#but you're welcome to disagree! That's ok too

[thelunarfairy]

Okay, let's talk about something random

Omg, it's so embarrassing >.<

So, it's been a while since I created this account and I've already gained some followers, thank you all for that :3 (it means you like the crazy things I post)

So I wanted to talk a little about myself (even though I think no one cares XD)

Ok, I'm going to be serious now XDDD

I created this account because I really like JSHK and I wanted to talk about some crazy ideas or theories about the series and I felt welcomed here ^u^

I want you to know that a lot of things I post are just some crazy ideas that I occasionally have and that it's okay if you disagree, be kind S2 or if you agree I'll be happy if you want to talk to me about it :3

In fact, I hope you feel free to talk to me if you want, whether with an Ask or a message, I love talking about JSHK, if you also love and like crazy theories you can come talk to me if you want.

Don't take the things I say here too seriously, about the theories specifically, I may change my mind in the future or it's just crazy in my head, the most important thing for me is not to be right, but to have fun!

I'm trying to unravel the story in the most entertaining way I can, so it's okay with me if I'm wrong about the things I post (because no one other than Aidairo knows what's actually going to happen) XDD

Anyway, that's it.

Some other information that I don't know if you're interested in but I'll leave it here.

I am a girl

I'm Brazilian, I'd like to make that clear because if there are any Brazilians who also want to talk to me, feel free! (Sou brasileira, gostaria de deixar isso claro porque se tiver algum brasileiro que também queira falar comigo sinta-se a vontade!)

I speak English and Portuguese

I post randomly, but I usually post a lot because I tend to create theories and crazy ideas out of completely nothing.

Anyway, that's all, if you've read this far, thank you very much for giving me your attention :3

Bye bye~

Index

THEORIES:

Amane's Darkness

Could it be that in the time of Amane

Amane's past

The house and the fire

Hanako-kun's Big Puzzle

Predictions of the tragedy

These hands…

The Cursed Seal

ANALYZES:

The monster inside Hanako

One of the mysteries of the Yugi twins

Hands on the walls

The irony of life and Hanako's karma

The forecast

Did you notice?

When you remember that at some point, Hanako will have to say goodbye to Tsukasa again…

Amane's disease

"Red Thread of Fate"

Okay, let's talk about Mitsuba

Amane's possessiveness and insecurity

Natsuhiko and the mysterious door

The relationship between Tsukasa, Yashiro and Amane

Tsukasa's relationship with the red house

Yugi Tsukasa's mother

Sixth sense or predestined death?

Oh my, Yashiro is interested in a lot of boys

Yashiro and Tsukasa's Relationship

YUGI TWINS

The melancholy love of the Yugi twins

Did Tsukasa do this?

Hanako's mental age

I wish I could hear his voice

FINDINGS:

Hanako's boundary

Tsukasa's toys

ASKS:

About Yorishiro 1

Spelling errors and pronouns

Twin stars 1 || Twin stars 2

Tsukasa’s emotions 1 || Tsukasa's emotions 2

Tsukasa's parents

Sumire

Tsukasa's kiss

Hanako's feeling seeing tsukasa for the first time

Nene-chan and I are the same!

Could Hanako have done something to stop Tsukasa's kiss with Nene?

The mysterious hand 1 || The mysterious hand 2

Tsukasa image analysis

Tsukasa's behavior

Who do you think is gonna confess first? Hanako or nene?

Hanako's duty

HANENE:

A post about Hanene

Yashiro's wish and Hanako's self-control

Hanako's cute side

Nene ankles

She was exposed

Does Amane remember?

Hanako and Yashiro's tragic love

Reblog

Hanako-kun's jealous punishment

Hanako's look of desire and love

I still want to see this date, right Aidairo?

The insecurity

Hanene reblog

It was the first time a girl said she liked me, it made me happy…

The active Hanako and the passive Amane

Hanene reblog 2

The moment when Hanako fell in love with Yashiro

Details

But what about Amane and Yashiro's date?

Zombie Hanako and his wish

I know what you did here huh, Aidairo

Hanene reblog 3

This scene

RANDOM:

The invisible ghost

Yashiro Nene priorities

Natsuhiko's love potion

A compilation of jealous Hanako-kun

Tsunene reblog

Tsukasa reblog

Hanako reblog

Yugi twins

Okay, it's cute but

Just a compilation of random Hanene moments

Kou reblog

Just a compilation of random photos of Tsukasa

Just Tsukasa and Mitsuba being happy friends

Amane's Possessiveness reblog

Just a bunch of random photos of two idiots (Kou and Mitsuba)

Just Hanako-kun blushing or embarrassed

Nene and Aoi

A funny detail about the hamsters' space wars

Backstage 1

A tiny Tsukasa trying to put a birthday hat on top of his hat

Just a little ghost and an exorcist boy being best friends

Strangely similar….

"We're the same"

Karma

Hanako and Tsuchigomori

Just Tsukasa having his patience tested

I've been thinking (Tsukasa and Hanako)

[apazwtsn]

I'm angry. I am very angry. I swear if I ever see anyone talking about how "gross and awkward" the Miller's Girl movie is because of the age difference again, I'm going to kill them all. I swear.

Because GOD, what part of "it's the point of the movie" they don't understand?

Don't listen to me, I'm just ranting. Or maybe you listen to me and want to rant a little, too. You're all welcome.

1st point: The movie

IT IS A FILM THAT IS ABOUT THE INAPPROPRIATE RELATIONSHIP OF A TEACHER AND A STUDENT. EVEN THE OWN SYNOPSIS SAYS IT. INAPPROPRIATE, DANGEROUS. Why would you be surprised if they have sex??? THAT'S THE DAMN POINT!!! And if it makes you uncomfortable, WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING WATCHING?? Unless you decided to get upset on your own because you knew you wouldn't like it (like me), which is valid. But don't come away with the idea that you weren't expecting that horribly uncomfortable scene. BECAUSE IF YOU WENT TO SEE IT, IT'S BECAUSE YOU KNEW IT WOULD HAPPEN. NO SHIT.

2nd point: The cast & set

Jenna is not a little girl. If she accepted the role it is because she knew what she would have to do. Martin is a very professional guy. And I'm not saying it, all the people who have worked with him say it. They are acting. You know what acting is, right? Do you know that if two actors kiss, it doesn't necessarily mean that they are enjoying it, but rather that they are doing their job? You know that, right? You know the difference between fact and fiction too, I guess? You know that if the movie is about something, doesn't means that it's saying that is alright? Or maybe you just want to be controversial because that suits you. For the first time in your life, think. And those who participated behind the scenes said that everything possible was done so that they did not feel uncomfortable. What does it cost you to do a little research, bro?

3rd point: The age difference in relationships

I have always been an advocate for this. Always. As long as they are conscious adults, it's fine. As long as you're both over 20, it's fine. As long as everything is consensual, it's fine! Personally (read, personally) I think that even 18-19 year olds are still a bit too young. You can disagree, of course. It's still an opinion. What you cannot disagree with is the fact that an adult person cannot be with a minor person. That's called pedophilia and it's wrong.

4th point: How people treat young women (Yes, this has to do with it)

I'm going to get a bit aggressive. And I warn you that you are going to read the statement of a feminist.

Have you seen how every time a young woman is talked about, older adults act as if they were little girls? No? Well, it happens all the time around me and I'm already fed up. If a woman is over 18, then SHE IS NO LONGER A LITTLE GIRL. SHE IS AN ADULT WOMAN AND CAN TAKE HER OWN DECISIONS. When a man passes 18, people act as if they "are already men." When a woman passes 18, THEY CONTINUE TO TREAT HER LIKE A KID OR A TEENAGER. And I think it has a LOT to do with what we're talking about. Because if a young girl (approximately 18-26) goes out with a man who is older than her, that man automatically becomes a "Pervert". Please. If the relationship is consensual, then he is not a pervert and she knows what she is doing. You know why everyone complains about big men with young girls but they never complain about older women with younger guys? FOR THAT REASON. THEY SEE YOUNG WOMEN AS LITTLE GIRLS WHO CAN'T TAKE CARE OF THEMSELVES AND DON'T KNOW WHAT THEY'RE DOING, WHEN ACTUALLY MEN MATURE AFTER WOMEN. I SWEAR TO YOU THAT I AM TOTALLY PISSED. IF I SEE A MAN COMPLAINING ABOUT THIS, I WILL HIT HIM.

OK. Maybe I went a little overboard. Some anger issues, sorry. Maybe this only happens in my family circle (super toxic) and maybe out there people don't think like that. I hope so.

