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dibbs-n-scribbs · 3 months

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Late night Columbo sketch. Been watching the series for the first time and I'm already hooked

#columbo #lieutenant columbo #i need this man more than anything #why didnt i give this show a chance sooner #HES SO HANDSOME #more than down bad rn #i dont think ive ever seen a more beautiful man #this isnt just the tumblr talking Im starting to feel things #gonna save this so i can look at it later #also high im back after my like 1 year hiatus #also gonna try to be more self indulgent #although i didnt post EVER i rlly want to have a space where Im comfortable making stuff I like for once #that includes me obsessing over fictional men #but like more than usual

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many-gay-magpies · 3 months

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god what really gets me about dead boy detectives and what i think i love so much about the show and the relationships in it is that like. the romantic and sexual relationships aren't portrayed as being more unique or important than the platonic relationships. they're all just RELATIONSHIPS.

charles and crystal's attraction to each other and eventual hookup isn't this big end-all be-all relationship that shatter charles and edwin's friendship and draws charles' attention away from edwin; it's just a THING that happens. they're just two people that care about each other and happen to also be attracted to each other, and a hook-up happens, then they decide that neither of them are in the right place for it and it's nothing awful. crystal kisses charles, but it isn't some big spectacle of her declaring her love for him; it's just her saying goodbye and that she cares about him, like her hugs with niko and jenny and her handshake with edwin.

edwin realizes he loves charles romantically and tells him, and charles says he doesn't really love edwin romantically BACK, but it's okay, because they still love each other so much in so many other ways that this one tiny difference could never change them—and it doesn't!! they're still just as close, still care for each other just as much, still SHOW that care for each other just as much. their relationship didn't completely end because edwin loved charles in a way charles couldn't reciprocate, but at the same time it isn't "solved" by edwin getting over it, because there's nothing TO solve. it's just another type of love, added to everything that already exists between them. and they have LITERALLY FOREVER to figure out what it means.

the relationships between edwin & niko, crystal & niko, and crystal & edwin aren't given any less weight for being solely platonic, just as charles & crystal's relationship and edwin's feelings for charles aren't given (that much) MORE weight for being romantic. crystal and charles' conflict in the closet is about EDWIN, about how they're BOTH his friend and BOTH want to get him back; it has very little to do with the feelings between THEM, romantic or otherwise. similarly, the weight of charles' and edwin's relationship isn't diminished in the LEAST by charles not reciprocating the romantic side of his feelings (or SAYING he doesn't reciprocate, at least—we can all argue about the legitimacy of that in the notes).

i'm sure there are more examples than this, as well as probably some examples that CONTRADICT this, but like... by and large, it feels like dead boy detectives is a show where all the relationships are given equal weight regardless of platonic, sexual, romantic, or familial status, and as someone on both the asexual and aromantic spectrums who has struggled time and time again with shows casting out the importance of all other relationships in favor of prioritizing romance, that is INCREDIBLY refreshing to see.

#this might be a lot of run-on sentences and me repeating itself because its 2 am rn (sidenote how the HELL did it get that late last i chec #-ed it was like 11???) but i hope u enjoy anyway 👍#magpie thoughts #dead boy detectives #ik before watching the show i saw a lot of people were annoyed by charles and crystal's relationship and thought it felt forced and like #-they had no romantic chemistry #but honestly. having watched the show. i don't see that at all?#like maybe it's just me being aspec and not getting what ''romantic chemistry'' even IS but like. they were people. they were two fucked up #-people that happened to be attracted to each other and they hooked up when both of them were in low places and agreed to not go any furthe #-after. but beyond all of that they are FRIENDS and they STAY friends and like. they just felt like PEOPLE #the way they were written and the way the actors ACTED IT felt like ten times better to me than the dozens of pinacle romances i've seen in #-other tv shows #(and also i gotta say i love the other CASUALNESS with which sex was mentioned in the early episodes. it wasnt made out to be this big thin #-that only happens when tied to romance; it was just a THING. theyre both hot and in different circumstances they totally would have had se #-about it (and eventually they did but thats besides the point). that's it)#they're people. this is a show full of ghosts and demons and witches and crows-turned-into-boys but they are all fundamentally just PEOPLE #beautiful and fucked up human beings that feel attraction and hurt and fear and love in a million different ways.#AUGH i love this show so much #paineland #payneland #crystal palace #charles rowland #edwin payne #niko sasaki #dead boy detective netflix #dbda

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teddybeartoji · 26 days

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mickeymickEYMICKEY I DONT KNOW IF YOU SAW BUT THIS. OH MY GAAWWHSHSBDKNFKG

JIASDJSDSFHEFEHJ SCAR. THAT'S SO FUCKING INSANE I JUST RB'ED IT TOO BUT LIKE. GOD I LOVE FANARTISTS SOOO SO MUCH THAT'S SO FUCKING STUNNING I WANT IT ON MY WALL FRAMED AND EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FEM!DAZAI I LOVE YOU SO BAD SHE'S SOOO SO MURKY AND DARK AND SHE DEFINITELYLIKES THE TASTE OF BLOOD BUT IT'S WHATEVER YOU KNOW (I WILL MARRY HER.)

