11:00 PM: "Anyways, seems more than coincidental the "Time to drop in” is 11/11”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 11:02 PM: “ɪ'ʟʟ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ ɪᴛ ᴛʜᴇɴ.”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 11:02 PM: "ᴀʀᴇ ʏᴏᴜ sᴀᴛɪsꜰɪᴇᴅ?”

Xenquility 11:03 PM: "Very”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 11:04 PM: "ɪ'ᴍ ɢʟᴀᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ʏᴏᴜ ᴀʟʟ ʀᴇᴄᴇɪᴠᴇᴅ ᴍʏ ɢɪꜰᴛ.”

Xenquility 11:05 PM: "Im dumb”

Xenquility 11:05 PM: "no surprise there”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 11:05 PM: "ɪ ᴛʜᴏᴜɢʜᴛ ᴍʏ ᴛʀᴀᴅᴇᴍᴀʀᴋ ꜰᴏɴᴛ ʟᴇᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ɪɴ.”

Xenquility 11:06 PM: "Yeah I got it now”

Xenquility 11:06 PM: "My brain likes to act before I think”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 11:06 PM: "ɪ ɢᴇᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ꜰᴇᴇʟɪɴɢ ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ ᴀʀᴇ ᴅɪsᴄᴜssɪɴɢ ɪɴ ʏᴇᴛ ᴀɴᴏᴛʜᴇʀ sᴇᴄʀᴇᴛɪᴠᴇ ᴄʜᴀᴛ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴍʏ ᴘʀᴇsᴇɴᴄᴇ ʜᴇʀᴇ ʙᴀsᴇᴅ ᴏɴ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴇᴅɪᴛᴇᴅ ᴛᴇxᴛ.”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 11:06 PM: "ᴘᴇʀʜᴀᴘs ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪs ᴍʏ ᴏᴡɴ ᴜɴsᴀᴛɪsꜰᴀᴄᴛᴏʀʏ ᴘᴀʀᴀɴᴏɪᴀ ʜᴏᴡᴇᴠᴇʀ.”

Xenquility 11:07 PM: "No, my original text was me snarkily saying "What gift?” before I realised it was the video”

Xenquility 11:07 PM: “I’m surprised there aren’t as many people here right now”

Xenquility 11:07 PM: ”(Everyone here raise your hand)”

Ross the Claus 🎄 11:09 PM: “:raised_back_of_hand:”

Xenquility 11:09 PM: "Liam was here but has disappeared in the past two minutes or so”

Eevee Reborn 11:10 PM: "Hand”

Xenquility 11:11 PM: "Hey Ghosty, just to confirm, what day and year is it for you?”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 11:11 PM: "11/11 2019”

Xenquility 11:11 PM: "Good”

Xenquility 11:11 PM: "Should we be doing anything to help those in the past?”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 11:12 PM: "ɪᴛ’s ᴀʟsᴏ 11:11”

Erika_XP💚 11:12 PM: ”@IIIII  This is the pivitol moment I always assume. TYLER LET US KNOW IF YOU ARE OK”

Ross the Claus 🎄 11:12 PM: “fucking stop”

IIIII 11:13 PM: "not only is it 11:12 but you are single handedly the most annoying little fuck to ever grace this group”

Erika_XP💚 11:13 PM: "Im just glad to know you are ok”

IIIII 11:13 PM: "NO NO I AM NOT OK ACTUALLY”

otherLiam 11:14 PM: "this has now crossed over into obvious trolling”

IIIII 11:14 PM: "were yuo expecting a fucking video?”

Xenquility 11:14 PM: "Can we just ban them at this point”

IIIII 11:14 PM: ”@Erika_XP💚”

IIIII 11:14 PM: “@Erika_XP💚”

IIIII 11:14 PM: ”@Erika_XP💚”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 11:15 PM: “ᴛᴏᴜᴄʜʏ.”

IIIII 11:16 PM: "Fucking a yuo dumb bitch dont worry there will be a video tonight its just going to be late now because I had to sit here and call you an annoying cunt for distracting me”

ADULT_LINK 11:18 PM: "oof”

Erika_XP💚 11:18 PM: ”@ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ I dont think he is usually like this I think he is just having a bad time considering the day. I will harden myself as well!”

ADULT_LINK 11:19 PM: “snrk”

Erika_XP💚 11:19 PM: "what is this short for?”

otherLiam 11:21 PM: "Assuming you aren’t trolling because I’m bored, it’s not short for anything. It’s the sound of someone holding in a laugh.”

ARGdov 11:23 PM: "oh shit I missed soem shit”

otherLiam 11:23 PM: "not much”

otherLiam 11:23 PM: "mostly just ghostbabel joined”

otherLiam 11:23 PM: "and tyler yelled at erika for being annoying”

ARGdov 11:23 PM: "well I also see someone got chewed out lol”

ARGdov 11:23 PM: "astounding”

QuoteBOT 11:26 PM: "Ok erika how do u imagine tyler’s d”

ARGdov 11:26 PM: "ive heard its quite a lot for most to manage tbh”

ARGdov 11:26 PM: "so Im wondering too”

Erika_XP💚 11:27 PM: "Ok I get that I am annoying, I remind myself of this often. But I see no reason for all the awful aggression. I only excuse it because of who we are talking about here and considering the situation.”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 11:27 PM: "ɪ sᴇᴇ ɪ ᴀᴍ ɴᴏᴛ ɴᴇᴇᴅᴇᴅ.”

Eevee Reborn 11:27 PM: "The fuck”

Xenquility 11:27 PM: "Actually you are needed”

ARGdov 11:27 PM: "nope”

Xenquility 11:27 PM: "We always need you”

IIIII 11:27 PM: "You were literally never needed”

ADULT_LINK 11:27 PM: "hi ghost”

ARGdov 11:27 PM: "as usual we are capable of tearing ourselves apart on our own”

ADULT_LINK 11:27 PM: "howsit goin”

otherLiam 11:27 PM: "okay hang on what is happening here”

IIIII 11:27 PM: "can you stop fucking larping”

ARGdov 11:28 PM: "Im lost”

ARGdov 11:28 PM: "if tylers fucking ooc why is ghost not ooc”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 11:28 PM: "ᴄᴀɴ ʏᴏᴜ?”

otherLiam 11:28 PM: "That’s what I’m wondering”

Eevee Reborn 11:28 PM: "This went from trial of fire to full on…. dammnit, Dov’s watching”

ADULT_LINK 11:28 PM: "oof”

ARGdov 11:28 PM: "lol what did I do now”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 11:28 PM: "ɪ ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ʀᴇᴀʟʟʏ ɴᴇᴇᴅ ᴛʜɪs, ᴀɴʏᴡᴀʏ, ᴀᴅɪᴇᴜ.”

IIIII: "Oh trust me I would fucking love to dumbass”

otherLiam: "Is this ooc?”

ARGdov: "night, ghost”

Eevee Reborn: "Oof”

ARGdov: ".....if it is Im confused.”

otherLiam: "I can’t even fucking tell anymore.”

ARGdov: "but also if I start asking Tyler questions I feel like it'll annoy him more lol”

Erika_XP💚: "what does ooc mean?”

ARGdov: "out of character”

ADULT_LINK△: ":eye::eye:”

Eevee Reborn: "I'll ask him a question”

IIIII: "@Erika_XP💚 it means none of this is real and you are a stupid cunt brb”

ARGdov: "gosh”

otherLiam: "ok so he is ooc”

otherLiam: "but is talking to characters”

ARGdov: "weird”

ARGdov: "still dunno what you mean by this xD”

otherLiam: "by the way eevee, it’s become clear this is a troll”

Eevee Reborn: "You guys are brutal”

ARGdov: "this is certainly a new form of trolling tbh”

ARGdov: "acting like a fangirl who wants sempai to notice her”

ARGdov: "this is forwarding the field of trolling quite a bit, it used to be you barged in and called people slurs and made them mad”

Eevee Reborn: "Quick, let's play bolero of fire so Erikas epic trial of fire has a soundtrack”

ARGdov: "this is much more subtle”

ARGdov: "much more sinister”

otherLiam: "where’ve you been, trolling has advanced quite a bit”

ARGdov: "much more traditionally feminine”

ARGdov: "she deserves an award”

otherLiam: "i’m gonna laugh when it turns out this is just wolfcat on another screen”

Erika_XP💚: "I dont know where this "trolling" idea comes from”

Xenquility: "Honestly the wolf idea has come to my head a few times”

Eevee Reborn: "Feminine troll”

ARGdov: "@Erika_XP💚 I present to you this honorary doctrate in trolling”

ARGdov: "oh my gosh”

Xenquility: "fuckdsf”

ARGdov: "this being Wolf”

ARGdov: "that makes a lot of sense”

ARGdov: "but also like”

ARGdov: "I dunno if he'd do that”

ARGdov: "after he got in trouble for gamejacking”

Xenquility: "They did  just freak out after being accused of being wolf”

otherLiam: "he totally would”

ARGdov: "they did yes”

ARGdov: "which makes me wonder if they are”

Xenquility: "Also wolf has never been online with her”

Xenquility: "Or interacted with her”

ARGdov: "shit yeah”

otherLiam: "lmao”

otherLiam: "good bit wolf”

ARGdov: "@Wolfcat WHERE ARE YOU”

otherLiam: "10/10”

ADULT_LINK△: "what iff....”