[maneskintifoso]

Date night 🫶

Victoria x reader

— warnings— smut, fingering, oral (female receiving) and bdsm dynamics —

— summary: you and vic go on a date and it ends with fun at the hotel —

So when she asked you out on a date you were taken aback, why would the hot famous rockstar want to date you? It was definitely a shock and you weren't sure whether you should just say no but you were more ready for a relationship now and you really liked her. So you said yes. And now you were standing in your room mildly regretting it.

Victoria had sent you the address and it was a fancy restaurant that was in the east village. You knew that Vics vibe was very rock n roll and very fashionable. You on the other hand felt very unfashionable, you tended to for floral prints and sweaters and midi dresses. After lots of changes and fresh outfits you decide on a tight black dress with little pink flowers on and lace details. You feel sexy and pretty and you feel like it kind of matches Vics vibe. After applying makeup and finishing your hair, you get stuck on what shoes to wear. Black converse or platform doc martens. You settle on the doc martens as they are easier to get off.

Your phone rings and its vic

“Hey i'm just leaving now” you are running down the stairs in a rush not be late.

“Cool cool, yeah i was just ringing to check you are still up for tonight but clearly you are '' she lets out an awkward laugh and you can tell that she's also nervous.

“Yeah no i'm really excited”

“Yeah me too, i'll let you go cause you sound like you are running a marathon”

“Haha ok i'll see you soon”

“Ciao” you put your phone safely in your pocket and keep walking as fast as you can.

When you are just around the corner from the restaurant you stop and take a deep breath, you don't really know how adult first dates work and your friends have given you advice but what if you forgot or it was awkward.

You walk towards the restaurant and you see vic casually leaning against a wall, you put on a smile and walk up to her.

“Hey you look really nice” you chastise yourself for saying ‘really nice’ why did you say that? Why didn't you say really pretty or sexy or something more enthusiastic?

“Ciao,you look absolutely stunning, shall we go in?” she nods toward the door and extends her arm.

“Yeah lets go” you link her arm with yours.

The waitress shows you to your table which is tucked away in the corner of the restaurant and for a minute you are worried it will be awkward but vic is already talking to you and you are sucked into the conversation. Vic asks you about your job and hobbies and your college major and what life for you was like. You try your best to ask her questions about her job and what the whole fame thing is like and her friends back home but vic seems more eager to talk about you then herself. You order the only vegan thing on the menu which was a vegan burger and when she realises you are vegan she apologises profusely for not picking somewhere more vegan friendly. The date had gone really well and you were proud of yourself doing something that is out of your comfort zone.

“Nightcap at my hotel?” vic asks on the way out of the restaurant, you are pretty sure she is just asking you back for sex but who are you to disagree.

“Yeah sure” the uber ride to your hotel you talk about music and the models of basses that you wished you owned. It was sweet and you were so happy to have someone to talk about this with. You loved your band but the rest of the band played their instruments and had no interest in yours.

“So do you and your band do shows or anything?” you nod

“Yeah we play the occasional bar show and clubs sometimes, people are really getting into indie music so we are definitely getting more and more shows” she smiles widely

“Would you ever tour?”

“I would love to, I mean I guess it would need to be after we finish college but definitely” she looks like she is plotting something and you aren't sure what she is going to say next.

“You're always welcome to join us on tour”

“Ummm thats really nice of you, we wouldn't want to intrude”

“You could never intrude” she runs her hand up your thigh and a shiver runs through you.

“Do you like that princess?” you nod adamantly and she puts her hand closer to your pussy. You hold back a whimper for the sake of the poor taxi driver.

When you make it up to her hotel room you look around at the luxury interior, the dim lights and the neatly made bed. This was something you had never experienced, you had always lived in new york, the furthest you had moved was to your new flat. You stand in the doorway staring at the room, vic clearly notices you freezing and wraps her arms around your neck. You initiate a kiss, it's not even really a kiss, your mouths are just slotted together. She runs her tongue over your teeth, ist a funny feeling but not a bad one. She signals for you to jump and you are confused, you aren't sure how she's going to hold you. You are both similar sizes but you are a little bit taller than her and you are worried that she won't be able to hold you and it will be awkward. So the only thing to do is redirect her, you start kissing her neck. She makes these little throaty noises and you can feel yourself getting wetter.

She runs her hands over the bottom of your dress and you expect her to pull it over your head but she just runs her hands over your wet underwear. She lingers on your clit and you let out a moan, you expect her to withdraw her hand but she then pushes your underwear to the side and slides in a finger. Without any trouble she finds your g spot and your knees buckle no one has ever been able to do this. You had just got out of a relationship when you met victoria and lets just say that it had been very dry sex. But with vic it was magical.

You expect her to do something more or you hope that she does something else but she just pulls out her fingers and you try to almost chase after them. She lets out a raspy laugh and you know she's laughing at you but you don't feel embarrassed at all. You decide enough is enough and pull your dress over your head, when you look at her she doesn't look happy with you at all.

“Did I tell you to do that?” she says in a dominating tone. You look down in guilt.

“No mistress” she yanks your hair making your head snap up toward her face.

“On the bed and on your hands and knees now” you instantly get onto the bed in hope that Victoria will go easy on you. But you know that was probably unlikely.

She spanks you hard on your thigh and it causes you to jump and tumble onto your elbows.

“You will count for me cucciola and when i am done you will thank me”

“Yes mistress”

She starts hitting you alternating between each of your cheeks and your thighs. You keep count and after 20 you wonder if she has plans to stop but she doesn't she just keeps going. You can feel the tingling and stinging in you ass and thighs and you know sitting down tomorrow will hurt like a bitch.

“Puppy you are getting slow on the counting” she hits you again and again and you consider safewording but she must sense that you are getting close to your limit because she announces that she is doing the final 10 spanks.

After she's done you managed to stutter out a quiet “thank you miss”

“Do you want to keep going princess?” she gently rubs your back and its so soothing.

“Yes mistress” you can see her smile and she spanks you again.

“Lay flat on your back” she commands from behind you. You quickly lay on your back and lean up on your elbows to see what she is doing.There is a sharp pain on your ass from the spanks “I didn’t say you could look at me puppy” you quickly put your arms down so you are laying flat and look at the white ceiling.

She straddles your waist and her face is suddenly above yours.

“You look so good beneath me” she leans down and places a gentle kiss on your lips and it throws you off. You try to deepen the kiss and chase her lips but she sits up before you can. “Show how much you want me, touch yourself for me cucciola” you have never mastrubated in front of someone else before.

You weren’t really sure what to do, you never really did much to get off when you were alone and you were worried that it wouldn’t be good enough for Victoria.

You apphenively reach your hand down and toward your clit. You start rubbing slow circles and occasionally going up and down, it’s not doing a whole lot for you especially with the nerves. You let out a fake moan and vic pulls back from the kiss to look at you.

“Tell me you aren’t for real” she sounds snappy and you feel more embarrassed.

“Sorry princess I didn’t mean to make you feel self conscious” she rubs up and down your arms and you are unsure of what to say.

“I just rather have you touch me” you say quietly.

“Do you deserve it?” She’s got a more dominant tone again and instantly you are back into the scene.

“I took all your spanks mistress” it comes out slightly bratty and she’s got a frown.

“Tell me what you want then baby”

“Just touch me anywhere”

She runs her hand down to your pussy and rubs her hand over it. She starts to circle around your entrance and puts part of her finger in, you buckle your hips toward her fingers and she completely moves her hand away. You make a keeling noise and she shakes her head at you.

“If you can’t stay still then I’ll have to tie you up” you moan at the idea of her tying you up again. “Oh you really are a slut, wait there then Princess” she gets off you and goes to her suitcase. She gets out a tie and a scarf, it surprises you that she doesn’t carry round a whole sex shop with her.

“Have to improvise” she has a smile on her face and she is pulling your arms above your head and tying them to the headboard. She moves down to your ankles and uses one of her scarves to tie one leg apart and then the other to the headboard.

“Thank you mistress” she is kissing down your body and working towards you pussy. As she gets closer you start to get worked up and she gets closer but she just misses it and kisses your thighs instead. You roll your head back in annoyance and she just keeps going on her mission.

“Please vic” she moves up again and finally her mouth is on you. You let out a loud moan at her tongue on your clit and she uses her fingers to finger you slowly. She keeps going and your moans are getting louder and louder as you get closer to finishing.

“Do you want to come?” You nod ferociously.

“Let me hear you then baby” you moan loudly as she gets you closer to finishing and you let out little cries. “So pretty baby” your legs are starting to shake from how intense it is.

