#aughh...

[lilsilly1]

Daily Luigi!

Um-

He wasn't suppose to be nakey at first but there is a dumb context to it. (lazy to explain but if you're desperate to know then u can ask😭😭)

then a parallel between L and Weege

and... as promised... the strawpage doodles... (they're so precious...)

I am so disappointed. @/dreamyluigi

417 days left before Mario movie

(strawpage on ma pinned post btw :3)

[durgewyll]

my problem with making up lore for kara is that i forgot some important parts of qunari lore so i keep having to retcon things

[c1airidryl]

any time the 🐈‍⬛ in flow was in danger in any remote way I felt like I was going to explode it was so upsetting (⁠╯⁠︵⁠╰⁠,⁠)

[meebiesofficial]

aughh.... i GOTTA start posting here more... ;~;

[trans-leek-cookie]

Hm. Working out some thoughts about j*j*tsu k*isen characters and gender/transness (fem vs masc readings sorta) mainly. The character I am obsessed with in a love/hate way

Saw the post Abt ppl misinterpreting "male" characters who are (if not intentionally depicted/coded) more meaningful to view as transfem as being transmasc again and thinking Abt G*to S*g*r* and they're like. I mean genuinely so fucking hard for me to come to a conclusion on. As a trans guy myself I'll start by saying my perspective is limited but I really... I don't wanna say relate. I see a lot of my own negative traits in their character, and it's really cathartic to be able to analyze + critique those traits in a fictional way, where it lets me reflect on my self without feeling. Guilty? Defensive??? That doesn't sound right but it helps me get out of my own head and go "hey it sucks when this stuff is done by a character, I also shouldn't do that" (mainly the black/white thinking and escalation to violence are. Yeah I gotta work on those things). So there's the level of connection that makes me go "it would be cool if this character is transmasc". Also Ive said it once I'll say it again I NEED more trans men who are abusers/bad ppl without being romanticized. It's partially bc I go to fanfic but there's this weird vibe of trans men Always Being The Victim that. Y'know probably is unexamined transphobia + misogyny & gender/bioessentialism (transphobia in seeing trans men as "closer" to women, misogyny + essentialism in that they're weaker because of their "sex" y'know) and just like. It's exhausting.

I suppose I could see transfem arguments in them having a lot of feminine/motherhood symbolism? Plus they're always wearing fucking Dysphoria Clothing 💀. But I think- beyond my internal desire to see them as transmasc- there's a level of... Idk how valid it is but there's a level of distrust in that I feel like SO FEW PEOPLE in the fandom acknowledge their genuinely abusive and eugenicist and racist mindsets? And I feel the need to always clarify that just bc I interpret them as transmasc that doesn't mean I think they're like Not a genuinely horrible person.

And I worry that I'm being what's the word. Fuckin uh. Reductive? Like biased against transfems who might interpret them as transfem as well but idk how much is actual bias and how much is just. The fandom refuses to acknowledge the Kind Of Person He Canonically Is (abusive)

And like. On second thought while I will Lightly Enjoy a transmasc art piece or fic I also sorta hate them bc they refuse to depict them as an abusive person. Like no they're a canon cult leader they're not good.

With the motherhood thing, I realize looking back on it it's mostly... idk what the word is. There's the book they read (colors of a mother), but also theres T*ji's worm calling them "mommy" and they genuinely look like they've never been more upset in their life (they look more upset at the worm than they were when R*ko died). Maybe their technique??? I've seen some stuff but I forget how much of it is like Actually Motherhood Symbolism vs how much the fucking mpreg thing infected my brain

And then there's the um. Post Mortem stuff. With K*njaku and it's like. They're Dead so we don't see their reaction, but it's like... the womb thing is very. "Physical Sex of the Body" (idk what a better term for it would be bc while bio/physical sex is. Not always the most accurate to Real World discussions idk how to most accurately phrase it with regards to This Specific Fiction????) and it's. Combined with their technique. Ngl it makes me think of Ch*so's mom? Like K*njaku specifically takes over their body bc they want the technique.

Also I'm an AFAB K*njaku believer personally bc I think their story gets arguably trans misogynist if you take it as them even just being a cis man idk. Like it feels like a really delicate situation to have an AMAB character take over a woman's dead body to have a kid and I don't trust this story with actually handling that. also again the um. Stuff with Ch*so's mom would retroactively also seem transmisogynistic bc of the K*ori situation. Idk if it's already weird bc K*njaku is regularly depicted as taking over male bodies or if the ambiguity makes it like. Less targeted?? Bc I do feel like a lot of ppl see them as originally being y'know assigned female at birth so. I don't think I can confidently pass judgement on how their situation reads wrt transmisogyny I just felt like if I was talking Abt them in this context it would be weird to ignore it

Back to G*to and I forget if I had much more to say? Idk I could see an argument abt them presenting somewhat feminine w long hair baggy clothes, but at the same time that feels like it gets into weird territory with. Y'know white ppl viewing east Asian men as "more effeminate" and Im not passing judgement on anyone really it just makes it hard for me to confidently say if they're meant in the source material to be Presenting Femininely (As A Character, like obv they've got "feminine" symbolism. Oh yeah I forgot the fact they're like the "yin/feminine in a yin/yang pair" thing) also their fucking character ref sheet having an illustration of their waist. Idk there's room to see it as "trying to Repress Femininity" but it kinda reads more along the lines of "dysphoria at being seen as feminine" idfk. A good chunk of "feminine" symbolism seems to revolve more around like. The External Perception Of Others rather than Their Own Internal Feelings (repressed or genuine)???

