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niishi · 1 year
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I wish I could use twitter bc all the freaks are there and more people would be freaks with me but also all of the people with no friends who've never been invited to a party are also there and they hate seeing freaks have fun and they'll silently stew for so long getting more mad the more fun you have until they decide it's time to relentlessly harass you and your friends, and like...... that's so fucking lame.
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limielle · 8 months
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idk i feel like so much discourse could be easily minimized if people learned to say "i think" instead of "it is"
#like “i think this is a bad game” is way less abrasive/aggressive than “this is a bad game”#do u know where im going w this like#it's literally 2 extra words and it could avoid like 99% of confrontation#ofc there would still be people who are like “omg how can u hate smth i like ur trash” but idk i feel like so much of this discourse u see#on twt especially#is like ? just people being deliberately aggressive abt stuff they dont like to antagonise others and then going “its just my opinion”#and it's hard to read tone online so it's often hard for me (and im sure for others ?? idk actually) to read whether or not sm1 is being#like. just sharing what they think vs them trying to bait out people who will defend smth they like#idk ive been trying to find ffxiv people to follow bc getting back into the game and finally being confident in my art to draw for it also#has me looking for ppl to follow but i wanna avoid the big livetweet first time experiencers and unfortunately that leaves#a lot of people who are afraid of dawntrail/unhappy with the current patch quests#of which i am neither and i also dont want to log on to the internet every day just to see ppl shitting on things u know ?#and i have seen a LOT of like#'x sucked' and 'fandom lacks critical reading skills' and whatnot#but then u see what theyre talking abt and all theyre doing is shitting on the game itself or going 'x expansion was mid'#like . if u stopped phrasing ur opinions as objective fact i feel like maybe ud avoid half those arguments id k???#just words#SORRY im talkative today the truth is i worked on a drawing veyr hard and i do not have the strength to colour it but it will not look good#without colour and i feel like i cant move on without it so i went and replayed shadowbringers instead and cried a lot#and now i have lots of icarus feelings again#WOW loiok at me writing an essay out here i overshare so much im sorry
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emypony · 7 months
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#damn babygirl i wish people checked up on me more#this self conscious catgirl is so tired#sometimes i WISH people just came into my dms to ask me if im ok#i do it constantly to others because i hope theyre not as sad as i am feeling in that moment#genuinely afraid to have made someone feel bad and drive them away from me#and omg i feel nyself running thin again just bc im afraid to lose the interactions we have altogether because i cant process certain media#in a healthy way whatsoever and i get super hung up on thinfs that really dont matter that much in the end#YEAH IM RAMBLING IT'S 5:30 AM AND I COULD BE SLEEPING RIGHT NOW BUT INSTEAD IM JUST CRYING FOR A STUPID REASON!!#i think ive only had one person check up on me based off the vibes in chat i gave off alone in the past couple of months#which was baffling and surreal btw and i think it broke something within me#it came from someone i wouldve never expected to even notice because sometimes it feels like its such a vast difference between us#i sometimes even wonder how are we friends in the first place#like do i even deserve to call this person my friend do they feel like that? or are we just discord acquaintances?#anyway all this just made me sad and my dumb ass is crying and yearning to be loved by my online peers thats all lol. meows pathetically#idk i guess i just.want to hear / see it more rather than just teying to tell myself that over and over hoping im not deluding myself abt i#personal#sorry for the emotions dump idk whats wrong with me tonight actually#me having to come to terms with the reality that i actually have a following and this might get boticed by more than 2 ppl#bc not everyone follows 3k blogs like i am :skull emoji: yknow#im probably gonna delete later because im actually a super self conscious person to the point i get nauseatingly anxious about it holy shit#i dont vent often and im 120% keeping it in but when i do oh boy#the dam bursts and im left like a sopping wet dog on the floor looking like a sad blob#which i am feeling like right now!#vent#emy rambles#ALSO LIKE THIS ISNT TO SAY IM NOT GRATEFUL FOR MY FRIENDS OMG I AM#k really am#sometimes its still like. idk. unbelievable to me that people are genuinely interacting with me and the things i write or headcanon#and i shouldn't expect them to know whats wrong with me or if i feel bad if i dont say it or communicate that to them#but yknow one can yearn
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satuwn · 6 months
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Do you know how to make friends? Even online? I keep trying to talk to people, and it goes well for a day or two, then we never talk again. It’s starting to really get in the way of me doing anything.
