#but i love changkyun and i WILL enjoy writing his fic i already know it

[bearseokie]

i just saw the fatal love series and i’m excited 🤩 i had something of the sort in mind ages ago, but i was one too nervous to do it and two never really watched half the stories so i scratched the idea. i can’t wait to read these! 🧡

yoooo this is sick omg... hi

yeah i hesitated for so long on even posting the masterlist since I'm working fic by fic. mainly because the commitment of writing a story per member is A LOT. it's insane

this is so cool coming from you because you're a super cool monsta x writer!!! I've been saving your stuff lately to add to my recs blog when i get time & when i can actually dive into reading your works. like I'm stunned that you sent me this ask LMAO

[birdiepi]

hi i really love your fics!! can i pls request changkyun smut/angst with reader interrupting him whilst he’s working in his studio? thank u

Thank you so much for your request! I had fun writing this one, it’s a bit longer than my usual ones, but I hope you enjoy it~ 

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~pairing: changkyun x reader

~genre: smut and angst 

~word count: 1.6k

~warnings: 18+, thigh riding, fingering, submissiveness, blowjob, just mean!changkyun if I’m being honest, this is filthy and I feel like it might be too detailed but oh well  

~a/n: okay just a little side note, I couldn’t resist the quote from love killa soooo yeah :) enjoy

If you had anything better to do with your time, it probably wouldn’t have gone like this. If Changkyun didn’t have a bad temper, then… maybe you wouldn’t have pushed him this way.

He’s slouching in his chair, tapping his hand almost forcefully on the wood of the desk. In the time you have been standing in the doorway, he has raked his hand through his hair for the seventh time.

He’s frustrated.

‘Changkyun?’ you say, edging into the room slowly, closing the door behind you.

‘No,’ he says.

‘You haven’t even heard what I’m going to say yet.’ An arm of yours drapes across the back of his seat. You want to be close to him, he hasn’t said a word to you since you came to visit him.

‘Because now is not the time for interruptions.’

Your arm drops and returns to your side. An interruption? Your eyes turn away, taking a moment to look around the small room. His purple lights brought a sense of bravery to you as it put a haze over your glance towards him.

‘So, I’m just an interruption? I thought you liked it when I came to see you at work…’

His hand froze before it could assault the desk again. Letting out a small breath through his nose, he turned his head to the side, not looking at you but being more direct. Changkyun’s hair covered most of his face, falling into his eyes and curling upon the highest point of his cheek.

‘Look, darling,’ he says, sourly, ‘I’m a little busy right now, if you haven’t already noticed. But I promise, if you be quiet now, I’ll give you something to be loud about later. Okay?’

No. Not okay, not after you speak to me like that.

You move to sit on the edge of his desk, blocking his way to the mouse of the computer. He sits up straight now and looks at you through lazy eyes, one eyebrow raised. It’s a challenge.

‘It doesn’t look like you’re that busy. In fact, it doesn’t look like you’ve gotten anything done since the last time I kindly took it upon myself to check on you.’

You’re being bold and you know it. Trying to brush over his last comment isn’t easy. Your neck is getting hot and you clench your thighs together automatically, all the while trying to remain calm in front of Changkyun. But it doesn’t go unnoticed by him.

His breathy chuckle is soon muffled by his hand before he looks up at you. Snatching your wrist, he pulls you away from the desk to stand in front of him as he swivelled the chair to face you.

You have probably gone too far but you wouldn’t have left without putting up some sort of resistance. You break eye contact with him, cursing the room for being too small to have any excuse for not looking at him.

‘Down,’ is all he says.

Your body’s immediate response – which you don’t fight – is to kneel.

‘Good girl. Now,’ he spreads his legs to lean forward, elbows resting across his thighs, ‘You’re not being very patient today, are you?’

You still aren’t looking at him.

He doesn’t force the turn of your head. Instead he says, ‘Look into my eyes. Straight into my eyes.’

You obey.

Changkyun’s hand reaches out to caress your chin and jaw, despite the harsh tones in his voice, he’s gentle with his touch. You struggle to hold your eyes to his and not get lost in the warmth of his palm.

‘I just, I wanted–’

‘Shh, you wanted my attention. Now you have it.’ His feet move outwards, dig into the floor and drag him closer to you. Your face is now deeper between his legs and your breath almost stops completely. ‘Remember what I said? If you were good, then you could have had your way but since you couldn’t wait,’ he leans close to your face, holding you by your whole jaw, ‘you’re not allowed to make a single sound.’

A whimper escaped your lips. An immediate failure.

Changkyun holds your gaze while he leans back into his chair, tapping his thigh as the first instruction.

You stand, sitting close to him on one of his legs. His hands find their spot on your hips and guide them back and forth. You pull a lip into your mouth in hopes of not making any sound but the weight he’s putting into his push is making it difficult.

His thigh is flexing beneath you. Your legs are already quivering at the sensation. He begins to unbutton the fly of your shorts and presses his thumbs into the skin where your stomach meets your leg.

You almost collide with him when you fold over at the feeling; he knows it’s a sensitive spot for you. A hand flies to your mouth after you realise you let out a half-strangled moan.

‘What did I say, baby?’ A sharp slap meets the side of your hip, making you jolt into his and press hard into his thigh.

He doesn’t wait for an answer and slips his hand into your underwear, his fingers exploring with no mercy.

One of your hands grip his shoulder when one of his digits slip inside you. It’s not long before he inserted two more fingers into you. You bite down onto his neck, earning a growl from deep in his chest. Pulling you back by a firm grip on the nape of your neck, those same fingers of his are shoved into your mouth, pressing down on your tongue.

‘We have to something about this tongue of yours, darling, it’s getting brave,’ he says, his other arm around your back, supporting you as you lean back.

You look down at him through the tears welling up in your eyes. When he finally releases your face, you breathe deeply to try and contain yourself.

Changkyun throws you off his lap, taking less that ten seconds to rid you of the rest of your clothes before standing back to admire you. He kicks the chair and it rolls backwards into the furthest wall.

He points to the floor.

Down.

From below him, you watch patiently as he frees his hard length from his jeans. Placing the tip onto your lips, you kiss him before letting your jaw slacken. All softness is lost. He grips the back of your head and barrels into your mouth until you can’t see anything but a dark purple hue.

The first time he pulls out, you grip his hips, putting your chin onto his lower abdomen and say, ‘I’m sorry, I didn–’

He slips his dick back into your mouth without saying anything, making sure to get a few sharp pounds in before letting you go and kneeling down to face you.

His lips move against yours, laced with desperation. This is the first kiss Changkyun has given you today and you melt into it, realising from this short moment, that this is what he needed all day. He pulls away, pressing a few more kisses to your forehead, nose and corner of your mouth.

Changkyun’s delicacy returned, with half a breath he says, ‘Turn around.’

You do as you’re told, this time with barely restrained eagerness.

He teases your entrance, licking your pussy once before sliding in slowly.

One of your hands fly to your mouth, stifling the groan. The stretch was too much. Your upper body bends into the floor, unable to hold yourself up anymore, your cheek against the carpet.

His hand starts to travel up the length of your back as his pace quickens, the warmth of his palm being spread across your spine.

You want to move your hips with him, but he bruises your skin from holding you so tightly in place, snapping his hips sharply. With every grunt of his, you lost more and more hope of holding in your whimpers and cries.

‘You’re doing so well, baby, it’s okay, let me hear you,’ he says.

The sobs wreck your frame nearly as much as he is. Hearing the sounds you have for him, make his thrusts more aggressive, going deep inside you with an unmatched force.

He pulls you up by your forearm, your back pressing into his bare chest. A wide hand settles around your neck, slightly squeezing from the strength he’s using to destroy you.

You can’t think of whether your words make sense. Everything begins and end with Changkyun as your head lolls back to rest on his shoulder.

‘I can’t anymore, please, I need to – ah! Don’t stop.’

You scream from new stimulation when his fingers go down to rub your clit, in time with his lips latching onto the soft skin of your neck.

Snapping his hips sharply a few last times, you both meet your release.

You fall forwards, catching yourself on your hands, still trembling from the sheer bliss of this man’s touch.

A few seconds of you trying to steady your breathing pass before you feel long arms wrap around your body and scoop you up to sit in the lap of a crossed-legged

stands, still cradling you in his arms, ‘Come, let’s get you cleaned up.’ Changkyun.

He leans down to meet your lips with his, all tenderness and light breathing.

‘I’m sorry for calling you an interruption,’ he says, his fingers brushing across the length of your thigh, ‘I didn’t mean it like that – or to upset you.’

‘I know, it must be hard being in here, day in and day out without proper rest,’ you say.

He rests his forehead onto yours, taking in your scent. ‘You’re too good to me.’ Changkyun

‘Wait,’ you press a hand into his chest and tuck a lock of his hair behind his ear, ‘can we go again?’

~thanks for reading~

[joonsgotthejuice]

Lovers and Friends

Pairing: Shownu x Reader

Words: 3.4k

Genre: fluff, light smut

Summary: Shownu doesn’t quite understand how being friends with benefits works.

Warnings: shower sex, exhibitionism (if you squint)

A/N: My first MX fic! This idea hit me hard after reading this post, so I had to write it. Thank you hanbingf for the inspo! Hope you all enjoy it!

Shownu was infuriatingly beautiful. With a body carved from marble— worthy of being on display at the Met— and a smile that rivals the stars in the sky, it’s no wonder why he turns heads every time you two journey into town. If you were outside for longer than 10 minutes, chances are you’d catch someone gawking at him. It never fails. You’ve lost count of how many times you’ve caught someone staring from across the train platform. Or heard the soft giggling from a group of girls as you both walked by. You weren’t innocent either, however. More than once would you’ve watched his muscles ripple under his button-up as he reaches up to grab a glass from a high shelf. Just yesterday Jooheon had to pinch your arm to stop you from staring at Shownu’s ass. Changkyun’s chuckles as you hid your head in your arms would haunt you for at least the next two days. 

Shownu himself was soft-spoken and gentle, a contrast to his looks. You’ve watched many cashiers straighten up the slightest when seeing Shownu approaching the counter. A mix of intimidation and interest swirling in their eyes as this tall man with a stoic neutral face makes their way to them with items to ring up. Then they’d break into sweet smiles and blushes as Shownu asked them how their days were going with that caring look and sincere smile that’s been aimed at you many times before.

The only thing that was more infuriating than Shownu’s beauty was his modesty. He genuinely was clueless as to how appealing he was. When you tell him the woman at the front desk was giving him bedroom eyes he only blinks, ignorance clear in his face as he refutes the claim. You loved him, but he was so extremely oblivious that it genuinely astounded you. 

Admittedly, his lack of being able to take hints has worked in your favor at times. It was the reason your slight crush went unnoticed. While his closest friends would tease you in private about your lingering eyes, Shownu was none the wiser. It made your friendship easier knowing you didn’t have to worry about it.

Until it wasn’t just a friendship anymore.

The morning you woke up half laying on a naked Shownu, his morning wood pressed against your leg, was the day that changed. After a small freak out and an awkward couple of minutes trying to not stare at his abs as you spoke about what occurred the night before, you both agreed that the sex was great and you wanted it to happen again. However, you weren’t too sure you could handle any romantic relations, so you made the suggestion as casual as possible. 

“We could just, do— you know— this, again. Whenever you want. Just shoot me a text.”

Your face was as nonchalant as you could make it but internally you were hoping for the ground to open and swallow you whole. To your surprise, Shownu nodded in agreement and thus the arrangement of being friends with benefits started. 

It took getting a little tipsy to get the courage to text him to come over for your first official hook up, but over the past few months, it’s gotten extremely easy to send that 1 am text. He’d come and fuck your brains out in the dead of night, then make you breakfast the next morning before kissing your forehead and going back home. Or you’d go over to his place when you were feeling extremely risque. 

Unlike you, Shownu lived with multiple of his close friends. He preferred to come to yours since he could be as loud as he wanted but you’ve convinced him to sneak you in once everyone was asleep for some fun. To your pleasure and surprise, he’s grown to like the concept of possibly getting caught. Hands down the hottest sex you’ve had with him was in the shower the morning after a hookup. 

It was 7 am, so you both were sure that you could have some quick fun in the shower before the others woke up. Your hands were splayed on the tiled wall in front of you as Shownu’s hands pulled you back into his thrusts. He was balls deep in you when a knock sounded through the door. Your eyes widened as he froze. You look over your shoulder at him but he was already looking to his left as if he could see the door to the bathroom through the dense shower curtains. You could tell by the look on his face he was unsure of what to do. There was another knock at the door, more impatient now. 

“Uh, yeah?” Shownu called out, eyes locking with yours.

“I need to pee!” Jooheon whines, shifting his weight from his left foot to his right foot.

“Can you come back in 10 minutes?”

“It’s realllly bad, just let me come in please!” Jooheon pleads.

Jooheon was the only person you knew who could verbalize a pout. He was not the youngest in the house but he was used to getting his way and in turn, was a little bit bratty. Shownu especially spoiled him so you were curious about what his next move would be. Neither of you had decided to enlighten your friends about your arrangement and you didn’t exactly want to explain to Jooheon what you were doing getting your guts rearranged by one of his best friends in the shower. 

Shownu glances at the curtain, then you again before a wicked grin spread across his face. 

“Come in!” He calls out and you open your mouth to protest but then the door opens and Shownu covers your mouth with his hand, slowing down his thrusts but making sure to slide every inch of him inside you. 

“Thank fuck. Thank you.” Jooheon says hurriedly as he enters the bathroom. 

You swallow thickly as you become hyperaware of the fact that less than 3 feet away stood one of your friends, clueless to the fact that you were at his place let alone fucking his best friend. The thought was slightly worrying but you couldn’t deny the thrill of this. Your walls clenching around Shownu was enough to clue him in that you were enjoying this albeit your cheeks being red with embarrassment. 

“You like this, don’t you? Knowing Jooheon is right on the other side of that curtain, completely unaware that you’re in here with me.” Shownu husks into your ear, his chest pressed against your back as his lips ghost over your ear.

You whimper softly, eyes squeezing shut as you will yourself to not moan out loud. The water can only drown out so much sound. Shownu’s chest vibrates against your back as he chuckles softly, his free hand moving from your hip to your clit and rubbing slow, careful circles. Half of you was thankful that he was moving slowly so it was easier to keep quiet, but the other half wanted to slap him for the teasing drag of his cock against your walls. 

After what felt like the longest piss known to man, Jooheon finally flushes and washes his hands before leaving the bathroom.

“I hate you.” You say the moment Shownu’s hand leaves your mouth. 

“I love you.” He responds without missing a beat, his lips curling into his signature smile.

Your response is lost on your tongue as your heart leaps into your throat. He’s always said those three words to you every time you ended a phone call or parted ways after a day of hanging out. But right now when he’s still slowly thrusting into you and staring deep into your eyes with nothing but adoration and warmth in his, it was slightly overwhelming. That desire you hid deep inside of you once you started this arrangement comes bursting to the surface. The desire for this to be something more than a fun hookup. The desire for this to become permanent.

“Hey, did I upset you by letting Jooheon in? I’m sorry if I crossed a line and you didn’t really want him to come in.” Shownu’s voice breaks your thought as his hips still.

“No, no no. I liked it! You felt it, I enjoyed it. It was hot.” You reassure him as you turn around to face him.

“Well, why are you so quiet? I said I love you.” Shownu asks, his tone deflating a bit.

An upset Shownu was high on the list of things you hated to see. So against your better judgment, you cupped his cheeks and pulled him into a kiss. Shownu made a small sound of shock before his hands found your waist and he returned the kiss. You pull away a few moments later, eyes still closed as you revel in the fantasy in your head for a little while. When you open your eyes, Shownu is already looking at you.

“I love you too.” You reply surely as your thumb caresses his cheek. 

The words held a different weight this time. You wondered if he would understand that. The answer to your question isn’t clear since Shownu’s response is only a smile.

As time progressed and you learned more about each other’s bodies, you found yourself treading into dangerous territory. You knew the post-sex cuddling was a bad idea but you wanted to feed that small part of you that wanted to be with Shownu. The problem was it was getting greedier and greedier and you didn’t know what to do. Had this been anyone else you’d have cut this short a while ago, but this was Shownu. He was a huge part of your life for the past 3 years, cutting him off was not an option.

Ultimately, you decided to ignore it. This was casual sex, nothing more and you shouldn’t get your hopes up. 

Yet you still found your heart crumbling when Shownu drops the bomb on you.

The two of you were chilling on the couch, watching some random Netflix original with his housemates. Your legs were laying in his lap as you both huddled under a blanket. You were zoned out for a moment, once again contemplating the position you were in with Shownu when something Wonho says catches your attention.

“Shownu, you’ve been a bit more upbeat lately.” Wonho leans over the arm of the couch he’s on, a teasing smirk on his face. “And I noticed some marks on you when we were working out this morning.”

“Ooo, Shownu you’ve been fucking someone? Never thought I’d see the day.” Changkyun chimes in from his spot on the floor. 

You laugh along with Jooheon as Shownu shakes his head. 

“At least he’s getting some, you can’t say the same can you, Kyunie?” Jooheon teases before dodging a pillow Changkyun launches his way.

“Lucky I’m too lazy to get up.” Changkyun murmurs as Jooheon’s laughs get louder.

“Anyway!” Wonho calls the attention back to him. “So, you got a girlfriend?”

The room is quiet except for the movie playing in the background. 7 pairs of eyes on Shownu, waiting for a response.

You two weren’t a couple at all despite the fact you wouldn’t be against it. So the last thing you expect to hear Shownu say is— 

“Yes.”

The boys erupt, immediately asking questions. When will they meet her? Where did he meet her? Why didn’t he tell them earlier? But they all fell on deaf ears as you sit up straight. 

A girlfriend? You never thought about the possibility of Shownu seeing someone else alongside you. He had no reason to be committed to you and people hit on him left and right so what was stopping him? You never talked about being exclusive, but it had been for you. You weren’t with anyone else. Knowing that he had a girlfriend and you were the side chick in this situation made your stomach drop and you wanted to cry. 

At least initially. 

That sadness quickly morphed into burning hot anger. You stood up and pushed your way passed Kihyun, going down the hall to Shownu’s room and shutting the door forcefully behind you. 

You hastily take off the shirt and basketball shorts you borrowed from Shownu and start putting on your clothes with the intention of leaving. The last thing you wanted was to be near him. You needed to go. Clear your head and figure out what to do next. You had no one to blame but yourself when it came to why you were the side chick. You remind yourself that you didn’t mention exclusivity or any romantic relationship of any sort. You brought up the casual aspect of this arrangement. However, it was FWB 101 to make your fuck buddy aware if you were with more than just them. What if he caught something and gave it to you? Yes, you usually use condoms but sometimes in the heat of the moment you both forgot but you never worried because you were sure he was clean and wouldn’t endanger you like that. 

Yet here he was, with a whole girlfriend. 

Did she know about you? If he kept her from you then he must be keeping you from her too, right? This revelation only made you more pissed. So much so that you don’t register the bedroom door opening and closing behind you.

“What’s wrong?” Shownu asks, tone soft and worried.

It took everything in you not to scoff at him as you pull up your jeans and button them. 

“What’s wrong? What’s wrong?” You repeat, giving him a look of disbelief. “You can’t be serious right now Shownu.”

“I’m very serious. You left in a huff and I don’t know why.”

“Then stay confused while I go for a walk.” You respond, pulling your jacket on.

You try to walk around him but he moves in front of you.

“No. I’m not letting you run out of here unhappy. What’s wrong?” He asks again, putting his hands on your shoulders.

“Don’t touch me right now!” You shrug his hands off and move away from him.

Your outburst makes Shownu raise his eyebrows. You rarely, if ever, raise your voice at him with legitimate anger.

“You got some nerve, you know that?” You face his window, watching traffic pass by and the sun setting. The sky’s colorful display eased you slightly, but Shownu speaking brought back the irritation full force.

“You’re mad at me? What did I do?”

Your foot taps rapidly on the floor as you decide on the right thing to say. 

“How long?” 

When your question is met with no response you turn to look at Shownu. You wanted to slap the confused and oblivious look off his face but you restrain yourself and keep your distance from him. 

“How long...?” 

“How long have you been hiding your girlfriend from me?”

Shownu tilts his head, confused look intensifying. 

“Hiding my girlfriend?” He repeats, the look on his face shifting from confusion to slight bewilderment.

“Stop playing dumb Shownu! Just be honest with me. Why didn’t you tell me you were with someone else? That’s something you’re supposed to communicate to me.” You manage to lower your voice, reining in your frustration.

There was still a group of men just down the hall and you didn’t want them to hear you.

“With someone else?”

“If you repeat what I say one more time I swear I’m gonna slap fire outta you.” You snarl through grit teeth. 

“I’m sorry. I’m just trying to understand you because you’re not making any sense.”  Shownu holds his hands up in surrender and stepping out of slapping range. 

“Okay. Okay, fine.” You rub your temples as you take a deep breath. “Let’s break this down. You are fucking someone else besides me. You didn’t think to tell me. That is why I am mad.” 

“But I’m not sleeping with anyone else.” Shownu shakes his head to emphasize his point. 

“You just told them you had a girlfriend!” You point at the door as if the others were standing out there instead of in the living room.

“You are my girlfriend! I’m sorry if you weren’t ready for me to tell them anything but I didn’t have any other way to explain the marks. I panicked a bit.”

All the tension leaves your body, shoulders slumping as you stare at Shownu dumbfounded.

“Huh?” was the only response you could muster up. His words replay in your head and then it all clicks.

He was talking about you. There was no other girl. He hadn’t been hiding anything or anyone from you. You open and close your mouth several times, trying to find a reply that felt right.

“So back there in the living room, you meant me? I’m your girlfriend?” 

Even though the answer was staring you in the face, you had to get 100% clarity. 

“Yes? I mean, I thought since we— you know— had sex that we were together? Friends don’t have sex. So by continuing to sleep together, I thought we were casually stepping into the boyfriend-girlfriend territory? Unless we’re not and I understood everything wrong.” Shownu’s voice gets quieter as he keeps talking, uncertainty becoming more and more evident with each word that slips through his lips.

He shoves his hands into his pocket, eyes looking around the room instead of staying on you. A telltale sign he was feeling embarrassed. 

“I should have asked for clarification about us— about this whole thing. We don’t have to be together if you don’t want to be. I’ll go back out there and tell the guys-”

You cut off Shownu’s rambling by kissing him softly, hand resting on the back of his neck. A pair of familiar gentle hands find their way to your waist, as you deepen the kiss. Shownu matches your pace easily once his initial shock wears off. When you pull away from him, Shownu looks at you with that oblivious face for the umpteenth time. 

“Now I’m confused again.” Shownu frowns a bit and you chuckle. 

“Don’t be. I’ll be clear and honest. I want to be with you. I want to be your girlfriend. I would like for you to be my boyfriend if you’re willing to have me.”

“I’d really like that a lot. I like you a lot.” He gently takes your hand, thumb brushing over your knuckles.

You look down at your hands before interlocking your fingers with his.

“Same here.”

Shownu pulls you into a hug, arms wrapping around you and holding you snug against him. While enjoying the close embrace, a question does come to your mind.

“You didn’t think it was weird that we didn’t go on dates?” You ask with a chuckle. 

“I thought of breakfast in the morning as a date of sorts.” He rubs the back of his neck, “Just spending time together was enough for me. Official date or not.”

The grin that spread across your face was involuntary, as was you pulling Shownu into another kiss. His sweet words were enough to make your chest bloom with warmth and the feeling only intensified when you realize this would be a common occurrence now. Shownu as a friend was already doting, but now the affection would increase tenfold. 

When you two separate from each other, Shownu has a fond look on his face as he rubs your back. 

“Still gonna leave?” 

You shake your head, “No need anymore. Let’s go back out there.”

Shownu nods before turning around to open the door. He’s about to step through the threshold when you take his hand again. He glances down at your locked hands, then at you. 

“You sure?” 

You knew walking back in there holding hands would only incite a flurry of accusations and questions from the others, but you didn’t care. Shownu was yours now. That wasn’t something to hide. You wanted everyone to know, starting with your closest friends.

“Very.” You nod your head surely.

He squeezes your hand before leading the way back to the living room. Your heart was hammering in your chest as you approached the end of the hall but a glance at Shownu calmed you. If he was by your side, you could do anything. It was true as friends, and it would continue to be true as lovers.

“Hey, Shownu?” You stop right before crossing into the living room.

“Hm?” He turns his head to look at you.

“I love you.”

“I love you too.”

[mon-dayragingslut4monstaxday6]

A dream I had with Jooheon

Changkyun may be my ultimate, but Jooheon always was and always will be my bias. I had this dream last night (it’s not NSFW) and I can’t stop thinking about it. My sweet friend @making-me-blush told me I should write it out. I’m tempted to put this in a fic somewhere, but I have so much on my list already. So, I hope you all enjoy it.

This is it. This is happening. A Monsta X concert that I've been waiting for. The seats aren't the best, I'm far on the side, but I'm happy to be here nonetheless. I'm happy to support these boys, I'm happy to be surrounded by like minded fans. The stage looks amazing, I'll probably have the worst chance of taking photos of it, but I'm here to experience it, not capture it for my phone. The music to pump up the audience blares through the speakers, making my heart quake. The mix of adrenaline, loud heavy bass music, and emotional anguish rattle me. I can't be crying already, it's too early to cry. But I waited for so long to see them and I finally have the chance!

I got so distracted that I didn't notice the tall bodies standing in front of me, their backs facing me. A group of men, wearing chic, all black outfits. This can't be. There's no fucking way. Just turn your head so I can see your face. Oh my goodness. Oh my goodness! Jooheon is standing in front of me, keeping his hands together, waiting to go on stage with the boys, who are all standing in a line beside him.

Although all of the boys caught my eye at some point and I'd consider Changkyun my ultimate, Jooheon was different. He was and still is my longest bias. He's the one who kept me in love with them. I smile every time I see his face on my social media. He's something special to me. Should I say hi? Should I leave him alone? What should I do?! I want to show him how much he means to me. My eyes get pearly, my throat is closing up, my hands tremble.

What could I possibly do to show my gratitude? Before I know it, I wrap my arms around his waist, giving him a back hug. I squeeze tighter than I expected, hiding my face in his black blazer. I didn't spook him, I didn't get him angry.

