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Bright side

Content warnings: yandere!alhaitham x gn!reader, manipulation, first fic

Look on the bright side.

It was an old mantra of yours, something you told yourself whenever things went awry: look on the bright side. All your trauma had led to you being yourself, a being so afraid of failure and rejection that you tried your best to make everyone happy; and voila— now people liked you, didn’t they? So in the Akademiya, you tried the same trick.

“My textbook…” you mumbled, rummaging stressfully through your bag. “No, no, I put it here… where is it?” Your heart raced as you knew this lecture would be tough to retain if you couldn’t mark your texts. Coming up empty-handed, you turned back and sat, feeling cold dread in your seat. Until your seat-mate quietly pushed his own textbook towards your part of the wooden table, without even looking up at you. “Thank you,” your gratefulness is a soft murmur that travels gently to the silver-haired student, barely gracing his ears. Your heart continues to race, but for a different reason now and an acquiescent warmth spreads through the air between you two, almost blooming like a delicate flower in spring. You were easy, you know, and it was really that simple to change your mood. It was something he took note of that day.

“May I return it to you tomorrow?” You ask the scholar named Alhaitham after class, and you only get a mumble of “As you wish,” for a reticent yet distinct reply. You smile to yourself, satisfied. See? You watch his back as the students leave for their next class. I forgot my textbook, but I made a friend. Maybe. You grip the textbook to your chest. Bright side.

But the trick to this mantra is perhaps persistence, and things just keep going wrong. You wonder if you are strong enough to even look at the bright side when you are left embarrassed amongst your friends during lunch, for when you opened your lunch bag, a putrid stench fills the air. It didn’t make sense, because you had cooked your lunch yourself this morning, it couldn’t have gone bad, it shouldn’t have been possible. And yet, it had happened and you excused yourself from the group, laughing awkwardly, making an excuse about taking the wrong bag, which you discarded immediately. It was a favourite of yours, but you couldn’t keep it now.

Your feet hurry you away from all the busyness of the bee-hive like Akademiya corridors, to a quiet and lonesome place that now feels like a safe refuge, a sweet haven. Taking a few steps into one of the idyllic gazebos, your lips quiver as you breathe in. You won’t cry so easily, no, but still a sadness plagues your chest. Oh the smell… you still remembered the expression of disgust on the face of the person sitting right next to you. You were a hindrance to them, and an embarrassment to yourself. But before you could fall into a downward spiral of negativity, you are brought out of your thoughts by the sound of footsteps approaching you, and a sudden warmth beside your person.

When your gaze trails up, Alhaitham’s green-cyan eyes are locked onto you. You blink in surprise and he quietly holds out his own lunch bag. “I am here to eat lunch,” his voice is the same as always; words spoken in what seems to be an unchanging wavelength. “Would you like to share?” He was offering, you realized and are a bit taken aback by the suddenness of his invitation.

“I… oh…” you quickly give him a smile and shake your head. “N-no, thanks… it is very kind of you.” I look around and soften my eyes apologetically. “This must be where you usually eat, I am sorry for intruding-“

“You didn’t intrude.”

His comfort is swiftly spoken, surprisingly you yet again. He begins to unpack his lunch, and holds out side dishes to you to carry. “Let’s eat.”

…And just how would one reject his kindness now?

A few months later, as you take shelter by a street verandah from the pouring rain, you realized your old mantra had changed unawares. The umbrella you remembered packing into your bag in the morning is nowhere to be seen, as you seem to be much more forgetful the past few months, with many things going so wrong. A few minutes go by, and a man you had grown to know very well appears right by your side with a single umbrella. You smile shyly at him. “What would I do without you?” you murmur as you lean closer to his side. He smiles back at you these days, a soft and sweet little curve of his shaped lips that one might easily miss, but you always seem to be standing close enough to notice. Yes, your old mantra… You no longer need to search for the bright side… as whenever you look for light, there seems to be the silver-haired scholar, standing ready to help you always.

Yet you never realize how the very reason things go wrong, is your bright side.