honestly i will admit to u, i dont know! im going to try to give u advice but i myself have spent years of my life without irl friends and i actively talk to 3-4 online friends (which most were already longtime relationships) i try to make new friends and talk to ppl but! its hard! especially when ppl dont usually reach out to u first :-( so i myself dont have an answer for that... but there is hope for u and me, always. more rambles under the cut, this is personally what /i/ do so this advice might not apply to everyone!
the best place to make friends is a group of ppl u kinda have to interact with, ofc this is a gamble bc it depends on the ppl u end up with,, which i havent had luck with school wise until now where i met rlly cool ppl in the masters degree im studying at! but perhaps courses, workshops, gatherings, stuff like that! try to gouge someones interest, fav shows, music, cartoons, games etc. and try to keep up with em, maybe get their number or socials and text every now and then! u dont need to pester someone everyday for a relationship to form, and if u are neurodivergent like me it will be Hard to see if theyre genuinely interested in hanging or just being polite, but if u can sense they arent rlly vibing with u i wouldnt try forcing a realtionship even if u find them cool :( aside from that tho just be persistent and dont give up! i had the problem of usually latching to one person i like and that is a nono esp in a group of ppl, try to go around and talk to many ppl and mix it up so u dont come off clingy (as i am often afraid of doing) also, setting up hangouts outside of ur group activites! going out to eat and chat, going around streets, shops or malls, movies, or look up fun or interesting places around u! u can approach inviting someone with 'hey i wanted to check out [place] would u wanna come with?'. this can all be applied to online relationships too, relating to them/asking questions abt their interest/life, watching/gaming together, and just checking in on em from time to time. i might not have said anything new and again i am the last person to be giving this advice but! i dont know, i still hope it helps and i hope everything works out for you!
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filmnoirsbian · 1 year
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sometimes i’m really afraid of aging esp of getting old like in my 70s to 90s bc of the way ppl speak abt older ppl online, either like theyre cringy for being old/out of touch or are way too casual joking abt how theyre gonna die soon. its not even just old ppl, sometimes it seems like ppl believe anyone over the age of like 30 is just not worth anyones time bc they arent Very Young and im also afraid of not being able 2 achieve anything before i get old and ppl r dismissive of me. i know that aging can be beautiful and its not something i should be afraid of but like. idk the whole thing from last week with that lady author in her 70’s reblogging a post w a weird reply has got me really nervous about this
People are generally unkind to older people (and I mean actual senior citizens) and ageism is a real problem, but they don't need your help in that respect. Try not to be unkind to your older self before you even get there. It seems, for most people, that eventually you get to a place where other people's opinions don't matter so much. You've lived through and seen too much for it to matter. Personally I can't wait to get there, myself.
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roakkaliha · 1 year
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public blacklists have always seemed really weird to me especially for popular artists- like. isnt publically blacklisting someone online typically seen as Bad?? arent you worried someones gonna harass that person ????
tbh i think in the way ive seen em get used thats kinda the point?? like the way ppl do it feels like theyre trying to sorta pressure whoever theyre blacklisting into submission, with how the reason theyre blacklisted being right there n often down to details, n how these ppl tend to have the blacklist in a place where you will see it (like the profile warning or bio) or at the very least they will tell you that you need to look through it to interact with them. its also probably to make you afraid of getting blacklisted, so you'll act more careful n submissive around them.
i dont think a public blacklist is inherently a horrible idea if you do a lot of adoptables n shit n its heavily tied to ur brand n business as an independent artist, but you have to do it in a way that minimizes the risk of whoevers blacklisted getting harassed. like having the reasoning behind their blacklisting be vague, possibly not listed at all, but that also raises a problem where ppl cant tell whos in there for valid reasons, n whos there just bc they were a bit annoying in private.
theoretically you could say X broke ur TOS n thats why theyre in the blacklist, but the TOS they broke was some petty bullshit that you neglected to deal with in a professional manner, or maybe ur TOS says "you're not allowed to block me for any reason at all if you dont first let me know".