He looks over his shoulder and sees me embracing him. A casual half-smile appears on his face. He looks back to whatever he was looking at, keeping that smile. He puts his hands over mine, soon locking our fingers. My once trembling hands are quivering no more. His hands are warm and comforting. The size difference of our hands makes him perfectly nest over mine. Dare I say, his hands locked into mine feel right. A gut feeling that this moment of embrace feels destined? We're surrounded by people, but no one is paying any attention to us. I don't want my tears to ruin his jacket. I nonchalantly kiss his back, where my cheek was resting. Did I just…kiss his back? Jooheon squeezes my hand like a pulse. I press my forehead on his spine. I don't want this moment to end. No words exchanged, our eyes not meeting, nothing more, nothing less. This is exactly what I needed. This is what I needed to do to show him how much I cherish him. He deserves so much more, but this sweet embrace is just enough.

I woke up feeling like it actually happened. My heart sinks knowing it didn't. I didn't get to see him. I didn't hug him. I didn't see his smile. I didn't feel his hands over mine. Would it ever happen? Doubt it. What's funny is that Changkyun is my ultimate. I think I need to rethink who would be considered “end game”.

[yourfaceislikeabluemoon]

3-Ways Are All Fine And Dandy Until Someone Catches Feelings ~ Part 1

Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4 | Part 5 | Part 6

It Was Hoseok’s Fault

Words: 1501

Warning: Mildly suggestive themes, that’s all! (It’ll get way worse with the next part, trust me lmao)

A/N: Ok this is taking me forever to write because there’s so much I want to include, I’m so going overboard on this ugh I can’t stop I love it too much. It’s so much fun to write about this relationship, too. Like it’s almost addicting haha. So basically, I’m writing way too much and so I decided to break it up into parts instead of one long 15k+ word fic. I will post each of the other parts I have finished as I get their mood boards done, all while I finish the hopefully last 2 parts. Anyway, enough rambling. Enjoy, my lovelies! (Don’t worry, “delicious smut” is coming soon (;)

Changkyun is rough. He gives you exactly what you want and he gives it to you hard. He kind of has a thing for biting. Case and point, there have been far too many times when the makeup noonas get frustrated over all the love bites they have to cover up on Hoseok.

Hoseok, on the other hand, is so very gentle. He lets his emotions rule his actions and all he wants is for you to feel good and be content. There was that one time when he gazed into Changkyun's eyes for a little too long while you did something to him that felt a little too good and the poor thing out of nowhere started crying.

But it was times like these that made you value your relationship even more. Your, quite frankly, odd relationship had begun like any other. Just what happened next was not typical. 3-ways are all fine and dandy until someone catches feelings, you know.

It was Hoseok's fault. Everyone, even Hoseok himself, blames it on Hoseok. He'd known about his feelings for Changkyun for far too long to somehow manage to keep them a secret all this time. And you, well, his favorite thing was your laugh and how much he could make you laugh. To know that he was the one causing you so much joy, that was the best feeling he'd ever experienced. Everything else just seemed to fall into place. You never thought you were all that great at puzzles, but somehow, even with all the moving parts and complexities of each other's personalities, all the pieces fit without a problem.

It's funny, you can't remember what life was like without the two of them. You had known all the boys since before they debuted and were close to every one of them. But, somehow, Changkyun was the first to sweep you off your feet. Nothing elaborate. It was actually quite subtle. You were already really close - always together, sitting in his lap or cuddled up on some couch, calling each other before bed and talking into the early morning hours. It became somewhat of an 'everyone else already thinks we're together so why don't we just make this official?' kind of thing. And that was that. But Hoseok ending up in this odd triangle, that's a completely different story.

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It was late in the evening. The two of you had been drinking a little and talking. Who knows what the conversation was actually about, the alcohol blurred that from both your memories. It was you that made the joke about a threesome with Hoseok. Changkyun replied with the last thing on earth you expected.

"OK, sure."

You stared at him blankly for a while before he cocked his head and chuckled lowly at you, "What are you making that face for? We both know you wouldn't have brought it up if you didn't really want it. And you know I don't agree to anything I'm not completely sure about. So why are you so surprised I said 'yes'?"

Dropping eye contact to fiddle with your fingers in your lap, a blush started to creep up your neck. "I don't know. I guess the thought of it actually happening isn't all that far-fetched, just a little overwhelming maybe." You heard him chuckle again and a moment of dread briefly flooded over you. "Wait!" Changkyun raised an eyebrow but stayed silent. "You know this doesn't mean that I don't love you any more or that I'm dissatisfied or something right?" He continued to stare at you. It was amazing how sarcastic he could actually be without even opening his mouth. "I just...I'm just…"

"Curious, I know. You don't have to be afraid of this, you know. And I know how much you love me. I don't think you'd tell me half a million times a day if you didn't." Your knitted brows and pouty lips told him you were just being stubborn at this point. Changkyun let out a breathy laugh, "It's fine. We're fine." His fingertips gently coasted over your jawline, luring you in ever so slowly. Lips inches away from yours, he couldn't help but ruin the moment. "But the question is, who gets to give Hoseok this tempting invitation?"

You rolled your eyes as you backed away, knowing full well that this conversation wasn't over yet and you weren't getting that kiss you were craving. Or at least not yet. "Well, it's not like I can seduce him or something. We both know he won't touch what isn't his."

"What am I supposed to do? Have a bro talk with him?" His disparaging tone prompted another eye roll from you.

"Don't be such a smartass." You grabbed your phone off the table next to you and pulled up Hoseok's contact. "If you have such a problem with it, I'll do it myself. It's not all that late. I'll text him to come over for a beer or something." Changkyun made some cynical remark under his breath and you reached for the pillow behind you to swat at him. "Hey, you agreed to this. If you want to back out, do it now before I send this text."

Your thumb hovered over the send button as he hugged the pillow you had just hit him with. "No, I want this, too. I just thought the invitation would be more…" he trailed off, searching for the right word but you knew what he meant.

"What? More hot and steamy and flower petals and all that romantic shit?" He pouted in response. "C'mon, you know he'd get overly stressed about a situation like that and end up just walking out. He's more apt to say yes if it's as casual as possible, without any pressure." Changkyun sighed deeply, his silent admission that you were right, and nodded as a cue for you to send the text. "Like I said, casual, no pressure. So don't be weird about this."

He blinked slowly, "When am I weird about things?"

You tilted your head and, without a word, gave him the same sarcastic look he'd given you earlier. Changkyun contented and his gaze fell to your phone, suddenly visibly anxious for Hoseok's reply. The phone buzzed in your lap, startling Changkyun. You chuckled at him and read Hoseok's response.

You: Wanna come over for a beer?

Bunny: I'm bringing snacks. Be there in 20 o((*^▽^*))o

Placing your phone into Changkyun's grabby hands for him to read for himself, you got up to get an extra blanket and some more beers.

Hoseok had been over for the better part of an hour and the two of you still hadn't brought up your "tempting invitation". You were cuddled up against Changkyun, who was squirming uncontrollably even though you told him not to be weird, and your legs were resting in Hoseok's lap at the opposite end of the couch. The TV was playing softly in the background while the three of you silently sipped at your drinks.

Changkyun huffed loudly and reached for the remote to switch off the TV, "I can't do this anymore!"

Hoseok stared at him, wide-eyed and rather frightened. You punched Changkyun in the side before scooting over to rest your hand on Hoseok's arm and reassure him. "The kid still hasn't learned patience, don't mind him." Glancing up at Changkyun, who was standing with his arms crossed over his chest and a subtle pout over his lips, you sighed, "I told you not to be weird about this, Kyunnie."

Hoseok began to stand up, "If I'm causing some kind of problem by being here, I can le-"

"No!" You gripped his wrist, "Please don't go. Changkyun and I have something we wanted to ask you about and he's just nervous is all. Please stay." Easing back into his seat, Hoseok studied Changkyun before giving you a questioning look, silently urging you to continue.

You glanced at Changkyun for permission. "Pft, don't look at me," he huffed. "This was your idea, you ask him."

Next to you, Hoseok swallowed thickly, "Ask me what?"

Changkyun flopped onto the couch, tilting his head making eye contact with Hoseok, "You wanna sleep with us?"

Hoseok stuttered awkwardly as your countenance fell. Unable to look at him out of irritation, you breathed deeply. "You tell me to say it and then you blurt out a question like that. Makes perfect sense. God, what is wrong with you?" Turning to the very pale and tense looking man next to you, you waved your boyfriend off and explained everything properly.

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After calming the situation and everyone getting all they wanted to off their chests, Hoseok composed himself and, rather quickly, accepted your offer and returned to his normal self. It was decided that the three of you would go out to dinner later that week and try to ease into things rather than just jump into bed with each other. Less awkward that way. Maybe?

[heartau]

request: i've literally been listening to changkyun's "horizon" all week and it's really got me all up in my feels. do you think you'd be able to take some inspiration from the song for a fic?

thank u guys for 300 followers!!!

warnings: infidelity, slight smut.

work title: horizon

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I might have to call again. Never thinking about the other things, oh baby don’t waste it. I’ve been waiting all night long we can take it slow. Ain’t got mind, let me grab you more deeper.

“What are you doing here?” the question rolls off your tongue so easily despite the clear intention that he brings forth. You’re aware of the purpose of your question though; the denial burns deep in the ingrains of your abdomen, a feeling that has never gone away since he’d began showing up on your doorstep months ago. 

“I’ve been calling you all night,” his voice is hushed, a familiar emotion burning deep in his pupils, an emotion that you’re acclimated to extinguishing. He wets his lips for only a second before parting them again. “Are you the only one home?”

“Changkyun,” your voice falters, hand gripping the side of your door as your lips turn into a frown - the pain in your stomach grows harsher, licking at your heart. “We can’t just keep doing this, you know.”

“I can’t stop myself, I can’t let you go.” he whispers, taking a step into your home, his hands already finding their way to your waist, the feeling of your curves familiar to his palms. You breath shudders for only a moment, tingles running up your nerves at his touch. “And I know you can’t either, so please, I’ve been waiting for you all night.”

It kills you, how easily you are coaxed by his words, for you were certain that the same event wouldn’t take place that night, much like every other night, but you find yourself coming to only minutes later when your back comes in contact with your mattress, staring at your textured ceiling with a crestfallen gaze, your brain in torment and your heart beating wildly in your chest as you feel Changkyun’s wet lips roam your neck. 

When you first met Changkyun, you were assured that you would end up regretting it the moment you had found yourself at the tips of his fingers by the first night, but you would have never thought that you’d willingly continue the silent, obscene agreement between the both of you - you had morals that you doubtlessly followed, yet it all seemed to disintegrate into the hot air that would surround the both of your bodies. 

“What are you thinking about?” Changkyun mutters against your thighs as he slowly opens them. Your gaze remains on the ceiling.

“Does she know?” 

There’s a silent conversation between the both of you for the next few seconds, before you feel his lips pull away from the skin on the inside of your thigh. “She doesn’t. I’m sure she doesn’t.” a beat, and you feel his warm lips come into contact again, nipping at your flesh. “Does he?”

Your eyes flash towards your bedside table, your gaze becoming much more dismal at the sight of the smiling man, adorned in an expensive suit that he had rented for the day, with you between his warm arms, adorned in a wedding dress. You gulp when you feel his lips inching closer to the hem of your panties, willing yourself to tear your gaze away from your wedding picture, not willing to have your husband’s happy, smiling face grace your view, knowing full well you’re doing something that would tear the happiness out of his heart. 

“No.” 

“Good,” he whispers, slowly sliding your panties off of your frame. “Because I love what we have.”

And just like that, all your looming thoughts disintegrate into gasps that leave your throat at the sensation of Changkyun’s lips against your core, your desolate views quickly turning into stars behind the darkness of your eyes. And even though the slightest of your brain continues to shout at you through your actions, you can’t help but yearn for the feeling of him bringing you over the horizon once again.

[kpopisthereasonihavenolife]

Omg Tay, I have so much to say about Oberon! Seriously, I made a new note on my phone so I could remember all my reactions to it. First of all, AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH! IT'S SO FREAKING GOOD AND THE WORLD BUILDING YOU DID REALLY PAID OFF AND I'M SO PROUD OF YOU FOR FINISHING THIS BEHEMOTH OF A FIC!!!! I digress, the world building was so beautifully done. The different take in fairies (regarding the leaf fairies) and the tree traveling! All the different species of creatures in the central village!

2/6)  It was all wonderful! I especially loved how you spent some time on how the OC was cleaned up to show the difference in how it's done there. Speaking of cleaned up, I LOVE ALINA! SHE'S SO CUTE AND I WANTED MORE OF HER TAY! I love how you made all of the OC's dresses resemble flowers in some way, it really ties in the importance of nature to the Fae. I got mad Beauty and the Beast vibes at some parts too. On-Looker's Lake, when the OC sees the books, and Joon saving the OC being the best examples

3/6)  I deadass thought that the thing in the lagoon was a kraken! Idk why, but I did😂 and then I was like "update: it's a kelpie". I wanted to also mention how you took a twist on environmental activism in the human world. I'm definitely a sustainability conscious person and I thought that the dichotomy of the Order and the RAO was fascinating. I also really liked how you made it that the "waves cannot keep secrets" instead of the trees or flowers cannot keep secrets we see so much in literature!

4/6)  Also, the fact that the OC was like "Namjoom sounds fake" 😂 I laughed so hard when I read that! I also wrote down "THE MANDRAKE LEAF!! HARRY POTTER IS BACK BITCHES". I was just really happy about it. Also, I really liked the part where Joon showed the OC Titania via their dreams. I thought it was well done and I loved the intermingling of the real memory and then the possible (which definitely happen) interaction with the OC. Tbh, I thought Titania's soul was doing some weird stuff to the OC

5/6)  But it just turned out to the air,,, I'd really love to see more(?) interactions with the OC and Titania via dreams or while unconscious. I think it would be really cool. Lastly, I was highkey hoping Joon would kill the Order dudes. It would have been nice to see, but I guess diplomacy is fine too. I do have a few questions for you. With the tree traveling, is it via the root system or the trunks and branches? You mentioned going up so I wasn't 100% sure

6/6)  Also, what is the time difference between the human and fae realms? I know that the Fae realm is slower than the human realm, but by how much? Overall this was such an amazing piece of work and it definitely took Blight's spot for #1 out of your fics. Your hard work paid off and I'm so glad that I could help keep you motivated and (somewhat) sane while at work or writing. Lastly, I really love that (literal) cliffhanger you left us at😂😂 Much love Tay💜

WAAAH LILAC THERE IS SO MUCH TO UNPACK HERE AND I LOVE IT.  I love that you took note while reading- that makes me so happy uwu. First, I’m happy you were happy with the world-building! I only complained about it to you about aBAZILLION TIMES LOL.  And the Leaflets design was inspired by me actually pulling apart leaves as a hobby when I’m forced to sit in nature LOL.  

I ALSO LOVE ALINA.  I WANT TO MAKE THIS CLEAR.  I didn’t intend to have as many OCs as I did (three to be specific + Titania ig) in this piece, but although I love all of them, my little mute Alara fairy girl is def. my favorite.  10/10 would die for her. I actually didn’t realize any parallels while writing it, but yeah I can def. see the Beauty and the Beast connections now that you point it out- how neat! 

For the Kelpie, I had a lot of options when choosing what species of fairy to make the quote ‘bad guy’ when looking through te Unseelie Court, but the Kelpie was the one I was most familiar with (thanks anime LOL) so I just went with them.  Plus, the thing under the water holding her down while the KEplie attacked her, wasn’t actually another Keplie but instead a dead tree that had fallen into the lake because a branch of the Order’s pollution killed it.  It sensed the OC’s humanity, thus deemed her the enemy.  

For the inclusion of the Order and the RAO, the whole premise of this is absolutely an anti-pollution thing as that is the *biggest* issue the RAO has with the Order and their constant want to burn down/shrink the forest or just kill it (I mean how dumb amiright?). I didn’t want to play into it too much, well bc who wants to read a 42k fic about pollution and rebellion in the form of going against the government? Sounds too much like irl politics if you ask me LOL. 

For the ‘waves keeping secrets’ I kept it like that instead of the forest greenery because unlike the forest’s grass or trees or flowers, the water has a distinct connection between Liana and the human world!  All sorts of gossip come from the water LOL. 

LOL The ‘namjoon sounds fake’ line was actually for the original concept where this was gonna be a wonho fic.  He was gonna announce himself as Wonho and not Hoseok, so she would accuse him of a ‘fake name’ and later on he’d really tell her his birthday.  However, when I changed idols, I decided to keep it in for comedy!! (also the mandrakes actually weren’t inspired by HP, but from an RPG horror game Mad Father, bc ya girl hasn’t seen/read any HP material oops) 

If I’m being honest, the parts featuring Titania and the dreams the OC was materialized in are some of my favorite parts.  Not just because I loved Titania and the way she held herself in her short little scenes, but because it opened more of Oberon’s story.  Briefly touching on his reluctance to be King Oberon to fast-forwarding to the point he had to rule on his own when she died.  

The reason the OC got so sick was a mixture of things.  In the story, obvs it’s explained it was the air.  However, there is more too it! I kept it brief because in the moment, Namjoon didn’t have the time for a proper explaination- both when the OC was dying and when he was explaining things to Changkyun and her on the cliffside.  The reason really tied back to the Kelpie.  

It was explained that the Kelpie took a chunk of her magic when it attacked her at the grey lake, right? Well, it’s because of the chunk of magic it took that Liana’s air became toxic. OC’s magic was tied into her by the soul fragment she was born with that held Titania.  When the Kelpie attacked her, it took a large part of that fragment out- the piece that was able to breathe and live in the forest's air like Titania once did.  So, in a sense, it was Titania keeping her safe from the pure air, and when she lost it, it all went downhill.  so, you were really wrong to assume it was Titania! 

Tbh, the ONLY reason Namjoon didn’t kill the Order platoon was bc before he could the OC was already marching towards them and he didn’t want to risk anything.  If she hadn’t started going to the leader for his radio, he would have made tree-kababs out of them. 

For the Tree Trunk Travel System (as our OC calls it lol), it was a mixture of root connections and teleportation.  All the trees int he forest are connected via their underground root system.  For traveling to be possible, you’d get into a tree, think of the place you want to travel to, and through, magic relay that to the tree so it could find the root of the nearest tree to that location.  Then it’d be a gust of wind from below (because of the roots finding the passage) before you disappear and reappear somewhere near! It’s a lot less complicated than it sounds lol.

The time difference between Liana and the human world is a big funky I’ll admit.  I didn’t put a lot of thought into it frankly.  However, as stated when OC returns after her ‘almost dying attack’ Changkyun mentions how she was gone for two months.  Before that, OC mentions how she had been in Liana a month. So, it’d be easiest to assume that Liana moves and works a full month behind the humans.  So, for example, April in the Human world would still be March in Liana.  

WOW THIS GOT LONG LOL. I hope I answered all your questions (and if not just ask me again LOL).  I’m so so so grateful to you for reading it and keeping me motivated to write it! And ofc, your moral support while I edited this monster LOL.  Who knows, maybe next time I’ll ask you to beta if something ever get’s this big again LOL (probably not bc i have a guilty conscience alsdkjf).  

I’m glad you enjoyed Oberon as much as you hoped and although Blight may not be #1, I don’t think Jungkook would mind since Namjoon took his place LOL.  

Much love coming to you from me!!! 

[mx-in-words]

You and I baby.

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Kihyun AU; Request: yes.

SMUT!! Angst, jealousy and fluff ending.

"luaaa could you please write me a kihyun angst/smut fic? i thought about something like as if you they are friends and unsure about their feelings and he is jealous about your relationship with *insert a member name* ajshdaksda ahhhh ty"

~ request by @softki

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Do you know when you look at someone and feels like you don´t need anything else? That´s how you felt close to Kihyun.

How you two meets were a funny story. You both should be on a date, with another’s partners, but it seems like your date Jinyoung, is Chloe ex-boyfriend. Moreover, Chloe was Kihyun date…you all know what happened.

“Please Chloe, this guy? Honestly you were better with me.” Jinyoung said and that is how they ended getting together right there, in front of their corresponding’s dates, leaving you and Kihyun with shocked faces at the Japanese restaurant.

“It’s this a joke or…?” you add your comment, turning your face to the handsome men next to you.

“Well… it seems like it’s me and you.” He twisted his mouth, looking at you from the corner of his eyes.

“Look, I am definitely not wasting this food, you can join me as friends…Kihyun right?” he nodded and smiled at you.

That night you two get to know and he even gave to you a bouquet of pink tulips, originally intended to Chloe but it was a kind gesture. You two exchanged numbers and became friends surprisingly. This episode has passed for two years now, and you find yourself at the boy’s dorms, helping Kihyun to get a surprise birthday for Minhyuk.

“Why do you need to be such a perfectionist? Honestly is amazing! His favorite dish, the speaker he wanted plus the memory album of three years of monsta x! Relax dude, if it was for me I would cry” you gave him the towel to settle in the table.

“You’re right? Yes. However, will I change my mind? No” You laugh at how stubborn this boy could be even if he is doing the sweetest things.

“Anyway, the party is tomorrow, do you want to get ready here?” He asked hitting his hip in yours like a joke.

“OH, do I have options? Please inform me” you sit in the balcony eating one of the chocolate cookies that he cooked.

“Option one: I pick you up at home and I can sleep at your place to see some Brooklyn 99, which in my opinion it´s a great one or option two: you get here on your own and no Kihyun to talk about sexism inside the kdrama world at 3am.”

“Yeah, the first one” you blink to him and, without any warming, he gently cleans your bottom lip with his thumb, making you blush.

Moments like that makes you reflect your feelings about him. So yes, you maybe want him as your boyfriend because he has the best hugs, he looks for you so kindly and tenderly, because your parents love him, and you just love every single detail about him, but that does not mean you can ruin the best friendship you ever had! Nevertheless, the way he flips his soft hair, the way the room seems to stop when we gave you that unique smile or even the way he speaks hoarsely in the morning after you two wake up in your place.

Even when he brings another jacket just for you when you two are going to the roof of your apartment aka the secret place. uwu

Anyway, you must forget those ideas, he does not have the same kind of feelings for you, which turns into a non-sense situation for yourself.

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The next day was chill, you got up, did your laundry and saw your mother in the lunch. You went to see her.

“How is Kihyun? I don’t see him since your father’s funeral darling” she asked me while I was cleaning the dishes.

“I will see him tonight mom, he’s doing fine, just working a lot as always” You hated to remember about your father lost but the memory of Kihyun spending the whole week in your place taking care of you when you father past out makes things less heavy.

“You know darling? Just tell him…” she started but you cut her quickly.

“NO mom, yes I do have feelings for him, but I can’t lose someone else okay? Not right now.”

She went quiet after that, you were sorry for raising the ton over her, knowing that she has the better intentions but correspondingly you have the right of decide those subjects on your own.

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Kihyun POV.

“Hyung, are you going to pick y/n up?” Hyungwon asked helping me with the party decoration.

“Yes, she is going to get ready here, so everyone’s will be in time” I said putting the candles in the cake.

“So… can I ask something?” I simply nodded, not paying attention in him at all.

“Well, can I ask y/n out? Like in a date?” I froze. Why it must be y/n? She is mine… friend! Only a friend but …

“Look, y/n is my friend and I don’t think is a good idea…” Hyungwon cut me openly.

“Kihyun, I will ask her, but the only thing I worry about is your feelings for her. So, do you feel or not something for y/n?”

His words got me in a trance, but I surely regret of my coming words.

“Fine by me.” I ignored him, rolling my eyes, this conversation should not have affected my mood, but it did anyway… I just don’t understand! Why would this stupid idea surge in Hyungwon head so randomly?

The flashback started to get in my head, the moment my head keep replaying even when I try to stop. It was last year, a hot summer day, the day was almost ending, and the sun was leaving.

“c’mon, let me show you the best place to get inspired!” she told me barely whispering. She grabbed my hand and I followed her out of her apartment, a very chill day off nonetheless I was no annoyed that I couldn’t get any inspiration for my new photoshoot and y/n tried to help me all day.

“hey slow down, why the rush? Aishhh” I tried to stop her in the middle of the third stair.

“We will miss the best vision, stop nagging and follow me silly”

Getting in the roof I get what she was saying. The whole city covered by the gold shine of the sun, so majestically and perfect. I smiled to myself, getting perfect angles and taking some shoots.

“this is my favorite spot, but I can share with you… your welcome” she said putting one hand in her hips, playfully with a smirk.

“well, thank you very much.”

“its amazing right? So beautiful” I looked at her in this moment.

Her hair was flying a little with the wind, her face was serene and calm, everything about that moment was perfect, just like her. My heart jumped, and I could feel myself falling into her spell and asking for more.

“yeah, it is” just like you y/n, just like everything that involves you.

Now I can see her showing our spot to Hyungwon. She is turning her face to kiss him, with those soft lips… god, no. Their holding hands, he is sleeping in her apartment and not me. Him touching her, his hands traveling in her body, doing things that I would like to do… Kihyun what’s is wrong with you? She’s your best friend! But he wasn’t there when she got promoted, when her mother got sick and she needed help, when that idiot tried to kiss her in those ridiculous dates that she went, and she needed someone with her at night, he wasn’t there when her father passed way… I was.

Yes, I am madly in love with y/n, but I can’t tell her. She sees me as a brother… I can’t lose her, not having her is not an option, never.

Kihyun POV over

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You opened the door and saw Kihyun. He kissed your cheek, what wasn’t common, making you blush.

“So, changing plans, I am getting ready here because the dorms are a mess. Can I shower, or you want to go first?” he ran his fingers in his smooth dark hair, making you wander if you will ever get the opportunity of touching them. Shaking your head, you quickly answer that you already showered.

In the moment he enters in your bathroom, you change yourself. You put a red skirt with a zipper in the middle, a white sleeveless shirt and your heels. You were curling your hair in natural waves when Kihyun get out of the bathroom. His face wasn’t very cheerful, you would say.

He checked you from your head to your feet, but you pretended that you didn’t saw that. You felt him taking a deep breath and sitting next to you.

“What’s wrong?” you asked. He was smelling so good, he was wearing a very neutral makeup. He was using only a black jeans and a thigh sleeveless shirt, showing his muscles, oh no.

“it's nothing” you gave him T H E look, raising your eyebrow. “okay, what you think about Hyungwon?’

“Well… he’s nice? I enjoy talking to him but, why?” you continue to apply your blush looking at the mirror.

Kihyun only raised his shoulders, licking his lower lip slowly.

“maybe because he will ask you out” he said looking to the floor while he tied his shoes.

Your turned to his looking not completely shook but… is a different feeling.

