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matenrou-fan · 1 year

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Hi can I request angst to fluff scenario where s/o somehow gets amnesia,for ichiro pls

Ichiro with NB! s/o who's get amnesia

hii!! As you didn't mention how exactly s/o had amnesia, I decided to take depression as the reason for that! I hope it's okay!! contact me if something wrong <3

NBreader, hurt/comfort, mention of depression and meds, 1363 words;;

"Here, s/o.. This is my house.." - Ichiro looks at you with a little hope in his eyes, encouraging smile on his lips. His heart starts beating faster while you examine his apartment, which was in the office of Odd-Jobs Yamada.

But you didn't feel anything. Even when you try really hard, you can't bring any, even the slightest memory, about this place from your mind. You furrow your brows, reading a big title in front of his house, but nothing. Your head just starts hurting and you sigh, a little disappointed.

"It's okay, don't push yourself too much, darling.." - Ichiro keeps smiling as he leads you inside. Despite it being so hard to keep this bright smile on his face, he continues to do it, as he doesn't want you to feel bad.

Few weeks ago you lost almost all your memories, including all the moments that you shared with Ichiro, your boyfriend. Doctors said that it's linked with your depression and it would be better after the right treatment and some meds. You feel kinda bad now, as you always keep your problems inside your heart, too shy to talk about all those things that are bothering you with your boyfriend. He always was so cheerful and sweet, telling him about something bad feels so.. wrong. Around him and his easygoing behavior you always forget all troubles, but when you are left alone with yourself it starts bugging you even more. Well, maybe that's why you receive such a great effect from your worries.

And now you feel nothing when you look at his face, your soul recalls some soft feeling when you meet his gaze or touch his arm, but you can't remember even a small thing that bonds you two together, your mind is blank.

But as soon as Ichiro gets to know about this situation, he tells you that he will be here for you, even in times like that. His heart was broken now from the realization of just how much you hide from him for all this time.. But he wasn't mad at you or something, but more mad at himself. That just means he wasn't good enough..! And now this is his time to show you how much he actually cares about you and your well-being, as he's willing to help you bring all memories back.

"Here. This is my room, we used to hang out here a lot.." - he explained to you when showing his bedroom. It was actually not the first time you get here after your amnesia, but Ichiro kept repeating simple phrases like that every time.

As your boyfriend, he spends a few nights reading all available information about your disease, so now he knows that it would be easy for you to remember new information through repeating it. Doing activities that you did before your memory loss also can be helpful, and that's why Ichiro keeps searching his shelf with CDs right now.

"Finally! That's it!" - he giggles and shows you a disk with anime - "This is the first anime that we watch together.."

You notice a slight blush on his cheeks as he looks away, probably overwhelming with memories of this first date you two have then. When in your head nothing pops up, even when you take a CD from his arms to look closer.

"Are you sure it will work out?" - you ask confused, sitting on a couch while he turns on his laptop.

"We won't know until we try.." - Ichiro simply answers and your heart suddenly skips a beat. Even if you don't feel any romantic feelings for him right now, his kindness struck your soul. You simply nod and he sat next to you, starting the show.

Oh just how hard it was for him not to hold your hand or hug you..! He gets used to being so close to you when you're together, but he holds himself back, trying to be as polite as he can. After all, even if it hurts to admit, you see him only as a stranger right now, and he should respect your personal space. But for Ichiro, the main words was "right now", as he was sure you will get your memories back and will hug him again some day..

So while you actually pay attention to the screen, engrossed by the plot, Ichiro was more staring at your face than at his laptop. It was his favorite anime so he memorized it completely, but your face.. He will never get tired of your face and never memorize it completely, as he always finds new adorable details such as small freckles he didn't notice before, or this cute eyelash that was on a different angle than others..

It was both painful and pleasurable to look at your face, much calmer and emotionless than usual, but still so familiar and heartwarming. Just how much Ichiro wants to put at least one piece of his memories and love inside your soul so you will see how much he appreciates you and how precious you was all this time for him..

You suddenly get a strange feeling and look at him, not expecting to meet his gaze. So soft and caring, and so so loving, you almost can feel the warmth of his heart through his colorful bright eyes. Something twitched inside you, this gaze, this heartful and passionate gaze was surprisingly.. familiar? You feel a tickling wave in your heart as you can't look away from Ichiro's eyes, your head still empty but it feels like your soul resonates with him at this moment..

"S.. S/o.." - his voice so quiet as he was afraid to scare you, noticing slight changes in your expression. Is this the same sparkle that always cheers him up now lights up on your face again?

You get closer, your hand finds its way to his arm, holding it softly as you try to feel more, slowly pulling this string of memories from your heart.

"Ichiro, i.." - you mumble with a trembling voice but suddenly get interrupted by the loud thud of the front door:

"Ichi-nii, we're home..!!" - it was his little brothers, and despite Ichiro really loving them, he feels like he can kill them at this moment, looking in the corridor with a disappointed face and screaming:

"Jiro, Saburo, I'm in my bedroom, and don't you two dare-"

"It's okay.." - you chuckle and look at the screen of the laptop again - "This part is actually pretty boring, can we start from the episode when she finally finds her best friend..?"

Ichiro sigh and just nods tiredly, but then froze for a moment, looking at you with wide eyes, still processing what you just said.

"Did.. did you remember the next episode?" - he asks, almost unable to breathe from a sudden strong heartbeat, it almost feels like his heart is in his throat.

You look at him surprised, also realizing that actually yes, you kinda start to remember the whole plot of this anime. Ichiro quickly gets back, almost dropping on his knees as he takes your hands in his, with a big bright smile on his face.

"That's.. that's great…! It's.. it's a new step..!" - he was so excited, almost looking like a small puppy with those happy eyes and blush on his cheeks, you can almost see a little tears in his eyes.

"I also suddenly remember how red you were that evening.." - you chuckle, teasing him a little. He gets surprised again and now blush even more, looking away.

"Huh.. I told you before to forget about this, but honestly, now I'm happy that you even remember that.." - he mumbled shyly, squeezing your hands tightly. Then suddenly looks at you again with such a sincere and caring gaze.

"Come on! That means we have plenty of things to do now, darling..!" - he sat next to you with a playful smirk, thinking what else he should show you - "Who knows, maybe we will be able to bring another memory from you today?! I'm willing to stay awake for a whole night if it means you will remember something more, s/o..! ♡"

#hypmic x reader #hypmic imagines #hypmic #hypnosis mic #hypmic ichiro #ichiro x reader #ichiro yamada #ichiro yamada x reader #hypnosis mic Ichiro

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pennycat83 · 3 months

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I'm sorry I absolutely fucked him up in the lab guys

I just really wanna talk about my take on Bob2.0 'cause I wove him too much.

(This only makes sense in my series canon sadly so TLDR: cartoon characters can die in various ways and go to a purgatory but sometimes other forms of media sneak in unknowingly)

Since the third book ended with him floating off into space this is a variant in which he, somehow, died. He can't remember how and he's far away from both HEAVEN-1 and all the other Bobs. The only ones he can interact with are the ones that have canonically died and the first generation (who also can't remember how they died), all of which are hard wired to his IBM 5150 computer monitor he's stuck in.

They can be sent out into space by hijacking other spaceships but it's too risky to do (he's fully skint too).

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Additional Notes and headcannons

⚙️ He's quite bitter he lost Charlie since he's now shorter than before (mainly 'cause the android model he stole was prebuilt and he doesn't know how to readjust it). He also has to recharge as well and can't do much either (he can access the IBM computer system his head belongs to but then he just turns into a regular ass computer, it does let him adjust his system which he does every night with the ROAMERS controlling stuff outside).

⚙️Since most of the other Bobs are still in slight control of his system he tends to flip between personalities and even memories (rarely shows up but sometimes he casually drops stuff that never happened to him).

⚙️ The other Bobs can intervene if they're put in the IBM system (some are more hardwired in than others but some can be transferred to floppy disks, much like Bob-1 they all lost their ships except for Milo).

⚙️LOOK ME IN THE EYE AND TELL ME THIS MAN DOESN'T HAVE AUTISM! Gestures with his hands when he talks, prefers solitude and can do it for long periods of time, hyperfixates on random subjects and sci-fi, struggles with interacting with others outside of his small group of friends and family, an inability to comfort others. I can SMELL it on him man!

⚙️ This man has a roadtrip soundtrack, no one can change it and anyone who does gets put in the ship storage hull (it's mostly a mix-trail of 80's/90's stuff, ELO, Thomas Dolby and Talking Heads).

⚙️ He's essentially completely denounced any type of romance between him since he's too out there for most others (flirting has been observed to cause him to do a mental tailspin).

⚙️ Feral as fuck. Not only does he forget he's still human to a degree at times but he tends to go into weird manic over analysis moments (also tends to devolve into a mad scientist without realising).

⚙️ Suffers with slight touch starveness due to him being unable to properly touch anyone intimately for a long time* (this is most evident with casual touch so it's unsure if he could handle anything further).

⚙️ Is "slightly" hyperfixated with both Spore and 90's alien stuff (I'm going HARD on my headcannoning here. I'm not against him being a classic sci fi nerd but I like the idea he's more into a specific sub genre rather than just being a generic nerd**).

⚙️ Adding a bit more to it I also like to think he's into the LEGO Space sets as well. Alongside Guardians of the Galaxy (man probably had enough time to binge it).

⚙️Most of his other attributes and habits from before still stand. He still likes to talk shit about religion and often gets a bit arrogant when talking about his old job and achievements. I did nuke a bit of his overt geniuses from the book since I (for some reason) think he gets slight moments where he messes up hard by over assuming stuff.

⚙️Every single Bob treats Homer like the lil brother once they found out he's still kicking. The second he comes in at a bad time the others just try 'n shoo him out so he won't see anything too graphic.

⚙️ I'll probably go into this a more later but he has like the weirdestly wholesome dynamic with P.C, like they're just two mad scientist weirdos talking about random stuff and being feral.

*I know this one sounds dumb but like... I don't think he ever tried hitting on any Deltans at any point for obvious reasons, and his only friend was Archimedes. So obviously the man's gotta be a bit on the touch starved side.

**yes I know he's fan girly over Von Neumann Probes I mean like media, he's only really into conventional sci fi stuff so I like to think his other ones are more tied to space in different ways.

#we are legion we are bob #bobiverse #sorry this is cringe #not

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satellite-blossom · 1 year

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thank you for answering! and for reminding me about Flipnote, I miss that little thing. your OC is lovely btw! any honorable mentions to show?

No problem ! And thank you for the compliment !

Well, as for honorable mentions... I can't really show it because I'm not done with the designs of the characters yet, but I'm pretty proud of my Sonic.exe lore ! Long story short : I used to be obsessed with the Sonic.exe lore made by the writer of the OG Creepypasta, but in retrospect it had a bunch of issues, and when some gross news came out my infatuation broke off and I stopped revering this so-called "canon". Anyway, ever since I've been going hard on rewriting the Sonic.exe lore to use it in Léa's story.

The changes are in the designs, the names and a bunch of things.

First of all, I'm redesigning Exe and his Seven Guardians. I haven't sketched everyone yet, but here's what I have so far :

It was important to me that each guardian get a unique quill style and that Gekido look like a hedgehog this time around (he originally looked like Knuckles and it was weird). The Seven Guardians of X as they're typically called are beings created by Exe/X to assist him, and they all represent a human feeling. Yukubo is desire, Kofuku is happiness, Gekido is anger, Kito is faith/prayer, Aishu is sorrow, Kirai is hatred, and Kyofu is fear. I haven't made a lot of changes when it comes to the stories of the Guardians ; I just had to kinda make up my own personalities for them because the little things the OG creator showed is most likely lost now (it exist only in my memory now I guess).

Where things REALLY got the most changes was with the "Cult of X", as it's called in the OG lore.

In the OG lore and in my Sonic.exe lore, Exe has a cult on Earth which helps to spread his disks, cover up some of his deeds, etc. And that's basically the biggest similarity between those two lores... Mine doesn't even use the same name for the cult ! As an other OG lore rewriter pointed out, cults do not call themselves cults ; on the contrary they tend to call other groups the "real cults". And the rewriter made me admit that yeah, most people wouldn't want anything to do with the religion/cult of a malicious dark matter being so the cult needs a cover. So that's how I've started working on "Far Away GalaXy", my version of the Cult of X ! Its cover is an organization which provides help & support for abuse victims. It was created by Shannon Goldman, who is the leader of the cult, like it used to be in the OG lore before the OG writer brought up "Father". On the surface the group is well-liked, getting shootouts from many people, especially for their queer inclusiveness. The people who ask for help are called "Stars" and the method Far Away GalaXy therapists & staff use is centered over seven "core feelings" they call "Planets" in brochures : fear, sorrow, anger, hatred, desire, faith/hope and happiness... It rings a bell, doesn't it ? Without even bringing up the supernatural stuff in public, the group already starts to ease you into its core beliefs. Anyway, those feelings are seen as "normal parts of life" the abuse victims need to work on, in the order I've listed them. Think of it as something like the seven states of grief but for abuse victims and made by a cult.

