#and what he is alwats saying us

[nervocat]

STOP THIS ALWATS HAPPENS ITS SO UGH LIKE ITS SO ODD IM LITERALLY LOOKING AT PFPS FOR A CHARACTER LETS SAY XIAO, AND TRYNA FIND A GOOD PFP FOR MY FIC I SCROLL AND JUST RANDOM SEE A…FACE HE MAKES

I WAS LOOKING FOR A JING YUAN ONE BC OF THE FORMAT I USE FOR MY FICS YK AND IT'S.. INTERESTING.... WHAT I SEE.........

[ahopelessromanticwriter]

i have another mb list

note: adam is the drill director, cole is the music director, jon is the pt instructer, carly is drum major :)

theres lots of swearing, sex jokes and crude humor, read at your on risk.

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"ref femington" "f remington?"

"do u think mr gessel is here" "mr gaslight??"

"carly ur killing it as drum slayjer"

"onest"

"i come from a drum major growing farm" "did you grow on a tree" "i did"

"i am going to get humoungus shoulder bones"

"why are tou fingering my trumpet"

"do what i say not as i mean" "waot no"

"brain brain brain brain says yes i can okay"

*cries in reed wall*

"i got a dimple bc i got hit by a truck"

"blessinfs of the flying spagetri monster"

"do the rhing"

"nate was like i talked to Micheal after we stopped being friends bc he didnt choose jazz"

"dick and balls"-mason

"it looks like a jail"

"by the double doors-" "dumbledore??"

"where the fuck did my phon-" "WOAH THERE." "on the stage?" "watch ur fuxking mouth"

"grant cant be rushing the trumpets to the field while toris takin a smoke break"

"colby does my music inside my bell look sexy" "hot"

"kachow?" "KACHIGGA"

"was bernie sanders in dci"

"do as i mean not as i say"

"if you summon a demon you must make thrm a sandwich" "im wanna be a demon so people make me sandwiches"

"EAT FOOD OR I WILL SHOVE IT DOWN YOUR THROAT ANYWAYS"

*metranome noises*

/uh/ "tqkes me back" "wHAT" "STORYTIME?!"

"in the beginning, there was cole lobdell"

"are we not allowed to have fun" "AbsoLuT lY nOt"

*nods to george laying dead on the ground* "he does that a lot, doesnt he?" *nods*

"mellos stop showing off"

"stab wm like oj" "alledegy"

"are you dancing to the abulance siren-"

"you guys are starting to sound like a decent mb" "YEAAAAAAAAAAAAA"

*look9ng at uneven lines* "those lines are straighter then me"

"was that dupposed to be british sxottish or Australian?" "good question"

"theyre both boring" "exCusE mE dId yOu jUst dIreSpEct oUr nAtIonAl aNtHem"

"we need to slay harder" ".. yes that"

"why do drugs when sprinkles"

"i hope that you achieve your wildest dreams neighbor"

"jon is mean sometimes neighbor" "jon is really a terrible person neighbkr"

"ill venmo you my soul"

*cries in hardware store*

"i want to kiss a woman" /whispering/ "yea"

"you cant be late if adam isnt out here before you are" "that is a correct statement"

"aAron" "what" "shut up" "no i will die on thr british hill"

"oh blimey its adam"

"oh poppycock its the razzers"

"wer we gonna slat the whole way" "mercilessly slaighter"

"slay target queen adam" "target princess"

"forkcus- oo forkus- FOCUS"

"/chucks shoes across the field to show a better demo/"

"you better slay bitches"

"can we talk for a minute abt the strange journey of the word dope-"

"we should build a wall and make jazz 1 pay for it"

"im gonna need an algebraic expression for ur straightness"

"the queen is being reincarnated as trisha payatas kid"

"i am sorry for bringing the vibe down"

"#slaying"

"wait yOU ARENT STRAIGHT?"

"is that gonna be a slack channel-"

"bring the beat in" "ANYTHING FOR YOU BEYONCÉ"

"we are taking the hypetrain to slaytown"

"phillip the metranome boi"

/addy with a sousa/ "colby do you think it fits me?" *aggressively shakes head no*

*aggressively yell counts* "how do you guys FEEL"

"do you like men or do you like women" "yes. /silence/ wAIT-"

"#do not drag #slay #swag"

"im sure its important info but youre hearing THE SOURCE"

"im sorry i neglected you" "remember when cole neglected us? pfft. loser."

"shes giving dead but shell alwats serve; june, probably"

"and without further adue the hmb present the national anthem" "from memory" "from memory" "with skyrim"

/skyrim ambiance/

"that is not a joke it is just straight facts"

"did you feel good abt listening to us ballade"

"im not even white lying" "are you saying youve done that before"

"see if we shame them enough shame becomes fear"

"cheese grater 2.0!"

"mom alex is being kinky"

"you are only half a woman"

"see so i have a kink for men and /blank/ has a kink for women" "it cancels out"

"see so i dont like children and i dont like sex so no more sex no more sex no more sex"

"i want to get mentally better so men can hit on me so i can get mentallt better"

"i dOnT hAvE thEm dAnG proNounS iM an AmerIcAn"

"i forgor my pronouns"

"ladies lads and non binary chads"

"oh by the way /blank/ im sexist now" "nice"

"hi im sexost" "gello felloe sexist"

"sarah i dont think ive ever heard you say smth as relatable as "im going to eat smth flr my mental health""

"a wood made of reed" /couple seconds/ "wAIT-"

"just march brass and then youll never have that problem" "respectfully no."

"not to be political or anything but honosexual... is kinda gay" "woah"

"activate yoyr slat switch"

"trumpets" /dramatic pause/ dayummmmm"

"colby do you agree that john loves balls"

"if i see another person climb a fence i will be a very sad boi"

"learning the rest of the salad'

"loop doop doopity loop doop"

"well /pause/ if the sparkplug fits"

"colby did you like my trill" "i was not... mentally prepared for it"

"wait no it was a del taco" "fre sha vac a do"

"i am not touchin yalls sweaty ass hands'

"/takes addys hand/ /knees down/ "queen? /gasp/ /sniffle/ i do" /arron plays the beginnings of careless whisper/

/in the middle of a rep/ "FUCK"

"what the absolute fuck is that every time i look over here you two are doing whatever thr goddamn fuck that is what even-"

"so like vocal ideA: snares sing the first verse of i am a gummy bear. like i think its actually a really good idea"

"that was very intimate" "uH *confused straight noises*"

"sarahs just laughing at us"

"like cockwork" "tee hee"

"aldom"

"remy!" "yea?" "you have been promoted to stick boi"

"me when split squat"

"START AT T OKAY ONE TWO SPILL THR TEA"

"tue ghost of george was playing a beat early"

"tenors one of yoy is coming in early" "YEAH GEORGE" /george is not there/

"adam hancock is draco malfoy" "POTTAH-"

"I LOVE FB" "MEN" "I LOVE MEN" "T E S T O S T E R O N E "

/dutdut dah daht/ "sports"

"they locked us out of the school :("

*plays careless whisper really loud and scream sings half of the lyrics over loud band noises*

*spontaneously plays half of 7 nation army with only bass line as an entire band*

"sorry me and cole have like 0 brain cells combined-"

"nobody leaves until weve falcon prided"

"ate my grandma ans call my daddy oat lawd"

"i beg of thee to pls unlock thy band room door"

"guys omg were still winning"

"prep step on god"

"imagine flirting with the drumline" "imagine not flirting with the drum line"

"bloody stumps on the yard line"

"you ever just look at drum line and are like w o a h" "are you calling me sexy" "i mean-" "I MEAN-C

"thanks queen" /over speaker/ "hashtag slay"

"yo team that was hashtag slay"

"are they really homies if you dont kiss rgem goodnight"

"band ten slay"

"if you do that i will be sad boi hours"

"see im supposed to give all my organs to carly but you can have my balls"

"shhhh i like phillips legs"

"where did stick boi go he forgor his stic"

"not only will i go against your wishes i will go thr complete opposite direction"

"talk less!" "...smile more" "dont let them know ehat your against or what your for?" "you cant be serious" "you wanna get ahead?" "yea" "fools who run their mouthes off wind up dead" "STOP QUOTING HAMILTON"

"if you dont stop i will slay you with a spear"

"I A M F I R S T" /but said like i am spartus/

"jesus christ-" "you called?"

"i have a social life during marching band"

/gasp/ "adam!" /gasp/ "aADAM"

"mw when fruity"

"bro im goung on the second bus"

"WAIT IS YOUR VOCAL BAD ROMANCE WAIT"

"adams head just swung open and out popped out colby thr drum major so no he did not grow on a tree"

"oh dear the contible you must find yourself a place to hide"

"you blew my wig off"

"i need a will to live" "same i think theyre 23 cents at 7/11"

"ngl i didnt see that correctly and i thought colby and jon were holsing hands"

"its like a bunch of bb birds" ..kinda gross lowkey"

"you can decline but idk why you would liek honestly get ur life together"

"hey bandits c:"

"its a conga line" "but like an intimate conga line"

"jack you look- .. i was gonn say hot but im nkt sure if thatd allowed"

*sad band hours*

"yo that was cRISPY"

"a little curvy is okay" "a little,,, fruity,,, if you will "

"guys their show is twitter" "that is an interesting show name"

"YO THEY MADE A TRIANGLE I LOVE TRIANGLES" "personally i like potatoes"

"i think we should have a band get to tegther where tougrt kicked out if you dont make xomments on everything"

"guys at the end of the show you should light me on fire" "like in a cute way"

"I REQUIRE MEN"

"cole do you feel at home in the choas kf marching band" "yea 😌"

"you ever just throw a colby in ur carly"

"ill be the colby to your carly"

"drunk driving best driving'

"work harder, not smarter"

"sax section vocab section"

"sax section smoking section" "sax section SOBER SECTION"

"gay eighth notes"

"sax section consenual sex section"

"mr lobdell do you want to babysit adams kids"

"cwrly whar are you doung to natilias hands" "shes gently caressing them"

"have them make it into a jif and send it to you" "its gif" "i will fight you"

"I am first" "i will slay you with a spear"

"thr whole band is in a polygamous relationship"

"-my man tights-"

"we should go back to confederacy and the whole bus goes WOAHHHGG-"

/walks up/ "perry the platypus is a slut" /walks away/

/during a band performance/ /several peopl/ "CIRCLE DRILL???"