“well, you are ready? Let’s go”

The whole party was amazing but Kihyun was looking at you in a different way. You were sitting close to Hyungwon and you could feel him stared at you both like it’s a sin.

Hyungwon compliment you, saying that you were specially more beautiful that night and couldn’t take his eyes away of your lips, what was making you a little uncomfortable.

In the end of the party, Hyungwon didn’t asked you out since you were dancing with the drunk trio – Jooheon, Changkyun and Minhyuk.

You searched Kihyun, but your eyes were not finding him, so you decided to search for him in the kitchen. For your good, or bad lucky, you end up bumping in Hyungwon. He smiled at you, putting his big hands on top of your head, patting deliberately.

“you know little y/n I may regret myself to tell you this tomorrow but I reeeeally think that Kihyun its stupid for not asking you out, so I am doing this. Do you want to go in a date with…”

You couldn’t hear everything because someone grabbed your arm making you lost your balance, but this person lifts you up. You looked, and it was Kihyun.

“sorry Hyungwon, she’s too drunk, I am getting her home” Kihyun had fire in his eyes, you could feel his warm skin touching yours, making you enjoy this moment in a way you shouldn’t.

Hyungwon only smirked, “Hyung I hope you get your shit together” and he leaves shaking his head, smirking like this situation was comic.

Kihyun and you said goodbye to everyone and he pick his backpack to sleep in your place.

You still quiet the hole way back, but you could feel Kihyun looking at you and specially your legs. The alcohol had already gone away of your system but your keep thinking about Kihyun being jealous about you, that couldn’t be true right? Make no sense, he does not have feelings for you… does he?

You two got into your apartment, taking your shoes and you both made your way to the kitchen. You got the ramen, it was tradition for you two already. But when your turned, Kihyun put his both hands in your hips, lifting you up to sit in the balcony. He took the ramen of your hands, leaving you speechless.

“what is this about?” you asked him.

“you’re too tired, leave this to me” he didn’t even look at your face. You got up and stop right next to him, confront him.

“Kihyun” you said but no response, he still looking at the pot. “look at me, Jesus” you picked his chin, moving his head into your direction. He stared at your eyes like his depends of this. “tell me right now what’s wrong” you demanded.

That’s was it. He couldn’t hold himself anymore, he slips you close to him with one arm and the other hand landed in your face, in one second, he stared at you and in the other he was kissing you. His lips pressing in urge in yours, softly and sweet, like you always imagine. You put your arms about his neck, intensifying the kiss. Now the room was hotter, his hands were dangerously in your hips and your hands were traveling in his muscular back and his sexy arms. He separates your two, both panting with your foreheads together. He stills with his eyes close, then he started to whisper “your too good for Hyungwon, your too beautiful, too sexy, too smart, your… mine. Please be mine” he gave you another passionate kiss, making your heart race and almost explode. “you mean, be yours tonight or…?” you asked, feeling your core already react at his touch, wanting this very badly but your feelings for him are stronger than just sex.

“no, I mean, tonight and every night. I want you y/n, I am in love for you, gosh that’s not how I planned to tell you this but I jus…” you kissed him, jumping in him, interlacing your legs in his hips, feeling him hold you by your butt, giving it a strong squeezy making you moan between the kiss. He heads you both to your room. He put you in the bed, making his way on top of yours without breaking the kiss.

“god, you’re so pretty baby” he said between the kiss, searching all of you with his tongue. His hands travelled to your breasts, making you slightly bite his inferior lip, feeling his hard member calling for your touch. You took his shirt and he did the same in you, kissing your neck slowly, making you crazy with those sweet and hot lips, finding your secret spot, making you moan. You put your hand in his hair, pulling a little bit, hearing a sexy groan leave his mouth. His hands were in your inner thigh, almost in your soaked womanhood. You got desperate for his touch, so you decided to move, turning the position. Now you’re in his lap and he is above you. You take his pants, biting your lips seeing his size, you start to move yourself in his still covered volume, riding slowly, seeing hold and squeeze your thighs strong.

“please Kihyun, I really need you, please” you beg and kiss you sensually. He starts to touch you on top of your panties fabric.

“you’re so wet baby, let me help you” he said that like he doesn’t even know how but this makes you wetter for him, if is even possible. He takes your skirt of, kissing your collarbones, then your breast, following your tummy and your thighs. He takes out your underwear, giving a kitty lick in your slit, then in three seconds he was eating you out. You couldn’t describe how good this boy was with his tongue, you were only focusing in two things: how good it was and how hard you wanted to scream his name. You moan “K-Kihyun… I-I need yo-you inside me pleasee ~”

This was everything he needed to hear. He took of his underwear, putting the condom, getting in position in you entrance, looking at you, waiting for your consent. You nodded almost desperately, feeling his dick stretch you slowly.

“ahh, you’re so tight, hmm so good baby girl” he kissed your neck, lifting one of your legs for better access to you. “please move” you said to him and he started, slowly but deep, making you crazy when he reached your g spot hard. With the time his strokes became faster, both of you feeling each other closeness. Both of your moans and gasps were filling the room, you almost there, getting tighter around his cock and he was holding your hips while his face was buried in your neck, moaning your name. Both of you come, at the same moment, screaming each other’s names.

He gets the used condom and throwed at the garbage in your room, picking his clothes and giving to you his shirt. He kissed your forehead, then your nose and a peck on your lips.

“Kihyun, I feel the same. I hope you know that” you told him, looking deeply into is eyes. He smiled at you like that was the best thing he ever heard.

“and I hope you know that I am no longer your friend.” You continue, seeing his smile disappear “yes, now I am your girlfriend”

“I love you too Kihyunnie” you tell him, kissing him goodnight.

“hey, don’t scare me! And thank god, because I don’t want to ever see any guy hitting on you” he holds you close, putting his arms about you, your face in his bared chest. “I really love you”.

“now it’s just you and I baby, forever”

And that was the first of your infinity of nights sleeping and waking up with Kihyun, your best friend and you boyfriend.

Request are open ♡

[joohoneyhoe]

Bite Me.

At this rate,

I might go blind with jealousy.

If this was your plan,

it worked very well.

[song inspiration : MONSTA X - Jealousy + Destroyer + Fallin’ + Special]

info: im changkyun x oc x featuring monsta x genre: vampire!au, supernatural!au, possessiveness, reckless behavior, smut, dirty talk, blood play, rough sex, choking, fingering, oral, anal play, unprotected sex word count: 7.4k a/n: after the release of the Jealousy video, it inspired me to write a cliche vampire fic, and I give zero fucks about it. Enjoy this porn without plot and don’t forget to read the Epilogue!

Inhale. Exhale.

That’s what I have to tell myself as I watch her move with an air of confidence I have never seen in a human before, back straight, head held high. How desperately I wanted to knock that self confidence right out from under her. Destroying her would be a dream, one in which I planned to bring to fulfillment.

I eyed her perfect curves, sculpted seamlessly by that tight black bodycon dress, offset by a leather jacket and Louboutin’s with the red sole. She was tall, her heels only making her even more so, and that much more intimidating to everyone else around her.

Everyone except me.

Her thin fingers with the long black coffin shaped nails wrapped loosely around her glass filled with whiskey, red lips carefully touching the rim as she sipped. Those pale green eyes weren’t missing a thing as she scanned her surroundings, keeping an eye out for her ditzy friend who had thrown herself into the arms of a dickbag who continued feeding her far too many drinks for anything to be consensual at this point.

A heavy hand clasped onto my shoulder, my now amber colored eyes not daring to move from my prey as I stared through the black beaded curtain. The hand remained as my eyes began to narrow possessively, a well dressed, good looking man approaching my intended treat for the night. My instincts were to intervene, humiliate him in front of her with the thoughts rolling through his mind as I read them from across the room, but I knew my brother would pull me back as soon as I tried.

“Let it go, Changkyun.” Hyungwon said softly, his voice hitting my ear as clear as a bell, even with the loud music all around us. I shook off the tall man defiantly, my lip curling in irritation.

“Bite me.”

I spat, folding my arms over my chest as I watched the scene play out in front of me. She eyed him darkly, her expression not hiding her disinterest as she brushed her white hair from her shoulder. I tried focusing on her, trying to hear her undoubtedly unamused thoughts on the matter, but found I could not.

“You can’t read her thoughts, can you?” he questioned, obviously seeing the confusion on my face. I shook my head, letting out an exasperated sigh. “Can you?” I inquired of him, curious if he was having the same issue.

“No, I can’t. She’s far too strong minded, which is why I’m telling you to let it go. She’s unpredictable. You remember what happened the last time you took one like her, don’t you?” his tone a warning, one I was not going to tolerate tonight.

“How could I forget with you constantly reminding me, brother?” I let my eyes fall back to their natural hue and grabbed my drink before shoving the curtain aside, marching directly towards that delicious meal. I could practically smell how sweet the blood was that was pulsing through her veins.

I wanted her and I was going to have her. Period.

As I came into her line of sight, her pale orbs locked onto me, a smirk coming to her lips. Almost like she knew exactly what I was about to do. Her arm outstretched towards me, beckoning me to her as if we were intimate lovers. I let a sinister smile crawl across my lips as I watched the man who had his hand around her waist without her consent, without my consent, go completely pale.

I was feared and revered, and he knew exactly what was about to happen next.

“My darling,” she called sweetly, fingers sliding along the back of my neck as I watched his hand drop from her waist. “there you are. I wondered where you had wandered off too.” I let my hand glide along her hip, encircling her until my fingers gripped her ass.

“Just had a little business to attend to, my love. I see you’ve made a friend in my absence.” I peeled my eyes from her reluctantly, landing on the terrified man next to us, hearing, ‘oh shit, oh shit, oh shit’ going off like a record stuck on repeat.

“Ah, I’m afraid that I’m terrible at making friends then, because I don’t even recall his name. What was it again?” I sneered, she was absolutely ruthless. He sputtered, his thoughts blanking out in fear as he began to step back.

I let my hand slide around her front, resting along her taut stomach as I placed my face only inches from his. My eyes visibly sizing him up, from his leather Gucci shoes, all the way to his Armani suit. It was men like him I always enjoyed making feel like an inferior little bitch.

And I had succeeded, once again.

“It’s okay, love, I already know his name.” his adams apple bobbed as he swallowed heavily, his drink dropping to the marble floor, shattering. “If I see your face again, mine will be the last you ever see.” he nodded frantically, frozen in place. I jerked my head in the direction of the door and he immediately spun and quite literally ran for his life.

Slowly, I moved back into my previous position, but rested my hand on her lower back instead. I scanned the room, finding Hyungwon who was smiling and shaking his head at me. I raised my glass to him, nodding slightly, then returning my attention to the gorgeous three-course meal next to me.

“I’ve been looking for a reason to scare him off for weeks.” I confessed, my eyes unable to move from her tempting lips, which smirked at me in amusement.

“Have you now?” I nodded in response, letting go of her to set my glass down onto the bar, the bartender instantly topping it off as I leaned against the counter. She turned that glorious figure in my direction, leaning her hip against the surface, placing her glass down as well for the man to give her the same treatment, which he gladly did.

“I have a proposition for you.” I told her, getting straight to the point. She seemed amused by my bluntness, cocking her head to the side slightly, making herself appear innocent, though she clearly was not. “No introductions first?” my teeth capture my bottom lip, thoroughly intrigued by the woman before me.

“I.M, but you can call me Changkyun.” I held my hand out to her palm up, waiting for her reply.

“I’m Petra. Lovely to meet you, Changkyun.” she placed her hand in mine, it soft and warm against my cold skin, but she didn’t seem to notice the temperature difference. Pulling upward, I planted a slow kiss to the back of her hand, our eyes locked.

“Well, Petra, are you satisfied with that introduction and ready to hear my proposition?” I asked, stepping closer, her body heat radiating into me. “Shoot, big boy.” my head flew back in a laugh at the pet name, never having been called that before. 

She would regret it later, I would make sure of it.

“Come home with me. I’ll have one of my brothers make sure your friend gets home safely, without that sleazeball that’s been feeding her too many drinks to try and get an easy lay. She’ll be in good hands, and so will you.” I whispered into her ear, lips brushing the shell gently. To my surprise, her heartbeat didn’t speed up very much, but remained fairly calm.

“How about this, I make sure she gets home safely with your help, and then you come home with me.” she countered, fingers pressing against the chains on my chest, revealed by my half unbuttoned black shirt.

“Tsk, tsk. That wasn’t the deal, love.”

“I’m not some helpless sheep you can just lure into your trap, like a wolf ready to feast on his prey, Changkyun. No, I’m a wolf in sheep’s clothing, getting you right where I need you, so I can get my claws into you. This is the deal now, take it or leave it. I can just as easily go home alone.” my eyebrow raised as I stared at her, eyes wandering her beautiful face, imagining what it would look like twisted in pleasure.

“I suppose you could, but is that actually what you want?” I pressed, placing a whisper of a kiss behind her right ear. A shudder she couldn’t control rolled through her body, giving me a satisfied feeling as I felt the vibration. She was breakable, no matter how hard of a front she put forward.

“Of course it isn’t. I want you to fuck me so hard that my makeup is running down my face, because all I can do is sob in response. But, I’m not a fucking idiot, Changkyun. It has to be on my turf or not at all.”

We were at a stalemate at this point, neither of us wanting to give in to the other. Mine for selfish reasons, and hers for safety precautions, which was admirable. Most women didn’t even think twice before leaving with me, assuming I was a decent man because of my polite and seemingly refined demeanor.

How very wrong they were.

“Fine. We’ll do it your way, but we leave as soon as your friend is safely in her vehicle, and we take my car.” she pushed on my chest, making me take a step back. “Fine. I didn’t drive here anyway. I’ll go get my friend away from that creep finally, and then we can leave.” spinning, she turned to walk off, but I caught her upper arm and pulled her back.

“Already done, love.”

I informed her, nodding my head in the direction of my other brother Wonho, who had her friend supported at the waist by his large arms, her purse in his other hand as he guided her to the door. For the first time that night, I saw an expression other than confidence, clearly shocked by the fact that this was all being taken care of without me leaving her side to make it come about.

“My car is out front, you can bid your friend farewell and then we can go have our fun.” her composure quickly returned as I held my arm out for her to take, her fingers wrapping around my bicep as I began walking us towards the exit.

People instinctively moved out of our way, clearing a path as their eyes watched us pass. I could feel her pulse increasing with each step closer to the door, the stares undoubtedly getting to her, but her face and posture didn’t show a trace of it. I was impressed, and that was not an easy thing to do.

Once we got outside, the cool night air hit us full force, making me take in a deep breath. There was nothing more satisfying than breathing in fresh air after hours of being inside a stuffy underground club. It was almost as good as feeding off a new prey.

Almost.

My head turned to the right, looking past Petra to see Wonho helping her idiot friend into one of our many cars, smiling up at him with much interest. Him being the gentleman he was, chose to ignore her advances caused by her diminished self preservation, due to all of the alcohol consumption. Petra dropped my arm and strolled over to her friend, swiftly taking over the situation as I watched from the sidelines.

“Do you ever learn, brother?” Jooheon questioned as he appeared to my left, those deep dimples in his cheeks as he grinned devilishly at the scene before us. Petra finally got her to stay in the car, telling her it was okay and to call her in the morning when she woke up.

Wonho tapped the top of the all black Audi, signally for the driver to go. I watched her eye my elder brother, sizing him up as he smiled down a her with that charming expression. She returned his smile, linking her arm with his and guiding him with her back to me. I stuffed my hands in the pockets of my black perfectly tailor dress pants, a smug look on my face that I couldn’t hold back anymore.

“Maybe I should go home with your brother, Changkyun. That adorable smile is nearly impossible to resist.” she remarked, tilting her head slightly as she laughed, Jooheon and Wonho laughing with her.

“I mean, if that’s what you really want, be my guest. Just know that he’s a much more submissive man than myself, or even my brother Jooheon here. But, that’s your choice. I’m sure he wouldn’t mind.” her tongue darted out to run over one of her canines, eyebrow raised.

“Maybe some other time, pretty boy.”

Her hand patted his large chest, declining my offer as she walked backwards away from him. Jooheon seamlessly stepped in front of me, arms wrapping around her waist and pulling her back against his chest. He breathed her in, my eyes rolling at his dramatics.

“I can assure you, I am far from submissive, kitten.” he growled into her ear. Turning her head towards him, she smirked. “Not today, Princess.”

He removed himself from her, stepping back and gesturing for me to go ahead. I let my hand slide around her waist, eyes quickly meeting hers, which were already dilated and filled with lust. My own car came to a stop in front of us, Shownu stepping out of the driver’s seat, a look of disapproval on his striking features.

Opening the door, I gave her my hand to steady her as she descended into the vehicle. I shot her a wink before shutting the door behind her carefully, spinning to find Shownu, Jooheon, Wonho, Kihyun, Hyungwon and Minhyuk all standing there. A loud sigh escaped my chest as I came up to them, looking Shownu dead in the eyes.

“I remember what happened last time, brother. It’ll be fine.”

I assured him, ready to leave and be out of their line of sight and far away from their influences as I could be. We were a powerful coven, even more powerful when we were all together. Our persuasiveness and ability to manipulate was immensely strong, even on each other, and I could feel them trying to influence my decision now.

“Changkyun-” Kihyun started, but I cut him off.

“I said it’ll be fine and that’s what I meant. I’ll see you all tomorrow. Farewell, brothers.” I straightened my back, making my way to the driver’s seat and climbing in without a second look.

Shifting into gear, I sped off, the tires squealing on the damp pavement. Petra sat with her legs crossed, her tight dress molding around her thick thighs, making my mouth water. I glanced over at my GPS, her address already inputted into the system, making me smirk in satisfaction.

“You said they were your brothers…are they all?” she questioned, her tone unsure of whether or not she should ask. Reaching over, I rested my hand at the top of her thigh, squeezing slightly.

“Yes.” the words fell off my tongue smoothly, the sound of her pulse quickening in my ears. She shifted in her seat a little, causing my hand to fall further up her leg, cock already beginning to stiffen within my slacks. I could feel my eyes shifting from their usual dark brown, to the amber color they turned when I felt the urge to feed. I needed to get it back under control.

“Do you wish to know more?” I offered to her, sensing her hesitation and using the opportunity to calm myself by thinking of them and their disapproval instead. “No. I can think of much better things to talk about.” she responded simply, her hand moving to cover mine, head turning to look at me instead of out the windshield.

“Is that so, hm? Do tell.” unbuckling her seatbelt, she turned in her seat, brought her lips to my ear and whispered.

“You can tell me everything you want to do to me, for starters.” a growl erupted within my chest, fingers digging into her thigh as she slowly moved back to sit properly. She was proud of herself, that smug smile on those pretty lips that I wanted wrapped around my cock right now.

I leaned forward slightly, hand moving down her leg until I found the hem of her dress, pulling the stretchy material up her smooth legs slowly. She let a hiss out through clenched teeth as the pads of my fingers skimmed the inside of her knee, her legs separating almost entirely of their own accord.

“How about I show you what I’m going to do right now, instead.”

My hand slid under the dress, fingers inching upward at a snail’s pace, her heart now pounding against it’s cage in her chest. I finally reached her heat, realizing she had no underwear on underneath that damn dress, making me groan out loud. She was so wet already, my nose just now picking up on it, the scent intoxicating to my heightened senses.

“First off, naughty.” I slapped her mound lightly, a whimper coming out of her in response. “Secondly, for how collected you appear on the outside, you certainly are wet for me, aren’t you?” she nodded slowly in response, that hardened exterior rapidly crumbling before my very eyes.

“That makes slipping my fingers inside that tight pussy of yours even easier, doesn’t it?”

I let one digit slide between her folds, her hands gripping the edge of the seat harshly as I entered her. Her head fell back against the leather, eyes closed as her lips parted to let out a sigh. I felt her tight walls constrict around my finger, causing me to add another in response. She reached over with her left hand, grabbing my thigh and digging her nails into it.

We came upon a red light moments later, I hit the brakes and removed my fingers from her, slamming the car into park before ripping my seatbelt off. I turned my body to her, grabbing the back of her neck and bringing her mouth to mine. My index and middle finger dove back into her heat as our tongues tangled together, her hands in my hair as she moaned.

Curling my fingers in a come hither motion, her back lifted off the seat, pushing her breast against my chest as she tugged at my hair. There was a loud honk behind us, swiftly snapping me from the moment. I withdrew my fingers once again, making her whine in complaint as I continued our journey.

My hands clutched the wheel like a vice, knuckles turning white in the process. She turned to me once she realized I wouldn’t be touching her anymore, hands finding my belt buckle and undoing it quickly. She reached into my boxers after freeing me from my slacks, grabbing my stiff cock and pulling it from it’s confines.

Sitting on her knees, she bent over my groin, then tapped the seat to signal me to move it back. After I did, her warm wet mouth enveloped me and dragged a low growl out from deep within my chest. I took my right hand from the steering wheel, tangling it into her hair at the back of her head. 

My foot hit the gas harder as she sucked on the head, tongue toying with the vein on the underside inbetween sucks. I weaved in and out of traffic, finally able to drive at my normal speed since she was no longer looking. We would be there in minutes at this rate.

“Fuck, your mouth feels so damn good wrapped around my dick.” I praised, running my nails along her scalp in the process, her humming in response. I glanced down at the GPS as she continued, seeing we were merely a few hundred feet away from her apartment. 

I pulled up in front of her building at a speed way too fast for a human to park without hitting another parked car, but I did it with ease. I gripped her hair harshly, pulling her mouth off of me and bringing it to mine, kissing her roughly. She pulled away moments later, a string of saliva still connecting us. 

“Get inside.” I demanded as I tucked myself back into my pants before exiting the vehicle with her. She fixed her dress as she stood, smoothing it down carefully as she waited for me. Her eyes found mine, holding her long fingers out to me, which I laced with my own while she tugged me with her up the steps.

She punched in the code to get into her building, it being on the higher end of apartments in this city, which I found impressive. I should have expected she was well off, considering the caliber of clothing and physical maintenance she obviously partook in. We made our way down the hall to the elevator, it opening immediately. She pressed the 20th floor, my eyebrows raising in surprise, knowing the higher the floor, the better the living space.

I leaned back against the wall on the opposite end of the elevator, eyeing her with lust and thirst all at the same time. She returned my gaze, her face composed, but her heartbeat rapid and inconsistent. 

I could not wait to sink my fucking teeth into her.

A loud ding sounded off, letting us know we had reached our floor, the doors opening slowly. She marched over to me, grabbing me by the chain under my shirt and dragging me with her as she walked backwards out the door. Taking her by the shoulders, I pushed her up against the nearest wall, pushing my knee between her legs as I connected our lips.

“Come on, Changkyun. I can’t wait anymore and I really don’t want the bougey old lady next door to see us fondling each other in the hall.” she said between kisses, her hand coming down to cup my erection over my slacks. “Oh, come on, the old bitch would probably enjoy the show.”

She let out a chuckle and pushed me off of her, striding off down to the very end of the hall to her apartment door. I let my hands settle on her hips as she searched her purse for her keys, my lips kissing along her exposed neck. Once the door was opened, I shoved her inside and slammed it shut behind us. I grabbed her waist to pull her flush against me, my cock hitting her backside. 

“Do you want to take me to the bedroom, or would you rather I fuck you right here in the foyay, because I can do either.” I whispered into her ear, feeling my fangs threatening to protrude at the thought of getting to be inside of her finally.

“First things first,” her hands removed mine from her waist, then she spun to face me, eyes clouded with desire. Reaching out, she hooked her fingers into the chain again, pushing me until my back hit the door with a thud, causing my cock to twitch at the roughness.

“I know what you are.”

My eyes narrowed, the color changing automatically as I stared at her. Her eyebrow raised, a smirk coming to her lips, the red lipstick that had been there earlier, was now long gone. I opened my mouth, barring my teeth as my fangs slid out of their sheaths. She wasn’t alarmed at all. If anything, it appeared to make her even more aroused than she already was.

“Did you plan on killing me?” she questioned, not an ounce of fear in her tone. I clicked my tongue at her, then began toying with one of my fangs with the tip of it.

“Hadn’t decided yet.”

“And now?” she probed as she stepped closer to me, her warm breath fanning over my face.

“I guess that depends.” I responded, my hand coming up to wrap around her wrist as she continued clutching the chain at my chest. 

“On what?” she pressed.

“You.”

“Well, then I have a proposition for you.” she had my attention now. “Go on then, love.” I encouraged, my index finger tracing a pattern along the inside of her wrist, feeling the pulse beneath it increase.

“I’ll give you what you need, whenever you need it, if you don’t kill me tonight. Day or night, you can have it and me at all times. No argument, it’s yours. I’m yours.” I inhaled deeply, gently unwinding her digits from the metal along my chest, then intertwining them with mine as I stepped towards her.

“And what exactly are you getting out of this, darling?” I reached out, removing the purse from her hand and dropping it to the floor, interlocking our other hands as I pushed her further into the apartment.

“What I want.”

“And what, pray tell, would that be?” I asked, leaning in to kiss along her neck, tongue lapping at her flesh as I did, making her let out a groan.

“I get to be fed off of and I get you.” 

My lips traveled up to her ear, taking it between my teeth before speaking. It all made sense to me now, everything about her. My inability to read her thoughts, the way she could control her demeanor around me, her heartbeat for the most part and the way she carried herself. All of it, made perfect sense.

“You were a blood whore.” she nodded, her pulse quickening. “That’s why you are the way you are. Why you can block your thoughts from me, control your heart rate and how much I can influence you. You’ve been taught by another of my kind.”

“Yes.” her voice came out breathy as my hands let go of hers, moving to her waist as I pushed her back towards the hall. She carefully slipped out of her shoes one by one, myself making sure she didn’t lose her footing.

“Which door?” I demanded as we came into the hallway.

“Last one.” pushing her quicker, we finally reached her bedroom door and I slammed her back against it, pressing the length of my body to hers. I hovered over her lips, eyes taking in all of her that I could in that moment.

“So, you want to be my blood whore, huh?” my right hand wrapped around her neck loosely, her breath catching in the back of her throat as I did. “Is that a yes, or a no? Because, if you’re going to be mine, all of you is going to be mine. I do not share. Ever. I’ve made that mistake before and I won’t do it again.” I snarled, squeezing lightly, her eyes rolling back into her head as they closed.

“Yes, that’s what I want. You and only you.”

“Good. Now, get in the bedroom, we have business to attend to.” wrapping an arm around her waist, I opened the bedroom door and moved us inside, not bothering to shut it. 

