#but idk maybe it's just. pointless? I don't know how to be any other way. I've never not lived like this? I don't remember ever not having

[running-in-the-dark]

and it just occurred to me that when we move, I might try to find a new therapist. there might be one/a few right in the town we're moving to (I haven't checked), but we'll be really close to a city then. so I could get there regularly (maybe. it's very scary but maybe I can manage it). so. I should probably do that? maybe find someone who'll like.... do more than just accept that I've got social anxiety (because that's what I said when I first saw my previous therapist) and help me figure out the real problem.

[diientedegato]

I'm curious if you have any thoughts on what Ben Paul would look like if he was alive years after S1 of TWDG :> I honestly prefer to imagine both him & Kenny going off on their own adventures after S1, because Idk if I'd've had Kenny as part of S2, it felt like when he returned it became less Clem's story & more his. That might be controversial among fans but it's how I feel :s I like to imagine Ben, Kenny & Sarita forming their own little family in fact <3 I'd expect Ben would end up with shaggier hair after a while but I wouldn't mind knowing what he'd look like with short, spiked up hair ;>

IM SORRY BOTH THE ASK AND DRAWING ARE OLD- but I came across the sketch I had eugeugeh. I do not have many headcanons but behind the cut is just a rant about. Kenny mostly. Too much should I warn? But yah I'm sorry it took me like 5 months lol

The only headcanon (regarding Ben's appearance) is that he'd keep his school jacket for as long as possible. Until it thorns apart. Or until he dies.

I'm big fan of Ben lives possibility btw I've gotta draw sum about that sometime (I say, about every twdg character i like,)

And dude, do I agree about Kenny. Man doesn't belong in season 2. The character they made him to be in the second season is not Kenny, it's just a nostalgia element. Don't get me wrong, I love the guy, I'm biased as hell, I break that hug choice every time. But it made the character development in the first season just.... pointless. "For some reason, I saved that piece of shit Ben", man, that quote just disappoints me. Kenny lost everything. Father and husband of none no more, which was pretty much the arc of Kenny on the first season?? I think? . Everything he loved and he had he lost, and he killed the person responsible for it. But not as revenge, he killed a kid out of mercy. He saved the boy from suffering a painful death, and that was forgiveness, to the reason he hadn't any. He took a decision he would be fully responsible of, when it was time for him to go. And he was perfect.

Hell, if he had appeared during season 2, I do prefer the Kenny as Carver idea. Clementine wasn't even that close to Kenny in the past, the player was, so even then it feels... off, off to be forced to care about a man that says so much he wants to protect you. (They're not really family, but is as if Kenny tries to protect and have Clem on his side, to have Clem's loyalty through and through. Though he does let her go and is proud of her on her individuality... hm.) But still, I mean, second season Kenny is not first season Kenny, and it isn't even a change that made sense. If he had been antagonist (which pretty much feels like it in the Canon story already), he should have had some other background story, no Sarita or company. Maybe then the cynical view he has would have mattered. The violence and anger and whatever else. For him to change that way was a consequence of him losing what he represented, protection of family? Wasn't failure and grief and acceptance meant to be important after all?

But otherwise yea I think it would've been pretty cool if Ben survived :3 I am a sucker for tales of redemption, forgiveness, and found family. And I hadn't thought about Kenny, Ben, and Sarita, but hell yeah. Man, even if they appeared in the second season, it would've been interesting if the choice wasn't between two individuals, but between two families. Ben already had a relationship with Clem! He appreciated her and calls her his only friend during season 1, he did leave her behind during that scene, -but the point of Ben was that- He was a coward all the season, until when he wasn't. He wanted to help Lee help Clem. They would've had an interesting sibling relationship-? also Ben had a young sister before the apocalypse so ooooh projection and parallels and shi. And if Ben had lived, he would've completed his development to something close to bravery-?

Well, I don't know, at least I think that'd be one interesting way to bring back old characters. Otherwise, Kenny should only be mentioned on dialogue maximum. The way I see it.

(I repeat the same thing over and over when I talk about something I'm sorry

(I've developed no language skills whatsoever in my life

(Yippee

[f1llory]

i know a lot of people think it's not that deep but idk, the constant desire for more gory stories of past hunger games rubs me the wrong way. don't get me wrong, i'm all for fanfics exploring that, but there's a reason there will never be novels detailing that.

the reason people want spinoffs for finnick and johanna is the fact that we love them. there is nothing that would be added to the universe if we had an official/canon account of their games. they're typical games and typical victors--which i think is the point of their character. they're different from each other in some ways, but their stories are so common among victors--because that's simply what the capitol does to people.

i'm not sure i agree with the people who think it's inherently bad for people to be interested in that. there's a reason people are interested in that. the characters and worldbuilding in the hunger games are so beautifully done that there's always something to notice, theorize about, explore, and expand on. i just think that having novels on things like this would be pointless--and detrimental to the message of the series. the point is not to show violence for violence's sake, the point is to show what it takes for people to become who they are, and how the choices they make can lead to either oppression or liberation. that being said, i'm all for exploring them in fanfic. i think fanfic is an incredible thing, i love reading and writing it, and there are so many things that fans of the series can explore and create.

i'm also all for new novels if they happen! i just think they would have to add a hell of a lot more to the world of panem than the gory details of a typical hunger games to satisfy people's curiosity. here's some things that i think would be cool to see:

-the life of an avox in the capitol. this would give a totally different outlook on life in the capitol, since we've only seen people who benefit from the system and not those who are punished by it. this could be some random unknown avox but because i'm me, i would LOVE to have a full pollux spinoff i'm literally in love with him

-a victor we've never seen and their life after the games. it could show their life after returning to their district, how they're viewed, how their view of their district has changed. this could also be an interesting way to see a little more of the mentoring process and the toll it takes

-something exploring life in any of the districts we haven't gotten to see. this could also be part of the previous idea, i just think it would be interesting since our knowledge of so many districts are limited. although maybe that's the point? all we know of panem is through the eyes of two deeply unreliable narrators

-the first rebellion, or anything set before the hunger games were created. how was panem different back then? and how did things get to the point of such a big rebellion?

-are there people living outside the bounds of the districts? obviously people like lavinia have been caught trying to escape, but there very well may be people living out there. i wonder what they'd think of what was going on, or if they'd come into contact with people escaping to district 13. and no i do not want this to involve lucy gray i never want confirmation on what happened to her

basically, there's so much more of panem i'd like to see explored, but there are some things that i don't want to see, or expect to see, in any offical continuation. i absolutely love fanfics exploring those things, or anything other fans find interesting. i just think that there are so many things that could be added to the canon and i don't understand the focus on the idea of novels that would really detract from the way suzanne collins approaches her work.

in conclusion i am simply losing my mind over tbosas and i’m using a blog i never use to yell into the void thank u for reading

[drunktuesdays]

YES i'm posting a lot but it's simply because i do NOT want to do my human job. the thing about fans holding tony accountable for how completely shit the women's division is that the problem is not really that they only get one match per show.