“Come for me” you come loudly with her tongue on you. She licks up the aftermath of your orgasm and it feels so sensitive, you are letting out little sounds from how sensitive you are.

She moves to lay beside you and you switch positions with her. You kiss her neck and she is letting out whimpers, you kiss down her chest and slowly start to finger her. She spreads her legs more and more as you start to go faster. “Put a second one in”

“You aren’t ready”

“Just because you are on top does not mean you are in charge” you mutter a quiet sorry and put a second finger in, it takes a bit of a push but when you do it she moans louder than she has so far today.

“Thank you Princess” she starts to get more frantic as she gets closer and you are starting to get more worked up. You can tell she’s getting closer when her moans get more and more frequent.

“I’m so close baby” you start to move your hand faster and swipe your thumb over her clit. She almost screams as she comes and you smile at her.

You lay beside her and she is breathing loudly and you watch her chest rise and fall.

“I’ll go get some cream for you ass and a glass of water, just give me a second” she rolls over and just lays there for a minute.

She gets and gently rubs a cold cream into the marks. You let out a little gasp from the temperature and she quietly apologises about it.

“I really enjoyed today” she lays back next to you and you smile at her. “Thank you for putting up with me” she seems a bit insecure about it

“I love spending time with you vic, I will always put up with you” she cuddles into you and kisses you lightly and you hope this will be forever.

[bromelads]

Phew so my fandom discourse post is getting attention :') I'm animated but also feeling a little bit of trepidation because I know how this discourse can bring the worst in people sooo in the spirit of mental health(tm) and being real about owning your power and influence, I'm following my parce's advice and setting some boundaries today re: being online and talking about this because lol I just signed myself up for some emotional and intellectual labor on the horizon.

If u have any sort of bone to pick about the post and wanna talk about it with me, you're welcome to message or send me an ask. I have stuff to do today so it's likely gonna take me a few hours to get back to you.

I haven't seen this happen and hope against all hope that people will behave, so I'm putting this request out to folks: if you want to help fans of color feel more welcome in fandom and see anyone disagreeing with my post or vagueing about it/me, leave them alone, especially if they've indicated they're a Person of Color.

Anyway, if you're like me (someone who likes to help) and are feeling alone with murky/negative/overwhelming feelings this discourse is bringing up, I encourage you to reach out to a friend you feel emotionally safe with to process. If u don't have access to that right now, here's those questions I posted on the post. Something to do.

- Can you describe your relationship with your race? - What is your experience talking about race in mixed-race spaces? - What avenues do you use to participate in fandom? How do you participate? - Where do you have influence in your fandom space? - How do you manage unwanted feelings that spark from disagreements about racism?

And if you're feeling too overwhelmed, to think straight, then get in touch with your body. Water, movement, food, anything to get u out of ur head and into your body. This is an argument over words over the internet--it's going to be ok.

[yukidragon]

The pregnancy AU is so dark but good. Realistic.

CW discussion of abuse and suicide mention

What Ian is doing to Alice in this AU is called post-separation abuse (and arguably stalking). Using child support money and visitation to keep his hooks in her are particularly dirty tactics, as is trespassing in to the hospital to hound her while she’s vulnerable after the birth, and the fact that his suicide attempt injuries are creating guilt in her.

He’s taking advantage of her inability to set boundaries and completely ignoring those of the hospital that are set for patients safety and wellbeing.

Ian paying for the flat trying to get Alice to move back in is favour sharking and trying to maintain control over her through financial means.

I do know exactly how dangerous Jack is after what he did to Nick. And that he’s also 100% manipulating MC/Alice, and half considered the theory that he may want to take over MCs body. I don’t think things will end well. But in this particular instance I’m actually more on Jack’s side and despite his ulterior motives think him hitting the call button to help Alice/talking to her about Ian’s manipulation is super reasonable.

Even from source material I genuinely don’t think Jack is the only shady manipulator in the game. Unstable yandere Ian is plausible.

Canonically Ian’s got his own issues resulting from abuse and is pitiful but he’s still got the upper hand financially and whether consciously or not he can be a manipulative softboy. Ian’s crying and incessant calls pressure MC, he talks about their history and grabs for any emotional hold he can get. They can’t afford to cut ties by moving out of the flat he knows the location of and presumably still has keys to, and he doesn’t give MC any choice around him returning to try and get back together. He knows the calls are unwanted as he “didn’t think you’d answer”.

He’s scary persistent. Abandonment issues are making him irrational. This is beginning to border on post separation abuse/stalking.

Plus to me Ian’s ‘intimacy’ while together seemed very one sided, kind of forced or forceful with what he did at the end. You’re welcome to disagree but I found it pretty difficult to listen to that encounter. His wants trumped her comfort level.

It’s ok if anyone likes him as a character, he’s cute, nobody is all bad and it is fictional.

I’m just saying I buy this AU because personally even canon Ian gives me bad vibes.

This is a very thoughtful analysis on the pregnant with Ian's child AU I posted here and here, but also MC's relationship with Ian as a whole. I'm also glad that you enjoyed the AU, even if it's pretty darn dark.

I have actually touched on Ian's personality in several past posts, particularly in this in depth one where I examined why he might have cheated. I do agree that Ian is being manipulative with his phone calls, from the way he words things to how he reminds MC of their past together and how much he loves and needs them. How far he'll go to get them back is something we'll have to wait and see, as the demo only gives us a glimpse into his desperation.

I do agree that Ian's sex scene was a bit rough to get through. You're not alone in thinking that he was being too forceful since he wouldn't let MC stop, pleading with them and even physically taking control away from them. Even MC thinks of it as them being used.

It was like being used. And somewhere in the back of my mind, I didn’t care if he WAS using me.

I won't go as far to say it's dubious consent, but it did feel like MC's ability to say no or stop was denied because Ian was horny and really wanted them to get him off.

Some people like being choked/suffocated during sex, but that's not everyone's fetish, and MC wasn't given a choice in the matter, nearly blacking out from lack of oxygen at the end.

It's possible that this is a similar situation to the sex scene in the "no" route where the writing didn't quite convey the tone intended. I'm willing to accept that may be the case and reserve my judgement for intent with the scene for when the updated demo comes out and reexamines that scene in particular when it comes to MC and the player's ability to make choices.

However, as we've seen in the demo, Ian gets pointers on how to have sex from ecchi/hentai. I don't know about you, but those sex scenes tend to have the penetrating male partner be excessively forceful, with the submissive partner at times protesting or even clearly saying "no," only to have it be framed as them actually being shy and wanting to be dominated so forcefully. It's a "romanticized" view of sex that lacks real communication for the sake of keeping the action going, as it were.

There are plenty of people who learn misinformation from hentai/ecchi/porn/word of mouth, especially if they're inexperienced, as MC and Ian are. Often times these types of porn are meant just to satisfy the straight male audience without considering other genders or orientations. There's plenty of bad lessons about toxic masculinity in these types of fiction and how much focus and glorification there is on the dominant male partner to get off. If the media shows that the other partner is satisfied by these actions that mostly just gratify the dominant male, and Ian is not getting feedback from his partner to tell him what they disliked, he can just happily think nothing is wrong with his technique.

This is especially true when it comes to having a partner who struggles to advocate for their own comfort if it might make the other partner feel bad. This is the narrative I'm exploring with Alice and Ian in Sunshine in Hell, and is part of why their relationship turned toxic. Lack of communication on boundaries, and Ian taking more from Alice than she should have been giving, ultimately led to an unhealthy dynamic between them.

As we've seen in the demo, while MC did take the lead at first during the sex scene, wanting to make Ian feel good, when they tried to pull back, he stopped them, giving them pleading eyes and saying it's the first time they got so far and it feels so good. They love him, so they give in to his needs. They're used to taking care of him and his needs, as we saw a few times earlier in the demo. He's sensitive, cries easily, and is very apologetic. Someone who is empathetic will have a hard time wanting to do anything that might upset him, like, say... telling him that what he's doing is hurting or suffocating them. They might even just skip asking him to return the favor by going down on them next since he's tired.

That's the case with Alice. She consented to sex with Ian, but there was this undercurrent of pressure to it. They're in love, it's what he wants, he says such sweet things, and it's something natural that couples do, right? If they don't have sex, well... isn't that just saying that she isn't attracted to him, like those bullies that mocked his looks? Isn't that comparing him to the people who forced SA on her? Isn't that saying that his sex drive is wrong like his mother always told him? I don't think pressuring her was a conscious choice on Ian's part, but when Alice struggled to deny him what he wanted and was so used to helping and taking care of him since he needed her... there's this undercurrent of obligation that encouraged her to just, well, "lie back and think of England" as the saying goes.

