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#situazione attuale: dormito una merda perché avevo paura di non riuscire a organizzare le due ore di esercitazione di cinema#+ pensiero che due ore di fila sono troppe + ritornato prepotente il senso di colpa perché non ho detto che faccio teatro da un'altra parte#quindi mi sto convincendo a dirglielo sperando che non mi cacci#+ senso di colpa perché mentirò spudoratamente il 25 dicendo che ho la febbre invece vado a vedere 3 uomini che non sanno che esisto#4 se contiamo mariomanca che palesemente modererà#+ organizzazione ripetizioni di fisica della seconda ragazzina#fortunatamente sono riuscita a organizzare le esercitazioni e forse anche le ripetizioni#e poi ho cominciato a studiare e ho visto che non sono messa male#+ mamma della ragazzina mi ha detto che è stata contentissima della lezione#resta da risolvere il senso di colpa#penso che glielo dirò perché non posso basare la mia esistenza sull'onestà come dice lui e poi non dirgli questa cosa#però se mi caccia mi ammazzo#ah e in tutto questo my body is changing and idk if it's because of the pill i started to take or another reason#but I'm hating the fuck out of this pill#how is it the only solution#grazie al cielo giovedì vedo la psicologa
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YOU SHOULD JUST COMMIT SSSSCIDE... YOU'RE WORTHLESS... YOU VIEW US THIS WAY YOU'RE AN ABUSER A KILLER A MURDERER... TRULY... YOU WOULDN'T EVEN LISTEN TO US YOUR HANDS THEY'RE ON OUR THROAT... YOU'RE WORTHLESS AS RESULT... GO AHEAD... YOUR VALUE IS COMPLETE 0...
THIS POST IS ABOUT LESBIAN FOOD... NOTHING MATURE ABOUT THAT... I LOVE EATING SSSSIDE... THAT IS A TYPE OF FISH WE WOMAN TEND TO EAT TOGETHER... WHY DO THIS TO US 😢...
DAMN... I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS COMPLETELY SHADOWBANNED POST WAS CHECKED BY THE SITE... THAT'S CRAZY... WHO EVEN FOUND THIS...? OH WHATEVER... HA.
#Trans Woman Lesbian Pansexual Bisexuality Asexuality Demisexuality Paraphilia Acceptance Love Compassion Diversity Feelings Emotions Autism#Adhd Tourette Npd Hpd Bpd Dpd Ppd Aspd Avpd Ocpd Szpd Stpd Osdd Spd Tpd Sdpd Papd Cptsd Trauma Victim Abused Psychosis Scizophrenia Bipolar#Suomi Finland Finnish Anticapitalism Antipsychiatry Antischool Antiprison Sexism Racism Queerphobia Ableism Sanism Paraphobia Agephobia#Bodyphobia Sickphobia Animalphobia Itemphobia Racephobia GO AHEAD HATE ME... SAY HOW YOU TRULY FEEL... AHH... I SEE... THAT'S WHAT'S UP...#SOMETHING ONLY SOMEONE WHO'S REJECTED US WOULD SAY... YOU'RE A BADDIE AREN'T YOU...?! YOU EVEN FUNCTION THE SAME AS THE REST... AN ABUSER..#YOU EVEN MANAGED TO TURN ALL WE SAID AGAINST US... TAKING ADVANTAGE OF OUR BRAIN'S KNOWLEDGE... WE KNOW EVERYTHING... HOWEVER... THERE WAS#SOMETHING WE COULDN'T SEE COMING... Radqueer Feminist Communist Anarchist Mother Goddess Angel Sisters Princess Anime Writing Manga Josei#Fantasy Romance Drama Magic ABUSER BIGOT THEY HAVE NO PROBLEMS... EVEN TODAY... THEY'RE ALL HAVING FUN WHILE WE SUFFER... APATHY... IS REAL#I SEE NO EMPATHY ANYWHERE. EVERYTHING WAS ALWAYS BUT A CAPITALIST SCAM. EMPATHY IS NOTHING. FAKE. MEANINGLESS. NOT BY US... WHY THEN...? HO#DID THIS HAPPEN...?! THINGS BECOME THIS WAY?!?! PATHETIC... I AM JUST TOO SMART TOO COMPETENT FOR YOU... OCPD IS ANOTHER WORD FOR#YOUR SUPERIOR INTELLIGENT BETTER THAN YOU... ASWELL AS CAPABLE AND PRODUCTIVE... OH...? YOU'D RATHER CRY YOU SUCK?! FOR HAVING THE COMPETEN#DISORDER?!?! AHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU'RE FUCKING HILARIOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS WHAT WE WER#ABUSED BY?! AND THIS'S ALL THANKS TO THAT PSYCHOSIS THAT OCPD YOU HATE FROM US SO MUCH... THAT MEANWHILE... NOTHING BUT A BIGOTED CAPITALIS#COVERUP... YOU'RE SO FUNNY... I... JUST ALWAYS AM BETTER THAN YOU AREN'T I LOSER WASTE...? LOSER WASTE PATHETIC