#autism induced blog

[babybunnydexterloveselvis]

heyyyyy

This is just my agere/petre blog for @bunnydexterloveselvis !! i don't post much about elvis here but.. yeah!! i mostly might reblog mostly stimboards and.. watch out there will probably be babytalk and pretending to be a bunny/kitty/fishie/creature!!!!!!

im silly <3

[ethereal-hollow]

The Sonas

Look my fursonas

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Cherub/Elysium

Deer*

[*mule deer x whitetail deer x sika deer x roe deer, but also part cat]

And baby version!

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Elysium/Eden

Snow Leopard [with minor clouded leopard and marbled cat traits]

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Celestiael

Weird alien cat scottish fold galaxy thing eldritch abomination? Generally feline

[prettypangolins]

The dream of living with or very near a friend where I can use my skills to do a swap that covers for my deficits.

i.e. I do a phonecall on your behalf, I am paid with a nice little meal

I can do phonecalls!* But I can't do the complicated thing of making food happen with any degree of consistency or reliability. Plus food always tastes nicer when someone's made it for you.

*I can do 'business' calls to make appointments, discover opening times, place and chase up orders, and sometimes even complain, but please don't ever make me have a social conversation on a telephone I will shrivel up and die. If there is an automated voice part I will also shrivel up and die but in a far more vigorous and spectacular manner

[tony-andonuts]

Every day it feels even more like i might have osdd

[iridiumflowers]

hello, mcrmy! it is day 35 since an mcr concert, and as such i have had to resort to Drastic Measures in order to please the special interest gods. as a verified List Autistic (tm), my only recourse was to, obviously, make a colorcoded timeline of every single notable picture, audio, video, event, flyer, blog post, and more from the bullets era. obviously. this was the result of a couple of weeks in a fugue state with nothing better to do over my winter vacation. feel free to use for any of your personal mcr-induced-autism needs.

the majority of credit obviously goes to @themychemicalromancearchive , who catalogued the majority of this information - i just organized it in as close to chronological order as i could manage with information readily available through google search. setlist.fm was also a big help for listing shows undocumented in the way of video, audio, or photographs.

some of the events listed were very difficult for me to find exact dates for, forcing me to use approximates. if anyone has more exact dates for these, please feel free to reach out! in addition, if you feel that there is anything that is missing or if there are any errors that you see, id love to hear it to further edit this document for better accuracy!

[rainbowgod666]

Really fucking stupid patch notes, wizardposting edition

Fixed a bug where @the-gnomish-bastard could NOT turn back into a normal gnome when using "Become Lead Statue" in some cases. This somehow applied to every "Become Statue" spell but the Lead one was the most broken one

Fixed a bug where Meme Summons straight up couldnt work if you had more mana than usual. No, we have no idea what the fuck happened

Fixed interactions with every variant of @the-wizard-council-blog, including the Illegal one, the NSFW one, The worse one, The better one, and all other iterations

Fixed a bug where the stew arcanum was straight up uncraftable because all the data was gibberish. This was fixed a few versions ago and now you only need 3 high-tier gods to make it. Also you need Meme-Infused Magic Spellwood Bowls to hold this post-post endgame item. Yes, its still too much stew but we kept it like that because its unironically funny

Speaking of magical trees: fixed a bug where some types of trees straight up Did Not Grow unless some form of "chunk loading" was enabled. In other words, what the fuck.

Fixed a bug where stacking too many attack ups made the damage 0 on any "explosive" spell. @official-megumin can now deal 9 quintillion damage (as long as its not over the positive 64-bit integer limit, because then the bug stays) (also the code is less fucked)

Fixed a bug where some unusual but valid items for wands and staves (such as LITERALLY EVERY NUCLEAR METAL and some fantasy ones like orichalcum and australium) straight up couldnt exist.

Added more items to mythril, but this time everything you can do with mythril can be done with other materials, so now you can choose between mythril orichalcum AND adamantine depending on the color

Adamantium crafting now doesnt require a bordering-on-hyperbole amount of adamantine. Also you now need industrial steel instead of normal one.