Once someone gets very into Far Away GalaXy, they might be encouraged further into the core beliefs of the cult. It starts with hate of the Abrahamic religions, then a lesser opinion of mankind as a whole. Eventually members are invited to send a "special gift" to one of their abusers, and surprise surprise : it's a Sonic.exe disk ! Obviously things go as you'd expect once the person receives the disk ; and now the brainwashed member initially thinks they killed their abuser. But soon they're reassured as they are told about the eternity of souls, and the great love Lord X has for them. At this point, even if you want to leave, the cult has enough material to blackmail you and controls too much of your life anyway ; trying to denounce anything would turn you into Exe's next toy. The religious rhetoric is that Exe is the Sun from a Far Away GalaXy that the humans need to reach with the Spaceship, a tool or being that Exe will use to take over Earth. The Guardians are Planets, Shannon is the Spaceship's Captain and the Satellite of the Yukubo (aka the Planet of Desire ; Satellites are subordinates of a Celestial Body (Planets, Sun) that are higher than regular humans), and the other members of the cult are the Crew. Exe is also called "Lord X" or just "X", and humans are to be his "toys". The Spaceship is eventually found, and it's... Léa, who would have guessed ! In case it wasn't clear, Léa are originally an Earthling ; they look like a hedgehog when they travel to Mobius or Exe's world (sometimes). Here's what they look like as a human (the blue one is their Far Away GalaXy fit) :

Contrary to what Léa expected, being the "key to salvation" of the cult of their boyfriend (yep, they're dating Exe) isn't fun at all. When Exe sends them to the USA under the guise of a year of leisure (Léa are French), right at the core of his cult, Léa thought it couldn't be hell, well probably weird but not horrible. Shannon Goldman seems very friendly to them at first, gifting them a binder and overall being supportive, but things get bad pretty soon. Not wanting Léa to feel important (as Shannon thinks they are just a human who are abusing their position of key to demand things from X since Léa have made Exe sign a contract to post-pone his takeover), Shannon starts to use more and more dehumanizing language when talking to/about Léa in religious situations. In this context she starts to only call them "the Spaceship", use it/its pronouns for them, and eventually always talk to them at the third person instead of saying "you". She says they are no-one, nobody, especially not to the Sun ; they are just a mere tool in her opinion, and once Exe will have taken over they will go "from nobody to nothing". She controls Léa's sleep and anxiety medication, making them more or less tired & upset depending of what she needs, control their internet usage, and even starts to physically abuse them. Léa do not have a license or even a car, they don't know much about living in the USA and have to rely on Far Away GalaXy for their housing and money in the USA, so they're really trapped. But what about Exe, why doesn't he help ? Well Exe has another moment of "I don't know what to do about loving a human", and he wants to keep up his status, so he just tells Léa to trust Shannon to do what's best for everyone. It really breaks Léa's spirit, but don't worry things eventually improve and they get to make Shannon regret her life choices when they get a surge of power after a certain event... And Exe apologizes to them, too.

There are other members of Far Away GalaXy that were in the OG lore but were originally never developed, like Lexi Violet or Lazarus. Lexi is a strange girl who wears dark yet cute fashion and is rarely seen without her big cat plushie. She moves it around pretending to only report the words of the plush if she deems you to not be interesting enough to talk directly to ; she has a tendency to leave conversations if she deems they're "booooriiing". The cat stuff was already in the OG lore... Anyway, she's the main artists of the group ; she designs logos, merch and clothes for Far Away GalaXy. Sometimes she lets Léa assist her a bit. She is aware of the cult stuff, and feels curious about where things will go, not feeling any remorse about it. When Léa are desperate for someone to listen to them, Lexi call them selfish for complaining about what Shannon puts them through ; of course Léa feel even more hopeless after that. Léa's basically only friend in Far Away GalaXy is Alice, Shannon's daughter, who is not even aware of most of the cult stuff. While Shannon is nicknamed "Mother" by a bunch of cult members (she really surrounds herself with people desperate for any kind of attention), Alice is the only person to officially be Shannon's daughter, as she was adopted by her as a child. Alice is no more than a year older than Léa, and very soft-spoken. They're just glad she still sees them as a person, even if they're not allowed to tell her about any of the cult stuff.

Wow that turned into a long ramble ! Sorry about that, by the way... But I'm very proud of how I've reworked the OG lore, and made it fit in Léa's story. I'm reclaiming something that made me happy and I think it's cool ! It's not like the OG writer was getting any money from that, and I doubt most people even know who I'm talking about when I say "the OG writer/creator of Sonic.exe", plus he has left all of his social media soooo... I feel like I can reclaim that ! So many things in the OG lore weren't even created by the guy in question ; Lexi, Shannon, Lazarus, and Alice were created by other people... Talking about a "canon" Sonic.exe doesn't make much sense, especially not now, and gives too much credit to this one guy. But I'm getting off-topic...!

Anyway I hope it wasn't too tedious to read ! Thank you for giving me an excuse to ramble again !

#berry weird paracosm #berry replies #Far Away GalaXy #Shannon Goldman #Lexi Violet #Léa Acorn #Alice Goldman #Sonic.exe #berry sweet asks #abuse mention #cult mention

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thefeawl · 1 month

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Perfection

March 24, 2024

“Were I to await perfection, my book would never be finished.” ― Tai T’ung

You will learn as you go along. It's normal to feel scared; if you weren't scared, it wouldn't be worthwhile to do it.

As the late Dr. Wayne Dyer once said, 'Don’t die with the music still in you.' We all have a gift to offer the world, which is the light and love residing within each and every one of us.

I'm guilty of avoiding the light. I couldn't confront my own darkness, and when I finally decided to face it, I realized I was out of practice.

I had to work hard to reach the level of peace I'm experiencing now. I had to train to strengthen my mind, body and soul to slay the dragon. This is it—I am finally at peace.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not perfect. It feels like more than just a new beginning; it feels like the beginning.

I've been sober for over a year now. I've quit all my vices that hindered my connection with my higher self.

After a long and painful journey, it's time for me to actualize myself and become the best version of who I can be.

In the past, whenever I felt bored, scared or uncomfortable, I would turn to alcohol or drugs to detach myself from reality.

If you examine emotional scales more closely, you'll notice that boredom typically falls in the middle of lower and higher emotions.

Above it, you'll find contentment, hopefulness, optimism, all the way up to joy and love. Isn't that what we all desire in the first place? Freedom, bliss, empowerment?

We desire these emotions so much that most of us get lost in them.

Little do we know, love is a gift and thereby cannot be expected.

Indeed, when you expect love, you are out of harmony with it.

You can only receive what you give, and you can only give what you already possess, which ultimately reflects what you are.

If you expect yourself to be loving, even if nobody else is giving you love, then you will be the least influenced by spirits and negativity around you. Because no matter what happens to us, nothing can stop us from being loving.

Where does the concept of perfection fit into this?

Why do we strive to be perfect in the first place? Because we seek to be loved, admired, respected, and more.

Yet, do we truly love ourselves?

If we were the last person left in the world, would we be afraid to live our lives as we've always wanted?

Would we hesitate to write a book, record a song, dance, sing, or simply dress the way we've always desired?

“The privilege of a lifetime is to become who you truly are.” ― Carl Gustav Jung

I heard about a research that authenticity is the highest frequency. The study shows that it is 400 times higher than that of love.

To increase your vibration, you need to be more authentic. In other words, you need to live your truth.

If God created us in its own image it’s logical that we are all creators, we are here to bring positive changes, to make the world a better place.

How do we change the world? We must change our inner world.

Yes, the external world is a reflection of the world inside of us. So, what we consume affects us tremendously. It’s not just drugs and alcohol otherwise every ‘sober’ person would be on a high flying disk.

To me true sobriety is when your mind is free. It’s when you are in complete control of your inner speech. It’s when you wake up in the morning and start your day with joy and gratitude.

True sobriety is when you are the master of yourself.

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ecargmura · 4 months

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The Indigo Disk DLC Is Really Run! (Review)

If Teal Mask showed off the adventure/story aspect of Pokemon, Indigo Disk showed off the battle aspect of Pokemon as it is a primarily battle-heavy DLC. Compared to the previous DLC, this one was a lot more challenging due to an up in levels and that battles are primarily in doubles; this means that you have to think strategically about the Pokemon you want on your team and how you’ll survive. Did I do any of that? I did…and I still got my ass whooped.

I think the Indigo Disk DLC is good! A lot better than Teal Mask, in all honesty. Kitakami was just a small region with little battle, an expansive area to explore, and a good story. However, Indigo Disk has battles, exploration and story equally. Unlike Kitakami where the location isn’t specifically told, Blueberry Academy is primarily in the Unova region. Given that it’s near the ocean, I can safely assume it’s somewhere nearby Undella Town.

In terms of battles, Indigo Disk is the most challenging Pokemon has been since Pokemon Colosseum. Because it has been 20 years since the Gamecube game, I can safely say that Indigo Disk is A LOT more challenging because there are more Pokemon and a lot more strategies used. The tutorial battle with Lacey and her Plusle and Minun was actually super creative with how they both have hidden abilities and use it to their advantage. One had Volt Absorb and the other had Lightning Rod and using moves like Helping Hand and Discharge made such a unique battle strategy; while I had no issues with the battle, if you had trouble with those rats, that is a testament to how you need to up your strategy game. It’s not just Lacey, every NPC in this DLC fight via double battles and they all have different strategies. I once got my ass kicked by this NPC named Max who had two Oricorios with the Dancer ability, which meant that Revelation Dance was chain spammed. The Blueberry Elite Four are really challenging—all of their Pokemon are in the high 70’s and the Champion, Kieran, is in the 80’s. What other trainers have you challenged that were in the high 70’s and 80’s? The Elite Four are also the first League where double battles are mainly used. This is why they are hard; they also have one oddball in their full party to throw the player off and also amp their types. I lost to Crispin once, Lacey knocked out five of my Pokemon, Amarys was easy, and I lost to Drayton 3 times.

The exploration in Blueberry Academy is super fun. There are four biomes where Pokemon inhabit, but they’re all super cool. I really like exploring them. Some of the areas in the biomes are a nod to previous games. For example, the Savanna Biome is a nod to the Kanto Safari Zone as some of the Pokemon you can find there are Pokemon you can find in the Safari Zone like Doduo, Kantonian Tauros, Chansey, Doduo, Exeggcute, Venonat and Scyther. The Coastal Biome seems to be a nod to Alola as most available Alolan forms are found there. The Canyon Biome has a small cavern called Chargestone Cavern where it is a replica of the actual Chargestone Cave and it connects with the Polar Biome. I think this is a cool idea and that you can find starters in the wild if you collect BP, the main currency of the school, and upgrade the biomes.

The story is a bit of a sequel of Teal Mask. The reason why the player goes to Blueberry Academy is because Carmine recommended you to Cyrano, the headmaster of the academy, after the events of Teal Mask. I’m not sure how much time had passed between Teal Mask and Indigo Disk; I’m assuming it to be months because Carmine talks to the player as if we haven’t seen each other in months. In terms of story, this is a bit more simpler than Teal Mask as the main “story” is just trying to be the very best, knock down Kieran to become Champion, and then go to Area Zero. There wasn’t as much lore like Kitakami; this is why Teal Mask has better story, but the story in Indigo Disk isn’t bad. If I were to describe the story, it’s mainly trying to rekindle the lost friendship with Kieran who has changed for the worst after the events of TM. Returning to Area Zero was pretty cool, but it sucks that Terapagos wasn’t too important to the story like how Ogerpon was; it was mainly plot device and something to fight and to show off the Stellar Tera Type.

Even if ID’s story was simple, the characters made up for it. The characters were all so good. The BB League Elite Four were so great and unique. Crispin is hilarious with the way he had 6 Magmortars in his trial; Lacey is adorable; Amarys is also adorable; Drayton is a toothpaste-haired bozo. All of their personalities are unique and stand out so much. Carmine and Kieran changed a lot too. Carmine is a bit calmer and less arrogant than she was in the beginning of TM. The events of the previous DLC has gotten Kieran to change from shy and reserved to obsessive and cold. Getting him back to the way he was is the main focus of the DLC as his desire to get stronger intoxicates him; no, the theory of him being possessed is untrue. Fortunately, he does become your friend again after the events of Area Zero—Area Zero is a place that solidifies friendships, let that be known. My only real disappointment was Briar. While she isn’t a true villain, she was mainly the cause of problems in the Area Zero section; she doesn’t have a battle or even a Pokemon with her. That’s a bit unfortunate and big wasted potential for someone who is supposed to be Heath’s descendant. I did like that the mysterious drawing of the circular Pokemon did get answered in this DLC via Stellar Form Terapagos.

There’s a lot to do post-game from inviting special coaches from Paldea to get rematches and special gifts and Pokemon trades to completing the club requests to finding Legendaries to fighting a secret boss (I haven’t encountered this secret boss yet). Compared to the previous DLC, there’s a lot to do and that makes me happy. I even completed the Pokedex and that’s only one thing I crossed off of my list.

