#but i'm also laughing bc hOW CAN IT BE SO STUPID AND YET SO IC ????

[retrograderesemblance]

[onlyseokmins]

Hi, hello. Nice to meet you. You've never met me before....ever.

Don't ask questions.

You don't know me.

But I would like to talk about like ice play with one Lee Seokmin.

Pairing: lee seokmin x afab!reader

Genres: smut (minors dni), established relationship!au, fluff ig

Warnings: *sighs* ice play lol, oral (m&f), swearing, soft!dom seok ig cuz i'm weak, as usual lmk if I missed smth bc i'm stupid

WC: 1.5k

A/N: this has been haunting me but it's finally done it's a lil messy sorry (not in a good way) but I plan to finish it's so-called "prequel" pretty soon :3 also thank you anon, yes, no idea who you could possibly be hehehe also this is basically unedited sorry fskdfjs will fix it when i wake up

You're never listening to Kim Mingyu. Ever again.

Who knew what seemed like a harmless prank initiated by your (former) best friend would end up biting you in the ass hours later? Well… Seokmin hadn't bitten your ass… yet… but at this point, nothing would surprise you. 

The headboard of your shared bed might break with how tight you were gripping it, jaw clenched as you glared daggers at the wall. Your boyfriend giggles beneath you.

"Sit down, love."

A shiver crawls up your back, not just from the affectionate term, but the chill of his fingers tickling your thighs as he trails feather-light touches up and down them. You're slightly shaking from the exertion of hovering above his smug face plus the man's prior ministrations. Despite being a pussy-eating-pro (for whatever cursed/blessed reason the universe decided to bestow this skill to him), you had yet to directly sit upon his face for such an activity.

It was scary for many reasons. Yet somehow here you are, sweet-talked by your menace of a boyfriend into this precarious position. You were still unsure about the whole deal and even more so with that ice cube Seokmin's playing with on his tongue. How he managed to convince you that this was a good idea was beyond you.

You let out a whine, pout on full display. He finds it adorable.

"Hurry up, babe, it's gonna melt."

Cold hands settle on your hips to try and gently urge you down, but it only makes you whine even louder. He has the audacity to laugh, and you have half a mind to just shut him up then and there.    

While you were (slightly) worried about suffocating this dumb man, your main gripe was the unfamiliar coldness. Even when the heat is sweltering outside, you savored Seokmin's consistent warmth. It was as distinctly a part of him as his sweet demeanor — and now with both of those seemingly gone, you were acting much brattier than you ever would.

"What did Mingyu do with my boyfriend?" You hissed out and the grip around your waist tightened ever so slightly. Bingo. "I want him back."

"Mentioning another man when I'm literally about to blow your mind?"

"This is all his fault. And it's not like you've done anything yet."

 "You really want to do this, love?"    

It's a double-sided question. He knows the gears are turning in that pretty little head of yours, can see how you bite your lip to hold back another needy whine when his thumbs slowly move down to draw circles on your inner thighs. His gaze follows the patterns of goosebumps decorating the skin around your perky nipples all the way down to your fluttering entrance above him.

You can hear the ice cube clink against his teeth as he licks his lips. You're leaking. Surprised your wetness hadn't dripped on his face already. Seokmin knows your body too well, what makes you tingle the best before even reaching that height of ecstasy. Sometimes you find the man's insane instincts a little too unfair but it's always for your benefit, in the end, and you trust him entirely.

Because even with the teasing look in his eyes, you can see his concern in the way his eyebrows furrow ever so slightly, searching your own gaze for even the tiniest doubt. You think it's kind of pathetic how your heart melts at his constant gentleness and attentiveness — the calm before the storm — because you know he's waiting for an answer.

You meekly nod, brushing a stray hair from his forehead, and he hums.

"That's not an answer, silly baby. Funny how you listen right away to Gyu when he tells you to slip an ice cube down my pants but can't even answer my simple question…" The grip on your thighs is now bruising, holding you up and not allowing you to move an inch. "Yes. Or. No?"

The "yes" on your lips turns into an unflattering squeal when he rasps out "c'mere baby" and flat out drops you on his face. Your entire figure lurches forward at the searing coldness, teased right along with Seokmin's warm tongue. You're kind of uncertain if you've cum already, one hand tangled in your boyfriend's hair and the other squeezing the sheets beside him.

It's truly a mind-blowing sensation as he quite literally makes out with your cunt and the ice cube rapidly melts as he pushes it in and sucks it back out. Your hips rock slightly on their own accord, and you shiver when your clit brushes against his perfectly shaped nose. Only to widen your eyes and freeze when Seokmin groans the loudest he ever has (and he's pretty darn loud).

It's torture to lift your hips slightly up and off of him out of concern, swallowing hard at the absolute mess of wetness covering his chin and mouth, how lidded his eyes are from how fucked out he is. Entire body flushing at how much he was enjoying this. Moaning when he just pushes you back down on his tongue, mumbling how good you taste and encouraging you to grind and use him. Cold fingers playing with clit.

Seokmin's absolutely entranced. It's a good thing that he's a foreplay kind of man. A giving giver. Getting you as wet as possible (it helps his entry — let's be real) before he actually fucks you boosts his ego more than you think. And right now, it's an utter mess. And he loves it. The melted remnants of the ice cube mix with your juices and he figures if he's gonna drown and die this way, there would be zero complaints.

He knows you're close though and ever so generously wants to aid you. Fumbling for the trashy red solo cup he stole from Mingyu's party, it's your fingers that grab onto the frozen cube of water first.

It's with great effort that you swing your legs over to collapse beside him and now it's his turn to whine and protest. You shush him up when you manage to collect your bearings and reach for the zipper on his jeans.

"Oh, no. Baby, please don't do this to me."

You wickedly grin as you pull out his red, hard cock. "Aw, but it looks like someone needs to cool down a bit themself."

Seokmin has the same look you had before, jaw clenched with a glare that would probably scare absolutely no one but it's not like he's going to stop you and it's your turn to giggle. So, you gently trail an ice cube down the crevices of his abs as he grunts. By the time you're wrapping your hand around his length and gliding the ice cube with your tongue along the underside, he's full-on moaning his pretty sounds for you. 

Alternating between kitten licks and wrist jerks, it isn't long before your boyfriend's pulling you up and crashing your lips together in a frenzied kiss. Both of you taste like the other in a delectable way. 

"Wanna cum in you," he growls and you whisper an "okay" as you kiss the freckle on his jawline.

He managed to steal the sliver of ice from you before in the tangle of tongues exchange, crunching on it with a smug smile.

"Not a bad idea, huh?"

"Yeah, Mingyu's idea wasn't too bad after all."

Seokmin knows you're only doing this to egg him on and he's so whipped he obviously gives you the satisfaction. It's not even three seconds later before he's deep inside you. But just because you're the one on top doesn't mean a thing. He's fully controlling the pace, hands keeping your hips still as he thrusts up into you or running the remaining ice cubes around your nipples only for his tongue to follow to "keep you dry".

It doesn't take you long to come undone, teeth digging into his shoulder as you do indeed cum the hardest you ever had. Seokmin's not far behind, having been hard for probably hours by now. You lay on the damp bedsheets, something you'll have to change once you catch your breath. For now, you snuggle into your boyfriend's warm arms.

"Too much?" He chuckles and you shake your head.

"No. But let's not do that for a bit. I prefer your warmth instead."

"Is that so?" He gazes at you with so much affection when you nuzzle his chest that his next words make you roll your eyes. "Then a shower for round two?"

