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jesuistrefatugie · 2 years

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That moment you realize that you, like a certain self-sacrificing bastard, have the emotional capability of wet paper.

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mocha-tapioca · 9 months

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CONGRATS ON 5K @lotus-pear!‼︎‼︎ YOU GO GIRLIE

#lotuspear5kdtiys #WOOOOOOO 🎊🎊🎊🎊🎊🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉#this made me like rendering again but also i am Supposed To Be Asleep (starts fasting in an hour)#ill conk out after we’re all good ITS ALL GOOD #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd dazai #dazai osamu #osamu dazai #bsd fanart #have i ever mentioned how little i actually know about this series/this man #like ik next to nothing but hes fun to draw n i hear the WILDEST things abt him #like okay wow ur therapist needs a support group #i kept on picturing his finger as a moustache while i was drawing him n that made things infinitely funnier #is this going to be the thing that ACTUALLY gets me into bsd?? find out next episode

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sparring-spirals · 2 years

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i just love it when characters Say Things. u kno. just a real sucker for characters. Saying Shit.

Imogen saying "She's not any person. She was special. She was chosen." (Chosen, once, twice, thrice, for an early end). Ashton saying "Do I look like a person who doesn't know that?" (That things often have unsatisfying ends). F.C.G saying: "It seems kind of hard." (being alive, finding purpose). Orym saying "It always mattered." (F.C.G's life, what they chose to do with it, them). Ashton saying "I have had a lifetime, of bad hits." (Hits, and falls, and losses, that I am weathering. But I am telling you where I am drawing my lines, here and now.) Imogen saying "Laudna, you're safe!" (we chased off the shadows, you're not alone, you're safe, we're here).

F.C.G saying: "Well, I have to live."

Ashton saying: "Unfortunate, but true."

im just. such a fan of characters saying things, all the time, about all kinds of things, with all kinds of meanings. God i just. love it. when characters say shit. u feel me.

#this post brought to you by theres so many things from the last ep that are so good and so many Specific Lines to make me go feral #god characters are just out here Saying Things and i am. cheering wildly in a distant room.#critical role #cr spoilers #c3e36 #quote #bell's hells #orogorgorogoghghrhfhhr #spar speaks #ive got asks in my inbox and stuff to reblog but ive just got like 6 conversations on loop in my head #there isnt really a theme in this post sorry im just obsessed with SO many convos in this ep #anyway cheers ill get to the asks soon. probably. maybe.#character meta #??? very vaguely i GUESS #my meta #what a CRUNCHY episode #anyway if i were to make a nonexhaustive list of things im chewing on:#- bells hells (the therapist group) diving into a nightmare scape to confront and fight laudnas personal demons (see last meta)#- fcg is alive and has to live for themself now and thats Scary And Hard And Kind Of Sucks (ur so right king) but it MATTERS #- imogen darling how u doin #- ashton and his approach to powerful people and their own shifting worldview #- chetney grabbing pate and the tools off the table #- orym bud how u doin #- fearne... fearne i think youre okay rn. maybe. i think you miss laudna tho which Me Too #- LAUDNA ARE YOU OKAY #narrative meta

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charliespringverse · 13 days

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i think it should be possible to scream without making any noise or disturbing anyone or inviting any questions . just sometimes . as a treat .

#hhhhHHHGHGHHHHHH #jay screams into the void #(deeply personal rant incoming feel free to ignore)#a friend of mine has just been undiagnosed with bpd which . lovely for them but it sure as fuck invites a Lot of questions #suddenly a great deal of previous shitty behaviour that was excused on the basis of bpd has a lot more to answer for #(obligatory I Know BPD Isn't An Excuse To Treat People Like Shit . im aware . i have bpd myself and i have v high standards re my behaviour)#(however allowances were made bc they were unmedicated & out of therapy through no fault of their own)#(and our whole group has enough experience with untreated mental illness to understand that it can make u a bitch sometimes)#but yeah no there have been a LOT of instances of b&w thinking + manipulation + unfair judgement + high emotion + snap reactions #and every situation Could be explained by untreated bpd and the bad times have never been prolonged or often enough to outweigh the good #but Hoo Boy if that wasn't bpd then what the FUCK was it #like either the new psychiatrist is wrong (possible but i seem to be the only one questioning it) or they're just Like That #and again . not enough to outweigh their numerous positive and loveable traits #but the whole group has been destabilised on a number of occasions due to their actions during a bad spell #and i'm really not sure Any Other Explanation is enough to justify that #ah well . this seems like the kind of thing that will eventually come up during a sleepover heart to heart #but rn i'm stuck in a bubble of MAJOR rsd & brainfuck abt it . which is unfortunate bc now is exactly the time i Don't need brainfuck #anyways ✨ goodnight tumblrinas i am . kind of hoping nobody read this bc i fear i sound like a bitch #i am genuinely happy for their undiagnosis it seems to have put many things into perspective for them & theyre v happy about it #i'm just . uncomfy w some aspects of it that i have only been halfway brave enough to discuss with them personally #That's One To Bring Up With My Therapist In A Few Weeks #Bit Of A Shame I'm No Longer In Therapy And Now Have Only 2 Quarterly Reviews Left Before I'm Discharged From The Service

