#because honesly losing my mind

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when is cregan stark casting gonna release

comeon hbo pls

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I Should’ve Known It Was You - Noah x MC fanfic

Summary: Charlie feels like Noah is pulling away from her ever since Elijah came back. She takes him out for one of her favorite places in an attempt of making her open up. And if they make it official? That’s just a bonus.

Author’s note: I wanted to write a Noah x MC fic for a while now. Here it is! 

Mc making her choice is long overdue ^

Hope you enjoy!

Charlie was sitting behind Noah on his motorcycle. She hugged him tightly and leaned her face against his back, as much as her helmet allowed her.

He offered to give her a ride home and there was no way in hell Charlie was going to pass on that.

Even since Elijah came back Noah felt distant. He tried pulling away from her without fully severing their relationship, probably because he wanted to shield her from what Elijah could do.

And Charlie understood that, but she couldn’t help but worry about Noah.

You don’t have to protect me! Let me protect you!! She wanted to yell at him, but didn’t want to make things worse.

Elijah was Noah’s brother, and at the end of the day there was a part of Noah that wanted to believe he’s able to change.

“Noah?” She spoke up, after being alone with her thoughts for a long time.

“Hmm?” He asked in front of her.

“What if you don’t take me home now? We could hang out and you’ll give me a ride later.” Charlie offered.

“Yeah, of course. What did you have in mind?” Not being able to see Noah’s reaction while hearing his response was really frustrating to her, but she shook off that feeling and focused.

“Take a left turn in the next exit. I know just the place.” She smiled against his back, a hugged him just a tiny bit tighter.

 They arrived at a local diner. It was a small but happy business, and the milkshakes were to-die-for.

“My mom used to love coming here. She brought me and Mack whenever either of us got a little upset about something, and it never failed to raise our spirits.” Charlie was telling him about her mother without even realizing it.

She froze in her place, realizing it was the first time she talked about her mother with someone who wasn’t Mack. And it was a happy memory, too, not one that’s ought to send her into a spiral of emotions and longing.

“Thank you for sharing it with me,” Noah’s hand on hers brough her back to reality, and she matched his shy smile. “Should we order?” He asked her.

“I know just the thing. Trust me to order for you?” 

“Always.”

After Charlie placed an order for the both of them, for a grand serving of one milkshake with two straws and their special secret-recipe sundae, she made her way to a booth, where Noah was already waiting for her.

As they waited for their order to be done, Noah looked up at her.

“What is it?” Charlie asked. 

“Well, you said that whenever you were down, your mom took you here. Are you feeling upset now? Should I worry?” Noah eyed her nervously. He looked concerned, and was searching her eyes for an answer.

“Oh, Noah.” Charlie chuckled, seeming to put Noah’s features at ease. “You got it wrong.” She shook her head. 

“It’s quite the opposite, thought.” She chewed on her lower lip.

“What do you mean?”

“Well, I know it might not be any of my business, and I don’t wanna overstep, but ever since Elijah came back you kinda... Pulled away from me. And you look, well, upset.” Charlie shrugged.

She might’ve just overstepped, but Noah’s action next is the only thing that could tell her if her risk was worth the reward or not.

“Charlie...” He sighed her name out, his hand finding hers across the table.

“You wanted to cheer me up?” He asks her, a glint in his eyes.

“Well, yeah --” Before they can continue their conversation, the waitress places their order on the table, catching them both by surprise. They were so focused on each other they didn’t even see her coming.

“Thank you!” Charlie calls out, a little flustered.

“No problem. Enjoy!” The waitress smiles back at her before tending to the other costumers.

“Well, shall we?” Noah takes one straw from the milkshake in his hands.

“Yes, but before you start I have to warn you I used to share those with Mack, and got really good at drinking really fast.” Charlie winked at him.

“I thought you were supposed to savor the moment and relish on the delicious taste of the milkshake?”

“I relish on my victory!” Charlie countered.

Noah looked at her for a second, before bursting in a fit of laughter. Charlie looks up at him, feeling a warm feeling in her chest.

She hasn’t seen Noah laugh for a few weeks now, not since Elijah came back into his life.

He seemed to take off his guard now, and he looked positively... Perfect.

“Oh my god.” He wiped away some tears, before offering Charlie the other straw.

“Ready?”

“Go!”

They both raced who could drink the milkshake faster, and while Noah put up a fight, Charlie had this in the bag.

“Ahh! Brainfreeze, brainfreeze! How are you not getting brainfreeze?” Noah held onto his temples, shutting his eyes tightly until the brainfreeze passed.

Charlie licked her lips, announcing her victory. “I told you. I’m a pro at this.” She smiled at him.

Noah laughed once again, this time watching Charlie warmingly.

Charlie could spend a lifetime, being watched by Noah like that. She thought to herself.