In their relationship, Alice's comfort and needs were sacrificed over and over for Ian's sake, because he needed her. He needed her to be the strong one, to support him. He had a shitty life and was all alone. He couldn't face the world without her. Without her, he had no one who loved and cared for him, no one to find him desirable. He got spoiled by her in ways... so when he no longer had her and he suddenly had to stand on his own... he felt very lonely. And very horny.

So it's really not any wonder that Ian was tempted when other people, besides Alice, started paying attention to him, liking him, and finding him desirable... especially in a place where Alice simply wasn't around to fulfil all his needs.

I think Ian is a really interesting character to explore. I do think his story arc is going to be one of redemption for his mistakes, both with the cheating and with their relationship in general. He's flawed, and I think that's the point. I don't think it's bad to like him or want to give him that second chance. I also don't think it's bad to dislike him and feel uncomfortable by the way he manipulates and pressures MC.

Ian has done damage to MC with his cheating. Whether or not the rest of his relationship with MC was healthy, well, I think that we might have to wait and see and/or do our own headcanons there. I'm sure for plenty of Ian fans, what went on between him and their MC was a lot healthier, just with a few hiccups and one major issue with his cheating.

I do know that Alice and Ian simply weren't a healthy relationship. They won't work together, even if he never cheated. Too much damage has been done and continues to be done. What Ian does with the phone calls is crushing to someone like Alice who only wants him to be happy... even though he broke her heart over and over again... and he continues to do so in a desperate attempt to return things to the way they used to be, when they were happy.

Ian just doesn't understand that there were too many times that his happiness came at the cost of Alice making herself unhappy... while she lied to herself that she was happy just because she made him happy.

To be fair to Ian, he can't exactly understand that he's taking too much when Alice doesn't love herself as much as she loves him.

@channydraws @earthgirlaesthetic @sai-of-the-7-stars @cheriihoney @illary-kore @okamiliqueur

[bbyquokka]

This has been living in my head rent free ever since I saw it

Idk if you saw but if you did, Remember when Chan made a freaking EDM with Changbin's like dwaekki sound during one of his lives? The kulchong sound so like I was thinking Changbin and x fem reader in a relationship but she's like close friends with Chan and she joins his live and they make the freaking song and changbin thinks Chan made it so he be hating on it but in reality it was his girlfriends idea 🤣 and he's like baby wait I take it bacccckkk it's goood! Or something like that 🤣

i love this request. pls click here for the time of your life. (the full video is 15 mins long so i just shared the timestamp where chan plays the finished version of the edm) i so badly want chan to release this. ITS SO GOOD!! as always, pls lemme know your thoughts and opinions – i welcome all feedback!

⌢ : ⤹ 🐷🐰 kulchong!

→ PAIRING: Seo Changbin x fem!reader

→ GENRE: idol!au | fluff

→ SYNOPSIS: Chan got challenged by Minho to make an EDM track on live. You join in on the fun by suggesting to add in Changbin's YOH and KULCHONG!

→ WARNINGS: pet name (babe)

→ WORDS: 1.1k

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→ m.list — → you can also read it on my ao3

You swing your legs, currently sitting on the countertop as you munch on some toast. Your phone held lengthways as you watched Chan's room. 

"Ok, so." Chan begins, "Lino challenged me to make an EDM track so, I am going to attempt it with the help of you guys." Chan laughs, eyes flickering up to his big screen. He plays a few sample tracks, mashing and mixing them together. You frown, chewing on your toast slowly as a form of concentration. 

"It's missing something." You mumble to yourself, watching Chan's eyes flicker around the screen, clicks and taps of the keyboard a faint sound with an occasional chuckle of embarrassment from Chan.

"It's missing something." Chan reads a comment. He frowns, thinking as he sits back in his chair. The chair rocking a little due to him putting all his weight on it. "You're right, it is missing something."

You suddenly get an idea. You live with Changbin, him being your boyfriend. The longer you're with him, the more you learn about his little habits and inside jokes. During the relationship, you got close with the members too, but became especially close to Chan.

People say that you and Chan are best suited for each other, you and Chan a hundred percent disagree. Although you are alike in many ways, the relationship you have feels more like a sibling relationship. You see Chan as more of a brother than someone you would like to date; it's one of those feelings where you have to experience it to know.

You jump down off the counter, brushing the crumbs off your lap as you open up your messages, scrolling and clicking onto Chan's.

you [14:05]: im watching your live. i have an idea so im coming over. see ya soon 🐺

As soon as you hit send, you quickly get dressed. Your phone buzzes with a notification from Chan. A simple "Okay 👍🏼" is received. You grin, knowing that Chan knows it's going to be the most fun he is going to have.

"Here she is!!" Chan announces, clapping and laughing. You make a show out of it, cheering and clapping also before laughing and saying a hello to the fans.

"I heard you were making an EDM track." 

"Yeah, Lino challenged me to, but something is missing and I don't know what." 

"Well, I was thinking. Why don't we add Changbin's yoh and kulchong to it. Spice it up a lil, y'know." 

Chan laughs at your suggestion, the chat box going wild claiming you're the best and it's a brilliant idea. You thank the fans, playfully basking in the glory.

"That's not a bad idea, y/n." Chan hums, opening up some folders that hold demo tracks and sounds. He finds Changbin's "YOH!" and "Kulchong" samples, playing them instantly. You both burst out laughing, Chan playing the samples over and over again.

"C-Chan Stop!!" You whine, holding your stomach. "My stomach… It hurts!" Your stomach muscles burning from laughing too hard, tears falling from the corners of your eyes.

"Okay okay, I'm sorry." Chan laughs, stopping the onslaught of pain and torture. You thank him, wiping your eyes before working alongside Chan to make the best EDM track. Chan mixes and mashes clips together, pulling and putting them apart all with your advice.

After thirty minutes, you decide to take a break. Chan plays the first few seconds of it, you both bob your heads in time with the music, short puffs of air coming out off your nose as you splutter. 

"It's so–" Chan states, looking at you. 

"Good!" You both say in unison, laughing before giving each other a high five. Chan's phone rings, Minho's contact popping up.

"Hi lino. I'm on live and with y/n so I'm putting you on loud speaker!" Chan does so, Minho's voice filling up the small room.

"Dude, that was kinda good." Minho laughs softly, the background noise being cars passing by and an engine running indicating Minho is on route somewhere.

"Did you like it?" Chan asks, laughing softly.

"Yeah. I think it's pretty good! Wasn't expecting you to add in Changbin though!" 

"Oh, that was y/n's idea. That's all on her, not me. I cannot take credit for that." Minho hums in satisfaction, clearly pleased and impressed with your idea.

"Impressive. Anyways, I have to go. I only called for this." Chan laughs, rolling his eyes.

"Typically. Bye lino." You also say bye, Minho saying his goodbyes to you and to stays before hanging up. You and Chan make the final touches to the track before playing it for stays. Chan decided that it was time to say goodbye, doing his usual ending before closing the live.

"We should show Binnie!" You giggle, already getting excited at his reaction. You know what it's going to be; you can picture it in your head. A bubble of excitement rises from your stomach, making you tingle.

"Should we? Think he will like it?" 

"It's Binnie! Of course he will." You say, already getting your phone out and texting Changbin to come to Chan's room asap. Changbin appears moments later, dressed in a tight black t-shirt, cap and sweatpants.

"What's up, doll. Your message sounded urgent." You grin, standing up for Changbin to sit in your seat. He sits, grabbing your hips and pulling you onto his lap before wrapping his arms around you.

"We made something for you!" You press the spacebar, the track playing. Changbin listens, his thumbs idly stroking your waist. He frowns but struggles to keep his smile and laughter at bay.

"Do you like it? Chan made it an–"

"Don't like it." He huffs in a playful, childish manner. "Why did you have to add my yoh and kulchong in it?!" You burst out laughing, Chan doing the same. Changbin protests about the track, voice rising in decibels.

"I'm going to phone lino and tell him it was a bad idea!" Changbin reaches for his phone. You laugh, struggling to catch your breath as your stomach starts to hurt again.

"W-Wait! you really don't like it?" 

"No." Changbin struggles to not smile, frowning at you.

"Awe. But, I made it with Chan too. It was my idea to put in the yoh and kulchong." You pout, sniffling playfully pretending to be hurt. Changbin's gaze softens at the new information, he hands cupping your cheeks.

