#and yeah. objectively. the freak is a horrible dude. but i promise you that the d urge probably condoned that shit and also did worse

[devotedlystrangewizard]

god could you imagine if people focused on the actual golden boy getting like twice as much content as his fellow companions rather than like 2 new lines for one bad guy to make one scene feel more in line with the one other scene with said bad guy

[rawbins-undertale-blog]

Ok! Just wanted to make sure I wasn't asking another venephobic/hemophobic person to write about venephobia lol.

(sorry if this is too detailed, but mostly what I want is just the last paragraph. I just wanted to provide some context of what s/o might be feeling in that situation. Might also be worth tagging with TWs for veins and blood mentions and blood draws)

So what about UF and HT bros with a really venephobic s/o. Just like- fuckin hates needles, nervous around knives, won't let anybody touch their veins, has to wear long sleeves so they don't see them. (This is somewhat my experience but I believe those are more universal symptoms)

Said venephobic s/o has to go get their blood drawn, insisted on by their doctor. They're terrified- in the past, I've always been having a panic attack while my blood is drawn and I /have/ to have another person in the room for me. That being said, I'm not sure if your boys are hemophobic so that could also cause issue.

But yeah- essentially, s/o is freaking out the night before their blood draw both hungry (cause the don't eat 12 hours before your appointment thing) and terrified, and then maybe a quick bit about what the Skele would do during the appointment?

~ Sincerely, a hoping they weren't too detailed Carpal Tunnel Anon ~

Dude I relate to this so much. I'm TERRIFIED of needles and drawing blood and taking vaccines and,, ugh *shudders*

Anyways,

UF + HT BROS WITH VENEPHOBIC AND S/O

RED (UNDERFELL SANS)

He doesn’t mind! He always tries to make sure you’re comfortable and picks up on your boundaries. If you tell him about your phobia (which he has, by that point, picked up on you having), he’ll be sympathetic about it because he totally gets it.

So, when you’re about to have your blood drawn and feeling miserable because of it, he’ll reassure you as best he can. He would give you comfort food but you can’t eat, and it makes him feel pretty bad.

Will definitely do anything you ask him so long as it won’t ruin the blood test or something. (So long as it’s within reason, obviously. He won’t find a way to bring dinosaurs back into existence even if that’s what you ask for.)

During the appointment, he’s holding your hand and saying anything he can to soothe you. There’s not much to do because you have to do this, and you’ll simply have to push through, but he’s saying anything he can to reassure you and promising that you’ll do something fun after this.

He distracts you as much as possible. Asks you beforehand what he should do to help too, maybe pre-planning like… an entire playlist of youtube videos even though you probably won’t be there for as long as that playlist goes on.

Overall rating: 10/10. Very helpful.

EDGE (UNDERFELL PAPYRUS)

He doesn’t get it. He really doesn’t. He’s been desensitized to a lot of things so he’s a bit confused.

But that’s not to say he’s invalidating your fears! Just because he doesn’t get it, that doesn’t mean he thinks it’s weird or “wrong”. He awkwardly reassures you that it’s fine and normal and will do his best to accomodate to your needs.

When you’re freaking out about the appointment, he is doing his best to soothe you. He’s, again, very awkward about it because how do you handle feelings???????

He’s done research and all that on how to help with panic attacks, anxiety attacks, anything and everything to do with how to handle your phobias, because he loves you a lot. Normally, to anyone else, he’ll usually say something along the lines of “YOU NEED TO TOUGHEN UP!” but that doesn’t feel right in this situation. Not to mention, you’re already tough! Maybe you just don’t have to be tough with everything.

Overall rating: 6/10. He’s doing his best?

DUSK (HORRORTALE SANS)

You and him both, buddy.

He’s lowkey freaking out with you but also trying his best to calm you down. What a mess. At least he’s really empathetic?

He’s also extremely anxious about you not getting to eat. It’s horrible and it gives him bad memories. Might try to get you to eat something even though you shouldn’t eat.

He is practically glued to your side. No way he’s letting you out of his sight, even if it makes him more than uncomfortable to see you getting your blood drawn.

Usually he doesn’t like purring in front of people he doesn’t trust, but he’s kind of like a cat and does that soothing purring in hopes of making you feel better.

Overall rating: 8/10. Freaking out a bit too much but he’s doing his best and he really understands you.

ASTER (HORRORTALE PAPYRUS)

He’s a bit better than his brother in this regard, but that’s not to say he doesn’t also get super uncomfortable near blood or sharp objects.

He’s much calmer about it, soothing you and just being very sweet.

But he is pretty upset that you can’t eat anything. What kind of garbage rule is that?! He does try to get you to eat something because it makes him really anxious when you’re hungry, so you’ll have to decline and explain to him why you can’t eat right now.

Super supportive during the appointment. He knows just what to say to distract you and maybe he’ll even tell you a pun to make you feel better. Maybe.

He’ll use whatever method he knows works best for you to make sure you get through the appointment in the smoothest way possible. Distracting you? He’ll do that. Saying soothing things? He’s your man. Just hold his hand? You’ve got it.

Overall rating: 9.5/10. Extremely helpful but he gets a minus .5 for being so insistent on the food thing.

