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so i’m writing this chapter of hmh and i usually don’t post this kind of stuff but idk if y’all would like it. john is just not being himself he’s moody and being unfair to reader and they argue and in my head im like what if people read it and they hate john. i don’t want people to hate him, i love him. he’s just struggling a little. like idk. idk if i’m gonna post it idk if it even makes sense. is reader being a pushover? is she being too nice to him when they finally talk everything out??? I DONT KNOW I HATE THIS
people are always going to criticize something about it which that’s fine but I just hate when people don’t like him and don’t like her because I love them a lot and it makes me sad but like she’s just really sweet to him and understands that he’s struggling and yeah, he even realizes that he’s being unfair to her and he apologizes it’s not like he doesn’t apologize. Of course he does. I don’t know. I’m just rambling now because you know I have thoughts lmao
#this is what happens when you have no one to talk about your fic with bc your only friend no longer talks to you :)#and even if they did they don’t care about your fic lol#i’ll probably delete this later#and pretend it never existed#i just needed to rant
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You don't wish your disability was worse or more visible, you wish your disability was taken seriously. Please stop confusing the two, I guarantee you would not get the support you need JUST by being more severe or more visible. Please listen to visibly disabled people when we tell you it isn't better on our side
#m/cc#mine#I tried extremely hard to word this nicely because I KNOW people don't mean bad and often even know there are unique challenges#and believe me I know the challenges of invisible disability too!!#I have invisible disabilities!#but as someone who has also been at least visibly 'off' since they were 10 I am SO SICK of invisible disabilities being hailed as like#a unique extra oppression that us lucky visibly disabled people don't have to deal with#there are challenges to invisible disabilities that visibly disabled people DON'T have to deal with!#but you need to understand that *the reverse is also true*#there are MASSIVE benefits to being able to lie about your disability for example#or not dealing with the overt ableism that comes with your disability being obvious to everyone#*I do not have the option to pretend I'm not disabled.* that is never an option I have#I walk weirdly. I use a mobility aid now. my speech and face are 'off.' I lean to one side#for a long time I wore sunglasses 24/7 and often didn't make sense. I sometimes can't speak or won't react to others#for the most part people will always know that at the very least something is wrong with me#and more obviously I have people telling me they'll pray for me; telling me I can't do things I'm already in the process of doing;#wanting to shake my hand to tell me I'm an inspiration for not killing myself; giving me dirty looks for existing in public#and yes. I'm aware that this is very much an in-community issue. I know the average abled person doesn't know invisible disabilities exist#that's why there's so much awareness happening for it#but as a visibly disabled person I get SO TIRED of constantly hearing 'I wish my disability was visible :'('#it's just 'I wish I had your disability!' but from other disabled people
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Want to make a minor adjustment to my Steve With Much Older Siblings post from yesterday. I think it’d be a much more interesting dynamic if he’s actually their half sibling from an affair.
Their father had an affair with his secretary and then married her when she got pregnant. It broke up their family and they blamed Steve for it for years.
When they stayed over for their weekend with Dad, they were either outright cruel to him or pretended he didn’t exist. When they were old enough to stop coming over, they did. It’s only after growing up and maturing that (most of) his siblings were able to acknowledge that Steve was never at fault for their family breaking up.
They tried to mend their relationship with him, especially after realizing how absent his parents are, but by then Steve was old enough to build up his own resentment. It’s an uphill battle.
It’s a lot of actually coming around for holidays and a lot of teasing when they do. It’s actually picking the phone when the hospital calls, something that’s happening with increasing frequency.
Steve has never asked any of them for anything until one day, he shows up on Richie’s front porch smelling like death and gasoline. He’s got blood drying all over him and is visibly shaking, and Richie thinks that he’s been hurt in the earthquake but Steve barely acknowledges the concern, “I need you to represent my friend.”
“What?”
“You’re the only lawyer I know, and -“ Steve takes a big shuttering breath. “They’ll kill him, Rich. He never hurt anybody but no one will listen. They’ll lock him up and it won’t be fair, and Dustin can’t… I never ask you for anything but. But I need…”
“Eddie Munson?” He asks incredulous. “You’re friends with Eddie Munson?”