OH YEAH. This like this goes away from "The actions they take as a character" to "the writer writing them" but I fucking hate the way literally 3 young girls are essentially used them discarded for their character development! I fucking hate that and it feels like. Listen if a transfem person wanted to HC them as transfem not my place to say shit and ultimately I don't think it's bad or wrong but genuinely. That weird fucking writing is a part of why I personally just. Like there's a bunch of Misogynist/sexist writing in general but it really fucks with my view of Them Specifically bc it's such a weird case of. "No the character isn't any more Misogynist than others In Universe but the writing surrounding them is. Eugh." (I guess you could also argue H*ibara was part of that but he's like also development for N*nami?)

anyway. Yin Yang talk. I feel like if anything. I could see G*jo being transfem/neutral? Idk transmasc interpretations are like. Understandable in a "power fantasy" sense but that power (and being unjustly labeled "monstrous") does not really... Fit? Again I'm not confident making Final Conclusions from my own perspective as a TME person but it's like. Idk they seem like they only "identify" as male bc while they are Rebellious, a lot of that rebellion is ultimately limited. Like they WANT to be revolutionary but the specific society they grew up in really really fucks with their ability to Actually Like, Develop That. Like the fact they + the society they grew up in is so individualist is really. Really not great for a revolution. Also "I'm training the next generation to fight the system that's grooming kids to fight + die for the system." Listen I 100% understand the intent. But um. That's. Kinda just The System But Little Bit Less. ANYWAY my reading of them is they id as "male" bc while it might not be accurate it's not something they realize they can actually "rebel" against bc they don't see it as something Pushed Onto Them By Others they see it as "How The World Works" in a way they can't fight against, like how they see their strength or the dichotomy of weak/strong- not as things that Exist In Relation To Society but rather like. Universal Truths I guess?

Also the way they view weakness is like... not Obviously Sexist bc they can acknowledge Strong Women Exist but it still has the thing of "you need to actually WORK to unlearn misogyny bc society Teaches You Misogyny no matter what" but like. Misogynist Society². So. Idk exactly what I was saying but I think genuinely given like. Explicit Suggestion if G*jo were to explore their gender they would not Choose To Be/Remain A Man. And that their... Reputation idfk as "The Strongest" being treated as almost inhuman/monstrous makes me like. IDK it's not really "a privilege" the way their wealth is. On some level while I don't feel Qualified to make a final Judgement I genuinely think estrogen could have saved them because it would represent a true, genuine break from what the society they were raised in has taught them is "Correct" about themself in a way they haven't been truly able to achieve.

Also I cannot see Sh*ko as anything other than transfem the fact her given name is "nitrate child" screams to me that she chose her own name and the way she's sort of detached/"uncaring" reads to me as intense maladaptive defensiveness (not unjustified, just like. Not good for her) anytime I see someone interpret her as Cis I HATE it.

[atissi]

i don't really like when people say dungeon meshi is accidentally good autistic representation, because while i understand not wanting to make conclusions without explicit confirmation from the author, there's always the weird assumption that non-western authors somehow don't know about things like neurodivergency/queerness/etc. (on top of the assumptions that east asian authors are somehow more naive or oblivious to "western" social issues).

given that dungeon meshi started being published in 2014, it's not really a "work belonging to its times"—it's as contemporary as any other media we discuss on this site, which means it should be fair to assume it engages with contemporary topics (and at the very least, you shouldn't say that the representation is accidental with so much confidence)

but anyways, the chapter "perfect communication" in ryoko kui's "terrarium in a drawer" is some of the most straightforward autistic representation I've seen, and from now on I'm going to assume that laios's character writing is absolutely intentional in that regard:

[rabbithaver]

i cant read the new idw sonic yet but it sounds like some Big Plot Things happened and im clawing at the walls

[comradesnufkin]

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[spicymotte]

he's so sweet

[miyku]

Dragon Age: The Veilguard | ▶ dev. Bioware

[milkamel]

Guilt.

(God these two- how dare they occupy my mind 24/7)

[nightfallsystem-moved]

Maybe I just should stop posting fanart completely I don't know anymore it's not fucking good enough nothing I do is good enough

[hamsterdads]

stupid

[tazmiilly]

another older doodle since I got busy today

[urboned]