"bro look at those sexy feet theyre so in time"

"yo why is the sun on dark mode"

"i got shaken baby sydrom for real"

"i strongly suggest that all of you go sit in thr bus snd take a nap"

"that was a certified my bad"

"sup baby gender"

"top of the toe"

"when i grow up i wanna have a kid and name him georg" "name him what"

"bro you just got tondID"

"badasslesauce"

"heres an idea: bring edibles" "W O A H T H E E R E "

"cosmic brownies are crack cocoaine"

"anything for the good of the order?" "slay" "actually slaying is against the law"

"when she puts the 7th over the 5th uts just really heartwrenching, it is"

"two dollars for any coffee at mcdonalds were gonna get liIiiIiiTtt"

"girl is he rich thats the real question men objectify us so we should o jectify them"

"slay bitch"

"miss slayness-"

"bro i slayed in 78 better then anyone slayed in 84"

"flip phone is the new asians"

"we should kiss" /silence/ "no response?"

"she made fun of dom- which is respectable but-"

"i think i would understand you better if you were speaking spanish" "you would understand me if i was a lesbian"

"stab it like ceaser" "allegedly"

"adam can we go fraterinize with the other tubas"

"DO IT AND ILL LEAK THE OLD SPICE"

"sex more like cringe stay virgin boys"

"do you like meaty balls" "OH YEAH"

"SHUT UP GIANNA NO ONE ASKED YOU"

"you look like kurt coban if kurt coban was logan"

"its cold but its like crisp.... newbury"

"i just sucked up all of laurens diseases- do you have aids?"

"yo wheres the candy id like to accept candy from strangers"

"im gonna go home and- make out with my mom"

"SARAH SHUT YOUR BALLS"

"sax section jiggity section"

"noah for person"

"so we like draft people for mb-"

"step one: kindly ask them to stop. step two: curse at them. step three-" "hold on can we go back to step 2 i like step 2-"

"mason how do you like your men" "logan" /blows kiss/

"im cold" "hi cold im logan"

"and you all slay with logan"

"ash stop gently caressing me with a leaf"

"now you have a little leaf hat :D" -tori

"what does period blood taste like like would it taste different"

"saxes!!!!! sexiessss!!"

"sax section make out section"

"sax section sex saxtion"

"STICK BOI WHERE ARE OUR STICKS"

"i got out cuz i wanted to kiss grant"

"we should go get milk ans then we should go to lexs house and make out"

"im sorry i spaced out and heard sneaking out and doung drugs"

"no mom i swear im not sneaking out and doing drugs im going to a jazz festival"

"if that does not work, Joshua quintana's feet would be a suitable replacement"

"sax section toris section"

"max" "doo do do doo do doooo" "jUsT sAY hERe"

"what was discontinued?" "ur mom" "OOOOHHHHHHH"

"when you tell someone ur having a baby ur badically telling them IM HAVINF SWX EVERY DAY" "im sorry what"

"what are yoy high on" "ur mom" "you look like someone whod be high on their mom"

"sax section sleepover section"

"sax section geocash section"

"idk maybe i have foodborne illness disease on my hands" "that sentence made 0 sense"

"color gaurd obama be like lemme be gear"

"attendence obama: let ne be here'

"gay obama: let me be queer"

"DATE MICHELLE OBAMA"

"ur literally just making out with her leg"

"sax section cuddle section"

"bAcK in My dAy we dIdNit nOne oF thEm daGnAb PrnoUns"

"up two boogaloo-"

"ill give you both 5 bucks if you kiss rn"

"we might not be thr bret band vut we will always be the most radioactive band"

"yknow with all the singing you guys do during marching band youd think youd be better at it-"

"love at first kiss"

"mr lobdell really said i support the gays"

"have you seen logan shirtless hes a mermaid"

"what is up my original gangster"

"jesus was homosexual"

"the hdmi is powered by love"

"check that you are connected to the correct wifi w t f mates"

"hes a google fanboi"

"POW right in the kisser"

[casnextdoor]

30 questions Game!

i was tagged by the lovely @oasiswithmyg 💕

1. Name/Nickname; my Name is Casaandra but please please i am begging you .,, call me cas .

2. Star Sign; I am a pisces .

3. Height; 5’4

4. Birthday; February

5. favorite band; i got quite a few.,, BTS GOT7, Stray Kidz, Chase Atlantic, at one point i was a HUGE seventeen and blackpink stan .,, not so much anymore.,, odd future if you consider them a band .,, and Ateez

6. favorite solo artist; lemme preface by saying,,, separate the art from the artist . that being said ,,, im really into brent faiyaz, H.E.R, tyler, the creator, frank ocean, sza, partynextdoor.., summer walker.,, daniel ceasar.,, kali uchis.,, joey Bada$$ , joji.,, clairo, miguel… i feel like you can see where this is going . very versatile when it comes to todays music .

7. time; 2:56 pm

8. Song stuck in my head; Friends by Chase Atlantic for some reason and The Need To Know by SZA

9. Last movie i watched; the bee movie .,, idk why either but i put it on to fall asleep and then i got kinda intrigued because when i first seen it .,, i hated it … but it was kinda … inch resting

10. free space; Im allergic to peanut butter and shell fish .,, but i love them . so i always keep an epipen and Benadryl on me .

11. Last show i watched; Manifest ., and i rewatched naruto and my hero

12. When was this blog created; Okay so this one .,, i created last … august i think . but i had one before this and .,, yeah .

13. what i post; bullshit .

14. last think i googled; pinkpantheress. they are an interesting artist and i like their music.

15. other blog .,, i got one but its more of a personal situation .,, if u find it .,, thats cool too

16. do i get asks; not a lot but yes .,, mostly becuz my wife really likes to give me writing prompts to get my mind working .,,

17. why did i choose my url; originally it was brattybae00; and that’s because when i was younger and i did have a semi good relationship with my father; he lovingly (i think) use to call me brat . for context an often used sentence would be “what do you want for dinner, brat? I was thinking pizza.” i changed it because i haven’t gotten along with my dad in years and the name kinda soured over time,, and i had nothing else to use for tumblr . now it casnextdoor because 1) i love partynextdoor’s music.,, and because its very average . something someone wouldn’t really think twice about .

18. following; i follow 87 people .,, i am N O T naming every single one of them .

19. followers; im almost at 100 which FUCKING COOL ! but yeah .,,

20. i dont really sleep at night . but on a good day maybe 6 hours . on a bad day not at all .

21. lucky number.,, 3. and ill explain just a bit . im 3rd born out of all 6 of my siblings (dont ask😕) the letter in my name is the third letter of the alphabet and because three alwats seems to pop up everywhere for me .

22. instruments; saxaphone . not explaining further .

23. what am i wearing; my work shirt and my roommates boxers .

24. a fucking BEHAVIORAL ANALYSIS !! growing up i watch A LOTTTTT of criminal minds which is kinda how i picked my major . because i wanna meet the garcia to my derek . thats a joke .

25. favorite food; store bought ramen and anything that can be eaten with Nutella and taste good .

26. tea or coffee; depends on the day .

27. Nationality; i feel like thats different from race so specifically.,, i am hispanic and haitian .

28. favorite song; My time by Jk ..,, Mic Drop by BTS.,, paper hearts by tori kelly, OHMAMI by Chase Atlantic .

29. Last Book I read; Paper Towns by John Green ; i sincerely love that mans work

30. top 3 fictional universes id want to live in; Harry Potter because why not.,, twilight because someone gotta slap sense into bella.,, haikyuu because bokuto🥺

tagging my love @jaysdimples

[solarwriting]

one of the guys

in which y/n and kie's flirting is a little more than flirting

it seemed that every pouge had a thing for kiara, even y/n, the only other girl pouge. jj would alwats flirt with her, pope admired from afar, john b even kissed once, although she shot him down pretty quickly. even y/n had taken part in flirting with the girl who was always quick to flirt back.

the other pouges soon got the message that kie didn't like them because she never flirted back the same way she did with y/n. it was safe to say all of the guys were sick of the flirting and pining (because both girls have gotten drunk and told either john b or jj how much they liked the other girl) so they made a plan.

jj had told y/n that he needed help with a boat and as soon as she got there, she was trapped and wasn't let out until kie let her out, the guys on the pouge driving away. "jj! what the hell? john b!"

"read the note!" john b called as they drove away.

"what note?" y/n asked, looking around.

kie pulled out a folded piece of paper from her pocket, "john b told me not to read it until he said to."

"well, let's read it." y/n said.

kie nodded unfolding the paper which read,

'to y/n and kie,

we are sick of you guys flirting and drunken pining. we have lifted the no pouge on pouge macking rule just for you guys. go for it.

jj, john b, and pope."

y/n snorted as she read the note, "oh my god."

"are they serious?" kie mutter wadding the note up and dropping it.

"i uh, think they are." y/n shrugged.

"oh."

the two were silent for a minute before y/n pulled out a container that held a blunt. "now don't worry, jj rolled it. i can't roll for shit."

kie laughed taking the blunt and lighting it. she put it in between her lips, taking a deep breath. she let out a puff of smoke before passing it to y/n.