[makeste]

BnHA Chapter 139: Deku and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Hallway

Previously on BnHA: The cops and Nighteye’s pro hero group took about nine pages to approach Overhaul’s house, only to be stopped by some massive troll of a man before they could ring the bell at the front gate. Everyone was all, “HOW DID THEY KNOW WE WERE COMING?” while ignoring the fact that there were like 70 guys all conspicuously gathered outside this place for like an hour prior to them getting started. Ryuukyuu turned into a dragon and I wanted it to be like this, but so far all she really did was hold the guy down with one of her big dragon claws. Which to be fair was still pretty cool. So she and her group are staying outside to deal with the cave troll while the rest of the heroes head on in. Meanwhile in the secret underground labyrinth beneath the house, Overhaul plotted to have his underlings stall the heroes while he made his getaway. And this is why you don’t ring the fucking doorbell before invading a mafia capo’s house. Just FYI.

Today on BnHA: The heroes finally make it inside the house! So thrilling. Nighteye uncovers a secret passage, and the heroes proceed down below. After smashing their way through a blocked wall, they discover a hallway doing its best impression of that Salvador Dali clock painting. This apparently is the work of one of Overhaul’s henchmen, Mimic, whose quirk allows him to enter objects and control them. Apparently he shot himself up with some Trigger and became a “living labyrinth.” Since Mirio is the only one not physically deterred by this, he activates his quirk and runs ahead before the others can stop him. The rest of the group suddenly falls into a big hole that opens up beneath their feet, landing in a room with three more henchmen. The pros get ready to fight, but Amajiki holds out a hand to stop them, saying he’ll be the one to take them down.

(As always, all comments not marked with an ETA are my unspoiled reactions from my first readthrough of this chapter. I’ve read up through chapter 171 now, so any ETAs will reflect that. My son the musical prodigy.) 

okay, time to get back on this. some holdover thoughts from the previous chapter since I’ve had a couple days to reflect on it:

why the hell didn’t everyone wear kevlar or some shit. you know you’re going up against enemies that will be shooting at you, and if they hit you you’ll lose your quirk. it blows my mind that the pros didn’t suit up with extra body armor knowing this

even worse, because of the way the house is designed, they’re basically going to be sitting ducks. they only know one way in and out of the lower levels of the house. seeing as it’s underground, that means lots of long, narrow tunnels and hallways. they’re in just about the worst strategic position they could be for a raid like this: the enemy knows they’re here, and unlike Nighteye’s team, they actually know their way around the hideout. meanwhile the raid team is inevitably going to either have to split up and get themselves lost, or stick to this stupid plan of taking the most direct route possible to get to Eri, and meanwhile have bad guys shooting quirk-destroying bullets at them the entire way

that being said, they should stick Kirishima out in front and use him as a human shield lol

(ETA: to be fair, the only one that actually ends up getting hit is another one who is normally for all intents and purposes bulletproof. and in his case kevlar wouldn’t have done jack shit because he would have ended up shedding the vest anyway due to his quirk. so fair enough, but the others should have still geared up. no one cares about safety huh)

all right. so let’s see just how screwed these guys actually are

okay so we’re opening with the mafia dudes demanding to know what’s going on, and the cops explaining that this is a raid suckas

the lower level pros are holding the mob guys back while the cooler pros go on ahead

FG’s apologizing for not stopping to take off his shoes since this is an urgent situation. how fucking rude. tracking in all that dirt

oh my god

fucking kidding me with this shit. Bubble Girl in the lead? she barely even has a shirt, let alone any type of armor? is her quirk defensive in any way? let’s hope so

is Nighteye’s quirk even active again yet? right now he’s just a guy in a suit, isn’t he? although he did work with All Might for years, so he probably does have wicked combat skills that we just haven’t seen yet. hopefully

(ETA: wicked combat skills and a six-pack)

I can’t even see Kirishima in this shot. jeez. ridiculous

so as they run, they’re all discussing how the bad guys seem to have known they were coming, and that this is Not Good

I don’t really care about what Aizawa is saying in this panel, but I like that he’s right next to Deku

taking that promise very seriously. well good, since we all know that literally the instant Aizawa lets him out of his sight, Deku is somehow going to end up facing the final boss or something

(ETA: fucking uncanny, though. every fucking time, Deku)

anyway, so they’re logically concluding that Overhaul and the top brass must already be in the basement either hiding all their shit or getting ready to escape

this makes Kirishima very angry

well yeah, Kiri. but bad guys gonna bad guy

still, if it gets you fired up, you go ahead and feel that righteous anger boy

and now Nighteye’s stopping at a random panel in the wall and says this is it

oh, cool

please be a secret door please be a secret door please be a secret dooooor...

yay!

oh shit lol

never mind. close it

ughhhhhhh the centipede guy is using his quirk nooo whyyyy

he’s picking up two of the guys with his centipede arms

to me this is a fate worse than death

WHYYYYY

now Bubble Girl’s using her bubble quirk!

she’s... making bubbles. from her body

they’re floating over to the last bad guy

and they popped in his eyes and he’s screaming “my eyes!!!”

are these... are these just normal bubbles

I don’t really get it but hey! at least it’s not centipede arms!

so she’s restraining the dude and telling the others to go on ahead

and down they go. off to the garden of madness

except that almost immediately they’ve come to a dead end??

this doesn’t look like a normal quirk though. maybe someone has a wall-building quirk? similar to what Cementoss has?