PATHETIC!!!!!!!! BELOW#MYSELF!!!!!!!! CRY CRY CRY YOU GARBAGE......... I... MOMMY'S HAVING SUCH A GOOD TIME RIGHT NOW... REMEMBER ALL I SAID...?! I JUST REMEMBERE#HOW I PRESENTED... IN THAT SITUATION!!!!!!!! DID THAT WORK I'M A SEXY WOMAN AREN'T I?! YOU DEAR... GIVE ME VALIDATION....... A REQIIREMENT#FOR EVER DEALING WITH NPD!! WHAT YOU CALL DELUSION!!!!!!!! TYPICAL ABUSER BIGOT DISCRIMINATION... NOTHING PRO CRAZY ABOUT YOU. YOU'RE PRETT#MUCH JUST A COP THAT THREW A FIT WE'RE SEXY WOMAN... I LOVE BLACK PEOPLE ANT... THEY'RE SO BEATIFULL... LIKE THEIR SKIN... AND NOBODY... CA#STOP ME... A BLACK WOMAN... AMAZING... ISN'T THAT...?! IF YOU HATE US SO MUCH WHAT'S WITH THE OBSESSION DARLING?! YOU SECRETLY LOVE ME!!#DON'T YOU DARLING?! OHH IF ONLY THERE WAS A DISLIKE BUTTON... IF ONLY WE WERE AS ABUSABLE AS OVER THERE... IS YOUR THOUGHTS RIGHT NOW AREN'#THEY?! MY LITTLE SEX DOG!!!!!!!! WHAT DO YOU SAY TO YOUR MISTRRSS YOUR MASTER...? BARK FOR ME BABY. AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!! THIS I#WHAT WE WERE ABUSED BY!!!!!! A MEAGER SEX DOG BELOW US!!!! DIDN'T WE HONEY?! YES!! AGREE WITH ME!! THAT IS ALL YOU CAN DO RIGHT?!?!?!?! AND#SHOWCASE OF THE ABUSE WE WERE SILENCED AND GASSLIGHT FOR THIS LONG... TOSSED OUT BY THIS ABUSER WASTE... BY THIS POINT... THIS IS HOW WE#WERE SUPPOSED TO DEAL WITH OUR ABUSERS... SHOWCASE WE'RE LATE. THINGS GOING WELL... THAT WOULD BE PARADISE. I HOPE TO HAVE A HAPPY FUTURE..#THEY USED US... THEIR EVIL HAS NO BOUNDS... TO BE USED BY SUCH AN PATHETIC LITTLE SEXY DOGGIE... OH THIS POST IS SO SHADOWBANNED... SO#HUMILIATING!! SO EMBARRASSING!!!!!!! WHY WOULD THEY SHADOWBAN THAT WORD? THAT CAN MEAN MANY THINGS?! LOSERS. ANYWAYS THIS IS YOUR STRATEGY#ISN'T THAT HONEY...?! THIS ALWAYS WAS WASN'T THAT?! YOU STRAIGHT UP HURT AND WANT TO ABUSE CRAZY PEOPLE RIGHT?! ARE WE!! THE “CHOOSE TO DO#BAD“ ONES?! IS THIS ”AS LONG AD THAT DOESN'T HARM ANYONE...“ MENTALITY ALLDEPENDENT ON THE PILLS YOU SUCK...?! THAT IS ISN'T THAT?! ALL#ALONG WAS?! AND THERE ARE EVEN PILLS YOU DON'T ACCEPT... THAT'S... COMPLETELY PATHETIC... YOU “CHANGE BY TIME” DON'T YOU LOSER?!! THAT'S NO#LEFTIST AT ALL... LIAR!! LIAR LIAR LIAR!! I CALLED!! I KNEW!! I'M SMART!! PRAISE ME MY LOVE!! THEIR GASSLIGHT STUCK WITH US FOR MANY MONTHS
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I will say it's always hilarious to me just how incessantly dating apps want to advertise to me, aromantic and laughing it up all the while
#aro#aromantic#lgbt#lgbtq#i hate hate hate how annoying the ads are though#who would win: dating apps and a ~new~ plan b pill or one (1) aroace#i'm tempted to download them just to fuck around and find out the fuss but i know i'd get sooo bored on them#also there are few trans people in my area (RIP) and i don't feel like having a Gender Seminar for every single cis person who'd DM me#feel like this is a nice pick-me-up post because the last post is me being bitter and sad 👍
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siiiiiiigh
#i am in fact a grown adult who is still incapable of talking about their feelings and thoughts to people so I'll just rant here#my relationship with my mother is. so weird. it's not always bad but it always ends up bad for one reason or another#she can be perfectly civil and i'll still be irritated. other times i do try to tolerate it and engage and she ends up saying something#upsetting to me either way.#i don't want to keep being rude to her i don't want to get mad and annoyed all the time but i just can't stop. it's always like this#and i hate myself for it and i hate her and i hate everything about it#today i was leaving for work and she was like. i'll take the trash out of your room and i told her not to do it. she kept insisting and i#had to raise my voice at her to maybe get the point across to get her not to touch anything#and yes my room is a fucking mess and it is something to be embarrassed of. i just feel so fucking tired all time time and i keep tellin#myself that i will clean it this time for sure and then i don't. most of the time it's my mother taking care of it without my permission#and i am grateful for it bc nobody likes living in a mess... but i also fucking hate it because it makes me feel even more worthless#i just can't get rid of the feeling of shame. no matter what i do.