I let go of her, walking around and sitting myself down on her large white silken sheet covered bed. I ran my hand over the fabric, enjoying the feel of it on the palm of my hand. It was a shame it would be in shambles by the time I was done with her.

“Come here.” waving her over, I spread my legs wide so she could stand between them. She dropped the leather jacket from her shoulders, revealing her tight off the shoulder dress, her entire neck on display to me now. How I couldn’t wait to litter her body with my marks. It was almost unbearable.

Once she stood between my thighs, her fingers reached out and grabbed my shirt and then forcefully ripped it open, buttons flying off in the process. I let her remove it from me, watching her facial expressions carefully. She was thoroughly enjoying this, but so was I.

I was left in nothing but my slacks and the chain across my torso, those green eyes taking in every inch of uncovered flesh. Moving my hands up, I went to unfasten the metal, but she quickly stopped me by taking hold of my wrist.

“No, leave it on, please.” she begged, leaning down to press those addicting lips to mine softly. Deciding to oblige her, I placed my hands on the backs of her thighs, fisting her dress and pulling upward. 

“Alright, but I want this off right now.” she stepped back, yanking it over her head in one swift motion and tossing it to the floor, flipping her long hair back as she stood before me entirely naked. I immediately sat forward and grabbed her hips, bringing her back to me, kissing along her smooth stomach.

Her fingers carded through my hair, nails scratching along my scalp as she did and I found myself enjoying it. I let my fangs come down from their sheaths, letting the sharp edges drag across her hip bone. A delicious sound hit my ears, making me smirk into her soft flesh. 

I wrapped my arms under her ass, lifting her up and tossing her down onto the bed before standing up. I slipped out of my shoes and socks, then moved to my pants, unbuckling the belt for a second time tonight before sliding out of them and my underwear. Crawling onto the bed, I placed myself between those thick thighs, the insides slick with her arousal from earlier in the car.

“As much as I enjoy playing with my food, I don’t know how long I’ll be able to do that. All I want to do is be buried deep in that pussy, hearing you cry in pleasure for me. Literally.” my tongue came out to lick along her inner thighs, collecting the essence there, her legs beginning to tremble.

“Please, Changkyun, just touch me.” I snickered, loving how needy she was being already. 

“But, I am touching you, love.” she let out a groan of complaint, fingers extending out to my hair as I continued running my tongue along her legs. I placed my palms near her knees, pushing them open further, admiring her beautiful pale skin, her veins showing through the almost translucent flesh.

“Just not how you want me to apparently. You’re lucky I want nothing more than to devour that cunt, or else I wouldn’t tolerate your whining right now.” I revealed, putting my fangs back in their place before I laid on my stomach, index finger running along her dripping slit.

I pushed it in with ease, her heat practically swallowing it in eagerness as she moaned loudly. Her sounds could easily inflate my ego, and I needed to be careful about that. That could lead to me losing control and draining her entirely if I wasn’t mindful enough. 

Adding a second digit, I brought my mouth down to her swollen bud, flicking at it slowly, teasingly. I continued this, but let my fingers remain motionless, wanting her to beg for it, like I knew she eventually would. Pulling that pearl between my lips, I sucked lightly, feeling her beginning to squirm beneath my touch. 

It wouldn’t be long now.

“Please, Changkyun. Please, move.” she panted, her hands coming up to grasp her breast, fingers toying with her nipples to get more stimulation than what she was receiving from me. She was so easy to break, it was almost unbelievable.

“You didn’t specify how, darling.” I began slowly retreating from her, bringing my digits with me and she hastily tried to stop me by taking my face into her palms. She already had tears leaking out of the corners of her eyes, her expression showing her desperation.

“Fuck me! With your fingers, your mouth, your cock. I don’t care, Changkyun. I just need you to fuck me, please!” she cried out, her hips trying to move closer to my barely in appendages, making me chuckle in response.

“Now, that’s what I was looking for, love.” I dove back in knuckle deep, immediately wagging my fingers back and forth until I found the spot I was looking for, her whimper of pleasure alerting me that I had. 

It wouldn’t take long for her to cum, I could feel her tightening around me already as I practically abused her g-spot. Bringing my hand under her ass, I inched my thumb towards her rim, pressing lightly as I continued fucking her with my fingers. She let out a gasp, but didn’t protest. So, pushed harder, making her back arch off the bed in response.

I let my thumb circle slowly as I kept going, bringing my mouth back down to her core, sucking her clit into my mouth again. She was dangerously close to her release, and I couldn’t wait to taste it. I pressed my thumb into her tight hole ever so slightly and she moaned in response, her cunt constricting. 

“Oh, fuck!” she exclaimed, her climax hitting her like a tidal wave, a gush of fluids releasing onto my tongue and I lapped up every last bit happily as she rode it out. I could do this every day until the day I died, if possible.

Once she finished, I removed all of my digits from her, a breath of relief escaping her as I did. My pointer finger ran along her sensitive slit as I crawled up her body, lips running over her as the cold chains around my neck skimmed along her flesh, raising goosebumps in their wake. I felt the pads of her fingers run over my arms until she reached the sides of my face, pulling me up to look at her. 

Her mascara had begun to run down the sides of her cheeks slightly, her eyes hazy and bright all at the same time. She was already a mess, and I fucking loved it. I leaned down, brushing my lips against her, darting my tongue out to run it along her bottom lip.

“I need you, Changkyun.” 

She whispered into my mouth, her breathing heavy as my hands moved to cup her breast. I moved back down her body, kissing along the tops of them, my thumbs running back and forth over her hardened nipples. I traced my tongue across her flesh until I reached one, engulfing it in my mouth, circling it. Her fingers glided up to my slightly damp hair, tugging on it roughly.

I left her breast, my cock aching to be inside of her finally after all this time. I leaned over top of her again, connecting our lips, my tongue finding hers as I pushed my length into her, quickly bottoming out inside her cunt, a groan leaving me in response.

“Fuck, you feel so good.” I told her as she kissed along my collar bones, her teeth suddenly clamping down and tugging at my skin. I thrust into her harshly, her head falling onto the mattress, back arching upward. Taking the opportunity to my advantage, I placed my arm underneath her, lifting her off the bed slightly. 

I let my fangs come out of their sheaths again, bringing my mouth to the underside of her breast as I continued pumping into her. My sharp canines penetrated the flesh slowly, her blood quickly filling my mouth. I couldn’t help but moan at the sweet taste, my eyes closing as I enjoyed her in more ways than one.

She let out a whine of her own as she held onto my hair again, tugging on it with even more force. I let her blood fill me, sending a euphoric high through my body as I fucked her senseless at the same time. I had to stop myself soon, or I would get lost in the drug that was her life force. I couldn’t remember the last time I had anything so sweet, so addicting in a very long time.

Finally, I retracted my fangs, suctioning on the wounds until I got the blood flow to slow immensely. A sigh left her throat, eyes searching for mine until they found them, a smile gracing her lips. I stopped moving inside her, watching as the crimson liquid dripped down her ribs until it hit the white silk sheets. 

Oh, what a satisfying sight it was.

I darted for her lips, kissing her hungrily as I began to move again, her legs wrapping around my waist as she met my thrust. I couldn’t stay that way for long, my chest heaving as I pounded into her. But I kept my lips close, breathing in her air as she began to cry out underneath of me. I suddenly pulled out of her, pushing her legs off of me as I sat on my knees before her.

“Turn over. Now.” 

She did so without hesitation, looking over her shoulder at me, her skin glistening with perspiration. She was a Goddamn masterpiece and I had already nearly destroyed it. I grabbed her hips, forcefully yanking her ass up and then giving it a good smack. Taking my length at the base, I guided myself back to her folds, rubbing the swollen tip back and forth, collecting her sweet nectar.

In one quick snap of my hips, I buried myself to the hilt, a loud wail coming from her. Her forehead was pressed against the sheets between her forearms, which was about to change. Pressing my chest against her back, I reached my hand around to wrap it around her throat. She leaned her head back against me in response, mouth falling open as her eyes closed.

“Whose are you, little whore?” I demanded from her, each thrust growing in power, making her struggle to respond. I gave her ass another hard smack, a moan leaving those luscious lips of hers. “Answer me!” 

“Yours! I’m yours, Changkyun!” she choked out, one of her hands coming up to hold my wrist as I squeezed a little harder. She was close again, her pussy increasing it’s hold around my cock with each hard thrust. 

I finally released her throat, a gasp coming from her as she sucked in a deep breath. It didn’t last long though, I immediately sat up on my knees, holding onto her hips so tightly, I would leave my mark behind. My hand came down hard on her ass for the third time, her cries now becoming desperate, drawing out actual tears that had begun to stain her face.

“Are you going to cum again for me, little whore, or do I need to drain you just a little bit more?” I inquired, not caring what her answer would be. I was sinking my teeth into her again, one way or another. This time, my mark would be visible. 

She was mine and I wanted everyone to know it.

I leaned back into her, not waiting for a response, my fangs descending as I drew closer to her neck. She tilted her head to the side all on her own, pushing her hair out of the way and everything. I sunk my teeth into the soft flesh, popping into a main artery, blood flooding my mouth. The hot liquid ran down my throat, that euphoric feeling coming back all over again.

She reached back and interlocked her fingers into my hair, pulling at it as I increased my tempo. I could feel her trembling underneath me, her legs threatening to give out with the orgasm that was about to hit her like a freight train, plus the bloodloss.

Finally, I let go of her, head tilting back as her blood dripped down either sides of my face, landing on my chest and her back. A loud cry left her lips, her climax hitting her just how I said it would, like a fucking freight train, slamming into her at full speed. She began to collapse, but I swiftly caught her and pulled her up on her knees, holding her by the throat once again.

“I’m not fucking done with you yet.” I growled, chest rumbling as I continued, skin smacking skin as I fucked her harder than I had ever fucked anyone else. A smirk crawled across her lips, her eyes closed as she let me use her up completely.

She was loving every damn second of it.

My balls tightened, my cock swelling and before I knew it, I was releasing into her. I filled her to the brim, my cum and hers, spilling down her inner thighs as I rode it out. My breath was heavy in her ear when I finally came to a stop, resting my forehead against her shoulder. It had been years since I had actually felt tired after playing with my food.

Her hand carefully patted my hip, signaling me to pull out, which I did. I had wrecked her enough for one night, no need to continue the torture. She turned herself around, winding her arms around my neck and kissing me with much more gentleness than I had ever experienced after an endeavor like that.

“I’m going to go wash up. I’m a fucking mess and I don’t even need to see myself to know it.” she said with a laugh, leaving light kisses along my jaw, all the way to my ear.

“You look even better in my opinion.” I complimented her, resting my hands on the curve of her ass and kneading the flesh there. “You only think that because it’s your handiwork that did it.” I hummed in response, kissing her again before she unwound herself from me and left me on the bed alone.

“I’m going to shower. You’re welcome to join me if you’d like. You’re quite the mess yourself.” I glanced down, there was blood all along my chest and I could feel it beginning to dry on my face. When I looked back up to respond, she was already gone and I could hear the water hitting the tile already. 

By the time I reached the bathroom, she was in the shower and steam had begun to cloud the mirrors. I removed the now slightly bloody chain she had made me keep on, it clinking against the marble countertop softly. I could see her through the glass doors, her back to me and I took a moment to appreciate her gorgeous figure. I was glad I hadn’t killed her in the end.

Because she was all mine now.

I stepped into the shower behind her, encircling her waist, hands splaying out across her stomach. She covered my hands with hers, leaning back against my shoulder as I let the water wash her blood from my skin.

“You said earlier that you don’t share, and that you had made that mistake before. What did you mean, Changkyun?” she asked me, her voice soft, almost soothing in a sense. She definitely knew how to talk to and comfort my kind. It was refreshing.

“A long time ago, I met a woman much like you. But, what I didn’t know was she was another man’s…mate or lover, as you would probably call it. She would be with me one night and then her mate another, and he would only ever bite her in the same places I had.” I explained, unsure why I was even telling her this, but I continued anyway.

“It turned out, she was gathering information on my coven to take back to her mate’s. We didn’t find out until it was almost too late. If we hadn’t, that coven would have slaughtered me and my brothers in one go. Thankfully, Hyungwon’s mate is rather stealthy, and had figured out where her allegiance truly lay before disaster struck.

I was young and a fool. I refuse to make that mistake twice, so there will be eyes on you at all times. I hope you are prepared for that, Petra. I will not be made a fool of again by a pathetic human.” her heartbeat quickened in her chest, making a devilish grin crawl cross my lips.

“I would never do that, Changkyun.” she promised, turning her head to look over her shoulder at me. I kissed her forehead, then whispered into her skin, lips brushing it lightly.

“I know you won’t, because I’ll kill you if you do.”

[mi-nyu-dreams]

My Vampire Knight Ch. 8

My Vampire Knight

Chapter 8

It’s okay....

A/N:

Hi guys! New readers and old readers please read! So, for my older readers, I’m so sorry for leaving you all! TTOTT I intended to update a longggggg time ago. But, things happened and I ended up with writers-block. I couldn’t muster up the energy to write a new chapter for this. But I didn’t want to abandon it. So I took a break. A hiatus I guess. I wanted to rest and get my life together. And I tried to write new things and drabbles to re-energize my creative senses. That’s why I wrote new stuff. But now, I’m sorta back. I kinda injured myself and made a new long series that will take up more of my time and I have college, but I won’t abandon this fic. I’ll just not be updating as much and chapters may be shorter. But I’ll write the best of my ability and keep this up for all of you guys! Thank you for reading and being patient. And to my new readers, welcome and I hope you can be patient with my updates! Thank you so much!

“And so, Changkyunie really really likes music. He and Jooheonie are always rapping and recording stuff.” Minhyuk explains as the three of you sat in the back of the cafeteria.

Minhyuk had been dragging you and Changkyun around all day. After every class, he would bust down the hallways toward you with Changkyun in hand and drag you somewhere. He labeled this as “getting to know each other time”. It was weird, to be honest. You barely just met them, but already, within almost four hours of the day, you had already found out about so many things about Changkyun and Minhyuk. As though, you three had known each other for like ever.

“Hyung. Can’t you just shut up for like... five seconds?” Changkyun complained as he rubs his temple in annoyance. “Aish! That’s not how you speak to your elders!” Minhyuk snarked back. You smiled and giggle as you watch the two of them converse. They were so cute. “Oh?! Y/N is laughing!” Minhyuk beams. You immediately stop and place a serious face. “N-no!” You playfully object. Minhyuk smiles slyly and pinches your cheeks. “Yes you did!!” He laughs. “Ahhhh! That hurts!” You whine as you try to pull away from him. Suddenly, Changkyun pulls Minhyuk away and frowns.

“You’re hurting her, Hyung.” He nagged. Minhyuk pouts and crosses his arms. “At least I’m interacting with her!” He states with a pout. Changkyun frowned and sighed. “You’re so weird.” He comments. “Weird?!” Minhyuk gasps, offended by his friends comment. “You’re the weird one, not conversing and being nice.” Minhyuk frowns. “I’m weird?!” Changkyun retorts. “So being respectful and spacious is ‘weird’?” He looks away in disbelief. “Wow...”

Minhyuk puffs his cheeks and looks over to you. “Y/N! Who is weirder?!” He pouts. You stare at the two is shock and confusion. They were being children, fighting about such a minor thing. You didn’t understand, but just laughed and sighed. “You’re both weird.” You cross your arms and look at the two handsome men in amusement. “Two grown guys fighting over a minor subject. That’s weird.” You say as you smile. The two stared in shock. “Uh...”

“It’s cute though, both of you. Your friendship is cute.” You truthfully tell. And in that moment they both blushed and looked away. “Oh...” Minhyuk clears his throat and smiles. You look over at Changkyun who was bright red and trying very hard to avoid eye-contact. You giggle at his adorable attempt and smile. “Y/N, you’re cute too.” Minhyuk compliments. You smile and bowed to him. “Thanks.”

It was a nice time together. You got to know the two way better than you had thought and they both are so sweet. You smiled at the thought and look at the two as they bicker once more. What genuine and beautiful friendship. So.... human....

Suddenly, the bell rings and it was time to go back to class.

***

“Y/N-ah!” Ma-ri calls out to you as she runs up to you. You were standing at the front of the school waiting for Ma-ri to come. “Y/N-ah! Guess what?!” She asks as she flings herself onto you. You chuckle and try to keep balance as she throws herself onto you. “What?” You ask. She pulls away and smiles brightly. “I have a date today!” She blurts out proudly. You look at her in shock. “Date?” You ask. She nods vigorously and beams. “Yep! I forgot to tell you a few days ago cuz I was so excited about your kiss!” She chimed. You immediately hit her and hush her. “MA-RI?!” You scold. She laughs and squeezes your cheeks. “I’m sorry!!”

You pull her hands away in annoyance and sigh. “So we’re not hanging out today?” You ask with a slight pout. Ma-ri pouts sadly and nods. “Sowwy...” She cutely apologizes. You stare at her a little mad, but sigh and smile as you pat her head. “It’s okay. You go enjoy your date.” You tell her with a smile. She immediately brightens up and squeals. “Y/N-ah! I love you!” She hops up and down. You laugh and try to calm her down. “Okay okay! I’ll just take the bus home then.” You tell her as you take her hand and smile. “Enjoy your date!”

Ma-ri nods and clasps her hands with yours. “Mm!” She smiles. “Make sure to take the safe route and if anything happens, call me or Junsu-oppa! Okay?” She tells you with a stern voice. You nod and roll your eyes. “Yes yes.” You smile and she begin to walk away. “Text me later how it goes.” You tell her as she backs away. She nods and gives you an okay sign, to then immediately turn away and rush over to a guy in the parking lot. You sigh and chuckle. “I hope things go well.”

You then begin to turn away and find the bus stop, but you hear a voice behind you. “Y/N?”

You immediately turn around and find Changkyun. “Oh? Changkyun-ssi.” You bow and smile. “You’re not riding with your friend?” He asks. You shake your head and grin. “She has other plans, so I’m heading home alone.” You explain. Changkyun nods and looks around for a bit. He then huffs and walks up closer to you. “I can take you home.” He suggests. You looked at him curious and a little taken aback. “Oh?” You question. He nods and points back to the parking lot. “I don’t have anything to do. I can take you home.” He suggests once more. You think it over and ponder.

It would be better. He pretty much knew where you lived now, and he’s a good person. You nod and look at him. “Sure.” You agreed. A small smile appeared on Changkyun’s face and he nods. “Okay.” He motions you to follow him and the both of you head to his car.

As you two walk on, you watched him from behind. You didn’t notice until now, but he was pretty thin yet tall. He seemed like regular height for a male and his frame was pretty normal. His blonde-brown hair short and delicate, and his gait was sorta swagger yet formal. He was a peculiar guy, you thought. Peculiar, but handsome. And... a vampire.

The both of you reached the car and you let yourself in. It was the same black car he had last time, so you were familiar. As you sat in, the male quickly comforted himself inside and let you comfort yourself. “Same place, right?” He asks as he buckled himself. You nod. “Yeah.” You then buckle yourself, but as you did, you remembered back to when you two first met. When he buckled the seatbelt for you. You remember feeling flustered but also annoyed at his cheeky expression at that time.

You then take a glance at him and see him start the car. “Thank you for the ride, Changkyun-ssi.” You say. He nods and smiles. “You’re welcome. Also...” He pauses and glances over at you as he drives. “You can just call me Changkyun.” He tells you. You take a few seconds to process his words, and simply smile afterwards. “Okay, Changkyun.” Once you said those few words, you spied a small smile form at his lips. It was cute.

He continued on driving and the two of you had some small leisurely chats. You found out he had a younger brother and that him and the boys were all very close. They had known each other since birth technically. “So, you’re closest to Jooheon and Minhyuk?” You ask. He nods and hums in reply. “Mhm. Although, I am the youngest of our friend group, we mostly treat each other like family.” He explains. You smile and nod. “That’s nice. A strong bond between friends like you guys is a very good thing.” You say with a smile. “That’s inspiring.”

He raises a brow and glances at you. “Inspiring?” He questions. You nod. “I never had a lot of friends when I was young. Even now, I just have Ma-ri and her brother Junsu.” You explain. “I lost my parents when I was a kid... they disappeared and never returned. No body was found, so we couldn’t conclude they were dead. And because of that, as well as the fact my Aunt, a Vampire Hunter, was raising me.” You paused, looked out the window, and sigh. “People didn’t like approaching me. So I didn’t have a lot of friends. Not any long term ones anyways.”

“I’m sorry.” Changkyun apologizes with a sympathetic tone. You shake your head and sigh. “It’s fine. I’m glad to have Ma-ri and Junsu. They’re all I need.” You explain. This earns a smile for Changkyun. “That’s good.” He says. You look over to him and see a relieved but questioning expression. “Thanks...” You thank.

***

“Thank you again.” You thank once more as Changkyun parks the car in front of your apartment complex. He looks at you with a gentle smile and nods. “No problem.” He answers. You smile at his gentle expression and quickly open the door to go out. But, before you could exit, he takes your hand and stops you. You look at him curiously and questingly. “Is there something you need?” You ask. He doesn’t say anything for a few minutes, however eventually speaks.

“Please take care and be safe.” He says with a concerned and sincere expression. You stare at him in confusion. Take care? Why is he worried? You stare in confusion a bit, but eventually nod and smile. “Okay.” You bid goodbye as he slowly releases you. With another smile, you bid him farewell and exit his vehicle. You take a gasp of air and sigh as you stretched a little and continue to walk off toward your home.

But, before you could take another step into the building, a sound of a gun bangs and you feel your body get tugged and pulled out of your initial spot. Within seconds, you find yourself tightly wrapped in Changkyun’s arms, across the street and a loud echo blasts from nearby. You didn’t have any time to react, but your heart was beating faster than the speed of light. You quickly look around, but don’t see a single thing around. Where the hell did that bullet come from? You then look at Changkyun who was still holding onto you tightly. He was breathing heavily and eyeing the entire area. His eyes were also glowing a deep shade of red. The color of blood.

“C-Changkyun?” You call out to him. He doesn’t answer you and you felt his grip tighten. “W-what?—“ Before you could say anymore, another shot is fired and this time Changkyun was barely able to dodge it. The bullet scratches him on the cheek and nicks a bit of your hair. He flings the both of you back toward his car and he quickly hides the both of you behind it.

“Changkyun, what’s going on?!” You ask, full of fear. Changkyun looks at you and gulps. “I need you to call 911 right now.” He commands. You didn’t even question him and nodded as you fumble to pull out your phone and dial 911. Meanwhile, the vampire boy continues to scan the area to find this unknown shooter. “Where the hell?!” He groans as he scans the buildings. “It’s a sniper...”

“Hello? 911? Yes! Someone is shooting at me and a friend and I don’t know where it is!” You explain. “No. I can’t see the person. They shot twice and missed but—“

BANG!

Another shot is fired and it barely misses you as it penetrates the car and grazes your arm. “Damn! They’re on that side?!” Changkyun immediately takes you into his arms and carries you over and into the apartment complex. “C-Changkyun?!” You gasp as he pulls you in and hides you behind one of the counters in the lobby. “Stay low!” He commands as he clenches you tightly and examines the outside.

“Hello?!” A voice calls out of the phone. You suddenly remember you were still on the phone with the operator. “H-Hello?!” You quick answer again. “Hello? What is happening?” The lady on the other side asks. “They shot again! I’m inside a building now with a friend!” You explain, panic gradually rising within you. “I’m at Hwasa Apartment Complex in Seoul!” You tell. The lady responds quickly and assured you that authorities are on their way.

“Please stay calm. I’m right here. Tell me if anything is happening, okay?” The operator orders you. You nod and reply with a mumble. “I—“

“Y/N!”

BANG!

In seconds, Changkyun takes a tight grip of you and shields you with his body as the front door suddenly blows up and debris fly in all directions. “CHANGKYUN?!” You scream in fear as you see glass and other debris scatter about in the building. Luckily, no one was hurt since the both of you were behind a counter. But, you accidentally dropped your phone and it had flew somewhere. “Y/N?! Are you okay?!” Changkyun worriedly asks as he slowly raises his head. You nod but immediately duck and hide in his arms as you hear another gun shot.

“Fucking hell!” Changkyun curses as he quickly grabs his phone and dials a number. “What’s happening?” You ask. Changkyun looks down at you and huffs. “Someone’s trying to kill us.” He bluntly tells. “SOMEONE WHAT?!” You gasp. But at the moment, someone picks up Changkyun’s call. “Hyung!” He exclaims. “Hyung! I need help! They’re here! And I have Y/N with me!” He explains. “Who?—“ you were about ask, until bullets begin to fly into the building, causing you to scream and huddle tightly in Changkyun’s protection.

“HYUNG!” He tells out furiously. “Okay! We’re coming! Keep her safe!” The voice tells out through the phone. You were too scared to try to recognize the voice and just continue to hold onto Changkyun tightly. “C-Changkyun!” You yell in panic as the bullets fly around. A planted pot goes flying across the room and more explosions are heard. Changkyun hugs you in his arms tightly and begins to reassure you that you are safe with him. “It’s okay! It’s okay, Y/N! You’re going to be fine!” He hugs you and pats you for comfort. “It’s okay, I’m here.” He speaks warmly. “I’m here. Don’t worry.”

Another explosion goes off and the building shakes. You shudder and begin to whimper in fear. What the hell was happening?! Why is someone trying to kill you two?! Why?! What’s going on?! So many questions were running through your brain, but you were also incredibly afraid for the both of you. Every bang, every crash, and every flying bullet caused you to tense and shake. You hold onto Changkyun tightly, him being your only sense of security, and begin to cry. “C-Changkyun...” You whimper. He tried to hush you and calm you down with reassuring words and gestures. “It’s okay. I’m here. Don’t worry. I’ll protect you.” He continuously says as he hugs you. You could feel his heart beating vigorously and his breathing sharpening.

“I’m scared!” You cry. He nods and pats your head. “I know.... but it’s going to be okay. I promise.” He assures with a gentle and soft tone. His protective grip, his calming voice, and his mere presence was assuring and comforting for you. You felt secured even though you were scared. But you trusted Changkyun. He was your only comfort now.

Suddenly, you hear sirens and a cars screeching outside. It was the police. You felt a bit of relief. However, before you could feel anymore senses of security, you hear a huge boom and your entire surroundings explode.

“CHANGKYUN!”

[b0blegum]

A+ [part one]

Author: b0blegum

Pairing: Changkyun x Reader (teacher AU)

Rating: R

Genre: s m u t, like smutty smut.

