#personalpost

[friendo]

Saw Stop Making Sense on an edible expecting to just vibe and be entranced by David Byrne and instead had some kind of existential awakening. Everything he does onstage is pure unbridled autistic joy and I want to do nothing more than express myself as eccentric and free as he does. I think he is some kind of god. Also boy am I glad I sat at the back of the theater because I had tears streaming down my face when they played This Must Be the Place.

[foreverunfound]

No Excuses November - 19/30

Summary(11/19.11)

yoga 2/2

weight-training - 2/2

eating 80/20 - 4/7

It was a loooooooong week. I would need 2 weekends to rest tbh. But I hit most of my goals which is good. Today I had a really nice yoga practice preparing myself for inversions, but as my arms were still sore from gym it was harder than it was supposed to be. I did manage to make my forearm-head stand with bended knees, but I still struggle to straighten them in this position, which sucks as I already was able to do it last year. But hey, I guess everything comes with time and hard work. Gonna keep working on them goals.

Wish you all a nice Sunday xox

[mimble-sparklepudding]

Quick personal update. I’ve been recently bereaved (like yesterday) and whilst I’m trying to keep a stiff upper lip and just get on with things, I might be a bit slow or inconsistent with interacting for a little while. Please accept my apologies for being uncharacteristically subdued. I won’t go into unnecessary personal details, as I don’t want to bring anyone down, but it’s been pretty grim.

[thatonenovelist]

☆ LoCo (Local Coffee)'s Créme Brûlèe Latte ☆

~PREFACE~

I think I've referenced this relative one too many times so I'm gonna give them a name. Bruv, if you're reading this I'm sorry for doxxing your go-to spots 🙏 Anyway, relative lore, they're somewhat of a distant cousin and an avid coffee fan [bros got their own coffee making stuff from around the world which I would steal whenever I visit--]. And so it'll be more honourable, I'll be referring to them as "Cece (Calx's Cousin)" from now on.

Anyway, the footage is actually theirs because I just ordered the drink recently (yesterday) and it was through Grab food since the hotel I was staying in was somewhat far from another branch. And well I assume it's due to transportation... The drink's good sure but it's not so picture perfect when it arrived.

According to them, it's somewhat of a hidden café since you have to go inside a medical clinic to get to its entrance. And hey, if there's one thing I've learned about where to find coffee, it's usually when it's hidden-- Unfortunately, they said they haven't been there for awhile so they're not sure whether or not it's still open. But, they insisted I try the créme brûlèe latte.

^picture outside the LoCo (Local Coffee) branch

[they insisted to include the menu]

Also, they briefly mentioned about how the coffee there is locally sourced and each one has their own flavour profiles. Unfortunately, I've never tried and neither them since they only ever ordered the same latte (after trying it, couldn't blame them).

Calinog - sweet, fruity, and floral notes Leon - well-balanced with notes of dark chocolate, nuts, and a hint of spice

~THOUGHTS~

Right off the bat, I am not surprised why they would highly recommend this to me. They mentioned how it's like Vietnamese egg coffee without the eggs due to the texture. Sure, it's not like the one in Meraki Cafe in Vietnam but it's akin to the ones content creators make (a more condensed milk-y texture than frothy).

I ordered mine with just 75% sweetness and it's still somewhat sweet. And their coffee is quite refreshing. It's cold brewed too, based on Cece's video. I'm assuming it used Calinog coffee beans since I did catch a mild almost fruity flavour from the coffee.

I shake mine well before drinking so the cream cheese flavour is very subtle. And I noticed a very light, sweet corn taste. Cece told me to have tried the cream cheese foam first before shaking it because I would've understood more of what they meant regarding how it's similar to Vietnamese egg coffee.

Other than that, I find it interesting since other such lattes tend to incorporate eggs. Actually making a créme brûlèe for it with the hard burnt sugar top. Nonetheless, the coffee was quite good.