#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #HAVING ZOOMIES OVER THIS RN #I FEEL LIKE I NEED TO RUN LAPS AROUND MY APARTMENT #RRRRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH #SO FUCKING SICKKK #SO FUCKING BEAUTIFUL #LOVE LOVE LOVE #THANK YOU SM FOR SHOWING IT TO BE BTW I HADN'T SEEN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#ILYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#scar <3 #friends!!

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sucresanguine · 7 months

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maybe one day we'll have trans spaces that don't repackage and heavily reinforce the same body standards that make cis people feel like shit about themselves

#fr in so many spaces it feels like run of the mill dysphoria isnt bad enough??#you cant just transition you still gotta hate yourself for being a small man or a larger woman #like im honestly pretty neutral/positive about my body rn but you'd think id have to be cursing my fate lest i been seen as infected by #-'female beauty standards'#this is literally the shit that gives cis dudes orthorexia or whatever #likewise im so sorry to my sisters who gotta deal with toxic lady standards bumped up 1000 percent as part of 'transition goals'#and presented as an aspirational part of womanhood #something being a common insecurity doesn't mean reinforcement of it is good??#are we not already fucked enough

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dykeogenes · 1 year

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“it’s so sad you can’t save karlach” you absolutely CAN save karlach and i have a paper to write about why nobody thinks you can

#bg3 spoilers #SHES HAPPY. SHE IS LITERALLY HAPPY TO BE A MIND FLAYER. SHE SAYS TO YOU ‘THIS IS INSANE BUT I FEEL CRAZY LUCKY RN’.#she doesn’t want to do it ! but if she does she’s VERY HAPPY WITH THE TRADEOFF!#bg3 snuck one of the most interesting thought-provoking Meditations On Beauty I’ve ever seen into their viddy game and I am CHEWING on it.#there’s obviously plenty to say about this relative to tav and the other characters as well #and the player’s inherent reluctance to take what is MECHANICALLY nothing but a boost #on the grounds that it will slightly alter their appearance #And like how (and whether!) we justify that as being what our characters would do etc etc yada yada #but it is LITERALLY lifesaving for karlach. The only other options for her are death or going back to a place #that she considers worse than death.#it’s a choice that she would have made happily if she knew going in that it would switch off her engine!#she is nothing but relieved if you talk to her afterwards! she looks radically different but she is the same person!#and YET as a player . Even knowing all of that!! it still sort of feels like losing her #and there’s REALLY something juicy there about how we think about appearance #and the nature of the self etc #also it’s definitely not that deep but I could say something about her appearance rework from EA #and how her being a conventionally ‘attractive’ character plays into this #like honestly? If it was laezel in the same situation I think we’d all be reacting very differently!#and I include myself in that! Through that whole scene I was going WOW this feels like such a hard choice #And at the same time looking at myself like holy shit you’re SO in the beauty complex soup!#anyways. Much to think about. Mind flayer karlach is adorable also.#Rhi talks

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petluck · 5 months

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im so sleepy-pilled rn, very much about to be snoozemaxing

#goodnight beautiful people I love u all so much #thank u for making me feel Seen and giving me community #this is very sappy but my heart is full of love rn

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sandreeen · 4 months

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[Sore Snow Man ni Yarasetekudasai 2024.05.24] Wherein Marin Honda and Momoiro Clover Z's Ayaka Sasaki & Reni Takagi dance to Arashi's Monster. "You did Ohno-san's solo part very well. Your Ohno-san was superb!"