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I do recommend playing TM first before you head into ID because of continuity. I wrote this review so that I can get it out of the way and then start on the epilogue which will be released on January 11. I’m also working on something related to the Indigo Disk DLC that’s an ambitious project of mine. What are your thoughts on the Indigo Disk DLC as a whole?

My team for the story part of the DLC is:

-Quaquaval

-Fezandipiti

-Ogerpon

-Metagross

-Ursaluna

-Meloetta

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Mac not formatted to display external drives on the desktop. It could be that your Mac already recognizes the device, but just isn’t showing its icon on the desktop screen. Even if that is the case, the drive will still appear in the left-hand column of the Finder menu under Locations. You should be able to access your drive that way, and, in the Finder menu under Preferences > General, you can check External Drives to ensure that from now on it shows up on your desktop too.

Reset NVRAM. To do this, shut down or restart your Mac, switch it back on and immediately press these four keys together for at least 20 seconds: Option, Command, P, and R. It should look as though your Mac has started again; if it has, release the keys when you hear the second startup chime. Hopefully, the hard drive has shown up now.

Check Apple’s Disk Utility to see if an external drive is showing up. Disk Utility is within System Preferences, or you can find it using Spotlight. If it is visible, then click the option to Mount, which should make it visible on the desktop and in the External Drives option in the Finder menu.

Unfortunately, if none of those options has worked and you continue having the external hard drive not showing up problem, then it could have crashed, or be well and truly broken. But there might still be a way you can recover the data on the external drive.

How to fix new hard drive not showing up in Finder

When you connect a drive to Mac, it should appear in Finder under Locations. What to do if external hard drive is not detected? In most cases, when Finder doesn’t see your drive, you just have to change a few things in Preferences. However, sometimes, there are more serious problems such as insufficient power supply. Let’s see how you can fix these things.

How to show connected devices in Finder

Go to the Finder menu > Preferences

In General, click on External disks to ensure that from now on it shows on the desktop.

In the Sidebar tab, you can choose which folders and devices will be shown in the left-hand column of the Finder window.

How to add cloud storages to Finder

You can also mount cloud storage as a local drive on your Mac. By connecting Google Drive, Dropbox, or Amazon to your computer, you get more space for securely accessing and sharing files. For your ease, add cloud drives to Finder with CloudMounter so that you keep them close at hand. You can read detailed instructions on managing cloud storage as local drives here.

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The most direct reason your external hard drive could be detected by macOS but can't be opened is the file system problem. If your drive is having such problems, you can try to fix them yourself with First Aid and therefore get access to your files.

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To run Fist Aid on an external hard drive:

Open Disk Utility. You can search for it using Spotlight or via Finder > Go > Utilities

Check on your external hard drive, click the First Aid tab and select Run to start running diagnostics.

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If First Aid has been successful in fixing errors, the external drive should be available to mount. If the utility hasn’t repaired issues, your drive truly is broken or formatted using a file system that the Mac cannot read — in this way you have to recover data from a damaged disk drive.

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Partitions can get lost within hard drives, temporarily hiding all of the information contained within. Disk Drill can help to identify and restore this information.

Within Disk Drill, you can restore data when a hard drive is damaged or add formatting, which is also something Disk Utility can help with.

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Reset the System Management Controller (SMC) if your Mac shuts down when you plug in an external hard drive. Then use a different port to connect the external hard drive. If you’ve got a battery that you can’t remove:

Shut down and unplug the power adapter

Press and hold Shift-Control-Option and the power button for 10 seconds

Release all keys

Plug the power adapter back in and switch your Mac back on.

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External hard disk detected but not opening? One reason your Mac isn’t recognizing the hard drive is the file format. Windows uses NTFS file formats, while Macs, up until the introduction of Sierra, have used HFS+. Now, Apple has introduced the Apple File System (APFS) for newer operating systems.

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Install FUSE for macOS or MacFUSE as well as a fuse-ext2 module.

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And that’s not the only case where Terminal helps you access external drive. Employ the handy all-powerful Terminal, which always comes forward with solutions for difficult problems. Especially if System Information does recognize the USB or hard drive, but continues to hide it from you, disconnect the drive and try to find it using the Terminal, which you can find in Applications > Utilities.

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Once in the Terminal, type in the command diskutil list

A list with information about volumes and drives should appear

Look for a section labelled /dev/disk_ (external, physical)

Make a note of the whole line after the word disk

Now put the following command into the Terminal diskutil info disk followed by the number or digits assigned to that disk

Now you should see detailed information about the drive, therefore confirming that your Mac can and does recognize it

Eject using the Terminal by entering the command diskutil eject disk followed by the number or digits assigned to that disk

Physically remove the disk from your Mac

Plug it back in and your Mac should recognize it.

Console is also reliable when it comes to solving tricky problems, although it isn’t always that easy to use. You can find Console under Applications > Utilities > Console or via Spotlight. Console shows if an external drive or any error is detected under the Errors and Faults tab. If no errors show up, then the problem is not caused by the device.

How to fix insufficient power supply

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Conclusion

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dreaminginthedeepsouth · 2 years

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“Gilda got married and went away. None of us saw her anymore. There was one good thing: Laraine had a party one night, a great party at her house. And I ended up being the disk jockey. She just had forty-fives, and not that many, so you really had to work the music end of it. There was a collection of like the funniest people in the world at this party. Somehow Sam Kinison sticks in my brain. The whole Monty Python group was there, most of us from the show, a lot of other funny people, and Gilda. Gilda showed up and she’d already had cancer and gone into remission and then had it again, I guess. Anyway she was slim. We hadn’t seen her in a long time. And she started doing, “I’ve got to go,” and she was just going to leave, and I was like, “Going to leave?” It felt like she was going to really leave forever.

So we started carrying her around, in a way that we could only do with her. We carried her up and down the stairs, around the house, repeatedly, for a long time, until I was exhausted. Then Danny did it for a while. Then I did it again. We just kept carrying her; we did it in teams. We kept carrying her around, but like upside down, every which way—over your shoulder and under your arm, carrying her like luggage. And that went on for more than an hour—maybe an hour and a half—just carrying her around and saying, “She’s leaving! This could be it! Now come on, this could be the last time we see her. Gilda’s leaving, and remember that she was very sick—hello?”

We worked all aspects of it, but it started with just, “She’s leaving, I don’t know if you’ve said good-bye to her.” And we said good-bye to the same people ten, twenty times, you know.

And because these people were really funny, every person we’d drag her up to would just do like five minutes on her, with Gilda upside down in this sort of tortured position, which she absolutely loved. She was laughing so hard we could have lost her right then and there.

It was just one of the best parties I’ve ever been to in my life. I’ll always remember it. It was the last time I saw her.”

- Bill Murray

Bat Country

[Thanks Rich Brodsky]

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can i request an angsty sbi fic where sibling reader lost two lives saving others (maybe tubbo at the festival?) and they see everything falling apart (techno and phil destroying everything, wilbur dead and tommy focused on the disks) and they pretend to be ok while their mental health gets worse and worse until they decide to end it, and people only realise they weren't okay after the death message pops up and their reactions to seeing it? if not thats completely fine, ik its pretty heavy

Broken

Pairings: none

Characters included: Wilbur, Tommy, Philza, Tubbo, Technoblade

Warnings: depression, suicide (falling, non descriptive), angst

Series: a request!

Summary: Y/N just wanted their home back. They just wanted to live a peaceful life but instead all their hopes and dreams got ripped apart by the people they loved the most.

Words count: 3647

Authors Note: Honestly I could have shortened it quite a bit but here we are, it’s way longer than I wanted but I hope you guys enjoy this. I’m sorry if this went kind off of rails to what you might have envisioned. Also I hope that you guys know that you are loved and appreciated. I appreciate you for taking the time to read my stuff :] Here is m favorite video to cheer me up some times, hope it can cheer you up as well!

I’m also curious what your guys thoughts and opinion are on this or my writing in general! Can’t get better without feedback :]

Y/N loved their family.

They were all pretty chaotic but so was Y/N, following their siblings into trouble ignoring any possible consequences.

So when Wilbur proclaimed he would create an independent Nation inside the SMP that was owned by Dream himself, you bet that Y/N was standing right beside him.

When Wilbur would struggle with his tasks or was weighed down by doubts they would swoop right in and do their best to support him. Every time Wilbur would say “I don’t know what I would do without you sometimes.” While Y/N didn’t do it for praise but out of love for him it was still nice knowing that he appreciated them and that he took note of their work.

Tommy wasn’t really for heartfelt words but he too expressed in his own way how much he appreciated them being around. Most of his schemes wouldn’t have even happened without Y/N’s help after all. As a way to say thanks he would let them just take stuff fout his chets or when he heard they needed a specific resource he would wander out and get it for them. Of course saying something on the lines of “I was out there anyhow, so I brought some with me. It was on the way.” Y/N could read between the lines though. They grew up with him after all.

Y/N put so much energy into L’Manberg they couldn’t help but be in love with this little nation. They would do everything to protect their home.

When Y/N lost their first life it was together with their siblings protecting their nephew Fundy.

The Dream Team suddenly retreated after another battle against L’Manberg. While the group was celebrating what they thought was their first victory in ages, Eret appeared. She told the group of a small bunker with more resources.

Still celebrating Wilbur, Y/N, Tommy, Tubbo and Fundy made their way towards the bunker. The bunker that would later go down into history as “The Final Control Room.”

Inside they all looked at the labeled chests only to notice that they were empty. Eret then pressed a button which opened up secret walls with the Dream Team standing behind. She herself got into safety as Dream and his friends merciless attacked the L’Manberg faction.

As soon as Y/N understood what was happening they did their best to form a wall between the attackers and Fundy. Slowly pushing him out of the room while they made sure to block the exit, giving the Fox Hybrid enough time to run away.

When they woke up again it was inside their home. In L’Manberg. Sore from the respawning.

Once they did respawn though it didn’t take long for Fundy to barge into their room and throw himself against them, thanking them. Wilbur was close by, looking worse for wear as well but incredible thankful nonetheless.

After that and a few battles more Tommy challenged Dream to a duel in order to secure independence. He lost so instead he bartered his music discs for freedom.

After Tommy respawned a second time Y/N made sure to spent most of their time hovering around him. Making sure he was doing alright.

But with that L’Manberg was independent and it was Y/N’s time to shine. Sure, they worked hard on strengthening the infrastructure of the nation but now, maybe even because of that, they basically coordinated all the new builds.

Shops, homes and other things were being build with them overseeing it. Meanwhile Wilbur and Tommy took care of the political part only to come to the conclusion that they had to have a proper election.

At first it started innocently enough as well. New political parties were made that begun advertising themselves. Funny enough they would always come to Y/N asking them where they could hang up their posters. It was then that Y/N realized that the people saw them as some sort of authority, even asking them if they wanted to start their own campaign. They politely declined, saying they worked best as a support role.

Then Schlatt entered the stage and everything got thrown upside down.

In the end he managed to become the next president via a coalition and his first declaration as the president, or emperor as he called himself, was to exile Tommy and Wilbur.

As they ran for their life Y/N didn’t hesitate to follow. It hurt them so much to leave L’Manberg, their fruit and labor, behind. This only got worse once they realized that Tubbo was basically left alone back at the city under Schlatt’s rule.

Then Pogtopia got established.

Tommy, Wilbur and Y/N did their best to get a proper foothold again. Gathering resources and planning for ways to get their home back. And to accomplish this they soon called in the oldest sibling of the group, Technoblade.

Techno has been away for the longest time now. He moved out early to travel the world and apparently train himself. Somehow Tommy found a way to get a message to him, so he made his way towards Pogtopia.

He wasn’t big on words or emotions but as soon as he arrived he let Y/N hug him.

“This is a onetime deal, Y/N.”

With Techno they finally felt like they had a chance. Y/N could maybe return home someday. Back when they were children Techno always looked out for them so to have him back Y/N felt infinitely safer.

All the while Wilbur showed more and more signs that his mental health was rapidly declining. Y/N did their best trying to cheer him up but there was only so much they could do. Especially since they themself were struggling.

L’Manberg was their everything and now it was under the iron rule of Schlatt. They had to watch as Schlatt walked through the nation, ripping apart builds that they commissioned or even built themself. Every time he did something like that it felt like another stab wound directly into their heart.

Then the festival happened where Y/N lost their second life protecting Tubbo.

Schlatt wanted to apparently celebrate democracy and his amazing rule. Tommy and Wilbur weren’t allowed to join while Techno and Y/N received an invitation.

Y/N was very wary of that. They learned from Tubbo that Schlatt apparently was pretty interested in bringing them over to Manberg since a lot of the residents trusted them and saw them more as an authority than Schlatt himself, so bringing them over would probably also bring a lot of the residents around to his rule.

On the day of the festival Y/N made sure to stay close to Techno. Holding on to his arm and basically hiding behind him, not feeling up to talk with all the people in Manberg.

The people were happy to see them but Y/N was tired. They haven’t slept properly ever since the exile, too many thoughts that kept them awake.

Then the speeches started.