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mihai-florescu · 3 years
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Bro why buy hundreds of mangas if you're not gonna read them...
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sol-flo · 3 years
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cant believe i'll spend the next two months in a state of constant background anxiety over whether or not i get to graduate next year
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kil9 · 3 years
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#i also hate this disociations . my whole life like past... 6yrs.#it feels like i went to a 3d movie but they forgot to give me the 3d glasses#are my eyes bad am i tired idk#im like its not a real world & i cant process where i am or what im doing most of the time#& i hate hate talking abt it bc then#when ppl start misusing a word is bad but its worse when the crowd comes to correct it#when pppl start being like ''dissociating doesnt mean spacing out !!!! gaslighting doesnt mean lying !!!!'' theyre right but#thats when i become most scared to talk abt those stuff i DO experience for real........#i get most nervous to talk abt dissociation i experience really frewquently and is not good for me#bc i think someone will b like ''its not spacing out sweaty'' i know that !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#& afraid to talk abtout the gaslighting i grew up with that really severely messed me up bc someone asshole wll be like ''its a real word''#I KNOW !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#its the same w triggered ....... man the whole internet is a problem#really really really just mind your bsusiness for fucks sake. who raised you all to think you can call the shots about someones life#i hate it so so so much ppl online just saying realy serious stuff...... just let ppl speak for themselves PLZ ????????#if its not ''dont misuse those words :\\\'' when ppl talking abt their real trauma & abuse#then its the other way & its ''oh you cried ? crying can b because of severe trauma op u have severe trauma'' !!!!!!! wtf !!!!!!#stop tleliing ppl that ur not an expert ur not qualified !!!! who asked u !!! either way !!! shut up !!!!!#literally just mind ur bsusines all of u !!!!!!!!!!!!!
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decolonize-the-left · 2 years
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i have a question and im kind of nervous about asking it but please bear with me, youre like one of the only older ndn’s i know and i only even recently got into contact with anyone who might be able to get me in contact w *my* tribe/community (which super excites me bc i made a friend and theyre my tribe and theyre going to teach me stuff & my prayers were answered! but for a long time its just been me and my dad and alot of information that we’ve kept to ourselves bc people told us we shouldnt bother)
but like, im nervous about using 2spirit bc im reconnecting & also not just native, im white too, but it defines my identity really well. im also 19 so maybe im wrong. ive been suppressing reconnecting for years bc of the way i was treated in the town i grew up in, and some online interactions. i know you arent the end all be all, but idk, its hard to know where to look for guidance when you dont have any elders. not that youre an elder i just look up to you and have been trying to work up the courage to ask. (my grandfather passed some years ago, and his mother before i was born. his father wasnt even in the picture) when i pray and i ask the ancestors, i know what my answer is. i feel my answer. but im afraid of what people will say to me, even when i know it
sorry for bothering you with this i hope you have a nice day mx. antifa (cause. ur the ceo. I tried mx. the-left and mx. decol but mx. antifa was better)
Okay so I got this a little bit ago and I've been putting it off because I have my own identity issues as a mixed person and I'm certainly no authority on anyone else's identity.
That said, 2spirit is a term that means a Lot more than just a way to identify yourself. There's a community role that 2spirit ppl play. Tbh? I'm a bit too far removed to tell you exactly what that role is and it's definitely something you should talk about with your tribal friend to see how 2spirit plays into your own tribe.
I guess what I'm saying is think less of what the native terminology can do for you and invite more genuine connection to your own tribe instead. There may be another word they use, role they play, or even an entirely different word that's even Better for you within your tribe. And if reconnection and picking up bits of identity along the way is your goal then you should certainly be doing so with the teachings and traditions of your own tribe.
I share a lot of the experiences you mentioned and this ^^^ is why I personally don't identify as 2spirit.
I'm now comfortable in my mixed identity and I do feel like I have a right to reclaim that identity. But that doesn't mean I get to participate in that identity with ignorance. Personally, I don't know much about being 2spirit and as such I wouldn't want to do something Wrong by reclaiming it and using it ignorantly/offensively.
