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#but like. the toll on me was insane
simptasia · 5 months
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bless all the nurses who sincerely told me i'd make a great nurse, during the months my mum was dying and i was taking care of her near constantly to the point of around the clock emotional and physical exhaustion. and then i'd have to, thank them but gently inform them I'm Only Doing This Well Because I Have To
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eurekq · 2 months
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I get that people want an enemy in every situation but idk why it's so hard to just accept that people like jk rowling will see anything and find a way to make it about their vitriolic ideology. People cry after losing olympic challenges all the time. Carini in particular was crying because in losing she failed to keep a promise to her recently deceased father and also because she had been hit in the nose, which will make literally anyone on planet earth tear up (a totally legal hit afaik. just one that produces an unavoidable reaction). She admitted she had been wrong in not shaking khelifs hand and apologized. She said that if she were to see her again she would give her a hug. Like I don't know I feel like there are more productive targets to focus on. Yeah she acted shitty and unsportsmanlike in a single emotional moment; this was coopted and her words were mistranslated without her knowledge. Something can have bad consequences without it being a deliberately calculated evil mastermind move. In the meanwhile at the Olympics: did you know that the netherlands sent a man convicted of raping a 12 year old to compete? That's fucking insane to me but I guess it does make sense. They allowed Israel to compete after all
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ahalliance · 3 hours
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i think the qsmp is very impressive for speedrunning the same love-hate relationship i have with the dsmp in under a year as opposed to the three it took for the other one
#truly the qsmp experience for me was just my dsmp experience but . 10x more intense . qsmp burned bright like a sun and fucking exploded#while dsmp just kinda died out slowly and by then i wasn’t interested in it anw#i think love-hate relationship is the only way to describe it because it’s like . it was incredible . i loved it . i still love it .#i dedicate my free time to working on a wiki for it and i think about the cubitos and npcs often . but jesus fucking christ the toll that#shit took on quite literally the everyone’s mental health . the constant stress and near psychological torment the ccs and admins dealth#with because of an insane lack of rp etiquette planning and communication . they couldn’t even talk to the people they were roleplaying#child death with . what the fuck#and looking back at it now it’s crazy to me just how MUCH happened in such a short amount of time . just constant shit happening . purgatory#lasted two weeks and it still feels to me like it lasted two months i’m so serious . you lived every single fucking moment#etoiles still brings up purgatory when he’s in a particularly stressful ‘damned if i do damned if i don’t situation’ . lord#and STILL i’m glad it happened and it seems like the admins and ccs would pretty much all agree seeing how they act . like even despite#how so much of it sucked . because so much of it was incredible and life changing and just a fucking adrenaline rush of fun .#i don’t want another qsmp 2 as much as i’d love to be optimistic as much as i want to capture the joy of the server’s best momenrs again#christ in hell . pay your fucking workers treat them as actual human beings and act like the international company you are#jay rambles
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fear-no-mort · 10 months
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my lifeline for the next 6 days
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marxzsoul · 8 months
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>creates a poll called theshipwars
>war happens in the notes
>abandons poll
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gemkun · 3 months
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in true gem fashion as i come back to the dash i have to talk about details related to the scholar king ( yeah that’s a literal title the university refers to him as )
okay but that being said — this is literally a picture taken by a fan(?) and posted on the forum without his knowledge
like obviously when reading the whole dr. ratio’s school notes it was just entertaining and you’d probably go “ me fr ” but the more you look into it the darker it appears
it’s clearly a textbook example of borderline fanaticism and other posts like the user “ dr ratio fan club ( insane version ) ” only alludes to how drastic future or current posts might be
after the interview i can only imagine how hectic the forum would have been and the type of posts that ended up floating around — some which might have expressed hatred to aventurine
i think it’s extremely fascinating but also concerning for dr. ratio to be seen in this celebrity - esque light considering he already has plenty on his plate — the ceaseless pressures and overwhelming burdens of being more than he already is
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3416 · 6 months
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whenever people say drivers aren't athletes, it always kills me.... feels like it's such a devaluation of how great of shape you have to be in plus the element of endurance that not just any regular person could do. like i don't even see the realistic argument against it besides the fact that those opinions just come from people who don't know anything about motorsports, lol.