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MENTIONING A BREAK-UP MID-ARGUMENT - TEXTING THE LOVE AND DEEPSPACE MEN

Warnings : unintentional judgement from Zayne, autistic!Zayne, Rafayel being mean due to low self-esteem, Xavier being too closed-off about his past, Sylus being secretive and excluding the reader, serious relationship problems (that get fixed!!), this is based off issues the characters do have in canon, reader is gender-neutral!

Genre : angst to fluff, hurt/comfort <3

Additional notes : This was simultaneously one of the hardest and easiest SMAUs to make. Hardest because it’s incredibly emotional and genuine, so it came out very long, and easiest because I like to write plot-based SMAUs. This is absolutely an exaggeration of their already-existent character traits, so please take this with a grain of salt. It’s simply my interpretation🙏🏽 To anyone else reading this, my requests are still closed!! These are just old requests I had in my inbox🫶🏽

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YOU’RE ANXIOUS TO HAVE SEX BECAUSE YOU’RE CHUBBY - TEXTING THE LOVE AND DEEPSPACE MEN

Warnings : chubby!reader, slight suggestiveness, body image issues & insecurities, autistic!Zayne, mentions of sex, reader is AFAB!

Genre : hurt/comfort n lots of fluff <3

Additional notes : This was commissioned by one of my lovely mutuals, and I’m so thankful for the opportunity to discuss self-love and portray more diverse body types. Writing this was like therapy to me, seeing as—even when I was heavily muscular—I was a lot bigger than everyone around me. I always worried whether I’d be found as attractive as my thinner friends, but I know my worries would be unfounded with the LaDS men 💗

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“PREMIUM AIR?!” - PRANKING THE LOVE AND DEEPSPACE MEN

Warnings : Sylus is pretty threatening towards innocent people, reader is gender-neutral!

Genre : silly fluff teehee <3

Additional notes : I’m currently dealing with the grief of losing someone dear to me, but this was a lovely pick-me-up to write as a distraction 🥰 To anyone else reading this, my requests are still closed!! These are just old requests I had in my inbox🫶🏽

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CALLING THEM DADDY - PRANKING THE LOVE AND DEEPSPACE MEN

Warnings : vague mentions of sex and roles in bed, all the men portrayed as switches here, reader is gender-neutral!

Genre : suggestive n silly fluff

Additional notes : I’m not gonna lie, this killed me while writing it😭😭 I honestly think that these men are too into having you as their lover that they don’t naturally gravitate to a certain role in sex—so it makes sense to me that they wouldn’t want to be limited to being doms only! Just my two cents anyways🙏🏽 Working on my four upcoming commissions btw! Almost done with the first couple too, so don’t worry🫶🏽

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TOUCH-STARVED - TEXTING THE LOVE AND DEEPSPACE MEN

Warnings : general anxieties and insecurities, touch-starved!reader, reader is gender-neutral!

Genre : loooots of comfort <3

Additional notes : Relating to this made this old request hurt all the more, but somehow writing it healed a small part of me🥹🫶🏽

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TEXTING THEIR DEAD BELOVED - TEXTING THE LOVE AND DEEPSPACE MEN

Warnings : their only love (the reader) is dead, no established relationship, implied spoilers for their myths, reader is gender-neutral!

Genre : heart-breaking angst☹️

Additional notes : This was so challenging to write, nonnie… not just cause it was difficult in terms of writing, but in terms of stopping myself from SOBBING while making these😭 To anyone else reading this, my requests are still closed!! These are just old requests I had in my inbox🫶🏽

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PILLOW CUDDLERS - TEXTING THE LOVE AND DEEPSPACE MEN

Warnings : light-hearted teasing, reader is gender-neutral!

Genre : domestic fluff <3

Additional notes : Thank you nonnie for giving me some tooth-rotting fluff to write🫶🏽 Also, please keep my sister in your prayers. She’s getting tested for autoimmune diseases and things aren’t looking good.

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REASSURING THEIR CHUBBY LOVER - TEXTING THE LOVE AND DEEPSPACE MEN

Warnings : reader is chubby, slightly suggestive, reader is gender-neutral!

Genre : comfort n fluff <3

Additional notes : This is the only time I’ll be describing the reader’s physical appearance because of my rules for requesting!! But it was fun writing this as a person who spent most of their life as the chubby friend that men overlooked😔🙏��

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