Like I said, I'm certainly no authority though and ultimately this is your choice, your identity, and your journey.
Nobody can (or will) give you permission for this, and it seems that's what you're asking for. But this is a personal decision. And tbh I'm doubtful you'd find an ndn willing to say "yes you're native enough" because it's definitely um. Idk how to explain it without sounding cheesy and corny as hell, but only You know if you are native enough. It's something you feel and know and accept in your core, in your heart. Nobody will Ever be able to tell you you're native or not. Only you. Only you know how genuine your connection is.
And those of us are anti-blood quantum and are aware of the identity issues it causes don't see any natives as "part native". That's a colonial concept to us. Being native isn't something you can quantify and measure. It's not in your DNA, it's in your ancestry and proximity to natives and culture. A lot tribes for example would accept outsiders into their tribe and not sharing our blood never made them any less a part of the tribe. Never made them less native once they were accepted. Their connection to community is what made them native, who they called family is what made them native.
You either identify as native or you don't. And if you claim and live like a native and have that history and feel comfortable then who am I to say "no you aren't native enough"?
Me and the natives I know would never undermine the identity of a mixed native like that.
I'm sorry it wasn't the answer you wanted but I hope I helped.
(also omg mx. Antifa? I'm obsessed, everyone call me this instead of decol or dtl from now on pls)
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strawberrybabydog · 3 years
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I hate and am really saddened by how most of the time when I find ppl online and read their carrds/bios/posts they say they’re psychotic but they only say it because they are kin as some characters (think they have “”DAs””)… and say they have no other psychotic symptoms….AND ITS ALWAYS LIKE “I’m psychotic” then IN THE NEXT SENTENCE THEY LIST THEIR “IRLS” AS A WAY TO EXPLAIN/PROVE THAT THEYRE PSYCHOTIC… PLEASE you are fictionkin just accept it (most of them at least)
I feel like ppl have taken on the label “psychotic” as more of a thing that’s like .. fun and quirky .. a silly community word.. not even related to schizospec or actual psychotic disorders.. as in its really lost its meaning as a serious word for serious disorders .. very very watered down and misunderstood
I feel like some of them ID as psychotic and not any specific psychotic disorder because they literally don’t even have one and just see the term as some fun community thing - LIKE not even researching psychotic disorders or psychosis(except for trusting random info about it from threads and carrds by kids on Twitter) they just immediately take on this label as if it doesn’t signify a serious disorder. They take on the label psychotic as if it’s like a xenogender which someone can quickly shop for and id with lol. I really feel like that’s why I see no one who has their specific psychotic disorder listed or says they’re schizospec .. bc they don’t even take the time to look into it .. they also just don’t see psychotic as serious at all they do not take it seriously …(it’s totally fine if u are psychotic and that’s all u wanna say on it though.. ive just gotten to a point where MANY “psychotics” I see are just fictionkin in denial who are hurting the communities.. the word has left a bad taste in my mouth)
Like I know it just seems like silly discourse or whatever but it’s genuinely harming real psychotics and even non psychotics too in a very serious and big way that I’m afraid will just get worse and be irreversible. I say non psychotics because of its effect on the alterhuman communities. The harmful and dangerous misinformation and behaviors that have been spread are so sickening to me .. as well as the disrespect to spiritual beliefs .. i also will mention that many of these “psychotic” people just LOVE to say slurs and derogatory terms that aren’t for them all the time.. so many ppl go around like “omg haha I’m a psycho delulu I’m CRAZY u wanna call me psycho so bad call me delusional!!!!!” right after they first start IDing as psychotic just bc they have an “irl” .. it’s kinda .. it’s getting kinda weird here.. as in people who literally have no other symptoms signifying psychosis
I’m afraid no one will ever be properly educated and learn better bc they call everyone who disagrees with them ableist as if someone politely criticizing how similar the definitions for DAs and fictionkin are is peak ableism that psychotics experience … sure /s….
this is exactly why the use of DA should be changed imo. i think it should be kept but changed to describe an erotomanic delusional's person of interest - not even to be used as a self-identifier.