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bandzboy · 10 months
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i hate that these companies instead of promoting their artists correctly they are like "let's send them to a mnet survival show that will probably deteriorate their mental health and literally won't lead them anywhere bc that's what is gonna fix everything" I JUST CAN'T STAND IT
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fullmetall · 2 months
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for y’all who aren’t familiar w fma: ed joined the military when he was like. 12 btw
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dogearedheart · 2 months
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8i've been thinking about the last asks i got today. and i think it's better for me to take a step back from this account. i know the anon didn't mean anything by it, but i still feel like i am being a negative presence on here and weirding people out with who i am is nothing i want. so, i am not deleting or anything. i am just gonna be less present with sharing personal things or leaving tags. I'll probably be more active on my second account where i don't have that many followers :)
#i guess it affected me more than i'd like to#i don't want to make people uncomfortable#and i am sorry if i did that with any of my posts i know they have been overly emotional and maybe a bit insane#it's true that i am trying to deal with losing and finding peace i am not very good at this due to my intense emotions#and my fear of loneliness and losing people. i am also in a very bad depressive episode. i am aware that this isn't an excuse for any#of my behavior. i never had a support system so dealing with all this on my own and getting no therapist who is willing to see you#it's a downer. guilt is eating me alive and my mental condition is the something that has ruined a lot for me but it has never before done#such a terrible job before. recovering from that and dealing with the aftermath of this is exhausting and has taken a toll on my physical#and mental health i know this post doesn't mean anything to most of all and is at best confusing but i guess it's my poor attempt#of avoiding that people will hate me. i don't want to self-pity more than i already did. but i do that all on my own already.#i know that life is so much more difficult than fiction and you can't expect miracles or believe in faith to fix anything#i know there is no cure to who i am. i can only try to navigate it better in the future. it doesn't mean that i can't regret what i did.#that i can't feel guilty about it. i know that won't change anything but i am also trying to get better and i understand if that's not#visible. i just have to believe that one day it will be enough for people to say 'hey. i know you are fucked up.#and you hurt me and you've been a bitch. but we'll work on it. i believe in you.' otherwise i have to believe that this loneliness#is all there is and that i'm gonna die hollow#i don't want much. i just want some patience and peace#i want to believe that i am worthy of love and that i can get a future. and yes. me talking about wanting a wife and this stupid apple pie#life... maybe it's cliche and stupid but i have been alone for years and i am so tired of fighting. is it so bad that i don't want to do#this alone? and that goes for friends as well. i want to cook for people built things and tend to a garden to take care of animals#and to create instead of destroying for once.#i don't know why i am still writing i guess when the dam breaks... again. i am sorry for ever making people uncomfortable or even hurting#them that was never my intention. i promise#so i really hope. whoever is reading this. i hope you are doing alright. i hope you had/have a good day. tell the people you care about#you love them and enjoy the little things. read that book. eat that chocolate or do whatever brings you joy. the world is so difficult to#navigate but you are doing such a great job by just existing. you are making this world a better place with the light you radiate#the last thing I want to do something I never can forgive myself for is hurting people#not only but especially the ones I care about. but beyond that those I barely know too because I care about you guys too#I just don't want that... I want to leave the world better than I found it but I'm having a hard time doing it due to this stupid fucking#brain of mine.
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acedavestrider · 2 months
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anyone have any tips on how to reduce your screen time when your job and the majority of your hobbies are On The Computer
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prisonpodcast · 10 months
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Twitter just sucks
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melto · 1 year
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i'll stop feeling like everyone is mocking me once i actually spend time with my friends everything will be ok then
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floorpancakes · 2 years
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somehow, beyond all human comprehension, circumstances and health be damned, i successfully submitted my first complete, on time project sekai design entry! i present to you… dashing daisy!
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#project sekai#proseka#kaito#more more jump#プロセカ#it probably seems like me making a big deal out of nothing but I’ve tried hard at this contest for maybe a year maybe more or less#I’ve always failed#I have wips and sketches of lots of contests going back months that I couldn’t bring myself to. finish but are worth keeping for later#i love all my designs a lot but the art and the hard work takes a toll on me#often I do one big last push for the deadline and am unable to finish due to my poor health or almost passing out from tiredness lol#it’s a lot#and there’s more I could’ve done with this but I kept the shading anatomy drawing etc to a minimum so I could succeed#I also had a freak incident where I stayed up for like 40 hours#my body was like jelly and random still images and part of my art started moving but I was somehow ok to finish and post#like two hours early#which is insane#anyway it’s scuffed but I tried really hard to get across the presentation and what this concept means to me#I wrote a whole thing on twitter about the inspirations and stuff#think early 2010s idol stage costumes and also my love of 1960s retropop and Showa retro in general#if this wins which it probably won’t but if it does#I also partly wanted it so boys have more cute things to wear with idol style mvs and stages#and so kaito has more matching outfits for mmj#and so you can make any character a True Idol#my suggested mvs are dream place tenshi no clover and journey 3d#anyway kaito the world my final message goodbye#mmj#I like the double meaning of dashing as princely and handsome but also running#kinda like how every akb48 mv starts with idols running#you know it’s gonna be iconic when the center is running as the mv is about to start#imagine him running with his golden mic and stepping onto stage…uwa
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mxgyver · 1 year
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magnoliamyrrh · 2 years
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yea hey im sorry why doesn't the woman in her early 30s have wrinkles but. i fuckin do ,,,,,
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