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[mattodore]

Hello it’s me again. I’m lurking and I’m curious about you. I mean how do you feel about making Matthias and theo’s lore? I specifically talking about intimacy and trauma parts. It’s all fictional characters after all but I personally think that creating characters takes huge impact on creators. You still see them as only fictional characters, just sims or something else? Would you write a book about them or make a movie if you have opportunity? You think you’ll have them in mind after years?

What I wanna say in one sentence: your creating process just fascinates me.

hm... i don't really know how i see them, to be honest. i've kind of done so much projection on these guys that, like... a lot of them is me? in a sense? even that last ask i answered... matthias's taste in cars is MY taste in cars. i do see them as characters in my head but there is a kind of vulnerable me there too. somewhere.

but with relation to the traumas and intimacies... hm... theo's backstory takes a lot out of me. i don't talk about any of it on here. i mean, i say a lot, but i never really talk about the details. i don't think it's hard to figure out yourself, though. specifics may be blurry, but i think... most people get it. um, and matthias's backstory is pretty brutal too. so their traumas do take their tole on me... it's why i cry every time i read theo's 100 questions questionnaire. it's why i watch the plague dogs and just think of matthias and feel sick. their teenage years were horrible.

but i think coming up with their lore or past was... i don't know. um, i didn't really have any of it planned? originally i only came up with the characters as they are in their 20s... it's just that... well. it just made sense? theo's character... his entire personality made sense when i looked back at his life before and started putting out these building blocks for the future and then took some away. like, i came up with theo at 21-24 (because i still haven't settled on an exact age) with these traits: he's distrustful, mean, scared, hard to get close to, lonely... and i thought, okay... why would he be distrustful? what makes him so scared? why doesn't he want anyone to come near him? things like that. with matthias at 26... he's so empty. he's got nothing inside him and he's so hungry... why? what was his childhood like that there's just nothing? that he needs so much? and from there i just. started writing.

a lot of my favorite media deals with pretty dark topics. i wouldn't say any of them were a direct influence, but i've always engaged with topics of drug use, child abuse, suicide, x y z, this that and the other. and obviously there's the me of it all. so... yeah. there's those influences, for sure. i can definitely point toward real life with relation to matthias's time at the reform school, though, because i'd been reading about the troubled teen industry a lot.

the intimacy... hm. a lot of their desires are actually tied to their traumas. i don't really have much to say about this because it's... idk. self-explanatory? matthias turned something used against him into something he enjoys. coping. theo... well. he views sex as something done to him and he uses that... to hurt himself. um... he's really self-destructive. and i think... there's an interesting connection between the two of them and pain and intimacy and they use it in different ways. i... actually am realizing i have a lot to say about this but that's not really the point of this ask. basically, i don't feel drained as much with relation to the intimacy of the sexual kind from their characters because i think matthias finds joy in what used to be only pain and theo... has that pain flipped on its head after meeting matthias and there's a shift in it... and he feels held instead of held down. if that makes sense? hm. there's healing in the intimate for them with each other.

i absolutely want to write a book for them. a movie i feel would be... too tight. they need room. and they've already been in my head for years. i think they're gonna be there forever. theo specifically kind of just. lives with me.

hopefully this answered everything you were asking about? i think it got away from me a bit, but yeah... thank you for sending me this and for being so kind as always MWAH

[annabelle--cane]

say it with me everybody: personal health is completely immaterial to morality, including mental health. leading a mentally unhealthy lifestyle (or what you perceive as a mentally unhealthy lifestyle) does not a bad person make. no one has to socialize, exercise, have healthy coping mechanisms, or lead (what you perceive as) a fulfilling life with fulfilling hobbies in the same way that no one has to go to the doctor to get a broken bone reset. both of those types of management of personal health are likely to be beneficial to the individual, but they are in no way moral requirements or debts owed to society. they do not actually say anything about a person's principles, personality, or actions towards others. additionally, people know themselves and their own situations better than you do. maybe a person judges that the physical and financial toll of going to the doctor outweigh the benefit of getting their bone reset, maybe a person just does not have the capacity to develop healthy coping mechanisms at this point in their life, and yes, maybe a person feels like they are totally fulfilled by "media based" hobbies alone and would feel no difference in their life if they picked up a loom. just like. let people be sick without accusing them of being representative of the lazy, degenerated state of modern society.

[puppyeared]

doodles of my fav sillies

anton belongs to @poicyss

[lord-squiggletits]

One of my favorite parts of phase 2 (and indeed one of the few moments I resonated with IDW Prowl) was when the neutrals were coming back to Cybertron and Prowl said that he refused to let Autobots be pushed aside and overruled after they were the ones who fought for freedom for 4 million years (the exact wording escapes me atm).

