Just Friends ~ I'm Late (part 35)
A/N: I’ve been really inactive all week, I’ve been busy writing this and an imagine, it’s currently at 5k+ I’m really liking it so far. I said it’d be out this week but it will probably be out next week, if not the week after. Sorry it’s taken so long :/
Harper White is best friends with Luke Hemmings, they always have been. Not only is she friends with the rockstar, but with the rest of 5 Seconds Of Summer, as well as a really nice girl named Erika.
Harper has a few secrets, she can play all the instruments the boys play and many more. It’s a talent she has kept hidden, only very few people know.
What will happen to the six teens, wondering around the world together?
***
I’ve had an awful week, I’ve been sick, but only in the morning then the rest of the day my stomach hurts, I have a headache, I’m always tired, and weirdly, my boobs hurt a lot.
I’ve been really stressed recently too, revising for exams. My driving test has been stressing me out, my driving instructer is a total dick. Very strict and I don’t know how he became a driving instructer because he has some serious road rage problems. I have to stifle a laugh at some of the things he says.
Luke has been really worried about me, saying I should go to the doctor, but even if I was throwing up blood, I’d still not go to the doctors. Luke claims that it should be over, it’s nearly been a week. I don’t know, sometimes it feels as if I’m feeling better then in a couple of hours I feel like shit again.
Rushing out of bed and into the bathroom and vomiting, I lean on the toilet, waiting for more to come. Here it is, I hold my hair back as I vomit my guts out, one again. I think I’m finished, so I brush my teeth to get the taste out of my mouth.
I open the bathroom door and I’m met by the sun blinding me and my mum. “Hello?” I squint.
“How long have you been sick for?” She dives straight in.
“All week.” I answer but it comes out as a question
“Why didn’t you tell me?” She questions.
“Didn’t think it was necessary, I’m 18 I can deal with being ill myself. Now if you excuse me, I’m gonna go back to bed.” I huff.
I’ve been having a lot of mood swings too, maybe I’m gonna have a monster period.
“Why don’t you go to the doctors?” She asks.
“I don’t need to, I’m only sick. Now see you in a bit.” I wave and close my door. I hear her mumble something but choose to ignore it and face plant my bed. I feel so ill, but I can eat fine, even more than I usually eat.
“Luke’s here.” In hear someone shout.
I wait for him to come up and I still have my face against my sheets, struggling to breathe.
“How are you feeling, babygirl?” A familiar voice asks.
I groan in response and I hear him chuckle, I’m not really into talking right now. “I take that as no difference.”
“I’ve already been sick this morning and my mum found out too.” I tell him.
“You mean you didn’t tell her?” He asks.
“No, why would I?” I question.
“Because she’s your mother maybe?”
“Whatever.” I mutter and finally turn around onto my back. “I’ve been ill for a week, when will this stop?”
“When is your period due?” He questions.
“Tomorrow, I think.” I answer and he nods.
I decide to freshen up and get in the shower, changing into some gym shorts the type you wear in volleyball, a very thin graphic tee crop top, with a sports bra underneath.
Work out gear is so comfy.
I brush my hair through and just leave it, not even doing my parting. Putting on a little concealer, mascara and blush so I don’t look so dead.
Walking into my bedroom and look for some trainer socks because my feet are cold.
I’ve got loads of school stuff to do and then Erika and I are meeting up to do some work to our book. Sitting down in my deskchair and starting some chemistry homework.
“I believe you have a guest.” Luke claims.
“Well you were on your phone,” I tell him.
“Shut up.”
“I’ve got a load of homework and revision and shit to do. I’m not gonna be any fun.” I shrug.
“I’ll be on the roof.”
“Do you know how weird that sounds?” I laugh.
Luke kisses my forehead before walking out of my bedroom. I haven’t been able to kiss Luke at all this week, only on the forehead and cheek, and I appreciate that he doesn’t makeout with my cheek.
After an hour and a bit I get board of chemicals so I decide to find Luke, if he’s here still that is.
Taking the easy route that the boy’s don’t know about and go into the loft and then through that window. Closing the loft door behind me and stepping on a box to reache the window, opening that to as far as it goes and closing that behind me.
Walking over to where Luke is and sitting next to him, dangling my feet over the roof. “Where the fuck, did you come from?” He questions after a minute or two of silence.
“I’m magic.” I smirk.
“Magic ways of making me fall in love with you.” He says and I blush and giggle.
“Always so cheesy, Hemmings.” I rest my head on his shoulder.
“You love it.” He laughs as he puts his arm around me.
“What have you been up to whilst I was in my room?” I ask.