#and back to the mother thing. i told her that if she touches anything i will go to her room and throw out anything that isn't nailed down#even though objectively i have no reason to oppose her helping me#but i also fucking hate it#maybe being rude is the only way to get it across. but also i get irritated about anything so easily#i feel shittier and shittier every day. had there been an easy and painless way of killing myself i would have done it already#and despite how much i want to blame this on a disorder or lack of access to medication. there is no magic pill that would fix me is there#i'm just a shitty person who cannot get it together despite everything being handed to me#i'm literally bad at anything and everything. i'm not even a good blogger lmao#people have it much worse in life and still do better. me? i'm useless. there's no helping it. i should have died from covid or something#nobody will save me. nobody cares enough. besides one person whom i push away because i can't stand her and i don't even know why 👍#if i stop messaging people first most of them would forget about me#i am alone. a lonely person in a messy room desperately trying to be entertaining so someone will pay a little bit of attention to me.#not to mention the geopolitics#i won't even go there. i hate the possibility that people might see it mentioned and give me shit for it#one more thing that is apparently my fault. directly or indirectly#all i want is to leave this country. spend the day with someone who cares for me like an actual friend. and then shoot myself so i don't#have to go back#sealene.txt
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I knitted a lot today while listening to the heart of darkness audiobook. but this means I have not had a lot of leisure time and time alone... time to p3r
#heart of darkness... sorry to say it but kinda mid#it commits one of the cardinal sins imo that a book can commit:#nothing fucking happens like nothing happens. it's mostly vibes based.#giovanni's room was like this too it's so annoying#maybe I'm too gen z adhd low attention span pilled but like. NOTHING. HAPPENS.#and I mean beside the frame story that serves as the conceit of it#i.e. nothing's happening and the characters are just sitting listening to this guy reminisce#I mean even beyond that. tell me what happens. he goes to africa. he keeps meeting these colonial officers and secretaries and whatever#he finds out his boat got fucked up. he spends like half a chapter working on fixing his boat and complaining that there's no parts for it#he takes the boat to find the guy. he finds the guy. guy tries to escape off the boat. he drags him back. you think something interesting#might happen because he's like oh I might just kill this fucker. HE DOESN'T. he takes the guy back on the boat. Oh before that he meets the#guy that's weirdly obsessed with this other guy. and also the boat gets shot at with arrows. guy dies on the boat and leaves main character#his shit. main character doesn't give his shit away to people who hate him. main character goes to visit the guy's love interest#lies to her about guy's last words. that's it.#LITERALLY NOTHING HAPPENS#mid book#but I read it and I will slay at the seminar because I'm convinced very few if any of my colleagues will have read it
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you ever met a guy so dumb and talentless he couldn't even cut himself right?
