#aw man aw man im not gonna survive this

[hella1975]

idk if this would be to my detriment or benefit in a horror film but i do think being mentally ill the way that i am WOULD be funny and that's what matters. like im so used to having horrible intrusive thoughts and paranoia that it's left me very very unbothered. my ability to out-logic a creepy situation is unparalleled. i simply wouldnt believe something bad was happening even if a guy was right in front of me with a knife because yeah, sure, of course there's a guy with a knife there. i was home alone the other night and when i got out of the shower i heard very muffled talking and just went 'huh, pipes are playing up a bit'. i regularly see disturbing shit out of the corner of my eye and dont even freak out anymore bc i know it's just The Horrors. my sister's fan is super loud because it's a bit broken and ive been listening to it for 5 mins now only to not only glance up and see that it literally is not on but also i never once questioned why it would have turned on so suddenly anyway seeing as she isnt here, and i just went 'oh, okay' and turned back to my laptop. like i just dont care anymore. put me in a horror situation and id be cool calm and collected and would also get stabbed instantly for pure stupidity

[piplupod]

i figured out the cause of my inescapable uncontrollable irritability lately but man. that was the one vitamin supplement that was even somewhat helping with my sleep anxiety 😭😭 but it's fucking me over in terms of mood all day so I guess I just have to go back to being absolutely terrified of sleep fnfkfl i hate it hereeeee

[orcelito]

ok anyways yea fang went chasing after his crush’s dad, who he found stabbed through with his own sword, STABBED BY HIS OWN PRINCE, & now we r wandering down to the basement where the prince is with a vaguely menacing “whatever happens down there, dont tell my daughter” & an otherwise refusal to talk about his plans 

im at 15 hp, level 5 sorcerer, if you SNEEZED on me i’d probably die. i got 5 health potions (which is one less than i had before for Dad Saving Purposes), & i am one HUNDRED percent backing this man up on whatever he’s about to do. he’s gonna kill the prince of his own country?? (keeping in mind this is the fucking Knight Captain???) then uhh fuck yea im in. im just gonna stand like 50 feet back, dont mind me,

[mucherbuncher]

Daryl x Reader

daryl x reader fic

requested by my mutual

this is my first time actually writing a one shot on tumblr and honestly i’m so exited. i’m still tryna figure out this app bc i literally downloaded it feb. 7th so plz forgive me i’m just a girl. also ignore that none of the “i”s are capitalized i really don’t care.

HOW DO YALL CHECK THAT WORD COUNT??

no warnings other than talking about eating sun disgusting ass food

if i do a part two there’ll be sm!t 🫣

I drew into the dirt absentmindedly with my fingers, bored out of my goddamn mind while Daryl cooks a snake over the fire. I didn’t look at it, because as queasy as i already was from hunger i wasn’t gonna make it worse. I had already eaten a few worms yesterday, something i’d never thought i would’ve done. To be honest, it was Daryl’s idea.

I had been doing everything to stay by his side after the prison fell, including silently obeying him and following him around like a lost puppy. I probably could survive on my own, but having someone by my side made it way easier. I got lucky being stuck with him, at least in the survival sense. Emotionally, or even socially, he was on airplane mode. He barely spoke, barely even looked at me. I didn’t mind it so much for a day or two, but it’s about to be day four. I couldn’t take it anymore.

He used his dirty knife to cut the snake in half, then peeled the skin off. It sorta reminded me of those giant gummy worms that you could get at a candy store, except pink and charred with visible bones.

“Here.” He reached across the small fire to hand me it. I looked up in disgust, hesitantly reaching out to eat the… thing.

It was chewy, like a well done steak. It didn’t taste like that though. It tasted pretty earthy, almost like a bug or something. The closest thing i can compare it too was grasshopper flavored fish. Wow, so appetizing.

I ate my entire half, and ripping off a small piece of rib bone from the spine to clean my teeth. I stared into the fire, like Daryl did. I used the back of my hand to wipe my mouth, unfortunately only spreading more dirt onto my face. Daryl looked about the same.

“What are we doing?” I blurted out, my voice a little hoarse from not talking all day.

Daryl looked up from the fire, staring at me blankly. His eyes practically glowed that pretty steel blue color, and I already felt slightly unnerved from his stare.

“Are we even gonna try to look for anyone, or are we just gonna keep running everyday?” I continued on, my voice growing stronger as I felt more emotions setting in.

“No point.” He grunted after a few seconds of silence.

“But there is. We need the rest of the group, they could all be still alive, together, maybe.”

“Look around, do ya see anyone waitin for us?” He spat, his voice getting a little louder.

“Your a tracker, so track.” I hissed, my eyes narrowed as i felt more and more frustrated with this man.

“Fine. Get yer ass up.” Before I could even think or retort back, He grabbed his crossbow and started kicking dirt into our little fire.

“Daryl, it’s dark…” I muttered, suddenly feeling small at the way he’s acting so pissed.

“This whatchu want, right?” He grabs my arm and yanks me upwards, and I stumble a little before tearing my arm back.

“Stop. Stop it right now.” I stare into his eyes, clenching my jaw a little in anger.

He starts pacing, chewing on the inside of his cheek. He’s trying to hide his face from me.

“There ain’t no point… what if- what if they’re all gone? I can’t… i won’t…” He wipes his eyes with the back of his arm, and i realize, he’s fucking crying. I can handle children crying, even other girls. But when a grown man cries… it makes me want to start sobbing.

My heart sinks and i feel an awful twinge in my stomach. I shouldn’t have pushed him. Fuck me…

“Hey…” My mouth has gone dry, i’m not totally sure what to do here. With the fire gone, and only the moonlight to allow me to see his face, im struggling.

“S’ not… I don’t know what to do.” He chokes a little, and that was my final straw. I pull him in towards me, grabbing his huge tan arms gently. I take the back of his head and put it against my neck, rubbing his back gently. His hands fall limply at his sides as he gives up.

“S’ gonna be alright. We can start lookin tomorrow, alright? You’ve got me. I’m here.” I speak softly and slowly as i reassure him. I’m hoping i’m saying all the right things. He wraps his arms around my waist tightly, restricting my breathing a little.

I hold him there for a long time, rubbing his back slowly as he silent cries into my shoulder. It felt right, comforting him. I was good at it. He needed this badly, and i hoped my optimism would rub off on him.

I pull his head off my shoulder, cupping his face in my hands. They look tiny here, holding him like this. I wipe some of the tears off his pretty face with my thumbs. His eyes bore into the ground, not meeting mine. I knew he felt embarrassed, but it was just the two of us. I wasn’t going to tell a single soul, nobody could make me spill his secrets even through torture.

I brush away some of his greasy brown hair, kissing his forehead gently. His eyes snapped up to meet mine. Shit… was that too much? I force myself to keep a calm expression, gazing at his puffy red eyes.

“M’ gonna start the fire again, okay?” I say gently. He nods, taking a step back and sitting down on the ground.

I fumble the lighter a little in my hands as i grab the kindling, and a small flame peeks through. i slowly start adding more fuel, until a steady flame is going. I scoot back to sit next to Daryl again, gently guiding his body down until his head is resting on my lap.

“C’mere.”

His huge body weighs down on my thigh, but I honestly didn’t care at all. I brushed my fingers through his messy hair, careful to not tug on any knots as i did so. He looked sorta beautiful like this.

Wait what the fuck. My mind started racing. This man was easily forty years old, covered in dirt and sweat and walker blood. Id known him and treated him like a friend for nearly two years now, but now… I treated him as if he was glass. He probably felt like it, broken after standing strong against all the hardship he’s faced his whole life. I knew bits and pieces, how he depended on Merle since he couldn’t rely on his shitty dad. His mom has been gone since he was a child.

I needed to be here for him. He’s become my protector, but I, a young woman, cared for him in a way i hadn’t for anyone else in a long time.

His chest rose and fell peacefully, and I knew he was starting to fall asleep. There wasn’t much to protect us from the elements other than a small wool blanket we’d been sharing for the past few days. I grabbed my bag, and carefully moved his head off my thighs to rest on the bag instead. I stepped around his body and curled up against his chest, making myself little spoon. I grabbed his crossbow, curling that close to my body just in case. I felt his arm swing around me, pulling me just a bit closer than i already was.

“Ya okay here?” He asked, speaking softly into my ear.

“Mhm.” His deep voice sent a shiver down my spine. I closed my eyes, smiling just a little. What a funny man.

