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p-andore · 2 months

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it's crazy how i thought i escaped the usual teenage years depression phase, only for it to come back ten years later in my young adult era and kick my butt

#incredible isn't it #i've been spending my last few weeks crying #trying to understand how the hell did i end up this way #and why #realising i'll never get to know true love nor desire #because i have nothing worth loving or desiring #because i'm not pretty or beautiful i'm not interesting i'm not nice and i'm not easygoing #i'm not sensible i'm not soft i'm not feminine and i'm not agreeable #i have nothing good for myself and it took me years to get it #and it's all my fault #and i guess its a done deal by now i'll definitely stay alone my whole life #eris.txt

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buckymilf · 9 months

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#my hands sweats and my heart is in my throat #i can't bare losing important people again #I'll never get over this #I'll never have peace again #and it's all my fault #god give me some piece of mind #I'm going insane right now

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spaceoutdreamer · 1 year

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Aren’t we feeling fucking stupid

#story time #lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely #AND IT'S ALL MY FAULT

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y0ur-r34l1ty · 1 year

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I caught myself thinking about you again...

#man this suckd #i miss them so much #and it's all my fault #aaaa

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sunofmoon · 1 year

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#i know that things have become strange very quickly #and it's all my fault #i know i behaved very badly #that i was impulsive and probably scared u #but i regret that i messed things up like that #i am ashamed of my actions and wish i had the courage to tell you so #but i will not impose my presence bc making u uncomfortable is the last thing i want to do #idk if we will speak again or if i will have the chance to have any contact with you #but i miss you #and it's fucking weird #bc it is a feeling that comes out of nowhere #i feel unbalanced when i think about it #in whatever way i hope u are well #i will never stop wishing always the best for you

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lazylittledragon · 5 months

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can't believe we're all adults being forced into the club penguin level of censorship in 2024

#ramble #if you say unalive in front of me i will personally kill you with my hands #you just can't muffle and censor and hold someone's hand through some things #some things are horrible. and they should be spoken aloud and they should upset you. because they are horrible #the second we started kidzbopifying the world was the end of taking anything seriously i think #i'm not even joking i've spoken to people older than me who won't even say the world sex #this isn't the playground you're not going to get in trouble just let us say the word!!!!!!#how am i supposed to listen to you when you won't even say the thing you're supposed to be talking about #yes this is the fault of the platforms with their censorship rules but the fact that we all just go along with it like it's not dystopian #you do know it doesn't stop with cursing right. people are already having to censor queer terms because they get flagged as inappropriate

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thesmokinpossum · 2 months

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fuck my stupid baka life fr

#i'm so tired #i need to write a paper in like 1h before i go take my exam #and then i have another paper that's due for tonight but that i will submit late #and it's all my fault #so yeah #fuck my stupid baka life

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deyostra-walos · 2 months

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Do y'all ever just think about what would happen if your oc's ever met you and you would just know, without a doubt, that they would despise you?

#they have so much trauma #and it's all my fault #I did most of it for the funny #They all need therapy because of me #and the only one that gets it is the one that doesn't actually need it #I've ruined so many lives #and I'll probably ruin more #writing

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uncanny-tranny · 5 months

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I think so many people are so deeply alienated from themselves that they have no clue how to exercise their free will and autonomy. For some, this alienation runs so deep that they are afraid of their own autonomy and humanity. It is completely understandable why one would have those feelings, but it can be worrisome.

I want to help others who feel this way, so here are small things I have done to exercise my free will:

Add "guilty pleasure" songs to playlists and actually listen to them (I have a ton of late 1990s-early 2000s music I listen to now proudly that I never listened to in the past out of shame)

Getting the décor item, bath set, bed spread, ect. in the patterns you like, even if it's "childish" (I got a dinosaur-themed wastebasket from the kids' décor section and I adore it)

Taking a new route to get to a place you go to often

Eat dessert first

Celebrate well, and often

Collect things that are "odd" or don't seem like an "acceptable" thing to collect (somebody on my "for you" page collects dandelion crayola crayons and it was so cool!!!!!!)

Incorporate one new piece in an outfit you wear frequently (e.g., a new chain, a necklace, ribbons, bracelets, ect.). Challenge yourself to add onto the outfits if you feel up for it.