(ETA: this is most definitely Overhaul’s reassembly quirk)

anyway, Mirio says he’ll take a look

oh my god. I finally get to see just how Mirio deals with immediately shedding his elaborate costume and then having to put the whole thing back on again later

oh snap

WELL ISN’T THAT FUCKING CONVENIENT. OKAY THEN

so if Mirio can have a costume that phases with his quirk, why can’t Hagakure have one woven out of her hair that turns invisible along with her? is it just because Horikoshi is a pervert. okay then

(ETA: I’m not even gonna bother getting into this anymore, but just know that I am rolling my eyes at this obnoxious fucking mangaka so damn hard)

anyway, so Mirio’s taking a peek and then reporting back that the path up ahead is exactly like Nighteye described. he says the wall is very thick though

oh, riiiiight

I keep forgetting about the “reassemble” part of Overhaul’s quirk

oh well. time to bust a wall

lol, FG and Static are like, “whoa”

I think this is the first nice thing Static has said about any of the kids

oh shit. now there’s something else happening

the floor is getting all weird and uneven? like it’s getting all warped somehow

um

well this is. annoying

(ETA: actually, “annoying” is the mildest, nicest, most undeservedly polite way possible to put it)

my god I hope none of them is claustrophobic. or ends up being claustrophobic after this, because I sure wouldn’t blame them

the head police guy says this has to be Irinaka’s quirk. that’s the HQ chief

so wait, is that the little guy from chapter 132 who made an arm grow out of his head??

and it doesn’t even sound like they’re sure it’s him

although FG points out that if he got all doped up on quirk enhancers, this isn’t outside the realm of possibility

oh snap! it is him!

oh my god. “I’m not on the ship. I’m in the ship. I am the ship”

LMAO at Fat Gum though

what kind of pathetic excuse for a pro hero can’t even predict that a guy is going to turn into a basement

he’s asking Aizawa if he can erase the quirk, but Aizawa says he can’t without being able to see the quirk users’s body

hold up, does this mean illusionists would be immune to Aizawa’s quirk?? because that is some bullshit. (which I now really want to see)

Amajiki seems like he’s starting to psych himself out here. he’s muttering out loud that if the path keeps changing, they’ll never reach their goal, and the enemy can easily get away

oh shit, it seems like he’s starting to get overwhelmed...?

hey, hey. easy there bud. you guys got this

OH SNAP MIRIO TO THE RESCUE

what a manly dude coming to the rescue of his bro who was starting to freak out. I love Mirio so much

ahhhhhhh he says he can still go on ahead as long as he knows the right direction

ahhhhhhhh I’m suddenly so fucking worried?!?! HE’S SO BRAVE AND I’M TERRIFIED FOR HIM

SON OF A BITCH HE JUST TOOK OFF JUST LIKE THAT BEFORE THEY COULD STOP HIM

oh my god. in the first place, isn’t he blind whenever he uses his quirk? don’t all of his senses disappear? so he can keep pressing forward, but like what happens if he turns the quirk off because he thinks he’s made it through, only he hasn’t made it through? because this isn’t an illusion, as far as I understand it; the Mimic guy is actually warping the passageway

oh my god. forget just the characters; I’m going to end up becoming claustrophobic at this rate

(ETA: yeah this still nopes me out thinking about it. Mirio’s definitely braver than I am, that’s for sure)

but at the very least, Mirio bravely pressing forward seems to have snapped Amajiki out of it

hey guys, guess who ships the shit out of these two now btw. yeah that’s right. me that’s who

so Mimic is thinking that he can’t stop Mirio, but that even if he does make it through, “he won’t be able to do a thing by himself”

idk about that. you should’ve seen what this freak of nature did to almost the entirety of class 1-A in a matter of seconds. while naked no less

wait. this is starting to sound a bit eyebrow-raising. I promise you it was a g-rated beatdown though

oh snap, Mimic is warping the ground and dumping all of the important characters deeper into the basement while closing up the path back up

well that’s nice. so now they’re all sealed up in this death chamber. cool. that’s cool

not that I want it to happen, but a part of me is wondering why Mimic hasn’t just crushed them all yet if he has control over this entire basement

so are they purposely trying to keep them alive? is it to avoid as much legal trouble as possible? are they hoping that if they just incapacitate them, Overhaul can later use his quirk to wipe their memories like he did with that Tarantino gang?

incidentally, every now and then I wonder to myself why someone as intensely rational as Aizawa would keep his hair so long and not just cut it short or tie it back to keep it out of his way. and then panels like this come along and it’s just, “oh yeah, because it’s hot”

(ETA: but ain’t it the truth)

so yeah, they’ve landed in this pit and now here’s some more bad guys!

literally all they have to do is have Aizawa incapacitate them with his quirk one by one and have Deku or Kiri punch them. the rest can sit back and take it easy