[lumoverheaven]

Sad Little Girl

Mood board by my lovey love @iamasaddie tysm 💗

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Joel Miller x fem!plus size!reader

A/n: hello everyone! I’m back with an actual fic! This one is near and dear to my heart and very personal to me, I hope you enjoy it! Big s/o to @xdaddysprincessxx for proofreading! Ilysm mama 💗💗💗 This fic was made with game!joel in mind! As always constructive criticism is welcome! Enjoy! Likes, comments, and reblogs are appreciated! 🫶🫶💗💗 (reupload to see if it shows on tags bc tumblr is fucking me hardcore rn.)

Warnings: mentions of SA and heavy trauma, age gap (reader is in her 20s Joel is in his 50s), death of a loved one, also David is mentioned. If I missed any lmk!

W/c: 1.5k

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Growing up during the apocalypse wasn’t fun. There were many horrible, disgusting men that would do whatever they wanted. The need to survive set aside, they fucked with other people, especially women to get their twisted pleasure. You had fallen victim to that terrible abuse, but out of some sick and twisted mercy the most that had been done to you was being touched inappropriately and had a man expose himself to you. Worst of all? It was in your own home.

Your dad was a part of the smuggling circle and would often have his colleagues over to discuss routes, plans, and merchandise. One of his least trusted associates was the one that tortured you to no end. Because of that you didn’t feel like yourself, you didn’t feel like a girl. As the days passed you wore baggier clothing, you cut your hair to your shoulders, you bound your chest to get rid of any semblance to a woman. What also helped was that you were bigger than the average girl, you thought that maybe you looked broader, more like a male. This was how you coped, how you pushed everyone away.

When you found out your father died it was like a bucket of cold water to your skin. You didn’t know what you were gonna do or how you were gonna get by. A few days after you received the news about your father, there was a knock on your apartment door. Grabbing one of your father’s weapons you hesitantly opened it to find Joel Miller, your dad’s most trusted acquaintance. You lower your weapon and stepped aside to let him in.

“Hey bunny..” Joel began, you never understood why he called you that, based on your appearance you were nothing like a bunny. Not cute, not soft, not friendly.. You were the opposite. “Sorry ‘bout your dad.. Look, your pa on one occasion told me that if anythin’ were ta happen to ‘im for me to take care of ya.. Now I know you're a grown woman that can make her own decisions and take care of herself but I still wanted to offer ya a place to stay.. I know how awful solitude can be and I really care ‘bout ya..”

You had to process what he was telling you but you liked Joel, though you had some very negative interactions with men in the past, he was the only one you trusted aside from your father. You nodded your head in agreement and as the days and weeks progressed you moved your things little by little to his and Tess’ apartment.

You kept to yourself most of the time, mostly passing your time by drawing, reading, or listening to music when you didn’t work. Tess and Joel would sometimes let you go with them to their smuggling jobs but Joel would keep you close.

Joel noticed something was up with you, he noticed your change from the beginning. While your father thought nothing of it he noticed when his cheery-eyed bunny lost the spark in her eyes and became dull. He wanted to talk to your father about it but he felt like it wasn’t his place to say anything. He noticed how you presented yourself, manlier than you used to be and more quiet. Now this change he mentioned to your father.

“Hey man, I noticed somethin’ up with bunny.. Why she dressin’ like that suddenly? Seems like a drastic change..”

But your dad always brushed it off saying it was a phase that you were going through but Joel knew it was more than that.

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It had been a few months that you had been staying with Joel and Tess when one day after Joel and Tess went after Robert, Joel came back with a 14 year old girl named Ellie. You looked at Joel surprised and he pulled you aside to a room to talk about what was happening. He and Tess were going to deliver this girl to the fireflies at the capital and it wasn’t going to take them long.

“I wanna come.” you told Joel, he shook his head “Nah, just me ‘n Tess.. Too dangerous..” That answer didn’t satisfy you. “I’m coming with you. Whether you like it or not.” and you left to go where Ellie was. Joel chuckled lowly and shook his head again, he knew better than to argue with you, you were a little spitfire, just like your dad.

When your journey began you kept to yourself and only spoke if you heard something or needed something. Ellie tried to talk to you but you would only respond with a nod or a shake.

“What’s up with her.. Him? Nah her?” she asked Tess and Tess chuckled. “I don’t know, kid, she’s a nice lady, just quiet is all.” Joel took that chance to check up on you.

“Ya alright? Need anythin’?” you shook your head and Joel left you be.

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Your trip had gone sour, Tess was dead and now you were on route to Lincoln. Tess’ death hit you hard but you know you have to be strong for both Ellie and Joel. After you had all processed her death you figured it would be best to open up now since it was only the three of you left. You began talking more and found that you shared a lot of things in common with Ellie. You two became quickly attached and while Joel did his best to ignore you both, being the ever stoic and grumpy man he is, he was still really happy that you opened up.

Little by little Joel noticed a positive change in you, the sparkle in your eyes was slowly returning and now you openly were conversing and laughing with both Joel and Ellie. Your progress was quickly squandered though when Joel got hurt and by events with David, a creepy school teacher turned psycho cult leader. You took care of Joel while weeping silently, you were scared you were gonna lose the man you trusted, the man you felt safe with. You know you should’ve gone hunting, you know what happened with Ellie is your fault. You both scrambled as you tried to lead David and his men as far away from Joel as possible. But in the end you both got caught. You and Ellie were held in different areas but you panicked as you saw the disgusting look in his eyes. You knew exactly what he wanted to do with you and especially Ellie.

After what happened with Ellie it triggered your PTSD and you just held Ellie as you both wept. You both had been fairly quiet on the trip to the hospital. It killed Joel to not just see one of his girls be quiet and devoid of life but both of them. Especially since you had come such a long way.

That night when Ellie slept he approached you and asked if you both could talk. You agreed and followed him a little away from the camp not to disturb Ellie’s sleep but still keeping a close eye on her.

“Bunny… I’m sorry ‘bout what happened.. you ‘n Ellie didn’t deserve that.. I shoulda been there to protect y’all..” of course Joel blamed himself when it wasn’t his fault at all.. with a sigh you begin to speak. “It’s not your fault Joel.. it’s mine.. I should’ve been more careful towards Ellie.. she.. we..” you burst out crying and for once you felt the warm embrace of someone who loved you. You would cry by yourself at nights, not wanting to disturb your dad with your seemingly insignificant issues.. but for once you cry and you just get held.. you craved that more than anything else.. as much as it pained you, you told Joel everything that happened in the QZ for years before your father died.. he clenched his jaw and held you tighter..

“I wish ya woulda said somethin’ bunny.. never liked that freak anyway.. woulda killed ‘em for ya..” Joel whispers as his lips pressed into your hair. You chuckled and just let the tears fall. It felt good to get it off your chest, to let Joel in.. you felt safe, you felt secure in his arms.

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When you return to Jackson, you’re a whole new person. You and Joel live together in a house while Ellie lives in her shed. You’ve begun to let your hair grow out again, decorating it with cute hair accessories you would find, you’re wearing pretty, fitting clothing, even dresses! Joel sees how brightly you’re shining. No longer are you the shy quiet girl that people assumed was a brute boy. You changed totally. You were truly beautiful in his eyes. You were thankful for Joel, he made you feel safe, he made you feel true peace. Enough to where you felt like you didn’t have to protect yourself anymore, enough to where you could finally be yourself and not worry about getting hurt. He would protect you, he would be there for you. You were his bunny, you finally felt at home.