i mean--it is, obviously that fucking sucks. but that will never change until people get interested in what's going on in the women's division which no one will ever do so long as the stories suck. obviously, i'm f u r i o u s that shida lost on sunday, like that was unbelievable bullshit. but there's a world in which shida and britt REEL from this fucked up situation where this asshole outsider who (in kayfabe) consistently disrespects everything they've ever done now has the belt. and they end up linking up with nyla and maybe riho, and create this storyline where it's like--fuck the outcasts. fuck everyone who consistently devalues how hard it is to come up from the indies as a woman. fuck these jerks for showing up and immediately hogging the spotlight. and britt and nyla and shida are NOT comfortable in an alliance, and the short backstage glimpses we get are sort of reminiscent of the start of cole/mjf with the constant tension of them scorpioning each other. and they loop more originals and homegrowns into this uneasy homegrowns unionization effort, and everyone gets a chance to be like "this is my character. this is who i am. this is the side i'd take." like, wouldn't you enjoy the SHIT out of watching the bunny and skye blue discussing their strategy for a tag team match against toni and ruby, and bunny keeps saying slightly bonkers unnerving shit that skye has to be like "PLEASE stop saying you want to wear ruby's skin as a bathrobe and ENGAGE with me about whether you think we should try and put them through a table." that kind of stuff would INTEREST people and people would start clamoring for more which WOULD get them more matches and time. and when finally someone is set up to take saraya down, it feels earned and triumphant and moving. and we all say "well, it's still completely fucked up that shida got that short of a reign but in the end, you have to admit saraya's reign did SO MUCH for the division."

but i know that won't happen. saraya will end up in the exact rut jade was in, where she keeps doing meaningless squashes, week after week after week. i keep thinking about this exchange dave and bryan had after britt's squash for blood and guts. dave was like "everyone would have gotten mad at tony if there wasn't a women's match on the card," and bryan disgustedly was like "i would rather not have a women's match than a pointless 15 second squash just to satisfy the letter of the law" and dave just kept robotically saying "there had to be one." and that's how tony thinks too. if people mobilize enough to get two women's matches on any given card, sure, he might do it. but they won't be anything he put work into. it won't be part of a planned arc. there's rumors about an all women episode some day. he might do that too, and the whole thing will be randomly generated matchups that might end up being good matches but won't do anything to move anyone forward. and i don't know how you organize to get tony to care. i don't know how you convince him to think through character motivations for wins and losses and face/heel turns. it's just depressing and idk how you navigate your way out of it now without a guillotine

[moongothic]

Okay, here goes. What's your ultimate Crocodad timeline? You can go as wild or as believable as you want.

I mean I made this timeline chart/post/thing.

But if you meant it in a more "how do you think things actually went down" specific kinda way, uhhhhh. Great question, not sure I know how to answer. Like. The possibilities on what could've happened and how are nearly endless and all those options are so interesting to me. Even if there's ideas I feel like might be more likely than others, or I find myself more invested in some ideas, I can't fully like, dedicate myself to any specific idea for a plot point or a storybeat or anything, especially if there's nothing to suggest if anything even remotely similar could've happened.

Like, say for example, how did Crocodile and Dragon meet? There's literally infinite ways they could've met, to the point I'm not even really that interested in speculating on it, because more likely than not, any guess I make will probably be wrong. Like speculating about something like that feels almost pointless. Compare that to say, how did Luffy end up in Garp's care? While we know like nothing about what exactly happened, we do have any theoretical information (ex: Garp and Croc should not know about each other, meaning there must've been a third party to deliver the baby, and it's more than likely that was Dragon) that we can get to much more specific when speculating about what might've happened. Like there's still plenty of options, but the options are far fewer, which makes the speculation so much more interesting, for me at least

But at the same time, I don't want to get too fond of any idea in because Oda could still prove me wrong and debunk it and I'd be sad if I got like fond of a concept and I ended up being dead wrong lmao

Mind you, for me, a big part of the reason I'm invested in the theory to begin with IS the possibility of it being canon. Like yes Crocodad would and always will make for fun AU fanfics regardless of if it's canon or not. But I am here to more or less speculate about canon.

So between my brain treating Crocodad as this monstrous, gigantic flow chart, and me not wanting to get too attached to any potential path on the chart... Yeah I don't know what to tell you anon, I'm sorry

Like. Just as an example. On how my brain processes this shit.

(Sidenote, this chart is like under the assumption that Croc and Dragon had mutually agreed that their child would be put in the care of Dragon's father. And while that makes the most sense to me by a long shot, technically it's totally possible Luffy was taken away from Crocodile by force by Dragon or something else) (THERE'S SO MANY POTENTIAL THINGS THAT COULD'VE HAPPENED, AHHHHHHH)

Like here, I think the most likely canon scenarios would be the "Respectful Rejection" followed by "Too Stunned To Speak -> It's Bad" routes, though personally I might be most interested in the "It Was Really Bad" route because it'd be really fucked up and sad

So like. Yeah. I have no idea what my "ultimate Crocodad timeline" would be, there's too much room for speculation to the point anything specific would leave the room of Neutral Canon Speculation and just turn into a plain old fanfic, and I'm just here for theorizing

But hey if you wanted a fanfic, here's a TL:DR;

(You know I say this is a TL:DR; but this got so fucking long it almost broke this post. Like Tumblr would not let me save the draft or post it anymore because there's a 4k character limit to "blocks", I had to break this into chunks man)

If Crocodile was betrayed by his crew after losing to Whitebeard and had to kill them himself in self-defence;

Who the fuck knows, maybe by some twist of fate our wounded/dying, exhausted and traumatized Crocodile drifted in the sea and his ship ran into Dragon, the man rescuing Crocodile from the kindness of his heart or something IDK

If the dude had to kill his own crew immidiately after Whitebeard crushed his hopes and dreams, Crocodile must've been just absolutely shell shocked. Depressed and withdrawn, just out of it. So maybe Dragon being there could've been great for Croc's mental state. Maybe. Big maybe.

If Crocodile did turn out to be the Rev Army's Secret Sugar Daddy then perhaps this is how that relationship kind of started: Crocodile could've paid Dragon in cash money as thanks for saving his life, and then just kept the money coming since Dragon had an army to run and needed the funds

(Like we don't know why Crocodile joined the Shichibukai anyways, but if it was only ever for The Benefits of not having to deal with the Marines chasing his ass anymore and if he didn't give a rat's ass about the Government... Like yeah, why not fund the Revolutionary Army, give money to the people trying to directly take down the fuckers while right under their noses.) (Who knows maybe Croc does have his own reasons for hating the WG and had like a genuine reason beyond just being a petty king and/or having basic human decency in understanding why the WG was corrupt and needed to be overthrown)

Thus begins a secret comradery where Crocodile every now and then goes and drops off some money to Dragon to help fund the Army, nobody on either side of the war any wiser (except maybe Iva-chan, they're allowed to be in on the secret, as a treat). It's their secret that they keep for years

Time passes

Whoopsie poopsie Crocodile's prégónánté

The two realize that their kid is going to be in so much danger for a pletora of reasons and that neither can raise the baby. Dragon knows his father would keep their baby safe and they both agree to leaving the child to him (not a happy decision, it's just for the best, for everyone's sake)

Anyway Crocodile's gender dysphoria goes into turbo mode during pregnancy. Maybe he never really realized it was there and/or what it was, but boy howdy, it's there now and it's really really bad. Like, if it wasn't for the baby he might just kill himself (and god knows once the kid is out and taken away, there's not going to be anything to stop him from doing just that)

Crocodile must've gone into hiding during the latter half of his pregnancy to keep it a secret from the Government, and I could totally imagine him being hellbent on being completely isolated. He is a Shichibukai, everybody knows him, he can't risk having even some random doctor recognize him and find out about the baby. Besides, it's not like he can do much while hiding anyways, like he might as well read 150 medical books to ensure he can deliver his baby by himself

(Sidenote but the narrator in OP has called Fuusha Village Luffy's "birth place" (think the term he used was "umereta machi", lit. "town he was born in"), and if that's true, then. Croc should've been hiding in and/or near Fuusha Village in Goa Kingdom. Additional sidenote, there are wild crocodiles in Goa, which are the Sir's favorite food.)

