#and talk abt it to an audience next week

[possiblytracker]

academia win(?)! this weasel turned in their dissertation

[seventh-district]

several days and 15 thousand words later, i am relieved to report that the suffocating urge to Write Something has been sated and no longer has me in a chokehold

[toastsnaffler]

my flatmate asking me the day before "do u want to hang out w me and [old friend] everyone else cancelled so I can invite u now" is not the heartfelt offer she thinks it is :^/

[greasegotahold]

This post started out with a point then turned into rambling abt the stage show lol

So like. at least in my irl circle and from what I heard yesterday, a lot of ppl prefer the musical to the movie. Acknowledging the bias of theatre ppl toward theatre, that's not the reason I heard most; what I heard most is that the musical stays closer to the book than the movie. Granted idk how many if any of these ppl have seen the complete novel extended cut of the movie, but even so this argument sits wonky with me

Bc the musical takes quite a few departures from the book, some p dramatic. Darry is not the gang's leader, Dally is. Randy is an ensemble part with one line; Cherry gets his ending "even if you win, nothing will change" moment. Sandy is already gone. Evie and Sylvia are gone. Steve is not a big part of Soda's life. Two Bit isn't acknowledged as an alcoholic. Johnny was only jumped a week ago, and it's not a secret who did it. Bob is the one who jumps Pony at the start and even comes up with an excuse for it. Dally doesn't give Johnny his heater, Dally commits a far more direct suicide, no sickness or court proceedings, so on and so forth.

Now I understand why we made just about all of these changes: the show is just about 2 hours as is, not counting intermission; streamlining needed to happen, for time and for clarity of storyline. I even prefer a lot of the changes (Cherry is just. Such a livelier character lmao. She's given stuff to DO. I love her in the book and movie but the stuff they added in the musical I simply love.) I bring this up just bc it. Is honestly just as different as the movie if not more so in how it departs from the source material.

Which means when ppl are saying it's closer to the book, they mean in feel.

And in many avenues; talking about the the extreme accessibility of the book as an adult with other adults, attempting to articulate my issues with the film adaptation, and then later attempting to defend the movie on those same shortcomings, I think I know why.

It's the ever-present narration. I've said it before, and I'll say it again, Ponyboy tells his story, he doesn't show. And that makes the book an extremely straightforward read, and absolutely how he can tell us so much shit that happened in so little time, but it also makes it hard to capture in a standard movie adaptation, especially when the movie also needs to trim down and streamline characters and plot points.

But what does Pony do throughout the musical? He narrates. Yes the story plays out real time, but it's still interspersed with these slowdowns where he talks to the audience, where he's narrating.

And I think that's what's really clicking so well with the musical, despite all the changes to characters and their dynamics and plot beats.

And for certain things, the impact is still there, they just changed it around. Johnny was jumped last week instead of months ago and we don't get the excerpt abt how he wound up buying his first blade, and how he would kill the next soc who tried to jump him, and Dally no longer gives him his gun, but he does give him the 6 inch switchblade when Johnny is genuinely worried his dad will kill his mom, and then shows him how to stab to kill. The circumstances are different, but we still get Dally giving Johnny a lethal weapon. The motivation changes for why Johnny carries his blade, from self defense to an explicit want to protect others, but this makes it a more direct setup for when he kills Bob to save Pony.

And a lot of the straight up original additions to the plot feel seamless. The added backstory for Cherry's parents, her dad's alcoholism and her mom's kind of just. Surrender to hopelessness and despair. Not only explains why she's so touchy about Bob drinking, but it makes the change from going along with him to stop a fight into her refusing to back down after breaking up feel justified. To be clear, I don't fault book and movie cherry for doing what she does in that scene, she's trying to keep everyone else safe, I just think that the change was set up and well executed in the musical.

Also sidenote but in Justice For Tulsa...I have so many feelings after getting to see it. The cop shining his flashlight down on Two Bit as he gets jumped, but then he just keeps on walking bc why would he care abt a greaser...Bev buying right into the boys' escalation against the greasers vs Cherry's outright rebuke and then Marcia is over here looking genuinely Physically nauseous over having to choose a side. And of course the moment where the cop beats Dally after handcuffing him, that speaks for itself.

(Sidenote, unrelated to anything, I just wanna say when I listened to the soundtrack for the first time, years since I had read the book or watched the movie, somehow I just knew when the soc boys started singing their threatening section, that they were jumping two bit. I guess I just had a faint buried memory that Two Bit was the revenge-jumping victim lol)

[thelesbianluthor]

I was talking about the percy jackson show yesterday with my cousin so I feel like I have ironed out a bit my thoughts on the whole thing.

I have my criticisms but overall I think that the potential and the positives outweigh those and that's why I mostly focus on that.

I think my main issue has been that the basis is great and the actors are perfect but it always feels good and fun to watch but it ALMOST hits the right spot and doesn't go fully bull's eye.

This is season 1 and most of the cast are kids who are talented but I think everyone (writers and staff too) needs to find their footing a bit so that's why some things come off better than others. Like they have the right ideas and intentions of course (I mean rick is there so I have no doubts on the directions of the plot and in the changes made) but some things feel rough around the edges and it's fine.