ARGdov: "you got us all lol”

ADULT_LINK△: "this is ALl canon”

otherLiam: "that’s a good fuckin bit”

ADULT_LINK△: "im :high:”

ADULT_LINK△: "fuck”

ARGdov: "thorin”

ARGdov: "you're always high”

ARGdov: "and you've lost track of the story”

ADULT_LINK△: ":eye:”

ADULT_LINK△: ":eyes:”

otherLiam: "we’ve all lost track of the fuckin story”

mfgreth: ":thinking:”

ARGdov: "@Erika_XP💚 because you're wolf we're revoking your honorary doctrate”

Eevee Reborn: "Quick Dov, we need your wise ideas. Ideas that have NEVER lead us astray.”

otherLiam: “greth pls help”

ARGdov: "yes, listen to me”

ARGdov: "clearly I have always made the right decision in this ARG”

Xenquility: "We need to post a screenshot of the future to the past”

Xenquility: "bomb plans 8.9”

otherLiam: "brilliant”

otherLiam: "then we play the oath to order and summon all the giants”

Eevee Reborn: "We look Dov. Our overlord”

Xenquility: "Then song of storms 10 hours which we never turn off”

otherLiam: "but then we use the giant mask to make them bigger”

Xenquility: "then .root”

otherLiam: "then we >c_connect johnisdead.com”

Erika_XP💚: "who is wolf?”

ARGdov: "uh no we dont need to use the giant mask to mkae them bigger”

ARGdov: "https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BWbkxaTU1Z0”

ARGdov: "we'll just use the rita repulsa method”

otherLiam: "damn u rite”

mfgreth: "You wan erika banned???”

Xenquility: "yes”

Xenquility: "please god”

otherLiam: "prolly a good idea”

otherLiam: "before tyler’s head explodes”

Xenquility: "holy shit the tags on the pumpkinpology video say "erika"”

Xenquility: "no jk”

otherLiam: "...holy shit there’s no way.”

Xenquility: "no”

Xenquility: "I'm kidding”

ARGdov: "ahahahhaha”

otherLiam: "fuck off”

otherLiam: "dont do that to a man when he’s already hurtin”

ARGdov: "in any case I need a magic wand to go make whatever the fuck grow”

Eevee Reborn: "Penor”

Erika_XP💚: "Why should I be getting banned???”

ARGdov: "because you're Wolfcat”

otherLiam: "because you’re either a troll, wolfcat, or way too young to play this game.”

mfgreth: "Im not gonna ban erika”

mfgreth: "I dont see a reason tbh”

ARGdov: "or alternaively because you are a naive nusiance and for once we're gonna nip a problem in the bud before it gets too large”

Eevee Reborn: "And being wolfcat is NOT a victimless crime”

Xenquility: "(They might not actually be wolfcat lmao)”

otherLiam: "I mean she literally poked tyler until he was forced to drop character

with weird fan worship”

ARGdov: "see the one thing is about her being wolfcat Im not sure about is”

ARGdov: "Tyler was super pissed at him literally yesterday”

ARGdov: "why would Wolf decide to try and troll him”

otherLiam: "im mostly memeing, i doubt it’s wolf”

Erika_XP💚: "Maybe you are naive actually, just last night I was linking one of you a video none of you had technically ever seen and now you are acting like this”

ARGdov: "Im pretty sure we had seen that video actualy”

otherLiam: "wat”

ARGdov: "just because it ws unlisted doesnt make you special”

Eevee Reborn: "Wolfcat likes to start drama. Big drama starter always. Yup”

ARGdov: "actually Im next to POSITIVE we have”

otherLiam: "What video was it?”

Xenquility: "Yknow if this is a troll they've succeeded”

Xenquility: "We're all fighting over nothing on 11/11”

otherLiam: "I mean, nothing’s happened yet.”

otherLiam: "Other than the Greths poking us”

Xenquility: "If they aren't getting banned we can't do anything about it”

otherLiam: "and GB joining”

mfgreth: "I can protect erika with communism”

otherLiam: "people cant even protect their own families with communism”

ARGdov: "this was the video”

Xenquility: "Yeah we've seen that”

ARGdov: "Im aware”

ARGdov: "Erika claimed she was the first person to find it”

Xenquility: "It's been on the ID channel for months”

ARGdov: "my point is literally just that she was wrong”

otherLiam: "Not only have we seen that”

otherLiam: "we’ve also solved the ciphers on it” 

ARGdov: "yup”

mfgreth: "Rood”

ARGdov: "look, if shes not Wolf, then idk what her deal is”

ARGdov: "because she clearly knows to some extent that this isnt real. earlier yesterday she asked if the issue was "gm stuff"”

otherLiam: "listen slinky’s a kid, but at least he just endearingly screws up instead of weirdly worshipping Tyler.”

Xenquility: "I think we should just drop the issue for now. We're not going to be reaching a resolution anytime soon and to be fair, if this is a really young kid, we've kinda just mobbed on her like a lynch mob”

otherLiam: "this is clearly a plant from the lunar children”

ADULT_LINK△: "i bet yall bitches never seen THIS video”

otherLiam: "if you post rickroll”

ARGdov: "or its Raven”

ARGdov: "or Suxx”

ARGdov: "honestly I would buy it being Raven”

ARGdov: "...”

ADULT_LINK△: "and now nobody else gets to see the video”

ARGdov: "Im not sure if we have seen this”

ARGdov: "Ive opened it”

Xenquility: "oh my gid”

Xenquility: "I love this”

ARGdov: "oh my gosh”

ARGdov: "its a monica vid”

ADULT_LINK△: ":hylotl_eyes:”

ARGdov: "of course”

otherLiam: "tfw you will never have tyler because his heart belongs to monika sempai”

Xenquility: "Some say video 2 only appears once a year”

otherLiam: "just monika”

ARGdov: "always”

ARGdov: "just monika”

ARGdov: "only monika”

otherLiam: "Just Monika”

otherLiam: "Just Monika”

otherLiam: "Just Monika”

ARGdov: "smack Liam”

ARGdov: "GET AHOLD OF YOURSELF MAN”

otherLiam: "neck snaps at 90 degree angle”

ARGdov: "OH SHIT”

otherLiam: "runs at screen”

ARGdov: "pulls out fairy in a bottle”

ADULT_LINK△: ":honl:”

ARGdov: "heals you”

ADULT_LINK△: ":fairy:”

otherLiam: "dov have you played this dumb game”

Xenquility: "what the hell he gets a sledge hammer”

ARGdov: "I have but I didnt finish it tbh”

ARGdov: "but I know its deal”

Xenquility: "this usb is indestructible”

otherLiam: "takes too long to get going imo”

otherLiam: "act 1 should be like, a day shorter”

ARGdov: "eh, whatever”

ARGdov: "its god shit either way”

Xenquility: "LMAO I didn't see the "Game" part and I thought you were talking about the video”

ADULT_LINK△: "im gonna keep smoking and open my  f o u r t h  e y e “

ARGdov: "this reminds me”

otherLiam: "no im talking about ddlc”

otherLiam: "also man”

ARGdov: "I should keep palying Dream Daddy”

otherLiam: "it’s almost not 11/11 anymore on the ec”

ARGdov: "but it was so wholesome it made me gag”

ARGdov: "rip”

ARGdov: "somethings coming”

mfgreth: "Yeesh”

Eevee Reborn: "Me :sweat_drops:”

Eevee Reborn: "Now if anyone is going to obsessively fangirl over a hottie, jontron is it”

otherLiam: "he got married”

Eevee Reborn: "Jontron > Tyler”

ARGdov: "what if I wanna fangirl over someone else”

mfgreth: "Happy 11/12”

ARGdov: "Lestat the Vampire > Jontron”

ARGdov: "he can suck me any day”

otherLiam: "but something’s” 

otherLiam: "changed”

otherLiam: "Changed”

otherLiam: "Changed”

otherLiam: "CHANGED”

mfgreth: "Lestat is a punk bitch”

ARGdov: "or any night, I guess”

ARGdov: "well yeah and thats why hes great”

Eevee Reborn: "Lestat? But he's french.”

ARGdov: "I can forgive him for that”

Erika_XP💚: "11/11 is over @IIIII Tyler are you safe? I hope so”

ADULT_LINK△: "oh goddamn it”

otherLiam: "erika”

otherLiam: "stop spamming tyler”

Erika_XP💚: "Whatika?”

Eevee Reborn: "Oof”

ADULT_LINK△: "i had the song i wanted to hear earlier downloaded :dabeangery:”

ARGdov: "no one likes getting that manys pings”

Erika_XP💚: "Im not spamming him”

ARGdov: "also”

ARGdov: "NONE”

otherLiam: "he’s been pretty clear he wants you to stop”

ARGdov: "OF THIS”

ADULT_LINK△: "quit pingin him”

ARGdov: "IS REAL”

ADULT_LINK△: "EVERYTHING”

ADULT_LINK△: "IS”

ARGdov: "SO STOP ACTING LIKE IT”

ADULT_LINK△: "REAL”

ARGdov: "Tylers not in character right now”

ARGdov: "in fact, do you know whats happened to Tyler in-game?”

Eevee Reborn: "Ben is real Dov, stop ruining the emersion”

ARGdov: "Tyler was kidnapped”

ARGdov: "and taken to another dimension”

ARGdov: "and we dont know whats happened to him”

IIIII: "I'll show you something real”

ARGdov: "so before you spam, read the fucking wiki for starters”

Xenquility: "LOL”

Xenquility: "She's gone”

IIIII: "Fucking stupid bitch”

Eevee Reborn: "what happened”

mfgreth: "What the heck”

ARGdov: "what?”

ARGdov: "no shes still here for me?”