Fixed a bug where "Triple Summon of Meth Berserk Chimps" not only was unobtainable, but required over 2.14 billion mana. Granted it was unreleased back then but then it was released and it still was in its testing stage

Fixed a bug with many spider-themed spells not really being "spidery", this one goes out for our boy @autism--wizard, may you find many cute spooders in ur life :3

Fixed a bug where "induce memetic stroke" accidentally... told people about the meme. Whoops.

"TACO BELL TACOSPELL OF INTESTINAL IMPLOSION" fixed to deal less damage than the psychological damage. We know its a forbidden spell but fuck you we are not sending people to the therapist because omega diharrea

Speaking of: fixed a bug where "steal item" could work on vital organs. Youre gonna learn "Spell Of True Thievery" and youre gonna shut the fuck up about it

Fixed a bug where non-sentient kobolds could be... "milked". Yes mr gnome. KILK existed and it was kobold sperm this entire time. This is why you said it didnt exist, CAUSE THAT SHIT WASNT MILK CHIEF! Anyways now KILK actually doesnt exist so y'all better shut the fuck up or FIND A MILKABLE SOMETHING WITH A K IN ITS NAME

Fixed a bug where familiars didnt familiar. Yes it was terrifying in every way ever, so thank @familiar-union for this. Yes thwy cant be tagged by us idfk why

Fixed mithril tools being literal reskins of their steel equivalents. Whoops!

Fixed a bug where that one April Fools joke of "summon cock" actually summoning a penis. Now it actually summons a rooster (and a really big one)

Speaking of that, Summon Rooster has been fixed and now its a better version of the aforementioned spell

Fixed the interaction between A LOT of spells. Turns out that 99% of harry potter being trash doesnt stop people from doing Dragonball Beam Struggles with their spells. Also yes, elements apply

Fixed a few lines of code so that now the "use pokemon typings" option doesnt disintegrate the UI. Over 120k spells and each and every single one of them now has functioning typing. Now shut the fuck up wE DID IT

Fixed retrocompatibility issues. Now runescape can scape the runes! (HR is fully aware that the joke is shit) (but fuck it, it was funny)

Fixed a bug where any "Robot" something would bug up and change colors. Considering that people somehow managed to make trans flags with this, we added a transgender flag skin for every "robot", "wulfrum", and similar tech spells.

Greatrererest Blahaj Blast Barrage now has a hitbox AND a cost. It can be set as your ult and we already have the Gold, Platinum, Uranium and other skins ready. Yes the transgender skin is unlocked by default if you already have the spell, and if you dont- Magical Battlepass has it at levels 10, 32, and 69 (otherwise you get materials and xp) Because the one battlepass that works without FOMO and Whaling had to be the magical one

Fixed a bug where "draconic" items were only easily obtainable by dupe glitches. We may not have fixed those but we upped the drop rates so you dont have to exterminate dragons for one singular heart. Now it takes 3 dragons at most! (Yeah so it turns out the drop rates were HELLA WRONG. Whoopsie daisy!)

Speaking of that: Draconic Evolution Backporting works now! Now when you use a staff of power, people wont think its an euphemism for your di-

Magical swords now can be made woth higher tier elements. No idea why would you need an Entropic Steel Magic Sword but fuck it. You deserve to put some sparkles on that Alien X looking ass blade

The Throngler's Gold Skin now doesnt make it a mess of metal and gold. Now its actually good

Fixed a bug where bad connection made the online version of "the potion seller's strongest potion" unplayable because some elements were only obtainable in multiplayer. Fuck you and your theories about thwnpotion seller being an eldritch dragon eater. LoL. KeK even

The Augur Dragon now doesnt get stuck flying in circles above the Forbidden Volcano Arena. Now it actually CAN hit you from 10000ft in the air!

The marble wyvern boss (and therefore all other marble wyverns) actually drop the dragon marble builders want

Added tier XVII to the Magical Engine. Also recipes for Tier Ascension were fixed.