To avoid suspicion and the risk of being found out, Dragon might've agreed to not go see Crocodile during this time, only agreeing to see his significant other after the child was born so he could then deliver the baby to Garp (after not just leaving the Marines but also starting a fucking revolutionary army, the dude probably didn't want his father to find out he had been dating a fucking WARLORD)

But surely he'd think Crocodile was insane if he thought he'd let Crocodile deliver the baby alone. Like no, somebody needs to be there by his side. Someone Dragon could trust, a fellow Revolutionary perhaps. Oh yeah, just send Ivankov, what could possibly go wrong

(Personal headcanon but since we don't know when Ivankov got their Fruit, I kind of want to imagine they ate it just a short time ago at this point and that they hadn't fully realized the potential of the Hormone Fruit yet. Like their genderfluid ass may not have understood the power they now held)

Iva-chan did not know Croc was prénánté, whether Dragon told Ivankov ahead of time why they were being sent to check on Croc is up or debate (if Iva-chan was aware of Croc being their Secret Sugar Daddy though then I'm sure they understood why Dragon wanted and was willing to help out Crocodile in this situation). Croc and/or Dragon probably lied through their teeth about the father of the child if Iva-chan ever asked about it, and whatever Iva-chan was told they clearly bought it since they never knew about Dragon having a kid.

When Iva gets there though they can see right away that something is fucking wrong with Crocodile, in ways even he can't understand. He is so uncomfortable 24/7 for seemingly no reason. So naturally Iva-chan pokes and prods at the dumbass until Croc has a break down and explains his weird feelings he can't even word properly and this is how Emporio Ivankov discovered transgenderism

What's that? You don't like what pregnancy has done to your body, doesn't feel like it's yours anymore? You feel love for your child but don't want to be its mother? Good news, you can be its father instead. Bad news, gotta wait until the baby is farted out. Aren't sure about it? No worries, there's time to think about it, and shit's 100% reversible anyways. Just hang in there for a little bit longer, you may feel god awful rn but that too shall pass

(Maybe this is how Iva-chan starts calling Crocodile "Crocoboy", just to get him to warm up to the idea that he could be(come) a man, get used to it etc)

Crocodile has an identity crisis of a lifetime. Like either he knew since he was a small child that something was fucky wucky, or he never realized it until now, either way, he must not have even been aware of the idea that he could trans his gender (which would make sense if Ivankov only recently got their Fruit just sayin'). So yeah. Enjoy that gender crisis, dumbass

Like he straight up just goes through the five stages of grief before he's like "god dammit if it'll make me feel less like I'll kill myself then it's worth a shot, don't care what Dragon ends up thinking"

At some point Croc must've contacted Dragon at least one final time just so they can agree on when and where they'll meet to hand over the baby once it's born (if Croc doesn't die at child birth. I mean they both know he'll be fine, Croc's survived worse. But if something did happen, Iva-chan will take care of the baby until Dragon arrives)

This is One Piece. Luffy was born at dawn.

Crocodile probably insists on getting the T literally immidiately after the baby is out. If he doesn't just pass out immidiately after giving birth. But like within 24 hours of giving birth. Iva-chan is probably like "Crocoboy you're exhausted, chill, your cooch needs to recover" and he's just like "why wait for it to recover when you're going to get rid of it, just do it"

(Iva-chan probably goes and gets Croc some emergency clothes and like bottles and baby food etc because god knows he's going to burst out of his old clothes and he ain't gonna have the tiddies to breastfeed that baby either)

Anyway he gets the rones and gets to enjoy gender euphoria for the first time in his life. Happy times, happy tears, a happy croc

Dude probably nearly shits himself when he tries to speak as he is now voiced by Ryuuzaburo Fucking Ootomo (even Iva-chan is like "HOLY SHIT your voice dropped") (like they probably agressively try to encourage Crocodile to speak more and let them hear that voice and Croc is like "ssssshhhhhhhhh stop yelling you'll wake up the baby!!")

Anyway he finally gets to fucking rest and relax and enjoy the sheer relief of not just being free of his dysphoria but also his baby boy being born and looking all healthy and happy. A happy dad

(If Crocodile was the first person Iva-chan helped transition, and under these circumstances specifically. I think seeing the guy and his sheer relief would give like Iva-chan a new mission in life. To help people like Croc)

(Ivankov: "It's like a great weight has been lifted off your chest... GET IT, 'CAUSE YOU DON'T HAVE TITS ANYMORE! HEEHAW!!" / 🐊: "If you wake up the baby I will skewer you")

Anyway if the Rev Army member stays with Crocodile for too long there's a risk of them getting found out and that'd be bad, so Iva-chan needs to GTFO (they have better things to do, like overthrow some governments and stuff). Also Crocodile needs to prepare because he can't have the Government wondering where the fuck he's been all these months much longer (god knows explaining his sudden manliness is going to be enough to deal with) and the kid needs to go into hiding. If Iva-chan asks where the child is going, Croc probably won't give a straight answer, just that there's a plan and he needs Ivankov to keep the baby a secret etc (perhaps that could be the blackmail Iva-chan brought up in Impel Down 🤔)

Crocodile gets to spend a little time with his baby boy (before and/or after Iva-chan leaves). Crocodiles (the animals) look after their babies for three months before they're on their own, so at most he stayed with his baby for three months, though I'd argue just 3 weeks, simply because that'd a painfully short amount of time that's just perfect for tragic storytelling

Perhaps that was the happiest time of Croc's life. No stupid Government to deal with, no pirates to fight, no villages to pillage. Just him and his beautiful baby boy. Not even the knowledge of knowing he'd have to say goodbye to his son forever would get in the way of his happiness at that moment.

(Did he ever think about what to name the child? Maybe Dragon had wanted Crocodile to name their child and Crocodile was supposed to think of something while expecting, before the baby was born. Or maybe, knowing he would never see that child again (until the Government blows up) he could not bring himself to think of a name. It'd be Dragon's father who'd look after the baby anyways, Dragon should name him)

Dragon comes. Either exactly at the agreed upon time, or perhaps a day early (dude was too excited and wanted to be with his wife and child, together as a family, even if it was for a day). Whenever he arrives;

See the chart earlier in the post

However things go down, Dragon and Crocodile go their separate ways. Crocodile leaves the island immidiately.

Well. I certainly became absolutely deranged writing this.

HOPE YOU FOUND THAT ENTERTAINING

[lynderman]

𝙁𝙪𝙩𝙞𝙡𝙚 𝙁𝙚𝙚𝙡𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙨 (Bruce Yamada Oneshot)

Pairing: Bruce Yamada x Fem!Reader

Word Count: 857

Date Published: 10/10/22

Sypnosis: 'Futile: Incapable of producing any useful result; pointless'. Much like your relationship with your boyfriend. Bruce Yamada.

(Idk how to feel about this, but I made it for my friend so I hope you enjoy Tori :) . )

─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───

Another look of disappointment and heartbreak overtook your face as you looked to your right. You had learned to not cry when you saw this, as It became a regular occurrence to see your boyfriend with other girls. At this point, it was a routine for you both.

All your willpower to confront him or even shove the girl off of him left your body the second she got on his lap. You only threw your cup of juice at the two, which seemed to finally give you their attention.

As you walked off, you heard the girl scoff and argue before footsteps followed you into the foyer and out the front door. "(Y/n), Wait! I can explain!" You heard your boyfriend shout as you quickly skipped down Billy's front steps.

"There's nothing to explain Bruce!" You shouted back. You were so close to your car. A good 15 feet maybe? You extended your hand to unlock the door only for it to be grabbed by another person's. Turning around, your eyes locked with Bruce's as he gripped your wrist.