"so," kie started, "drunken pining."

y/n laughed as she passed the blunt back to kie, "hey, i was drunk and i think that they were referring to the both of us."

"okay, you got me there." kie sighed.

"so, they lifted the rule," y/n said with a smirk.

"yeah, they did." kie answered.

y/n looked at her and smirked, grabbing her face and kissing her softly, "i like you, by the way."

kiara laughed, "i like you, too." she pulled her in for another kiss.

y/n pulled away for a moment, "hey, when the come back can we pretened this didn't work?"

"of course. we wouldn't want them to have the satisfaction."

y/n smiled and nodded before pulling kiara back towards ber for another kiss.

[residentevil2remake]

Joel wasnt a good dad he was a crazy and selfish dude

i wouldn’t describe him as crazy, that’s for sure But I agree on the second half Like, I like tlou, but man, isn’t it just takes the worst from zombie media and this whole “anybody you met is probably bad and good people gonna die” and it was even in the first game, and this whole idea “oh, people are violent and like animals”  And I believe this is rooting in people’s brain too much, it reinforces “oh, we all are shitty and don’t deserve good things” (THAT’S NOT TRUE, NEVER THINK THAT) and it isn’t just about tlou1, but always in apocalypse-zombie media, how humans are the one who is bad,  but you never expierence that other good/sympathetic encounter  because these cases ends up horribly (Sam and Henry)  And don’t forget cannibals, because SURE, two people help you and they kind of creepy so they are cannibals, and then tlou2 fucking decided to suck up even worse trope with SLAVERS apparently, W O W  And I know tlou1 is emotional driven and everybody connected to characters and I did too myself, it overshadows the other stuff and hell even outdated (EVEN AT THAT POINT) corridor standart shooter gameplay  something that made me think and use my brain a little bit to reflect on things after i played bioshock infinite again, just wow But i’m still in such how people got so fucking much over Joel for what? Have we played the same first game? At all? How that ending was consider good for people?  Again, I alwats liked Joel, but never that much? Still think about what a different story that would be with Tess I really believe people who say that “second tlou game should’ve been about joel and ellie and about forgiving” and not about repercussion of such decision, just didn’t think about anything else besides Ellie and Joel in the first game, when it clearly tries to say other things as well Not that this has really much to do with the trope I mentioned, but Joel is a part of that trope and this point I’M REALLY TIRED 

[phoenixpinks]

Things Team Lazarus said during EoD starters

"When all else fails, Lex Luthor intends to kill Superman with Death." "HOLY BAT, BATMAN!" "WAIT SO WAIT WHAT???" "We're not in any danger! We're just nerds solving riddles on the internet!" "I ain't dressing up every night to find someone to punch" "I don't need to dress up every night to find someone to punch" "my son won't respond to my texts about wearing a bullet proof best, he is so grounded" "HELLO NAUGHTY CHILDREN IT'S TIME FOR FEAR" "NO FORTS. ONLY JUSTICE." "we're conventing court in the fort" "We pun to forget tears though" "Im gonna release all of these come the end of this, nothing is sacred" "he faked his death to get away from us" "but, it's all in good pun" "This is our life now" "you could have fit a meme in there" "oh god it is going to be a time thing" "yes how dare you say a meme I don't know, or whatever that is" "it only hurts if you let it hurt" "lies, I almost cried last night I will have none of your nonsense" "i am of a sensitive disposition. everything hurts" "Worse than my solving my problems with ___ and cocaine idea?" "you don't mix ANYTHING with cocaine, instant death" "Can I mix water with cocaine" "I may not have a coffee problem but I am surrouned by 5 different types of soda cans rn" "the soccer van, but for super villains" "we can alwats tie some people to the top of the car with bungee cords" "free test subject right here" "Ya'll gnna get yourselves killed" "My guy I'm lowekey terrified 24/7." "you're always screaming" "ARE YOU SURE ABOUT THAT" "I'M NOT SURE ABOUT ANYTHING" "you do not need to focus on that" "bye whoever’s leaving, I can't keep track of all of you" "you're attractive and love crime, I'm attractive and love crime. Let's be attractive and commit crimes together." "Dr we will never send puns again if you promise to stop getting into death traps" "I only said it was nice to see him again with the living. I may not sound it, but I'm absolutely ecstatic" "wow I mean he's probably not the best at running" "Kick him in the knees" "Hes DIED, He'll be fine" "I COME HOME TO PAIN!!!!" "fuck you ____ you suck at taking care of yourself" "Yes now shut up and sleep in a bed tonight instead of a ditch" "Being unconscious does not count as sleep" "IT'S NOT THE PUNISHMENT YOU DESERVE, BUT IT'S THE PUNISHMENT YOU NEED" 'We need justice for these puns" "Honestly anyone int he crowd might have snapped and shit him just to shut him up" "it was me guys" "you did the world a service fam" "YOU HAVE TAINTED HIM" "WELCOME TO THE DARK SIDE, ____" "Nnnnnng that hurt me" "i gtg, I want to finish this report before 3 A.M" "procrastination at its finest" "get in losers we're going spooping" "Why have we formed a cult" "This was not what i expected when i first asked to join the skype group" "All groups of friends make cults at some point" "would it be irresponsible of me to send a message saying 'run bitch run'? "WHEN I TOLD HIM TO KICK ASS AND TAKE NAMES THIS ISN'T WHAT I MEANT" "I GO ON WARCRAFT FOR TEN FUCKING MINUTES AND IT ALL GOES TO SHIT" "I instinctively covered my ears at the gunshots but then I remembered I was wearing headphones" *does the 'I'm so smart' dance "Mother always told me I was special" "I hope we're blowing this way out of proportion but at the same time this would be a hilarious plot twist" "WHOO BOY SCREENSHOT" "He's moved from senpai to fam" "He's probably lughing in his cellar" "dial dow the thirst there my dude lmao, ily thou" "I for one always overreact" "I never overreact. WHY. ARE YOU TRYING TO IMPLY SOMETHING" "___ ARE YOU ON HELIUM???" "I COME BACK AND WHAT DO I FIND" "WHY CAN'T THE RIDDLES LEAD SOMEWHERE SAFE!?! LIKW I DON'T KNOW! A DUCK POND OR I DON'T KNOW!!" "because my mind went from 'do we know any duck themed villains' to that weird French duck from courage the cowardly dog" "SHE'S HATING ON MY BOI JULIUS CAESAR" "it's been 2060 years __ im" "knife to meet your boi julius caesar" "Ok i'll hit you up next year when it's 2061" "YOU CAN HIT ME UP WHEN I'M DEAD FAM" "___ has nominated me as a Fish, or a frog, I don't even know" "if im bill the lizard youre gonna be a fish w me" "MAYBE I LIKE BEING DROP KICKED" "there is so much anger on that voice that is just covered layer of 'fuck this'" "Really? Legwork? Oh, this is grand." "give me your free time im dying in work" "it's a supervillainy way though" "I'm already dating a weeb and then I come here and WHAT DO I SEE" "I'm going to smack you all" "Everyone go stand in the corner" "I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN YOU HAD SOMETHING TO DO WITH THIS OH MY GOD" "I never had an anime phase I win" "everybody loves him but the sentiment is not reciprocated" "i will be ashamed for the rest of my life, but sure" "time to Google... aight Google isn't helping" "Tfw you kill ___, Reblog if you agree" "he looks like you should just start punching him and never stop" "when did we start being about ____'s butt" "We're allowed to be proud because it's obvious the guy is salty and not happy with our success." "I'M DISOWNING YOU ALL, EVEN HIM" "oh hey it's midnight" "you can't cheat the champion of cheating" "you cheated and I shall cheat harder" "I'd hope that I'd at least be captured by honorable idiots" "NO DUMBO RIDES. ONLY JUSTICE." "you and I are on separate wavelengths than" "OKAY STRICTLY UPDATE THEY ARE NOW PLAYING WAKE ME UP INSIDE WHATS HAPPENING" "don't meme shame me bro" "Your memes are stale, and you are stale" "lol what is romantic human interaction" "what is human interaction" "what is interaction" "What is human" "this is the worst thing I have ever created and I will burn for this" "I look at him directly and said fuck you" "I gotta go eat dinner y'all are fucking insane" "I WILL RUN EXPERIMENTS IN THE BASEMENT WHO'S WITH ME??" "Do you have any redeeming qualities" "c'mon skype lemme transer sewing via you...." "are you kidding, this is better than all the tv shows I'm behind on" "MURDER ROADTRIP" "Rosaceae are refuscent, Violas are cerulean, Cane crystals are saccharine, homogeneous to you" "WE ARE THE BEST GROUPIES" "shes not even here, she chickened out of the fight" "Tfw your brain is memes" "Twf yer also an adult" "Yup. Exactly Sad O'Clock" "So sad o'clock is midnight o fifty, got it"

[jonghours]

UTOPIA MV and a brief look into ATEEZ’s world and individual roles

as said on my previous post I’m gonna go into detail about UTOPIA and my theories on what it represents. 

now, before I put the read more, I want to put something on the table already. there are two groups in the UTOPIA MV, at least in the “normal ATEEZ” reality, the “sky room”: people who are asleep, and people who are awake. you can tell by these shots that don’t correlate to any other sequence despite sharing a set.

