#bc I have nowhere to sit

[poorlittleyaoyao]

once again I am thinking about how CQL went out of its way to delete JGY and QS's preexisting backstory from the novel so JGY didn't sleep with her till their wedding night, presumably to make him More Villainous(TM), yet also went out of its way to establish that this was a revolting experience for him and he hated it, which in many ways is more concerning than the original concept would have been so like. why.

[toxooz]

breaking out into hives gnawing at my enclosure bars i Need to work on my comic again to physically see what happens next

[bunnihearted]

☃️

[theinfinitedivides]

listening to the PS:2 soundtrack again in an attempt to bite the bullet and psyche myself up to watch both films back to back in August(? that's the goal at least, if i get to watch it earlier even better) and i have been stuck on Veera Raja Veera for an hour and a half. i have also figured out my personal ranking for all versions of the song at last and it went about as well as i would have expected. it started to get too long for the f*cking tags tho so i decided to put in this post, we'll see how it goes from here—list is in order from least liked to most liked btw

5. going to start this off by saying i'm so so sorry to Gulzar but it's something about the rhythm for me. the lyrics are lovely but the way they are lining up with the music in the Hindi version,,,,,,, or failing to in certain parts,,,,,, it's not it. it's not it. it does well in the first minute or so and then heads downhill from there, and tbh it's not his fault i think it's just the sheer amount of syllables that they have to fit in compared to the original? and with that in mind it's not going to sound the same, obviously, but what salvages it from being a complete disappointment is the way we got both Shreya Ghoshal and Kavita Krishnamurthy as a duet in this year of our Lord 2023. Kavita, who still sounds the same as she did on the Dil Se soundtrack singing Satrangi Re and the Hum Dil De Chuke Sanam soundtrack and the Devdas soundtrack and the Yaara Dildaara soundtrack and the K3G soundtrack with Bole Chudiyan and Shreya Ghoshal who is a pleasure to listen to on practically everything she touches (Bajirao Mastani and Rab Ne Bana Di Jodi and that aalap just before her verse with Kavita here i'm looking at you) and— *inhales* *exhales* ok. do appreciate them letting Kavita take the 'चुन चुन चुन चुन / जाली रे जाली चिंगारी' portion in the Hindi translation bc she sounded beautiful there. (she always reminded me of Lata in that regard i think, and for some inexplicable reason i've by extension connected the two of them to Zohra Sehgal in some of her roles)

favorite line — 'दुश्मन पे टूटे जब | बिजलियों का वीर' / 'dushman pe toote jab | bijilyon ka vaar'. this is one of those times where the rhythm works in their favor and works well, and it leads perfectly into the rest of the verse imo. also @ that one guy going 'योद्धा~~' / 'yodhaa~~' at the very end of the song ty for your service

3. in contrast to the rhythm problems of the Hindi the Kannada recording is very smooth? i don't know if that makes sense as someone who doesn't speak the language but it's like water. like water in a stream just one after another going over the stones in the riverbed as it passes or the waves lapping against the side of the ship or the gentle sound wind chimes make when they hit against each other in the lightest breeze—the phrasing doesn't feel forced (ty Jayant Kaikini sir) and the syllables match the music as well as the original. ofc Rakshita Suresh and Sivasri Skandaprasad have a part to play with their solos in this sounding as good as it does, despite its ranking on my list (which will be explained in the next entry), and while i expected nothing less from Rakshita after Kirunage, this is the first i'm hearing from Sivasri and she blew me away. i had to listen to it several times to be able to tell them apart, and i might still be wrong bc their voice color is very, very similar, but they took what Rahman gave them and made it their own. (is it Rakshita that starts and Sivasri that continues? i'm thinking that it alternates between them with Sivasri ending that portion)

favorite line — 'ಮಳೆಗರೆವಾಗ ಬಾಣ | ಅಡಗಳು ಎಲ್ಲಿ ತಾಣಾ' / 'malegarevaaga baana | adagalu elli thaana'. this is where the river analysis stands out to me bc this feels like putting pebbles said river into a tumbler and rolling them over and over until they come out smooth and polished and just. right. (i am using the word smooth a lot to talk about the Kannada version sksksksk but can you blame me)