this isn't even helping anyone on the Otherkin side of things either. it suppresses access to Otherkin (Fictionkin) resources. so unlike KFF, where sometimes folks can be educated out of it or are finding the Otherkin community through KFF, this is doing none of that. they also seem to use their own identities as ammunition against Otherkin, as if their own identity is a bad thing in some cases, which i think is incredibly telling as to how they really view actually-psychotic people: "wow you're taking this way too seriously, maybe you have a D/A, i think you should really seek help for that :0/".... like you mentioned, anyone who's going to try to educate these people is often met with "you're just ableist" (which isn't true btw, being disabled or mentally ill doesn't protect anyone from personal criticism.) and as you mentioned, holy shit does this harm psychotic people! yes!
i don't think there's anything wrong with simply IDing as psychotic, having psychotic symptoms, or otherwise being vague about your identity/conditions. that's fine. that's what i do! but that's not what these people are doing (at least, not for the most part.) many of them describe themselves to be delusional but having no other psychotic symptoms... which means, if they are only delusional, they're not psychotic. they have 1 positive symptom. to have a psychotic disorder i'm pretty sure you need to have 2 or 3 positive symptoms (cant remember exact number but it's not just 1.) so... if they are delusional - which most of them are likely not, and are likely just Fictionkin as you mentioned - they would have delusional disorder, not be psychotic. not only are they using "psychotic" as a fun silly light-hearted community thing, but they're also using it as a blanket term in the wrong context (thus spreading misinformation.)
a major problem here is like you said, they seem to be getting most of their information through small twitter threads rather than listening to actual psychotic people and reading actual articles on it. i've seen some people claim to be authorities on a subject simply because they have the experience and.... no. having the experience is only half of what you "need" to be an authority on a subject, no matter what the subject is. i'm queer and i know very little about queer history, which means i'm a really horrible authority on that subject. i can sure talk to you about my experience, but beyond that i'm no help and i would never pretend to be; my experience isn't universal and to cite only my experience when talking about other things, that's just... such a terrible and harmful idea. mentioning here again that half of them straight up admit to having never experienced any form of psychosis, they don't have anything.
but they're kids. i am all for kids trying to figure out who they are, where they fit into the world, whatever. that's a really important development phase. but it's not fair to harm an already heavily stigmatized and oppressed group in the process.
i fear deeply that this will become another "kin VS. 'Kin" at some point where they will try to claim the word has taken on a new alternative meaning. but hopefully it doesn't get to that point and in a few years when these kids grow up, the D/A community will die with them growing out of it.
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yaarabee · 3 years
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thank you for making that post about mjl and the conflation of anti-zionism with antisemitism. I was really excited to start my conversion process this summer, but I feel like this is The Big Issue that's standing in my way, and I'm hesitant to even reach out to my (new) rabbi about it bc I'm afraid of being stonewalled or told - like some of the ppl in the notes have said - that you can't be Jewish without unconditionally supporting the modern nation-state of Israel. I don't think that's true, but I do think it's a prevalent opinion, and I don't know if I'm in a good enough place to join a new community only to be rejected immediately because I don't share that particular stance. do you have any advice/sources for anti-zionist Jewish advocacy/activism, or for dealing with these questions during conversion? I know the answer is "ask your rabbi!" but the last time I asked my (old) rabbi about this it...didn't go well, and I'm a little on edge now.
You absolutely do not have to be a zionist/pro israel to be jewish. My reform rabbi discourages it actually, but thats just him. Ignore the people in the notes, theyre ignoring the parts they don't want to hear, and can't be reasoned with. They're just jerks. Being against the murder of innocent people is totally fine (and is the proper reaction 🤣), and is in no way antisemitism. They're just throwing that out there to scare you.
Tbh i haven't seen that as being the prevalent opinion in the few years ive been out and participating in my local and online jewish communities. But i do mostly only have reform and conservative experience, as i simply just don't personally vibe with orthodoxy for myself. I think reform or maybe conservative might be right for you, look for a local synagogue and shoot the rabbi an email, that's what i did! So i don't think its as big a deal as you think it is hun!
