#and therefore my field

[uswe]

Oh hey did u kno a1c (the way blood sugar over time is measured and a diabetes diagnostic) isn’t a number in isolation, it’s specifically in relation to hemoglobin (which is why it’s also called hba1c) and the numbers can be fucked up by anemia?

Anyway I’m going to try to put together an actual for reals study because I am mad as all hell, but poll time!!

[kerryweaverlesbian]

When Eileen or whoever Sam's blurry wife is in a throw away line in a fic is pregnant to show that Sam's happy and doing good it kinda revolts me not gonna lie. We're really putting 2.5 kids on whatever woman shaped object is in Sam's love life? And on Sam for that matter? Who, by the end of the show, expressed zero interest in having a little baby and said he felt fulfilled by hunting, despite its downsides.

One of the reasons Sam and Eileen work well together is that they're both hunters and feel able to lean on each other in that regard, and yet pregnancy or motherhood is often the only thing we hear about Eileen in these cases. She's made into an incubator. Is the only vision of happiness she's allowed becoming Mary from the first minute of the Pilot?

[tychogender]

i cant wait to force everyone who knows and loves me to watch me eat these fondant effigies of my two favourite characters in a manner a kin to the painting 'saturn devouring his sons'

[treasureguardingdragon]

you know the special interest has reached new heights when i spent a week seriously considering a career in helicopter piloting just because yassen likes helicopters (i conveniently forgot i am scared of flying)

[simptasia]

christian knows jack is autistic but never let him get diagnosed because 1. he's ableist and 2. autistic people aren't allowed to to enter any medical field. yes, you read that right. yes, still to this day

[thebluebygracieabrams]

i think growing up is just life repeatedly sucker punching you and saying bitch you thought things were gonna better lmao no you're so naive and stupid for having hope in 20 years the world will be flaming bag of garbage and no matter how hard you work you'll get eliminated at some point

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

If there were blankets with Rothco's printed on them would you sleep under them? I see them sometimes and think they look very cozy.

yesssss absolutely rothkos seem so cozy a rothko blanket would be awesome

[himblebo]

The devil is whispering (thinking about grad school again)

[exopelagic]

what if i wrote a fake paper abt dragons instead of writing my dissertation

[bewarethemoonlads]

if youre a dumb bitch who works in vetmed and agreed to pick up a shift for the day after christmas as if it wasn’t gonna be trauma central claps your hands

👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼

[hballegro]

sam beckett wiki page on speed dial writing this damn thing

[freakystinky]

the way tumblr talks about medicine makes me wonder how many of us here actually have critical thinking skills

[my-thoughts-and-junk]

reading dungeon meshi

[lemonsandmorelemons]

Also. While I'm posting personal stuff. I've pretty much entirely quit vaping. yeah I switched to nic pouches instead but after two years that shit it's so nice and a small victory

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

A hilarious thing that I do is that when I get really involved explaining something to someone, my hands just do whatever the hell they want (because I’m insufferably Italian and we, like octopi, have limbs with literal minds of their own). So at points during the conversation, I will see the person listening to me get distracted by my somewhat noisy use of hand movements, which distracts me, which causes me to go into a “processing error” mode, in which I uncontrollably flutter my eyelashes and move my hands even more because my brain did a factory reset in the middle of my sentence.

[aeide-thea]

have been reading fic & thinking abt my relationship to fic, which is of course also among other things a mirror of my relationship to my own psyche, and like—i think all the discourse abt its being ~internalized misogyny~ to mostly/entirely read m/m is not ultimately, whatever the truth of it, all that helpful, either to readers or to Women! but of course that doesn't stop me from feeling weird guilt abt the fact that i don't read more f/f than i do, because if there's anything i love to do, it's feel unhelpfully bad abt myself on the slimmest of pretexts…

however! i did end up reading some f/f earlier, specifically transfem f/f, and it got me thinking—basically what i'm usually mostly reading fic for is the romance/sex, right? like, don't get me wrong, i love when a fic gives me a gorgeous double helix of, like, casefic and romance twisted together, that's ideal, but fundamentally most of the time the feeling up is what i sat down at the table to eat. so in a complex aegosexual way it's a fantasy i'm—not projecting onto, exactly, i don't want to be one of the people in it; but, like, lurking in the wings of with eyes big love-crumbs, to steal a phrase from a relevantly-named poet. :) and so it's no wonder that mostly i don't want to read cisfemme4cisfemme stuff, because that's not a dynamic that feels like it has any room for me, or even like i'm particularly welcome in the room. but like. if it's trans women? i'm there, i love that for them and for me. if there's a butch? i might get tripped up by our differing lenses on gender feelings and stub my toe a little but even so i'm probably here for it. (thinking here abt that one butch/femme geraskier ~cisswap which is, like, a gorgeous bruise i keep periodically pressing. <3)

so really it's just like. shocker: i'm not personally moved by fantasies abt romance which feature conventionally feminine cis women whom i don't personally find relatable or sexually desirable! and when i put it like that, it really instantly dissolves the weird useless discourse-induced guiltgunk. like. give me a woman who's, idk, tall and charismatic and strong and clever and talented at something (though honestly it's like that siken revised tweet, a lot of those characteristics are ultimately negotiable!), like women i've historically crushed on irl, and then give me a pairing for her that's like. another woman who's also enough of those things, or a man who's—honestly the kind of m/f i'm open to would be its own whole post bc holy shit am i fussy, it very much does exist but for now let's just stick a pin in that one—or somebody nonbinary, which… idk that i've ever actually seen nb/f in fic? i'm sure it exists! but i'm not sure it exists in any fandoms i've been into. pondering the question did get me really thirsty for a good 'farmgirl (of the luke skywalker variety) is absolutely stunned-and-ringing-like-a-struck-bell captivated by confident flamboyantly genderqueer love interest (example wanted)' dynamic, though…