“I’ve been writing a song.” He tells me and picks up his acoustic that has a smiley face on it, drawn by me.
“Now, where the fuck did that come from?” I question.
“I went home quickly and then came back.” He explains.
“Oh.”
“I’m stuck with the transition from the chorus and then the next verse, I can’t get it to be smooth.” Luke frustratedly states.
I tell him some chords and his face lights up, he tries it and it sounds great. “How did you know that?” He asks.
“I think you’ve forgotten I’ve been with you when you learnt guitar, you’d always tell me about the stuff you’d learnt.”
“Oh yeah, I did, didn’t I?” He smiles at the memory.
“Yeah, it was quite interesting though.”
“Y-”
“No, I’ve told you this before and I’m going to tell you one more time, I’m not learning to play.” I cut him off.
“You’d be good at it though.” He claims.
Damn right I am.
“Luke.” I warn.
“Just keep it in mind and I’ll be your sexy guitar teacher, that you can sleep with all the time.” Luke smirks.
“I think I’d get Michael to teach me.”
“Uh no, you wouldn’t.”
***
I’m late, like really late.
A week late and I’m rarely late, I thought I was just stressed and all but it’s been 6 days. I’m starting to get nervous because a couple of weeks ago, Luke and I did the deed and didn’t use a condom, I am on birth control but I know for a fact that I’ve forgotten to take it some days.
I haven’t told Luke or anyone yet, I’m scared as fuck. Luke is still 17, he’s not even a legal adult, there’s no way he would stay with me if I had a child. If I am pregnant, I’m probably not gonna keep it.
Now that I think about it, being sick in the mornings, tender breasts, feeling sick a lot, mood swings, but that could also be period symptoms, besides being sick in the morning.
Maybe I should just call Luke and I will take a test, just to be sure. I’ve been crying all morning, it was hard being in school whilst that happened, I skipped geography and went to a secluded part of the school to cry. I was laying in bed at night, starting to panic, because of the possibility that I could be pregnant. Then I thought about it and I’ve been a shaking, worrisome, terrified, over analysing mess.
Picking up my phone and clicking on Luke’s contact, waiting for Luke to pick up. “Hey babe, I’m with the guys ri- NO, MY BALL, you’re hacking.” Luke gets distracted.
“Luke.” I sob.
“Woah, Harp, what’s wrong?” He questions, concern filling his voice.
“Please, c-come over, we n-need to talk.” I stutter.
“Okay, I’ll be there in a minute.” He tells me.
“Don’t hang up, please.” I beg.
“Okay, it’s alright, baby.” He soothes.
“What’s going on?” Someone that sounds like Michael asks.
“I don’t know, Harper seems upset, I don’t know when I’ll be back.” He tells them, whilst I continue to cry into the phone.
“Um, okay, I hope she is alright.”
“Yeah, I’ll be back later, bye.” Luke says to the guys and I here him sigh. “Hey, Harper, it’s alright, calm down, I’ll be there in a matter of seconds.”
I sniffle and wipe my smudged mascara.
Within seconds the door bell goes off and I race down the stairs, swinging the door open and collapsing into Luke, he quickly wraps his arms around me. “What’s up?” He whispers in my ear.
I try to form a sentance but no words come out and I breakdown again. “C'mon.” Luke sighs and picks me up, I wrap my legs around his waist and continue to sob into his shoulder.
Luke sets me down on his lap and he sits on my bed. “Gorgeous, I’d love to help you, but I need to know what’s wrong.” Luke says.
“I’m late.” I wipe away my tears away, trying to compose myself again.
“To what? I’m sure you can get there if you leave.” He chuckles.
“No, Luke, my period is late.” I confess and his eyes widen.
“By how much?” He gulps nervously.
“6 days, but if you t-think about it, I’ve been having morning sickness, all the pregnancy symptoms.”
“But we’ve been safe.” He furrows his eyebrows.
“Remember a couple of weeks ago we didn’t have any protection?” I question.
“But you said that you were on the pill.”
“Yeah, but I forget to take it sometimes.” I sigh.
“Have you told anyone else?” He asks.
“No, I’ve been too nervous.”
“Why don’t we go out and get some tests, then see what happenes.” Luke suggests.
“Okay, let me just freshen up and put on some trousers.” I mutter and get off his lap, going into the bathroom, putting on some perfume on, brushing my teeth, cleaning up my tears, deciding to go make up free and last but not least, I put on some black leggings.
“Ready?” Luke questions.
I know that inside he is probably panicking as much as I am, but from the outside he looks so calm. I can see right through your smile Hemmings.
“Yeah,” I nod and put on some shoes before walking the door.
