#another breakdown no one asked for

[kiekiecarrera]

“Don’t ever do that again” Rudy pankow how dare you pull off such a soft im sorry face. JJ realised in that exact moment kiara really does care. Crying 😭 https://twitter.com/kiiebailey/status/1638691656005214214?s=46&t=_D7fZV0T1iOtwwqM0INzQA

this trend of editing the what do i got scene back to back with the me scene is gonna send me to an early grave anon IT'S INSANE.

In other news, I'm feeling extra feral about the don't ever do that scene today, so you're about to get another breakdown, because Rudy and Maddie really were on something else that day.

Like, this Maddie look is actually insane because it's relief but also disbelief and lowkey she doesn't really trust that he's really there? Like she was so sure he was done for, and almost bracing herself to find a body, and he's just walking about bragging about it.

Like, it gets worse when she realizes that because not only is he alive when she thought he was dead only seconds ago, but he's actually making light of the situation. She thought she lost him, and she didn't, but he's bragging like it would've been fine either way, and it really wouldn't have been for her. Maddie knocked it out of the part here, like you can actually see how terrified she is, and the labored breathing is something else.

And the problem is JJ doesn't even realize at first, because when he turns to her he's still expecting the same mildly impressed and relieved reaction from her (and affection, which Lara already touched on).

But she's literally about to cry from relief but also fear of what just happened, and that's when it starts to hit him.

His face here is actually insane. This lighting doesn't help either, but Rudy's micro-expressions, and how he goes from indifference to realization to guilt.

And the tiny nod he does when she tells him don't do it again, which is not exactly a promise, but there's an understanding there now that wasn't there before. That hey actually if something happens to him, she's not going to be okay. Which creates a new problem for him, because this whole self-sabotaging JJ's doing in the first place is because he doesn't think he deserves her and he wants the best for her (which is his head is never him), so there's kind of a new conflict for him there because suddenly for Kie to be okay, he has to be okay too.

I wish they didn't get interrupted so fast and that we could've had this moment be just a tiny bit longer, but the fact that when the cops call out to them, they both instantly reach out for eachother????? no it literally makes me want to do something so drastic.

time to go lie down in a dark room

[cubbihue]

What does Timmy think of his little brother Peri growing up to have a neurotic personality?

Peri's always had severe anxiety. It sorta comes with being the first baby born in a 1000 years and constantly being kidnapped by everyone around you.

Timmy's just glad Peri grew up to be more confident in himself, and more assertive.

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[starflungwaddledee]

offering three cookies 🍪🍪🍪

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[lovesickeros]

lord its so dark in here the sahara desert of tsaritsa content you are like a shining oasis. your characterisation of her compels me & mihoyo would be hard pressed to top it imo.!! caaaaan i humbly request yr thoughts on her first meeting w a reader of any kind, or maybe even multiple kinds (sagau, sagau god au, isekai, etc) if you so desire...

it really is like a desert here. being the fan of a character we aren't getting until the last damn nation is driving me up a wall but i will persevere bc if nothing else i support morally bankrupt women in media. we r in a severe drought over here but i do my best. unfortunately nothing i say is ever coherent so pull out your translation notes its abt 2 be messy

also this got out of hand but thats bc first meetings w the tsaritsa are tricky to write + a LOT of her characterization lies in deeper exploration then just surface level yknow...NOT A DIG AT YOU this is just my excuse for rambling. gently pats the tsaritsa she can hold so much complexity i do not have the word count to delve into it completely :]

gonna talk cult au for a bit here though because that's 99% of my content. and honestly? she thrives in sub au's of the cult au like villain au + imposter au. it's basically made for her. i mean, early days, the imposter au had been going around for a little while but one of the first few ideas was the Fatui taking reader in so like. it kinda technically actually was. pretty sure cult au Tsaritsa popped up because of the imposter au. a lot of it's writers kinda left though which. man am i getting old or.

anyway.

there isn't much of a chance her first impression is all that positive. at best it's usually neutral, imo, but rarely if ever positive. specifically because i view the Tsaritsa as someone who isn't as fanatical as most of the acolytes typically are towards the creator. she's not exactly going to worship the ground you walk on unlike a certain geo lizard. which is partially why i think she thrives in the sub au's i mentioned.

imposter au, for example. she meets you at your lowest. there's no gaudy extravagance or pampering from the acolytes waiting for you because your own acolytes have turned on you. for all intents and purposes you aren't a "god" at all. which is why i don't think she meshes well with normal cult au reader. the Fatui are made up of outcasts, basically, and imposter au slots right in just perfectly. you're weak, at your lowest, when you meet the Fatui in the imposter au. and the Fatui can help you, too.