3. technically Malayalam and Kannada tie for third place on here (there is no fourth place. there is 4.75th place rounded up to fifth place and that belongs to the Hindi entry as previously stated) but Malayalam has the slightest edge for me. in terms of sound/pronunciation it's the closest to the original—i know most scholars believe that Malayalam descended from Tamil and split early on, so that might have something to do with it, but it sounds like a perfect cross between the flow of Kannada and the strength of the Tamil and ugh. pair that with Srinivas featuring and Shweta Mohan taking on that solo (by herself!!! and eating that sh*t like it was a duet!!!) and Rafeeq Ahamed as the lyricist and i play it almost as often as i play the original. (i was almost half expecting to hear the extension at the end in this version, that's how good it was)

favorite line — 'കടലിൽ ചുഴലി പോലെ | തവ നൗക കളിരമ്പി' / 'kadalil chuzhali pole | thava noukakalirambi'. i am in love with what Shweta does here, especially with the latter half of the line ('... നൗക കളിരമ്പി' / 'noukakalirambi') since she just heads straight into the 'വൻകടൽ...' and for some reason that is so auditorily pleasing to me. i don't have any rational thoughts behind that that's just how it is. her aalap before her verse is also breathier/softer than Shreya's if that makes sense but it fits her perfectly

2. Telugu. holy f*ck, Telugu. you put Shankar Mahadevan (i don't think i've ever heard him sing a bad song. ever. at least not what i've heard) and Chinmayi (Tere Bina???? Mayya Mayya???? Titli???? i'm still not over any of them from her????) in the same song you make every f*cking verse rhyme almost exactly courtesy of Chandrabose if Kannada is the sound of water then Telugu is pure silk and honey and the feel of something melting in your mouth and you expect me to stay alive? the actual f*ck? admittedly i may be biased bc one of my OCs is Telugu and i have been putting Telugu covers from my Bollywood playlist on loop for inspo but uh Rahman what the f*ck. what the f*ck am i supposed to do with that kind of genius

favorite line(s) — 'సమరం శ్రుతించైరా శిఖరం స్పృశించైర' / 'samaram shruthinchaira shikharam spushinchaira' & 'విధిగా తెగించైర | విధినే వదించైర | విలయం దరించైర | విజయం వరించైర' / 'vidhigaa thegincheyraa | vidhine vadhincheyraa | vilayam dharincheyraa | vijayam varincheyraa'. the f*cking alliteration? hello? also the 'veera raja veera' at the end of this version in particular gives me full body chills bc there is someone going up with the harmonization every time there's a new line. i don't know who it is but he's (they're? could be multiple vocals) going up and i am crying shaking throwing up on the floor having a spiritual experience etc etc

and finally 1. the top spot. the place where everything has been leading through this long ass piece that i have put you to suffer through

and ykw Tamil is pretty much self-explanatory i think: we bring Shankar back as we should but this time K.S Chithra (Asoka!!! Main Prem Ki Diwani Hoon!!! Bombay and Thoda Thoda from Indira/Priyanka and the live version of Jiya Jale that Rahman did in Dubai!!!) and Harini (also sang for Indira/Priyanka and featured on Varayo Thozhi from Jeans) are with him and Ilango Krishnan's lyrics take over and flatline me on the f*cking operating table. before it flatlines me however i break into goosebumps every time i hear it start, bc lbh it is impossible not to when you have the f*cking vocals coming in like 'காணீரோ? நீர் காண் | சோழ வெற்றி வாள் ஒன்றை காணீரோ? | ஓ அழகிய பூவே! செல்லுதியோ | மலரிடு போ சகி!' if you stay sane during that opening you are a liar get off my feed unfollow and block i don't want you anywhere near me for the next six years or however long it takes Mani Ratnam to make his next masterpiece. no coherent thoughts head empty MV playing on loop he and Rahman own me now they have the copyrights

favorite line (had to split everything into two blocks bc Tumblr was tryin to f*ck up my sh*t) — 'எம் தமிழ் வாழ்க வாழ்க! | வீர சோழம் வாழ்க! | நற்றமிழ் வாழ்க வாழ்க! | நல்லோர் தேசம் வாழ்க!' / 'em thamizh vaazhga vaazhga! | veera sozham vaazhga! | natramizh vaazhga vaazhga! | nallor thesam vaazhga!'. technically this isn't my favorite favorite line bc i have to do a seperate ranking for that below + it's exclusive to the Tamil version and i am trying to make this a wholistic review but. it's f*cking up there let's just say that. i think i mentioned in the tags of a different post of how i've been doing genealogy research and (in the process) tentatively confirmed the possibility of there being some South Asian descent from my dad's side, specifically Tamil or Telugu based on the stories/timeline of French occupation in the Caribbean and portions of the Indian subcontinent, and there's something in me that shifts every time we get down to the last twenty or so seconds and this hits. i don't know what it is, truly—maybe the remnants of the genes of my ancestors and their pride for their land, their language—but it's there and it's loud and if it's the right day at the right time i will start crying btw. full on sobbing like a little bitch. you didn't ask but i told you anyway

