#brainspace

[gatheringbones]

[“Love or any deep connection with another person, however brief, does more than just satisfy us in the present. It ripples back in time, repairing, restoring, and renovating an inadequate past. Sincere love also sets off a forward-moving ripple and a resultant shift inside us. We get to the point where we can think: “Now I don’t have to need quite so much. Now I don’t have to blame my parents quite so much. Now I can receive love without craving more and more. I can have and be enough.” The person whose journey has progressed to that point is ready to love someone intimately.”]

david richo, from how to be an adult in relationships: the five keys to mindful loving, 2002

[salmonandfox]

Fan-mood

I follow people on DA even though I'm trying not to be active there because man it's just a hot mess... and one of the people I follow has been posting Charlie/Alistor ship stuff like... non stop.

And I'm not out to yuck someone's yum and I know we've been told it's ok to ship Alistor but man...

I kinda want to draw Chaggie not because it's my OTP but just because -shit can we give the WLW ship a little love??

Let's be clear I have no intention of going -to the artist- and giving them shit, that's their thing, they're fine... I like Alistor too...

I'm just... IDK.

[boinklydoinklysploinkly]

Yeah

do you ever say something and then think "wow this isnt even a bit. im just like this"

[thenon-fictiondays]

lmao he looks so smug about this

[mulderrrrrrr]

“tell me i’m crazy.”

“mulder, you’re crazy.”

[yourblackhearts]

[that one part of all-american bitch by Olivia Rodrigo where she just screams.mp3]

[dinoserious]

my slugfreak namekians ft piccolo and dende

[potatobugz]

collection of world's dandy doodles...... i have developed yet another favorite

[shmorp-mcdurgen]

Who's this old fart

[dizzybizz]

eiland page..... beloved <3

[cockworkangels]

tried really hard to capture some of his whimsy

[gatheringbones]

still thinking about Unmasking Autism by devon price and the bit in the book where he talked about the shapes he contorted himself into when he lacked the framework of autism and how he became the kind of person who didn’t participate in life but still assumed a persona of being hypercritical and sarcastic and witheringly judgemental to desperately hide the fact that he couldn’t connect to the world around him in a way that made any sense to him. the extreme criticism provided a smokescreen that allowed him to look and feel neurotypical, which is what he wanted more than anything else in the world. it allowed his aloofness and contempt to seem like value judgments, or matters of taste and discernment, rather than what they really were (distancing behaviors by a terrified autist)

[itslilacokay]

i miss you freellista ,,

this ship has existed for like . 4 months atp and its so funny to me like how did we get here LMAO

[freakinflipflop]

I imagine Kristoph Gavin was a 2nd violin in a string quartet when he was in college. He's absolutely the kind of guy to have played violin, and I would imagine he LOVED like. Haydn. But he's not showy enough to want the first violin position. And he gets SO perfectionist about the whole thing that the quartet ends up falling apart after 6 months.

So when his little brother is the lead musician in a successful band? AND has passed the bar and is about to debut as a lawyer? It makes Kristoph So Fucking Mad. Why does Klavier get to have everything Kristoph has strived to have. Why can Klavier do what Kristoph couldn't.

Kristoph doesn't know that behind the scenes Klavier is just as much of a control freak with his music as Kristoph was- Klavier is just able to keep his relationships based in kindness enough that it doesn't all fall apart.

[doodleimprovement]

Oh hey look fanfic fanart haven't drawn that in a hot minute

If you like Wicked/The Wizard of Oz and you aren't reading Dangerous Secrets by @ichiwashername-o then IDK what you're doing but like. Get on that. I love this version of Dorothy and the underlying mystery and political turmoil is such a fun take that I am thoroughly enjoying

The most recent chapter was especially juicy with some truly great character interaction. I cannot wait to see where it goes next!

[dancingaura925]

Ok but like as much as we ship LBG/SJ or LQG/SJ, I feel like we have to get Ming Fan *somewhere* in there so hear me out:

Luo Binghe/Ming Fan Enemies-to-Lovers where MF has an existential crisis along the way

So maybe it starts out where Ming Fan is bullying Luo Binghe as one does in the original PIDW when Luo Binghe asks the question: "Why do you hate me so much?"