"At least let me rest!"

"You don't have to do a thing, baby, I'll take care of you."

You don't fall for his innocent act when he kisses your forehead. It's a good thing because the shower session is just as, if not more, intense — the both of you struggling not to crack your heads open. But! It's true Seokmin always takes care of you, drying your hair off with a fond smile as you do the same.

[diffuserlover]

hii!! thank u so much for all ur hard work running this blog love <3 i was wondering if i could get a ship for txt, skz and enha?

i'm an '01 liner, leo is my sign and i'm an enfp. i don't really feel comfortable being shipped w anyone more than 2 yrs younger than me so pls none of that ! but otherwise age doesn't rlly matter to me! my hobbies include music (actually this is more than a hobby, i actually major in music in college! i'm a piano performance major hehe), writing stories, and also just going on spontaneous adventures w my friends. all of my favorite pre-pandemic memories all involve me and my friends just deciding last minute to go somewhere after school or on the weekends. i especially liked going bowling at this one local place, we'd do that a lot and then go get ice cream afterwards at our favorite place! i also love going out to eat w ppl, especially checking out new places!! ig u could say i'm a foodie? personality wise, i am pretty extroverted and hate being alone, i definitely get my energy from being around ppl. ppl tell me that i am very approachable, and i'm pretty comfortable talking to new ppl too. i'm often the one in my friend group who asks the questions for my introverted friends if u know what i mean lol also i make a lot of random noises all the time, esp when i get excited abt things! and i tend to have poor volume control, ppl have told me its annoying sometimes lol so i'm working on it! i'm a pretty "go with the flow" type of guy too, i'm pretty adaptable to any situation/circumstance. as for love language, overly-clingy ppl tend to drive me away bc i'm not a touchy type person. i also don't rlly like the idea of "traditional" dates, rather i just look for someone who would share my love for spontaneous adventure and want to go do stupid things w me hehe. also i would rlly like someone who would share my passion of music w me, since it's a pretty big part of my life (tho i bet it is for all these boys bc they are idols after all lol). like my dream date would be either going to a pop concert and the both of us screaming our voices out or going to an orchestra concert and the both of us secretly nerding out in our seats whenever smth cool happens in the piece hehehe (and then of course going to get food afterwards!!)

that's it, i hope it's not too much! thank u for running this blog love i hope u are happy amd healthy <3

Hii! Thank you so much for requesting!! Thank you so much for your nice word omggg😭 I hope your happy and healthy as well!! So sorry for the late reply:)

Txt:

I ship you with…

Heuningkai

You and Heuningkai are the introvert and extrovert couple😄

I feel like he’s incredibly proud of you for majoring in music and going to school for music🥰

Heuningkai likes to surprise you with little dates and gifts☺️

The surprise dates are 9 times out of 10 just him at your door with two tubs of ice cream for you both😆

You guys go out for a lot of your dates because of all of the things you can do together🤗

You and Heuningkai are loud, you guys are always laughing and yelling(the guys have told you guys to be quiet on multiple occasions)🤣

Heuningkai respects that you aren’t a overly touchy person so he doesn’t do much skin ship with you😊

Overall you and Heuningkai are very cute together😇

Stray kids:

I ship you with….

Chan

I feel like you and Chan is that couple that everyone likes and everyone wants to hang out with🤗

Double dates are a common thing with the other guys and their s/o’s☺️

Chan is overly proud of you for majoring in music and going to school for something you lov🥺

He always asks to help you and asks you to help him with songs😊

Your opinion means a lot to him especially when it comes to his music🙂

You guys go out to eat a lot to try new things and to just get out of the house😚

He finds you so adorable when you get excited over things🥰

Chan loves your smile😁

Overall you and Chan are literal couple goals🥺

Enhypen:

I ship you with….

Heeseung

You and Heeseung are a lazy yet not lazy couple😁

You guys will walk to get food but then bring it home to eat it☺️

Your dates are often random, one morning you will wake up to a text from him asking if you want to go somewhere 😇

Music is a big part of both of your lives and is probably how you guys initially connected🥰

Heeseung loves to “surprise” you with tickets to their concerts, though you always find out before hand🤣

For dates you mainly eat, you both are low key foodies😆

Extroverts and introverts go best together🙂

I feel like Heeseung matches your ideal type very well😊

Overall, You guys have a very comfortable and chill relationship🤗

[writemywaytoyourheart]

Requested: no, not at all

a/n: this has been such an emotional rollercoaster for me y'all. the only reason I made this was bc I want you all to know what can happen when you leave someone behind. So if you're struggling, please talk to someone, talk to me, my asks and dms are always open. Ily

*Listen to Clouds by Before You Exit, either before or after reading this*

Pairing: Jeon Jungkook x reader

Genre: angst, bits of fluff scattered about, but just pure angst if we're being honest here.

Warnings: Language, suicidal death, panic attacks, depression, lots of hurt and depressed Kookoo I'm so sorry.

Word Count: 5.7k hoo

Read at your own emotional risk. If this is triggering for you do not read it please. Go find happy fluff on my Masterlist

The smile on your face could fool anyone. It sure did fool him.

The way you danced to the music no matter where you were or who was watching, made his heart skip a beat in his chest.

You would belt out whatever song was playing, even if you didn't know all the lyrics. A ton of 'la la la's' would ensue and he couldn't control his giggles while watching you. His heart pounded in his chest everytime he heard you sing, even though you weren't the best singer in the world.

The way you would subtly tell him that you were hungry–dramatically grabbing your stomach and groaning about how your belly button was surely sucking your spine because of how empty it was down there.

Your eyes would light up when he suggested getting lunch, and 'oh yeah sure, if you're hungry' would be your nonchalant reply, although the brightness in your eyes and the skip in your step as you hurried ahead of him gave you away. His heart fluttering as he was tripping over himself to catch up to you.

The way your eyes would get bigger as you looked at the food choices, whether he took you to a restaurant or a random food stand on the sidewalk. You were so excited every time.

The day Jungkook asked you to be his girlfriend would be etched into your memory forever. You'd been friends for about a year, he trusted you with everything and would always turn to you, and he knew that you were the person that he wanted to spend his life with, maybe have a family with someday. He actually knew it the day he first laid eyes on you–you were introducing yourself to them all, and reached Jungkook last stretching your hand out to shake his and the second you touched him–a bell went off. It startled Jungkook and he whirled around trying to find where it came from. He found that it was Jimin's alarm as the older boy quickly turned it off. He never told anyone until you two were dating, you were both hopeless romantics and you squealed in delight when he told you the story. He knew then that you were his soulmate.

The day he asked you to be his was in the spring, you two were walking along a path of cherry blossom trees. It was cliché but his cute stutter and pink cheeks made it a thousand times better.

Of course you also had your bad days, everyone does. But you always tried your best to keep a smile on your face. He admired you a lot for that. But he loved you just as much when you cried for hours, lying in his arms, feeling like you wanted to give up, when you didn't know what to do anymore, though he always helped you come down from that. On the less serious days, you would rant for a bit about what had you down, then suggest a dance party, and he would happily oblige.

You two would spin around dancing and singing along to the songs until your lungs inevitably gave out or your head got too dizzy, then you'd plop on the ground in a fit of giggles. Troubles long forgotten.

At least that's what you made him believe.

Yeah, you definitely fooled him.

Now you were gone.

And he would never get the chance to ask you why.

-

"Hello?"