N2O Blast was fixed to deal hellfire instead of fire. And also being blue. It was easier than you believe

Using "Golden Shower (Metal) actually rains coins instead of being "golden shower but identical and deals steel damage"

Sniler's quests now update in 1 hour instead of 24, and the quests are better. During multiplayer, there are 5 quests avaiable instead of 3

Ghastly Mist now actually blinds opponents instead of being really dense

"F.I.S.T." can no longer be boosted by attack boosts, but nOW its damage is "(999 × your level + (your attack stat × 2)) × 2", and its cast cost went from 1000 mana to 1200.

More scroll duplication bugs were fixed, but the "use Grant Spell Usage onto a low level non-magic enemy so they have a spell that they cant use and then using Turn Into Scroll" has been made into an ACTUAL feature. Go ahead and make a billion "Scroll of Imaginary Technique: Hollow Purple"!

"Starlight Thunderstorm" now has 1% paralysis

Removed the "domain expansion" function until we figure out how THAT works. Theres still the tab, and when it will be implemented just send screenshots of what "domain expansion customizations" and then youre getting them once we implement them

[loving-n0t-heyting]

what are the negative effects of common atypical antipsychotics?

> First, the adverse effects of antipsychotic medications are widely attested and very serious. They fall into at least two classes: cognitive impairments, and extrapyramidal disorders (such as akathisia, parkinsonism, and tardive dyskinesia). Both are concerning.

> Increasing evidence, both anecdotal and studied, suggests that antipsychotics frequently impair cognitive functioning. This is often described by those who have suffered from it as “zombie-like”, or as though they lacked the capacity for abstract thought [1]. There is a large empirical literature giving rigorous backing to these informal reports (see [2] for an overview and bibliography); more specifically, much of this literature suggests that antipsychotics can seriously impair procedural learning [3] [4] [9]. These empirical findings in the scientific literature, while plentiful and robust, seem not to have fully percolated yet into clinical practice.

> In addition to their potential adverse cognitive effects, antipsychotic medications are well-known to carry the risk of painful, disabling, and potentially damaging motor (“extrapyramidal”) disorders. These include akathisia (commonly described by those to experience it as “torture”), parkinsonism (a collection of symptoms similar to those involved in Parkinson’s Disease), and tardive dyskinesia (a chronic and unremitting motor disorder resulting from long-term use of antipsychotics) [5] [6] [7] [8]. While these conditions are common generally among users of antipsychotics (for those taking haloperidol—a commonly prescribed antipsychotic—extrapyramidal symptoms may present at or above fifty percent [10]), there is evidence they may be especially likely and severe, even at low doses, for autistic people [11] [12].

[1] Medical Xpress, “Antipsychotic meds prompt zombie-like state among patients” 5 Feb 2015 https://medicalxpress.com/news/2015-02-antipsychotic-meds-prompt-zombie-like-state.html

[2] Sarah Constantin, “Antipsychotics Might Cause Cognitive Impairment” 14 Jan 2018 https://www.sarah-constantin.org/blog/2018/1/14/antipsychotics-might-cause-cognitive-impairment

[3] Psychopharmacology, “Procedural learning in schizophrenia after 6 months of double-blind treatment with olanzapine, risperidone, and haloperidol” Sep 2003 https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/12827347/

[4] Neuropsychopharmacology, “Effects of risperidone on procedural learning in antipsychotic-naive first-episode schizophrenia” Jan 2009 https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/18536701/

[5] Missd, “The Agony of Akathisia” 6 Dec 2015 https://missd.co/256/

[6] National Commission on Correctional Health Care, “Akathisia: A Mysterious Medication-Induced Movement Disorder” 19 Jul 2021 https://www.ncchc.org/akathisia-a-mysterious-medication-induced-movement-disorder/

[7] Cleveland Clinic, “Parkinsonism” https://my.clevelandclinic.org/health/diseases/22815-parkinsonism#symptoms-and-causes

[8] National Library of Medicine, “Tardive Dyskenisia” 16 Aug 2022 https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/books/NBK448207/