Hongjoong and Mingi are asleep

Wooyoung, Jongho and Yunho are awake

Seonghwa, as the only member who is aware of their Illusion state, is both

Yeosang, apart from that shot with Hongjoong, isn’t shown doing either of those, because he’s special

also, UTOPIA is a song that, just like many ATEEZ songs, talk about keep going forward, no matter how many times, in search of that dream-like place full of joy and pelasure. but this seems more for fear at the idea of stopping than actually wanting to achieve their goal, because without their desire to achieve it, they have no reason to be anymore. like their song lyrics say, they don’t care about why they keep doing this, they just like it.

now, with that out of the way, I’ll go in chronological order in the MV trying to give my point of view on it!

the MV starts with ATEEZ dressed in all white (maybe they represent “White ATEEZ”) sleeping in circle in the “mirror room”, then Hongjoong wakes up

...or does he?

all ATEEZ members are still sleeping, yet awake at the same time. 

now, “normal ATEEZ” are also sleeping in the orange frabric (which I will go into detail soon) this ATEEZ are wearing regular clothes

they also wear normal clothes in what I refer to the “purple/crescent light room”, however in this room they are also shown wearing the white clothes

the next room is a completely dark one, with the exception of a big panel of light that keeps flickering. only the ATEEZ in white step into this room

my theory is that ATEEZ are stuck in a dream or illusion in the purple room, while their bodies decide to wether wake up in the gloomy mirror room that ties into the flickering light one, or do it in the colorful one that seems to show them “the light” that they look at full of hope... kind of, but more of that next. the thing is “Normal ATEEZ” and the “ATEEZ in white” both are in the purple room, which I mentioned sybolized “The Light” ATEEZ alwats talks about and represents their illusion. however, they are all asleep in different places. 

now we have the blue chairs which I mentioned in the color theory post, but for anyone who doesn’t want to read all that, blue and red are a key element that repeats through ATEEZ’s MVs, kind of like two teams. here Hongjoong is sitting in the blue chairs all by himself, before suddenly disappearing

we are shown now ATEEZ in the mirror room, now fully awake and in black and white. then it shows us that Hongjoong is the first one to wake up, followed by a very confused ATEEZ

now wait, why are Wooyoung and Yunho sleeping upside down? especially when in the other sleep circle, the person next to Hongjoong is Jongho? extra points for confusion. also Mingi resting over Yunho, but more of that in a bit!

then, we get this (breathtaking) shot of San, who seems to be at what looks like a small portal. this isn’t the first time that San has been shown alone, and in my opinion he’s a central piece of the story that can’t function on his own. he’s like a pawn or key without a side that he’s loyal to, just like Yeosang, who he has a special bond with. he’s always controlling the members during choreographies and he has similar “loner” roles on Say My Name, WONDERLAND and ANSWER

now, Wooyoung is the very first one we see reacting to this “light” that appears in front of them. he seems mesmerized

now, as I mentioned with the color theory, the blue light in the mirror room starts turning red, and right away they are shown facing the orange fabric, which in my opinion represents the desert from Pirate King, where their journey started. this could symbolize them going back once again to start their journey

in the mirror room, Hongjoong, Wooyoung, Jongho and Yunho are stuck to the red light, while Yeosang, Seonghwa, San and Mingi are stuck on the blue. notice that Mingi and Yunho are together. they all face the camera now

...well, almost all of them.

we are shown now the seats covered in red light, completely empty. no one sits in the seats while they are red, however, the moment they turn blue, all the members are sitting there

once again, the members look ahead, except for two of them: Mingi and San

now, another person with an important role, Jongho. he’s the only one waking up here, wherever that is. this place isn’t shown in the MV, and no other member is seen here. Jongho wakes up on his own, in some sort blue fabric

this shot here is important. no, I don’t know why, but from a cinematographic point of view, is sending a message. Yeosang and Seonghwa are the only ones looking into the camera, tho

I want to call attention to Yeosang leaning on San here. as I said, there is a bond between them. Yeosang appeared as San’s reflection back in Say My Name, and later on you can see them looking back while the rest of the members walk forward

and talking about bonds...

Mingi and Yunho share a shot here. just like in the mirror room they are paired up again. they’ve actually been paired up quite a lot

they also shared walkie-talkies during Say My Name, which means that to some dregree, they are or used to be in the same side

next person sitting alone in the blue chairs is Mingi, seems like this place is only reserved for the rappers, even though there is another conexion in this MV regarding Mingi and Hongjoong that will be explored forward into the video

all the members are exposed to the “light” that Wooyoung was so mesmerized by before, however some of them don’t seem very fond of it

Yunho is staring right at us

while San and Seonghwa refuse to even raise their heads to look at it

now Yeosang does his signature “I am special” move: he walks backwards, which he will do again later, going against the members while his eyes stay focused on the light. this is not the first time light and Yeosang go together. in a scene that didn’t make it into ANSWER, Yeosang is blinded by a light of unknown origin

now the members that were about to venture into the “desert” (remember this is just my theory) turn around to look at what we can suppose based on continuity is the light

except Seonghwa

during Jongho’s part, he’s shown controlling San. this is not the first time San is being manipulated like a puppet, as he’s used the same way by Seonghwa during WONDERLAND. this also isn’t the last time Jongho controls the other members in this video

now the white ATEEZ stuck in the dark room are walking away before stopping again to look at us, a little further away this time

as the second chorus hits, the choreography gets more agitated, and there is a single shot in black and white, which didn’t happen since Pirate King

the members once again are shown exploring the colorful room. here we are shown Hongjoong and San going in different directions. later on, they are shown in the same situation, but inversed, which leads me to believe they are not in the same side.

now this shot is interesting because most people don’t pay attention to it, since it lasts so little and is a little confusing to look at? this is ATEEZ standing at the small portal San was sitting at the edge of before, remember? but Jongho doesn’t seem happy about it, facing the other way

and it’s in this moment when he walks away from the rest of the members, before they force him to get back to them

now we have those shots of Yeosang standing alone, and this is where my “desert” theory came to be

do these seem fmailiar?

“the desert, with nothing, we started there” - ANSWER

I’ll save this for another post, because I want to give Yeongsan one of his own, so let’s move on

next we have an interesting shot of all the members in a state of... reflection? but as it’s common practice by now, some of them seem distracted

once again, Seonghwa looks right at us, while San and Yunho share a moment

Seonghwa is shown by himself dangerously close to the portal. he’s the member who is shown by himself the most in this video

once again, Mingi and Honghoong, not only looking at camera but going against the other members

moving on, San is seen controlling the members just as they are about to follow him, making them turn around. this isn’t the first time San has been seen contorlling the members, he did it during Say My Name as well

and now as San and Seonghwa finish the song, we are shown shots of both Mingi and Hongjoong, yet again, only these two, in black and white. as I said, this hadn’t happened since Pirate King

now it’s the point of the choreo in which Jongho once again walks away from ATEEZ, going backwards as they go forward, before they abruptly stop

now ATEEZ continues towards the dark room. I don’t know if this represents them making their choice or not

and for the first time, the colors change

we are shown ATEEZ in the mirror room still sleeping, before they disappear form the dark room after the light finally dies

I really can’t make more than these observations. I do believe this si tied to “White ATEEZ” and their connection to UTOPIA

I believe ATEEZ chooses to go back to the dessert, because truly reaching utopia is bleack and feels empty, like the room with the flickering light.

 it’s hard to pick who is in what side. Wooyoung and Seonghw change sides, as well as Seonghwa and Yunho do through the entirety of the story. so do Yeosang and San. as ATEEZ said, with only this information we can’t understand the whole story, so I’ll leave it here

if anyone is interested in knowing more feel free to hmu!

[return-of-a-space-cowboy]

If not to late and if you do poly.. Sleeping beauty with yan! Massimo as the prince and yan! Angelica as the “Evil” Fairy keeping their princess! S/o trapped. If you don’t do poly... beauty and beast with Yan! Dino! Diego Brando and his S/o. YOU ALWATS MAKE ME SMile FRIEND

Aww shucks I'm glad to make you smile

I'll probably end up doing the Diego request because honestly I need some more steel ball run in my life but here it is! PS I know I kinda made Volpe a bit unresponsive but I kinda see him as that shut off kind of person.

Our lover

(yandere Volpe and Angelica)

You were lost, very lost. Stuck in the middle of the forest with no clue as to how to get out but just as you felt your loneliness seep in  a soft hum echoed through the forest, a tune being hummed that caused the flowers to bloom.

You followed the tune which lead you to a clearing where a lone woman sat in the middle while humming only to stop when she had noticed your arrival. She was pale like a ghost and had wispy blonde hair.

"Who are you?" You asked her.

"My name is Angelica" the woman spoke in a ghostly voice as a few small flowers formed around her. You were just about to respond when you suddenly felt light headed, you began to stumble and you began to slur until you fell to the ground.

In the light you could now see the pollen that danced around in the gentle breeze.

"It must be your first time in these woods, don't worry the initial shock will only be for a few minutes" she lulled with a chuckle as she staggered towards you before sitting by your side and stroking your hair. You moaned out lightly as her contact seemed to make your hairs stand on end.

"Anyway, what's your name?" She asked.

"(Y/n)... (Y/n)... (L/n)" you mumbled, not understanding what was happening.

"Your a princess, I've heard so much about you... Your actually more beautiful then I imagined" the girl remarked before she looked up to see a man tall, thin with long, flowing hair, you knew him but all your memories were in a haze as of current.

"Massimo! Oh how I've missed you!" She shrieked in excitement as she ran up to the man before tripping over, luckily Massimo was able to catch her.

"Angelica dear... You need to be more careful" he lightly scolded.

"I know, but I was so excited to see you and we have a guest" Angelica explained as she pointed to you.

"Angelica... You can't trust every person you meet" he explained.

"But it's Princess (Y/n), you've met her before, you told me you had" she piped up.

That's when the memories finally became clear. He had been a early suitor you had met a year ago. You had met a few times but he seemed to not have much interest in you.

"Massimo Volpe... It's been a while since I last saw you" you groaned out.

