#anws this song is so nostalgic

[nyuoqi]

everytime this song plays i bust out some moves

[cantalooprat]

Fanservice Paradox

What I Liked

hhhh the romance concept of pts and fjx is rly rly right up my alley, philosophy×mathematics with the core of "true self", it rly... rly ticks all my boxes. how do i describe itttt its like, its like... basically, the pursuit of truth is the most romantic of all lmao its like how i think that physics is inherently romantic, philosophy and math are like that too. basically. i love the abstract metaphors and the in-character but non-public knowledge allusions, they way they integrate and make parallels of each other in their own fields of study (moon of entelecheia, point on the number axis). ngl i didn't expect this kind of thing in my idol-setting showbiz wn.

i feel like pts and fjx rly embody the quote from Antoine de Saint-Exupéry, "Love does not consist of gazing at each other, but in looking outward together in the same direction". pts didnt hate fjx himself but hated how passive he seemed despite being at the eye of a storm of rumors, and fjx avoided him bc it’s his natural reaction to someone who doesn’t like him. but at the core they have similar values and outlooks in life, just different ways of going about in preserving them. so once the ice between them starts to melt into warmth, it's rly... fairly easy for them to fall for each other.

i love how zhichu wrote fjx. i feel like true socially awkward introverts r super rare in danmei-sphere. there r mostly taciturn ppl who don't like to speak (hello stoic cold mls) but they're not lacking in the social capability department. when i read abt fjx i lowkey think, wow, i feel like that too sometimes lmao. it's also nice that zhichu wrote how there r ppl who questioned if fjx has psychological problems and responded that there r ppl who r naturally more introverted, and ngl i'm guilty of thinking of that too, even though i myself am an extreme introvert and should have been able to understand and identify more w fjx sighs

ling yi is an entire precious disaster bb and yybl would not have been the same without him

tbh yybl brings back all the sweetest memories of my kpop stan days, reading it is like experiencing ur fav nugu group blow up into stardom. they even come w their own edgy boygroup title tracks lmao. hnn but yeah, there r so many memorable moments. the accidental cp fancam (exid's fancam that made them famous!), faulty audio that catapulted them to stardom (gfriend's infamous slipping performance when they danced on a wet stage?), fjx's mic box almost falling off and him saving it flawlessly (shinee's dream girl perf w minho's broken mic stand), their first win, their first concert... i cried reading the last 2 chapters abt their concert, it rly made me nostalgic. anw. the point is. stan kaleido.

night trip tho it became so meaningful im so shook, it was a drama ost n they described the scenes where the song was used n i got Goosebumps n then the hidden meaning of the lyrics was also revealed n how it's all referring to pts and fjx's love story sigh sigh sigh

ok ok ok but i can't not mention the absolutely beautiful imageries that kept being used to reference these two. from math to philosophy to the moon to spring/winter... they're fantastic, i love the beauty in the writing.

w a t e r f i r e im so! fukin!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! g o d that set of extras they're not even done yet n im so!!! ok i believe the audio drama team will rls daydream for waterfire they cant not rls daydream!! waterfire is s o . . . their sexual tension is off the charts n i was even like ho they have fwb vibes n then they actually became fwb n i was Still Shook like wtf me anw their romance is a whole different flavor compared to tingjue, they're like a more adult tianwang actually. he ziyan was like "mb im someone who cant keep someone else" n i had moumou war flashbacks. fak i had no clue waterfire is a thing in the main text, if it wasn't for other readers mentioning i'd rly have no idea. n then they have a set of extras just for them n i was like mygod... they can be their own wn... they rly have that vibe of "a relationship that wasn't quite complete when they were young, then they reunited x yrs later n finally get together" n like thats just moumou vibes adkfks

What I Disliked

the...pacing is kinda wack. tbh nearing the end of the story i was kind of tired of reading it, and not bc i'm bored (like for ghfod i was actually bored near the end). the ups and downs were just really... quite extreme. idk how to quite describe it, but it was tiring.