"Get the fuck off of me." You shoved his hand out of yours harshly, only for him to try and reach for it again. "Bruce, just stop. I've had enough of this bullshit." It hurt to look him in the eyes. That was something you couldn't seem to do lately. It wasn't different now; Your eyes locked onto the cement below you. "Look, I have a good explanation for this I-"

"You what?" A startled look appeared on the boys' face (although you couldn't see it). "What? What's the excuse you're gonna use this time? That you're too drunk and she looked like me? You said that last time. Maybe you'll say she approached you first. That's one you seem to love!" The small cracks in your voice gave away that you were going to break down any second now.

"No, no. It's none of those I just couldn't find you and I thought that-"

"Thought what?" Your eyes met Bruce's as you gathered the courage to face him. His orbs were slightly red from whatever the hell he was smoking early. His lips were slightly red from lipstick, with kisses all around his cheeks and jaw. It made your blood boil a bit. It used to be your cherry red lipstick that coated his face. And now it was whatever girl would let him in their pants. "I can't keep doing this, Bruce. I can't." He gave you a puzzled look. "Doing what?" You were dumbfounded at how clueless he was.

"Doing this! Playing your little games. The one where you get to pick and choose the piece you want for the night. It's always some other girl and not me! And every fucking time I catch you with her, you apologize and swear that 'You'll change' and 'Never do it again' but you don't! You stay the same man-whore everyone warned me about!"

He looked taken aback by your word choices. Hurt, even. but you didn't care. He'd hurt you all too much before.

You promised yourself you wouldn't cry. Not because of him again, but you couldn't help it. You didn't know if it was the way he looked at you or the way you so desperately wished it was you and not some random girl of the month. "(Y/n)..." You felt Bruce's hand brush a piece of hair out of your face.

"Am I doing something wrong? Is it me? Is there something wrong with me, and that's why you go find some other girl? Do I not give you enough attention? Do I annoy you too much? Am I not pretty enough? Is it my body-?" Your arms wrapped around your torso self consciously as you asked your questions. A sigh left Bruce's lips. But he didn't answer. He stayed silent.

"Am I just not enough for you? Is that what this all is?"

Another moment of silence. A sob broke from your throat as you took a step back. "I've been a good girlfriend as far as I'm concerned. I drive you everywhere, I pay for everything, I take care of you when you're hungover. I poor out my fucking heart and soul for you each and every day, Bruce. But it's still never enough for you, is it? I put in all my feelings to this relationship, only to get futile results from you right after."

Fumbling for the right key in your hand, you walked over and unlocked the door. A quiet 'Where're you going?' echoed off of Bruce. "Away from you. Anywhere where you won't be. I'm done with you and your bullshit." As you opened the door, Bruce came to the side of the car. "What'd you mean?"

"I'm breaking up with you Bruce. Once and for all."

He didn't have a chance to get any words out before you slammed the door and started the car. Standing there in awe, Bruce watched you speed off into the neighborhood. As you drove down the road, one last question repeated in your mind.

Why did you keep running to him if he was the thing you were running from?

[ms-revived-frogs]

Sending an ask because that post is getting way too fucking long and I really don't want to torment my followers with that shitshow anymore

You don't know shit about me homegirl. Lmao "I know your type" I'm literally the only bitch insane enough to say this shit publicly and not be trolling.

But I will say my aggression is because I've seen too much bullshit on the internet. You're a feminist, everything you say is coated in a thick glaze of deception to hide the major superiority complex you have because you think women are better. At least that's the vibe I get. But I've seen more feminists than you've seen people like me.

You act all nice on the surface to make anyone who questions you seem like the bad guy, but like, you really don't need to do that. Your circlejerk is already completely ready to attack anyone different than you.

Also I will not be DMing you. I'm not a coward. I let my followers know the shit I say.

And, seriously, like, yeah men should support eachother, but like, maybe people should just support eachother in general eh? I know that's hypocritical coming from me, the spiteful cunt, but lemme tell ya, I support people who deserve it in my eyes, which is probably more than you would imagine.

Also [I say also too much. I'm generally incoherent as you've probably already noticed] you talk down to me like I'm some kind of misguided fool, but I'll have you know that I follow the path I chose for myself. Nobody told me this. In fact, I followed the path that society told me not to. I see past the bullshit. I sound like a fucking joker meme right now but idk how the fuck else to word it.

Hell, idk how to word anything ever. I'm notoriously terrible with words.

Anyways. This ask is way too fucking long already. This argument changed nothing about either of us, and never will. It is ultimately pointless. Whoops

Except you aren't saying anything publicly. You are hiding behind the mask of the internet, because even you know the stuff you say is reprehensible. Most incels are aware of this too, that's why they have incel.net and other forums to share their hateful ideas. Which are often violent towards our sex, by the way.

And I don't think I've ever said women are better in this whole thread. I showed the facts that women form better communities and sustain each other better. Men generally lack this. I don't believe any disparity is inherent to nature though, I don't think there's some hidden male and female gene that triggers women to form more positive groups than men. But it is true nonetheless that men's communities usually dissolve into hierarchies and structurally shitting on each other. You see how men play video games and all harass / insult each other, you see men at football games physically assaulting supporters of the other team, you see men drinking ten beers at the pub and then punching random guys. Men have little care for each other and little care for women too. If men learned to form better communities and cared for each other, they would ultimately see a great boost in their mental health and security! This is not a hateful thing to say, nor a "superiority complex". Men should learn empathy for themselves and others. This is a very basic tenet of feminism.

And I'm not "acting like a nice guy", I'm being honest and genuine. I'm not sure why a woman being empathetic is hard for you to understand, unless you actually see all women as malicious. Which is ... sad. And yes! All people should care for each other. But this is a gendered issue. Men having poor mental health relates go this specific phenomenon of them treating each other terribly in their own groups, which you haven't found a rebuttal for. What does it say about men's mental health, when their communities are more littered with bullying and malice, and what does it say about women's mental health, when they tend to thrive and perform better together? Only an idiot would try to deny this. Obviously women's mental health will be generally better and obviously women will have more access to mental health support, we rely on other women! The same cannot be said for men, whose communities lack that element of support. This is not even a radical feminist statement, it's very bland and basic.

Anyways, you will grow up and see that you were wrong to be so hateful. Whether you "chose it" or not, there's always room for growth.

[katyspersonal]

Some responses

Oh jeez...... Guys, I did not expect my post to resonate with so many people. I was aware that the problem of people feeling excluded and mocked just for less common headcanons had to be big, but I still thought this post would stay between me and all five of my followers, hahah; I am glad that some people feel really heard here! Some are for very different reasons, too?

I ESPECIALLY want to point out this one, because it is exactly the result I've been seeing a lot:

@tsunbath I've heard similar things from (former?) Malenia fans, and also I know at least two friends for whom Maria was ruined as a character because of how toxic her fans were. You are VERY right about the fact that Malenia would've hated to be the symbol of gatekeeping and bullying in the fandoms! I feel like the same would go for Maria; there is no direct confirmation, but I doubt many people can argue that she IS compassionate soul. Like... how do those toxic fans keep making the deep, compassionate, tragic female character into THE symbol of mockery, exclusion and aggression? Beats me.

It just deeply resonates with me how actions of the bad type of fans can create aversion to a character or a ship. I've had this phase with Mariadeline ship tbh. My advice would be - avoid searching content for the character/ship, try to find a tiny pool of people that likes them but are normal and respectful about it, allow yourself to feel identified with "normal fans of the thing" pool rather than dread of identifying with toxic gatekeepers by association... Like, the ship got recovered for me this way, same as Maria's character herself. Just remember that toxic fans and normal fans are not the same entity... It is a very rare case where division is HELPFUL! Hopefully you will be able to recover Malenia for yourself and not think of those l00sers anymore.