And Ming Fan is going to answer!!! But for some reason, when he's about to start saying the usual schtick (you're a beast, untalented, have your eye on NYY, etc), for some reason, he can't get that out. If anything, wouldn't MF be a beast for doing all of this? No, he's obviously just carrying out Shizun's orders! Thoughts are swirling around his head, but whatever the case is, Luo Binghe isn't scurrying up those hateful emotions anymore.

So to the surprise of everyone, he just looks at Luo Binghe, turns around, and leaves.

His lackeys obviously don't know what's going on, so they try to follow, only to be shaken off (aka yelled at) to leave him alone. So they do, and Ming Fan does the unthinkable and starts thinking. Why does he hate Luo Binghe so much? Why did he spend countless of hours on this one boy instead of doing something useful and standing out to his Shizun by actually cultivating?

And when Shizun finally punishes Luo Binghe for some inane reason (he... hasn't really noticed the inconsistencies in punishments until now), he hesitates in handing the whip to Shizun. He glances at Luo Binghe to see the fear in his eyes die down to a dull hue, which bubbles up something unpleasant in Ming Fan. He eventually gets the whip when Shizun threatens to whip him as well, but he excuses himself to go outside. Why does he hate him? Why did that dying light hurt him so?

Ming Fan feels like he's on the verge of something, so while he does so, as the days pass by, people claim he's lost his soul, only wandering around and cultivating. Even Luo Binghe notices something is really off when not only he finds medicine in the wooden shed later on, he accidentally bumps into Ming Fan, and instead of getting yelled at and hit, Ming Fan just looks at him with dead eyes (just like back then) and walks away!!! What the hell!

And when someone else tries to take up the mantle of Binghe's main bully, Ming Fan yells at them!! Tells them to knock it off!

By now, the entire peak knows something is off, to the point where Shizun himself is looking down at Ming Fan, kneeling in the Bamboo Hut, and telling him to focus and actually be productive.

But Ming Fan, deep inside, is being productive and basically therapying himself, because surprise surprise, he's got the classic case of jealousy and self-worthlessness! It's pretty obvious now that he thinks about it - I mean, combine being the second son to a merchant family who is always outshined by his older and younger brother and the fact that his newfound worth and status on QJP is solely being upheld by his martial and intellectual abilities and is now being threatened by Luo Binghe, who is also!! possibly taking away the one person he knows will always be on his side!! (Head canon)

And when the person he is trying to please to be worth something is not happy with Luo BInghe, of course he's going to follow, trying to sabotage his shidi with the false hope that it'll slow him down, not by much, but by enough.

...Yeah, MF is not having a good time.

Flash forward to a few years later, the two of them have a rocky relationship. The bullying has gotten down (mostly because everyone knows that you can't really beat Luo Binghe anymore (gee, I wonder why, maybe because there's less sabotaging from the main cannon fodder)), and Ming Fan is living vicariously through Luo Binghe.

And maybe, just maybe, he falls a little bit for him. Unimaginable, Ming Fan knows that, but... Luo Binghe shines so bright that you forget that you were never worthy of that light in the first place. And despite all that dirt thrown on him, he just continues to shine. He's breathtaking, and his wife beam is not to be underestimated.

Ming Fan looks forward to seeing Luo Binghe (besides being an absolute TSUNDERE in his own mind), and even more so in the Immortal Alliance Conference. But when Luo Binghe falls... what now? What does Ming Fan do now?

In any case, as we the readers know, Luo Binghe comes back, and when Ming Fan finds out, Luo Binghe has already invited a Cang Qiong cultivator into the Huan Hua Palace and vice versa as an... exchange program. Through a series of twists and turns, Ming Fan's the one being chosen, and he ends up going.

Thus enter a series of misunderstandings, pure shenanigans, a closet or two, and by the end of it all, the two have therapied each other into a relationship. (Ming Fan doesn't really know how that happened) (Luo Binghe has some idea since he was interested in how this confusing shixiong broke the mold that everyone else seemed to follow)

So we can conclude that Luo Binghe really does have a shixiong/shizun kink. Thank you for coming to my tedtalk.