[9] Journal of Psychiatric Research, “Effects of haloperidol and risperidone on psychomotor performance relevant to driving ability in schizophrenic patients compared to healthy controls” Jan 2005 https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/15504428/

[10] MedicineNet, “Side effects of Haldol (haloperidol)” https://www.medicinenet.com/side_effects_of_haloperidol/side-effects.htm#haldol_haloperidol_side_effects_list_for_healthcare_professionals

[11] Spectrum News, “The missing generation” 9 Dec 2015 https://www.spectrumnews.org/features/deep-dive/the-missing-generation/

[12] Journal of Neurodevelopmental Disorders, “High rates of parkinsonism in adults with autism” 30 Aug 2015 https://jneurodevdisorders.biomedcentral.com/articles/10.1186/s11689-015-9125-6

[iassignpeoplehomestucktrolls]

Alright, I'll bite. I've been in the fandom since I was 14 back in ye old year of 2013. I have had many blog, including currently a f/f ship blog, various specific f/f ship blogs, and others. I am Aquapia (light/derse). Also autism.

Ngl I'm slightly panicked to flop on this as someone who only got into homestuck 2021, I'm giving you an ancestor and a ship

Anxiety induced triple assignment

And

[muddyboywiththemuddyboots]

Hello, I'm a small coiner! I'm not very new, but if you're part of the community please interact!

Byf:

I am a minor, I'm 100% anti harassment, I'm pro contradicting labels!, I have npd and autism and paranoia!, I'm pagan but 100% positive of all religions!, I get uncomfy if people with the names Lee, Vee, Valerie, or Valentine Interact (paranoia induced)

Dni: If you send ANYONE harassment (even if they are fucked up people.), If you're anti cluster b, The people that say "hate all men" or mistreat men as a whole, If you fake claim, Cisphobic/ heterophobic (hating cishets), Anti mogai/ xenogenders and neopronouns, Ableist,Thinspo /pro ana blogs, Self harm blogs, Anti agere or nsfw agere, Anti no contact paraphiles

Also: Let me know if my blog has any issues or isn't accessible for all ^^ I will fix it instantly!

[hyperlexichypatia]

It is deeply irresponsible of you to promote the neurodiversity movement. The founder of the movement - a certain Japanese “Baedell” trans woman (one of those denyers of transandrophobia) named Kasaine - is a petulant destructive asshole who has torn apart numerous autism conferences, alleged murder and anti-epileptic or anti Asian sentiment or whatever simply for conferences refusing to browbeat a severely autistic nonverbal young man into turning off his flash camera. (Never mind that she could have just you know looked away.) I have spoken to countless Blacks, Asians, Hispanics, American Indians and others who also disagree with Kassaines utter petulance, as well as that of those like Amanda Baggs (a blatant faker/liar who I refuse to call by her “trans name” but you might know her as Mel.) She was also making the patently false claim that she had Rett syndrome. She also is deeply anti-physical disability, believes the abled can be cripples and believes that there is no difference between any disorder that affects the brain. I tried talking to @chavisory about this and she sent me to your blog, let her explain her deep deep misconceptions.

Wow, it's amazing, every single thing about this comment is factually false. But you sure did take a lot of words to say that you're neurobigoted and transphobic (accusing someone of "transandrophobia" and refusing to use a trans person's chosen name is a great combination). No, epileptic people can't "just look away" from seizure-inducing flashing lights. I'm sorry (not really) you're okay with endangering the lives of epileptic people, but consider: You shouldn't be.

[wonky-joints]

Hi! My name is Ashton and I'm multiply disabled.

Pronouns are He / They, with a preference for He.

The diagnoses I feel comfortable sharing for the purposes of this blog at the moment are

Rheumatoid Arthritis

Adult Food Protein Induced Enterocolitis Syndrome [Non-IgE Allergy]

Autism Spectrum Disorder, mild-moderate/low support needs

Specific Learning Disability in Mathematics [Dyscalculia]

I am also mentally ill to the point where it was included on my disability registration card in the country where I used to live, but I ask that you respect my privacy in choosing to not always be open about everything, especially when it comes to my mental health and personal life.