You've got nothing to worry about. I really hope you continue your conversion journey! Don't listen to randos online, they aren't the authority haha
But tbh the best advice i can give if you face pushback, which i doubt you will, just be calm about it. Its simply your personal and private views, and they have no right to it if you dont want to talk about it. And these have no effect on how jewish you are. So just say its just your personal opinion or that its not for you, but you respect their opinion, and dont want to get into it.
Sorry i feel like im rambling now 🤣 this probably didnt help much, but i hope it did!
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1eos · 3 years
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Hiii ms kendra do u have any tips for making friends online 😓 how do I start talking to ppl that i want to without feeling like I'm bothering them and how do I avoid ppl who I rlly don't wanna interact with without being rude. Sorry this is super long and maybe weird but whenever I see u interact with your friends here Im like 'i want what u have' so u thot I'd ask :')
im not one to approach ppl so until the universe forces me to i will simply allow ppl to come to me. but there's an art in that too.....to make urself approachable online. i use tags liberally, make a bunch of posts answer asks etc so ppl see that im talkative nd follow nd reply to my posts, dm etc so we can strike up a friendship. like i think lin followed me back bc of my posts abt eau de vixx. nd when it comes to feeling like ure bothering someone u're just gonna have to work past that lmao. if someone doesn't want to be talked to they'd have their replies, dms, asks off. nd 98% of the ppl on this website r literally begging for interaction so u just gotta interact with ppl despite your hesitations. no magical advice to getting over that im afraid 😭😭😭😭😭 nd as for avoiding ppl........just be pleasant then softblock or hardblock if theyre mega weird bc irl you'd never sit down nd have coffee with a creep that comes up to your car why do the equivalent online?
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rouge-the-bat · 4 years
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i was tagged by @thegirlwiththebird on my bi-lesbian blog ! im not sure why its not letting me tag her tho, so i just put a link instead! (also some things i think were typod so i copied the list from another post i was able to find with this set up!)
rules: bold the statements that apply to you and italicize your aspirations
im changing the // between phrases to ♡♡ again so its easier for me to distinguish phrases, and to also help this be easier for me to read, my own "key" will be like:
bold: is me!
italics: aspiration~
plain text: kinda fits me
strikethrough: doesnt fit me at all
(subscript parenthesis): my comments!
💨 AIR 💨
i have small hands (i think theyre average size?) ♡♡ i love the night sky ♡♡ i watch small animals and birds when i pass them by ♡♡ i drink herbal tea ♡♡ i wake to see dawn (im often awake for it but i wake up in the afternoon :p) ♡♡ the smell of dust is comforting ♡♡ i’m valued for being wise (im not sure if i am already??? would be cool to be seen as such tho owo) ♡♡ i prefer books to music ♡♡ i meditate (i wanna try bc it may be good for me :O) ♡♡ i find joy in learning new truths from the world around me
🔥 FIRE 🔥
i don’t have straight hair (my hair is very straight, unlike myself) ♡♡ i like to wear ripped jeans and overalls (indifferent on jeans, but id like to wear overalls sometime) ♡♡ i play an organized sport ♡♡ i love dogs ♡♡ i am not afraid of adventure ♡♡ i love to talk to strangers (i like meetin new ppl and chatting online, im bad with it in person tho owo;;) ♡♡ i always try new foods (depends on my mood) ♡♡ i enjoy road trips ♡♡ summer is my favorite season (nope, cant stand the heat!) ♡♡ my radio is always playing
🌊 WATER 🌊
i wear bracelets on my wrists (im wearing one on each wrist rn!) ♡♡ i love the bustle of the city ♡♡ i have more than one set of piercings (only my ears are pierced) ♡♡ I read poetry (id like to read more sometime, i just usually dont have the focus to read stuff much) ♡♡ i love the sound of a thunderstorm ♡♡ i want to travel the world ♡♡ i sleep past midday most days ♡♡ i love dimly lit diners and fluorescent signs ♡♡ i rewatch kids’ shows out of nostalgia ♡♡ i see emotions in colors, not words
🌲 EARTH 🌲