Also the episodes should be LONGER. I don't know why they have some that are less than 40 minutes like Medusa episode was great loved it but I feel like we needed MORE TIME bc the fight at the end felt too quick.

Already talked abt it but episode 6 felt weak to me as a whole and I think the editing choices were to blame there. We needed more chaos and fun. I don't mind the focus on Hermes and Luke backstory and I liked the scenes for what they were but imo we needed something more fun and chaotic in the casino bc it felt like such a transitional episode, especially with ep 5 being a great one.

And probably the one episode per week drop makes the weaker episodes fall more than they would if you watched the show as a whole too.

Criticism aside I am enjoying the show for what it is and the potential it has bc it's there and high for sure. I am not looking for a darker more adult cw-ish (derogatory) take of the story. I am fully aware who is it made for audience wise and I am not gonna go around crying abt every little thing changed bc change is good at times and needed too.

I really appreciate this rendition of the story for what it is and I feel like the next two episodes will be great but most importantly the next seasons will be even better and try to fix what's lacking now.

PS

These are my opinions btw it's completely valid to disagree!!

[angelsdean]

dean's kinda right for calling sam a selfish bastard in 1x11 because like, in this instance sam insisting they do what HE wants very much WILL result in two people getting killed. like it's a certainty. if they turn around and head to california two innocent people WILL die.

while they're driving and discussing the case they figure out the window for these disappearances is consistent across the board: second week of april. then sam say this is the second week of april.

sam sums up the gist of it, john's sending them there to save this next couple before they vanish. this job isn't just about hunting some monster or spirit in the area that may attack, the attack is certain. the pattern has been consistent for years. it's very likely another couple will disappear / die. and it's already the second week, there's no wiggle room, no space to pause and come back to this case later.

still, sam insists on dropping the case and heading to california. the demon and getting revenge is more important to him right now than saving lives.

dean says, this is important. saving lives is important. and sam says he understands, but his next statement shows he really really doesn't. because he says "I'm talking one week here...to get revenge." ONE WEEK is exactly the amount of time you don't have. Letting this case sit for one week will ensure that another couple dies. Revenge can wait. John can wait. It's been over six months at this point without word from John. Now that they know generally where he is, it can wait. One week won't change much on that front.

so, i mean, dean IS kinda right. sam IS being selfish in this moment (and stubborn. he is thee Most taurus)

yes, dean is also a bit defensive and deflecting because sam won't stop insisting dean's a mindless little soldier and dean also feels some resentment at sam for just leaving him to deal with john on his own (1x06 shifter monologue) and some of those feelings are a bit unfair (but dean's allowed to feel them! just like sam's allowed to feel his anger and resentment toward dean! they can feel things even if their perceptions of the situation are not 100% true). and this scene is playing off as an echo to sam leaving for stanford, he's going to california whether dean likes it or not! and that's gotta be dredging up some bad feelings for dean. but dean's still right about sam acting selfishly here. sam says he understands that hunting is important and this job is important, yet he's willing to let these people die and be collateral in his quest for revenge.

(side note: it's also very interesting to me that when sam asks "that's what you really think?" dean owns up to it right away. which is a nice contrast to the last episode where sam under ghost-possession says a whole lot of shit to dean, fulled by his anger which the ghost is exacerbating, and it's very obvious to dean and the audience that sam does feel those things, even if the words came out harsher than they might have normally. but sam insists at the end of the episode he didn't mean it !! but from dean's reaction we can tell dean doesn't buy it. but here, dean doesn't beat around the bush. he's angry with sam, he's annoyed that sam is putting his own feelings and need for revenge over what dean believes is the more important part of their job, saving people. and so he says it! and maybe it's harsh and sure he'll feel bad about it later, but it's healthier to say how he really feels abt the situation then pretend everything is fine)

in summary: AITA for wanting to drop a case that NEEDS to be completed this very week or else two people WILL disappear and likely die, just so i can track down our dad who's been MIA for *checks notes* over six months, because he's closing in on the demon that killed my mom and girlfriend and i just want to get revenge already !! even though california's a big state and it'll take me at least a day or more to get there and there's no guarantee i'll even find our dad but we can work this case now and save lives now but i just, don't wanna :/

[kimtaegis]

just wanted to say thank u so much for being so open and for reading and answering the asks you receive, i know that sometimes things get heavy and there's also too much negativity sent to you, i guess people (including me) really feel comfortable to vent with you or just to talk abt things in general, but u r also a human being, and even though you don't invalidate anyone's feelings, it can be too much to handle 🫂

i feel better now and i'll just focus on jin's safety, which is the priority, being angry and upset kind of ruined my day yesterday ;-; and it's true that they used to have FESTA in-person fanmeetings that were paid too and even more restricted to the audience, it just hurt more bc it's not an usual thing, it's the day a member is coming back after 18 months of serving. it was hard to see this more as an event and less like a simple "hi, we missed you" thing, but yeah, it'll be an event at the end of the day. i keep thinking about how brave he is, being the first to come back and going to the stage right after... i know he misses it, but it would be understandable if he wasn't ready for that

BUT anyway, i'll be sharing links with you when the day comes, and i can't wait to see his beautiful face, to hear his voice, to read the comments of people who'll be able to hug him T-T and to see him performing 🥺

and it looks like people won't be able to record the hug session, i think that i would be too anxious to see so many videos on my tl before we got to actually watch the livestream, does that make sense? so the first session will feel more like when they went to the pre-recording of music shows, something that only people there (and jin) will have as a memory 🥺

AND MAYBE, just maybe, later they can release some glimpses of it, like it was with tae's layover fanmeeting? 🤞

oh thank you so much for saying that, I really appreciate you thinking about me when it comes to these talks 🤍 sometimes it can get quite exhausting, but then I just answer later when I’m in the headspace for it again, it’s alright!!

yes yes exactly, paid festa content is definitely not new but I agree with you that a member’s return is just not the same as something like an ot7 concert, it just doesn’t feel right to me to put that behind a paywall.