"Oh baby! I had no idea. I love it, absolutely love it!" You keep the pout, making it quiver a little bit.

"You're just saying that."

"No no no!" Changbin frantically says, worried that he might have hurt your feelings. "I love everything you do and create babe." 

"Really?" Changbin hums and nods, stroking your pout. You grin, kissing his lips sweetly.

"Does that mean I can create more tracks like this then?"

→ TAGS [open]: @chaneomma | @sstarryoong | @laylasbunbunny | @dilucpegg3r | @chanssmiles | @meltheninja13

[llywsuho]

make me yours, love.

pairing: bangchan × f!reader

warnings: smut, straight relationship, oral sex (m receiving), fingering (f receiving), unprotected sex (don't do this, always protect yourself!), smut but lots of love.

english is not my native language so in case of error, sorry :)

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It was Saturday night, the curtains in your apartment fluttering lightly in the wind that blew through the balcony door. You had left the door locked, so you deduced that Chan was already there judging by the delicious smell of food emanating from all over the place.

— Chan?

— In the kitchen, love! — you followed to the kitchen finding your boyfriend with his back to you, stirring something in a pan. You gave him a brief kiss on the neck — Welcome. — He turned to you and kissed you — How was work?

— Terrible! That old bald man thinks making us work on Saturday will help his bad mood. He doesn't have sex and we're the ones who fuck.

Chan laughed and pulled you by the waist, kissing your cheek as you brought your hands to his neck, leaving a caress there.

— I don't think he's been doing anything since his wife found out he was being an asshole.

— By the way, I didn't even tell you about the new frill.

— What? — Chan stopped the kisses looking at you with a curious face.

— It wasn't a woman, it was a man.

— What?! Seriously?

— Very serious.

— Wasn't he the one who was homophobic? - Bang looked at you in disbelief while you laughed at his face — I'm shocked.

— That's why he's more unbearable than before, you have to see his face when he passes by everyone. Like, it's okay for him to like it or anything, but he would beat his chest saying this and that, you know? — Chan nods his head — And his wife, poor thing, she is so sad. Before, she used to arrive all happy, she would talk to us... Now she will just solve the company's affairs and leave, without talking to anyone.

— I can't imagine how painful it must be to be betrayed by the one you love.

— Me neither, love. But then — you peeked over his shoulder — what are you doing?

— I'm preparing the meat for the lasagna.

— Hmm lasagna, how delicious.

— Just like who's doing it.

You smiled, leaving a wet kiss on her mouth. — I can't disagree. — another kiss — I'll take a shower and come back to help you, ok?

— OK.

After dinner, you and Chan sat on the porch while watching the view of Seoul. The man left you alone for a few brief seconds after getting up and coming back with a bottle of wine and two glasses. He served them and handed her one as he pulled him to sit on his lap. You brought your left hand to Chan's now black hair and took a strand between your fingers, twirling the strands, you loved the natural curl of his hair.

— What do you think about? He kissed the space between her collarbones.

— That I love your natural hair. — You looked into his eyes, saving the affection — That I love you.

Chan felt a little chill in his chest, the same feeling when you kissed him, touched him or told him you loved him, like now. He felt that as much as it was impossible to want you more, he could only think about living every moment of his life with you, simple as that. You in his arms, a glass of wine and then loving you all night.

You felt it too, looking at him as if the man in front of you is the reason everything is the way it is, the reason the stars shine, the reason the birds sing, the reason you are happy.

Chan snuggled you closer in his lap, kissing his shoulder through your shirt and making you feel the bulge slowly growing inside your shorts. Bang moved kisses down her neck, chin and ear, stopping there and whispering softly.

— I spent all day thinking about you. And how I would fuck you when you arrived... — a shiver ran through your whole body — And I've come to the conclusion that the best way is when you're in control because there's nothing I love more than being yours, my love.

He pulled back and looked at you, the way you caressed the back of his neck with your fingernails making him shiver all over. At that moment all you wanted to say was the same, but all the words seemed to have evaporated from your mouth, and the way he looked at you, as if you were the most precious thing he had, didn't help matters.

— Please, love, make me yours. — he said in a whisper.

It was too much for you to accept, the man you love asking you to love him the best you could. There was no verbal response to that, so you kissed him. Slowly, tasting the wine on her full lips.

He brought his hands up to your waist under your shirt, wrapping around your waist, making you sit with one leg on either side of him, feeling his cock against you.

You sucked on his bottom lip and Chan held you tight, lifting you both up and heading into the bedroom, laying you down on the soft mattress while having one of his legs between yours, rubbing against your core.

Your hands lifted the hem of Bang's shirt and then yours, making their breasts meet. Your left hand gripped his hair while your right stroked it through his shorts.

Chan moaned softly into the kiss, feeling your hand on him, making him feel more needy than he already did.

His kisses traveled down his neck and over his hard nipple, sucking and kissing. He knew how much you liked him.

His passionate sighs against your skin only made you want more and more of everything he could give you. But Chan deserved everything from you too.

You pulled him to you, kissing him as you shifted positions. You laid him on the bed, kissing his neck, leaving red marks on his sensitive skin as you listened to Chan's gasps beneath you.

You pulled his shorts along with his boxers, running your hands over his thighs. You looked at him, hair disheveled, mouth swollen and red, face flushed, skin burning. It was the best view in the world, your man a complete mess because of you.

You right hand gripped his cock, moving it up and down. He closed his eyes and laid his head on the bed, feeling you working on him. His mouth dropped open whispering how you made him feel good. You felt like you could cum right there.

You ran your tongue along its length, tasting, sucking on the tip as you reached for it, receiving a low moan in response. Your mouth and tongue alternated between sucking and licking, causing Chan to moan and sigh as he held your free hand around his waist. Your movements were slow and strong, just the way he liked them.

— Love... - he groaned.

— Hmm? - you answered.

— I need to feel you. — you raised your head to look at him, continuing with your hands — I want you in me. Please.

Hearing him practically beg for you made you throb. You felt so wet and sensitive, and you hadn't even been touched yet.

You crawled on the bed meeting his mouth, kissing him and tasting him still in your mouth. Chan took off your panties and sat down holding you in his lap, making you feel his cock against you. He kept it that way for a while, feeling you unconsciously rocking against him, feeling your tongue in his mouth, squeezing your ass with his hands as you alternated your hands between his arms and neck.

Chris turned you over, lying between your legs, bringing his hand up to your pussy, feeling your arousal in his fingers as he made circular motions against your clit. He lowered his kiss to your breasts, trying to find your intimacy when you stopped him.

— Not, love. I Want you. — you pulled back — Inside me, now.

Chan brought the fingers that were on you to his lips, sucking them. You pulled him closer with one of your legs, feeling his cock moving up and down between your folds until finally Bang entered you slowly. There was nothing better than feeling him in you, and for Chan, there was nothing better than being in you, feeling your heat around his cock.

— You always have me so well, love. — he entered completely — Always has me.

Your mouth sought his in a slow kiss, indicating he could continue. His hands rested on the bed below your knees, the new position making you feel his cock inside you. The thrusts were rhythmic and deep. Every second you felt him hitting your core as you watched the man above you. The blue and pink LED lights turning to lilac on his skin, the hair on his forehead accompanied by beads of sweat running down her neck. So fucking sexy.

Your mouth found his jaw, kissing and scratching his back as he continued to thrust hard into you, your moans mixing with his along with the sounds of your skin bumping.

The heat in your belly was getting stronger by the moment, and from Bang's quick, intense movements you knew he was almost there too.

— Channie. — you moaned against his mouth.

— I know, love, I can feel it. — he kissed the corner of your mouth — Damn, I can feel you. Cum with me, huh? — He kissed your mouth. — I love you.

Three more thrusts and you felt your core burn and your pussy tighten around him, feeling his hot cum entering you, filling you.

Chan leaned his forehead against your, yours labored breaths mingling.

— I love you, Channie.

— I love you more.

[ink-wells-and-feathers]

Hi ink, I'm very new to your page but I think I'm gonna make myself comfortable here for a while if that's ok. I wanted to introduce myself I guess because situations in life are weird sometimes but it's always nice to start by saying hi. So hi! I'm Taylor Swift (not that one) (the one you're probably thinking of by the looks of your awesome blog) and I'm here with Scary (she's excited too don't worry) and over here we are a part of a DID system and (I personally but am including Scary in my search now) we are on the search for home comforts and you have some of that here! Anyway I wanted to say hi and there's a lot more I can stay but I've been told recently that I need to start shortening my texts. I don't understand what people mean. Hope you're having a great day or night or whatever time it is for you!!

hey there! you're more than welcome to make yourself at home here! we love making new friends. I'm Ink and I'm part of a DID system too that includes lots of introjects from dndads who post about what they remember from source and stuff so if you find some headcanons they're likely to be source memories from someone (little fact for everyone who takes the time to read this :) ) so as long as you don't physically go out of your way to disagree with someone's memories or aren't rude you're welcome to stop by anytime including ask box and DM's we love talking to folks. our post schedule is Monday Wednesday Friday for fics and whenever we feel like for anything else on this blog.

make yourself at home and don't worry about shortening your messages.