@mycopok I know Mal, easily the best person to have ever crossed BB fandom, and nothing will ever replace her </3 I am just happy that her positive influence still lingers even after becoming way less active, like... yeah, fans just should be allowed to explore any idea they want. Maria x Laurence is SUPER interesting concept! In fact, the initial post WAS made because of someone venting that they were afraid to post their Maria x Laurence stuff out of fear of being ostracised!

@underworldsheiress Yeahhhh again, you are not the first one I hear a story like this from. I also heard takes like 'tomboys are the grossest aesthetic, either come out as a trans or get back in line' (not exagerration). It is REALLY unfair how a woman looking masculine should be either her being a butch lesbian, or... well, no longer being a woman in the end. Infighting and forcing pointless norms on each other is a huge problem with LGBT+ community, you'd expect people to gather to support each other but... people will be people I guess :/ Anyways gigachad move of you to wear what you want.

@alma-amentet I don't quite agree with your tastes on body types maybe not gonna lie; However what you pointed out (not so much in the tags, I saw what else you said heh) is a very good example of how fandoms are open spaces and everyone should feel welcomed here. Like, the girls in the fandoms will have absolutely ridiculously specific tastes regarding male characters - not liking shorter height, not liking slim build, prettifying their canonically not-so-attractive face, judging them in sexy look contests, throwing insults towards their appearance quirks at times...

But once someone tries to pull similar things with female characters - all HELL breaks loose. Double standards in the fandoms regarding genders of the characters are absurd. I even once saw someone in BB fandom whining about how someone attempted to discuss which female character was hotter with them...... after we, as a fandom, CONSTANTLY have shit like 'sexyman contest who is sexier Mico or Brador vote now from your phones!!!!'. .... Like idk if you need to hear this as well or not, but everyone should be allowed to say 'muscular women aren't my taste' for the exact same reason why everyone is allowed to say 'muscular men aren't my taste'.

@fantomette22 @rhythmloid Devotees of the Biphobic Order are the bane of every western fandom's existence at this point for real though :/ They will see a female character that wears pants and kicks ass and start shaking over her like Gollum with The One Ring, ignoring all the context, nuance, her personal story, other possibilities, etc... Like I said - feelings of real people who just try to enjoy the fandom are more important than some toxic bunch's creepy obsession with the character they want to crown as their token masculine lesbian based on stereotypes, no less. I say if they really care about masculine lesbians, they should direct their activity towards real world and real people. Because, again - fandomry is not activism.

Anyways thanks everyone for speaking, and sorry if the tagging annoyed you or something fdsjhfh I really appreciate that, and I do hope you all will be able to find your own group in the fandom that'll keep you mentally safe from the toxic fans ruining characters for you. Like a power barrier in the middle of the chaos! I know I did find mine, lol

[mzannthropy]

and it becomes your most hated book of all time - Sam plays the main male character of the adaptation of this book (Me Before You)> lol

I even liked the film, the chemistry between him and Emilia is wonderful, but the film is kind of pointless. That ending, I can't even watch again. What makes it even worse is knowing that there is a second book in which he has a daughter, like??????? How does he have a daughter??? Does not make any sense. I thought he was going to give up because he was in love with a woman who loved him and believed they could be happy together. And they were happy together. What makes it worse for me is that in the film Untouchable, which is a true story, there is a similar story, about the person who helps him, and gives him meaning, in the end the character gets married and is happy. Will ends up being selfish in the end. I hate how he wants Clarke there, and the fact that she's gone. Fuck it, no really. The end is he gave her money, fuck. It wasn't about the money, and it shouldn't be. She has a shitty family and a shitty boyfriend, just like he had a shitty family and a shitty girlfriend. It's worth it for Sam and Emilia's performances.

I've never actually watched the film, only read the book. For completion's sake, I suppose I will have to tackle it one day, but every time I imagine having to watch it, a sense of dread creeps on me. It's the worst piece of fiction I have ever engaged with (I've read the first 50 Shades book and this is worse!) and I'm worried I will throw something at my screen and break my TV. I don't believe in the "chemistry" argument, it means nothing to me and Emilia Clarke... I'm trying very hard but her voice and laugh grate on me so much, plus I don't see her as that great an actress.

Anyway, so here we are, I finally get to talk about it (can you believe this @jesstasticvoyage). Here it is, the reason why I don't interact with any other Sam Claflin fans, apart from Jess who is able to handle me. (I get notes from the same users on my original Sam posts, and I see you; it's not you, it's me! You'll see why.) Fucking Me Before You.

If you go through my Sam posts, you will see that I never mention this film, not even when I talk about his book adaptations. The only time I did name it was when I listed the female directors he worked with, bc the film has a female director. When I became a fully fledged Sam fan in 2020, I saw how beloved the film was and how everyone cried over it (why?) and how I could not escape it every time I read any article or interview, and I understood that I will have to be on my own. I couldn't believe how amazing Sam's filmography was, and yet nobody talked about it, it was all Finnick (who is at least cool, despite all my issues with THG that I've just posted about)--and this garbage.

Let me just make something clear, I don't hate MBY bc of its ending. I actually like the ending. I like that he chose death over being with Louisa, bc it contradicts this supposed great love story the author is trying to sell. Also I absolutely loathe Louisa Clark. She is my most hated character of all time and the worst protagonist I've ever read the POV of. She is stupid, the stupidest cow in the whole fucking galaxy. She even fails at being a manic pixie dream girl. I hate her so, so much. Every time I have the misfortune of coming across that scene where she sits on his lap in the wheelchair and they are on the dancefloor and she is laughing, I want to hit her in the face so hard that she fall backwards, cracks her skull and dies. I hate her.

The book is also very poorly written. I see Colleen Hoover get so much hate these days, but idk, I think Jojo Moyes is way worse. Maybe she's not on that many people's radar, to which I say: good! She's also allegedly plagiarised another author. The only reason I don't want to invent a time machine to go back in time and prevent her birth is my fear of creating the timeline where Sam will not break his second ankle and becomes a footballer instead of an actor, so you see that wouldn't have been any good.

Now, I've read pieces from people who are more knowledgeable about this than me that MBY is ableist, and I could make big posts about how ableist it is, but I don't bc it would only come off as insincere. (I didn't realise it was in fact ableist until I read those pieces.) I'm all about authenticity, I don't do virtue signalling/performative wokery. You can say I hate it for the wrong reasons. I hate the book bc it's such a fucking cheap tearjerker that only got published bc the publishers knew it would make people cry. But also I hate the fact that it uses disability as a device to tell a cheap tearjerker, so maybe in a roundabout way it is ableism that I hate it for. (I will post something about the ableism though, just for info.)

The protagonist is an idiot with no skills, woefully unqualified for the job she is hired for (she fails at every other previous job she tries!). All the characters are terribly shallow and one-dimensional. Will's mother is a bitch bc... reasons? Bc the author wants her to be? Overdone tropes of an inattentive bf and a bitch of an ex-gf. You see I don't think Alicia was shitty, it's that Louisa presents her that way and she is not a reliable narrator. Ofc she describes her as a bitch. Alicia explained to Louisa that she tried with Will after his accident, but he pushed her away (even though Alicia doesn't owe Louisa any explanation, and a cow like Louisa has no right to judge her, or anyone else for that matter).

From Tv Tropes MBY YMMV page:

Unintentionally Sympathetic: Will's ex and his friend. We're clearly supposed to hate them for hooking up, but it's not like she ditched him the minute he got hurt. She points out that he relentlessly pushed her away and rebuffed all her efforts to be there for him. Her moving on was inevitable and you can't really fault them for eventually turning to each other—obviously, their efforts to comfort each other turned into something more—she outright says that they've been friends for ages and that he was a great support to her after the accident.