#sore snow man ni yarasetekudasai #marin honda #momoiro clover z #snow man #sasaki ayaka #takagi reni #jpopgifs #fskateedit #figure skating #translation #my gif #soresuno gif #mine mine #soresuno #arashi #monster #the way she couldnt help smiling in the 3rd gif cause everyone cheered after she turned around lmao #they were only given 3 minutes to learn the choreo btw #i got lazy halfway thru and didnt translate the rest of the comments while they were dancing im sorry lol #part of it is because idk whos talking off camera so idk what color to use for them #everyone kept yelling beautiful because she does each move with so much grace #also some comments asking if shes standing on ice rn cause it feels like shes skating lmao #i havent seen #haruna ai #in a while so watching this episode was nice #ngl feels surreal to have marin be center in between momokuro lol #but it makes sense since she dances differently from the other two

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medusa-was-innocent · 2 years

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They took waiting room off spotify

#I’m literally devastated #don’t text #how could they do this #it’s homophobic #check in on your annoying friends we’re really going thru it rn #music #waiting room #phoebe Bridgers #women in music #mine #genuinely I’m sad about this even if she does re record it I live the version that was up #like I know she doesn’t like it because she said it’s cringy and you can tell a 16 year old wrote it but that’s exactly why I love it #like it’s young and raw and feels exactly as desperate and madly obsessively in love as only a heart eyed kid can be #like she really captured that feeling of wanting something so strongly but knowing it’s not yours and feeling helpless like a child #because you just know you’ll never have if no matter how much you wish for it #it’s a kid singing about how desperate they are and the desperate teenage girl inside me feels seen #i don’t want a more mature and understanding version I want the version that feels like a heartbreaking and beautiful tantrum

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ajdrawshq · 9 months

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crying at isat ending counter: 3

#I HATE THIS GAME (ive never loved a game more)#also i forgot how beautiful the final battle themes are.....#and like. there are plenty of games where ill tear up thats fine thats normal #this is the third time ive seen this in what couldve been a single month(?????!!!!!!!!) and im still legit crying rn #and oh!!!!! its coming soon!!!!!!! the one i havent even seen yet!!!!!!!!!!#aaaaaaaaa...............#soon................#isat #isat spoilers #especially for some of these next tags. beware #ALSO NEW DIALOGUE FOR ME SINCE I COMPLETED ALL THE SIDEQUESTS YEYEYEYYE #oh!!!! that part of bonnies is different.. i dont remember sif saying theyd explain their past to them before #and sif telling bonnie everyones ok even tho that never .. agh :')#this game is so cute. everyone is so cute i love this game to bits #sif n miras friendship is so dear to me.......#feelings buddies!!!!!!!!#sifffffff :'3 #i think if i beat this game daily my depression would just cease tbh. alas. that is against the will of the game itself #WAIT I JUST NOTICED BOTH HAVE HEARTS IN THEIR EYES DURING THE CONFESSION .. aw :3 #HDJSJBDMK HIS REACTION TO SIF TELLING HIM THEY .#OHHHH MY GOD????????? THAT FACE #SIF???????? GO BABY GO #'MAYBE WE SHOULD'............... DEAR LORD #ISA BLOWS U A KISS!!!!!!!!#im so happy for them god bless #ok. now . the thing i Really did this for. here we go here we go here we go

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kalach-cha · 1 year

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i feel so terribly sick in the head i don’t know what to do

#having a truly terrible night. i don’t even know what i look like or if i’ve ever been mentally and physically healthy #i feel so so wrong and i should never be allowed to drink again. when did i get so self-destructive and raw #i moved from a place that i hated (it was my home) to somewhere beautiful but so so wrong. i hate these streets and i hate this view and i #just want to feel like i’m home. i never had a home though did i? i grew up hating where i lived and always wanting something more #i’m moving again in less than two weeks. another country. another place that will never feel like it’s mine #i drink and i sleep but i don’t eat or see the sun. it’s like i’m barely alive these days. video games are kinda the only think keeping me #sane rn. and even that’s coming to an end. my mother thinks i hate her and my stepfather is fine with ignoring me. i haven’t seen anyone #like me or even just my age in nearly two months. i hardly speak to anyone. i have no money and i can’t work. what am i supposed to do??#all i am is tired and angry at the world. and i’m in bed and i’m hungry and i don’t know what for and i want a fucking drink.#fucking hell it’s too late for me to be like this. i just want my best friend back.#michi.txt #vent in tags

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elytrafemme · 1 year

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the music director drama is fucking insaneee

#nightmare.personal #THE AMOUNT OF SHIT I JUST LEARNED RN JAW DROP #feeling better about my voice though ^_^#debatably shit talking a guy shouldn't make me feel better but i hear he's like super bad to his gf soooooo deserved #also my teacher is so niceys to me and im making actual improvement wah hah hah #ALSO GIRL WHOS LESSON I WATCH SOUNDED BEAUTIFUL #LITERALLY LIKE A PRINCESS I WAS LIKE...OMG #made me emotional bc her voice sounded a lil like mine only a few years ago and i was like #:(((( you sound so good and pretty and i hope u know this #she was the sweetest ever #id never seen her in my life before But now i have xoxo gossip girl