“Well, for once, I’m happy to lose. Only to you.”

“Good.”

They ate the rest of their order, chatting giddily.

Charlie scooped the last serving of the sandae, before holding out her spoon to Noah. “Last bite?” She offered him.

Noah watched her intently as he accepted her offer and took the ice-cream in his mouth.

Charlie could feel her hearbeat quicken.

What was that affect Noah had on her?

After they finished, they still didn’t feel like saying goodbye, just yet.

“So... You wanna talk about it?” Noah asked her, and without having to question it, she knew he was refering to their ealier conversation about Elijah.

“Only if you feel comfortable--” Charlie hurried to assure him, but he gave her hand a squeeze and it was enough to reasurre her it was okay.

“It’s just... I know what he’s capable of. And honesly, I don’t want to give him a reason to get you. Especially...” Noah trailed off.

“Especially...?” Charlie prompted him, trying to search in his eyes. He averted his gaze for a few seconds, before looking back at her.

“Well, especially if i’m not going to be your choice, at the end of the day.” Noah shrugged.

“Oh, Noah...” Charlie sighed.

Charlie didn’t know when, or where... But somewhere along the last few weeks, it became clear.

And somewhere along this date, Charlie realized.

She took such a long time choosing and considering her options...

But when it came to the heart, the choice was made by itself.

“I should’ve known it was you...” Charlie was speaking to herself.

“What did you just say...?” Noah looked as if he was holding his breathe. His hand wrapped tighter around Charlie’s.

“I- I...” Charlie blinked back into reality.

“I think I just made my choice, Noah.” She blinked at him, just as surprised as he was.

“Does that mean...?” Even though it was obvious, he needed her to say it out.

“I choose you, Noah. I love you.”

oh my god.

The words she was too afraid to tell him the whole semester just came out of its own. And it felt so easy to tell them. 

Because it was true.

She loved him. She loved Noah Harris.

“I love you too. You have no idea. You’ve just made me the happiest man on the planet.” Noah closed their distance across the table, and planted his lips on her.

The kiss was sweet, soft. They were still at public, after all.

But it also felt a little different from all the other kisses they shared before.

Charlie felt her heart fluttering in her chest. 

It felt different because she she finally let herself invest herself fully in Noah, and to devote herself to him.

And once she was devoted, entirely his...

There was no better feeling in the world than this.

[jenhrding]

dead to me season 2; a review

hello, i need to write about this because i woke up at 4am to watch season two and i have soooo many feelings that i need to vent even if nobody really cares

this is gonna be long so i divided it by episode and i'm doing a summary at the end if you don't feel like reading the entire thing

if you follow me on twitter you may have seen a lot of my comments on the season, as i needed to tweet about it while i watched it, but this is more of an organized type of thing

A LOT OF SPOILERS AHEAD

> i'm a die hard judy/jen shipper so if you liked michelle this might not be for you, i'm sorry

EPISODE 1

okay, the season picks up on the morning after ted's death and that was something i really appreciated. i usually hate when tv shows skip things and only mention what happened, not showing us how it happened

judy and henry's relationship warms my heart. they have a really strong bond and i'm glad we got to see more of them together throughout the episodes.

but, as we can't have everything, it hurt me a lot to see the way jen was treating judy. i love them both equally and because of that i can clearly see their mistakes without being biased, or at least i hope i can. i get that she was hurt with everything that judy did, and i loathed steve deeply, but still, the guy was his ex-fiancee, and she loved him to death even if he was a toxic piece of crap. the way jen said she was just there to pick up stuff and then told her she burned everything without even looking at her made me so sad for judy, and her dropping judy off saying they would never talk again was very cold, but that i would've seen coming from jen.

i was constantly feeling bad for judy because she didn't have time to mourn steve or abe and there she was, broke and without a place to stay. and let's just say, abe was an angel in her life even after he died. props to him for treating her like she deserved to be treated.

the thing with michelle started and it seemed a bit forced to me, like they just wanted to shove judy to someone else so we would stop asking for jen & judy being together.

and then jen called judy and i just KNEW that was happening, that scene really made me happy and it felt like they were taking a step forward in their relationship. jen worries about judy so much, even if she's not the best at showing it.

"like an excuse to see me again." "did it work?"

EPISODE 2

steve's twin thing was 100% so they wouldn't have to kick james out. it was very predictable and unnecessary. i guess it added a bit to the plot but his presence really annoyed me. but, i need to say, james did a nice job because ben didn't have any of steve's traits (i know that's what actors are supposed to do but i felt like he needed a compliment).

diana was irritating me from the beginning, and i'm glad i got to like her more by the end of everything.

i didn't get the deal with nick. i know breakups are hard but he looked depressed af. maybe it had to do with his history, everything with his friend and him losing his job and stuff. but i'm not really interested in that so it didn't bother me.

and may i just add? the scene with judy and the bird, she truly is a princess, i can't with her. also, i liked the subtle hint when jen told ben not to climb on the freezer because it was too low, and we would come to find out later that steve's body was in that freezer.

episode two had a lot of fun moments and it was a lighter one, maybe to prepare us for the chaos that was coming next.