Honestly Y/N wasn’t really listening, their attention purely on a broken old building. It used to be the place where Y/N and the other residents would meet up and map out their plans for new builds. Discussing and even sometimes arguing on what materials should be used and where to get them. Now it was empty.

Their attention got pulled back towards what was actually happening once Tubbo begun speaking. It was a nice little speech Y/N had to admit.

Just as Tubbo was about to leave, Schlatt moved back in. Holding him in place and pushing him in something that Y/N had to describe as a cage with the help of Quackity.

“Techno, buddy. Come up here for a sec.”

Technoblade tensed up but still moved towards the stage. There Schlatt uttered the words that pulled the rug out from beneath Y/N once again.

“Kill him Techno. He is a traitor.”

“Don’t you dare!” Y/N yelled out, making their way towards the stage as well.

Y/N knew Techno couldn’t deal well with social pressure, especially when there were about ten people or more behind him that could attack him at any point.

Tubbo looked so scared as he pressed himself against the wall. There was no escape for him.

When Techno moved his crossbow up, aiming directly at Tubbo, Y/N let out another scream. Urging him to stop.

Explosions. Colorful explosions filled the place.

“Y/N!” it was Tubbo screaming their name out.

Just as Techno pressed the trigger Y/N managed to jump in front, the rockets hitting them instead of Tubbo.

Their older brother looked absolutely mortified “Y/N? Wha- What? Why? How?” staring at Y/N’s lifeless body that slowly dissolved. They were slowly respawning but seeing his siblings body was enough to send him in some sort of frenzy.

Filled with bloodlust he aimed his crossbow towards Schlatt and Quackity. Killing them with one press of the trigger only to turn around and aim his crossbow towards the people.

As this happened Tommy enderpearled over, screaming at Techno.

He helped Tubbo out of the cage who was still in a state of shock. He only saw Y/N for a second and the next they were laying on the ground in their own blood.

Y/N heard the details later after they respawned. Tommy had apparently been incredibly angry at Techno, even attacking him. Wilbur then offered that the two deal with their argument via a fistfight inside a pit.

Normally Y/N would have yelled at Wilbur for that. Would have told him that this was his dumbest idea yet but they were too shook from what had happened to them.

Technoblade always spelled safety to them but he killed them. Sure, he meant to kill Tubbo but that didn’t really make it any better. They gave him an out, they would have helped fighting off all these people so they could flee.

The next time they saw Techno they flinched every time he got too close to them and yet they still put on a smile “Never, do this again.”

Techno only nodded.

After this downward slope the momentum didn’t seem to stop for them. Wilbur dropped even more and more off. Falling victim to his paranoia. Y/N tried their best convincing him to not blow up Manberg, that they will fight to gain it back. At this point trying to gain back their L’Manberg was the only thing they could hold on to.

Though all that work was for nothing.

The war to take back L’Manberg went way differently than they all had imagined. Y/N fought with a viciousness most didn’t think they had it in them. This was the day for them to finally regain what they had wished for, for the longest time now.

Everything came to a halt once Dream surrendered. He showed them Schlatt who was sitting in the Carmavan. Drunk off his mind he yelled and screamed at people only to die of a heart attack which meant that the Pogtopia faction won.

The people begun cheering, they had their home back! They were free! Y/N was probably the loudest by far. It felt like a huge weight was lifted from their shoulders. All this hardship and they could finally return to working with the others and rebuild L’Manberg. Return it to its former glory.

Tubbo got appointed President and Y/N was happy with it. Tubbo had an eye for building and was a good person, with him they were sure they could do some amazing things.

Apparently Techno thought otherwise. Instead he pulled Soulsand out, holding onto the Wither skulls as a visible threat.

Y/N had somewhat forgiven Techno for what had happened. It was a stressful situation and they acknowledged it but seeing him there, threatening to kill all of them? That they knew they couldn’t forgive quite so easy. Especially since he made some sound points but it was their L’Manberg. The people didn’t like living under Schlatt’s rule, this wasn’t something that could be described simply as a coup. Technically he was right but only technically. There were so many things that came into play that could let you argue over that but Techno would have none of it. Yelling something about Tommy only wanting to be a hero.

When the first explosions rang Y/N thought it came from a Wither but Techno was still in the middle of putting the heads onto the structure.

When more explosions rang and the ground beneath their feet broke away, Y/N understood what had happened.

At some point Wilbur ran off and must have pressed the button. The button that set the TNT beneath the city ablaze, effectively destroying everything.

Y/N was too busy with finding hard ground again and then dealing with the Withers and Techno that they only noticed after the fighting ended, how broken the nation was now.

They had won. Why would Wilbur do this? He knew how much the nation meant to them and again, they had won, so there was no reason for blowing the place up!

And if that wasn’t enough to see how both their older brothers destroyed everything Y/N worked for, they also had to see how Philza, their father, stood next to the corpse of Wilbur. It felt like they lost everything.

They lost their trust in Technoblade.

They lost their hopes and dreams via Wilbur blowing up the freshly liberated L’Manberg.

They lost their trust in their own father who had slain his own son.

Y/N felt absolutely crushed. Family was so important to them and it was their own family that destroyed their hopes and dreams. They did everything for them and this is how they repaid them?

Once everything calmed down and Tubbo begun making plans on how to rebuild the nation, he immediately came to Y/N for help but they hesitated which worried him.

“Is everything okay? Usually you would have jumped on that offer, Y/N.”

Y/N put on a smile that didn’t seem to reach their eyes “Don’t worry Tubbo, of course I’ll help you. I’m just tired from what we have been through. I finally have time to take a breather and I think it all just crashed down on me.”

“Well if you ever need help you can talk to me.” It was an earnest offer that Y/N would never take advantage of.

Y/N mostly ignored Philza. He talked with them a few times and even explained what has happened but Y/N still made a wide berth around him. Seeing him just hammered back down the feeling of distrust and hurt. Their familial relationship took a hard hit from that point on.

With Ghostbur it was a weird situation as well. They enjoyed spending time with him but were also always incredibly sad around him. Ghostbur took notice of this and would always offer them to take some of his blue but Y/N declined every time.

“Don’t worry Ghostbur. Everything is still just fresh in my mind. I’ll be back to my old self in no time. You take care of yourself, you hear?”

“Of course Y/N! You have always looked out for me, thank you.”

L’Manberg slowly took on a proper form again but it wasn’t the L’Manberg Y/N knew. It felt to them like they were standing on top of a grave. A grave for their dreams and it was getting hard, real hard, to walk through it every day seeing places where they know specific buildings should be standing. Buildings they build on their own only to be destroyed by their brothers doing.

Then Tubbo exiled Tommy and Y/N felt conflicted. They felt obligated to stay in L’Manberg since they were the main person people came to for builds but that was their brother. Their only brother they still trusted and felt a need to protect.

Instead of following him into exile they stayed in the city. Visiting Tommy whenever they could, noticing pretty fast that he was struggling hard with his situation and for once they didn’t feel strong enough to properly support him. Y/N tried their best but once they noticed they couldn’t reach him completely they gave up a tiny bit.

It reminded them too much of Wilbur.

So while they visited him and helped them where they could, they spent more and more time alone in their home only coming out for work and other necessary things like food. Soon it was normal to see them with ever present dark circles beneath their eyes.

Before Philza disappeared to join Techno, he would stop by Y/N’s home all the time.

“Have you eaten, yet?”

“Yes, dad. I’m an adult. I can take care of myself.”

“I just haven’t seen you much lately and I got worried.”

“Don’t worry. I’m fine. Hey, if you go out, please, can you tell Ghostbur to stop coming around to throw Blue inside my mailbox? He won’t listen to me but perhaps he will to you.” And they would always carry the same big smile on their face accompanied by empty eyes.

The only time their happiness reached their eyes again was when Tommy returned from his exile. They crashed into their younger sibling holding him close to them and muttering apologies. He pried them off, embarrassed by all of this.

This short bout of happiness was destroyed by Doomsday. Dream, Technoblade and Philza once again made sure to set L’Manberg ablaze.

The second time Y/N’s fruits and labor got completely annihilated by their family but still they had some hopes this time. They still had Tommy on their side they could just finally build a home somewhere else and live in peace but Tommy had other ideas. He had it in his mind to get his discs back and he would do anything for it.

So while Y/N tried to ground themself with new hopes and ideas, holding onto the only constant of what was important to them, that being Tommy, Tommy ignored them. He was too busy with his own things and the worst part was that Y/N couldn’t even fault him for it.

They understood how much these discs meant to him and that this was something that had to come to an end but with this they lost another, and possibly their last, anchor point.

Yet you could still see them running around with a smile, tending to every one and trying to help out the best they could.

Then suddenly they were gone. They just disappeared one day. The few people who took note of that took some time to look around but there was no sign as to where they left. Y/N didn’t take their armor with them nor any weapons or food.

< Y/N succumbed to despair and fell of a high place>

When every ones communicators rung out with this message the SMP fell quiet.

Tommy couldn’t believe what he was reading. This didn’t make any sense. Y/N was fine! They would talk with them and everything looked fine! This must have been a cruel joke from Dream somehow, right? This couldn’t be real. Why would Dream do this? This didn’t seem to make sense.

Exactly there was no sense in Dream doing this.

While Tommy was battling with his thoughts Tubbo came running over to him. Tears streamed down his face.

“What happened? Why did this happen? Where are they?”

Tommy was visibly shaking “I- I have no idea. I don’t know. They looked fine. I’m- I’m not sure. Tubbo-“

Tubbo just slammed into him, giving him a proper hug, trying his best to help Tommy through his rising panic. He lost another sibling and by Ender that hurt.

Meanwhile in the snowy Tundra both Philza and Techno were staring at their communicators as well.

Philza was pale. So pale it almost rivaled the snow around him.

Techno had his brows furrowed. For anyone who didn’t know him well enough he looked at best displeased with this situation but Philza could see the small details that told a different story. Him sucking his breath in as he read the message, hiding his quivering lip in his cloak. He was heartbroken.

Sure the two weren’t on good speaking terms but Y/N was still his younger sibling. He still loved them.

Philza felt similar. He acknowledged that he screwed up and honored their wish to be left alone by him but he never imagined this could lead to their death. His knees buckled and he sank to the ground. Two of his children died, one directly by his hand and the other due to his inaction.

His eyes glossed over, the world became a blur and yet he continued rereading this message over and over. Y/N just lost their last life.

Philza could hear Techno walk closer to him and sat down on the ground as well.

“Y/N is-“ Philza begun but he didn’t know what he wanted to say. State the obvious to his eldest son?

“I have more fault in this than you, dad. Don’t feel guilty.” His voice was uncharacteristically weak. Wavering as he spoke. He wanted to cheer Philza up but it was a weak attempt.

“What have we done.”

Ghostbur was at first confused when he read the message. It was like he couldn’t connect the dots but it slowly dawned on him what this meant.

“Oh my.” His usual happy demeanor was suddenly gone.

He touched his face and as he put his hands back down he saw how they were smeared with blue.

“Y/N is dead?”

His usual ghost behavior seemed to break a bit. It was like through the warped version of Wilbur that was called Ghostbur for a moment the true version of him came through again. And he was hurt. Devastated.

“I think I need to find the others.” He mumbled to himself, making his way towards his family. All the while he held onto the blue wool of Friend like a lifeline. Combing through it nervously. Blue continuing to spill from his eyes.

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Just What I Needed - Chapter 1

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Deleted Scenes: #1

Bell reflects on the few memories she has.

Author's note:

2/6/24 Reviewed, updated, and edited this chapter

This started as a comic. I wanted to see Bell and the Safehouse Crew interacting outside of the missions. Then it grew into a larger story and became too big of an investment as a comic. But the story is stuck in my head now and I have to let it out. So I'm just going to write it.

This first Chapter is a retread of the comic, but there is new stuff extra characterizations etc. Next chapter will be mostly new.

I know some of you were on my taglist for the comic, but since I've changed it to a fic just lmk if you'd like to be tagged still. No hard feelings if not. (I do plan on having illustrations in the future chapters as well)

Chapter 1

March 1, 1981

The paper in her hands, once filled with numbers and cryptic symbols, was quickly becoming a watery swirl of red and blue. Bell blinked a few times to clear and refocus her eyes. She looked down again and the page had returned to normal. How long had she been staring at this thing? Just a moment ago she had risen from the worktable to pin it back up on the evidence board and move on to something else. But as she stood she felt compelled to look at it again, feeling the spark of inspiration. But as soon as she tried to zero in on the thought and make sense of the jumble of letters and numbers, when the solution nearly seemed to lift off the paper, it would almost immediately slip from her mind. And this time was no different. So she stared at the paper in vain again, combing the depths of her mind for that lost something. And her head was pounding, which was not doing her any good. It was like her own brain was fighting against her solving this puzzle. She rubbed at her temples and considered taking out her ponytail. Deluding herself into thinking that maybe that was the cause of the pain and not the fact that she worked almost around the clock.

Of course this would happen when she was needed most.

Just behind her, Sims dropped a cardboard box onto the work table.

“Any luck with that disk decryption?” Sims asked. She looked over her shoulder at him. He had begun sorting through the box which looked to be filled with electronic junk. A cigarette dangled from his lips. She wondered if he cared about ash getting into the box.