i wear glasses/contacts ♡♡ i enjoy doing the laundry ♡♡ i am a vegetarian or vegan ♡♡ i have an excellent sense of time (dear god no, its shit awful) ♡♡ my humor is very cheerful (it depends tbh? my humors all over the place, fun, silly, dark, random, just whatever) ♡♡ i am a valued advisor to my friends ♡♡ i believe in true love (like i said on one before, probably not in a typical sense) ♡♡ i love the chill of mountain air ♡♡ i’m always listening to music (i cant really stand having music going all the time a lot of the times, and my music moods are kinda scarce lately. if im always playing music on some days its probably a game soundtrack, usually instrumental. or just obsessed with one or a couple songs atm and repeating them lol) ♡♡ i am highly trusted by the people in my life
🌌 AETHER 🌌
i go without makeup in my daily life (i kinda wanna wear lipstick and blush more tho, and maybe eyeshadow/eyeliner. generally just wanna dress up more bc a nice aesthetic helps boost my energy i think) ♡♡ i make my own artwork ♡♡ i keep on track of my tasks and time ♡♡ i always know true north ♡♡ i see beauty in everything (i try to!) ♡♡ i can always smell flowers (if im outside i do, but i dont go outside much... i wanna tho) ♡♡ i smile at everyone i pass by ♡♡ i always fear history repeating itself ♡♡ i have recovered from a mental disorder (cant say ive "recovered" from any, but my depression isnt as bad as it used to be, energy is still shit tho) ♡♡ i can love unconditionally
aaaand @spiiderbiites @miphelda @kipokin @queerplyke @ameila @skayforrest this is the last post for me to catch up with these tag games, so sorry for all the tags suddenly !! hope yall dont mind <:'3
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brainworm · 4 years
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I don't post about anything else on this blog bc I'm not rly afraid to overshare on main but when it comes to ed I just don't want to trigger someone bc I know it does trigger me. Anyways
I'm like struggling with figuring out what's normal to eat, what do people really eat in a day. When I look up videos of like, ppl with recovered eating disorders they often turn vegan or something, and I don't have anyone around me who eats... Normally? I don't know anyone... I just want to see how a person my age eats when theyre not watching their weight. Like people who post these things online are like, avocado on toast and salmon and smoothie bowl or something and I'm like I just want to see some regular ass food I just can't relate in any way and like take advice from it because I've had avocado or salmon once in my life
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shadowofmoths · 4 years
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fuck it, all the evens for the quarantine ask, there are no rules anymore
NO RULES NO RULES NO RULES!! putting this under a cut to spare yall lmao
2. Grilled cheese or PB&J?
GRILLCHEESE. i have recently developed an idealogical opposition to peanut butter but also have you ever been awake at like Too Late and ur jus vibing and u make a grilled cheese and have ur midnight grillcheese? fucking MAGICAL. avery and i all the time when it is Too Late will be like “i want something. what do i want what is it GRILLCHEESE” and then we grill a cheese.
4. Your go-to bar order, if you drink?
i dont drink ! but i do love to have fancy, nonalcoholic drinks....no go-to bar order tho rip 
6. Top three cuisines?
i like...italian food, ofc, as anyone who knows my last name would probably guess, but also my top fav is like mediterranean & middle eastern food ? like fuck man what i would not do in life for a good gyro 
8. What’s a job that you’ve had that people might be surprised to find out you’ve had?
i have not, uh, strictly had jobs, as such, but uh a fun fact abt me is that i did Literally Every Possible Volunteer Position at my church i think lkjhgfhfhs. 
10. Do you own any signed books/memorabilia in general?
answered!
12. What do you get on your bagels? What WOULD you get if you had access to anything you wanted?
OK SO. there is this place near my mom’s college that i think might just literally be called the bagel place and they have a kind of bagel named after their school mascot which is just. bagel, and then you toast it, adn put cream cheese on each half, and then you put some regular cheese on the top of it and put it in a broiler and melt the cheese and its SO GOOD and thats my ideal bagel. 