[downthepub]

The people I used to engage critically (or at least not always 100% along company lines) with in GMM fandom are now mostly gone, either from the fandom, the show altogether, tumblr, or just not interested in talking to me anymore. I think I felt like once if we were just articulate enough, respectful enough, personal enough (aka it's just "my" feeling / impression / read on this or that), it would someday be okay, the fandom would someday have room for people who don't toe the line. It would someday be okay to talk about things openly even if you didn't end up agreeing. It would someday be a place where there was room for both pure squee and gif love, for headcanons, and for engaging with critical thoughts, personal experiences, etc etc.

Instead what I see again and again is: you're going to get mocked, talked over, looked down on, nudged aside, or just generally made to feel like a stain on the fandom. And this is by design. This is not a place for that. People like me aren't fucking welcome here. And I want you to know: I resent every one of you that goes along with that.

I hate that caring about this show and these guys means I have to either turn off my brain, keep my fucking mouth shut (on my own blog too), or just be prepared to be a pariah. Shame on you. You don't want to discuss things that aren't 100% rosy, or you disagree? That should be OK. But to just continually nudge out people who don't see things the Exact Right Way and engage in the fandom the way YOU want them to - fuck that. It's just a pattern at this point, all through the fandom.

We've had people who had a bad experience be told that they shouldn't mind, shouldn't care, shouldn't give a shit (they ended up leaving of course!), we've had fans with social justice issues they *dared* to bring up being talked over, talked down to, and nudged aside (they're gone now too! don't worry!). And we've just had people like me get so fucked up about it they can barely enjoy the fandom after while, but are too stubborn to completely leave. This is not a nice place, this is not a "be your mythical best" place. This is just another terrible fandom culture.

[sayakxmi]

[Magi reread] Night 30: Miracle

Me @ Myself: Do it for the Magnostadt Arc, Saya. Stay strong.

Sounds a lil bit like victim blaming, but I get the intent + might've been something with wording.

Yeaa, I mean, it would've been nice to, y'know, see all that development, ngl. But I'll let you off the hook this time, it's still a cool moment.

Hell yeah

Final Arc Sinbad would like to disagree.

Like, I'm still salty about so much regarding the Final Arc, but rereading the earlier arc always makes me even saltier. Like, bro.

If I were to write the Final Arc I would've had her break these chains somehow. Oh wait! I'm doing exactly that! Did I ever mention I'm working on a rewrite? Anyway, ad break's over.

The Fanalis roar is one of the coolest things they can do, like, holy fuck, we only see it used like twice, what a goddamn shame.

Or three, I think Morgiana used it for navigation in the Rift?

She got free.

:)

Look at all these cool animals we'll never hear about again! Seriously, I would've loved to know more of the Magi world's flora & fauna.

Honestly, her face looks so cool in here.

Cat on cat violence.

Fr, tho, I feel a bit bad for these animals. It's not like they asked to be there.

It just looks cool.

Welcome back to Morgiana giving no shits.

POV: you're a merchant trying to scam Hakuryuu.

Ok, but jokes aside, well-fucking-earned. Morgiana seriously should be allowed to be scary more often.

Angy

Heck yeah.

Fatima is like top 10 characters we didn't need sad backstories for. Or any backstories for, tbh. But we've got it anyway. And, like, on the one hand, fuck that guy, I don't give a shit, but on the other it does make me think. The way he talks about slaves/slavery throughout this arc, he is, in a way, talking about himself, too. And also the fact that it's implied he was a sex slave in SnB, or at least I've always got that impression? Like, I swear, the way his new owner was looking at him just felt... ew. Anyway, the point is, I don't want to empathize with that guy, but I kind of feel a bit bad for him. Mostly because of SnB, tho. Here he just sucks.

I still kinda wonder what happened to him after that.

And that's how you open the door properly.

(Ok, but to Morgiana's credit, she did try to use the key, it just didn't fit.)

Heh

Ok, but, how the fuck did you even get here.

Oh, it's the end already.

Also, now that I'm thinking. Maybe if Nadja symbolizes little Morgiana, and Morgiana is saving herself etc, Fatima symbolizes what Morgiana could have become? Hm.

[khaire-traveler]

Can gods be disappointed in you? Not in a sense of doing something bad bad but like failing to be strong for yourself? Because I feel like I've let my god down this whole weekend by being super stressed and anxious about something that wound up not even happening. My friend playfully put it into my head that this thing came about right when I decided that I wanted to venerate this particular deity and while I don't personally want to accept that this happened, I grew up in a cult that I am still working my way through my RTS and the mindset to immediately blame myself is very strong. But can gods be disappointed in us for failing? I tried, I really really really tried to reduce my anxiety and tried distraction, pep-talk, and logical deduction but none of it worked and I was too afraid to pray out of fear that it might make everything worse. I was also told not too recently that because I have religious trauma that I shouldn't even be worshipping deities until I am fully healed but I feel like that can't be right.

Hey, friend, thank you for trusting me with this ask. 🫂 I hope you don't mind me answering this publicly; I feel that others can learn something valuable and important from your situation in a positive way.

So, let's address the question itself first, then I will address the rest of your ask, ok? The answer to the question is unrelated to your specific situation; I will explain why later.

Can gods be disappointed in you over little things?

The short answer is yes. Like us, gods feel a wide variety of emotions - anger, joy, sorrow, etc. They can be disappointed; I've had it happen before myself, actually. But disappointment is not as bad as people make it out to be. Sure, they can get disappointed, but they still love and care about you. They still want to watch you thrive and excel. Plus, just because they may be disappointed doesn't necessarily mean you always did something wrong; it just means you chose to do something they disagreed with. They're not going to punish or harm you for making your own decisions; that's the whole point of having free will. So, can the gods get disappointed in you over little things? Yes, absolutely, but it's nothing to worry too strongly about. Everyone has disagreements at some point. What's important is overcoming those disagreements.

Here's why I don't think your gods are disappointed in you

Gods will NEVER be shitty about mental illnesses. They will NOT be angry with you for struggling with a mental illness, nor will they blame you for it. Unlike some humans, the gods understand that mental illness isn't something we can control, and even when we try our best to cope, sometimes the illnesses can overwhelm us. They would never be angry at you, or anyone else, for that. You were struggling a lot with your anxiety, and I bet, more than anything, your gods probably wanted to be able to help and comfort you. They care for you and your well-being. Even in our worst moments, we can turn to our gods. Remember that, ok? They are here to help humanity in its struggles - both as a whole and individually - and they're not going to be upset with you for being anxious. 🫂

Now addressing that comment at the end

You can worship gods while still healing from religious trauma. Whoever told you that you can't doesn't know what they're talking about, simply put. How do I know? I have religious trauma, and I worship a lot of deities. I also know many pagans and polytheists with religious trauma who currently worship deities and are still healing. Does religious trauma make it hard to worship deities sometimes? I think so, yes, but that doesn't mean you're not allowed to worship them or something. People struggle with things sometimes and that's ok - that's natural. Sometimes working through that struggle can actually be a big part of healing from the past. You are more than welcome to worship your deities, ok? Don't let anyone ever tell you otherwise. You belong within this community as much as the next person, and there is absolutely NOTHING wrong with you worshipping your deities while healing from religious trauma. So, please, feel free to pray your heart out to your deities. Talk to them as much as you want, make as many offerings as you'd like, spend as much time with them as you can - worship your gods, and do so freely with the knowledge that you can. No one can take away your right to worship.

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I hope this helped to reassure you and ease some of your anxieties. Thank you for trusting me enough to answer this ask. I hope you take good care of yourself, and have a wonderful night/day. 🫂🧡

[aysepuramu]

Pin Notes

Ok, now that I'm here, I feel like I should pin some notes about me and this blog:

I mostly make art, so that will be like 99% of the content here. I write too but I don't ever finish anything I write lol.

I'm hyperfixed with DBH now, but my mind is a mess, expect content related to other random pieces of media that I also like. I guess I can label this multifandom or whatever.