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[yuukei-yikes]

care for my kagepro au inspired by phineas and ferb across the 2nd dimension where they hang out in a dark undisclosed location and they all have knives

this is extremely over the top and supposed to be funny btw. ayano's plot hole plan that makes no sense doesn't work but from another angle. she gets spit back from the daze in the same way it doesn't make sense for her to stay in there and she's still in THE AIR FROM JUMPING so erm she shatters a leg and maybe her spine too. fun times. she walks with a limp now

ayano in the daze's like. but i wanted this -> i deserved this -> im guilty i got what i wanted though -> i deserve punishment -> this IS punishment -> but i wanted this (restart) SO in this scenario where she survived she's still struggling with guilt because she DARED try to take the easy way out when she knew her siblings needed her. so now she's edgelord I must protect my siblings i dont deserve my cape (edgily puts scarf away) also the eyepatch is for extra edgelord vibes but i think it'd be cool if she can't control favoring because she's so all over the place so it's always active, and since she feels so much regret she can only project that one memory of her jumping to ppl. sad. so she covers it for the sake of everyone.

because of ayano's survival it's evident kenjirou is posessed so ayano+mekatrio move out immediately and are in actual hiding from him. that's why they're at undisclosed location. seto brings mary with them. so ayano's like ok, saeru wants all the snakes together, they're all gonna gather anyway it's better to have them all in one place and have eyes on them. so she starts the gathering process herself. in this saeru is extremely just Out There cartoonishly taking over the city style i told you this is based on phineas and ferb. i told you. btw the joke is that it's insanely over the top. i just find it episodic and joyful.

also ayano's cold to shintaro because she can't afford to have her feelings for him distract her, she has no right to normal teenage girl feelings like a CRUSH. but shintaro still believes kano as ayano saying IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT was the real ayano which matches with her new behaviour towards him so he's extremely pathetic about it. he's with her through her entire recovery and becomes her right hand man which the trio HAAATE bc ayano doesn't let them do anything but shintaro can always come<3 their missions go from buying groceries to saving haruka and takane from the evil lab to kidnapping hibiya and hiyori. shit like that.

they get hibiya and hiyori and it's their BIGGEST PRIORITY to protect them because they're saeru's next target and if they can avoid having all snakes out it's by making sure these 2 stay alive. erm they don't wanna be there though. it's dark in here and you're all weird as hell. momo is tasked with babysitting them. she's not happy about it.

momo never gets her money controlled, dropped out from school since day 1 and the fame got to her head so she's kinda awful. she's the only one allowed out of wherever the fuck they are because of work she's literally the one paying 4 everything. toxic yuri situation with kido who has one side of their head shaved. you know how it goes. also kido acts rly tough like they're out there killing thugs and goons but mostly they just make food

takane is the medic in the same way barbers used to be surgeons in the middle age which means everyone tries really hard not to get hurt so they don't have to go to her. also saeru's whole Experiments on haruka and takane thing is a lot more evil and ermmm she has one less leg and she's permanently connected to a reactor thing of sorts so she's also the team's tech! woohoo!! it's unknown whether she got opening eyes or not because she has no idea how to activate it which makes ayano rly frustrated. same goes for haruka who has not woken up since aug 15. which is the main reason takane started watching youtube tutorials on medicine. get you a girl who will take care of you if you're in a coma and there is no access to a hospital.

seto and mary wield weapons for one reason or another. kano is extremely guilty about shintaro's guilt but also hates him more than ever bc ayano won't trust him anymore and now shintaro's the one knowing everything. probably some doomed yaoi in there somewhere. this is my evil kagepro au

[softness-and-shattering]

Oh while Im posting, I finally finished Blue Eye Samurai

SPOILERS

Im going beserk, Mizu set up a condition where he isnt dead "if I dont come back Im dead or Ive failed" and he DID fail. He did not kill Fowler. He got No But.

Akemi got Yes And. Akemi got everything she didnt even know she wanted. "I dont want to run away. I want to be great" and her dad "I raised you", so much dad stuff happening, Mizu is in a murder Mamma Mia here.

Taigen "didnt i kill you" "just look, and then kill me" "if its your fight then its my fight" "we're not finished" is he going to follow Mizu?

I also now desperately want to see Mizu struggling with English fashion. Hes a sneaky Samurai man and the clothing is different the food is different the culture shock is gonma be immense, there's gonna be a whole new racism hes gonna be so far out of his depth.

Akemi with the flames behind her auugghhhhh amazing showstopping. Reminds me of the GoT guys "we wanted to make memorable images" yeah hey you know you can do that *in service of story*???

"Youre only alive bc I will it".

And their turning points. I need to do a proper analysis of akemi and mizu as dramatic foils, but the onryo episode was the midpoint. Akemis gotten a taste of power, but its not going to come this way she wants. Its not going to come in the sexually liberated violent-blade "man" way, its going to be in politics and manipulation. Mizu ... mizu says no revenge is everything to me, and lets Akemi go and makes for Fowler. That was his last chance to turn away. Now Fowlers alive and theyre on a boat together.

What really struck me also is how much Fowler outclasses Mizu. He completely destroys him every fight. First episodes Mizu is like lightning, we're in awe, taking down the dojo and Taigen and the entire army. Half way point, he starts losing. We see the whole slog through Fowlers keep and he barely survives. Last couple episodes hes exhausted and bleeding. Fowler always has the upper hand. "Your bones break like a womans" is the hesitation that gave mizu long enough to get back on top but only briefly. Fowler is such a great villain though, that line and the one about waying his sisters organs "every bite". Shudder.

Thinking about if there are other foils. Ringo amd Taigen? Real-dad and the swordmaker? I wonder if Mizu will learn any english swordsmanship, does his ultimate sword synthesize both his heritages?

Speaking off do yall believe his "mom" was actually a maid? Idk what to think I dont trust Fowler but it does make a kind of sense. Or is it just to keep Mizu intrigued and off balance enough for him to get out of there alive? I bave so many thoughts

[journey-to-the-attic]

oooooh it is so very late at night and I am having #thoughts #emotional #notclickbait

thinking about how in the grand scheme of things IK is like. inherently the bravest being in the devildom

Mind You it's not even to do with the massive amounts of trauma she's been through, it's solely because she is a human

Humans lives are like a second long compared to these centuries (eons even) old demons- she knows virtually nothing in the grand scheme of things compared to them

And yet despite her knowing nothing (and being aware that she knows nothing and could die at any second) she still walks forward with little hesitance, trusting and learning and growing which is the bravest thing you can really do as a human (imo)

Even just the fact that she lives knowing she could die at literally any moment makes her braver than like. half the cast. because while yes they have all been through their respective traumas, they still live for HUNDREDS of THOUSANDS of years, and every like. 200 years or so they'll maybe once think 'man i've been alive a long time' and continue on with their day

IK, as a human, looks around at just. the place she's in. and registers that virtually anything there could kill her and says 'yeah I could probably survive'

I honestly feel like it awes the others, especially given their lack of knowledge on humans. If I was a demon I'd be like 'shouldn't thinking about dying break your brain or smth' and here's this baby walking around like 'hey how many ounces of fucking cyanide could I chug before things start getting serious'

And I rewatched Finding Nemo recently and pictured this scene with Lucifer and IK and I think I severely dehydrated myself with how much I cried

IK: "He says to let go! Everything is gonna be alright!!"

Lucifer: "How do you know?! How do you know something bad isn't going to happen?!"

IK: "I don't!"

SHE KNOWS NOTHING!! SHE HAS NO KNOWLEDGE OF HOW FATE CARRIES HER OR WHAT SORT OF INEXPLICABLE DANGERS LIE AHEAD OR EVEN THE BASICS OF HOW MAGIC WORKS AND YET SHE BRAVES THE UNKNOWN ANYWAYS AMD LUCIFER IS IN AWE!!!!!! IM GOING TO BE SICK

this is us right now THAT'S OUR GIRL

for real though. it's like watching a baby bird fly for the first time. it's tiny and helpless and could be crushed in an instant in a predator's jaws, but it clambers out of the nest and jumps for the sky anyway, even if it could very well smash itself to pieces on the rocks below

one of my favourite genres of character tbh... i love that baby bird so dearly

[alucid-dreamer]

❝𝒀𝒐𝒖'𝒓𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒖𝒏 𝒊𝒏 𝒎𝒚 𝒆𝒚𝒆𝒔.. 𝒀𝒐𝒖'𝒓𝒆 𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝑰 𝒏𝒆𝒆𝒅❞

𖤓.𖥔 ݁ ˖𝐌𝐲 𝐒𝐮𝐧.𖥔 ݁ ˖𖤓

Protologue

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Tw: This is a fanfic with multiple chapters and parts. It will contain [Heavily descriptive Violence, Descriptive blood, Fem Reader, Spoilers of KNY/Demon Slayer, & Smut (in later parts)]

Paring: ᐟᐟ Slayer!Tanjiro × Succubus!Reader ᐟᐟ

𝐒𝐲𝐧𝐨𝐩𝐬𝐢𝐬: ❝Muzan decideded to try something new. Instead of bloodlust. A Demon with Lust. You turn against him. And fall you for, A Human..?❞

A/N: OMG, THIS TOOM WAY LONGER THAN I EXPECTED<3, but I'm proud of this !! I'm gonna say this series is gonna be part-time. So when I have motivation to write I'll write for this. BUT IM WORKING ON CHAPTER 1 !! But let me stop. I like this. I'm proud of it. Hope you like it!!

Word count: 1.8k+ words

Running through the woods. Her heart was pounding as the snow crunched under her feet. The ringing in her ear became overwhelming as she collapsed to the ground crawling. Before her eyes became heavy. "It's ok.. I'll help you.."