I see it the same way as you, it’s totally okay that they won’t record the first session (it would also put a lot of armys on display which I personally, if I was there, also wouldn’t want at all! so I think it’s fine for both sides of the fandom)

there’s a possibility that they’ll upload a highlight video of the day for sure! they were kind enough to do that for both the vicnic and also yoongi’s movie night before, so let’s hope!

I hope you get to enjoy jin’s return next week (next week!!!!! ahhhh!!!!), don’t let your mood be too spoiled darling, it’s gonna feel great to welcome him back no matter which way 🤍

[alexbkrieger13]

svt also had another short reportage on the live news’s today where they showed super short clips of some magda and jrk interview and talked abt the game shortly

https://www.svtplay.se/sportnytt (starts at 10:22)

magda: 1-0, to bring that w us to camp nou, so the match is still alive.

i: you’re still hopeful?

magda: absolutely, i’m definitely hopeful. i felt that it’s always interesting when you haven’t met a team for a while and to feel each other a bit in the first match. i think everyone in the team thinks we can do something over there. it isn’t the best result and what we had hoped for but it’s alive

i: it was 28000 here today and it will be even more in barcelona next week. how is it to play there?

jrk: it’s super exiting and fun to have so many people around, i hope we really can take that and enjoy playing such a big match for such big audience against good a good opponent. nothing everyone gets.

nice to hear them claim it’s still alive and they have a chance. then it’s another whether to believe it or not lol

[bylertruther]

mike only ever showing interest in el "superman" hopper when it comes to girls + mike worrying that will is going to find someone else when he moves away and being giddy with relief when will tells him it's "not possible" vs him having that giddy mood shattered when el brings up the time he said he loved her when she wasn't there (to which he plays stupid btw), says it back, and then kisses him, only for him to have absolutely no reaction to this whatsoever except confusion + mike only asking boys (not including his sister who's a freebie ask) to sub for lucas in dnd + mike's grimaces whenever the boys are talking about (girl) crushes + "that's bullshit media propaganda" abt a negative 60 minutes segment referenced by a character when in-universe that week's segment was a positive piece on aids in california* + mike not being able to hug will despite hugging literally everyone else including a stranger + el saying she thinks will likes someone because he's been acting weird, but the only person who acted weird this season was mike (who has a gf he hasn't ever said ily to btw despite her saying it a lot) + mike calling will all the time despite will NEVER picking up or calling him first + mike feeling like will ruined the day by not talking to him at the rink even when el, his girlfriend, literally got harassed in front of everyone not even two seconds ago + mike nodding in thought when will says "sometimes i think it's just scary to open up like that, to say how you really feel especially to the people you care about the most, because what if they don't like the truth?" in a conversation abt mike not being able to tell eleven he loves her when it's in a romantic context (this line makes the audience think it's abt will but really this pertains to both of them, will's feelings and mike's sexuality) + mike not even being able to Admit to others that he can't say it bc then he'd have to say why and that makes it Too Real + mike telling will that this past year was weird without him specifically because hawkins isn't home without him and he's special to mike in a way that literally no one else is canonically (no mention of el btw, just will) + mike forever and always failing to do the romantic gestures people in-universe assume he will for eleven but always immediately performing them for will literally RIGHT AFTER that assumption is spoken without anyone needing to tell him or guide him through it + mike telling will that asking him to be his friend was the best thing he's ever done but describing meeting his girlfriend as dumb luck + mike talking about el needing him without ever mentioning love thereby stating that he's worried she doesn't want him in her life in general even as a friend not that she doesn't love/like him + mike feeling inferior to eleven but feeling like will's equal + mike only telling eleven that he loves her when will tells him to and because he was so moved by will's feelings but not her own begging in their last conversation + his speech then being a response to will's feelings that are a direct contradiction of everything eleven last told him which he'd know if he trusted and valued his girlfriend's words over will's + mike not doing anything when el doesn't talk to him after the love confession but having what is essentially a sixth sense for will's plights n continuing to have intimate conversations with him instead + mike always standing by will's side, saying they're a team, saying that he doesn't know what's going to happen next as they fight extradimensional monsters without their superhero but that it'll be easier if they do it together, and staying back with him while eleven walks forward alone = That Is A Fucking Homosexual of the Homotron 6000 Gayer Than Being Gay Variety That Is In Love With His Boy Best Friend