"you look beautiful. i wish you would love yourself more."

EPISODE 3

judy hugging the freezer got me ????? i know she's an espiritual person but was she really acting like steve was feeling anything? i was confused, honesly, but i don't blame her "she will never do anything wrong :)"

the rats scene was funny but i hated how long they took to solve the freezer thing and just showed jen going there and crying sooo many times it kinda got tiring.

jen was being so nice to judy, touching her and hugging her and i had my hopes up for a little bit (only to get played again but i'll talk about that later).

the scene with michelle was cute, kinda necessary for judy to realize things about her grief, but sincerely speaking she just makes me very bored.

the breakdown scene in the garage was GREAT, linda and christina did an amazing job and i want to give them all of the awards.

"just wanted to tell you that i forgive you."

EPISODE 4

this episode had so much potential to be gay lmao, i could actually picture jen trying to comfort judy and end up kissing her and then they would've been together and all, but liz really doesn't want to give us what we want.

the scene at the bar was one of the best scenes in this season. they finally TALKED about their feelings. about how they still cared about both of the men who hurt them even if they were still mad at them for being shitty guys, and that was so important, love really does weird things to us.

and the dancing scene was EVERYTHING!!!! plus, they slept in the same bed even though there were two beds in the room, so...

judy hugging henry because of his bird = my heart cried they really are mother and son

jen telling judy that she could say goodbye and LINDA's SINGING!!!!!!!! a big yes for me

"will you be my person?" "yes, i will be your person."

EPISODE 5

hated this one. jen telling judy she needed space was hurtful, specially because judy was planning a day to make her feel better.

i just really hated this one. jen and ben is a NO, and judy with michelle was bothering me.

the highlight of it, for me, was when jen called judy to help her with charlie because, well, he is his mom too.

plus: the car burning scene was hot.

EPISODE 6

judy and jen talking to charlie like his moms was sooo nice i liked that scene a lot.

the voicemails steve left judy were disgusting. i hate that guy so much and i'm glad he's dead (sorry) and not able to hurt her anymore. we only want happy and safe judy here.

jen was jealous when judy mentioned her "new friend" you can't change my mind on this one.

i actually thought judy and michelle were gonna kiss in the car, but i appreciated that liz dragged it a little bit more.

i loved most of the arcade scenes, specially the ones with their family. i liked how they portrayed jen's relationship with the boys getting good again but didn't drag it on for too long, i think it was quite nice the way they did it.

and no, i'm not here for judy and michelle even though linda looks very hot while kissing another woman.

EPISODE 7

um, judy and michelle slept together and i was not happy. in fact, i made a lot of tweets complaining about it and twitter actually put me on limit for a few minutes. her saying "i love you" felt so forced and fake, i don't know, maybe it's cause i just don't like them together.

i was really appreciating scenes with jen and charlie, even if i don't like him very much. it felt good to see their relationship developing and getting better again because i do love a mother-son plot.

"of all the lesbians in lagoona" (jen included if i may add). this scene really showed a trust between them that i missed, jen telling judy she couldn't see michelle anymore and even though judy was upset she agreed with it because she knows jen only wants what's best for her.

it really hurt me to see that girl pregnant, because i know how much judy wanted a baby and for her to have five miscarriages and have to see that other woman pregnant with steve's baby must've hit her hard.

hated jen and ben together. honestly, it felt so weird to have jen kiss the guy who looks so much like the guy she killed, so, i did not like that.

judy's speech to diana was really important. it really showed more of who she is, really, a person who just tries all the time to do everything right and keeps fucking it up (like myself, i'd say), and i liked that scene a lot, specially when she goes to pick up the plastic bags hahaha.

EPISODE 8

this one showed a bit of why we should've been prepared for episode nine.

jen and judy's first scene was really good. they started it fighting but the ending was so lovely and just showed us how much they love each other and the things they'd give up for the other one to be happy.

i really hated how michelle treated judy on this episode. judy didn't have to tell her anything right away, they were together for five seconds. (or maybe i'm overreacting because i love judy way too much and hate seeing her being mistreated).

the end of this episode showed a lot of phone calls that made me confused and it had a few cliffhangers that i found to be a bit unnecessary. the show is interesting enough and i think liz overdid the cliffhangers a bit in this season, but it wasn't something that deeply bothered me.