“It’s gonna be alright, despite the outcome.” Luke smiles down at me and intwines our fingers.
“Will you stay with me?” I ask the question that has been hovering over me. Luke looks a mixture of being offended and a ‘are you serious’ look.
“Of course, I’d be with you if you were a zombie, I never want to leave you. Plus this possible baby is mine, right?” He panicks a little bit.
“Yes, or course,” and now its my turn to give him a ‘are you serious’ look.
“I had to make sure.” He jokes.
Classic Luke, trying to make me smile whatever the situation.
“If-if you are pregnant, will you keep it?” He asks.
“Do you want me to?” I question.
“It’s your body so it’s totally your choice.” He claims.
“I probably won’t, I’ve got a f-future, I can hardly go to uni if I’ve got a child to look after. I’m not ready, maybe in ten years but definitely not now.”
“When would you want to have a child? Preferably with me.”
“Ten years, probably in my late twenties, we’ve only been going out for 5 or 6 months, we’re too young to have any responsibilities of that kind, you’re not even a legal adult yet. To be honest, I’ve never really thought about having children with you, of course I’d want to, but it’s never crossed my mind.” I explain.
“I don’t think that our relationship in numbers count, we’ve known each other practically all our lives, so I think when we are the right age, we’ll have children, not when we’ve been dating for a significant amount of time.” He points out.
“That’s very true. When would you want to have children?” I ask.
“Mid/late twenties maybe, when ever you’re ready to be honest.” He answers.
“Here it is,” I say as we walk into the shop. “This is so weird, I’ve never done this before, actually yeah I have, I went with Erika once.”
“Erika thought she was pregnant?” Luke questions.
“Yeah, she wasn’t though.” I explain.
“Should we get a couple, just to make sure?” Luke questions.
“Uh sure,” I nod my head, starting to panic again.
“Hey, it’s alright, I’m here.” Luke cooes and rubs the small of my back.
“I know, it’s just I’m eighteen, I’m not ready to even think about being a mum. How could we be so irresponsible?”
“We made a mistake but we learn from our mistakes.” He states.
“Ugh it’s gonna be so awkward buying these.” I groan as I pick up two prefnancy tests.
“Why don’t you put an act on, it will be funny, I’ll give you a backstory. You and your sexy husband, Luke Hemmings have been trying for a baby. You’re 29 and you think your finally pregnant. Go.” He tells me and pushes me towards the counter by my ass.
I’ll be staying away from sex for a while, I can tell you that.
“Hey, you need to come with me.” I tell him.
“Ugh, fine, but I need a backstory.”
“You are a 28 year old idiot, oh wait, you already are. You’re a 32 year old male and are dating a hot 29 year old, called Harper White. Oh you’ve got an interest in My Little Pony. That gets all the ladies.”
“I’m 32, dating you, a 27 year old and I’ve got an interest in My Little Pony.” He concludes.
“Let’s go see if I’m pregnant.” I exclaim and Luke chuckles.
Luke puts his arm around me and we go pay for these.
The lady at the check out gave us a funny look but I just ignored her and put the pregnancy tests into my bag.
“I am so nervous.”
We’re at my house now and I’m so fucking worried, and kind of ashamed.
“Well I guess I should find out what my future holds.” I sigh.
Taking one test with me and closing the door behind me. Taking the pregnancy test out of the box and reading the instructions. I finally build up enough confidence to just take it.
I do my business on the stick and I put the cap on, placing it on the counter. I sit on the toilet lid as I wait, a million thoughts going through my mind, 1 second feels like one minute.
I never thought I’d be taking a pregnancy test at eighteen, let alone ever, I’ve never really seen myself getting married or having children. I wouldn’t be upset if I was pregnant in the right time, in the future, but it’s never been my scene.
My hands are shaking, my heart is beating so fast and I’m pretty sure England can hear it, a million thoughts going through my mind, I probably look as if I’ve seen a ghost.
Time should be up by now and I’m just not ready, I can’t do this. “Luke.” I call out and open the door.
“Yeah?” He questions, his breath hitching as he walks onto the landing.
“I can’t look at it, I need you to look at it.” I claim
“Okay, baby.” He nods.
Probably not the best nickname to use right now.
Luke wraps his arm around me and pulls me into an embrace. He picks up the pregnancy test with his arm still around me and his breathing picks up. “What do two lines mean?” He questions.
I burst out crying into his chest. Luke quickly puts the test down and wraps his other arm around me, one rubbing up and down my back and the other in my hair.
“Hey, it’s gonna me alright, we can get through this.” He whispers into my ear.