after all of *motions* that, i am also offering a bonus ranking of the section of VRV that makes me rewind every f*cking time it comes on in every language, bc it featured heavily in creating my eventual rankings and i would be remiss to not mention it. so here have this additional dive into my thought process during these trying times of hyperfixation rip

'आंधी से तेज़ | तूफ़ान से तेज़ | चुन चुन चुन चुन | जाली रे जाली चिंगारी | अंग अंग अंग अंग | लागे रे लागे अंगारे' / 'aandhi se tez | toofaan se tez | chun chun chun chun | jaali re jaali chingaari | ang ang ang ang | laagey re laagey angaare', Hindi — still at the bottom of the list here, but the inflection during the repetition ('chun chun chun chun' and 'ang ang ang ang') salvages it somewhat. nothing else to say it about it otherwise, since i already addressed Kavita's voice here earlier

'വാക്കാകെ നീ കാറ്റാക നീ | ശര ശര ശര ശരമേയ്ക | വേൽമഴ നെയ്തിട് | റ പറ പറ പറ വിറകൊൾക | പായട്ടെ പായ്വഞ്ചികൾ' / 'vaakkaaka nee kaattaaka nee | shara shara shara sharameyka | velmazha neythidu | para para para para virakolka | paayatte paayvanchikal', Malayalam — taking that third place as always, but its tied partner in the general rankings is higher up in this list for a change. i think the very last part ('പായട്ടെ പായ്വഞ്ചികൾ' / 'paayatte paayvanchikal') is what throws me off tho bc of the way they distributed the line, since on the first listen i was expecting them to go 'paayatte paayvan-chi-kal' and they chose 'paayatte pa-ay-van-chikal' instead. it's not like it decreases the overall quality of the song or anything it's just a very specific hang up i have. who knows maybe my preferred pronunciation would have f*cked with the meaning and we do not want that

'సుడిగాడ్పులా అడుగేయరా | సర సర సర సర | శరమే తనువే తాకగా | చర చర చర చర | చెలరేగాలి వేగంగా' / 'sudi gaadpulaa adugeyyaraa | sara sara sara sara | sharame thanuve thaakagaa | chara chara chara chara | chelaraegaali vegangaa', Telugu — this ties with Malayalam for third place and, much like it, my quirk is specfically with the last part ('చెలరేగాలి వేగంగా' / 'chelaregaali vegangaa'). my preferred is 'chelare-gaali ve-gan-gaa', they gave me 'chelare-gaa-li ve-gan-gaa'. again, not an issue, this is just me, i'm sure they knew what they were doing otherwise they wouldn't have recorded it like that in the first place

'ನೀ ಜ್ವಾಲೆಯು ನೀ ಗಾಳಿಯೂ | ಸರ ಸರ ಸುರಿವ | ಮಳೆಯಂತೆ ಶೂಲಗಳು | ಭರ ಭರ ಭರ ಭರನೆ | ಭೋರ್ಗರೆವ ಪಂಜುಗಳು' / 'nee jwaaleyu nee gaaliyuu | sara sara suriva | maleyanthe shoolagalu | bhara bhara bhara bharane | bhorgareva panjugalu', Kannada — there are at least two portions here that sound eerily similar to the original and that is why this version has moved up to spot two. it takes that water comparison i made and uses it to its advantage so much and it rotates in my mind like a rotisserie chicken at just at the right angle and it's just!!!! it's just!!!! God pls keep me from putting this in my mouth and biting it's too good