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chryblossomjjk · 8 months

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#first therapy session went well !#i didn't cry which is v surprising lol #maybe bc we didnt go too in depth about things but #therapist already picking up on things i didn't like #never really thought of myself as an anxious person #depression was more so what stuck out to me #but like therapist was like bestie... u sound more anxious than ur perceiving #like i put that i don't struggle with social anxiety bc generally in a group of people im pretty outgoing #but like my coping skills are isolation lol #and i often turn down invitations bc of my insecurities #and in general just hate being perceived despite wanting it #like i literally havent answered any asks on here in months bc #im afraid of what people think of me #and im scared of interaction #but im also dying for human connection lol :'))#i also avoid men completely bc trauma so yeah #and it all stems from a deep deep belief that i am not worthy of love n wOw im sad but like we can only go up from here right :'))#LMAO SORRY THAT THIS IS WHAT MY BLOG HAS BECOME BUT #idk this is my diary fr #anywho sorry for everything #will most likely delete all these rants bc its embarassing lol but #love you all #and im so sorry for not answering the asks #thank you for reading my fics #your comments mean sm to me truly #love you endlessly

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opens-up-4-nobody · 15 days

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#bleh. i need half the country to pls stop being on fire. id like to go out and run pls. but its so smokey i can barely see the mountain #i live near :-/ also im just tired and frustrated. its incredible how quickly i vasilate between #things r going well. i should stay in my program and work with cyanos forever. to no no no im not cut out for this. i gotta leave. to yay #let me throw myself head first into consuming every second of my life with working. but only on the things that dont require me to think #which is y im not cut out for this and should be bannished to a world of only doing lab work and following instructions #also i have an screening interview monday for an R0DBT group. so i might b going to control freak classes #assuming i cant convince the lady that im not fit for thr class. which obviously i am bc im my therapist listed the ppl who r #usually put into r0dbt and i was like hm im a lot of those things. but also its 2hrs every week and thats a lot of time. and i feel like im #already on the path away from violently structuring my life specifically bc ive done so much damage #ugh. also i have ridiculously high self standards but i only do anything halfway bc i cant fail if i never try 100%.#so im like a fake control freak. or rather i cant even fully commit to being controlling. im lazy and i dont have the drive.#which almost makes it worse bc im stading at this threshold of control where it destroys me but never actually succeeds in being a perfect #thing. which is def a distorted way to think about it but there u go. ugh. im just tired and my arm hurts too much to draw bc #im older and older everyday. and i dont wanna read papers. i dont wanna grade or work on my presentation. i didn't want to spend 3.5 hrs #doing transfers this morning. and my mom's been dead for 6months and 3 days now. and i still dont kno where ill be a year from now #unrelated

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wiseatom · 28 days

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me rn: 🧍

#i am always like this. but especially rn #i have my first therapy appt tomorrow and i am trying not to think i have to get a Good Grade in Therapy #bc this is what i did last time (10 yrs ago) which led to me lying to my therapist. which is not the intended point of therapy actually #anyway i haven’t been present here bc every time i interact w anyone i feel like they have the ➖👥 from the sims over their heads #which is a Me thing so i am trying to remove myself from situations that make me insane. aka being present in online/group settings #also i am just very overwhelmed from work recently so i am trying to give myself time to be normal. Anyway #that’s it for tags with thea hopefully my therapist doesn’t ➖👥 me tomorrow

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kcuf-ad · 8 months

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So, if Soulburner is afraid of his past, what if Playmaker is afraid of his future? Like his life and the direction of it? That... Actually fits with him.