(ETA: the fact that they refuse to follow this most sensible of plans throughout the entire arc is one of the more frustrating things about it)

oh snap, but it looks like someone else is finally ready to jump into action after seeing his boyfriend disappear down the enchanted hallway of doom

WELL SHIT, LET’S FUCKING DO THIS THEN. TIME TO EAT SOME SUNS

also. that flashback panel though. that was a middle school uniform. these two have known each other since childhood just like Kacchan and Deku. omggggg

AND MIRIO USED TO HAVE A FUCKING PONYTAIL. TALK ABOUT A 180 DEGREE STYLE CHANGE. NIGHTEYE THIS IS YOUR DOING, DON’T LIE

BONUS:

glad to see the minds that brought us the yaoyorictionary and ochachakaleg are back at it again

so what exactly is the point of the lemilliohelm. I don’t get it. “it was designed so he could put it on quickly and then inevitably have it fall off again almost immediately”

consider my interest piqued at the mention of him being rescued by a hero in the past, though! I went back just now and looked at his flashback in chapter 152, and yeah! now that you mention it!

also! BnHA kids really need to be more careful on flashback bridges because those things are slippery as fuck

so can we get a name for this guy who saved him and inspired him to become a hero, then? I’m super curious about him now

[iamvegorott]

New Form Chapter 1

A friend has been begging for an Anti story, welp, looks like I’m giving it a go. 

Summary: Jack's just eating breakfast when everyone tells him about some horrible things he did last night. Everything begins to go insane when a glitchy-demon decides to take over and live his life. 

Take Over

Jack was sitting in his room, eating breakfast while watching a YouTube video of his friend Felix. He chuckled at one point and took another bite of his bagel when his phone buzzed. Jack clapped off the crumbs from his hands before checking his phone, brows raising as he read the text message from Signe.

Jack, are you okay?

Jack was going to respond when he got another text.

You really scared me last night.

Last night? What happened last night? Jack had stayed at home and went to bed early for once in his life. Jack had started texting when his Skype started beeping. It was Mark.

“Give me a second I’m-”

“Dude, what the actual fuck were you on last night!?” Mark snapped, scaring Jack a little.

“Um...sleep?” Jack pressed ‘send’ on his phone.

“Seriously, Jack, you were acting like a major dick.” Jack saw that Bob was calling as well.

“You need to apologize to Wade,” Bob said the moment his face popped up on Jack’s screen.

“What?” Jack tilted his head, completely lost.

“What you did was totally uncalled for.” Bob continued.

“Do you really not remember?” Mark asked when he saw the genuine confusion on Jack’s face. “I had a sound recording of it, give me a sec’.” Mark started clicking and Jack’s phone buzzed again.

We need to talk about what you did. I’ll be over soon.

“I sent it to the chat,” Mark said. Jack clicked on the audio link and felt his heart drop as he listened.

“Would you just shut the fuck up!? Seriously, man, you’re so Goddamn annoying! How the fuck does anyone put up with your ass!?”

Jack was stunned. That was him, that was his voice, but he couldn’t remember saying that or think of a reason that would make him snap at Wade like that unless it was faked for a joke and even then it wouldn’t sound so harsh.

“There’s more than that, but I think you get the point,” Mark stated.

“I don’t remember...how could I…” Jack rubbed his head. How could he be so cruel? To Wade? Wade was his friend. Jack’s throat closed up a little when he saw that Wade was now calling. “Wade, I’m so sorry for what I said last night, I don’t know what came over me and I would never mean it, I-”

“I don’t care about that, what I care about is what you said to Signe during her live stream.” Wade sent a video to the chat. Jack swallowed thickly before clicking ‘play’, fearing the worst.

He saw the Signe was drawing, her face in the corner of the screen and the chat on the other side. She looked happy, she was having fun and was talking about the drawing she was doing when her phone started ringing.

“Oh, it’s Jack.” Signe said with a large smile while the chat exploded with heart emojis and ‘aw’s. “I’ll put him on speaker.” Signe giggled and pressed a button on her phone. “Hey, Jack.”

“Hey, bitch.” Jack’s voice said in a teasing tone over the phone.

“Jack?” Signe blinked in shock. That was not how they usually greeted each other over the phone, joking or not. “Jack, I’m live-streaming and-”

“Tell those little fucks I say ‘hi’.” Jack laughed.

“You’re on speaker,” Signe said through gritted teeth.

“Sweet! Let me tell them how much I love your little round ass.”

“Sean!”

“What!? It’s a nice ass!” Signe didn’t respond and only hung up the phone before ending the stream, obviously very upset.

“I didn’t do that!” Jack protested when the clip finished.

“Were you drunk last night?” Wade asked.

“No! I told you, I went to bed early, I didn’t yell at Wade and I wasn’t inappropriate on Signe’s stream!” Jack leaned back and covered his face with his hands, trying to make sense of this. “Great, now what!?” He snapped when his phone buzzed again, seeing that it was a message from Robin.

Alright, the weird glitchy stuff was funny the first few times, now it’s just getting weird.

“Glitchy stuff? What glitchy stuff?” Jack asked out loud as he typed his response.

“I think you might need to take a break, Jack,” Mark said.

“A break? What are you talking about? I’m fine.” Jack was really starting to get annoyed. If this was a prank that everyone was trying to pull on him, now would be a great time to stop.

