#battlesofthemind

[embryliam17]

Am I depressed?

Some say I’m in denial, maybe so... But maybe not. There’s still hope right? I can’t be this worse, I just can’t. There’s so much I’ve been through, how can I not get through this? I know I’m strong, but I never knew I could ever be this weak. I guess strength and weakness has it’s end point, I’m 25 and so I thought the strength that I have was unlimited and never ending. I thought I was unstoppable, that whenever I fall down, I would get back up and continue on the run with life, but I fear this time as I trip and fall, I might want to stay on the ground for a little while, maybe coil myself in a fetal position and cry a little. Why? Because this time, I think I have reached the point in my life to finally say that “I am tired”. I know I have been tired at times, who doesnt? But this time a part of me feels dreaded and out of breath. I would try to make myself busy just to forget what I truly feel, but then comes it all, like a whirlwind of emotions that I can’t seem to handle on my own. I dont want to settle like this, because I’m scared, I don’t want it to overcome and become worse as it is. 

As a human being, I am aware that when you’re tired then it’s time to rest, but should I? What if after I rest, I may never be able to get back up and feel the feelings that I have in the past? What if after I rest, I would get back as a changed person who is empty and numb. There are so many thoughts that’s bugging my mind. I love myself enough that I don’t want to feel these heavy thoughts because it might change me. Although I know that it already has, little by little the colors are turning lighter and paler. But something in me is holding on to the person I was, the happy go lucky, the giggly, the childish and most especially the person that can’t get tired of love. I dont want to let go of the person I was before because that’s how my loved ones know and remember of me, I don’t want them to feel betrayed just because I am depressed. I don’t want them to miss the “old me” and feel pity and sorry for the “sad me”. I am more sorry for who I am turning out to be. 

[overcomeandgrow]

Personal Post. So let me tell you about this girl here. This is Me I am Her. I am behind Overcome and Grow. One of the reason I started this page is to help people like myself. I have been insecure, depressed, talked about, told I was fat, ugly you name it I have been told. Here I lost weight so I am not at my heaviest weighing in at 245. But I wanted to share. People judge you on appearance and don’t know the person inside. I still struggle very much so with insecurities and I am not ashamed to share it with you because I want to be able to help someone. You will be able to see me come out of my cocoon slowly but surely because I am not only helping you guys I am helping myself to Overcome my own fears. I am thinking of doing a YouTube and vlogging etc. but I am very shy. But guess what I am going to give you guys what you need to help you! So I am going to face my own fears to help you overcome your own. I want to thank each and everyone of you guys for following my page and supporting we will all Overcome our fears and whatever else tries to hold us back. Happy Sunday! Again thank you all! #overcomeandgrow #insecure #insecurities #depression #overcomingfear #sunday #battlesofthemind #personalpost #heartfelt #movingbeyondmyfears #becomingfree #secure #honestpost #tears #obstacles #helpothers #heal #mentalhealth #anxiety #selflove https://www.instagram.com/p/B4siSPanyKB/?igshid=lx8zzolf9auh

[wellnesscoachsonia]

You have no idea the battles of the mind that I've had to fight. We all have them. But I went to war with the full armor of God. Chains were broken and giants were slayed up in there. Never a slave a again!!! #battlesofthemind #war #breakthechains #breakthechainsofmentalslavery #mentalhealth #survivorofsexualabuse #survivor #God #thearmorofGod #prayingwoman #pslamsgirl #soniascocoonfoundation #changeyourlife #changeyourmindchangeyourlife