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mechawolfie · 2 years

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i know it’s been said a million times already but the way so called “progressive” spaces treat the mentally ill the fat the elderly/aging etc is sooooo.. 😬

#smudgy.txt #yes i am still talking abt 9-1-1 lone star #this running joke abt the captain being afraid of losing his hair #it's reminding me of how things r going rn wrt male beauty standards #which i Do Not wanna get into bc GOD the arguments give me a headache #but it's like so many self proclaimed progressive/liberal/whatever spaces #are so comfortable in these old shitty jokes n it confuses me?#like ok u want things to get better. but u will continually put down certain groups of ppl #when the ppl u claim to fight against are also making those same jokes abt those same ppl #using the same harmful tropes #im trying to explain this but idk how. its like uhh #a lack of self awareness? holding on to the comfort of 'safe' things like jokes abt ppl #who deal w things u don't currently have to deal w???#making these jokes u feel comfortably w without thinking abt WHY these jokes feel comfortable to u? why theyre so normal?#like the whole creepy nerd w a 'weird' (see: jewish) last name & curly hair trope #(havent seen this in lone star im just using an example)#its like. ppl still seem to find these characters funny but dont think abt why the joke exists in the first place. bc its comfortable #idk.. idk!!!!!

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kotoal1011 · 2 years

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i think i can predict the future i literally wrote an archer mafuena fic a few days ago and now that archer gacha comes out (that mafuyu card has me going a bit insane ngl) - ❄

Man, that's insane... Write something related to Kanade in a suit I'm begging, I need a card like that in my life.

Also, archer mafuena fic??? I have no words to describe how perfect that concept is, I'm gonna be thinking about it for the rest of the day <3

#BTW HAVE U SEEN SH.IZUKU OHMYGOD #AND K.AITO AND M.AFUYU TOO AAAA #this whole set is so beautiful #so jealous of jp server players rn #I have a feeling that ❄️ anon likes m.afuyu a lot. I might be wrong tho /j

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noxtivagus · 2 years

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the night sky was so pretty..

#🌙.rambles #the sky was so clear n #the night was cold yeah but it wasn't too much for me. i'm used to the cold #n the stars were.. so bright. i recognized some constellations n planets n #it's. been so long since i saw the night sky as clearly as that n i felt like crying a bit ngl #i'll forever remember the sight i saw tonight. of how i missed it so much. n the many times i've imagined n dreamed of it #finally i.. was under that night sky again. n time stopped for me then n i felt like myself. renewed hope. remembrance.#warmth despite the cold. n. oh my god i'm at a loss for words rn i'm so sleepy but yeah #to my dismay the moon wasn't seen but. the night sky was still so beautiful #one day i rlly want to just stargaze w my family again properly. w my friends n. someday one day with a significant other as well #i'm so happy hfksjfsjfs it's been so long since i saw the night sky so clearly n it means so much to me 🥹#i'll sleep early tonight. i want to be up by dawn tomorrow #i'll always remember this night fr hfkjsfjsjjfs 🥹🤍 please.. please please let me remember that moment forever #edit/ i'm rlly so happy rn i feel like crying bcs last night i.. felt so. nvm i'll move forward from then. i'll remove these tags #n focus on doing better instead forging onwards to the future. n last night will always be a reminder. but seeing the stars tonight i..#i'll still hope! i'll hold on! the sight of the stars tonight make me dream of a better me. they remind me of who i really am #i think i'll sleep early tonight i. i deserve that rest. today was good.#words i have rn aren't enough for me to convey just how much the night n the sky n the stars n. rlly just all of that mean to me :<<#ever since i was young n. honestly just rlly throughout my whole life. yeah. too personal for here though #i wish the wonder n love i felt under the night sky tonight wld last forever. even w its cold i found warmth. w apollo n my family n #one day.. you? if you ever wanted that. if you ever imagined it. one day i know i'll feel this way again. i'll hold unto myself until then.#n one day we'll meet under the night sky n i'll be glad i chose to hold unto myself n continue to forge ahead #ohh last thought yk next time i'll bring a proper camera too ehe i just used my phone this time ><#i just love love capturing memories n keeping them to myself n remembering n reminiscing.#i'm so tempted to write some stories or ideas or wtvr but i think i'll remember what i felt earlier tonight forever.#it rlly means a lot to me for. so many reasons. i'll sleep early tonight since i want to be up for dawn!!!! so. gn <3 #i miss the dawn i used to know so well just as much as i missed the same night sky i saw tonight. feels like i'm living in a dream rn #but this.. i guess a scar yeah. its meaning is different from last night n that means the world to me. a reminder i'm still alive.#i can dream n think n write more another day but tonight i hope i'll sleep in peace #there's more i want to do but.. i think i'll just do this for myself this once. yeah. so gn please take care n i'll see you on the morrow