“No,” Bell admitted, “I feel like I’m missing something.” Frustrated with herself she rubbed her forehead again and looked up at the evidence board hoping that maybe this time it would reveal it’s secrets. Instead a bright light flashed across her face. The sunlight beaming through the skylight above hit a metal object pinned to the board. She plucked the offending object off it’s peg and turned it over in her hand. It looked like a keyring with a deranged apron-clad figurine attached.

“What is that?” Bell muttered to herself, perplexed as to why anyone would want to carry around such a manic looking thing. Though it did seem strangely familiar to her.

“Find something?” Sims asked as he walked around the table to join her at the evidence board.

“Uh-” Bell paused. She hadn’t intended to pose the question to him and she felt a little silly showing him the keychain since it wasn’t related to her work, but she was still curious about it.

“No, but what is this?” Sims took a drag and looked it over.

“Looks like a keychain, Bell.” Bell looked at him pointedly and sighed, “I know-”

“I’m kidding you. Woods picked that up on your last mission.” He chuckled, “And he says Adler’s sentimental.” Bell looked back at the odd figure in her hand and scrunched up her nose.

“Why would he be feeling sentimental about this weird child?”

“You know, we all find ways to deal with the things we’ve seen- the things we’ve done,” Sims said, “And Woods has definitely been through it.” Then he shrugged before adding, “You should ask him- about the keychain, I mean.”

“Yeah.”

Bell glanced down at the keychain again. She thought about putting it back on the evidence board, but instead she closed her hand around it. Sims studied her face. She must have looked as exhausted as she felt because he then said, “Why don’t you take a break? Get some coffee and try tackling it again in a few.”

“Yeah, but-” Bell protested and looked over her shoulder at Adler. He was in his office. His expression very grave. Sims followed her gaze.

“Even he doesn’t work 24/7. Shocking, I know.”

Sims nudged her side encouragingly before going back to his work. Bell pinned the paper on the evidence board, but held on to the keychain.

Why? Because it was Woods’?

She shook the thought from her head as she went to the kitchenette. The coffee pot was empty, as it often was. Just about everyone on the team drank coffee, or tea, round the clock. They had terrorists to hunt, and sleep could wait.

Bell began brewing a fresh pot and leaned against the counter to wait, surveying the Safehouse.

Her eyes landed on Park who sat at a desk nearby listening to recordings- of what Bell was unsure. One hand pressed a headphone speaker to her ear. In her other hand she held a cigarette and a pen, this was poised over an open folder. Occasionally her hand would drop down to jot a note or two in the folder as she listened. Sometimes she would bring her hand to her face to take a drag from the cigarette.

That’s how it was here. A constant chain of cigarettes and cups of caffeine. Not the healthiest lifestyle, but did any of them expect to live long?

Sims was still sorting and cataloging boxes. She could see now that they looked like old radio parts. He had removed his blue MACV-SOG windbreaker and tossed it over a chair. The beaded bracelets on his wrists clacked together as he moved around. And he was humming to himself, though she couldn’t make out the tune.

She couldn’t see Woods, Mason, or Lazar from where she stood, but she could hear them talking in low voices. Or at least as low as any of them talked in casual conversation. Shooting the shit as Woods and Mason were getting ready for their next mission. They were headed straight into Russia. Mount Yamantau. But to hear them talk it was as if it was nothing to them. She knew deep down that they took the job seriously and they maybe the both learned some time ago that a little levity went a long way in this line of work. It would be foolish to mistake their jovial attitudes for a lack of care or professionalism.

Directly across the room from her she could that Adler was still in his office. The door was closed, but the shades were up. He was on the phone, chain-smoking, pacing and generally looking pissed off. His desperation to catch the man who eluded him for so many years was coming to a head.

The coffee pot gurgled loudly through it’s process drawing Bell’s attention to it. Her friend was working his ass off and here she was, taking a break. Letting him down because she couldn’t cut it. She couldn’t figure out some critical puzzle piece. In fact, everyone in this room was waiting on her. The fate of the mission was on her shoulders, and what was she doing? Getting coffee?

She recalled the way Adler had been in Vietnam. Even when things had gotten rough there he was always encouraging. Making the best of things. This was different. He was different.

The faster they caught Perseus, the better it would be.

She’d have her friend again.

Bell shoved her hands in her pockets and debated on whether just to go back to work. She looked down at her boots and kicked the cement floor. Feeling, somewhat unreasonably, disgusted with herself. She heard someone walked up to the coffee pot. The familiar deep gravely voice dragged her from her thoughts.

“Hey, coffee,” Woods said, “Thanks, Bell.”

He reached into the cabinet just next to her and grabbed three mismatched mugs, turning them over and lining them up next to the pot. Woods poured the fresh coffee into the mugs and handed her one.

“You take it black, right?” He asked.

“Yeah,” She said, a little surprised, “Thanks.”

No one really thanked anyone for doing something as mundane as making coffee around here. It was so automatic. She looked at the other two mugs, one for Woods of course, and the other probably for Mason. It was then that she remembered the keychain.

“Hey, Woods?”

She looped the keychain around her middle finger and let it drop so the little figure dangled in the air just below her hand before asking, “What is this?”

“It’s a keych-”

“I know it’s a keychain," Bell said, "But what is it supposed to be? This weird little man-”

“Bubby.”

He narrowed his eyes at her as he took a sip of his coffee.

“Do you seriously not know who Bubby is?”

“Well, I saw the bigger version. The talking one at that restaurant-”

“Burger Town,” Woods said as he gave her a curious look. He tilted his head and moved his arms in a gesture of disbelief.

“Bell, do you not know what Burger Town is?”

By this time Park walked over and was filling the electric kettle with water at the sink.

“Not everyone shares your undying love for American fast food, Woods,” Park said over her shoulder.

Woods tipped his mug at her, “I’m sure you’d never be caught dead inside a Burger Town, Park.”

“Got that right,” She replied as she placed the kettle in its base and turned it on. The kettle clicked and hissed as it heated the water. She then walked back to her desk to jot a few more notes down in her notebook.

“Bell,” Woods said drawing her attention away from the kettle. He had a serious look on his face set down his coffee mug and took a stride towards her. To her surprise he took her wrist in his hand. Shaking his head in disappointment he slipped the keychain off her finger.

“I don’t think I can trust you with this. I’m putting it back.” Woods then looped a finger through the handles of both of mugs and picked them up as well. Bell watched him go. It was only when he had disappeared around the corner did she realize that she was holding her hand, the hand he had just touched, to her chest. She quickly dropped it to her side.

Someone cleared their throat. For such a large man Adler had managed to walk up to her without making much noise. He looked down at her over his sunglasses. His expression was smooth. Everything about him was smooth. She had the distinct impression of a giant cat crouched down, ready to pounce on some unsuspecting animal. Have you ever been attacked by a tiger, Bell?

“Now that you’re done goofing off with Woods, can you get back to work, Bell?” It wasn’t a question. His was voice measured, but his eyes narrowed. Unconsciously, she took a step back. She felt the strange urge to throw her hot coffee in his face. To run. Alarm bells were ringing in her head and somewhere deep down there was another voice telling her-

In a low voice, Adler said, “We have a job to do.” She felt a cold rush hit her. Her body relaxed while her mind snapped to focus. The feeling of anxiety washed away. In front of her stood her old friend. His expression was soft, not angry. He just wanted to find Perseus.

Of course. Bell couldn’t believe for a moment she had thought there was anything sinister about him.

How ridiculous. “Of course, Adler,” She said and picked up her coffee before heading back to work.

Don’t worry, Adler. I’ll figure this out. I know you’re counting on me. Then everything will be like it was.

It was nighttime when Bell left the Safehouse. Pulling her sweater on she stepped out onto the porch and looked out into the dark field the team used for a parking lot. It wasn’t too cold out, even for early March, but Bell wrapped her sweater tightly around her all the same. She found it was constantly falling off her shoulders and she had to wonder why she had bought something so ill-fitting.

But she couldn’t actually remember buying it. Or where she even got it.

As soon as she started thinking about it in any detail the dull ache in her head returned. A clear sign to her that she was just overworked. Of course she had bought it. She just couldn’t recall where at the moment. There were more pressing matters at hand.

Maybe after this mission she would take it easy for a while. Use some vacation time and catch up on sleep.

A soft breeze blew across the lot. The cool air helped to soothe her.

At least she had finally managed to crack the code on the paper tonight. However, she still wasn’t sure how it connected to the rest of the evidence. It felt like even with her best efforts she was only inching forward. And it was only more frustrating when she realized she couldn’t recall the last time she ate. The last time she drank anything that wasn’t coffee. Bell knew she wasn’t taking care of herself the way she should be.

Working on very little sleep, going home, and almost passing out on her bed still fully clothed, smoking the stress away- she wasn’t sure how long she could manage it. But whatever Perseus whatever he was plotting, they needed to get ahead of it, or things were going to get bad. Her health could wait.

Bell lit a cigarette and stepped out into the parking lot. Leaning on Adler’s car, she smoked and enjoyed the peaceful darkness of the night.

The pain in her head was subsiding, though she knew it was only temporary. She needed to eat. Bell placed her cigarette between her lips, freeing her hands. She yanked on her hair tie and pulled out her ponytail. Running her fingers through her hair she shook it out and rubbed at the pressure points along her skull.

“Ugh, my head. Stupid ponytail,” She groaned.

The sound of a lighter clicking drew her attention. She peered into the darkness ahead and saw Woods astride a motorcycle. He was lighting a cigarette and his face was briefly illuminated by the small flame.

“Oh, I didn’t see you there,” Bell said.

“Yeah,” Woods said and shrugged, “You looked like you needed a minute to yourself. Didn’t want to bug you.

Then he added. “You get enough from Adler anyway.”

She opened her mouth to say something in Adler’s defense, but stopped. Instead she walked over to Woods, curious about the motorcycle. She hadn’t seen it in the parking lot before. But then again Woods had been in Kiev up until yesterday.

“Cool motorcycle.”

“Thanks,” He said flashing her a grin, “I’m borrowing it from a friend.”

A moment of silence settled over them. Bell would have liked to talk to him, but she didn’t really have anything to say beyond their work. And she wasn’t interested in talking about that.

Woods was looking out at the road just ahead. He seemed like he was thinking something over and he took a long drag from his cigarette.

“So, Bell,” He started, “I can’t quite let go of the fact that you’ve never had Burger Town before.”

It definitely was not what she would have expected him to say.

“You-“ She paused before repeating him, “can’t let that go?”

He looked her over like he was assessing her. Sizing her up. Like he didn’t know what to make of her.

“No,” He finally said, “Doesn’t sit right with me. Everyone needs to understand the joys of greasy fast food.”

A wide grin spread across his face. Bell wasn’t sure if he was serious.

“Sounds appealing,” She said with a flat voice. With the way she felt, junk food wouldn’t have been her first choice.

“Look, it’s a nice night, and I was going for a ride anyway,” Woods said as he gestured ahead.

“Do you want to come?” He asked.

Bell considered it. She hadn’t been looking forward to going home and making dinner. Not with the way she was feeling. This would be easy and a nice change of pace.

And if she was being honest, spending some time with Woods away from everyone else, sounded pretty good.

At the same time she felt the pull of her work. Something was telling her to head back inside. She had the uncanny feeling that if she did turn around Adler would be in the window watching for her. That disapproving look on his face.

There she was goofing off with Woods again.

Adler’s voice sounded in her head like a radio playing in the back of her mind.

Get back to work, Bell We have terrorists to catch. We’ve got a jo-

She shook his voice from her mind.

“It’s that important to you?”

“I wouldn’t say it’s important.”

“Well, if it’s not important,” Bell said with a shrug.

Woods sighed and picked up his bike helmet holding it out to her. She took it in her hands. Her image, or rather a shadow of her as it was too dark to pick up much detail, reflected in the surface.

It’s how she felt. A shadow of herself. Working herself so hard she was barely even sure she was alive.

“Come on, Bell. Live a little.”

The static in her head had quieted at the sound of his voice. It was like he knew the right words to say. It was a little curious to her why Woods was pushing. No one else seemed concerned or interested about what she did as long as she was working.

Was he really just this passionate about his favorite fast joint? Or maybe this was just his way of getting to know a new teammate. Couldn’t hurt to go especially since they would be continuing to work together.

“Fuck it.” She said softly. Bell took the helmet from him and hopped on the bike.

“All right, hold on,” Woods said.

And before she could do anything, he grabbed her hands and placed them around him.

“I’m not scraping you off the side of the road.”

After some time they pulled into Burger Town. It felt to Bell like Woods may have taken a longer route than necessary. There wasn’t much open road in West Berlin and surely if it was so popular there would be more than one Burger Town location inside the city. So by her judgement they should have reached one sooner. Bell dismounted the bike and handed Woods the helmet.

“Only Burger Town in the city?”

“Wanted a ride, took the scenic route.”

Good enough for her. The ride had been fun so she wasn’t about to complain.