#Eddie meeting his lawyer for the first time: This is your brother? Dick?#Richie: Rich#Eddie: I’m sure you are#update made because I upset myself with my original post as a person who has a good relationship with their big age gap sister#I figure Steve’s got four siblings#the oldest is his sister Elizabeth who pretends his doesn’t exist and never comes around#and then Richie who was named after their dad. he’s a lawyer#and then Jason who was the family fuck up until Steve came along#and then Claire who is twelve years older than Steve#she’s a nurse#steve harrington#stranger things#Steve Has Older Siblings AU
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i'm almost certain this already exists but i couldn't not draw it when i thought of it. quick drawing bc trying to learn a whole new set of armor rn would be bad for my health
#din djarin#paz vizsla#bobadin#the mandalorian#star wars#drew din's armor vague enough that it could be fadAU or not#fadAU#myart#it's not NOT canon to fad. din has to make sure they NEVER meet#Folie à Deux#i love pretending jetpacks dont exist
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i love being transneutral i love not only being constantly excluded from things in my everyday life by virtue of being nonbinary but Also excluded from trans spaces and discussions bc i dont want to be 'aligned' with the gender binary in any way its awesome
#i love how these posts never go anywhere until coincidentally i include issues specific to transmasc or transfem people#totally does not make me feel even more like im just shouting into a void full of people who would rather pretend i dont exist#until im useful to them#haha. lol.#vent#exorsexism#not apologizing you all get to stop hearing me vent abt this when you start getting your fucking shit together and LISTENING#nonbinary and intersex people are screaming for support and most of you are plugging your ears and pretending we arent even there#that isnt saying you have to rb my posts specifically. this isnt meant to be like that guilt tripping bs just.#maybe stop rbing posts that blatantly exclude us! maybe even include us in some of your own posts! maybe even stop viewing literally-#-fucking EVERYTHING through the lens of male/female#idk. just putting the thought out there.#much to think about!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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lesson learned: you will work harder than anyone just to be seen as a person in this world and this world still won't let you be happy with yourself. now learn to live with that
#ace attorney#dgs#tgaa#eggert benedict#you ever think about how hard he would have worked just to exist#and how much he had to HIDE because he would NEVER be the person he pretended to be#because the person he pretended to be doesn't have nightmares about the slums#no matter how many times he remade himself he would never forget#get emotional about egg today. it's free
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I know this might hurt to hear for some but the ending of Falsettos is the necessary climax and conclusion to all of the men's character arcs.
Bill Finn didn't write it just to be a downer ending. He wrote it so Marvin would have to overcome his misogyny and take on a caregiving role and so he could learn to rely on his family for support.
He wrote it so Whizzer would have to overcome his pride and allow himself to be cared for and loved. To bring him and his family together.
He wrote it to knock Mendel down from his g-d complex. To show him he doesn't have the answers, that he has to help his family process their feelings instead of just pretending everything is fine.
He wrote it to teach Jason to give up his king, to concede, to learn from his mistakes. To teach him about being a man.
Whizzer's death happens at the end of Jason's bar mitzvah because it symbolizes all four men finally growing up. Becoming men. It is their final step out of falsettoland. Ignoring the ending robs them of their growth.
#this is why “whizzer lives” aus dont really work#bc they trap them in perpetual adolecence#or pretend their flaws never existed#falsettos#marvin falsettos#marvin trilogy#whizzer brown#mendel weisenbachfeld#jason falsettos#tw aids#tw death#tw illness#tw loss
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Doodles! Thinking about em' again
#very impressed w/ s4 ability to bastardize these characters even more than they already had!#im so glad i stopped watching after season 1 and even that was a chore to finish if im being honest#wasn't planning of posting anymore umbrella but if anything good came out of s4 it's the conformation of the 4th comic#so i thought lemme do some silly little doodles as a treat ha#anyways i think I'd like to go back to pretending the show never existed:^)#the umbrella academy#five hargreeves#my art#klaus hargreeves#umbrella academy
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... You don't remember what she looks like?
For Day 2 of the Campfire Fest at @outerwilds-events !