And I mean, that resentment still holds true even once the colonists come on bc like. As much as it's true that Cybertron's culture is fucked up, and as funny as it can be to paint Cybertronians as a bunch of weirdos who consider trying to kill someone as a common greeting not important enough to hold a grudge over.... The colonists POV kind of pissed me off a lot of times, as did the narrative tone/implications that Cybertronians are forever warlike and doomed to die by their own hands bc it just strikes me as an extremely judgemental and unsympathetic way to deal with a huge group of people with massive war PTSD and political/social tensions that were rampant even before the war?

Like, imagine living in a society rife with bigotry and discrimination where you get locked into certain occupations and social strata based on how you were born. The political tension is so bad there's a string of assassinations of politicians and leaders. The whole planet erupts into an outright war that leads (even unintentionally) to famine and chemical/biological warfare that destroys your planet. Both sides of the war are so entrenched in their pre-war sides and resentment for each other that this war lasts 4 million years and you don't even have a home planet any more. Then your home planet gets restored and a bunch of sheltered fucks come home and go "ewww why are you so violent?? You're a bunch of freaks just go live in the wilderness so that our home can belong to The Pure People Who Weren't Stupid And Evil Enough To Be Trapped In War" and then a bunch of colonists from places that know nothing about your history go "lol you people are so weird?? 🤣🤣 I don't get why y'all are fighting can't you just like, stop??? Oh okay you people are just fucked up and evil and stupid then" ((their planets are based on colonialism where their Primes wiped out the native populations btw whereas the Autobots and OP in particular fought to save organics. But that never gets brought up as a point in their favor)) as if the damage of a lifetime of war and a society that was broken even before the war can just magically go away now that the war is over.

Prowl fucking sucks but he was basically the only person that pointed out the injustice of that.

And then from then on out most of the characters from other colonies like Caminus and wherever else are going "i fucking hate you and your conflicts" w/ people like literal-nobody Slide and various Camiens getting to just sit there lecturing Optimus about how Cybertronians are too violent for their own good and how their conflicts are stupid, with only brief sympathetic moments where the Cybertronians get to be recognized as their own ppl who deserve sympathy before going right back to being lambasted.

Like I literally struggled to enjoy the story at multiple points because there was only so much I could take of the characters I knew and loved being raked over coals constantly while barely getting to defend themselves or be defended by the narrative so like. It was just fucking depressing and a little infuriating to read exRID/OP

[yellowsubiesdance]

i think i’ve learned a lot when it comes to not applying my own values to the media i consume

for my script analysis class yesterday, we discussed two gentleman from verona, and nearly every classmate of mine was up in arms about how sexist the story is.

and i'm not saying it's not, or that it's not infuriating to read. but i'm also not putting my energy into getting upset about something written 500 or so years ago. and i'm not about to put my own beliefs onto these characters that are not me. i'm going to let their choices speak for themselves, and interpret it in the context of the story.

all that said, this now brings me to the point of alastor in episode 5, and how viscerally people are responding to it. those of you up in arms about the choices he’s making, and the violent threat he gave husk, you’re missing the entire point of his character, of this place they’re in, of the story being told. he’s an overlord, and he became an overlord by killing much bigger overlords and broadcasting their deaths over the radio.

HE IS NOT A GOOD PERSON.

if you started this show with the belief that every character working the hotel is a good person, you’re in the wrong place. watch the good place if you’re looking for a good wholesome story about getting dead sinners into heaven, because that’s not what this show is about.

you’re more than welcome to hate him after seeing the way he exerted power over a being whose soul he owns, but you’re doing the media you’re watching a disservice by writing it off so quickly. if you don’t like to be uncomfortable watching media, watch something else. this is an uncomfortable show, it handles uncomfortable topics, and it’s going to be an uncomfortable ride, and if you’re not up for something like that, then you should take a break from it and pick up something else. you don’t have to get online and defend your own ideals while you watch a show that goes against your ideals.

[idiosyncraticrednebula]

The backlash against Frozen, which, from my observation, has cooled down (that isn't a joke, I swear-) quite a bit over the past few years, was less based on the quality of the movie itself and more on the fact that its massive success and reach really overshadowed a lot of other movies that came out prior to it and after it and was getting credited for stuff that had already been done before plenty of times, and in many cases, in those exact movies. This is why, to this day, many fans STILL refuse to give Tangled its props without trying to put Frozen down in some way. In their eyes, Tangled should have gotten the glory and accolades Frozen received, but did not, and that made them quite jealous. Overall, Frozen is far from a bad movie. It's a great movie with a great message, characters, music and does actually deserve the success and recognition it got, and some fans need to stop being so salty about it and uplift their fav movies without putting Frozen down so they get the proper appreciation they deserve as well. Although, yes, the credit this movie got for allegedly introducing themes, archetypes and tropes that had already been seen before in Disney, including movies set in a fairytale world with heroines as the protags, was undoubtedly the most annoying part about its success and is part of the reason why many tried to drag this movie and its main leads.