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It was a normal day for you. Wake up, go outside and chop wood, grab water from the lake, take a shower and chop yourself some wood, go down to the local village, sell the wood, and go back home with some extra wood. But this time it felt off. Every Time you went outside you felt..

Watched. Like someone's eyes were on you. Walking up the mountain the sun setting as the sound of crunchy snow was under your feet. The sun being gone you felt uneasy, noises all around you that you could feel. As you made it back home you set the wood down outside before feeling something behind you.

You quickly turned around fumbling to the ground as you looked around quickly seeing nothing. Your breathing becomes uneven quickly. Something felt awful. But you couldn't tell what it was. You felt something. It wasn't familiar feeling–

You coughed as you felt someone grab you by the neck. Your legs are swinging, kicking. Trying to get this person away from you. "You're quite the beauty.." It sounded like a man. His hands were cold. Like the snow.

You struggled as he dropped you to the ground. Holding your neck and breathing you felt something poke you "Let's see if this will finally work" the male said. You began to shake uncontrollably as you tried to move.

"Now that I've given you so much of my blood, let's see if you can actually survive on just lust," the man said. He was speaking nonsense. What does he mean? Is he insane? You thought to yourself as you scurried away

You hurried crawling, trying to get away from this monster. Feeling whatever he inserted inside you coursing through your veins. You got on your feet quickly looking at the man. Scarlett red eyes looked back at you piercing through your body. You shook as you turned around Running

That's how you got into this situation. Laying on the cold snow as someone was in front of yelling at that monster.

Your body went limp. Your body felt weak. But strong at the same time. You tried to open your eyes one last time to see a red head crouching next to you. Your breathing was heavy as he looked back at you.

The monster being gone. "Are you ok?" He quickly asked as he stood next to your side. You cried as you began to yell "Monster! He! Did this to me!" You yelled. Your voice is raspy and dry. you felt your body become hot.

"What's your name..?" He asked as he petted your arm "..Y-Y/n" you said softly as your eyes got heavy and he held onto you. "It's okay. I'll help you.." he said as you closed your eyes. Feeling your heart thump faster as you drifted into slumber

You slowly awaken to a room. You looked around, seeing an empty room. 'Why were you here?' 'What is this place?' 'Where is your home?' 'Why is it so dark?' 'Why is my head pounding?'. You scurry around before feeling footsteps come closer to the room you were in. You back into a corner quickly, panicking; only to see the same red-haired boy that saved you.

"It's okay. I come in peace" he said softly. Like a whisper. His voice sounded so warm and fuzzy. So comforting. He slowly walked over to you, kneeling down in front of you. You hugged your knees

"hey.. it's ok.." he said as he reached out to you. His voice makes you feel fuzzy and calm. He sounded so sweet.... You slowly looked at him up and down. You unfolded your legs and crawled over to his lap sitting in his arms

"Can you still speak..?" He said. You nodded your head "mmhn" you hummed as he held you in his arms. He's different.. when you touched his arm.. you felt warmth, like pure warmth. He automatically made you feel safe.

With you only touching his arms. You opened your mouth to speak but decided to stay quiet. "My name is Tanjiro Kamado.." he started off with as he petted your head "I'm part of the demon slayer corps.." you've heard of that before

You never really got more information than they protect humans from 'Demons' which you believed in..

You nodded in understanding "And from your scent.. You're also a demon" he said as he looked at you and you looked at him wide-eyed and in disbelief. Your bottom lip shivered as you felt tears well in your eyes

'No no no..' You thought to yourself. A demon..? How could you..? Was that what that monster meant? For you to be a demon. . .?

"But I won't hurt you..!" He said quickly to calm you down. You nodded as you buried your face in his chest. You let out quiet sniffles as he rubbed your back to calm you down

"Don't worry. Your scent is different. You won't hurt anyone.. you're- you're and innocent person" he smiled as you slowly stopped crying and looked up at him

"You're safe along as you're with me.." he said as he looked down at you. You nodded as you closed your eyes. You are feeling light headed. You felt as he laid you down in the same corner away from the window as he stood up. You watched as he left, giving you a goodnight. You smiled softly as you drifted to sleep

Y/n stood in front of a box. Tanjiro next to you. She looked at him with a confused blank expression as she looked back at the box. "D-Don't worry! She's shy!" He tapped in the box again "Nezuko! It's someone I want you to meet! A new friend" he softly spoke. The door to the brown box opened slowly as a tiny girl with black hair popped her head out of the box

Y/N had stars twinkle in her eyes as she saw the tiny girl. Tanjiro’s sister. Oo! It was so cute! Y/n quickly hugged Nezuko as the small girl had a confused look on her face. Y/n looked quickly putting Nezuko down. Y/n let out her hand for Nezuko to shake. Y/n saw her look at Tanjiro, him giving her a nod as she crawled on Y/n's lap. She smiled softly as she petted the smaller girl's head.

“She’s very pretty..” She said softly, finally opening her mouth. Tanjiro smiled as he nodded. He opened his mouth to ask her the next question. “Do you think you can shrink like her..?” he asked, and you looked at him with a confused face. Nezuko looked up at her older brother. “Can you show her what I mean..?” he asked. Nezuko looked at her brother and nodded as she moved away from Y/n's lap quickly

She let her arms open out as she shrunk smaller than what she was before. Now she was like the size of your leg! Y/N looked at Tanjiro. She looked back at Nezuko before standing up and trying her best. She shut her eyes and felt her legs shorten as she quickly opened her eyes again to see she was the size of nezuko. She ran to nezuko, hugging her tightly as nezuko hugged her back. Tanjiro clapped his hands and laughed softly. “Ok, now, let's get you two in the box” he said as he opened the box wide. Nezuko held onto my hand and she guided me to the box. Tanjiro grabbed an extra bamboo muzzle just like Nezuko handed it to her. y/n put it on like nezuko and clapped her hands together “Good girl!” Tanjiro said, praising her. She felt her stomach twist as he closed the box. She turned to see Nezuko nuzzling into her. Y/N a smile crept onto her face as she closed her eyes and slept with Nezuko

Y/N shook as she saw the scene before her. Tanjiro was fighting a demon as Nezuko was fighting another. Lady Tamayo was helping Yushiro as his top head was missing. She was scared. Being a coward! But she didn't know what to do- did she move? Should she stay still? Before she could get up Lady Tamayo grabbed her hand softly as she led her downstairs. She sat down and waited for Tanjiro as Nezuko ran around in a playful mood. She smiled at Nezuko as she played with Nezuko. Playing tag.

She saw Tanjiro and walked to him, hugging him tightly. Nezuko booped her on her back and Y/n chased after her.

She heard Yushiro speak up to Tanjiro. "Why is she so quiet.. you've said she has talked to you, correct?" He asked Tanjiro. Tanjiro looked at me

"She just.. stays quiet. Around Me and Nezuko she talks but I guess she just talks to the ones she's close to.." he said as he watched me and Nezuko run is circles

Tyshuro hummed in understanding as he crossed his arms. "Both of these Demons seem special.." Lady Tamayo. Tanjiro looked at her in confusion

"What do you mean..?" He asked as he looked at Lady Tamayo. "Nezuko is your sister correct?" She asked again. Tanjiro nodded "But Y/n is not?" He nodded again. "So it is impossible for them to be the same" Yushiro said quickly "She didn't sleep as long as your sister. If she doesn't drink blood. Then how can she replenish herself?" Yushiro finished

Tanjiro looked at Y/N and Nezuko, Nezuko under Y/N. Y/N playing with Nezuko's hair

"I.. really don't know.." he said looking back at Lady Tamayo and Yushiro

"But I'm sure I'll figure it out," He said as she got up. Lady Tamayo nodded. She opened her mouth and offered Tanjiro. "What if. I will take Y/N and Nezuko with us..?" She said, She continued trying to maybe convince Tanjiro to let her take Y/N and Nezuko. Y/N looked at them. She stood up with Nezuko's hand in hers, taking her over to Tanjiro. They stood next to Tanjiro side by side grabbing onto his hands and squeezing it slightly in a comforting way

"Thank you, Ms Tamayo. But they both will be staying with me…" he started off "Nothing is never gonna break us apart" he said as he looked at her and Nezuko. Ms Tamayo smiled softly as Tanjiro told them to run in the box. Y/N and Nezuko felt him pick them up in the box. As he began to walk. She felt Nezuko fall asleep on her. She stayed awake listening to Tanjiro speak. She smiled softly as she closed her eyes and fell asleep

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[twocrabcake]

alright here’s the deal

i’m gonna make a percentage of how many trap victims/related persons survive

wish me luck this is gonna be tedious 🫡

it’s been an hour or two since i wrote that lol i got busy

idk i’m starting when its like 12am????

survived: iiiiiiiiii

not: iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

special (survived): iiiiiii

special (not): iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

special is either 1 the game was rigged or 2 they beat the game but died some other related way (ex: adam) 3 or if it was up to somebody else to save you as part of their game (ex: eric matthews, like a lot of them actually)

special good is when it was rigged/something was against them or different but they still beat it. hold on hold up i’m looking for an example rn. ok the secretary lady deborah or something she was in a trap out of her control but she survived.