[effieandtim]

i sent the first ask abt people binging ft, but I agree that weekly ep by ep release helped sustain interest in the show, regardless of people watching later. imagine if they dropped it all at once, we would all be scandalized and excited by foot sucking and some other sex scenes from the following eps probably and we'd all cry at the last ep, but by the third week from the premiere it would have fallen off for sure with maybe sparse mentions from people that didn't manage to watch all at once. this way we were all anticipating both what sex scenes they'd come up with and what emotional stuff would happen, every friday/weekend. look at the crown for example, maybe it's not quite comparable to ft in terms of the topics it covers and the audience it attracts, but still, they dropped the final season in two parts in nov and dec, & i don't think many people were talking about either part 2 weeks after it was released, and it barely had obligatory reviews and such. im very glad it didn't end up at netflix bc they would just forget it after the first friday. now I'm wondering about bridgerton s3, how that's going to go...

oh def, the anticipation about the next sex scene was huge lmao

also the writing was such that every episode was connected but also disconnected to the last in a way - like there was a different theme or a different point in the characters journey explored in each ep which also showed their growth

so it was v exciting to wait for the next to see what it would be like

and my god dont get me started on the terrible two part model - its meant to extend that anticipation but it doesn’t work bc you either drop all eps at once or release weekly. audiences dont yet prefer the two part thingy so idk why they push for it

and lmao idgaf about bridgerton s3, only give me my kanthony crumbs and i’ll be okay

[infiniteorangethethird]

hi

first of all, please ignore (even delete) this if you're not in the mood because half of this'll be essentially just a rant, sorry. a positive one, but a rant nonetheless. i just wanna share with someone, preferably someone who knows what i'm talking about/what i mean. also please tell me if you don't want me to appear in your ask box like this ever again.

second of all, i wanna apologize for not writing you back, i just fucking forgot (seems to be a reoccuring theme with us ig). but if you wanna, i'd like to continue the conversation, especially that i haven't even heard about the second guy.

third of all, not to make you even more jealous but i think that our creative writing professor is a fucking genius. like holy shit.

the whole class i was adhd-ing so hard (so maybe having it doubled is not that good for my brain, oops - especially that we talk a lot and, well, listen to each other a lot and it requieres focus. anyway). i was fidgeting through the whole class and i think i hit the chair next to me like ten times and i wanted to scream because i was sure i was annoying, visible and sometimes even somewhat loud about it and eh. thankfully, we had a ten minute break and i think it was somewhat better after that.

but! onto the positive part! i was last to read and it gave me some anxiety beforehand but i really enjoyed reading and i think i said things nicely plus the feedback and i was very quickly in a good mood aaaand dopamine lol. then we played a game which was nice and also game!!

and then he said what we have to do for the next class which is esentially a retelling (any mythology, any type and even like any time-period? as in you can write the story again, like the song of achilles or place it in modern day or whatever. so like. how cool is that???) and here comes my fav part because i have been planning an orpheus and eurydice retelling with simon and adalaine for a while and i plan that as a big project, like a full book preferably but. still. i get to work with that! and i get to work with simon and adalaine! for my creative writing class!! absolutely losing my shit

anyway if you'd have an exercise like this what do you think, what would you write?? i'm so curious (i'm just generally so interested in the topic of retellings. like they're so cool). also if you wanna write it, i'd love to read it.

also curious about what do you think, what work of yours would you read out loud to get to know your writing at a class like this/at a writing club or smth?

also how are you?? hope you're doing ok.

sorry for the rant again. and for not writing you back. yeah

bestie hi hiii !!! don't ever feel bad for wriggling into my inbox it's always a pleasure seeing you here in my little corner of the internet! and it's always so good to hear abt what shenanigans you got into, seeing that we haven't seen each other in ages :( (speaking of which, any chance of you hanging 'round budapest in upcoming weeks perhaps?)

damn ur right u are making me kinda jealous hehe. but more importantly I'm so happy for u man!! you get to share your stories with an audience that listens and gives good feedback that's some really good stuff and I'm happy you get to experience that! and you know my opinions on Simon and their pals so the idea that you're gonna have written material for them (as in, more than there already is)?? damn now I really just wanna read more of your stuff 😩 (I mean. only if u want me to. like I'd love to read whatever you write for the class if ur comfy sharing 🥺)

Tbh I'm not much of a reteller-type - don't get me wrong I get feral about stories that manage to both acknowledge their roots and the fact that they are a different story to those roots, my current fav series for instance does a phenomenal job at this imo - I just personally prefer to tell original stories bc I feel I dunno, less limited? Still if I had to choose it would probably be Icarus's story, I know not the most original but the concept has me screaming crying foaming at the mouth and a lot of my little guys could fit into the story almost frighteningly well. Then again as much fun as talking abt my guys in an academic setting sounds like I'd probably be insufferable 😂

I'm not sure if I have works I'd be comfy reading in front of a class lol, most of what I already have is either unfinished/unedited or a 20k fic on ao3. but if I absolutely had to choose it'd probably be this one bc 1) it combines all my fav parts of writing (poetic wording, dark themes, utterly incomprehensible metaphors...) and 2) it's short so it won't take me ages to read it out loud lol

anyway don't feel bad for not answering you know exactly how my own short term memory works (hint: it doesn't) lmao. it doesn't count if we're both shit at replying to each others' stuff that just means were even 😂 (but seriously though I really don't mind I know how sometimes the brain just does a backflip unprompted)

and seriously feel free to rant at me any time you like as we already agreed normal chat apps <<<<<< tumblr when it comes to communication (but only if I can rant back at you hehe)