[g0thicf0xskulls]

So, quick fun fact. I’m mentally ill as well. So here’s a list of my diagnoses so y’all understand the ish that’s about to be on this blog 😂

Diagnosed:

• Borderline Personality Disorder

• C-PTSD

• Otherwise Specified Effective Mood Disorder

• Generalized Anxiety

• Unspecified Depression

• DPDR

• Obsessive Love Disorder

• Short Term Memory due to Concussions and Trauma

• Trauma induced OCD

Medically Recognized:

• DID

Peer Diagnosed:

• ADHD

(Explanation: I’ve had 15 friends now, all of which are diagnosed with ADHD, say there’s no way I do NOT have ADHD)

Suspected:

• Autism

[autisticgirliesbracket]

HIIII hey I'd like you all to meet Zoey, she's got some words she'd like to say to you all, Take it away Zoey!! (sorry if this is cringe inducing-)

HI EVERYONE! I'M ZOEY! I'm ThatToastyGecko's autistic *cough* also their self-insert *cough* ahem, I'm their autistic girl OC. I wasn't allowed to participate in this bracket since I'm an OC, but I wanted to come by to wish my fellow autistic girls good luck!! I was sad seeing Webby lose so soon but I'm happy she's here at all! I'm really rooting for Dendy, Marcy Wu, Kate, Mabel & oh heck, everyone honestly! No matter who wins, this bracket existing is itself the real win! :D Representation is so so soooo soooooo important you guys! I'm so happy to see so much love for all us autistic gals & heck, autism as a whole getting more support has been a nice change in the world for once. Anyways I better get back to my own blog for my webcomic thingy, I got to be there since I'm the main character and all. I'll swing by again if I have the chance, happy to meet you all!!

AND GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE, AUTISTICS TOGETHER STRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HI ZOEY!!!! THANK U FOR COMING TO GIVE THIS TALK

I agree that it's so so awesome there's been an increase in positivity towards autistic people in recent years (at least on tumblr!) and how that positivity has led to representation from independent creators and mainstream media alike! being able to recognise autistic traits in a character and go "they just like me fr!!" it's such a special experience to me and makes me more confident talking about my needs and experiences as an autistic woman. a big shout out to all the previously high-masking folks who have gained the confidence to start unmasking. and an ever BIGGER shout out to the girlies who got diagnosed later in life because universal autism acceptance is still catching up <3 but I know we will get there.

also Zoey plz come visit again when I hold a neurodivergent ocs bracket at some point in the future.

[1863-project-art]

[Image ID: Ingo and Emmet from Pokemon Black and White are drawn somewhat neutrally from the chest up. Emmet is slightly in front of Ingo and leaning a bit foward to make Ingo more visible in the back. Below them, the text “thank you” reads in blue and green, and below the text is a drawing of the artist herself, a light-skinned woman wearing a sailor dress and tam hat with short wavy hair. Her eyes are closed with a tear running down her cheek, and her hand is clenched into a fist and held close to her chest. End image ID.]

Considering day seven’s themes were pride and solidarity, I made this one a bit more personal.

I got my autism diagnosis amidst an OCD-induced mental breakdown in 2009. It gave me answers I’d sought for most of my life, but the narrative back then was still heavily dominated by organizations like Autism Speaks, which preached that I was a blight on society, a burden to my parents, something that needed to be “cured” (i.e. eradicated). I actually started hiding my autistic traits at first, trying to compensate for what the world thought were my deficits. I had a name for why I was like this, but I also knew I wouldn’t be accepted like this, so I ironically started masking harder.

That changed when I found the self-advocacy community and started to blog about my own experiences as an autistic woman diagnosed in adulthood. By hearing other people’s experiences and feeling safe enough to share my own, I began to embrace my autistic traits and allowed myself to be open about my diagnosis and how it affected my life. But there was a part of me that I still felt I had to hide. Sometimes it broke through for short periods, but ultimately it was an autism stereotype and I felt like I needed to bury it deep.