ADULT_LINK△: "why u so aggresive over the dum fangirl”

ADULT_LINK△: "yeesh”

otherLiam: "she’s a troll”

ADULT_LINK△: "like i get she's annoying you but like”

ARGdov: "dumb fangirls tend to do that topeople”

ADULT_LINK△: "still, we didnt get this hostile towards raven”

ARGdov: "um”

ADULT_LINK△: "at least, not this quickly”

ARGdov: "we sort of did? after awhile?”

mfgreth: "Wow”

mfgreth: "Tyler”

ARGdov: "like I literally told her to fuck off”

IIIII: "What”

Eevee Reborn: "Is she kicked or something?”

ARGdov: "granted I didnt call her a bitch but still”

mfgreth: "Banned”

ARGdov: "no shes still here, Im p sure”

otherLiam: "man i tried to give her the benefit of the doubt but she really did kinda reach that point real fast”

ARGdov: "@Erika_XP💚 testing”

Eevee Reborn: "OOF”

ADULT_LINK△: "she got kicked”

ARGdov: "oh ok”

ARGdov: "well”

ARGdov: "we did try and explain to her multiple times she was acting inappropirately but she refused to listen”

ARGdov: "so, even if we were pretty harsh on her overall the ban still seems deserved”

otherLiam: "just constantly pinging tyler and asking him weird shit”

ADULT_LINK△: "damn”

Eevee Reborn: "Wow, Tyler. Wow”

ADULT_LINK△: "fuckin brutal yall”

mfgreth: "Thats fucked up imo”

mfgreth: "I am not down with that”

otherLiam: "she referred to him as “my Tyler”.”

ARGdov: "and called him 'handsome'”

mfgreth: "Shes probably 12”

mfgreth: "Or 14”

ARGdov: "wait no she didnt but she said something close to that”

Eevee Reborn: "My tyler? Handsome? That BITCH”

otherLiam: "slinky is 13”

mfgreth: "What if she has some sort of spectrum disorder?”

otherLiam: "he doesnt act like that”

ADULT_LINK△: "she sounded older than 12/14”

ARGdov: "I was an obnoxious needy 14 year old and I wasnt this bad”

ARGdov: "you know”

ARGdov: "she may have been on the spectrum”

otherLiam: "what if she does? who cares? i hold people to the same standard of not being assholes.”

Eevee Reborn: "No, you've gotten badder”

ADULT_LINK△: "when i called her young she said something about who said she was young”

mfgreth: "I feel like yall are gonna do the usual fucking thing start speculating i was erika trolling like you did wolf”

mfgreth: "(Bs btw)”

mfgreth: "But im not cool with that”

mfgreth: "Im out.”

otherLiam: "that was mostly a joke”

ARGdov: "but even people on the spectrum can understand that when you're told "you should stop this" multiple times will usually stop”

ADULT_LINK△: "whys everyone bein so fuckin hostile tho jesus”

otherLiam: "wat”

ARGdov: "oh I dont think shes you”

ARGdov: "I mean”

ADULT_LINK△: "shes not mugen, she's just some random chick whos a bit odd”

Xenquility: "Wha-”

Xenquility: "Holy fuck”

ARGdov: "I dont think greths totally wrong tbh”

ADULT_LINK△: "aaaand greth left”

ARGdov: "Tyler got out of hand”

ADULT_LINK△: "goddamn it you guys who the fuck gave everyone angery pills”

ARGdov: "welp”

ARGdov: "wait shit”

/Mr. Circle\: "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANGERYYYYYYYYYYYY”

Xenquility: "Welp”

ARGdov: "...oh ok right other people are mods”

/Mr. Circle\: ":angery:”

Xenquility: "If they're a troll, they sure as hell succeeded”

/Mr. Circle\: "this emoji is massive??”

ADULT_LINK△: "emoji's are bigger when alone!”

ADULT_LINK△: ":notzelda:”

ADULT_LINK△: "i love it”

ADULT_LINK△: "makes gif ones easier to see”

IIIII: "So tonight”

IIIII: "is finally the end”

ARGdov: "I do think Tyler got out of hand and honestly I probably did too, but, also....yeah she needed to get banned.”

ARGdov: "the end?”

otherLiam: "The end?”

IIIII: "I hope you are excited”

/Mr. Circle\: "the end?”

ARGdov: ".....nope now Im nervous”

otherLiam: "arg ends in a rickroll”

IIIII: "I have been for years”

otherLiam: "is this real? We’re really ending it?”

ARGdov: "no way”

otherLiam: "the final death of the id’s”

ARGdov: "its not ending like this.”

otherLiam: "jk i’ll fuckin start something if it really is”

[survivorinternational]

Episode 8 - "You got outwitted and outplayed, and soon... you will be outlasted." - Michael

HAHAHAHAHA omg I didn't get voted out and I still have an idol this is awesome! And good on everyone for breaking up that 4 I'm kinda glad Randy is gone but I'm glad I didn't have to be the one to do it. 

Things went odd last round, i think any trust i had in the undersog alliance is gone and vice versa, i think they were playing me and i surprised them with immunity. At least that showed Allan where he stood with them. Now I’m back to putting it all in with the ala mai alliance. To emily, liana, allan, and vilma though, I want them to think of my as a possible flipper. Good god Im a messy player.

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https://drive.google.com/file/d/1V-RSwer7lduEhNN176RfuaIrZZEzyqpe/view?usp=drivesdk

That tribal was a fucking mess. No-one was willing to throw out names until the last min which lead to the most stressful, panicked scramble I've ever seen. Originally there was a chance that there were enough votes for Randy. Emily seemed very hesitant to on her OG tribe and Allan wanted to vote elsewhere. About 3 hours before Tribal, Allan suggested the numbers would be there to take out Liana, and after some discussion, the vote seemed to switch onto her. Then, as if noticing he was safe, Randy pushed for a vote onto Jacob. This immediately got everyones back up and caused all the votes to go back onto Randy. It was his own fault he got voted out and frankly... I am glad. The reaction from both Randy and Clash is comical and sad at the same time. Randy seemed to take the vote far to personally and the way he acted after is not in the spirit of the game (calling people ugly and dumb cunts in PMs) Clash saying "no-one told him about a Randy vote" and that everyone lied to him... Im sorry, but this is a game that involved Outwitting... you got Outwitted and outplayed and soon... you will be outlasted. And don't pull that "everyone lied to me" bullshit... You lied to everyone else as well... you even said to me that you "spoken to Jacob to much to vote for him" what happened there huh? All in all, With that tribal out of the way, it seems like we now have a few alliances. The OG Ala Mai (Jacob, Tyler, Stephen and myself), The Trust Cricle (Vilma, Emily and myself), the outsiders (Clash, Pat and Liana) and Allan finding his way. If I can get Allan on board, we should be able to flush out one or 2 idols next vote while still taking out an outsider. GAME ON MOLES!!! 

i bid all my money on one item and it ended up being nothing i guess that’s what i get 

Final 10 baby. I've been trying to lay low, talk to people and make a minimal presence, but after the Randy vote, and ironically having the most votes out of anyone this season, it's been hard. At this point I've managed to wriggle my way into a position that almost anyone can come talk to me, hopefully I can do some more talking to the likes of Patrick, Allan and Liana. I don't want them to potentially be on the jury thinking that I don't want to talk to them at all.

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Received votes at 3/3 tribals, and if Liana's group targets me again, and flips Emily/Vilma, I'll be a goner. I tested the waters with Michael, Clash and Stephen about voting Emily, Michael wasn't down so I pulled back instantly, I'm now hoping that that didn't make a lasting impression and I can get the vote onto Patrick again. If I can get Clash to use his extra vote on Patrick, and get in touch with Vilma/Emily/Allan, I may be safe.

-_- that is all

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So things are weird atm. Jacob and co want to vote out Pat, and think Clash is on board with that. Clash is telling me he is lying, and that he is really trying to get me Liana Pat Allan Himself and his extra vote to vote out Emily. Soooo Idk what to do. On one hand Emily is a strong player, on the other hand Clash is A Mess(tm). However Clash thinks we’re tight. It boils down to who i want to piss off, Emily and co. who arent really working with me, and by extension the rest of og ala mai. Or, Clash and co. who are a little less together, but maybe thats better in the long run? 

so apparently jacob has doubted my loyalty and is coming for me. fat fucking chance you arrogant moron. i saved you the past two round and now i’m going to be the reason you go home! like literally! do not fucking cross me it will not be pretty! :) he has made me mad beyond belief so a blindside WILL be coming honey. it will be.

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not little miss emily heading a big blindside against jacob and the ala mai boys? yee freaking haw! i think this will literally work. we should have like six or seven votes on jacob if my plan works out how i want it to :)

Hi, yay randy went home he wasn’t my favourite. Now pats the target and we’re having a hoot of a time

What is even happening. I cant keep up with this game and I'm so frustrated with being played by everyone all the time.