Sing along to songs without worrying that you sound "good" or your intonation is completely accurate

Read a book from a genre you weren't allowed to read as a kid (comics, thrillers, mysteries, anything!)

Walk without having a specific destination or goal

Pick up a new craft without expecting yourself to master it or to ever be "good" enough. Get your hands messy.

I don't want to shame anybody for not feeling as though they have free will or that they are exempt from exercising it. However, I wanted to give ideas so that you might read this list and find your own ways to express your intrinsic autonomy and will. You deserve to be a person, to feel alive, not just living. That is what our lives are for.

#mental health #mental health support #positivity #if anybody has ideas of their own definitely include them!#i just think being stuck with this feeling that you don't have autonomy and that you ultimately aren't an equal person or a person at all..#...in comparison to other people can be a really troubling and dangerous place to be in...#...and that isn't the person's fault for feeling that way. they didn't pluck those thoughts out of thin air...#...like i have felt that exact way all my LIFE because i have been abused for. probably 2/3s of my life...#...only within these past few years have i even FELT alive. frankly it's going to take a while to repair what i have been left with...#...so i know the feeling and i want to help others feel even a LITTLE bit alive. you deserve it...#...you deserve to take in a deep breath before slowly realizing 'oh my gd this is what it feels like to be alive' and SMILE about it #i want that for you even if it is brief. even if it is small. even if it is a whisper. i want you to feel alive #unironically getting rid of the idea of 'guilty pleasures' has made my life SO much better

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pterribledinosaurdrawings · 2 months

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Toothpaste companies must really hate people who are allergic to mint toothpaste, which a lot of people are! Apparently it's NOT supposed to burn like minty hellfire? (I'm fine with mint candy, it's only mint toothpaste that hurts)

I've been using Tom's fennel for years, but am now trying to find one with fluoride in it, and finding a toothpaste that is no mint and yes fluoride should not be such a huge and infuriating quest. still got some more grocery stores to search, but not even the children's toothpaste in the nearest one had any that were suitable.

Edit: Hey you don't need to keep copying out the tags, I wrote all the Minty Hellfire lyrics here. And then someone recorded them here.

Also, I think it might technically be a sensitivity rather than an allergy, but whatever it is, toothpaste is not supposed to hurt! If it's burning then that's bad and you should try to find a new one if possible!

#LIKE FIIIIRE! HELLFIIIIIRE! THIS FIRE ON MY TONGUE!#I therefooooore requiiiire a new paste tooooo cleeaaan gums #It's not my fault! I'm not to blame! it is the Colgate brand and Crest who've set this flame!#it's not my fault‚ if in their plans‚ they made the toothpaste so much stronger than a maaaaaaannnnnn #protect me‚ oh grocers! don't let the menthol touch my lips‚ don't let its fire sear my mouth and gums!#PROVIDE ME WITH FLUORIDE‚ but not mixed with the fires of Hell‚ and I'll keep all my teeth for years to cooooommeeee #HELLFIRE #MINT FIRE #IS ALL THAT I CAN FIND!#I may be! requiired! to order paaaaste oooonline!

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maxgicalgirl · 3 months

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Being a “Fun Fact !” kind of autistic is all fun and games until you get halfway through sharing an interesting tidbit and realize that it probably wasn’t appropriate to share in polite company and now you have to deal with the consequences :(

#autism #neurodivergent #adhd #fun facts #GOD I’m such an idiot #anyways now a 10 year old is out there looking up swear words online and it’s all my fault :(#I got so excited by the fact that I knew a fun fact #that I didn’t stop to think that maybe not everyone knows that fun fact for a reason :(#it’s like explaining how to successfully bury a body at a book club #or explaining the dangers of Scientology to your sister’s boyfriend the first time you meet him #or debating gay sex positions with your best friend in front of your mom #no matter how much I wish to be a beacon of knowledge in this world #sometimes there are things others just don’t want to know #and consciously that’s valid but the autism ? I does not care

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cry-ba-bys · 5 months

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YOU'RE AN ANGEL I'M A DOG OR YOU'RE A DOG AND I'M YOUR MAN YOU BELIVE ME LIKE A GOD I DESTROY YOU LIKE I AM