#but basically...it's my christ-day :)

[howtotrainyourrei]

KYLE GALLNER as REED GARRETT | CSI: NY S03E10

[stagefoureddiediaz]

911 sm team putting that video out today - Easter Monday - I see you and I see what you’re doing and you cannot get past me

‘Christ died for our sins, just as the Scriptures said. He was buried, and he was raised from the dead on the third day, just as the Scriptures said.’

Corinthians 15:3-4

[rat-rosemary]

Just say a post of someone saying "omegas can only eat plain carb heavy foods during heat and alphas need good heavy spicy food and meat" and I need to bash my head in. What happen to sex-ed. You're going to make yourself sick

You are so sensitive during your rut don't eat spicy shit. Alphas AND Omegas need meat and carbs for energy and you need them all to be plain. I swear even if you hate that kinda food normally it's going to feel like heaven during your rut/heat

[linguenuvolose]

April 2025 / Rio de Janeiro

[lazaruspiss]

there was this post i saw a few days ago about religious discrimination (more specifically antisemitic/anti-jewish) in queer/lgbt spaces that at some point talked about a group debating if religion should be a protected class like race/gender/etc and some arguing that bc it isn't an immutable characteristic it shouldn't be protected.

any ways it was a pretty good post w a lot to say so i didnt wanna derail but it did leave me thinkin. (aka the subject of immutable/mutable status of religious belief struck a nerve)

1) it kinda reeks of "my trauma is everyones problem now" w how anti religion queer spaces can get. like i was traumatized by the christian church but not once has it ever been a desire of mine to push away/assume the worst about queer christians?? if anything i admired their ability to still find comfort in smth i found so painful. other religions weren't even a question bc i know that i don't know enough to speak on any of that.

2) religion isn't... like, i don't know how to talk about it bc im the only person ive ever met who seems to have this problem. but. i resent implications that everyone always has a choice in what they believe in, especially when it comes to existential and religious subjects. i have an inclination towards the existence of god. it's not really a choice for me? i was born and raised christian and it's not something i can entirely cut out without hurting myself. i don't believe in the divinity of jesus, i dont view relationships with god the way christians do, even as i still believe in a holy existence. i dont actively choose to believe any of the religious things i do, i didnt choose the beliefs i have that allign with or go against the church, theyre just... with me. my healing from religious trauma has involved accepting the ways that i still value some religious beliefs. im sure some of my relationship with faith is rooted in trauma and the like, but id rather learn to work around/with my trauma than live in constant self flagulation over things that would take years and years of dedicated work to change. it would be a lot of time and effort, for what? so that i can proclaim the non existence of a spiritual world? so that i can denounce god and the concept of any divinity in the world?

trying to build a healthier and more constructive relationship with my beliefs has done far more for me than trying to cut it out altogether.

[jaggedteeth]

hey google how do i google 'how to stop feeling violently ashamed of my body post-weight gain' without being fed a bunch of fatphobic ableist bullshit

[cementcornfield]

https://x.com/vikingzfanpage/status/1867748114540433549?s=61

ummm excuse you justin, that is your best friend

lol really though!!

but nah, i touched on this in my tags of a rb of this tweet. like to me it isn't a huge deal or anything. they're obviously still close, they just don't talk in season (which they've both said before). but they spent time in france together this offseason and have also said that they love each other and are always gonna have that connection so i'm not too worried! friendships go through stages sometimes, and adult friendships are just kind of like that, even for football players i guess! (some of my absolute best friends in the world, my favorite people, i only talk to once a month if that. and like a real deep catch up session happens only a few times a year. it's just hard! and i can say for sure that me and my friends do not have nearly as much going on as these two guys lol)

but anyway i'm also gonna take this opportunity to ramble about some more ja'marr character analysis lol. so like, it's becoming pretty clear that ja'marr is deadset on keeping tee and joe with him as long as possible (not gonna get into contract details or likelihood at the moment because that's all still in the air of course. but like, ja'marr's intentions at least are clear at the moment). and it's also obvious how much ja'marr treasures his friendships! he loves his guys and thrives off of being around them! i wonder if like, the evolution of his relationship with justin has to do with how extreme he, tee, and joe are being about contract stuff right now???