Also, Cece gave me their footage since they stopped making private vlogs and didn't want the footage to never be put to use. Or at least, shown to the world.

[wheneverfeasible]

So I’m pretty sure I mentioned it on here but maybe not, but a little while ago we had these kids come in who have been harassing and nonviolently hatecriming employees. Seeking out obviously queer looking people and misgendering them, fetishizing lesbian literature, being in general obnoxious, and doing it about politics too.

joke’s on them tho because I prefer being called ‘sir’ over ‘ma’am’

Anyways, I’ve been using She/Her and They/Them pronouns for a while and have never once felt like a man, but you know what? I may not be a man, but I am petty. And these homophobic children just unlocked my acquisition of He/Him pronouns now too.

So yeah. Fuck it. I’ll now go by any pronouns because pronouns don’t equal gender and my gender is fucked and confusing to begin with so whatever.

Congrats homophobes, you just made me more queer.

[beykayfan1]

Okay so While I was just searching the internet and I was just looking for some motivation to keep my head up recently, I stumbled upon this quote and I think it sums up like despite going through difficulties like in School or at work or anything, even if what's currently happening isn't desirable I can say that one thing that makes me feel better and maybe others too is to continue pursuing like passions or hobbies you love the most regardless of what other people say or anything. That's just my quote for today and I wish everyone an awesome day.

[tarnishedtestament]

I Didn’t Stay in the Grave Either

Jason Todd always hit different.

Not just because he came back from the dead — but how he came back. Bruised. Bitter. Angry. Still standing. Still fighting. He wasn’t trying to be some clean-cut hero. He just didn’t want to be forgotten.

Same.

It wasn’t the world that failed me — It was the weight of generations I didn’t know I was carrying. Traumas that never got talked about. Expectations passed down like heirlooms. Love shown in silence. Affection traded for survival.

And maybe, like Jason, I got tired of pretending I was okay When I was just good at hiding what was breaking inside. I’ve made my own mess. Chose pride when I should’ve asked for help. Shut down when I should’ve opened up. Told myself “I got this” when I was barely hanging on.

No one dropped me in a Lazarus Pit, But I’ve had nights that felt like death And mornings that tasted like resurrection. Still here. Still breathing. Still figuring it all out.

Jason doesn’t carry his pain neatly. Neither do I. But he fights anyway — not because it’s clean, But because something in him still believes people deserve better. And maybe, just maybe, so does he.

I’m learning that too. That I’m not just the sum of my bad days or broken moments. That there’s still light worth protecting. Still softness worth returning to.

Jason came back different. Not worse — just realer. And I think that’s the version of me I’ve been trying to become.

[thatladyingreen]

Random Leverage quotes that make me happy (a rewatch journey):

"I don't have MEN! I wear sandals."

[milfzun]

I think the worst thing about having a dog has been the past 3 minutes in which, sitting at my goddamn work desk, I realized that underneath all the anxiety and fear and insecurity about my abilities, I really do wish I could be a mom. I wish I lived in a world where I could have my own baby to love with my entire heart. I could be gentle and kind and courageous in raising them and guiding them through their life. I would wake up accursedly early for them and change their stinky diapers and breathe through their tantrums at the grocery store. I know, because I’ve done it for my baby Lilah.

I can’t and won’t be a mom in this world, because I could never afford it and it would break my heart to deliver another wage slave into the oligarchy’s machine. This realization changes nothing (and maybe that’s why it didn’t happen until today). But you know. Maybe I wrote all those fics for a reason.

[friendo]

This screenshot from when I was crossfaded as all hell and was about to go on a 3-page long rant about the happy meal makes me think of Anton and Carson idk

[foreverunfound]

"No Excuse November" Goals List

Hello!

So I've joined "No Excuse November" (duuh) challenge by @m0tiv8me

Time to make goals list, so in November I want to:

Focus on strenghtening my core more so I can make my forearms/head-stand.

Eat better - I wanna stick to the 80/20 rule, let's try that.