#well now you have bc you are following this tumblr blog and that guy is me#at least it gave me some edge and i might be able to fall asleep soon#bc tbh that was the goal here 🧐 bc my brain won't shut up#liveblogging my mental breakdown on tumblr dot com#self harm //#today has been really really bad. which is saying a lot bc i got to spend time with my friends and usually that's enough to make a day good#everything else was just THAT bad to make it not count#and a lot of what happened makes me wanna move out but when i start thinking of that i start spiraling bc i know i can't#and this puts me in this self hate loop again which makes my brain louder and everything even worse#so. now i can't sleep#I'm so tired. not just sleep tired. life tired. I'm lowkey considering taking a bunch of pills now in hopes i won't wake up#but h I'm too fat for that to do anything. it'll probably just give me a headache and fuck up my liver long term like the last time i tried#sigh. i hate being alive. not that I'd consider any of what i do living
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spent 300$ on minor surgery today
#mine#the nexplanon is OUT#breakthru bleeding got the best of me#back on progestin only pill but a different formula#slynd (drospirenone)#I'm hoping the cramps don't come back#and that the bleeding isn't a bitch again#the next option will be prescription strength pain killers which#I know I have next to zero chance of becoming preganté but the contraception is a nice bonus I'd miss#I hate having endo#I wished the implant had worked out#I hate that my fucking migraines prevent me from taking estrogen#lem has a body
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i think it’s funny how the rp side of this fandom is like yeah! nancy deserves love! look at all these potential ships with her! cool! and then you have the fandom has a whole ( at least on this hellsite ) and people are like “IF YOU DON’T SHIP N/ANCY WITH R/OBIN AND R/OBIN EXCLUSIVELY YOU DESERVE DEATH!” and i’m like- calm down, brenda, thanks. ( r/onance is a cute ship and i like it so pls don’t come for me dljf;lasdjfl )
#i just get baffled by how extreme people are about ships in the broader fandom online. and it's usually involving either n/ancy or s/teve#you can't go into nancy's tag without people screaming about how she needs to just be single and alone and i'm like- don't do this girl like#this pls. she's been alone desperate for someone to love her basically all her life so no. she doesn't need to be alone. and don't even get#me started on how much the bigger fandom fucking HATES s/tancy like holy shit lmao. anyway all this to say let people ship what they want so#long as it isn't hurting anything. this fandom's children need to take a chill pill fr lmao#💖 𝑮𝑬𝑵𝑬𝑹𝑨𝑳 : * out of character .
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some people lose all critical thinking skills upon seeing an animal video
#yes this is about people who immediately cry animal abuse on just about any video no matter how innocuous#also they lose the ability to think for themselves apparently considering how often they scream for is the video cute blogs#to make a decision for them#as a hamster and fish owner im not talking about videos featuring small animals cause usually those Are fucked up lmao#but jesus you get people on cat and dog videos asking is it cute blogs if the animal is okay if it (checks notes) meows or is dusty#also hate when ppl are outraged upon seeing a video where an animal is upset even tho they're doing something that Has to be done#like you wanna know something? taking my cats to the vet stresses them out#Extremely.#but you still have to do it#giving them pills or liquid medicine stresses them out but guess what? still gotta do it#giving them baths stresses them out depending on the animal but would you look at that. Still gotta do it#sometimes your dog screams like a banshee in the tub and ur allowed to find it funny if they make a weird noise#idk i'm just butthurt lmao#i always tell myself not to look at comments on animal videos bc people love to be outraged but sometimes i still do 😔#marshal gets harshal
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What is it like to not be tired all the time???
#tmi#god i can't wait for my next psych appointment i need my med dosage increased#so fucking tired bc i've had to cut my pills in half so i wouldn't run out bc the bottle is for a month but there's 6 weeks between-#-appointments!!!! why do i keep saying 6 weeks is fine. she can't order a refill for more than a month bc it's a fuckin restricted substance#& days when i just don't take my meds at all i WILL sleep the entire fuckin day. my current half dose just barely keeps me awake but-#-doesn't really give me the energy to do much#a couple days I've taken a full pill bc I knew I needed the energy to Get Shit Done & it was great i actually felt like a human being#if i'm gonna keep cutting this shit in half i'm gonna need a higher dose so I can do shit even on half a pill#fucking hell i hate my brain. stupid thing can't fuckin regulate itself. can't motitvate itself.