like justin and ja'marr were SO close for awhile there. from the hyper competitive but clearly loving friendship they had going on in college. the way they were always together on the sideline and always doing their dances and making up ridiculous elaborate handshakes <3 the way all of their joint interviews involved so much laugher and loving glances. and even after joining the league still talking about each other in the media and how much they love and support each other even as they're still super competitive. hell, when i first became a fan in 2022, ja'marr would still be streaming with justin almost every week lol. (i think justin has stopped streaming and maybe doesn't even do much gaming-wise anymore, which may have been the main way they kept in touch tbh. like, many such cases for the men i know in my life lol)

and now they're at the point where they have so much else going on, that even though they love each other, the constant conversation and all that isn't as present. (and ja'marr has kind of made it clear that that started on justin's end. like, ohhh he doesn't text me back blah blah blah, however true that is 🤔). and i feel like, even though ja'marr probably understands, that had to have hurt. again he values his friends so much and is at his best mentally, emotionally, and athletically when he's around them!!! i wonder if that taught him something about like, "if i want to keep these people i love in my life as much as possible, i need them to stay on my team. justin went to a different team and something that was so beautiful and important to me changed. i can't have that for tee. i can't have that for joe. we need to figure something out" which like, could absolutely be me digging depth into something that isn't there but at the same time it makes sense motivationally for me!!! like did he sob on his agent's shoulder one night about how much he missed justin and how he couldn't stand the thought of that happening with tee (I WANT TO PLAY WITH HIM FOR ETERNITY!!!) and the agent was like, hey, we can do something about this actually! send me his info!

[possumsinpeoplesuits]

Man, there's nothing like having a disability, not being able to apply for disability because the requirements are impossible, then finally managing the symptoms enough to start looking for employment...

Only to then have to stop my medical cannabis because, even if I qualify for it a bare minimum of three times over, the laws in Texas are purposefully dickish.

You "won't" be arrested for possession if you're on the registry for it, but because it's federally illegal, any cop can be a dick and send you to prison anyways.

You "won't" be fired for it, but workplaces can still drug test for it, and it's like... bro, for fuck's sake.

Anyways, if I act a little erratic or manic in the next week to a few months, it's because I have to let my body go back to eating itself to find a job and not end up homeless.

[thelingering]

a magical thing occurred - the overthinking part of my brain just created a very comforting thought and realisation about how well I'm doing at things

it just uno reversed me after all that torment???

[miserye]

my coworker was telling me she learned that if she jsut keeps her rice in the rice cooker on the keep warm function it stays good for a while and i went what the fuck have you been doing with the rice if not that

[irritablepoe]

I WANT SOMEONE TO LOVE ME. I want someone to casually sit beside me and nudge me every now and then to get my attention. I want someone to pull me into a side-hug because they've been laughing about a joke of someone and want to share that joy with me. I want someone to carefully take my hand into theirs and look at my fingers or perhaps the lines on my hand just because they can. I want someone to look at me absentmindedly while they're thinking of something. I want someone to sit quietly beside me when I'm feeling down and just take my hand and squeeze it to tell me I'm not alone anymore.

[gu6chan]

oh yeah!!!! forgot to mention this is my last day at work :') honestly the pay wasn't the greatest (not complaing though, this is a public position and it was certainly enough to get by) but ngl this was probably one of the most enjoyable jobs ive had 😭❤️ for a ridiculously conservative population like this im glad they seemed to enjoy the numerous marxist solutions to all their problems getting slid in under the reasoning of "community/small town values" and "neighbours having each other's back" and 5 minute small talk about how taxes work at the line in the grocery store lmao

[sanatomis]

why do some parents make such a big deal out of the most basic fucking tasks

[fiona-fififi]

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[possuminnit]

Been pondering scrapping my entire art style and then driving into the sea lately

[melonyfelonyfellonme]

Had the most false of false starts to this year (in work mainly) and I just went back to AC: Black Flag after a year

Realised that Past Me decided to pause playing just before starting one of the more devastating missions, and then was smacked in the face right after with Leave Her, Johnny

It's kl I still have tears left apparently pfffff