“Dude, clearly something is getting to your head if you’re not remembering anything. Stress might be getting to ya.” Bob said.

“This is probably the most relaxed I’ve been all year. I’m not overly-stressed.” Jack started to rub at his temple. What was going on? A knock on the door made Jack flinch a little in shock. “That’s probably Singe. I promise I’m fine. I’ll call you guys later.” Jack said before ending the Skype call and getting up, heading for his front door.

“Jack? Are you home?” Signe called out. Jack saw that she was standing in the doorway, not fully entering until he said she could. It took everything in his being not to just hug her and sweep her off her feet. She was not happy with him and doing something like that was probably not the best at the moment.

“Hey…” Jack scratched the back of his head as Signe walked into his home, anger clear on her face.

“I’m taking all of your alcohol,” Signe stated, passing by Jack.

“Wait, why?” Jack asked, following Signe.

“I don’t want last night to happen again.”

“I wasn’t drunk.”

“Like hell, you weren’t!” Signe faced Jack when she yelled, her anger pulling at Jack’s heart. “You don’t act like that, you must have been drunk and if you weren’t…” Signe just shook her head and continued on.

“Signe, please.” Jack jumped in front of his girlfriend and held out his hands. “I swear I wasn’t drunk last night.”

“Then is that the real you, Sean?” Signe crossed her arms. “What you said last night wasn’t even that bad, you could have said so much worse, but it was still terrible. That was not the Jack I know, that’s not the Jack I love, if that is who Jack is clean and sober, then I don’t want to be with him.”

“That wasn’t me.” Jack felt his throat close up as Signe’s eyes began to water up.

“Then who was it? Did someone take your phone and have the ability to sound just like you?” Signe took several steps away from Jack.

“I don’t know. But I do know that I would never say something like that.” Jack cupped his hands on Signe’s cheeks and felt his heart shatter when Signe pushed them away.

“I’m not so sure at the moment.” Signe started to walk away. “I thought I needed to talk to you, but I think I need some time to myself.”

“Don’t go.” Jack pleaded. Signe didn’t say anything and kept walking. “Signe, Signe, please,” Jack begged while following Signe to the front door, stopping when she left, never looking back at him. “Signe…” He didn’t go any further, there was nothing he could do right now. What could he say? Clearly, he did something wrong but had no memory of it. Maybe he did need a break.

Jack returned to his desk and pushed his bagel aside, no longer hungry. Jack remembered that Robin said something was glitchy with his recordings, maybe he should check those out and see if he could fix them. After several clicks, he found his newest recording. Jack pulled up Tumblr while he was waiting for the long video to load, hoping to see something funny or supportive...why did he think that was a good idea? It was post after post of Jack being crude on Signe’s live stream. People questioning if he was fake or if he was a genuine person and every single post made Jack feel worse and worse.

He let out a harsh curse and decided that he needed to say something about this, he couldn’t let this ride out on its own or it’d only get worse. Jack sent out a quick tweet and started a live video on YouTube. He watched as people joined the chat, all asking questions about last night or why he was suddenly streaming.

“Hey guys, this, as you can obviously tell, is not a normal stream.” Jack read a few comments in the chat. “Yeah, last night was...something. Listen, that wasn’t me. There is no way that could have been me, I’m not that kind of-Jesus!” Jack flailed in shock when he suddenly heard himself talking loudly through his screen. “Sorry, sorry. I had a video loading and forgot about it.” Jack pulled the video back up on his screen, it unseen by his viewers. “Let me just…the fuck?” The video was glitching out, he could see himself twitching madly. “I guess my footage has been getting corrupted or something.” Jack raised a brow when he saw that his chat was freaking out. “Look out? Look out for what?” Jack turned around and just saw his room. “There’s nothing there...no, I’m not pranking you guys...a knife...” Jack checked his camera and saw something behind him...he saw him. He stopped moving when there was suddenly something on his throat and over his eyes. He felt a cold object slide across his throat before everything went black.

“Did it work?” The man who now stood over Jack’s body asked, looking at his hands. “Can you hear me?” He said into the camera, watching the chat and seeing that he could indeed be heard. “Great.” The man flashed a sharp-toothed smile. “Call me Anti and I won’t be seeing you, in the next video.” Anti laughed before going off screen.

[stressedoutteenager]

Uhm halla i loved your youtube!au for yousana and your writing in general could we get a sequel maybe about the fact that people are still annoyed at sana and they look stuff up about her like what happened at Urra and sending her and her friends hate (fangirls be wild lmao look at tumblr) and the boys trying to figure how they are supposed to deal with it because if yousef and sana weren't dating that is still elias baby sister,,, so yeah pretty please 🙏🏽🙏🏽

Hey :)Thank you for your prompt! 

Before you read this I want to say that I know that this topic is something very serious and I hope I handled this in a good, or okay, way. If I didn’t and something bothers you, please tell me and I’ll change it. I also didn’t write down any of the hurtful messages Sana reads because it might upset some people.

So here it is; please let me know what you think!

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Part II of this Balloon Squad as famous Youtubers AU.

(The parts between the dotted lines are comments Sana reads.)