"Yes it has" he said in a stern tone.

"Angelica what's causing these strange feelings?" You groaned out as you felt your body tingle.

"The flowers here are used as a hallucinogen... The pollen is rather mild but is still a surprise for any unsuspecting wonderer" she explained with a giggle before coming back over to you and resting your head on her lap. She began to brush through your hair, she treated you almost like how a child treated a beloved doll.

"Your hair is so soft and beautiful..." She lulled as she began to play with it. Volpe simply watched, his first impression of you hadn't been the best but if Angelica enjoyed your company then you must of been alright maybe in the future he'd get to know you better but for now he'd just watch.

🌺🌺🌺

Months had passed since then and you had grown close to Angelica as well as her lover Massimo. You would return to the woods when you could to visit the two.

Today you came with a basket of food, which excited Angelica to the point that she'd coughed up blood, you had sadly gotten use to such a thing after learning about the fairy's illness.

"Angelica you can't keep working yourself up like that" he said to her with concern laced in his tone.

"It's fine... It's nothing" she responded as Volpe quickly wiped the blood off of her face.

"You worry to much" she said as she looked into his eyes before pushing the corners of his lips up to make him smile but he pushed her hands away, he was obviously in a angsty mood at the moment.

You put down the picnic rug and sat down with the two soon following.

"So how've you been?" Angelica asked.

"I've been alright but all of this suitor business has honestly been a big pain" you said.

"As a matter of fact last night my last suitor had some horrible luck, he wanted me to believe he had a way with animals so he had stuffed catnip into his pockets, the cats were practically tearing his clothes apart" you explained before laughing like crazy, Angelica followed but soon stopped when she heard a chuckle pass Massimo's lips.

"You laughed!" she gasped.

"(Y/n) you just made Massimo laugh" she said to you in suprise.

"What's special about that?" You asked.

"I've never heard him laugh before" she explained. He merely rolled his eyes as Angelica made such a deal of it.

"Anyway I think I have a solution about this suitor problem you've had for the past few months" Angelica said before grabbing a muffin from the basket and taking a bite from it.

"Umm you really don't have to get yourself caught up in my problems" you replied.

"No, it's fine" she said.

"Anyway my idea was that you could choose to marry Massimo, he's a prince after all" she explained.

You stumbled over your words in shock, you were absolutely flabbergasted by her idea.

"But Angelica... You're his lover and I don't want to burden him with having to act like he loves me" you replied. Angelica simply looked back at Massimo before looking back at you.

"But he does love you... And so do I" she explained as she leaned forward to caress your face. You only fell back in shock and looked toward the male.

"Ugh I'm sorry this is very sudden!" You replied as you pulled away.

"I know but you'll get use to it" she said as she leaned forward more.

"No, I can't... This isn't normal" you explained to her as Volpe grabbed you.

"Let go of me!" You screamed.

"No" they both replied in union before you kicked Volpe's shin causing him to drop you and you didn't waste a moment to run. Angelica began to wail out your name and sob as you disappeared from view. There was no way she'd be able to chase her.

"We need to get her back!" She screamed at the top of her lungs as she pounded and kicked the floor like a spoilt brat having a tantrum. Massimo kneeled beside her and stroked her long blonde hair trying to calm her the best he could.

"It's ok Angelica... I know how we can get her back" he said which made the weeping fairy look up at him.

"How?"

🌺🌺🌺

You sat beside the man who tomorrow would be you husband. Various royals had come tonight to wish you both well in the future and offer you gifts. You all sat at he long table drinking a tea that had been anonymously gifted when you heard the ring of someone tapping a spoon against the cup and out of all the guests Massimo Volpe stood. You knew that he had come, all the royals had but you just hoped he wouldn't say anything to brash.

"I would just like to say on behalf of us all princess (Y/n) that we wish nothing but the best for your future..." He said.

You looked down at your tea cup to see something strange in the bottom of your tea cup. You picked it out to find a small open vial. Your vision soon began to double. You stood up, wobbling slightly.

"(Y/n) are you alright?" Your partner asked.

"Something isn't right... My drink... It's been spiked" you slurred.

Soon everyone went into panic but not because of you, they all were seeing and hearing thing that made them go into frenzy. The only one who wasn't affected was Massimo and the familiar blonde who had walked to his side.

"(Y/n) is now cursed... Any moment now and she will fall into an eternal slumber, it is a curse that no one will be able to break" Angelica explained and those were the last words you heard before your world came crashing around you and you fell into the inky blackness.

Everyone ran out of the castle in a hallucinogen fuelled hysteria as it became shrouded in overgrowth that grew from the little seeds that Angelica had planted around the castle. They all came spread to the ends of the earth with stories to tell of terrifying monsters of various kinds and a sleeping princess. Most enough to keep all from ever considering of saving you.

But there were no monsters nor was your sleep eternal. Angelica lied about the curse, like you had said before your drink had been spiked. It was simply a trick.

Soon you would come to and both the fairy and the Prince would be waiting. That would be their happily ever after, but not yours.

Angelica draping over your body as she twirled your hair. Giving you constant compliments as Massimo kissed your lips, he didn't usually show his emotions but deep inside he was as head over heels with you as he was with Angelica.

[darkfairy-tales]

Memories Of Us

Description: Some love story have cruel tragic ending.

Pairing: Taehyung x Jimin

Genre: Romance, Angst, Sad ending

Warning: Mentions of Death

Empty bottles of alcohol scatter across the room. Taehyung sat on the foot of his bed. His face blank. His eyes brimmed with tears. A bottle of alcohol in his hand and lastly a box was in front of him. Above the box "Memories of Us" was written. He sets the bottle down on the floor as he ran his fingers across the words. A small smile filled with pain appeared on his face. His lover's hand writting. His hands delicately opened the box. There was a book. More like a diary. He picked the diary up. He flipped the cover open. The first page had his name written on it along with his lover's name under his, with cute doodles around. Park Jimin. He turned to the next page. A polaroid picture of them together is stuck on it. They are in high school uniform. Jimin has his cute smile while Taehyung tries to act cool. Taehyung's eyes trails down the little note written below the picture.

We are so cute aren't we? I look so small I can't believe this! But anyway you look so cute. Do you remember our school days? We used to have so much fun together. You were my first true friend in the school. My soulmate. You were like an angel Taetae. My alien - Your Chim

Taehyung unconsciously smile at the memory. He had met Jimin in the school library. Ever since they had met each other they were inseparable. So different but so compatible. They called each other soulmates. He flips to the next page. It also has a picture of Taehyung sleeping on a couch. A book on his chest.

You hated to study so much! We alwats had study dates and you always end up sleeping like this. You were such a bad boy. But you made me fall for you so deeply. My lazy taetae ❤️ - Your Chim

Taehyung opens the next page. There is a picture of them together. They are in a pool. Taehyung trying to drag Jimin into the pool. Taehyung again lets a smile slip. It was a hot summer day. They had went out with their friends to enjoy at the pool. Jimin wouldn't get in so Taehyjng had tried to drag him in. One of their friend had taken the picture. He flips open the next page. It had picture of them. It was taken on the prom day. Jimin stands beside Taehyung both of them smiling brightly.

This was after I finally became your boyfriend! I was soooo happy. I was excited. I was over the cloud. i will never forget this prom night. You were my boyfriend. My partner. You made me so happy taetae. I will never forget these. - Your Chim

Taehyung sits there for a long time. The alcohol forgotten already as he goes through the thick diary. Jimin had filled all of it with all their memories. There were pictures of their first actual date. Their graduation. Pictures of when they first moved in together. Pictures of the valentine days and anniversaries spent together. Then came the pictures of holidays spent together. Their trip to another states and countries together. Then the pictures from when Taehyung proposed Jimin to marry him. Then came pictures of their wedding and a lot more.

At the last page a letter was on it. Through his teary eyes Taehyung read what was written on it.

Dear Taehyung,

If you are reading this then I must already be dead. I am sorry. For hiding my illness. I am sorry. I didn't wanted to worry. I didn't wanted to see you in distress. I already knew I won't survive. I am sorry love. I made this diary and filled it with all our lovely memories. Thank you Taetae for giving me these precious memories.

You have made me the happiest person. Don't worry because wherever I am now, I am happy. Because you have made me so happy no matter what. Thank you for giving me so much love and care. When I am gone please don't cry too much. I want you to be happy. It is my last wish Taetae. I don't want you to mourn over me for long. You have so much time left to live. I want you to move on. My life was kinda sort but I had so many blessings. I am happy to got to call you mine. And when I am gone I want you to find someone else. I wish it was me with you until the end but I want you happy. Remember Taetae I will always be with you. I will look after you. I will find happiness in your happiness so you have to promise me that you will stay strong and move on okay?

I guess this is goodbye for us. I love you Taetae. I really do. Maybe in next life we can have a better love story. I will wait for that ❤️

- Your husband Kim Jimin

Tears falls down his eyes as a sob escapes him. Taehyung closes the dairy as he holds it close to his chest. Sobs after sobs escapes him. His heart was in pain. His chest burned. He felt empty. So broken. He lays down on the cold floor not letting go of the dairy as tears continued to slid down from his eyes. "I love you too minnie. I love you so much." He sobs. He lays there as the tears slowly dry out. His eyes slowly closing as he fall asleep. Sleep was the only escape for him from the pain of losing his love.