EPISODE 9

i have a lot to say about this one so just take a deep breath before i vent lmao.

jen and ben fucked. which i thought was unnecessary and out of character for her. i really didn't see jen sleeping with a guy who has the same face as the guy she killed, and the scene where she looks at ben and remembers steve's dead body was so weird.

plus, i wish they would've gotten deeper into jen's mastectomy story. the only mention to it in this season was when she was in the bathroom, and she couldn't even bring herself to look in the mirror. it was unlike her to sleep with some stranger after that, since she's so ashamed of it, and it made me sad that the first person to see her naked after surgery (besides ted) wasn't judy, who she actually trusts. i didn't need jen to talk about it, because i know her character doesn't like to talk feelings, but the scene where she was alone could've been longer and showed a bit more of her story.

they showed so much of judy's background in the last two episodes and i loved it! i like how they were slowly revealing why her character acts the way she does. we knew she didn't like to be alone, but now we know that it's because she was alone most of her life, and because of that she clings to anyone who shows a bit of interest in her. therefore, why she didn't like nick that much and still tried to make things work out with him, and when steve showed her a little bit more of compassion, she went back to him. and now it's michelle, who she started seeing right after jen told her she needed space. judy is codependent, and i liked to understand her relationship with her mother so i could understand her relationship with others.

jen's scene at city hall was so important and powerful. first, i was afraid she might embarrass herself but she was incredible. the way she called andrew out not even scared if all the white men sitting there wouldn't believe a woman's harassment story, the way she talked about ted and ugh everything was great.

then, things started to go downhill. jen's relationship with the boys started declining again and it broke my heart (but i liked how henry asked for judy because he was sad and wanted to see her). and this anticipated what i elected (as if i have any room to say anything) to be the best scene of the show.

the garage scene. i have so many feelings towards it but at the same time i don't know how to express them.

first, judy said she was going to take the blame for charlie and that right there is what a mom would do (and finally they talked about judy's s*icide attempt). besides that, judy said that jen had a family and she couldn't lose that family, and then we realize how much it hurt her when her mom said she didn't have a family of her own (even though, in season one, jen said she was a part of their family).

linda and christina were brilliant in this bit. linda's expressions send me every time, and personally, i love it when she curses because it shows a side of her character that only comes out when she's really nervous and stressed, since she's always trying to see the good in everything. the way she raised her voice and said a lot of "fucks" really brought a different tone to the scene that we hadn't seen during the season.

jen had a lot of breakdowns during this season. but none of those were as exceptional as this one. ted fucked up her mind badly, and steve saying all those things triggered her to do what she did. imagine being married to a person for eighteen years and finding out, after his death, that he was cheating on you for a year and a half, that really must mess up with your self esteem and how you see yourself. jen is constantly thinking that everyone that she loves hates her and she ends up hating herself (as judy said "i wish you would love yourself more."). she is an extraordinary character and there's so much i still need to know about her.

now, here's something that bothered me. this scene was great, but i think jen was a bit out of character when she said "that's because you love anyone who just gives you a morsel of fucking attention, even if it's abusive. it's like you get off on it or something". honestly, the jen i know and have grown to love would never blame a woman for being abused, even if she was out of her mind for being upset. she saw how judy was mistreated by steve and she always knew he was toxic, but she would never say that to judy, as if she had any guilt on it.

this scene was so raw and chaotic but it was breathtaking, in a good way. judy's "i'm not like you" and their fight in front of the house, also judy's screams, everything was on point.

and then, jen got to see something we've been noticing for the past season and this one as well. when judy's stressed or hurt, she starts self-harming. it was never brought up before but it's something to watch out for. how many times did she curse at herself and hit herself in front of mirrors? and in the car she starts hitting herself really strongly when she's asking jen to stop. now, i don't know which part of her history this has to do with but i'd really like for them to get more into this, as it seems like a great storyline.

jen watching judy sleep and putting her hair behind her ear was so gay pure and i loved this scene so much.

EPISODE 10

what jen did for her family was beautiful, even if it didn't start that well. now, about her letter to judy, i sobbed so much reading that one.

this episode said a lot about diana's humanity. her and jen's talk about their mothers showed another side of her that i really liked. and i'm a sucker for motherhood storylines, so i cried a lot during that scene.

i liked this episode a lot too. loved to see charlie so worried about his mother for once in his life, and how well judy handles things as a mother.

now this is where i get mad. the scene where jen and judy are talking outside was the perfect setting for them to confess feelings. michelle felt like something that judy needed to replace steve, so it wouldn't last anyway (me hoping that she's not showing up on season 3), and because she had that experience, now she could love jen in a healthier way, in a way that maybe she couldn't before. there were so many 'i love you's and so many hugs and touches and no kiss and i was sad.

i loved the way jen said that judy needed to learn how to say no (and also, can she please stop saying sorry all the time? she's always making herself sad to make others happy-- i can't stop seeing myself in her). and it was genius how they used this thing to make her say no to her mom, who only wanted to see her to get out of prison, it showed her strenght.