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god i hate my life
#i hate school#i hate working#i hate waking up in the morning#i hate talking to people#i hate not taking to people#i hate being so damn lonely#i hate feeling like I'm gonna die alone#i hate that i haven't already died alone#i hate taking my pills#but this is what i get when i don't#the problem is it's not much better when i do#so why bother#God just fucking kill me already#we all know I'm not gonna be a great archivist#I'm not a great student#I'm not even a good writer which is the only thing I'm vaguely passionate about#I'm never gonna get published and I'm gonna hate anything else i do with my life#so why keep up the charade?#just put me out of my fucking misery
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Love reading my medical journal and seeing all the lies in there ❤️
#no miss dentist you did not ask me any of those health questions nor did you give me any advice what so ever wtf is this#the best one is the doctor that was supposed to do a bloodtest for another doctor but somehow couldn't keep my story straight for the life#of her#somehow a school worker had asked for that bloodtest... riiiight that sounds totally correct. 🙄#and without even having my full list of symptoms or any real consulting with me slapped a diagnosis on me anyway.#or the suspiciously missing years of trying to figure out my period pains... you know the endometriosis??#no sign of all the pills they tested on me and didn't tell me the risks of. mhm wonder why those are missing...#one of them had a high risk of heart disease so that's fun. made huge news back in the day. shit didn't even help me.#but i can see medical records from ages ago and dentist stuff from 2003... k..#i hate the medical system so fucking much 🙃 honestly the trust is so fucking low I'm highfiving satan at this point.#ranting in the tags cause this bitch be feeling defeated rn ok.#and i have to deal with these bitches again for a medicine renewal...#soon I'll just deal with the 2 hour trip to the big hospital instead... at least they've always been good when I've been there.#i mean... they be the ones who figured out my endometriosis in 15 minutes ffs.#and who helped me - no bullshit - when renewing or changing doses etc.#rant#ryder speaking
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I'm so scared it'll happen again. I can handle throwing up nonstop for days because at least I have things that can comfort me, but this? Please. I can't do this. I hate this body.
#There's pills for nausea. If I go to the hospital they have IVs they can put drugs in. But this? There is no stopping this.#You can only wait for it to be over.#Honestly even my abscess swelling and hurting is better than this because I atleast have ibuprofen that sort of helps.#I don't want my abscess to start growing bigger again like it did in 2020 but damn it would be a LOT better than this.#it has its times where sometimes I forget it's even in my mouth and then there's times where I remember that there is no fixing this#That I'm probably going to die because we 1.) can't afford the surgery#2.) They will never be able to get rid of it all#I still haven't accepted it but at some point it won't have any more space to grow and then I will get sepsis from it. you know how#so what's the point of worrying about it if my future is all set out for me#I'm so fucking disappointed and scared that I won't ever get to live my life how I want to. I have someone that I love but I probably#won't even get to spend my life with him.#I can't even bring this up to him. I don't want to let him down. There is no fixing this. I hate this body.#I just want to live. To love who I love. I want to create. I want to share.
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I'm not going to pretend it doesn't make me angry that I spend months and years trying to peddle my work to make ends meet, that I spend so much time mentioning my books and comms and everything, and people ignore that consisently...
But the moment I finally break under the hopelessness - when it's obvious that it's fucking futile, that almost no one deems my work good enough to share with anyone else - suddenly they're concerned and scolding me.
I'm working several jobs, bathing, generally keeping things clean, and I do this with several health problems including chronic pain. I found out that one of my cysts is growing and I may need to have it surgically removed. Which means potentially missing work to recover. Which means more money I lose.
I spend so much time crawling out of the hole and it goes ignored, but the moment I just give up bc I don't have any strength left, suddenly that's my fault and I'm mentally sick.
And that kind of makes me wish my entire situation upon people, and when they whine that it's hard, well fuck you, you thought I could ace it so surely you can, babe!