Outside his room stood two males. Worries etched on their face. One sniffs. "I don't know what to do Joonie. He sounds so broken. I don't know how to help." Jin, Taehyung's older cousin says as tears appear in his eyes. His husband, Namjoon, looks at him helplessly. "I don't know too Jinnie. He has to stay strong by himself. We can't do much other than comfort him by reminding him that we are here for him." Namjoon says as he pulls his husband close hugging him. "I hope he stays strong. I can't watch him ruin himself like this." Jin sobs. He felt helpless seeing his closest cousin brother drinking alcohol all the time, not eating properly and keeping himself locked up in his room all the time. Namjoon sighs. "I know baby I know. For now let's give him some time." Namjoon says as Jin nods. With a last look towards Taehyung's room which was closed they walked away. "Some love stories have such cruel tragic ending." Jin sadly mumbles as he walks away with his husband. They could only hope for Taehyung to stay strong.

The End~

Hello! My lord I legit cried while writting this! I don't know why I am writing such sad thing but yeah I have been listening to sad songs and this happened! I hope this was okay

Don't forget to like and reblog. I will post more cute imagines soon ❤️ Stay tuned lovelies. Bye bye 💚

[mamawolfblood]

Though he didn't know it yet Chris Mclean was in for a shocking revelation. One of the campers is not exactly just some rando kid. This camper is his kid and she is out to expose it.

Name : Iris  Escalona

Age 16

Eye color green

Caramel skin

Black hair that she keeps in a high ponytail. A Cherokee rose on the left side of the hair tie.

Iris is 5ft 8",135lb

Out fit-White tanktop with the alchemists symbol blue acid washed jean shorts black converses

Iris has a dark sense of humor. She loves horror,pranks,is resourceful. Iris is not above smashing some skulls together. She is not quick to anger but Heather pushes a lot of her buttons.

All her life she just wanted Chris to know she was alive. Her mother never gave the reason why she left. She is the oldest of seven children.

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Chris: Last time on Total Drama Island… The Killer Bass finally dodged their pathetic losing streak against The Screaming Gophers. There were bruises, tears, risky moves, and dangerous alliances. And in the end, it was Noah the know-it-all who didn’t see it coming. This week, another challenge will send one more camper on a cruise to Loserville. Population: Four. Who will sink? And who will stay afloat? Find out right now on Total. Drama. Island!

Iris walked back into the cabin after a shower. "Oh no this is bad. Im out of fake tan already." Lindsay said concerned. "Then go ger a real tan." Iris said putting her stuff away. "Oh its so tragic" Gwen said sarcastically looking a little more alive today. "Now I have to actually, like, suntan. In the sun! Do you realize how shriveled and wrinkly that can make your skin? Oh, you totally do." Lindsay said now by Gwen. I roll my eyes placing my hair in a ponytail. "See you ladies in the mess hall." Iris said leaving the crazy. "Oh off to find your delinquent boy toy. " Heather tried to get under my skin. "He at least I have a joystick. You should find one maybe you wouldn't be a stuck up bitch all the time." The girls laughed as I left. "That white girl is alright in my book." Leshawna said.

 [over loudspeaker]: "All right, campers! Enough beauty sleep! Time to show us what you’re made of!" Chris said

The campers made it to a make shift out door theater.

(Confessionals)

Iris

"I actually have a good feeling about this. Ever since I was little Dad and mom would take me to see musical and plays. I grew up a theater kid just something about it made it so magical."

*static*

(End of Confessionals)

Lindsay: Are we gonna see a musical? I love musicals. Especially the ones with singing and dancing. Heh." She asked amazed. I had to chuckle at this poor girl.

Trent: Gwen! Saved you a seat." He said moving aside for her. That is adorable I'm happy for them.

Gwen: "Thanks." She said sitting down next to him.

Cody: "W-W-Whoa! Uh, heh." Oh Cody you poor soul. She wont go for you give up already.

*Lindsay blows kiss *

Uhoh someone is braking the rules hahaha poor girl can't see the bitch she is helping.

*Heather turns and waves her ponytail in Lindsay's face. *

As I said bitch.

Lindsay: Oh! [spits out a wave of Heather's hair] "Hey Lindsay come sit with Me and Duncan." I said she got up and sat with us.

Chris: Welcome to our brand new deluxe state-of-the-art outdoor amphitheater! Okay, this week’s challenge is a summer camp favorite. A talent contest!" This made me happy.

Owen: Yes! Awesome!

Chris: Each team has eight hours to pick their three most talented campers.[Katie and Sadie squeal.] These three will represent them in the show tonight. Sing, dance, juggle. Anything goes, as long as it’s legal.[Duncan snaps his fingers.] You’ll be judged by our resident talent scout, former DJ, VJ, and rap legend, Grand Master Chef, who will show his approval via the Chef-o-Meter.[ding ding ding ding ding ding] The team that loses will send one camper home tonight. Good luck.

[whistle blows]

Heather started saying she was the captain. "Who said this Chika" I asked Gwen second it. "Beth and Lindsay"She said crossing her arms. "Fear is not the way to go Heather." I said and everyone backed me. "We shall see halfbreed." She said as I sat down .

It was Trent,Heather and Iris in the talent show for the Gophers.

For the Bass it was Courtney, DJ, Geoff.

Why we were killing time watching the other talents. Heather got ahold of some secrets that she was about to spill.

Cody: What you got there, a journal?

Gwen: Beat it.

Cody: Oh, I get it. Yeah, it’s private, huh? I’m down with that, yeah. It’s cool, brah.

Gwen: What part of beat it don’t you understand?

Cody: [sniffs]

Gwen: What are you, some kind of freak?

Cody: Y-you just… smell… really… pretty.

Gwen: It’s just… soap.

[guitar playing]

Gwen: I won’t even ask.

[guitar playing resumes]

Heather: Look! The first hook up of the season.

Gwen [sarcasticaly]: Oh yeah. We’re going at it big time. I need a swim just to cool off.

[door slams]

[door slams]

Cody groans

Trent: Gwen, wait up! I’ll come with you.

Gwen: Sure. I mean… whatever.

Chris [loudly]: It’s the TDI Talent Extravaganza! [normal voice] Welcome to the very first Camp Wawanakwa… Talent Contest. Where six campers will showcase their mad skills and desperately try not to humiliate themselves. First up for the Screaming Gophers… is Iris.

Iris walks out (a outfit that looks like Melanie from pokemon 2000. The Island maiden.) She started to play on her Ocarina my heart will go on.

It got a seven on the Chef-o-Meter.

Chris: First up for the Killer Bass… make some noise for the big guy! DJ!

[clapping]

Tyler: Woo-hoo!

Katie and Sadie: Yaaaay! Wooo!

[spiritual music]

[swirls]

[whips]

[thud]

Duncan: Ooh-hoo-hoo…

Katie: Gah!

[stretching]

[snaps]

Chris: Dainty and yet masculine. Let’s see what Grand Master Chef thinks.

[ding ding ding]

Chris: Not much.

Chris: So, with two down and four acts to go, it’s the Screaming Gophers… screaming ahead. Next on deck… Trent. Take it away, my bro.

Trent: This one goes out to someone special here at camp.

[guitar playing]

[Trent]

They say that we’ve only got summer

And I say that’s really a bummer.

But we’ll swim in the sun and have lots of fun…

It’ll just be the two of us…

Nothing to do… just hang…

So let me say only this…

Stick around… for just one kiss…

[clapping]

[ding ding ding]

Chris: Nice work! I’m liking your style, dude. And so does Grand Master Chef!

[clapping]

Chris: All right, quit hogging my light, buddy.

[objects tumbling]

Chris: Three down and three to go and the Killer Bass are totally sucking so far. Let’s hear it for Bridgette!

[clapping]

Courtney: Are you sure you can do this?

[stomach rumbling]

Bridgette[with her stomach rumbling]: Ooh. Definitely. No, uh, I’m great. Really. [She burps a few times]

[splash]

Screaming Gophers gasp and moan

Bridgette moans and projectile vomits loudly

Courtney and Heather gasp

Owen: I’m hit! I’m hit!

Bridgette projectile vomits loudly

Katie screams and vomits

Bridgette projectile vomits loudly

Lindsay [loudly] :Hey, puke on your own boyfriend!

Heather: On your own what, Lindsay?

Lindsay [quickly]: I didn’t say, boyfriend.

Chris [nasally] :Clean up in aisle three, four, five, and six! [normally] In the meantime, we’ll take a short break to hose the joint down.

[elevator music]

(Confessional: Bridgette)

Bridgette: Going home won’t be so bad… I-I can always work at the surf shack.

(Confessional Off)

Chris [loudly] : Welcome back to the TDI Talent Extravaganza! [normally] Welcome back. Okay. So in a strange turn of events, Bridgette’s chunk-blowing fest registered two thumbs up by Grand Master Chef. But, it’s not enough to pull ahead the Screaming Gophers, who held the lead with Trent’s love song. So, without further delay, here she is for the leaders… Heather!

[clapping]

Heather: Originally, I was going to dance for you. But instead, I want to celebrate team spirit, with a collaboration.

Iris saw what was in her hand. She started sweating.

Heather: So, with words by Gwen, performance by me, enjoy. [clears throat] Originally I thought he would be different. Even though mom says that my father and I are alike I don't see it. He said I remind him of someone her knew long ago but she left. I found that odd because I was alwats told he left. It doesn't matter either way because I know that Chris Mclean is 100% my biological father. " she said then handing my birth certificate to Chris who looked at me shocked. I got up and ran. Thats not how I wanted him to find out.

Heather: Thank you.

Courtney: [to Bridgette] That was so mean.

Bridgette: Seriously.

Chris: Well then, it’s down to the final act of the night. Can Geoff and his rad stunts turn it around? I seriously doubt it. Let’s find out.

[crashes]

Geoff: Whoa… that kinda wrecks the ride.

Bridgette [nervously] : Now what?! We have to send someone out there or we’re going to lose this!

