#barely ate

[comparatist]

07.07.24|

i've been inconsistent on tumblr regarding posting content. last time i posted was before 18th june for the exam. then i ghosted tumblr. well, i started to do extensive skin care and self care, and started to invest more time in my career and earning money through private tuitions, hence rarely got time to post anything. the exam went extremely well and then it got cancelled because i live in 'that' country where everything has been associated with multiple scamming projects for the corporates. the re-examination is on august and idc, i'd give the exam out of spite and get the fuck out of this country.

here's however, a glimpse of my work on a book review. this is where i work, on bed, with huge back pain and posture defect, with minimal food and bad lighting and endless distractions [from books around, also i'm neurodivergent] i've been immersed in coffee, red tea and cigarettes for the past 3 days and still 200 pages back. today is the deadline! and i'll be finishing off this fucking work like my life depends on it [it does, i'm getting paid]. back to work. Xby.

book recc - castes of mind, nicholas dirks.

[randomositycat]

Got nothing i wanted done today done today yay my brain was so fried

[hinamie]

newest issue of first years fashion just dropped

[papayasector]

remember during their first year as teammates oscar had pretty bad food poisoning during one of the race weekends so lando checked in with him to make sure he was okay and also made sure to let the world know that even though his teammate had food poisoning he did a very good job because it's important to acknowledge the feat that his rookie teammate just went through because i do.

[horse-plinko-official]

Oh my god you know what made me sob in the theater during final reckoning? The fact that what Ethan did to Donloe saved his life. Ethan's lived all this time believing that all of his actions have had negative consequences regardless of the eventual positive outcome, but here's a man who was given a whole new lease on life because of him and not only is he sitting right there in one healthy piece thanking him but he's there to save Ethan's ass in return. And it's like seeing a new color for Ethan because the only interactions he's ever had post-mission with anyone he'd come across during have been nasty fights where he's reminded of all the lives he's ruined.

He gets to actually see the positive impact he's had on the world in the flesh-literally-in the form of someone who knows who he is and is allowed to know who he is and is still friendly and congenial and appreciative despite it. It just sort of makes Ethan believe that maybe he really is a good person, maybe. Just for a moment.

God FUCK that scene hit me so hard I care about him sosososo much. What an incredible perfect beautiful finale to the series final reckoning was. I was literally having heart palpitations during the credits.

[true-bluesargent]

the episode of angel season 1 that comes right after pangs when buffy goes to visit angel is such a garbage episode LMFAO. buffy is here to visit her dad and we hear nothing more about that at ALL but she of course has stopped by to see angel so she can tell him off for coming to sunnydale to stalk her without saying anything for like a week. and then angel kills a demon which *checks notes* just brings him back to life. no vampirism no soul curse just a regular alive guy. because he fought a RANDOM DEMON in a sewer. so he asks doyle to talk to The Powers That Be, whatever that means, and he says yeah okay let's talk to the oracles. WHAT ORACLES???? we've never talked to or about any oracles before ever. but okay we are talking to these freaky weird alien looking oracles who are on another plane of existence apparently and they say yeah no it's cool man you're just alive again there's no catch. so angel goes for a walk in the sun and eats a bunch of chocolate and peanut butter and has massive amounts of sex with buffy and she licks ice cream off his bare chest. but turns out the demon he killed is back so he goes out to kill it as a human alone. and buffy obviously comes to help him because he is just a human guy now and she is the SLAYER and she almost gets killed but doesn't. like usual. and this demon says something about how the end days are coming? which btw happens at least once a season on btvs so that's also like usual. but angel goes back to the oracles and says please return me to my cursed painful existence because i need to protect my girlfriend who isnt my girlfriend who lives in a different city and who by the way is THE VAMPIRE SLAYER and can easily protect herself. and the oracles say okay well we don't want this to affect the plot of btvs because that would be inconvenient so we will just delete an entire day from existence just for you babe. and only you'll remember! and then the day resets and angel kills the demon and buffy goes back to sunnydale and that is IT. net zero affect on anything in either show and a waste of our time and as usual sarah michelle gellar is a genuinely incredible actress and david boreanaz is just okay which in comparison means he really sucks so bad

[kandadze]

And then there was light. And then there was your smile. (Yannis Ritsos, can't for my life find the collection I've read this in)

[blue-bird1967]

infected!Leon if he hadn’t made it to the lab and escaped before it’s too late for him. A good major is always there for his soldiers in a moment of pain~

[starlightshadowsworld]

Bungou Stray Dogs Beast asks the fascinating question of what if Atsushi had even more anxiety?

That poor boy is having a panic attack in every scene he’s in and that’s not even an exaggeration.

It’s literally a plot point that the calmer Beast Atsushi looks on the outside, the more terrified he is on the inside.

[drawnaghht]

assorted usagis that I'll never have time to fully post here (so have a separate post for 'em)

[askthehedgehogs]

*Holds out a Cracker Barrel-style cinnamon roll breakfast pie* You two are so cute, so I'm giving you both a sweet treat to share!❤️🖤💍💙🦔 And speaking of sweets, Shadow, I heard you have a strong sweet tooth. What's your favorite sweet thing you've ever eaten?

Man, that was good… thanks, we needed that!

Mmh… I wouldn’t call it a strong sweet tooth.

Heh, I would~

But… Rose once made a very impressive croquembouche for one of her parties. It was delicious. She’s quite adept at baking.

Shadow kept sneaking back for more. He looked so cute and embarrassed when I caught him in the act~

It was good, all right? Hmph.

[ineed-to-sleep]

Merry chrisler everyone from me & my long ass hat

[alxastrx]

When you're one of the most selfish mc who only saves people because it's part of a job you never wanted and did not get to chose or you would've died, who took your co-workers' morals and ideals because you didn't have any and desperately wanted to fit in somewhere, be it with the heroes or the villains, who's activelly haunted by one the most tragic past to have been created and suffer from a psychosis so bad (dare I say schizophrenia) that even your enemies acknowledged that you are mentally ill and objectively flawed in your judgement, never hesitated to try to kill anyone and has the most egoistic reason to be a good person but the fandom still thinks you're just a kind crybaby "I don't know what a gun is" homosexual twink.

[glittergoats]

its turtles all the way down

[catsinmugs]

lowkey forgot to shout myself out on here for these videos so 😛😛😛

[salvadorbonaparte]

I want food but I don't want to cook. agony.