There were only afew limited times the boys have seen Sana cry. Even when they were younger shewouldn’t cry in front of them. Even then she didn’t like to lookweak. 

So when Adam, out of all people, walksin on Sana crying he is overwhelmed. He can’t remember when the last time wasthat he saw her cry or if he has ever seen her cry. He just wanted to ask herif she had a waterproof pen for their next video and forgot to knock on herdoor before bursting in. He usually forgot to knock but her door was not lockedeither.

He froze in his spot but once Sana turnsaround, and he sees her smudged make-up, he instinctively walks towards her.She is sitting on her bed, facing the window.

“Sana, is everything okay? Wait,stupid question. What happened?" 

Sana doesn’t look at him and hides herface in her hands. Usually, when Adam says something stupid like that, Sanawould answer sarcastically and they would end up bantering for a while. But nowSana’s shoulders are shaking and she doesn’t look at Adam. He is overwhelmed,to say the least. 

"Sana, how can I help? Hey,whatever it is, it’s going to be fine.”, Adam is crouching in front of herbut is not sure what the right move is. His heart breaks seeing her like this.He wants to see the confident, sarcastic girl that he loves like a sister. Heknows how to deal with her. Adam reaches out slowly and puts a hand on her kneeto sooth her somehow. She doesn’t react and he honestly doesn’t know how tohelp.

He is very glad when he hears the restof the boys come down the hall and sees Elias and Yousef stand at the door.

“Dude, you only had to ask for apen. What’s up?”, Yousef says, without realizing what is happening at thesame time in the room. The boys wouldn’t let Yousef go get the pen because hewouldn’t have come back for a while. 

Elias and Yousef realize that Sana iscrying at the exact same time and both enter the room. 

“Adam, what did you do?”,Elias immediately asks even though he knows that Adam would never intentionallydo anything to hurt Sana.

Adam just shakeshis head, eyes wide, and doesn’t even know how to answer. With that both,Yousef and Elias, know that Adam didn’t do anything. He would have reacted alot different if he did. Yousef makes a move to go to Sana but Elias puts ahand on his shoulder and shakes his head at his best friend. 

He is Sana’s brother and whatever madeher cry would need to be dealt with by him. Elias ushers Adam out of the roomand quickly goes to sit next to his sister. Sana doesn’t cry often. Seeing hersob, shoulders shaking makes Elias’ gut twist.

“Sana.”, is all he has to sayfor her to look up. As soon as she hears the voice of her brother she loses itcompletely. She buries her face in her older brother’s chest as he embraces herin a tight hug. She is sobbing and Elias feels like he needs to go punchsomething, or someone. Whoever made his baby sister cry like this. A lump formsin his throat and all he can do for a while is hold his sister.

Yousef is just standing there, frozen.Seeing Sana like this makes his heart ache and not knowing why she is in thissituation makes it even worse. As soon as his eyes fell on her, crying, hewanted to rush over to her. But he also knew that him being her boyfrienddoesn’t mean he’ll be the one she needs right now, not if her brother isthere. 

He watches how Elias hugs her tightlyand knows that he can’t do anything. It’s hard to leave the room and not beingable to do anything but he decides that the siblings need their time alone. Hecloses the door to Sana’s bedroom slowly and sees Adam, Mikael and Muttawaiting in the hallway.

“What happened?”, Mikael asks.

Yousef just shakes his head, with asinking feeling in his stomach: “I don’t know. Elias is with her.”

While the three of them go back to theliving room, Yousef can’t bring himself to do the same. He paces back and forthin the hallway.

Elias hugs and lets Sana cry for awhile. He doesn’t want to push her to tell him everything now. Finally, aftermany sobs and tears, Sana looks up at her brother. Her chin still quivering.She wipes away the tears with the back of her hands. 

Elias searches her face for any signs,anything that gives away why she is crying like this. Sana takes a few deepbreathes and tries to say something but every time she chokes on her tears.Elias reaches out and strokes her arms in a calming manner. 

“I ruined your shirt.”, arethe first things Sana says. She had wiped all her make-up on her brother’swhite t-shirt. 

“Screw the shirt, Sana. Whathappened?” Elias can’t stand to see his sister like this. His babysister. 

Sana looks him in the eyes for a secondand then at her hands. 

“It feels like back at Urra.”,she mumbles. Still, Elias hears every single word and his blood starts boiling.He only has to hear ‘Urra’ from Sana’s mouth and he sees black. She hassuffered so much in middle school. She didn’t deserve that. 

“What feels like that?”, Eliasasks and braces himself. If it wasn’t for Sana he would be freaking out now.And trying to find whoever made his little sister feel so horrible.

Sana waits for a second. Should she showthis to her brother? He would just get mad but wouldn’t be able to do anythingabout it. But she needs to talk about this with someone. From the past sheknows that bottling up only makes it worse. She unlocks her phone and hands itto Elias.

“They have screenshots of stufffrom even back then. And the stuff with Sara, but all of that was deleted longtime ago. How did they even find it?”, Sana tears up again and can’tcontrol her tears. Why can’t she ever escape that? Is she not worth forgettingthe horrible times she had being bullied? Why do these people do that to hernow? They don’t even know her personally.