14. Favorite mug you own
THIS IS A GOOD QUESTION. sofia gave me a yellow mug and its little and v round and decorated w flowers and its SO GOOD and its my fav. i also have a black skull mug and a haunted mansion mug that i LOVe adn theyre all in MARYLAND STILL HELP. i miss them. 
16. Pick a song lyric to describe your current mood (and drop the name and artist!)
it took a concerted effort here not to choose something from next to normal which tells you how intensely GOING THRU IT i am. there’s a song called “better in the morning” by birdtalker that my spotify discover weekly hit me w during a late night breakdown that sort of encapsulates my “this fuckin SUCKS bro but we’re gonna keep goin tho” vibe.
18. What’s that one TV show that you’re a little bit embarrassed to watch but you still like nonetheless?
SHAME OVER INTERESTS IS BORING. ITS 2020. SOMETIMES I WATCH OLD EPISODES OF SHAKE IT UP WITH MY SISTERS. no but my real answer is....i really genuinely unironically love high school musical the musical the series. is it good? not, like, really! but i love it. its probably made me tear up. but im not embarrassed abt it lmao 20. Do you match your socks?
answered!22. What was your “phase” when you were younger? (i.e., Mythology Nerd, Horse Girl, Space Geek, etc)
JKHGSDAF my phase was “Undiagnosed ADHD” so it was , All The Phases really but no it was star wars for sure. but star wars wasnt a PHASE mom thats who i AMMMM 
24. What’s your opinion on Lazy Susan’s (the spinning tray in the middle of tables)?
i...no opinion? they’re..fine? 
26. You can only have one juice for the rest of your life, what is it?
ok theres a local like, dairy farm that makes a FUCKING MAGICAL watermelon lemonade in the summer and i would do anything to have that shit year round 28. What’s one thing you’re trying to learn/relearn in your downtime right now?
knitting! embroidery! uhhhh time management when ur trapped and have adhd! other assorted mental health strategies, like “how to explain to ur teachers that u need help bc ur brain is just Chaotic and also the WORLD IS ENDING, catriona, PLEASE no more essays.” 30. Where could someone find you in a museum?
depends on the museum! but ur best bet is “genuinely crying over van goghs” or otherwise having Very Big Emotions over someone like monet or agnes martin
32. Rainbows, stars, or sunset colored clouds?
ALL OF THESE. probably sunset clouds but also i cannot TELL you how much i miss stars when im out in MD being a Big City Boy.
34. Do you have more art on your walls or more photographs?
art! altho im thinking of disassembling the Art Wall™ and doing smth else bc its gotten a little chaotic in here lately 
36. Pick a superhero sidekick to hang out with
ok, like, define sidekick! which of the young avengers are “sidekicks” if its just a group of gay friends doing universe-saving together?? would you relegate billy kaplan to “sidekick” status? sidekick to WHOM? anyway the answer is teddy altman. 
38. Favorite mid-2000s song
answered!
40. Where do you sit in the living room (we all have a preferred spot, and you know it)?
the couch corner is MINE, babey!! (8 ppl in ur house does mean a big L shaped couch is relatively necessary.) altho recently ive developed a habit of whenever i see someone sitting in a spot i decide that is now My Spot. the person already there doesnt have to move! but i will also be sitting there now thank you. no, im not craving physical affection, why do you ask? 
42. A song you didn’t think you’d enjoy but ended up loving
i dont think i expected to Fall In Love with carly rae jepsen, i dont think ! but her power.....wow. 
44. Are you a “Quote that relates to the photos” caption-er, an “explanation of where I took the photos” caption-er, or a no caption kinda person when you post pictures online?
quote that relates to the photos, usually! with maybe a little explanation. most of the photos i post are arts so it’ll be like “this is carrion hes a bitch i love him” etc 
46. What’s the freezer food that you stock up on when you go to the grocery store?
i dont think...anything in the freezer in my apartment is mine? i think ive got some ben and jerry’s phish food in there tho which is DEFINITELY bad by now, FUCK, but also toaster waffles, conceptually, would be my answer. 
48. Do you like Jello?
yes ! it is . Fun To Eat. 
50. How are you at climbing trees?
pretty bad, bc coordination is a no and im afraid of heights, but i sure do love to try ! and then get too scared! 
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