the way they picked up jen's grief for her mom was really nice, i'd also like to learn more about that in the future. we could really understand where her anger comes from and why she despises herself so much.

and, baby, let me tell you, judy hale is a GENIUS. the money inside the paintings? i never saw that coming and i was so happy watching that scene! specially when she showed jen and they held hands. :(

charlie found the letters and he's finally getting to know what actually happened to his father (i'm guessing), and i wanna see his reaction. and i'm so here for their vacation! "talk to me like lovers do!" she really just keeps playing with my heart. (and jen calling judy "judes" was really cute.)

the last scene was something. them talking about the sign and then ben hitting them because he was drunk? i wasn't expecting that. and, as i said before, liz likes a good cliffhanger, but this one didn't seem that harsh. if she wanted to, she could've just left us in the dark about whether jen was alive or not, but she didn't, and i appreciated that.

i still don't know if this leaves room for another big storyline, maybe this should be something to be solved in the first two episodes of season three so they could jump into something more exciting, i don't know.

"i love you more than wine. thank you for loving me and our boys."

OVERALL THOUGHTS

i liked this season a lot. it felt a lot different from season one, the settings, the air. it was a bit more chaotic, i must say, and i do think they could've maybe chilled for a little bit and left the high point of stress being only on episodes 9 and 10. literally, everything was happening, all the time, and the only time they had to breathe was when they went dancing that night.

there was a shift in my feelings, for sure. last season i picked up on a lot of judy's mistakes and things she did that bothered me. this season, i did that more with jen, but i still love them so much istg i'd die for them (not to sound dramatic or anything lmao). it's just that last season i identified a lot more with jen's anger and behaviors, and in this one a saw a lot of myself in judy, and that might've prevented me from criticizing them as much in their respective moments.

i love this show to death, and i'm just waiting for award nominations that i'm sure will come. let's just hope that, this year, they also acknowledge linda's brilliant acting and even give both of them some awards.

this is me, (im)patiently waiting for a season 3 confirmation and i'm sure i'm just gonna rewatch everything for the next year like i did with season one.

i needed to talk about this season, and twitter doesn't give me enough space to do that, but this is not something i usually do. if you read all of this, you're brave, and i'm thankful for your attention.

now, can liz please make judy and jen girlfriends?

[sincerelyasimmer]

All them emoji for my main man Amir

🌟 What is my muse’s sexual/romantic orientation? He’s Straight 💦 At what age did my muse lose their virginity? He was young, 15 😘 Would my muse have sex on the first date? I mean he’s done it before😊 Would my muse ever ask someone on a date? Yeah 👍 Does my muse prefer to be asked on a date, or would they rather do the asking? Honesly he doesn’t really care, but he usually does the asking. 😉 What are my muse’s fetishes/kinks? Hmm not really 💬 When did my muse go on their first date? His first ever “date” was at 13💯 What is my muse’s ideal date? He loves having low key chill dates, going to the beach movies etc. Just being intimate with the person he’s with. 💗 Has my muse ever been in love? He’s in Love now lol 👠 What was my muse’s last serious relationship like? Before the one he’s in now. It started out good, then once his daughter came it become toxic 👰 Would my muse ever get married? Yup, he thinks he’s ready for it. 🌼 Would my muse prefer a big wedding or a small wedding? It doesn’t really matter to him, he’s very private so most likely it will be small. 🍬 Is my muse a sub, dom, or switch? Dom, he wouldn’t mind switching tho. 🏩 What was my muse’s first time like? Awkard. Very awkward. Him & the girl skip school to go to her house & her mom ended up coming home sooner than expected, they didn’t get caught but it was weird for him. 🎆 Is my muse into monogamy? yeah 💕 Would my muse ever be in a polyamorous relationship?  He would, I don’t think his girl would go for that tho lol 🔥 Would my muse ever be up for a threesome? he’s had 2, the first one was amazing , second one ended bad. 👮 Has my muse ever had sex in public? Plenty times 💔 What was my muse’s first heartbreak?Back in Highschool bestfriend/crush told him she wasn’t feeling him in that way. 💑 What are my muse’s requirements for a potential partner? To be real in every way & to be good at communicating. 💋 How many people has my muse slept with? Whew it's embarrassing, you know my boy use to be a huge thot👀 Is my muse the type to sleep around? He use to be 👎 Would my muse ever cheat on their partner? He has in the past, but he’s doing a good job at changing his ways. 😳 What was my muse’s worst romantic/sexual relationship? his recent ex ( Tays mom ) 💲Would my muse ever date/marry/sleep with someone because they were rich? Sleep with maybe , lol if they sending a lil money his way but No , he’s not that type.  👓 Would my muse ever lie for sex? He has in the past 👿 Would my muse ever blackmail someone into sex? No 🎥 Who is my muse’s celebrity crush? He's had a thing for Nia long since he was a young one. In his head their married. 🎀 Who would my muse sleep with if nobody ever had to know? If he was single yeah , there’s a few of his female friends he would. 💍 Has my muse ever had a one-night stand? like 2 💝 Does my muse like Valentine’s Day? Its whatever to him 💘 What are the ways my muse says ‘I love you’ without actually saying it?  Going out of his way to make sure their good. 