pts's attitude screams entitled a lot of the times. tbh he can't get away w most of the shit he does if he wasn't so rich. at least he's not a stoic ml ig

the author mentioned it too but it's def a v idealistic view of the entertainment industry. not rly a con but its also not rly a pro, but having come from kpop n seeing the netizen reactions for kaleido, i just think that they must be living in a much warmer, kinder parallel world compared to this one.

icb heartbeat paradox wasn't actually a song from the wn /unreasonable

Notes

would i read zhichu's other works? probably... i think their writing concepts and romantic philosophy is right up my alley, but the pacing of yybl rly did make me tired at the end lmao

[ugliy-moved]

finally rewatching cowboy beb.op wish me luck ,,

[idontwanttospoiltheparty]

I just listened to the Best Day (taylor's version) and :') I didn't like that song when I was a kid but I teared up. I think I like the more mature sound of her vocal now too though it's not much different. Anw feeling nostalgic about fearless and just wanted to share

Aww thanks for sharing anon :')

Just went back and listened myself. The second verse of that song really gets me, especially "I don't know who I'm gonna talk to now at school / But I know I'm laughing on the carride home with you" it just perfectly encapsulates the bittersweetness of finding some joy after something terrible's happened to you. Taylor loves her mom so much and it's one of the purest things on earth 😭💕

Generally, Fearless is lowkey a flawless album that perfectly encapsulates being a teenager. Everything just fits so well on it!!

[kjmsupremacist]

hii :” gma update was 🥺😔 not sure how i feel about it ! writing was pretty mf awesome as usual but dAmn those emotions really h i t i love what you’ve done with the language like i’m chinese and i didnt even know that shit (as in the bts post) so thats cool 🤧 anws was reading johnnys pov for the johnten (is superior) fic ! idk this song call mind reader by isabel wood js fits rly well to me :”

thank u hehe... i really lulled everyone into a feeling that gma was gonna be fun and sexy times only and now were all like OOOHH NOOO lmao... and I didn’t learn about it until recently even though I, too, am chinese and have been studying it since i was little LOL

i’m listening rn !! and it does fit. I love how gentle and sort of nostalgic the song is ^^ and yes... johnten gang gang i’ll prob be writing more of them in a separate universe from tmd/bid just cuz i love them hehe

[rvd444]

My Review about WINNER - EVERYD4Y (but hey i’m not a music expert):

1. EVERYDAY - The one who breaks the stereotype of autotune will ruin it but actual bop, bet the live version will be gold bc there wont have the electronic shit people complain about. Bold move using this as SINGLE TITLE SONG but hey it’s good. And I LOVE the background music / instrumental of this.

2. AIR - The other queen who deserve their own MV. I still don’t understand how YG only put 1 MV/Title track of this FULL album:/ anw this reminds me with late 00s western pop. Light and refreshing. Seriously, this and Everyday back to back won’t harm anything.

3. HELLO - (Raesungie vibeeee) They sound they really had fun recording this. Very expressive, so the contrast of every voice is really showing, like how Jinwoo sounds reallll smooth throughout the song while the other are L O U D;;

4. TURN OFF THE LIGHT - Another Mino’s sexy song, but with the ‘turn off’ context, (it reminds me with ‘Baby Goodnight’ vibe, like it and ‘Body’ had a child). You can feel the real conflicted feeling. Btw, the chorus is AWESOME.

5. LA LA - Already like it since 2 years ago. (FYI, for someone new for WINNER, Seungyoon’s basic genre is rock) Great lyrics, great melodies, also the current arrangement reminds me with Bigbang vibe. Anyway, glad they don’t bury this masterpiece deep down just because it was supposed to be in ...

6. FOR - The emotional track that I hate I always get emo every time I listen to this (with my current state, yeah). This feels very nostalgic. Like this could be 80s-90s song. Something that could be a Reply series OST. The hook though, the climax of the song when the vocal line went high, but then everything dropped down when the rap line come through.