Jojo is presenting MBY as this big love story. Except it isn't. Louisa has a Florence Nightingale complex, and Will. Doesn't love Louisa. "You're the only thing that makes me get up in the morning." Sure, that's why he kills himself. For which I don't blame him, if the other option is being with Louisa. But that means it's not love!

But you're right that it's pointless, bc it achieves nothing. If he decided to live and then died of natural causes, then yeah, that would have been a different matter, that would have meant that the protagonist succeeded at something.

Screenshot of a funny one-star review on Goodreads:

I do wonder if Jojo has a handfeeding fetish. I shudder when I think about watching Sam being hand-fed by Emilia Clarke. I really don't think I can take on this film.

Louisa inheriting money from Will, idk, I have no opinion of it and Louisa is not even the type of a woman that knows how to enjoy money. What's she gonna do with it, buy a million pairs of stripey tights?

As for the sequel, it looks like it's a trilogy and Will's kid is I think one of those most boring tropes where a guy didn't know he had a child for years bc the mother didn't tell him. Jojo once again showing her lack or ideas. Gilmore Girls did it, Peaky Blinders did it and worst of all, even fucking Star Trek Picard did it, and those are just shows that I've watched lately!

I have heard of the Untouchable film (I found it when I was looking up Omar Sy bc I liked him in Lupin). I planned to watch it but then forgot. I really need to check it out, it looks good.

This got long... thanks for reading.

[brightsstar]

wonder if Dusk ever considers how like... Eclipse’s in general can't catch a break, especially after meeting Nova. RE!Eclipse is a little different, he decided to improve himself after waking up in the woods alone. But Dusk and Nova were both 'regular' Eclipses who were beaten and then curbstomped.

Idk Dusk in particular feels way more bitter. He's the one that's a backup, the other two didn't die in October (much to Nova's regret 8'D). He's also the one that made it to the end of the Canon timeline, as RE!Eclipse’s backup got derailed and is tiny. He's had the longest to struggle after his goals, succeed and at the same time fail. He was never stopped by anyone but realizing the pointlessness of continuing.

So he KNOWS more than the others that.. they're destined to fail. They NEVER win. Even if they don't get killed or defeated, they still don't win.

Aaa and just! He hasn't had any time to start considering being a 'better person' like RE!Eclipse, he's had a lot longer to go "wow, I really am just alone, aren't i?". His connections to others are practically nonexistent. Eclipse felt enough attachment to the others that he regretted his actions, and wanted to try and pay back some of the suffering he caused by getting rid of Blood Moon; Dusk is past the point of feeling those attachments.

LIKE Nova unquestionably has it the worst, physically and mentally. But Dusk is at the bottom of a pretty dark hole too, and he doesn't have a lot of hope down there.

Wow, that's long, and i had just woken up so i had to re-read it a few times lol

Have some Dusk lore as a treat.

That aside, If Dusk is left to his own devices for a while, he'll start thinking about those things, yes. He'd find himself reflecting as well, and not in the light-hearted way. For a long while, yes, he is bitter. Many of the answers i have given about him so far have been with him decently far down the line after he gets to the RE! Dimension. After he had experienced the kindness and care that Eclipse, and the other RE! Brothers have given him that the original crew didn't.

He knows he lost, and he accepts that he lost, but not to the point where he would accept death. That's also why he chose Dusk as his new name too. To remind himself that he's down, but not completely down. Like the sun setting, but not completely set. He's voluntarily retiring himself. That, and also his fear is why he isn't returning to the canon dimension, nor leaving this dimension. He was already going to promise not to bother the canon crew again if they just listened to him. And even if he didn't get that far in this version where he escaped, he is holding true to that promise, even if they didn't hold up what would have been their end of the deal. He's tired, and he's done. He isn't trying anything anymore. He's just letting it all unfold even though he won't be there to see it for himself. (Maybe in a video they make if that comes around)

Dusk has more trouble letting go of his pride too. Eclipse didn't quite have that much trouble letting go of his. It's part of why he stays bitter for so long, but he is well passed his breaking point, so his pride isn't even enough to make him go back.

He does start changing the more he learns from Eclipse. Then finds himself in a very similar boat that he did. Just this time, he isn't alone, which helps the process along smoother, even if it takes longer still.

He is in a dark place, yes, but he does have people who will help pull him out of it.

[velvetineblue]

GET TO KNOW THE MUN //

NAME?: winter~

PRONOUNS?: any! agender hoes rise up

PREFERENCE OF COMMUNICATION?: telepathy ( but seriously: i'm really bad replying sometimes, but i do appreciate im's whether on tumblr or discord ajdjj. my discord is open to any mutuals!! )

MOST ACTIVE MUSE(S)?: overall, this gremlin, by far. i have periods where i'll write a different character a lot for a couple days/weeks (mostly on discord) but tai-muse always eventually demands that the bulk of the attention be back on him u . u

EXPERIENCE / HOW MANY YEARS?: i've been roleplaying on tumblr since like....... 2011ish??? (DO NOT @ ME, I KNOW THAT'S INSANE) and i was roleplaying elsewhere even before that...

BEST EXPERIENCE?: I'm seconding what ferre said and screaming: PLOTTED GROUP VERSES !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but rly, anytime we do in-depth plotting that you get really engrossed into, and go crazy world-building & expanding the lore and plotline.... that's the besttt.

RP PET PEEVES?: hmmmm........... tbh nothing is really coming to mind at this moment, probably because my dash is so small & curated to only blogs who i really like seeing on my dash, so i think i've temporarily forgotten about the annoying parts of rp??? LOL. check back with me next time i go out looking for blogs to follow; then i'm sure i'll have much to say kjhkjh

FLUFF, ANGST, OR SMUT?: I like all of them !! angst is prob my fav of those genres, but if i wrote too much of it, i think it would get tiring for me because it may feel less impactful/geuine?? IDK. but fluff is definitely needed sometimes. and smut can also be fun, in moderate doses! fluffy smut and/or smutty fluff tho... 👌that's good shit, LMAO

PLOTS OR MEMES?: again, both are fun! i think a balance ( maybe not 50-50, but a balanced amount ) is ideal. as much as i do love plotting, it does require a lot of energy and social battery. so meme's are perfect for times when you are running low on that, but still want to rp~ ( and i'm going to do the ones in my inbox soon I PROMISE )

LONG OR SHORT REPLIES?: my replies usually end up being long. but for starters or meme's, short sometimes makes the most sense... I know the fact I often write novels might seem intimidating to people who aren't novella, but I don't mind short replies . . . lengthy replies is just more of my personal 'writing style', but I don't require partners to adapt to it?? yOU DO YOU

TIME TO WRITE?: NEVER, APPARANTLY. ( jk i have time but i spend most of it rotting and watching 5 hour long video essays about pointless shit ajsjaj )

ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE(S)?: hmm... I don't know! but compared to my other muses, I'd say, I guess Tai is one of my characters who is more 'similar' to me in some ways. I think because he's one of my oldest; his very first incarnation as a character I wrote goes back to when I was like 12. so he does have a lot of personal touches-- things that are probably quite specific to mE & my personal tastes. as I got older, I started to make a wide variety of characters, some of which I have nothinggg in common with... but Tai isn't one of those ajsja. we're not extremely similar, but we're not complete opposites either ? I think I partially fear saying that because I don't want anyone to think he's a 'self-insert', but... meh. I would hope it's pretty obvious that he's not :sob:

tagged by: @stillresolved thank you for tagging me and thinking of me, ferre!! 🥹 tagging: UMM whoever wants it tbh, i don't know whose done it while i've been MIA !!!