"....Kookie?" Your voice on the other line sounded weak, it was late and he was worried you might be sick.

"Hey baby, what are you doing?"

"...Kookie, I'm sorry." Your voice broke at the end, Jungkook didn't think he'd ever heard you sound so sad and tired.

"What do you mean baby? It's okay, what's going on? Talk to me."

"Jungkook, I...I lo-" Were you crying? He tried to stay calm, "Y/n? Baby, what is it?" You didn't answer so he spoke again, a little louder this time, "Y/n, please answer me love."

...

'Hyung, I think I need to go to Y/n.'

All he can remember is pale.....pale walls, pale tiled floors, your body lying limp on them, pale pills dumped on the floor next to you.

Confusion and panic.

That's all he can remember. No matter how hard he tries to forget it.

Voices shouting around him. Someone grabbing his arms when he started to fade. Jin hyung picking you up in his arms, cradling your lifeless body and hurrying out of the bathroom. Where had the light in your eyes gone? Why did they look so empty?

'She's tired...she needs to sleep.'

He kept repeating the words to Hoseok who was holding him up now. Hoseok just nodded silently and held the youngest up the best he could.

'Hyung, she's sick. She needs medicine. She needs to sleep.'

Why was no one listening to him? Why was Jimin crying? Where did Y/n and Jin hyung go? What was going on? Why was Yoongi hyung shouting into a phone?

Hoseok practically carried Jungkook to the car, pushing him in and slamming the door shut behind them.

Why wouldn't Jimin stop crying? Why was Tae pale as a ghost as he sped down the road? Why was Namjoon trying to calm everyone down? Where were Y/n, Jin, and Yoongi?

What the hell is going on??

There you were, someone was wheeling you into a white room, on a white bed, your hair splayed haphazardly around your face.

That was the night he lost you.

That night.....It will haunt him for the rest of his life.

-

"Shut up Kookoo!" You laugh and hit him playfully, he couldn't help but reach out and tickle your sides to get you to stop smacking his chest–causing you to shriek and flail away from him. He loved that nickname that you always called him, and he wouldn't dare let anyone else call him that.

"Why should I?" He laughed as you kept trying to get away from his tickle attack. He had just beaten you at yet another round of 'Sorry', that stupid passive-agressive board game, and he wouldn't stop teasing you for making that one dumb move.

"It was a stupid accident Kook! Just shuddup already!" You couldn't stop laughing and kicking at him, trying to knock him off of you.

Eventually he pins your arms to your sides, and lays on top of you. You try not to let a smile break as he grins down at you, then he leans down and kisses your nose softly, then both your cheeks, he rubs his nose against yours before kissing your lips, "sorry baby, I'll stop teasing you now." He leans down and starts kissing all over your face again, giggles leaving your lips at the ticklish feeling...Then he takes your hand and looks at the little silver ring on your pointer finger–he had a matching one on his–he traces it and looks for the little engraving on it, then reads it aloud, " 'forever and always', remember when you didn't want that on it?" He makes a face at you and you laugh, "it's not that I didn't want it, it just sounded cheesy at the time. But I love it." He kisses you again,

"I love you Y/n."

"Love you too Kookoo."

-

"What are you saying?" The confusion and fear shook Jungkook's voice as he looked back and forth between Jin and the doctor he met only hours ago. None of the other members around could meet his eyes.

"What are you s-saying?" He repeated the question when no one answered him. The sound of Tae's voice cracking and his sobs starting didn't even register in Jungkook's brain. He didn't see Jimin trying to figure out who to go to, then settling on hugging Tae as if his life depended on it, seeing as Jungkook wasn't in the state to be touched.

"Please answer me." His voice was steadier than he expected. The doctor was the only one willing to look him in the eyes, "I'm sorry...but she's gone."

"Gone where?"

"What?"

"You're confusing me, please, just." Jungkook was obviously struggling, his eyes started to burn, from confusion and the frustration of not being understood.

"Jungkook-" Jin's eyes were red as he stepped forward to take his young friend's arm, but Jungkook moved back, away from Jin's reach.

"Can I please just go see her now? She needs me." Jungkook's voice broke again and he just wanted to scream, what was the matter with everyone? Why couldn't he go to you? "She needs me...."

"Jungkook, your girlfriend, she's-"

"...what?"

"She's dead, Jungkook. I'm sorr-"

"Stop it."

"Jungkook please-" Yoongi stepped up to him now, trying to take his arm, tears streaming steadily down the usually composed elder hyung's cheeks.

"Don't lie to me."

Namjoon and Hoseok were turned away, they couldn't watch anymore, their own faces were damp with tears, their eyes red and swollen.

"Jungkook, I wouldn't do that, I wish I could say it isn't true." The doctor himself was close to breaking down in tears, even though he'd seen many deaths, "I don't think it's a good idea for you to back there right no-"

Jungkook ignored him and pushed past everyone, heading straight to the room you were wheeled into a few hours ago.

The second he saw you lying on the bed, cold and motionless; his mind shut down. That wasn't you. That isn't you. It can't be. He saw you yesterday, you were in his arms yesterday. That wasn't you. He didn't know who that was, but his Y/n was fine, she was at home sleeping, she had work tomorrow. They were going to hang out tomorrow when she was done. Get ice cream and walk in the park.

You were alive. You were fine. They were all pranking him and trying to make him cry. He should call you, call you and tell on them. They were pranking him and it wasn't funny. You would scold the other members and cuddle him to make it okay again.

The sound of Hoseok sucking in a deep breath brought Jungkook back, he turned and saw the other members staring at the person in the bed. They looked sick, like they were going to cry or throw up, Jimin looked close to passing out. Jungkook shoved past them, "you're all assholes, I'm telling Y/n on you and you'll be sorry when she scolds you." Taehyung reached out for Jungkook, tears flowing freely down his face, "J-Jungkook, where are going?"

"I'm going to call Y/n, leave me alone." The boys stared after him in horror. They couldn't process everything that was happening too quickly.

Jungkook's hands shake as he dials your number, listening to the ringing. It rings again and again and again. He hangs up and tries again, after more ringing he gets sent to your voicemail; 'Hello this is Y/n, I'm sorry but I can't answer the phone right now, please leave a message. Unless you're Jungkook, in that case please call again, Kookoo! I'll answer for you.' your laugh bubbles out and then there's a beep, his voice gets caught in his throat, "Y-Y/n, it's Jungkook, please answer your phone, the boys did something horrible and I need to hear you." He tries to keep a steady voice, calling once more and getting the same message that says if it's him, to call again. So he does, again and again and again.

-

"JEON JUNGKOOK!"

Jungkook leapt up from your bed and sprinted to the living room after hearing your shout come from the bathroom, no way was he letting you get ahold of him now. He couldn't stop his giggles as he jumped on the couch and waited for you to get your revenge. Sure enough a few seconds later you stormed out of the hallway, eyes ablaze with fury.

"Jeon Jungkook what the hell is the matter with you??" Your hands are on your hips as you glare at the boy playing innocent in front of you.

"What do you mean Y/n?" His eyes are big and brown causing you to hesitate getting angry, curse his beautiful doe eyes.

"I'm gonna get you back Jeon." You harshly point an accusing finger at him and turn to stalk back to your room. At the sight of your wet shorts he bursts into a fit of laughter. You swing back around and glare at him again.