#i am going to use it for my fic #yes i am projecting and I don't care #yugioh Vrains #yusaku fujiki #ryoken is the therapist of the group

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magpie-to-the-morning · 7 months

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The real reason I want a life partner is because I ache for emotional and physical connection, and my social battery drains too quickly with people I’m not intimately comfortable with.

#I had dinner with 10 friends last night #for my bday #and genuinely enjoyed it #but today #I am so fucking drained #and yes fine smaller friend groups/hangs #but as my therapist put it #my social battery drains quickly #so it’s quality connections over quantity #and sometimes #you just want to be with someone who feels like home

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becca4leafclover · 10 months

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Ok but why was Trolls 3 kinda good. Like it's not AMAZING but it's certainly enjoyable! I haven't seen the second one and heard it was really bad but the third goes right along with the first one that was also surprisingly good! It's just such an odd thing to be pleasantly entertaining and occasionally get punched in the gut by some outrageous one-liners lmao

Like I know it's DreamWorks so it makes sense it's just. It's an odd juxtaposition for today's media trends I think /pos

#i am not immune to boy band propoganda floyd was my favorite #im not one to speak on the accuracy of trauma in this but i appreciate the way they had branch go about things #it was like. simplified for kids. but also felt like natural in the way he displayed things?#at least to me whos main knowledge is via character analysis of other media and playing therapist #friend of the group #becca rambles #trolls 3

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wizardnuke · 6 months

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loudly bitching about someone over the phone for 40 minutes straight at work while coworkers sideeye me. sorry. i have never shown this behavior before and itll be another two years before i do it again

#THERAPEUTIC. incredible things happening.#this person. me and this guy both love this person. but Oh my God.#he called to tell me abt something that kind of pissed him off last night and i started talking about a month and a half ago #why are we handholding this grown ass person thru fomo and massive control issues. well. it's not a dealbreaker but i might blow up one day #oscillating between 'yes i love them' and 'i've been pissed for a month and a half'#the horrors of having a interconnected friend group? it's really just two people i would really really hate to lose. others wouldn't be as #affected but those two. i love them. and AGAIN it's not a dealbreaker it's just kind of a buildup of behaviors. anyone remember my bitchy #post about the fomo/anxiety essay #also smaller things like Why are you trying to micromanage two disc servers that you dont have to lift a fucking finger in #um. my beloved irl if you see this. you didn't. i do love her to death. you know i do #the issue is if i put out all my issues they would take it really badly like they would act like it's the end of the fucking world #when i'm just like hey i am not your mother or your therapist and also stop trying to tell me what to fucking do #they would. um. lose it.#and some people are gonna get hit in the crossfire and i don't want to cause that. even tho it. wouldnt really be me.

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lesbianfakir · 6 months

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I love when I’m released out into the wild and I’m a certified #girlfreak then I come back to tumblr and there are 10 other people even crazier than me on my dash to greet me

#at my therapy group today trying to convince the licensed therapist to watch hereditary #while this guy stares at me like an alien because I’m talking about how horror as a genre is really funny #love when you say something and the other person just goes quiet and says WHAT #and you FEEL them revaluating how they think of you #that happened like 3 different times #like realistically I’m not thaaaaaaat out there I’m just a tumblr gurl with a love of surreal shit and a weird sense of humor #but my god sometimes you’re talking to people and you’re like HUH I didn’t realize normies existed in real life #like I’m sorry you won’t get on the ground and bark like a dog if the bit calls for it #I will #I have no shame #anyways I AM like the other girls I’m just in the weird lesbian subset #lea talks #lea off topic tag

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backpackingspace · 1 month

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How does one even go about having feelings about escaping being murdered?