I feel bad I didn't have time to explain the last round properly, but all I'm gonna say is it was quite messy and I changed my mind a couple times. Ultimately Em got put off by Randy's unwillingness to vote Liana and he threw my name out so we felt more comfortable voting him out instead of Liana. Moving on to this round: I'm p sure the og Ala Mai bois have an alliance I just hope Michael doesn't leak everything to them I'm trying to be as open as possible with both Emily and Michael so they would trust me 100% I need to be able to trust at least some people's word here Jacob has lowkey been dictating the merge votes so far Seems like he is kinda dictating this one too I think last round going his way gave him confidence to throw names out I'll let him do that in hopes of keeping away from the spotlight But since we're voting out people he's the least connected with, I have to try and remember what would be the ideal moves from my perspective I think getting rid of one of the people who voted in minority is a solid idea for this round Because if we got rid of someone else they would have a solid group of three for next and that's kinda dangerous (and the suspicion of Clash having an idol on top, yikes) But after next vote it might be time to get rid of one of the Ala Mai bois I feel I've done an okay job seeming quite unthreatening lately I don't see why I should get targeted over some more dangerous players My biggest fear is Clash idoling me out because he holds grudges I'm fine staying in the background for now, it's only f10, bigger plays will come in picture later Although it'll be difficult for me to make any with zero advantages in my pocket That's my biggest concern Other people will be able to claim moves as their own because they have advantages they can use And I'm just relying on people using them to help my position And not against me I'm kinda a potential goat at this point But it's too early to worry about that Just trying to keep my name away from people's mouths So I had a good convo with Emily and she really doesn't want to vote against Patrick which I don't blame her for. I personally wouldn't mind one of Clash/Pat going home especially with the possibility of flushing an idol in the process. But on the other hand Jacob has been on a power trip lately and was trying to turn people against Emily earlier. Everyone kinda knows Emily and I are close so it would be an indirect stab at me as well. I'm not a big fan of that kind of thinking. He even made a chat with Emily and I without asking either of us if we wanted to be in one haha that was funny. I think he definitely has a chat with the Ala Mai bois and made the chat with Emily and I in hopes of being able to guide our votes through that one as well. It's not a great look for him, I must say. So Emily and I were toying with the possibility of siding with Patrick/Liana/Allan/possibly Clash and voting Jacob out instead. I'm not exactly sure if it'll happen since people are having trouble responding to me, that makes me think they already have a plan in fruition that I'm not aware of. Or they just trust people will vote Em with them, not sure? Also Clash and Jacob have gotten closer recently, I'm scared Clash wouldn't want to vote Jacob out but I'm not sure. But as far as I know I'm probably voting either Clash/Patrick or Jacob tonight. Let's see how things develop from here. I'm kinda ready to go home though tbh, this game is starting to stress me out. I'm up for a Vilma blindside. 

Once again... This scramble is a mess What should be an easy vote on Pat or Clash has now evolved to people wanting to make moves and others trying to react. Jacob asked me last night to put forward my vote towards Emily which I find extremely strange after she helped save him the last two TCs. I explained that if we vote out Em this TC, Vilma and Allan would turn and Ala Mai will become the target. Emily and Vilma decided that they dont like Jacob talking about this vote and are now trying to rally numbers against Jacob And to top it all off, Clash may have an Idol... ARGH!!!! In my mind, this vote should have been a 4 Pat, 3 Clash and 3 ??? Vote with my using my vote blocker... but now things are everywhere. Hopefully i've done enough to keep my name out of talks 

I want this to be known that IF I go home I knew I couldn’t trust allan and that he or Stephen was leaking everything to Emily and she knew. If there are no Jacob votes I will be impressed but also impissed, and I’ll be mad because that will likely mean I’m going home. I really think they was me out. Little ol me. Super unfair. But I guess we’ll see. And tbh clash is hinesty bae. He’s been super great to work with I like him a lot 

So last round was a mess and I think this one will be too. Let's go back to last TC. Basically Randy was being rude af towards me because I told him I wanted to vote Michael out and because I knew there was a group of people already voting Randy out I decided to take him out too. I honestly feel like I was deciding vote and that move will either make or break my game imo. Now, at the auction, I won the ability to exile myself for 24 hours and miss TC. I was really tempted to use it this round but I figured it would make me an extremely easy vote when I came back because there had already been tension. So I'm holding off until at least next round to use it and the plan right now is to blindside emily using Clash's extra vote. I really hope the plan works but even if it backfires, I think I can take a backseat and let all the drama unfold in front of me. 

i could very much be going home this round BUTTTTTT i am optimistic that it will be JACOB going home instead of me or clash. tldr: jacob wanted to flush an idol of clash’s, that clash may or may not have... he kind of insinuated to me he had it but lmao! jacob’s real plan was to vote pat so i decide to go to pat, clash, and liana with this new plan and tell them what’s up. while they were (rightfully so) upset with me from last round, i think they believed me and are on board to vote for jacob will me, vilma, and allan. and michael is aware of this plan but is voting pat to save face (or idk who he’s voting tbh) anyway i think i have successfully planned a blindside against jacob but also i’m playing so freaking hard at this rate i’m playing for fifth place. no one is going to let me get to the end of the game if i keep going so HARD lmao! i need to calm down next round for real omg

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just. a confessional. to say how much i love vilma. i knew we were put in this game together for a reason. i love her

So after Randy going I lost my closest ally but now I am gonna try and get Stephen and Allan back and make them flip on Emily and hopefully Emily goes that will break up Vilma too 

Uhh I don't think voting Jacob is the best move for me But I'm just gonna go with it it's too late to change my mind I'm playing such a weird game I'm playing for 3rd place right now But I just wanna be loyal to Emily and Michael ugh they're so great Last round I didn't feel bad because I was voting for someone who wanted me out anyway But I think Jacob kinda trusts me so I feel bad voting him Plus he is actually really nice But he didn't tell me about the plan to blindside Emily though Even though I guess it was Clash's plan originally I still wish he would've told me I think this flip will backfire on me next round Emily has better ties to the other side I feel so I'm going to be the one struggling more from flipping And we won't even flush any of the idols out I feel sticking with the split would've been much smarter But I don't think Emily would budge, she won't vote Pat this round Oh well It's kinda new to me to be playing this crazy? I won't win but at least I'm trying out something new lol Chaos Vilma... Yay? Nay? Also a bit paranoid someone has told Jacob what's up and they're coming up with a counteractive plan as we speak but. Tbh I'm tired and I just want to sleep. If I get fucked I get fucked and that's okay. I love Emily. 

More worried than ever this tribal, I'm pretty much guaranteed to never catch a break with votes, still not sure why. I'm also going against Clash here which I hate to do, but I'd rather hurt Clash, than hurt all of ala mai.

[survivormuxloe]

Episode 16: “I’m a petty bitch betta know that” - Scott

FUCK YOU RHYS HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA I SURVIVED GOAT ASS BITCH IM COMIN FOR THAT FIC WIN SO I CAN TAKE UR GOATY ASS TO THE END AND WIN I FUCKING DESERVE IT THAT WAS THE MOST STRESSFUL THING OF MY FUCKING LIFE HOLY SHITTTTTTTTTTTTT AS ANNA WOULD SAY IM HARDDDDD

Oh boy mo lost firemaking. Oh well. I tried. Not sure there is much hope in me winning, but guess I have to try. Ima be preparing a bomb ass speach, and a decent rites of passage. Not looking hopefully but like fingers crossed.

Also I think I’d make end either way now. Scott wants me in the end probably. Ryan wants me in the end probably. So if so. I get 2nd at the least. But I’m probably winning immunity anyway so ;).

ok its the day after.. n i finished my rop.. hopefully the jury likes it. LOL LIKE I WASNT GUNNA JUST KISS THEIR ARSES FUCK THAT im gunna be honest ab my feelings...

also like. kinda feel bad ab my confessionals last nite ab rhys.. i was a bit. excited. but. its tea. LAMFJBFHBFG

Final immunity is a little stressful. Like it’s the last one to win, if I win this that’s 5 individual wins. Just something more to put on my speech cause I’m gonna need it.

I’m feeling confident I can manage to pull out this win so like yeah I’m gonna have to work and try to win each part of this.

im actually gunna lose this fic which is super annoying bc it means i get 3rd LOL! aLMNFBFG

like memory lane i can win if im not dumb which i am so. winterbells i'll 100% lose like i lost to anna lol. endurance i'll 100% lose bc i'm such a forgetful slut i only lasted 40 mins in canadienne.... slide puzzles are legit my worst nightmare and then the mystery task i looked up from last ssn and it took them 11 mins so if i take more than that i lose... yay!

wow i can't wait to get 3rd place;;;; i feel like scott has gotten into rhys' ear and now i'm not the prime choice to be brought to final 2 grrr. at least thats what it seems like idk. ugh rhys doesnt deserve to make final 2 and it will make for a boring ftc zzzzzz who knows maybe scott or i can pull out an upset. i lowkey think scott would vote me out tho which is ugly and i would 100% be bitter at him idgaf KLFADHSKF

earlier i wasn't really sure what rhys and scott were thinking in regard to who they'll bring to f2, but since then i've talked w both more and i feel like 80% confident both will take me to final 2 so that's cute 8~] i don't think i'm doing well in the final immunity so far so i'm honestly banking on that lol.... as much as I think I'd have better chances against Rhys as the end, I am rooting for Scott to win it and bring me bc that is the ending this season deserves imho. i don't think there'd be a clear cut winner going into it and the ftc would be contentious as fuck... i hope at least lol. Scott def played a really dominant strategic game but def has some iffy relationships with jurors. I played a really purposefully utr game for most of the time but i think it's respectable, although there are some point against me like sitting out of so many challenges, that tie vote with jones voting early being the reason i was saved... but i think i can make a good case despite those faults and i'm honestly excited to show a new me at the live tribal. like i've been nervous as hell every time we had to go to tribal bc calling makes me anxious af, and that was def a contributing factor to me sitting out of the spelling challenge and even the card stacking one. so I'm planning on forming my case around that anxiety, and hopefully the contrast between my ftc performance compared to every live one before that will bank me the jury's respect. kind of like Kristie from AU survivor where she stunned the jury bc all game she had appeared so timid and dumb at tribals. hoping i can channel that energy and pull out the win hehe

so we got 5 and a half ish hours until deadline. uhm. i'm honestly really happy with my scores? like. i feel as if i have a big chance of winning this and that would be SOOOOO fucking good like both of them can smd honestly if they think im giving this chance up and getting 3rd or getting 2nd to ryan... like i love him but hes beyond dumb if he thinks im taking him to the end i cant throw a victory like that lol.

i dont wanna get 2 confident tho bc knowing my ass i'll be crushed if i lose this fic lol like at least if i dont i know ryan wins so it isnt that bad but it should be me!!! im a selfish cunt i need this jsjsjs

i say this after doing endurance for 5 and a half hrs so my brain is a little floopy rn :) forgive me :) aLFMNHFG

uhm ya. rhys can suck my ass as well with his OH IDK WHO I'D PICK!!! like bitch if u pick ryan enjoy a rerun of canadienne only this time ur losing unanimously lol

Honestly im done with Scott. Like stop being rude okay. Like I GET IT. YOU DONT WANT TO BE 3rd!. I GET IT. Like quit it with the "I dont want to wait to be cut", cause honestly, I dont know who im taking, OR IF IVE EVEN WON YET. so like stop it. Like ive been told im gonna loose, stop attacking me, because i essentially chooses who wins.