"Something funny?" There's no hint of amusement in your voice and he chokes back another laugh, biting his lip and shaking his head. You turn and go back down the hallway to change, "very unoriginal prank Jungkookie, very unoriginal. Just you wait. I'll get you worse than that." Yeah, plastic wrap on the toilet seat when you really had to pee was very unfunny.

"Love you babe!" He calls after you, smiling to himself, and chuckles when he hears you shout back,

"Shuddup, Kookoo."

-

"Shut up, you're a liar!!"

"Jungkookie, please, just listen to me." Tears streamed down Jimin's face as he held his hands out to his best friend, completely helpless.

"Get out!" Jungkook's voice broke despite the volume he was using.

"I'm not gonna leave you." Jimin's voice trembled and he sat down on the couch inside their dorm.

Jungkook clenched his fists, trying not to lash out at Jimin. He just wanted to be left alone.

"Jungkook, you need to go to the funeral. It's the least you can do." Jimin speaks up again after a few minutes. Jungkook turned on him instantly, "the least I can do? The least I can do? Who the fuck do you think you are telling me what to do?!" Jimin flinched at the words Jungkook was shouting down at him.

"Do it for her."

"Shut up."

"She loved you Jungkook."

"Stop saying that."

"I won't, because it's true."

"IT'S NOT TRUE!" Jungkook hadn't meant to scream that loud, Yoongi ran into the living room from the back when he heard the shouting.

"What's going on?" Yoongi looked back and forth between the two boys, confusion that turned into sadness written all over his face when he saw Jungkook tearing up. Jimin was the one to speak up, "he won't go to her funeral next week. He says she didn't love him." Yoongi looked back at Jungkook and saw tears spilling down the boy's face. The thoughts running around in his head were going to swallow him up.

You were selfish. How could you leave him like that? He hated you. No he didn't. He couldn't hate you no matter how hard he tried. No, he hated himself for loving you.

"Jungkook, I think you should go. At least for some closure." Yoongi said quietly and cautiously. After a minute Jungkook finally nodded, he would go. If it meant it would help him forget you.

-

Whenever he had a bad day, your face would pop into his mind and he'd immediately text you, asking if he could come over. You would always reply right away, and he'd smile down at the words 'of course love, please come over.' So he would.

You would end up holding him in your arms, it didn't matter that he was bigger than you, your arms would wrap around as much of him as they could hold, gently rocking him back and forth. His tears hitting your chest and bringing tears to your own eyes, when he was in pain, so were you.

You'd sit there for as long as it took, a few times you two had been in that position all night long. Sometimes you would sing to him, his favorite songs, lyrics tumbling from your lips, voice cracking beautifully in his ears. His sobs would turn to shaky breaths as he listened to the imperfectly perfect sound of your voice. Your hand stroking his hair, letting him know that you were there, you'd always be there.

-

You lied to me.

Those are the only thoughts that pass through his head as he stands among all the people dressed in black. A picture of you smiling is sat on top of a closed casket, your eyes seemed to be looking straight into his.

Why did you lie?

Jungkook feels someone's arm touch his, he turns and sees your mother holding onto him. Her eyes are red and swollen from all the tears she's cried in the past week, and they don't seem to be stopping anytime soon. He turns and hugs her tightly, his throat closing up at her weeping. Once she collects herself she looks up at him, "thank you Jungkook," he looks at her in confusion, "what for?" His voice is barely above a whisper and he feels his throat closing up again at her next words, "for loving my beautiful daughter. You made her happy. I don't think we'll ever know why she did it, but you're the reason she was here for so long, I do know that. She wanted to marry you." A sob escapes Jungkook's throat, "I w-was going to ask her." Your mother cries harder and holds his arm tighter, "I know, I know sweetie, thank you Jungkook, she loved you so much. Thank you."

A little while into the funeral, Jungkook starts to feel himself panic; his breaths getting shorter and shallower. You weren't here to talk him out of this panic attack. You would never be here again. The other members are all sitting stone faced, their eyes are red and a few have tears welling up again. You're never going to make Yoongi laugh again, or make Jimin blush, or tease Namjoon for being clumsy, or compliment Jin on how handsome he is, you'd never dance with Hoseok again, and who would listen to Tae talk about the most random things, with a look of pure awe and interest in what he was wanting to say? Jungkook starts to hyperventilate and when people turn and look at him he rushes out of the room and into the hallway, trying to find someplace to be alone.

The hallway is dark and he sits on the floor a ways away from where the funeral is being held. That's when the tears come; flooding down his face instantly, and his sobs wrack his entire body, he can't get a deep enough breath in to calm himself down. So he sits there and sobs helplessly for a few minutes, each breath after the next getting caught in his throat.

"God," he finally chokes out after a while, "w-why did you take her away? There was so much we were going to do together. I never even got to say goodbye," then he clasps his hands and starts crying again, "I-I'll do anything, please just give her back to me. P-please let me have her back....God, please." Jungkook sits and cries for another few minutes, saying anything he can possibly think of that he would do to have you back. For you to be alive again. So many words he wanted to say and never would. He wanted to at least know if you were doing alright, up in the sky where he knew you were. He wanted you to be alive again.

But it was too late.

-

The fight you two were having had been going on for a while now, and frankly you were over it. You couldn't even remember why it started. But Jungkook was clearly still angry and wanted to get the last word, "maybe you should stop being so whiny and annoying Y/n, and then I'd listen to you!" That stung. You've fought before but you never called each other anything, your eyes start to water and you grab your bag, throwing it over your shoulder and heading for the door. Jungkook rolls his eyes, "where are you going now? Why do you think running away all the time is gonna solve everything?" He sounds exasperated and like he doesn't even want to keep fighting now.

You turn back to face him, "I'm getting some fresh air, thank you very much, and I don't see why you should care since I'm so annoying and whiny." You go to open the door and he stands up, coming over to you. You can see the regret at his words in his eyes, but you can't find it in you to get over it just yet. You needed a break. He puts a hand on the door to keep you from opening it, "Y/n, you know I didn't mean that." You scoff and reach for the door handle again before he grabs your hand, "then why did you say it, Jungkook?" He just looks down and stays silent, yeah that's what you thought. You yank your hand away and open the door, "fuck you Jungkook. Leave me alone."

A few hours later you had mostly calmed down and you were at home reading a book in bed, when your doorbell rings. You get up and walk over to it reluctantly, you already know who it is before you look through the peephole, but you do so anyway and see Jungkook standing there biting his lip, just like you knew he would be.

You open the door and he looks at you hopefully, so you open the door wider to let him in. He immediately wraps his arms around you in a tight hug and you can't help but to hug him back, you knew he was sorry and you were tired of being angry. You talk it out and he apologizes for everything he said, you apologise for the things you said too. Eventually you end up watching a movie and cuddling after talking through it all. He kisses the top of your head and you smile, grateful that you two could always work things out. You mess with the little silver ring on your finger, smiling and remembering how he won the matching pair for you both.

-

"Jungkook, maybe you should take a break." Jimin wipes the sweat off his forehead and walks to his bent over friend slowly, putting his hand on his back and rubbing it, "look, we have a while to learn it, please just rest Kook-" Jungkook jerks away roughly, "please don't call me that." His voice was different, heavier and without a lot of feeling, it had been like this for almost a year now. Jimin looks hurt but says nothing more. They all saw a difference in Jungkook since you passed away, they would hear him crying in his room every night, they wouldn't miss the tears that choked him during certain songs they performed. There was an emptiness around them all, and they weren't sure it would ever be filled again.