I’ve liked trains since I was a little kid. But that little kid learned early on that this was an interest that people made fun of, so she kept that part of herself extremely private. It was a hobby she could only share with her family - indeed, she shared it with her dad - and friends didn’t even know she had it until adulthood. I ended up suppressing it further after my diagnosis at age 20 because I didn’t want to be an autism stereotype. People found out in 2014 briefly, but I went back into the train closet not long afterwards, and friends only knew I had a near-encyclopedic knowledge of the NYC Subway system because they traveled around the city with me.

In 2020, though, I found Submas, and it was like looking into a mirror.

They were both so much like me that it was unreal. I noticed people loving them as they were, just allowing them to be themselves, and it awakened something in me. Bit by bit, I began allowing myself to be more and more open about my interests again, and I started leaning into the train stuff intentionally and allowing myself to unapologetically enjoy it. I don’t think I’d have gotten to this point without Ingo and Emmet, but they were there when I needed them to be, and now I’m the adult version of the little girl who loved trains so much and so joyfully. I wrote an essay about it here, but the jist of it...is that I’m allowed to be me again, and these two helped me get there. I’ve finally achieved a childhood dream and driven a steam locomotive now, and I wouldn’t have gone for it if it weren’t for these two giving me myself back.

Drawn for day seven of @submas-autistic-joy, an event all about allowing Ingo and Emmet to be…well, themselves, without angst or ableism. For more on the event specifically, you can check the post out here!

[punknicodiangelo]

Ig this is becoming a BNHA blog so BNHA headcanons because I can, take them or leave them

Midoriya

•Transmasc (he/they)

•Asexual homoromantic

•Autistic

•Beta Israel (Etheopian Jewish) through his maternal grandmother

•Cousins with Ururaka (they share a great grandmother through their mothers)

Ururaka

•Midoriya's cousin

•Okinawan through father and Ainu through mother

•Trans girl (she/her)

•Bi

•Chubby

•Has ADHD

Bakugo

•Trans boy (he/him)

•Bi

•Has BPD

•Has hearing loss from his quirk

•Kid needs therapy cause you know his parents aren't helping his mental health

Todoroki

•Bigender (he/she/they)

•Bi (says he's gay for everyone)

•Has OCD and c-PTSD

•Long hair Shoto supremacy

•Really into fantasy

Yaomomo

•Agender (they/she)

•Lesbian

•Her hero costume has a zipper in the front actually because I say so

•Emirati

•Has OCD and autism

Tsu

•Nonbinary (it/she)

•Lesbian

•Mom is Brazillian

•Terrible vision

•Autistic

•Says "kero" as a stim

Jirou

•Transfemme (she/they)

•Bi

•Autistic

•Music is a special interest

•t4t

Iida

•he/him

•Gay

•Has really bad leg pain

•Uses a cane when not running, always wears a knee brace

•Autistic and OCD

Kirishima

•Trans guy (he/him)

•Gayflux

•Has two moms

•Autistic

Kaminari

•He/it

•Gay

•Veitnamese

•Has ADHD

•Had comphet for Jirou

•Loves Pokemon

•Bleaches his hair

Sero

•Agender (they/it)

•Colombian

•Pan

•Has sensory processing issues

•Uses tape to block out noise (or make people stop talking)

Ashido

•Blasian

•Pansexual aegoromantic

•Loves horror movies, especially invasion movies

Hagakure

•Intersex

•Uses queer aa sexuality and gender (she/it/they)

•HoH

•Very distantly related to Toga

Aoyama

•Nonbinary (all pronouns)

•Pan

•Family is Japanese but lived in France for several generations

Shinso

•Blasian

•Transmasc (they/he)

•Autistic

•Has GAD

•Foster kid

•Has so much trauma and so many mental disorders

•Fleunt in JSL

•Quirk doesn't work if the question is asked in sign

•Adopted by Erasermic

Hatsume

•All pronouns but cis

•Aroace queen

•Autistic

•Blasian

•Wears its hair in locs

Monoma

•Nonbinary boy (they/he/it)