Status: PART 1 | PART 2 | PART 3 | END

a/n Shit, i’ve never written a chaptered fic in one night, but look what i’m doing here? I have finished writing all parts! This actually meant to be posted yesterday as a celebration for Changkyun’s birthday though, but whatever. Hope you enjoy this smutty fic for our kinky maknae.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE WEIRDEST GENIUS MAKNAE, IM CHANGKYUN XO

18+

Your POV

Teacher’s life sucks.

Well, at least for me. Someone who actually hated kids, but had to deal with them due to my financial status. If it wasn’t because of your sister’s pregnancy, i wouldn’t be here faking smiles everyday and played with children age 6-7.

Actually, you know that there’s this saying, there’s always something good in something bad? Well, i didn’t really understand about that at first, until i finally saw a man (most probably younger than me) walked into the school in the morning of November. I didn’t know him well, actually, but my fellow teacher friends said he was an english substitute for grade 6 students.

This man is the good while the school is the bad.

I never had real conversation, like, real-real. He was always too caught up with school materials or had a ‘date’ with some female senior high students who out of nowhere came to our office. Well– i haven’t talked about this, but the gossip of him was everywhere in this school. That’s why those female senior high students often came here.

3rd person’s pov

You sat yourself at the teacher’s lounge, reading some materials for tomorrow’s math class. It’s nothing complicated, but you only want to made sure whatever you teach is right.

“Hey, may i sit here?” A heavy voice asked you. Without looking, you nodded.

“Sure,” you answered, still flipping the papers on your lap.

“Math teacher?” He asked again. His voice was rather deep and… sexy. Now, this time, you took your eyes off the paper and looked at the owner of that sexy voice.

“Yeah, grade o–“ you stopped your sentence after finding out who you were talking too. “One.” You continued, awkwardly.

Holly hell. I am talking with sex God. Am i dreaming? No right?

“Cool. Oh, i am Changkyun by the way. You are?” He offer his hand. Taking his hand and shook it gently, you smiled.

“(Y/n),”

“Are you always so focused on what you do?” He asked, eyes to your papers.

“Well, i– it’s just my way to make sure everything goes according to my standard.” You answered, adding detail with hand gestures.

“That’s sexy.” He commented, nodding slightly before he took a sip of his coffee.

Did he just… flirt with me?

“Excuse me?” I know i am, but really?

“Oh– i didn’t mean it that way, sorry. It’s just… i find it attractive.” He awkwardly crossed his leg while you mouthed an ‘o’.

“That’s alright. I get it.” You nodded. God, did you see? I just talked to the sexiest human being in this school! Your mind screamed out an excitement.

The guy pulled out something from his pocket when you were about to say something to him.

It was his phone he pulled out. He looked at it quick before he bit his lip and sighed. “Hey, (y/n). I think i should go,”

“Oh,”

“This girl in my class has a fight with a seven grader.” He sat up, shoving back his phone, adding another bulge on his pants. You shook your head, deleting the dirty thoughts.

“Wow, what? A fight?” Your eyes followed him walking to the door.

“They’re fighting over a boy. Isn’t it great?” He laughed, sarcastically.

“Well, you better be there as soon as possible, Changkyun.” You said. He was already on the door.

“Yep. I better be.” He replied. “I guess, i’ll see you later?”

“See you later.”

“Hey, asshole, guess what!” You bumped onto a guy who’s currently lounging on your couch.

“Stop calling me asshole, will you?” He scooted aside. You mouthed him ‘never’. “But, what is it? You finally lose it to someone? Eh, wait, you wouldn’t doing it at day, but– that could be—“

“Not that, stupid.” You lulled your head back for a mere one second before looking back at your best friend with a sparkly eyes.

“Then what?” He put his focus back on the TV.

“Changkyun just flirted with me!” You cheered. “Well, i mean, he said i’m sexy, but–“

“Is he blind?”

You groaned. “Why are you–“ you shook your head. “Okay, whatever, but he really did say that. He said i am sexy when i focus on something.”

“I did say you were sexy, too. You remember? That time when you gave me a hand job?” He smirked.

“Shut the hell up, will you?” You looked at him in full annoyance. “By the way, i told you many times to not bring that topic up. It was just for one fucking time!”

“Okay, sorry, but you were so good doing that. The way you–“ without waiting him to finish his sentence, you sat up and threw him a pillow to shut his mouth.

“You’re the worst.” You gave him the finger.

That was Minhyuk. Your only best-friend who knew everything about you. Everything including the fact that you are still a virgin and your lustful feeling towards this Changkyun guy and he loves to tease the hell out of you.

Oh, and about that hand job he was talking about, it was really for one time only and both of you were so bored that you two decided to watch porn and things got heated, so… that happened.

“(Y/n), by the way, how old is he? You said he is younger than you, right?” He shouted from the living room.

“Yeah. Two years.” You answered after sipping some banana milk. “Do you think he’d go for older woman?”

“No, unless he has noona kink.” You almost choked at the word kink. For you, that was such a dirty word and hearing kink and ‘he’, which refer to Changkyun in one sentence was quite a bit… awkward.

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Intimate (Kihyun x Reader)

Admin: Candi Request: “Hi~ i would like to request a kihyun fluff/smut? Something that starts off very sweet and then becomes teasingly if you get what i mean🙈 Keep up the writing! I'm looking forward for more💕 – anon” Fandom: Monsta X Member/reader: Kihyun x Reader Genre: Bitta fluff and a whole lotta smut Warnings: Spanking, body worship, scratching Words: 1.5k Authors note: Kihyun needs to marry me and all of us who stan him tbh. Today was my last day at a job that ruined me mentally and I thought I’d celebrate by writing a fic.

Being in Kihyuns bed in his room alone was a normal occurrence while he was performing. Instead of waiting for him backstage, you’d wait in his bed, endlessly scrolling through your social media and catching a glimpse of the livestreams of Monsta X’s performance. You preferred waiting in his dorm rather than backstage because they usually took a while to finish the show and being in the comfort of his bed seemed better than leaning against a cold wall, seeing thousands of girls screaming his name.

The group has been working hard lately, they’re getting ready for their upcoming album and they’ve been making appearances everywhere, as well as concerts around South Korea therefore, they haven’t been getting much rest. You were used to seeing them tired but it started to get under your skin, in addition to them looking tired they were starting to look thinner and weaker. You always made sure to bring food over with you whenever you visited and they’d salivate at the sight. This time you bought a few meals from Burger King and left it at the kitchen counter for them so they could devour it once they were done with the show.

After an hour of waiting around you could hear the door of the dorm opening. You stayed put and listened to the voices, none of them said much, they were sighing, yawning and Minhyuk let out a painful cheer once he saw all the food waiting for them. Immediately after spotting the food Kihyun opened the door to his bedroom to see if you were still around. You smiled and waved at him and he seemed to loosen up, he walked over to the bed and collapsed on top of you.

“I missed you.” He said quietly.

“I missed you too! I saw the livestreams.”

“What did you think of the show?”

“As always, you never fail to amaze me. I know you’re all so tired but you put so much effort into your shows. You can make people believe you actually aren’t tired.” You laughed and he smiled. He hugged into you for a few seconds and let go in order to take a shower. He kissed your cheek and you went into the kitchen to join the rest of the group. You were greeted with the sight of them scoffing down food which always seemed to brighten your day.

“Thank you for the food Y/N.” Minhyuk said and the rest of the group hummed in agreement. You smiled at them and sat next to Changkyun.

“How was the performance? I mean, I saw the livestreams but how did you think it went?” You asked them.

“I’m pretty tired, I feel like I could have done better but sure, it’s over now.” Wonho seemed pretty disappointed with himself but you didn’t understand how can the guys be so hard on themselves when they work so hard.

“I think it went well. The crowd seemed to love us.” Shownu added his own two cents. You nodded your head and instead of distracting them from the food you just sat quietly and waited for Kihyun to come out to eat. Unfortunately, he didn’t come out for a while so you went to his room to check on him. He was sprawled out on the bed looking at his phone.

“Why aren’t you eating?” You ask, ready to give out to him for not having anything.

“I’ll have it later, I need to stay in my bed for a second. I’m too tired to move.” His reason seemed fair so you jumped into the bed with him. He put his phone away and wrapped himself around you. His breath was heavy, his tired body fit perfectly into yours. You ran your fingers through his hair as he let out a relaxed moan. The room was quiet and the only sound that was present was the one from the street and the kitchen. You enjoyed the silence and the warmth of Kihyuns body on yours.

He tightened his leg around yours and his hand moved from your shoulder to the edge of your jeans, slipping his finger underneath the button, tugging at it. Your core tightened and your breath got deeper. After he undid your zipper his hand slipped under your t-shirt, delicately caressing your stomach, making his way to your chest. He wasn’t making any noise, nothing was being said, the moment was so intimate and the sound of the street seemed to diminish while the rush of blood in your ears became the only thing you could hear. He lifted himself up and started kissing your neck, leaving bites and licks. His hand was on your breast now, lightly squeezing your nipple, you were crumbling under his touch.

He placed himself on top of you, put his hand under you and lifted you up. Your head went back and your chest came forward. He kissed your neck and went down to your chest, kissing you through the thin material of your shirt. You helped him by removing the t-shirt and he quickly undid your bra with one hand. Your bare chest was on display and he was admiring your beauty. He placed his hand on your throat while the other still supported you, squeezed lightly and moved on to caress your whole body, it made its way from your throat to your slit.

Kihyun let go of your back and pressed his lips against yours, his body coming into contact with your skin. Your legs automatically wrapping around his waist and his hips thrusting into you. He moved his hand to your already undone zipper and slipped his hand into your panties, two digits rubbing against you, his forehead pressed against yours and his breath heavy and warm against your face.

He stood up briefly to undress and got back to pleasure you. Every time you tried to touch him he’d press your hand into the bed, he only wanted to see you in pleasure, he wanted nothing from you, instead of fighting it you enjoyed the moment. You were beginning to get so wet Kihyun wasn’t able to hold back, you looked at him reassuringly and it wasn’t long before he pressed his whole member into you.

He sat up with you, you were on his lap now and he rested his weight by leaning back and supporting himself with his arms. He had the perfect view of you on top of his dick, moving up and down slowly, teasing him. You continued to slide up and down his dick while your hands grazed your clit, outlined your waist and moved to your breasts. You were putting on a show for him and you could feel him throb inside you. After a while he sat up and wrapped his arms around you, pressing his mouth onto your breast, his tongue nibbling on your nipple. Your fingers tangled in his hair and as quiet as you were trying to be you couldn’t hold it back anymore, you didn’t care who heard you.

Once Kihyun noticed you broke he got rougher. He manhandled you into the position he wanted, you were on your stomach with your ass out to him. A shadow fell over his face, he dived deep into you making you squeal. His hands were grabbing onto your ass and he was ramming himself into you, you bit into the sheets while he spanked you as hard as he could. Your ass was raw and you felt your orgasm approach at an alarming rate.

Finally, you weren’t the only moaning mess in the room, with every stroke Kihyun began to give in, the roughness started to disappear while he crumbled in front of you. His high was coming fast because his grip on your ass got tighter and his breath was faster. His finger nails dug deep into your back and within the next few seconds you and Kihyun were riding out your highs. For the whole time it was quiet in the room but not while you and Kihyun were orgasming, you were squealing while he moaned your name.

After he filled you up, you stumbled your way to the bathroom to clean yourself up. When you went back into the room Kihyun was still recovering. His forehead glistening from the drops of sweat on it, he always looked so good. You lied down next to him and this time it was him who was running his fingers through your hair.

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Not So Randomly | Part 5/5 [END]

🌟 Pairing : Im Changkyun (I.M) x Reader

🌟 Genre : Fluff, Angst

🌟 Warnings : I’m not a smut writer, but let’s say suggestive… 😏

🌟 Word count : 17.4k

🌟 Synopsis : Whenever you cross the path of Im Changkyun, that guy you hate and that hates you, it seems to be the worst day of your life. But, strangely enough, it also becomes the best and most accurate of moments you’ve ever had. So, the more you randomly end up stucked with each other, the more a question can arise : is it really chance that has something against you, or is it serendipity that drives you one towards the other?

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🌟 A/N : This is it… This is the end, this is the last part, and I myself can’t believe it. I also can’t thank you guys enough for reading until then, for trusting my writing and waiting for the next part (sorry for publishing it after so long...). You, every single one of you that has read it, are the reason I could end it proudly and with a lot of joy to share it with you. 

This is only my second work on Tumblr but my first series so I feel reaaaally emo about this now, I’m sorry, but once again T H A N K  Y O U.

Enjoy this last part as much as I have, and stan MONSTA X! #DRAMARAMA #MONSTAX1stwin #letsgetit ♥♥♥

And to finish, I wanted to thank and dedicate this part to @bang-nao​ who has been of great great support since the beginning and helped me write this fic til the end with the best words she’s told me! I hope you like the end! ♥

Disclaimer : any gifs or images used, even edited, are not mine and belong to their rightful owners!

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  Love. One word that made the kids at school frown and say "errrrk" every time they're asked if they have a lover ; the teenagers and young adults' hearts flutter, bodies energetic and minds full of questions every time they feel he or she is the one before they end up crying with snacks surrounding them or taking poor decisions to digest their umpteenth breakup ; and parents think back of the times when they went through those same crises, with a smile on their faces as they watch over the very people who gave love a whole new meaning to them.

And to you, it was a mix of all that, but without being exactly the same : from the frown you gave the first time you had realized you loved Im Changkyun the asshole ; to the craziness of your heart, body and mind every time Im Changkyun the loveable had been near you ; to the tears you had shed because of his behavior as well as yours ; to the poor decision you had made just now by panicking while you were finally sure of everything ; to the smile that had disguised your lips as you had watched him on stage, and that he had taken away the second he turned his back on you.

The music was piercing your eardrums and the neon spots were blurring your vision, but you were trying your best to focus on every single human being under your eyes to find the only one you cared about right now. However, everything in the warehouse was hectic ; the party had really started in no time, bodies already bouncing against each other and yours by the way, screams of lyrics perturbing you, and darkness reducing your chances to spot him quickly. You then decided to go upstairs, where couches and tables had been displayed for momentary pauses or peaceful discussions, hoping you'd have a better view from above as you sure could recognize that fool only from the top of his head.

He couldn't have disappeared that quickly, could he...? Your hunt for Changkyun had only begun when you suddenly heard a familiar voice above the noise :

"Looking for someone?"

You turned your head to your right to discover Gyujeong, with his elbows leaning on the fence and almost touching yours, a smile on his face. You jumped in surprise before tipping back to watch if Hwimin was anywhere near him because if that was the case, you had to run away immediately. Not now. The dark-haired guy caught the fear in your eyes that were going back and forth between him and the landscape behind his frame, and he spoke up again :

"He's not here, oh my god Y/N calm down!"

"Sorry, I'm just... Not ready. I have something to do before!" you protested over the music, your attention drown back to the crowd dancing and cheering under your feet, and Gyujeong followed your stare.

"Who was the guy you were with earlier? You seemed pretty close…" he asked and you sighed.

"I don't really know right now..." you sincerely answered.

Gyujeong tilted his head before drinking a sip from his red cup, and he shot you a curious look once you turned to him, your left side against the barrier and a sly smile dressing your lips.

"And you? Shouldn't you be with someone we both know too damn well?"

He laughed and nodded in defeat, before biting his bottom lip.

"So you caught me... I'm actually looking for her too. Great view huh?" he smiled shyly, making you laugh.

"Do you want me to call her?" You asked, taking your phone from your purse but Gyujeong placed a hand on yours to stop you.

"You're okay with this? I mean... us?" He looked at you with concern in his eyes, and you used your free hand to place it on his broad shoulder.

"I totally get why you like each other, you're exactly the same" you breathed, closing your eyes in acknowledgement. "Yes, I'm okay. I bet on you since the beginning, and I can't waste all your efforts to get to her rock-like heart now that you're almost there!"

Gyujeong laughed another time and he let go of your hand, but the smile you had shared with him instantly disappeared when you caught a glimpse of a familiar silhouette approaching the both of you. Not now.

"Hey Y/N!" his high pitched voice melted in your ears, while his shy smile brightened his cute face, and you felt your members froze in their place as he was waving at you.

Hwimin made his way between Gyujeong and you, and you saw his best friend wiggle his brows at you before he disappeared in no time, leaving you both in an awkward silence – well with background music at least but your lips were sealed – and without you seeing it coming, your blood started to boil into your veins and you felt hot flashes burning your cheeks as well as your neck. Hwimin faced you, leaning his side against the barrier as you did and you could see from the way he was looking at the dark liquid he was turning into his cup, that he was as flustered as you to be reunited after so long, after your last goodbye that had been... Well… Emotional.

"Can we... Like... Talk outside?" he suggested, brushing his hair with his left hand and you felt your heart stricken into your chest.

You couldn't prevent yourself from thinking back of those simple moments when you had been going to high school parties together, enjoying with your friends and drinking love shots ridiculously, because that's how he was back then. But as you recalled his Instagram pictures, you shook your head as you now were sure you couldn't spend those kinds of moments with him anymore. He had changed and so had you ; so had your feelings for him, yet when he landed his squirrel eyes on you, you felt chills going down your spine and your hands growing wet instantly, showing you you were affected. But in which kind of way...?

"Y-Yeah, sure..." you reluctantly answered, gulping hard as you threw one last look towards the crowd without seeing Changkyun this time too.

However, if you had lost sight of him the moment you were separated, Changkyun had never lost track of you. He was posted at the very end of the bar, right next to the stage where he had performed with all his heart, heart that was beating hardly after you had just sat on it with your attitude. And right now, he was observing you going down the stairs with some guy he quickly but rightfully concluded to be your ex, and it definitely triggered the time bomb he had in him. You were going to deal with it like that? So would he. Changkyun emptied up his drink instantly and, like the time at the pool party, he decided he'd suppress his feelings for a while by enjoying everything tonight that hadn't anything to do with you, or your eyes, or your face, or your lips he was dying to kiss, or your hands, or your body perfectly fitted for your damn outfit, or your...

 You hadn't expected to be that agitated by the return of your ex into your life, as you couldn't even reason yourself that it was just for one night at the moment. Why did it hurt in some way?

The closer you grew to him as you walked outside, the more every single one of the feelings you ever had for him started to tingle next to your unprepared heart, the souvenir of his small lips on yours suddenly the clearer it could be, those lips you were now able to see through the darkness and that finally moved once you found a quiet spot to talk around the warehouse :

"Long time no see." he finally said in a sweet voice, and your words fought in your head to get out at once.

You didn't know if that was because of the sparkling world Changkyun had left you in – despite your argument that had tarnished it –, but you found yourself thinking that he still was cute, even when you had summoned yourself to remain indifferent before you went to the party, even when you had been persuaded that your feelings for Changkyun were making you blind to anyone else's beauty anyway. How come your predictions about yourself could be so wrong? A few seconds went by and you still hadn't said anything, as you were growing close to the scary conclusion that even if it was just for one night, your reunion with Hwimin was going to ask from you a lot more effort than what you had planned.

Despite what he had done to you and how much he had seemed to change, you noticed that Hwimin still cared about you and had come to know you in his own way, as he didn't press you nor maintained his insisting look on your blushing face. Yet, he unexpectedly ran his hands through his pockets and didn't catch the surprise in your eyes when he took out a cigarette from them as well as a lighter, before he started to smoke, waiting for your answer.

"So now you smoke?" you finally spoke up, and Hwimin looked up to you with his brows up on his forehead.

"Oh? Oh I always have, I just didn't do it in front of you because I knew you didn't like it" he smiled awkwardly before breathing out some grey smoke in the air.

You didn't know if you had to feel disappointed that he had hidden such an important aspect of his personality from you back then, or thankful that he had been considerate of you doing so, so you only nodded, grimacing at the same time as the smoke came accidently right into your face.

"S-Sorry, I'll stop I-"

"That's fine, finish it" you cut him as he had bent down to crash it on the ground, so he straightened himself before putting the cigarette back into his mouth.

"So... How have you been doing?" he tried.

"Pretty fine, and you?"

"Same..."

Silence. You wanted to bury yourself into the ground, his eyes on you enough to kill you.

"Look Y/N I..."

"Don't tell me you're sorry again or else I'm leaving right now" you interfered, having had enough with his excuses as they had been the only damn words you had heard in your head every time you had thought about him.

He chuckled, throwing his head in the back before taking another puff on the thin cylinder of paper, tobacco and some other bad things for one's organism.

"I was going to say that I missed you, but I don't think that's any better now" he frankly replied and you got taken aback.

Gyujeong had warned you, when he had read the messages Hwimin had sent you, that his best friend was obviously trying to get you back, but you hadn't believed him at that time, or more precisely you had banished that foolish possibility from your mind as it wasn't logical in any way for you.

However, he had said it, with his eyes looking anywhere but you and his cheeks amazingly turning red from embarrassment, but even without this physical hint you would've known his state of mind just by his expression that was between the urge to laugh nervously and the shock from having been that honest without boundaries.

"You dumped me, Hwimin, remember? Don't you think it's a little bit late to regret and say this?" you asked, an ounce of sarcasm lacing your voice while you crossed your arms on your chest.

You needed to stay strong. To stick to what you had been saying to yourself ever since he broke up with you so you'd move on – well, had you really needed to do that little lecture? Or Changkyun hadn't he done everything himself?

"I know I know. But it takes a mistake for someone to realize things, am I wrong?" he exhaled, smiling to himself before locking eyes with you who had been looking at him stressing out ever since you had settled outside.

He marked a point, Changkyun could be the first one to testify, and so were you tonight after having been a coward, making you open your eyes on your feelings and what you truly wanted.

"You're right" you only added, waiting for him to continue – and somehow, to finish, soon, what he had to say.

"So yeah… I realized that I missed you, I missed..." he laughed, clearly getting shyer second by second and you could feel your heart melt before the sight. "I missed us." he shrugged. "I wasn't even interested in other girls you know, yes I had fun at my parties and stuff'-"

"I could clearly see that" you mumbled, cutting him off unwillingly and catching him off guard.

"W-What do you mean?"

"Your social networks tell a lot, Hwimin. A lot that I couldn't even recognize, and now that you also revealed to me you've always smoked even while being with me, I wonder if I ever knew you, at all. I wonder if the guy I dated, and ended up liking at some point, wasn't just some role you had showed off so that you could please me, because I know you liked me first. I wonder if the real you wasn't the one you are now, and maybe I don't know anymore."

"I'm still the same, Y/N, it's the business schools' life that I follow but I'm still me! I've always been true with you I swear!"

Hwimin took a step towards you after having thrown away his cigarette, and his arms extended quickly like a spasm before dropping to his sides, and you assisted to a wave of frustration drowning on him and his patience as he brushed his face with the palms of his hands while sighing loudly.

He suddenly looked… desperate.

"I know you don't believe in me right now. I… I fucked up really bad. But I swear I'm the same Lee Hwimin. I'm Hwim! And because I never felt that way with someone else before… Fuck, I missed you and I'm not here to apologize because I know you'll kill me, but to ask you to give me another chance."

You prevented your right hand to place itself onto your heart that was about to explode from its increasing heartbeat, or to maintain your jaw that could drop to your feet at any moment. How come you only met boys not only that regret passing by you, but that were also that fucking straightforward about their feelings? Shouldn't boys be the ones that don't express themselves and make girls run miles and miles after them only to have a semblance of demonstration coming from them at the end?

"I can't, Hwimin. I can't." you half-whispered.

It weirdly hurt you to reject him like that when he had just sincerely poured out his feelings for you, even more with that desperate and somehow needy look in his eyes, as you had known him to be discreet about them.

"Won't you ask me why?" you overbid, growing anxious at his lack of answer or reaction.

Indeed, your ex was just standing before you and it took him a few seconds before he nodded and smiled sadly, finally digesting the rejection after having been slapped by your words.

"It's the guy I saw you with earlier, isn't it?" he asked in return, digging into his pockets once again but more nervously this time, as he took another cigarette and lightened it faster than at the beginning of your discussion.

So he did see something… You felt short of breath all of a sudden, heat steaming under your eyelids and signaling you the arrival of tears that were, as usual, unwelcomed, so you looked up at the deep night sky to fight them back. Were they linked to your uneasiness? To guilt? To stress? Or to the souvenirs with Hwimin that kept confusing you and your decisions?

"Y-Yes."

He chuckled and the sound electrocuted you.

"I should be happy for you, that's right? I mean, I'm the one who messed up that relationship so I have no say in this" he almost said to himself, his eyes no longer looking at you as they were focusing on whatever was on the ground, and it killed you to see him like this.

You didn't blame him for dumping you with a poor reason anymore, and, as you had affirmed to Gyujeong, you still cared about him. So you started to feel bad for possibly making him think you had moved on that quickly from him, when you had left him with the image of you crying as the last one he could remember, image which was supposed to reflect how much you liked him back then. But deep down you knew, he had been some kind of rebound at first, and Solhee had told you she had warned him about it in your place ; still he had been willing to go out with you, and right now you felt bad about it. Really really bad.

"I… I just wanted you to know…" you stuttered, searching for the right words but shocking yourself for speaking up when in reality you had no idea what was going on in your busy head. "He's the guy from last summer. Hadn't it been for him, I wouldn't have been attracted to anyone else for a while. I really liked you, Hwimin. But… I think love him. He came back into my life, and he took back his fucking place, and I couldn't do anything about it."

Your ex finally acknowledged you as he heard the trembling in your voice, and the second his small and dark eyes landed on your confused face, you bit your bottom lip firmly so that the stupid tears wouldn't spill out. Shit, why were you so emotional about it? What about being indifferent? What about being disgusted of him and end up things once and for all without blaming yourself in the end?

"Hey hey hey, stop giving me excuses Y/N. And I see you want to cry you little emo…" Hwimin suddenly joked, and it magically lifted something from your oppressed chest. "I already told you, I have no say in this. I was close to you, Y/N, and even if it was just for a short moment, I still saw you were someone sincere. That guy is fucking lucky, he has no idea."

There he was. There he had been. The Lee Hwimin you had known. The Lee Hwimin you had fallen for, not deeply enough, but still. The Lee Hwimin who seemed to be a child, without anything mature nor serious about him, always telling jokes, pulling pranks, doing silly things, except when he had been with you and you only. There, in the school's empty hallways, in the streets or the parks with your hands intertwined, on his bed lying next to each other, he had been manly and had given you advices, reassured you, confessed a little bit more about himself ; he had let down his guard and had shown you he could be anything but the "cool and funny guy of the class". And there he was, being resolute but with a smile on his face, being understanding even if deep down you could guess he was hurt, being far from the party guy that had broken up to live freely. He hadn't changed.