[kerraelas]

in regards to my last post, the main thing happening that tipped me off to "hey this might be a problem in my life and not some hahah funny thing" was 3yrs ago, i think.

me and a friend (let's call her... grey) would always hang out a bit longer after school and just... enjoy some good ol' quality time while waiting for our rides.

our rides are taking longer to get there than expected, and the security guard eventually kicks out of the commons area.

grey and i are hanging around outside, the security guard coming to check on us every so oftwn and making sure we aren't doing Illegal Stuff, and she gets a text from her dad that he's there in the lower lot. so we say our goodbyes, she'll text me when she gets home(takes her abt 10ish minutes), and leaves.

i sit down on a bench and start reading. my mom says that she's running a couple minutes late but she's leaving. i don't thibk much of it.

about 15 minutes later i text grey and make a joke abt how my mom always says she's leaving now but still doesn't for another 20 minutes. i get no reply from grey or any indication that she saw the message.

i don't think too much of it bc maybe she's not home yet and doesn't have wifi or they went to the store or smth.

my mom's about a 15-20 min drive away from my school, so she should be here by now. i aak if she's on her way, but don't worry too much abt it bc, as i said, she sticks around even once she has said that she's leaving.

i go back to my book and get a few more pages down(around 10-12 mins i think) before i notice that the security guard hasn't come outside since grey left.

laughing to myself, i mention just as much to grey (who stil hasn't replied to or seen my previous message) and say that maybe the security guard just thought that she was the trouble maker

((it's here that i'm realising i should mention that grey is REALLY fast at replying to messages. she was someone who hated when i took a while to reply and she was alwats messaging me day and night))

i see if my mom replied and i just didn't get the notification, and no luck. by now she should actually be at the school to pick me up. but i'm trying my best not to think to much on it bc my mom's the kind who takes ages to reply and sometimes just doesn't. yet can't help but to get a little worried.

so i shoot my mom another text and then try to distract myself w music. it doesn't help.

suddenly i'm all too aware of the lack of ppl around. there's one or two cars in the lot, but no life. there's no one on the baseball or soccer field at all like there normally is. no sign of the security guard. and no sign of 3ish other kids who regulary stay after.

i go inside w the plan of acting like i needed to use the restroom, but there's no one. i check my watch, and it's not even close to the time when everyone goes home. in fact, there's a band concert in a couple hours, so that's all the more reason for it to not be eerily vacant and silent.

by now i'm starting to panic and my thoughts are getting the best of me. no messages from grey or my mother, no other sign of human life. and i'm starting to feel alone and trapped and there's this painful weight that's building up in my chest and it's getting hard to breathe.

so i go back outside and i just start pacing and watching for people. but there's no one. there's no cars driving by. i'm pacing and trying to focus on my music and my steps. but with each foot fall, the panic gets worse.

i take one step. you're alone.

two. no one else is here.

three. you don't exist.

four. nothing is real.

by this point i'm full on panicking and i just don't know what to do. everything around me seems like some sort of apocalyptic ghost town setup or something.

i'm about ready to just curl up against a pillar in the fetal position when i see the unmissable bright red of my moms car driving through the parking lot.

the sense of relief that washed over me was almost enough to make my legs give out.

i got in the car like nothing happened. didn't say a word other than a muttered thank you to her.

after the 10min drive home and the 15 extra it took to fully calm myself, i FINALLY get a message from grey.

all she said was "that sounds like something they would do" or something like that.

i needed to vent to someone abt the fun experience i had just had, so i make a joke of "i'm p sure i just got transported into a ghost town or smth lol. no one was replying to me and man was that scary"

and then she was just like "well why didn't you tell me i'm so sorry i would have replied!"

i asked what she was doing but never found out.

but anyway... that was a fun-filled hour of panic that felt more like a fucking life time. that was the first time i actually noticed that "reality is a mere state of mind" feeling

[rnyshelves]

8 Steps to have a happy life!.

1) WALK WITH GOD: For starters, if you are interested in knowing God’s plan for your life, then you must learn to walk with God. You need to develop a relationship with Him.

Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding;In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths.

2) SURRENDER YOUR WILL TO GOD:Many times when we say we are seeking God’s will, what we are really wanting to say to God is this: “OK, God, here’s what I’m planning to do. Now I need you to rubber stamp this, all right?”

Romans 12:1-2 Therefore I exhort you, brothers and sisters, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies as a sacrifice – alive, holy, and pleasing to God – which is your reasonable service. Do not be conformed to this present world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may test and approve what is the will of God – what is good and well-pleasing and perfect.

Jesus was willing to die for us, so shouldn’t we be willing to live for Him? When we surrender to Him, that is when He really begins to direct our steps

3) OBEY WHAT YOU ARE REALY KNOW TO BE GODS WILL: Many people seem to want to know what God’s plan is for their lives, but they overlook the fact that 98% of His will is already delineated carefully through His Word.

4) SEEK GODLY INPUT: One key component to finding God’s will is to seek the input of godly advisors in your life.

Proverbs 11:14 Where there is no counsel, the people fall; but in the multitude of counselors there is safety.

The church is designed to help you greatly with this.

5) PAY ATTENTION TO HOW GOD WIRED YOU: God has created you to fulfill a specific role in this world. There is no one else who can achieve completely what God has purposely created you to do.

1 Peter 4:10 As each one has received a gift, minister it to one another, as good stewards of the manifold grace of God.

God has gifted every one of us to perform a special mission for which we alone were created. How amazing is that? Wow!

6) LISTEN TO GOD'S SPIRIT: I experienced a major turning point in my own prayer life when I learned simply to shut up while I was praying. I just cried and tears and i know God can still hear me. During my prayer time, I always imaagine that Jesus is in my side. That every tears coming from my eyes seen by him☝️. No tears can be wasted in the name of Jesus.

John 10:27 My sheep hear My voice, and I know them, and they follow Me.

7) LISTEN TO YOUR HEART: In addition to listening to the Spirit, I also recommend listening to your heart. To understand my point here, consider the following passage:

Psalms 37:4-5: 4 Delight yourself also in the LORD, and He shall give you the desires of your heart. 5 Commit your way to the LORD, trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass. (NKJV)

I love this passage, because it shows me that, when I am walking with the Lord, He will actually let me do many really cool things that I actually love to do! When you are close to Him, He actually begins to shape your desires so that you desire the things that He has already called you to do.

8) TAKE A LOOK AT YOUR CIRCUMSTANCES: God often clearly demonstrates His plan for our lives by lining up circumstances in obvious ways. And He also shows us what His will is NOT for us to do in that same way.

Over the years, I have discovered that God is pretty good at opening and closing doors. I sometimes succeed but alwats i failed (until now i dont know why God always close doors for me) but i trust him that whatever it is, i know that it was good for me.

even Paul had to face closed doors in his ministry. God often uses closed doors to show us clearly what He does NOT want us to do. And He also uses open doors at times to show us what He DOES want us to do. Of course, this does not mean that every open door is definitely God’s plan, but it does help to give you some basic direction.

C'mon sisters and brothers! Lets to this 8 steps to have a happy life!!!.

[carveus]

This is a rant

This is a personal rant, full of me not being okay, reasons why I’m not okay, and consequences of me not being okay. You probably don’t want to read it, but I need to write it.

Why was I dumb enough to think that he would be good company to give Grunt to be cremated? Oh right, I had hoped that a year apart might have prompted some personal growth.

Instead, I’ve gone from a vaguely functional with occasional outburst of tears adult, to one who can’t stop crying and really wants to die. The only reason I’m here to type this is that I’m so used to this song and dance I’ve gotten really good at reasoning my way through it. Mostly due to my paralysing need not to inconvenience anyone, thanks Mum.

I just wanted to have someone to keep me company. Why could he not go even 10 minutes without letting me know he really wasn’t here for me? I barely want to go into town on a good day, why is your idea of comforting me asking me to go around it with you? “We can talk about anything you want.” Which is code for “I want to hijack the conversation about your feelings into how hard it is for me and make you my unpaid, untrained therapist again. Like every conversation we had about you in our 10 years together, it has to be about me.”

I told you how I was upset because my landlord isn’t sure about letting me have more rats because sometimes the rat smell got strong when my depression gets heavy and it’s hard to even get out of bed. And yeah, I have issues there, I admit, it’s something to work on. But even if you don’t mean it, you’re meant to tell me that I’ll work something out, to comfort me.

Not decide to lecture me on how I should know and do better, and should clean things more often, when I know that when we lived together you never emptied their litter tray, never fed them, the answer to my questions of could I get some help deep cleaning the cage was always later. Which never happened.

Every time you say you want to get rats again, I cringe. Because you never interacted with our boys. You almost hit one because he walked on your leg when you weren’t expecting it. You barely saw Grunt in the last year of his life, because despite coming in weekly, you didn’t want to do the 20 mimute walk to see us. You alwats expected me to meet you at the station though. But whenever I come to see you, you never meet me. Despite knowing about my travel anxiety and how hard it is for me to get there.

But that summarises our whole relationship, doesn’t it. It summarises you. What is the bare minimum of effort I can put in to maintain something? And now you’re acting surprised that people are starting to pull away from you, because we’re realising we deserve better.

I deserve a better friend than you.

