#and im stressed. scared. everything

[hoziersredguitar]

I miss old tumblr in the sense that i could complain about board exams and worrying about not getting enough to be eligible for my medical entrance test and i'd have summoned half the indian side of tumblr to sympathize

[vurelly]

how am i meant to ha wahoo yippee through life in these conditions

[heph]

You guys the Tritter arc got me so scared and stressed that I'm procrastinating watching House MD

[homestuckreplay]

Knighthoods of the Mail

(pages 919-925)

I really like both these panels, the extreme downward angle on Jade who has the disadvantage of being small and the advantage of being alive and angry, and the close up on Grandpa, both of them lit by the strange pink-orange firelight. Fire and burning is a threat we’ve seen for all four kids now, so it creates that parallel, and also a surreal atmosphere from the composition of both images.

Jade is also speaking in the narration on this page – it’s italicized and first person instead of second, written in her register. None of the other kids have done this yet, the narrator is always between them and us. I like the implication that Jade is overriding the narrator but also the idea that the narrator is like ‘you know what, I’m taking this page off, I’m just gonna let her shout’. It’s fun, and I’m interested to see if it’ll happen more.

I am still pretty fucked up over this reveal but personally I would have done it a little differently – the gut punch of ‘He was so much easier to deal with when he was alive’ (p.920) could have been SO much more effective if it hadn’t already been obvious from their Strife that this is not a living man. Even keeping the original sequence but publishing the pages at the same time would have worked, but sitting for a day between the Strife sequence and that line meant it didn’t hit as hard for me.

I do still have a lot of questions. Jade knows Grandpa is dead but seems to still genuinely believe they’re communicating, and who’s to say they’re not? Who’s to say Jade’s powers don’t tell her exactly what Grandpa is saying or would say in this circumstance? If so, it must be a lot harder psychologically to escape his expectations. But even if Jade’s powers don’t come into it, there’s practical concerns – how long ago did Grandpa die, and does anyone besides Jade even know? It’s easy to say Jade should redecorate the house but living so remotely where mail has to be airdropped in balloons, she’s probably not physically capable of that, and can’t get other people to do it for her. Typheus is a little big to captchalogue and where else would Jade even put him?

So I guess I kind of get it? In the sense of Jade keeping the only life and routine she’s ever known, going through the same motions with a stuffed grandpa that she once did with a real one, because the barriers to doing anything different are so high? It’s really easy to adapt to a strange situation when you don’t have a point of comparison to know it’s strange, and when it happens so regularly that it becomes like autopilot.

We cut back to PM, my absolute beloved, one of my most favorite characters. They haven’t been seriously hurt by Jade’s explosive powers but their head wrappings are on fire (btw is the pointy tail of their head covering the shape of the fabric or the shape of their head??) and some of the mailboxes are tragic casualties of the event, which I may never forgive Jade for.

And then one of the metal worms rescues a mailbox! The all important mailbox with the letter to Dr David Brinner in it! Redemption arc for the metal worms who have definitely learned from their predecessors’ mistakes. This is a beautiful, angelic worm deserving of high honors, and PM knows it, giving them an equally metallic heart. If the postal service had an equivalent for a knighthood for a postal worker who goes above and beyond to preserve the integrity of the mail then PM would award that to this worm. I am thinking about PM as a dispenser of justice – someone with a really strong, inflexible moral code who is willing to impartially punish those who break it and reward those who keep it.

> PM: Bequeath the mailman’s cap to this hero.

[maythray]

yknow... i think... i dont want to kill myself anymore. its been... a decent amount of time since ive thought about it. ive been putting significantly more effort into involving myself in things and in being a lot more open and genuine. and i feel like its working. its really quite nice to take note of. tomorrow will be another lovely day.

[rapidhighway]

god I'm so scared of this workshop im in rn

[pansyfemme]

i am going to pass out

[transsexual-terabyte]

i like that my friends bring me in whenever they need blood tests/vaccinations/whatever. both because i think its sweet that they trust me to keep them safe and because objectively its pretty funny . who do we know that's chill around needles. thats right. its theta

[fooltofancy]

i don't REALLY want an art degree, it would make me insane, but i DO want to know how paint works.

[oneroomjestershow]

Haii!! Rlly hope you're doing okay! Just wanted you to know I really admire and appreciate you and your artworks and I loove seeing stuff abt your ocs and I loved doing interactions with Eli and hope we can do more in the future maybeheheheh👉🏻👈🏻

I think you're a really nice and amazing person and hope you're able to achieve your goals!! take care silly!! ^^

*gives u hugs and strawberry candies for good luck* 🫂🫂🫂

stroberiiiii,,.,.

and I appreciate YOU!!! im sure your support and comments have made a lot of creators happy and motivated to keep drawing or posting..myself included

imreally grateful for your presence here and your support aaaaaaa

just you wait until i get my energy and joy and whimsy back (i’ve been kind of stressed and my mind kind of weird) i want to do more oc interactions too aaa its so fun but i haven’t been able to think about them that much these weeks

🫂 (i didn't know if Aiko liked hugs i thought maybe if she doesn't like her body breaking she would be carefull about them so the hug kind of looks awkward because of that KAJSHDKJASDJ)

youu know when i was reading the message i teared up a little (iwas kind of stressed inthe moment so i was happy to read it) and i couldn't see well because of the tears so i read candies as candles and i was like wait what i make a ritual with these and drew that but then i read it again just now and it's candies 😭😭😭 but i found it funny so im still putting this in

omnomnom thank youuu<3

[nabsthevulture]

We just dropped Mugsie off at the vet for her surgery

please wish her good luck

[luck-of-the-drawings]

when i was in highschool one o my biggest coping mechanisms was drawing all the kids i hated getting killed and eaten and killed. and well. time is a slowly ascending spiral. you will find patterns.(i work as a blackjack dealer. gamblers are FASCINATING

[silvercrane14]

Hm. Oh no

[rapidhighway]

scared idiot guy who's too scared to go pick up the laundry because it's scary

[malwarechips]

i dont want to but im turning off asks for now . if you really really wanna ask us stuff perhaps check out our strawpage. theres an anon questions box on there but we might take longer to answer because we dont check there all the time 👍

[seventh-district]

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