Work out at least 2 times/week in gym.

Make at least 2 yoga sessions/week.

Hope I will make it lol. If you're in challenge too I wish you good luck :d

[alzheimersoffspring]

What it's like

If you're living around anyone who has late stage Alzheimer's, there is no peace for you. You want to work? Very difficult. You want to read? Good luck. You want to sleep? Hellll no. Sleepless nights is a part of the job. There is no time for yourself unless you have someone else capable of caring at the same capacity as you to replace you, and it's hell for them too.

Oh and by the way, if you have misophonia, you're in for one hell of a fucking ride. The constant stream of slapping, clapping, stomping, tapping, shouting and just teeth grinding sounds that can come out of someone suffering from this death's doorsteps membership can be enough to make someone crack. You know how games have skill levelling mechanics? Well this levels up so many things, especially patience, but tests so many others, like patience also lol.

You have to find a coping mechanism, so I decided after 7 gruelling years since my mothers diagnosis, and while in the midst of looking after her - * she is literally clapping the shit out of her hands right now seeking some form of attention and I can barely focus on typing this up* - I finally decided to write something up dedicated to my experience. Something for me to look back on.

One thing to note is , when you give in to the nonsensical anger and frustration it affects you so deeply. You, as a carer, are not in control of how they react around you, but you are in control of how you hold your composure around those afflicted. Just keep telling yourself they don't know what they are doing.

My mum's non verbal, so it's the biggest guessing game of my life. If you figure out one thing that works to quell her anger one day, it might not work the next. Squid pro ro.

Anyways, that's all for now. Gotta keep that positive energy up for mum when I interact with her. Don't let the reactive emotions slip through the cracks !

[quinnzilla99]

Bit of a vent post but yea, it's tough when you treat that person with nothing but kindness and do so much shit for them to benefit themselves without asking for anything in return, only for that person to be controllive, unthankful and warping shit to make you look like the villain of the story. Oh well, that's life sometimes I suppose.

[wheneverfeasible]

Personal post/rant below cut 🙃

cw: financial issues, depression

So I’m not having a swell time y’all.

First I thought I was going to have to move suddenly, then I thought I’d have until at least after the holidays, now I’m learning I’m gonna have to find a new place by 1st December. Except…

I don’t even make enough to live paycheck to paycheck because I can’t drive so I Lyft to and from work every day so basically every paycheck goes to that, rent, utilities, and PG&E. And occasionally basic necessities.

I don’t remember the last time I actively went grocery shopping. And I’ve tried getting food stamps and all they gave me was $20 a month.

So yeah. I’ll get my deposit back but like…I don’t any extra money to put in savings, our hours are being cut at work, Lyft prices are rising, and now I don’t really have anywhere else to go.

I technically have a married friend couple I can move in with again, I stayed with them when I suddenly had to move a couple years ago the first time (I’ve lived in like 5 different places within less than 3 years) but they’re having some problems of their own and that’s gonna be awky as hell so I don’t really want to move back in there but it doesn’t look like I have any other choice.

And just like….y’all this time of year is already hard on me because of family trauma so my depression has been off the fucking charts. (I’m also like severely in debt and it just got sent to collections so lol)

Like, idk what I’m supposed to do, except for begging for money or selling feet pics. And my feet ain’t cute enough for that last one, I’ve already considered it.

I swear these last 2 1/2 years have really been one thing after another and I’m just so tired of it all.

[iridescentearth]

Trick or treat! 😘

-Gwyn

A treat just for you, my pretty! 😘

Some warm cinnamon rolls in this cool season to soothe your soul 💕

[thatladyingreen]

I saw something deliciously supportive in my phone's sticker function, so now I must see if Tumblr can access it as well...

SUCCESS!!!

Sending a supportive cup of whatever warm beverage you prefer to everyone who will be abstaining from family gatherings today in order to protect themselves and their peace - I see you, I love you, and I'm proud of you for making decisions that prioritize you ❤️