'கூற்றாகிச் செல்... | காற்றாகிச் செல்... | சர சர சர சரவெனவே | மழை தான் பெய்திட | பர பர பர பரவென | பாயட்டும் பாய்மரம்' / 'kootraagi sel... | kaatraagi sel... | sara sara sara saravena | velmazhai thaan peidhida | para para para paravena | paayattum paaimaram', Tamil — when this hits i blank out and come to at random intervals. cannot pinpoint the time the place etc but it happens and when it does i go f*cking feral. this one i am indeed putting in my mouth and biting bc the entire thing from 'para para...' onwards??? more alliteration more alliteration more f*cking alliteration. i remember someone making a post on here that said that certain parts of VRV sound like pearls bouncing off of the floor (was it @mizutaama? i apologize for the tag but i think that was you) and i think this is what they were referring to but my ears are that f*cking floor. i thank God every day for that

anyway mutuals (and non-mutuals who are just as obsessed about PS as i am) i'm sorry for clogging your feed with my opinions on a film i haven't even watched properly, pls feel free to roast me about my ranking choices. or agree but it doesn't really matter at this point bc even tho i could be talking out of my ass in terms of actually speaking said languages (i,,,,, do not unfortunately) i've said what i needed to say sksksksk

[beliscary]

dion. to me

[bangcakes]

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[thedreadvampy]

just for me:

a catalogue:

Tape Guy

He sits on the left shoulder. He isn't exactly part of you but he has a big stack of video tapes of your memories, and those are part of you. He pushes a video into your ear of times you were an idiot, cringe or shitty, and plays it on repeat while indicating that you should draw your own conclusions.

Shoulder Lawyer

We know this one: he is small and he sits on the right shoulder and, as we have discovered, he is a bullshit artist. He cherrypicks the evidence that Tape Guy and the Brain take in and makes the case that you cannot prove the guilt of anyone who hurt you. He says 'it didn't happen, and if it happened it wasn't anyone's fault, and anyway my client is just a sad little birthday boy and you are an unreliable vindictive slag.' it is very important to him to preemptively discredit you in case you say something that might incriminate someone, so he devotes his time 24/7 to establishing your poor character. He is not a real lawyer and he's being paid to do this. He is not part of you at all, he pretends to be an objective third party outsider and he is, of course, Not That, he's a guy who's personally deeply invested in discrediting you. No part of this guy is You.

Brain/Data Centre

this probably isn't a guy. It's a computer, but it's also you - it's a part of a person, not a machine, but it is a calculator not an animal. It takes in data - all data: how you feel, how your body acts, what your first thought is, what the lawyer says, what other people say, how people move and react, emotional input, what's happened in the past, what other people have said - and it uses that to construct theories.

The Brain is very verbal, structured and precise. It moves very fast - often so fast it's absorbed and developed a new theory before it's finished expressing the previous one. So it's precise but it's not clear, it's often interrupting itself or running parallel overlapping processes. What the Brain is trying to do is Make It Make Sense. The Brain is trying to get as close as it can to the truth of something. It understands everything as a useful data point, but it takes all of them as being valid, so it's very susceptible to the suggestions that the Shoulder Lawyer makes because it understands falsehood and misdirection very well, and considers them useful data points, but it doesn't understand the idea that someone within the system would be putting in bad inputs on purpose. It lives in the head, mostly in the front half of the skull cavity, behind the forehead.

The Accountant

The Accountant isn't entirely a separate guy - he's a sort of outpost or partial avatar of the Brain. If he's a person, he is gaunt and full of extremely directed nervous energy. He lives in a very close-to-the-surface thin space between the skull and the skin of the forehead, and he runs the numbers that the Brain has available and tries to balance the books. He makes plans and suggests strategies. He has two motivations; to help you move forwards productively and to balance the costs, which will be many. Part of his job is to assess what you can and can't afford to lose, what will cost more in the long run, and how much you need to keep in reserve for the future in order to keep the system running and have a buffer for emergencies. He thinks in spreadsheets and flowcharts, and he wants the Brain to give him the best possible data picture so he can make the least costly and most profitable decisions. He doesn't decide what profit is, though, that comes from lower down. He is a guy, but he's definitely part of you - he's a guy your brain made to interact with the outside world.

[Gesture towards the chest]/🌄

The Brain tries to interpret it, but because they can't communicate directly, the Brain has to guess by observing how it acts. The Brain constructs a lot of theories based on inputs and outputs, but it can't convert any of its actual [thoughts (?)] into meaningful data because their language is mutually unintelligible. The Accountant and the Brain can't convince it of things, or understand with clarity what it wants, not because it doesn't think but because they can't communicate.

This doesn't have a name, and it can't have a name, because it isn't a person and it doesn't use words. It is very much You and it is highly, highly sentient and conscious, but it is very much not any kind of guy or a comprehensible mind. It is a roiling orange and red glowing thing that is in constant turning fluid motion in the chest cavity.