Bell turned towards the brightly lit building. There was a slightly smaller statue of the Burger Town mascot, Bubby, outside to greet customers as they walked in.

She studied his face. His green eyes seemed to follow her wherever she moved. It was as if he would come alive at any moment.

Friend or foe, Bubby?

The one in the Soviet facility had spouted communist propaganda. She wasn’t even sure if this one could talk.

Bell leaned back to look over the entire building. It wasn’t freestanding, but the facade and the interior looked the same.

“Looks so much like the one we saw in the simulation,” Bell said as Woods walked up to join her.

“Yeah, except no Soviet soldiers to contend with.”

Hopefully.

Woods patted one of the outdoor picnic tables.

“You hang out here. I’m gonna go order. Don’t wander off, or Adler’ll kill me.”

Bell rolled her eyes and hopped onto the table. She moved to light a cigarette but realized Woods was still looking at her. It seemed like he was expecting her to confirm that she actually wasn’t going to wander off.

“Where do you think I’m going to go?” She said, laughing a little in disbelief.

Instead of responding, Woods just shook his head and chuckled to himself as he walked towards the restaurant. Bell turned her head and watched him. He tapped the Bubby statue with the flat of his hand before stepping inside.

Bell braced her hand on the table and leaned back looking up into the night’s sky. She didn’t know what to make of Woods. He projected a certain level of toughness, which was expected. His beard and his style of dress seemed to send the message that he was’t someone to mess with.

But at the same time of all the people she had interacted with at the Safehouse, he was the only one who didn’t seem to be holding her at arm’s length. Well, him and Mason. She would have thought, given their reputation, they would be tougher, intimidating.

Hell even mean.

But they had surprised her. Woods especially. Formidable in the field, a good and capable leader, but at the same time able to shamelessly get excited over something as simple as fast food.

Isn’t that healthier? With a job as hard as his, isn’t a little levity necessary?

She blew a puff of smoke into the air and looked up at the stars. A vague memory of a little dog floated up in her mind—a dog in the stars.

A bag landed next to her causing her to start.Bell turned as Woods hopped up on the table next to her.

“You couldn’t just hand it to me like a normal person?” She asked, lazily flicking her cigarette butt away.Woods narrowed his eyes at her, “You’re one to talk about being normal.”

Bell picked up the bag and carefully opened it.

“Hmm,” She peered inside, “It smells good.”

“What did you expect?” Woods was opening his own bag.

“With you? I can’t be sure.”

He chuckled, “Probably a good policy.”

Then he handed handed her a drink cup. The cup was freezing.

“What’s this?” She asked, pulling up her sleeve to wrap it around the cold drink.

“It’s a milkshake-” Woods began.

“Oh, I love these!” Bell interrupted, her eyes lighting up. Woods gave her a surprised look, but she could tell he was pleased by her reaction.

“Can’t remember the last time I bought someone a milkshake,” Woods said with a grin.

“Oh! Did people really do that in the 50s?” Bell asked as she unwrapped a straw and stabbed into the hole in the lid of the milkshake.

“How do you know about that?” Woods asked, giving her a puzzled look, “How do you not know about this Burger Town, but you know that?”

“I saw it in a movie on TV-” Bell started, but this time Woods cut her off.

“Don’t start singing. All those movies had singing in them,” He rolled his eyes, “Besides, I wasn’t a teenager in the 50s.”

Bell drank from her straw and studied him for a moment.

“Old man,” She said finally, grinning around her straw, Woods pointed a french fry at her.

“What was that kid?”

Bell rolled her eyes and looked away from him out into the street.A car drove up and parked right next to Woods’ motorcycle. Pop music blared from the speakers. A group of teenagers hopped out and headed into the restaurant. Though one stayed behind and leaned on the car. He lit a cigarette. They had left the windows rolled down and the engine running so the music kept on playing. It was loud enough that they could hear it from where they sat. It was a familiar tune, but the lyrics were a little odd.

Bell was surprised to see Woods tapping his foot to the beat.

“Didn’t take you for a pop music fan.”

“You spend a lot of time driving you kind of have to like a variety of music, you know?” He said with a shrug, “Anyway it’s catchy.”

Bell could agree with that.

Then she grunted and grabbed the bridge of her nose. Her head had begun pounding again.

“Brain freeze? You’re drinking that thing too fast,” Woods said, “Anyway you should eat something, your burger is getting cold.”

Grabbing the bag between them he handed it to her. Bell wasn’t sure if her head pain was from the cold milkshake or not. But he was right, she did need to eat.

She took out the burger and folded the bag in her lap. Then with great care she peeled back the wrapping on the burger as if it were something delicate. Finally, she took a bite.

It was so good it surprised her. The bun fluffy and sweet. The burger patty itself a bit smoky. Just a little charred on the outside but nice and juicy on the inside. There was also a tangy sauce that complimented the meat well. Not quite mayo and not quite ketchup. And she was certain there were some vegetables in there somewhere. Nothing like farm fresh veggies advertised in the pictures on the menu of course. But a little limp lettuce and a sad tomato didn’t detract from the experience.

Maybe Woods was onto something. Or maybe she was just hungry.

She took a few greedy bites of the burger.

God she really was hungry.

“Ok ok, slow down!” Woods chuckled, “You ever eat?”

Bell looked sheepishly at the remains of the burger in her hand.

Instead of responding to his question she said, “Thanks Woods, it’s nice to do something- something different.”

“What do you mean?” Woods questioned her. His brow was furrowed as he asked, “Don’t you- I thought you, Sims, and Adler were old pals. Don’t you ever- I don’t know, go for beers or anything?”

“This mission is different. Adler is so focused.”

Bell took another bite then set her burger back down on the paper bag in her lap and debated continuing her thought. She brought a crumpled thin napkin to her mouth, dabbing at whatever food debris might be on her face, while she chewed away and considered things. It would be nice to tell someone what had been bothering her. Let it all out. But she didn’t know Woods like that, they had only just met.

Bell briefly glanced at Woods, who gave her a curious look. Something about it seemed to say she could trust him. That he didn’t mind listening to whatever she had to say.

Is that why he took her out here? Maybe he saw it too? Or at least sensed it. A good leader would notice something was wrong, right?

She looked back out in front of them to the street. The teenagers had bought their food and left. And a new car was pulling into the vacated spot.

“I feel like he’s keeping me at arm’s length,” She said finally, keeping her voice low, “Sims is friendlier, but I think he’s still following Adler’s lead.”

“Oh,” Was Woods’ only response. He sounded surprised. They both let that hang in the air for a moment. Neither saying anything.

It seemed to her like Woods was giving her room to talk if she wanted it. And she did want it. She wanted to talk to someone about how she felt. Holding it all in her head was making her feel like she was crazy. But at the same time talking to someone else about Adler, about her friend, felt like she was being disloyal to him.

After all, shouldn’t she at least try to talk to Adler about it? Why did she feel like she couldn’t?

“Look if you ever want to talk about it. Doesn’t have to be now…” Woods trailed off. She knew what he meant, he was leaving the door open to her.

Bell nodded. Then she chuckled to herself.

“He’s gonna be so pissed,” She said by way of explanation.

“Adler?”

“Yeah,” She said with a sigh, “He wants me to just focus on this mission. It’s like he thinks I’m-” Bell paused, thinking over her words. Then she looked at Woods and shrugged before continuing.

“I don’t know. He thinks I can see things differently. He doesn’t want me distracted. You know what I mean?”

And there she was, unloading, just a little. She sighed, it felt so nice in the moment to just say it. Just let it out.

Bell studied Woods’ face for his reaction. He had invited her to talk to him, but that didn’t necessarily mean he’d believe what she said. Woods ran his fingers through his dark hair, the movement drawing her eyes up. She hadn’t noticed before how in the midst of the thick black hair there were little bits of white mixed in. The white was especially prominent by his temples. He even had a few streaks in his beard. It was such a stark contrast she wasn’t sure how she had missed it.

His blue eyes were fixed ahead, he must have been thinking through what she said.

“Adler’s pretty intense. But even for him, that’s-” He stopped short as if he just realized something, “Shit, Bell, I didn’t want to make things tense between you two. You wanna head back?”

“No,” Bell said with a shrug, “He’s going to be mad no matter what at this point.”

She took a bite of burger and chewed slowly, thinking.Then she nudged him in the arm, saying, “Anyway, it’s worth it.”

Woods blinked at her then his face broke out in a grin.“So, you like the food?” He asked hopefully.

“And the company.”

She nudged him, again and he chuckled softly. They ate their last bites of food in silence. Bell shoved the burger wrapper back in the bag. Woods hopped off the table and took the bag from her crushing it into a tiny ball and tossing it into the trash.

They walked the few feet to the motorcycle and Woods unlocked the tail box to grab his helmet. He handed it to Bell and shoved his hands in his pockets. When he looked at her again his brow was furrowed.

“Say, Bell. I was wondering, how did you get to Vietnam-”

That was not what she had been expecting.

“Do you really want to trade war stories?” She asked as she fitted the helmet over her head and secured the chin strap.

He kicked the sole of his shoe across the sidewalk, then seeming to make his mind up about something hopped on the bike.

“Nah,” He said finally, “Not really.”

July 1981

Something was off. The worn mattress, stained and smelling vaguely of mildew was somehow worse than it had been the last time she woke up on it. Even with it’s ancient springs that poked out of the thinner sections of fabric, those rusty prongs that somehow hadn’t yet given her tetanus, something that had already been the bare minimum of better than sleeping on cold concrete was now inexplicably worse.

Bell was awake now, but did not open her eyes. She breathed in and coughed as tiny fibers of mattress entered her dehydrated throat. Her jaw ached in protest at the movement. Bell groaned and her jaw ached again.

She was on her belly, sleeping at an angle, her entire right arm and shoulder hanging off the edge of the mattress. The back of her hand and her forearm were touching the cold floor. For a moment she thought she couldn’t feel them. The tips of her fingers were so cold she thought they had gone numb. But they hadn’t as she was able to brace them on the ground and lift herself up.

The blanket that had been draped across her- who the hell would even bother to do that- slipped to the floor. She shivered. By her own measurements she could guess it was summer but this place seemed determined to retain the damp and cold.

And she looked up to the single window in her cell, high up on the ceiling, grated, but open, exposing the room to the elements. A drain sat on the floor beneath it to collect rainwater. How she hadn’t caught pneumonia yet was a mystery to her.

She felt the heaviness in her head of lying in one unsupported position all night. Her lower back felt stretched out in the wrong way. Her chest ached like she had been punched.

She curled her legs under her body and dragged the threadbare blanket off the floor as she wrapped it around herself again. With her right hand she massaged her ice-cold toes, her fingers occasionally running over the soft bare nail beds. The feeling of her missing toenails was unsettling and still caused her to shiver. She pushed them from her mind and looked around sorting through the events again in her mind. They must have drugged her. Again.

And that’s how she hadn’t noticed, until this very moment, that they had taken her bedframe.

Bell looked over the mattress. A new dark stain had blossomed over the spot where her head had just been. A vague memory came back to her, the origin of pain in her jaw. She touched her face and with a fingernail chipped away at the thin crust of blood that had settled over her chin.

A realization pushed through her drug-hazed brain and panic thrilled through her. She shoved her finger in her mouth, feeling around, just to be sure. And she relaxed when she found that amazingly all her teeth seemed to be intact. The kick seemed to have only skimmed over her jaw, probably cutting her lip, thus the blood. She didn’t know how they would manage a broken tooth here, but she could imagine that they wouldn’t have the patience or the skill of a practiced dentist. And even if they did they would go for the most painful option anyway. Bell hadn’t been the most cooperative of prisoners.

She rubbed her temples with the heels of her hands. The pressure at least helped to mitigate the ache for a time. Then bracing a hand against the wall behind her, she stood up. Bell fell back into the wall again but was able to just catch herself with her hands.

“Too fast,” She muttered to herself.

Bowing forward slightly to keep the lightheadedness at bay, she once again rose onto her feet. The mattress squeaked in protest, and she walked the long way off of it so she could keep her hand braced on the wall.

The head rush caused the ache in her jaw to throb and send little shocks to the nerve endings across various points in her face.

It had been worth it. She couldn’t recall exactly what lead up to her being kicked in the face, but at a certain point in her stay she realized she might die here. And she made up her mind to make her captor’s lives hell as much as she could until then.

The bed frame had been part of a poorly devised escape plan.

Had it worked it would have been something. And she would be miles away trying to figure out her next steps.

Anyway what does a person with no friends in the world and about six months total of real memories do with freedom?

Where would she go? Well she and-

Bell shook her head. She needed to take things one at a time. First escape, then figure out what to do. Even a carefully laid plan could have some hiccups. She had been down here for months without a clue what was happening outside. Her face could be plastered over every newspaper and post office in the world. That was the consequences of being a part of a plot to blow up a quarter of it.

No no, neutron bomb, remember? Organic material.

Just the people.

Monster.

She sighed and leaned against her hand still braced on the wall. Her fingers curled over the pockmarked concrete. Her empty stomach churned as the acid inside it threatened to rise up her dry throat. She coughed.