[human-notbeing-blog]

[Unedited: same as when written,, ] Seeking out search out for that heavnly realm That unseen That unknown That unseen, yet ever-present Everlasting , Lasting after last thing stuck in this circle Cypher rewind the minors Flow from the water Life from the evil in backwards Hit my duality with some shit Not to fight But to bea a mothafucka and let the helix twist and split The sky's the direction Relax Nothing to worry on being worthy The gift and the 8 above my head Is that love That love That otha water born creation Money for grabs all that cool , but I found myself circling this earth That realm Like thats all what of where im at And thats all im going to Crab walk across the park Paranoud cause theyre making a noise Cave to myself, no entry things and sinister dreams Avail a circle with nothing cause it aint open Finally find what time to understand What is And what the fuck isnt Drink from a different river , The golden halo Head so far from , inner isnt Splitting my own atoms Nah none more of that Control of Earthly habits To achieve more of the Earth? 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Release that fuckin devil . that sin . Keep me in your bed . finally in between . Floating from it Like the polarity i want most . why twist my own helix like my nips This I want living more Like this I want this gold given . spread gifted . lifted . nothing to repeat of self as its no longer a race Its an assembly to stack up the lift up more Induldge in your beauty Damn youre a fuckin beauty No paranoia Wont annoy yah No more breathing heevin heavy worrying about my mindset steady no more . Somwthing of yours Nothibg of mine thats im used to Adjusted to control perfect Rash on my foreskin tryna craft a flow Something theyd appreciate Ill get it once I let get off all of it All of that All of caring Hit the bottom so i hit the heavens Yeah . mothalova . peace man fuzz . something thats worth to keep consistent Thats worth to live Cause ill only appreciate what i find when im not really that into lookin at how it would be to get and what leprocauhn bitch inside look like Heaven point of vision seeing down Like i got my 12 from 6 complete Kundalini a devil on my way up No fear on me days these slut please Find my worries on consewuences on that river you tryna find me dead Twisted my nips for hours too long . no food no sleep . Hit that g spot . my g spot . her g cavity never felt gravity till now spot sweet . From faith . from wanting it more . to making it that vision . that layer overall . overees of me make my ovaries overeasy please . Dont worry about how keep that outco e consistent As its something thats His. And I know at Any time Any Time At Any I can have it Just bathe in the things he placed here Just like you Dont gotta worry gotta bitch bout nothin Cause I know deep down From that beginning Innocent as its ever been . infant freedom set free . gave me a taste . For this plane earthly . Placed maybe for the grow i dunno Not suppose to 2 sheets 2 weeks deep tryna figure that out Edge of insanity brink of death 9pm park bench Found it Found it as its been in that The very thing ive been blocking off Thats been missing Ive been on my own mission Make that shit happen Now harder faster Fuck myself in the ass in that order That pattern that pace Ste face when in asking for more Mothafuck . ive been here to explore As ive ever been And its been the same shit 24 Cause ive been wanying what im having what im doing on the 7 Slip me the drug hidden . cause im fuckin spittin out this poison . shit. This is it . The mother the father the son and your holy spirit . hope to be within me . As you once were always were in my youth . always have been . waiting for me to see what the path is . standing at the end . like a true parent that i wish i could say i had . that i have . accept them . as human as me . as i am . Human being lookin for nothing but the all you are Fuck all the answers I wanna wake to you in the morning time Reborn spirits of me something i never planned to be . Dont give a shit if im gum on a seat stumbled As long as im living a life granted from yours . Life given from your purpose Passed given handed off Fuck . im getting off Quit to sput but quicker to spill off Pretend im something nothing but a ghost Hope for you to see Something bigger better be better be than i be So I can be Fuckdickdogshit Walkin head down Grown from the devil Because I never knew my 6 to grew To grow from Motherfuck this airplane semi lsedupsychedalic automatic trip to drift off to space outer and its that shit Simulation White box nothing blinded by appeal Fuck a bitch , we all know it aint real But big dick sexy camel golden shine waxed as the bills to be Blood on his teeth Cause mothafucka thats the test Thats the faith i gotta have Not in but against Fuckin bitch thats the test . Thats the test . Thats the test . Fucking wake up before I do . Before I fuckin did . Dont be dead as I ever was . Or you know the next best man to be unseen . yet on the surface, only on the surface , as it stops at to co-exis-be. Respect and love you cause we just met my b . Smell some heaven on this earth from endowed doused in the middle thing The middle man named grace Hit my face on some ecstacy Better than All those reasons All those reasons Ive ever been Cause its the consistent . Its in it . and its that . Gifted as tourettes already lifted . Part of rhe ground . part of the earth . part of the test . alwats knew . Break into the sky . last peace . Hear this shit before i die . Please . cause im you in another life somehow . And all this sound . all this drought . all these clouds . Knowing . wanting . breathing . living . existing . to the shining light Wanting more Seems to be absolute right? No wrong . not fooling me. I know that shit . thats i want . get off my back. I know my realty . nothing else dont . as angle makes my own . me too . 2 of me . Some of them . want something . want something to be to be something . Could be Only could be Look at the want of more . the fear of its piece . Thats what it was. Always was . Carefully step my friend . I kmow youre not paving this path for paun . At all . simple to breathe but deeper to feel defeated Dont wait for these days of my broken . hopeless . homeless . paranoia . going nowhere. to see it . 8:13pm - 8:37pm - 9:03pm 05-06-2019

[mjalberts]

Long post sorry

I need help getting out of my abusive house.

I cant live here anymore. Everyday is becoming more and more like hell for me. Ive got a job but now i have no ride to it or for it. I csnt set up a pay pal because i cant get to the bank. Anyone i ask to help me is belittled and yelled st by my mom. My mom has been getting so much worst lately. I cant even be happy about a great job opportunity i have bevausr she needs to controll everything.

The most recent fight started this morning. I was excitedly telling my dad about an interview i got for a marketing company. "You never would havr gotten that job if i hadnt pushed you." I rolled my eyes because its alwats been like that. I would have never gotten in gaurd if it wasnt for her. Never gotten good grades if it wasnt for her. Never would have joined choir is it wasnt for her. Everything has been about her.

Next was in my room while im setting up a pay card for my new job. She snatchs it out of my hand and processed to tell me how. I acknowledge her but say i want to read to see if theres a fee for atms. She wont let me do this saying im wasting time. I snap and tell her to stop micromanaging. She kicks my littke sister out of my room and storms out saying i cant use to car for work. Im a pizza delivery driver. Its very much needed.

My father storms in and tells me that we need to talk. I speak up to explain what tge hell happenef and he explodes telling me to shut up and listeb for once in my life. My mom entets to mock me with not having a car and telling me im not allowed to call in. I need to "figure it out."

Earlier this week she was talking about all the sexual assualt claims in the news. Saying the woman wanted attention. At first i was calm and just didnt engage. Befor ginally telling her that as a survivor of sexual assault it was really upsetting me. She goes off about how shes the mom so she can talk about what she wants when she wants.

Maybe im too pridefull but i refuse to play her game any longer. I refuse to go to her and beg for forgivness for a crime i didnt committ. My own father is telling me to swallow my pride and suck it up.

This is just today. I need suggestion and help. I cant stay here much longer. I cant keep walking on eggshells around her afraid ill piss her off.

I need help.

[rainbowishkitty]

Violence has never been the right answer. None of it is unless it is eeextremely necessary (example when levi kicked eren at the court to have eren in the sc). P.s remember it is just a manga.

I will make another example: when you're a kid you are unaware and naive about life,so if you fuck up your parents are gonna give you some spanks right? So that you learn what you doing is wrong. When you grow up you subconsciously know that u mustn't do that "thing" again because of the past memories. In this case it is necessary.

Why am I saying this? Because there were times Levi had to use violence. In this case eren was justified just for his rights but not for his action toward hange..it was sad to see how she tried to talk to the eren he knew at the start of the manga just to fail. eren is in alot of pain and struggle, almost as if battling himself..like looking at hinself in the mirror telling himself to fight.

When Levi kicked eren in the air ship it was necessary in order to make Eren snap out of his state. (He is totally "possesed" by the attack titan with all of its memories.) I justify Levi because it was more like of a dad to a son (sorryfor all the shippers).

I want to say that I really really like eren. We learnt that Armin,Mikasa and the others wanted things go differently than starting a war. They thought that by welcoming marleys to a harbor they wouls have slowly trusted them more. More of a pacifist way. Eren had already his focus settled instead. I keep repeating that eren's goal was

1. Exterminate all titans

2. Ocean

WHEN eren found out HUMANS behind the creation of titans,when he discovered about marleyans it's like something clicked in his mind. HIS PERSPECTIVE changed completely: he became another person and his goals was now to

1 defeat Marley by stealing their titans.

2 stop this repeating cycle of sacrifices

3 world's peace

THAT'S it about Eren, and the other thing is that he ca't wait. EREN can't wait for a peace,he had to rush it before the Marley even had the chance to attack them again. And sorry for anyone who doesn't agree but think he did the right thing and I am sorry that nobody wanted to follow his plan. Even if it was risky as hell the Marley is no different to Eldians, and im not saying revenge is the answer: its that Eren doesn't trust the Marley and that's why I believe in him and I like him; you can't easily trust a country that has killed so many people, Eldians have suffered long enough and they must get their rights to live a normal life again and not with some platonic peace, yes it would have come probably but times up and Eren knows that it must be done as soon as he can. I strongly believe in Eren and It makes me sad that nobody is able to get near his heart. Don't get me wrong I love all of the characters but I am feeling alot for Eren and I can relate alot to him. He intends to harm no one his goal has alwats been to save the world so he is no villain at all: he does what he believes and who wants follows him. I cant say that when reiner said that the powers went to thwe worst person possible tho it was wrong :P eren is really a tough nut to crack.

Anyway I think eren is alone atm and it's sad to see how from that cute innocent baby he was he gradually became so serious and so self absorbed. I think all he really wants is peace after all but by cancelling the enemy and not by becoming their ally.

That's all.

By the way I feel sorry for hange who feels so unsure about her role as leader as eren made her doubt it. I want to say hange fits it perfectly and she is really amazing. Eren is full of rage because he is alone on his mission and nobody can reach his heart. I hope Eren opens up a bit. I really do hope.

And I hope historia is not the real pregnant one.