[i-like-sticks]

1, 2, 4, 25, 26 and 27 !

What OTPs in your fandoms do you not get?

This one really depends on which fandom I'm in since most of the time I just veer away from the canon characters and do my own thing with my own OCs. Though often times OTPs that I see are always taking apart what is canon in favor of something overtly ridiculous for rather petty reasons and I just roll my eyes and ignore it.

You know exactly which ones I am talking about, haha.

2. Are there any popular fandom OTPs you only BROTP?

Answered this one in a previous ask!

4. Do you have a NoTP in your fandom? Are they a popular OTP?

Eh, I'll throw in the Dark Crystal for this one but there are a small few. SkekGra and urGoh, SkekMal and anyone tbh, SkekSa and anyone as well, SkekUng and SkekSil especially. Nothing wrong with them if anyone ships them, I just really don't see the appeal of any of them.

25. How would you end XXX/Would you change the ending to XXX?

I'm not in this particular fandom per say, but if I had the power to, I would definitely fix up Hazbin Hotel. What a mess.

The pacing could definitely have been better handled and fixed, we could have less pointless sex jokes. Nothing wrong with it but if you're going to throw a dick joke or something about someone getting fucked here and there for "the lolz" it comes off as cringe. Adam definitely would be fixed up in general, make him way more imposing then being some dudebro looser. Lucifer could be fixed too. Literally, there is A LOT to fix...

Ending wise, I would have had it where maybe Adam just barely survives and leaves after Lucifer and him duke it out and now he has to go back to Heaven and now face judgement from God for the sins HE has done. Snake dude can get his pass into heaven, I actually was happy for him and now he can throw a middle finger to Adam's face to saying no one is capable of redemption. I would have also made this fight at least a two or three parter, to make the whole ending feel worth it in the end. Give Charlie a redo too cause damn, that was just meh. Vaggie too could have had a bit more of an epic throw down too. IDK, just focus more on how dire this situation was and show the action with more pizazz.

And the other characters idk, just a lot to do.

26. Most shippable character?

I think this one really depends on the fandom and which one I am pretty active in along with the process of IF I am interested in the canon characters and care about them enough to do any sort of shipping.

Most times I tend to just veer away from canon and do my own things with OCs, heh.

27. Least shippable character?

Same as the last one unless I REALLY despise a particular canon character because fandoms ogle over said character 24/7 and never shut up about them.

[trippy-maskow]

bro what r u on😭😭😭 I'm gay asl and moringmark didn't actually do anything. Like, not at all. I saw ur reblogs n obviously u aren't changing ur mind but like u r the biggest nitpicker and

the first one didn't compare? they're justing fighting for gay rights like nowhere was it implied that it would be the same as belos

the quiz was clearly a joke. I don't know what ur talking abt

u can also tell that you are like, the only one along with 60 smth other chronically online people are the only people that actually have a problem with this. Everyone else is fine with it. Like red flag #1, the LGBTQ+ community disagrees with what you believe is "bigoted"

bye

You seem to have not read the post properly. I'm not mad at Mark. At all?? I don't think he's 'bigoted' . I just think he should take a break (he's been making daily comics for over a YEAR NOW.) And that next time he does a comic feature say LGBTQIA+ stuff / issues, to do some research and maybe go over it with some people to make sure it won't come off the wrong way. I Explained in the post why both posts and jokes came off wrong. Jokes can be misunderstood/mistaken (I pointed out how on the Twitter version of his Test comic people where asking about "where to find " such tests and to give links.

Jokes can also be done in a harmful manner (I am NOT saying that this is what Mark has done, I am simply pointing out that not all Jokes are fun and lighthearted) and to mock someone.

Also, it is LGBTQIA+, not LGBTQ+ . Intersex and Agender folks, and aroace folks (like me :D) Exist bro. We're valid.

Also "The LGBTQ+ Community dissagrees " "I am gay asl" You, dont speak for the whole community?? I AM apart of the community as well (trans/demi-boy and aroace)??

I dont see how saying "The LGBTQ+ Community Dissagrees with You!!! I am also gay" Would make me feel as if How i feel about the comics are any less valid, esp since we JUST got out an era where the media ect thought that all you had to do was do a dumb test. (thats how little they thought of us. I dont want it back. Esp with all the laws coming out)

I'm also, not online much?? idk if you checked but my last post was me literally apologising for not posting.

Also my reblogs are about, the show?? Critising the show?? Analysing the show?? It has nothing to do with Mark??

I dont know why in the Owl House fandom it's called 'nit picking' to analyse and critise media you enjoy.

Like, its OKAY to enjoy something and admit its not perfect?? not everything has to perfect my guy.

You won't get SWATed for admitting that the finale of TOH sucked ass.

Or that the Hexside section in FTF was pointless and wasted time.

WHY IS THIS SO HARD FOR YALL TO GRASP??

Critising + Analysing ≠ hating something

[thenineofus]

Ok, I'll do it then, I need to talk about Things Have Gotten Worse Since We Last Spoke.

I have been rotating this in my head for months now, and the reason it frustrates me so much is because there are many interesting concepts the book introduces but Eric LaRocca can't write to save their life!

Take for instance the Oedipus Rex thing. So the book is heavily inspired by Oedipus Rex, with the mommy issues and the eye thing at the end. But it feels so shallow, the mommy play happens exactly once and it's not enough to drive home the theme, and if this was their goal, why not imply that the Zoe IS Agnes' mother catfishing her, and that's why she never sends pictures and rejects the offers to meet up irl? Or idk, be more heavy handed with the mommy play, but even that wouldn't be so effective, Oedipus is only shocking because it really was his mother all along, mommy play is very vanilla in my opinion.

One interpretation I saw someone have is that maybe Zoe killed Agnes and forged the emails they exchanged, since she had Agnes' passwords. But if that was ever truly a possibility that the readers should pick up at, then there should be SOME indication that there could have been some action Zoe took that could threaten Agnes' life before idk a sudden change in the emails subject or something. And most importantly: the characters should have unique voices! Well, they should no matter what, that is just decent writing anyway. But if at some point we need to suspect that one of them is impersonating the other, then it's vital that we can recognize their writing, which we don't at all, they talk exactly the same from the very beginning.

The way Eric LaRocca writes characters is one of my biggest issue with their stories. Eric is very well read and knows many complicated words, and they want us to know that, so EVERY SINGLE ONE of their characters talk in this unnatural way, using very specific words, for very mundane conversations. I have read 3 stories they wrote and across all three, the 6 main characters ALL talk like that.

Another issue I have with their writing is that they want so bad to describe the fucked up things and disgust/disturb the reader, but they don't really know how to weave all these things together, so characters just randomly tell each other about that one thing they read on the paper, that one thing their father told them he did, that one thing they saw when they were a child. And none of the things comes back thematically, it's so gratuitous that it even fails to disturb.

Which brings us to the most disappointing part, the tapeworm thing. It all happens so fast and so inconsequentially. The author really thought they were being sooo clever by making this girl contract a parasite on purpose to feel like there is a baby growing inside her. But then we barely get any description of negative reactions a person gets when they contract a parasite, she has some cramps and that's it? Then it passes and she gets sad, it's all so pointless.

It is a wasted opportunity, what if Agnes started getting thinner and thinner, lost hair and teeth because tapeworms absorb the vitamins their host consume. What if she had instead gotten a brain worm instead of her desired intestine one. What if in that part of the story she thinks she didn't contract anything she starts getting seizures, hallucinations and behaving erratically, only to find out she DID get her tapeworm, but in her brain instead!