“How is it going to be okay? We’re fucking pregnant, I’m 18 your 17, we can’t have a baby.” I claim.
“Are pregnancy tests always 100%?”
“Not all the time, but it’s quite rare for them to be wrong.” I tell him.
“Why don’t you take the other one, just to be sure?” He suggests.
“What’s even the point?” I mutter.
“Come on Harper, now isn’t the time to mope around, we need to find this out.” Luke sighs.
I nod, knowing he is right.
“I’ll um, leave you to it.” He awkwardly says, and if I wasn’t in this state, I would’ve laughed at him.
I nod and fill a glass up with water before downing, and waiting for it to pass through.
After a while I do the test again, this time it isn’t as bad as last time, but it’s still terrifying. After the time period is up, I timidly look at it and it comes back as negative.
The fuck?
“Luke,” I call him.
“Yeah?” He asks as he walks in, a terrified look on his face.
“It’s negative.”
“But, what?” He questions.
“I don’t know, we’re gonna have to book an appointment, I’m not going through the stress of taking a fucking pregnancy test again.”
“Yeah, okay, do you think we’ll able to book an appointment now for tomorrow?” He asks.
“It’s half five, so probably, I’m not sure about tomorrow though.” I answer.
“Who’s gonna do it?” Luke asks.
“I should probably do it because I am possibly carrying our child.” I sigh.
I take my phone out of my pocket and phone the hospital.
After 10 minutes it’s all booked and surprisingly enough, I’ve got a slot for tomorrow.
“Okay, we’ve got an appointment at 1:15 tomorrow afternoon. Is that alright?”
“Uh, yeah I think so.” He nods.
“Whats happening at 1:15 tomorrow?” Someone asks and I drop my head onto Luke’s chest, letting out a groan.
“Whats wrong with her?” Michael asks.
“Dunno.” He shrugs and wraps his arms around me.
“So what’s happening tomorrow?” Calum asks.
“Uh, Harper and I are… going on a date.” He trails off.
“Romantic.” I mutter and he squeezes me.
“But Harper doesn’t like going on dates.” Erika points out.
“Trying something new.” He covers.
“Oh, like your sex positions?” Ashton asks.
“The fuck?” I question.
“Just leave us alone, we have… things to sort out, nothing that concerns you guys.”
“What things?” Mike asks.
“Nothing that concerns you.” I say as I walk out of my room and make my way down into the kitchen.
“Harper, can I talk to you for a minute?” Someone asks and I quickly turn around, being met my Maddie.
“Oh, hello, I was wondering where you were.” I smile.
“Do you have a minute?” She questions.
“Um, yeah sure.” I shrug and I sit on the counter, Maddie sitting on the island opposite me.
“I’m going to go ask/show you something.” She starts off. “So I found this on Twitter about 10 minutes ago, not many people have seen it, yet.”
Maddie plays a video of Luke and I at the shop we went to, it’s more of just audio, but at some parts you can see us. You can literally hear us, word by word talking about it all, they must’ve been on the other isle, or even behind us. We must’ve been so caught up in the moment and didn’t check our surroundings.
“So…” Maddie trails off.
“Um uh.” I stutter. Do I tell her? I guess I should seek some female help, I definitely can’t ask my mum, because of obvious reasons, Erika wouldn’t be able to keep her mouth shut. I haven’t really done anything like this with Maddie so now’s my chance I guess. “I may or may not be pregnant.” I quietly say.
“Have you taken the test yet?” She questions.
“Uh, y-yes, one came out positive and the other came out negative.” I tell her.
“What are you gonna do?”
“I literally just booked a doctor’s appointment and then we’ll see what happens. I’m not gonna keep it, I don’t have time for a baby right now. I don’t even know if I want children in the future, let alone one now. I’m 18 for Christ sake. Are you disappointed in me or us?”
“Of course not, I could never think bad of you guys. What happened? Failed condom, unprotected sex? What birth control do you use?” She asks.
“Why?” I question.
“Need to take notes.” She claims.
“Maddie,” I can’t help but laugh, “you’re gay, you aren’t going to get pregnant with Erika anytime soon.”
“Oh yeah.”
“Anyway, it was unprotected sex, I feel so stupid and ashamed.” I groan.
“Don’t be ashamed, I’ve had a pregnancy scare before. I’ve only done it with a dude once and I’ve never gone back after that,” she laughs. “No, but I had a scare, had to take a pregnancy test, it came back negative. I think it’s more common than you think.”
“Thanks Maddie.” I smile.
“What will you do if you are pregnant?” She asks.
“I probably won’t keep it, but I just know I’m gonna get an overwhelming feeling of guilt.”
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