(timing these for some reason) 1:12 am

dude idk where to put matthews bc his first game was a fluke and he survived but he was also like saved? idk man i’ll think about it (i put him in special died OH GOD NO LOOK AT NOTES)

i can’t put my headcanons/theory’s in here okay cowabummer dude (i have to put adam in dead i’m sorry ok)

1:20 (^im realizing now a shit ton of these fall into the special category whoopsies maybe i got too specific)

1:28 aw dude the fatal 5 are gonna suckkkk bc they’re all working together and linked and connected and shit fhhhghh

1:33 okay dude the steam lady is difficult bc the first half was a special but the last wasn’t. fuck it im just gonna say she could have survived the burns herself

1:40 can’t decide if the first and rebooted games from jigsaw should be put in together or if they should be separate. i just finished i smoked an entire bowl and i am trying my best here ok

1:50 the train guys is rigged they don’t explicitly say it but there’s no way

1:58 alright. fucking finally. that experience was just a downward spiral haha get it bc i hate that movie. also hate jigsaw the movie jigsaw. this was very unpleasant once i’m done with this shit i’m gonna fall asleep to saw 5 or smthn.

2:02 i have to use a counter online bc i’m too tired to count all those little i bitches

2:06 the fruits of my labor. my creation. behold

Pie chart

there we fucking go. a ratio. OH MY GOD THEY FUCKING SEPARATED THE 2 DEADS IM GONNA KILL. YOU. YOU WILL BE BOILED.

oh thank god

ok so there it is. the ratio of victims that survived and victims who’ve perished in jigsaws traps. you don’t know how much footage i’ve skimmed through. 1 like=1 ass kicking for to me because what was i thinking

me laying down in bed after this ↓

WAIT NO I FORGOT TO INCLUDE FUCKING ERIC MATTHEWS. THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE FUN.

2:18 ok here it is. the real true official one.

sorry for all that. thank you for accompanying me on this task. i did not have fun. except when i was watching 1-3d but then after that it sucked. 1-3d even took up almost all of the view time but the last bits were so unpleasant it threw that all out the window. gonna go watch one of the original saw movies. you can tell saw x will be good bc it has saw in the name. the title. oh my god oh god i’m realizing i forgot people. i think i forgot bobby. what the hell man screw this i’m going to sleep. i’ll deal with it when i wake up and wonder what the fuck i was on last night. thank you for joining me on this journey of a mental breakdown everybody. a mental spiral, even, if you will. i’m imagining cheesy ending scene music like the character/actor is thanking the audience. signing, logging off at 2:34 am. goodnight everyone.

[absolutely-normal-about-x]

IF Zero were to survive. How would he adjust his new life in the Reborn AU?

OH HOHO MF WOULD ESCAPE DEATH THE 4TH FUCKINB TIME WOULD OF BEEN HILARIOUS. BUT ALSO IT BRINGS UP A FUN SCENARIO TO COOK UP IF THAT BLONDIE BASTARD SURVIVES .

Long post ahead cause I have so many, many thoughts

Im still pondering a bit about it, but I was considering a fun little scenario that if Zero was able to be brought back before the events of Legends 1. He would of been active for a while before X and the guardians were even found. He could of just adjusted decently aside that he had to deal with being a carbon ahahah.

Hiding his identity as Zero and going by a different name and appearance (still has his golden pony twin but the once bright blond has changed to a more duller one) He would of looked worse for wear as his Armor has been cracked and replaced with different parts but still retained his fighting abilities with a saber. If the Z-Saber survives or not he’s still a strong swordsman.

Taking on as a Nomadic Digger, wandering around across Terra fighting against dangerous reaper bots and giving away his found refractors to local communities. Pretty much doing his own thing. He doesn’t directly get involved unless it’s necessary. He’s kinda lonely at the same time not having ANYONE that he knows even alive in his era can mess him up a little I mean this isn’t his first time waking up in a post apocalyptic world. But this world is different so…carefree and peaceful it makes him confused but glad but at the same time has a feeling that something’s up.

Being strong that he is would of been well known as the “Crimson Wanderer”. Forming a scary reputation of himself taking out pirates and reaper while being scary as fuck. He’s kinda grown to be a boogie man for Pirates but also to folks cause Zero is kinda scary and doesn’t talk to much these days. Bro have you seen how he fights?

He would of ran into Volnutt by accident when the boy’s dig job gone awry. It was a simple job but it turns out the Reaperbot at the time was too much for him luckily Zero was near by to help out. Taking out the Reaperbot with ease, when he turns around to see if the kid is alright.

The moment he Looked at Volnutt’s awed eyes it sends him back when he saved X from Vile in Central Highway all those years ago. He stood there staring at him before getting snapped out by that said kid thanking him for saving him.

Zero regains his composure saying that it’s nothing and be more careful. Volnutt nervously laughed saying that in he should of been more careful with the hidden traps, asking his savior if he’s looking for something in these ruins maybe reflactors. Only for him to deny and says he’s just finished a job is about to leave before giving the Boy a large refractor suprising him. Before Volnutt would say something zero tells him to be more careful next time before heading off before Volnutt could ask his name.

He’s confused about this man who was he? Isn’t he the Crimson Wanderer? Well at least he saved his live and gave him the refractor that he’s looking for! But some reason deep down in a gut feeling, this isn’t the last time he’s gonna see that man.

As for Zero, he couldn’t understand why he saw X as that boy. He’s curious of that boy something’s telling him he’s gonna have to keep an eye on him for now on and will. Since that first encounter Zero kept an eye on Volnutt, just to see what he got of course. Even running into him and that blond girl from time to time. The more he looks at him the similarities between him and X are more apparent. Is it just a coincidence? It probably is I mean it’s been thousands of Years there’s no way anyone knows about him and the rest of the hunters. But deep down he knows this isn’t a simple coincidence and he’s going to get into the bottom of this.

A week before Legends 1 , Volnutt ends up with a Digging job that coincidentally runs into Zero. He uses the opportunity of ask him some curios questions to try to get him to open up a little. He didn’t say much at first but slowly throught the job he was able to open a little bit about himself to the boy. But also Zero asks the boy questions about himself. Getting to know him a little more. They eventually have to fight the reaverbot together and again Zero couldn’t help but to see X in him. They have a little bit of a bonding before completing the job but before they part ways Volnutt asks the Man his name, zero smirked and said.

“Call me Z kid”

Then walks away leaving a bit of an impression on the boy…he hopes to see that Z again.

And now folks we cut forward to kind of present day with when the fam was discovered.

Zero begins to hear a little bit of gossip about Volnutt’s family catching his attention but didn’t mind until they mentioned the Guardians as Volnutt’s siblings and their Mysterious father. He chokes on his drink shocked at the mention of the 4 guardians…There’s no fucking way…there’s no way.

And knowing who the guardians are related if Volnutt is their “Brother” that must also means that…

It all makes sense but at the same time how

He does investigations to learn about this situation.

It leads him to Kattletox island, running into Volnutt who was just coming home from buying some groceries for dinner. He was surprised to see “Z” again asking him how’s he’s been and what is he doing here on the island. He says he’s fine and asks if it’s true that the Guardians are his siblings, as the boy happily replied with a yes. It was only then he felt watched telling Volnutt to get behind to him only before pointing at his weapon at a not so happy Phantom. Who’s been patrolling having a bad feeling the moment that he saw him coming to the island then talking to his little Brother.

Ah typical phantom dispute his strange appearance it’s him alright…and he was starring Daggers on him holding on his weapon demanding to explain before Volnutt try to lower the tension. Calming Phantom down explaining this is “Mr. Z” that saved his life before he’s fine. By Zero’s surprise Phantom’s harsh experience changed one with Softness towards Volnutt saying that he didn’t knew this “Z” was this man before turning back to Zero, his soft expression changed into a serious one before returning to his soft expression towards his little brother. Volnutt wonders if it’s okay to invite Z for Dinner…Phantom reluctantly says yes.