“Don’t vomit,” She ordered herself. She had nothing to vomit, it would just be burning acidic mucus and make her feel worse rather than better.

But her stomach did seem to settle. Hot tears rolled over her cheeks and fell from her face and staining the concrete by her nailless toes. Bell pulled her dirty shirt over her face to wipe her cheeks and her nose before pushing off the wall and staggering over to the opposite end of the room.

She pressed the palms of her hands into the wall while she carefully and slowly kneeled. She felt around the floor for a suitable sharp piece of broken concrete. Finding one, she stood again and studied the growing collection tiny marks she had made on the wall as she tried to remember where she left off.

Did it really matter?

Bell ran her fingers over the grooves. Some of the paint around them flaked off and disintegrated when it hit the ground.

Based on the amount of marks she could just about guess it was July. But hell it could be August for all she knew. Between the drugging and all the games they played she could be missing whole days.

She placed her forehead against a clean patch of wall letting the cold concrete soothe her aching head.

How much of her life had slipped away from her?

She couldn’t focus on it. Bell closed her eyes and tried to push it from her mind.

With her mind nearly blank, a song she had heard, maybe once or twice, in the short period of her life that she remembered came to mind. It was amazing how she could be made to forget a lifetime, but an earworm would always stay an earworm.

“Wasting all my time-“ Bell sung into the wall, her voice cracking at the last word.

She firmly, placed her hand on the wall and carved a line into it, starting a new row of tics.

The song continued to run through her head. It was like she was there again. In her tiny collection of memories there were only a select few that she would have described as happy. And even those were tainted now weren’t they?

She raised her fist and slammed it against the wall. More paint flaked away turning into dust on the ground. Bell turned and leaned against the wall.

Then she slid her back down the wall to sit on the floor.

What motivation did she have to keep going?

What was the point of her being here when she could have easily just died on that cliffside? She looked to the window where she could just see the waxing moon in the sky.

Bell shook her head.

“No,” She whispered to herself.And then she recited the same lines she recited every night for the past few months. Words that Adler had embedded in her head, like the song, played as if on repeat.

If I am captured, I will continue to resist by any means available.I will make every effort to escape.

Those words drove her forward. Kept her on her feet. She rolled the concrete stone between her fingers.

Bell smiled and rested her head against the wall again. Maybe the means to Adler’s destruction.

“I know what I’ll do if I get out,” She whispered to the room, “I’ll fucking kill them.”

Tomorrow she would try again.

Tomorrow she would escape.

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mandareeboo · 3 years

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SU Music Rankings

Bc I can and I wanna start some Disk Horse rip. These are all in order of preference, with explanations, etc. It’s a long bitch. That said, I’m not counting little short jingles or small joke songs like Little Butler. This is the meat and potatoes of SU music- just under 30 songs. I might do the rest if people like my takes lol.

I scored it mostly on three bases- how dear it was to my heart, how much/often I relisten to it, and also what it means to the plot. That said, little fun songs don’t automatically go farther down than big, plot-heavy songs either! It’s a strange little balance.

Special Note: I don’t dislike any of this music! I love SU and that includes its bumps and glitches. I just pick favorite children lol.

1.) Change

Was there ever a more Steven moment than when he wiped the blood off his face and kissed it into sparkles? I think not.

If “Be Wherever You Are” is an ode to young Steven, then this is teen Steven’s. Talking about change, and how much and how little it can do. How he holds his arms up for Spinel to hug him, so trusting. How he seems able to just. Break into soft tears at will, and not to be manipulative- it’s just his kind nature. The warmth in his voice. Fuck yesssss.

2.) Change Your Mind

This song is only fifty five seconds and it’s EVERYTHING to me. It really felt like someone was speaking the words I’d always held deep inside of me, unsure of how to say. It feels like a goodbye to someone who never really loved me.

As much as I enjoyed Future, if this was the finale of SU, I would’ve been perfectly okay with that.

3.) Drift Away

This song gave me legitimate shivers the first time I heard it, and it still haunts me to this day. Spinel stayed, and waited, and all she got was a transmission thousands of years later. Fuck.

4.) Here We Are In The Future

THE MOVIE IS SU AS ITS BEST AND I WON’T BE SWAYED ON IT. Steven being a teen who loves his weird family but is growing just a bit sarcastic to their drama. The adorable love he and Connie share. His slow realization that he will always be working, always have things to do, is both somber and real. The Crystal Gems won’t be safe with one epic battle. They’ll be safe with years of hard work and love. HIS LITTLE HANDSHAKE WITH AMETHYST.

This is a helluva bop and a great way to summarize the main character’s backstories.

5.) Let’s Only Think About Love

Did ya’ll know that Zach Callison killed his throat with that last note? He gave his all for this performance in a vocal range he no longer comfortably do and by god did it SHINE. The FLAIR. The FORESHADOWING. All of the Gems all being awkward about Rose and Steven trying to bring them to the present. Peridot having a mini-existential crisis in a cute yellow dress. I love Zach Callison’s normal singing voice but man is that a fucking bop. Nothing will ever beat it.

6.) Here Comes A Thought

This bad boy helped me out a LOT with some mental issues I was dealing with in high school. I was unmedicated, unsupervised, and full of anxiety. I’d have break downs when I tried to speak about certain things. I couldn’t function. This song inspired me. It helped me feel okay with my intrusive thoughts.

And the episode! -chef’s kiss-. Once again bringing up the morally gray area of training child soldiers. Connie expanding her social group. Steven’s trauma hauling ass in that second half. The ANIMATION. Stevonnie’s gorgeous singing voice. GOD yes.

7.) It’s Over Isn’t It?

Just barely squeaking above Stronger Than You, this ballad is everything gorgeous. The whole episode is. I think Mr. Greg stands in the top five of my episodes for the entire show. It even got nominated!

There’s just so much about this song that I love. The gentle melancholy of Pearl’s voice. How the crew had to redo the shots for this bit bc Deedee went so fucking hard. The hard cuts between Pearl, remembering the love of her life, and Steven, who has begun to feel like he took her away. I’d recommend this song to anyone, regardless of what they do or don’t know about SU, simply bc it tugs so many heartstrings of love, loss, and responsibility.

8.) Stronger Than You

Did you realize this episode aired SEVEN years ago? This bitch was what got me into SU! Hearing about Ruby and Sapphire made my little gay heart so happy inside, and then getting a whole song confirming that they were a couple, that their love powered the strongest Gem on the team? Aaaaaaaaa

To this DAY I get excited when I hear Estelle start singing. This song is timeless. This song will live in media history. God I fucking love this song.

9.) Other Friends

I’m not the biggest musical person, so I hadn’t heard of Sarah Stiles before her casting as Spinel, but JESUS CHRIST the lady went hard. She went SO fucking hard. Sarah Stiles started on 100 and somehow just kept CLIMBING. You can just hear the sheer manic energy building in her voice, the anger and resentment. 10/10 Sarah Stiles is a queen.

10.) Independent Together

This made the list entirely bc the crew was like “you’re gonna get a himbo ass Steven-Greg fusion singing with Opal while Garnet flies across the moon on Lion while floating” and I am forever thankful to them for it

11.) Who We Are

Bismuth deserved more songs. ‘Nuff said.

12.) Peace and Love (On the Planet Earth)

It Could’ve been Great is EASILY one of my favorite s2 episodes. I love the entire concept of this song. Of Steven making music to reflect how much Earth means to him and his family. Of him teaching Peridot some self-care. Also Peridot’s singing voice is really cute and squeaky.

I know it’s silly, but I would’ve really enjoyed a flip around of this in Future! Like Peridot reminding Steven how much he loves music, that he needs to take time to relax for himself, maybe with a new verse or just a remix of the original song!

13.) Something Entirely New

I watched this episode as it aired, and I legitimately almost cried. I love Charlyne Yi’s voice so much ya’ll- her raspy, not perfect singing voice against Sapphire’s deep soothing lull is great.

And to have Ruby and Sapphire’s meeting be the way it was- for Ruby to bemoan Sapphire losing Homeworld, to being stuck with a single Ruby, while Sapphire is a noble who has always been taught everyone in her “caste” is vitally important (and has, in her own mind, taken that to mean every Gem, as she should) and how they come together and make each other happy. Good shit good shit.

14.) I’m Just a Comet

The fact that Greg’s music career never really blasted off pisses me off to this day bc Tom Scharpling’s voice is fucking BUTTER. Also the song really feels like a jab at his parents now that we know the kind of dynamic he had growing up. “This life in the stars if all I’ve ever known” is definitely him wiping away their existence after reminding them (and himself) the things they used to say about him.

15.) Do It For Her

This episode. This fucking episode. This episode got me permanently hooked on SU. I’d just binged season 1 and was kinda meh about it overall after the bop of Stronger Than You. “Oh,” I thought to myself, foolishly, “I’ll probably just casually watch this from time to time.”

Like three days later Sworn to the Sword aired and that was it. I was hooked! Pearl’s gentle training song turning darker and darker, Connie’s accompaniment from nervous to determined to fully into such a toxic mindset. The fact that SU had the BALLS to discuss the repercussions of training child soldiers, now and later. This episode was everything to me, STILL is everything to me.

Six years and well over 100 fanfics written later, I think it’s safe to say this show swallowed me whole and never let go.

16.) System/Boot.pearl_final(3)

I debated putting this on the list because it’s not anything crazy important, just a way to show things are Wrong, but I had to do it entirely bc Pearl is so damn SALTY.

Like telling us about the Gems makes sense, she felt like she was given a duty, but she went so damn petty. WHY is that Ruby alone. Gross. This Amethyst is a trash dump. Wtf are you people.

17.) Full Disclosure

This episode really feels like a turning point for SU. Before, the show had its dark moments- but now we’re in the thick of it, and it’s not going away. Full Disclosure felt like an rebuff to the idea of returning to any normal we’d established in season 1. Gems are actually a giant species now. Gems tried to kill us now. There’s this Yellow Diamond bitch who got namedropped. Something about a Cluster.

The song itself is BALLER, with its ingenious use of Steven’s ringtone and photos as he tries to decide whether to clue in Connie on all this nonsense. Meanwhile we, the audience, already know damn well Connie about to yeet some common sense into him.

18.) What’s the Use of Feeling Blue?

I’mma admit it- I’m a Yellow Diamond stan. I’ve always loved her- her anger, her poise, her hardworking nature. I actively argued against the “Yellow Shattered Pink” theories back in the day. But, man, when this arc leaked? I got so overexcited I was too jittery to watch it for like two days. It’s easily my favorite arc of the series. The sheer alien nature of the zoo, the Famethyst, and absolutely Patti Lupone’s beautiful ballad. Goddamn. Yellow singing to Blue to try and help her regain her old status, the warble in her voice as she reminds Blue she misses Pink too, the movement of the bubbles as she talks about attack. It gives me shivers to this day. FUCK.

19.) Tower of Mistakes

This is, fun fact, that only SU song I have completely memorized. The story itself is kinda funny! See, we lost internet at my house for a solid 5 to 6 months when these episodes aired, so I only got a very brief window to view them all. But this was the first Amethyst song in a long while, and I didn’t want to forget it! So I keep replaying it in my head for ages. And that’s still definitely a thing.

Anyway will never not be sad that this entire song was about making it up to Garnet for Amethyst’s perceived slights with Sugilite (which was a two-way road), only for Garnet to pressure her into fusion later when pissed and never discuss it again bc Garnet probably never thought twice about it and Amethyst has the emotional openness of a clam that’s just been told its ugly. Helluva way to make someone feel like shit, G. Helluva way to bottle that shit, Ames.

20.) On the Run

I’ve said it once, I’ve said it a million times: Amethyst! Needed! More! Songs!

The dichotomy between Steven’s play and Amethyst’s honest desire to run away from home is so well-done, especially when you consider a lot of Steven and Amethyst’s actions are playing together. The song is also near and dear to me simply bc it’s my favorite Amethyst episode to exist (well, maybe second to What’s Your Problem, but not by much). Moments like these are all the proof I need that they were right to fuse first.

21.) Be Wherever You Are

This tune really just feels like an ode to who Steven was as a kid. Trapped on an island with no way home, and he’s just happy to be with his friends. The stars are beautiful and not oppressive. Also that one animatic with Lars and the Off Colors playing in the Homeworld Kindergarten to this music was iconic and made this song get stuck in my head for a solid month.

22.) Familiar

I ADORE how the crew use bright neon colors to show how alien Homeworld can be. And Steven recognizing that the Diamonds treat him how the CGs used to, and how prepared he is to “fix” a broken family. It’s a soft, gentle tune about melancholy. Also the Pebbles are beautiful.

23.) Let Me Drive My Van Into Your Heart

Such a cute little love ballad, but every time I listen to it now I just imagine the heart attack Rose must’ve had at the line “And if we look out of place/Well, baby, that's okay/I'll drive us into outer space.” like there’s a Vietnam war flashback if I ever heard one

24.) What Can I Do?

I’m kind of neutral on this one? Rose and Greg both have great voices, but the song itself lacks many lyrics. I think it was definitely a good way to show Rose’s flaws in thinking.