Tae walks over when he sees the scene unfolding, he looks at Jungkook and tries not to look upset for his best friend, knowing it would just make things worse, "alright guys, we're all going to take a ten minute break...Jungkook can we talk please?" Jungkook huffed but agreed, moving over to sit on the couch on the side of the dance room. The other members walked out of the room to give them some privacy.

"Look, Jungkook. I'm not going to try to say anything much, but I do want to say this. Y/n loved you, she was hurt and couldn't tell anyone. It isn't your fault, Jungkook. No one saw it coming."

"I should have."

"Don't say that."

"It's true though, what kind of boyfriend was I that I didn't even see the signs? That she felt like she had to hide it from me? I-it's all my fault." Jungkook's eyes start to water and his breathing starts to get quicker and shaky, a panic attack was coming on. Tae swallows his tears and reaches over to put a hand on Jungkook's leg, bringing him back. Tae swallows hard and trudges on,

"It wasn't your fault. But, I think you need to seriously think it all through, and then let go."

"I don't want to let go."

"Why not?"

"Because no matter how hard I try and say I want to, I don't want to forget about her."

"You don't have to forget about her Ko-...Jungkook...But I think she wants you to keep living without her now, she would be sad to see you like this."

"Then maybe she shouldn't have been so selfish and decide to leave me alone."

"You don't mean that." Tae can't keep his shaky tear stained voice under control and he turns away to wipe his eyes.

Of course he didn't mean it, but being angry seemed to make it hurt less. Maybe he should try, like Tae said, maybe he could try to keep you in his heart while continuing to live.

Like you would want, and he always wanted to make you happy.

-

"Hey, Y/n. What about this one?" Jungkook tugs you over to the huge ride, the kind that swoops around in a giant loop. Your stomach drops to your feet but he looks so excited; bouncing up and down with his big doe eyes shining brightly.

Well, at least you hadn't eaten anything yet. Maybe you could do it once before lunch and get it over with. He lets out a shout of excitement when you nod and then he pulls you over to the line of people waiting to get on the ride. As you wait for your turn you tap your foot anxiously, Jungkook notices and wraps his arms around your waist. You smile and he lays his chin on your shoulder, "love you baby~" you tsk and bring your hand up to pat his cheek gently, "love you too, I hope you know that since I'm doing this for you." He chuckles and holds you tighter.

After the ride, which wasn't as bad as you thought–having held Jungkook's hand tightly the entire time–you two find a table to get some lunch. You order and try to ignore Jungkook's teasing about how hard you held his hand and how he thought it would fall off. He keeps laughing as you roll your eyes playfully and avoid looking at him.

When the food comes, you both start to eat, then you notice a little girl and her older brother ordering some ice cream at one of the many food stalls in the fair, a few feet away. Jungkook turns to see what you're smiling at and smiles widely himself as he turns back to you. "I bet that's what our kids will do someday, Y/n...We should take them here, right?" You look at Jungkook happily and nod, you couldn't wait for that day to come.

Later that day, you and Jungkook stopped at the claw machines, Jungkook insisted on trying to get you a stuffed animal. After about ten tries he frustratedly walked away, you tried not to laugh at him walking away only for him to see another machine and say he actually wanted to get you that; which was a little egg with two silver rings in it. One for you and one for him, he said.

Miraculously he was able to get the little egg and he cheered loudly in triumph, reaching down to get it out of the machine and quickly telling you to put the smaller one on. It was cute, and Jungkook's matched.

Later you ended up getting the engraving, 'forever and always' on it.

-

Jungkook's eyes open slowly, the sun shining in through the window, signalling to him that it was time to get up now. He closes his eyes again and turns onto his side, pulling the covers up to his chin and taking a shaky breath. He tries his best to conjure up the dream he just woke up from, he didn't want to leave. Please come back. His eyes start to burn and tiny tears pour over his lashes when he blinks.

His alarm goes off a minute later but he just ignores it, the insistent beeping drowned out in his thoughts, he can't escape. When he opens his eyes again he sees you lying beside him. He blinks but you're still there.

"Hi Kookoo."

"Y/n?" His voice shakes uncontrollably as he tries to make sure he isn't dreaming.

Your eyes fill with tears and you nod, "yes Kookie, it's me."

"H-how...are you still alive? Y/n are you actually alive?" His voice starts to raise in hopes that maybe this had all been a nightmare. A horrible horrible nightmare. He starts to sit up on his arms but his face falls and his heart crumples when you shake your head, tears slipping out and rolling down your soft cheeks. Your face looks so soft and healthy, not at all what it looked like the last time he saw you.

"I'm sorry Kook, I'm so sorry." Your voice cracks and wavers as you start to cry. He reaches out and touches your wet cheeks, slowly rubbing the tears away and at the same time doing the one thing that he knew always calmed you down.

"Shhh, it's okay love. Don't cry please." He didn't care if this was a dream, you were here. His beautiful Y/n had finally come back to him. He wipes your tears gently, after he wipes them all away he keeps his hand on your cheek, softly rubbing with his thumb.

"Jungkook, I need to say something."

He looks at you and feels his tears returning, he nods and says slowly as if just realizing something, "that's why you're here isn't it? That's why you came back." You close your eyes and take a deep breath, then nod while you bite your lip, trying your very hardest not to throw yourself into his arms and cry.

"Y-yes, Kookie I need you to-"

"Don't."

"What?" You open your eyes again and see the desperation in his face as he seems to be having a battle with himself, "don't tell me, please. Y/n please don't leave me again." He starts to cry and your heart is torn to pieces, he reaches out to you and you push yourself into his arms.

Jungkook's mind is racing a mile a minute. You were in his arms, you were alive and in his arms. He hadn't felt your warmth for over a year and a half now. Jungkook buries his face into your hair and inhales deeply, memories flooding back into his mind. "Y/n, are you okay? Please tell me you're doing okay." He feels your tears wetting his t-shirt and he holds you tighter, listening carefully when you start talking again–voice muffled by his shoulder, "I'm alright Kookie I promise, but I miss you...I'm sorry baby, I'm so sorry. I didn't realize the effect it would have until it was too late." Jungkook's breath catches in his throat at your words. He leans back and brushes your damp hair out of your face, "how long do I have?" He whispers sadly, tears threatening to choke him once again.

-

The walk. The walk in between the cherry blossom trees all that time ago when he confessed, that's where you went.

You walk side by side, holding hands, eventually you stop and turn to Jungkook. He focuses on you even though all he wants to do is turn away and cry. You smile at him and squeeze his hand, "Jungkook," he blinks hard and nods in affirmation that he's listening. "Jungkook, I don't have a lot of time. But I need you to promise me something." He nods again and you continue, "w-when I leave, I'm not coming back," you ignore the tears streaming down your face, "I need you to promise me that when I let go of your hand, you won't look back." Jungkook takes in a shuddery breath, "I'm sorry Y/n, that I didn't see, I couldn't save you. I don't know if I ca-" you cut him off before he can finish. "You can, and none of it was your fault Kookie, it isn't your fault. If I could take back what I did," he shakes his head tears already slipping out again, but you continue, "I would take it all back. I made the biggest mistake of my life, and I hurt you in the process. I ruined the future we were going to have one day." You're full on crying now as he cries next to you, his shoulders shaking, "and I want you to know how sorry I am." He pulls you into a hug and cries into your shoulder, his breath comes out in heavy gasps, "I forgive you Y/n, I forgive you, I love you so much." He keeps repeating those words while you hold each other for another minute, just crying. Tears of sadness and relief that he forgave you spill out of your eyes and you clutch onto him.