7. WE WERE - This reminds me with 2NE1 vibe. The Korean title suits more ‘예뻤더라' (We were beautiful), so you can actually feel that the song is about reciting beautiful memories. (and my emo ass reminded with taehyun bc of 좋더라 and the lyrics was spot on, but nvm)

8. LUXURY - I LIKE THIS. This is such a fun song to begin with, musically also the lyrics. But also deliver such a deep meaning behind all of it. This reminds me with GD vibe (excuse me with all of these ‘vibe’s but tbh this actually describes the songs)

9. MOVIE STAR - I thought this would be hard for me to like it right away, but I was wrong. I like how the music actually builds up through the verses and the lyrics... Mino’s though... as a gif maker, ‘30 frames made up into 1 sec’ is a normal thing, but that actually hit hard in a gut, bc we know how precious those frames are.

10. SPECIAL NIGHT - I forgot which genre this is, y’kno that trendy 00s-early10s familiar sound. Personally the hardest one to catch. But the lyrics itself is cute.

11. RAINING - (The Japanese ver still stuck) I really thank WINNER to have these two released in Korean, and become my receipt for those ones who ‘wants old WINNER back’. I still like this instrumental track the best.

12. HAVE A GOOD DAY - (The Japanese ver still stuck part 2) The ending queen. For those of you who never listen to this, let me guide you: First, listen to this, doesn’t require proper focus or anything, good if you doesn’t know Korean. You may feel that the music and the title is actually different/unmatched. Second, listen to this with the translated lyrics. FEEL THE FEELS. Third, you may read the background story of this song.

[cynic-ryl]

Wall of Kwento 07

Second post of the day. Naks ansipag. Masipag pumetiks lol. Anyway, nakakain na ako ng lunch (brunch, actually) at satisfied na tyan ko (for now). Malakas kutob ko na around 2pm kakalam na ulit yan. Bibili nalang akong doughnuts pag nagutom ako ulit. Pag di pa ako nabusog dun ewan ko nalang haha.

Btw, LSS ako sa Leave Out All the Rest ng Linkin Park ngayon. Feel na feel ko yung kanta. Sarap kantahin shet. Antagal na rin since huli kong pinakinggan yung kanta (4th year high school pa ata) at nakita ko lang sa recommended vids ko sa YouTube kanina. Ayun pinakinggan ko. Hanggang ngayon naka-loop pa rin. Napaka-meaningful nung lyrics. Powerful pa yung vocals. Naging instant favorite ko ‘to nung una kong narinig way back nung nag-aaral pa ako. Hay. Nostalgic. Lol.

Kanina rin pala, I tried watching the MV of Despacito (yung original by Luis Fonsi). Alam kong sobrang popular nito way back nung January this year pero di ko siya pinapansin dati. Di ko lang alam kung anong pumasok sa kokote ko at bigla kong ginustong panoorin yung MV ngayon. The song wasn’t so bad naman pala. It actually sounded good. Addicting yung tune and catchy yung lyrics kaya ako rin, nahook haha. Ganda nung beat at sakto lang yung tempo. Groovy, uplifting, and mapapasayaw ka. It kinda reminded me of the songs na naririnig ko lagi sa radyo nung elem pa ako. Nostalgic ulit lol. Anw, idadagdag ko ‘to sa playlist ko.

Ano pa bang ikwekwento ko? Uhm ayun, inaantok ako ngayon. Lunch time pa naman so I’ll take a short nap. Post ulit ako soon. Bye!

[rram-blings]

2017

It’s been a rather long time since I last posted and TBH I’m really really lazy to type but I have nothing to do now and quite a lot of thoughts on my mind so maybe I’ll be able to organise them here. Somehow. 

So firstly, it’s the start of a new year! 2016 hasn’t been the easiest but I suppose it was slightly better than 2015, which is good. Haha. 