[yourlocaldisneyvillain]

(Not hate) okay so about that one controversial fic. I’m not gonna say anything bad about but I’m actually just genuinely curious why you decided to write something like that? Considering that there’s way less controversial things to write about, why did you decide to write that?

i think i answered something similar a while ago, but it got lost on my blog bc i am incapable of tagging things properly lol i can never find anything

i am a person that likes to be challenged. i like taking an unusual or controversial concept and exploring it (one of the reasons i invented and did kink!week, where i challenged myself to write abt unusual/odd/misunderstood kinks and tried to make it genuinely hot, even if i personally wasn't necessarily into it). truth is, i got bored with the fanfic community and the type of content that was preferred, and i was honestly bored with it for a while before writing this fic. no hate to fandom writers -- i think there is a place and an audience for everyone, but i craved a different type of content, both to read and to write. i felt like i was expected to throw out fics that are basically all a variation on the same concept, and i felt i'd go nuts if i read one more larissa x teacher!reader self-insert fic. i felt like the content was just used for self-insert gratification and porn with little to no plot or actual character exploration/development. and honestly, nothing wrong with that, but i was hungry for stories with substance, or even slightly more imaginative smut, if we're talking smut (and let's be real this is a very horny fandom lol).

so one morning i was scrolling through the Webbed Site, as one does, and i stumbled upon a larissa x wednesday fic by a person whose username i honestly don't even remember, but they were not a popular or a known creator. and i was like, what the hell, let's see if this is cringe and if it is i can be Outraged with my wife later. and while Some of it was cringe, i felt like there was actual substance to the story and that their dynamic made sense, even if there were bits that i disliked and the grammar was very poor. and i was like, wow, that actually felt refreshing to read, even with its many flaws. at least it was original.

so i started to wonder -> under which circumstances would these two characters actually make sense? how do i create a world in which that relationship would work? i love to challenge myself as a writer, and i thought about it until i came up with a narrative that could support my idea!

i am honestly surprised by how many people are appalled by the concept of ageing up a character? that has been around for as long as fandom exists. i didn't think it would be *that* controversial, and if you read my story i honestly don't think there is anything Outrageous in it. in fact, i think it's much, much tamer than MANY popular fandom works. i expected some backlash bc people are generally close-minded online and have very Specific ideas abt what is Moral and what is Not, but i didn't expect people to go *this* nuts lol. i am better prepared for next time, i guess

and even if my work was like. Immoral and Horrible, it's fiction. if you don't like it, don't read it. i feel we encounter a genuine problem when people try to control and police other people and the type of content that gets written and posted -- a lot like young people trying to erase "problematic tags" from ao3. i am not saying certain things aren't problematic, but there is a distinction to be made between fiction and real life. people are allowed to write about whatever they want to write about, and it doesn't make them criminals, murderers, pedophiles, or morally corrupt and evil.

i honestly think most people who have accused me of promoting pedophilia wouldn't recognise sexual abuse if it was happening before their eyes irl lol. and besides, i never said oh go fuck your former teacher, that's a great idea!!! (i know fandom people who have bragged abt doing that though lol) i have simply written a story about two characters that are both consenting adults, and you can take it or leave it.

i am, in fact, writing a new fic that does deal with pedophilia, ephebophilia to be precise with my terminology, sexual assault and cycles of abuse -- how and why they happen and whether they can be broken and how. it's a very personal story and i pull a lot from my own life experience with sexual abuse as a minor. it's, obviously, not a romance or a ship story, but it *is* set in the wednesday universe -- and i am SURE i will get another bout of "kill yourself" messages, to which i say, i don't give a shit. i think people who send that type of shit are sad and deranged -- and tbh, you can send me those day in and day out and i would still i post whatever the fuck i wanted. i got angry with all the ignorance and hate that i witnessed after i published "particular" and i now feel the need to write what people think they witnessed in my story.

all that being said, i am also a person that likes to poke at the status quo. my answer to "why" is "why not?" so you can take that as you will. i am not harming anybody and i don't see why i should be apologetic about writing a fic that i wanted to write.

i appreciate you asking a genuine question and not hiding behind anon! this is my genuine answer, and i hope it's somewhat satisfying -- if not, that's too bad bc it's the only one i've got.

[minkkumaz]

gosh.. omi.. jisung brainrots r so real.. on my way home i was thinking abt this one comment i saw on tiktok about him? and it was something about how Jisung admitted to crushing on people easily..? not sure if thats true!! but! ill pretend it is!!