#Anyway I know my therapist is going to ask about my feelings #About this super fun and fucked realization that one therapist who tortured me trying to see me dead #And so I've been trying to think about I how I feel #And like the real answer is I'm super not thanks we are repressing like a champ #But mostly bc I am saving that breakdown for tomorrow when I don't have work #And I don't even know where to begin #In hindsight it's pretty obvious you don't let someone (a patient) no less live if you've been torturing them for 8 months #Some how the fact that she wanted this to be my permanent last state is some how worse then just the torture itself #Tw:torture #Tw:abuse of power #Tw: murder attempt #Though technically not sure if that counts I don't think she would have physically done it with her own two hands #But then again purposefully keeping me sleep deprived to keep me insane and kill me is still yah know on purpose #Kinda feel like I need a support group from this #Which is not something I've ever once held an interest in before but it might be helpful to see how other people are handling similar thing #Oversharing on the internet times #Not my first long term therapist being actual literal hannibal lectre

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f1owermoon · 1 month

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thinking abt the ways ive heard people describe me and going 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹💘💘💘💘💘🫶🫶🫶🫶

#i was in group therapy for a while and we had to do an exercise where we had to describe ourselves and then ask someone close to describe us #and the therapist also asked us to describe each other #i said i was sweet (i dont really THINK of myself as sweet but other people often tell me i am so i was like sure lets go w it)#and then one of the ladies who was there was like no youre not sweet youre SUPER sweet and i was like oh??????????#and then another girl was like: she's like a cloud. it was so cute LMFAO #it was the same girl who said she thought my voice was so sweet and soft sometimes she couldn't focus on what i was saying when i talked #and i dunno. everyone else in that group was a bit older than me and the therapist was like well #besides being a good person i think youre really intelligent and articulate for your age and i was like well.....im not that young LMFAO #idk its just weird to think about all the positive ways in which others perceive you yk?#like ive never EVER thought of myself as intelligent. if anything quite the opposite #even here i remember getting a couple of anonymous asks from ppl telling me that they thought i was cool or funny #or that they liked my sense of humor and i was like me???????? cool????????? funny???????????? no way dude #then there's been others from people telling me i was cute or sweet which is what i often hear from others but yeah #ive never considered myself particularly cute or sweet?????? i think im just a decent person lmao #anyway. much to think about.....#sorry for the rant if youve read everything you deserve a kiss (with tongue???? jk. unless??) 💋#raquel speaks

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incidentalblr · 3 months

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guys in very very exciting news my mom found an art therapist in our area who is apparently over the moon to work with me. she wants to take me to a museum as my first appointment

#for those of you who are not apprised of my therapy journey:#i have been to literally everyone and talk therapy straight up does not work bc i’m too self aware + i’m really good at dodging questions #my last therapist was the only one that was any good and the main benefit of going to her was smth to get me out of the house once a week #so like. a while ago she let me go because she was like ‘i am not helping you. i can tell i’m not helping you’#which was totally true and i respect her for knowing that.#so now i’ve been festering in the wilderness of my room 24/7 with nothing but my autistic support group going for me #in terms of activities anyways #do you guys know how much being unemployed sucks psychologically?

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treesbian · 3 months

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mentally healthy person activities: start sobbing at how difficult you're finding something as simple as changing over laundry

#talk tag #why am i so fucking tired all the time lately. and also forever.#i never want to be called high functioning or low support needs ever again i am struggling so much through everything i do #i just don't HAVE support. i just don't have any #goddddd i need to get back on my meds but i don't want to go back to that psychiatrist #and i don't want to rely on my mom to pick up my meds for me on her way home from work bc she'd put it off for days #so i ended up skipping them a lot #and you know the one thing that was actually working just made my legs move a lot in a way other ppl found annoying and every other combo #did not make that go away and he just WOULDNT put me back on what was working. bc i guess to psychiatrist 'hey this was helping way more #than anything else we've tried. can we go back to that' means 'i want to abuse drugs and die'#also wait idk if im misremembering but i did once tell my therapists when i was in group that i really thought i'd be doing better if i lik #had more actual friends #and they told me that i don't need a lot of friends to feel fulfilled and work on myself first or smth like that #maybe they misinterpreted me idk. also one day i said 'im thinking of giving up my spot here so my sister can get help'#and they immediately pulled me out of the session and told me that it wasn't working on me anyway and they couldn't help me #didn't even get to finish that day they just sent me home #idk. when it helped it helped but near the end it hurts my feelings to think about :(#i just want to get better. i csnt do it by myself.#my sister did get to go though abd she learned more self respect but shes also somehow even more individualistic

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