Firstly, let’s start off with my studies because lol fak university life. So at the start of year2 sem1 I decided to make a plan, of the grades I needed to get in order to pull my pathetic CAP up. So basically (my CAP is not impressive and yes I was extremely embarrassed about it but who gives a fuck) my CAP was 3.13/5 at year1 sem2. So I decided I had to pull it up to 3.5 at least. So i created my goals and basically the end result was 3.33/5. I didn’t achieve my goal but my CAP increased from 3.13 to 3.33. So my first lesson learnt in 2016: Don’t give up even if you don’t achieve your goals the first try. Good things don’t come that easy. So this sem, I’m aiming for 3.5 again. And following that I will just keep increasing it. So yes, please god help my grades lol. 

Secondly, I will go with my relationships because yeah I suppose that’s a highly important thing in life, to build relationships with people. I’m definitely not the easiest person to be friends with, apparently I have a fierce face and I’m honestly not that sociable. I’m just an awkward turtle. And I do have like 1001 insecurities about that. I’m always afraid that people won’t like me or that people will find me weird, I hate awkward situations where I can’t communicate with people well. So in fact i’m fucking thankful for my friends who have stayed by my side despite me being a guai ka. Haha. So here’s what I read: https://markmanson.net/not-giving-a-fuck. This changed my thinking. But that being said, it’s easy to have a thought, it’s easy to set a goal but it’s not easy to achieve it. I tell myself everyday that what people say about me does not matter. But hell fucking no, my insecurities build up like fucking walls. Everyday it’s a new challenge. Okay it’s not that bad but yes you get the point. Do read the article though, it’s pretty amazeballs. So back to relationships, I realised that I’m quite a lazy person, and I’m really bad at treasuring friends and putting in effort to maintain them. I suppose I don’t have many groups of friends, I’m not extremely well connected either. And i need to work on that. I need to appreciate people more. Oh and, my social energy is draining because of hall. I’m literally dying like I just want to be alone and have alone time and not talk to humans. Then again, that’s never gonna happen. 

Next, myself. My personal growth. I know that I don’t have a good rep. Like for example (just let me rant about this particular girl right now), GURL YOU DON’T FUCKING KNOW ME. DON’T TELL ME I CHEATED WHEN YOU DON’T KNOW THE SITUATION. WHO ARE YOU TO FUCKING JUDGE ME BRO. Okay that’s over. Well, basically, I know people have bad impressions of me because i used to club like every fucking day in year 1 after i broke up with my ex. Like i clubbed and drank ... twice a week? No i’m not proud of it. My actions during that period changed my life so drastically. There are a lot of things I wish to take back, I wish to change. But the thing is, sometimes you just have to learn from your mistakes and look forward. Some things, just cannot be taken back. Some things, just cannot be changed. This semester, I would like to think i cut down a lot. I think the number of times i’ve stepped into the club and stayed inside for more than 30 mins is like 1/4 the number of times of the previous semester. Which is an improvement I guess. Sometimes the things you thought were new and fun aren’t really lasting. That’s when you realise, “Oh ... i fucked up”. Yep. 

This year I hope to be a more positive person. Life isn’t really about following the rules. But at the same time, it’s also not about fitting into the society. People are different. I need to learn to accept my differences and the way I think. My need to conform and be like everyone else killed me slowly inside. My confidence is pretty damn low and I’m definitely insecure as hell. So things do need to change. 

Just to side track, listening to my chinese playlist now and all these songs are just making me really nostalgic and sad. Sobs. 

So here’s to the happy stuff!!! I GOT A JOB! WHOOOO. Red Bull wings ;) Okay nobody reads this so I don’t have to worry. Anws yes, here’s to all the people who have made my life what it is today. It’s not perfect, but i appreciate, every single one of you, from the fucking bottom of my heart. Because you guys are amazing and i love yall so much. And here’s to a better 2017 :)