"It's weird because I'm about to say sorry when to begin with you're the one who was supposed to be at fault" you giggled, caressing slowly your naked arms that were freezing cold.

"Then don't, I have nothing to forgive here. It's my loss lady!" he exclaimed, ending up his cigarette and this time, when he put his hands in his pockets, it was only to stay in a relaxed position that fitted well with the atmosphere that had become lighter.

You stared at him a few more seconds, making sure you had shut down every single voice in your head telling you something else than "you took the right decision, no regrets, you can feel at ease!" – lucky for you, they spoke up less than ten seconds, because your mind soon had welcomed back the memory of Changkyun rapping on stage, making your heart flutter and ache to see him at the same time. Your guilt towards Hwimin had just been put to an end and by him himself, leaving a vacant spot for the one you were feeling for Changkyun a few moments ago, that gladly took it back.

" Maybe we should stop talking already, if he sees you with me he'll-"

"He doesn't have a say in this" you quoted, making the boy in front of you laugh wholeheartedly this time. "But I'm not against going back into the warehouse because I'm going to die from cold!"

"You… You're okay for spending the party with me?" Hwimin shyly asked, his little mouth forming a round.

"Why not? We're okay now, and if I don't that means I can't stay with my own best friend because you're going to return to yours who's probably smooching her somewhere down there right now!"

You turned around and started to walk, feeling suddenly confident and a thousand times better. Now, all you had to do to finally have your life sorted out, was to find the ugly bastard you loved and clear things up, so you were growing impatient. Hwimin followed behind you, a smile now stretching his lips and if you couldn't hear it, he could feel nothing in his body but the boom of his heart against his ribcage.

"I'm fine with being friends, but if that's too selfish of me then I'm also fine if you don't want to" you finally confessed.

Maybe, you were letting yourself go too quickly ; maybe, you should settle for only making things up with your ex and not cross the line ; maybe, as most of people would say, it was a bad idea to keep him as a friend into your life ; however, your heart was telling you to at least try, the distance as a fatal argument to convince you it wouldn't be that hard to manage. Deep deep down though, your inner self was slowly admitting that you would actually like to meet with him and the potential couple from time to time, and that without feeling weird or uneasy towards each other.

"No, that's fine by me. I had prepared myself to be rejected and ask to be friends anyway, Gyujeong never ceases to blame me for having destroyed our super quartet" he sniggered and you turned your head to look at him and so did he, and in his eyes you could read his sincerity.

  ***

  You entered the warehouse and as you started to follow him towards the bar where he guessed your friends would be, you suddenly spotted your long-hunted target, still at the end of the bar, apparently talking with a group of friends – all smiles and laughs, how curious for someone who was in such a bad mood before.

"Excuse me, I have something to do, I'll be right back" you informed Hwimin who nodded without asking, and you suddenly split your duo to go past more and more people, until you finally reached Im Changkyun the magnificent, in all his beauty and sexiness that shook you to the core for the fourth time in the evening, but you hurriedly focused on what you had to tell him – those fucking things he hadn't let you earlier.

Of course he would be at the bar. The first and only time you had went to a party with him, you could clearly picture the image of him running away from you after the kiss to go drink and drink in Minhyuk's kitchen, and now you knew it had been to mop up his emotions ; so it should be the case tonight. That was his own way of brushing off everything – as a lot of good drinkers around you right now – but you needed to explain yourself before he'd be too drunk to understand, your impatient heart unable to think of letting the situation pending any longer. You just had to say it : I really really really like you, Changkyun – not love, you were still scared of admitting it yourself and when you had dropped the word in front of your ex, you had been about to die. It was going to be hard, with people surrounding you and the loud music forcing you to scream it with all your heart when all you wanted was some intimate moment with him. Anyway, no time for whims and requirements, you had to fix what you had done.

You grasped his shoulder as he was taking another drink in his large hands, not caring about his friends that glanced at you with curious eyes. Yet, you lost confidence when his own dropped on you and you saw they were as dark as ever, the smile he had given to the barman also falling instantly.

"What do you want?" he said in a monotone, his famous leveled-up chin defying you, and you felt some urge to kick him pulsating into your veins as you wished for him to throw away his cocky demeanor sometimes.

"To talk. You didn't let me finish and just went your way, that's not fair Changkyun" you exposed over the music, and you plainly caught the annoyed look that got him.

His friends beside him signaled him they were returning to the dancefloor, especially a girl who clung onto him and started to drag him gently while smiling weirdly at you – was that even a smile? You couldn't mirror her hypocrisy as you shot her an angry look.

"Excuse me but we're not done here, so could you be polite and wait please?" you asked through gritted teeth, and the girl finally let go of your hopefully-soon-to-be-boyfriend, whom eyes grew big.

"Hey, stop it Y/N!" he finally interfered, then he turned away from you to whisper something into her ear, and you swore you were about to burst.

He wasn't paying any attention to you nor what you had to say ; he couldn't even dodge that girl to focus on you, no ; oh God, how you hated the fuckboy he became every time he entered a party.

"Who's she? She's ruining your mood when we're not even started…" you overheard the words coming from her pink-tinted plum lips that brushed against his pierced ear.

"Look, Y/N, I just want to enjoy right now, let's talk later, huh? I don't want to do this right now" he spoke up without looking at you and it left you shocked, your heart blowing up and the heat of your body going past the temperature from the hottest fever you ever had.

How could he care less? Changkyun nodded at the bitch that smiled at you slyly and gave him a high five he received without great enthusiasm, but still had.

"Wow. Wow, okay Changkyun. Yeah, let's talk later, if you don't end hooking up with some girl to forget about me, like last time" you spat and you saw it rang a bell inside his seemingly empty head, as some light in his dim eyes got finally turned on.

"Don't start with this, I just want to party and we can talk tomorrow! Don't try to make me take the blame here, you shouldn't have-"

"Have a nice evening." you smiled in a chanting tone and you went past him and his chick that you caught laughing, making you want to slap her for being this disrespectful, but only after having killed him for humiliating you right in front of her two eyes.

Let's enjoy he said. You couldn't wrap your head around his capacity of leaving your relationship under a question mark when so much had happened in no time, nor how he could have been so passionate about it earlier and so laid-back right now. You were truly angry and hurt at the moment, yet you were willing to wait for him to step down from his pedestal from where he had just looked down on you and your feelings, because you still felt guilty for having angered and hurt him too first. Such a beautiful give and take.

 Nevertheless, your wish to ignore each other and spend a great night without thinking back of what happened wasn't going to last long, as soon a beer pong was organized outside by the student's association. To be honest, you were quite talented at this game – your friends in high school even called you Miss BPong – so you hurried yourself towards one of the two tables with your quartet as a team ready to challenge. However, you just had installed yourself and taken over the ping pong ball, when another group was called to face yours after having listed their team name near the student's association representative. And without great surprise now, your team had randomly ended up paired with Changkyun's, which included Hoseok, Jooheon, and also the clingy girl who didn't seem to be able to let go of the moron's arm. It made your heart sunk that he let her be, but your solid pride and the now sufficient amount of alcohol in your blood helped you smile at him who, on the contrary, couldn't hide how pissed off he became the second he heard you call for Hwimin in the crowd so that he'd get ready to play.

Oh, he didn't know what was about to happen to him. He didn't know how determined you were to make him pay right now. He didn't know the real reason behind the bright smile you gave both him and his chick, and you could clearly see in his sharp eyes that it confused the heck out of him. He immediately volunteered to face you, probably wishing it would destabilize you, when in reality it had been what you had wanted since you had spotted him in the opponent's team, so you chuckled as you caught him biting his bottom lip in anticipation. He looks so good, even when tipsy. You made the ball bounce a few times on the table, and when the representative gave the signal, you threw the little white object which landed perfectly in a cup. Your team and the spectators around you – curious students and smokers – screamed as you faked a reverence, then glanced at Changkyun who cracked his neck twice before emptying up the glass, all the while looking at you suspiciously.

Even when the players switched, Changkyun and you didn't lose eye-contact, making your heart pound hard into your chest and your body crave to go to him and steal him away, until a group of five girls approached him with smiles on their faces. Your eyes diverted towards them, curiosity tingling your insides, so you focused on hearing what they were about to say.

"Hey, we just wanted to tell you we were impressed by your rap earlier! You're sooooo talented" one of them engaged, and you could only shut your mouth and agree.

No way were you going to get jealous, because what they didn't know, was that beautiful rap had been written for you and you only.

"Oh… Thanks girls" the grey-haired moron answered while scratching his neck, sign of his intimidation, and you saw him look at you from the corner of his eye for less than a second.

"It sounded like it was for someone in particular, was it? I wish it had been for me…" another one chuckled in a way too girly tone for your taste, so you just rolled your eyes at her remark – and Changkyun gladly caught that.

At least, you could acknowledge her guts to flirt with him so openly.

"Yeah kind of, but everyone else can identify y'know it's the purpose of a song" he shrugged, straightening himself for you to witness how proud he felt right now, proud of being complimented but also proud of shoving a pin right into your face.

Seriously? You turned around to prevent him from noticing your upset expression, but luckily Hwimin made a goal exactly at the same time, helping you to smile and hide behind the victory's poker face. Changkyun was obviously analyzing each one of your actions and reactions, but you wouldn't give him any kind of personal satisfaction. So you only cheered with your team and when your turn came again, you were more than eager to make him drink and transform his fuckboy brain into nothing else but a puddle of alcohol. However, the boy knew the tricks to play on you, knew the right strings to pull at your heart, knew you were totally fond of him so as he had the privilege to shoot first at this round, he enjoyed it for taking his time in flustering you.

He first combed his hair in the back with his beautiful ringed fingers so that it would reveal his forehead – one bullet, bam! –  ; then, he dropped his suede jacket on his broad shoulders that thankfully were hidden under his turtleneck but it fitted his torso in every single inch possible – second bullet boy – ; to finally glance at your more than boiling face. And he smirked, yes, he used that killing smirk of his, well aware that his looks had been an excellent weapon to use – all kill.

Well done Changbitch, you silently chuckled as regardless of the success of his attitude, he still had acted like some hot girl appealing her charms to her target. You both were being so childish, you both were way too stubborn to let go and surrender first, but how amused you were feeling seeing him trying hard to get through your façade.

So, with his overall sexy and cocky appearance, also shooting love bullets at every girl around that had their eyes full of stars on him, Changkyun threw the ball and of course, chance decided he would make it so it would be funnier. You nodded in silence, ignoring his last look before he turned to hug his teammates and thank his "fans" that were literally going crazy over one successful shot. You drank slowly, taking time in evacuating the effect he just had dropped on you, hoping it would join the liquor going down your body.

Then again, the sweaty palms made their great return as well as the wobbling legs, because the tipsy you could only feel more attacked than usually by all his inconspicuous and indirect actions meant for you. You shot the ball a little carelessly this time, as the need to step aside and breathe some fresh air was urging you to end your turn. Yet, your talent hadn't let you down as you successfully made him drink too, earning an expression on his face that clearly related what you shared on your minds : "Excellent".

"Waaaah Y/N you're really a pro, always making it at first try!" Jooheon suddenly exclaimed and his bright smile warmed you up, as well as Hoseok's thumbs lifted up to your address.

Changkyun was also smiling at you, then Hwimin slammed his hands against yours and grabbed you by the neck to shake it, like a gest of approbation that coaches do with their best sports' element when they win. You giggled with him, ignoring the deadly stare at you coming from the other side, as you now were strictly happy to spend the night with Hwimin and his true self that always made you laugh. Like old times, like good times. Alcohol had dispelled the awkwardness between the both of you, and it was as if you had returned to high school's parties with your favorite friends, the only thing that had changed being the word "friendship" instead of "lovers" labeled on your relationship with Hwimin now.

Players switched, Jooheon taking the place to face your ex, and you finally reported your attention to Changkyun that had crossed his arms and was poking his cheek with his tongue, obviously having been disturbed by the sudden skinship and friendliness going on between Hwimin and you. You just had reunited and he could touch you like that? However, as you watched each other in silence for a few seconds, you feeling totally satisfied by him being jealous, Changkyun's heart felt at ease with him being your only source of care again. Until Hwimin marked a point and pulled you into a team hug.

"What's going on between the both of you? Even I myself can feel the pressure, it's so thick guys" Hoseok whispered to his dongsaeng, who had started to tap his feet against the ground before exhaling loudly.

"You see that guy over there?" he answered, pointing at Hwimin who still had an arm on both Solhee's and your shoulders. "That's her ex. I can't stay calm."

"Ahhhh I see... That's why you've been acting like a playboy for ten minutes straight now" Hoseok mocked him, receiving a nudge of Changkyun's left elbow. "What? Admit it! Don't worry it works, she was flustered every time!"

"Who was flustered by what?" Jooheon entered the conversation as he had left his place for the only girl of their team to play.

"See for yourself" Changkyun shrugged, designating you with a small nod of his head, and by chance you just had landed your eyes on him at this very moment, a perfect timing for Jooheon to catch you in a moment of pure weakness as you were biting your lip.

"I. See. Sexual tension in here. You're too young for this maknae!" Jooheon whined before punching him hard on the arm.

"Yah! Are you crazy?! It hurts!" he frowned while checking if you had witnessed that – but no you were talking to Hwimin once again amazing –, even if deep down he had been more attacked by the s word than by the hit itself.

"As much as it hurts me to see two young people turned on! You're not even dating yet!" his best friend replied back, making Hoseok burst into laughter.

"We're not turned on! We're not..." Changkyun mumbled in a less convinced tone, his glance still on you who were fanning yourself with both of your hands.

Are we?

 The game went on and on, Changkyun and you ridiculously pursuing your plans to destabilize each other as well as showing the other one you weren't affected at all – when in fact you both were dying to kiss those lips that met cups after cups. Changkyun felt his heartbeat increase every time he faced you in that fucking gorgeous bodysuit, with your lipstick starting to fade from the sour liquid brushing against it, but what triggered him the most was the kind of tension floating between the both of you. Sexual or not, bullshit Jooheon. He liked, no, he loved it, his competitive and manly side on the lookout, and the more his eyes landed on the proud and fiery woman you were, the more he wanted to push it further to the edge to witness what you would bloom into. He adored how mad at him you were and how swiftly you were taking your revenge right now, with a fierce look that had made its home in your eyes, a nonchalant demeanor that possessed your body moves, the smiles you were giving him ; everything that was supposed to frustrate him only stimulated him.

He, wasn't even mad anymore – did he even know in what state he was except that his body felt good with all the liquor he had drank by now? He didn't even care about your ex being here anymore, even if deep down it had reassured him to see you more into himself  than into Hwimin's presence. Just with your little game within a game, you were showing him you had a real interest in him only, and that's all that mattered to him. He could grasp your attention, as even when you were not facing him directly behind the table, he felt your stare on him – and his "fans" he didn't give a shit about but only acted like it so you would be even madder. Oh, how he loved to be selfish ; but moreover, how he loved to feel desired by the woman he loved, when he had feared you didn't want him the way he did at the beginning of the party.

   ***

   The last ball was shot, the last cup was emptied up, and with that, you linked your arms with your best friend that was drunker than you – she had started to hiccup as a hint – to go dance, because you hadn't truly enjoyed the music ever since you arrived, as you had only been going around the warehouse. As if the party had been located outside for you. You purposely didn't look back and left Changkyun behind you, still in the act of the indifferent but fatal girl ; still, your body and heart were screaming that your foolish and tensed game had almost killed them, even more than the alcohol which was finally manifesting itself. Your head was floating above your body, your vision saw brighter colors, you didn't feel the cold anymore, and the cheers on the dancefloor came louder into your sensitive ears. Thankfully though, you were not that drunk and still in control of your senses, except for the fact they were magnified.

So magnified that, twenty minutes later, when a hand closed itself around your naked arm, you instantly felt chills going up and down your flesh ; worse, when you discovered that the owner of this hand was Changkyun himself, your arm went numb. Like when you had been reunited just after his performance, some fireworks exploded into your stomach while your heart beat strongly but slowly, and you stopped dancing to face his silhouette under the spotlights.

"What do you want?" you imitated him, determined to resist a little longer to his charms because the reasonable side you were holding onto was reminding you of how cocky he had been back at the bar.

Changkyun smiled and looked up, not fully rolling his eyes, and you finally spotted something shining on his head.

"Where did you even get that?!" you shouted over the music, pointing at the fake crown perfectly disposed on his light hair.

"There's a lot of accessories in lodges you know! Didn't you see the girl who performed with that on the head earlier?" he asked.

"No sorry, I was too busy fighting then looking for your ugly ass during the rest of the concert" you replied and he laughed cutely this time, making you frown in incomprehension.

What was happening to him?

Suddenly, he bent down until his mouth was near your ear this time, and his low voice so close to your eardrums felt like white noise as you almost cringed at the sound.

"Let's go outside."

Without asking, you followed him – well more exactly he pulled you by the arm he hadn't let go of – and you went even further than where you had been with Hwimin. Changkyun leaded the way to another warehouse next to the party's, its big doors already opened and a lone spot lightning heaps of scrap garbage or whatever your eyes couldn't decipher through the night.

"Oh my gosh my ears are thanking me for this" the boy finally spoke up, his voice resounding in the whole building, and he freed you from his grasp to go and sit on what looked like the corpse of a destroyed car.

You stopped in front of the engine, too lazy to follow and you crossed your arms as you observed him starting to eat some snacks you didn't even want to know where he had found them. The picture looked surreal, and it felt like time had stopped to let you enter another place with Im Changkyun the prince ; you almost forgot about the party going on right next to you as you plunged yourself totally in the bubble you had been dying to find yourself in with him ever since your argument. Finally, the two of you were alone.

"Do you enjoy yourself tonight? Having a good time?" you asked sarcastically.

"Yesssss, and you?" he answered as mischievously as you, his head tilted on the side.

"It's not over yet you know, so what is it? I thought you wanted to party and talk to me only tomorrow" you shrugged as the munch sound of crisps in his mouth was almost as loud as the music back there.

"My stomach thanks me too I was so hungry..." he mumbled to himself in satisfaction. "Well, I changed my mind" he then answered louder, finally looking at you instead of his precious bag.

"And what made you do so?" you overbid, tapping your feet on the dusty ground as his gaze was somehow starting to make you nervous.

Nervous to finally talk it out, nervous to finally have him to yourself only, nervous to probably have to confess your feelings at any moment now. Changkyun chuckled and shoved another crisp into his mouth while making his right leg swing back and forth into the emptiness. Alright, it looked like he was willing to give you a hard time for a little bit longer.

"It's a secret." he said, placing a dirty finger over his full mouth. "Now tell me, what you wanted to say so bad, I'm willing to hear it."

Your heart went up your throat and your mouth went dry. What was clear in your mind was so hard to express vocally now that you had to ; with some beer in your organism, with his intense stare that could kill you, with the emotions you were put through every time he was near you.

"Okay hum... I... I'm sorry, for what I did earlier. But I felt uneasy with my ex being here. Not because I'm not sure about you, I am... Just because I wanted it to be a special and intimate moment, and... He didn't have to see this... Oh my god what am I even saying-"

"I got it." Changkyun spoke up in his deep voice, and he suddenly jumped off the car, landing right in front of you, without enough space to extend an arm between your two frames. "I've seen the guy too now, and honestly... I don't feel threatened in the end" he confessed – and lied – out loud, his eyes looking up as if he was thinking again about it before shaking his head from the left to the right in certainty.

Changkyun the cocky ass, never too far away.

"You're incredible" you scoffed in disbelief, and the boy laughed proudly before fixing his golden crown on his big head.

"Sooooo what you were telling me in the end is that you like me and only me right? You're finally accepting my confession that I worked so hard to write and rap for you tonight? Because you kinda left me in standby earlier and that perturbed and pissed me off y'know, you should know how it feels like to be stopped when you're about to kiss s-"

"Oh my god how come you are so talkative when you're drunk? Stop drinking and ranting and kiss me already!" you whined in frustration, cutting the speech he had delivered in a higher tone than usual and with some facial expressions you wished you could have taken a picture of.

Your little outburst made him freeze, his eyes going wide and his brows jumping up on his forehead, before they fell back to fit with a lustful gaze you hadn't expected to show up so soon. You suddenly regretted having lost your patience so fast and being so eager to feel him close, as the more he was looking through you without mouthing a word, the more you were starting to grow shy and unconfident.

"Don't you dare stop me this time. I won't survive it." he said in his lowest voice, giving you the chills and your weak arms previously crossed fell down to your sides, instinctively showing him you were not on the defensive side anymore.

And with that being warned, in the flash of a second, Changkyun's hands placed themselves in the crook of your burning neck and he gently pulled at it, until his thin lips pressed themselves against yours.

It was better than what you had ever tried to imagine when thinking about the very first kiss of your relationship. It was deep and full of passion, even more than last time when he had surprised you in the university's yard. Changkyun kissed you again and again, his breath coming desperately from his Egyptian nose brushing against your face. Oh yes, he was a good kisser, whatever the reason for it was ; he knew how to place his mouth on yours too damn well. Or maybe, it was because the kiss was from him that it felt perfect. In both ways, you were enchanted.

You weren't like the girl in dramas that stays petrified in her body and lets the guy kiss her, no ; you were more the type to turn into raging flames and allow your body to express itself ardently, consuming itself in the heat of the moment. So you suddenly wrapped your arms around his waist, under his jacket, surprising him without realizing it, and you grasped his black top harder than what you yourself had expected. You were seeing stars behind your closed eyelids, and you felt like you were transported in another galaxy where only you and him mattered, where he was the only thing you could see, smell, hear and touch ; yes, most of all touch, with his body under your fingers that was warm and securing, and that he pushed further towards yours to feel more and more of you.

Finally, he ran out of breath so he departed from you but without moving his hands from the spot they seemed to have been designed for, his thumbs now caressing slowly your jawline. He looked at your wet and glistening lips at first, wanting to print into his head this beautiful image and remember what they had felt like every time he would picture it.

"Was it intimate enough for you to like it this time?" he asked in a low and vibrating tone, and with your eyes still closed, you nodded slowly.

He gave you another kiss on the forehead, a long and meaningful one, hoping you'd feel how much he was head over heels for you. See, he had not even lasted more than 20 minutes without you in his sight after the beer-pong, your face the only thing he had been seeing and discouraging him from his initial plan to report everything to tomorrow. Finally, the both of you could be together. You and him had waited so long for this moment to come, turning around each other without ever reaching, and now that it had happened, you both felt the need to save this moment forever into your hearts and minds, so you stayed quiet for a minute, holding each other and feeling each other.

"Yah Y/L/N Y/N" he finally spoke up, his chin on the top of your head.

"What…" you hummed after having braced your emotions and caught your soul that had slowly escaped from your body to fly straight up to some kind of paradise.

"Are you trying to tear up my turtleneck or what?"

You leaned back to look at him in confusion, not even realizing your fists were strongly pulling at the fabric, sign of the rush of emotions striking your body.

"Hm? Oh shit I'm so sorry" you apologized quickly, suddenly letting go and lowering your head in embarrassment.

Changkyun finally unstuck his hands from their spot to grab your forearms, and he put you back into your previous position, all the while looking at you nonchalantly.

"I mean, I wouldn't be surprised if you had wanted to…" he said in a tone traducing his urge to laugh as well as his pride about this remark.

You pinched his back through the black pullover and he winced in pain, begging you to stop in a quiet voice.

"I think I like you the most when you shut your mouth" you mumbled through gritted teeth, shooting him an annoyed glare.

"I think I like you." he shrugged, and once again your heart sunk into your stomach, willing to abandon its role as it was asking too much effort tonight.

"You think" you insisted, unpleased with his choice of words.

"I'm sure. Now if you want me to stop talking…"

He closed his long eyes, signaling you he was waiting, and you chuckled before leaning to peck him shortly.

"Seriously?" he murmured, and then again he lifted his hands but this time to place them on your skull, entangling his fingers in your hair.

"Eager now, are we?"

"Do you know how bad I have wanted this?" he complained, his face coming closer to yours and a smile dressing his lips that yours were dragged to like a magnet.

"Shouldn't have snubbed me and you would have had it sooner-"

Changkyun kissed you sweetly this time, and you felt him smile under your mouth that was prickling. Again, he gave you more than one kiss, his head changing the sides it tilted, and you hugged him properly a second time, your hands almost reaching each side of his wide torso. You felt like laughing, as you were the happiest you've ever been in the past months since last summer. You felt complete, you felt accomplished, you felt confident ; everything with him in your life seemed right in its place, and your lips melting so perfectly against each other could testify how you had been made for each other.

"Let's stop being cheesy and return back there, deal?" Changkyun finally proposed, after having kissed your mouth then your nose one last time.

What he wasn't telling you, was that he had feared you'd have to stay into his arms all night if you both didn't separate right now. He had been so desperate to hold you, as the regrets of having gave you the cold shoulder, the fear of never get the chance to make you love him back again and not too long ago the burning desire to make you finally his, had tortured him and made the uncertainty even more unbearable.

"Lip…stick" you mumbled before lifting your hand to place your thumb onto his mouth, starting to brush it to mitigate its unnatural tint.

Changkyun smiled like a fool, his arms now resting on your waist, and when you were about to stop he bit your fingers quickly, a child's frown disguising his adorable face.

"Let go, and let's go kid" you ordered, rolling your eyes at the same time.

Changkyun opened his mouth wide and before freeing you from his hug, he pecked you once again, on the shoulder this time, leaving a burning sensation on the spot and you gasped in surprise. His satisfied look when he straightened himself gave you the urge to smack him but with a move of his chin, he indicated you the exit. Anyway, you too wouldn't have been able to let go of him had the hug and kisses lasted longer, so instead of kicking, you stole one last kiss from him and took a step back before turning on your heels.

Changkyun silently followed you and, once he caught up to your pace, he surprisingly rested his arm on your shoulders and held you close to him while walking.

"I thought you didn't want to be cheesy or clingy and stuff?" you teased, pinching lightly his hand hanging lazily before your collarbone.

"Shhht." he only answered, and you gave up, even lifting your hand to intertwine your fingers with his and you heard him chuckle like a fool.