Prompt : Slide Reel
[ID: A mostly black and white fanart of Outer Wilds. Three inhabitants are holding each other and posing, as if for a portrait. The one in the middle has a missing antler, and their face has been redacted. In that spot, burn marks of different shapes and sizes, the only things in color, are cycling back and forth, as if the viewer was watching a slide reel. All three, from what little can be seen of the middle one's face, appear to be smiling. End ID.]
#outer wilds#outer wilds echoes of the eye#outer wilds eote#outer wilds spoilers#eote spoilers#outer wilds owlk#outer wilds the prisoner#outer wilds events#campfire fest 2025#my art#title is a jack stauber reference btw#pris's actual gender is unknown#we know from that one ending that you start forgetting things after you spend long enough in the sim#and they went out of their way to pretend the prisoner never existed#thinking about their scratched out portrait in particular#so maybe the others wouldn't even remember their face after so long#by the way the other two are supposed to be the two owlks next to pris in that one slide#but the exact nature of their relationship with eachother is up to you!#whatever vibes with your headcanons best#anyway i think about them a normal amount
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comparing asa from early part 2 and now, she feels more like a protagonist created for a oneshot than a longrun series. the quality time to her expositions and critical demeanor to her surroundings has dissapeared completely when the plot moved outside of high school. her character was sustained by this enviorment, to criticize social problems around teenagers, bullying, abusive power dynamics between teachers and students, for yuko and asa finding each other and running away from this source of anxiety: they lived for a story about friendship. the same way, first arc it's very conclusive on it's own, even if denji, yoshida and yoru were around to ground the plot to part 1, yuko and asa took opposite ways to proclaim the power they lost due their aggressors, at the end making a childish promise that calls back to the moment they became friends, it's very oneshot'ish imo, and it was perfect! even until falling devil arc, aquarium arc keep that teen funny-clumsy-first-love vibe. Asa reads very foreign to the actual tone, a tone more inclined to denji's hedonism and frenetic rhythm. hell, she even had to get involved in disgusting jokes and molesting situations to fit in, she barely has anything to say about the current events. it's very sad to see asa only lived through her protagonist glory the first couple of arcs, to end flanderized to just perform as denji's gf and yell around tsundere prototype eye twitch, kind of reminds me of the asuka langley soryu treatment in rebuilds. Soryu was terrified of intimacy and hyper-aware of the sexualization gaze upon her body, but shikinami walked around almost naked half of the movie... you can get the idea??

#but on the contrary with shikinami. i can't pretend this annoying asa never existed so idk#she literally saw yoru killing hundreds of innocent people and said :0 she's evil and that's it#i dropped during november but yoshida came back ig#chainsaw man#reading
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absolutely certain that helly is in fact helena is in disguise by this point and it was not a difficult thing to work out frankly but what absolutely knocks me on my ass is the REASON she's down there. after 2x01 we all assumed she was trojan horseing herself to spy on the rest of MDR and dissuade them from causing any more trouble. makes perfect sense right the fate of this company is in her hands. but NO!!! helena with her incredibly privileged spoiled brat outlook on everything, who has been told she's part of the most important lineage that's gonna save the world her whole life, sees a version of herself she heretofore did not even see as HUMAN forging the kinds of connections she has never had once in her life, and you think she's just gonna keep sending her down there and letting her have that? when she, the heiress of lumon and great granddaughter of kier, doesn't? she wants to experience what it's like to have no one expect anything of you, where you can express yourself however you want and kiss people just because you feel like it!! she views her innie as so far beneath her and yet she's so desperate for a taste of what it's like to be her! so much she's willing to KILL HER!! she's down there because she's fucking jealous of her innie!!! girl oh my god!!!!
#smth about incredibly rich and privileged people romanticising the plight of the lower classes IDK!!!!#it also makes me think of how in order to bring his own team back mark essentially had to kill 3 other workers#for the sake of his own comfort he sacrificed three people just like him#and helena wants what her innie has but still doesnt view her as a whole person with as many rights to life as her#by pretending to BE helly shes literally killing her#she only wants to consume her. still viewing her as a commodity that exists at her pleasure#once again the ruling class co-opting revolution to suit their own purposes#helena gets to cosplay someone she could never be because of the circumstance of her privilege#and helly is ever the victim#helena eagan i must study you#incredible how they managed to make her relatable and sympathetic on an emotional level#but still make it very clear she is an Antagonist and no matter what is always serving herself above all else#severance#severance spoilers#helena eagan#helly r#meta tag
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So basically one of Solas' murals
is the Crestwood scene, but with reversed roles. Solas is the rejected one, Mythal is the one who walks away, leaving him alone in what I presume was a glade at night, judging from the environmental sounds and hushed tones we can hear.