Elias reads through the screenshots, butonly shortly. Then he clicks back and sees that these pictures are on a twitteraccount with a username that definitely shows that this is a fan-account forHei Briskeby. But the content of this account is all hate. Not towards theboys, no. Towards Sana. Not only do they have screenshots of horrible thingsbeing said about Sana on the Internet from the past. They also write a lot ofnasty things themselves. Attacking Sana for being with Yousef, being in the HeiBriskeby videos and even judging her and saying she is a bad Muslim. 

Elias, rage-filled, stands up and feelslike he needs to shout or do something. He needs to do something about it. Hecan’t let this happen to his sister, especially when it’s indirectly his fault.If it wasn’t for his YouTube channel she wouldn’t be exposed to this now. Hetakes a deep breath, rubs his eyes and turns around to his sister. Sana issitting there, tears rolling down her cheeks and his heart breaks oncemore. 

He kneels in front of her and wipes awayher tears. “Sana, please don’t cry. It’s not worth it. These people justdon’t have anything better to do with their lives, you are so much better thanany of them. I promise you I will do something about this. This can’t behappening. You didn’t do anything remotely wrong here.”

Sana shakes her head: “Elias, I’llget over it. It’s okay. It all just got overwhelming for a moment. But thosepeople are your fans. What are you going to do? Some of your fans are just madthat I’m with Yousef.”

“I don’t claim those people as ourfans! I don’t care! This..”, he lifts Sana’s phone which is still in hishand. “… is far more than just commenting that they wouldn’t like youand him together. This is far more. They’re getting real personal! We’ll dosomething. If you weren’t Yousef’s girlfriend you are still my baby sister andwould still be in our videos, in our lives. I won’t just sit around and donothing when this happens to you.”

Ten minutes later the boys and Sana sitin the living room. Elias standing in front of them like the leader he is.Aside from that he took it upon himself to find a solution to this. 

“Elias, it’s okay. I’ll deal withit on my own.”, Sana says, desperate for him to listen by now.

He is set on doing something but Sanacan’t imagine anything that he does being worth it and changing anything. Atleast changing the situation for the better.

“Sana, this is not okay. And you’renot on your own and don’t have to deal with it on your own.”, Yousefobjects. He is sitting next to her, hand intertwined with hers. 

“It’s not a big deal! I can manage!Stuff like that happens.”, Sana says and is not sure if she is trying toconvince the boys or herself. 

Adam who has been weirdly quiet thiswhole time speaks up. “Sana, it is a big deal. You know, I don’t think Ihave seen you cry, ever! And crying is nothing bad but for you to cry it has tobe a lot!”

“Plus, this..”, Mikael liftshis own phone. Elias has given them all the name of the account to report andthey will try to contact someone from Twitter later to get it removed instantly.Mikael is the best with computers so he’ll try to see if there are otheraccounts like that, specifically made to spread hate. “… isunacceptable. They spend their time trying to hurt you and you’re not even aYouTuber yourself.”

“We get hate, too. It happens.Doesn’t make it right but it happens.”, Mutta says, “But this ishonestly a whole another level.”

“And you’re not even a publicfigure! You shouldn’t be afraid of hanging out with us, with your friends, yourbrother or your boyfriend because people might write something bad.”,Elias concludes all of it.

Sana sighs and stands up, lettingYousef’s hand fall out of her own: “Guys, it’ll only get worse if you tryto do something about it. I know what I’m talking about! You shouldn’t get in aconflict with your fans because of me.”, she stops for a second butdoesn’t give any of the boys a chance to say something before she continues.“You see now why I never cry around you?”, she says and quickly runsout of the room. All of them stand up at the same time and Yousef is ready tosprint after her. Again, Elias stops him.

“Dude, what the hell? Let me gotalk to her!”, Yousef almost shouts at his best friend. Yousef is not likethis, ever. But seeing Sana obviously hurt and not being able to do anything isthe worst feeling he has experienced. 

And Elias knows this. That’s why hedoesn’t say anything about that. Instead he says: “Yousef, I know. But Iknow my sister better than anyone here and she needs a little time to calmdown. She isn’t this open with many people. It took a lot of her to even tellus about this!”

All of the boys nod, including Yousef.He sighs and turns to his friends.

“Okay, what are we going todo?”

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Turns out this one was the only accountthat is dedicated to make Sana miserable. Thank God. What the boys did mightnot be much. And having one account like this might not seem like much but hatespreads fast, especially when people are misinformed or not informed atall. 

Sana finding this account wasn’t acoincidence either. It was send to her by people that wanted her to see allthose hateful comments. 

Neither of the boys would just sitaround and not do anything to stop that. When they started their YouTubechannel they didn’t think it would get this big. So big that it affects theirfamily and friends. It’s not okay that people think it would be okay to sendhate to anyone, really. But sending it to someone just because she is thegirlfriend of someone they like a lot, that’s wrong on so many levels.

Yousef knocks on Sana’s door. He canhear loud music coming from her room but she still somehow hear his knock.Turning the music down, she shouts: “Who is it?”

“Me, Yousef.”

Yousef has left her alone for the oneand a half hours the guys tried to do at least something. Now, he can’t take itanymore. He needs to see if she’s alright.