I think my immunity went good. I did good in all the parts I think.

ok.... time to guilt scott into bringing me to the end lmfao

Dammit I was so close to winning, but in the end from what I’ve heard I’d be the best choice for Scott to take to the end. So fingers crossed. Scott will take me there cause I really want to make the end. Even if I loose. I’m proud of my game and I just want to get as far as I can.

BIG FUN! CUS TONIGHTS THE NIGHT. bitchhh i get to pick who i want in f2 with me!!!

THIS IS SO EXCITING BC I LEGIT HAVE NEVER WON A FIC OR A F3 CHALLENGE BEFORE AND I FUCKING DID THAT!!! I SWERVED THAT VICTORY AND ITS SO FUCKING SATISFYING HOLY FUCKK

NOW IM GUNNA MAKE RHYS SUFFER EVEN THO IK IM PROB PICKING HIM BC HE WAS AN ASSHOLE LAST WEEK :)) IM A PETTY BITCH BETTA KNOW THAT

LIKE RYAN UNDERSTANDS IF I VOTE HIM N HE 100% VOTES ME TO WIN AND I DONT PLAN ON FLOPPING FTC SO :) BYE! UR WINNER IS HERE!

i feel like scott is gonna vote me out and i’m a bit gagged sbdbjsjsjs i really didn’t expect him to slit my throat like dis but. ig he wants to win badly and rhys most likely secures him an easy win so i cant blame him. still sucks though :C i thot we were solid dndjjdjs and ugh i dont wanna join that angry ass jury

ok so i'm still not giving up on tryna convince scott lol. honestly like i've made it this far in the game, no way i'm gonna accept defeat so easily. i don't actually know if it's better for scott to sit next to rhys than me, it probably is but seriously my game isn't amazing and i very well could see scott beating me. i think he's really overestimating how much the jury "hates" him like idk they aren't that petty, if anyone is it might just be michael. but scott really has dominated this game and everyone is aware of it, he should beat either of us.

So, this could be my last confession.

Scott, I don’t know where he was thinking. I thought it was general concensous that I was the one to loose. Yet here I am Scott is still unsure about who to take and it’s an hour 40 untill tribal.

So like this could speak well about my game if Scott worries he can’t beat me. It could also just be him wanting to take his best friend to the end. So yeah. I’m like 50/50 when I thought I should’ve been 99/1 about staying.

I can’t believe I’m here. I have a half chance at winning. That’s if we’re even which were probably not.

This is probably an uphill battle for me, so I have to go hard or I’m going home empty handed. I haven’t lasted this long just to come second. I do think I’ve played a winning game. I think I can make a killer final tribal preformance just to solidify my case. Hopefully this will be the third winner of celestial.

So final tribal happened.

Funny how has mo won that tiebreaker I would’ve lost unanimously. So thanks scott for winning that, and the FIC.

I think this could go either way tbh. However if I win it’s because of Scott’s bad jury management which isn’t the way I wanted to win. I would’ve preferred people to see my game more and respect that but because my moves weren’t big or flashy I have been put down to doing nothing.

it's 2 and a half hours until we find out the winner. am i nervous? absolutely.

do i feel as though i deserve to win? absolutely.

it just keeps ringing in my mind what ryan said in his speech that the jury seemed to root for rhys and be bitter against me. i feel as though my speeches and answers were much better than his and i was able to explain my game so much more clearer so i'm hoping that they reconsider and see that i controlled the game.

if i lose i'll be gracious and nice to rhys because at the end of the day it was my own fault that my jury management was bad but it'll definitely sting because i don't really see that he did much tbh alkfjhfg. i love him but it's tea. especially when he's said that i probably deserve it more. ):

i'm really just hoping for the best at this point! anything can happen and hopefully it'll be in my favour hehe. it's been an incredibly fun season and i wouldn't change it for anything else.

this has been mr scooty toots with his finale confessional, and hopefully mr scooty toots will join the winner and the hall of fame. hehe. will lowkey be awkward if i lose tho!! LOL but oh well alkdjfg

Scott wins in a 8-1 vote!

[survivorhogsmeade]

Episode 6: He's Going To Be A Force To Be Reckoned With. -Ruthie

MEEEEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm so excited to have gotten to merge omg, I honestly fought my little butt off during pre-merge to not go home... I mean i went to EVERY tribal. Hopefully I can get some W's under my belt and just get this show on the road!!

Alex C gonna get punted so hard I hate this bitch. Voted out two of my closest friends and betrayed them. Madison too but she’s barely around but she still did it. 

Without Lukas what will I do? Joanna Elmo and me have to make it to the end I love them so much and we gotta avenge Sammy and Lukas. 

Through all the sadness though there is a silver lining and that’s that I’m reunited with Joanna <3 

This merge saved my ass. I'm back with people I trust and no longer feel like I have to cry. Stress has been lifted off my shoulders. I miss Lukas and Sammy, but I am super happy to be reunited with Olivia and Elmo. <3

I had no idea it was merge already!!! What a night!!! God this makes me so fuckin anxious lmfao I really hope this goes well

Amanda: your dogs are really cute.

Emily: if you have pets, send me snaps. I love pet snaps.

Olivia is my queen.

Elmo is amazing.

I have a headache.

I want to punt alex c into the moon not alex s just in case i didn’t clarify

https://vocaroo.com/i/s1zaem0esyuv

merge confessional, potential sides??

(when i mentioned an alliance with Alex, Ruthie, Olivia and Myself. I obviously meant Alex S)

I forgot to add that these ppl who are in the middle and capable of flipping things around are scary as heck tbh they are the people im most afraid of in this game because like they are not loyal to anyone and are so strategically savvy. I defo need to keep eye out for them! People who I could see potentially be players like that are Madison (I'm pretty sure she already is) and Kylie if she becomes a bit more active

Why the FUCK did we merge and not have a music video challenge.

YOU TWO ARE LIKE THE MOST MUSIC-LOVING PEOPLE I KNOW

I'm on a strike

Welp it's merge time! This is going to be fun :3

https://youtu.be/7bg_b7cHrtE

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lFJsvKyMiBM

So what would be ideal from this point on for me would be an amalgamation of my two major alliances. The two Alexs Madison Ruthie Anna and I. But idk how the og rosmertas would feel about such a zonko heavy group, so I may have to propose a 3-3 split, meaning someone would be left out (hopefully not me). For now though I’m just going to make it clear I’m open to continuing old alliances because you never know when a new opportunity will come and punch you in the face.

https://vocaroo.com/i/s0eSZsMw0bO4

about my position + ppl not wanting to talk to me + general + what could happen in the first merge vote + probably other things i forgot to mention here

I can’t wait to sneak my way to the end of this game.

https://youtu.be/HWGKWoBW_QA

I was 2nd place..... 

sad.

I need to be better in challenges! Highkey getting 2nd might put a target on my back too but oh wellll

First of all I’m sorry for not confessing more

Secondly I hope it really is Kylie tonight that seems to be the plan with my two alliances 

One with Joanna and Elmo 

The other with Elmo, Alex s, and Ruthie. That’s only 5/11 so hopefully we can get Kevin onboard 

IM A FUCKIN PSYCHICCCC, are we allowed to curse in these sorry if not lmao WELL literally the day we merged i was takling to elmo and was saying how there is def gonna be an alex v alex rumble soon because they are legit the same person, like they have the same personality, think they are alpha dogs running the show so ofc they are gonna take eachother out. legit its dom and chris from ghost island... and plus when i was on call with alex c after we lost that harry potter video challenge thing, he was the first one to talk about how alex s was annoying during the hangout....... so YESTERDAY i messaged alex s and we were talking and he was like, im worried alex c is gonna come after me and i was like omg i dont know anything yet but i wouldnt be surprised... and THEN i messaged alex c and he was like ya i wanna go for alex s!!!!!!!!!!!!! so i talked him out of that bc its too early for that rn and im kinda playing both of them.. we love queens who play in the middle lmao

also elmo is one of my closest friends from epicmafia and i don't think ppl know that yet. maybe they do idk haha but its rly nice to have that trust there.. a little bit nervous because i did give him 4th place in EMVivor 3... i don't think he would use old games against me but who knows?!

So Alex C won, which kinda sucks cause I kinda wanted him gone. But we are going to go after an inactive is seems, and the consensus seems to be Kylie. Hopefully nobody has been lying to me and Kylie actually goes home. I don't think I could handle another friend going home :(

So just a couple of quick updates because I am very busy today:

1) So far I am the only one I know of who has searched for the Idol on this tribe, love to make my target as large as possible

2) IDIOTS, SEARCH FOR THE IDOL, STUPID-ASSES

3) The initial vote proposed was Kevin, because people want to target inactive players.  I, personally, would love to murderkill Madison because she's Fake Alex's #2 and I don't want him to have any numbers but I would also love for there to be consensus on this vote.  So we got the vote moved off of Kevin because he's a number for us, and instead it's hopefully gonna be Kylie who's a bit more of a wildcard.