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thatone-churro · 10 minutes

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maybe i’m just feeling really sad and stuff right now (i am, at least when this is queued, but that’s not the point) but i really REALLY wanna write something that just. makes someone sob. like yeah i joke that “i can never write happy stuff if it’s not upsetting it’s not mine sorry” but i feel like i never nail the raw emotion. i feel like i either lean too much or not enough into the “cliches” for it to work right. i wanna write something that just hits in the chest so hard so naturally, like i’m reading you perfectly at your worst. i want the sob to be genuine. and i wanna make it worth it. does that make sense??? idk. i know i’m still a “beginner” (haven’t been dedicated to writing poetry for even a year yet tbh; it was a hobby until my first class last semester) but like. this is my ultimate goal tbh. if i write something that resonates so strongly with someone that they cry and/or carry it for the rest of their life in a way that either hurts or haunts or relieves or maybe all of the above, then i guess i was a good poet.

or smthn idk

#idk my ‘making it’ has never been grand to me #even when i wanted to write stories my goal was always ‘if one person enjoys it then it’s good enough for me’#like. i don’t know if i want my work to outlive me in a grand way. i just want it to resonate #i want it to make the average probably queer probably isolated probably traumatized kid to feel so seen #if i can sincerely impact somebody with any of my work in any way that just haunts them in any emotion then. i guess my work was good enough #you know????#idk i’m still feeling emotional rn but like there’s a sentiment i’m trying to say but i can’t seem to say it right #if i can’t do that in my own tags how am i supposed to do it in a poem (/hj) 😭#like. like when i heard we’ll never have sex for the first time!! it was everything i’ve ever felt about my aceness!!#and yeah it’s an ace anthem to me and it’s beautiful but it still makes me cry yknow!!#because it’s beautiful yet sad to me (as someone who can never make that relationship stick) at the same time!!!#i want my shit to hit like that!!!#grace being kinda serious for once #text post #personal #poetry

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faethfigueroth · 2 months

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can i be hypocritical for a second

#shut up hanna #she says she doesn't want to hear people talking about him and then makes a post to talk about him. sorry here we go #i don't think a lot of the people obsessed with tommy are fully examining WHY they are so obsessed with him #because i'm not gonna say they're necessarily racist but i do think that they hold these implicit biases in favor of white people #(biases which poc can absolutely hold as well)#(why do you think so many poc exclusively date white ppl and then chalk it up to personal preferences)#which is why this guy that has barely had any screentime now has entire blogs dedicated to him and is getting defended by people in the #fandom in a way gay poc characters like michael and hen never were.#and you could say okay hanna well what about josh! he's a white gay man and people don't obsess over him!#and that's true and likely because a) he is not kissing buck and b) you can't attach a repression storyline to him #which is another thing people in fandom seem to gravitate towards. men with internalized homophobia.#another thing that seems to stem from these implicit biases in favor of masculinity in gay men #which now come to think of it is only enhanced by his whiteness. bc god if tommy wasn't white??? y'all would be saying the nastiest shit #which i know because it is the shit you say about eddie when you try to spin the narrative that he's homophobic. bc he's latino.#but no because tommy is a white man with previous internalized homophobia it's a beautiful tragic backstory #and you can watch the beautiful story of a masculine man becoming vulnerable and it's the most amazing thing you've ever seen in your life #and the amount of screentime this man has gotten does not warrant the amount of attention and obsession he's garnered #so i truly do think the only reason anyone would be such a big fan of his is because of their own implicit biases regarding #whiteness and masculinity #which if that was something these people would actually acknowledge and own up to? then i don't think i'd have a problem with them #and i'd be hypocritical (lol) if i said i don't also hold these biases and they seep into my fandom interests #but i'm willing to sit down and think hmm why am i acting this way about this character and should i be trying to reshape my thinking.#instead of doubling down and calling everyone that talks shit about my obsession homophobic no matter the context of their shit talking #i feel like i have more to say but i can't remember now and also i hope this makes sense bc i'm so lightheaded rn i need to eat dinner

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