[northern-passage]

one thing i find really difficult about navigating the IF space is the direct line of contact between readers and authors. we share the same space, and i think that plays a big part in this weird blurred line we have in this community and overall lack of boundaries.

for a lot of people this is a fun hobby and while i personally try to keep it... semi-professional most of the time, it's easy to get wrapped up in having fun on tumblr (or the forums, or reddit, wherever it is that you mainly post/interact) and have a lot of personal interactions with both readers and authors alike - which is fun! i like it more often than not, but i also think that's why a lot of comments in this space can end up being really entitled, over-familiar, and inappropriate.

it's no secret that most authors get really weird messages on here, and while this is also a problem on social media at large and not just specific to IF tumblr, it is still definitely a big problem in this community.

and to be clear i'm not saying that you can't be friendly with authors or readers (i've become friends with a handful of readers myself) and i definitely don't mean to imply that there needs to be a huge divide between us; that's silly - again, most authors are readers, most readers are authors, we’re just people on the internet sharing the same space. but all of us deserve to have our boundaries respected. this is my story, and we are strangers. as a general rule of thumb: if you wouldn't say it out loud to someone you just met, you probably shouldn't be saying it to a stranger online. especially anonymously.

[icewindandboringhorror]

There's always a slight yearning in the back of my mind wishing I had been born in the right place, time, family situation, income level, etc. to have just lived in one single house for my entire life. Imagine being born in a place that still suits you, even through all of your personal evolutions and etc. The idea of deep familiarity with an area because you've lived and explored it for 40+ years, being encased in a web of memories and connections. Being able to clean out your old childhood bedroom and find personal artifacts, to dig in the yard and remember. I know those lives can still be plenty imperfect, but there's just something so seemingly solid and stable and Grounding about it that I sometimes wish I could have.. (At least from my outside perspective as someone who's moved around a bit geographically and even within the same area, never lives in the same house/ apartment /etc. for more than a few years usually.) Like... having a place that is printed upon, fully your own, rather than chronically a visitor, every thought of a space always tempered with the notion that one day soon you'll have to pack it all up again, etc. There's something peaceful about the permanence.

[stormyoceans]

i literally think your subconscious is holding onto phumpeem because you were feeling a little out of the bl world, cause they're not even that good 😭 i'm glad you're back with a new hyperfixation though! feels like the vv monica we know!

SKJFGSKDJGFDSKJGFSDK I MEAN. FAIR (re: phumpeem maybe not even being that good) HOWEVER CONSIDER THIS

AND THIS

AND ALSO LET'S GO BACK TO THIS

LIKE IM SO FUCKING PREDICTABLE IT'S HONESTLY EMBARRASSING BUT I GUESS THIS IS THE SHIT THAT WORKS ON ME IDK GIVE ME A SITUATIONSHIP WHERE THEY GENUINE CARE FOR EACH OTHER AND MY HEART WILL LATCH ON TO IT LIKE A DOG WITH A BONE

also i would hate for you guys to think i've become less insufferable it was about time i went back to my true annoying as fuck self

[kishimotomasashi]

“Civilization is coming. And it means to exterminate us.”

Naruto Shippuden (2007) // Black Sails (2014)

[puppyeared]

i feel like im not making any sense but does anyone else feel like there are stories that let u run with them and ones that spell everything out for you

[pawified]

[ rest. ] over the past couple of days, i've gotten the most amount of hate i ever have gotten with my 5+ months of writing on here. all due to a certain creators following assuming i am copying them; i am not. i've had that creator blocked for almost 3 ish months now. i've been through this before in December with the same person and i refuse to be bullied because of their following and/or friends. i have no clue when i will be back (although i just came back from a break.) i love writing and just creating littl universes within this platform but the amount of anon ask hate i have being getting has weighed more than the good.

this post isnt to send hate or even taint the creator a bad name, but its to inform the ones who have been harassing me over the smallest and silly things that, yes. i have the same interests as her, i like pink and i have the same puppy aesthetic / pictures as her because they are popular and on Pinterest, but i do not have to explain myself anymore.

Thank you to everyone who enjoyed my work, reblogged and liked. I made this account for fun and used it to help with so many things and it did help me cope in the beginning but now it feels like a nightmare and a very mentally taxing thing to come on too.

I adore each and every one of my mooties, thank you smm and i will be back some day, maybe in a month or two... but i will still be lurking around and supporting each of you. ٩(ˊᗜˋ*)و ♡

much love, wini

[bearsizedant]

what if I was able to make myself stop caring about being nice to them

[thebest-medicine]

Just a quick curiosity - do you accept gifts from followers?

Just a quick follow up to your curiosity with a curiosity of my own - what do you mean by gifts?

[tapewormsoda]

breakups are so fucking weird. three years and just like that it's gone. huh

[sh5]

I was shitting my pants turning in this short story to my creative writing workshop bc I was like, "fuckkkk I wrote this last minute, and I did a lot of fanfic-isms on accidentttttt..... they're gonna tear me to shreds for this dialogue"

and then everyone was like "no I liked the dialogue 👍" like. ok. thank youuuu 😭😭😭