[femmefaramir]

congrats on 1k!! out of pure curiosity, can you rank the company of thorin oakenshield in order of your favourites and share your hcs about their genders/sexualities?

(i hope you know this is a dangerous topic. it took me like a week to answer because i knew it would distract me and make me write some fics or draw. hopefully i can afford to lose my mind now…)

just a disclaimer: i watched the first two hobbit movies twice (although i don’t remember paying for desolation of smaug in a cinema…), read the book a few times, yet i can’t distinguish between canon and various fanfiction. only when i read the same scene/sentence in different fics, i realise it probably comes straight from the movies.

tldr.: these headcanons are very much based on fanworks bc canon is boring

thorin: GAY, aspec, in denial about everything (before meeting bilbo and having his life turned upside down)

kíli: uh… lesbian? kiliel is a lesbian ship after all, just ask the holder of that urlalso, that deleted/cut scene where he finds an elf from rivendell attractive, only to be laughed at when it’s revealed the elf is male? they company is making fun of kíli because they know he is a lesbian

fíli: aro? ace? “my gender is gold”

bofur: my first thought is “gay” because he just is the gay uncle. however he also is the “men get pegged!” type, so… bisexual?

bifur: ??? intranslatable khuzdul terms ???

bombur: is into dwarven ladies, so not 100% gay, but other than that? who knows

dwalin: probably gay. almost as much as thorin.

balin: this grandma does some lesbianism when time and old bones allow

dori: and this grandma? guess what… (*points up*)

nori: honestly i’m not sure, but… i had a dream once, where i was running down an office building and overheard a piece of conversation said by nori: “…i’m transfem…” and i was running away so i don’t remember anything else. but i believe nori, so…in all seriousness… aldjskd… shifty guy with a shifty gender sounds about right

ori: is he into guys? is he into gals? does he even care?

óin: oh??? “my gender is silver”

glóin: again, like bombur, has a wife. the others probably make fun of him saying he is the token straight of the company. he takes it. he doesn’t know what to say. (the best he can do is to say he’s flexible.) honesly he hasn’t given it much thought. bi and demi?

EDIT: they are in no particular order! my love for them can’t be put into numbered lists!

[myflowthoughts-blog]

THE BEGINING OF SOMETHING WONDERFUL

A good friend suggested me to make my thoughts public. First time I agreed, but honesly I am a little bit afraid to let the people in my mind. I am afraid to start something new and I am afraid of the unknow.

But here I am, writting for you, the person who is reading this.

I really don't know about what to talk. What kind a subject to approach.

I spent a lot of time to think and the only thing in my mind was: "Why am I doing this? I am not good enough I mean I can't find a subject, I never could be able to writte about something. '

SOON I realize that this thought is so wrong. I put a botder of my limits. It's a crime. I just kiilled MY powers, MY imaginations and that's so sad because MAYBE I could move the mountain if I want.

You have nothing to lose if you try. You could be happy if you put down every bad thought and just make what you truly desire. If something wrong hapens, close your eyes, breath and try again, repet this thing until you get where you proposed.

I am just a teenager girl who wants to be more that a simple person who goes unnoticed.

if I can, I am sure that you can too

[shkudss]

Love doesn’t die

Summary: Something bad happens with y/n 

Word count: 1146

Warnings: Mentions of death

Masterlist

"Hey, angel" Tom met me when I came home. "How was your family day?"

"Not good" I made a deep breath and took off my shoes. Today I feel myself sick. I'm too tired. Whole day with my crazy relatives is too much.

"What happened?" Tom looked at me with anxiety.

"There were a lot of kids, who don't know what is respect for adults. Also, my aunt started hysterics because I refused to introduce them to you. They are annoying" I rubbed my eyes and felt how Tom kiss my cheekbone.

"I know how to make you relax and forget about your crazy relatives" he looked at me with cunning. "What about having shower together?"

I smiled. He always know how to cheer me up.

"You know, I always don't mind"

"Well... let's go now!" Holland took me in his arms and carried to the bathroom.

"Hey, what are you doing? I even didn't take off my jaket!" Tom put me on white and cold floor.

"I can't wait anymore. Y/n, day without you was so boring"

I didn't say anything and just started taking off my clothes. When Tom saw it he started doing the same. He got rid of his grey pants and white t-shirt. I almost took off my dress, but I couldn't unbutton zipper, which was on my back.