"You like it that much, do you?" you looked up to him, and he gently knocked his head against yours as an initiative to make you turn away from him and his way too happy face. "I'll take that as a yes…"

   ***

   The last hours of the party went smoothly ; you barely left each other's side, friends and even drunk strangers around you calling the King and the Queen Dowager because of Changkyun's shining crown still on his head, and his arm that hardly let go of your frame. You danced together and, when your group of friends finally reunited, Hwimin included, you were surprised to witness a scene of both of them talking a little bit without being rude to each other, making you feel at ease and thankful. Except when Changkyun slipped into your ear a "Who is he to give me advice" after your ex had apparently told him that you were a great person and that he should keep you. However it made you laugh wholeheartedly, his childish and proud side definitely under the spotlight once his blood was twisted with alcohol.

Finally, it was time for you to return to the dorms by shuttles, and Changkyun kissed you goodnight on the parking lot as he had to fulfill his duty of best friend, in other words he had to take care of his hyungs that had went over their tolerance to alcohol and couldn't walk properly nor take the shuttle on their own.

"I'm sorry... See you tomorrow, yeah?" he had almost whispered, his hands brushing your naked shoulders and you had pressed him to go and help, because as funny as it was to see Hoseok rolling on the ground and making weird noises that were supposed to be laughs, it also alarmed you on the severity of the situation.

You arrived to your dorms alone that night, as Solhee went to an after-party with her as fresh as yours boyfriend and your ex, who you had hugged to say goodbye earlier. He had permitted himself to kiss you on the forehead, his small eyes shining under the moonlight even when they were hooded by his drunken state, and it had made your heart flutter in some way. Too many things had happened in only a few hours, too many settlings in your messy life, and separating happily from Hwimin this time finally closed the wound you still had from last time.

However, being on your own and tipsy wasn't serving your need to sleep well, as you couldn't stop tossing and turning in your bed, thinking of Im Changkyun and trying to rewind your memory to the special but amazing moment you had shared in the abandoned warehouse. You wanted to go back to it again ; you wanted to be with him again ; you needed to feel him close to you again. You had spent so many evenings under your sheets thinking of him, whether it was in your vacation house, in your hometown or in that campus' bed, but tonight it was different, as for the first time you weren't imagining things. Everything had been real, every single one of your wishes had come true, every second of the movies you had played in secret in your mind had been exploited and improved into an even more thrilling and beautiful scenario. And right now, you hadn't had enough with this short film, this preview to what waited for you after, and your body was aching to be in his securing arms once again.

As every girl has done once in her life, you picked up your phone and started to scroll down his social media, but something reflecting your screen's light on your left caught your attention, and when you turned your head to look up to your nightstand, your eyes fell on the manifold plastic cups Changkyun had offered you by now, and suddenly you remembered it. Sitting in a jump in your bed, you started to chase the one that had his phone number on it, in a rush of determination. And once you found it, you laughed at yourself, thinking : yes, and what now? What would he think if you tell him you already miss him like a fool? It's been less than an hour Y/N!

You sighed in defeat and you sank into your bedhead. You were totally head over heels for this guy. Not that it was a new fact to you, but now that he was yours properly, you couldn't get enough of him after having waited for so long. At least, it would be hard in the beginning. You smacked yourself and slid under your covers once again, but a few minutes later, you gave in.

Had he really left you on read???? You little awaken shit. You looked one last time at the contact photo you had picked on his Instagram, a ridiculously well taken selfie, and it only urged your decision. You jumped out of bed and stormed to your door, half-putting some sneakers and shoving on a large hoodie on the way, ready to go out and to his dorms by yourself. You had always wanted to sneak out of your dorm room within the curfew hours, and tonight was the perfect night as everybody was going to share and mix rooms after the party – supervisors knew better than tracking every one that was a stowaway as it would last until noon.

The hallway was plunged into deep darkness and silence, so you barely breathed and slowly walked towards the emergency stairs as the lifts were shut down for the night. You were crazy to hunt someone without even knowing if he had arrived to the dorms yet, nor where to search first, but you still felt in some kind of secret mission and your drunk self was amused. Did you even know his dorm room number? What was it… You approached the plain white door and, just as you were about to push down the doorknob to open it, you felt a pressure coming from the other side, the door opening right after so you jumped back in surprise. But the vision of Changkyun appearing behind it almost made you faint, as if you were seeing a ghost, and his jaw dropped before he covered his mouth with his hands, stepping into the hallway and getting close to you.

"How is this even possible" he asked without asking, but you couldn't answer as you still were in a state of shock.

Chance. Once again. The probability that you were going to open this exact door, at the same time, while looking for each other, was so small ; yet, it still had arrived and if you wanted to laugh at how amazingly your relationship had been built up till now, your facial expression was still frozen in disbelief. Until Changkyun laughed quietly before you, bending to put his hands on his knees that had gotten weak from the surprise, and when he looked up to you, you finally shook yourself out of your trance.

"You were coming for me?"

"What do you think" he replied, straightening himself. "You don't know which dorm room is mine, and you had finally texted me, I had to come and thank you right into your face for this accomplishment, you dimwit."

"Wait wait wait, are you hurt? Is this a bruise I'm seeing right now?" you half-exclaimed half-whispered, suddenly reaching for his left cheek that obviously was tinted in something you guessed to be close to deep red.

"Ah that…" he muttered, putting the hood of the sweater he had changed for on his head and turning his head so you wouldn't see it anymore.

"What happened after I left?" you suspected, crossing your arms and Changkyun smiled faintly, his hooded eyes looking by the window in your back.

"I don't know… It's Hoseok and Jooheon, they argued with other boys on the parking lot and I got dragged into it without wanting to and I used my fists everywhere I could" he rambled in a child's voice, making you roll your eyes.

"And ended beaten up, wow… I won't feel in security with my boyfriend, amazing" you sighed before biting your tongue.

What had you just called him? "My boyfriend"? How cheesy!

"W-What?" Changkyun asked, his eyes and mouth getting rounder.

Oups…

You cleared your throat and started to walk away, wanting to lock yourself up into your room for having been so ridiculous in no time. You had just settled like three hours ago, and there you were already calling him "my boyfriend" like a high schooler. Changkyun followed you and you heard him laugh.

"Shhht! You're going to wake everyone up!" you spat, more pissed at yourself than at him but making him pay anyway. "Oh my god you can't even walk straight!"

You stopped in your tracks to go back to him who was laughing hard at you – or more precisely at how cute you had been and how hard it had hit him – and you grabbed him by the sleeve, rushing to your dorm room.

"Ah ah ah  it hurts it hurts stop pulling so hard" he whined and you looked at him annoyingly over your shoulder. "They kicked my arm too so when you pull like that…" he pouted and you sighed loudly before the sight of the mix of a child and a drunkard he was now.

And of a man. But let's forget about this aspect for now.

You entered the small and quiet room, your bed undone as you had left it in a hurry so you pressed yourself to put the covers back into a neat disposition, before indicating the boy to sit down by a move of your head. You had been dying to be with him, but now that he was here in that little space that enclosed the both of you, you once again felt shy.

"I have to play the nurse for you once again, I can't believe it"

"Hey, I didn't ask you to, I'm fine" he retorted, sitting down on your bed until his back was reaching the wall and half of his legs were displayed on it.

"Do you want your left side to be enormous and blue tomorrow? No, I don't think so, you love your looks too damn much so silence kid" you commanded while you were looking for the small emergency kit you and Solhee shared.

Changkyun was staring at you, playing with his feet, and he felt his heartbeat increasing second by second now that there were only the both of you in a bedroom. Of course, a man was still a man, even more when he drinks, so he slapped himself internally when he realized he was thinking of his best friend's words back at the ping pong game, giving him hot flashes. You finally found the red box after having dug into Solhee's mess, and you knelt down next to him once you had turned on your desk's light.

"You have a nice bedroom" Changkyun stated out of nowhere, looking at the fluorescent stars on the ceiling and the tinsels hanging above the bedheads, and you thanked him quietly.

As you began to apply lotion on the big bruise, the boy enjoyed it for scanning your traits from the corner of his eye. You were so damn pretty. He had seen you with your morning face this summer, with your tanned skin, with make up on, and also tainted when you had cried ; now, he got to see you under some soft light, your face obviously having been washed, and he fell in love with this version of you as well. You were beautiful in every single way, and he quietly analyzed your serious face, your eyes focused on what you were doing. His cheek was melting under the painstaking and soft touch of your fingers that now were applying pomade, and it made his heart burst when you asked gently :

"Does it hurt?"

"No." he answered in his low voice that never failed to give you chills.

His biggest mistake was to let his pupils drift towards your lips, as it triggered something inside of him that made him crumple his sweatpants into his hands the hardest he could, or else he would have kissed you abruptly right now. Calm down, hormones ; calm down, whisky and beer. Calm d…

"Here, done." you spoke up, leaning back in your kneeling position.

Changkyun couldn't even thank you as he was struggling inside, his eyes on you now perturbing you so you covered your face with your hands, worried he was shocked to see you bare-faced.

"W-What? Why are you looking at me like that?" you panicked.

"You're fucking beautiful that's insane" he said in an inaudible voice, and as you were about to ask him to repeat, Changkyun gave in and he suddenly pushed himself with his two hands on the mattress so that he got close enough to kiss you.

You breathed out from relief and satisfaction, having missed his lips for hours now, and you quickly deepened it, passing your arms around his neck while he motioned your body to make you sit on his lap, his feet now touching the ground. You suddenly felt hot and hypersensitive to his presence, and when he put his hands under your hoodie and directly on your bare back, you gasped into the kiss but it didn't even disturb him. He didn't have any misplaced gesture, his hands only slowly stroking your skin and not going overboard, but this touch and the skin to skin contact was sufficient to make you lose your mind. Changkyun kissed you harder while your hands had gone up into his hair, a body talk to invite him to continue, and you felt him hug you closer than you already were – but never enough – when suddenly he stopped.

With his head leaned back, his famous leveled-up chin and his hooded eyes, the boy you liked looked at you and your flustered expression, making him smirk and confusing you even more. He then kissed you passionately another time but-

"Oh my god oh my god oh my god stop. We need to stop or else I'll end up do something I'll regret tomorrow." he breathed.

He had his forehead against yours and you could hear him inhale loudly, as if he had ran a marathon when he was only doing it to calm himself down.

"Not now Y/N. I don't want to rush anything."

You didn't know why, but some tears prickled at the end of your eyes, as you felt touched by his words. He was protecting you, him and your relationship and, even if you both wanted to go further right now, he was right ; it was too fresh and too complicated for you to go all in in just one night. You kissed him first this time before you dropped your head on his shoulder to hide your now more than threatening tears, and the betrayers went down your cheeks without you being able to stop. He engulfed you in his arms and he sighed, not aware of your wet face, closing his eyes as well and congratulating himself for this hard but manly decision. Looks like my drunken brain can work right too sometimes.

A few moments later, you still hadn't said anything and had wiped yourself without him noticing, and you stood up to drink in your bottle of water to wash the dirty thoughts of your dirty brain. Changkyun had already taken over your bed and covers, so when you approached your bed, you burst into laughter at the sight of him dying from a soon to be hangover, a frown clear on his face while he struggled to keep his eyes open.

"The ceiling's turning, huh?" you made fun of him.

And as an answer, you earned an ugly grimace from the childish side of him that could reappear even after the heated and intimidate moment you had shared.

"Sometimes I wonder how many of you are there in that big head of yours." you sighed before pushing him lightly with your feet so that he'll move aside, and the foolish prince executed himself, even opening the covers for you to enter easily.

You didn't feel weird or embarrassed to sleep with him so soon, as you wouldn't have closed an eye if tonight hadn't finished in that exact way. He welcomed you into a warm embrace and, as you now were starting to understand, he was the touchy and skinship-lover type, as he immediately put a leg over yours once you had settled your body next to him, your head on his broad shoulder. He hummed in satisfaction, closing his eyes but only for a short moment as he felt you lift your head up to look at him, so he leaned his own back a bit to mirror your stare.

"What?" he asked in a now raspy voice, accompanying his words by a light caress of your hair.

Oh God how you loved his touch and attentions. I think I love you. No : don't rush anything he said. Don't tell him now.

You only pecked his chin then his neck that were right before your lips as an answer, making him smile but furrow his brows at the same time, yet as he was too tired to bombard you with questions, he let you go this once and closed his eyes.

"Let's sleep."

And with those soothing words, you let yourself drift to sleep as well, rubbing your head a few times against the comfortable spot between his shoulder and the crook of his neck, and Changkyun held you closer to him with one last humming.

I know I love you. No : don't rush anything I said. No need to tell her now.

   ***

  Changkyun. One name that was followed by an annoying joke every time his hyungs called him ; that made his parents smile proudly thinking of the good and smart son they had raised in spite of his mood swings ; that was spoken about from groups to groups of students the day after the party, as he had marked the spirits with his rap skills. And to you, it was one name that made your heart flutter, your body stimulated, and your brain dysfunction as once it thought of him, it couldn't find anything else to focus on afterwards. One name that had made your worst and best days through almost a year. One name that you would probably associate to your first – and hopefully last – love. One name that you moaned the next morning, as you found yourself in an empty bed.

Still in the hangover's mist, you were struggling to open your eyes, when suddenly a wave of panic hit you when you realized he had left. Was it all a dream? Or why would he leave without warning? Had you done something?

However, your rushed heartbeat stopped when your phone buzzed next to your pillow, and you felt dumb as you read the name above the notification of a new message.

Always in the perfect timing, always linked in some way ; chance never ceased to surprise you. You dropped your phone on your nightstand, hurrying to wash your face and make yourself at least look decent, and in no time you were going down the corridor to the elevators. The bags under your eyes could clearly tell the world you had only slept for four hours, but weirdly enough, you felt recharged. Maybe, just maybe, it was because you had had a good night in someone's arms, a small night then becoming more than what you could have asked for. Happiness was bubbling in all your body and you jogged outside your dorms straight to the cafeteria. Oh shit, you weren't a morning person usually, but here you were floating ridiculously on an invisible pink cloud transporting you to him. What had he done to you…

"Wow, when I said as soon as you see this, I wasn't expecting you to come like five minutes after…" Changkyun remarked with a surprised tone as you sat in front of him.

He had chosen a table for two near glasses, giving a view of the sleeping campus outside, and the morning sun was gracing his tired traits, and you were glad to see the size of his wound had diminished through the night.

"But you were expecting me to accept it when it's cold? Huh huh boy, you're wrong. I'd run to sip its proper taste" you hissed and you grabbed the cup without paying attention to the inscription on it this time, too lost into your thoughts and still shook by the fact that the boy facing you was now… In a relationship with you, officially.

Changkyun scoffed before sipping on his own drink, his eyes not leaving your face while you were forcing yourself to look outside, or else he'd see how flustered you were the second he'd catch the sparkle in your pupils. A silence settled between the both of you, but a pleasant one, and suddenly, you felt fingers brushing against the back of your hand displayed on the table. You looked at it and naturally, Changkyun intertwined his fingers with yours, immediately giving you chills and you reluctantly leveled up your eyes to watch the expression on his face. It was a shy one, him too looking at your hands in some kind of awe, and when you finally enclosed the gap and shared his move, you caught the proud smile on his lips which killed you in an instant.

"You really like skinship, am I wrong?" you pointed and he glanced at you, an inkling of confusion passing his dark pupils, but it soon was replaced by something mischievous.

"Yes I do, with you, why? You liked it yesterday didn't you?"

"I did. I do..." you muttered under your breath and he nodded in satisfaction, his thumb starting to caress yours in the softest way possible, and you swore you should have prepared yourself psychologically to every single thing your new relationship was bound to imply and unlock, because right now you still were cringing internally and your body was always overreacting to him being near.

When were you going to handle it?

  ***

  A few weeks passed by, and you still hadn't gotten used to it. How was he supposed to be sarcastic when at the same time he was hugging you? Or how come he could be so manly when he had been such a teen before? You hadn't stepped down from your cloud, unable to reach the ground for a while, as Changkyun kept on pulling you higher and higher towards the pit of the Russian mountain that was your relationship. You hadn't become a cheesy lovey-dovey couple, yet you quickly grew closer to one another, constructing something intense between the both of you  – but with all the bends you had taken and chance paving your way, you knew it had been bound to unfold like that. You fell in love deeply and truthfully, as well as his own feelings intensified, so much he didn't even know what to do with them anymore. Every single minute you both spend together, he couldn't prevent himself from phasing before your beauty, and he had a hard time controlling his passionate kisses.

The first college break came by, relieving most of you that had went through exams weeks just before, tiring you to the bone and almost slurping your souls and sanity. As a remedy, Changkyun, Jooheon and Hoseok offered you to come down with them to Busan, which you gladly accepted. During the trip, you couldn't prevent yourself from thinking of how everything had started, and you smiled as you never would have thought it would end up that way back then. Right now, you were traveling down the country without your parents, for a vacation, and on top of that, with a left hand caressing up and down your thigh, when you only had the privilege of touching it to stop its loss of blood back then. Right now, the boy you had developed feelings for first was mirroring them, when he had stepped on them back then. Right now, his lips were always looking for yours and hardly stopped kissing you, when he had lived your first kiss as a penalty back then.

Finally, the blue sea came into sight as well as its iodized fragrance that warmed up your heart, and you opened Jooheon's car's window to the fullest so the wind was brushing your smiling face, under the stare of Changkyun that felt as flustered as you to return to his hometown with you by his side. He was willing to resume from scratch, to rewrite a new chapter of your story that was born right here, but this time you would meet his friends and not avoid them, you would visit his favorite places and not have to flee from them, you would enter his house he missed every day and meet his parents who had been warned and glad to hear their son had fell for "such a nice girl".

You went back to your vacation house on the first day's morning, without the boys, to settle your things in your bedroom you were glad to meet again, while at the end of last summer, you barely had supported to sleep more and more nights in there, counting the days lasting before your departure far away from Busan and Im Changkyun.

At noon, you happily reunited with Hyunwoo, Kihyun, Minhyuk and Hyungwon that made fun of their youngest friend for "having finally grown some" and "listened to their precious advices". There wasn't a minute spent without them making fun of him or taking your side when you teased him, leaving him annoyed but speechless as he had nothing to say about this : they were right. You visited Kihyun's bar and this time, you could comfortably sit at their table without receiving a deadly stare from Changkyun facing you ; no, you could see in his sharp eyes how happy he was to see you blend in well with his closest friends, sometimes even getting protective – or jealous, but he wouldn't admit it – when they got too friendly for his taste.

 But the most meaningful episode of your vacation, at least for you, was coming the next morning, as you were meeting with Changkyun before the market in the early hours, as you did back then. However, this time, you were on the side of the customers and, moreover, you were by his side not because he had been forced to, but because he wanted to. You spotted him coming from afar in the parking lot, tiredness obvious on his face, and he even had a face mask on, making you laugh at his overall appearance. The boys' reunion clearly led to a small night yesterday.

"No hot drink for me this morning? I'm almost disappointed…" you teased him once he was walking next to you, and he looked at you annoyingly from the corner of his eye, his arms up as he was stretching.

"Shut up, I'll buy you one later, it's eight in the morning, the shops are closed" he grunted and you laughed before passing an arm around his waist that was slightly showing because of his position lifting his shirt.

"But thank you for your mask, at least you know you might have bad breath because of alcohol" you laughed even harder as you knew well by now that when Changkyun was tired, he could get, well… Sensitive.

He stopped in his tracks and slid down his mask, before bending to try kissing you but you really refused, lifting up your hand to tap his mouth and faking a frown of disgust.

"Okay then."

The annoyance in his eyes became clear before he rolled them, and he then sped up with his hands still behind his head, making you chuckle at his childish and capricious attitude.

"C'mon I was joking! Wait for me!" you said in a higher tone as your laugh was twisting your voice, and you ran to catch up.

"This is so weird" he finally confessed through his mask, as you stopped before the glass entrance.

Then, he walked to the doors while your feet suddenly refused to move, your mind drifting into something nostalgic that froze you.

"What are you doing? C'mon!" your boyfriend then exclaimed in what was supposed to be an upset tone, but him turning around and extending his hand so you would grab it broke his credibility.

You obliged, hearing him grumble about how annoying you were, above the pounding of your heart into your chest that had busied your eardrums. Nevertheless, the second you stepped in the market, with its rich smells of fresh food and its bright colors, your heart warmed up and a smile graced your lips. You looked at Changkyun's reaction which was the same, as you could see only with his eyes that he was smiling, the fabric above his mouth not even able to hide it. You felt his grasp around your hand tightening, and then you walked slowly through the alleys. Some merchants recognized you and you felt touched, earning free food by the way, and you could see that it was getting Changkyun out of his hangover's bad mood. You spent around one hour and a half hanging in the market, sometimes recalling out loud what had happened between the both of you, those memories you could laugh about now, and your happiness reached its peak when you reunited with the granny that hugged and kissed you hard.

You exited the place with your stomach full for breakfast and a sensation of being enchanted. Suddenly, your boyfriend removed his mask and seized your face to pull you into a tender kiss. Nope, you still weren't used to it, as your legs almost gave up on supporting your upper body and butterflies seemed to never grow tired of flapping their wings into your stomach.

"Last time, you went that way and I went that way, remember?" he smiled, landing his forearms on your shoulders, and you nodded for him to continue. "But you never knew I always looked back at you."

Boom boom! Your heart exploded. He did?

"Are you openly telling me you watched my ass all summer long?" you joked to evacuate your… Whatever shitty emotions you were feeling right now ; you were just a mess in love.

Your boyfriend whined in annoyance, even if you spotted the corners of his mouth going up into a smile, and he put his hands into his pockets while sighing.

"I can't be romantic at all with you, I guess you don't like that." he thought out loud and you bit your lip in anticipation. "Alright let's go" he sighed again in defeat while squinting his eyes.

"Go where?" you asked.

"Wherever babe" he answered in english, using a "pet name" for the first time and your instinctive reaction was to punch him in the chest. "What? I'll stop being romantic and I'll be bold and skip steps now, deal with it, you asked for it!"

Deep down, you had liked it but you would never admit it in his face, as you already feared what would be coming from a fierce and bold Changkyun, so if on top of that he knew it worked… He'd kill me.

 You had been right to fear it, because you had triggered something inside of him he had told himself to preserve for a little while ; but when night came, he couldn't hold it in him anymore. You had met the boys in the afternoon, sitting on the sand, eating snacks and playing beach games, as the weather was still too chilly to dive into the sea.

But tonight though, was spent between Changkyun and you only, after having had dinner at his house with his parents who had been excited to see you again. Everything had went on smoothly, and after a change of clothes for your boyfriend and a digestive ballad in the streets with your hand in his, you chose to go to your vacation house which was empty, ready to welcome two lovebirds in search of peace and intimacy. You talked on your terrace before the sea, the beautiful sound making you realize how much you had missed this place, especially the stars you could see in a clearer way than up in the capital.

"I would never have thought we'd end up like this" Changkyun chuckled, then he bit his bottom lip while looking at you.

"Neither would I…" you replied, your voice fading within your thoughts.

"I'm sorry, I wished I could have realized my feelings sooner" he regretted, tapping slightly his fingers against the wooden barrier delimiting your terrace.

You eyed him curiously before shaking your head, not even understanding where this could come from.

"I like it that way" you shared. "I like that you were slow, because I can cherish everything even more now…"

Changkyun's arms went numb as your words melted into his ears, and he took a few steps towards you that was leaned against your bay window with your arms crossed, your eyes unable to detach themselves from the now dark sea that looked like a bath of ink and flakes.

"Cheesy. We're fucking cheesy that's almost disgusting" he spoke up once he was standing before you to gain your attention, and you jumped in surprise as you hadn't seen him coming.

All of a sudden, the boy placed his hands on your waist and pulled you close to him, a smirk on his lips and his gaze as deep as the night, giving you the chills even when the night wind hadn't.

"What?" you feigned indifference. "What do you want now?"

You.

Changkyun closed his eyes, signaling you he was waiting for something – always the same damn thing, the guy never had enough – and you gave him, wrapping your arms around his neck and you giggled when he started to rave into a passionate kiss once again.

"That's why I'm sorry. Because I wish I had this sooner." he whispered against your lips and you analyzed his face in backlight with the moon.

"And now you have it, so what's the problem?"

"I'm always needy, I always want more, that's my problem." he confessed and you coughed, the first word choking you and he laughed out loud, throwing his head backwards. "Had I had it sooner, I wouldn't be that addicted. I don't like being addicted to you, you know? Where's my man pride in this?"

You pinched the skin of his nape with your nails, successfully getting out of his embrace as he lifted his hands to scratch the painful spot. With your legs trembling, you returned into your house to serve yourself a glass of water. How can he have no fucking filter?

"I told you I'll be bold now, so stop being so flustered" his voice resounded behind you as he entered the living room and you turned around with a gasp, almost letting go of your glass as he just had answered your inner question.

"Did I say it aloud?" you asked, your eyes wide open while he approached the kitchen island to lazily lean his elbows on it.

"Said what?"

"N-nothing…" you answered in a quiet voice, coming to install yourself on the other side of the island and, once you had emptied up your drink in hopes to lessen the fire that was spreading within your whole body, you sprawled on the table with a sigh, resting your head on your left arm.

You had been right to fear it, as indeed, his straightforward attitude was killing you. Changkyun didn't move and only watched you as your head was right in his sight, and when the weight of his stare became unbearable, you finally looked up and asked :

"What is it this time?"

He was lucky humans couldn't read into each other's mind, because you would be more than out of step if you knew what he was thinking right now. He couldn't suppress his desires anymore, not with your lips that appealing, not with his body aching day by day to feel yours, not with your large but revealing T-Shirt that was falling a little bit too much on your chest right now, not with his hometown's marine air that made him feel at ease and confident, not with the moon's rays through the bay window plunging your house into an atmosphere that, this time he would admit it if asked, turned him on.

"Am I not allowed to stare at my girlfriend?" he complained in a lazy voice, not moving from his position with his chin resting into the palm of hand.

"Cheesyyyy" you counter-attacked, finally straightening yourself to stare at him at eye-level.

This one word, pressed his lust button. He had warned you… Changkyun suddenly retreated to walk around the island until he was standing up before you.

"What? What? What do you want?" you still were joking, or at least you were trying to because inside you were freaking going crazy from anticipation.

You both knew deep down that tonight was the night ; however, he was the only one truly ready and confident right now. You too had been fighting your inner desires lately, as an intense relation implies growing needs and desperate want to have more of the significant other, but it was so new to you. Changkyun was staring at you, all of his face attracting the few lightning in the room, and you could read in his eyes that he was about to "be bold".

"You."

Bingo.

