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talkorsomething · 1 year

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...well, i now officially know i've lost weight.

Like... a lot? a lot more than i had thought?

Which is. Odd because honestly pretty much everything still feels like it fits about the same...

I guess it explains why i've been more cold?!

+ also i dont know Why it's so much... if i start eating like a normal human being again i don't... really *want* to go over where i started? :/ i guess i'd maybe be fine w/ being about the same because i know it won't be That big of a difference. Or i don't think it will anyways? Hm...

#ed tw #100% секретный дневник левы НЕ ЧИТАЙ #like um . it is a very significant change since the last time i weighed myself #(june 2022 apparently)#and without knowing whether its the semi-consistent excersize or the absolute dogshit fuck diet i dont want to change what im doing......#dont give urself an ed on purpose its really not worth it XD #morbid curiousity but i wonder if im at a 'normal' bmi range now? like eh...#numbers btw. its like 20 pounds dropped so #a LOT for me #like this is where i set my goal initially.......#i shouldnt make it worse and set something lower but i kind of want to..................#[hitting brain with broom] no. bad. stop it .#i guess cause its spread out over a year its not As extreme but still . . .#not sure whether to feel accomplished or not as mostly my philosophy has been #‘stop being disorder you piece of fuck’#i. e; do my best not to worry about it #but u know. disorder . kinda like sh never gonna leave me all that shit #idk where im going with this from june 2022 to feb 2023 things were about the same but then a Lot changed so that is also smth to consider #different circumstances... i live off sweet things and yet remain snackies-less now :pensive:#(<- thats to put it lightly)#anyways anyways tag ramble ending curiousity getting the better of me bye

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