"Let me do it" Tom gently touched my back  and unbuttoned zipper. After this he kissed my skin and neck.

I closed my eyes. The tile no longer seemed so cold.

"Let's go to the shower, honey" His lips met with mine and we went to the shower.

Tom turned the handle and hot water poured on us. My muscules relaxed and I felt Tom hug me from behind.

"You are the most beautiful girlfriend in the world" He whispered and kissed my neck.

"I love you" I said and kissed him back.

After wonderful sex and showering, Tom went to take towels. I squeezed my hair and left the shower.

Suddenly, I started feeling dizzy and can't think straight. What's worng? I leaned my hand against the wall, barely standing on my feet. Everything is going round and round.

"Angel? Are you okay?" Tom came back and two grey towels were in his hands.

"Things... going round... and round... and round..." Derkness started appering before my face.

"Hey, hey, hey! Don't fall!" Tom ran closer and took me on his hands. "Everything is gonna be alright! Just... just don't close your eyes!" It seemed like he tried to calm me down, but, honesly, he tried to calm down himself.

"I'm okay, I'm okay..." I whispered and couldn't keep my eyes open more.

"No, no, no! Y/n! Look at me!" Tom almost yelled, but I was already faint.

Pov Tom

"I'm sorry to tell you it, but... she has a leukemia" My heart fell down, when I heard this.

"H-how can we cure her?" My voice was quiet.

"We find it out late..." Doctor started telling me a lot of unnecessary information.

"Just tell me how can we cure my girlfriend from this fucking leukemia!" I can't lose her. She's my life.

"There are 10% of the fact that we can cure it. If you refuse treatment, then she could live no more than a year."

"We'll do all possible procedures" I stared at the doctor.

"Okay. She's still sleeping. When she wake up, we should take analyzes. And I have a question..."

"What?"

"Who will tell her about this?" I know, that I should tell her about it. But it's hard. I promised not to hurt her.

"I should do it..."

Pov Rearder

I woke up and firt thing I saw was Tom. We were in the hospital. I looked at his face. He was nervous.

"W-what happened?" My voice was hoarse.

"You fainted and... the doctors found out... that..." I saw, it was hard for him to tell me. "Leukemia. But we will start cure you today!" He started talking about my recovery, but I didn't listen him.

"How long I can live?" He stopped talking and looked at me without saying any word. It was pain in his eyes.

"About a year" I tried not to cry. I wasn't scare about my death as I was scared about Tom. He would be broken.

After a couple minutes of silence I looked at him and tried to simle.

"So, let's live this year as good as we can"

"You'll be okay. We will cure you and everything is gonna be alright!" Tom tried to cheer me up.

"I know..." I lied "But let's do it? We don't know what can happen"

"Okay. I love you and I'll do everything you want"

"So, I need a notebook and pen" Tom look at me and don't understand why I need this things.

"I'm gonna make a plan with desires. We should try to make them during this year"

"We will do every paragraph in this plan. I promise"

Pov Peter

I slept near y/n bed, when I heard a squeaking sound. I woke up and saw on the device a straight red line.

No

Oh my god, no

"Doctor! Nurse! Someone come here!" I started yelling and tried to wake up y/n.

"What happened?" Doctor came here and looked at me.

"She... she..." I looked at her. She was pale.

"You need to go out of here" Said doctor, when others came here.

I can't see her about a 15 minutes. Now doctor came here and on his face was sadness.

"I'm sorry, but she's dead" I can't belive it.

No.

"No. No. No..." Tears flowed down my face. "You are liar! She's alive! She's alive!" I already shouted to the whole hospital.

"Sir, calm down please. I'm sorry, but it's true. She's dead"

I sat down slowly and looked in front of me.

I lost her

Lost her

"No, no, no!"

"Hey, baby. What's wrong?" I looked at the girl that was lying next to me. She stared at me with anxiety in her eyes.

"It was... I just wanna... I love you" I hugged her as hard as I could.

"Did you have a nightmare? What about?"

"You... I lost you. It's the most terrible thing"

She looked at me for a couple minutes and kissed.

"I'm good. Doctor said that I've recovered. I'll be with you, I won't leave you" She pressed herself against my chest. "Thank you for that year. We did all things from my list and I'll be alive. With you"

"I don't know, how would I live without you"

"All in the past. I'm here, with you. Of course, without hair I do not look very good, but they will grow up"

"You're perfect. Don't matter with hair or without" I hugged her and kissed her head.