You two go to a ton of different spots that you had dates, stopping to get ice cream, to fulfill the promise you broke the day you died. Eventually you end up at the fair, standing in front of a claw machine that was full of random items, one of them being a small egg that contained two rings. You stare at the machine for a minute before turning to the young man that you loved. He was staring at you, one hand in his pocket fiddling with something, you look at him curiously and he looks down, pulling his hand out and opening it, to reveal a small ring with a chain around it, your ring.

"Jungkook, you still have that?" You refuse to cry again, but you see his eyes well up with tears. You hated that he cried so much nowadays, and hated more the fact that it was you who caused it.

"Of course, we made a promise Y/n, 'forever and always', remember?" You nod tearfully not caring about your stupid 'no crying' rule anymore, and he wipes your eyes gently.

"I'm scared Y/n, I don't want you to leave me again." His voice trembles and he doesn't try to stop the tears. You hug him tightly, letting your own tears escape for the last time, "I'll be with you Kookoo, forever and always. But I have to go know, please keep your promise?" He nods as he hugs you against him, then he pulls back and kisses you quickly before he starts to cry harder. Jungkook hugs you one last time, enveloping you in his big strong arms, the last time either of you would feel each other.

The regret and anger with yourself is overwhelming you, but Jungkook hugs it all away. In a tight warm promise that he's forgiven you and he will keep his last promise to you.

You both pull away and that's when you turn, giving his hand one last squeeze before you walk a few feet, "goodbye Jungkook," you whisper your last words to him, he swallows hard, "goodbye Y/n, I love you." With those words in your ears you walk away and disappear.

Jungkook lets out one last sob and puts the necklace with your ring on it around his neck. He got to say his goodbye. He would never forget you, he didn't want to. But, he forgave you and he would live on with your memory in him. He kept in his heart what he knew; that someday, he would see you again. When you meet in the clouds.

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a/n 2.0: I can't stop sobbing rn. Somebody help me. I'm so sorry for this, but I hope this shows you that there is always another way, but when it's over, it's over. You can't come back. More people than you know will miss you. The future is unknown. So please stay.

[koishua]

I mean, it wouldn't be such a nuisance if it wasn't so hard to pronounce, I'm really conscious about my way of speaking so what really takes me back is the speaking part 😔 (the most important 😓)

Finally it wasn't so bad, I would've stayed more time if it wasn't for some things I have to do here, but after this experience I'm thinking of going there to at least start studying while I take care of my cousin. I have much to think about, I'll have to talk it out with my bed 💤

Would you know 👀 I'm actually on ep 8 of All of us are dead, but I'll talk about that in another ask...

Well actually, these last days HxH has been really fun, I like this exam arc, but I prefer watching it with my friend bc I like to say stupid shit and we end up laughing all the time. (Actually Hisoka's parts usually have that flamenco music so we always make fun of it dancing to it 😂) Domestic Girlfriend is... confusing, like 'why are you making an anime about this??? 🧐'. Yeah, I'll check out that one then, the only sports anime I've seen is Haikyuu and I loved it, I'd like to watch Yuri on Ice and Free! Have you watched them?

It's good to hear that, must really come in handy knowing a person in every school, I could never 😂 Then I've totally achieved my goal 😌‼️ I always have much love to give so anytime you need reassurance, I'm here 🕴️

ahh... I wouldn't know... As I'm an only child I only know I would give my life for my parents, but I don't actually know if I'd like to have siblings... My mother told me she wanted to have manyyy kids, like 6 or so, but due to reasons she decided not to, but damn, I wouldn't want to be oldest sibling out of that bunch 👀 I can't even imagine the pressure.

Well, the first Agatha's book I read was 'And then there were none' at 13-14 for school, and to this day it's the first that comes to mind when recommending one, it really has you on the edge all the time (the introduction is kinda long and a little boring but after the dinner it all escalates) and bombastic plot twist 💥. Murder in the Orient express is also a classic.

Yeah, now my mind is in ‼️All of us are dead‼️but I'll check their synopsis out.

Take care and get better angel <3 - 💐

oh so you CAN speak french‼️meh i say don't be too concerned over an accent or the way you speak or anything 💔 it's so stupid that we gradually feel more self conscious about it as we grow up tho and like, the concern is so common and yet <//3 idk kids generally have it so easy with learning languages and talking since they don't hold back like we might do smh

pls im glad you're in the fluffy and fun and adventure filled era of hxh for now 😭 hisoka is sick af, but the music just makes it better yeah lmao it gets gradually so so dark and the tension just makes your neck sore sometimes 💔💔 there are so many "wtf" animes so ig domestic gf is that kind too haha i haven't watched yuri on ice (at least not in full episodes, i do know what goes on tho) but free! is still on my tbw list... for the past years.... still haven't watched it bc so many new stuff are coming out 😭🤚

thanking my dad for the amount of ppl ik istg i still don't know how my memory is capable of that </3 thanks for being the reliable older sister (figure) i never had 💜💔

trust me. being the oldest isn't worth any of its very few advantages 😐 im the oldest of four and you have to be the second mother to everyone. just— no. i would never recommend being born first and im very serious about this oml. ppl might always complain about being lonely as an only child, but that's far better than being constantly surrounded by multiple gremlins at once 🥴 they look up to you for everything, so you never get to make mistakes (as my mom always tells me to behave or else you're being "a bad influence" and teaching them something bad 💔🙁). also bc you were your parents' first kid, they'll be harsher on you but the rules they once reinforced on you will lighten up so much more with your younger siblings. okay im done with my mini rant anyways you can see how done i am with this entire older sister life 💀💀

after i finish my recently bought books, i'll be checking out and then there wer none!!

[rreader]

Hi! I think i just read EVERYTHING you've written. And it is AMAZING, so, its ok if i submit a request? Maybe Soulmate!AU (with words) with Loki (bc i love my son) there is something strange with his words (i dunno what, omg) and he thinks that he don't have a soulmate and then, one day, after some bad things he is in a BAD mood, and he meets reader and shouts at them, but instead of being upset reader is just GRINNING SO WIDE, and then... fluff. Yeah. I'm bad with ideas x) Thank you!

Pairing: Loki x ReaderFandom: MCUWarnings: can’t lie to your soulmate!au ; a biiiiit smutty. tiny bit.

A/N: oh my god, I’m soooo glad you’re enjoying my stories my dear and I certainly hope that you like this one as well. I don’t know if I’d necessarily call it ‘fluff’, but I just thought a bit more steam would fit it a little better. don’t worry, it’s no actual smut, but I’m certainly hinting at it. (also, I wrote this before I saw Ragnarok, so this happens before the movie)

                                                         *****

Midgard.

Hehad always despised this planet, still did and probably alwayswould.

Sowhy was he here? Why was he doing this to himself and not plottinghow to take over Asgard again?

Becausedespite of what he told himself, he didn’t want his brother to diejust yet and he certainly didn’t want anyone else to kill him if thatsomeone wasn’t himself, so here he was, on Midgard, getting ready forthe fight against Thanos.

“Loki!”speak of the devil. Thor approached him, already in his armor, “Getready for battle, brother. We’ve got a lead on one of the infinitystones.”

“Idon’t see why that concerns me? Ask one of your ‘friends’,” hesneered and continued reading, his legs propped up onto the coffeetable in front of him.

ButThor pushed them off with his own feet and snatched the book out of his hand.

“ButI want you by my side.”