And, to be honest, I don't know how I feel about it - it feels like it cheapens the Crestwood scene, repeating an abusive pattern, stripping away the romance and softness of that scene. It's, once again, something Solas already went through with Mythal, not something he shares with Lavellan only. It's Weekes saying yet again that Solas saw Mythal in Lavellan, and that's why he fell in love with her. Not because she was Lavellan, but because she reminded him of Mythal and gave him hope that all elves could return to that "level" of wisdom.
What we learn in this game also ruins the kiss scene on the balcony, where Solas say "You have showed wisdom I have not seen since... since my deepest journeys into the ancient memories of the Fade."
Most of us believed he meant "Wisdom I have not seen since my ancient days in Elvhenan", but it's basically confirmed at this point that he meant "Wisdom I have not seen since Mythal".
A month ago, someone here mentioned how Weekes had said there was a specific reason why Solas had falled for Lavellan. I never found the interview where they said so, but I saw many believed it had something to do with reincarnation, lost soulmates finding each other again etc., but once again, it's clear what Weekes meant, and it's bad, cheap writing.
They could have written a god finally learning the error of his ways thanks to his love for a mortal - a love completely different from that of who was basically an abuser, a parent-like figure forcing him to take form and serve -, but instead they went for the easy route: a god still loving another god, feeling love for a mortal who reminds him of her, and changing his mind only because his god finally gives him permission to be free.
The mortal who supposedly "changes everything" serves no purpose - she actually tells him "There is no fate but the love we share" after he's been "freed" from his service, which in this context, in this situation, sounds more like a punishment, another yoke, some sort of "I finally got you, you can't run from me anymore".
I don't know what happened to Weekes' writing - either they were forced to make these decisions due to various constraints, or they completely changed their style/ideas during development, because this is not the Solas, this is not the Solavellan romance, we got in DA:I.
#da:tv spoilers#solavellan#dragon age spoilers#MAN#can't believe i wasted brain cells on this game#i'll probably pretend it never existed#and imagine my own canon#because this isn't a love letter#it's a fucking tragedy LOLOLOL#WELP#time to go back to FFXIV#Haurchefant Greystone of House Fortemps would never treat me like this
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sibling moment
#mcyt#grian#pearlescentmoon#skyblings#team giggs#giggs repo#repo#the way they both agree on pretending like those items never existed AFSDFSDASD#'yep. we just found the clown in here! nothing else!'#the run ends up being quite a bit of money short and gem comments on how they found like no big items#pearl and grian still dont say anything. icons#my post
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god's favourite princess just got another makeover (i'm god)
#ts4#ts4 sim#ts4 edit#ts4 portrait#sim;allyson#☁#i'm so glad i gave her this hair#it was made for her me thinks#also we're going to pretend that the previous versions of her don't exist#idk what i was thinking she'd never look like that🤨
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you know what. get appledash'd
(aka i watched non compete clause for the first time and im still mad about it)
#mlp#my little pony#applejack#rainbow dash#appledash#art tag#I HATED THAT EPISODE SO FUCKING MUCH#me the entire episode: THEY WOULD NOT FUCKING SAY THAT#they would never! i watched it with my friend and we literally paused 1 minute in because we were already mad#i pretend i do not see it that episode does not exist#credit to emily for the idea 😌
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what a tragic parallel actually
#they should’ve been endgame#but no let’s go ahead and pretend she never existed for no reason at all#and then just kill everyone#so atp neither luther nor sloane ever existed#worse than death actually#laur says stuff#luther hargreeves#tua luther#sloane hargreeves#tua sloane#luther x sloane#the umbrella academy#tua#umbrella academy#tua s4#hargreeves siblings#tua season 4
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