a mutual exchange, really. the Tsaritsa sees a tool she can use to one up the rest of the nations and especially Archons, and she has no qualms about you using her and the Fatui in turn. you both want something out of it, after all. whether you just want to be safe from the rest of the acolytes, or you want revenge, or whatever else..she'll give you the power to fulfill it, and she gains the strongest piece on the chessboard when all is said and done.

the best way i can describe the first meeting is "practical", i suppose. she sees an opportunity in you. the ultimate gamble. because if she "saves" you, and you dont trust anyone else because they tried to kill you, well..she holds all the cards, doesn't she?

but the Tsaritsa, imo, is just as capable of being just as fanatical towards you as anyone else. she just won't worship you as the creator. but as yourself? clawing your way back to your divine power and taking back what belongs to you? the Tsaritsa is, to me, a character who's character flourishes in long-term fics more because she changes a LOT between "just met reader" and after having been with reader for some time. she's practically apathetic at the beginning but a lot of her character, in my characterization, shines through LONG after the first meeting.

[shima-draws]

Been having a rough couple of days. Send me asks?

[boarprinceofdelusion]

Recognizing Early Signs of Mental Illness

[im-sorry-what-ii]

Currently being so emotional over Mav and pink floyds Learning to fly

[elias-magnussy]

are you...like...okay? i know very little about you but what i do know gives me cause for concern. mostly cause you seem evil.

Am I okay as in, am I doing well? Yes, I am having a swell evening.

Am I okay as in, am I someone who can behave normally in society and who isn't a deviant freak from the deepest chasms of hell? I'm afraid no.

Am I okay as in, am I a good person? Absolutely not. Get rid of that notion right away.

Am I okay as in, am I not a hugely predictable man falling yet again for walking red flags? Afraid that's not very much the case either.

Feel free to ignore whatever your question didn't pertain to.

[chokherbalii]

sometimes i wish i could disappear :(

[averlym]

Can you do prompt 34 for araleyn?

no.34, gen: "you look happy" //sometimes i think too much about dlyh

[imperpetuallylost]

kinda crazy but…

im gay for you

:o no way i’m also gay for u <3

[ialwaysknewyouwerepunk]

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[pauls1967moustache]

Based off those photos alone I just know if Paul had ever taken naked photos of John it would literally be John lounging like a cat over beds and chaise lounge’s a la rose in titanic lol. Or in a state of dressing/undressing.

absolute yes to the dressing/undressing because he seems to like pictures of his loved ones grooming themselves lol. he seems to like photos of john where john's not really aware of him so like it'd be paul sneaking round the bathroom doorway, taking pics of john having a post-shag ciggie on the hotel bed. he gets john lying there with his head pillowed on his arm (wearing his glasses of course because did you know john wore glasses? seeing glasses reminds paul of john because john is the only person ever in paul's life who wore glasses!) and paul's trying to get like artsy shots of john's hands, and the smoke drifting from john's mouth. and then john notices him so when paul looks through the lens for another picture john waits patiently and makes a face just as the shutter goes off. so now paul's laughing, and paul's laugh makes john grin, gentle-eyed, and unguarded, all pleased with himself. and there's the best john of all--paul's favourite john--so paul takes another picture.

[hylianengineer]

You ever just feel your sanity starting to split at the seams?

And then look at the heap of stuff you still have to get through before you're allowed to rest and just... wonder how many breakdowns you're gonna have before you get a break?

[smallandalmosthonest]

watching my sister have a second kid in similar circumstances to how *i* was the second kid (unplanned but ‘we wanted two anyway’ even though the decision to have two was made before the first was born) is so gut-wrenching.

when my first nephew was born it was nonstop pictures and facetimes. my phone was blowing up with notifications of photos and videos, like ten or more a day (other than this my sister and i had basically no contact and hadn’t for years). and he had everyone’s full attention one hundred percent of the time. the whole turned on its axis around this kid.

and now there’s another baby and everyone is so worried about the first one suddenly having only 50% of the attention and all i can think of is that i have received one video and one photo of baby number two. he’s almost two months old, i had almost five hundred photos and videos of baby number one by two months.

and idk maybe it’s the fact that i’m getting older and realizing i’ll never outgrow being the least-favourite child and that i’ve cemented my place as the family disappointment but every time someone bemoans poor baby number one and how he’s having such a hard time going down to 50% of the attention all i can think of is how baby number two will only ever have 50% of it. that’s the most he’ll ever get.

[mystery-star]

Here goes my "a week without mental breakdowns" streak.

Aka the week in which my sister was on vacation. Now just the thoguht of her being back brought me to the Edge of one.

👏👏👏

(Don't get me wrong tho, I love my sis and she doesn't do the stuff on purpose but STILL)