Lokirolled his eyes and got up, his casual clothing turning into hisarmor.

“Fine.Congratulations, you’ve just robbed me of my relaxation day,” hewalked towards the door, a laughing Thor running after him.

                                      Contraxia,a few hours later

Thorand Loki were wandering through the cold, approaching one of TaneleerTivan’s hideouts, in hopes of finding the Reality Stone in there.

“Ah!Isn’t this lovely, brother? You, me and an Ice Planet. Just like oldtimes,” Thor laughed, walking a few steps ahead of him.

Lokionly grunted. He thought he hated Midgard, but Midgard was a paradisecompared to this shit hole.

Whydid Heimdall have to drop them off so far from the cave? Wasit too hard to just leave them at the entrance?

“Oh,by the way, Jane said yes!”

“Howmarvelous,” he had no clue what she said yes to, but right now, hedid not care.

“Itried to hide it from her. But you know how it is with your soulmate.Can’t lie to them,” Thor chuckled.

Loki,however, did not. He didn’t respond..

Hedid not know how any of it felt like. Everyone else seemed to havefound their soulmate. Unlike him. He kept telling himself that itdidn’t matter to him, but truth be told? It did. It seemed like theuniverse hated him. And in return, he decided to hate the universe.

“Don’tfret, brother,” Thor gave him a hard clap onto his back, “I’msure you’ll find your soulmate rather sooner than later.”

Hereally doubted that.

Nevertheless,they finally arrived at the hideout, carefully making their wayinside.

Oddlyenough, there were no guards at the entrance of the cave, neitheralong the path inside.

It’slike they all vanished all of a sudden.. left in a hurry.

“Theytold me this place would be filled with guards.”

“I’vealways told you that your human friends are imbeciles,” Loki’s moodonly got worse by the second. It seemed like Thor had dragged him outhere on this freezing planet for no reason at all. This place lookedlike someone had already been here and taken everything that lookedlike it was worth something.

Andwhen they finally arrived in the heart of the hideout, his suspicionwas confirmed.

“Let’slook around..,” Thor said, but couldn’t even take one step, beforethe cave was filled with shouts and the brothers were surrounded by, what looked like, scavengers. Or maybe bandits. Or both.. “Or not,”he added.

“Fools.Do you not know who we are?” Loki asked, readying his staff.

“Oh,on the contrary. We do,” you made your way through your people, allof them stepping aside to let you get in front of them, a smilegracing your lips, “Because we were the ones who tipped you off onthis place. Truth be told, I was hoping they’d send the wizard or the machine guy, but youtwo are even better,” you laughed and clapped once in excitement.

Thorglanced at Loki, who nodded.

Butyou weren’t as stupid as they thought you were. Before they couldstart attacking, an electrically charged net fell from the ceiling,leaving them stunned for now. 

“Getthem on the ship. I want to talk to them,” you ordered and walkedup ahead, letting your people do the hard work.

                                                 twohours later

“Well,well, good morning sleeping beauties,” you grinned and pulled up achair towards the brothers. They were sitting on chairs themselves,chains all around them. “Now, before either of you has any gloriousideas, let me inform you that these chains are electrically charged too. If you want to fall back asleep, go right ahead and try to freeyourselves. If you behave, I’ll let you live. I only have some questions.”

“Questions? That’s what this is about?”

“Yes, muscle man. Questions,” you turned your head towards Thor, “So answer them, or I’ll have to hurt you, understood?”

“Youthink you can threaten us? You’re just a beautiful woman withgorgeous eyes and seem to be incredibly talented, so I will not eventry to escape, because I want to stay a little longer with you,” hescreamed angrily. 

BothThor and you stared at him, Loki’s chest heaving up and down and thensuddenly, he held his breath when he realized what he just said.

Youstarted grinning and leaned back in your chair, crossing your arms infront of your chest.

“Now THAT’S what I call a plot twist.” you laughed.

“What?!”Loki’s eyes wandered from you to Thor, back to you. “What’shappening to me?!”

Youbit your lip, got up and crouched in front of him.

“Tellme how much you want to kill me.”

“Iwant to pin you against the wall and make you beg for mercy, when I’m inside you because of how good I make you feel. Then Iwant to hold you in my arms and fall asleep with you. Brother. Stopme,” he turned his head to Thor, his eyes pleading for help.

“You’re soulmates! This has to count for something, right?!” Thorimmediately used that to their advantage.

Butyou didn’t even really listen to him, you still stared into Loki’seyes and smiled at him.

Outof all the possible soulmates you could have had, it had to be anAsgardian god.

Well,at least it was interesting.

“Fine,”you bit your tongue and grinned again, nodding, “Forget the whole questioning shit. I’ll let you go,” you pressed thebutton that controlled the chains.

“I’mso glad my soulmate is as insane as I am,” Loki got up, hisshackles falling to the floor and a wicked grin on his face.

“Believeme, so am I.”

Asecond later, you wrapped your arms around his neck and kissed himhard, his own hands grabbing your waist and holding you tight.

“Uhm..forgive me, I don’t mean to interrupt, but.. could you release me aswell?”

Youboth turned your head towards Thor, who was still sitting in thatchair, completely bound to it. You sighed and were about to pick upthe remote for the chain controls, when Loki stopped you.

“Wait..”

“Loki!No!” Thor warned.

“Lethim sit here for a bit longer. He’ll still be here when we get back.”

“Loki!”Thor was now trying to get out of the chains himself, but they werestill charged, so every little move he made, sent shocks through hisbody.

Asthe God of Thunder, it shouldn’t bother him that much, but too muchenergy and it wasn’t pleasant anymore. He could barely control hispowers as it was, if he was to be charged with too much energy.. whoknew what would happen.

Youconsidered it for a moment and then nodded, matching your soulmate’swicked grin.

“Ilike the way you think, dear soulmate. Let’s get to know each othersome more, yes?” you grabbed his hands and pulled him towards yourbedroom on your ship.

“LOKI!GET BACK HERE RIGHT NOW!”

ButLoki was far too occupied to even care about his brother right now.

Hehad finally found his soulmate and damn, that you were.

Hecouldn’t have asked for a better one.

[creepweirdo]

hey emily! and omg they weren’t my faves lol they never covered that track! plus i doubt they would change the lyrics. i’m glad you enjoyed the cover though. yeah idk i don’t really read genderbent fics which cuts down on the wlw stories and there aren’t enough out there 😭 idk the yuri on ice soundtrack even tho i loved it so i’ll go listen! it can remind me before the new stuff comes out. oh that’s a good idea about the donghua it might help my pandemic brain to focus.

my kpop mutual did send me some art of san lang? and pointed out he looked like my bias which i admit intrigued me into trying to read it. i like all sorts of games, on my switch, rdr2, zelda. i don’t play that much but it’s a nice break if i can’t focus on reading. ive not got far in cp2077 yet but its fun! button mashing is the only way to play. your cc💜

I FORGOT QUESTIONS wow what a terrible cc. for mdzs what sect would you be in/like to join? and what is one thing that can instantly make your day better?

hi classified cultivator!!! 

ALSO WARNING FOR MY LACK OF EMOJIS </3 im writing this on my laptop lol)

whoops sorry that i've been MIA for the last couple of days - i’ve been a slave to capitalism :(((((((((((((((

LMAO that’s so funny that they weren’t your faves!! AND OH HOW INTERESTING - i think i will HAVE to stan them for not changing the gender of the song !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

how exciting was the yuri on ice news !!! ahhhhh i totally lost my mind - i didn’t even believe the news at first but if this year has told us anything its that tumblr/twitter memes are the only way to find out about world/fandom news!!!