That would actually have been clever, because she specifically eats raw pork, and taenia are more likely to spread via pork. And also one of the most common symptoms of these parasites is that it affects the EYES, which would make the ending even more thematically coherent.

Anyway, I guess I'm saying all of this because I can't stop thinking of all the potential this book has to be genuinely interesting, but that are never realized because Eric LaRocca is a bad writer, they should hire a co-writer or a better editor, someone that pushed them to do more and do better, all their stories feel like a first draft.

[almxndrekitou]

Things I never understood

An extract about a certain close one that left me when I needed them the most, I'm moving on, this is how I chose to do it, I'm not reminiscing, I'm letting go, I do not hold any resentment towards them neither do I want to, I don't particularly feel love about them any longer, I feel content for the way things are, perhaps you needed it, d, I won't blame you for it, I won't blame you for feeling hopeless and for being tired of me, I won't, I'll miss you when I see things we laughed at, I'll smile over our older chats but there aren't any left, it's all gone to shit with the wipe, but I have screenshots of it and our posts, It'll take me forever to forget you, not because you were an amazing person or smth but because you were there when I was alone, perhaps... well nothing nevermind that.

Water flows and water goes, so does time, it's all fine.

I didn't understand why our four year long friendship never turned out as fruitful as I was thinking it would be or rather was

I felt like a fruit had grown, we had accomplished growth and maturity as two individual beings

I wouldnt say I hate you for how the fruit I was holding so dearly was nothing but a delusion you created for me to tug onto because well... I don't really know why you did that.

I never understood how it all just watered down into nothing, I didn't know where I went wrong, perhaps, the never ending doom that followed me everywhere was what you hated about me?

I'm sorry I couldn't really control that then but neither can I now

I couldn't let go of you either

You were the first friend I ever placed so much faith in

I don't understand how you changed so much and how did I become nothing for you just like that, dear best friend, if I may

I still remember asking you in our school bus if we can be best friends and it seemed so silly

It's still a little silly

It's cute

I miss you a little, everyone says I shouldn't, and I agree

But you know everything about me, you know every relationship I've been in, all my favorite things and foods, and all the little things I kept my heart in, you knew my fears and my greatest treasures, you knew all of my moles, except one, things ended between us before I could tell you about the mole on my hip

Perhaps, this banter was simply just unnecessary and pointless

Perhaps, I'm delusional when I thought we had something, I was wrong maybe and maybe I was thinking we were close

I was looking forward to our kids playing in the same sandbox, you know?

Communication with you got so ragged

I barely knew what you were upto

Other than how fed up you were of your college professors, I never really knew anything about your mind, other than the basics

I have a useless hope brewing in my mind, that maybe you're awake too right now and thinking about texting me and asking me what's Barbie's boyfriend's name... Ken...... Ken-deez nuts..... whatever.

You never really talked about yourself right? Maybe I should have noticed then and... oh right I did but you never broke your face

In the end I was right whenever I felt wrong about you bailing on our plans, online or offline

Idk, are you good? Ima write more tmr

[misses-winter-soldier]

Broken+broken=fixed

Steve chetead on you but Bucky's there to show you what love really is.

Steve x reader -> Bucky x reader

Mention of cheating

Part1

Part 2

1 month later

Bucky and I have sleepovers and cuddle sessions almost every night and besides that he speaks to me. He talks about the 40s all day long. It's cute. He started trying to catch up with the movies, books, music and fashion. We spend a lot of time together now and it's great. We cook together every day, we have weekly movie nights and weekends are for therapy sessions with each other, which, idk how much it helps him other then getting things off his chest.

Steve is still gone. He hasn't called me in 3 weeks now. I text him everyday and he replies maybe once a week or only if it's something about his buddy.

"Hey y/n! Tell me you don't have plans for tonight pls pls!"

"Haha . I don't but why?"

"I wanna watch Ice age! Really really bad and i know it s not Friday yet but please please please can we watch it?"

He's adorable. No wait. I can't think that. I have a boyfriend.

"Y/n? You ok?"

"Oh um yeah. I just zoomed out for a sec. And yes we can watch it. I love ice age"

"Are sure you're ok? Look i know I'm a little hard to deal most times and really sore if I'm being to clingy or smth like that. You can say no. It's cool. you're already doing so much for me"

"Hey none of that. I like hanging out with you and i do love ice age. It s just.... Today's the day Steve and i made it official and it's just a bit hard. I feel like we just drifted apart and I've done everything i could to get us back up but it doesn't seem to work.... I've just been thinking about our relationship and it feels like he doesn't want to be with me. I'm sorry i should tell you all of this"

"Why do you think that?"

"Pffffff! He has been cold and distant for months. I can't remember the last time he as much as hugged me.... He is gone most of the time and when he's here he's out. Comes home very late and bolts out after breakfast. He ignores my calls and only texts me back when he want something. I called him this morning. He declined my call. So i texted him i still haven't gotten any reply. Just seen. It hurts. Because i don't know what's happening. Why he acts this way. Idk if i did something to upset him or of he just lost interest. Maybe there's someone else...."

I didn't even realize I'm crying until he wiped off some tears off my cheeks.

"I know Steve. He wouldn't cheat on you, ok? And I've seen you with him. You take care off him and I've seen the way you look at him. You're beautiful and kind, you're sweet and caring and you put up with both of us which is just wow. My point is he has no reason to lose interest in you. He works a lot and it's a very stressful job so maybe he s distance come from not wanting to take it out on you. Talk to him. I'm sure he will explain everything." He hugs me.

Damn i miss hugs.

"I can't talk to someone who ignores me Buck.. let's watch the movie. I'll make popcorn "

While I was in the kitchen Bucky called Steve.

"Hello?"

Did Steve become a woman? Wtf is this?

"Um hi? Who is this? I'm Sharon. Steves girlfriend. Who s this?"

"Put him on the phone right now!"

"Hey Buck"

"HEY BUCK? ARE YOU SERIOUS? WHO THE FUCK WAS THAT BITCH STEVE? WHY DID SHE SAY SHE'S YOUR GIRLFRIEND?"

"Buck just calm down ok. Are you good? Why did you call?'

"Oh I'm calm. And I'm ok. I'm perfect actually. You know why? Because your girlfriend is taking care of my perky ass. You know? Y/n. In case you forget which girlfriend I'm talking about. And i guess it doesn't matter why i called anymore. Have fun you asshole "

"Wait. Come on man. "

"I'll called because y/n just cried in MY arms because if YOU. Because of what at ass you've been. But it's pointless to talk to you about it. Obviously you don't care. Have fun with your whore"

"Are you gonna tell her?"

" No. You are. I'll give you 24h to end things. Idc what you tell her. "

"Are you serious?"

"Yes. 24h or I'll tell her the truth and help her burn your shit"

Call ends.

He got the bed ready and put the movie on.

7h later.

I was asleep next to him. Bucky couldn't sleep tho.

Bucky mind:

Why would he do this?

She's funny and interesting

She gorgeous and hot

She is the sweetest person I've ever met and she makes amazing pasta

She's taken care off him like no one ever will

She loved him

She trusted him

What are you doing Steve? What happened to you?

When I woke up breakfast was ready and Bucky waiting for me in the kitchen with the biggest smile on his face

"Morning"

"Morning doll"

That's new. Pet names?

"What are your plans for today?"

"Actually my plans are yours too. I've spoken to Fury earlier and he wants us to start training the new recruits. Or. He wants you to make sure i dont go berserk and kill one."

"I'll go change ,call Steve and then I'm good to go."

"Steve?"

"Yeah he texted me to call him"

"He did huh?"

I nodded and went to my room.

"Let's see if you answer."

Part 3