Sana opens the door, her face bare ofany make-up now. She lets Yousef in and closes the door behind them. As soon asshe turns around she wraps her arms around his neck and hugs him close. Hedoesn’t waste anytime embracing her in the hug.

“I’m sorry for going off at youearlier.”, Sana mumbles into the crook of his neck. 

Yousef leans back a little to look athis girlfriend. She genuinely looks sad about that. He chuckles lightly andmakes Sana look at him confused. 

“Sana, are you honestly sad aboutthat, right now? It’s cool, really.”, Yousef explains why he laughed. It amazeshim how she can be this caring even after being in such a bad mood, for goodreason as well.

They go to sit down on the bed and Sanaleans her head on his shoulder. She probably never has been this happy that herparents aren’t home. If they got wind of this whole drama they would be worriedsick and she really doesn’t want that.

“Yousef, I was being honest. Youguys shouldn’t do anything about this. It’s just some coward hiding behind ascreen.”, Sana starts. 

Then she takes a deep breath and continues:“It just hit me pretty hard in that moment because … well, I told youabout Urra. It just felt like I was back in middle school and being bullied forsomething that I won’t choose to change. I didn’t choose to take off my hijabthen and I’m not choosing breaking up with you or taking off my hijab 'becauseI’m not a good enough Muslim’ now.” The last part Sana says in a mockingway.

Yousef turns his head a little andkisses the top of Sana’s head. 

“I envy how strong you are.”,Yousef says. Sana’s head shoots up and she smiles at him lovingly.

“But..”, Yousef continues andSana narrows her eyes at him. “You don’t have to face everything alone.You have me, Elias, the boys, your girl friends. We’re all here, anytime.”

Sana presses her lips together, tryingnot to tear up again. She just nods and leans her head back onto his shoulder.

They sit in silence, comforting silence,for a few minutes. Until Yousef can’t wait any longer.

“Okay, before you get mad. Pleaselisten first.”, Yousef announces the change of topic. At this point in theday Sana is too tired to even give him a big reaction. She nods and waits forhim to talk.

“We know that we can’t control theInternet but the guys and I have reported that account, which seemed to be theonly one of that sort, and also tweeted out for our actual fans to do the same.Which so many did that that account has already been deleted.”, Yousefexplains and waits for a reaction from Sana. She doesn’t say or do anything atfirst. She only listens and finally lifts her head off his shoulder and looksat him.

Sana looks him in the eyes and smiles alittle. Even this small smile makes Yousef’s heart burst with excitement. Eventhe smallest smile from Sana is better than her blocking him and everyone elseoff.

“Thank you.”, she simply saysand hopes he understands how much it means to her. And he does. He knows.

“That’s not all.”, Yousef sayswith a smirk.

Sana just raises her eyebrows at him.She really isn’t ready for a surprise today. She won’t be able to take it, she’sexhausted.

Yousef takes out his phone from hispocket. Before he unlocks it, he looks into Sana’s eyes again while telling herthe rest of the story.

“Like I told you, we all tweetedfor our fans to report that account, which they did.” Sana nods. That hehas said already. “Well, that’s not all our fans did.”

He unlocks his phone and hands it toSana. She knows that he wouldn’t show her more hurtful things but it takes hera few second to be able to look at the screen. Yousef just watched her with asmall smile.

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“ Why would anyone spend so much oftheir time doing something so stupid? That’s so stupid AAAHH”

“Wait!! There are people who don’tlike Sana?? How? Why? I want her to be in your videos all the time!”

“omg, please tell Sana that thosepeople who created that account are just cowards that don’t represent the HeiBriskeby fans at all! I’m so sad for her.”

“I’ll fight anyone that hates onthat precious cute girl! Honestly, WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE???”

“I hope Elias’ sister is notaffected by this bullshit. it wouldn’t be worth it.”

“Do people not understand that YouTubersare not their viewers’ property??? WTF?! Honestly, that is so stupid! That poorgirl!”

“Oh God, I hopethat Sana doesn’t care about any of that! None of that is true. Ignore that,girl!”

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Sana and Yousefleave her room to join the rest of the boys in the living room. But they don’tneed to walk that far. As soon as Sana opens the door her eyes fall on the fourboys. All standing at the wall across from her door, in a line. When she opensthe door, they all push themselves off the wall and look at her expectantly.

“Thank you.”, is all Sana saysbefore hugging them all one by one. Well, that was the plan.

Adam is the first one in the line sohe’s the one getting a hug first.

“Sorry that you saw mecrying.”, Sana whispers in his ear and hears him laugh.

“Sorry that I didn’t know how toreact.”, Adam whispers back and makes Sana laugh.

When they part from the hug they justsmile at each other, both coming to an agreement to not talk about thisanymore. Ever.

Then she hugs Mikael but Mutta can’twait for his turn and joins them, making it a group hug. When Elias sees thathe is quick to join the group hug, same as Yousef and Adam. And Sana issquished in the middle of it. 

Well, maybe she really doesn’t have toface everything alone. She has people in her life that care for her deeply.

[sorayahigashikata]

Chapter 90: "LIKE A COCKROACH."