Volnutt smiles asking Z if he wants to come to dinner, not surprised Zero accepts the offer but notices that Phantom was eyeing on him. So the 3 of them went off to the home through the walk there Zero couldn’t help to feel that Phantom is looking at him suspiciously like while he listens to Volnutt chatting with him. When they finally made it to the home….

Volnutt calling out to anyone that he and Phantom are home and brought in a Guest. When the door was opened time stopped for Zero of the person was who opened it….

X

It’s no doubt it’s him.

Even without his armor, wearing an apron that says “I heart Food”. he’s still the same and yet…he’s older, grizzled, his build is soft still strong. Having an X-shaped scar on his right eye. With slightly longer hair that is brained with a white streak. His eyes still holds that spark but has been aged with time and experience.

Volnutt ran towards X happily exclaiming “Dad!. X’s expression lights up when he sees his child rushing towards him giving him a Hug. X laughs happily welcoming his youngest child home giving the boy a warm smile.

A far cry to a once sorrowful man, who’s filled with regret and sorrow.

He’s happy

X looks over Phantom with the same warm smile welcomes his other youngest home, before glancing at “Z”. He asks Volnutt who is this person that he and phantom brought over.

Volnutt happily saying that this is “Z” the man he talked about before. X turns back towards “Z” his eyes locked into his.

It was on instinct as X calls towards Phantom to come to the house while he speaks at Z. Phantom quickly complies giving his father a “Do you think it’s him?” Look before heading towards home with his little brother. Volnutt looks at this father concerned and confused of why. Before being pulled by Phantom saying that they should get ready and their father has it cover.

Zero was this close to turn around never wanting to ruin the peace that his best friend has earned. X approches and stops him asking him a single question.

“Do you think I’m dumb? That description and the information that have …is it really you…Zero?”

He wanted to lie and leave but it’s Obvious…X is not moron he can tell it’s him, despite how he looks and how dulled he has become he can recognize him from a mile away…he nods then gives X his familiar snirk

“The one and only, it’s good to see you buddy you look like you get a lil sloppy there”

Simply without warning, He was greeted by a swift sucker punch in the face by X himself knocking him on the ground.

“THE HELL WAS THAT FOR!?”

“That’s what you get for calling me sloppy but also”

He offers a hand to lift him up something that Zero gladly did. Before pulling his old friend into a hug. Zero can hear X crying with tears of joy followed by laughter.

“Welcome back to the land of the living again you Old Bastard”

Zero didn’t say much…but for X’s surprised he hugs him back.

“It’s good to be back”

The two old friends laughed together before walking towards the home, it seems that for the first time in a Long Long Long time. They are at peace before x happily takes his old friend back home for Dinner.

This is going to be an interesting Dinner.

[iwasforcedtomakethisbytum]

What texas playing Minecraft for the first time would roughly look like

Texas is playing with a controller with headphones under his hat, Florida standing behind him, watching.

California walks into the living room and spots them both "hey guys whatcha doing?"

"hey cali, look i taught texas how to play Minecraft" Florida points to the screen, Texas's character having seeds, wool, a bunch of different meats, some bones, string, and arrows. His health about half missing and no hunger bars

"uhh why is he starving to death?"

"yeah.... I don't think he knows he can eat what he has, eh but don't worry, it's easy mode he won't starve" Florida whispers

"what?! You said you taught him how to play Minecraft! Why doesn't he know how to eat?" He whispered back

"well i taught him how to look, how to jump and how to Walk, and i set up the game for him, i decided to just let him figure out the rest" (just assume they're whispering until i say otherwise)

"wha?! So he just can't do anything?"

"no, he can kill others and himself!"

"well of course he would die, you didn't teach him how to survive!"

"well he's also learned he can respawn as much as he wants and has started killing himself to recover his health!"

"wow simply wonderful" California rolled his eyes

"uhh Florida, what am i supposed to do? Am i supposed to find something to advance in the game? Do i need to get something to start?" Texas moves his headphones off his ears "oh hey California"

"uhh how about you look for a village, just keep walking you can't miss it!" Florida faces texas back to the screen putting his headphones back on

"c'mon cali-dude, just watch this with me, it's so funny!" Florida

After a little while of texas walking around finding and getting killed in the village (they're not whispering at this point)

"aw man!!" Florida leaned over onto the couch

California walked back into the room "I'm back, what happened?"

"oh i was trying to kill the iron golem to advance in the game!" Texas turned around

"what?"

"yeah i was trying to kill it in order to get forward in the game, but i think I'm supposed to do something else first, the boss just killed me instantly"

Florida Snickers and California just sighs taking the controller from Texas

"hey! Give that back!"

"texas you don't even know what game you're playing, im gonna show you how to play"

(and that's all, i had this idea in my brain for a few seconds so i decided to finally write something down)

[kurjakani]

FOR THE CHARACTER ASK THING!!!!! Im quite curious about your peter lucas thoughts, whats goin on with that old man?

SEND ME A CHARACTER AND I’LL DO THIS;

PHEW THANK YOU I LOVE TALKING ABT THIS MAN. I'm gonna say. I definetly have a bit of a version of him in my head - it's been ages since I listened to MAG and he's kind of taken a life of his own. Also sorry i got so rambly here man i. Ill b real im lik3 right abt to fall asleep but i got exited abt him so here i go nevertheless..m

Sexuality Headcanon: HMM like. Bi. I dont think i can imagine him call himself that tho.

Gender Headcanon: old man. Like thats a part of his gender identity, being old.

A ship I have with said character: w MEEEE. My mag self insert. Lol. But yeah i am not that into the lonely eyes ship, just. Bc i do not care abt Elias all that much! I don't know many ships that include him otherwise. I haven't seen mary keay and plukas shipping but I'd love to. Idk. Awful vibes i think it could be great. Salesa maybe??? But I feel like its more like. Plukas likes looking at Salesa and Salesa kinda forgets hes even there sometimes.

A BROTP I have with said character: martin please. Please martin hang out w him tricking him into thinking ur getting more into the lonely but ur actually occupying his space and u are drifting away from the lonely TOGETHER. Also if u guys have heard the tim & plukas behind the scenes jokes abt cayacking and train documentaries. Yeah that too theyre """"buddies""""

A NOTP I have with said character: haven't come across anything that bothers me !

A random headcanon: i am really split on weather he barely eats or if he's like, a lowkey foodie. Idk why.

General Opinion over said character: For me I do view him as someone HURT by his loneliness, though in the show, if I recall right, he seems quite content? With his existance. Or says he is, and how he's drawn to it.

I will say- I partially mirror some of my own experiences of loneliness onto him. I was so afraid of opening up to people at one point that I convinced myself that I WANTED to be all alone. I used to want to move into a little cottage in the woods and cut off all contact to people. But it was a self destructive coping mechanism. At points a survival mechanism. Maybe canonically Peter Lukas is a reliable narrator?

I recall him talking about the warm glow coming from the windows of houses though, and the loneliness it made him feel- if i'm attributing this right. And i have a really hard time contributing that to anything but YEARNING. And reveling in yearning. I also have experience w that. Yearning is a DELIGHTFUL feeling.

So yeah I think I do find a lot of comfort in the version of Plukas I have in my head.

Honestly he's burrowed a little nest into my head abd become something beyond a little blorbo from my shows.

Like i have thought about marrying him as a performance art piece. But i dont think rustied featherpen would like that.

Anyways hes the hands. I reach out to the old hands with swelled joints and paper thin skin almost translucent yet the palest veins i ever did see like they'v been drained. Bro. He is the medival manuscript where the sun orbits the earth and that's his eyes and where they land on me. He is so far away and like honey 2 me bro

[razberrypuck]

JRWI EP 100 LIVEBLOG UNDER THE CUT FOR EXTRA SPOILER PROTECTION

"the journey begins, for the 100th time" "you bet your tiddies it does" JWJFJEJTJH

ohh they're having a good time something's gonna go horribly wrong

earl bbeg real

wetma gills

"words hard. me tired. me drunk." jay I love you jsjfjejf

enza gonna help jay make a new body for alphonze 👀

drey disconnected w/the group?

"the longer you're down there, the more it twists you" ohh that's not good. instantly worried about arlin.