Also, I’m shocked they managed cram that much vaguely sexual innuendo into two minutes, followed by how Not Hetereo that dance between Rose and Pearl was, and not get their asses chewed by it. You go guys.

25.) Cookie Cat

I love a lot of the vibes this song has. The lyrics are so damn prophetic, but they also sound like the kind of weird 90s commercials I grew up on. It’s been like two decades since I saw the Shirley Temple commercial but I’ll be damned if I don’t remember “Animals crackers in my soup! Monkey and rabbits loop-de-loop.”

26.) Giant Woman

I am. NOT the biggest fan of Steven’s original singing voice. I feel bad saying that, since it was just Zach Callison as a kid, but he never jived well with me for some reason. So I wouldn’t listen to this on the fly.

The song itself is still really good though, with all sorts of fun animation of Amethyst and Pearl being bitchy to each other. It’s a bit sad in hindsight to see tiny Steven trying to get his moms to get along. Ahh, season 1.

27.) Strong in the Real Way

This song has SUCH a strong start. Pearl reflecting on Sugilite’s problems, but the show making sure to show us that Pearl’s lack of enthusiasm towards her also lends itself to jealousy as well as just general malaise. How much she cares about Steven, and wants him to grow up strong.

And then Steven just kinda. Ruins it? I appreciate his enthusiasm for tryna bulk up but to take what was starting as such a rich, personal song and broadcasting it to random strangers just makes me a bit sad. Almost a bit angry on her behalf?

28.) That Distant Shore

I KNOW this is gonna create some discourse, but I’m just not the biggest Lapis stan. I love her voice. I love the visuals of the song. And I get why she felt afraid and needed to flee.

But Lapis never got to take responsibility for her own actions. And, in the end, the song feels hollow to me- because we all know she’ll never talk to anyone about it, know she’ll burst back in and destroy the barn, and no one will ever question it. I like Lapis a lot, but I feel like her arc never was fully finished. She never got help. She never learned to feel safe.

29.) Dear Old Dad

I’ve yet to meet a single human being who likes this episode tbh. There’s some great discussion about what kind of parent Greg is from it, and what kind of dynamic he has with the Gems that he felt he had to fake an injury to hang out with his son. Honestly the first half was fine and dandy. It’s just that then they Greg just went out of his way to drag Steven away from missions and such. It never jived well with his character before or after.

Also, is it just me, or does Zach himself sound like he hates the song as he sings it? There’s no passion or heart in his voice. It sounds like they told him to read off cue cards and he did. Tom Scharpling’s best attempts didn’t save this one for being a skipper. But the episode, unfortunately, isn’t, so it gets a spot on here.

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too soon.

↬ Jung Jaehyun x Reader ↬2.5k Words ↬Warnings: Mentions of alcohol ↬ Got in my feels one night listening to Keshi so this is inspired by his song “2 soon”

It hurt not having you there. After the breakup, which you both decided was amicable, something inside him snapped.

At first, he let the sadness take over him. He knew these were all normal emotions to process once a breakup occurred, so he let himself mourn his loss. Just because you both decided you needed to focus on yourselves and careers, doesn’t mean it didn’t pain him knowing you wouldn’t be the first person he was able to hug when he got home from work, let alone kiss you whenever he looked your way.

Most days he tried to distract himself, divulging himself into non stop practise, trying to work harder for the groups latest comeback, rather than drown in sorrow over his want for you and your relationship.

Weeks had passed, and so did his urge to drink. At first he thought one shot would do, take the edge off and distract him from his thoughts and cheer him up a little, but five more shots later he was dizzy, sad, and still thinking of you.

He reached for his phone several times in that moment, glancing at your name that’s been untouched for almost two months, desperately wanting to call you and ask if you’re doing well. If you miss him. If you still love him and much as he loves you.

But each time he stopped himself, something within his heart knowing that you needed this time to heal as well. Hell, maybe you’ve already healed and want nothing to do with him. But he doesn’t know that, and he doesn’t want to know that. He just wants to be with you.

And he knows this isn’t a healthy mentality to have. You both made it known that his career is at a very pivotal point, and that’s what he needs to be focusing on until he feels he is stable enough in his career to balance both being an idol, and a caring boyfriend to you.

So each time he’s alone and in his thoughts, he gets wasted and cries about how he lost you, and how he wants nothing more than to put his career aside than to be with you. If you ever heard him say those words, he knows you’d be upset, wanting his happiness and career to be put first. It came before you after all, and you never wanted to be the reason for his career ever taking a negative turn.

It wasn’t until he was at a yearly company party SM threw in December to not only celebrate Christmas, but all the successful comebacks and promotions each of their artists have done throughout the majority of the year. They may have worked NCT and Jaehyun to the bone this year, and this was just the slightest form of appreciation they had to offer.

Yuta and Mark were joking about the time Jaehyun snuck you into one of SM’s after parties after the Golden Disk awards last year, focusing more on you than his friends and groupmates, never leaving your side or your lips for the matter; prompting him to drunkenly declare his love for you in front of the dozens of other celebrities surrounded in the same room as you all.

Jaehyun was embarrassed when he remembered the next day, but you on the other hand thought it was sweet. Knowing that he didn’t care what his repercussions were at the moment, only wanting to declare his love for you not only to you, but to those he's closest with and who know how hard it is to find love and maintain it in such a hectic and invasive career.

He got so drunk at this year’s party, that he locked himself in one of the building's bathrooms, tears streaming down his face because he knew the alcohol was not enough. It will never be enough. Alll he wants is you.

Taking his phone out of his jacket pocket, he scrolled down to your name, and pressed “Call”. Knowing it was a long shot that you’d answer, considering you don’t have to associate with him if you didn’t want to, along with the fact that it was shortly after 1am, with you probably being fast asleep.

With just two rings in, a soft “Hello” came from his speaker, nothing that you did in fact answer and were awake.

“Hi.” Was all he managed to speak out, soft hiccups emerging from his throat, his cheeks getting hotter by the second as he doesn’t know what he’s going to say to you, let alone what you’re going to say back to him.

“Are you okay Jaehyun? It’s 1am.”

Wiping his tears, he didn’t know what to say. He couldn’t outright blurt out everything he was thinking and feeling the past few months, not wanting to scare you away from the intense emotions he was feeling as of late.

“I don’t think I am.” He spoke softly, loosening his tie as it was constricting him from breathing properly through his intense tears.

“I miss you, like a lot.” He said between gulps, trying to calm down but his hiccups having other plans for him. “And I know we said this was for the best, but us breaking up has been eating me alive and I can’t stop thinking about you and us and it just really sucks.”

“It’s been two months Jaehyun.” You say, not knowing exactly how to process how he’s feeling. “Why didn’t you call me earlier if everything’s been bothering you so much?”

“I didn’t want to bother you. I wanted to give you space and let you live your life without coming off as some pathetic loser who needs you all the time.”

“Well, you’re not a pathetic loser, Jung Jaehyun. You’re a human being who lives a hectic life, one with feelings who deserves to feel and process and be comforted whenever something’s going on in your life. Don’t ever feel bad about it.”

Processing your voice, Jaehyun couldn’t help feel the comfort and peace that flowed through his body whenever you spoke to him. You always knew what to say, and even when you didn’t, your presence was just as reassuring.

“I miss you too, by the way.”

“You do?” He cries, trying his best to wipe his tears while maintaining his attention on your voice. “I thought if I called and you heard me like this you’d for sure be happy we broke up.”

“Breakups are painful Jaehyun. I can’t even imagine how you feel because I know you don’t have many people to talk about things so it must hurt to bottle things up.”

Which was true. Jaehyun kept your relationship a secret for six months before even letting his managers know, slowly waiting for the company’s okay with your relationship, but not wanting for it to be public. He never wanted to do that to you, hound you with the harassment and chaos that came attached to an idol. It was already bad enough when two idols dated, let alone when one dated a non- celebrity, fans worked even harder to learn everything and anything they could, potentially harming anyone at hand.

Jaehyun first told Johnny when you two started dating, the smirk on his face never once fading whenever the mention of you came up. The rest of the members slowly began to find out, each congratulating him that he finally found someone who made him smile, and wasn’t with him because he was famous. Anyone he attempted dating in the past either wanted him for his fame, or was someone in the industry who wouldn’t shut up about the industry.

Dating you was like a breath of fresh air, because compared to his hectic life, you were just a regular, comforting human being. You worked a part time job at the mall, attended university and were studying to be a social worker, and had a great obsession with baking banana bread.

Whenever Jaehyun was with you, you reminded him of what it’s like to be a normal human being, not an idol stripped of all his talent, time, and energy to make a company even more rich and successful than they already were.

And it wasn’t to say you lived a boring life, but compared to him everything you’ve done and experienced was so mundane. Nothing made Jaehyun happier than when he showed you the tiny details that go on in an idols life, such as where he practises, to where he and the rest of NCT record their songs, even taking you behind the stages of award shows and comeback stages-wanting you to see the full effect and experience up close, rather than on a tv or in a dressing room away from all the magic.

You were the clarity and compassion in Jaehyun’s life and it absolutely shattered him whenever you were unable to be with him when your lives and commitments came first.

When you both decided it was necessary for you to break up, Mark was the first person who found out. Jaehyun entered the dorm quietly, his cap covering his eyes and mask slightly rising up the bridge of his nose, only exposing about a centimetre of his face.

Mark knew better than to ask what was wrong, as past experiences with Jaehyun being angry never ended too well, so he gave him some space. But three days after entering the dorm pissed off and not leaving his room once, Mark took it upon himself to check up on him, only to find him curled up in a ball on his bed sobbing, discovering that you two broke up and clearly he wasn’t taking it well.

It took him about 6 days before he left his bed to finally shower and eat something that wasn’t a granola bar or cereal stashed in his room or brought in by Mark, and 9 days for him to finally tell everyone why he was so distant and upset.

Obviously, everyone was saddened that you wouldn’t be spending time with them anymore, but ultimately were hurting for Jaehyun as well, as they knew you meant a great deal to him, and losing you meant losing all the plans and dreams he had for wanting to marry you one day.

Obviously not in the near future, but in around 5 years, when you were well out of school and had a full time job, and when Nct was well off enough to not be promoting as often as they had their first several years as a group; only ever promoting or touring for a portion of the year, rather than having breaks for a few weeks every few months.

It took all the strength in Jaehyun’s body not to call you every night after you broke up, but clearly that did not work because here he was, unfortunately consumed by alcohol he used to help cope with the pain for the past several weeks, drunk and sobbing to you.

“It’s just been really hard. I know we said it’s for the best but I hate not having you in my life. I miss going for food with you at 2am when you’re stressed about your assignments. I miss giving you long hugs when we go long periods of time without seeing each other and- fuck! I just am so in love and want to be with you the rest of my life and I hate how I let myself become so attached to you and this relationship but I cannot go on knowing there’s a chance you’re going to fall in love with someone one day and I won’t be that man marrying you or being the father of your children or holding you when you’ve had a hard day.”

“Wow, you’re really drunk.” You say, hugging your pillow to your chest because no one has ever uttered such raw, loving words to you before and you cannot help but fight off the urge to cry because you too, want that life for the both of you one day.

“Yeah I know. I’m surprised I said all that right now because I’ve been fighting the urge to call you every night because I wanted to give you space.”

“I want all that with you, Jaehyun. I want us to get married and have three kids and two dogs and I want you to help teach them all how to read and for them to make you play dress up with them and have tea parties and make sand castles. I’m still in love with you and always will be so please don’t be sorry or surprised you’re feeling this way because we both know we deserve to be with each other.”

“I want you so much.”

“Do you want me to come see you? Just so we can talk and I can make sure you’re doing okay?”

“You don’t have to if you don’t want to, I get if it feels weird or it’s too late.” He didn’t want to pressure you into doing anything, especially the need to take care of him when he’s drunk and sad and completely in love with you. You’re not his babysitter, nor his girlfriend for the matter- you are not inclined to care for him or even see him because he’s a mess.

But you still want to. Because even though you haven’t spoken in weeks, you know that Jaehyun is the love of his life, and hearing him be so sad and lonely is more than heartbreaking. It’s complete agony.

“Nothing is too late or too weird when it comes to you. I want to hug you and never let you go and tuck you in bed and make sure you’re safe and happy when you go to bed.”

“I’ll meet you back at my dorm if that’s okay? If I’m at this party any longer I’ll go absolutely insane.”

“I’ll see you there, Jaehyun. Please be safe and text me when you leave.”

“Of course, anything for you. And thank you, for even just listening. You’re an angel and I can’t wait to see you in a few minutes.” He chimed, shortly ending the call after he said those last statements to you.

Jaehyun doesn’t know for certain where his future with you stands, but he’s okay with that. He’s seeing you soon, and you just confessed that you’re still in love with him and want a future with him, and that’s all he needs.

His conversation with you managed to clear his mind and body out of the abundance of alcohol that once consumed him, his attention and newfound excitement now focused solely on seeing you, touching you, just being with you. He quickly ordered himself a cab, not even saying goodbye to his members, beyond ecstatic to be within your presence.

And for now, that’s all he could ever ask for.

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