4) It also might be me if they're smart!!!!

So my alliance tells me we’re voting Kylie, which I’m okay with because she hasn’t talked to me as much. But I do worry about the future, I’m starting to consider what should come next and all I come up with is I need to find a majority alliance soon. These smaller alliance may be stable but I don’t have any idea what the others are thinking.

who mighT be going Home ladies and gents?? i don't know for sure but THIS PERSON ISN'T ME!!!! the challenge was cute with all the pIctures and i managed to win so Suck it!!! i think kylie is leavIng tonight, which is the best move for my game and Staying connected. the Deeper we get in this game, the moRe i feel like i can win it with thE right jury. it's building it that might Wind up being the problem. 

CAST ASSESSMENT: http://youtu.be/YPN1RR7D0nw

[survivortaveuni]

Episode 6: “Uwu Her Way Out The Door” -Shea

Finally, finally the swap arrived! A schoolyard pick, with LA, Nic, and Steffen as team captains for their original tribes. This tribe swap shook up the game somewhat and also got people to submit confessionals. Waitavala was also dissolved due to flopping. 

On new Bouma, Steffen gave Jack E access to the Rainbow Reef almost as soon as he met him. Steffen also formed an alliance with Billy, Lily, and himself (which never went to tribal together, either). They did search for stuff in the Rainbow Reef, though. Steffen was somewhat aligned with Jack E, which left Steven on the outs. 

On new Motomaiqi, Charlotte and LA met up for the first time in the game. LA, the captain of the tribe, was glad Jordan was gone, because she felt like she was on the bottom of the old Motomaiqi with him and Jack C as a duo. Tribewise though, it was 2 Motomaiqi with Jack C and LA, and 2 Bouma with Charlotte and Tyler, and 1 Waitavala in the middle with William. This might make William the swing vote, but we’ll see...  

On the new Ravi Levu, Nic quickly aligned with Jordan, gaining access to the Prism Reef from him. Nic continued his agenda of getting out the people with connections, except he was trying to get out Jordan’s people which was...yeah. Shea felt concerned because nobody from the undefeated original Bouma was with them on their tribe, hoping for merge to come soon. 

Anyway, the challenge this round was the Word Game, aka Lily slaughtering everyone in her path. It was a little scary. It was also a double tribal, which meant two people were going to tribal council. Lily carried her new Bouma tribe to victory, sending the new Ravi Levu and Motomaiqi tribes to tribal council. 

On the new Ravi Levu tribe, Nic and Jordan pulled in Gavin to form the Demon Hunters alliance which targeted Roxy and Shea. Jordan pushed for Roxy, Nic pushed for Shea, and ultimately Jordan got his way with Roxy going home 4-1. 

On Motomaiqi, everyone decided to vote out William for being a weak player and for not really being connected to anyone on this tribe. Jack C was a little paranoid, thinking about playing his idol, but he managed to control his paranoia and not play his idol. If only he managed to do that in the future as well... William was sent home unanimously as planned 4-1.

Endurance immunity challenge! I like to call this 'how long can we all stay awake so we don't end up dragging our asses to tribal council.' I haven't been yet, and I don't wanna for as long as I can.

Right so we had the swap and I got to be team captain which was exciting. *puts on captain america shirt* (lowkey wanted to be on tribe with steffen) I think the new tribe is pretty good, we have some strong players so we should be okay. Honestly I feel more comfortable without Jordan because I felt at the bottom, I'm pretty sure he would have kept Billy and Jack over me but now I don't have to worry about that and I have a chance to get closer to Jack  and hopefully keep him as an ally moving forward. This double tribal is stressful though, cause Lily is slaying in this challenge but  hopefully we can pull through.

The swap was rough for me. I was probably the weakest member of the strongest tribe being Bouma, and I ended up on a tribe alone with nobody else from OG Bouma. We're getting our asses handed to us hard in this challenge and it's a little difficult to swallow. I'm pretty much going to tribal no matter what since I don't feel like we can pull this out. I think I have a decent chance of surviving this tribal, and hopefully merge is next. If push comes to shove, I'd be willing to vote out any one of these people, I'm not attached to any of them. 

OKAY WOW! I'm doing REALLY good with this challenge, I seem to be socializing quite a bit (by my standards), and everyone seems to be on good terms with me. It looks like we'll be evading double tribal, but it looks like if we do end up vulnerable at some point, I'll have the trust of a lot of people here. I feel like the planets are slowly aligning for me to end up winning this game, if I'm being honest! I don't wanna jinx it, of course... But still. I score high in challenges, which might put a target on my back at merge when I'm left non-immune, but... Jordan likes me, Steffen likes me, Billy likes me, Charlotte likes me, LA likes me, and it looks like Jack and Steven like me too. So, uh... F5 TR6 C7 is on the horizon for me. ;)

Dear Heartbroken Diary, Well seems that while my actual life is garbage, this game isn't going the worst? I dunno, but I promised Kevin to write a confessional, so HERE I AM.  So since last time, I formed that small alliance on my old Bouma tribe with Lily and Charolette, and gurl it wasn't just lit, it was about to burn the island down.  So we figured out the Rainbow Reef, and we pretty much mapped out the entire thing, like we got it, we know where the stamps are to get the Rainbow Idol, like thats a plus, oh ALSO, GUESS WHO NOW HAS A RAINBOW IDOL!!!! not me, but like, I can get it whenever I want, however there's a catch.  So I got my prism pass all pretty like right (shoutout to Mitch), I got all the stamps, but turns out if I swap it, then I can never EVER head back to the Rainbow Reef, which is insanely problematic.  So while I could get the rainbow idol, why would I do that now, I mean sure I could have it, but extra votes and shite could still be waiting over there.  My plan for the time being is just to make sure I can keep my lines open so I know that if Im going home, I can get that rainbow idol.  Otherwise rn, me and Lily and probably Billy are gonna use our Bouma Bussy map to find what advantages we can, which will be difficult since those clues are vague as heckle.  Anyways the next big thing is the swap.  FINALLY, though its weird cause when I wanted a swap, it couldn't come soon enough, but now, when I dont necessarily want a swap, it happens.....YAY LIFE.  So here's the dealio, Liana leaves and I get assigned as the tribe captain of Bouma, LA for Moto, and Nic for Ravi, and we go in order picking what tribemates we want, WHICH MEANS I DONT HAVE TO BE ON A TRIBE WITH NIC THANK THE LORD, tbh with any luck he'll leave soon enough.  So heading into this I needed to make sure I could easily gain majority on the new Bouma tribe, thus I picked Billy, I got Billy to pick Lily, thus my majority was formed since we know each other.  The next thing was to pick someone who wouldn't vote for me if we were in the minority, so I got Lily to pick Jack E. my bae from all stars, so if all goes well I should be ok???? Who knows, he says he just wants to make jury, but hey if that helps me get further, yay me.  So that leaves Steven, who I don't really know, but he seems sweet as heckle, so main goal is if we don't go to tribal until merge, cozy on up to him, if not, I'd rather him go next.  I can't get too comfortable in this game, even if I have access to an idol, an alliance and hopefully winning this challenge, but who the heck knows at this point, right now the goal is to win so I don't need to be in jeopardy.  Also I'm calling it rn, we're gonna merge next round cause apparently now 13 person merges are peoples kinks.  But I was also hella wrong over the swaps before so I say don't trust a word that comes out of my mouth.  SO LETS HAVE FUN With spite, Steffen

We swapped and I am finally away from people I was with from the beginning of the game. Steffen is on my new tribe, which is kind of disappointing, but I am going to have to deal with it. I decided that for this tribe, I'm just going to be a social butterfly, maybe the comic relief of some sort. I have started calls in the tribe chat just to rant and hopefully get a few people interested in working with me. I am not going to try very hard in the challenges, like I have been before, because I think it's more fun to live your life in this game on the edge, and tribal council is just the tip of the iceberg. My tribe is most likely going to win immunity, but it's a double tribal so I am kind of disappointed that we're winning, but just think about it, we're gonna have a numbers advantage and I like everyone here! I think I can use my skills to get myself to the merge and finally become a complete mess. Thank goodness I am likeable!

Fuck. I'm pretty worried, because the way I see it, me and LA vote together, and Charlotte and Tyler do. While I think the smartest move is to vote out the weak link William, it'd be very easy for the ex-boumese to just snag his vote and get me or LA out. I'd prefer to not waste my idol, but i also don't wanna die with it in my hands. This situation's all different dimensions of fucked.

Here's hoping that tomorrow's tribal is an easy one. I think we're all on the same page with voting William. He's the one person I haven't really talked to since we swapped tribes. Also lily, I love you girl, but I wanted to murder you a little during this challenge. Holy fuck, you're a beast. I miss Bouma guys. Wah.

So that challenge was a shitshow. Like how did Lily even do that? After a certain point we shouldn't have even bothered but whatever. So the plan is for Charolette, LA, and I and possibly Jack to all vote William. I'm putting my trust in Charolette. I hope she is right when she says LA will vote with us. I don't know I just don't want to get voted out yet.

I'm really worried about this vote. I was good friends with everyone else in Waitavala, and now that nobody is still with me in Motomaiqi, I don't think I'll last very long. 

I'm sorry Tyler, but you're my vote. 

