title: beneath the music from a farther room by gellavonhamster
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it’s about growing up, it’s about class politics, it’s about unrequited love and being friends anyway, it perfectly embodies the helpless rage and determined grit that are at the core of so many of daniel handler’s female characters.
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“I’m fine,” Ramona assured her. Beatrice frowned. Her long tight dress was sequined, making fabric look like scales, and her loose dark hair was interwoven with green and silver threads. That evening, she was a mermaid. “Not the kind of mermaid to give up her voice for a prince,” she declared to Ramona while Olaf’s parents were taking off their coats and Olaf himself looked over the entrance hall, his face bored and his hands in his pockets. “I’m a proper mermaid that drives the sailors mad with her singing and drags them underwater. Like that!” At this, she leaped at Olaf from the back. He yelled, “You piece of shit!” and tried to shake her off, and his father shouted at the both of them to calm down. Ramona laughed loudly then. Now she looked at how closely the mermaid dress fit Beatrice, her figure already much more feminine than Ramona’s, realized that many of those pompous old pigs must have been ogling her too, and felt an even more helpless kind of rage than when she caught them looking at herself.
“Are you? You’ve got a long face. Are you having a headache?”
“No, it’s just that…” Ramona winced in frustration. She knew that if she tried to explain what was wrong, it would come out as some non-issue rubbish. “It’s so boring! Everyone’s pretending they’re enjoying themselves, but they actually aren’t. As a child, I used to come up there,” she gestured at the mezzanine with a nod, “every time my parents hosted a reception, used to sit there and dream of taking part in all this one day, but in practice…”
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Listen to this and imagine Grantaire, Enrolras, and Les Amis in general. Come be emotional with me
My death waits like
A bible truth
At the funeral of my youth
Weep loud for that
And the passing time
My death waits
To allow my friends
A few good times before it ends
Let's drink to that
And the passing time
My death waits in
Your arms, your thighs
Your cool fingers will close my eyes
Let's not talk about
The passing time
But whatever is behind the door
There is nothing much to do
Angel or devil I don't care
For in front of that door
There is you
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(tearing my hair out) what happens to you when you become the second-ever spider-man in a world that has already fucking had superheros before for fuck's sake don't you get it it's a terrible horrible beautiful freedom for miguel it's the worst fucking bestgoodgift miles ever got in his life the mask says this body is mine it is the only thing you cannot take from me the mask says you are the next in line in line and not the last and this is not something spectacular or special or fucking sacred by christ it's just goddamn cloth and you're alive and he's dead and you're alive and it was probably all your fucking fault it even went wrong to start and you're alive and you're alive you're alive and don't you GET IT DON'T YOU GET IT.
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my mom has been like hey~ i need a haircut! do u need a haircut? we should get haircuts 2gether! and i do need a haircut but i've been avoidant abt it (and we honestly dont rly have the concurrent time off to do it together) but the real reason is bc i'm very very conflicted between just getting a trim (status quo) or getting a more androgynous cut (gender experimentation). my big fears are that it's gonna be purposefully gendered in ways i dont want no matter how much i insist on androgyny to the hairstyle. i'm afraid i wont like it in general, which is like. i should do it cuz then i'll know!! and i won't be wallowing in what if feelings and my hair will grow back!! it grows fast!!!!
anyway do u think if i show up at supercuts w/ reference pictures of emma d'arcy and colton herta that'll work
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there's this really funny thing cishet women used to do to me when i was a bi man where, upon learning I'm bi, suddenly pull out their phone to start looking up all their favorite men to see how i feel about them.
and like. I'm bi. i have all the choices in the world and there's all these beautiful queers with cool genders and ways of expressing themselves, and even some cishet ppl who are really just having fun with themselves - and you choose to show me the most boring chiselled men in suits??
by the time we hit somewhere from the 6th to 10th man feelings get HURT before I'm finally asked “well who do YOU think is cute!!?” and I blow their mind with my choices every time because i have good taste.
I'm sorry.. I don't know how to tell you you're picking from the bottom of the barrel here.. have you seen queer people?? the average woman??
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Guess who's still up on a school night because of really loud and nasty wind and because the melatonin won't work and because of the no-no thoughts???? 😘
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ib so normal about music
i was listening to SebastiAn yesterdau i cant stop this is a problem... my favorites rn are Sober, Jack Wire instrumental (it's kind of like. a Splatoon boss battle song. and i really dig that), Ross Ross Ross, CTFO, and Beograd...the Upsilone remix. Doorman is good too. ive also been REALLY into Timeless, the new Kaytranada album, and have been listening to More Than A Little Bit, Video(!!!!!!!!), and Drip Sweat. Snap My Finger is really good too eeek its just not in today's sequence of songs im repeating
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