Now, we will be the happiest couple in the world

Every minute we will enjoy our life

Our love

[champagnepadre]

you probably get this a lot but do you have any advice on losing weight? i really want to but then i keep getting cravings and mostly because when i get sad i eat but like I wanna lose weight so badly!! I just don't know how to substitute my food for something healthier and not too expensive

it's all about putting and setting ur mind to the goal u want which is a typical answer but it tru if u not motivated or don't have a 100% positive feeling that u gonna actually do it then it not gonna happen. U gotta eat right which is the biggest factor, im struggling wit this recently cuz idk like u sadness n stuff but honesly what made me lose a lot of my weight was the motivation and using honesly music and inspirations to guide me thru it like I got a insp folder on my fone I sometime go thru to remind myself also listening n watching mj music vids help me a lot 2.. find ur thing that can help guide u or be alongside u to let u keep going! It's all about setting ur mind to it i promise u use ur love n interests in things n correlate it around ur goals!!!!! I believ in u!

[martyrforthewrongcause-blog]

hey, so..it started with a girl. i remember when i first seen her i thought she was perfect in every way. sounds made up and like every other played out line i know, but i felt something when i seen her. Now when i see her i still feel the same way, but i also feel bad for her because i know i am hurting her being around her. Now I RE write this down as proof not only for her but myself that, something is wrong with me. we started dating back in high school like most stories start. Honeslty tho, there was not real a good time for us till 2 years in. She was....broken. so was i but we tried to work. we helped each other. and even tho she will say that she never helped me she did. by being there for someone who had nothing. just the company i loved. But like ever broken persons there is problems. we fought ALOT and she broke up with me alot because in my honest opinion i dont think she knew that someone could care that much and she was scared. tbh i went back every time for her because she was worth everything for me. i didnt wanna lose what i had. and i am glad i didnt. till the end. a year goes by and we move in. and its the best. me and her together. it was perfect. i didnt have a lot of money because of rent and stuff but i was fine with that as long as i had her. while moved out she wanted to start school. to become a MA. and i was scared at first because i would have to get another job and put 200% into everything i did. she wasnt the cleanest person and didnt really help out around the apt, but i didnt care. i was used to doing it from home. i just wanted to teach her to be proud of what we had. and she was. with her going to school and work half the time and me working 2 jobs it was hard for a while. but we did it. and when i seen her graduate............. i have never been so happy for someone in my life. i was never that proud of myself for anything, but i was for her. after that we moved and in to a bigger place. funny enough her aunt lived under us at this new apt. weird for me but she loved it. family first she would say. i was never really a family person. my family tries to be close but you can tell its forced. no one ever looks happy. so its weird to me. time goes by and i am still in love with her. she goes through some changes tho. now before i start i used to believe these were bad changes but now i dont believe that. i love the person she is now, if she stays on the right path. something you have to know about her is that she is easily played by others. she will play it off and own up to it to save face. but she makes mistakes like everyone. she likes to go out to the clubs and raves with people. and me i dont much care for things like that. but i know she does and i support her. she meets guys and girls and some i like and some are a threat if you catch my drift. but yea. i am not a big one to get jelous while in the relationship. because i always trusted her. even when she goes out of town with her friends and there are guys that i dont like i still approved. cause i loved her and she wouldnt do that to me. around this time she tells me she wants me to be more serious about our relationship and think about marriage. honesly i didnt beleive in it. i felt like you were trapped, but she didnt. it takes me while.. but later on maybe 1 year later i am game for it. ME the person who is cold hearted thinking about speading my life with someone. and i was liking the idea. i felt i had changed too. around this time i got a new friend. it was a girl. my gf didnt like her. and wanted me to stop being friends with her. she was jelous and i hated it. i didnt have alot of friends and i was mad because she got to have every guy friend/ fuck boi that i didnt like in her life becasue i trusted her. i wanted the same. but she didnt. i choose my new friend over my girl friend because i didnt want her to control me becasue it wasnt far.............that would be athe biggest mistake of my life. around this time she tells me she wants to go back to school again, to be a nurse this time, and i was like fuck. again with this but she tells me it would be better if we moved back to are parents houses. to save money and get reaady for a life after that. when i heard this i was kinda game. i already planned on asking her to marry me and it would be easy to save money at home for a ring compared to live out. after everything we left that apartment and she went to school and also...she left me. over that friend and how i tell her we both changed and i didnt like who she was becoming. at first the break up was just a break. she said she needed time to think but promised she would come back. and she never did. ever. during our break i went to a party and my “friend who is a girl”was there. and we both were drunk and we almost did it. but i stoppped it. because i still loved my girl and it wasnt right. mind you she told me the day before she was done with me for good. come to find out my now ex gf was in the same spot with some guy but she didnt stop. they did it...............that broke me more than i ever thought possiable. but i still loved her and she told me this so we cant try and work things out. but they still didnt work out. they never did and i become that crazy ex and hurt her. and now i releized if i love her i need to step back. even if it means leaving her forever. i am stuck