Where the other parts are anthropomorphic, animal, or very verbal machines, this is a completely alien sort of consciousness. It doesn't really have sensations attached to it, but it moves and swells and makes itself known by pressing against the things near it. As far as you can tell, the ways it pulses, expands or moves faster or slower are how it communicates itself, and it's clearly a complex language, but not one that has any relationship to a verbal one or that's comprehensible to you, the Brain or the Guys.

The Body

I mean all of this is happening in your body. But The Body lives in the belly, under the diaphragm and above the hips, and if you ask what the body is doing, your attention first goes there then branches out to everywhere else.

The Body is animal, it's meat and biological mechanisms. It includes all physical reactions from crying to sore knees. What the body wants is the mechanisms of survival - it isn't really a thinking thing, it's a very wet and alive machine which can go wrong or function differently in response to stimuli.

Because the Body sits right up against the chest cavity, and because it just responds to stimuli rather than trying to understand things, the Body is the most likely to react to 🌄. The movement of 🌄 presses down into the Body and triggers impulses (like nausea or crying) which are the main way the Brain can collect data on the movements of 🌄 and make assessments about what it's thinking.

The Body is purely reactive. It doesn't have any motives of its own other than to keep functioning. It throws up flags or sets off alarms when something happens that might impede it, but it isn't sentient - it's only alive. It 'wants' me to sit down like a car 'wants' me to fill it up. It doesn't respond to the Brain, the Brain observes it and the Accountant suggests appropriate changes to your behaviour to adjust the inputs you're giving the Body.

The Guard

This is either a guy or a muscle group. He lives in the back of the oesophagus and the surrounding muscles, and his job is to stop the constant rising movement of 🌄 from getting out into the throat and mouth. I think his job might originally have been to connect the 🌄 to the Brain but now he's full-time committed to tamping down the 🌄 in case it floods or erupts.

He alerts you about high motion and agitation of the 🌄, and, if the tide gets too high, he clamps the gap shut and and clings on for dear life. He's also the guy who keeps you calm and together in a crisis - he holds you steady and keeps you breathing while the Accountant works.

The Ineffable Exhortation

This isn't a new voice but it's reaching through. Initially you didn't think it had a physical place in the body and it was just You, but now you've located it in the lower back of the head, just behind the soft palette, nestled in deep. This is absolutely part of you. It says things like 'you should touch a tree' or 'you want to talk to this specific person right now' or 'that's not right'

It doesn't necessarily explain its reasoning, although I think it has reasons. It talks sometimes, but mostly it works quietly, and the only evidence it's working is that it occasionally asks for food or rest or makes specific requests.

It only speaks in order to tell you what to do, which is ok because what it asks you to do is basically always a good idea (or completely neutral, like 'touch a tree' or 'sit on the floor'). It doesn't boss you, it just says quietly, calmly, and with considered certainty 'you need to...'

Kind of like the Body, it's asking for things it needs to run its processes. Sometimes those things are obvious ('you need to have X conversation') and sometimes they're extremely esoteric and seemingly random ('you need to rearrange these boxes'), but I trust that they're ingredients it needs to run itself.

Unlike the Body, which is a purely reactive system, the Ineffable Exhortation is all sentience. Like the Brain, it is devoted to processing; unlike the Brain, it doesn't loop you in most of the time. It's capable of speech, but it chooses to keep quiet unless it has something specific to request.

I am reasonably sure that the Ineffable Exhortation is the only part of you that can speak both verbal language and the language of the 🌄 with equal fluency. It knows directly, from the horse's mouth, what the 🌄 wants, and it also knows what the Brain wants and keeps an eye on the Body. It works very hard to translate all three into instructions, but it only speaks when they're all in agreement, and because the Brain and 🌄 can't communicate directly, it is doing a whole lot of mediation and translation to get even one thought together.

The Guard gets in the way of the Ineffable Exhortation a lot, and historically has been quite hostile to the Ineffable Exhortation, not because he dislikes it, but because it agitates the 🌄. This both prevents the Exhortation hearing from 🌄, and prevents the Brain from hearing from the Exhortation, because the Guard is often standing between the Exhortation and the Brain and refusing to let them talk in case it upsets the balance.

The Brain values the Ineffable Exhortation, which gives it another very clear sets of data points to triangulate with, and helps it guess what the 🌄 is doing. But the Guard gets in the way of the Brain hearing from the Ineffable Exhortation.