I love well written love stories, however I am not, and have never been, particularly a shipper. So yeah, I rarely enjoy ships. The only ship I liked in my entire childhood to my teens was Fluttershy x Discord in the MLP fandom. That said, unless it's Simarkus (or Fluttercord lmao), I dislike every other ship, Markus x North included. I will not attack you if you're a shipper so don't worry, I simply ignore ship content.

I also see almost every relationship in DBH as platonic (with the only exception being Simarkus), and I love all platonic interpretations of them. This obviously includes father-son Hank and Connor, yes. (But please, without the need to infantilize Connor, I hate to see grown men being infantilized).

I'm demisexual, but I enjoy NSFW in an artistic way (don't know how to explain that lol, maybe other people in the ace spectrum will get what I mean). But usually, I prefer NSFW of characters in solo, no ship. Unless I like the ship ofc.

I like android gore, some of my art will probably include that too, so you've been warned if you're uncomfortable with it.

I'm Brazilian (against my own will), you can speak portuguese to me if you want. Spanish is welcome too, I can understand it.

I tend to disappear from social media from time to time with reasons unknown even to myself. And I also come back just as sudden, maybe even years later.

I never actually let go of any hyperfixation, I usually come back to them from time to time. :)

I don't block people unless they're childish and won't leave me the fuck alone. But annoying people can expect a response from their wall, as I'll just ignore. In short, it doesn't matter what it is, if it's not interesting to me or bothers me, I will simply ignore.

You can disagree with me in any future post of mine, as long as you're polite and act like an adult.

Last but not least important: I like men in cute dresses and skirts.

That's everything for now. Enjoy (?).

[unhingedselfships]

They had "dates" on occasion. 

He had an open invitation to her homes, of course. And was always welcome at any family function. She brought the kids over frequently.

But sometimes, they both needed time, just them.

She felt blessed her husband was so understanding. It was a very unusual situation and she knew she wasn't… right, but. 

He accepted her, and the way she was.

The way she loved.

So when she and Kenshi needed time, he smiled, waved her off, told her he and Phe had the kids, and to enjoy herself.

And so she found herself, halfway through the night, sat up with her dearest Kenshi. 

They'd stayed in, his place. The Tokyo apartment. Talked and laughed and drank well into the night. 

He watched her, bemused, as she climbed onto the back of the couch.

"I want to be upside down, Ken-shi."

Surely there were easier ways to do that?

She disagreed.

Right up until she went ass over teakettle into the floor, with a solid thud.

He'd say she was cursing, but he wasn't sure that's what that was. A collection of random syllables and sounds of no language he knew.

And a moment of silence.

Just as he was about to lean, to check on her, a half shouted, "I'm ok!"

He froze, before losing it, cackling wildly at the absurd woman sprawled across his floor.

Her own laughter joining him. 

It took awhile, for them to die down, they kept setting each other off. But eventually they found themselves breathless and basking, soaking in the peaceful, content, quiet.

The moment held, and they simply, existed.

She wasn't sure exactly what her heart was doing, but it was… something.

She'd never forgive herself for saying anything.

And she'd never forgive herself if she didn't.

"Hey Kenshi?"

"Yes sweetheart?" his voice was gentler than usual. She knew he was enjoying the moment too. 

It made her more scared to say anything.

But she couldn't stop. Not now. She might never have the chance again.

Everything could change in a moment, she knew that well.

"Do you think- Do you think if I'd found you sooner, if we'd met earlier… Do- Do you think we could have been… Nevermind."

She trailed off into a whisper, voicing quiet wishes and dreams, impossible but lovely things, into the air.

If she'd been born sooner. Found him sooner. 

What kind of life could they have led? 

Even if it ended in disaster, she thought, she might've liked the chance to try. 

She would have tried.

She would have fought so hard.

For him.

He laughed, deep and delighted. Not quite mocking, but a bit incredulous, and truly entertained.

"Kimi I've only ever dated one person and that was a mistake. I'm not cut out for all that."

She sat up from the floor, and held his gaze with her own. She carried a weight there, the heavy truth.

"You're perfect. You don't have to be anything other than what you are. I love you. Just like this. I just wish I could have loved you sooner. It's ok though, I'll take what I can get. It's enough. To know you at all. You're enough."

She trailed off for a moment, and let the tears that had welled up drip free.

Her smile was soft, full of meaning and purpose.

"Thank you, for-" she swallowed, wiping at her eyes before beaming at him, "For letting me be part of your life. I wouldn't change anything."

He balled up the tissue in his hand and lobbed it at her. It bounced off her cheek and she jolted in surprise, blinking at him, wide eyed.

"Letting you?" he said, half way between stern and playful, "I can't fucking get rid of you, Kimi-chan. You're like a goddamn bad penny."

The words seemed annoyed, but the smile tugging at his lips gave him away. 

She giggled, watery, but genuine, and climbed back up onto the couch.

Shuffling, she crawled halfway into his lap, fingers digging into his shirt, face pressed into his clavicle. His arms came around her, one wrapped around her waist, the other hand finding its way into her hair.

Soothing. Tender. A casual intimacy.

"I just. I love you Kenshi. So fucking much."

He hummed, neither denial nor acceptance.

Pressing his cheek to the top of her head, the whisper of "Stupid girl," almost lost, as she faded into sleep.

—

Morning found them curled around one another still, and they moved slowly, neither quite willing to let go of the island of each other they'd found in the sea of life.

Alas, said life was not known for its mercy and the day awaited. Cool water, strong painkillers, and a perfectly prepared breakfast, had them both up and ready to face the day. 

Light conversation, general things, plans for the coming weeks, flowed easily as it often did between comfortable people, and carried them through the car ride home, as he dropped her off. 

Her family awaited.

She hesitated a moment. Staring out the window at her home, smiling at the face peeking through the front window.

Looking back, she reached for his hand on the gearshift, sliding her fingers under his to give them a soft squeeze.

A soft, melancholic smile, the smile of missed chances and impossible dreams.

"I meant it, yanno. Every word."

He blinked at her and she climbed out of the car, shutting the door before he could answer.

Stopping halfway up the path she turned, and gave him another grin and wave, before nearly being bowled over by her children.

The boy with the familiar smile, clung to her legs, watching him, eerie and still.

Her hand ruffled his hair, and she scooped him up, settling the boy on her hip, pointing to the car and giving Kenshi one final soft smile, and wave.

He huffed, something resembling a laugh, "Stupid girl."

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i can't believe i haven't asked for your in depth thoughts on the car yet but i am asking it now! has the top 5 changed?

so i just checked and my top 5 was mirrorball, big ideas, hello you, sculptures and mr schwartz and tbh i don't think it did. i'm not sure about mr schwartz, i think it might be switched for the car or jet skis on the moat, but yeah. some thoughts on each track individually:

there'd better be a mirrorball: instant classic, come on now! gorgeous production, THE STRINGS!!, smooth vocals, so hazy, beautiful and atmospheric. i cried to it more times than i am willing to admit, it really is a tearjerker. i've seen some people say that lyrics are the weakest part of the album, which i obviously disagree with, but especially on this one. it's pretty simple, but still effective and touching. "i'd throw the rose tint back on the exploded view darling, if i were you" always gets me.

i ain't quite where i think i am: FUN!! the weakest one on the album, but i genuinely love it. WAAAAAAH!! i am a she looks like fun enjoyer as well, so i guess i just like having fun idk?

sculptures of anything goes: no words to adequately explain the sheer grip this one has on me. everything i wanted and more. so dark, ominous, rich and textured, we love her!! and the title's very cool, too. it is a career highlight idc what y'all say!! 5 years from now we're gonna treat it with the same respect and love we treat crying lightning, four out of five and other pretties. love. alex turner work on a portishead inspired album challenge

jet skis on the moat: didn't grab me on the first listen, but it's actually very cute! gives me western vibes, one of the songs that reminds me of TBHC the most, for some reason. love the way he delivers "or are you just happy to sit there and watch while the paint job dries?". "you know that it's alright if you're wanna cry" thank you alex, but i have been bawling since the first track so <3

body paint: still sad it didn't live up to my very high expectations that were set up by that damn kings theatre live "leak", but i appreciate it way more in context. the piano riff is insane tho, sometimes it just randomly plays in my head throughout the day. also, really enjoy the first lyric. "for a master of deception and subterfuge you've made yourself quite the bed to LIE in" ok we get it you're very funny. also. "and i'm keeping on my costume and calling it a writing tool"? yeah he's.......... mhm

the car: ruins me the same way ultracheese does, which means i sob uncontrollably until i feel like there's no air around me at all. childhood memories always get me so hard and the strings add a sense of melancholy i can't handle. very sick of them to put it in the middle of the fucking record! anyway, it kinda reminds me of faust arp by radiohead, which is a win, because in rainbows is very good. good track!