At first, he kissed you with his traditional signature of his hands on your neck, but to your great surprise, they didn't last long as they soon went down your body to take refuge under your top. Only with that you knew what was coming next, and, wanting him as much as he wanted you, you copied him and placed your tingling hands on his bare back then on his waist, his fair skin so pleasant to touch. He was losing himself into the kiss once again, his tongue now searching for entrance you quickly allowed, and really quiet moans were coming from his mouth from time to time.

"Oh my god I love you so much" he breathed out of the blue, his mouth brushing yours all the while and you gasped in surprise.

He had said it. He had said it. You knew you had heard well. It had been so desperate, so true, so beautiful to hear, so full of passion that your body trembled in an instant and he should have felt it as he secured you more in his arms. You were definitely a mess, from the unwelcomed tears of joy accruing under your eyelids, to the fast beating of your heart, to the needy pressure of your hands into his back. You kissed him slowly and bit his lower lip before whispering shyly :

"I love you too. I love you."

And that's what consumed the remaining of "holding back" Changkyun had in him, as you had just made his mind explode into a firework kindling his body that started to scream at him it was craving to feel yours. So, surprisingly again, your boyfriend lowered himself, grabbed your legs and wrapped them around his waist, before carrying you to your bedroom, all the while kissing you until you started laughing from his struggle on the last few steps that were less controlled.

He settled you on your mattress before he towered you, each one of his elbows on a side of your head, and he stared at you through his silver hair falling before his eyes, his breathing jerky. You took his face into your hands, signaling him he had your green light as you had caught the sudden worry in his eyes, searching secretly for your approbation as he knew it was your first time. He got the alert, and with speedy but efficient moves, the boy got both of you out of your clothes. He felt his heart throb when he faced your beauty in its totality, making him so happy that he kissed you again and again, his hands moving with precautions as they were scared to ruin your perfection, making you hypersensitive and overwhelmed by his lovely and caring attitude. You were discovering his manly and enterprising self, and you were so thankful and at ease, letting him direct everything going on tonight, as you were too flustered to take initiatives.

Under the ceiling you had always contemplated on your own, every single day when you had come home from work with your heart breaking and your head full of him, your bodies became one. If you already thought your lips were made to kiss each other, you got persuaded by giving him your first time and feeling his body fit so well with yours that he was more than special. Only his wet and trailed kisses on your neck, shoulders and chest could give you chills along with burning sensations ; only his lustful but enamored stare could pierce right through you to reach your secrets, wants, and needs ; only being with him could make you feel complete. Only him could have your love, all of your love.

One last hip move and it was over, both of you panting into each other's mouths that never stopped kissing. Changkyun rolled beside you, and you turned towards him, his arm welcoming your head drenched in sweat but with an expression on its face that showed the pleasure you had felt. You placed a hand on his definite and large torso, the sensation still giving you electric shocks but that you were getting recharged from, and you both fell asleep in each other's arms, him worn out after giving you his all, and you going numb from any sensation after having been a mess of emotions during the entire act.

  ***

  Right back to where everything had started ; done. Right back to where everything had been supposed to stop : about to. You were walking next to Changkyun under Busan's sun, both of your mouths smiling after what happened last night – and this morning again… – , and he was taking you to the gigantic park and its kiosk, with a little idea in mind that you hadn't guessed yet.

"Here" the boy said once you arrived, and you stopped in your tracks in a particular spot of grass, one you could remember from the trees on its left.

It was the exact one where you had last seen Changkyun back then, when he had rejected you and whatever you were feeling at that time, in front of his friends. He was standing before you but wasn't looking at you, and you swore he could capture the sun's rays every time he was below it. His fair skin was glowing as well as his silver hair that was curling from his late shower, and you stared at him in a greater awe than yesterday, because making love with him obviously made you saw him from a different angle now.

"I remember" you chuckled, playing with the ends of your hair to hide how your hands had started to shiver without a reason you could pinpoint.

"I've taken you here because I want you to erase that fucking awful memory and replace it with this one" he confessed, still looking around.

"I can't" you shrugged.

"Can you at least try to?" he complained and you laughed.

"Then can you at least look at me, stupid" you retorted but he didn't oblige.

"Give me one more minute." he said in a resolute voice, making your eyes grow wider for a few seconds.

"That's too long!"

"Shhhht." he frowned as his head was facing the sky.

You sighed in defeat and observed him as he closed his eyes and took a deep inhalation, before exhaling quietly, and oddly your heart started to beat louder in your chest. What is he doing? Changkyun finally turned to you and he took a few steps forward, then he grabbed both of your hands that were still shaking. He looked at them and he smiled, leaving you speechless, then breathless the second his eyes plunged into yours. They were plain brown, with a tint of hazel, but they were mostly sparkling with something different than what you had ever seen, far from the indifferent look he had gave you right here last time, and you were dying to ask him to talk when-

"Y/N, I love you."

His hands were burning hot in yours, but they were no match to the heat under your cheeks. And you surprised yourself when you smiled. Yesterday, when he had said it, you had liked it but it still had been in the heat of the moment, as well as your answer. Not that it had been untrue, but you had been both so desperate to make love to each other that it probably had slipped from your mouths against your will. Now, right now, he was more than aware of what he was saying, he had even prepared himself for it, and you were so happy to hear those words. So crazily happy, that's why you were smiling right now. And that's how you could return his feelings back without stuttering, but in a clear and loud voice :

"And I love you, Im Changkyun."

Chance. One word that had so different meanings for each individual, as it could bring many kinds of memories and stories. Everything could happen thanks to chance, whether it was lucky or unlucky, whether you believed it was coincidental or due to fate, whether it brought joy or pain. It could change one's life, for the better or the worse.

And for you, it had turned into serendipity. Hadn't chance been on your side, hadn't it pushed countless of your steps into each other's life, you certainly wouldn't have realized how you were meant to be. However, you didn't care about chance anymore right now. Whether you were partners for life or simply lovebirds that were going to fly only for a while in the same direction, you believed that it was for the power of love to decide, and not the one of fate.

You, could change your fate. You, could build it the way you wanted to. You, had decided to let him in in the end. Your love, would help you to stick with him. His love, had made you the one for him.

Chance, was a word you could be thankful for. But love, was the only word that could explain why you had chosen to believe in chance and turn it at your advantage, paying attention to the boy you randomly had been encountering, instead of ignoring him.

You didn't tell Changkyun that day, that he had successfully replaced your memory linked to the park by the most beautiful thing for your brain to remember. When where you were standing had been supposed to be the last place you were seeing him and the ending picture of a summer romance back then, the three words, eight letters he had pronounced just now as well as the kiss he gave you, marked only the blooming of your relationship. And your body could testify how perfect it had become : no wobbling legs, no crazy heartbeat, no sweaty palms this time.

   THE END.

[coffeeminns]

capti; ick

pairing: im changkyun x reader

genre: angst, dystopian, fluff, adventure?

word count: 1.1k

A nice sofa, some chips and a chill, cuddly night watching films with your boyfriend, that’s what you had been expecting when Changkyun invited you over for a sleepover at his house. You surely weren’t expecting to be screaming your lungs out, violently nudging Changkyun’s shoulder and flailing your limbs because you were losing at your favourite game. You had been training for years, neglecting your social life as you progressed more and more and actually became a master at this hell of a game. But Changkyun’s lack of social skills was clearly explained now as he grinned widely at you while the TV screen announced your loss in big, red letters.

Just an hour before you were collapsed on the sofa, watching some sci-fi film you had long forgotten about when a particular scene caught your and Changkyun’s attention, something that reminded both of you of your favourite game: Capti (from the Latin; trapped).

A dystopian scenario characterised the game: the earth was destroyed by an disastrous atmospheric phenomenon that caused the death of the majority of the population, only a few lucky ones survived and divided in two categories: the ones who were trying to rebuild society and those who actually wanted all the power for themselves and killed all the opponents. You, as a player, could choose what kind of character you wanted to play, between a huge amount of roles, like assassin, shooter, defender and much more. Changkyun, exactly like you, always played by the good guys’ side, defending the little colony that established near the ruins of New York.

You always opted for the archer’s role, a silent warrior that struck from afar, while Changkyun was the most skilled swordsman you’ve ever played with.

This didn’t mean that you’d let him know any time soon though or that you acknowledged his superiority at the game, after all it was still a challenge between the two of you.

<y/n dear, it’s pretty late… Why don’t we go to bed and cuddle? I’m really tired and I wanna hear about your day before falling asleep…> You frowned, looking at the TV screen with pure determination <Just another game, I promise. I wanna try out a new technique I haven’t been using in years!> you said, but your eyes were starting to close and you suffocated a yawn. Changkyun only smiled, knowing you’d be falling asleep soon. <Fine, but I’m not playing this time. I wanna see how you go without me babygirl. >

He then placed his head in your lap, facing the screen and started watching your game as attentively as he could but failing miserably as he fell asleep soon after. You smiled to yourself and while you waited for your turn to attack you stroked his hair softly, trying not to wake him. His gentle snores kept distracting you and you ended up turning off the game even before finishing the game.

You didn’t want to disturb his peaceful sleep so you covered both of you with a blanket and closed your eyes ready to fall asleep.

After what seemed like hours to you, you felt someone strongly shaking your arm <y/n…? y/n where the hell are we?> Changkyun’s voice sounded panicked so you opened your eyes and looked around, astonished. Everything your eyes could see were a rocky desert and some ruins, probably belonging to a big city. You had no idea where you were and even less of how you had gotten there. You turned your head to look at Changkyun that was watching your surroundings with the same you scared expression you probably had plastered in your face. <I have no idea… The last thing I remember is falling asleep on the sofa after playing Capti!> You said, concern in your eyes. <Me too, you wanted to play the last game and I fell asleep waiting for you…> <I don’t know how we got there! And how far away we are from home!> You started breathing fast, your anxiety making sure you were out of breath in a few seconds. <What do we do now, Changkyun?!>. Changkyun knew he had to take a hold of the situation because you panicked so easily it could be impossible for you to react to the situation. He firmly took your hand, engulfing you in a hug to comfort you. Waking up in the middle of nowhere, without a phone and any memory of what happened before could be incredibly overwhelming so you both stayed like that for what seemed like years. Then he slowly let go of you and, still holding your hand, he declared: <We’re going to explore near those ruins and see if we can find someone. Don’t worry baby, I’m sure we’ll get an explanation soon.> You nodded and, feeling a little better, you followed him towards the poor excuse of a city you had in front of you.

You really wanted to believe Changkyun’s words but at the same time you had a feeling something was really off…like you both were missing something essential. The landscape seemed so familiar and so did the city that was starting to look more defined the more you got close to it.

Your eyesight wasn’t one of the best ones out there but you still managed to see the blurry frame of the nearest building that looked like a gym, surrounded by old wrecks and garbage giving the place an abandoned look. Snatches of exaggeratedly grown plants were hanging from the ceiling and the windows were covered in faded curtains. The only thing that restrained you from believing the place was empty was the good conditions of the door, the hinges were perfectly clean and the wood wasn’t scratched or even ruined.

What was this place’s secret?

You looked over at Changkyun that was holding your hand tightly looking worriedly at the door frame, until he started pulling you towards a certain spot near the fence surrounding the building. He crouched down and let go of your hand as he started digging into the soil. <W-what are you doing?> <I may be crazy but this city looks familiar to me… I really hope I’m wrong though because that would mean we’re in big trouble.> You were more confused than ever, while you looked around studying the landscape that was starting to look oddly like something you already witnessed with your eyes…

Could it be…?

<Y/n look here! I found it!> You looked over at Changkyun with a curious expression only to turn pale when you saw what he was holding his long sword, the one that held a huge place in his heart, being the first sword he obtained with his efforts in Capti. It was sharp and the blade was deep red, with a translucent look to it.

And that was the missing puzzle piece that made you understand everything: you were trapped in your favourite videogame.

hi lovelies! this is the first of the three fics I’m planning to write about my boy changkyun, I hope you enjoy the plot and if you don’t let me know! feedback is always appreciated

-moiky

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Author: b0blegum

Pairing: Changkyun x Reader (teacher AU)

Rating: R

Genre: s m u t, like smutty smut.

Status: PART 1 | PART 2 | PART 3 | END

a/n Shit, i’ve never written a chaptered fic in one night, but look what i’m doing here? I have finished writing all parts! This actually meant to be posted yesterday as a celebration for Changkyun’s birthday though, but whatever. Hope you enjoy this smutty fic for our kinky maknae.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE WEIRDEST GENIUS MAKNAE, IM CHANGKYUN XO

18+ THINGS GOT HEATED HERE I WARNED YOU. AGAIN.

“Would the children like this?” You looked at your own reflection. Turning around to see yourself in a black cat onesie.

It was your one and only costume you had left from halloween last year. You’re never a big fan of halloween either, so you always wore just a simple costume, like this one. A onesie.

You gave a last touch to your face, swatching a soft pink lipstick on your lips and grabbing your purse.

“Wow, hold on.” You heard Minhyuk called you from the kitchen as he picked out the left over he had from last night’s take out.

“If you just want to roast me, fuck off. I am almost late.” You ignored him, walked to the front door.

“No, (y/n). Chill. Why are you so emotional 24/7? Are you on your period?” He chuckled.

“Then what were you gonna say?” You looked at him.

“Why are you wearing that? It’s not even halloween yet.”

“It’s costume day at school, Minhyuk. Everyone has to wear something.” You pointed to your onesie. “And i’m wearing this.”

“A cat. A black cat.” He nodded.

“Do you think the kids would like this costume?”

“Well. Kids love bright colors. Black, meh,” Minhyuk tilted his head. “I don’t think so.”

You stomped at the floor. “Then what should i do?” You whined. Minhyuk pointed at you and flattened his lips.

“You wore something princess-y for halloween two years ago.” He walked to your bedroom. “I think you should wear that. What was that? Alice?”

“Yes, Alice, but i don’t think i still have it here.” You followed him entering your own room. He began looking for it in your closet, in the box where you stored winter clothes and everywhere else he thought where you’d store it.

“There you go!” He squatted up with a blue and white dress already in his hand after a while of wild searching.

“Jeez, i didn’t even know it’s there.” You took the dress from him.

“Wear it.” He walked to your bed and sat at the edge of it. You quickly undressed and put on the thighs before wearing the Alice in the Wonderland dress.

It was quiet tight for you, remembering you wore it two years ago last time.

“Will you help me with the zipper?” You turned around with your back faced the guy on the bed. In no time his hand began working on the zipper but then you felt he stopped midway. “Hey? Zip it up.” You said.

“O– oh.” He continued. “There you go.” Minhyuk leaned back, supporting himself with his two arms.

“Why are you blushing?” You said after you turned yourself to him as you tied the bow around your stomach.

“N–no. I am not.” He sat up and walked out of your bedroom. “You better be hurry. It’s almost 9.”

You shook your head and smile. “Asshole.”

The school was a bit different today. There were a lot of colorful decorations along the hallway, kids were running in various costumes; animals, princesses, dream jobs and many other costumes their mom probably spent the night to made.

“Look! It’s Alice!” A kid with Ariel the mermaid costume shouted when you walked to your class.

“Hi, princess Ariel!” You turned around to greet her. The girl screamed and jumped in excitement.

“You’re Alice today?” Someone greeted you. This time you were sure, he wasn’t a kid.

Turning around, you saw someone in a suit, complete with a bow tie and a sleek hair do.

“And what are you?” You scanned him from head to toe. “A… prince?” You narrowed your eyes as he walked closer.

“Justin Timberlake.” He put his hand inside his pants pocket before he started walking along with you. You almost laughed at the way he confidently told you who he was today.

“Justin Timberlake?” You asked, holding your giggle.

“Yeah, why? Doesn’t fit me?” He opened his suit jacket, exposing his clothed torso.

“No. You look… cute.”

Somewhere inside you felt relieved. There was no awkwardness between the two of you after that happened. He didn’t text you nor call you, but at least he was still being himself and didn’t avoid you at school.

“You look… sexy.” He winked.

“What? Sexy? This is my halloween costume for two years ago, can’t you see it’s almost worn out?” You looked at your dress.

“Nope. Even if it’s worn out, it still hugs your curves perfectly.” He licked his lower lip.

“We’re at school, Changkyun.” You shook your head as you walked passed him, turning right to your class.

“You know we’re at school, yet you wear that?” He smirked. “Shut up.” You pushed the door and headed in.

“See you around, Alice.” He waved.

“See you around, Mr. Timberlake.”

You finally loosened yourself. You actually faked yourself to being calm in front of Changkyun. Like, how can you calm yourself when he looked so good in that suit? No– not just good, but he looked damn sexy in it. Plus, the way he styled his hair, gosh, he looked even more mature than his age.

“Oh– shit.” You put your purse on the table and began the class.

But… your mind was still on Changkyun. You began to imagine what’s hidden under that suit. What he had under that and how great it’d be if you could help him undress from layers of cloths. How great it’d be to just collided, skin to skin with him.

“Collided?” You snapped out of your thoughts. “What does collided mean, Ms. (y/n)?” Your mouth was ajar, realizing that you must’ve said something in your brain to the whole class.

“Uh–“ you smiled awkwardly. “That’s… oh– kids, i think it’s drawing time!” You cheered, changing the topic, feeling really, really embarrassed by yourself. Hours passed, but he was still in your thoughts. You said goodbye to the class and rushing to the teacher’s lounge to calm yourself. At this time, that room was most likely to be empty, plus, it’s costume day today, teachers would’ve busy preparing for the main event later at 1 PM.

You closed the door behind you and sighed as you leaned on it. Closing your eyes, you shook your head, hoping the dirty thoughts of him fucking you would go away.

“We meet again, (y/n)?”

“Oh– fuck.” Your eyes snapped open. “God, you scared me.”

“What are you doing here? Not helping other teachers?” He asked, sitting up from the couch and put his coffee on the table before he walked to you.

Shit, why is he here! “Uh– no. Why are you here?” What the hell, that was a lame respond.

“Let’s see. What am i doing here?” He tapped his chin and looked up, pretending to think as he kept walking towards you.

He was coming closer. His eyes was soon glued to you. He stretched his arm next to your head while the other was carefully locking the door.

“I’m doing… you.” He smirked, slowly his hand lifted your chin and brought his face closer to you. “What do you think about that, (y/n)?” He whispered, before he gave you a soft peck on your lips.

You could feel blood rushing through your system. Your heartbeats became unstable and your face reddened.

“That…” you stuttered. “Sounds like a good idea.” You smiled, eyes locked on his lips, silently begging for more kiss.

The boy would smirked and began hungrily kissing you.Moans started to slipped out of your mouth between kisses but then he covered your mouth with his hand and sshed you.

“Lower your voice, noona.”

Fuck, he that word again.

Changkyun already had his lips on your jaw. Slowly trailing it down your neck. Sucking it every once in a while and breathed on your skin. You bit your lips as he sucked the skin on your collarbone and when you felt his hand lifted your skirt and caressed the back of your thighs, all the way up until his hand finally cupped your butt and gave it a squeezed.

“Oh–“ you moaned. He kept squeezing your butt as he kissed you, biting your lips. The pleasure he gave you made you forget about everything, including the fact that he already had both of his hands on your butts and squeezed it even rougher before he lifted you up and brought you to the couch at the corner of the room.

He’d bumped you down rather roughly that you made an ouch sound when your head hit the couch. He didn’t even say sorry for that, instead, he began lifting your skirt and pulling off your tights.

“I hate this thing.” He threw it away and in no time, he already had his fingers on your clothed fold. Rubbing it gently as he had other hand squeezing your breast. “You’re wet already?” He smirked, pressing your fold, sending you to a sinful sensation that made you let out another moan.

He pulled aside the fabric and rubbed your now bare folds. He’d rubbed it painfully slow, up and down, teasing you by circling your clit with the tip of his finger.

“Changky–“ you moaned his name, hands grabbing his hair.

“What, noona?”

“Eat me.”

The boy did exactly as he said. He started licking your folds, circling your clit with it and pressed your opening.

“Fuck. Don’t–“ you moaned. “Stop.”

He sucked your clit and bit if softly. “You like it, noona?”

“Fuck, you’re good.” You arched your body up. One hand squeezing the couch. Changkyun began to put his finger in you as he kept licking your clit. You let out a groaned at the sensation he gave you. After awhile, he put another finger, curved them up to touch the place you’d never reached before.

“Fuck.” You moaned as he thrusted his finger faster and deeper. He’d kiss you back and explored your mouth with his tongue while you had your finger rubbing your clit. “Fuck, i’m– i’m close,” you bit his lip.

“You want to come now, noona?”

Nodding, you shut your eyes as you felt the orgasm was coming closer, but slowly, you felt the thrusting became weaker.

“Not that fast,” he took his fingers out. He broke the kisses and sat straight, started to unbuttoning his shirt.

“Fuck you.” You caught your own breath and sat straight up. You pushed him down so now he’s at the bottom. “How dare you tease me, baby boy?”

“Noo–na,” he startled at your action. He was always the one who leads, never had he thought you’d take the lead.

You kissed him hard as you helped him unbuttoning his shirt and took it off. “Nice packs.” You smirked as you traced his bare skin with your fingers down to his waist. He’d moaned at the feeling of your nails on his skin.

“Oh, you’re hard too.” You commented as you felt the bulge under the black fabric. You gave it a squeezed that sent the boy to let out a groaned. “Noona,” he called.

Slowly, you unzipped his pants and pulled it down. You began to rub his clothed member. “What do you want me baby boy?” You asked, squeezing his member one more time.

“Noona, suck me.” He moaned. You smiled at his request.

You pulled off his briefs and his member immediately sprung, touching his torso, showing you off the full length.

You grabbed his length and wrapped it with your hand, giving it a good rub before finally putting the tip inside your mouth after licking it few times as you pumped it with your hand.

It was bigger than you thought it was when it’s inside your mouth. You almost out of breath everytime it’s inside you that you have to pulled it out before you sucked it back in.

“Noona, you’re–“ he whined. “So good, please,”

“Please what, baby boy?” You licked the top of his length. “Please don’t stop, Noona.” He moaned.

You kept pumping him, doing everything you could recall from that time when you did all these things to Minhyuk. Yeah– those dark days.

Changkyun would groaned and moaned at the sexual tension you gave him and you’d feel proud at yourself remembering this was your first actual blowjob. “Noona,” he called out. “I’m,” he moaned out. “I’m close.”

“You want to come now, baby boy?” You smirked.

“Please, noona.” You smirked and pumped him harder, faster, enough to made him groaned louder until he finally released all the thick substance, squirting it all over your face.

You’d licked some of it, still getting familiar with the taste.

He groaned as he help you pumping himself, squirting out the substance he still had left. “Fuck, you’re good, noona.” He bit his lip.

“I’m surprised at myself. That was actually my first time.” You confessed. The boy looked at you, confused before he grabbed something from his pants pocket.

You heard something was being ripped.

“First time?” He sat up, rolling up condom on his length before he began to pushed you down again as he tried to unzipped your dress and pulled it down to your stomach.

“I’m…” you slightly looked down, panicked as he rubbed his member on your folds. Your nails were raking the skin of his arm.

“Noona, what’s wrong?” He noticed you’re weird behaviour and stop what he was doing.

“I… this, what we are doing…” you bit your lip. “Is my first time.” You confessed. “You…” the boy’s eyes widened. “Noona, are you…”

“I am a virgin, Changkyun.” You finally said it.

There was a silence between you two for seconds.

“I’m… i’m sorry,” he shook his head as he pulled him further from you, but you pulled him quickly back into you.

“Don’t feel sorry. What’s there to be sorry?” You rolled your eyes.

“But, noona, you’re…”

“Come on, i’ve been wanting to do this.” You kissed his lips.

“Are you… serious? I mean, if you’re not ready–“

“I wanna feel you inside me, Changkyun.”

He groaned before he really sandwiched you, kissing you hungrily like the first time. He lifted up your legs, bringing them close to your chin.

“You’re ready?” He asked, pulling off from the kiss. You nodded as he kept rubbing your core and already gave a pressure on your opening.

He pushed his length slowly, gently as he observed your reaction. Your eyes were shut tight and he saw you biting your lower lip, taking the pain.

“Tell me if it’s too painful for you,” he kissed you as he caress your hair, calming you.

It was weird for you, having actually something inside your body. It did feel painful at first, the friction, the way his dick stretched the flesh, you just wanted to scream, but the boy shut you up by giving you a gentle kiss and caressing your forehead.

Slowly, the pain went away, switching into the new sensation you were feeling. It felt like butterfly was filling your stomach. It’s tickling, yet… pleasuring.

“It’s alright?” He asked, probably feeling worried the whole time since he filled you.

“It… feels so good.” You turned your head to your side as you savor every thrusts.

He brushed his lips against your neck. “Glad i make you feel good.” He whispered.

Once you were settled with this new feeling, you moved your hips along, following his pace. It did feel hurt, a little bit, but the pleasure was so much more than that, that you just want him thrusting even faster and deeper.

He looked like he understand what you want, looking at you bucking your hips up as if you were looking for something. He thrusted you faster, sloppily, but enough to make you felt like flying.

“Fuck, i’m not gonna last long.” He groaned, whispering you in his deep voice.

“Just–“ you moaned, taking his thrusts. “Let go.” And just then, Changkyun’s body fell on you, pressing you as he had his head fell on the crook of your neck. He groaned as he released into a condom. He was still thrusting you, but this time it was slower yet so deep that you were pushed slightly.

You moaned at the feeling of something warm inside you before the boy finally stopped thrusting and pulled his member out, gently and took off his condom.

Before you could even say something, he already got your legs positioned above him. “Now it’s your turn.” He smiled and separated your legs, placing his head between them and began licking your clit.

Your back arched at the feeling. Moaning, you squeezed the couch. He then added fingers inside you and pumped you. You felt yourself getting close, so close that you didn’t realised your legs were starting to tremble and your thighs clenched around his head.

“Chang— yun,” you moaned his name as you felt the orgasm was finally coming. Your eyes rolled back and your back was arched. He kept pumping you with his fingers for awhile to get you through it before he pulled his fingers and climbed up to your lips. Planting kisses while your body still trembled with lower intensity.

“Did you make a right decision to pop your cherry with me?” He smirked after you finally back from your explosive orgasm.

“That was amazing.” You smiled.

“I know that was.” He raised his eyebrow. “But it would be even more amazing if we do it next time as a boyfriend and a girlfriend.”

You narrowed your eyes for a mere second before you rolled your eyes, finally got what he meant. “That was smooth as fuck, baby boy.”

“So, will you be my girlfriend, noona?”

Without saying a word, you pulled him into a gentle kiss.

END.