"if arlin's still down there, it's because it couldn't." "that man had a big ol' heart, even that giant body couldn't fit it." DREYYYYYY

"Sometimes I think I should dive in there alone. But I know I'm not strong enough without them" CHIP. CHIP YOURE GONNA KILL ME.

chip and drey are gonna KILL me augh

"we're gonna go down there, and we're gonna bust him out. whatever happens happens. we'll survive. we always do." RRGHHDHHDG

AW GILLION JSHFJJEJGJFJF

"sometimes its good to be bad jay give me the word" LMAOOOOO

GILLION SOUNDS LIKE HES GONNA START CRYING BRO JSHFJDJ

QUEEN KSHFJDJDUW

WOOO DOWNTIME❗️❗️❗️

HES MAILING CASPIAN'S PRESENTS!!!!!!!!

"happy birdday! you can nae nae, but now you can... ;)" JSJFJDJG GILL

" 'Well, for you...' he gets lost in your eyes for a second" JWJFJSJGJEJJTJ

NAT 20 ON RIZZING RIZZ RIZZ

"EVERYONE now has cannons and healing potions except for ME!!!!!!!!" gill in his spoiled brat arc

NEW TITLE GILLION TIDESTRIDER RIZZ REVEREND

"We are so, so unbelievably wanted" "they WANT us"

TWO CANNONS AND ONE BALLISTA HELL YES????

ohh I love enza

forgot abt cliff hangar

IS HE RIZZING UP CLIFF???????

"To know the books, you need to have read the books, where the FUCK are the books, Jay???????"

GILL TRYING TO RIZZ UP CLIFF NOW

HES PLAYING ALONG??? JAY TRIED TO GIVE HIM THE GOLD AND HE STOPPED HER??????????

"A world that's turned it's back / it's seas be turned to black / the black sea is all that's left / history be put to rest / the survivors will rewrite it / fight on, fight on until united / hope our wrongs be righted / flee the black sea at last / free from it at last

why are gill and chip so down to flirt with people today jsjfjsjd

CAPTAIN FIVE O' CLOCK SHADOW JSIFJDJJF

CAPTAIN HENDRIX. TIEFLING. REGAL BUT RELAXED. IF THIS MFER ISNT NIKLAUS HES GOTTA BE RELATED TO HIM RIGHT

FINN TIDESTRIDER FINN TIDESTRIDER FINN TIDESTRIDER

the island of frozen roses ooh

ohhhh he just wrote about their journeys. ik its like obvious but that means so much to be actually.

OHHHHHHH OLLIES ROOM OH MY GODDDDDDD

OH FUCK OFF HES GIVING HIM ARLIN'S COIN OH MY GOD OH MY GOD

BIZLY YOURE GOING TO KILL ME IM GOING TO DIE BIZLY THIS IS SO NICE

"even when you are old and decrepit, you will always be our small boy, who we keep on the ship, and in our hearts" thank you gill

chip don't grill her about this now godddd.

CAPTAIN SHADOWBEARD IS OLLIES DAD

bellamy. oh bellamy. im so sorry.

captain shadowbeard was the last pirate lord that went missing ohhh my god. it was a year ago. and when ollie went missing months later. oh my god this poor woman.

"You guys are gonna get attacked tonight" grizz ik you're joking but I don't fucking trust you at all

ALPHOZE ALPHONZE ALPHONZE

DANGER INCOMING???

THEY JUST LEFT THE ISLAND

KIRA I LOVE YOU BUT NO

JAY YOURE GONNA BOARD THEIR SHIP????

THERE HE IS. FUCK OFF JAYSON GO AWAY GO AWAY GO AWAY

Gillion what are you planning 👀

"jay who did you see" "oh just my father and kira you know" "oh"

THE SWORD IS IN HIS FUCKING CHEST STILL LMAOOOOOOOOOOO

DREY PANICKING LMAO

FUCK OFF JAYSON FUCK OFF JAYSON FUCK OFF JAYSON FUCK OFF JAYSON FUCK OFF JAYSON

YOOOOOOOOOO GILLION CLUTCH??????

GILLION CLUTCH GILLION CLUTCH

JAYSON YOU CHEATING BASTARD

HELLO PIXEL ART THIS IS SO COOL?????????

CHIP DONT LEAVE THEM????

DONT FUCKING LAUGH LIKE THAT GRIZZ

gillion less clutch than expected.........

alphonze is gonna die again bro they JUST got him back! AND the boat!

Gillion absorb elements pog

QUEEN JSHFJDJFJFH LOVE YOU

thank you alphonze we love you alphonze <3

USING THE WHALEBONE SWORD TO CAST SPELLS ON JAYSON????

jayson I hate you smile

TRAP HIM IN THE FUCKING MIRROR JAY GET HIS ASS

GET HIS ASS JAY GET HIS ASS

"You could be found innocent, by the way" "not for what I'm about to do :)"

MOTHER MOON JSJFJDJ

CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT GILL ISNT SCARED OF JAYSON ANYMORE❗️❗️❗️❗️❗️

GILLION CLUTCH ONCE AGAIN

MOTHEFUCKER HAS LEGENDARY ACTIONS I FORGOT

HE STOLE JAY'S BRAND BRO

"DAMN looks like you're as good a shot as you are a PARENT" "your quips only seal your fate" "damn, were you already burning?" gillion tidestrider I love you

"Your fighting is meaningless, for your gods have fallen" HELLO JAYSON WHAT DOES THAT MEAN???? IM NOT MOVING ON FROM THIS DID THE ARTIFICIAL LEVIATHAN PLAN WORK??????? ARE YOU JUST PSYCHING GILL OUT?????????????

YOOOOO GRYFFON MVP FOURTH CAPTAIN

"If they miss, I will roll to hit gillion"

CANNON #1 HITS JAYSON FUCK YES QUEEN!!!!!!!!!!!

EARL FUCKING WHIFS IT

gets harpooned in the ass and stabbed further in the chest sjfjeh

gill is so fucking funny engaging w/jayson lmao

"she's a BIRD are you PROUD OF HER YET? she has WINGS and they're COOLER THAN YOURS and they generate more LIFT" gill hyping up jay to her dad my beloved

makes eye contact with a fucking wizard. drops disguise and said "aight you handle these monkeys I got shit to do"

isn't the whole crew on the ship? or does grizz just mean on top deck

gryffon I love you

RETURN OF 5 FT GILL

HOLY SHIT?????? 10 FT TALL THUNDER GOD GILLION

YOU MOTHEFUCKER???????

NAT 20 DEX SAVE FROM GILLION HOLY SHIT HE DESERVES THIS❗️❗️❗️❗️❗️ GILLION ON THAT KING SHIT TODAY

ANOTHER SHIP????

MARSHALL JOHN THE GRANDBERRY PIRATES MY FUCKING BELOVED

"IF YOU KILLED MY GODS HOW IS MARSHALL JOHN RIGHT HERE?!"

PROPHETIC SCREW UP STRIKES ONCE AGAIN

CASPIAAAAAAN

"YO IS THIS GUY FUCKING BOTHERING YOU?!" LOVE YOU LIZZIE

"I can deal with that later. But right now, you're attacking my friends. And I can tell you have no intention to spare them. So I'll give you the same treatment back. So you're gonna attack me, or...I'm gonna take you down." JAY JAY JAY JAY JAY JAYYYYYY

APPLY HUNTERS MARK BY PUNCHING HIM IN HIS UGLY ASS FUCKING FACE GET HIS ASS GET HIS ASS GET HIS ASS

"I thought you said next time you saw me, I wouldn't be your daughter anymore." "Now that I've seen how much you've changed, I mean it" go fuck yourself jayson <3

GRYFFON WAIT GRYFFON ARE YOU OKAY GRYFFON IF YOU DIE I WILL LOSE MY MIND

GILLION HEAL YOURSELF FOR THE LOVE OF GOD

GRIZZ IF YOU FUCKING KILL GILL AGAIN ISTG

GILLION HEAL YOURSELF

"if Jay's still fighting, I am too."

"Nice try, but Ollie's mom was way more pissed 😎"

lizzie??? did you??? did you actually kill ava or are you surprised???

GILL GOING CRAZY WITH THE NAT 20s

"It's okay I can dodge it!" the mentality of the episode

JSJFJSJF HE ABANDONS SHIP WITH THE WIZARD HES TAKING THE WIZARD HES A FRIEND

I fully believe lizzie didn't kill ava actually. don't believe jayson at all fuck this guy

If Gryffon is dead. If Gryffon is dead.

GILLION. GILLION ASKING JAY IF SHE CAN DO THIS. GILLION SUPPORTING JAY THIS WHOLE EP. RRRRIVHFGR IM GONNA DIE

gillion: just let me know where you need me. And I'll be there.

jay: right now you're right where you need to be. thank you.

gillion: aye aye, captain.