•Gay

•Has autism, BPD, and OCD

•Another therapy needer

Toshinori

•Trans man (he/him)

•Ace Gay

•Chronically ill (not really a headcanon but)

•Uses a cane as SmallMight

•Part Cherokee through maternal grandfather

Aizawa

•Trans masc (he/they)

• Gay

•Autistic

•Has chronic fatigue and insomnia

Yamada

•Genderfuck (all pronouns)

•Bi

•Father is English

•Has quirk-induced hearing loss

Kayama

•Trans woman (she/her

•Pan

•Uses her sexuality so it can't be used against her

•Helped Aizawa transition

Haimawari Koichi

•Trans guy (he/him)

•Bi aro

•Autistic

Toga

•Trans girl (she/they)

•Bisexual (Preferance for girls)

•Autistic

•Bubaigawa adopted them

•Distantly related to Hagakure

Bubaigawa

•Demiromantic ace

•Deserves better

•I love him so much

•Why Hima, why?

[fictive-culture]

does it mean anything necessarily if you have dreams about being a system? i'm a singlet but on and off questioning plurality (it's really unhealthy for me) (it's at a point of obsession) and i can't tell if this is something i should factor into "maybe look into this" or if it's simply a side effect of me literally obsessing over plurality. i know one specific character was in one of the dreams that i've said "man i'm not plural but if i was i would have them as a fictive i bet" (which is a very singlet thing to say. obviously /lh) and in another recent dream i WAS that character and something even happened that while not directly recreating it reflected a moment in their source that i hadn't seen yet (i didn't know about it until one of my friends responded to my dream saying "no that actually happens though") but i know dreams don't inherently mean anything but at the same time i feel as though my mind would know my mind??? i don't know where i stand on this much like everything else

So I'm going to describe some vaguely relevant stuff related to our system as a starting point and then see if I can provide you with some other advice/information

First, we have a very fun origin in that a lot of things play into other things. So we id as traumaendo because our brain first chose madd to deal with our trauma however our madd eventually developed into plurality. So we are paragenic, but since our madd is caused by trauma, it kind of counts as both. Our madd is greatly affected by our autism and adhd so we hyperfixate on lots of things. That leads to so very frequently gaining members from our hyperfixations. We obsess over something long enough and boom 1-3 new pals.

Second, we have a handful of other sources, a decent amount of stressgenic, one possible willogenic and important to this two somtives headmates introjected from dreams. They aren't fictives of sources that exist, but that doesn't mean that can't happen.

Now, while what I'm about to say isn't a complete list of what could be happening, I hope it helps work as more of a starting point to think about.

There is the possibility that the obsession is caused by preexisting plurality. We did have an interest in it prior to our realization, but mostly because we wanted to try and create a positive plural character. I feel like it isn't uncommon to have some level of intrigue towards plurality beforehand.

This next idea stepping stone thingy is o-genic and oc-genic [both terms are links], which are both neurogenic origins related to plurality caused by obsession oc-genic is ocd exclusive but I'm unsure of o-genic. But basically, just if the brain keeps obessesing over plurality, it could create a system kind of like willogenic but to the left.

Or it could be neither, and you are a singlet who is getting obsession induced dreams about plurality.

There are probably more ideas and theories and explanations for why this is happening to you, but the actual advice that isn't just me sharing neat plural things is you gotta explore. Try talking to them, keep track of things that seem plural, read up on other people's experiences, there could be something plural about this or it could not be, maybe read up on median systems, try meditation, join system servers and find safe places for you to explore, look into willogenic/parogenic system creation if it's something you are interested in doing, stick around here and other system culture is blogs and see what feels familiar to what you are going through. Dreams are really iffy, and while they can mean something, and I believe it is how some systems enter headspace, it could mean nothing. So, while I'd love to give you a solid answer, all I can do is give you things that may be relevant to your experience and tell you to go out and explore. I can also tell you that there isn't anything wrong with questioning and ending up as a singlet. The question isn't always yes, so don't worry about it too much. So, just welcome to the community. Enjoy your stay, and I wish you luck.