WHICH HAD ME THINKING. jisung reads webtoon & watches a bit of anime.. and we all know anime openings r SO GOOD. SO SO GOOD. and one day hes watching this show, and when he hears the opening hes like 🤔🤩. So of course he adds it to his playlist.. a few days later he finds himself listening to the whole discography.. which leads him into googling the artist. (spoiler alert: its u!)

a few days later, he decides to go live.. while reading the comments he gets asked for a song recommendation. and hes like.. “actually i’ve been listening to these songs often..” and he ends up just going on a little rant abt the readers songs ><

his fans find that he has nearly every single song the reader made added to his playlist.. a certified stan!

one day mark and him were at the gym, and mark could heard jisungs music blasting out of his headphones. so naturally mark asks about it, googles the artists name and teases him. “oooh you guys are the same age”

“stop being weird..”

a week or two later nctdream has been invited to an event with many other artists in japan. and as they prep for it, mark realizes that jisungs lil celebrity crush (you) was performing the day before their performance. mark lets jisung know about this, and jisung goes, 😲😲🤩🤩🤩.

when they all arrive at japan, jisung immediately asks the staff to visit the venue the day before their performance; in hopes of witnessing his favorite songs (and you..) live. once he gets the OK he couldnt be more excited. purchases VIP tickets and makes sure hes able to arrive so he can stay by the barricades.

Finally, the day comes and when you step on the stage he instantly becomes enamored. (u cant tell me idols never have idol crushes because who could resist any of them..) the singing, your stage presence, your charm is just irresistible to him. and he SWEARS he goes insane once you make eyecontact with him and wink. IDOLS ARE THE BEST! quoted by jisung himself.

after that event, he clearly gets why the audience goes insane every time an idol just breathes.

YOU! on the other hand are performing until a pretty masked face with dark blue hair catches your attention. all of a sudden ur stealing glances and approaching his section more often. after the performance theres a sendoff! and when jisung is face to face with u, he cant help but get all shy and nervous. he gets a selfie and your signature and best believe thats gonna be his wallpaper.

the day after, reader decides to spend their day off watching the other performances in the venue, and notices how theres a familiar, blue haired performer. jisung swears he sees a familiar silhouette in the crowd but believes his eyes are playing tricks on him..

though after the performance, he opens his phone to find you following him back on insta.

(extra!! reader finds little clips of jisung swooning over their music. very cute!!)

GRGRGRHRHR JISUNG BRAINROTS R INVADING ME RN.. gosh i love little tropes of mutual pinning and soft launching relationships. IDK WHY BUT EXPOSURE JUST DOES IT FOR ME! like yes talk abt me to ur friends!!!

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OMG YOU WENT CRAZY WITH THIS IMAGINE ITS SUCH A CUTE IDEA!!!

jisung getting all giddy about idol reader is so cute, and especially him buying vip and getting barricade 3: idols doing stuff that their fanbases usually do is just so funny to me like imagining him with a lightstick and a picket has me rolling on the floor LMAOOOO

THEN READER WATCHING HIM THE NEXT DAY AND FINDING OUT ABOUT HIM :( THEN FOLLOWING HIM AND STUFF :( ALL THOSE INTERACTIONS ARE SO SWEET

normally i'm not the biggest on idol reader for some reason, i have no idea why BUT THIS ONE IS JUST THE CUTEST

omg and yes you're so right about exposure, like if your partner isn't talking about you every second of the day are they really your partner ?!?!

[asbestieos]

since iv already talked meltys computer screen off abt seisoukan fire i might as well let you all peep the (pre-) horror . basically seisoukan fire is a fic ive had in drafts for.. three months now? four? ive lost track of time but its been in the workshop for a while now and i cannot bring myself to finish it at the moment . maybe one day ill revisit it or maybe someone will take my idea and make it even poggier ^_^ either way heres tasty snippet

It scared her how calm she still was, even so many days after tragedy struck.

There was paperwork to do and business to go about, of course, all too important to set aside for grief. There was no chance Anzu would rest so long as there was more she could do to ease her idols’ pain. Yet even she knew there must be some boundary at which her strength ended. Maybe when she next slept. Or when she next had a moment to herself. Her own anxieties were abated for a week now, but through the caffeine and sleeplessness, the tell-tale adrenaline brought about by unnecessary thoughts began to emerge from the fog of responsibilities in her brain. She didn’t have long until she, like every other member of Ensemble Square, fell victim to feelings of despair.

… But she couldn’t let that happen just yet. She saw the national outrage over what was seemingly the fault of Ensemble Square’s Producer Association. Angry mobs, online and in real life, demanded justice. Punitive justice. Rightful execution of those who failed to protect their charges. Despite the official investigation spearheaded by founder Eichi Tenshouin ruling innocent in the producers’ favor, all evidence of the fire’s origins were hidden from public view. The unsatisfactory explanation defaulted to a simple accident of unexplainable origins — and it was left at that, for any and all to speculate.

Perhaps hiding the truth spared the Association the worst of the abuse. Perhaps hiding the truth protected the idols most severely affected. Perhaps hiding the truth was simply a ploy to prolong their audiences’ patience, a precursor to another plan in development. Perhaps Eichi intended to use this chance to upheave the Association’s power after all.

Anzu could care less.

People — No, her dearest, closest, most precious friends had died.

Non-confrontational as she was, there was no chance she could let the truth of the matter be hidden from her. From the victims still suffering even now. Even if her position as Producer was at-risk, even if there was a chance the swords of hate could point at her throat — for the sake of her friends still living, she wanted to find the answers to their questions. If it would soothe their guilt and pain, wouldn’t it be worth it after all?

Over the course of the week, between public media announcements and funeral tributes, Anzu tried to carefully craft the truth of what had happened together. To learn how an unexpected fire took the lives of ten of Ensemble Square’s very best, and injured a further thirteen more. An endeavor taken not without aid: when Ibara, equally as exasperated with his own losses, came across her notes splayed across the Square office’s tables, the loadbearers’ count stepped up to two, and they carried the burden of truth-seeking together, examining the finer details the official investigation could not consider under the close scrutiny of the public.