MARSHALL JOHN SOLOS

john and gill immediately going bro mode jsjfjsj

don't make me feel bad for jayson. I won't do it. piece of shit.

GILLION. IF YOU DIE.

GOES DOWN PROTECTING JAY GILLION YOURE GONNA KILL ME.

THE NAVY HAS GRYFFON

THANK YOU JAY THANK YOU JAY THANK YOU JAY

"You keep saying that people took me away from you. No one took me away from you, dad. You haven't had me for a long time. You lost me. You lost me in the lies, the training, your obsession with your work, it was all you cared about. Things change, dad. After ava died, you weren't there. You weren't there for me or for mom. And when I tell you we hurt, we struggled, I say we hurt and struggled so goddamn much. And I'm sure you did too, but you made it so goddamn clear where your priorities lied with the family. And in my grieving, you were the only one who wasn't there. Jayson Ferin, you are someone I've known my entire life. You've known me longer than I can remember, and maybe I've made decisions that you don't agree with, but they are my decisions, and I would've hoped that in the years you've known me, that you would give me even a modicum of trust, a modicum of what I saw in you my entire goddamn childhood. And now, you stand here in front of me again, you're making the same mistakes... You don't get to just take me back, you need to earn it. And the way it stands, you're on a fast track to lose both me, and your wife. You are the strongest man I've ever known but you are a fucking pathetic father. So come on. Go ahead, finish it, do your fucking job, if that's where your priorities still lay, as they always have."

persuasion with advantage and dm inspiration. so deserved holy shit jay. i am. speechless.

"For the first time in my life, since I became a pirate, I was able to feel free."

get the fuck OUT of here jayson go AWAY

jayson I'd ask why you don't fucking ask may yourself but I don't want you anywhere near her :)

thank fucking god hes gone.

"that's my boy right there, that's my BOY, I'm on your ass, I'm like glue on something that glues on" "this is the beginning of something, this is the beginning of a whirlwind of whoopass on kira I'm telling you now" bizly has the right idea get the panda man back

gill still didn't get the whalebone sword back ✌️😔

[weirdcat1213]

volume 9 you say....hmm

i fear for my life to be completely honest

anyway HERE WE GO HERE ARE THE THOUGHTS

chap 1:

-geesus no pls no i dont wanna read anymore

-FLASHBACK TIME :D WIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

-3 days of crying is nothing when youre a trigun fan, am i right people :'D

-no im not fucking suffering cuz while all of that is happening the only thing on his mind is young livio NO IM FINE I SWEAR-

-lmao yeah wolfwood call him out >:D

-"you cant understand how i feel" my brother in christ YOURE SURROUNDED BY ORPHANS

-hmmmmmmmmm i mean im not sure if that applies here but who am i to tell him how he feels, sure buddy. happy for you

-geesus man not the dog, like....WHY THE DOG (i think ik why but still)

-tbh i would also go and ask for an explanation

-nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo :c

-ah shit so we're here now oh fuck oh shit okokok cool

-ah yes, sweet bait actually, makes me cry every time

-"once this ark scare is over we'll be living the high life" yeaaaahhhh....about that.....

-YO LEAVE THE ORPHAN ALONE DAMN

-thanks livio :3

chap 2:

-about his age i think hes on his 20s mentally but he looks like hes on his 30s, so hes still an adult but yknow...younger

-oh his eye :0 i love that tiny window between his glasses and his face where you can see his eyes, makes me sad every time

-the coolest mf

-"worse" you say...i wonder who did that to him...

-fuck off, take those fucking tears somewhere else old man

-OOOOOOHHHHH THAT PANEL!!! SO GOOD SO GOOD

-THANKS AGAIN LIVIO (livio's good actions counter: 2 so far) BUT FUCK THAT OLD MAN

chap 3:

-:c

-HES THERE AND HES COMING I PROMISE

-STFU I SWEAR SHUT UP WOLFWOOD PLS JUST ENJOY YOUR STUPID CIGARRETE

-oh ok yeah here we go

-GEESUS MAN, i hope someone kick you ass later

-aw livio noooooo :c

-NAH NO PLS NO BROTHER FIGHT NO NO

-damn

chap 4:

-no that fucking title while theyre bleeding holy crap no stop it nightow stop it

-leave my man alone plsssssssssssssssss

-OH I FUCKING FELT THAT. WOLFWOOD REACHING FOR ANOTHER MAGAZINE AND LIVIO SHOOTING AT THE SAME MOMENT. I FELT THAT

-oh thats...thats kinda hot actually (i say while wolfwood fights for his little life)

-i love nightow taking his fucking time. yes sir i will enjoy a page of the vial dropping from his mouth without any dialogue, thank you sir

-PAIN :D

-SHUT UP OLD MAN

-"please survive"................................im gonna need a million years

chap 5:

-VASH BABY WHERE ARE YOU I NEED YOU

-demon....while hes killing his bro.....i have a limit thats all im saying

-ITS CALLED LOVE BITCH

-HE GIVES A FUCK ABOUT THE HONOR HE JUST WANTED TO PROTECT HIS HOME WTF

-STOP TALKING AND KILL HIM MAN CMONNNN

-oh....he looks so pretty tho. likes he came back to life and is surrounded by his servants....damn that goes hard...

-oh yeah, that arm that had no explanation whatsoever. its ok tho, nightow gets a pass

-ah fuck.....hes here...

-yeap, you could say thats a demon ig

chap 6:

-AH YES SAD FLASHBACK IN MENTAL PALACE MAKES ME GO BRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. ONE OF THE BEST THINGS EVER IM TELLING YA :D

-im sorry

-im jumping through the window idc anymore. poor livio man

-"fortitude".........yeah.....

-yeap that is scary as hell RUN WOLFWOOD GET TF OUTTA THERE

-DONT SMILE LIKE THAT YOU FREAK

-NONONONONONON SHUT UP WOLFWOOD SHUT UP

-STOPPPPPPPPPPPP

-STOPL PLEASEEEEEEEEEEE

-DIOS IM NOT STRONG ENOUGH

-orange if you animate this i will punch you but also kiss you in the lips

-i wonder what he means with that bell thats supposed to be tolling. hmmm. maybe its like a "hey come back to reality" kind of alarm thats not sounding

nightow you amazing bastard

[whxre4hange]

the most disturbing deaths in aot

manga spoilers below! u hav been warned!

honestly, all of the deaths in aot were horrifying in their own way, but in this post, im just gonna brain-puke my thoughts about all of the most terrible deaths (in my opinion)

carla

eaten alive by her husband’s ex wife 

covered her own mouth so her son wouldn’t hear her weeping for him to come back so she wouldn’t have to die alone ):

also connie’s mother (as a pure titan) recognised connie enough to say “welcome home”

so u cant tell me dina didn’t know who carla was....

>:(

mike

the guy is usually so strong, composed, everything a leader should be

and he was screaming like a child when being eaten alive

it freaked me out 

nanaba

similar to mike, a survey corps veteran who was eaten alive

screaming for her father to stop the whole time, indicating some kind of trauma

broke my heart into a million pieces

her death was pretty much forgotten but it stuck with me

marco

and even at the end of the manga

i couldn’t forget the ‘disposable’ character who still had an impact years after his death

he was so fkn innocent and sweet

he wasn’t even angry

he just wanted to talk things out ): 

faye

a literal child who just wanted to see the air ships

torn apart by fucking dogs

i can’t comprehend how people can do that kind of awful stuff

especially to a CHILD

as someone who has a sibling that age

idk it really just

yeah

isabel

again, a literal child, who had no idea what she’d gotten into

brutally killed, still believing that levi would come and save her 

farlan

and farlan, who refused to run even when he knew he’d die a gruesome death

who waved farewell to levi, a slight smile of acceptance gracing his face

ymir

who willingly went to marley, knowing she’d die, to save historia 

who died knowing that she’d never get to marry the love of her life

she was so full of a drive to survive

but in the scene where she was chained up to die

she just looked broken 

marlo

and all of those soldiers that charged headon into certain death

who thought of hitch just before he died

she was thinking of you too; worrying about a man who would never return

hannes

who was so wracked by grief and regret that he charged the smiling titan just to avenge Carla

he mightve had a chance to survive, but he got so caught up in avenging carla (e.g. torturing the titan instead of going for the kill because of all of the trauma she caused eren and mikasa), he didn’t

who closed his eyes as he died 

he had a good redemption arc but still ):

and all of those survey corps soldiers who died, screaming in fear, pain and anguish. theres too many to name here, but yeah

okay back to crying now! would love to hear your thoughts in the comments :)