Going to tribal sucks, and not a surprise, my name has been brought up by a few people. I'm lucky I'm on a tribe with Jordan, someone who has a lot of trust in me and will go out of his way to protect me, which he has. I didn't do much in the challenge and I'm the only person here from Bouma, I'd be an easy vote, but I am very skilled in the art of making sure I'm not the one going home, and I'm gonna make sure I do that tonight by shoving Roxy so far under the bus that it just runs her right over. I know I have Jordan's vote, he isn't gonna betray me as it just isn't an option for him right now. All I need is to get either Nic or Gavin, both very easy to manipulate. Strong guys with big egos is who I like to surround myself with, and you all have left me with many of those. All I need to do now is for Roxy to uwu her way out the door and hopefully merge will be next.

Voted William. I see this vote going 1 of 2 ways, either its 4-1 against William or 3-2 against me/LA. Guess we'll see.

Lily's back must hurt, cause SHE CARRIED THAT FUCKING TEAM, damn. (sorry kids, I swear sometimes) So Moto is going to tribal, I'm not too stressed about this one? The plan is to vote out William and I hope everyone will stick to it. Jack was worried but I'm working with Charlotte and she said Tyler was down to vote out William too so unless the boys teamed up, we're golden. 

We lost.. no surprise.. fuck everyone on Bouma. Fuck them. So Gavin/Jordan and I form an alliance. Jordan wants Roxy gone cause Roxy hates him lol. Roxy knows Jordan/Shea are a duo and wants one of them gone. She originally brings up Jordan's name, but I switch it to Shea because Jordan's my ally and I love making subtle moves. I'm literally the most subtle person on this island. I want Shea gone because I think we could do better with Roxy for reasons I'm too lazy to type out. But Jordan gets his way and I gotta vote out Roxy even though I don't wanna. Oh well. My edit must suck uugggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhh maybe I'll do something chaotic to stand out like tell Roxy she's getting votes. Too bad she's not online.

Also like Roxy/Jack/I made a deal to stick together. Voting out Roxy ostracizes Jack E. Jack C is also good with Roxy so goodbye to our chances of working with him and making a majority alliance at merge!!!!! Anyway Roxy's on. Do I tell her the news or what. Also fuck the Rainbow Reef. It makes me homophobic

the biggest nut in this game is me doing absolutely nothing but calling the tribe chat to rant about things and STILL going to be immune because they’re winning for me I haven’t talked to anyone but stiffen I’m literally gonna die vdofjgbgh but at least I'm selfaware!

you know whats hilarious nic is going after my friend group in the game, people like andrew steffen and billy and lily or whatever and like thats fine by me but nic is telling me as if I’m not apart of that friend group or whatever like okay give me info now ill choose my side later

[survivorsolomonislands]

Episode 2 “#NewQueenInTown” - Lily

hey hoes so ill do my first impressions or w/e chrissa- kween! i was hoping she'd stay awhile but u know when someone wants to be elimed then u gotta! dana- idk ha!hevjkbev i dont remember a dana in any of these so! idk how she plays so yikes but i wouldnt be surprised if shes close w the other newer people lexo- im love her! im hoping we can do #that for callie tru matt- i played a game with him once and he voted me out so :/ but i think we can work well together tbh mitchell- hes malaysia and thats all i know, im not sure how he played in malaysia and lowkey the only times i ever interacted with him he kinda annoyed me gtg monty- aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh i love monty, i know he will be one of my closest allies for sure! i cant wait to slay w him linus- hes from winnipeg and he seems sneaky to me and hes a newer school player so he could be close w the others ryan tiddie palmer - i love my dadt sdhvbdfv but also im a little wary of him bc i have a feeling he would love to vote me out but as of rn i need him so, we'll see zak- i voted him out in palau and thats all i got kjehfvbjr i didnt even kno they played a game before anyway hes also part of the potential new school alliance

also heres the vote tea, basically mine and lexis names were being thrown around and i was like??? we aint even do anything so then we started throwing zaks and linus name around. anyway me and mont were freaking out bc we needed 2 more people to get majority and vote zak and save me and lex, so we recruit chrissa and we make an alliance chat w ha. we call and talk about who we can pull in and such. so come the next mornin i start talkin to matt who said he was down for voting zak. honestly i trust matt he seems more trustworthy than other people plus i dont think he knows a lot of the tribe members tru so if i keep him close then my alliance should be good tru. anyway i talk to lexi to figure stuff out, and i talk to zakriah and basically tell him that im willing to vote lexi next round or w/e, mind u this is after chrissa anounces that she wants to be voted out, and well hopefully by telling him this i can gain his trust a little and get some tea from ha. also zak knows that me mont and lexi were targetting him??? honestly idk who couldve told him unless it was chrissa??? no one else shouldve known tru, anyway so i get the tea from that mitchell is the one who told him that he heard my name being thrown around and kjefbv like i dont wanna confrontational or anything but i went to mitchell and asked him about it and he was "like honestly it was like a grapevine thing tbh like nobody was like "...how bout karen" it was more of "i've heard Karen"" LIKE??????????????????????????????? REALLY BITCH THAT DONT ANSWER MY QUESTION. grapevine my ass, like thats what zak told me too, like !!!!!!!!! just tell me bc if u dont then im gonna assume that ur ass is the one started the whole "i heard" thing nnnnn anyway!!!! im just relieved that chrissa is asking to be voted out bc this couldve been way more stressful aaaaaahhhhh  honslee i was scared this was all a ploy to throw votes but i genuinely believe ha and i love chrissa too much to ever disrespect her wishes so :/ bye bye chrissa we hardly knew ye!

Not much has happened so far. We won the first challenge, which is awesome, and kinda gives me this fire to keep winning just so that we can keep beating the vets. It's kind of fun to be the underdogs (considering we all have much less experience than the vets) and to win. As long as we don't get a flash challenge, I'm not too worried about how well we do. Or at least, how well I do. I just don't want to be the person with the lowest score. Anyways, on day 2 or something Lily messages me and says we should be in an alliance, since we knew each other from a chat. So I said sure, and she gives me an idol clue she found! Holy shit! Lucky for her, I don't have any other alliances, otherwise I could so easily just play her. I don't have any plans to though - she seems very trusting and kind and I respect that. I just have to be careful it doesn't get me in trouble as long as we're aligned. So I go to search for the idol, with the clue she gave me in mind, and somehow end up finding the exact same clue she did. Hopefully we don't make the same mistake again next round.

https://youtu.be/hCcal7QtHWY

OMG okay so first off... Daisy comes to me saying she likes Jacob. Okay. Perfect. He's my ride or die anyways, so now we have a mutual ally we can lean on, and she says she wants to be in an alliance. Cool. Even better. Let's officialize this shit.

So Daisy makes the chat, and she says "alright Johnny and Jacob, let's add Willow and Luca" and I'm internally freaking out with Jacob on the side here, and Jacob and I are losing it in PMs and we're like "I think that wouldn't be the BEST idea, just because adding people late can make them think that they're going to be 4th and 5th" So Daisy is going to stick with us three being a f3.

Little does Daisy know that Willow wanted a four person alliance with me and Jacob already, and it didn't include Daisy, so it'll be easy for Willow to think she's on the in, and same for Daisy, which can be GREAT for later.

All I know is I'm going to have to do a little educating to Daisy on how to play this game, and making an alliance with three people and then adding two people LATE is no beuno sweetheart... Thank God Jacob and I prevented that one. At least we know we're in a core for now, and we can start picking off the weaker rookies............... or maybe we go after someone who looks like they can be smarter, and an independent player. Maybe Aro for example? Let's see what happens after immunity (giggle)

So after Chrissa announced she wanted to be voted out, Karen and I were able to talk to each other for the first time this game. I pushed that I didn't want to target her if it wasnt out of hate, and targeting each other based on lack of communication could be easily fixed - after all, what's better than an unlikely duo? I'm in two right now if I'm not being played: as far as I know Linus wants to work with me to get out Karen, and Mitchell also thinks that's what I want. However, I want me an ally in Karen, and Lexi or Mo's gotta go next.

Something terrible happened to me irl yesterday and Im in a bad headspace right now. I really dont feel like talking to anyone besides Luca and Johnny(whos actually pretty cool) so I cant wait to get to the swap. I tried connecting with Kaya a bit but she doesn't seem to like me very much. I have a terrible migraine and everything kinda sucks right now but I'll fight through it. I can't wait for the time when I eventually look back on this confessional and cringe at the angst lmao

I low-key hope I get taken out of this challenge early so I don’t have to sit around all night doing it, but the only way that’d be able to happen is everyone just went after me to start the challenge, and no one knows I’m good at live challenges except Chrissa, and she’s bye bye

Aw Dana assigned me to shoot my fuckbuddy aromal in the first round of the IC :( like the opposite of the hunger games up in here :(

This paintball challenge is so fucking FUN! Like, it's so cool to keep on my toes and constantly be dodging/shooting paintballs. It's like my own sort of little endurance challenge. I just have to be sure I don't miss any dodges... That's why I changed the conversation notification settings to notify me every time my name is said. :P But it's fun, anyway. And if I lose, I can blame my team and use the machete I got. >:3c

So... let's play catch up!

Chrissa got voted out unanimously like she ASKED TO. It sucked bc I liked Chrissa but she was a lil strategically problematic so... whatevs. BUT then Karen starts being like "oh would you have voted for me? where'd my name come from?" and being kind of aggressive about it so... that turned me off. Honestly yeah I would've voted your ass out, you ignored me and continue to do so lol, but after that? I'm set. I think my allegiance with Dana is solidified by my complaining to her about Karen, and honestly? I see her as my #2 in this game.

Matt, the other option for my #2, also tells me he's ready to make a move  against the Karen/Monty/Lexi coalition when we next go to Tribal Council. We're slaying this challenge so that won't be tonight, but when it does, Karen's ass is grass if I've got anything to say about it!!