Now, she presents herself before a small group of fellow students and a few graduates. All in varying degrees of injury and non-such. The handful who agreed to discuss the incident, strong enough to assist in their investigation, trustworthy enough to not immediately rat their asses out to higher-ups.

They expected less to come than originally planned. Accounting for cold feet, weighted trust, limited invitations, and the sheer impossibility of their task, Ibara guessed only a quarter of their requested audience would arrive, barely five people. But as they waited in that isolated warehouse, deep into the mundane urban structures of Ensemble Square’s yet-to-be-constructed areas, their witnesses slowly trickled in, one after another.

They totaled twelve thus far.

Leo, carefully carrying himself in with a singular crutch, a brace constricted about his neck.

Madara, in similar shape, though where Leo had a brace about his neck, Madara instead had one of his arms in a sling.

Sora, now healed; and Natsume, unharmed.

Nazuna. Unharmed.

Mika. Healed.

Kuro, unharmed; Hiiro, unharmed; both assisting a wheelchair-bound Tetora, wrapped still in protective dressing and a tiger-patterned blanket.

Hokuto and Subaru. Unharmed.

Finally, Kaoru. Unharmed.

Tell-tale exhaustion hung on each of their faces. Anzu knew, at least on the stage, they had no choice but to maintain composure, so to see their weary faces now only hurt her heart. While she had the chance to share her grievances with ES’s fanbase, they had no choice but to keep their chins held high, even amidst terrible rumors and conspiracy regarding the incident. All this, they had to endure in silence without a chance to even defend themselves.

Anzu inhaled deep, organizing clipped papers in her hands. This was all for them. She long since resolved to use her own experience to support them. For her, this feeling of helplessness and hopelessness was familiar, and she was well aware of how insidiously persistent that pain was. Their grief may never end, so they are well-deserving of whatever explanation she and Ibara could find.

“Nervous, Producer-dono?” Ibara chided, pen clicked away. He eyed Kaoru as he slumped into one of the empty folding chairs.

She lowered her head. Then, she mumbled to him, “Saegusa-san, I’m sorry for the trouble. I can do this by myself, so you don’t have to be here.“

“Hmm? Aren’t we both investigating? It’d be unfair to do solo work when the truth is something we both aim for, isn’t it?”

“Still... you’re a very busy man.”

“Busy as I am, allow me to lead. You’ve been practically tearing yourself apart these past few days,” Ibara teased as he set his papers down on his seat. A hop to his feet and the attention of the whole group came upon him.

Even Ibara himself did not escape the tragedy unscathed — at least, not emotionally. Were Anzu not a fellow Producer, she might never have noticed his own suffering, but since that terrible day, his enthusiasm mellowed and his sight clouded. Where before, Ibara always stepped his best foot forward, he now stumbled in stride and in work. Making mistakes he’d never make in a million years, mistakes that might have cost him his position and agency were it not for her quiet assistance.

She was grateful for his help and more than willing to cover for him, especially since he had lost someone dear to him as well.

“Thank you all for coming,” Ibara began. Anzu noted how he neglected to inject his usual energy into his tone. “You already know why Producer-san and I have called you here. We intend to find the truth behind what happened at Seisoukan. Not the official declaration released by His Eminence Tenshouin Eichi, mind you, but every detail left untold by the faulty investigation supposedly conducted.”

Ibara continued, his hands clasped palm-in-palm, “In Producer-san’s hands are documents detailing the building’s architecture. Beside me upon this easel, I have constructed a simple chart of–”

“Will you skip all the bullshit?”

Anzu’s attention snapped to the familiar cold tone, her eyes widening at Hokuto. She knew him to be coarse, but such vicious words?

“Hokuto...”

Her friend cleared his throat, his stare shifting away from Ibara to her. His face was terrible. Stone-faced as usual, but a weariness tore at his cheeks. The slightest hint of bags outlined his under-eyes. “Producer. Anzu. I understand you do all you do out of the kindness, so I’m holding back my anger. But this meeting... this is just pointless. Do you intend to make us recount the events of that day?”

Hokuto seemed to chew on her words. She knew he held her in high regard, knew that if there were anyone in the room he would listen to, it was her.

Silence fell again. Uncertainty filled her now. This would be painful. Extremely painful. But surely everyone who had gathered knew this already. Where she once thought silence was comfort, she couldn’t stand that quiet now, so she chose to break it again:

“Please, Hokuto-kun. You’re all my friends. Everyone who perished, they were our friends. I know... this will be painful for everyone, but if we don’t know why and how this happened, no one will be able to forgive each other.” She continued in a voice even softer than usual, “Or ourselves.”

Silence fell again. Uncertainty filled her now. This was going to be painful. Extremely painful. But surely everyone who had gathered knew this already. Where she once thought silence was comfort, she couldn’t stand that quiet now, so she chose to break it again:

“I don’t want this to be a purely business-like meeting,” she admitted. “The tragedy that happened… It’s personal to every single person here. So for now, let’s forget the investigation. It’s okay if this takes another meeting to get done.

