#and i get to teenagehood and im just. sad

[crunchycrystals]

mitski was so right when she wrote the second verse to strawberry blonde

[kijosakka]

behold. after basically a month.

[old-stoneface]

ok. i love mitski so much and there is something so special about her music and lyricism but ive realized that listening to her on repeat puts a lot of songs i dont like on my discover playlist. im really not a fan of songs about being a sad teenage girl, but i will say one thing . some of those songs have incredible instrumental composition. ive heard quite a few now that have really fantastic guitar riffs that make me hesitate to skip them

[leo-is-a-loser]

Fuuuuuuukkkkk my birthday is in less than i week i cant do this nooooooooooo i dont wanna get older yet i can't i shan't

[mayzie-grobe]

✨i've been playing the sims 4 since it came out, nine years ago !! and i wanted to show off as many of my legacy founders (and heirs) as i found the time to makeover. list of their challenges below !!✨

ellie cahill + rhiannon irving ⭐ classic legacy gen6 heirs

i've never completed a full 10 generation legacy, but the closest i ever came to was my mahi'ai family legacy--link to plumtree in case anyone's curious--that i made probably about four or five years ago. both of these girls are cousins and were my next gen heirs, sharing the title, but i never played passed their teenagehood because my cc became outdated and then my laptop died 😔

gunnaifer glock ⭐ vampire legacy founder

okay gunnaifer is..she's special to me, ok. my first semester at college, as a joke i had two of my friends make vampires in the sims and then i made gunnaifer so we would each have a vampire. because vampires (technically) don't die, the legacy didn't get very far...but maybe someday i will share her heir, and apprentice, kovo'lettre.

sienna kibo ⭐"i'm surrounded by idiots" challenge gen2 heir

i don't remember much from this challenge other than it being a lot of fun, and showing me the extent of the parenting skill (lol). maybe i'll pick it back up with sienna, but it has stayed unplayed for years so...who's to say.

cyra ⭐ black widow challenge founder

okay !! so cyra was created with a friend of mine a couple years ago, i think i played the challenge for about a week before outdated cc made me drop it (exactly like the classic legacy). cyra got to husband number 5 and she had 2 kids, and i don't remember her last name and i didn't write it down anywhere and i think that's both funny and sad. curse the game for automatically updating it when you get married !!! 😡

anika dreamer ⭐ nightmare legacy challenge gen2 heir

i don't remember much from my nightmare legacy, so when i opened it for the first time in a long time i was surprised to find all the sims i did remember had DIED. which. given the challenge made sense, but anyways so i revived anika to make her over. she had already completed her challenge and passed it on to one of her three sons, but she was a globally-renowned comedian and a stylish old lady. i love and miss her.

himiko kibo-tan ⭐ not-so-berry legacy gen3 heir

the one and only time i tried to do the nsb challenge, i got to himiko and i lost a lot of the motivation to play. i've thought about starting over, if not the whole thing than just generation three, but haven't gotten around to it. again, maybe someday !

rosalie ember ⭐ spellcaster legacy gen2 heir

THE LEGEND. im not even lying when i say that i spent multiple hours in the middle of the night, crazy out of my mind, trying to find this save. i must have deleted it for some reason ??? anyways, after accessing my old hard drive i finally found an older version of the save that had my baby rosalie in it. her makeover is probably my favorite. and yes, one of her parent's is morgyn ember. 🧙‍♂️

if you actually read ANY of that,, thank you,,, !! i don't think any of them will pop up on my blog again but..i don't know. anything is possible lmao 🤔

[meangirls2004]

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[onewithtoast]

im so sad and so fucking mad.my entire childhood&teenagehood has been a fuckign waste. nothing has ever happened. instead of living in a city my parents moved us all to a tiny technically-a-“city”-but-is-more-like-a-town where nothing happens unless you’re sporty and i was never encouraged to be that and now im abt to leave for college after spending two YEARS with nothign to do but live online and nobody to interact with except for my fuckking family and i have ZERO FUCKIGN LIFE EXPERIENCE. ive been trapped in this stupid ass house and i never explore any interests bc im so so so afraid of judgement and my memeory is so bad i cant even remember why that is but i have a feeling its to do with my parents and idk. i just dont know. i applied to big ass colleges so that hopefully i can get some people in my life and some experiences that are good but if not,,, fuck i dont know

[delightfulsweettragedy]

everything that is going on on the world is making me so anxious

i never thought i'd live my teenagehood like that

stuck at home without seing almost anybody for 2 years and counting

i thought i would put my life together

i had the hope that I'd get better lol

and this years I'll no longer be a teenager

it's been a while since i don't really see a future for me and all of this it's just making it worse

i don't think i have much time

i can't see myself after 30

i wish i could live this 10 years i still have in a way that i won't regret when im gone

but im pretty sure that it will be lonely

i wish i could at least feel loved in someone's arms, feel the heat of their chest, their smell, their touch

i get sad bc i know it won't happen

but that's not much i can do abt it

my brain tortures me on all ways it can

if i isolate myself it keeps telling me that im ruining my life

if i try to go out and socialize it keeps telling me that i shouldn't have left my house and that im annoying everyone around and that im a burden

if i try to open up for love trying to let people get near me it makes panic and push them away

if i panic and push them away it keeps telling me that im an awful person and don't deserve to be loved, that im not and will never be good enough

i wish that i could shut my brain up

i hope i can make it past my 30's

i hope things get better

but until there

i hope i can live