LMAO IM HOPING IT WAS FROM THE MANHUA (see below haha) !!!!!! BC I AM !!!!!! LOOKING RESPECTFULLY AND AS A LESBIAN OF COURSE BUT AHHHH WHY IS DRAWING SO FINE!!

oooo reading!! Is it mostly fanfic or are you blessed with the ability to read actually books????!!!!! I would love to be able to read a real book one day hahahah O_O

LMAOOOO HAHAH NOOO ur not terrible lol - okay!!! so this is actually really hard. a sect i’d like to be a part of is the lan sect LOL. like, i am pretty lame and have always felt bad if I don’t follow the rules set out for me. and it would be so nice to be up in the nice and cool and tranquil mountains (it’s summer for me rn and im hating my life). AND i actually think the white and light blue uniform/robe/clothes colours are so cute/pretty. and i would like the set and rigid framework life would give me there (i don’t really like spontaneous change hahah it stresses me out so much)

HOWEVER i would like to think that i would leave the lan sect once becoming a senior disciple and become a rouge cultivator bc my world view would have opened up and i would have realised that i can do so much more good for the people by being a rouge cultivator. (OMG not me making up this self insert scenario LOL)

OH AHAHAH this is so lame and such an introvert thing but one thing that can instantly make my day better is when i can have time alone and can decompress!!! especially after social catch ups and work!!! i need that time to myself or else i feel like i'm gonna go insane!! basically me spending time on tumblr and laughing at stupid memes and crying at mdzs makes my day instantly better ahaha <3 it’s a necessity LMAO

hahaha thank you for your questions!!! what sect would you wanna be in/join? and yeah, that’s a cool question - what is one thing that can instantly make your day better?

[dancing-sewer-daddy]

All of them bc i'm so bored too and i can't sleep (ily btw) ❤

ahhhh anon you lil sweetheart!!!!! *wraps you up in a blanket burrito with me* I loves you too!!!! *cracks knuckles* okie time to get to work!! 

0) Height: 5′1

1) Age: 18

2) shoe size: I’m a size 4 and a half in women’s (I HAVE TINY FEET)

3) Do you smoke? Nope 

4) Do you drink? nope

5) Do you take drugs? sugar is the only drug i need

6) Age you get mistaken for: I have a baby face and I’m super small so I’d say 14 is usually the age I get mistaken for

7) Have tattoos? I don’t have any yet

8) Want any tattoos? If i were to get tattoos I’d like something to do with butterflies because i’ve been associated with them my whole life!

9) Got any piercings? nope (I’m boring I’m sorry)

10) Want any piercings? No, because I don’t think I’d have the patients to keep it in all the time and take care of it. (I’d probably lose it when I’d take it out tbh)

11) Best friend? sherbet is always there for me when I need it. 

12) Relationship status: Single and too shy to mingle

13) Biggest turn ons: Deep sensual voices, I’m a sucker for accents, someone who can take the lead because I’m such an awkward dork I’d never initiate anything. Someone who makes me feel loved, or just does little things for me because they feel like it (I become mush when I meet someone sweet) 

14)Biggest turn offs: Fuckboys, just plain arrogant people (ugh), someone who clearly only wants sex. People who put others down or consider themselves superior. 

15) Favourite movie: IT 2017 and Step brothers (I can quote the entire movie)

16) I’ll love you if: You’re someone who is honest with me and someone who I know will look out for me. Loyalty is everything to me, and if I know I can trust you then you’ll have me forever!! 

17) Someone you miss: I won’t say I miss anyone right now because compared to how I’ll feel when my parents pass away, this will be nothing.  

18) Most traumatic experience: Highschool, Daycare, and Kindergarten (it’s a long story) (if you’re curious you can always message me) 

19) A fact about your personality: I’m a really sensitive person. Like i’ll definitely go cry if someone raises their voice at me. I’ll also mull over an insult for days even though I try not too. I’ll even sometimes tear up if someone I don’t know very well is just a loud obnoxious person. If I know you though then we’re fine and I’ll be loud with you.

20) What I hate most about myself: My face, I am really insecure about my face and I’ll always cover it if I laugh or smile. 

21) What I love most about myself: My hair, like when I shave my legs barely any hair comes back!! It takes a month before the hair starts to show. 

22) What I want to be when I get older: An art teacher (highschool) 

23) My relationship with my sibling(s): I have a really good relationship with my brother, we always forgive each other after arguments (which we don’t have too often) We’re both pretty passive. 

24) My relationship with my parent(s): My relationship with my mom is good, however my relationship with my father is quite strained. He can really get on my nerves and just downright puts me down at times. 

25) My idea of a perfect date: Just chilling out together honestly. Eat pizza, watch stupid movies, beat the ever living shit out of each other on video games. I like being outdoors don’t get me wrong, but I need to feel comfortable around that person and take some time to get to know them. I’m not all that fancy. Dinner dates scare the crap out of me. 

26) My biggest pet peeves: People who chew loudly, people who constantly make you repeat yourself and then continue to ignore you. 

27) A description of the girl/boy I like: Orange hair, plump red lips, large melon forehead, piercing yellow eyes, bunny teeth, a child eating alien who’s favourite flavour is fear. He lives in the sewers but that’s all good, we all have our flaws~

28) A description of the person I dislike the most: weird orange hair, old, angry pouty lips, happens to be the American president. 

29) A reason I’ve lied to a friend: usually it has to do with not replying to a text they sent because I was just too lazy but I didn’t want to hurt their feelings. 

30) What I hate the most about work/school: The anxiety I get when I go there.

31) What my last text message says: FEED ME DAMMIT!!

32) What words upset me the most: ugly, incompetent, worthless

33) What words make me feel best about myself: “other people get anxious too”, “you’re not alone”.

34) What I find attractive in women: Strong willed, a dry sense of humour, I guess someone more dominant than me??? A firecracker!! I just really love women with confidence!! Like I have the biggest crush on Alex Vause from “orange is the new black”. I don’t know why, but I just do. *rolls away*

35) What I find attractive in men: Umm the only guy I’ve ever been really attracted too is Tom Hiddleston?? So yeah, just be like Tom and I’ll immediately swoon. Also BTS, like I’m really into more feminine men?? LIKE HAVE YOU SEEN THEIR THIGHS!?!?? *weeps*

36) Where would I like to live: In my bed. Let me stay in my cozy blankets forever please and thank!! 

37) One of my insecurities: walking. I know it sounds stupid but I seriously stress about how to walk so much like what do I do with my hands??? How do legs work?? I constantly need to hold something to feel at ease. 

38) My childhood career choice: An assassin lol. I had big plans as a kid i guess.

39) My favourite ice-cream flavour: coconut!!

40) Who I wish I could be: Let me go live the dream in Tamriel (skyrim) and be the dragonborn. I’d probably die in the first five minutes but it would be soworth it.  

41) Where I want to be right now: with @tilltheweedstakeyou watching the hobbit and eating ice-cream or something. I just really want snuggles rn ;w;💕. 

42) The last thing I ate: air. Like i’ve eaten absolutely nothing today. 

43) Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately: Tom Hiddleston!!!! My boy!!!!

44) A random fact about anything: I nearly drowned at the bottom of the pool during lifeguard training when my partners dropped the spinal board I was strapped to. My instructor immediately jumped in to rescue me!