big ideas: have i ever said that we should artists grow? let them change and flourish and explore new things? hm, idk. lyrically it's a bit too on the nose, which is not what i was expecting at all, but it's a welcome change from cryptic TBHC lyrics. sometimes i just want him to say what he thinks, you know? and we're gonna stop analysing the lyrics now, because i don't wanna get upset.

hello you: the first make me hold my breath and stop me in my tracks no matter what i'm doing (kinda like nfwmb foof and diwk do so. do with that what you will). that piano riff (? can you call it that idk i know nothing about music) is CRAZYYYY. also plays in my head throughout the day, so catchy and fun. lego napoleon moveh. vortex to vortex. the buisness they call show. 'ello gruesome. HELLOOOO YOU. might be my favourite from the record if i'm being completely honest. sorry, i love a good instrumental, what can i say. i actually saw someone say it's pattern with no miles, which is pretty accurate!

mr. schwartz: my head hurts. again, not getting into the lyrics, but i HAVE to point out that "and if wе guess who i'm pretending to be, do we win a prize?" makes me wanna lay down for a sec. also FINGERPICKING!!

perfect sense: why is it so short. melancholic (what a surprise), but doesn't make me wanna die! it's the type of melancholy that you feel when you're watching the last episode of your favourite show. a nice farewell song that sounds sad but hopeful, a gorgeous closer. they Know how to write a good closing track for sure. love it!!

my overall review: makes me cry, but it's very good. would love to have a couple more tracks that sound like i ain't quite or hello you to dilute the ... whatever's going on in the middle that makes me sob, but i can also appreciate the fact that it's just 10 tracks. still, we want b-sides @ am. make it happen!!!!! a 9/10, already in my top 3 (which is tbhc > humbug > fwn = the car), taylor swift cant't relate

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Ok so i'll give my opnion on some things and you tell me how you feel:

1) i think selling tickets for the tour behind the stage, it's pure greed. If u want more people in the show, make a stage in the middle of the stadium 360⁰

2) Im so tired of swifities saying 'wow taylor works SO MUCH" cause like she gets paid enough for those hours, i'm sure we (not famous people) work the same if not more hours a week and like i dont have a million. I actually think she is one the few celebs that are worth million dollars and work that amount

3) Midnights sounds so boring to me. The sounds are so..... empty (very much Jack style). I listen to the album, just dont LOVE it, yk?

Plus: i find a lot of the lyrics cringe. Some exemples-

- vigilant shit (the whole thing)

- i'm mastermind and now you're mine cause i'm a mastermind

- paris (the whole thing)

- sweet like justice, karma is a queen

- sexy baby

Anyway i"m taylor fan, just some things are weird to me

Welcome to my thoughts (3am edition) because I cannot sleep lmao.

Tickets: I think selling tickets behind the stage is fine so long as it's marked as such. Like so long as the customer knows what they're getting and can make a fully consenting choice, I think it's fine, especially in a venue where there's screens that can be watched because more people in those seats would be watching the screens a lot during the show anyway. Where it gets shady is in cases like what Ticketmaster did for Eras where some of the seats weren't marked as being behind the stage/obscured until after the purchase. In saying that, most "obscure" views actually aren't in my experience. Like a few years ago I had "obscured" tickets for Bruno Mars and it was just a side view and arguably one of the best views I've had of a stage lmao.

Taylor's Work Hours: I both agree and disagree with this. In general celebs get paid too much so I agree with that part. Likewise, I've always found the idea that she's "so brave" for continuing on with tour atm to be weird because like all of us do that in our day to day lives with our jobs and other commitments (unless we physically can't for whatever reason). In saying that, every job is more difficult in some ways and less in others. Tbh this debate reminds me of the fact my mother always thinks my jobs aren't "real" because my brother is a blue collar worker and when I've worked I've been a pink/white collar worker and while yes, his job (bartender) is more physical than mine (admin positions) will most likely ever be, my last job (receptionist at a psychological medical centre during a pandemic) was far more emotionally draining because I spent 7 - 12 hours a day listening and responding to trauma non stop. Like as someone who has done both blue and pink/white collar jobs, I can honestly say that on the most part, blue was less exhausting and a lot of my friends (both who have done both and who saw me do both) agree. And in many ways Taylor deals with both of these. Like to promote her album she kinda has to bare her soul constantly, especially because she's built her brand off of being relatable. And then with tour she's gotta be fitter than I ever will be and maintain that lmao. There's also a lot of work that celebs (and especially ones like Taylor that manages most of her career, only allowing a small team to help with certain stuff) do that we don't see. Like even if she's not working on TS11/the rerecordings atm (which I'd wager she is working on both), Taylor is not only working 9 hours a week at the moment. She's likely working as many hours as a regular person. Obviously she has the benefit of flexibility that most of us don't both in terms of hours and not having to work at all if she so chose, but yeah I'd argue that even if there was some way to prove that she doesn't work as hard, it would still be a closer call than most people think.

Midnights: So there's two parts to this. In general I agree that Midnights is not my favourite work from her, especially sonically and especially the standard edition (which is what Jack primarily worked on with the 3am songs being a mix of him and Aaron with some others). Like it reminds me of 1989 in that way. However, I don't think any of it is cringey. To be honest, I'm going to assume that you are younger than Taylor and I because in my experience the cringey vs not seems to be a gen z (people born 1996 - now) vs millennial or older (born 1995 or before) thing. Vigilante Shit is peak millennial tbh and while I cannot go into it (for legal reasons) as someone going through a situation where that song resonates, it hit from the first listen lmao. The line from Mastermind you used just sounds like something a villain would say and given she made it clear that that's the vibe she was going for (at least sonically) with the chorus, I think it fits really well. Tbh I don't understand why people find Paris cringey at all. Like it's just a cute love song, no different than Sweet Nothing or Call It What You Want. Same with that Karma line. Like she's just saying that Karma will decree the ruling that it sees fit and its word is final/there's no escaping it which is the theme of the song as a whole but especially the bridge. So the sexy baby line is not cringey but clunky to me. Like it's trying to say so much at once, and again, uses millennial references that went over a lot of people's head at first (even ones like me because I never watched 30 Rock lmao). Like I just don't think there was ever going to be a way to say all that which flowed well in my honest opinion.

But ultimately it's fine that you find stuff weird as a fan. I couldn't tell you anyone in a fandom space that doesn't find at least something weird about that particular fandom.

[laf-outloud]

About what you just said - "If you don't like what people are saying, you can curate your own timeline and either block tags or unfollow". That's what i don't understand (not about the cons, in general). You often say "this is my personal blog, if you disagree/don't like, then don't read etc" This is 100% right! BUT. You read hellers' and AA's tweets ALL the time. And not only when they mention Jared or TW, but also when it's about Jensen alone and his work that has nothing to do SPN at all. You always disagree with them or call them dumb or annoying or worse. And maybe they are! But why are you reading THEIR opinion on THEIR social media if you don't like it? You could just block them and Collins' and Ackles' tags. Is it different when you discuss their tweets (with screenshots) on your blog than when they directly talk to you on tumblr? Would you be ok if they discussed your posts between themselves? Why can't you just ignore them, when you YOURSELF ask them to ingore YOUR posts? I really don't understand why you need all this negativity from twitter in your life…

I can see where you're coming from, but I'll point out a couple of things: With the exception of Goob (because they are way too entertaining), I generally only really respond to tweets, other SM, when people send asks or it shows up on my dashboard from another blog. I often don't search out that content unless I'm responding. And if people want my opinions on what other fans or actors are doing, I'll gladly share.

And the second thing I'll mention: "But why are you reading THEIR opinion on THEIR social media if you don't like it?" Did I ever say I didn't like it? I certainly disagree with a lot of things I read or learn, but perhaps I still find it entertaining in the way that a train wreck is entertaining.

And the only time I ask people to ignore my posts is when they read them and then send in complaints about what they read and try and tell me what I should or shouldn't be posting. Disagreeing with me is fine, trying to control me is a different matter all together. Finally, if other blogs want to screenshot my stuff and talk about me, they're welcome to. I don't care, because their opinions don't matter to me (unless they're laughingly bad). I'm secure enough in my own self-worth that I don't get offended or upset if someone thinks poorly of me.

Hope that answers your questions, anon!