The Accountant is neutral towards the Exhortation, except inasmuch as part of his risk analysis involves weighing up the costs and benefits of obeying the Ineffable Exhortations. He does weigh his calculations towards the Exhortation, though, because past experience suggests it's likely to have unexpected benefits.

The Shoulder Lawyer fucking hates the Exhortation. This is because the Shoulder Lawyer's whole job is to cast doubt on the reliability and certainty of you as a whole system, and the Exhortation is utterly certain. There is not a glimmer of self-doubt in the Exhortation. You can deny its requests because the Accountant says despite his best efforts to square the sums, they're impractical or impossible at the moment, but you cannot disbelieve in the rightness of them, or think they're the Wrong Call.

The Exhortation only says things it is 100% sure of, beyond a shadow of doubt. Unless it knows them to be the correct thing, it keeps them to itself and continues processing; once it is 100% sure what needs to happen to move the process forward, it will tell you, gently but insistently. If the Exhortation's demand fades, you don't have to do it - it's found another route forwards. If it persists, it's because you need to do it.

The Lawyer hates the Exhortation because the Exhortation is immune to the Lawyer. The Exhortation can't be convinced by an argument and it can't be called upon to doubt itself.

The Exhortation isn't in charge. It isn't God or a boss or a pilot. The Exhortation just processes everything that the Brain and the 🌄 (which are the fundamental thinking parts that are entirely You) have to say, and coalesces it into meaning.

It provides action, but in a different way to the Accountant. The Accountant is receiving instructions about what you aim to achieve and translating those into individual steps and checks; the Exhortation is what produces the aims. It doesn't always explain what they are or what they have to do with each other (although the Brain tries to connect those dots, because that's what it does), it just combs through all the complexity and mess and overlapping information that the Brain, Body and 🌄 are working with, and coalesces them to the core.

(this is the bit that says 'this is holy' or 'this is a moral good' and it's also the bit that says 'you should eat a burger' and 'you want to stay on the sofa'. All its statements are delivered in the same certain, factual tone, without more or less weight, but the Accountant is running numbers that say 'a burger costs too much and you can get 90% of the same benefit with any protein' or 'it will cost a lot to die on this hill but it will break the system to ignore it, so we have to do it'

The Guard keeps you thinking straight in a crisis, but it's the Exhortation that allows you to stay the course. The Exhortation knows that this is all going somewhere, and it can tell the difference between a discomfort that is just doing you harm, and the kind of pain which is happening as a side effect of change. It says 'hunker down' or 'guard yourself' when it's a storm to survive and get out of and it says 'this needs to happen' when the storm is the only way to get where you're going.

You do not think the Exhortation is the voice of God. It is definitely part of You, and it isn't delivering instructions from on high, it's reporting out the aggregate results of the calculations and inputs that the rest of You are working on. However, you do think that the Exhortation could be mistaken for the voice of God, and that it has a lot to do with That of God. But it's important to know that the Exhortation is coming entirely from You. There's no outside force involved.

The Exhortation can probably be wrong, but maybe not? It could easily be wrong if it ever made statements about the world outside You, but it doesn't - it says what You need, and it is the best placed of anything in Yourself or in the world to know that.

[nobodybetterlookatme]

Once again, my favorite part of my job is pissing off my medic and ruining their day lmao

[piplupod]

realizing i just had a whole spider on me an hour or two ago. okay the panic is setting in now. delayed emotional responses yayyyy

[mainfaggot]

i ate a piece of dark chocolate that contained 50 mg of caffeine at 6 pm so that I could sit down and focus. all it did was make my heart beat go a bit faster while my body continues to hold itself up about as uselessly as a corpse. #auraloss as the children these days would say.

[bunnihearted]

🐁☁️🌫️

[cheridraws]

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[cerealmonster15]

im looking at this bit in alhaithams lore again. the mirror thing that gets me every time. !!!!

familiar faces with NO family around and opposites. another genius but in an opposite way. his mirror that helps him see and understand things in this world that he otherwise wouldnt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! "things that may have otherwise been unfathomable"!!!!!!!!!!! kaveh being in his life. helps him study and understand different people and concepts in ways he would not understand if he didnt have kaveh in his life to study like a bug under a microscope lol!!!!!!!!!!

[pallases]

i was so smart to leave aftg back at home

[minglana]

why would you open a hotpot restaurant in zaragoza A TOMAR POR CULO😭😭😭😭

[toytulini]

thinking about that post about keeping a house clean organized w adhd with like dump zones and shit and i need to. do stuff to my room. hh