Karen and Lexi still make minimal effort to talk with me. Pretty much nobody has been 1-on-1 talking with me throughout this whole 3-hour-long-so-far challenge which is also kind of ridiculous but??? What are you gonna do. I'm still sick so hopefully when I recover I'll start schmoozing like I usually do and stop oozing like I don't wanna do.

also fuk u mangrove swamp

RETWEET IF YOU ARE ON TEAM LA NEEDS TO GO THE FUCK TO SLEEP.

This challenge is murdering me. 4.5 hrs left SO.

So, I quit during the paintball challenge. I was the last person left on my tribe and I just couldn't see myself pulling off a win, not against five people - I did manage to get one out on my own but it seemed very doubtful I could have gotten them all. I'm not sure how I feel about throwing it like that, I probably could have faked it and just posted a shoot at the 6 mark which might have been better for my game, cause I'm not sure how that will effect how the vets see me from this point on, or if my tribe finds out and gets mad at me for it, but Y'ALL SHOULD BE HAPPY I DIDN'T MAKE US SUFFER THROUGH ANOTHER FOUR HOURS OF THAT @ VETS. I hate giving up/losing but at the same time, this is only the second challenge of the game. If this has been an individual immunity challenge, damn right I would have stuck it out but it's still early on and I think this vote will be pretty straight forward. IF I manage to get voted out I'll feel so stupid for throwing it but as of right now I trust my alliance and feel safe. (famous last words)

So now Star wants to talk to me...... Tooo little too late bud. You've been talking to the least amount of people this whole game, you didn't even help with the immunity challenge, and now you're coming to me all worried about the vote? Sorry you're in this situation, but you made your own bed, and now you have to lay in it. 

On a different note, I was talking to Jacob, and we were thinking that two of us should throw our votes onto someone else, just in case of an idol play, but honestly, I don't wanna be that paranoid freak always worrying about an idol, but I also don't wanna a repeat of the last tumblr survivor I played in, where I got idol'd out of the game, so I'm trying to be careful. I might talk to Daisy about it, but I don't want to come off as paranoid, so it'll be an interesting talk if I choose to have it...

(Slightly later)

OMG LILY JUST TOLD ME SHE HAS THE IDOL I'M SCREAMING!! Now I don't have to worry about a fucking idol play. Not only that, but she tells me that I'm the only person in the game that knows about the idol, which is huge for me because it means that she trusts me the most, and this can be a relationship outside of Jacob, Daisy, Willow and Luca, so this is really good. I am going to focus on forming a broship with Aro too, just to have that connection, but I think that I'm starting to become very trusted in the tribe, which is good. 

I know my struggle is going to be when we switch tribes, and just hoping that the luck of the draw doesn't put me onto a tribe with bad numbers, but even if I do, I think I'll be able to charm my way out of it. The fact that I want to vote out most of these people, and they still continue to prove to me that they trust me the most is CRAZY, but Lily is definitely going to be a tool I'm going to utilize in the game for a long long time, and I hope she and her idol make it deep enough in the game to benefit me.

Sorry... rambling. My struggle now is whether or not to tell Jacob. I don't want to lose his trust later in the game by him finding out about this idol, and him knowing that I knew about it. I think I'm going to tell him about it later tonight, and I hope that he'll be thrilled, but he isn't even going to be back for day change... At least now I know that I don't have to worry about the idol, especially because I doubt there are more than one idols out there, from my specific tribe, so definitively, it's bye bye Star time :(

Jesus.... Karen and I survived that round.. In what world is that actually realistic? But we did and thankfully with little issues like messy thrown votes or Chrissa playing an idol on herself after misting us all. I was really nervous that it was all an actual trap because I have seen it happen before and boy is it terrifying but bless her heart for being true to us all.

The challenge was one that I have won before so I was not too nervous about the whole workings of the challenge but I was nervous about how long the challenge would go. I was so tired yesterday for some reason and I do not know if I could have lasted until 2 am with very little break. I would have tried my best of course so I could make sure Karen and I were safe but there is only so much a single person can do which L.A. ended up proving. The Veterans won the challenge THANK GOD and so we do not have to worry about one of us being voted out bless. Right now I would def consider Karen my final 2 because we do share the common homie of Callie and I do my best to trust Callie's judgement most of the time (the other times... I just can not defer from what god wants). My only issue is that Karen has a lot of friends on this tribe that I fear she might pick over me such as Monty and that makes me a bit scared of her but right now we sort of need each other in terms that we are both the most threatening ones on our tribe at the moment so if she gets rid of me, she does not have many people to hide behind and I have been known to be a very good meat shield for those that take advantage of it so here is to praying she is actually my final 2.

Okay I love my tribe now. Seriously though I was only disliking them because I was too mentally checked out to socialize. They're all really sweet people and omg it was all i could do to stop them from pronouncing Zaks name wrong lmao during the challenge. Even though I outta be pissed that more than half of us got eliminated for breaking simple rules, I loved that they were cheery about it.

For the vote ahead, it should be a smooth 9-1 against Star. He hasn't been too active thus far and everybody seems to be on board.

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LAST ROUND VOTING: A SUMMARY We get back to camp after being beaten in the immunity challenge and things devolve into chaos. Mitchell starts whispering "Lexi" and then shouting "WHO SAID THAT! I HEARD YOU! lexi.... WHO WAS THAT!!!!" Lexi and RTP climbed into the shelter and started singing songs together, waiting for other people to join. Matt sat himself on a rock and just kinda sat there...waiting.... Zak was running around, talking to each and every person saying he heard something different to everyone, calling every guy Miss and every girl Qween. Karen was sitting trying to have sensible discussions, and Mitchell and Zak saw this and started freaking out. Mitchell kept his calm and kept whispering lexi... but Zak thought he said Karen and started freaking out. Meanwhile, I'm running around screaming at people that Zak is dead weight and Linus is a rat, but nobody is really listening to me. Meanwhile, Linus disappeared into the woods to maybe go try on some wigs or some shit, and Dana is off talking to anything that moves, with various degrees of success. In the middle of camp is Chrissa, just sitting. Me, Karen, Zak, and Mitchell are all screaming about who should go, and she silently raises her hand and says four words. "I. I will go." Everyone stopped and just kinda looked at her, and then started screaming. Not words, just incoherent noises, and that never stopped until Chrissa's torch was snuffed by Isaac

real confessional for this round: So, this has been a pretty chill round. As a tribe, our number one priority was winning immunity. I staying longer than a few people, until I had to go swim. I still need to talk to Dana, Lexi, and RTP this round to keep those connections alive, but other than that, my social game is less shitty than in the past! So, overall, this is not looking terrible for me!

IS DAISY FUCKING KIDDING ME?!? Daisy, girl, we spoke about this. Adding people to alliance chats can only cause problems. Making a brand new chat is the way that it has to be. I can't be closely tied with someone who is actually that oblivious to how this game goes. It's like telling someone that there's a three person alliance, and we just want them to be fourth on the ladder. THAT'S NOT HOW THIS WORKS. Luckily for me, it's someone as ditzy as Lily is, and it's someone who doesn't really talk to a lot of people, and she's someone who has an idol, and now Daisy and I were both told by Lily, which is why Daisy added her.

One thing that Lily and Daisy aren't aware of is that Jacob knows about the idol too, and that's because I told him, so with Jacob in the loop, and me being the one who told me, is PRIME. I need to be the barrier of communication between all of them, and right now I think I'm doing a steady job. One thing I need to work on is my relationship with Allie and LA, because they're two SMART girls, who I haven't been spending much time talking to, so I might work on that later today, even though I've spoken briefly about the vote to both of them, I need MORE!

Well after the mess with Chrissa we were lucky enough to win, and I think the challenge was a good bonding experience for the tribe. Now I'm kind of in the middle right now I like my alliance a lot but I think I could work with Karen and Lex in the future so I'm nervous about alienating them and I'm like back and forth back and forth like a metronome or some dumb swingy shit. So lemme just cross my fingers we don't have to go to tribal, and that somebody I know will get this damn idol ay dios bio

We lost the immunity challenge earlier. I'm super disappointed but I doubt I'm in any trouble at tribal council. I kinda messed up by posting early, lost my head and this probably was a factor in our tribe losing. On their tribe, only three people messed up.

But challenge aside, I feel I'm pretty safe for the time being here. I like Jacob, Willow, LA, Johnny and Allie and I think I'm getting along with Aromal too. Really the only people who I haven't really been talking with are Star (who's getting evicted today), Daisy and Lily.

I should probably talk more with the other two. All that said, this game is phenomenal. You can never know if you're really safe.

HOLY SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!! I FOUND THE FUCKING IDOL AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA But like... wow. I find the idol clue on my very first search, and then on my second search, I find the idol itself. When will your fave... #newqueenintown

We won! Updates game wise so I'm just utr1 instead of inv. 

1. Zak is still a self righteous prick, but he's also smart enough to just flat out target me rn, so idk. 

2. Matt is easy to talk game with, he's seeming a bit paranoid though. 

3. Dana and Ryan, still love em both. 

4. Mitchell is everyone's best friend, hillarious dude. That also sadly means he is the biggest threat in the game. Of course, right now I want to work with threats, but eventually he will be scary. 

5. Karen is still my target. 

6. Gotta try and make Lexi and Monty not flip at a swap. 

7. Linus is the best, he's probably the front runner to win right now.

Okay so I keep forgetting about confessionals oops. But I'm going to my first tribal council ever tonight and I'm a little nervous. I feel like this vote tonight should be pretty simple because everyone in the tribe wants to vote out Star, but I'm worried that he might have an idol or something since 9/10 people in our tribe looked for the idol yesterday. Also I'm still a little bit irritated at myself from the challenge yesterday because it said 7:05 on my computer when I pressed send but it was still 7:04 on the skype clock or whatever Idk