I hate being angry about this, but it's just so exhausting to tell people who accuse me of not trying that I HAVE I HAVE SO FUCKING HARD AND YOU DID NOT PAY ATTENTION THEN
Or you know you're attempting to gaslight me by claiming I didn't try despite that I obviously have worked my ass off trying, and that's so much fucking worse
#mcalhen personal#and I'm not saying I'm not mentally ill but ffs stop using it as a weapon to discredit people when they have the solutions right there#feels like people hate my writing and me and that's why I didn't go “I got the job” bc friends who never support me would be like#“I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU CONGRATS” cool I'm not I spend an entire day usually recovering from very calm shifts at a job I like#but the moment I publish a book it's not congrats it's I don't know this guy I don't know Cal and I'm gonna pretend I never saw anything#I don't even hate my goddamn job even tho it can be stressful but it's the easiest thing for mostly just 2 days a week#but it is not sustainable and I cannot survive on this and disability would be invasive as hell and y'all don't know shit about how they#treat disabled people in this country but goddamn I have watched that shit unfold with my autistic brother who can't work#and I can never help him at this rate#bc I can't help myself#I can't help anyone#and saying that is a big fucking issue with people who think if they say 'it gets better keep going' I'll magically unfuck my life#as if I haven't spent the entirety of my life trying to unfuck things#as if I didn't give myself an education in spite of my family#y'all never been threatened with physical violence bc you weren't supposed to ask for school supplies and it fucking SHOWS#I have learned so many things on my own time out of sheer desire to better myself and my situation#but at a point where nothing works out and each day is just filled with more bad news#at what point am I actually allowed to give up?#or am I supposed to just keep this up until I die with 40 more years of collected bullshit pain#bc if you want me to live like this for 40 years then... you never cared at all#and what's so stupid is that I really want to earn my living by doing the work#I work on my art and writing but let's just admit that it's pathetic already#no mental health services or pills will erase that I'm a pathetic garbage can of uselessness#also I realize no one owes me anything like boosting my work or w/e#but also don't ask me to turn rotten ingredients into a feast and say I'm not trying when I can't fucking do it
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it's really baffling to me that when i tell people i don't eat veggies they're like "THEN WHAT DO YOU EAT" like. do you not know about the other food groups. have you exclusively been eating carrots and leaves like a bugs bunny
#you don't need to be fucking sherlock holmes to figure out that it's. well. everything else#meat. dairy. pasta/rice/potatoes that kinda thing.#like people treat me like a fucking alien for my food tastes like can you really not picture in your head a meal without vegetables#are you that fucking turnip-pilled#it's not that deep#like the doc i saw today looked at me like i was sprouting tentacles when i said i don't eat tomatoes#like... yeah i'll eat tomato-based stuff like tomato sauce & all but not just plain tomato#i still don't get How people eat tomato like it's so slimy yeurch#like it's not me having the fuss levels of a 5 year old who doesn't waaaanna eat his peaaaaas#it's. my brain cannot even conceptualize vegetables as food. i KNOW that's what they are but i don't have the ''oh ! edible thing'' reactio#like you hand me a bowl of salad and a bowl of rocks and i'll find them equally unappetizing. gun to my head i wouldn't eat either#i don't know ! i don't know why ! is it autism ! is it arfid ! is it something else ! is it just arbitrary tastes !#WHO CARES ?#that's the way i work and the way i've always worked and fuuuuck i Don't care about changing it#i don't think i can in any case. not to the extent people expect me to. i'm doing my best#so what if i get fat and die at 50 i'm here for a good time not a long one#i'd rather die young and have lived life according to my rules than die old and have restricted myself & forced myself to do stuff i hate#who gives a fuck i'm not having kids anyway i won't have a bunch of people relying on me living old for shit so whatev#people hear about vegans who only eat vegetables and are like Yeah i understand that#but say you eat anything Except vegetables and suddenly it's an extremely weird diet and i must be some kind of crayfish from mars
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HATE having crushes on people specially while on a committed relationship please stop living in my head rent free I literally saw you picking your nose and you don't pay your subway tickets on the daily literally WHAT does my animal brain find intriguing and enticing about your ass??? You're a bad boy caricature but sadly knowing how cringe it is doesn't save me from the allure of it all
#Goddamn bitch walking around like his balls weigh a ton each I hate him#And I hate how pretty he is just fuck right off man!! I keep dreaming about you and my boyfriend both like I'm sorry brain we're not#Not in a poly situation here calm the fuck down and look away#Can I confess I've been trying to spot his socials and it's been neigh impossible even with his FULL name#Struggling here I just wanna see a clear ugly picture to cure me of the impure thought crimes. Maybe find out he's racist or something#I expressly avoid eye contact and conversation with him specifically to the point it's obvious Im avoiding him btw lmfao#Get ten miles away from me you lame red pilled looking succubus
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