“… Right now, I want to know how everyone feels. What are your thoughts? You must be hurting, right?”

[yolobegone]

hii !

first of all: i really like your streams! Every time you tell some story about your real life you sound so pathetic that I immediately feel better about my own mediocre one!!!

also wanted to ask, could you maybe warn us if you're gonna do some of the more gory stuff the next time? I showed the stream where you cut your arm off to my neighbour I was babysitting (4yo) and he hasn't stopped shaking. it has been over a week. the parents refuse to pay me.

omg hii!!

well. firstoff. haha. never let it b said im not down 2 make my audience feel better abt things! im glad u like the streams dude x) i like makin em 2!! loveee talking about my pathetic life lolllll

like i said i TOTALLY hadnt anticipated that stream being soo popular and i apologise for th lack of warnings!!! ill b better about it next time i promiseeee but i am NOT plannin on doing anythin quite that gory again so we shouldn't have the same problem xPPP

im totes sorry 2 that lil guy of urs arghhh hadnt anticipated th stream wld get like. shown. to toddlers. like they were not at all a target audience that went into makin it

kids 2 young to get the idea of fake gore and stuff huh??

i jus hope he didn't see 2 mhch-- i tried to get my intentions clear enough that you cld just nope out of it if u didn't want to watch the whole thingg so hopefully the damage ain't too lasting

[cryiling]

17 PLEASESEEEEE

(ask game from here)

OFCOFCCC

17. Talk to me about the minutiae of your current WIP. Tell me about the lore, the history, the detail, the things that won’t make it in the text.

ajdhajd so actually I have many wips 😭 I guess the most recent would be the one i am TRYING to write for revalink week but sadly it has literally no worldbuilding so I'm gonna use a more substantial wip..

let's talk abt my modern revalink hip hop au 😊

I've talked about this au quite extensively here and here, but recently I've been thinking more abt it 🫣 I've really considered making a playlist of all the songs I can imagine either revali or link doing a combo to, but I never got around to it SKFJSKF so I'll just talk abt it here

first of all, mr morale by kendrick lamar is definitely a revali song like?? especially that first part with the spoken intro, "it was one of the worst performances I've seen in my life, I couldn't sleep last night" AJDBAJFJ it sounds so mean but then the rest of the song is sort of conveying those emotions and I just feel like revali could really relate to it yk? also the beat goes hard ✋

next is silent hill by kendrick lamar and I think link would really slay this, despite what you might think I am not a kendrick lamar listener AJDBSJFN ok but I'm envisioning a very specific combo to this song that sadly I can't show you guys but it's very isolated and groovy and to the audience it looks laid back but it really takes so much precision and control to hit every beat and I'm just in love with it !!

ok this one is for revali, king's rant by masego, and I just think that honestly revali is a king that has many things to rant about and this song fits him perfectly, plus it gives him that opportunity to be a little more fluid with his movements while still retaining his more aggressive control 🙏

I FINALLY HAVE A VIDEO this one is for link 😊 u guys the attitude?? the control and precision but also in a way that keeps the flow?? the facial expressions?? this is literally how I imagine link would dance like slay 🤞

hm.. I seem to have deviated from the original prompt oops. OK let's get back on track

I just feel like revali is someone who is very passionate about the history of hip hop, like he thinks that people who start doing hip hop just because it's trendy or whatever aren't "real dancers" and he thinks they should be educated in hip hop's origin and stuff like that before they can call themselves a dancer. he's fr like my current dance teacher, ok last year he literally sat my class down and made us watch a documentary on hip hop history and gave us homework questions 😭 so yeah that seems like something revali would do

I've very briefly mentioned this before, but actually hip hop was not revali's first love! it was ballet ;w; AJDBAJBDSKJDKSKDKSK it seems so fucking funny but he just really liked the feeling of being free soaring through the air with his little leaps and twirls (idk can you tell I'm not a ballet person LMAO) and so he did take ballet classes as a kid for a while. but sadly internalized and external toxic masculinity pushed him away from that :( he went into hip hop instead because it's seen as a much more masculine discipline of dance, and luckily he ended up really enjoying it too!! over time he's changed his mindset to not feel like he has to do hip hop to be a "real man" but he just can't see himself doing ballet anymore :/

a lot of the time he places a very strong emphasis in breakdancing in his style, because that's what he forced himself to learn when he was pressured into hip hop. and he's very good at breaking, so he does it most of the time when freestyling or choreographing. however, he truly shines when he gets to be a little more graceful softer with his movements, because he's always been in tune with his body and the way he moves, and he's very skilled at being able to dance in a more fluid way, he just never feels like he can comfortably do it in front of ppl :(

link on the other hand is not afraid to get more sensual/graceful in his moves, however his strengths truly lie in isolation. this bitch has so much precision control over his body like he is out here tutting and locking like ?? but I've also mentioned how he does a little bit of contemporary on the side, which I just think is so *mwah* 😊 I've said it before and I'll say it again, but any given sunday is peak vibes for this au bc like ????? not only is it revalink it's just if link's dance style was put into a song idk how to explain it

ok I will stop talking here bc I feel like nothing I'm saying is making sense anymore 😭 I'm running out of more ideas for this au ngl maybe it's time I start actually writing it lmao